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ohhh i hope this guy kills himself

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you ever think about where the most evil version of yourself would be from. cause i think my mirror universe self would be from boca raton or smth

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If you're mixed race, can people usually tell?

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it is true that im a litle bit of an asshole i do recognize that though 🤙 hollaaaa

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think part of me does miss when i was kind of quiet and kept my mouth shut, just a bit. now im just really vindictive and easily annoyed, ig it just sucks but in reality i convince myself i was way more likeable before the fact. think i ought to realize that my friends i been talking to for a very long time and even if we're not hanging out theyve made it rlly clear they like me. its like the only stable social setting i got, like i feel. good. i love them too a lot. 😭😭 everyone been rlly busy but we're thinking winter break we're gonna hang out and play stuff for fun lol. i think i miss the person i was and then i remember people actually really like me for the person i am now

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ok sorry for the mental breakdown i fixed myself

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yea im being dramatic i just thought about it really hard and none of this matters because im gonna live tomorrow and i get to say a big fuck you to lief every single fucking day. turns out the best way to resolve self hatred is hate someone else even more. this one goes out to you noah, i may be so obscenely suicidal but at least people love me you stupid fucking crone

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annoying and actually predictable. this is not even scary. this is just sad. do not listen to anything i say, its not true

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fuck me whatever its fucking fine i can fucking deal i dont care! jesus i dont care! fuck off! cant everyone just fuck off why does everyone try so fucking hard its fine im going to be fine its fine. im making it worse for myself okay thats all it is im just being stupid and i dont like that ive been lashing out at people all day but i dont know what to fucking do. i know people at work give a shit about me but im not about to start screaming about every issue i have, i dont want to. okay i dont want to. i just want to be normal and figure this out myself and i cant. fucking hell. im gonna laugh about it in the morning and none of this will matter and im going to even forget i just thought about the belt and the ceiling fan and the. like ngl im 260 fucking pounds, that will not work and honestly it would bethe stupidest thing in the world actually. not happening man and i already threw away any pills so long ago and i am not leaving this room until i am. yk. a normal fucking person. i feel like a parent childlocking a little kid. pipe it the fuck down

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no okay i dont think this is going to pass holy shit this is not going to pass. all i can think about is killing myself i dont want to keep this shit up

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i dont think im gonna make it past my 20s

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could i have grown up a stable and reliable person???

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and yk. not want to kill myself that too. and be a person people can confide in. and a good friend and a good partner and maybe a good husband and just . jesus christ

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too many awful things happening and not enough money and not enough brains and not enough anything to do something that matters. i dont know how to articulate it. i cant even touch the feeling its so. why couldnt i have been a rich fucking idiot with money to spit everywhere and influence or something, im fucking nobody and i hate how helpless ive made myself. i just want to help people

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wow anyway im not gonna die my boyfroend would be so mad and resent me forever and literally the rest of my family i just need like. something? i need something to think normally or just not think too much or i dont know. dude im having stupid mood swings. this is normal for me

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im just up to here i dont want to be here anymore