#these ppl sitting around talking about this like there is no solution

[aibidil]

Current situation where I live in a “great” school district in the US of A in 2023:

School cannot hire bus drivers. No one will take the job. (Honestly GOOD FOR HER!) (Pay a living wage!)

Whenever a bus driver calls out sick, a busload of kids isn’t getting to/from school on time. I know someone whose kid’s school ended at 2:30 and they got home at 5, hours late. This kid is like 7.

School district hired a consulting firm to come up with ideas about out how to solve this problem. (Pay a living wage.)

Now they’re all “Here are our options. We can make half the schools start early so that the buses can make two trips.” (This option would put the bus arrival time before 6am for some kids.) “We could require all teaching assistants to obtain a commercial driving license before we will hire them.” (?!?!?!?) “We could allow people as young as 18 to drive the school bus.” “We could stop driving some kids (magnet schools and expanded walk zones) to school.”

Pay bus drivers a living wage.

PAY 📢 THEM 📢 A 📢 LIVING 📢 WAGE

Ask a fucking toddler on the street and they will say PAY THEM MORE. Raise the taxes, pay them more.

I just—

[bloomzone]

GLOW UP DIARY : #1.MINDSET IS EVERYTHING

Life is beautiful galaxy be a writer, genre is fantasy what opens up to me tomorrow is a big, big stage so that is who I am

- ive (song : i am )

Hey heeey sparkles...today is the first part of glow up diary "mindset"..so grab ur notebook and let's guaaaar !

by: 𖧷´ bloomzone 𝅄 ׂׅ

#1 MINDSET

First of all bbg ur mindset is more than just a mindset it's a guiding force that influences how you perceive the world, respond to challenges, and ultimately create the life you envision.

THE IDGAF MINDSET IS THE KEY !

﹙ ✿ ﹚they don't like you..they don't like ur style,hair,music taste, interests ? I DON'T CARE YOU ARE YOU I'M ME ! the idgaf mindset is the solution.. everytime someone say something bad about u think and answer like ok and ? Who the fvck care ?. Stop caring about what ppl think about you IT'S YOU VS YOU stop caring about what other say about u . For example if one of ur friends come up to you and say "____ talk sh* about u" don't ask about what that person said abt u it doesn't matter cuz ur life revolve around u and only u. Life become easier once you stop reacting to negativity and that the GOAL cut off friends who bring don't bring u happiness and only bad mood but surround yourself with friends who bring u positivity and motivate you.

TIPS AND HOW TO START BUILDING YOUR OWN MINDSET:

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧ start with listening to podcasts (click here) watch thewizardliz (click here) it will help u so much.💞

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧ break up with friends who hurted you before if they are from ur family distance urself ;)

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧ stop and STOP creating bad scenario on your mind cuz it will effect on ur mood , be positive 🎀

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧ make yourself a propriety act like the person u want to become and always be grateful of what u have rn don't say "why ___ is more popular than me" "why I'm not this pretty?" Cuz this will effect u and u will start overthinking..so be grateful of what u have cuz god have always a better plan for u honey !💌

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧ stay private don't tell ppl ur goal and ur future plan !

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧ don't listen to ppl who will bring u down they choose to hate u let them sit with that feeling it's not ur fault to focus on your self girlie 🎀

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧ start to don't give a sht about what ppl say behind your back stop oversharing ur personal life (this is the big fault ..u should avoid this and trust me pretty that oversharing=problems)

𝜗𝜚 ⊹ ‧just be yourself but with a better mindset cuz u are the only one who know your worth never let anyone costume u or disrespect you "you changed" always say yes for my worth for my future self what do you think u are ? .. if they don't call u, don't respond to ur text put ur phone away go have a good day set boundaries make ppl respect you like if u walk in a room ppl will say "she an unbothered queen fr".You live for yourself sweetie everyone else is second. 💌

ıllı ⠀ : 🎀 i believe in you and you should believe in yourself to make it happen..take care xoxo .

by: 𖧷´ bloomzone 𝅄 ׂׅ ׂׅ ⠀ ♡ ⠀ !!

[lunas-side-anime-blog]

specific icks i think my fav JJK ppl would give me bc the solution to delulu is bullying <3

(yuji, megumi, nobara, gojo, nanami, inumaki, yuta, maki, toji and choso)

Yuji

swears to god he can handle spicy food and I promise you he cannot. like every time you guys get ramen and can choose your spice level he insists on the hottest one but he just ends up sweating and crying by the end of it. he will never learn 🙁

Megumi 

he’s that one person in a group chat who's silent and doesn’t respond or react to anything, but if you kick him out he’d be bitter about it? fucking voyeur, like do you just wanna watch human interaction or are you gonna contribute at some point?😒

Nobara

i think if you’re her friend and her crush walks by, she’d do a full mood shift and suddenly be meaner to you in hopes of making her crush laugh. THERE'S A SPECIAL PLACE IN HELL FOR PPL WHO DO THIS^^

Gojo

gojo just assumes if you tell him something, it’s okay to talk about it like anywhere? he has walked up to you and said, “hey y/n! brought some cranberry juice for you UTI! oh! who are they??😀” and you're literally sitting and talking to your PARENTS. 

Nanami

brags about not having friends as if it’s his choice? listen I love nanami as much as the next girl with daddy issues, but you cannot tell me he'd have any friends. and he’s in denial about it too, he’d say something like, “I just can’t be bothered with such idiots, I’m too busy and smart.” and it's like “...did they even invite you to sit with them babe? who's rejecting who, here? bc sounds like they just don’t like you🫢”

Inumaki

i’m willing to bet money that he does that thing where he clutches his spoon in a fist, ifykyk like I’m cringing just thinking about it. toddler behavior🍼

Yuta

picky eater who lies and says he’s allergic to food he doesn’t like, just bc he's that dead serious about you not bringing pickles around him. he’s committed too like he’ll fake a choking noise and everything. drama queen 👑

Maki

hey mama's lesbian, I’m srry but she is. has one sports bra she wears every. single. day. it’s v questionable bc "babe, when do you wash it??🕵️‍♂️"

Toji

wears the oldest, most torn up boxers like they can be falling apart at the seams with gaping holes in them and he doesn’t see the problem??? 

Choso

thinks he’s so dark and messed up like, “my music will prob scare you” type shit and it’s just Pierce the Veil lmao?

[queeraang]

sometimes, you dislike a piece of media that is very popular and objectively well made. the popularity of it will only make it more annoying to you. now, the solution is not to then comb through a thing you don’t like to see if you can find something problematic to harp on to prove it's actually bad (you will find it, no human being has ever created perfectly inclusive perfectly inoffensive art) that just tanks the vibe and discourages new art because what's the point if it can never be perfect, also sometimes you spin out of control and start accusing people of real life crimes over like... a niche webseries

as someone with over three decades of 'bad taste' under their belt, allow me to guide you on best responses using a real life example of a popular film series, i couldn't give less of a fuck about. the nolan batman trilogy

block, mute, blacklist, whatever you have to do to avoid seeing this thing on your preferred webbed sites

allow yourself a quiet “ugh this shit” when things slip through the cracks

pick a neutral element of the thing to dislike when people ask “i’m not really a batman fan" "i like more lighthearted superhero movies"

when inevitably someone can't BELIEVE you don't LOVE the best thing EVER MADE, you make it boring to talk about "yeah couldn't get into it" "it's just not my thing"

it also helps if you admit that it is good (i'm so sorry) just not good to you. the metaphor i use is gordon ramsey could make the most immaculate mushroom risotto ever made, but it's still not going to taste good if you don't like mushrooms

change the subject/leave the convo. i don't sit around listening to ppl talk about the dark knight, i ignore the gc for a few minutes, i go get a drink irl, if it's one on one i go "no, but you know i did like birds of prey, have you seen that?"

if someone really won't let up, stop talking to them! a guy who always wants to talk about how i should watch batman is a fucking weird guy to know

vent about this with like minded people SPARINGLY, too much and you'll fall down the "and everyone who does like it is morally bankrupt" hole

crucially, don't do this to other people for stuff you like. you're not the arbiter of taste, your "best movie ever" could be someone else's "if i have to hear about that shit again i'll scream"

like i'm sure i could figure out ways the dark knight trilogy is racist/ableist/etc if i really examined it, but like... i would so much rather just NOT WATCH THREE MOVIES I DON'T FUCKING LIKE

[yooniesim]

ok unfortunately for yall the dash made me have a thought so now I gotta ramble lol

but ya know. maybe it's bc I've had so much time away from here and all the bitching (/affectionate) but over the past couple years, I get less angry about this shit and more solution-minded. and I don't mean for the community as a whole (that's impossible lol) but in a sort of... personal circle/responsibility type of way. like what we can do among ourselves without the confrontation aspect bc, just being honest- from my perspective & experience, the anger and the bitching doesn't really accomplish shit. not to say it ain't justified, & it's important to raise awareness for sure, but i swear me & a lot of others that have been talking about this for a long time have just been barking in circles without anything budging one way or another. which leads to burnout/emotional exhaustion not just for the ppl in question but for followers/mutuals/friends. I spent far too long and waaaay too much mental energy thinking that being the loudest and the boldest would get something to change. but the scammers keep scamming and the shit just keeps going. and sure it's fun as hell to shoot the shit and pick and bitch and laugh with your mutuals. baby yall know I love a good simblr circlejerk. but ya know, when you sit down and think about it it's a lil depressing. and the ppl you're talking to/around are already Aware and eventually the anger wears off and they're just tired of hearing about it. you're preaching to the choir and everyone is just pissed and tired with no clear goal to work towards.

