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editonic · 1 year ago

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kaveh is audhd with RSD and hyperempathy

#haikaveh #kavetham #kaveh #its just what makes sense #source: me too buddy #he just like me fr #hes good at negative social cues but not positive ones #bc he is terrified of being hated #so he misunderstands alhaitham's positive interactions #they got the tism to tism communication so they understand each other best #but bc kaveh got rsd and hyperempathy and haitham dont #theres a disconnect there #think about the fallout!!! its the RSD baby!!!! he felt rejected and lashed out!!!!!!

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remxedmoon · 6 months ago

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isat npc designs!!!!! wahoo!!!!!

greyscale versions below :3

i don’t really have much to say about the colors here?? all of these fellas are vaugardian (i think) so i just kept their palettes Warm. i did give claude stains on her coat because i think she drops Chemicals on it all the time and doesn’t wash it throughly enough to get the stains out. other than that all of these are pretty straightforward!!

#marshdoodles #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #<- technically? shy stranger and claude are minor spoilers i guess #i was going to do more of these but. isatscryption. the brainworms took hold #anyways! i know theres that little. triangle thing? on the daydreaming one’s dress but i couldn’t figure out what it was #and i didn’t really have a lof of good images to reference from so i just left it out. sorry girlie #i wanted the locked one’s colors to be more muted? and less Warm to show their disconnect with the rest of dormont #also going to be honest. claude’s design was just referenced off my friend pastell’s design for her #i couldn’t find any references of her before act 6! and i like its design a lot

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mipexch · 2 years ago

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comic about v2 and the goal they'll never fully reach alongside a dissatisfying conclusion. intimate rivalry and all (alternative ending comic. V1 dies instead of V2 during 4-4. V2 is narrating. V1 is dead.)

#high of victory drops to an overwhelming crushing feeling of what comes next now that youre done #if it wasnt clear v2 is trying very hard to put v1 back together after it kills them. very very poorly. weight of your actions hits #v2 #v1 #ultrakill #v4v #heavy implied at the very least. see as you will #i realize now that the writing is very disconnected and so are the drawings but bear with me here. do you see my vision #theres something going on between these two that is beautiful but also extremely codependent #at least on v2s end #tried to do those two descriptive pages in a way where it went like. 2 - 3 small details about v1. and then something very specific. some-#-thing theyd only know if they paid close attention to how the other acted or looked #took me a few days to put together and im pretty happy with it i think #feel free to dub or do whatever as long as you gimme credit where credits due #there are many ways to interpret v2 and this is one of them #gen art

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buboplague · 11 months ago

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experiment

#digital #doodle #and now for something completely different #feeling super incredibly lost with art #havent felt comfortable or enjoyment while drawing in like eight months #theres a weird disconnect in my brain that i dont know how to bridge and overcome in order to get back to doing art

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arovalentines · 3 months ago

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but my heart is like a claw machine

#undescribed #bonk.png #great god grove #ggg #great god grove spoilers #ggg spoilers #isttvg spoilers #she/her for hector on this post please n thank you #i had a bunch of tags attempting to explain this whole thing n post game transfem hector hc but the og post didnt show up in the tags #n its like 5:30 something n i was already having trouble explaining it bc ive had like four hours of sleep so i sadly cant talk about gender #stuff like i wanted to in full detail so something something sanding self down to be nonthreatening n palatable #something something the way players (myself included) falsely believed king was a man despite many of us being trans or otherwise queer #n pre endgame king only being referred to with they/them something something men as the default as problem solvers as leaders the heroes of #the story something something hector's envy of the way king is loved n admired n able to be heard as herself #hector's fear of death n irrelevance driving her to do the shit she did n the main theme of isttvg (aside from transgenderism) being fear of #death n how denying yourself will cause you to become irrelevant in ur own life disconnected from everything as the years fly by #theres still time.#enjoy the bullet points its almost six am im gonna pass out #wiat also fixation on youth in both how we view n associate feminity n what is normally explored n portrayed with transgendering

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hudson-fabulous-hornet · 1 month ago

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> How it feels to Google any key words including "car ____ hornet" no matter the year placed beside it.

