#they are so queer. as in gay And odd
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Made these in class
They are all so peculiar to me
#murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi murder drones#j murder drones#n murder drones#v murder drones#nuziv#<- yes im tagging that because i can . bite me#cyn murder drones#cynessa#murder drones lizzy#they are so queer. as in gay And odd#murder drones spoilers
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sometimes, that fictional man from your tv shows does actually like women. like, he can like men, too, but sometimes that fictional man is pansexual. not gay. it isn't always comphet, i promise. you can write that he's loved women. it doesn't take away from his queerness.
#you are allowed to write what you want i'm not saying you're not. but you gotta understand that it looks a little. hm. odd. is all.#from an outside perspective. i am side-eyeing you a little. and getting just a smidgen concerned.#like. it just makes me think that maaaaybe you don't actually think bi and pan people are valid. or that they're 'less queer'#maybe examine why you are So Convinced that EVERY Fictional Man you write is 100% GAY NO WOMEN ALLOWED y'know?#and same for women sometimes that fictional woman is bi not a lesbian. tho i see it more with men i think#like yea i write gay spock. but sometimes people write gay spock AND kirk AND bones AND scotty AND chekov AND sulu#and like you sure can if you want. go for it. i've read things like that which i've liked quite a bit even.#but if you refuse to consider that any of the men you see have EVER loved ANY woman. i am a bit suspicious of you.#not trek#this was prompted by something but dw about it lmao.
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Google Liam Payne music mundial 👀👀
lmao what Music Mundial News YOU LITERALLY JUST STARTED THESE RUMORS FROM NOTHING... however I am always seated for this variety of 1D related entertainment so keep it coming and thank you anon!
#Liam going public with a queer relation ship first IS truly the most entertaining thing that could happen so sure#why not#(however in all seriousness 'being seen with a gay person' doesn't exactly seem newsworthy sooooooo)#also odd that this outlet seems uninterested in his public het relationship#roger nores
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I go into a video call expecting to just get information about a ‘come and see’ retreat and I end up having to speedrun coming out to a strange religious person for the third time in like two weeks.
#tower of babble#catholic#christianity#lgbt#side b#previous coming out this month has been the new spiritual director and the EI coorespondent I meet with also next week#I legit didn’t think it was gonna be a ‘Why are you attracted to religious life and are you looking at other orders?’ kinda meeting#I just wanted to know the days and times because they weren’t on the webbedsite 😭#it’s fine. leading with the ‘finding where I fit in any religious community is complicated because I’m gay’ I think is better than wasting#both our time if I’m not meant to be there. but also. ough.#it’s very clear sometimes I’m the only/first queer side b Catholic these people have ever met#so I have to do side b 101 + here’s My Story + it’s fine if you don’t wanna call me back! god bless! spiel.#this sister is the youngest of all the vocation directors I’ve spoken to so ¯\ _(ツ)_/¯ maybe that’s better maybe that’s worse.#I’ll find out next week if I can come to the retreat I guess ??? that was a little odd I thought it was a sign up and come kinda thing#not a ‘I’ll pray on this and decide for you’ kinda invitation.#edit: ALSJEBDKSEBSKEJA. I TYPW TOO DAMN FAST FOR MY BRAIN. TY ANON FOR POINTING THAT KHT
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I need a girlfriend, but like... in this economy???
I'm already socially awkward talking to cashiers, and your telling me if I want a partner I have to FLIRT WITH A GIRL MY AGE WHO MAY BE HOMOPHOBIC AND TELL EVERYONE I LIKE WOMEN????? HELL NO
That being said is there a common phrase among leabians to test the water with other women/girls who may not have their sexuality "on their sleeve" (pins, stickers, things with the flag, stuff like that)? Kinda like Tumblr has the whole "I like your shoelaces" thing. There's this one girl in particular and I actually do have her number because we are attending a large event with another group of people and made a group chat for better communication.
Lets call this girl J, she's been in one of my classes with me and in a club I was in. She's asked about events I was going to, expressed interest on me joining an academic team she is on, and I think joined the mentioned club because I was there. J did act a bit awkward around me, and gave off "i have a crush" vibes, but I can't tell if she likes me as well or wants to be friends with me... either way the event takes place over multiple days and is next week and I need to think more about this/get input please help experienced women lovers please!!!!!