Part of that exhaustion is why i made @alwaysfreecc as a positive way to boost always free creators, without focusing on the paywallers. as well as always supporting alternate ways of getting paywalled cc. but I think it takes a lil more than just that. I think, like the post I just reblogged was saying, people need to learn how to make their own content too. I know there's a learning curve, but so many things paywallers make are outright easy to do yourself. Some aren't- there are paywall creators that put great effort into their content and make it worth your money- but a lot of them are. And that isn't to say you should make everything yourself, there's nothing wrong with supporting creators that make content you find interesting or wouldn't want to do yourself, but it can be really rewarding to learn how to make simple edits and recolors on your own. And, image editing and 3d modeling skills can also benefit you elsewhere in life! Whether professionally or when modding other games. Knowing how to make cc in sims helped me figure out how to make certain things for skyrim and fallout, for example. Hell, it's just plain FUN to figure out and do, and I think the community could always use more of that.

Also, sometimes it's freeing to just, stop using certain creators' content. Like, i used to be bitching yet downloading stuff off dhm and shit, out of spite mostly cos half the stuff I didn't even like. But since I cleared out a lot of paywallers' stuff, besides a few I think are worth it/doing things honestly, it just feels better. I don't even think about those mfs anymore until I see something about them on my dash and then I can barely remember who they are lol. You don't realize how much you really don't NEED any of that shit & how you were kinda just downloading it to be downloading it, until you toss it. AND it feels great to have mostly always free creators' content & support them. Liiike i feel proud of ppl i saw get started and are STILL FREE and making awesome stuff, it's exciting! even when I'm not playing the game, I see their posts and be like "dang I need to grab that when I update" or "man they've gotten so much better in so little time" or "wow I never thought of that idea/seen that before". Bc always free peeps get to be so damn creative bc they don't have deadlines or turning off their paying audience to worry about. Like it's so cool and positive and I love that.

idk, just. based on what I've experienced here, i feel like it's kinda time to focus less on what the assholes are doing now (aka the same exact thing they've been doing for years) and more on what to do to make our own personal experiences better. which I know a lot of us are doing! I just wish I personally had done it earlier lol so maybe someone else needs to hear that too. like toss these dummies to the curb and replace them is what I'm sayin. If not in the whole community but just your personal circle. raise awareness as needed sure but don't let em take any more of your energy. cos if you are petty like me (😂) it'll hurt em way more to cast em out than yell at em. all the ppl that have bitched at me yet still have my cc in their folders come to mind lmfao, cos personally that gives me more satisfaction than anything else so I know it's probably the same for the scammers! Like a "you hate me but you can't bear to not use my shit huh 😏" type of deal. Don't give em that sick pleasure! (/projecting) Just focus on you and yours and make some sick ass content for yourself, then share it to me thx 💅

[ma3mae]

No one likes syringes!

Summary : You gotta take your weekly syringe but you're afraid of needles so how can these mfs (Dazai, Kunikida, Atsushi, Aku, Chuuya) convince you to take it 🤷

Genre : bit cracky and fluff, prob lots of teasing bc u know who tf im talking about 💀

Warnings : heartattacks bc we all simp too hard for these men 🛐 maybe a bit of suggestive themes at the end

A/N : managed to inject myself for the first time (aint no drugs, need them bc HEALTH) and bro, my hands r still shaky bc fear 😭 how do ppl do this so easily 💀 also the syringe is like a pen (also for this story) but broo its still scary and i need some bsd character comforting me 😩✋✋

Dazai Osamu

Lets say yall live together and hes at work while u r home alone

cant bring yourself to do it alone bc bro syringes are scary (even if its just a pen bc NEEDLES BRO) 😩😭

So you text him and ask what hes doing and tell him if hes got time to come home asap bc we r nearly crying at this point

hes gonna be SO ANNOYING like "i was just waiting for a text from you~ dont worry, your knight in shining armor will save you"

BROO he prob knew that you gotta take them today and also knew that nothing would be going on at the agency so he couldve stayed at home but nah 😭😭 (sadistic a** fr fr)

but hes still hurrying nonetheless bc hes not that MEAN -right???-

arrives at home and finds you on the couch holding the pen with shaky hands and his heart does feel a TAD bit guilty bc fr he couldve stayed at home and u would have gotten this shit over asap

gon be all like "dw im here now, okay? Lets just get this over with and then we'll cuddle, how about that?"

homegirl is about to cry at this point bc just FREE HER from this misery

sits next down to you and takes the pen from your hands

If you do wanna try it out yourself, he'll gently guide you through it

He knows how afraid you are and teasing would just make you sob instantly bc the pressure is already too much to deal with YEAH U BETTER STFU U TEASE !! jk still love him

will try to change your mind tho by sayinf stuff like "Really? ~ i mean its brave and good of you to try it yourself but I really love helping you, you know. Want to do everything for you, darling." he knows EXACTLY what hes doing to us by saying that

Is prob gonna give us that look and whisper in our ear and shi im sorry im too down bad for this man at this point 😩

if you dont wanna do it yourself then, he'll tell you to look at him while hes pressing the pen onto your thigh or stomach

You still cant keep your eyes off of it? Sry girl, theres only one solution

He'll just click his tounge at you while having that fking smirk on his face as he says "still too distracted, I see? Well seems like theres only one way to help you"

gives you a kiss on the lips and just deepens it while looking STRAIGHT into your eyes got my knees weak for him fr

you only feel a tiny sting and as soon as a "click" is heard, he'll break the kiss and just grins at you as if he didnt trick you lol

but who are you to complain, he sees that you liked it and will def comment on that

"see, love? Wasn't so hard after all. But you still did well. Proud of you as always"

pecks you on the lips again before setting the pen onto the table and wraps his arms around your waist bc NO WAY in hell is he gonna let go after that

"i think i deserve a reward for that~" "you said you were waiting for a text so you KNEW i had to do it today, right?" ".... welp, not gonna apologize on that 🤷🤷🤷"

u can understand why kunikida has to SIGH all the time as soon as dazai opens his mouth but oh well, you're too whipped to care about at this point

wont let you go so guess you'll have to reward him 💅 no ones complaining LOL

if you tell him to help you next time before hes gone for work, he'll def do it bc he loves u but poor kunikida gotta expect him arrive at work late more often bc he wont leave home without rewards 🛐

Kunikida Doppo

You already know that he got the exact day, hour, minute and SECOND written down on when you gotta take your pen

You tell him that the day is enough and that the time doesnt matter but NOO 😤 YOU WILL take it at the exact time

If its at ungodly hours like 3am or smth, bro he'll wake you up like no mercy for his schedule 😭

If u complain to him tho then dw he will rearrange it for u bc he may love to stick to his plans but he wont ignore your needs and stuff either get urself a man who takes care of u like that 😤😤

will prefer to do it before work, so if you're not an early bird then he'll wake u up but dw you'll get a forehead kiss and bro's already fully dressed n' stuff BUT waking up to him looking at you with such a loving gaze will make u forget that its 5-6am or smth 😩

will first let you get up in peace and make u some calming tea bc he knows what will come next ✋

"Y/N, I know you don't like it but you have to take your pen today, okay?"

if we start a tanthrum then he already knows about it like bro's prepared for everything!!

