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Wei Ying smiles like the sun.
When they were younger, Lan Wangji had felt scorched by it. It had seared into his bones and behind his retinas, ivory-bright and burning, and so, for fear of what would become of him if he looked too long, he had turned away.
Now the clouds have covered the sun, and it shines through so rarely that every glimpse of it is a treasure beyond reason or compare, and so -- even though he knows he should not -- Lan Wangji creeps forward on silent footsteps, peering a little closer, desperate in a wordless, formless, twisting way for even a glimpse, even a glimmer, even a tiny flash of that smile.
The bunny burrows deeper into Wei Ying's robes, and he grins, and it is like Lan Wangji is standing in the sun again after so many weeks of rain.
Then the wind shifts. Lan Wangji's robes, his ribbon, his hair suddenly lift and carry out far enough to catch the corner of Wei Ying's eye, and the clouds return so quickly Lan Wangji feels dizzy with it, feels sick. Wei Ying's back goes perfectly straight, and his face falls into an expression of cold neutrality. Lan Wangji has to clench his jaw to choke back a cry of despair.
His husband turns to face him without actually looking at him. Wei Ying solutes him with formality and grace. Greets him with "Hanguang-Jun."
The sun is gone again.
The sun is gone, and there is nothing Lan Wangji can do to bring it back -- not when he is the cloud that covers it. He should have turned away as soon as he saw Wei Ying in the field. He should not have intruded on this private moment of happiness, not when Wei Ying seems to experience happiness so rarely, now.
Lan Wangji returns the bow, greets his husband. Tells him "I am being sent on a night-hunt. I will depart this evening, and estimate it will take me three days to return."
Wei Ying does not ask to come along. His eyes do not light up in curiosity, he does not bounce on his knees and pester Lan Wangji for information about where he is going or what he is hunting. All Wei Ying does is incline his head and say "Alright."
Come with me, Lan Wangji wants to say, but he knows he hasn't the right. Wei Ying is likely relieved to have Lan Wangji out of his hair for a few days. Maybe, without Lan Wangji there to cast a shadow over him, Wei Ying will allow himself to smile.
I didn't mean to take it from you. I didn't know I could. I didn't realize how much power I had, how much I was hurting you. I would do anything to make you happy here. I wish I could figure out how.
Lan Wangji accepts the dismissal for what it is. He turns, and leaves, and hopes his husband will breathe easier with him gone. Maybe he should start taking more night hunts.
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He doesn't know how long Lan Zhan has been standing there, but it's definitely been long enough to see Wei Wuxian rolling around in the dirt with the rabbits like an idiot. He tries to correct his posture, schools his face. Maintain a proper seat. Do not smile for no reason. Excessive displays of emotion are prohibited. Act with decorum.
It isn't enough. By the time he has himself presentable, Lan Zhan is visibly grinding his teeth. Even from here, Wei Wuxian can see the way his jaw flexes when he clenches it. He's expecting to be scolded -- pets aren't allowed in Cloud Recesses, and this clearing technically isn't in the bounds of Cloud Recesses but no Lan has ever cared about technicality when it came to obeying their rules. (Or punishing people for not obeying their rules.)
Still, it isn't Lan Zhan's fault that Wei Wuxian is exactly as much of a terrible husband as Madam Yu always told him he would be, so he salutes exactly as is proper between married spouses and calls Lan Zhan by his title, as respectfully as he can.
Lan Zhan bows back, and doesn't immediately drag Wei Wuxian off to be punished. Huh.
Maybe... maybe he appreciates the attempt?
Wei Wuxian is trying. He's trying so fucking hard. Does Lan Zhan see that? Does he -- does that mean anything to him? Does it matter to him that Wei Wuxian is trying as hard as he can, even though he keeps fucking up?
"I am being sent on a night-hunt. I will depart this evening, and estimate it will take me three days to return."
Ah. He's just in a hurry, then. That makes more sense.
Wei Wuxian nods. Says "Alright," to show he understands. Lan Zhan will probably pass his punishment on to someone else, then, or he'll decide what to do about Wei Wuxian when he gets back.
The stupid, childish part of Wei Wuxian that refuses to fucking learn wants to say be safe or come back to me. Wants to take Lan Zhan's hand in his and kiss the backs of his knuckles as a goodbye. Wants to help him pack, and see him off at the gates. Wei Wuxian has accepted that he'll never step foot outside the Cloud Recesses again, so going with Lan Zhan isn't an option for him, but at least a proper goodbye, at least something --
He crushes that stupid, childish part of himself as ruthlessly as he can. He has bothered Lan Zhan more than enough. The poor man is literally trapped with him now, and Wei Wuxian still can't be a decent husband for him. Lan Zhan deserves a few days to himself.
