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Maglor has definitely written at least three songs for the sole purpose of introducing rarer Valarin loanwords to his fanbase's general vocabulary, and therefore the Tirion dialect of Quenya as a whole. Feanor is equally proud (for linguistic accomplishments, and also somehow convincing people to actually speak Valarin) and infuriated (because those rare loanwords happen to have the 8 and 10 point tiles lined perfectly up with the triple letter squares, while the rest of the word hits the triple word). Celegorm retaliates with equally-high-value words derived from hunting-hound-language that he claims are commonly used in the Quenya-speaking sects of the Hunt. By the end of the YT a decent chunk of modern Feanorian Quenya was invented for a three-month-long Scrabble game.
I desperately would love love LOVE to introduce Feanorians to a Quenyan version of Scrabble and watch them explode
I imagine that they'd make a bigger board to be able to fit 10-12 players and it would go on for days. With bickerings on the validity of words and with Moryo as the score keeper who can't quite keep his mouth shut and joins in on the bickering on wheter the word choice is "so fucking stupid, Tyelko. It should be banned on principle. What the fuck-". Each of the Feanorion just keeps on making up new rules especially after the Ambarussa makes up new words and argues for a whole hour and a half that it "totally counts as a word. Trust us, Nelyo-", that time Meadhros tried to pass a whole ass sentence as a "word", when Feanor took almost 12+ hours to think up an appropriate word to put down and etc.
Because come on guys. Ñoldor? "Those with great knowledge"? Feanor? The guy who created a whole ass writing system (the Tengwar)? His family? Who is just as intense and competitive as him? His step-siblings who would no doubt love an excuse to throw down without getting into trouble with the Valar or Finwë? Scrabble is THE BEST for Ñoldor Family Game Night(s).
I can just imagine Feanor playing scrabble with Finwë, Indis, Nolofinwë, Arafinwë, Írimë and Findis. Oh boyy. Findis is keeping score but everyone keeps trying to justify how they should have a higher score that word. Nolo and Feanor are shouting. Accusing each other for cheating. Ara made a throwaway joke once and suddenly BOTH his brothers are shouting at him. Indis saw the chaos and wanted to put away the game but was immediately stopped. Finwë is just happy to spend time with his family. Írimë is, in fact, the one who is cheating
Edit: More Feanorion shenanigans here! For part 2
Edit: And another! For part 3
Edit: Part 4!
[Edited to keep it to one post. Was too excited to post]
#silm#silmarillion#maglor#feanor#celegorm#playing quenya scrabble with those three would be insufferable#on top of having the least scrabble friendly written language in existence#you also have the guy who invented it#his singer/composer son#and his other son who also speaks fluent Dog#rumil has been conscripted as the Official Quenya Scrabble Referee because he's the only person whose language opinions outweigh feanors#by virtue of inventing *written language as a whole*#maglor is shamelessly leveraging his Celebrity Power to popularize new words#celegorm responds with either hyperspecific botanical terms or Dog Words#feanor ends up adding new words to the dictionary because hey we definitely needed a word for that anyways#ambarussa will happily back up celegorms claims unless it messes up a word one of them wants to do#curufin will support whoever is battling it out with maglor because why should kano get to add random words to common vocab??#meanwhile mae caranthir and nerdanel have a risk or catan board set up in the back#to play while they wait for feanor to finish his powerpoint presentation about the exclusion of the '-n'#or for rumil to arrive and smack him with the original sarati manifest. whichever comes first#(they're in the camp of 'arguing over a slightly verbose consonant is pointless when the word is not in common use by any standard anyways'#stuff to draw
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Jerk Ford AU: Silliness IV
Jerk Ford's behaviour was way worse while he was in the multiverse because while he was in his own dimension, Stan was there to keep him from going too far, and to mediate his interactions with other people when it came to important business.
Once he fell through the portal? Completely unrestrained.
Here's a small list of some of things he's done across the multiverse:
Un-sunk the mythical City of Atlantis to get back at a 'sh*tty tourist company'
Lifetime ban from all Space Waffle House locations across time and space for inciting a riot because a waitress kept calling him 'honey'.
Had someone legally assigned to permanent Cosmic Jury Duty.
Sowing the seeds of an extremely invasive and fast-growing varient of cucumber all over a large city in the Cat Dimension.
Not giving his two weeks notice at Space Hooters.
Infecting a galaxy-encompassing digital records archive with a virus that changed every third noun to be replaced with the word 'dick'.
Invading a weed farm on a parallel Earth and replacing the 'mother plant' that all of the other weed plants were cloned from with a strain of marijuanna thats identical in every way, except it produces no THC.
Impersonated one of the Bounty Hunter versions of Ford so he could fake his own death, collect the bounty for himself from the Ford Hate Club, crash the party they threw to celebrate, and then slip away right as the real Bounty Hunter Ford showed up to report that he'd failed to capture Jerk Ford.
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Remember how in a reverse portal what-if Jerk Ford told Fiddleford he would blow up the planet if he didn't help him rebuild the portal? And Fiddleford called his bluff?
Imagine you're Bill Cipher, and an oddly calm Stanford Pines tells you that in three days, he's going to blow up the Nightmare Realm with you in it.
So you laugh, because he's bluffing.
Two days later, it turns out he wasn't bluffing about blowing up the Nightmare Realm with you in it.
He was bluffing about giving you a third day, because he's a jerk like that.
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Boss Music? This guy isn't much of a fighter, he isn't a boss fight. It isn't hard to finish a fight with him because he's impossible to beat in a hand-to-hand fight - he isn't very strong compared to most versions of Ford Pines- it's hard to finish a fight with him because he's slippery. He's just going to escape and run if he doesn't think he can win.
If I were to give him a theme song or something, it'd probably be Dangerous by Jorge Rivera-Herrans. Mostly because of the "I have to get home" sentiment.
You have to ignore the fact that he didn't actually get himself home, just like canon Ford his brother had to fix the portal to bring him back.
Bro was at least trying to get back home.
Here's a Jerk Ford Playlist by @tearosepedall
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Actually, the reverse portal scenario doesn't go quite the way you think it does.
Jerk Ford has to pretend to be Stanley. A school teacher. A resident of society that Gravity Falls actually loves. When he's been an active menace to society his whole life.
Stanley gets shoved into an unforgiving multiverse full of monsters, demons, aliens, and versions of his brother who project their resentment and anger towards their actual twin onto him instead as a proxy.
And they both ask themselves: "What would my brother do in this situation?"
Anyways, this is what happens with Stanley:
And this is what happens with Jerk Ford:
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Fun fact: Jerk Ford is the reason there's no gnome queen.
While he was studying the gnomes during his researcher years in Gravity Falls, he discovered that the Gnomes only had one female, who was their queen by default.
Anyways he talks to her about how her greatest ambition in life shouldn't be having a hundred husbands and being barefoot and pregnant forever. No, her greatest ambition in life should be being one of the greatest hat models the world has ever known.
Anyways now she lives in New York, she may or may not also be a drug lord in the pixie dust cartel.
Soos, Mabel, and Dipper tried asking the mail box questions once.
It sent them a really long, angry, rambling letter starting with "What the f*ck did you just f*cking say about me, you little b*tch? I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals,"
Later on Dipper asked Ford about it, and he reveals that he traumatized the entity on the other side of the mailbox by sending it the question "is your refrigerator running?" every day for almost six years straight.