"Kuni, do we really ha-" "Yes." "But you know I dont li-" "Yes and yes. I know you hate it but don't worry, I've already written everything down on how to do it and what to be aware of so its okay to feel afraid but don't worry because I'm here. Nothing will happen and I've already bought your favorite snacks so you'll feel better but dont eat too much of it when I'm gone. "

u already know he spent a night or smth just researching everything about it as soon as you told him

prob even went to a library and once came back home with multiple books in his hands, hes THAT dedicated UGH I LOVE HIM 💕

you could just sob rn bc how did the earth bless you with this man KUNIKIDA I NEED U 😭😭😭

If the pen is kept in a fridge then dw he already put that shit out for it to not be cold anymore (prob counted the minutes and seconds LOL)

he'll sit you down on the bed or couch, disinfect the place on where you'll take it (lol that sounds WRONG) and he'll give you a peck on your forehead before asking if you're alright and ready to go through with it bc no way in hell is he gonna do it while you're too shaken up for it

If you wanna try to do it alone then he'll take your hand into his as you're grabbing the pen, slowly guiding it while praising you for how brave you are for trying this and that hes proud of you IM SOBBING

will also tell you to look at him if you get more afraid by seeing it on your skin

Honestly even if you dont wanna do it yourself, he'll make sure to be there and will praise you every time you get through with it bc you KNOW he means it

Honestly makes you tear up everytime and u just wanna kiss this man fr

you thank him and tell him how glad you are to have him, he'll be smitten even more than he already is

Cup his face with your hands and kiss him bro's gonna find it really difficult to not stay at home and just be in your arms

at the end of the day, his love for you exceeds his ideals so he wouldnt mind arriving at work some minutes later if he gets to have you in his arms for a bit longer

Will arrive at work with such a good mood that hes prob gonna freak dazai out with it especially when he overlooks some dumb remarks from him the power of love YALL but who can blame him, his heart is thumping louder than dazai's rambling LOL

maybe yall will continue when hes back home, who knows 🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐

Nakajima Atsushi

when you told him about the pen for the first time, he was literally thrown off like "wait, so you have to.... stab yourself regularly with that?????"

hes just SO precious bc his heart's squeezing at you asking him if he could help u bc you just feel so comfortable and just knowing that makes him SWOON

But at the same time hes panicking bc HOW CAN HE DO THAT WITHOUT HURTING U

Ngl hes prob also afraid of needles and stuff 😭 is gonna look at u like the pic above LOL

will ask yosano or even recommend that she should do it but you're like "NO!! im sorry, tsushi but im too scared of her and i feel safe with u :(((("

you got him WHIPPED and DEDICATED bc he'll def research that shit through and through

Will ask his coworkers (prob kunikida) how to best handle the situation

has everything ready but will stumble and be kinda hastily about it at first bc hes prob even more nervous than you are 💀

either it implifies your fear more or its just so ridiculous that you're legit like "ily but im not gonna die or smth 🤨🤨🤨" you cant blame him tho 😤

hes gonna be all like "OKAY OKAY, we got this. No, I GOT this s-so no worries, okay?" bro, BREATHE. Hes just about to pass out at this point jk jk

if you decide to try it out alone, he'll be a bit saddened bc does this mean you dont want him to help you after all?? :(( was he not good enough of a choice to be of help :((( TSUSHI STFU ILY

dw just reassure him that you obviously appreciate his help and still need him to be there bc no way in hell can u do it alone without ur hubby

will tell you everything he had learned about the pen and how to use it with a bit of a tremble in his voice but he pulls through with it!!

You manage to do it and BOY get ready for a rant on how proud of you he is

will want to pamper you with kisses on ur face "tsushi, i know that look. Go ahead and do it, dont hold back" "really, y/n!!?" "😩 bro do it ok" will try to hold back with gluing himself onto you but how can he NOT

If u dont wanna do it urself then it will prob go like this:

its time for yk what and he sees the genuine fear in your eyes but dw he got you

hes prob gon be like "my s/o need me rn and i have to help them!!!" hes actually gonna remember everythinf he looked up and prob memorized for you bc hes AN ANGEL will put his forehead against yours and tell you to look at him "i wont let anything hurt you and happen to you. You're afraid and honestly im afraid too but you and i will get through this, okay?" gives you the most lovestruck smile ever before he looks down and counts to three

"breathe in, y/n. It will be okay" he ignores his slightly trembling hands and at the count of three inserts it. GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE GUTTER📸📸📸

as soon as yall hear a click, he quietly counts to three before pulling it out and BROO the relief is refreshing af

"WE DID IT, Y/N!!!" Is hella giddy bc how can he not be proud of the both of you!!!! You did it!!! will honestly pull you in a hug bc hes just so happy

prob gonna realise that he just did it without asking u and will be sheepish all like "o-oh sorry, i just got too excited" "no tsushi. We should be happy about this so dont let go!!" no need to say it twice bc hes gonna wrap his arms even tighter around you and nuzzle his face into the crook of your neck ILL GIVE U A KISS TSUSHI 🛐🛐

will he feel bad for arriving at work a bit later? Maybe but a scolding from kunikida wont hold him back from holding you for a tad bit longer

He'll be a bit less nervous for the next times and it will surely decrease with each time bc practice yk but will obviously still hold you until he made sure that you're feeling okay afterwards

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke

Bro's nearly flabbergasted bc why are you making such a FUSS 🤨🤨 im sry dont sue me

"Calm down, you idiot. It's only a pen. You dont even SEE the needle."

dont ask him why hes staying with you if its JUST a needle then bc bro will prob just straight up get up and leave if you point it out 💀

will prob be the first to not even suggest but just TELL you to do it yourself aku im hurting over here 😩

will prob make an effort in atleast roughly skimming through a website about it prob smth weird like wikihow LMAO

If he does see you how afraid you really are of it, hes rly trying his best to ignore the small ache its giving his heart bc he takes no pleasure in witnessing u be so afraid✋ its still JUST a pen in his eyes at the end of the day lol

will just sigh and snatch that shit from your hands bc he cant bear to see you like this any longer are we looking that pitiful, probably LOL

But he'll be surprisingly soft with his touch, nearly just ghosting you with his hands is that even a term, nvm yall know what i mean

Hes just gonna be straightforward with it bc the faster its over the better. He wont admit that he just wants to help but cant convey it bc what even are feelings 🤷

He'll tilt your chin towards him and just say "Look at me, Y/N. Stop overthinking it. You won't get hurt from this stupid thing, okay? If smth does happen, I'll just destroy the factory thats making this."

You dont know if hes joking to lighten the mood or if hes serious bc its aku

But hes prob joking

anyway hes gonna ask you like smth rly random like "What do you wanna eat later" which will confuse you but you'll answer nonetheless bc hey hes initiating a convo!!

as you start to talk and he notices you're relaxed enough for him, welp yk whats happening

Actually makes you wince a bit bc it just caught you off guard

"Ryuu, what the f-?!" "Just bear with it." ok we have been silenced 🛐

yall hear the click of relief, he counts in his mind to three and quickly pulls that shit out

you're slightly trembling from relief from finally getting it over you and bro just clicks his tounge like "You're such a fool. Cant believe something insignificant like that makes you nearly shit your pants."

you lowkey glare at him for that bc BRO needles r spooky 😭 but dw before you even open your mouth to tell him off, he'll look to the side and say "... You did good for holding that out though... but its still stupid."

just give him a peck on the cheek or smth bc this boy is prob craving some praise after having helped you like that

"Thank you, Ryuu. I couldnt have done this without you. You're the best boyfriend I could ever ask for"

Give him a tight hug, kiss and boom you got him around your finger

he'll take a second to wrap his arms around you and will just hide his face in the crook of ur neck like our other boy tsushi

"Of course, I'd help... I'll still blow up the factory for scaring you like that."

"NO!!" jk he wont if u tell him not to but hes just trying to say he doesnt like seeing u like that we know aku, dw 💕💕

if his coworkers ask why hes arriving a bit later at work, he'll just tell them to shut up and continue with their work

If you look closely you'll see his ears turn a bit pink as he keeps thinking of you and your words 💕💕😭

Nakahara Chuuya

Honestly its gonna be a mix of every reaction possible I think

Like if you tell him about the pen, hes first gonna feel a bit pressured like "O-Oh wait so you want ME to help with it??"

