#they still made it happen in the show and that fucking sucks

[vivwritesfics]

Drive Me Crazy

Chapter One

None of you are used to pack dynamics. Unlike then, it made you near feral. There's nothing more they want than to build you back up.

Lestappen X Reader

Heavy breaths filled the room. Charles laid against Max's chest, pressing kisses against his hand. A bitemark marred his skin, one Charles hadn't meant to place there. He hadn't meant to break Max's skin, hadn't meant to bite him just that hard.

As Charles kissed his hand, Max's attention was on his neck. He kissed his salty, sweaty skin, a small growl leaving his lips. A possessive growl, warning everybody else to stay away. Not that there was anybody else in the room with them.

The other drivers in the hotel heard his warning, heard his claim. They didn't know what it was in reference to, but knew to stay away.

"Max," Charles whispered, combing his fingers through Max's hair. He tugged on the strands, pulling Max away.

He couldn't speak, couldn't release Charles from his hold. No words would leave his lips, just growls and whines. "Max, I need to go," Charles whispered, his breathing steadier than Max's.

Max tightened his grip. No, he wouldn't let Charles go, couldn't let Charles go. His teeth grazed the skin on his neck, almost in warning. Just a few more kisses, Charles would be putty in his hands. Maybe if he bit him, showed everybody that Charles was his, just like he was Charles's.

But no, he wasn't Charles's. And Charles wasn't his. They had no claim over each other. Max released him quickly, before his body could stop him and grab for Charles again.

Charles climbed out of the hotel bed. His eyes were fixed on Max as he got himself dressed. They weren't anything but fucking, weren't in love, weren't mated wolves. They were just fucking, looking for comfort in each other that they couldn't get elsewhere.

That was what happened to wolves without packs. They had to seek bonds in a different way. And those bonds were never permanent. Temporary, fleeting bonds, moments in time.

Werewolves without a pack, without those all important bonds, were a dangerous thing. They were aggressive, with high adrenaline. That was what made them the perfect Formula One drivers.

It wasn't a decision made by the driver. The decision was made before they got to the age where pack bonds became all important, decisions made by their families. For those who didn't make it into Formula One, it ruined them, took them a long while before they could learn how to be into a pack.

Those who made it were kept isolated, alone. To those who didn't know much about Formula One, it was easy to assume that a team made up a pack. But teams were always changing, too unstable to form a pack.

Max said nothing as Charles left the hotel room. He sat there, still for a moment, his heart aching.

Charles didn't need him as badly as he needed Charles. Charles had a family unit. Not a pack; drivers were away too often to form packs, even with their families. But his mother and brothers still welcomed him home with opened arms.

Something Max didn't have.

He laid down and pulled the sheets up to his nose. Charles. But the scent wouldn't last for the entire weekend, he knew. He sucked in another deep breath, letting the scent wash over him. It was calming, the closest thing to a bond he had. But it wasn't a bond, was it? It was a fleeting moment of closeness.

There was a reason Max was the best of the best. He had no pack, and no family to return to. High adrenaline, high aggression. That was how he had several championships under his belt.

For a time, that was all he wanted. He had Charles in his bed and was winning almost every week. He didn't need anything else.

Maybe it was something that came with age, that want for a pack. Other drivers had started families, an attempt at a pack, but there was a reason they weren't performing as well as Max was.

***

You were the only one wearing a muzzle in the paddock. Muzzles weren't common now, neither was the shock collar you were wearing. It didn't stop you from growling whenever anybody got too close. 

The other drivers kept their distance. You couldn't take part in any of the social media activities that Prema did, even when you were a part of Prema. Not without putting your fellow drivers at risk. 

Your future had been decided for you. If it was up to you, you wouldn't have been here, ready to climb into your Rodin Motorsport car and win. 

But you never had much of a choice. The money had been left at the home for you, with one request. ‘Get her into Motorsport.’

Even when you left the home, the money had still been sent to you, to the woman who called herself ‘your handler’. She's the one who took care of you, who made sure you didn't neglect yourself. 

But that was bound to happen when you're half feral. 

Your hands were restrained behind your back as your muzzle and collar were removed. They pulled your balaclava over your head, narrowly avoiding you biting down on their fingers. 

They pushed the helmet onto your head. Your hands were released and you were pushed towards the car. 

Here was the thing, you were a good racer. You took every risk, normally coming out unscathed. On the occasion that somebody else was the cause of your crash, there was no holding you back. 