Sorry I won't make a post like this again I hope.
#CreacheurSpeacher#Queer#queer community#lesbian community#wlw#wlw post#lesbian#lgbtq#lbtqia#pride month#baby gay#Gay minor#Relationship help#I guess??? This is my first post like this and I am so nervous... I really like this girl too#sapphic#Crushes#Queer crushes#fuck love#I'm in love I think#Man... this is odd
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how many times do we need to learn as people that irony and hyperbole can be harmful because 'jokes' aren't easily distinguished from genuine thoughts and feelings until we stop rewarding people for speaking or posting about violence
like even if you're joking/don't actually believe that/think whoever you are insulting is bad/immoral/fictional therefore deserves it - ad hominem attacks always do more harm to the people who share those characteristic then the individual you intend to cause harm to or discredit
#discourse#long post#its genuinely erased so much of my enjoyment of 911blr knowing i have to check accounts or risk seeing bullying/hate#l like its an odd feeling to know that so many people in the same fandom as you actively hold hate or find hate funny against your communit#like tired of people saying others are too sensitive because we dont want to hear or see a person say they want to hurt themself or others#like sorry i put in the work everyday to not let my mental health backslide and to enjoying being alive and accept my queerness#while others seemingly have not#and i know the content i post/share is not all in the same circles as that certain blog and i hate that it still grinds my gears but#its so frustrating to see the cruel glee people have#saying things they would never say to anyone's face irl and only to other blindly devoted/similar bullies#like do these people realise that they are on a razor's edge between 'ironic jokes' and just outright bigotry and threats - like do they#literally the only thing seperating That and conservative bigots is that the bigots are honest about their hatred towards minorities#like a lot of people in the fandom seemingly still need to deal with a lot of intenalised homophobia/racism and just outright hate-#especially regarding queer men and men of colour#because i can not be emphasise enough#It is NOT GOOD OR HEALTHY to be a fully grown adult that actively derives joy from the idea of enacting hate crimes#like you can hate tommy you can want him off the show even want him to die like weird but go off#but its such a next step to unprompted talk about [a character i dislike/hate/dont ship/disrupts my fanon endgame] in derogatory ways -#with rhetoric that straight up is out of terf/rel. right/homophobic/racists bigots and evokes violent hate-crimes......#well i feel sorry for those people cause what a miserable life to spend so much of it unable to enjoy your own life that you target others#anyways I know this is too long but I'm just a very tired man who has studied history and education and working with kids i have seen it -#too many times- harmful words coming from harmful environments or creating harmful actions and thereby perpetuating the cycle of violence#also not super relavent but as Latino Australian i am genuinely appauled at how many people have in their bio they are also Australian-#while actively liking/reblogging and engaging with post that find homophobic violence a funny haha joke - as if activist in our country -#aren't actively trying to dismantle homophobic and transphobic laws regarding issues like conversion therapy#like I know professors that actively got fired for being gay while teaching in religious education context - and its still happening!#so for people to forget so quickly what progress has been made and how much it took and how easy it is to loose - disappointing#(and its the same people who wanna pretend mardi gras is nothing but a party as if 78rs didn't risk their jobs/safety/lives)
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Everything about the framing, the music choices, the touches, the long stares, are all used in visual media to hint to romance further along the line. How am I supposed to not ship Kathadome when otherwise these filming choices make no sense?
Also Dome getting free from the stone after Katha says "come back to me"?????? Come on!!!!!!!😫😫😫 what a moment!
#midnight museum#i mean id probably ship it anyway but at this point nothing else about how the show is put together makes sense#if they were a straight couple id have no doubt they were going to end up together due to the aforementioned things#but because theyre queer and its not a bl its turned into a really odd will they/wont they in my mind#because im not used to unexpected gays#most things with queer elements have it in the marketing somewhere so im hoping this will suprise me
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I know what you are.
gay
(A COWARD)
#call me gay to my face#i wont beat you up because im homophobic. just because you are spreading LIES uh and uh misinforMATION#morro irl account#irl morro#answering asks#ninjago#anon asks#(so odd pretending to be a homophobic gay when i am queer irl. but this is fun)
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Thinking about the fact that one of my mom's close friends who used to babysit us was a lesbian and legitimately married and I still didn't know what gay was until I was 14
#i remember the exact day my mom explained what gay was too me#reminds me of another post i saw that was like ops grandmas were lesbians and op didnt know what gay was or what was goiny on with their#relationship until op was older and this is why queer media is important#yeah. my fourteenth year was a wild year of learning for me#shout out to everyone in our circle being so chill about Leila and her wife that it never occurred to me it may be odd#the fact i didnt clock that they werent just best friends may also be a result of the aroaceness#bc I refused to believe my mom's other friend was dating his gf i thought they were just friends#shay posts
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People saying that they did not target transgender people because "It was only homosexuals and crossdressers" are literally just fucking lying.