Like no offense hes obviously feeling pretty happy about that you are asking him for help especially for smth important as your health

But he knows hes not the most gentle person and does have his worries that he might accidentally hurt you or smth

wont ask anyone for advice bc its his love of his life can i be that pls that asked HIM so he'll do it at the end of the day!!

but if hes feeling rly unsure then he wont mind slipping a question about it when hes reporting to mori

which means being not subtle at all

"So was that all for today's report of the mission." "Yeah." "Then do you need something or why are you still standing there?" ".... *pulls out a picture of your pen* do you know how to use this?..."

you def know that chuuya's feeling so embarassed that hes asking his BOSS but its a sacrifice hes willing to pay

mori will have mercy on him and tell him what he should be careful of and summarise on how to use it

Will prob throw in a "good luck~" bc how can u not TEASE him

anyway our boy's done his research and now comes the hard part

"Okay, dont panic Y/N." "HOW CAN I NOT WHEN YOU'RE HOLDING IT LIKE YOU'RE GONNA KILL ME" "JUST DONT PANIC, FFS"

dw as soon as he sees you trembling, he'll be softer than a marshmallow

a chuuya one

"Oi, look at me. I'll make sure nothing's gonna happen to you, alright? Will just sting a bit and thats it. Will take care of you after this so you'll forget this ever happened."

HOW CAN U NOT SWOON AT HIM 😩😩

he'll even take off his gloves so you'll be more relaxed if you can feel his skin bro the gloves are giving off doctor vibes in this scenario, will make us panic more LOL

if you really cant keep your eyes off it then well....

"Damn it, love. Stop looking at it." will just press his lips onto you for a second before breaking it and inserting that shi*

"Ch-Chuuya!" "I know, i know. Dont worry, its gonna be over real soon."

And boom thr click is heard and yall are finally done

Honestly his shoulders are gonna relax instantly, boy was tensed up even more than you skskskks but who can blame him

"OMG chuuya we did it!!" "Yeah, you did it, doll." bro's gonna latch onto you again bc that kiss from earlier wasnt enough for the both of u 😩

is it riling yall up? Probably but welp you 're already either shirtless or pantless so only one clothing to pull off less work for yall

Mori's just gonna be like "I see, you managed to get through it" and chuuya just tiltd his fedora down so u cant see his face bc he REALLY wants to ignore that his boss knows whats been holding our boy up cant blame him 🤷🤷🤷

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Lol that was WAY too long but honestly this was so good to write 😩 now im just gonna be sad that none of them r here to do it irl but oh welp, will just read more stuff about them ✋💅

[themulitipurposechannel]

Dynamics: Part 2, <Next!>

For Apocalypse F! Mikey: Now see Uncle Tello content is great and I love it. But consider this, it’s alr everywhere AND think bout Master Michelangelo /Uncle Mi/ lowkey unspoken Dad!Mikey supremacy ✨👀 think bout uncle Mi being the warm/comforting/ steadying presence that Cj clung to when Leo and April are stuck being the sole two pillars of leadership for the entirely of sentient life on earth and Donnie is off doing his mad scientist things(No hate to D but we know our boi has low empathy and tends to get hyper fixated to the point he ignores everyone. Not that he wouldn’t absolutely try for Junior cuz he would but ya know what I mean) which leaves the Mikey cuz our poor Raphie and Casey Sr died early.

Like Cmon guys hear me out Mike alr has Dr feelings and his ole mediator shtick. you can’t tell me that as he grew and matured it didn’t not grew stronger. Plus he defo Leaned into the whole mediator thing esp with the apocalypse cuz someone defo needed to be the calm mediator in the chaos that was the kraang. Plus he was ALR the most mentally/emotionally stable out of all the fam and a child in a chaotic environment (cough the apocalypse cough) is gonna unconsciously gravitate towards that. And mikey being mikey is then absolutely gonna white knuckle his “I’m emotionally healthy” even more cuz we got a kid now. We gotta make sure he grows up with SMTH.

Plus I like to think everyone had diff roles in raising Cj. Eg: Cj spends time with tello if he wants to hang out and blow shit up or wants to brainstorm tangible solutions. but if he needs/wants emotional support or emotional safety he goes to Mikey and if he wants all of the above plus advice in general it’s Leo and Comander April lmao (but 7/10 times it’s Leo). Side note: Before Raph died he and mikey used to tag team M’s role and April’s role was formerly Cassandra’s but welp we all know what happened 😭. Also I just wanna make it clear that these roles weren’t always hard and fast rule. It’s just generally the common status quo but was still subject to change depending on the circumstances cuz ppl are ppl and ppl are complex. Like if Cj was feeling particularly scared for Dee or April’s mortality I can guarantee he glomped them. And they let him.

Edit: In any case, their dynamic is basically all round calm, slow and cozy vibes. Cuz like I said, Mikey was acting as Cj’s living sentient equivalent of a warm, weighted blanket. Plus mystic overuse/cursed aging gave Mikey a lot of chronic fatigue and plus Mi leaning hard into the whole mediator thing rlly made him mellow out esp when he had to be responsible for a kid. So most of their hanging out was either sitting around talking about their day, making up stories bout random objects they found like ‘I bet that cup has a chip in cuz an alligator got it’ ,Cj ranting, mystic training, lots and lots of snuggles or (big shocker I know) Mikey reading to Cj (don’t Judge Cj, he finds Uncle’s Mi voice calming. And as tor Mikey, options are limited when you’re old, physically frail and in an apocalypse) or them reading whatever they can find in comfy silence with the occasional comment of ‘man this character is so stupid’ and ‘I know right!’ Or ‘im pretty sure this accident report is faked.’ Also In the earlier days when resources weren’t so scarce and Mikey had more energy they used to draw on the walls tgt using chalk but well.. stuff like that don’t last very long in the apocalypse.

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For Past/present time: Once Cj starts to properly distinguish between future and present and feels a little more ready to start properly interacting with P!fam. He starts to build a stable relationship with Mikey. their dynamic is one of more equal standing cuz of the lack of age difference aka the big theme for this dynamic is all abt growing up tgt. This creates a more free and unrestrained dynamic where both feel more encouraged/safe to try new things cuz they don’t have to worry bout any hovering from any older siblings (sorry Leo he tries but even he can’t fully escape the big brother instincts even towards Case. Which is hilarious cuz Cj is the most self sufficient out of everyone XD ) and cuz they don’t have to worry bout looking stupid in front said older siblings if they fail/ being coddled if they fail. Initially it was a very big whiplash for Casey to adjust to the fact that someone he used to look for answers/ be a pillar was just as clueless as he was AND the fact he could freely argue back with said someone due to the lack of age difference.

But once both parties settled in, they have alot of fun just being kids and messing around. Honestly their dynamic is adorable. With Mikey’s more adventurous and more hopeful personality helping Cj start to relax a little more and start acting more like the 15 year old he is. And Cj’s more serious and sensible mindset helps Mikey become a little more thoughtful/cautious as he’s more open to Cj’s criticism cuz it feels alot less condescending than the rest of the fam due to the age similarity.

This dynamic also plays a part in Cj’s adjustment to the past. Due to said adventurous behaviour, Mike always wants to show Cj new things. And his emotionally intuitive nature helps him pick up when Cj is uncomfortable but doesn’t always feel comfortable saying it or can just generally quickly pick up the warning signs of a trigger. So after some trial and error Mikey gets pretty good at knowing when to push and pull Case out of his comfort zone or just out right cancel an outing cuz Dr feelings can sense the ensuing panic attack/ PTSD triggers. Which Casey rlly appreciates. On the flip side, Cj is the biggest advocate (second to Leo) for letting Mikey do his thing cuz he knows what Mikey is capable off and isn’t blinded with older sibling instincts. Which Mikey greatly appreciates. We stan mutually supportive siblings.

And as the youngest, they both bond (mostly Miguel talks, Cj listens oh how the tables turn) over how frustrating it is to see the rest of their family (for Cj it’s him using his experience with F!Fam to relate to P!Mikey cuz the P!Fam don’t rlly baby Casey the same way/the obvious extent they do for Miguel. For Mikey, it’s more they water down info either intentionally/unintentionally or try to stop him from doing stuff cuz they want to protect him. And for Cj, it’s more them trying to be extra subtly careful of his sore spots. Like Legit cuz of Cj, everyone at some point had independently googled ‘how to care for war-torn ptsd riddled relative’ and ‘how to help someone with material insecurity issues’ or ‘how to support someone going thru bereavement’. For once it wasn’t only Mike reading psych stuff lmao) trying to water things down for them like dums dums XD.