#>IM NOT TALKING ABOUT 1950S HORNET I WANT THE OTHER MODELS #>anyhow little shitpost while im working.....#>theres gotta be one person who relates #>been doing my history research and sometime the hornet company would be bought and contuied by AMC...#>was disconnected in ranging times but honestly just going to mix doc like lighting is and call it a day fpr the au...#━⋆ myart #<- i suppose this can go here for the time being..#cars fandom #doc hudson #lighting mcqueen

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cent-scratchnsniff · 5 months ago

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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #hod #hod lobcorp #lobotomy corp spoilers #I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form #lobcorp spoilers #and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic #other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her #i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally #she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en #up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression #tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on #her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees #she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health #sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work #but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager #yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the #way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does #yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what #is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and #not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing #its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good #sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where #her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling #as she is interrupting their free time in the company #which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there #but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end #EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough

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lemongogo · 6 months ago

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#not to complain ab the same stuff i always complain ab #but my artblock is soooo bad . its so bad and frustrating and limiting and demotivating #because instead of being able to draw whatever whenever i feel like im chained to random bursts of inspiration #that i cant manifest just by willing it so yk. and imlike why…#so many ppl who draw whether for their job or for their hobby seem to be able to do it whenever #and its like yeah i could put pen to paper rn but theres such a mental disconnect that its not enjoyable anymore #dude its so whateverr😭😭 like its so made up and ik its just a psychological thing but it feels so physically .Hard #rrrgwgqq #like i try to maintain the habit by drawing stuff out even w no end in mind #but that also stresses me out bc its likeIDKK idk #silly tbh #seeing all of this art arnd me all the time > online and stuff is so nice and inpsiring #and it makes me want to do that too but i legitcannot . like i am being squished by a boulder and my hands are chained to 30lb weights #whatfreakign ever dude .like whateverrr #i want to grind my brain 2 a pulp . honestly🙌#like what do u mean u cant u literally just do it.but im the one exception to that

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written-from-the-graveyard · 10 days ago

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just saying that I feel that jason todd would love The Autobiography of a Language by Mirene Arsanios. that's it that's the post

#jason todd #mirene arsanios #the autobiography of a language #poetry #prose #dc #dc comics #batman #red hood #literature #theres something about the book that is so evocative of the kind of intellectual conversations that i feel jason would have #the limitations of language #mother tongues #disconnecting mothers from tongues #i just think he would like it a lot

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lights-at-night · 4 months ago

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i might be shot but tbh i think fiction podcasts have an issue with racial representation

#monstrous agonies n travelling light have allegory but allegory is still just allegory #mabel n wolf 359 r the only fucking podcasts ive seen in which where someone is from actually affects them #not to mention how many popular audio dramas are made by white people? might just be my experience idk #and they still seemingly have representation bc the fandom draws the characters as poc even if the actor isnt #which would be completely differentif it was tv or smthn #like ofc ppl can draw whatever they want but theres something to that disconnect that is strange to me #also the penumbra approach of actively avoiding race as a theme in the podcast #magnus in general?? they might be improving a little with protocol but i have not seen people addressing it a lot #and of course the cecil palmer effect #this is in large part due to the audio only medium #but its weird to see a medium praised for queer rep have race almost entirely ignored in favor of setting the world in somewhere w/o racism #maybe its bc so much is set in less irl settings so people feel like its more ok to distance themselves from these issues #but still?? for example hallowoods (havent finished it so dont come at me if this changed later in the podcast)#theres the blatant evangelical christianity allegory and all the transphobia n homophobia is dealt with but not white supremacy?#which seems lacking if its trying to criticize that particular sect of christianity #n malevs complete ignorance of lovecraft #and if youre going to set it in the 1920-1930s america why arent you dealing with the time period #just a rant i havent done deep research into this or anything. dont kill me #podcasts

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vodid · 2 months ago

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i am well into adulthood only having just gotten my first job this year and even 2+ months into it, i'm still having a hard time believing the concept of a job. like ur telling me this giant ass corporation that doesn't know me personally is paying me 15 whole buckaroos an hour to... organize some boxes? to stick little plastic hangers on present bags? walk around with my little cart? wow.

#the fact there are higher paying jobs needing more qualifications that do so little too #is this just me #like is this a neurodivergent thing or a havent had a job thing and i'm just that disconnected from corporations #like yeah my art is also a job but thats all me baby. theres so much to that as my own employer/e #and obv my job is more than i say but. most of the time it really does not feel like a lot #its weird. i'm weird.