#Jerk Ford AU#Jerk Ford#stanford pines#ford pines#grunkle ford#stanley pines#stan pines#grunkle stan#gravity falls au#au#bill cipher#nightmare realm
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Obsessed With You by Cosmicandy
Theater gothic/Phantom of the opera
(For some horrific reason I couldn't think of a trope)
DPxDC Phantom in the Opera
9/2 sat
Went to Gotham City Opera to see Eugene Onegin with B & Dames. The performance sucked ass (as modern takes on classics usually do), but during Tatyana's aria, some tech guy dropped a rubber chicken from catwalks right on stage. I bet it was on purpose since the lead's voice sounded much similar to the sound that chicken made. Wish I could shake the dude's hand, that was truly the crescendo of the whole scene.
15/2 sun
Came by GCO on the way to WE. Had some time to spare, so decided to go in and find the rubber chicken guy to thank him for the laugh last week. Thought he might appreciate the positive feedback since he was defo yelled at for the stunt. Turns out everyone blames it on a 'ghost'. Using 'Phantom of the Opera' as a cover story is poor taste, in my opinion, but on the other hand, it worked, and who am I to judge.
17/2 mon
Got curious and pulled up the records of GCO employees. No one matches the guy I've seen on the catwalks.
18/2 tue
Blackmailed Damian into drawing the guy. No match through the face recognition program. Should have expected that, really; the one cute guy with a sense of humor I meet (or see, actually), and he doesn't exist.
20/2 thur
Can't stop thinking about the rubber chicken guy. Might have to go back to GCO and ask about the whole ghostly rumor. Last time, no one bat an eye at the 'ghost' excuse, now that I think about it. Has it happened before? Is it a go-to explanation for any prank no one wants to take credit for?
26/2 wed
Visited GCO at night. Seen the guy, but the cam footage came back corrupted when checked downstairs. So maybe the fact that his hair was floating and glowing in the dark was not a hallucination.
27/2 thur
Definitely not a hallucination! Good news: got a sample. Bad news: after analysis, the data also came back corrupted. Weird news: the hair keeps glowing even after it's been cut off.
2/3 sun
The guy's name is Danny. Ghost story confirmed. I'm having a crisis.
4/3 tue
I'm not sure if I want to know absolutely everything there is to know about him or I want to forget everything I've already learned. But then, I've already got so far. Might as well commit to the bit?
8/3 sat
Was invited to see La Traviata tomorrow. Can I still call that reconnaissance, or am I in date territory?
10/3 mon
...it was a date. On an entirely unrelated note, Teddy Hyde ruined all my attempts at coming prepared.
18/3 tue
Heard a new rumor among GCO staff members. They suspect the ghost in their opera is having a crush on Red Robin. Not sure where they've got that idea, but it sure took them some time to notice.
19/3 wed
Damian keeps staring at me at dinners. Maybe I should take that portrait of Danny that he did down from the wall over my bed.
22/3 sat
Going on a date today, and this time, it's definitely a date! Feels like I should be having a crisis over dating a ghost, but somehow, I'm only having a crisis over outfit choices.
61/0° gBs
hEy, yoU're keEEpinG a DIary¡ aboUt Me!¡ ThAt"s cuTe FUCK OFF DANNY THIS IS PRIVATE INFORMATION GET OUT heHeheEhe no~
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The thing is, I loved the song. And I loved the aesthetic. And I had such a goddamn hard time figuring out how to fit them together; I went through at least three different setups before deciding fuck it imma write silly boys being silly and wish for the best.
Dare I say it turned out cute as fuck, even though I still missed the mark on theater gothic aesthetic for the most part. Anyway, have a few pictures for general vibes!
[Just so you know, if you enter 'sex with a ghost' into google, the first few results will be the lyrics to 'Sex with a Ghost' by Terry Hyde, which is why Tim's research has been rather fruitless]
#danny phantom#dpxdc#dc x dp#tim drake#dead tired#brain dead#cork game#theater gothic#phantom in the opera
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BFDI Theory: The Unluckiest Number
Or story starts the video "X Finds Out His Value" at 3:27
Four and X have just figured out that X's value is 7, leading them and Seven to have a little dance party sort of thing. But after X proudly proclaims his value, 7, Four adds that "It's lucky too!"
And we get some less than happy faces from the peanut gallery. One and Three standing beside each other to form the infamous unlucky number 13. In fact, 13 is kind of an interesting number when it comes to Algebraliens.
This is the BFDI Wiki's list of every Algebralien (That is a rational number), notice anything? That's right! 13 isn't there! And this list doesn't leave any number out if it can help it. Eleven, Twelve and Sixteen have never had any significant role in any skit or episode. Thirteen is missing from the official roster of numbers.
Also as a "Sans is a near anagram for Ness" level detail: TPOT 13 is when One herself says "Entree over. Now onto the main course." and as the line suggests, is when One picks up the pace in terms of intervening in TPOT.
I believe that the number 13 is not just unlucky in a superstitious sense, but also if any Algebralien were to become Thirteen the result would be catastrophic, bringing bad luck wherever they went. And that's exactly what One and Three did.
In the first episode of TPOT Winner asks, on the topic of prime numbers, "Are those, like, illegal where you're from?". And while they're obviously not this could be foreshadowing that there is a specific prime number that IS illegal, due to, y'know, bad-luck related catastrophe.
I don't just believe this explains why there's no Thirteen, but I also believe this is why One and Three are where they are.
In the video "Thanks for 2,000,000 Subscribers!" we get a good look at the law enforcement system on Algebralien society, mainly that there is none. There are no police, possibly no government. Any sort of jail sentence or punishment for crime is carried out by the community as a whole. We see this with Fourteens punishment, he's not arrested by police, he's apprehended by his neighbors who seem to hold no special status of any kind.
Now, if we put our heads together maybe we can think of any Algebraliens that are locked in a cell, presumably, by other Algebraliens. I think at one point both One and Three were kept in cells, but as of now only Three remains imprisoned.
Many have speculated that Three closing their own cell is telling that they wish to finish their sentence due to the guilt of their actions, and I agree, and I think those actions were them being one half of the duo known as Thirteen. (One half of 13 is 3, you heard it here first folks!.)
But One is a lot more bold. They're not content with being held down or people having more power than them. Being a part of Thirteen came with it this great power which they wish to return to. And besides, as long as someone is staffing their jail cell, that's just one more person to manipulate.
But who did she manipulate? The answer may surprise you, but it also may not, I don't know how many people actually watched the subscriber milestone videos.
In the video "Thanks for 1,000,000 subscribers!" at 7:50, we see Seven say this:
Seven considers One to be their BFF, presumably standing for "Best Friend Forever". Now, Seven as a character has been consistently portrayed as having no friends at all. In the song "Counting on Christmas" sung by the Algebraliens, Seven explicitly states that they "really, really, really want some friends".
Seven is sort of the black sheep of the community, though still, they ARE part of the community. As such, they are also part of the group that decides who is to be in jail, and who is to be free. And if all it takes is the promise of friendship then One escaping that cell was well within her range of capabilities. Who knows, maybe the friendship was in some way genuine, but the end result is the same, Seven let One free and even now sees nothing wrong with their friendship.
So that leaves us with this. One is actively trying to free Three, but Three is still patiently waiting in their cell for their lawful sentence to expire. Which... is kinda what everyone has been saying already, yeah, I'm not exactly the first to theorize that One is trying to free Three. What I am doing however, is laying out how I believe all these puzzle pieces fit together.
