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thasmin is so real to me because it really is a perfect representation of that friendship every wlw had growing up where neither of you know how to process your romantic feelings for your best friend so it turns into something sort of toxic with a lot of homoerotic tension in the way you treated each other, but you also have lots of small sweet moments where its obvious that you do genuinely care for each other but it's never enough for either of you to do anything about it so everyone just suffers and i love that so much
#me characterizing their relationship as soft and innocent. tentative teenage-like love#when theyre actually like this#skfkfkdkd the duality#i like to imagine them in scenarios where they arent toxic and that they treat each other better#but thats just not their reality is it#they exist like that only in my brain#but yeah#i love them dearly#doctor who#thasmin#dw meta#sort of
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Weird dream.
#art#tmnt#tmnt original iteration#tmnt au#tmnt au leo#leo#teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmta#artists on tumblr#Hi I came up with an AU idea like. Last November#*Oops October actually#And I'm only just posting about it on main. I'm so good at this#Tbf I'm quite happy to just work on it slowly I've got a lot of plot points to iron out anyway#Also I'm primarily doing this for myself#So sorry if the stuff I post doesn't have much substance to it. This mostly only exists inside my brain#Only thing I will share is that I've been referring to the setting as Teenage Mutant Transgender Allegories in my head lmao#They're not explicitly trans. But they may as well be because I am projecting Hard onto this#The turtles are also. Kind of dicks to begin with. Less so Donnie but he has other problems to deal with#The whole thing is about growth and learning to change. So yea#And obviously family too. This is TMNT after all.#ANYWAY. I WILL STOP RAMBLING IN THE TAGS NOW.#Gonna go through my drafts and post the other stuff I made before this one so it's at least in the right order even if I am posting it late
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The Tallest are just busy, that’s why they’re not answering his calls… probably.
#I don’t think I like this drawing but it’s whatever#vague posting about the fanfic that exists only in my brain#invader zim#Iz#invader zim fanart#Iz art#iz fandom#iz fanart#zim#zim fanart#invader zim art#invader zim fandom
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cant stop thinkin bout charles and erik readin together on the couch but instead of reading with him charles is listening to eriks thoughts while he reads. Live mind commentary ……..
#xmen#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#the rare time i post an idea of mine only because i really cant think of a way id draw this#usually i hoard my ideas cause i like surprising you guys but this aint really one i feel like drawing so. For You my friends#like i COULD but. idk just isnt particularly something im itching to draw it just seems cute#but anyways no chat let me cook alright hear me out cause i talk in my brain all the time while i read#sometimes i stop reading just to think about a bit i read yeah#i want charles to listen in on all of eriks side comments or observations he makes while reading something#like if he wanted to charles could read the whole book in less than five minutes- maybe shorter than that#and that aint fun that aint cool …. so time for Audible: Husband Edition. With Commentary#ITD BE SO COZY just hangin out by the fireplace …. maybe its snowin outisde … if snow even exists anymore atp#a light fire cracklin and the study SEEMS totally quiet otherwise and yet…..#charles has been locked in to erik’s off-the-cuff literary analysis and mild comments for the past twenty minutes. its simple but its bliss#charles doesnt have to worry about being seen as invasive .. he doesnt have to suppress his powers …#the rare occasion erik lets charles into his mind for somethin so innocent .. ive made myself sick i fear#see now i wanna try writing a fic but 1.) have written in years 2.) id have to really think hard on how erik would commentate on a book#hm…… actually i do wonder what erik’s commentary on The Fable of the Bees would be …..#IN ANY CASE. maybe - at the very least- i can draw cherik by the fireplce someday ….#thatd be cute … hm …. depends on if i get in the mood for it down the line#anyways i have to drive back to my dorm !!! boo !!!! so good night everyone !!!!!
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some sketches of my guy
#original character#angel oc#monster boy oc#wings#winged oc#for those curious he is the main character of this serial comic i have planned after my short film and one shots are#finished called “Mayflies”#Basically its a slice of life/fantasy comic about a world where “angels” are these huge insectoid-like entities that exist in a symbiotic#relationship with humans#They spend the majority of their life cycles in a juvenile state similar to mayflies#where they inhabit the bodies of dead humans#so every once and awhile when someone dies they will come back as an angel spontaneously. Denny was walking to work one day in the#dark and rain and got hit by a car. lucky for him#an adult angel appeared at that moment and triggered the angeldeath and he Came Back#hes like the same guy though angels dont have a separate conciousness from their host. its like#he is the angel. like a lichen. from his POV he can't tell that anything's changed inside his brain only now. he feathers#so yeah. i love him#side note#he has a GNC boyfriend named Ruth
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THE VOICES.