They also tag team the rest of their family with the combined powers of their puppy dog eyes and shared status as “baby’s of the family” to get out of trouble/get what they want like the gremlins they are 😂. Generally when hanging out they’re either doing things action driven stuff (a stark contrast to F!Mikey and Cj. Cuz P!Mikey is younger, less traumatised and hasn’t been peepawed) like graffiti (Mikey sprays full on masterpieces and Cj loves spraying colourful doodles cuz he’s delighted to play with all sorts of bright colours and see the pretty art Anglo makes that Cj didn’t have the luxuary of seeing in the apocalypse, so despite the huge skill gap, which is rapidly becoming smaller, they still have fun tgt), skateboarding, playing video games, parkour or Mikey kidnapping Cj to show/get him to try smth he didn’t get to do in the apocalypse, *cough the occasional arson cough* Like I said they’re awesome lmao

On a side note: both Cj and Mikey are very happy to have a cool brother/friend who is the same age as them. For Cj it’s cuz fellow kids were very rare back in his time. Meaning the kids that were round him were either much older or much younger so same age friends is very much a novel experience lmao. As for Mikey, although he does call Cj baby brother( he doesn’t actually enforce that unless in certain situations like Cj in distress or trying to get Cj to do Miguel’s part of chores lmao) most of the time he’s happy to not be alone in his age grp of family/friends cuz it can get a little lonely sometimes. Raph, April and Casey have each other, Donnie and Leo have each other and now Mikey and Cj have each other! Yaayyy

[algerian-lady]

I love how the representative of the zionist entity that's been killing Palestinians for over a year now attacked my country for not doing anything for Palestine (Normalizers agreeing) but I love more how my country representatives responded by not talking to him directly, because there's no way in hell an Algerian will acknowledge this settler colonial entity, or consider it a real country. He said that a genocidal entity should not be sitting over that table, the Palestinian representative which was also attacked , pointed out that The zionist entity had killed 44k Palestinians, 10k still under the rubble, 100k injured so he isn't fit to represent the interests of Palestinians or talk in their stead. Which I find perfectly reasonable.

I'd like to point out that ever since being elected as a non permanent member of the UN security Council, Algeria has done everything to give Palestine a full membership in the UN (can u believe that it still doesn't have when the UN claims a 2 states solution!? That alone is laughable) , is at the head of initiatives for kicking out the zionist entity from the UN, of taking Netanyahu to court, reccuring initiatives for ceasefires, incriminating the entity and so on. Ever since the beginning of the last genocide, our diplomacy moved around a lot to try and help, not that I'm saying it's enough, they need to continue and do more but the fact remains, there's no possible way of comparaison between us two.

Algeria has good historical relations with Palestine, their new state was declared on our lands, it's the primary case in our foreign interests and not from today, and if those fuckers let anything come in or out of Gaza we would surely have contributed along with so many ppl to make aid enter Gaza, we literally had to resort along other countries to enter aid through the sky in drones if you remember. That criminal entity is the last country to be able to talk about aids and helps towards Palestine when they started the whole humanitarian crisis to begin with 🤦🏻‍♀️ and they're the main antagonist in the story 🤦🏻‍♀️ yet they dare attack us🤦🏻‍♀️

What bothers them is that our country works diplomatically and peacefully against them, they have no excuse to attack our country like with the Yemen, Lebanon and Iran, but along other countries we are bothering them, kicking them off everywhere, humiliating them, exposing them and they don't like it. We think what we're doing is harmless but this comes to reward our efforts like some say الصراخ قدر الألم. We're not upset with making enemies of the zionists and their allies, if we don't make enemies then we're not working hard enough.

[twinkubus]

so hard to sit with emotions!!! also stupid but so hard to realize the many emotions that i thought i didn't have. how so early on i tried to dismiss feelings of loneliness & abandonment by saying well i don't even LIKE being around people and i would RATHER be apart from everyone and it's FINE and even BETTER this way .

also how insecurities are MINE to deal with like if i feel insecurity that abates when i'm distracted the solution isn't just to--

ugh side note i mean it was also reasonable for me to be like "i would rather be apart from everyone" in certain circumstances. i remember this jesuit scholastic and a student a few years younger than me when i was in undergrad. we'd hang out after thursday night mass my senior year and when i left them after walking them back to their respective dorms i would be SEETHING i would be SO MAD bc there wasn't anything about my life i could share with them and even the smallest thing about myself or my interests would be met with incomprehension!!! i remember the student telling me she and her family voted for trump bc he was pro-life and like. LIKE. but also she was awkward and lonely and i wanted her to feel accepted by the community that i was barely even a part of. and if she wasn't there who else would i have talked to? the jesuits that year were bleak, all wrapped up in this almost fratty innocence, not really interested in the rest of the student pop. most seminarian-ass crop of jesuits i had seen.

anyway if i feel insecurity that abates when i'm distracted from it--and if i use hanging out w ppl as a "distraction"--whether or not i'm fufilled by those encounters-- the solution isn't JUST to constantly b hanging out like the insecurity is sourced from me. and anytime i have a day 2 myself it'll come back. and it's SO ANNOYING to sit with it and it's also equally annoying to talk about it--i have this issue sometimes too where like, i'm having a good time seeing someone why would i want to ruin it and think about annoying sucky things just b/c it's "good 2 open up" or whatever. and ik. IK IT WORKS !!! to open up to people. but i hardly even know what i want or feel a lot of the time .

[slow-apocalypse-zone]

Reblogging my own tags bc I definitely cared a lot about what I was saying(to the point of hitting the tag limit) and if ppl want to talk abt them this might make it easier

I’ll do a kinda image description/transcript below the cut, but adjusted slightly bc it doesn’t have to fit into tag formatting. All the words and punctuation are the same though. Mostly I’m just taking out hashtags adding paragraph breaks lol

theres also a little further discussion under that if you're interested in reading it!

(#public resources) (#open discussion)

yeah. we need to improve stuff in A Lot of places but that isn't gonna look the same everywhere

personally? I seem like a lazy suburbanite. but I also have joint issues and shit and hate that stuff isn't stacked like Lego bricks instead of being spread out and that I have to drive to get Literally Anywhere in ten minutes and that it isn't neccesarily Safe to walk places because guess what!!!

summer is hot as balls and there isn't shade!! walking half an hour to the nearest strip mall with nowhere to take a break from the heat and the sun and sit down to rest my joints? that's dangerous!

drivers around here don't give a fresh shit about bikers either and the sidewalks aren't wide enough to legally or safely bike them

so the option is walk(feel sick and be in pain and have no way to take a break to recover so it the discomfort and pain just get worse) (esp in summer and winter. my mom has an intense pain reaction to cold and i sweat excessively in heat which doesn't do anything in high humidity areas like where we are)

bike(you might die or get badly injured and yeah you might get dismissed bc you're the one biking in the road but it's illegal to bike on the sidewalk so what the fuck am I supposed to do)

or drive(this is a skill. you need to have a car or someone who will let you borrow theirs.

to learn you also need a car and someone to teach you.

then you need a car to get to the dmv(the nearest one is 45 minutes away by car) and for your practical test.

before the practical test you need your learners.

which means you need to study your ass off so they can't pull a gatcha with obscure road laws and then get to the dmv.

again you need someone who can drive you to the dmv to take the learners permit test

and then once you have your liscense after all that you still need a vehicle and to pay for gas.

and then there's the emotional conflict some have over using gas cars at all. unless you have an electric but then you have limited range of movement

basically. yes you could say l'm a lazy suburbanite but understand that it's kinda SHIT to be in the suburbs if you don't have a car and those cost a LOT over time even after purchase, tuneups and gas and tire replacements and maintenance ect ect)

like. if there was a trolley system at the front of the collection of neighborhoods I'm in even. that'd be awesome. I can easily walk there.

or even benches Anywhere along the way to the nearest stores that don't require me to cross a three lane street(both ways so six? idk) with no crosswalk and hope that the church over there didn't start locking up again and that no one will pester you about faith and how 'prayer and excercise will fix all your health issues' (im agnostic so I HAVE faith. just not in your bible. and believe me I excercise)

like. I need to stop now and again without needing to get into theological discussions that I don't want to have. I want to be able to stop in the shade and rest without crossing the dangerous road that doesn't have a crosswalk

anyways. I'm out of tags so I probably should've just responded normally but here we are

End transcript

These are things that make living where I live So Frustrating when your whole family just has one car. But the solutions for our problems(adding rest stops to sit and maybe a water fountain every few stops, busses that go to more central/necessary locations, wider sidewalks for bikers and more laws protecting bikers in the streets, that kind of stuff) won’t solve every problem ever in transportation, walkability, and accessibility of necessary resources.