#BFDI#TPOT#Algebralian#Algebralians#BFDI TPOT#BFDI One#BFDI Three#BFDI Seven#TPOT One#TPOT Three#TPOT Seven#One BFDI#Three BFDI#Seven BFDI#One TPOT#Three TPOT#Seven TPOT#BFDI Theory#TPOT Theory#TPOT Thirteen#BFDI Thirteen#Thirteen TPOT#Thirteen BFDI#One#Three#Seven#Thirteen#Oh also there's the fact that fourteen is the number closest to thirteen with an actual speaking role in any video#Which makes me think that maybe its meant to hint that the thirteen duo was locked up at the same time
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Hiii!!! Omll I js came across your page few days ago, love the way you write the Characters!! I was wondering if I could request a Vin Jin x reader, in general just fluff and goofing off like two mischievous idiots, and Mary having to deal with their bs a lot. Also could you include Reader and Mary bonding time like I feel like they would honestly be best of friends!! 😭
If you picked this up thank you so muchhh and don't forget to take care of yourself and stay hydrated! 🫶
karaoke night ╏ vin jin + mary kim
𝄞 summary: your karaoke night with mary takes a chaotic turn.
𝄞 details: fluff, f! reader, won't make sense if you haven't read jacedaichi case files arc!
𝄞 wc: 780
𝄞 A/N: anon! thanks for being so nice 💘 hope you like it :)
the plan had been simple. you and mary, a chill karaoke night, a fun time.
until vin jin finds out, of course.
“are you kidding me? karaoke again? i’m a rapper. i’m basically built for this” he boasts. “you’re welcome for blessing you girls with my skills”
now, here he is, sitting on the couch in the private room with an air of importance.
mary sighs. “...this was supposed to be relaxing”
vin jin scoffs. “relaxing is listening to me rap. instead we’re stuck here listening to amateur hour”
you roll your eyes, flipping through the song list. “you talk a lot for someone who can’t rap on beat”
vin jin slams his hand on the table dramatically. “what did you just say? i’ll have you know my skills are—”
“trash” you say, cutting him off. “anyway mary, how do you feel about singing illusion? it's my favourite DG song!”
mary’s eyes light up. “mine too! let's do it!”
as the music starts playing, you and mary grab the mics, your voices completely off pitch, but enthusiastic nonetheless.
vin jin winces, sinking deeper into the couch — as if your singing physically hurts him.
“this is painful. how does DG even make money? they should put my songs on here instead. then you’ll see what real talent sounds like”
you smirk, lowering your mic. “your talent? you mean the ability to make everyone’s ears bleed?”
mary stifles a laugh as she tries to focus on singing.
vin jin grits his teeth. “you’re just jealous of my raw skill!”
“oh...i'll show you some raw skill alright” you shoot mary a devilish grin and select a new song.
mary’s eyes widen in horror as she sees the title. “no...you wouldn’t. stop! you know what’ll happen!”
vin jin looks confused, his eyes darting between you two. “what’s the big deal? what did she—”
the instrumental to duke’s song starts playing.
he freezes. “you…you bitch!”
to mary’s resigned disappointment — vin jin can’t stop himself.
“You look like you're an aboker, Y'all just clueless!” he barks the lyrics into the mic, standing up abruptly.
vin jin moves involuntarily to the beat, his body already betraying him.
you cackle hysterically. “oh my god, he’s doing it! he’s twerking again!”
“shut up! i can’t stop!” he shouts as his hips shake — quite aggressively.
mary watches in disbelief. “...stop twerking” she mutters.
for just a moment, mary finds herself thinking about the old days in cheonliang. the teasing, the laughter — it felt…familiar. she didn’t say it, but the sight fills her with something warm.
after some more singing (and vin jin refusing to acknowledge he’d ever twerked), the three of you wrap up the night.
vin jin had stalked off, grumbling about how he’d been “set up” and “betrayed by the system,” leaving you and mary walking home together.
“you two are exhausting” she says, though her tone is more amused than annoyed.
“pfft, admit it. watching vin twerk made your whole week” you bump elbows with her.
“watching vin twerk will haunt my whole week” she shoots back.
but mary shakes her head, her smile undeniable. “you guys are so ridiculous, but it’s kind of fun. makes me think of…”
— of her friends back in cheonliang. the teasing, the ridiculous antics, a place where mary felt like she belonged. watching you and vin jin tonight, it almost feels like those days again.
“...yeah?” you ask, noticing her distant look.
mary blinks, snapping back to the present. “nothing” she murmurs. “just thinking”
“about how you can’t wait to sing with me again?” you beam, pleased with yourself.
“...sure, we’ll go with that” she replies dryly.
as you continue down the street, the conversation shifts to lighter topics — what tunes you’d sing next time, why DG suddenly announced his retirement, and if vin would ever admit he likes duke’s songs.
when you reach her house, mary turns to you, her expression soft. “thanks for tonight. it was…nice”
you grin. “you’re welcome. karaoke wouldn’t be the same without you”
mary raises a brow. “you mean it wouldn’t be the same without vin embarrassing himself”
“okay, true. but you make it better! you keep us from being too chaotic” you nod in satisfaction.
mary rolls her eyes, but there's a flicker of genuine gratitude. “someone has to”
you smile warmly at her. “...goodnight, mary”
she gives you a wave, before disappearing inside.
you stand there for a moment in contemplation. you can’t shake the feeling that mary had more to say, but you leave her be.
you tuck the moment away, turning to head home, already thinking of what you could bring to karaoke next time.
divider: @thecutestgrotto
#lookism#lookism manhwa#lookism webtoon#lookism comic#lookism fanfiction#lookism fanfic#lookism fic#lookism fluff#lookism imagines#lookism x reader#lookism x you#vin jin#vin jin lookism#lookism vin jin#jin hobin#jin hobin lookism#vin jin x reader#mary kim#mary lookism#lookism mary kim#lookism mary#kim miru#mary kim x reader
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She Keeps His Shirt, He Keeps His Word
pairing: Frankie Morales x f! reader
This is the final part of the "Complete Mess" series readable here. But definitely also enjoyable as stand-alone.
summary: This is not the way it’s supposed to be, or the time it’s supposed to be. Everything seems wrong. Maybe they will find a way to make it right.
tags: explicit ! 18 + ,unplanned pregnancy, talking of abortion, arguing, angst (lots of it), smut, unprotected PiV, sprinkle of dirty talk, nicknames (hermosa, baby, mi amor, mi vida), inner turmoil, mention of addiction, some (possibly) childhood trauma, social class talk (kind of), did I mention angst?, idiots in love, breakup, established relationship, getting back together, slight pregnancy talk, brief mention of birth, all the feelings, love confessions, ALL THE ANGST, fluff (a tiny bit), soft Frankie, Frankie and his girl, angst and smut
notes: It's happening guys, my series "Complete Mess" is ending and we're finishing like we started with ALL THE ANGST. The title is part of a TS song, thanks to my bestie who suggested the title months ago. If you didn't read the other parts I highly recommend reading them first here and here !!!!
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That’s not how it's supposed to be. This is not how you wanted this to happen.
It’s too soon, too much, not enough.
This should be one of the most important moments in your life, you should overflow with joy but instead you stare at the second line wishing it’d disappear.
Fucking fuck.
It’s been two weeks since your encounter with Frankie in the club, two weeks since you got back together.
Five days since your period should’ve started. You’ve taken three tests, all with the same outcome.
One unmistakingly has the word “Pregnant” on it. Pregnant, as in, a little life growing inside of your womb. It feels like a sick joke. A twisted turn of events.
You sink to the ground, the last test still in hand as tears start to blur your vision.
Your head feels like it’s spinning, the weight of it all threatening to crush you.
You feel numb, but at the same time you feel every emotion imaginable.
Anger, frustration, fear, sadness, all mixed up in a dangerous maelstrom of feelings.
You wanna scream, but you also wanna say nothing at all.