As good a raver as you were, it wasn't what you wanted to be doing. As a child, you had dreams, dreams you couldn't remember. The typical dreams of a kid, not this. 

You had qualified fifth, giving you room to show what you could do. God help the other drivers if they got in your way. 

You weren't concentrating as you slipped into your grid spot. Your growls from beneath your helmet couldn't be heard as you waited for the lights to go green. 

There were a couple of close calls on the race, a driver not realising who they were getting close to. But they avoided you, keeping you both on the track and keeping themselves safe from you. 

It wasn't a win, but it was a podium. Your chest was heaving as you stood up there with Paul Aron and Gabriel Bortoleto. The muzzle was back over your face and the shock collar around your neck. 

***

Not every driver was a werewolf, just most. It was one of the few sports where being a werewolf didn't provide an advantage. 

Carlos Sainz was one of the few drivers that wasn't a werewolf. He was perfectly content driving alongside the supernatural. His teammate was a werewolf, and that was fine by him. 

But then Carlos broke his leg. 

He fell off his bike, a bad enough fall to break his leg. His spirits were up as he laid in hospital, optimistic he could make it back before summer break ends. 

He wasn't the only optimistic one. 

The thing was that most people didn't realise Carlos was only human. He looked too pretty to just be a simple human. 

“It'll heal quick, right?” One member of the team asked. She was new, she didn't realise that he was human. 

Charles gave her a sympathetic smile. “He's going to be out of action for a little while,” he said and patted her shoulder. Her face was bright red and Charles turned away from her, giving her a break from his attention. 

“Who is going to replace him?” He asked. It was probably Ollie, a young driver, a sweet little pup in most of their eyes. He was talented, deserved to be on the grid with them in a year's time. 

Fred sucked in a breath and looked around the garage. Okay, not Ollie, Charles concluded. If it was Ollie, Fred wouldn't look so terrified. Sweat wouldn't be beading on his forehead like this if Ollie was driving in Carlos's place. 

“We're calling on The Beast.”

Taglist: @nurse-floyd @biancathecool

[shinpikurage]

Okay I will break this down to be able to respond cause you make some points here that I don't think apply to the game or my original post

Curly could have simply not hired Jimmy - Yes, I agree 100%. The game frames it in a way that tells us Curly knew Jimmy isn't a good person, but he thought that working on the Tulpar would be good for him. But that's not what I asked, I asked what Curly could have done in the situation they were already in, not what he could have done in the past. They are already locked inside the ship with Jimmy... Now what? What can he do? That's how my entire post is framed

He shouldn't have announced they were getting terminated - He was trying to be a good friend, he didn't want his crew to end the mission and then be surprised by this huge thing that completely alters their lives. Announcing it was a good thing, it gave them time to think what they could do once they got back, to plan their new lives. It's not his fault that Jimmy is a selfish envious asshole that started getting angry about it and blaming Curly, he did a good thing, it's Jimmy that sucks

It's simply the consequence of his own actions - Yeah that's what I said... I didn't use punishment because I'm disabled myself, I used payment (as in, when you do a job, you get paid, because that's the consequence of doing said job?). I said that now all he can do is self-reflect. With the way he laughs (cry?) at Jimmy, I'm pretty sure he has thought enough about what happened and hates him too

I 100% believe [...] He would let him be - That's what *you* believe, *I* believe something different. If that's your interpretation that's fine, but don't judge others that have a different one. It's not like I agree with his actions, I do think he could have done more to protect Anya, like I said in my post (you got angry at the word punishment, that I didn't even use, but used cruel irony???)

Curly deserves no sympathy - Even Anya had sympathy for him, because what happened was tragic, and she didn't even know that it was Jimmy's doing. People are acting like he would "give" Anya to Jimmy, but what we saw was: Curly and Anya being friends, Curly interviewing Jimmy so Anya wouldn't be uncomfortable, them talking about what happened, him letting her hide in the medbay and pilot room, him getting worried that she was gonna hurt herself or others with the gun (he didn't even get angry that she hid it) and then trying to talk to Jimmy about the pregnancy, which Jimmy basically cut him down and started being manipulative and vague. Again, Curly could have done so much more for her, he could have given support to her, but I think people are forgetting how human emotions work (Didn't want to believe his best friend since idk, childhood, did something awful? Human emotion. Had a hard time figuring out what to do in the situation and how to treat said friend? Human emotion. Wanting to keep your captain alive after believing he did awful things, things that made your life worse? Human emotion.) and forgetting how the game is framed (Curly talked gently to Jimmy and the ship was crashed, even without the termination looming, Jimmy probably would have done something awful. I think the termination is more to show that Pony Express wouldn't help them, because they didn't need them anymore)

