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Oh god okay now I’m imagining this:
Alt!Tim sees they replaced him with JJ!Tim (and they’re secretly trying to de-JJ him if they can). He gets insanely jealous. So he goes to the one person in his family who knows what it’s like to come back from the Pits only to find you’ve been replaced:
Jason Todd.
Cue Jason trying to convince Alt!Tim that they were trying to save JJ because they failed to save Alt!Tim and miss him so much that this was the next best thing, but he’s no replacement for the real deal. (Also maybe Jason realizing ‘hey is this how they felt about me-“ in there.) Tim won’t hear it. He decides to get vengeance. But also, he loves his family a lot, so the first thing he does is concoct a cure for JJ and give it to Jason. If they want a Tim so bad they may as well have a Tim not a JJ. After that, he sets his plan into motion.
Insert Tim getting up to shenanigans. He starts taking down villains from the shadows and using the remnants of their organizations to take down other organizations by framing the second group for destroying the first. He creates basically a massive shell game where no one can tell which group attacked who first but now there’s like 7 fragmented villain groups too busy being at war with each other to attack the heroes or innocent civilians. The heroes are dumbfounded.
Jason knows what Tim’s mindset is, though. “If you can’t join them, be better at their jobs in a slightly more evil way than them.” It was the same as him fresh out of the Pit. So he grabs a cured JJ!Tim (who is horrified by his past and trying to recover and repent) and the two work through Alt!Tim’s mindset together to try to figure out his next move. And they do. They find him, and JJ!Tim has a heart to heart with Alt!Tim, thanking him for saving him and apologizing for taking his place, offering to go home and let Alt!Tim have his life back if that’s what he wants.
Alt!Tim isn’t really sure what he wants anymore, though. Does he really want to go back to the family who chose to fill the void of their loss with a broken copy of him?
Hi again!!!! Older brother JJ annon here
So i absolutley LOVE your take on this and ive got stuffs to add >:D
So the Joker finds the alternate universe Damian so JJ just- kills him right?? And then Damians bats come to get him and all that but WJAT IF instead of them going back to their dimension JJ sees these other people he vaguley recognizes and decides "fuck it. Im keeping them ALL."
So he does. And it doesnt matter that most of these guys are older than him, he treats them almost exactly like he does with Damian. (Except for bruce. Junior doesnt know what to do with bruce) JJ doesnt give two shits
And like- all the bats are weirded out because what????? Who is this mini joker??? And then they find out its a version of TIM. So they just...kidnap him back. Its bonus points because they dint have a Tim (anymore [i decided that because angst and yes. {id imagine their tim died from the widdower on Brucequest or smth along those lines but the evidence he collected still got sent back? Who knows. Deff not me}])
So its like a win-win for everyone involved!!! Tim JJ gets the bats back (even if he doent really recognize them) and the bats get a Tim back!!
(Thank you for listening to my insanity ted talk.)
Here's a link to the OG post!
Oh? ~ I like the way you think, Anon. Let's crank up the angst, shall we? As much pain as possible :) :D
TW: Major character death, dead body description, toxic obsessions
We'll refer to one Tim as Alt!Tim and the other as JJ!Tim (or JJ) for simplicity sake.
Alt!Tim was never caught by Dick when Ra's kicked him out of a window. Dick was right there, mere centimeters away, but Tim slipped right through his fingers.
Dick was forced to watch as another one of his family members fell to his death.
It's not the sound of bones impacting cement that haunts him so, nor the sight of his baby brother hitting the ground from over 80 stories tall.
No. It's the look of contentment, the small reassuring smile, the instant forgiveness, and the relief that poured from Tim's body when he noticed Dick was trying but would fail to catch him.
Tim dying at this time, when he still hasn't repaired any of his relationships with his family, absolutely obliterates the remaining Bats. They either feel guilt for how they treated him, for not being there for him, or for what he sacrificed for them.