Your hands are shaking as you start to sob and the test hits the ground with a noise.
This is rock bottom, you think. You’ve hit the ground, both figuratively and literally.
How the hell could this happen?
How could you have been so careless ?
You’re almost 28. You should’ve known better.
You curl up in a ball, trying to soothe yourself but it’s to no use.
Your sobs shake your whole body and your head is so loud, screaming at you.
The chaos of voices inside you raging.
One voice is clear, overpowering all others. It’s repeating one simple thing, a name, one thing you can’t mistake for anything else.
Frankie.
You pull yourself together and frantically search for your phone.
You finally find it on the sink, the lockscreen of it like a punch to your gut.
It’s you and him, happy, in love, with not a care in the world. A fragment of happiness you both long for so much, but never be able to reach fully.
Tiny glimpses of it scattered through your mess of a relationship.
With still shaking hands you dial his number and he picks up on the third ring, your stomach dropping.
“We have to talk,” you simply state. “Can you come over?”
“Sure, hermosa. Everything alright?” The worry in his voice is palpable and you feel like you suffocate on the sob that leaves your throat.
“I don’t know… Just come here, okay ?”
“I’m on my way,” he says with conviction and the line goes dead.
Only twenty minutes later the front door opens. He’s let himself in with the spare key you gave him a while back.
His brows are furrowed in confusion, his dark eyes scanning the room for you in the dim light.
“I am here,” you say quietly, standing in your small kitchen with a glass of water in your hand.
“Baby?” he hesitantly asks as he steps closer to you. You don’t need to look up to feel his questioning eyes on you. “You scared the shit outta me on the phone… What is going on?”
Without saying a word you point towards the kitchen counter where the three pregnancy tests lie, offensively all spelling out the same result.
You don’t dare to look up. You’re not strong enough for whatever reaction he’s having.
You expect the same emotions you experienced just minutes ago.
But as Frankie stays threateningly silent, definitely uncharacteristic for him, you turn around to watch him look at the objects on the counter.
His dark brown eyes are analytical, searching and possibly confused.
His brows lift up high before he looks at you. His gaze flickering from your stomach to your face, gauging your own reaction before there’s a wide smile spreading over his face and it throws you off way more than any anger could.
Is he… happy?
“Is this real?” he asks and you scoff.
“I peed on three of these dumb sticks, so I’d say so.”
His smile only widens as he closes the distance between you and lifts you up, swirling you around like you weigh nothing as he exclaims, “We’re gonna have a baby!!” and his voice is so full of genuine joy it makes your stomach twist.
You wrap your arms around his neck but your energy definitely doesn't match his.
“Wait- You are.. Are you happy?”
“Of course I am happy! We’re having a baby, mi amor! This is probably the best thing that’s ever happened to me.” He takes a short breath and then adds, “Besides meeting you of course,” he laughs and the corners of your mouth twitch in the slightest hint of a smile.
You wish you could mirror his excitement.
But you can’t.
“Frankie, I–” You break off and pat his biceps to signal him to let you down again so he obliges and you take a small step back.
“I don’t know if… If I wanna keep it.”
His facial expression switches from joy to pure shock instantly, his eyes darkening.
“What?”
You suddenly feel so small under his intense gaze.
“What do you mean you don’t know if you wanna keep it?”
You can’t look at him so you focus your gaze on the wall, on the kitchen counter that serves as your breakfast table. Anything other than his face.
“I am not ready to be a mom,” you mumble.
“Nobody is ever really ready for this,” he objects and you sigh in response.
“You still struggle with the whole drug stuff…”
“I’ve been clean for weeks and you know that.”
“Yeah, but what if you relapse? Then what? I can’t take care of a newborn alone.”
He frowns heavily at this.
“You won’t have to do it all by yourself. I am here and I will be with you every step of the way.”
“Your job?”
“I’ll quit.”
“We’re already struggling to make ends meet as it is, Frankie. Now imagine a baby on top of that. All the diapers, clothing, furniture,…” you drift off, trying your best to reason with him.
He crosses his arms in front of his chest, his face hardening, taking on the defense.
“You’re just searching for reasons that this won’t work out. You’re not even considering it, are you?”
Ouch.
“Frankie, I–”
But he stops you by lifting his hand.
“Look, my parents were immigrants. We never had much but there was still nothing lacking, most of all there was love. Love, baby. That’s what created this new life in the first place…”
You scoff.
“You mean your childhood in poverty was worth it because of all the love? Love isn’t enough, Frankie. It doesn’t pay the bills and it doesn’t feed another mouth.”
He looks at you as if you hurt him. His sad soulful eyes make you regret your harsh words instantly.
“Besides,” you add, “I don’t know if you remember but I also come from a lower class family with a single mom. I remember vividly all the times I had to go to bed on an empty stomach. I don’t want this for a child. Nobody deserves that.”
His mouth opens but you interrupt him before he can speak up.
“And don’t tell me about how this formed you as a person, how it made you resilient. That’s romanticizing. I don’t want our child to experience the same shit.”
He runs a hand over his face in frustration.
“Fine. But you’re not alone in this. I am here and I will do anything to give you and the baby a good life.”
Your eyes narrow on him.
“Yeah? How’re you planning to do this? Taking another of these risky and highly illegal jobs?”
He frowns again.
“No, smart-ass, I will look for a steady job. One with decent pay.”
You snort sarcastically.
“Yeah, right. Because your criminal record is so clean!”
The moment the words leave your mouth you realize it was a low blow, even for you, but it’s too late to take it back now. He looks hurt, defeated and lost as he looks at you.
“Why did you tell me about this when you already decided to get rid of it?”
“I haven't decided yet. I just…"
You don’t even know how to finish the sentence.
He takes a few steps back, pacing around the kitchen, the gears visibly rattling in his head.
“What can I do to convince you to prove that I’m serious about changing?”
“Frankie, I know you’re trying.”
“Yes, I am trying. And I will try harder because I have a reason. A reason to do better.”
He’s sounding so sincere and confident that for a millisecond you dare to dream about the three of you as a family. Maybe a life in a little condo apartment. Or even something with a backyard, so the tiny human can have a sandbox to play in and their own puppy. But reality catches up faster than you’d like and you’re reminded why this won’t work out, no matter how much you want it to.
“Look, if things were different I’d be over the moon given the prospect of having a baby with you. Yet, in this life, you know as well as I do that the circumstances we’re in right now are far from ideal to start a family. We just got back together-”
“And?” “And, given our history it’s only a matter of time until we fight and break up again. You know how it goes.” “I would never leave you alone with a baby. You’re thinking that lowly of me ?”
You immediately shake your head no.
But Frankie already tenses up as the words begin to spill, every one of them more hurtful than the other.
“You’re thinking I am a lost cause, right? Doomed to repeat his own mistakes again and again and too dumb to learn a lesson for good. Is that it?” His voice is trembling with emotion and you feel like the biggest douche.
You open your mouth to say something, but Frankie interrupts you.
“You claim you love me, that you’re proud of me for even the small victories but still you treat me like a damn child, wrapping me in bubble wrap afraid I might implode first chance I get. But let me tell you, I am trying. I am working so hard to be a man deserving of your love. Showing up, going through withdrawal, even considering therapy and all you do is think of me as the big screw-up, worth less than the dirt under your shoe.”
You feel hot tears building in the corners of your eyes.
“Frankiiiieee…” you whine but he shakes his head, his expression hard and unapproachable.
The warmth in his eyes is gone.
