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commsroom · 1 year ago

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eiffel has low pain tolerance and he would say he'd do just about anything to avoid it, but if you put him in that experiment where he could either press a button to give himself an electrical shock or sit alone and do nothing for fifteen minutes, he would press it. and he would press it again. and he would exclaim and whimper and whine about it, and every time he would be like, okay, i'm not doing that again. but he would still opt for an unpleasant form of stimulation over no stimulation at all. there is nothing he wants less than to be alone with his thoughts. and that's the source of a lot of his problems.

#they put so much adhd in that guy #i said that eiffel doesn't have piercings but what i really meant was he doesn't. wear earrings or anything like that #which he doesn't. i don't buy it.#but yeah i could believe he let someone pierce his ear with makeshift equipment at some point. he's impulsive like that.

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deoidesign · 8 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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gh0stwithagun · 6 months ago

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self indulgent Bones stimboard (Jackpot Crash Course) reqs open <3

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Several months late, the landlord finally picked up the dehumidifier from my kitchen

Would've been nice had I been told they were coming though 💀 so I could've cleaned up the grocery bags on the floor that I hadn't put away yet 💀💀💀💀💀

#speculation nation #at least i did do the dishes yesterday so the kitchen is in much better shape than it was before. still not great though.#i wonder if i could put in a complaint lol. like Please dont enter my unit unannounced 😭 that's a violation im pretty sure 😭😭😭#actually i might call them. like Hey. can you guys um..not lol #well. the office is closed now so i cant call them. but i wonder if i should email.#i also wonder if it's even worth the fuss. like if they dont bother me about the state of my apartment then like oh well ykno?#except i very much did have a hospital bank statement out in full view which is kinda personal information lol. lmao even.#... actually yknow what i think i will email. bc like. even if they dont complain. it's kind of embarrassing lol.#had i known they were coming i wouldve done that little bit more before leaving. and i shouldve had the option.#this certainly wasnt an emergency. i should have gotten notice. they conducted a violation of tenants rights.#and YEAH ok people might say i should just keep my apartment clean always regardless of if someone is coming.#and while thatd be nice. get this. im a full time student with adhd and ive been having a HELL of a time lately.#so no i hadnt fully put away my groceries. and i left some empty bags on the floor. bc i didnt think itd matter.#so Yeah im going to email them with a friendly 'hey next time could you guys pls give me 24 hour notice? like it says in the law? thanks :)

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pa-pa-plasma · 4 months ago

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i don't think i'll ever get over how people treat kids that aren't good in school as worthless no matter what. "oh it can't be that bad" my guy idk how to tell you this but the last time i went to a normal high school the principal called me into his office to brag about how he failed me in all of my classes before the semester was even finished & i should quit while i'm ahead cuz i'm too stupid ("officially" diagnosed as such by a school counselor & a psychiatrist!!) to succeed. & this is considered normal

#''poor teachers!!'' yeah well at least they can fucking quit & go work somewhere else #''okay but times are different than when you went to school in the 1970's'' this was 2016 my guy. shut the fuck up #''well maybe you were a violent & severely misbehaving kid!'' i wasn't. i have ADHD & severe anxiety disorder & depression #my biggest crime was being too exhausted & dopamine deprived to do my homework #my dad talks about how he was treated in school & i'm like damn dude i went through the same exact shit #how is it that a majority of teachers & principals are still abusive power-tripping pieces of shit 60 years later #why haven't things changed #well actually the answer is simple & it's because they want disabled people to disappear #& if abled students that simply disagree with the way things are done get caught in the crossfire then that is acceptable #because anyone not fit to make billionaires a billion more dollars should just die!#anyways here are my original tags from that gravity falls post i just reblogged:#I know this is supposed to be an appreciation post but like. ''for being the ''dumb one'' he's surprisingly rational.'' seriously??#as ''the dumb'' but ''surprisingly rational'' one of my family this is THEE biggest misunderstanding & it drives me up the fucking wall #just because a person struggles in one area doesn't mean they're stupid & should be an irrational dumb dumb idiot baby holy fuckkk #sorry to OP but even when people try to ''appreciate'' stuff like this they can't help but throw in insults #simply because they genuinely believe that ''even though you're stupid you SURPRISINGLY act competent sometimes'' is a compliment #I'm less mad about this & more sad that this kind of shit is still so prevalent in 2024 #both Stanley & Stanford are smart & competent & rational #they just show it in different ways & exceed in different (sometimes overlapping) subjects #this is normal for human beings but the big societal scam is that if you don't do it in the way Ford does then you're stupid & a failure #& being surprised that Stan is also smart & competent in his own ways is the biggest sing that you fucking fell for it dude #btw before i get @ ed for this. i WAS that kid #i was so much that kid the school actually diagnosed me with stupid & spiteful & i was told to quit while i was ahead (they failed me befor #obviously this is very personal for me but also i don't think people realize the language they use is on purpose & it's used specifically t #& it's still happening right now & that just. makes me wanna cry honestly #like why are people still surprised that people can specialize in something despite bad grades in school #you know. the thing we all know is literally rigged to either put you in jail or in a factory to make billionaires more money.#man sorry for the rant the original spirit of the post is super correct but like fuck HS grade-centric judging of people's entire character #Stan being able to defeat Bill is just not at all surprising if you were him or knew/know someone like him #or really paid any attention at all to the show while watching it