He could've shown some sympathy to Any instead of yelling at her - The game doesn't have voice acting

[paraphrased] Put your big boy boots and tell your friend to fuck off - Fuck off to where? They are in the middle of space, and like I said, Jimmy was still needed as co captain for the goodness of the crew. Causing bad blood could have put everyone in danger

Sent an email to the company about the incident - And then what?? Pony Express didn't care that they crashed, they wouldn't care that one guy was causing problems. The crew was getting terminated already so it's not like this would affect Jimmy's career that much. It could affect their salaries, but with the way any single minuscule thing is taken out of payment, how do we know this wouldn't affect everyone? Anya herself needed the money. It's not like Pony Express could fly there, take Jimmy out, put a new co-captain and fly back. So realistically, what would an email do? The game is about exploration and capitalism, it makes it clear that Pony Express is a horrible company, they would not have cared, because that's what Pony Express is

To be honest, I feel really gross making this post, I did throw some possibilities of Curly being manipulated because that was my first interpretation, but we can never know for sure. I like Curly, I like him because he's a realistic character, and because I love his design post crash, but I don't want to defend his actions, it's not my intention in the first post, and it's not my intention here. I don't know how many times I have to say that yes, I think he could have helped Anya in many other ways, he could have done so much more. But I'm not talking about what he did to Anya, I'm talking about what he did to Jimmy, that's what I wanted to have a conversation about because I genuinely think that any action taken would end up ten times worse, because Jimmy is fucked in the head. In this post, I'm not trying to protect Curly, just giving counterarguments based on the things we see in game

I'm not a Curly apologist, I will never be one, I'm just treating him like a person and trying to understand why he acted the way he acted, realistically? He's still awful, and irl I wouldn't even be thinking about this, but in this case I can do that because it's fiction, it's a game supposed to be analyzed. People should be allowed to hate Curly as much as they want, and make Aus where things go differently. I just wanted to express that Mouthwashing is a horror game, where Jimmy is the villain, he makes everyone his victim, so the actions anyone took after the fact would not have stopped him to become dangerous

Let's be honest, what do you guys think Curly could have done?

They are in the middle of space, months to go still, anything they do could be taken from their payment, there's only 4 cryogenic pods, and Jimmy is the co-pilot, meaning he's important to the crew

If Curly beats him up, ties him, puts him in the pod, or yell at him, that could ruin the whole mission. It would cause stress, fear, distrust between the whole crew, they still have months to go.

I think Curly could have done more to protect Anya, to make her feel safer in the ship, protected and maybe useful. But gosh imagine if he had a fight with Jimmy? He gave him a little pep talk and the dude crashed the whole ship

And I keep hearing people say that in a world where everyone lived, Curly would have a lot to do in self reflecting and to atone for his sins... What happened to him wasn't enough? That was his payment, now all he CAN do is self reflect (at least inside the ship)

But maybe I'm not looking at the bigger picture here, if anyone has any idea of what could be done without putting others in danger, I would love to hear you out

[illmetkismet]

wowowow finished the second season of shadow and bone and i'm soooooo mad about the weird fucking ableist nosedive inej and kaz's relationship took. this show spent so much time establishing how much they care for each other, and when kaz finally manages to bring himself to tell inej that he wants her to stay with him she's like, 'ok but if you can't fuck me because you are riddled with trauma then i don't want you tho???' true love. super cool.

and like i get it, sex and physical touch are a huge part of relationships and intimacy, but i am begging on my hands and knees to please handle this delicate subject with some modicum of care and respect if you're gonna depict it. within the span of like 2 minutes of screen time inej tears into kaz for something that's so painful and humiliating and isolating to him. nothing like someone you love and trust turning around and telling you that actually you can fuck off if you won't magically will away your trauma/disability for their sake.