[Whether or not Ra's scraped his body off of the ground and lugs his corpse to a Pit only to brainwash and hide him from the Bats is a separate storyline. In this case, Tim, who finally manages to escape, realizes that his Bats (and Tim is mentally not well. He's kind of obsessive post-Pit) are gone. Alt!Tim goes to track them down only to find them chumming it up with another version of him :) ]
JJ is also obsessive with the Bats. These newcomers are all his younger siblings (minus Bruce), and he will not let them go. The Bats, who miss Tim/feel guilty and desperately want him back, are also super obsessed with Tim. It kinds of works out for them.
#this is an angst prompt so no happy ending in the prompt#but I can’t write angst without a happy ending so it’s going in the tags#alt!tim and JJ!tim eventually decide that they’re going to be chaotic twins#they both stay in the family#they heal from their trauma together#and they confuse the shit out of everyone by switching places whenever they feel like it#Jason is the only one who can consistently tell them apart#bc pit instincts#but he doesn’t tell anyone that#he says it’s bc he knows them best obviously#the tims think it’s funny and let him make that claim#alt!tim stays as Tim#JJ!tim goes by Timothy or smth
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The art of the sleeping sapphic
#this is my all time favorite trope#the intimacy of it all#not even about the clothes or lack thereof#it's just getting to see these couples finally rest and find comfort in each other#and ultimately that sleep is the most solitary of acts but the romance and trust of doing it together#also because I was watching affair and thinking about how sleep is such an important part of their trauma and ultimately healing#maybe I do another deep dive into that#but anyways it brought me back to juliantina#because I wanted to frame that first image#and that image from Gap was one that I loved#also this is absolutely the pipeline that I think a lot of us went down#amar a muerte#juliantina#barbarena#gap the series#monsam#freenbecky#affair the series#wanpleng#lmsy#thai gl#gl series
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we should make Nico more fucked up, actually. enough woobifying him. that boy should be covered in blood and viscera
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#we've done ''nico ships where his partner coddles and takes care of him while he heals from the innumerable trauma''#now let's do more ''nico ships where his partner helps him move past his trauma and enables him to be gay do crime''#more nico ships where nico is having his big 3 kid force-of-nature moments and his boyfriend goes ''HOT''#whatever happened to ''Will and Nico's first date was killing a man together. also Michael was there''#even stuff like. [tsats spoilers] getting all your negative attributes physically ripped out of you and turned into immortal creatures#that perhaps could leave you Changed! give me Nico who had the darkness taken from him#and it leaves him just a little unsettlingly bright and empty like a partial husk of himself#give me Nico whose cacodaemons can reabsorb back into him like he's their walking nest to hide in and emerge from whenever they please#he's just left an unsettling host for shadow monsters of pain and trauma#that's just one avenue. Nico's the spooky guy let him be spooky!#im constantly rotating just normal Nico operating on underworld laws/logic/mortality in my brain#make him WEIRDER
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Wade and Logan: *Have a deep-rooted praise kink*
Also, Wade and Logan: *Aren't able to take compliments in a normal and sane way*
Again, Wade and Logan: *Shower each other with unlimited love, affection and assurance to their heart's content every single day anyway*
#wade and logan know what years' worth of trauma does to someone#they take care of each other and heal together#they've become inseparable from the time they met#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool 3#wade wilson#james logan howlett#poolverine#deadclaws#peanutbub#old man yaoi#imagine your otp#otp prompts#writing promt#marvel memes#mcu avengers edits#ryan reynolds#hugh jackman#deadpool x wolverine#mischievous thunder
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"Come on. Is this because I've taken up skipping a few rounds with you in bed, because I'm busy? That ain't fair."
Been meaning to say something about Blitz's phrasing. He puts the last few full moons, where they didn't see each other, on his own shoulders. "Skipping a few rounds with you". Stolas was the one saying "you don't have to come this time", which Blitz has previously been shown to interpret as Stolas telling him not to come over.
Doesn't matter that Stolas was trying to put the ball in Blitz's court and them not seeing each other was both of their faults: Blitz thinks Stolas was telling him not to come over, but when faced with the prospect of losing Stolas forever, Blitz doesn't even hesitate to pretend like it was all 100% his own fault.