For example, we don't really need to add ramps anywhere here, because everything is sloping and mildly hilly, so 'ramps' are more default as we work with geography. Instead, adding stairs paired with that would be amazing, because some people have issues that make walking on inclines, even mild ones, painful and dangerous for their long-term health. Most places have the opposite issue, but the goal shouldn't be to replace stairs with ramps and vice versa, but rather to add what isn't there when there is a need for it. There is almost always a need for it.

Edit:

Sometimes the slopes are too severe for wheelchairs as well. In those areas, we should add stairs and proper ramps. Not one or the other.

“America IS walkable, you’re all just lazy” my childhood home was an hour from the nearest hospital (by car)

[citromello]

In response to the following posts:

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Hope this doesn't derail (if it does please tell me I'll delete it) but on top of that this person is also being very stupid about society and feminism. "men are not permitted to talk about their problems" and "men expect emotional labour from women instead of going to therapy" are in fact the exact same problem??? The problem is that society/the patriarchy tells men that they need to ahow strength etc and not talk about their feelings especially with other men or strangers. But since men are yknow, humans, this isn't really sustainable or possible so this burden gets privately put onto the few women they are close with, since women are expected to be helpful and nurturing. The solution to both of these things is to be open and honest about your feelings with all the people around you, and also foster an environment where men are not punished for doing this and taking it seriously. Like even if you only care about women, allowing men to be more public with problems does in fact solve the first problem this person mentioned, its almost like sexism is a complex network of human interactions or something. (to tie this back to trans people this person is calling trans people out on having uuuuuuh correct and helpful opinions about feminism? Oh no how dare you) -- not derailing at all, that’s literally the crux of the issue. ppl will acknowledge that the patriarchy expects men to be hyperindividualistic, stoic, emotionless machines, and acknowledge that that’s bad and toxic, but when men actually express how that toxicity makes them feel, people will turn right around and reinforce the idea that men must deal with their problems only on a private, individual basis, which is literally what the patriarchy tells men they need to do. trans men and mascs aren’t the only ppl talking abt this, bell hooks has written extremely eloquently about this as well.

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I have mixed feelings about this. I agree with you on many of your points: that men are unskilled at talking about feelings can be blamed on a culture that makes it so men didn't get as many opportunities to practice this skill, that being angry at men about it doesn't help the broader issue, and that how "this burden gets privately put onto the few women they are close with" is a difficult situation.

But, I think helping someone with a deeply personal issue that they are unskilled at handling is an act of love, and not an easy one. It's hard and awkward and often painful and aspirational. As a result, it makes sense to lean on people who are both more skilled than you at processing feelings and who care about you. It also makes sense to lean on someone who does this as a profession (therapists).

Leaning on random acquaintances, often other women, to help you process deep personal emotions, does not feel like it's the solution. It feels like a wrong-place-wrong-time mistake. I am happy and honored to sit with men close to me as they work through their struggles. I am less happy to do it with people I know only in passing.

This is one of the first date patterns I used to get. I meet up with a guy for the first time, we haven't talked much before. After like 10 minutes of small talk, he swings the conversation onto his unrelenting sense of alienation and loneliness, or some other difficulty. I think it's actually the correct move to resist turning the conversation into a sympathy and support session. Sometimes conversations are supposed to be something else.

Even if swinging to oversharing after a lifetime of undersharing is a very understandable mistake, I think that there is room to acknowledge that neither of these are good long term patterns. Finding the middle ground is not a problem exclusive to men, even if as a whole they might be worse at it. Everyone struggles with it sometimes. There is plenty of space between "no one else cares about your feelings" and "your feelings are everyone's problem". It's important to see that instead of "that's too much" and "that's too little" being conflicting advice, its advice that is working together to point to a middle ground.

[azz4me]

time to write a proper response woosh

"uncooked bread...craving burned toast"

Excuse me who you calling uncooked- also wait is that a threat O.o

yeah. Life fucking sucks. Especially for me on that day ugh. When my days go increasingly bad I do somethings that I look forward to, to make me happy but then that thing also tipped me off and I reached my breaking point.

eh

Queen I don't think it's really healthy to sleep that much- dummy take care of your health!!

but I get that, being drained by ppl and all, hhhh..

Like I said that fic kinda thing is a trilogy so there's a third part to it too but now I don't feel very good, don't wanna write

Ee... your reactions

Like I had sent had I? Well reaffirming, Older then 15 but ok, I don't write smut mostly anyways let alone ever send anyone..

Have a nice day<3

~🍞

I like uncooked bread and no it's not a threat. Not reAlly..

Actually my day has been going good. Too good to true. when I returned home from school turn out a shopkeeper gave me extra money accidentally 😛. It was just 20 so I didn't return back ;P

Dw toast your day will start to get better too. Eat a toast everyday to keep bad things away 👍

eh?

I feel good to sleep. 13 hrs of sleep a day is a must. I recommend. and short naps on the class as well or my brain lags.

more likely i drain other people but it works the other way around too

I understand you. The sudden loss of motivation. The biggest urge hits me during chemistry class mostly because i don't listen shit, it comes like a roundhouse kick on the gut. The girl sitting next to me thinks i am having anxiety but no, I just want to talk about how good of an eye candy Goo is and my thirst for him to the point where I can't sit still but I can't talk abt him here because phones are NOT fucking allowed in the school. And then I reach home, everything is annoying and I just want to sleep.

Yes, I did get your message but to explain it in short this is what happened inside my brain

"Oh they are older than 15, I am on the line of red zone ig? should I reply? But that's their age, what if they don't want people to know? But it's sent anonymously so ig there won't be a problem? AND? it's still their personal information? BUT STILL what if they don't want people to know??? BUT-"

I thought like this for an hour before I came up with the best possible solution. ToJustNotThinkAboutItAtAll. Just with that I slept again. Sorry if you though I was rude for not replying to you. I won't guarantee that it won't happen again :D

Ik I overreacted. I did use to write smuts when I was 12 but now I see my little cousin who is 13 watching doraemon and spongebob... wildfire spread on my mind yk thinkling abt "What if they are kids and I am asking them smut? HUH?" nearly lost my shit a little

Have a nice day too toast <3

[weedstop]

What would you say to someone who can’t smoke due to asthma and has to rely on edibles instead. Yeah, it gets the job done but there’s a sense of community that comes along with smoking with friends and since I can’t take part in that… I just never feel like I belong 😔

I’m sorry you feel left out, man. that’s not a fun feeling. you’re probably looking for a short reply but i have this disease called “i have a lot of shit to say even if no one is listening”

TLDR: I can relate to the feeling left out in a sesh with your friends thing cuz edibles don’t work for me. I can relate to the health thing due to being an addict/alcoholic in recovery who can’t participate in partying and stuff with other young ppl. Trying to find acceptance is my only solution which will come gradually

edibles:

So you wanna know something? Edibles barely work for me, even when i have little or no tolerance. So sometimes I get like FOMO cuz people will talk about taking no more than 5 or 10 milligrams and tripping their balls off. So i don’t enjoy taking edibles with friends cuz i always get like frustrated that everyone is faced off half a gummy and i’m just sitting there feeling nothing off 60mg. So like i kind of get it. You’re not alone on missing out a little. Also if you can still get high off edibles that’s something to be grateful for cuz it’s certainly better than nothing.

And it does suck to feel excluded by circumstances out of your control such as health. My only suggestion is to attempt to find a place of acceptance because that’s all we can do to reach some kind of peace when things are outside of our control.