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byanyan · 3 months ago

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so anyway, thanks for reading my little dissertations on byan's gender. sorry for not writing again today, i'm just. i'm fuckin goin through it rn man

#'it' being... *gestures vaguely*#i stumbled across this series of yt shorts yesterday (all by the same creator) that really fuckin resonated with me #and i mean that in the most serious way like. it spoke to me. never have i related to someone talking about their experiences more.#talking about their life growing up undiagnosed autistic & adhd... being in treatment for anxiety & depression for decades...#i can't really explain it but good god it's most exactly my same experience and i just. i have never felt that before.#it was so... idk. it sounds so dramatic bc it's literally a comedy short but holy shit #they verbalized things that I haven't been able to and #fuck. I felt seen and I felt like I wasn't alone in this miserable weird non-functioning barely even a human place I'm in rn #and just. idk. I'm still kinda processing some of it.#once again I am thinking back over my life and realizing things and it's. heavy. and tiring.#but like. in an ultimately positive way bc it's gonna help me change things & get to a better place.#I'm rambling IGNORE ME writing it out helps me process ig and for whatever reason posting on my dumb writing blog is easier than journaling #just. once again thank u all sfm for ur patience with me. it means SO much to me. genuinely.#you have no idea how much and I can't put it into words but. slow as I am... writing here with all of you is one of the few reasons #that I'm still kicking. and I'm just. so very grateful to every last one of you.#ok I'm gonna shut up before I get even more sappy and emotional lmfajdkgksg #love you guys. hope you're taking care of yourselves. 💜💜💜#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.#personal cw

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volivolition · 9 months ago

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Is the Wip game finished? Can I still ask for stuff? If I still can, can I get a snippet from the one that give me the most rot (meet the parts)? If no, then I'm just swinging by to say hi how are you doing? <3

HI RED!! thank you for swinging by, im doing better than earlier!! my ear is getting better and im eating pizza :]!

okay so TECHNICALLY it's no longer wednesday, but i LOVE spoiling my fics so of COURSE you can have a snippet from Meet the Parts hkjh <33 you are always free to ask anytime, i will always be happy to share bits of my stories <3 AND SINCE THERE'S NO RULES I CAN SHARE MORE THAN THREE LINES!! here's like, a whole React Speed thing i just wrote :]

LOGIC – Along with Coach and Sparks – Flighty and Fingers too, I suppose – they're why you have trouble sitting still for long periods of time. The attention deficiency disorder... Or are they exacerbated by it? I still haven't figured out which is the cause and which is the effect...

REACTION SPEED – Point is, we got zoomies! Can't sit still. Always more to do, more to see, more to say.

YOU – "Are you why my leg is always-"

REACTION SPEED – Bouncing, yep! Fingers tapping, hands flapping, feet moving, words flying- hey, if you had wings like me, we'd never be touching ground.

YOU – "You have wings?"

KIM KITSURAGI – He jots this down with an interested hum.

REACTION SPEED – Yes! Books, what- which animal–

ENCYCLOPEDIA [Medium: Success] – You have the hovering wing type of trochilidae – hummingbirds, colloquially – with their ability to rotate their wingspan at the shoulder and elbow joints to create maximum lift. However, though you exhibit some iridescent feathers associated with the birds, your wings also connect to membranes, which share the Voronoi tessellation of the species anisoptera, the common dragonfly.