The man wants to be responsible for everything that goes bad always. He doesn't want to blame others. He can't conceive of something going wrong and it not (100%) being his fault. He's going to outwardly lash out and bitch about others fucking shit up, but we all know he lives his life masking, he lashes out at others because he thinks he himself is the root of all evil and he absolutely does not want to have a conversation about that.
...talking about your anxieties puts them in perspective and can help ease them.... he doesn't think he deserves those anxieties to be soothed...
#helluva boss#stolitz#helluva boss full moon#i am absolutely talking from experience here#i love Blitz and Stolas both so much I love seeing them heal from their trauma together in the messiest way#i dont want to see them get better easy i want to see them have a hard time doing it#but doing it anyway
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“Kiaree is pregnant,” Obi-Wan says, as if Anakin is supposed to care about this woman and her baby. “If her name is drawn from the victor‘s pool, I will take her place.” “Like hell you will,” Anakin snarls. “There are other victors.”
“Magdeline is old,” Obi-Wan’s eyes cut away, fall to the space between their hands. Good, Anakin thinks viciously, he should find it hard to look at him. “She should not have to go back to Coruscant. Not ever again in her lifetime. If her name is drawn—” “Then you will let it be!” Anakin rounds the corners of the counter, unthinkingly fast. He clasps his hand around Obi-Wan’s shoulder, squeezing the fine fabric that Coruscant has dressed him in tightly. “Why would you volunteer for them, Obi-Wan? They have never volunteered for you.”
“The actions of others do not control my own, Anakin,” Obi-Wan snaps, pushing him away, freeing himself from his grasp. “I will volunteer to serve as master and mentor, as I am the most suitable to be victor—” Anakin grinds his teeth together, pushing himself back into Obi-Wan’s space, pinning him against the counter. “You would do that to me?” he asks, low, voice a dark growl in his throat. Obi-Wan has styled his hair carefully, slicked it back and trimmed his beard. Anakin touches the lines of his beard, ghosts over the glossy locks before shoving his fingers into it, messing up the tidy strands. “You would take yourself away from me, for months more?”
“The Games will last no more than a fortnight,” Obi-Wan murmurs, keeping his back straight, unwilling to melt into Anakin’s touch. “I will be back on Stewjoni soil before the leaves turn gold.”
“You will be parsecs away from me until the spring,” Anakin replies, and he gentles his hold, smooths over the mess of Obi-Wan’s bangs and slots himself up against him. Not fighting, not pushing. Pressing, coaxing. “Your body will be here, but your mind will not. Do not pretend as if you do not know what I am talking about.”
Obi-Wan’s mouth falls open, a flash of red as he wets his bottom lip and looks away. Of course he knows what Anakin means. The years that he must go to Coruscant, the years that he is made master of two children who are destined to die bloody and screaming, those years haunt him in his eyes. It is the price he pays as a victor—it is not just his Games that haunts him. It is every Game he has ever been made to watch, to participate in even from the sidelines.
And he may be willing to pay that price so that his other victors may live without it, but Anakin will not allow the same.
#bridgerton season 3 got me wanting to write hunger games au actually lol#so this is part of chapter 2 !!#hunger games au#obikin#anakin is really like you should not volunteer to be the mentor this year because tomorrow when my name is not drawn#we can start our new lives together why would you want to delay that#by a few months#so you can heal from your trauma#we could be getting dicked down tonight if you don't go to the capitol(Coruscant)#LITTLE DOES HE KNOW#he speaks with DRAMATIC IRONY
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Mia and Maya broke the cycle of sibling rivalry. Maya and Pearl, as well as Iris, broke the cycle of violence between the branch and main families. By doing so they burned the bridges that binded them to their fated tragedy. And with the charred fragments of wood they built their own bridge. A bridge that joins them rather than divides
#ace attorney#ace attorney trilogy#ace attorney trilogy spoilers#maya fey#mia fey#pearl fey#iris fey#iris hawthorne#sister iris#I'm never not thinking of the feys and how their story continues past aa3#I hc iris maya and pearl are healing from their trauma together. and that they've strengthened the ties for good#maybe reworking the matriarchy or abolishing it all together. I have no idea. I just want them all to be what their ancestors could not#a happy family!!! with mia too of course!! in spirit!!