Health/addiction:

This isn’t exactly the same thing, though it is about health and kind of related. When I was 19, i realized i’m an addict/alcoholic, and would spiral out of control when i consumed any substance other than weed, but even weed would hinder my progress sometimes and i’ve have to go long stretches of time throughout the years of being totally clean and sober. (the last stretch was my longest at 2 years)

Acceptance:

Unsurprisingly and disappointingly, a lot of people in their late teens and early 20’s wanna bond and hang out by drinking, partying, smoking, going out. So i have felt that exclusion and have had to process a lot of mixed feelings about mine and others substance usage and lack thereof, in order to reach a place of mostly acceptance.

I’d be lying if i said i didn’t still get a little jealous of people who can casually drink or take harder drugs without it ruining their lives or without them ODing and stuff. but it has gotten easier.

It’s only been a year since i started smoking weed again after that 2 year break i mentioned. I find I’m able handle smoking weed now without it triggering a relapse into worse things, for whatever reason. maybe just from practicing so much discipline and self control over those 2 years.

But in the year leading up to last year, i was in cosmetology school fully clean/sober with a bunch of young women that just smoked weed constantly and would always invite me to sesh in their cars on breaks, or they’d smoke/dab/vape their weed right in front of me. (i smoked cigs at the time in the smoking area behind the school and they’d come out there and start blazing)

It did suck to be around that knowing i couldn’t partake no matter how bad i wanted to because my body responds differently to substances than a non addict.

Personally i’m still working on reaching true acceptance, but to me it’s more like an act of repeatedly deciding to accept that i can’t be a part of some things. Even when i feel envy or fear of missing out, reminding myself that it’s okay if i can’t always have life the way i wish it could be, even if it’s disappointing. This has gotten easier over time.

Hopefully it gets easier for you too. like it’s all good man

[mermims]

LOL I'm actually gonna complain about this more because even tho I don't really care it occurs to me that some ppl are weirdly invested in Nathan not getting a happy ending and might think him coming back to Richmond is the "cost" to which I was referring. It's not.

I'm talking about an ethos that's honestly been there throughout the show—I binged the first two-and-a-half seasons so it didn't really rankle, but it was out in full force this episode. It's hard to describe, but going back to the scene that prompts Beard to approach Nathan I think it's kind of exemplified by the rancid self-satisfaction oozing from every pore in Ted's body during his holier-than-thou speech about "judgment" and second chances. This could also be seen in the second season when they discover that Nate is the one who tore the "believe" sign and Beard and Roy decide to show the team the footage. I read someone's (excellent) analysis pointing out that at that point Ted was sort of checked out on the whole coaching thing and didn't offer any alternative solutions, he WALKED OUT, he didn't do his job, he didn't do anything except sit smugly on his high horse when the other two coaches tried to do their jobs and it went sideways. So yeah, Ted's characterization has kind of been at its worst through Nathan's entire arc.

I'm disappointed by the backstory they've given Beard canonically now as well, because this whole time I've thought of Beard and Ted as childhood friends who grew up in the same tiny Kansas town and have known each other since forever, not from college football. Also, wouldn't everyone know he was an ex-con? Season One the media would have found out the other coach Rebecca hired has a felony conviction and it would have blown up in her face!

I don't tend to nitpick things not making sense as much if the story is compelling, and the drama is hitting all the right emotional beats, but that just hasn't been the case here.

Case in point; Roy and Jamie in the boot-room. I was spoiled about Jamie's breakdown before I got around to watching the ep because I saw someone say they wished it "hadn't been played for laughs," and that raised an eyebrow immediately because I see this show get praised to the heavens for not perpetuating toxic masculinity, but you're telling me they wrote a man having an emotional breakdown, and then decided to make it a bit? And, uh, yeah, that's what they did.

Then to have that same young man say he would thank his father—a man this show has only ever portrayed as violently abusive. Thank him for what? (the audience is left to wonder.) This is all so Ted can give another terrible speech, this time about "forgiveness." Which is a message already so prevalent in our society: that if you don't "forgive" someone you're just a petulant child holding a grudge, or that you'll only be hurting yourself somehow. Jamie talks about how he feels like everything he does/is is in reaction to how his father treated him, which is crushingly relatable to anyone who has survived an abusive parent, and instead of saying you don't need that guy and you never did, you can let go and move on and discover/create the person you want to be with the people you want, they say "forgive him." Ignore your instincts, don't look after yourself, don't listen to your body, play while injured. (I appreciated Beard calling Roy out about how sports injuries become chronic disabilities if you "power through" and keep playing, because that's an extremely toxic attitude; but of course that's exactly what Jamie then did.) Sure you can tack on a "do it for yourself," you're not forgiving him for his sake, you're doing it for you, but you know that when they say "forgive him" what they mean, in practice, is: keep him in your life. No matter what he's done or how much he's hurt you, just power through. Jamie's mother says that his father will never change. They showed when it comes to dads Jamie even has another option! And he seems great (whether his mom remarried and this guy is Jamie's actual stepdad or not)! Family is not biological. The narrative could have been about learning to let go, that you don't have any obligation to forgive someone or allow them in your life no matter how they are related to you. Last scene could have been Jamie deleting his dad's number.

But we don't get to have nice things.

We got more Beard backstory but at what cost

[awkwardtortilla]

Hcs for when cami gets sad??? Xoxo

Awe hell yea

Sad!Camilo hcs

This was a lot less angsty than I had in mind but I still love it and loved writing it

warnings: sickeningly sweet; kinda heartbreaking; gender identity crisis; Camilo being a sad puppy; not proofread

It’s really obvious when Camilo’s upset

He mopes

It’s so goddam pitiful you can’t help but want to hold him

I mean you were gonna do it anyways but his sad puppy eyes and droopy head just make it more compelling

He’ll keep up an act for the crowds and the kids, smiling and playing

But as soon as he waves goodbye the grin fades and his shoulders slump and he crosses his arms across his chest

Yes Ik it’s very angsty teen

But it’s also very Camilo

He’s not gonna try to hide his feelings if he doesn’t feel like he needs to bc it seems stupid

Why would someone bottle up their feelings?

Why hide them?

That just creates more problems

And not the fun kind

So when you approach him and ask if everything’s alright he doesn’t try for a smile and nod his head

Camilo looks right at you and shakes his head with the saddest look it makes your heart ache

So you offer him your hand and lead him somewhere secluded

You sit down on a bench or the ground and either A) gently pull him onto your lap or B) let him sit next to you

It depends on the temperature and your moods

It doesn’t matter which position tho he’s still gonna curl up there and flop his head onto your shoulder which prolly hurts you both a lil but you don’t really mind as he nuzzles into you and breathes deep

You wrap your arm(s) around him, rest your chin on the top of his head, and trace the tips of your fingers up and down his arm(s)

Or you might do that to his back

Or you might rub his back

Or a combination of the above

But anyways

As Camilo heaves a sigh you quietly ask if he wants to talk about it

Welp I was gonna say that toward the beginning of your relationship he wouldn’t but I honestly don’t think it would matter

If he doesn’t need to get it out or if he doesn’t have the energy to talk about it then he shakes his head

So you’ll just chill there with him, comforting him wordlessly, pressing tender, loving kisses anywhere and everywhere

Neck, forehead, temple, hair, hands, arms, shoulders, everywhere

If he’s on your lap with his chest to yours you’ll slowly comb your hands thru his hair and twirl the ends around your fingers

Ayyyy mierda [shit]

Camilo loves every bit of it

He’s so goddam grateful for you and your endless affection

He loves that you aren’t pressing him for answers and instead just provide this silent but strong wall of comfort that he can lean on

Then again

Camilo will definitely talk to you

He trusts and loves you with all that he is and will have no issues with opening up

I’m sure you’ve heard this a million times in all the other hcs and imagines and fanfics but a main cause of Camilo’s upset-ness is that ppl in town are always asking for him to be other ppl

No one asks for just Camilo

So he’s often left feeling unwanted and used

So you’re there to remind him that you and the other Madrigals love Camilo for Camilo

He’s more than his gift

Then another huge source of mopey behavior is an identity crisis

With his gift it’s easy for all the appearances and genders and changing to go to his head

Camilo is also, without a doubt, a he/they

I don’t know a single he/they or she/they (including myself) that has not had multiple gender identity crisis’

And even after they come out and have it “figured out” there are still lots of times when they question it

So when Camilo has his he’s very confused and feeling vulnerable and probably second guessing everything every time someone calls him “he” or “they”

There’s honestly not much you can do for this

No solid advice you can give

No definite or clear solution

But you can offer support

You can promise that you’ll be there no matter what

It doesn’t matter if Camilo is a guy, gal or nonbinary pal

You’ll always love him/them for him/them

And Camilo is infinitely grateful for it

You have no idea

Camilo’s heart swells- no- bursts with love and gratitude and adoration

He holds you a little closer

Squeezes you a little tighter

Falls whole stories deeper in love with you (if that was even possible)

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Thoughts about yandere nanami and chubby reader? 🥰🥰 i love your blog btw

HOLY SHIT NO BC I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT YANDERE NANAMI BEFORE AND NOW I CAN FINALLY PUT IT OUT THERE, HOLD ON—

CW: chubby fem reader, yandere, manipulation, smut, breeding, feeder kink, dark content, dead dove do not eat

Ok but listen—

Yandere Nanami is much more likely than you think sksksks

He's still head over heels for chubby reader, but it's more of an obsession

He doesn't like overtime bc all his free time is spent following you and watching you from afar

I still headcanon him meeting you at the cafe you work at, but the first moment he saw you, he knew that no one else could have you

You're just so plump and look so soft and your perfume smells so good and he just wants you all to himself

Yk how I always talk about how Nanami just wants to get married and come home to a cute little housewife and keep her safe and happy forever??