#babe wake up new hidden inventory art just dropped#OHHHHHHHH I AM UNWELL#every time mappa drops a new jjk illustration an angel gets its wings#i am going insane over here#the urge to draw this is strong…….#but doing a background is like the bane of my existence ngl#also i would have to resist the urge to put in my ocs and i have TWO ocs who are in the hidden inventory arc and that’s too much for me#my brain would melt#also… why does satoru look a bit like he’s just been struck by lightning?#my love let’s get you a brush#also isn’t it interesting how suguru is the only one drinking sprite and everyone else here is canonically a cola drinker#something something suguru drinking sprite led to his downfall something something#KIDDING. or am i?#sabé is gnawing at the bars of their enclosure#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#geto suguru#shoko ieiri#satosugu#sashisu#hidden inventory arc#haibara yu#nanami kento#MY LOVES!!!! *clutches chest*
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the jason todd i know would never go to therapy
#the only jason i like (the one that exists in my brain). hes not actually in this fic he just has a brief cameo - to help me prove a point#dickroy#dick grayson#roy harper#dc comics#persephone tag
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not gonna elaborate
#my art#homestuck#johnkat#junekat#so to elaborate--#set in an au that exists only in my head that is inspired by unda's soulmate series except johnkat instead obvs#accidental confirmed match yadda yadda john realises smth abt herself and patches things up with karkat. anyway.#also in this au that exists only in my head june uses both names and he/she/they pronouns. bc nonbinary win#gender communism or smth idk. nonbinary karkat rights as well.#they can have an equal share of gender 👍 whatever!!!!!#anyway gonna draw some smooches later bc they are infecting my brain#much like the psychovirales soulmate epidemic--
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What is Rayman? Well, he's a thingamajig. Next question.
(I got attached to my Betilla design)
#rayman#betilla#rayman murfy#this goes into my headcanons a bit#i like the idea that not only was rayman the first limbless creature#but that his limbless-ness was a mistake#this does mean retconning a lot of character designs from rayman 1 but that's kind of what the series did post-origins anyway#every other thingamajig after him was dreamed up by polokus at some point maybe?#'cause once rayman existed he sort of became the jumping-off point for more dreams of thingamajigs#this series' continuity is so all-over-the-place literally anything goes#i hope my non-rayman followers are prepared for more because it ain't stopping#my brain has had such a firm grasp on this series for over a month now#and i don't understand why#but i'm having fun with it and that's all that matters
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everyone gets a turn in the ridiculous skintight edmondsuit. or at least, .everyone SHOULD
#a pre-sleep rarity... THERE ARE HUMANS IN MY BRAIN THIS TIME#idk i just missed them. there's something soothing about the fire water earth trio#been spending more time with the final trio (blade dante rei) lately and they bring lovable chaos#whereas the starter trio are tea parties and gentle smiles#edmond's outfit is iconic honestly it made me laugh for several minutes when i first saw it and i've never forgotten the feeling#imagine edmond going out to fetch some oats or smth#and when he comes out of the market he sees the entire clan cosplaying as him#it's not like the other soldiers have this uniform right? so it's an edmond exclusive?#maybe only ed gets the sash and badge#but everyone else gets those thigh high boots and capelet that ends just above their butts#in the universe where they must wrangle with dangling dicks ruining the flow of their outfit#ed and oli know how to tuck. they do it marvelously#yaku can either be slit-blessed (no need to alter his bits for the silhoeutte)#or CURSED with massive external dick. which is funnier bc then it's IMPOSSIBLE to walk around in an outfit like that#it's like the grey sweatpants meme. ur just tryna exist but all these jezebels keep staring at your dick outline#(jezebels is eiden)#nu carnival edmond#nu carnival olivine#nu carnival yakumo
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The X trilogy + "psycho-biddy" influences
#x 2022#pearl#maxxxine#x series#strait-jacket#psycho#what ever happened to baby jane#horror#psycho-biddy#hagsploitation#made this whole big thing which i still might post eventually but. in terms of aesthetics. this abridged version is better lol#i'm not gonna finish the other post tonight but consider this a preview of sorts#i can't stop thinking about what if they leaned more into the 'hagsploitation' aspect of it all lol#i actually find it odd + off-putting that they start and end maxxxine with a bette davis reference#with a big significant psycho cameo at the bates motel itself#and there's not really any payoff for those allusions!!#i think if you're gonna try to tie into a legacy of older horror films you should do it in a sincere way#because that just felt like 'elevated horror' bonus points + nostalgia bait#anyway. it's fun to think about the potential it had + how all the building blocks exist within the narrative to do something interesting#and i am a 1960s hagsploitation subgenre apologist lol#what ever happened to baby jane? changed my brain chemistry the first time i watched it as a kid#so maybe i'm just nostalgia baiting myself making these connections lmao#but it could have been so good#it could have been the perfect synthesis of the shared themes across all three movies#but i don't think hagsploitation gets butts in movie theater seats like girlboss 80s nostalgia vaguely true crime related shit#oh wait also i guess calling psycho a hagsploitation movie is like. probably not 100% accurate#but it is though. it's not an inversion of the subgenre bc the subgenre didn't exist yet#but it builds up a mystery 'psycho-biddy' character only to reveal that she's not the murderer#which is also what happens in strait-jacket so i think it counts!!#+ psycho is directly referenced in all 3 movies so it’s a pretty clear influence on the trilogy as a whole
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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Sinners as programs:
Yi Sang – Cortana/Siri/similar “AI”-that-follows-specific-rules programs. I don’t think poetry generators exist.