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I am at the stage of trauma recovery that feels like reattaching previously dead limbs.
#I keep having this mental image of like. A girl who was sliced clean in two vertically#And one half exists independently as an almost-functional half-girl#And the half-girl looks like a complete girl from certain angles. And bloody raw mess from others.#Trying to live life. Frustrated a lot of the time that she can't do the same stuff as other people can#Because she's only half there!#The other half issss not quite dead but also definitely not attached. Dismembered in a box#Ah you know how it is. You're an opinionated and outspoken child in an abusive home. People are going to chop bits off of you.#And some of what I knew as healing was taking bits out of that box and slowly painfully sewing back on like. Chunks of spleen and lung.#But some of it was really just growing a callous over the gooey parts#Which did stop me from bleeding out! But now i'm on limbs and i'm having to cut through the callouses too.#Piecing the two halves of my head together. Great big ugly seam running right down the middle. Holding it while it heals#Once again. hugely recommend Pete Walker Complex PTSD book#Me Fein#I also recommend everyone who ever wronged you saying: i'm so sorry you were right the whole time.#But I understand i'm in a unique situation.#Its like#Really really really good#Trauma
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Some of y'all are so desperate to create Gender Binary 2.0 based on your rules and beliefs, even if they don't reflect the complexities of real life, and then get upset when people Don't want to be forced to partake in this new Gender Binary (this time painted with a trans pride flag!!)
#Jean mumbles#I just had to scroll through some. God awful takes on a certain post#And like. wow some of y'all are just full of so much hate#And I can only imagine and understand that a lot of it comes from your own fear and/or trauma#But that is not the fault of your siblings#And it can't simply be healed by making something like this up#It is healed through Actual Activism#Not a few letters of an acronym slapped together#Or with vague muddied phrases that have less defined edges than a circle#I don't know. I'm tired#And I just am so sick of all the infighting that doesn't have to be a Thing
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sophia seeing cailan's body hanging there when they go back to ostagar, and suddenly all she can see even through the rot and the ruin is just how much he looked like alistair...... :'(
a mental image that totally will not haunt her through alistair's many years on the throne as rebellions and assassination attemps come and go. doesn't send her unhinged and unwise even a little
#I've never played back to ostagar before actually! getting some more delicious trauma for everyone#and also zev was there (affectionate)#oc: sophia amell#warden x alistair#dragon age#dragon age origins#the vibes are slightly weird in the dialogue in this dlc -- this uh. did not seem to be the relationship alistair and cailan had#such as it even was. but hey I got this angst out of it what more can I ask#I had sophia and alistair smooch on the platform place thingy where you meet him for the first time. I am a sap but I am free#what's that post about the unconquerable human spirit that's like 'despite all the horrors I am still horny' again. basically they're that#alistair is honestly The most pocket healed warrior of all time he's got two spirit healers who love him laser focused on him#at all times#(sophia switches between unleashing horrifying amounts of raw magical power on the enemy and going 'oh nooo let me see I'll fix it')#that boy is Protected. wynne and sophia glaring at you past his shoulders like 'he said no FUCKING pickles ok. last warning'#(actually probably sophia would glare at you from like. the height of his armpit; she's Short lol)#also partially why I had to change my canon b/c if alistair was left in the fade sophia would. she would quite simply end the world#long before solas had the time to. she would tear the veil to shreds to get to him. mind and circle mage restraint irretrievably lost#her greatest fear is becoming unmoored (which in many ways also means losing alistair) and everyone else should be afraid of that too#I do like how this playthrough is shaking out tho it feels like a more grown-up version of the story I told with them originally#more complicated and acknowledging the other forces pulling on them (when I was younger I liked the freedom of them both staying wardens)#but it just makes the 'we're sticking together *no matter what*' all the more satisfying and triumphant for me.#we'll find a way and if there is no way we'll fucking make it together :') and they do
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hey guys who wants another round of tmi