REACTION SPEED - Yeah, exactly! I'm a hummingbird and a dragonfly. Both of 'em. :)

#task: meet the parts #inland drabbles #volta transmissions #the :) is not in the original but i added it here for fun <3 :)!!! ALSO YAY my reaction speed has wings :]#im glad you like meet the parts :'] its hard for me to work on it but i just wrote this scene thinking ''oh but red loves these guys'' hkjg #like! i LOVE the premise of meet the parts as much as the next guy but i dont like how im writing it hkjgh? i dont know what im doing :']!!#i need to finish my character analysis for all the skills first because i feel like im writing them too shallowly... ough im trying #how am i introducing kim to the skills when even i dont know the skills!! im building a house with a foundation made of peanuts hkjh #like hm. ency wouldn't touch on so many subjects so briefly? he'd zero in on one topic and talk.... or not? idk!! im not an int guy!!#reaction speed does use a LOT of exclamation marks though i love this for him. his sentences are often short and cut into phrases.#''Blam! Straight in the eye. Straight in the old eye-orb. In *the lookin' ball*!'' short pointed sentences. also oh my god he's silly <3 #restless and energetic. coach wants you to move; echem needs the dopamine; but react speed puts the Hyperactive in ADHD!#sidenote: canon in reaction speed's description ''working in tandem with your Intellect skills'' GUY WHO GETS ALONG WITH THE INTs :D <3 #anyway this is also the one of the few skill-centric fics im writing that don't have my usual skill actions :0 #''REACTION SPEED flutters excitedly; twisting to try and catch a glimpse of his own wings - Yes!'' vs just ''REACTION SPEED - Yes!''#which means a lot of what the skills are doing or thinking as characters are cut out unless i have them mention it in dialogue #which SUCKKSSS for me because i LOVE focusing on the skills but i often leave it out when the outside world is involved (harry and kim)#it presents a unique challenge to just write characters with only dialogue. ough... curse my current lack of interest in the humans hkfjh..#ANYWAY im running out of tag space so im done rambling hkjhg thank you for asking red! :D #esprit: Red

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natugood · 8 months ago

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It’s really weird and kind of sad realizing that you are growing differently than how someone you’ve known for a long time is growing

#it doesn’t mean the end of the friendship or anything. But it is a shift #it’s really weird and sad. At least in this situation to me #I was talking with my friends from high school and just so many small comments they made…#I could see and hear the internalized shame and discouragement and lack of self love and care. and they had just. accepted it?#like my friend was talking about genuine issues she’s worried about in her new job and not feeling qualified or prepared #I know she has ADHD. a lot of the things she was talking about to me are things that are related to her ADHD #struggling to remember instructions and having poor sense of direction - both MEMORY SKILLS - while also supposedly teaching others #she said she told her supervisor that she *doesn’t know anything* and her supervisor is like *you’ll be fine* but she doesn’t think so #and like. I’m hearing that she doesn’t feel heard. she feels unqualified and intimidated. and she is gonna Put in a lot of extra work #because she’s afraid of not being good enough and feeling ashamed at not being better. and it just hurt to hear the whole group agreeing #with her approach. like the consensus was basically *yep you’ve gotta fend for yourself to put up the best charade you can to make them #think that you’re more functional than you are and you aren’t struggling*#and like. I hate that? that’s essentially adhd masking. that’s so much extra effort and work because she wont receive support from her new #bosses and can’t communicate with them her struggles in a way where she feels heard and thus won’t be accommodated #like??? I couldn’t believe everyone was just rolling with that and assuming it’s normal to hide yourself and work extra hard to compensate #for your challenges because they’re something your supposed to hide. like?? NO #both in that convo and throughout the amount of internalized shame in this group is. SO. MUCH!!!! I’m like??? guys??? self love???#googoogajoob

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adhd-culture--is · 1 year ago

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adhd culture is strategizing the time you take your meds down to Like. The Minute. to minimize the bad effects and maximize the good.