Faust – Any calculator game. Look. I love girlfail Faust as much as the next person, but she would be a calculator.
Don Quixote – Shimeji. Ok that’s the post.
Ryoshu – Either comedic malware like Reisenware, actual malware, or mspaint.
Meursault – Windows explorer/non-windows equivalent. He is your file explorer.
Hong Lu – Any digital pet, OR he is a collection of PNGs kept solely on your second monitor for a digital pet rock. I don’t know how to explain this one.
Heathcliff – It’d be far too easy (and a misinterpretation) to go with the malware route. Heathcliff has game engine energy and I am specifically referring to Ren’Py. he’s a Visual Novel engine.
Ishmael – Ishmael is specifically placid plastic duck simulator. No, but actually, Ishmael is any casual game like stardew valley or minecraft. she is never subnautica.
Rodya – Rodya is one of those email websites that boomers adore ❤️ /pos
Sinclair – Sinclair is a book library, like a kindle fire type thing.
Dante – Too easy to say a clock. Dante is an emulator.
Outis – Too easy to say a Trojan virus. She’s honestly a scheduling app.
Gregor – Again, far too easy to say malware (because bugs, get it? I’ll see myself out). He’s notepad.
Bonus:
Charon – An email that glitched out and was sent in like 1786 or whatever the earliest year a computer can claim
Vergilius – Far too easy to say tasque task manager. He’s an antivirus. Scares the viruses into not doing that shit.
Erlking(?) Heathcliff – Yeah he’s malware. He infects your computer, and spreads to other computers.
#Apparently Charon is an adult due to lore stuff. I refuse to believe this girl is anything older than specifically 14.#not saying she’s “minor coded” but Charon is a child to me. idk if I’m just not understanding her character correctly#but to me she reads as a kid#<- for reference ironically I remember an early limbus drama of people who had Don as a waifu since people thought she was underage.#and like. ironic ***now*** but to be fair I do understand it. but also consider: girls just got the tism (I do too)#evora original#limbus stuff#canto 6 spoilers#literally only exists bc I was gonna make a joke that Don is a shimeji innately but my brain went “do all of them!!” so now I gotta#limbus company#yi sang#Yi sang lcb#faust lcb#don quixote lcb#ryoshu lcb#meursault lcb#hong lu lcb#hong lu#Heathcliff lcb#ishmael lcb#rodya lcb#rodion lcb#sinclair lcb#emil sinclair#emil sinclair lcb#dante lcb#outis lcb#gregor lcb#charon lcb#vergilius lcb
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The perks of being tall: sending your friends to air jail
Wait until Clay meets Legsly or the skyscraper troll XD
Bonus
#my art#trolls 3#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls au#trolls band together#n2 au#not the only one au#trolls clay#trolls viva#cliva#i love them#i think of the putt putt trolls Clay is the tallest#but in pop village he'd only be moderately tall#cuz legsly exists as well as biggie and skyscraoer troll#who i dont fully understand#because he speaks in first person like he doesnt say we he says me#so it he one brain divided between 4 bodies or like a hivemind unified consciousness#or is it 4 different trolls pretending to be one troll#skyscraper troll scares me#but hes also very interesting#also what kind of troll is he cuz he has glitter skin but unlike glitter trolls his hair isnt glitter#his hair also starts at his feet like a fuzzling troll so maybe hes like what happens if a fuzzling and a glitter troll get together#ive lost the plot and someones playing alien noises outside my house#but yeah i love clay and viva so much theyre so cute aaaah#also yeah i forgor vivas makeup but its fine lets just say she hasnt put it on yet#viva is canonically v strong so i dont doubt she didnt have to try too hard to scoop clay up#caught him while he was slackin
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okay this may be an unpopular opinion but i really don't care bc im just very annoyed lmao
the one huge criticism of malevolent that i have is tied to the reason the show is so impressive and that's the fact that harlan does all the voices.. because he does all the voices, the female characters that aren't elderly or monstrous can only be alluded to
but there are still female characters that hold significant importance that can only be mentioned of in passing , and one of them is, of course, nurse Lilly who was the first person to show john human compassion while arthur was in a coma
john consistently references how Lilly's kindness was so transformative for him that it was the start of how he genuinely changes his perspective and identity once arthur awakens,, BUT WE DONT GET TO SEE HER OR HEAR HER and it's a little annoying for john to constantly mention this time period and this nurse as something So Important, but everything happened off screen in season one
and like ?! idk !! from an audience (read: my) perspective he has been through more important and difficult things with Arthur and other characters... to keep coming back to Lilly, whom we never saw as like THEEEEE moment he learned humanity is starting to really drive me a little crazy
i GET that narratively john needs something other than arthur as exposure to the kindness of humans. as a character he needs more motivation than just one very flawed person that he cannot be separated from. but to hear john say he loves lilly in today's episode was so jarring to me !!