“For you I’m just an idiot who’s in love with you but to me you’re all that matters, all I ever think about. The reason why I do all of this crap because hell, it’s fucking hard. But I constantly think about you, about your pretty smile and your soft words whenever I feel I am not strong enough. And now you’re standing here in front of me, telling me you’re pregnant with my child and you don’t wanna keep it because, still, after everything I’ve done I am not good enough, not worthy enough for you and it fucking hurts.”
You’re speechless for a moment, his monologue hitting you like a ton of bricks, taking your breath away so you just look at him, taking him in. His brokenness, his sadness and all you wanna do is to hug him, make this right. Do him right, like he deserves. But you can’t. Maybe the two of you were never meant to last anyway, maybe your fate was already sealed long before this moment in time. Your heart breaks the longer you look at him and you’re surer than ever of your decision.
You are both too broken to be parents. Too caught up in your own wreckages that calls itself life. You can’t bring a baby into this. A life whose survival depends solely on the two of you, each struggling themselves to stay afloat.
As your gaze finds his again, every emotion you’re feeling is mirrored in his eyes. You inhale sharply before you step towards him to wrap your arms tightly around his midsection and he holds you close, his face nuzzled in your hair, placing tiny soft kisses on your neck.
You’re equally searching for comfort in each other, even though you’re each other's reason for breaking in the first place.
“I am sorry,” you mumble, your voice muffled against the fabric of his shirt.
You feel him shaking his head, hugging you just a little bit tighter, his face in the crook of your neck. All your broken pieces squeezed together even if only for this moment.
You feel whole, you always do. His arms are your home and nothing beats the feeling of his body heat enveloping you and making you feel like maybe it’s all gonna be okay. His familiar scent fills your nostrils, so earthy and musky, so unmistakingly him, you’ll never tire of it. Sleeping in his worn shirts is the closest you have to tranquility when your mind is troubled yet again and you want to forget the woes of the world.
Eventually Frankie nuzzles his face against your ear, placing a feathery kiss against the sensitive spot behind it before his mouth wanders along the side of your neck and in a habit you tilt your head to give him better access, your hands finding his tousled locks which is always his weakness.
“Frankie…” you mewl, your voice already betraying you. “What are you doing?”
He smiles against the skin of your neck before he whispers hoarsely, “Let me have this. Please, hermosa…”
You shake your head but it’s a weak attempt at protest.
You could never say no to Frankie, no matter the circumstances.
The two of you attract each other like magnets. Never really complete without the other.
He gently pushes you towards the kitchen counter until the back of your legs are reaching the edge and you sweep the fucking test off the countertop before you hop onto it, not caring where they land. It’s not as if they would change anything now. His hands immediately find your hips as he stands between your legs and continues his assault on your neck. His mouth explores every bit of your skin taking his time before he helps you take off your shirt over your head and his mouth immediately latches back onto your skin, sponging hot open-mouthed kisses on your now exposed chest.
Your every nerve ending is already on fire at this point as you eagerly open the zipper of his jeans and pull it down so it hangs onto the back of his knees, quickly followed by his black boxer briefs. Your hand finds his hardened member, pumping him a few times to which he answers with a hiss at the mere feeling of your hand around him. You kiss him messily, swallowing his moan as you keep stroking him, his hips bucking into your hand.
One of his hands finds your hair, tangling in it to deepen the kiss, pulling your head back a bit and making you moan. The whole thing is a mess of tongues and teeth at this point and you don’t even remember the last time you were kissed like this.
“Take this off,” he commands as he tugs at your shorts and you lift your hips so he can pull them down, revealing nothing underneath.
His hand that was on your hip just moments ago finds your center, already wet and leaking for him and he hums in appreciation. “Always so ready for me,” he purrs as he sucks at your neck again, coaxing the neediest moan out of you as his hand simultaneously starts to explore your folds. His thumb on your clit drawing circles paired with the slightest bit of pressure before two of his digits sink into you and you gasp in response, your hand pulling at his shirt in a desperate attempt to hold onto something.
“Fucking beautiful,” he praises as his fingers curl inside of you and find the spot that makes you see stars instantly.
“Frankie, please,” you whimper frenziedly.
“I know, baby. I know,” as he places another, now way softer kiss on your neck, before he tilts your chin with his free hand and with the other guiding his cock towards your entrance.
“Look at me, I want to see you when I fuck you like this.”
His goddamn fucking filthy mouth.
You just nod and without another word he pushes into you, torturously slow at first, your eyes still locked and you feel like your whole body burns up with need.
You wrap your legs tightly around him as he’s bottoming out, giving you a moment to adjust to him, taking him as deep as you can.
He starts moving because you start wiggling impatiently, his hands on your hips as he pushes in and out of you.
This feels different, even if you can’t quite pinpoint why. It feels like a confession and a redemption at the same time. Like he knew all along how this would end.
You let your bodies talk and explain where words aren’t enough as your lips find his again, your hands slightly pulling at his hair as you keep kissing him like you’re drowning and he mirrors it perfectly. Without even noticing tears start streaming down your cheeks as he picks up the pace and fills you completely, satiating the void only he can fill.
As he notices the tears on your face he stills for a moment, his brown eyes full of worry.
“Are you okay?” he asks, brushing a strand of hair out of your face. “No,” you breathe and you’re not able to look him in the eye so you bury your face in his neck.
“Did I hurt you?”
You shake your head.
How can you explain to him that this feels like a goodbye?
“Don’t stop,” you whine, your voice thin.
You can feel his hesitation, his hand gently caressing the back of your head but you can’t look at him, you simply can’t or it will shatter you completely.
“Please. Frankie.” Are the only two words to make him nod and start moving again.
It doesn’t take long for the two of you to find your release and you would lie if it doesn’t feel like coming home, like this is supposed to be like this, two people connected in the simplest but also most powerful way. He pants against your collarbone, trying to take back some control over his breathing again. You just hold him tight, your hands caressing his back gently as you place a kiss on his hair, inhaling his scent.
But then something changes, the softness of the afterglow gone as he lifts his head, his dark brown eyes boring into yours.
“This is it, isn’t it?”
You frown, not exactly grabbing the magnitude of his question, but you nod as tears blur your vision once again. He shakes his head, lost for words himself as he puts his clothes back on and hands you your clothes as well.
The silence is heavy between you, so much to say but there are no words to pinpoint how you think or feel right now.
“I wish things were different,” you finally say quietly. “Yeah, me too,” he answers shortly, way too distant given the fact how close you two were mere moments ago.
“I am sorry.”
“That’s not enough,” he retorts, his voice hoarse.
You lower your gaze as you finally hop off the counter to put your bottoms back in their place.
He walks towards the front door, his steps heavy and you follow him mindlessly. You don’t want him to leave, but open the door for him, both of you standing in the doorway now. You look in his direction, but you don’t look at him, as he looks outside. There weren’t any clouds earlier but it has started to rain and it’s literally pouring now.
How fitting, you think to yourself.
His gaze shifts towards you again before he takes a step towards you, his big hand resting on your cheek, his thumb caressing it and makes you look at him for a long moment, really look at him.
Are you trying to memorize his features or is he trying to memorize yours, you wonder and try to give him a weak smile before leaning more into his touch and kissing his wrist.
“I love you, mi amor. I always will, no matter what.”
You take a shuddering breath before answering with a shaky voice, “I will always love you too, Frankie.”
You watch him leave, the rain soaking his clothing, drenching him completely in the time it takes him to reach his car, he takes one last glance towards your front door before you close it, sinking down on the linoleum floor and drowning in your own tears as the sky mirrors your agony.
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Abortions aren’t glamorous and they aren’t easy.
The whole process is longer than you’ve thought it would be and all the questions are draining.