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hinadori-chan · 2 years ago

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low key wanna like

set up a queue for posts i like that don’t circulate anymore so that way the recirculate but also i don’t spam but like

i don’t think i’ve ever used a queue before tbh lol

#listen i’ve always been the kind of blogger where you just know what i’m about when i’m about it #but since this is more of a fandom sidespace than my actual blog maybe that’s the better route?#cause there’s a lot of really good fanart and fanfics and analytical pieces that just #don’t get as much love since they got burried by time and i wanna bring them back to the forefront becuase they’re GOOD #and people put their heart and soul and time into them and i want them to be appreciated becuase i love them and they make me happy #but also i’ve hit post limit multiple times becuase if this blog and i’m scared it’ll happen again #cause i think you still hit it with the queue too #and like #i do actually use my main blog a log and the posts come from the same pool #(pro tip for new users btw if your side blogs are connected to your main account all your posts come from a pool that your account gets)#(kind of like a deck of cards that has to be distributed between all players)#ANYWAY it might be the better move for now #i’ll stew on that while i try and get myself out of writers block #cause i’ll need to get the first draft of peghawks2023 done this weekend if i want ot done in time for the 16th #need to figure out how to trick my brain into working #had this problem in school also #the only reason i passed is because most my teachers loved me and wanted me to succeed in spite of my executive dysfunction #and my other two teachers hated me so much (adhd kid with a pension to cause problems) that they passed me #just so they never had to see me again lmao #it’s okay feelings were mutual fuck those guys #(or love those guys for the teachers that adored me)#(hope they’re doing good)#what was i talking about #RIGHT queues and writing #yeah i should go do that okay bye for now!!!

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grimbeak · 1 year ago

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i only watched like the first 4 episodes or so of naruto and i wasn't really into it but the one really funny thing that stuck with me was that they decided to put this really evil demon into this one orphaned (?) baby for no reason. and then everyone decided to fucking hate this literal baby who has no traits of the demon who was put inside him without his consent. because he was like 6 months old.

#like. they couldn't've put it in some really powerful old guy #just HAD to fuck up this one baby's life #i remember almost nothing about it but i'm pretty sure this is mostly accurate #if they were just hating him for his horrible fashion choices (so. much. orange.) id understand #but they decide to hate him for the demon he did not consent to being in him and who does not effect his personality in any way #and his adhd

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foxgloveinspace · 2 years ago

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Is my mental health getting bad or is it that I haven’t been interacting with my interests in a fulfilling way for a long time and I need to do those things consistently or I start getting in a funk?

#very much so #engage with an interest guys! it’s so important to remember to do something that makes you happy!#put a cd in the player knit a row read a page watch a video about your THING #it’s so important you guys #not just for nerodivergent people!!#adhd stuff

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robotwrangler · 2 years ago

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Taking ibuprofen with my choccy milkshake at 1am so my eye strain and sleep deprivation headache goes away so I can stay up longer in case my motivation to draw recharges from 0% to 1% so I can do like twelve minutes of messing around with lineart and then get distracted and watch Clint’s Reptiles vids until 6am instead

#I am having a rough patch with my ADHD this week because I have a deadline on a drawing for once and deadlines fucking destroy me :[#I’ve been getting much better at executive function lately & working soooo hard but some things trigger my dysfunction so bad without fail #I literally had like 6 hours put aside yesterday to work on this drawing. do you know what I did instead #Instead I did a backup of some important files to an external drive and then made all my fallout ocs on heroforge #tw mental health #tw painkillers #I don’t know if either of those qualify but I am tagging just in case #tw negative #and that so you guys can filter it out bc I don’t like being negative too much on here #my blog is meant to be a happy place

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cats-thoughts · 8 months ago

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@arcticsilver

really fun duo you have there. mind if i add arbitrary roles to their relationship dynamic so i can write one of them as an overprotective caretaker and the other as a naive helpless baby?

#people would probably do this to like all of froglord and i's characters #DUDE IF JAYSMP WAS POPULAR MY GOD THIS WOULD BE THE FANDOM CASPER AND WYBIE #ok so wybie cant count past 300. who cares. hes the fucking president #it is NOT helpless or naive #jaysmp casper just has so much trauma its become overprotective to a fault #circling this poor guy like a fucking vulture like #'if anybody tries to hurt my friend i swear to god i will kill them and their entire family. i am not joking. try me.'#look. when youve been through so much youve boiled your entire personality to being in service of others #and not knowing what or who you are if youre not a weapon to be wielded at any threat without regard for your own life #GETTING PUT IN A RELATIVELY SAFE ENVIRONMENT IS A BIT DISTRESSING #anyways. critters <3 #also i cant decide which would be funnier for like all of froglord and i's characters cause we always end up as a duo #and like he plays grizzled immortals so you'd think hed be assigned protector #and i. a generally bubbly person who loves yellow and animals and have pink hair. would be the naive one #but i have this habit of playing ridiculously competent characters (i mean jaysmp casper is a literal engineering genius and special agent)#and i typically play up my 'protect anyone i care about' tendencies #meaning i end up playing very Knightly/Guardian esque characters #so maybe ID end up being protector and they'd be the naive one?#im so sorry the adhd won i had to think about this endlessly #also im tagging u arctic because i feel like this would happen with u and italic #plus jaysmp buddy you may be the only one with any idea wtf im talking about here /silly

