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moonspirit Ā· 3 days ago
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Jealous aruani are fun and all, but...what if it's their friend that's the reason for the jealousy??? No love triangles.
Annie suddenly feels a twinge of irritation when she sees Pieck say something to Armin and they laugh together. Or maybe Armin overhears gossip about how Annie Leonhart and Connie Springer look so cute together. The next time he sees Connie, his stomach twists. And it's terrible!
Considering how Armin and Annie both have self-esteem issues...well, I can see how that could happen. Irritation, doubt, jealousy, and self-loathing for feeling that way about a friend. it's just painful, stupid and awkward. I have no idea how they will solve thisšŸ˜—
Hello jealousy anon! As promised, and thank you for the ask, it made me laugh xD
Because of-fucking-course there's nobody more capable of causing problems for Aruani off more than their very own family xD If you ask me, outsiders don't have the type of talent the other four have in creating misunderstandings and unnecessary chaos xD Plot-required-3rd-party-love-interest who? Move over, here's Connie the Springer man!
At first it's all quite unintentional. Connie spends time with Annie because Circumstances and Coincidence and hardly notices Armin's watery puppy eyes gazing at him from a depressing corner. It's not like Armin ever says anything out loud either because of course, he's happy! He's happy Annie has a silly friend that makes her laugh and forget that she's awkward and possibly frightening around people. He's glad Connie comes prepackaged with a whole lot of shitty jokes that happen to tickle her. He's really fucking glad Connie treats Annie like he treats everyone else!
But. Connie can also... dance. Really well. Like the guy's got those moves and can easily take Annie for a nice spin. He also... makes her laugh, like... a lot? A lot lot? Hm.. has Annie ever laughed like that with me? Uh... yeah, nevermind that, um- oh god, Connie's been looking pretty nice lately in those suits and he's rather good with the whole easy-fashion thing and uh- well shit, it's Connie, he's my friend, he's not- no, I mean, that photo in the newspapers was just an accidental shot, of course Annie was just laughing at his bad joke but well... she did look really happy with him and, oh shit--
Man.
Pieck on the other hand, doesn't fuck with people more than necessary. I don't actually see her getting *too* close with Armin but they do become very good friends! They have a lot in common, (for example music) and vibrate on the same atomic level of "yeah this is wrong and backhanded and probably will get us arrested in 18 countries but lets do it hehe". Hc that they probably get off to a slightly rocky start as Pieck doesn't put much faith in Armin's "naivete" and harbours resentment for his blowing up of Liberio's port, but as time goes by, they grow closer!
Maybe... too much closer for someone's liking šŸ’€
Because okay? Annie gets it, she finds politics too boring and her takes end up being too cynical and skeptical in the room. Technically, she's glad Armin has someone in Pieck who will humour his ideas with a generous (but nice) dash of realism. Also, they enjoy picking out records together and she often finds them nodding their heads to a new tune once home.
She's glad, okay?
She is, she really is-
*sound of a thigh being stabbed followed by sounds of Reiner screaming*
Pieck is a cheerful girl tho šŸ„²
On a serious note, both Aruani are going to feel like total crap about this jealousy tho. Because as you said, it's their friends, their literal family who they share a lot of time and space with, and if anything could be clear it's that none of them want to see Aruani unhappy. So its not real, it's not anything to worry about, it's all just in their heads-
And yet.
Tbh the extra funny bit about this is gonna be when Connie and Pieck realize what they're doing to their poor lemonheads xD
"What! We're making you jealous?! wHAaT?? ... Hell YEAH, LET'S TURN IT UP!"
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I mean what else did you expect lol, Pieck and Connie are that duo who are going to derive more entertainment from their very own organic, homegrown family-drama than the moving pictures being shown in the town-square.
Suddenly it's all: "HEHE Armin, I bought Annie CAKES, see? FIVE Cakes! FiVE delICIOUS cakes and *I* am going to give it to her! Me!"
and: "Annniieeeeeeee~~ Oh no, why the long face this morning? Btw did you know Armin wants kids? Like a lot of kids? He told me- oh, he didn't tell you? Hehe I thought you'd be the first to know hehehehehe"
Their approaches to fanning this dumpster fire are different šŸ˜Œ
Their solution when things get too Sad?? Lock Aruani up in a room. Always ends well.