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liquidstar · 29 days ago

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hi everyone 👋 just a heads up im going to be temporarily moving to a different blog for a bit (ive been a bit overstimulated in life lately and want something a bit more lowkey where i can just chill w a handfull of mutuals) so yeah mutuals feel free to ask for it but its empty rn lol

#generally speaking i feel as if i havent really been ''online'' lately so theres this weird disconnect i feel but like #i still wanna have fun w my online friends!!!! i just want a liiiittle break from feeling too many eyes on me methinks #like i am leaving a big party to go to a small hangout you understand what i mean. i will come back to the party too

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swanno-arts · 1 year ago

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im quoting from a critical theory final im writing but its really neat how return of the obra dinn is not a game about you.

there is no self in the game. you dont control anything, you were not part of the obra dinn's tragedy and nothing you do in-game can change their fates - or anything for that matter. they will remain dead, the obra dinn will disappear with the storm, you have no power to change the story or the game. your self do not matter, even if you are represented by the eyes of the inspector.

what mattered are the other, the memories, the stories of adventure and tragedy of those aboard the obra dinn, how they relate to other characters in their struggle or in their demise. this game is not about you, it is about them.

but its a cycle of remember and re-member. you feel a disconnect to these strangers' stories and experiences but you are thrown into their boots. you were not part of the obra dinn, but you feel pity, anger, sadness, disgust and fear for their fates, do you not?

and i think that's really neat. also im very drained </3

#swan .txt #not art #rambles #return of the obra dinn #// i was going to use papers please as a second example but #as the papers please inspector your choices still matter and fate changing #theres still a self represented there but not with obra dinn baybee #which is also funny bc the obra dinn inspector has like 4 lines max #and the game randomizes their voice for just those 4 lines #so. thats a disconnect babee!#ho boy finals getting me delirious

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ganondoodle · 17 days ago

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maybe i just need to stop writing so much nonsense and just draw whatever, whether i know what isnt good or what is, if it sucks then so be it

#ganondoodles talks #complicated feelings about everything #the conviction of just drawing whatever you like and if it sucks then so be it VS the mortifying idea of making something shitty and cringe #this isnt a reaction to anything btw this is just me looking at my own posts and going man what an idiot at myself #for both being so scared of my writing being bad but then also writing and posting it anyway #either do it with all your heart or keep it to yourself dumbass!!! *me yelling at myself in my head*#unfortunately i only realize these thing after writing and having it posted for a while #and at those points i dont want to delete it anymore bc it feels like im lying and if theres even a single comment i dont want it gone #i read it all i still dont know how to respond!!! *head in hands*#now then i turn to look at my drawing tablet and realize i need to change something about how i approach drawing bc its not fun rn #i have a special kind of hatred towards lineart but you just cnanot escape it ... lineless paintings take ages-#-and i always fuck them up the further i paint #like there is some disconnect between the foundation and the rendering- im good at rough colors but suck at details #not sure what to do but i will have to SOEMTHING #or i have to bite the bullet and do lineart eugheugheugegg #even when i do sketches for painting the sketch always looks better ... theres a dynamic that gets flattend and lost when i paint it

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transsextual · 1 year ago

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had a really incredible moment this evening. went to my campus art market where one of my friends was selling the tank top i'm wearing - another friend bought it for me and i'm so overjoyed to have it. usually a fit that leans more Traditionally Masculine feels like a costume but tonight it just felt deeply correct and honest and warm. took the opportunity to take some indulgent little pictures because i do not think i have Ever looked more like myself. so happy.

#im like. slowly gently exploring butchness & ... what it means to me & ... trying to release the idea that it requires Masculinity....#ive always felt pretty disconnected from masculinity as a whole but i'm starting to find points of entry that resonate really deeply #& along with that is like... esp when it comes 2 kink & leather & butchness - which r not intrinsically related but to me they r connected #theres this idea that like. i'm taking myself too seriously. and that nobody's gonna take me seriously. and that i'm too little too young #that im like #obviously inexperienced and a joke and failing and looking stupid .#but ... realized recently that . that's really just the trauma talking #and that i can just like. try shit out. and notice how it feels + what comes up #and then try it again if i so wish #and nothing i try has to be permanent or defining ... and that like . my desires and comforts and joys and needs Should Be Taken Seriously #soooo much of my like. impostor syndrome . has to do with worrying that im not doing it right when compared to other men #but like.... most of the kinky men / leathermen i see are 35+ and cis .#of course im not doing it like them .#so . looking to the queers i know. especially my fellow transmascs as well as lesbians . for like. reassurance and inspiration #has been very healing . & good for my heart & my soul.#:)#yeah .#i think i gotta go read butch is a noun. ... yeah #goodnight :)#speak #materialization #ok2rb

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aastarions · 3 months ago

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one of my girls might be discharged from the NICU tomorrow :’)

#c shut up #im sad they both cant be discharged together but #my other girl should be coming home tuesday the earliest #!!#so only 2 days apart :’)#im nervous for them to actually be home like its kind of weird to give birth #and then just not have to take care of ur babies right away??#it benefitted me in that i had time to recover without worrying about them #but yeah theres a weird disconnect in terms of feeling like a parent #obviously i love them to death i just dont feel fully like their mom yet once theyre home i think it’ll kick in #but just visiting them the past 2 weeks has been a unique experience!!

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