These people may OUTNUMBER the amount of transgender people targeted and are more well known but saying transgender people were not lumped in and also targeted is a LIE. Please don't tell me you think the Nazis CARED about different flavors of queer. There were differences, yes, but saying they weren't at all targeted as a group alongside others is... An ignorant mistake at best.
#Of course like everything else they did this did depend on how useful they were and if they were “Aryan.”#But they were still at a MUCH higher risk of being targeted than non queer “Aryans.”#twitter#lgbt#transgender#lgbtqia#transgender rights#transphobia#trans#The Nazis lumped most of them in with gays and crossdressers a lot of the time#Saw someone say they weren't targeted because they were given “transvestite passes” in Germany#but they failed to add the Nazis often straight up IGNORED them#So IDK if I'd say she's DENYING the holocaust (though legally in Germany yes as far as I'm aware) but she is denying a PART of it which is#very erm#odd to say the least.
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i do feel envy for cis people, in my old age of 24, even though i didn't use to because i didn't care and didn't understand exactly just how much i didn't fit in and never would. i think the fact that 'i will grow old one day and this inadequate feeling will go away' kept me going really strong into just being myself and putting it aside. but honestly doesn't it look so much more comfortable to fit in ? i look at people doing sports, dancing tango, women wearing heels, wearing makeup, men going to the barber, and i feel so much envy for it looking so easy. i feel like any of those things, when i do them it always costs me so much, or it would if i tried. people could Always tell i was the odd one out, and i wear that on my shoulders every time i leave my home. if i wear makeup, i am the odd one out, if i wear heels, i am the odd one out, if i go into sports, i am the odd one out, if i try to learn tango, what role will i even be assigned, which one can i chose ? it's so tiring. gender is some kind of theatre, but everyone plays it, and it doesn't make sense, but it rules so many things. when i apply for a job, which box do they tick for me ? am i part of the diversity percentage because i didn't change all my markers ? if i want to try and meet someone, which box do i check ? when do i start faking, when do i stop ? it's endlessss
#i know im not alone and many pplehave done this before#i knowww but im so.. i don't live in a big city where i can go to the queer meetup and forget#i cant apply to the gay jobs and forget#i cant apply to the local dance school or classes and forget!!!#i dont have the confidence to be the odd one out All the time its difficult i wasnt born tough like that#i wish there were queer dance things here at least but nope#im just here with my transexual ass trying to pretend i dont see dads stare at me during every lesson#its great#and when i start to build up confidence i get harassed in the streets like always#its always there
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he rly said "i may be gay but im obviously the main character"
#i forgot hwo mich this show is like that#ppl who watch this show for a relationship between a cishet man and a cishet women r so odd 2 me#this is a queer show 2 me. look at it#romcom animes b like 'we're gonna deconstruct the genre by making it gay and transgender'
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A super sweet person was sitting beside me and then before they got up and left they said that I’m loved very much and that Jesus Christ also loves me and is guiding me. Id like to think they said that because they saw I was scrolling on this hellscape of an app
#it was nice#but I’m not religious#like at all#not religious#and i look very gay today#much of a queer#but they also looked like a queer#so i’m not complaining#or offended#just saying#it was a bit odd#it was sweet#but a little strange to hear before getting on my train home#anywizzle
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From Chuck Tingle, author of the USA Today bestselling Camp Damascus, comes a new heart-pounding story about what it takes to succeed in a world that wants you dead. Misha is a jaded scriptwriter who has been working in Hollywood for years, and has just been nominated for his first Oscar. But when he's pressured by his producers to kill off a gay character in the upcoming season finale―"for the algorithm"―Misha discovers that it's not that simple. As he is haunted by his past, and past mistakes, Misha must risk everything to find a way to do what's right―before it's too late.