HOWEVER i know in my heart of hearts that inej wouldn't do this. it's just bad, lazy writing. actually, when kaz says, 'stay with me, i want you,' inej would not do what they had her do on the show. i absolutely know she'd be like, 'awesome, sweet, hell yeah!' and would sew them both full coverage leather gimp suits or whatever. they'd kiss through plastic wrap 'pushing daisies' style. hell if she really was actually like, 'i need sex tho,' i know they'd work out some kind of arrangement where she brings hot ppl home and kaz watches them fuck and they both get off on that.

and i definitely know that the devout and devoted inej we come to know throughout the show would never be such a cruel motherfucker as to CARESS KAZ'S GLOVED HAND and then look him dead in the eye and ask, 'and how will you have me?' followed by gut punch after gut punch about all the ways in which his PAIN AND SUFFERING impedes on her ability to fuck him raw.

the show was so weak for taking an easy, boring, and fucked up way out of a situation that could have been such an empowering and refreshing take on disability and intimacy. and they went to such length to be like, 'kaz is disabled but that doesn't stop him from being a badass!' cool. cool cool cool. but wait actually he's not allowed to work through his trauma -- sorry! 'armour'! cause he's choosing to put on his crippling disgust with bodily contact! yeah that's how it works! -- on his own terms and actually booooooo forever alone time for kaz cause he can't fuck!!!! ugh. blech. yuuuuuuck i hate it.

[spider-man-2o99]

consider this my spiritual successor to the other post i did like this with “i.. becamed a vampire”

[orcelito]

Ykno the suckiest thing about being broken up with for someone else is that like. Well I'm doing generally fine, all things considered, but I Am kinda sad thinking about the things I've lost and all the casual affection that I can't have now.

But she's out there having all the affection she wants from her coworker, and it's just like. Damn this feels so skewed and SO unfair.

[pepprs]

feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair

[the-witch-of-woods-beyond]

my favourite headcanon for glass sorenson is that she came down with farm station and watched them murder luke right in front of her eyes (or kidnap him or something cause i love tragic lovers but she deserves to be happy) and so she’s one of the first people to join pike’s militia and turn vengeful, and her best friend wells (he lives too cause this is my canon now) is trying to get through to her but she won’t hear it cause all she wants is justice and to get her oldest friend clarke griffin out of polis and away from harm (they’re friends too fight me on this i dare you)

(also sorry about the tags i didn’t know i had that rant in me 😭😭)

[arolesbianism]

Yet another beautiful day to have the Maxwel tag blocked (can't see half of the posts in the Wendy tags)

[bojackhorsemanobviously]

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[therosevest]

be so serious with me. do you think that shared trauma caused by interdimensional violence and death and government conspiracies and survivor’s guilt would seriously be outweighed by a petty high school breakup.

[maximus-gluteus]

nothing to see here

[cinematicnomad]

You probably already tried that but just in case..., have you tried to put yourself in private in the parameters (as in, not being able to be found when people write your name in the search bar) ? I know that for some people it had worked to stay like that for a few days when they had lots of bot followers like you do. Worth the try I guess. Good luck!

ah ty anon. i haven't done this yet mainly bc i post gifs and when i had my blog set to private/non-searchable, my gifsets did not show up in the tags. that was a few years ago so it's possible that's not an issue anymore but i'm wary for that reason. if i weren't posting gifsets literally every day i'd probably go that route.

for now, i've been tracking these spam bots and reporting all of them so that i could send this information to support staff (which i just did this evening!). i didn't want to send a generic report without any metrics to back it up bc i didn't want them to brush it off as a non-issue. but 900+ spam followers in 10 days is frankly absurd and hopefully they can't ignore it.

thanks for the suggestion!! if tumblr staff doesn't come back with a plan or some other suggestion, i'll probably resort to this.

[bingotime]

sad. bitter realization that i am still haunted by people of the past, got recc'd a show a guy i knew really liked and would recommend to me. and i figured i would at some point, but now even the thought makes me irrationally. something. unsure. uncomfortable? bitter? upset? overwhelmed maybe. i want to watch it, but i can't really tear two and two apart. just feels like a punch to the face

[love-songs-for-emma]

the "john watson cheats on his wife" arc will forever haunt me

[palukoo]

okay I am interrupting my gonch posting to say. wtf dead to me that was the worst possible ending like. I quite literally could not have come up with an ending that bad what the hell

[hazmatmaid]

A simplification:

Level 1-upper 2/lower 3: "yeah i can see that happening."

Level 4: "where did that even come from? that doesn't make any goddamn sense/he would not say that."

it came to my realization that 99% of my fandom related headaches would be cured if everyone understood this