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thepandalion · 1 month ago

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I have a fic idea and I dont know if I want to write it or not send help

#like I absolutely love the concept of it and I have yet to see anything similar in this fandom #which. I mean a lot of works are either incomplete since a month after the game came out #or theyre 400 word long oneshots. which is fine no hate towards those but my adhd cant handle reading anything shorter than 15k #but on the other hand like. the amount of research I put into my canon divergence/slight au fics #where I keep like 80% of canon the same but one thing is different? I do those a lot lately #which. might have to do with the things Im into being heavy on the “doomed by the narrative” type of narrative yknow #but ghhhh I dont wanna research this game its so bad #like unironically I cant stand to watch a singular playthrough and considering how many moving pieces there are in the game like #like ok Im doing canon divergence in like. 2 months before That night. bc I dont buy that the camp is haunted and my psychic misses it #(the plot btw is that. because canon Has ghost. the Guy can now see ghosts. enter magic world building and interpersonal history #between a character I know next to nothing about. and an OC I know actually nothing about. despite me making that OC up)#and also the game takes place in america?? I havent been in america in over a decade I can name 5 states on a good day #hhghhhhh #sooo much research. so much. and for what. for a fanfic about dylan lenivy talking to ghosts #no actual plot yet either. except that I personally decided silas is like 12 and therefore dylan adopts him like immediately #...which. happens in several fic ideas I have in brain actually. none of the others are gonna be written bc theyre spinoffs on existing fic #but like. all I know abt the psychic au is that the crew arrive in their van first day of camp #dylan immediately clocks a ghost in his general vicinity and does a spit take so hard he chokes and immediately blows his own cover #then goes “there were NO ghosts when I went to camp here wtf??” and talks to the ghost of one eliza vorez #she does the whole vengence etc etc thing obvs but then apparently. she and dylans grandma knew each other #yknow psychic moms gotta have a Network. so the vorez family does Moon Magicks of the future and die young always as is their burden #and the lenivy family does Sun Magicks of the past and live long fulfilling lives that are dedicated to others #so naturally dylan pulls whatever his grandma told him out of brain and goes “hey dont u have a kid. he ok?” and proceeds to commit adoptio #some more stuff abt the missing hikers and my headcanon that dylan straight up does not live in that state anymore ensue #and uh. idk. he helps eliza and the other ghosts fulfill unfinished business. then punches chris hackett in the face #and rescues max and laura well before anything bad happens to them bc its been like 2 days at most #and the ghosts haunt the hacketts collectively so they absolutely go “oh btw u should probably know ur boss also kidnaps ppl”#(dylan has. a Time. but thats true for every fic I write for this godawful game with terrible writing and great actors </3)

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glubandeepspace · 3 months ago

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what if rafayel can die in a way that makes the entity / probably-Sea that took over in his branch come back full-force and mc can do the hand to heart command/resonating thing again but it's still not enough to bring back enough of his proper memories/mind bc yay irony and somethingsomething idk and maybe mc finally dies like that too by the hand of this instinct-driven shell of him lmao

#glubabbles #dont take this as smth abt how much smth would/wouldnt rlly happen lmao i just woke up and saw an animation for a game i dont even play #where some guy put his dead partner in waters that seemed to bring her back only for her to seem possessed/angry and she #ran him through with a sword but he was still too wistful/hopeful/smitten and cradled her face in his last moments (before smth #weird happened to him too idk) and #ohhh that's. this can lowkey also be siren's song's tale abt mc lmao. if thinking rlly hard #i just love tragedy mannn edgelordery is boring but this flavor is different. bittersweet etc #i_miss_my_wife_tails.mp3 id be so powerful on adhd medication >:/#and also this unknown guy i think was fucking up the world for his love so lmao. in prob fully intentional far worse ways but still

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