He knots his hands in the skirt of his robes, and bites his tongue hard enough to hurt, and doesn't move, and doesn't speak, and doesn't lift his eyes from the fluffy back of the little white rabbit until his husband's footsteps have vanished down the path, and Wei Wuxian is alone again.
#MDZS#The Untamed#Lan Wangji#Wei Wuxian#Wangxian#Angst#there's no plot to this it's just pain#I'm thinking about misunderstandings and arranged marriage AUs#and Yu Ziyuan and Lan Qiren both being just Fantastic Parents you guys#absolutely A Plus Plus#and Wangxian in that awful mutual pining dynamic where they both#believe they're hurting the other just kind of by existing#and so they're trying to give the other what they think they want only to make it worse#because what they both really want is to love each other as loudly and openly as they can#but neither of them think they're allowed to do that#so they're keeping their words and their hands to themselves#I don't usually angst but this specific flavor is exactly what hurts me#and I'm having a craving rn
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Just had a friend show me a conversation in a fan discord about Suvi as a Black American woman in the context of the fallout from the election. And honestly? Yeah. The blueprint is simple: Black women are expected to put their own priorities and emotions on hold to show up for everyone else's battles and hold endless space for everyone's feelings while simultaneously weathering attacks on our character (oh she's so angry/aggressive/violent/rude) and authority (she's a woke hire/affirmative action quota/nepobaby) without complaint. We're expected to save the day under nigh-impossible circumstance, and with fewer resources and support that is AT BEST, conditional.
So yeah, relistening to Suvi's speech in The Witness hurts now. Because that's exactly the feeling I'm wrestling with, and what I see mirrored in the Black women around me. We are exhausted and angry and sad. Those voter percentages are a betrayal of "we" that was promised by other marginalized groups when speaking of the interconnectedness of our liberation. And the unexamined expectation that we immediately rise from the depths of our despair to prepare for the next fight is a cruelty. Suvi isn't real, but if this helps lend empathy toward actual Black women in the world, then I'm glad.
#worlds beyond number#the wizard the witch and the wild one#there's a reason I spent so much time scrapping with fans misremembering plot#always with the aim of painting Suvi as 'the bad/mean one' universally responsible for any party friction#i've clocked dozens upon dozens of threads maligning her and nitpicking every choice she makes#and holding her alone to a ridiculous standard of behavior#while rooting for her to experience enough pain/loss to bend her to their preferred trajectory#and dismissing her emotions as Citadel programming unworthy of consideration#it's just more fucking misogynoir at the end of the day#i saw a post calling her an abuser for not being *nice* enough to Ame when she arrived at the conclave#and all i can think is 'why do you need her to mask her VALID emotions for others' sakes?'#and then i remember she's a black woman#and i get really tired for her (and me)#don't worry#i'll return to funky lil shitposts and art reblogs soon
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rewatching again, bring back horrific timelines but only at Kai’s expense
#bottom two are from like two years ago. pixal and her autistic girl swag#no plot head empty for the kai one I just want all the engineers to interact at like 9 years old pls.#obviously in a way that pains kai#ninjago#my art
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My interpretation of Ford's death and how Mr Bill Pines handled it. (Spoiler alert! He handled it very well/lying)
Creator: @honeqq
(2/7)
Pt 1 | Pt 2 | Pt 3 | Pt 4 |
#gravity falls#bill cipher#book of bill#billford#the book of bill#stanford pines#mrbillpines#praying I nailed their characters dkidjd#this is my first time doing a comic format#so naturally idk if the plot is flowing smoothly or not LMAO#also#Look closely#endlesspaint#delicioustarong#if you think this is painful. just wait for the rest
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so, we can forget for the reveal for another 5 years
#I'm actually interested in the plot but I have a feeling that the reveal part will be pushed to the end as much as possible#this is just painful#miraculous ladybug#miraculous#ladybug#miraculous lb#marinette dupen chang#chat noir#adrien agreste#ml spoilers
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I need to know if other artists also experience this. Every time I tried, I have to hide my face and take +2 psychic damage.