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s6rine Ā· 16 hours ago
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a sweet disaster
(megumi bday special!) | main masterlist
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pairing : megumi fushiguro x gn!reader synopsis : it's megumi's birthday! what's the best way to celebrate it despite megumi obviously not wanting a party? to entrust nobara and yuji with his cake! tags : fluff i think i have no idea on how to tag stuff, drabble, pre-established relationship AHHHHHHHHHH, writing these tags earlier on but like uhm uhm uhm NOT PROOFREAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OFFICER PUT THE GUN DOWN!!!!!! (update: babi lei proofread it what would i do w/o my wonderful beautiful gorgeous queen šŸ’”), i cant write kageyama for SHIZ even tho theyre the same holy cannoli, lower case work intended perchance, yes yuji got beat, its a little lazy gn its 4 am zzzzzzzz word count : 0.4k a/n : happy birthday tpo MY baby šŸ˜­šŸ’” i was gonna write for tobio but even tho theyre like the exact same i just cannot but trust one day i'll make up for it...........perchanceā“
a/n pt.2 : my vision was something very similar happened last yearā€¦ like im imagining last year they tried to smash his face into the cake but someone moved it at the cake at the wrong time at his face hit the table instead ykwim
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DECEMBER 14, 1:32 PM megumi doesnā€™t like birthdays.
not because he hates fun or celebrations, but because, in his mind, having a whole day dedicated to yourself feels unnecessary when there are millions of people born on the same day. whatā€™s so special about it? itā€™s just another date on the calendar. he doesnā€™t get the hype, and frankly, he doesnā€™t care to.
and heā€™s not shy about saying soā€”even to you.
"you what?" you exclaim, coming to an abrupt halt. "who doesnā€™t like birthdays? itā€™s literally the day you were born! itā€™s supposed to be special!"
megumi lets out a long, tired sigh, rolling his eyes in your direction.
"itā€™s not special. at least not to me," he mutters. "and celebrating getting one year closer to dying? seems dumb. plus, they never go right. for me at least." his hands bury themselves in his pockets as he keeps walking, not sparing you a glance.
you quickly catch up, narrowing your eyes at him. "thatā€™s the most depressing thing iā€™ve ever heard! birthdays are about celebrating life, notā€¦ getting morbid. youā€™re alive, you made it another year, and you deserve cake! lots of cake!"
he shrugs, barely reacting. "cakeā€™s too sweet."
you scowl, a spark of playful annoyance lighting in your chest. you shove his shoulder lightly, earning a grunt as he stumbles a step.
"youā€™re so lame!"
"good to know." he mutters with a sigh.
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DECEMBER 22, 4:19 PM "youā€™re officially banned from picking restaurants." megumiā€™s voice is flat as he unlocks his dorm room, both of you slipping off your shoes. "that tapioca was awful. undercooked."
youā€™ve been oddly quiet since leaving, lips pressed tight like youā€™re holding back laughter. megumi notices immediately, his eyes narrowing as he stops in the entryway.
"whatā€™s so funny?" he deadpans, his gaze flicking to your face and then over his shoulder. it doesnā€™t take him long to put the pieces together.
he sighs, already defeated. "seriously?" he asks, just as nobara shoves yuji too hard in the kitchen.
it all happens in slow motionā€”the cake colliding with megumiā€™s face, the frosting sticking for a moment before it slides down in one messy lump. the room falls silent except for yujiā€™s grunt as nobara decks him on the back of the head.
megumi stands frozen, wiping frosting from his cheek with a scowl.
ā€œā€¦we should've listened to gojo-sensei when he said cupcakes wereā€¦ the better optionā€¦ā€ nobara mutters, inching backward cautiously.
maybe he was rightā€”birthday parties never seem to work out for megumi. seems like a repeat of last year.
p.s. : a second birthday date made up for it.
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quirkle2 Ā· 7 months ago
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I was wondering if there are any rare happy ritsu moments in ur zombie au since hes always miserable I think,, like is he always miserable or is he happy/not miserable and feeling kinda good sometimes?
VWHDGDGD NO YEAH OFC HE'S HAPPY SOMETIMES im just horrible and enjoy putting him through misery
ive never been able to get a genuine smile to look right on his face in my art style either i think thats part of it. as ive said his face is just built to be mildly uncomfortable and bothered and i lean into it sm it's starting to get kinda funny
but yes ritsu is happy plenty! i think, canonically, he just seems like the type of person to me that tends to turn lemonade back into lemons. he's easy to scare and his first reaction to things is often Dread and Anxiety. he dwells on the negatives a lot and seems to be a "hope for the best, expect the worst," kinda guy, but there's a section in this post abt shigeo always loving the little things in life, and ritsu steadily learns throughout the journey on how to do that and how healing it can rly be. even if he had to grow up too fast during this whole thing and learn things a kid should never have to, the journey also gave him some good insight and lessons in other places! ritsu is smart, he figures it all out
in terms of little things here n there he's the happiest lil guy on the planet when he finds one of his favorite foodsā€”swings his legs while he sits and munches on a kitkat bar like he's got absolutely nothin in the world to worry abt. sometimes mob does smth funny that he laughs at; for the longest time i've had this silly image in my head of mob accidentally knocking down a bucket from a store shelf and it lands on his head and he just kinda stands there and makes noises.when the noises continue out of pure curiosity about the weird echoey quality it's giving them ritsu cannot help but lose it
besides tiny things tho, when tome comes around ritsu in general is a lot happier, just cuz he has somebody to talk to that will actually respond in some way. they're sorta reluctant partners in crime at first (at least on ritsu's end) but over time and over bonding they grow to rly like each other's presence. they bicker constantly but it's almost always fond eventually, and they shove each other and playfight until mob gets antsy enough to get worked up about it. rly, tome is a godsend to ritsu's mental healthā€”after months and months of being effectively alone with his thoughts, he finally has another person to converse with. a person His Age, too!