#ive been#this entire day has been a lot and i have no idea how to feel about it#i've never cried this much in an entire day and i can't stop myself from tearing up but it's not because of something sad or traumatic i'm#not used to being loved. or appreciated. or meant to feel like i belong anywhere. i've struggled with being excluded and ostracized and it#has been an uphill battle for a long time and deep down despite my many attempts to heal and get better i've always felt like something was#fundamentally wrong with me. it has been wrong with me from the start and whatever evidence to the contrary ive gotten was rationalised awa#by fluke or maybe people like me because of what i can provide and what i can do for them and not because of who i am and who i am will#always be tolerated or ignored at best and i genuinely was not expecting anyone but a few close friends to care about this and just. andjus#i think something in me is healing and it's still hard to accept but i can conceptualize it and any negative thought in my brain is being#countered by “hey why would you think that when people care about you” and i know it is obvious right. its something i should know but it#has always been so hard to believe that anyone would and the fact that it's hitting right now? i cant fucking stop crying#its almost fucking embarrassing im like this. im a grown ass adult. why the fuck am i still crying like this. i fucking hate trauma man#keeps making me feel like im that kid who was never loved in the ways that mattered. sorry im just#thankful. grateful. i feel like some parts of that gaping wound is stitching itself together and i cant stop crying and for once im not#crying because i'm being hurt. i'm just grateful to be here. genuinely fucking grateful that i'm alive#funny isnt it. how much love can save you if you let it#tmi#rant#embarrassed myself enough i think#sorry about that we'll go to our regularly scheduled ghoap program soon enough#i'll be okay
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i just made myself even more unwell if you can even believe it lol. because seeing the kraken ring on ed’s finger made me think of symbolism and subsequent scenarios.
because, costuming plays a big role in the show of course. it shows what’s going on with the characters, even when said characters are not explicitly stating those themes. ie, the floral robe representing stede bringing more vibrancy into ed’s life, the purple representing ed falling in love, etc etc.
so what if like, the kraken ring hangs around to represent a lingering bit of fear and uncertainty within ed. even as he begins to heal—made evident, again, through costume/makeup with the reveal of his face, the tie-back of his hair, etc etc—it remains to show that he still has bits of pain present.
and what if there’s a significant scene where it too, is replaced with something closer to himself.
what if it’s eventually replaced by something like, say, an engagement ring from stede
#OFMD#OFMD Season 2#OFMD Season 2 Spoilers#Edward Teach#Gentlebeard#Blackbonnet#…#*bangs pots and pans together* i am unwell i am unwell i am unwel—#MANY THOUGHTS HEAD FULL LMAO#CLEARLY#I have been rolling around over this ONE (1) IMAGE SINCE I GOT HOME#AND IT IS ONLY CONTINUING TO MARINATE#Also#I recognize that the ring could represent him settling into himself more#And just BEING as opposed to feeling pressured#But considering the kraken thing seems to be a deep piece of trauma for him#I’m not entirely SURE if he’d want to hold onto that#Unless it also represents him HEALING from it#BUUUUUUUT ENGAGEMENT RING LMAO#BEING UNWELL <3
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I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)
#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#the cat king#i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their#Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me#Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under#Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy#even if he doesn’t return those feelings#The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite#Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin#Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand#He’s a older secretly insecure character#Edwin is the younger#genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants#It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting#Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel.#And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need#you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people#I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of#The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by#Healing those traumas#Something the cat king learns and accepts#Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because#Yes; Edwin is 86#but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while#The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami#Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man
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Thinking about how Duncan was already fairly emotionally closed off and resistant to being vulnerable and/or perceived as weak by the people around him- which is a lot of what fuelled his "bad boy" persona- and how his relationship with Courtney would've cemented the idea that he really is an irredeemable, unlovable person since all she ever tried to do was change and "fix" him, so he'd only close himself off more as a result.