#am I embarrassed by my writing skill? am I embarrassed by the plot? Am I just cringe?#even with one where I know a lot of people like and I also personally like#it’s still physically painful to read it#i need to know if other artists also have this problem#alexxuun#comic#artist
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AU !
meet archivist alhaitham and detective cyno from my supernatural archivist AU (that i'm turning into a visual novel… or something) 👀
#genshin fanart#genshin impact fanart#genshin impact#haino#cytham#alhaitham#cyno#genshin alhaitham#genshin cyno#cyhaino#promised on twt i'd post if i still liked their designs and i do#sooo#there's a lot of plot that i can't talk about YET#all u need to know alhaitham is Now an archivist working for the akademiya forces of sumeru region#cyno is a detective working for the silent agency#it just so happens the agency are a pain in the akademiya's ass#also cyno still has hermanubis !#chuu au
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Hey, what makes a character a 'plot device but not a character'? And how do you not do that? I'm trying to do it on purpose but also I need to still make them interesting because it's on purpose, yknow?
A good skill to pick up is to learn to criticise criticism itself. A "plot device" is simply a thing that moves the plot along, it's a neutral literary analysis term! Usually, when people are angry that "a character has been used as a plot device," it doesn't mean they hate plot devices. It means they're gesturing at something deeper.
Runningwind and Bumble are equally plot devices in their deaths. They are both killed by the antagonist to escalate political tension. Runningwind is rarely "accused" of just being a plot device, and yet, we're talking about Bumble for the same thing.
So, why?
Well, Runningwind is just a background character, but in life, he was a part of the community. He was characterized as impatient but responsible. Yet, he wasn't SO important that he died with a bunch of unresolved plot threads.
He is mostly an extension of the entity of ThunderClan. His killing by Tigerstar, and the fear and paranoia that settles on the group after this, feel like a progression of the story insteas of something forced.
Bumble, on the other hand...
Is hated immediately by Gray Wing, when she's established as Turtle Tail's friend. Bumble's abuse at Tom the Wifebeater's hands invites even MORE investment. The rejection is shocking and upsetting. There's a story there about our main characters being imperfect; jealous, bigoted, and judgemental.
But, she is simply killed off. Everything they set up for this character is gone with little personalized fanfare. It's not a tragedy with a lesson about cruelty, or something anyone regrets.
It's just... plot. Gray Wing whinging that no one will like his shitty brother now that his body count is 2.
More than that, in the discussion of women in particular, "Fridging" was coined to give a name to the way women characters often don't get their stories told at all. There is a CULTURAL trend of female characters facing disproportionate violence, for the sake of advancing male plots.
Bumble has a lot going for her. Petal had a lot going for her. Turtle Tail had a lot going for her. Bright Stream had a lot going for her. When they died, they took their potential with them.
It's not always wrong to kill off a character of high potential, mind you. In Gurren Lagann, Kamina's death is sudden and shocking, leaving a massive hole in the hearts of the cast that never heals. Grappling with that loss, but also letting his memory fuel them, is a major theme of that story.
All that to say... there's no formula for avoiding it. You've gotta identify what the deeper issue is, in your specific narrative.
I can't say for certain what that will look like for your story, but here's some things I keep in mind;
When you make characters who exist to die, make sure they're people before you axe them.
Ask yourself; what about them does the cast miss?
If they just miss them because they were (pre-existing relationship), go back to the drawing board.
Fluttering Bird as an example. Who was she? Dead sister. Why do they miss her? Dead sister. No traits until after her death.
Runningwind was short-tempered and helpful. Kamina was a valuable leader who made people believe in a brighter future. Swiftpaw was fiesty and desperate to prove himself. The better characterized, the more profound the loss usually is.
If this is a female character who is dying just to serve the plot, be aware of cultural bias and tropes. How is the gender ratio looking in your cast? Is this happening disproportionately with your girls?
Note how Quiet Rain's litter had both a boy and a girl, but the girl was chosen to be "weaker" and wither away.
And how most of the time in DOTC, whenever a man had to be upset, a girl would get killed for it.
If you ever feel like the character on the chopping block is NOT a full character, ask yourself why it needs to be a character at all. You don't need to spend narrative time building out someone when a literal object of high value might suffice.
"My sister died when I swore to protect her and I can't face my family" = Old. Tired. Ive seen this.
"I lost my heirloom sword when I swore to protect it and I can't face my family." = Fascinating. Why was the sword so valuable? Will they really not take you back? How did you lose it?
When you do kill off "high value" characters, try to make sure you're not leaving too many plot threads hanging. Or at least make a point of how they will never get closure.