tome is rly good at knowing when ritsu is thinkin himself into oblivion and she's Also rly good at being the most annoying girl on the planet to yank him outta that and replace any misery with Oh My God Get Off Me You Freak. she doesn't even do this on purpose at first, but over time she learns how to tell when he's thinking too hard and, ofc, she's grown attached and she cares, so she's as obnoxious as possible to lighten the mood
when they find reigen n teru, ritsu gradually gets Much happier still. now that he knows they're safe and the gang is finally back together (and now that there's an Adult present and he can relax a lil and let himself be taken care of) his stress levels r exponentially lowered. having teru back is another instant lift to his moodā€”im always a big fan of teru and ritsu friendship, and i think adding tome to their dynamic simply makes it more chaotic. truly a trio of the 3 most normal teenagers in existence which will surely bring nothing but good (reigen sweats offscreen)
actually this makes me feel bad for forever torturing him im gonna go draw happy zau ritsus brb ,.,.ok imback <3
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#qktalks#anon#zombie au#tw guns#<- for that glock in the corner . sorry#actually it looks like he's at gunpoint in that one and just going teehee about it#he looooooves tormenting tome .and tome loves tormenting him. it's their favorite pastimes#i don't rly like the second one too much tbh the sleeves are weird but i think that's just the Nature of how poofy they can get#oh this is a great time to talk abt their dynamic. sorry.this ask isn't abt that.but now it is#so i realize that tome and ritsu ??? don't rly interact in canon at all. and neither do tome and teru . as a matter of fact#but consider. uhm.what ifthey did <3 GVYIEAV#like i said they're all So incredibly normal it'll make for a great time#^ genuinely i do think so actually. most of the time anyway#i touched on it a lil bit in recondite but i rly like the idea of mob ritsu tome and teru all being a friend group#teru would undoubtedly piss tome off sometimes she'd call him out on his bullshit#but like.in terms of the canon timeline i think post-mob teru would Totally listen to her#and take what she says abt How he is into consideration. he's trying to rebuild himself into somebody better#teru and ritsu already have a dynamic in canon but it feels pretty loose and it isn't fully explored at all#i think they work together rly well tho. there's no real evidence to the contrary iirc i think they work together in canon quite well#they think alike in terms of fighting#and in a setting like thisā€š once teru is on the same page as ritsu on zombiesā€š they're prolly a pretty damn good team#there's a lot of room for things to go wrong tho#if i had to sum it up rly succinctly it'd be: ritsu's motive is fearā€š tome's motive is curiosityā€š and teru's motive is power#what i mean by teru's being power is Not the pre-mob teru ''wanting'' to be powerful and unstoppable#i mean teru wants to have power over everything that is trying to hurt them#he doesn't Want to cower he wants to Fight tooth and nail#and i think ritsu's fear versus tome's curiosity and teru's drive of power conflicts a lot#ritsu is passive in the sense that he'll do anything in his power to avoid altercations with anything to order to keep mob safe#he isn't Active until something goes Wrong. and usually things go Wrong when teru and tome rush ahead#WOW sorry i went on a rant that was Completely unrelated to the fucking question. im at the 30 tag limit bye
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aria0fgold Ā· 8 months ago
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FINALLY DONE WITH THE ISAT OC! SOLEIL!!!
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The creature... So first things first is some info about them pre- disappearance of The Country. They're a loyal follower and avid worshipper of The Country. They love the Universe sooo much that they made a wish to be able to read the stars, and the Universe answered. I like to think that the stars are talkative, some can predict what will happen in the near future, some are just "chatting" to each other about the stuff happening in the world they overlook. It's a somewhat useful ability that Soleil used to use to be able to either predict someone's future (rarely though, the stars hold many different futures and it's hard to figure out which is whose) or use it during funeral rites to have a more reassuring experience to the ones mourning that their loved one arrived safely among the stars.
And then they found out about The Cursing of Chateau Castle-- they kiiiinda got Really obsessed with the book series that they wanted to know more about it but there wasn't any more copies of it in the Country's language so what better way to deal with that but teaching itself how to understand the Vaugardian language, and by doing that they got to learn more about the Vaugardian culture and was really amazed by it (considering that they spent most of their life with the Country's culture instead, learning about a different culture is a great feeling). One thing led to the other and it also led Soleil to travelling to Vaugarde (something that their family wasn't all that happy with but they stay silly).