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BURY YOUR GAYS cover has been released today and theres something TRULY INCREDIBLE about it, something that bends timelines and melts away the edges of the void and brings tears to my eyes. can you see it? let me explain in a thread as you PREORDER NOW...
for nearly ten years i have been publishing my stories despite pushback that they are too odd. us buckaroos are the outsiders, but this community has kicked open the door for art that is sincere and strange and beautifully unique. that is my trot and that is OUR trot as buds
we came out of nowhere and made CAMP DAMASCUS a usa today bestseller. every step of the way that book overperformed. buds were CONFUSED that a book from ‘silly meme erotica author’ could take flight. but us buckaroos knew it was inevitable because we know the power of love
i still recall the question ‘are you SURE you do not want a new horror pen name?’ HECK NO i am proud of the tingleverse. i am not ashamed of these queer erotic stories i drag up from bottom of my heart and spill with raw sincerity across irony poisoned timelines
i have been mocked my whole life as author that is ‘ridiculous no-content meme’ by those who have never read it. that my work is ‘not real’. i have been mocked for my autism and queerness and told THIS WOULD NEVER WORK. which brings me back to cover of my new book BURY YOUR GAYS
looks like the name chuck tingle is NOT a liability for the mainstream. all devils who doubted can gaze upon this cover and see bold CHUCK TINGLE staring back at them PROUDLY from the shelf in all its queer autistic glory... HOVERING ABOVE THE TITLE AND JUST AS BIG AND PROUD
thank you nightfire and chucks manager and chucks agent for believing in me. these buds have always had my back. thanks to BUCKAROO COMMUNITY who have always supported my way, this next step in our trot is not just about me IT IS ABOUT US. we kick open these doors together
so heres to making this world a little more unique and strange for those of us who are, ourselves, unique and strange. heres to bending timelines to us, instead of us bending to them. heres to name CHUCK TINGLE big and bold ABOVE the title on a big five traditional published book
and remember the best way to support an author, especially someone on outside pushing their way in, is to PREORDER THEIR BOOK. because of publishing business model it is SO IMPORTANT so if you would like to support chuck then PREORDER BURY YOUR GAYS NOW
#bury your gays#tingleverse#chuck tingle#love is real#queer#horror#lgbtqia#actually autistic#misha#buckaroo lifestyle#lets trot#queer horror
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Okay, I saw someone say that Nimona, while being good representation, “didn’t take the big step forward in queer rep that everyone says it did”.
That is wrong. So wrong, my dude.
Yes, an explicit and open queer relationship in children’s cartoons is not new, per ce. Hell, just this year, two popular kids’ cartoons had the main character in an open, adorable, plot-based queer romance. But this is different for a few reasons.
Reason number one, it isn’t left in suspense. Yes, they had that split for three odd weeks, but they started the film as a couple. One of the very first scenes is them together as a couple, Ambrosius saying he loves Ballister, them holding hands, Ballister leaning on Ambrosius’ shoulder. Ambrosius says he loves Ballister three times during the film, and none of them are any more than halfway in. It’s very clear, from their very first interaction, that they are an established relationship, which isn’t something I’ve seen...at all in other animation.
Secondly, they are the plot. Ambrosius not believing Ballister, Ambrosius cutting off Ballister’s arm, Ballister trying to get the video to Ambrosius - this is what drives the plot. In any other children’s animation with queer relationships, the relationship is not the main focus. Even The Owl House, which is so amazing with its constant representation, would still make sense if Luz and Amity never happened. But Nimona’s plot wouldn’t make sense without Ballister and Ambrosius’ relationship. It, quite simply, can’t be erased. It could work as a friendship, yes, but that’s the point. They could have just been two close friends that fell on opposite sides of a fight, but they weren’t. They were two lovers that fell on opposite sides of a fight.
Thirdly, they aren’t sanitized for “family viewing”. An emerging trend in children’s animation is to only have mlm relationships as fathers to make them seem more “family friendly”. With the exception of Kipo, there really isn’t many tv shows or films that places light upon an mlm relationship. And if it does, it'll be a teen relationship because teenagers being queer tends to come across as less “dirty” and more “innocent”. But Goldenheart is none of these things. They are adults without the mollifying aspect of having a family. And on top of that, they fight. They wield swords and they get bloody and they shoot at things and get angry and yell. They aren’t “clean” and “innocent”.