#Bones gives advice#These questions can be hard for me to advise on because making characters is one of the easy parts for me.#It's more the “working them into a story without overwhelming it” part#But making characters that are fun and interesting has always come naturally to me as a writer.#I just work out some fun dialogue and fill in what their wants and desires would be based on backstory#And the rest kinda fills itself out as the message and themes of my narrative forms.#In fact the thing that makes BB so easy for me to work on is having an existing “story template” in mind#I don't have to chart out the long term events in advance because I do have a full picture of what leads where#And what I want to say with each rework.#I've always been told I'm really good at killing off characters though#Especially in my RP days. I remember I singlehandedly turned a pretty standard 'escape from evil lab' plot into--#--a painful story about loyalty and suffering. I was the main villain and the escapees knew he would never give up.#Because he loved their master and believed fully in the idea of 'sacrifice for the greater good.'#Always friendly. Passionate. Would have been a dedicated leader in a slightly different setting.#They knew he would never want to actually hurt them so they had to trick him into trying to “coral” them with his fire powers on ice#He didn't know it was ice and melted through#I guess the thing I do is just... make them cool lmao. It's hard to give advice on this#''Draw the rest of the owl 4head''
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Niko and Edwin talking about the Cat King
#the way i just paused eating when phil said this#like#help#why is it literally the plot of dead boy detectives 💀💀💀#even phil too with his bleached hair like niko!?#even dans reaction#like it just fits SO well#it's literally them#dan and phil#dan howell#phil lester#dead boy detectives#dbda#the cat king#edwin payne#edwin paine#niko sasaki#d&p
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I wouldn’t dare n’ try to excuse Henry Winter’s behaviour HOWEVER, as someone who also has chronic migraines…
#the secret history#srsly the pain the so draining I’d plot murder just so I don’t annoyed by my friend too#donna tartt
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524 vs 514
#☆#lookism#lookism spoilers#lookism 524#somi only stabbing shingen while goo hurt himself to injure gun :(#plot wise thats just how events played out but metaphorically?#the distinction between somi and goo is genuine love and care#and that is heart wrenching (even more so than a literal stab to the heart?)#its the way that gun and goo’s faces are both obscured by shadow because they are physically and emotionally in pain#meanwhile only shingen’s face is shadowy because he’s getting injured and somi is not really emotionally invested in him#gun is truly shingen’s son: getting stabbed in the chest by the lover he willfully neglected#shingen yamazaki#somi park#gun park#goo kim
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Michael,panicking cause he can't find Will:Has anyone seen my brother???
Michael:Oh gods- Will!!
Lee,also panicking: That mother's adrenaline is kicking in-
Michael:WILL!!
Lee,still in panic:I can see every equation-
Michael, talking to one of the other head counselors:Excuse me, ma'am, have you seen my brother?? He's about this tall, clearly Bi but we hadn't had the talk-
Lee, looking in one of the storage rooms and falling over everything :Will ARE YOU IN THERE???
#mine#pain rambles#incorrect quotes#pjo incorrect quotes#pjo lee#lee fletcher#pjo michael#micheal yew#pjo will#will solace#william andrew solace#apollo cabin#cabin 7#cabin seven#sunfam#what I'm calling them now#percy jackson and the olympians#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo memes#pjo fandom#pjo#idk how to put the source thing i seem on here sometimes#but i feel like we've all heard this one#a day at the park by brandon rogers if anyone's curious#also. he was in a tree asleep#no one knows how he got up there#lee nearly had a heart attack#Percy just looks up and see Lee and Michael booking it across camp screaming Will's name#plot twist that's only reason he knows Will's name in tlo/j
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realizing that despite how old she my be, marcille will be younger than falin very quickly. Marcille will have walked the earth for many decades to be a young adult, but only in a few heartbeats will falin look at her with an infinitely more worldly glance. Falin's face marked with wrinkles and her mind filled with the wisdom only approaching death can bring you, marcille will be unable to understand her. Marcille will be too immature, too naive, and too many worlds apart for them too love each other the way they used to. Marcille's body and mind were never meant to change so quickly and by the time she catches up to where falin is in life and can finally understand falin will be long gone.