And so we're back at the present time! Now to talk about some details on its appearance.
Its Craft type is Scissors! The eye on the center of its chest and the eye by its nape are in fact EYES and not just accessories (although they did try to make the eye on its chest appear to be like a mix between a star shape and the Change Symbol).
After spending some time in Vaugarde, they learned about Body Craft in which case they decided to experiment with it in regards to its eyes.
Since being in Vaugarde, there wasn't much use to its star sight and there also isn't a way to "turn it off." So instead, they decided to separate its Normal sight from the Star sight by adding another pair of eyes on its body.
The eyes on its face are blind. They can't see through it anymore but they Can still see the stars (they can't read it anymore however cuz of the Country's disappearance).
If they focus on the stars using those eyes, they'd get a REALLY bad headache and a star sign appears on its eyes. Nothing to be afraid of probably, its head just Really hurts.
The glass covering the eye on its nape is a one way mirror. You won't be able to see the eye but the eye can still see you.
With its vision split, it actually took them awhile to get used to that. It takes a lot of concentration and focus to see both from behind and from the front. When Soleil gets tired from doing that, they either close the eye on its nape (if the place is safe enough) or unfocus it enough to the point that most of its vision becomes blurry with only being able to see blobs of shapes and shadows which helps them be alert enough in case something comes running at them from behind.
All the round objects you see on its body are Bombs. They found out about Bomb Craft in Jouvente and was so fascinated by it that their inventor brain (inventing, crafting, and repairing stuff is a special interest of theirs). They now like making bombs and inventing new ones (only they have the recipe of those).
The bombs they invented only detonates via a Craft spell, it's basically as safe as an ordinary ball to handle unless detonated. Also the scissors at the top of their head has a cover on its tip. It's Very Sharp. They mainly use that (either the tip or the scissor blades itself) to cut the bombs dangling on its body.
Despite the multitude of bombs they carry, they aren't actually much of a fighter (they just like bombs). Most of its Craft spells are basic/beginner level. The one and only Powerful Craft spell they have is a shield/defense spell that they practiced several times. It's capable of negating all damage for 2 turns with a 5 turn cooldown, they wanted to master that spell to make it so that bombs won't hurt them no matter the close proximity.
Its hand signs are "broken." They used to mimic the hand signs that the Universe (I'm mainly referring to my design of the Universe) makes. But after forgetting about everything in regards to it, they can't remember what hand signs they used to make but the familiar feeling was still there.
A huge fan of The Cursing of Chateau Castle, to the point of practically making it part of its identity now that a HUGE chunk of its memory is missing. Its outfit is a modified version of what they think Lady Irene-Janine-Karine wears.
Its personality is a mixture of Lord Josephandre, Pierre-Jacques-Erneste, and Lady Irene-Janine-Karine (aka the Chateau Trio!!! Love those three...).
Its name, "Soleil" is just something they found in a book and decided to use for itself. They don't remember its name anymore.
#ariart#ariaoc#isat oc#isat spoilers#theres some danger in the fact that sol took pierres personality too considering that pierre betrayed the party that one time--#honestly if i think about sol harder i begin to realize that theres A LOT of things wrong about them mentally#what forgetting a country with a belief system you were incredibly loyal to does to someone i think.#also making it so that sol was the npc that translated that one issue of the cursing of chateau castle from vaugardian#into the language of the Country. if you were to enter its home. youll be greeted by a LOT of bookcases and shelves and books#and therell be at least 4 of those dedicated to the cursing of chateau castle. original version and the ones they translated#there will ofc be sections where its about the Country tho. actually i think if siffrin visited its home he'll be able to know more#about the Country. if he became close friends enough to be able to enter the rooms with the books of it. sol couldnt read them#anymore but feels as though those books were important so they moved it elsewhere for safekeeping. making sure to maintain it too#also yea you can now see exactly how im pushing the isat worldbuilding to its limits via body craft#i like to think that if in case body craft operates in a similar manner to alchemy in that by Changing something theres an equal#exchange to be given. if its Changing your appearance to a new one then the equal value to be exchanged is the Old appearance#but if for example theres a missing body part. youd have to find Something else of equal value to replace it then#and by going off of that same principle. if a body part has two functions (like with sol's eyes having a special sight to it)#then by Changing its appearance. the equal value follows the same principle of the: exchange Old for New#except that in sol's case. with the addition of a body part that has two functions. technically speaking they can Separate the#two functions while still following the usual method. it's just that now theres another set of eyes on its body. still a New appearance tho