As well as this, they are in a film. Films are far more accessible than tv shows. You have to watch twenty seven episodes before Lumity in toh is canon. Troy kisses Benson on the eleventh episode of Kipo. And there are two hundred and eighty three episodes of Adventure Time before Marceline and Bonnie kiss. But with a film, the queerness is much more forward - especially in Nimona, where it’s literally the second scene. Animated films hardly ever display queer relationships, but Nimona did.
Finally - they aren’t perfect. I don’t know about you, but three weeks of thinking your boyfriend/maybe ex is a murderer? Doesn’t sound like a healthy few weeks to me. I have only seen big relationship arguments portrayed in straight relationships in cartoons - think Star Vs The Forces Of Evil - whereas queer relationships either have the massive fight prior to being canonically gay - She Ra - or have conflict, not arguments, that are dealt with quickly - Dead End/The Owl House. But Goldenheart? Goldenheart suffers. Their relationship is pushed to such extreme boundaries as for them to be pretty much exes throughout most of the movie. And yet, they are clearly healthy, happy and very much in love at the end.
TL;DR - Nimona is amazing with the queer representation, and it is a milestone for LGBTQ+ cartoons. Not only is the relationship romantic for the entire movie, the plot is driven by Ambrosius and Ballister’s sort-of-break-up. In short, they are treated the same way straight people are. They have flaws, they have massive arguments, they have plot importance, they have backstory. They are in love. And that’s what matters more than anything else.
#cedar crap#wow I didn't mean for this to be so long#nimona#nimona netflix#queer rep in media#queer rep in animation#goldenheart#ballister boldheart#ballister blackheart#ambrosius goldenloin#and I didn't even touch on the blatant queer flags in the background
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⚠️ Feminization, Misgendering, Forced detrans kink ahead! ⚠️
Today is a scary day for you. As a trans man, finding the right therapist is far more difficult than it is for most people, especially as you weren’t looking for just a new therapist today. You also need someone to write you a top surgery letter. Although you’ve only been on T for 2 months, barely enough to notice anything besides an increased libido and clit growth, your breasts are by far your biggest source of dysphoria. You often wear two binders when you’re going anywhere, and even then, a sizable bump is visible on your chest. You’re hoping they may become easier to bind with hormones, but you already know that you’ll need surgery regardless.
“Milo Brown?” A masculine voice calls your name from across the room. Glancing up, you see a very attractive man, much taller than you, looking to be in good shape under his professional attire, but not overly muscular. His dark shoulder-length wavy hair and stubble complement his gentle, masculine face and warm brown eyes.
Surprised by the man’s beauty, you stumble on your words as you rise from your seat. “I- uh- I’m here.”
“Great! Let’s get back to my office.” He smiles warmly and gestures for you to follow him out of the waiting room and down a hallway, passing mostly empty offices on the way. This doesn’t seem too odd, as there was construction on the lower floor. Maybe some patients didn’t like the noise and cancelled? Or maybe you’re trying to distract yourself from thinking of the exceedingly attractive man that may soon be your therapist. You’ve considered yourself gay since coming out, but starting hormones has certainly made that attraction all the more apparent.
As he opens his office door, you’re surprised by how casual it is. There’s a long couch next to an armchair, with a clipboard set neatly on top. His desk is to the side, seemingly ignored while clients were present in favor of a more personal layout. Thinking of something to say as you sat on the couch, you spit out “I like your office.”
“Thank you Milo, I spent a lot of time thinking of the anatomy of the room and how to make my clients most at ease. I find this works best.” He smiles at you, his eyes gentle and enticing. “I’m Dr. Sterling, I specialize in support for LGBT and FTM clients. Nice to meet you! Tell me a but about yourself and what brings you here.”
“My name is Milo Brown, I’m 19 years old, and I just started testosterone. I’ve been out as trans for a while but finally got access to hormones and I’m hoping to get top surgery as well, but I need a letter for it. I also just need support with my dysphoria and depression.” You cross your arms over your large chest self-consciously.
“Well, that’s nothing I haven’t heard before. Can you tell me more about your dysphoria regarding your chest?”