Is the father involved? Did you ever have an abortion before? When was your last period? Were you sexually active in the last four weeks? Did you have sex without contraceptive?
You grumble slightly to yourself while filling out the questionnaire. You didn’t tell anyone about this, because you were convinced you’re fine on your own.
But as your gaze drifts around the waiting area you see that almost everyone brought someone along and you feel more lonely than you ever did before.
Your leg impatiently bounces up and down and without giving much thought you cover your stomach with your palm, lowering your gaze and whisper, “No worries, little bean. We’ll be fine.”
As you look back up again you pray that no one heard you talking to yourself.
What the fuck was this? You talked to this little bundle of cells like it could hear you.
You clearly lost your mind, finally.
As you look back onto the paperwork again, your vision starts to blur and a single tear drops onto the paper. You’re caught off guard. Why are you so damn emotional all of a sudden?
In that instant you wish for one thing only.
Frankie being here with you.
He would hold your hand, caressing your back in soothing circles and tell you he’s here for you.
Shit.
You miss him more than you’d like to admit.
You fish your phone out of your pocket, your thumb hovering over his contact.
What are you even going to say?
“Hey Frankie, I sit at the abortion clinic and guess what, I am not so sure anymore. Did you know their heart starts beating at 6 weeks? A whole fucking heartbeat…”
“I know,” a familiar voice suddenly ringing in your ear.
“Frankie?” you ask back, still in disbelief that you really called him absentmindedly.
“Hey,” he chuckles softly through the speaker and your heart skips a beat.
“Hey yourself.. Sorry, that was… I don’t know what that was.”
“It’s alright,” he assures you, although you are pretty sure it isn’t but you can picture him smiling faintly.
“I sit here all alone filling out that damn questionnaire and I swear I never felt more alone than I do now and all I wished for was…” You can’t finish that sentence, because if you’d do, you’d give in. To him, to everything you desperately fought for to forget, trying to not feel anymore.
But the second you heard his voice it felt like all reason flew out the window. Your mind subconsciously decided for you.
“I wished you were here with me, holding my hand,” you press out of your lips, your voice nothing more than a whisper.
“You want me to accompany you?”
“No. Yes… Urgh, I don't know,” you stumble over your own words.
There’s a laugh at the other end.
“Make up your mind, hermosa.”
And in this very moment you do. You see clearer than you did in weeks.
Him kissing your baby bump, massaging your feet when they’re too swollen to walk on.
You painting the walls in the spare room, him admiring you and stating you’re glowing, even if you feel like a damn whale.
Him with your baby in his arms, rocking it gently, soothing it back to sleep and your heart hurts, it physically hurts to even think about it because you long for it, you crave this new life more than anything else.
“I did. I have,” you finally say. “We’re having a baby, Morales.”
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9 months later you’re giving birth to a baby girl. The perfect mix of both of you. His dark brown curls crowning her tiny head and your bright eyes looking back at you.
Her first cry is powerful, announcing her arrival, taking her rightful space in this world and you never saw something as perfect as the baby that rests on your chest.
Frankie is a crying mess next to you full of pride as he kisses your hair.
“You did so good, mi vida,” he praises and his voice is nothing more than a muffled whisper against your hair before you start to cry yourself.
“She is beautiful,” you say in awe as you take her teeny tiny hand in yours, kissing it gently.
“Almost as beautiful as you are,” Frankie whispers, watching his two girls with nothing but tenderness.
You feel like you’re exploding with love, your heart suddenly living outside of your body and you swear to yourself no matter what, your daughter will have a good life.
One worth remembering. She’s the center of your universe now and as you tilt your head to Frankie you smile softly, leaning against him.
“We’re a family, Frankie,” you say as your voice chokes up with all the emotions.
“We always were, but now we’re parents too,” he answers and the weight of his words hangs heavy in the air. But you’re not afraid of the responsibility anymore.
You are happy, truly happy because for the first time in your life you feel like you’re exactly where and who you need to be.
my masterlist in case you’re hungry for more :)
#frankie morales#triple frontier#francisco morales#frankie catfish morales#fanfiction writer#berryfiction#frankie morales x you#frankie morales x reader#fem reader#triple frontier fanfiction#frankie morales fanfiction#smut#x reader#one shot#angst#angst with a happy ending#all the angst#pedro pascal characters
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Thank you for the tags @starshower1215 and @storiesofaot!! I just realised this is the same post I rebloged months ago, it came back to me in a full circle lol. Well I've done it before but there's no harm in doing it again
Three Ships You Like: Levihan of course, love it so much, you can pry this obsession out of my cold dead hands. Other than this... well I've never been much into shipping so there's only a handful of others i could pick from. So that would include Eremika and Damianya
First Ship Ever: I'm pretty sure it was Locklyle
Last Song You Heard: "Wolf in Sheep's Clothing" by Set It Off has been going on repeat for a long while lol. I found a random animatic on it that was so cool and then I couldn't stop listening
Favourite Childhood Book: Never can choose. There's just so many lol, Harry Potter cuz maybe it was the first proper novel I read (and began one of my own soon after - child me was ambitious), or His Dark Materials was an amazing read too. I'm still in awe of how that trilogy was written. "A Wrinkle in Time" was also one of the unforgettable ones. I know I'm naming a whole list here, but the point is I can't choose 😭 they've all been precious to me
Currently Reading: My notes lmao. Or the fic I'm writing.
Currently Watching: Nothing in particular
Currently Consuming: Loads of fresh air and freshly squeezed orange juice 😋
Currently Craving: A bonfire, a game of badminton and a nice picnic - in short all the things i can't have right now lol
Tagging if you wanna
@sunflowersunite @dont-f-with-moogles @this-is-krikkit @wanderlustqueen-writes @youre-ackermine @seamsterspell and anyone else who'd like to join!
Thank you for the tag @thistlecatfics :D
3 ships you like: Sirius/Severs is a very loved favourite. Fenrir/Alphard is a personal headcanon, and for some non-Harry Potter: Niki/Joe from The Old Guard will always have my heart
First ship ever: Niki/Joe brought me to writing fanfic, before them I mostly did OCs.
Last song you heard: I'm all shook up from Elvis. We are in our "teach the kids some good music fundamentals"phase.
Favourite childhood book: Astrid Lindgren's Ronia, the Robber's Daughter - such a beautiful book to teach kids about tolerance, acceptance and about making their own decisions
Currently reading: Terry Pratchett - the collected books :)
Currently watching: I am a bit in between because I just finished "The law according to Lidia Poet" a beautiful Italian series - obscure but absolutely worth it (give it a try if you can)
Currently consuming: lemon white chocolate cookie, super unhealthy but good for the soul
Currently craving: the next ball room dance. I will have to wait a whole year and it was so perfect yesterday
I tag @squintclover , @soloorganaas, @tracingpatternswrites, @metalomagnetic AND @meteoralinart
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its ma birthday! my gift to u are some of my fave quotes I've gathered from tlou fanfics!!
suitcase full of stars - @barlowstreet
"Three out of ten," he says, picking her hands up and rubbing them between his. "You're rating my bite?" she wheezes in disbelief. It's the first thing she's said besides apologies since they got to the hospital. "Didn't even break skin. You could do better.
one of my absolute fave foster fics!! and between such whump, this made me giggle.
A hopeful stranger - @two-birds-alone-together
A long-suffering sigh "I swear you were born contrary." "Nope." Joel glares at her as she waggles her eyebrows at him. "It's a finely honed skill, Joel. I've had a lifetime of practice. You'll never be as contrary as me." She grins up at him, giggling when he takes the now-empty mug from her hands. Joel snorts. "Now that I believe."