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lesbiansanemi Ā· 11 months ago
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Okay. My roommateā€™s bf that is moving in in a couple weeks brought his fucking dog over today and šŸ˜­ like ig it was well behaved but the cats hated it (and both my cats are already anxious messes I dread to think of how theyā€™ll act/what theyā€™ll do with a brand new big stressor added) and it fucking. It fucking REEKS like dog. Like yeah itā€™s a dog but I havenā€™t been around dogs in so long I forgot how much like dogs dogs smell and šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ if itā€™s gonna be here that means my apartment and my things and my blankets and clothes are gonna start to smell like fucking dog and Iā€™m fjfjdjsksk I donā€™t like this but Iā€™ve also said a couple times Iā€™m not happy about the dog thing and theyā€™re both like ā€œhaha well! Heā€™s a good dogā€ and I think they think Iā€™m kinda being jokey about it but like. No. I donā€™t like the fucking dog and I donā€™t wanna live with a dog šŸ˜­ because even if itā€™s super well behaved and doesnā€™t bother me in a literal sense I will still have to deal with the inescapable consequence of Living With a Dog in the sense of it making my cats anxious/moody/angry and my apartment smelling like it and hfjdjdjdks I donā€™t know what to doooooo
#he also made a comment tonight about me having a lot of art on the wallā€¦#and then going ā€˜haha weā€™ll have to make a little Kaz cornerā€™ and like implying he wanted me to take a lot of it down#he might have been joking? but if not Iā€™m :/#like I donā€™t mind kinda moving some of my things around to rearrange and making room for some of his stuff#but Iā€™m not shoving all my shit into a teeny part of the apartment or all in my room or something#like. itā€™s. its my apartment. itā€™s reasonable for me to want some of my things in the main part of the apartment I PAY RENT IN#and idk. like I donā€™t MIND him living here and itā€™s not that I expected to not have to make any changes#but Iā€™m starting to get worried that he (and my roommate will follow his lead cuz heā€™s a wet noodle)#are gonna start acting like itā€™s THEIR apartment and Iā€™m the random third person that needs to compromise on everything/get shoved into a#spare room and my influence should not be seen#and then weā€™re gonna start to have. problems. which I really donā€™t wanna fucking deal with#like uh. no actually. itā€™s my name on the lease. I lived here before. I am not overhauling my living arrangements#for a guy my roommate is dating who wanted to move in even tho theyā€™ve only been dating like five months#and from what I can gather is not even gonna pay rent šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­#idk maybe Iā€™m overreacting but just. the way my concerns have been kinda brushed off and my things are being treated so flippantly#is. mm. itā€™s rubbing me the wrong way and I donā€™t like it#kaz rambles
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dvrk-moon Ā· 9 months ago
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ENHYPEN ; ģ—”ķ•˜ģ“ķ”ˆ
HAVING AN IDOL S/O
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requested : yes!!!
genre : fluff, crack
pairing : enhypen ot7 x fem!reader
warnings : cursing, this is long asfk LOL
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HEESEUNG ; ķ¬ģŠ¹
so you two trained together
and you mutually liked each other while training but didnā€™t really talk much
you ended up leaving bighit in early 2018 and going to train at cube instead
so you lost contact
but you ended up debuting as the maknae of (g)i-dle
and since you debuted before enhypen, you were more well known than they were initially
you were one of the more famous members in the group in korea, so your face was pretty inescapable
so imagine heeseungā€™s reaction when he sees a birthday ad for you for the first time
mind literally blown
so heā€™s like looking you and your group up to see if itā€™s really you (it is)
and heā€™s like damn i gotta get in contact with her again
but he doesnā€™t have an opportunity because even from a friends standpoint, he didnā€™t really have time because he had to focus on training and eventually going through i-land
ok skip forward and heā€™s debuted yay!!!!!
so you had a promotion period thatā€™d lined up around a year and a half later where you made a duo debut with your member shuhua while enha was promoting manifesto
and heeseung saw you backstage once
between him seeing you for the first time up until that point heā€™d literally been trying to find out how to talk to you again
and this was his opportunity!