#do you see my pain#despite the fact that marcille is older she will still be so young and spry. falin will be changed by going through all the walks of life#they will just be chilling in marcille's mind but falin will go through her mid life crisis and her back will start to ache#her teeth will rot and her eyes will fail BUT through it all marcille will be nothing but a 20something exploring the world while it is new#until plot beats that I have yet to reach but have been vaguely spoiled to falin is just a human doomed to die so so soon#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#falin touden#marcille donato#farcille#falin#marcille#rambling
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when you mentioned in your tags that there was hardly any laughingstock i didn't believe you at first, but holy shit ur right. YOU AND @krasytoonz MADE ME INTO A LAUGHINGSTOCK BELIEVER. I WILL PAY TRIBUTE TO THESE SKRUNGLY FUCKERS SOON, MARK MY WORDS *shakes fist into the void*
no yeah Seriously though its just us out here, fighting for our lives in the fucking Trenches. in ten years someone is gonna use the word 'laughingstock' casually in conversation and im gonna have War Flashbacks
#no please get out while you still can#once you let them in all the way They Will Not Fucking Leave they are There Forever#the inside of my brain is just me huddled in a corner while they make out in the middle of my skull#BUT YEAH THERES BARELY ANYTHING#trust me whenever krasytoonz posts them i am instantly there to ravenously devour the crumbs like a rabid pigeon#they are my only outside source of barnaby/howdy#them and the side plot in Stamps by Indigopoptart on ao3#oh the side plot my beloved.... im still starving but sometimes they trick me into feeling like im Feasting....#and that one tidbit in Beautiful Boy Its Only Love by ImaginatorOf Things - also on ao3 ofc#and thats IT thats ALL I HAVE. all We have#shoving my entire fist into my mouth and biting it off while sobbing. screaming. etc.#oh the pain and joy of rarepairs... its been a while since ive been so taken with one...#who knows? with the power of friendship and this gun i found maybe one day it wont just be viewed as a crackship by the masses#rambles from the bog#gotta be honest. krasytoonz also converted me all the way#like i was tenuous about it at first...#it was just a Thought yk yk#i was like 'oh thats cute but like. as a side thing. a background thing. they dont have much going for them'#i think that was because i had nothing to enjoy outside of my own brain#i liked the very rare very jokey crumbs from a couple of clownsuu's posts#but it wasnt enough to make me go Theyre Mine Now#then i stumbled upon krasytoonz and one scrolling session later! i was fully hooked! just like that!#laughingstock went from a nebulous interest to a Permanent Fixture In My Braincase!#but yeah uhhhhh glad i could contribute to passing on the Illness#if you ever get free i will envy you#and to future me: if youre free i envy you as well. but i also pity you bc theyre so so good theyre so cute whats wrong with you-#i hate them & i love them & theyre nothing & theyre everything & they wont leave & ive locked the door
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you werent supposted to be here
#homestuck#homestuck turnabout#turnabout au#lil hal#hal strider#auto responder#still in my hal era im so sorry#hes got some interesting stuff going on plot-wise#that im just SHAKING to talk bout but i dont wanna spoil too fucking much#pain and suffering#one thing i can say is that him being a player kinda glitches the shit outta spurb#and later he glitches the shit outta sburb deliberately bc hes hal LMFAO#homestuck au#homestuck fanart
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Not people talking bad about my girl Helaena just to support Aemond. Like, she had a right to ask him if what he did was worth it because, even if Aegon is atrocious, Aemond is the reason that her son was killed in front of her, the reason that she had to choose which of her children dies, and is the reason why she has to live with that now. While other characters played a part in that, without Aemond killing Luke, Jaehaerys would probably still be there or wouldn't have died in such a cruel way. B&C are sent there to kill Aemond, and when they can't find him they follow through with their next order of "a son for a son". And while Aemond may be smarter and more strategic (and not a disgusting man like Aegon) as prince regent, he is still, as Alicent called out, volatile and brewing with unchecked anger. I wouldn't feel safe having him on the throne just as much as Aegon, but because he served face and is the lesser evil I'm supposed to be okay with it? No, Helaena can question this man as much as she likes, for the rest of her life given what she has to go through. (Also, she literally just asked him a valuable question that deeply needs to be considered, so why are people mad at her?)
#house of the dragon#hotd spoilers#hotd#aemond targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#like again i don't like aegon but i also don't really care for aemond (especially after what he did to rhaenys 😭)#and tbh this isn't even hate towards him but more so some fans turning on helaena & dismissing her trauma just to support him#like she does not deserve that#i don't think aemond would make a good ruler either i said what i said#aemond stans don't interact if you can't have a collected conversation about this#helaena targaryen#kind falls onto how male characters actions can be dismissed or ignored over any little thing (especially if they cause harm)#but let a female character dare question them (even if they were the one who was harmed as a result) and suddenly she's in the wrong#but this is asoiaf fandom so what did i expect? 🤷🏾♀️#“but aemomd wasn't the only one-” right he wasn't but the reason jaehaerys was killed was in revenge for aemond killing luke#from what we've seen in the show rhae was definitely against the plot so even without luke being killed she probably still would be against#killing jaehaerys and inflicting that pain on helaena
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