#and then thinking about how he and alejandro are really similar in that regard#and how they'd learn how to heal from these damaging mindsets and their own trauma together#as asshole boyfriends who love each other very much#total drama#td duncan#character analysis
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Tyler/Kate/Javy?
the way the movie ended and how Javi interacts with both Kate and Tyler just screams ot3 to me and i love it
#Kate and Javi reconnecting after five years apart and healing from their trauma together#Tyler and Javi’s rivalry that bordered on hair pulling (on Tyler’s part) ends with them all buddy-buddy and being Katy’s closest people#the ending where both Tyler and Javi rush to help Kate and how it ends with Kate and Tyler leaving the airport to meet Javi#bc Tyler doesn’t have a truck anymore that bitch is impounded and fined#i love them#twisters 2024#twisters#katyvi#kate x tyler x javi#asks#ask game
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Dany's names for her dragons, and her reasoning behind them, are pretty interesting. What I find most interesting though is that she ends up claiming and riding Drogon, the dragon named for her first husband who bought and raped her. We aren't given any reasoning behind his naming but I believe it must come from Dany's dragon dream. In this dream, her physical and emotional pain is burned away and she is then able to reconnect with life and those around her.
"'Khaleesi,' Aggo murmured, 'there sits Balerion, come again.'
'It may be as you say, blood of my blood,' Dany replied gravely, 'but he shall have a new name for this new life. I would name them all for those the gods have taken. The green one shall be Rhaegal, for my valiant brother ... The cream-and-gold I call Viserion ... His dragon will do what he could not.'
'And the black beast?' asked Ser Jorah Mormont.
'The black,' she said, 'is Drogon.'"
Viserys is another of Dany's abusers but her explanation for naming a dragon after him makes some sense. All she ever wanted was for Viserys to take care of her as a brother should, now she has a chance to fulfill that need in another way. She'll care for Viserion as his mother and eventually Viserion will care for her.
It also might offer some foreshadowing for Viserion's fate. If I had to guess which dragon would die, I would predict it'd be Viserion dying to protect Dany. This would fulfill Dany's wish that he 'do what [her brother] could not,' which is to say that Viserion will protect and care for Dany. I'm not totally convinced any of the dragons are going to die but, again, if I had to guess then I would say Viserion will shield Dany from some danger and die as a result. Viserys died because he threatened Dany's unborn child, Viserion might die to protect Dany (and possibly another unborn child).
This might also be foreshadowing for whoever ends up riding Viserion. Viserion's rider will do what Viserys could not - they'll protect and love Dany. I've always thought Jon should bond with Viserion (if he gets a dragon) because 1) Viserion is cream and gold which matches the colors Jon is usually associated more than Rhaegal's green and bronze and 2) Jon will do what Viserys couldn't. That's pretty much a given, Jon will love and protect Dany. Something Viserys never could. Viserys also planned on marrying Dany, something he couldn't do, and it also seems likely Jon will marry Dany.
Based on the above passage alone, one might assume Dany would eventually ride either Viserion or Rhaegal. Viserion will do what Viserys could not, he'll love and protect Dany. Best way to do that is as her mount. The bond they never had as brother and sister will manifest as rider/mother and dragon. Rhaegal is named for Dany's "valiant brother" whose memory gives her strength several times throughout the series. She even has visions of herself in Rhaegal's armor, fighting men in ice armor on the Trident - foreshadowing future battles against the Others in Westeros.
Yet she ends up riding Drogon first - the largest and fiercest of the three. "Balerion, come again." There's foreshadowing in that as well. Balerion was the Conquerors dragon and Daenerys will be a conqueror in her own right. She'll be known as "Aegon the Conqueror with teats." With this, it does make sense that she would eventually ride Balerion's reincarnation. Drogo also was a well-renowned warrior, he never cut his braid, and had a khalasar of 40,000 mounted warriors. Naming Drogon for Drogo might be a way for Dany to keep some of Drogo's strength with her. His strength had been her protection when he was alive.