so before you went to perform heeseung approached you randomly
and lowkey youā€™d forgotten about heeseung until you saw him again lol
and youā€™re like oh heyā€¦ so awkward because what do you genuinely say to someone you havenā€™t talked to in like four years
but when you remember that heā€™s the heeseung that you talked to during your trainee days (the same heeseung you had a thing for) you are more willing to talk to him
but then your conversation is cut short because you have to go perform your song
when you come back, heā€™s still waiting for you :((((
like that man is COMMITTED to getting to talk to you again
so then after like thirty minutes of talking (right before he has to go promote his song) he finally gets the courage to ask for your number
and youā€™re like shit yeah
so he texts you like every day
and during your overlapping promotions, he tries to meet up with you backstage as frequently as possible
so eventually you gain feelings for him again (and he obviously does for you) and you start hanging out
but then he goes on tour for a while
you miss him a lot
and he misses you a lot
so when he comes back, he impulsively like picked you up while hugging and youā€™re like um okay MARRY ME
one hangout he finally asks you out (as more than friends) and youā€™re so excited
so you quickly begin dating :)
dating him is definitely like dating your number one supporter
like he makes it a point to meet you backstage (even if you donā€™t have an overlapping promotion) and he makes you teach him your choreography
and youā€™re like ā€œheeseung i can teach you this at your or my dormā€ and heā€™s like ā€œnope i need everyone here to know that you only teach me your dancesā€
youā€™re like ā€œ???ā€ but donā€™t question it bc heā€™s just odd
he prefers you to go over to his dorms because of his solo room but heā€™s not opposed to making friends with your members even though theyā€™re all older than him
just know if you go over to enhaā€™s dorms though they will 100% try to be around you all the time
and donā€™t get heeseung wrong, he obviously wanted the members to like you, but he also wasnā€™t anticipating his own girlfriend being stolen from him
you almost get caught by dispatch a couple times
but dispatch fr fr catches him at MAMA
like this man was so protective of his idol image for so long and the he watched your performance and dispatch was like ā€œWRITE THAT DOWN WRITE THAT DOWNā€
does not gaf if youā€™re exposed tho bc heā€™s like ā€œyup thatā€™s my girlfriend suck it sheā€™s MINEā€
JAY ; ģ œģ“
so you debuted before him
by like a year and a half, so like january 2019
you were one of the members of itzy, which was the talk of the town for quite some time
and jay was actually a huge fan of your group since he was a trainee
your group had a few hit songs in korea but jay made it seem like every song of yours (yes this includes b sides)
youā€™d been his bias since your teaser dropped ofc
and he made it everyoneā€™s problem to listen to your music during practice
even during i-land there were clips of him doing the shoulder move from ā€˜wannabeā€™
but i digress
so once his debut place is secured as of i-land episode 12 he was so excited that he might have the opportunity of meeting you
but like. he had to be normal about it
so he freaked out about you respectfully
but ā€œrespectfullyā€ to him was mentioning you as his role model and ideal type
on like every variety program possible
like damn we get it!!!!
but your and his companies thought it would be just so silly and funny if they brought you out to meet him the next time he mentioned you
and so they did exactly that!!!
he was on weekly idol and all of a sudden you came out from where the staff were filming
he actually almost fainted on the spot
and you thought it was sooo cute that he was that flattered over meeting you
so you approached him and asked him for his number
cue him almost passing out pt 2
but you end up talking quite a bit
like u come visit him quite often and he comes to visit you
and he like is literally like the perfect talking stage
so it takes like zero time for you guys to actually start dating
but when he canā€™t visit you heā€™s texting you all the time
ā€œyour stage was so good how are you realā€
always buying albums for each other for support
and heā€™s like $$ so he buys a ton of yours (and of his if you want some)
he gets so excited when he pulls your photocard and is so happy when you pull his because he thinks itā€™s fate
but the one time he caught rikiā€™s photocard in the back of your phone he swapped it out for his almost immediately
he always jokes about his bias being yuna, and so youā€™ve started to make a point of saying your bias is jungwon and sunghoon
and because you did that you took a picture of you and jungwon once to send to him like ā€œproof that my bias is jungwonā€
that pic became his lock screen btw
you one time said that you were an enhypen fan and midzy and engene were freaking out
they were like ā€œjust date already smhā€
little did they know that you already were!
JAKE ; ģ œģ“ķ¬
you were a year and a half their junior
and you debuted in kep1er
so the time that they were promoting blessed cursed you were promoting wa da da
and like youā€™d just debuted too
so you had just done a stage and were on your way to your groups van to go back to the dorms
and you go to enter the first black van you see with an open door
and instead of your members youā€™re met with jake sunghoon sunoo!
you turned red immediately and ran in the other direction to actually find your van where yujin, yeseo, chaehyun, and hiyyih were waiting for you
you told your members and they thought it was so funny
but jokes on them
because the very next week, jake had accidentally walked into your waiting room at mcountdown
whoā€™s laughing now!!! (you are)
after the incident, he found you and came to apologize for walking in
and you were like ā€œohhh thatā€™s so funny because i actually was the one who came into your van last week!ā€
but after the apologies were exchanged, you two ended up walking around backstage anyways and just talking about anything and everything
after you and your members had to go perform, jake just waited for you backstage
and once you were done performing you came back and talked to him more ! yay !