Shifting uncomfortably in your chair, you hesitantly proceed. “Every day is awful! They’re the first thing I think about when I wake up and I go to sleep trying not to feel or think about them. They’re so big and heavy that I feel them whenever I move and it makes me so dysphoric. It’s also impossible to make myself flat, so I never pass. As a gay man, it’s so hard to find a man who would want a guy with a body like mine!”
“Oh, Milo, I think that’s very negative thinking. Plenty of men would find you attractive! I thought you were quite beautiful when I saw you myself.”
You’re surprised by his words! That sounded very flirtatious, but maybe he was just trying to boost your ego. Either way, it made the empty space between your legs tingle when he said it. You also didn’t know he was queer, but it definitely makes you more comfortable with him. “Well… that does make me feel better. I still don’t feel comfortable with my chest though.”
“Why don’t we try something? This is an exercise I’ve done with plenty of my transmasuline patients before, and it has always improved their lives and helped with dysphoria. While we do it, I can assess you for top surgery as well! How does that sound?” He smiled at you expectingly.
“Uhhh… yeah, that sounds good. What are we doing?”
“I’m just going to have you answer some questions about your body and dysphoria. This may get uncomfortable, but it’s all part of this process. I’m sure you can trust me, right?”
“Of course!” You answer instinctively.
“Right. First, I want you to take off your shirt and binder.” He instructs casually.
“What!? I thought we were just answering questions. Is that necessary?” You’re again surprised, he wasn’t a surgeon and you had never shown anyone your chest before. You didn’t want to look at it yourself, much less this beautiful man you’re expecting to see regularly!
“I understand this is surprising and uncomfortable, but I want to understand your perspective on your body, as well as assess the size and density for surgery. I need to know this for the letter, and I understand this is very important to you. I’m sorry for the discomfort, Milo.” He looked at you apologetically, his brown eyes sparkling, staring in to your soul and shooting down between your legs.
“I… okay.” What he was saying did make sense, and you would do most anything for this surgery. Resolving to just get this over with, you take off your oversized hoodie and throw it on the couch next to you. Grabbing both binders at once, you exert a herculean force squeezing yourself out, panting as your huge breasts fly out. You blush with embarrassment as a loud clap can be heard from them swinging together.
Dr. Sterling calmly walks closer to you. “Do you know your cup size?”
“Uh… no, sorry.”
“That’s alright, we can measure now.” He smiles warmly and pulls out some measuring tape. Without hesitation, he walks up to you and wraps it around your chest! He first measures your underbust before moving to measure your bust. His hands rest on your breasts as he does so. “Alright… looks like you have J cups.” His hand brushes your nipple as he backs away.
“Mmph!” Involuntarily, you let out a short, feminine moan. Both the dysphoria of knowing your overwhelming cup size and your accidental vocalization leave you embarrassed and blushing harder than ever.
“It doesn’t seem like you’ve experienced any vocal changes from testosterone.” He observes.
“Umm… not yet, no.”
“It also seems like you have quite sensitive nipples?”
“I guess…”
“Well, have you ever considered embracing your breasts?”
“Huh?” You were confused. They made you sad and dysphoric, how could you ever embrace them? He did say whatever he was doing worked for all of his other transmasc patients, but this seemed absurd.
“Your breast are way too big to bind properly. I’ve seen you wearing two binders in here, and that is not healthy. As your therapist, I can’t encourage you to damage your body in such a way, and especially without two binders, you wouldn’t be able to hide them at all anyways. And why go through the trouble of binding if everyone can tell? It might do you some good to just accept your body as it is. It’s not like whether you bind now will affect surgery.”
Unfortunately, everything he was saying made perfect sense. Even when binding, it was very obvious you had breasts. Why go through all the trouble, especially if it was hurting your body? You were dysphoric either way, might as well be more comfortable physically. “I guess… I guess you’re right.”
“Yes… unfortunately it’s also not very possible hormones could reduce them to a bindable size either.”
This devastated you. Even later on testosterone, you would have obvious breasts? How could you expect anyone to take you seriously as a man? You had hoped to begin passing in public soon, and finally begin living comfortably, but you weren’t so sure now. Would it even be safe to live as a non-passing trans man? Why were you going through so much for hormones if there was no hope of passing before surgery anyways? Maybe you should just wait until then for hormones- no one will gender you right as you are now. “Maybe… maybe I should pause testosterone until surgery then.”