I <3 book shop AU, I also quote this particular one to myself DAILY
Oh mirror in the sky, what is love? - @boopernatural
"Joel." she sets her fork down and turns to face him, expression ultra-serious. "I solemnly swear not to get black out drunk, or have sex, or break anything valuable. I may do a bunch of drugs, it just depends on what they offer me." "Downers if we're lucky," he says, going back to his breakfast. "What does that mean?" "It means finish your eggs."
when I tell you i CACKLED
Ellie Williams' guide to teenage rebellion - @simoncowellstits
"You don't get to talk fake lawyer." she crosses her arms. "you're supposed to be winning my fucking legal case so I don't need to hang out with Kim anymore! No offence, Kim." "None taken." Kim says from her position near the door.
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'questions about J-Dog.' do he and Tommy shit-talk me? did he forget how to laugh and/or smile in a terrible amnesia incident? does he know a lot of facts about the cold war or is that just his vibe? what makes him so grumpy? Is it just an old age thing? why is he so weird all the time??? why can't he just act normal and choose a personality? why does he care if I told frank I couldn't have sex with my vampire boyfriend on their honeymoon because he was too freaky with it??
This whole fic is so damn funny. In between some of the most heart wrenching story and crazy realistic characterisation I found myself in tears of laughter. I also quote the twilight reference almost daily.
Let me be your shelter - @messydepressy95
Not to be dramatic or anything, but she's a child of divorce.
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Still, Joel continues to teach her to drive, and Tommy keeps inviting himself to their lessons.
BEST ONE LINERS IN THIS FIC
Inordinary - @heroes-fading
"Mhm," Ellie nods. "That's why every love song you've ever written has been depressing as fuck. All the mutual-ness."
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"Just because it isn't seventy percent oat milk doesn't make it shitty, Ellie." "Thats homophobic," she tells him, and he rolls his eyes again.
the inordinary-verse is full of incredible quotes SO FUNNY
Lessons in wayfinding - @penandinkprincess
"Why so fucking nosy about it?" "Fatal flaw, I'm afraid," he says with a theatrical sigh. "Ask Joel. I had all the good gossip at family reunions."
Uncle Tommy is the root of most of my day to day happiness.
ANYWHO! I have so many more of these quotes saved, you'll never know when I'll strike again.
Pls lmk if you want me to remove a tag or quote <3
#tlou fanfiction#ellie tlou#i love fanfic writers#joel tlou#the last of us#tlou#tlou fic#ao3 fanfic#ellie williams#joel miller#uncle tommy
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biting tearing ripping killing
#i need good omens the musical to come out at some point please#i'll wait and i'm fine waiting but if i think about it too hard i'll explode into a pile of fish#i have one (1) line from the song 'i don't want to go to heaven' and i'm nuts about it I WANT TO HESR THE FULL SONNGGGGGGG#it's gonna make me fucking crazy#whenever this musical releases an album im gonna be a monster im gonna be so fucking annoying you guys i'll be unbearable#good omens#bluebird.txt#i obv haven't seen it but musical! aziraphale my beloved. ultimate bitch ultimate bastard#also fun fact for anyone who doesn't know about the musical: crowley and aziraphale also have a breakup a la season 1!#very fun they have the scene up there on their website it's so goooddddfdd#they also have three whole songs on there#so much fun#i love all living things it's so so so good and funny and just perfect honestly
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remember when I did this?
well I did more
#deltarune#crossover#heathers#noelle holiday#kris dreemurr#pizzapants#susie deltarune#nooses tw#blood tw#suicide tw#hanging tw#death tw#art tag#first three were actually done a year ago but i never finished the fourth one until now#partially bc Background Hard but also i was like 'this might be too dark actually'#my friends were like its heathers of course its dark and then i showed them the sketch and they were like oh that IS dark#whatever its done i did it#ALSO this is important some people were confused with this last time: these are based on the MOVIE not the musical#like literally these are screenshot redraws from the movie but with dr characters lol#important bc since the musical makes betty and martha a composite character and in the movie theyre two different girls#and i wouldnt have put susie in the role of martha in the context of the musical. i probably would choose catti for that#and im also. not that fond of the musical. on the whole. for reasons#i do have like five of the songs from it on my showtunes playlist though LMAO#i may not agree with the story and characterization choices but i cant deny bangers
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Okay, let's finally talk about EPIC's Apollo
I feel very compelled to say, first of all, that I do not dislike Epic. In fact, I am very fond of Epic and have been following its production and status very eagerly! I attend all the launch streams, I watch all of Herrans' update videos; I am, at the end of the day, a fan and I want it to be known that my words are spoken out of love and passion as much as they are spoken from a place of critique.
So really, what my problem with Epic's Apollo?
In the briefest possible terms; the choice to have Apollo be defined by his musical aspect in God Games is thematically strange. And not in the 'oh well in the Odyssey, Apollo was important to Odysseus and his family so it's weird that that wasn't kept in Epic' strange, strange in the sense that Odysseus' character arc since My Goodbye has been getting more and more obviously Apollonian and so it is positively bizarre that when we get to meet Apollo, the god seems entirely disinterested in him and his affairs. So much so that he is not even defined by any station that would indicate that he has been watching over and protecting Odysseus and his family.
What do I mean by 'Odysseus has been following an Apollonian arc'? I'm so glad you asked!
Remember Them is the last song in which Odysseus explicitly uses his sword until Mutiny where he must use it to defend himself against Eurylochus' blade. He uses it to help enact the plan to conquer Polyphemus and, due to Polites dying in that battle, Polites who wished for Odysseus to put the blade down entirely and embrace a post-war life, Odysseus also retires his sword. This is an action that symbolically separates him from Athena - and the image of Odysseus as a traditional warrior set for him in Horse and Infant - as much as My Goodbye physically separates him from the goddess and her war-ways - from this point onwards, Odysseus will no longer be leaning on Athena's wisdom or methods to solve his problems. Likewise, he will no longer be able to rely on her protection.
Odysseus thusly solves most of his upcoming problems through diplomacy and avoidance. He approaches Aeolus - a strange and ambiguous god (both in gender and in motivation) and appeals to them for help. Circe too, he approaches not with wishes to conquer or for revenge, but for the safe returning of his men and an alternate way forward. In all of these scenarios, there is some Apollonian element which is subtly interweaved alongside the influence of other gods; it is with a bow and arrows that Polyphemus' sheep is slain (and thus it is this Apollonian element which is at the root of Odysseus' spat with Poseidon), it is a vision of Penelope that warns Odysseus that his men are about to open Aeolus' wind-bag, Circe's peace offering to Odysseus is to refer him to a prophet of Apollo who has since died.
In this way, Apollo is walking alongside Odysseus for all of his journey after Athena departs - even in the Underworld, he is guiding him. It is Tiresias' proclamation that is the last straw for Odysseus, it is by the power of a mouthpiece of Apollo that Odysseus decides to embrace his ruthlessness. It is with the bow and arrow that Odysseus subdues the siren who sought to trick him, likewise, Odysseus does not attempt to undermine or escape the fate of paying Scylla's passage price - he knows of the doom about to befall the six men and quite unlike the rest of the journey until this point, he does not fight against it. This all comes to a head on Thrinacia where it is a blade which sacrifices the sun god's cow and brings destruction upon the crew once more.