but then soon enha had to go on to perform b-c and by the time he came back, your group had already left :ā€™(
itā€™s okay though because you left your phone number on a post-it that said ā€œFOR JAKEā€ in their waiting room
enhypen teased him so hard but he was like whatever at least i got her number
so he texted you like almost immediately
soon after, you two texted like all the time and started meeting backstage whenever it was possible
jake asked you out for the first time right before you went on stage to perform and obviously you said yes
but when you went to perform, your voice was such a bright red color that it went viral amongst kep1ians (and later other fandoms)
after that stage, jake and you just sat and talked in the kep1er waiting room for sooooo long
heā€™s literally the biggest fan of your group
like heā€™s so open and genuine about how much he likes your group, and he always somehow has one of your songs on his recommendation playlists
and those songs will somehow always be sandwiched between the most beautiful love songs ever and it makes engenes go šŸ¤ØšŸ¤Ø
you also are open about being a fan of them
so basically your fans and his have already put two and two together very quickly
but the suspicions were confirmed when he posted a late-night river view picture on weverse and then you posted something extremely similar a couple days later
winning the idgaf war about people finding out though
like heā€™s like DONTTTT CAREEEEE <3 MY GF
he actually thinks itā€™d be better if people knew so that no one would try anything on you because youā€™re taken
SUNGHOON ; ģ„±ķ›ˆ
you were the seventh member of ive, also known as wonyoungā€™s group
and like wonyoung is your bff
she knew you found sunghoon cute from all the times youā€™d asked her if you could come visit her on music bank days
so she wanted to play matchmaker!
(love me not reference?!?!)
anyways
she gets ā€œsickā€ once and is like ā€œhey y/n why donā€™t you stand in for me?ā€
and youā€™re like ā€œyeah sure whatever idc itā€™s chillā€
itā€™s not chill
for reference, sunghoon also thought it was going to be chill, because he had no idea that you were standing in for wonyoung
little did wonyoung know, sunghoon also found you very attractive
ofc he wouldā€™ve tried to get your number through wonyoung, but he was too introverted to even think about it
so when you get there, both of your faces are pretty red, but your cheeks at least cool down by the time youā€™re recording
his do not šŸ˜­
heā€™s like sneaking looks at you and shit
he thought he was being so subtle too about it like bye šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
but fans love the interactions!!!!
and theyā€™re sooooo stoked to have jungwon sunoo and sunghoon on the radio that you host after the fact
sunghoon fucking DRESSES for the occasion too like damn
and like you made a point to be like ā€œnice outfitā€
on the outside he was like ā€œyeah itā€™s whateverā€ but on the inside he was shitting his pants
anyways
and so you asked him for his number because you wanted ā€œfashion tipsā€ (youā€™re a liar)
so the first time he asks you out heā€™s like ā€œlet me style u an outfitā€
and then while doing that heā€™s like ā€œletā€™s date!ā€
and youā€™re like ā€œwell alrightā€
(jk u were just as stoked)
and dating him is so relieving
because you donā€™t have to keep the relationship (at least beyond friends) a secret
fans love the interactions
and so when you guys actually announce the relationship everyone is so hyped
like they already expected it
but still
he never misses an opportunity to talk about you on live or on a variety show
the interviewer is like ā€œso, sunghoon, what was your favorite part of this comeback?ā€
he thinks for a second. then all of a sudden, ā€œwell y/n-ā€
like bro we get it
he just does not even care tho bc heā€™s so down bad
SUNOO ; ģ„ ģš°
okay now so remember when sunoo was a radio dj?
yeah
so you debuted in billlie, and your song, gingamingayo had just been released
and sunoo had heard it quite a few times already on his dj show
and heā€™s like ā€œok damn i get it let me look up the songā€
he became a fan so quickly
like learned the choreo and everything
so the following week on the radio show heā€™s like ā€œoh have you guys heard this song itā€™s so good actually iā€™m a fan of this groupā€
and then BOOM next week youā€™re on the show he radio djs for
chemistry between u guys went CRAZY
and then you filmed a tiktok together
and posted it like a week after the radio episode had gone viral
engenes and belllieā€™ves went crazy
you guys had already exchanged numbers at that point too
so getting to laugh about your fans freaking out was super fun to you two
you started visiting him at radio show schedules in secret after the fact
so he ends up asking you out about a month later
and ofc you say yes
so once you started dating, he would visit you at your schedules a lot
you would often pretend to be a staff member at the radio show so you could be there without raising much question
but then one time you were a ā€œspecial guestā€ on the radio show again, and you filmed another tiktok, but this time it wasnā€™t like one of your groupā€™s dance challenges
it was like a cute trend
so once you got the okay to post it, you did
this confirmed to engenes and belllieā€™ves that you were friends at the very least
he always finds a way to sing your songs on live
doesnā€™t ever sing when itā€™s your part though šŸ¤ØšŸ¤ØšŸ¤Ø itā€™s almost like he wants to hear your voice
one time he came to one of your fansigns ā€œanonymouslyā€
people found out it was him so quickly šŸ˜­
heā€™s so shameless about people knowing though
after that, fans basically already know youā€™re dating even if you donā€™t outright say anything
nobody actually cares though
theyā€™re just waiting for that third y/noo tiktok šŸ™
JUNGWON ; ģ •ģ›
you debuted in illit, as a result of the belift survival show ā€œr u next?ā€
you came in first place, just like jungwon did on i-land
so naturally, under the same sublabel, illit and enhypen passed each other quite frequently
youā€™ve actually interacted quite a bit with the other members
but for some reason, their leader was a bit standoffish to you
and you had absolutely no idea why he would be
you thought that maybe it was because youā€™d also come in first place on your respective survival show, so maybe he had one sided beef with you?