“Yes, I can see why. That might be the safest option for you.” He nodded solemnly. “We can practice some exercises to reduce dysphoria until then, if you’d like.” His frown shifted in to a comforting smile.
Still upset, you nodded.
He moved closer and, before you could react, placed one hand on each perky, round breast, grabbing you by the boobs.
Surprised, you squeaked.
“This is just to get you used to your breasts. It often helps most when someone else does it, so you’re more comfortable with other people seeing them.” He gently squeezed and pulled, running his fingers along your supple breasts, warm palms pressing your hard nipples.
“Mmmmmm-! Oooh!” You let out a series of feminine wails as the doctor palms at your breasts. They were so sensitive and they felt so heavy- so wrong on your body- and yet they sent waves of pleasure throughout your curvy figure.
“Are you still going to go by Milo? I mean, you’re stopping T until surgery because you won’t be able to pass. It would be weird to only keep the name and pronouns, especially for strangers.” His hands shifted to thumb at your nipples.
Your thoughts were flooded with waves of pleasure shooting from your tits. The importance of this decision didn’t fully register, but what he was saying made sense to you. “You’re right.”
“Good girl.”
“Huhh…”
“People are going to refer to you by what you look like. You know you don’t pass. This is just exposure training, okay?”
“Okay…” You mindlessly agree as he moves his head close to your breast.
“See? You are a good girl.” He starts to suck on your nipple, causing you to throw your head back and wail in pleasure. You don’t know when his own clothes came off, but he’s getting on top of you and pulling your pants off, leaving you in just your boxers with his much larger biologically male body pinning you down, suddenly kissing your lips.
“What… what are you doing now, d-doctor…” he cuts you off as you pant your words out.
“The easiest way to adapt to and accept being seen as a woman is to have sex with a straight man, one who can use you as only male can use female. You need this, Amelia. It’s okay.”
Hearing your deadname makes you cringe with dysphoria. You’ve always felt an aversion towards it, despising the femininity it signaled. You struggle to reconcile your attraction to the doctor and trust in his methods to your current panic. This all felt good and sounded logical but it’s happening too fast to react, and these are all such big decisions, and suddenly he’s pulling your boxers off.
“Your pussy is so perfect. You make such a sexy woman.” He rubs the length of his cock along your clit and hole. The distinction between your pathetic nub and his masculine length is obvious. He gropes your massive jiggling breasts, squeezing them together and lowering his head to kiss and suck your nipples as his dick prods your entrance.
“Doctor Sterling…” You moan his name as his assault on your tits grows heavier. He sloppily makes out with your huge boobs, enjoying every second he can get drowning in your massive breasts.
He momentarily pulls his mouth from your tits. “Yes… fuck, Amelia!” He rams his hard cock all the way inside you, hitting your cervix as he moans your deadname, resuming his assault on your massive wobbling boobs all the while.
You scream and wail, unsure if it’s in pleasure or some mix of dysphoria and grief for your lost ambitions. Whatever male identity you insisted on was currently obstructed by your massive tits and the straight man enjoying them as he pounded in to your soft, tight vagina. Anyone who saw you two would know immediately that this was heterosexual sex- they would never stop to consider you could be anything but a curvy woman being held down and fucked by a handsome man. Suddenly, the doctor’s thrusts sped up. You forgot condoms, and you’re barely on T!
Right as you open your mouth, he interrupts. “I’m gonna cum, Amelia! I’m cumming inside you!” He holds himself against your cervix, comforting you as you begin to scream. “Shhh, good girl, it’s okay.”
You feel his hot cum flood in to your unprotected pussy, tears falling from your eyes. Feeling the sticky cum start to leak out, you manage to speak. “Do… do you have a towel?”
“Uhhh… here!” He grabs your binders and rips them both, turning them in to makeshift towels as he pulls out, along with a flood of cum.
You know you said you wouldn’t bind anymore, but having the option taken away made everything all the more real. You know it was for the best tho. He specializes in helping trans men, and he said this always works. You just have to trust him! As time runs out, you don’t even realize you forgot to finish your top surgery letter.
Still… you couldn’t wait to book your next session.
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