and maybe i'm at a disadvantage here. maybe because i started like a few weeks ago and i haven't been here from the jump, im missing some greater context for her character and what she represents in the overall story that can only come from knowing a story front-to-back for a couple years but fuck
#i think a lot of my frustration comes from the simple fact that lilly only exists to represent john's change to humanity#that's all she exists as in the story and that trope of a woman only existing to uplift the male character's arc is just so annoying#lilly does not pass the sexy lamp test imo and that is the root of the issue probably#i think the purpose is to be a parallel to faroe but like it does nawt compute in my brain as equal#malevolent spoilers#malevolent part 46#malevolent#john doe#john malevolent#criticism#critique
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this is my first ever ask hi I just wanted to say.. u shared that adorable teleporting clip of scar and pearl & Ive been thinking about them ever since!!!!....... & I know this is a smallidarity account but you've infected me so if you have any more scearl thoughts in that large brain of yours. me personally. I am all ears ^__^ ^___^ ^____^
JAHSHS HI im very honoured to claim your first ask and also sorry for replying to this after months 😭 tbh I just wanted an excuse to show this art I made of them like 2 years ago that i recoloured recently
anyways thoughts:
I watched both their POVs since the start of Season 8 to season 9 and loved their vibe of messy, ambitious architect x bright and passionate artist and caretaker?
( character rant ahead )
In Season 9 to me, Scar is this stressed out architect trying to envision his ambitious dream for his theme park within the limited timeframe of the season. He struggles taking care of himself staying up for projects and inevitably leaves messes around the place (chest monsters and lack of proper base lighting)
Even before the sudden light into his world, Scar already admired Pearl's work as an artist— frequently going to her base just to admire what she's done— and now this amazing artist was here at his theme park working as his designated cleaning lady, as someone who doesn't mind the crummy pay of 64 diamonds per week he was only able to offer...
And then Pearl comes around and decides to offer her cleaning lady services to lift his stresses yk? She offers to help him organize his chests, to clean up the area, and to teach him how to take care of himself again. Scar was appalled by that care since nobody really took that time for him, yet slowly melts into it yk?
Haven't even gotten into the life series aspect of their relationship GOSHHHH with the whole sunflower thing AGHDGGDHSD
In Double Life, there should be something said about how Scar was able to understand Pearl's loneliness after Scar's Magical Mountain in Last Life... and especially how they both loved their soulmates in Last Life/3rd Life before they abandoned them in the series about soulmates.....
And then Secret Life.... Secret task: Be Pearl's Wingman.............. "What's going on here Sunflower?"................ "If there's one thing I learnt, Pearl, is that no alliance is ever sacred." "*chuckle* Y'know what Scar, you're growing on me."............... Scar having to choose a side between Scott or Pearl and decided to side with Pearl..................... She's dead Scar, you won..............
IM ACTUALLY CRAZY
In my head, nearing the end of Secret Life is when they both already internalized their feelings but of course so close yet so far due to their own griefs (Pearl specifically with the Mounders and her failure of sacrificing herself for them. AND MAKES IT UP BY OFFERING HERSELF TO SCAR........) to ever pronounce it to each other and now Life!Series Scar lives with that grief within him forever CANONICALLY....... BECAUSE HE ISN'T DEAD........ STILL IN THAT FREAKING SUNFLOWER FIELD........................ GAHHHHHH
#pearlscar#my art#i actually havent watched pearl's s10 i desperately need to get on her POV 😭#trafficshipping#hermitshipping#again I have a maid-for-hire au based on s9 but set in modern real life society#but only exists in my brain....#asks stuff#their relationship starts of slow-burn and one-sided from Scar#but eventually Pearl starts understanding Scar and sees the world through his eyes#i feel like all this could be explained better if my head was set straight but hopefully you get what im saying 😭#i made like 2 rants about pearlscar on this blog which are mostly the same thing
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