My point with all of this is that when I heard the teasers for God Games years ago, it made perfect sense to me that Apollo would be Round One - he is not Odysseus' adversary and has no reason to oppose Athena's wish to free him. From other teasers about what will happen in the climax of Epic, Apollo will still be walking alongside Odysseus - it is Apollo's bow that Penelope will give the suitors to string. Likewise, it is Apollo's bow that will prove Odysseus' legitimacy and identity. That bow will be the power by which Odysseus hunts his adversaries and cleans out his palace - it is Apollo who is the avatar of Odysseus' ruthlessness, not Athena.
So tell me, truly, what was the point of having Apollo raise a non-argument in God Games? Why have him appear unconcerned, aloof and slightly oblivious? Why have him appear in his capacity as the Lord of Music at all?? And if the intention was never to make Apollo an active player in Odysseus' life like he was in the Odyssey, why keep Odysseus as a primary archer?
The answer of course is that Apollo is inextricable from the fabric of the Odyssey - his influence and favour exudes from Odysseus just as much as Athena's. In Athena's ten year sulk, it would have been Apollo who kept Telemachus and Penelope safe. It would have been Apollo protecting Odysseus from Poseidon's gaze as he travelled the seas (according to the Odyssey anyway)
Forgive me for not being excited about something that I thought was being purposefully set up. I was extremely ecstatic about all of the little Apollonian details that litter the sagas because I know where this story ends up (loosely) but all God Games did was reveal that maybe those Apollonian details were not intentional at all, but merely the ghost of the Apollo who persistently haunts those he favours, even if he cannot explicitly come to their aide in an adaptation.
#ginger rambles#apollo#odysseus#epic the musical#athena#This of course is not mentioning the whole 'in the Odyssey the suitors have been explicitly praying#for Apollo to kill Telemachus so they can have free reign and Apollo is just going 'what's that? I'm sorry I can't hear haters' thing#I'm actually so disappointed by Apollo in God Games because I truly did believe that it was leading up to Apollo and Athena#BOTH being by Odysseus' side in the end#I really like the fandom view that Apollo used the sirens as an excuse because he has nothing against Odysseus#but in order for me to give that any merit there would have needed to be something in the text itself to support that#And Apollo only has the three-four lines which like - in and of itself is crazy#I really wish Apollo and Hephaestus had full verses like Aphrodite/Ares#Or at least a back and forth like Hera#The milquetoast Apollo who is apparently upset about murder but then only took a light rebut for him back down#I'm sorry have you not seen Apollo when he's mad about murder before? He's not that reasonable I promise you#I'm just not going to talk about him being mad about the sirens specifically if I think about that too long I'll get hives#Looking very forward to when Penelope finally gets her song 😭😭😭#Cannot believe you still don't have your song debut my queen the Odysseus economy is also in shambles
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A Saint Bernard sits at the top of the driveway
#peeta mellark#the hunger games#hunger games#thg#got cujo sitting on your driveway... RUN BITCH!#anyway . happy peeniss reunion everyone#god im so out of practice with coloring its crazy#literally ive had this drawing done for three hours and ive just been trying to shade this asshole -__-#trying to negotiate peetas prosthetic based on book descriptions#but theres also no indication that it's removable either so fuck if i know#sorry for another song lyric drawing but this is what inspired to pic so get over it#really have a whole st Bernard peeta amv planned out in my head but thatll never happen so have this instead
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might actually make more about him later but, I had the idea of taking old CJ things & turning them into the Goners from Undertale. just for funsies :}
only have one designs atm but have a sneeb
soooorta made from the old pfp. mainly just the colors
[more stuffs below]
the Goner dialogue i mainly based him off of
[existential warning?? probably?]
and the small bit i plan to make a lil something for if i ever get to it
#i wanna make so many ut & cj related things you dont even know#i need to make the others of these still#idk if ill ever get to making it but also had the idea of an amalgamate from the true lab but its heart & mind#like a sixbones type thing [if thats what it was called its been at LEAST five years i dont remember] but a funky lil goop fusion of em#trying to be whole without actually being whole#ik all three would make sense but#“we'll be combined whether that be dead or alive” after all#if anyone wants to draw that idea. have at it#cos idk WHEN ill even design that#rant over i eepy#is 7:30 am i need to SLEEP#chonny jash#moss post#cj sneeb#cj ut#uhhhh idk what to tag this#i just made up more shit thats vague nd not related to a song#again#if i had a nick for every time i made random lore for the stupid name Sneeb id have 2 nickles#which isn't a lot but i still need to make some god damn ref sheets#[technically 3 but shhh]
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ok, so i just listened to "loom" by imagine dragons, and i'm sorry but i only like three and a half song
#i get it it's experimental but honestly this album is so weird#like first of all why does it only have nine songs?#second of all first half of this album is a trash#i'm sorry but that's how i feel#and they used to be my favourite band but i just have to be honest i don't like the new sound#first song that i actually genuinely liked was in your corner#then gods don't pray because dan's voice sounds really amazing in this one and i love the production#and don't forget me made me cry#especially the “i miss you when you're gone so i wrote you one last song”#we all know who this is about#fire in these hills is also good when it comes to the lyrics and i love the voice crack when he sings “i don't think that i'm strong enough”#and i love the bridge because the production reminds me so much of their old songs#BUT overall i don't like production on this track that much that's why i said previously that i only liked three and a half song#idk#i know nobody asked for this but i wanted to write it anyway so#sorry for being a hater#they used to be my whole world but#things change i guess#imagine dragons#loom#but sincerely can you hear me?*
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So, my family is rewatching Rings of Power, and since I’m the one in the family that read The Silmarillion (like a masochist), I’m the one who keeps getting asked all the questions.
#‘did this happen?’ well broadly speaking yes but Tolkien never fleshed this part of middle-earth’s history out in much detail#but I know exactly where they got the idea for whatever it is most of the time#‘is Galadriel’s husband really dead’ of course not#‘did Sauron ever go by the name Halbrand?’ well not really but also how much time do you have because this is going to take some explaining#‘is that Gandalf?’ almost definitely but they’re doing the blue wizard thing with him by taking him to Rhun#also I think they’re making him the basis for the hobbit’s ’man in the moon’ song so I’m honestly okay with it#‘is the Queen lady’s nightmare significant’ Yes three times over but how am I supposed to say anything about it#without giving away what’s probably a season finale#‘what’s with the mithril?’ Hell if I know I’m as confused as you are about that#actually the Galadriel’s husband one was funny#because of course Celeborn shows up in the movies#but my mom wasn’t sure that was actually her husband#or some random blorbo#or a second husband#which then opened up the whole conversation#to how the elves are painfully monogamous even when their spouse dies#because they way they die is weird and also#they all still have generational and firsthand trauma from the fallout of that one elf guy who did get remarried#rings of power spoilers
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in my feelings again about For Good as a Juniper and Fengling song and I wanna do art about it but I don't know what that would even look like aside from drawing them just kind of standing there gazing at each other, which is, artistically speaking, Nothing,
#many such cases. being an artist with no creativity sucksssss#'what's wrong with drawing them gazing at each other' well I have already done that before you see#like multiple times#like any time I wanna draw anything about them falling in love#because I am stupid#I'd have them clasping hands but. I mean. you know. fengling. she doesn't HAVE--#also like okay the WHOLE song doesn't apply just most of it-- but out of the most of it I'd wanna like. pull specific lines#for the caption or for the art itself#but there are at LEAST three and it's like-- okay do I put those into the art? like a lyric comic? do I do more than one drawing#IS IT A SERIES OF SLIGHTLY DIFFERENT DRAWINGS OF THEM GAZING AT EACH OTHER? BUT WITH LYRICS ON??#THAT'S NOTHIIIIING#WAAAUUUGHH#about me#fengling and june#my OCs#juniper
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