She named her three dragons for "those the gods have taken" but Dany could just have well named Drogon after another member of her family. Her father, mother, or even Aegon the Conqueror. She could have named him after Ser Willem Darry, the only real caretaker she ever knew. There's no explicit explanation given in the text for Drogon's naming so we're left trying to piece it together. Or, I'm left because this is has been bothering me for years now. Let's look at the dragon dream that I believe is the catalyst for Dany naming Drogon after Drogo.
"She would kill herself rather than go on, she decided one night … Yet when she slept that night, she dreamt the dragon dream again ... There was only her and the dragon. Its scales were black as night, wet and slick with blood. Her blood, Dany sensed. Its eyes were pools of molten magma, and when it opened its mouth, the flame came roaring out in a hot jet ... She opened her arms to the fire ... let it cleanse her and temper her and scour her clean. She could feel her flesh sear and blacken and slough away, could feel her blood boil and turn to steam, and yet there was no pain. She felt strong and new and fierce. And the next day, strangely, she did not seem to hurt quite so much...
She touched one, the largest of the three ... Black-and-scarlet, she thought, like the dragon in my dream...
From that hour onward, each day was easier than the one before it. Her legs grew stronger; her blisters burst and her hands grew callused; her soft thighs toughened, supple as leather."
The dragon dream is the turning point for her. Riding her Silver becomes easier and she "began to notice the beauties of the land around her." The dream manifests in reality when Dany's physical pain alleviates and she begins to grow stronger each day. Her experiences with Drogo begin to change as well - she begins to experience pleasure during their sexual interactions, just as she begins to find pleasure and joy in life with the Dothraki. Drogo does nothing to help her, these changes come from Dany (and her dragon dream) alone. She even begins to take control in their sexual encounters (or as much control as a bridal slave can, I guess). Their relationship changes and they become more affectionate to each other. All of this stems back to her dragon dream - cleansing her, tempering her, and scouring her clean.
Dany seems to realize it is the black-and-scarlet dragon she dreams of ("Black-and-scarlet, she thought, like the dragon in my dream..."). This specific dragon is reaching out to her, despite not yet being alive, at her lowest - when she has resolved herself to suicide. This dragon transcends death and life to connect with Daenerys and burn her pain and weakness away. Dany may have claimed Drogon in the fighting pit but it feels like Drogon claimed her first. She claimed him as a mount but he claimed her first, as his mother.
Since she recognizes her black-and-scarlet as the dragon from her dream, the dream that took away her pain from Drogo's rape and led her to gain some control in their sexual encounters, Dany associates this specific dragon with Drogo. With the pain he inflicted on her, the resilience she needed to survive, and the flames in her dream that didn't burn but left her stronger than before. She also places the black-and-scarlet egg by Drogo's heart on his funeral pyre - a place of intimacy and love but this also reminds me of Dany eating the stallion's heart to give Drogo's unborn son strength.
I've always wondered about the dragons breastfeeding from Dany when the pyre was ashes. Maybe, before they started breastfeeding, they ate Drogo while he burned. They do eat cooked meat, after all. This will probably never be confirmed but I love the idea of Drogon eating Drogo's heart to gain his strength.
Drogon specifically is the dragon Dany recognizes from her dragon dream. He burned away Dany's pain (inflicted by Drogo) and made her strong enough to change her relationship with Drogo. He woke beside Drogo's heart and possibly ate his heart too. Dany fears and loves Drogon, as she once feared and loved Drogo.
#fuck it! we post!#it's not confirmed but I choose to believe the dragons woke up and immediately started Feasting on Drogo#they eat cooked meat! and he was right there!#just thinking about what it means that dany named drogon after drogo#something something about healing from trauma#idk ill revisit this someday to try and get my thoughts together into something more coherent#mine#daenerys targaryen#khal drogo#asoiaf#long post#asoiaf meta#rape tw#rape mention#sa mention#suicide mention#drogon#rhaegal#viserion
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