Yea, same thing just make it creepy sksksk

Yandere Nanami who wants to marry his chubby darling and keep them locked away from all of the assholes who don't deserve to see you

You're too soft and sweet and precious for the real world, so he has to keep you safe

So obviously he has to kidnap you to keep you away from all the dangerous ppl out there

He's very meticulous about it

He's not gonna just pop up and drug you when you're alone

He'll probably scare you into trusting him

He'll use his sorcerer skills to manipulate you into liking him

Like he'll get some flyheads and release them near you so they'll attack you and make you feel awful

Then he'll show up and you'll 💫magically💫 feel better

You start associating him with feeling safe and secure

He'll do this for a few months until you create this psychological bond with him, where you would trust him with your life bc he's the only person you feel safe around

He'll convince you to come live with him, but he'll frame it in a way where it's not a big deal to him

"Well, I'm flattered that you feel so safe with me, but I'm not sure what else I can do to help you. I mean, I can't be around you 24/7."

"Please, Nanami. I just don't know what to do. I'm always so scared when you aren't around and it's unbearable."

"Hmm... well, if the only way you'll feel safe is to be around me, then the only solution that I can come up with is for us to live together. But that's a very big step and I wouldn't want you to have to change your entire life just to—"

"No! No, I'll move in with you! I'd feel a lot better if I was around you more."

Hook, line, and sinker.

You move into his place, into his guestroom, and you feel much better

Nanami doesn't allow curses into his apartment, so you always feel super safe there

Over time, he starts bringing more and more curses around to your place of work and releasing them when you're not paying attention

It comes to a point where you're too scared to go outside bc you always feel awful when you're away from the apartment

But luckily! Nanami earns enough money for the both of you, and he's such a gentleman that he doesn't mind supporting you, his friend :)

So you stay at home now, where Nanami can keep you away from all the disgusting people that could take advantage of you

But he's still not satisfied

Yes, you live with him and he's able to spend all his free time around you, but you still have walls up

You stay in your room more often than he likes, and occasionally you'll leave the room once he enters, and he's sick of it

Desperate times call for desperate measures

He's started bringing flyheads into his apartmart, leaving them in a cage in your room when you're taking a shower, hiding it from view

You start feeling uneasy in your own room, spending more time in the living room with Nanami

He pretends like he doesn't notice the change, but he's vibrating with excitement once you start consistently sitting on the couch with him

He'll ask if you're all right (he knows you're not), and he'll act concerned when you start saying that you don't feel comfortable in the guest room

He wants to continue his plan quickly, but he needs to be patient so he just reassures you that you're safe and there's nothing to be scared of

But he just adds more curses to your room, to the point where they're affecting his emotional state too

Then one night you ask if it's alright for you to sleep on the couch bc you're not comfortable sleeping in your own bed

Nanami has a better idea

"I'd hate for you to sleep on the couch. You can take my bed, if you'd like."

"Oh, no, I couldn't! That's your bed, Kento, i dont want to take it."

"Well... I do have a king sized bed. We could always share, if that would make you feel better. But I completely understand if that crosses a line—"

"Oh! N-no, it's fine. We can, um... sleep together..."

He burns your shy expression into his brain, nodding slightly and humming, biting his cheek so he won't smile

He keeps his hands to himself on the first night, and the second and third and tenth

He wanted nothing more than to touch you, hold you, but he knows that he needs to gain your trust first. He knows that his plan won't really work unless you make the first move.

You don't start warming up to him until the tenth day, sleeping closer to his side of the bed, your knuckles grazing his arm while you sleep, making him light headed

Three days after that you work up the nerve to ask if you can cuddle up to him

Nanami is ecstatic, but he hides it well, nodding curtly and keeping his hands off of you while you sleep soundly with your head on his chest

You're warming up to him, surprised and grateful that you met such a gentleman 💕

What you dont know is that Nanami has to get up before you each morning and rush to the bathroom to take care of his aching hard on

You were so warm and your body was so soft against his and god he can smell your hair products and suddenly he biting his hand as he cums in the sink, wishing that he could cum inside you instead

He's so desperate to make you his already, but he has to be patient. The last thing he wants to do is scare away his precious darling after you've gotten so close to him

Anyways, you start sleeping against Nanami every night and you keep trusting him more and more and you think that you like him more than a friend uwu 👉👈

You're not sure how to bring this up without making him uncomfortable, but you eventually work up the nerve to tell him that you like him

And obviously Nanami reciprocates your feelings, but he plays it off very cool and casual as if he hasn't been obsessed with you since the moment you two met

"If I'm being honest, Y/N, I've liked you for a while too. I just wasn't sure how to approach the subject."

Damn, he's good sksksk

Anyways, guess who's dating ✌😜

Nanami is so happy and relieved. Finally his hard work has paid off and he can enjoy you the way he's always dreamed

The two of you take things slow at first, starting with tender touches and gentle kisses

Nanami feels as though he's died and gone to heaven when he finally gets to kiss you

Your lips are so plump and soft and your lip balm tastes so sweet and the way you let out desperate little whines and moans when he pulls your body flush to his—

You'd feel something hard press into your hip less than a minute later

"I'm sorry, darling. I just can't control myself around you. You make me go crazy~"

Don't even get me started on when yall finally fuck—

Yandere Nanami is very similar to regular Nanami when it comes to sex and his passion; main difference is that yandere Nanami is much more possessive

While regular Nanami doesn't care if strangers know that you're together, yandere Nanami needs everyone to know that you're his

You'll have dozens of love bites and hickeys littered across your exposed skin, all of them strategically placed so that everyone can see that you're already taken

Prepare for a shitload of body worship bc yandere Nanami is obSESSED with your plump frame 💕

His big strong hands will roam your body, slowly trailing your curves and rolls

He focuses on your chubby bits most, squeezing your belly, upper arms,

He has a huge breeding kink already, but it's ramped up to a ten when it comes to his precious darling

The thought of fucking you and filling you with his cum, getting you pregnant has him weak, just absolutely wrecked bc of you

Ok lemme get into the dark shit sksksk

Yandere Nanami probably has a feeder kink

Like the thought of feeding you and you eventually becoming so big that you're unable to leave the house, leaving you forced to stay with him and rely on him

It's not even the act of feeding you too much, it's the outcome of you being completely reliant on him that makes him woozy

Going back to the breeding kink, he would do everything in his power to get you pregnant from poking condoms to switching your birth control pills with sugar pills

He's downright desperate to get you pregnant, he wants to see you round and glowing and looking at him like he hung the stars in the sky

He wants you pregnant not only for those things, but it's another way to keep you home and away from everyone

He'd convince you to be a stay at home wife; you don't need to work once you have a baby, don't worry about a thing darling, he'll take care of you and the baby for the rest of your days

If you don't want to stay home, he'll switch on you real quick, locking you in the house or even going to far as to put an electric shock collar that immobilizes you if you step outside of the house's perimeter

He'd always be apologetic once he gets home, bringing you flowers and chocolates to make up for it

"Darling, please don't be angry with me. I'm only doing this to keep you safe, to keep our child safe. Why can't you just trust me?"

The king of gaslighting

You will definitely go insane from all the manipulative bullshit he'll put you through

It's alright tho. An insane wife is better than no wife at all 💕