it didnā€™t make sense but thatā€™s just what you assumed
actually ā˜ļøšŸ¤“ jungwon had a big fat crush on you
and had no idea what to do about it
like he secretly supported you on r u next? and everything
so eventually, belift decides to make a variety show for illit and enha
as the first place winners, you two are paired together, along with your japanese maknaes, ni-ki and iroha
iroha and ni-ki were already acquainted, so iroha told ni-ki about how funny it was that you and jungwon were in the same group, given that jungwon hated you
and ni-kiā€™s like ?!
so he like goes up to jungwon and is like ā€œshe thinks you hate her broā€
heā€™s so embarrassed to find out that you thought he hated you
ni-ki teases him so hard about it
so eventually jungwon admits to you (off-camera) that he doesnā€™t hate you, and in fact heā€™s quite fond of you
it lifts the biggest weight off his chest when you also admit that youā€™re fond of him, and that he was your role model ever since youā€™d joined r u next?
after filming, you two exchange numbers
heā€™s such a baby like seriously how could you think he hated you
it doesnā€™t take long AT ALL for you to start dating
in fact hybe/belift encourages it because they think itā€™ll be good exposure for both groups
and it highkey is
in korea, you guys gain the title of ā€œfirst place coupleā€ and omgggg knetz eat that up
youā€™re invited on a ton of variety shows together
jungwon is sooooo so supportive and is lowkey a stan of your group
he like sends you your fancams and is like ā€œteach me this dance plsā€
when your two groups pass each other in the hallways, enha and illit always make it a point to tease you two
you guys donā€™t mind though because at least you have each other ā˜ļøā˜ļø
RIKI ; ė‹ˆķ‚¤
you debuted as the maknae of loona
so youā€™d been in the industry a few years longer than enhypen had
so riki knew of you, but you werenā€™t super familiar with them
but the both of you were invited onto a variety program for foreign idols
you ended up becoming more familiar with them after being paired together with riki for a couple challenges
one interaction you had made you two go completely viral after executing a twice choreography together extremely well
both bbc and belift saw this as an opportunity to make some money, so they kinda forced you and riki to get close
little did they know thatā€™s what you both wanted anyways lol
so like youā€™ll have a live with him
or youā€™ll film a tiktok together
or youā€™ll post something together
etc
somewhere along the lines you two start dating in secret
namely after you two filmed a live together
and he saw one of the comments that said ā€œy/n please do perfect idol challengeā€ and you started doing the perfect idol dance on live
you started giggling because you started to forget the dance because you were embarrassed and he was smiling like a fucking maniac and then he realized he really really liked you more than a friend
and so soon after he didnā€™t wanna waste any more time and he just confessed that he liked you
and you were like ā€œno way me too!!!!ā€
(everyone could tell)
it wasnā€™t super in secret though
because belift/bbc had that ā€œbffs for lifeā€ image for you two
so you could interact freely
it just took every bone in rikiā€™s body to not grab your hand and pull you into his arms during a dance live
but then womp womp
dispatch exposes you guys like four months into the relationship
no one cares though (except delulu fans)
so when you terminate your contract with bbc for the mistreatment, engenes beg you to audition for hybe/belift because theyā€™re afraid if you go somewhere else you wonā€™t be able to interact freely with him anymore and they love your interactions
you end up joining ctd, which is the company of one of the post-loona acts, along with five of your ex-members
luckily ctd is a good company so they let you and riki still stay together and still have your lives
one time riki was doing a weverse live and you showed up
and fans absolutely LOVED it
ctd is an unknown company so they unexpectedly got a lot more sales with this relationship
they were like DAMN OK
anyways
you guys teach each other your choreos A LOT
like a lot
riki eats them up so bad like fans start saying heā€™s the seventh member of your group šŸ˜­
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a/n : had to include illit in this somehow i love them theyā€™re so cute. sorry for the lack of posts i am sooooooo fucking busy and this was in the drafts for forever
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alatrysev Ā· 2 months ago
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Drabble: Yandere!baker who was fascinated with you when your reaction to his first baked goods was a sight he couldn't forget, so as each days went by, his fascination grew into obsession! not only was he obsessed with your reactions, he was also obssessed with anything and everything you do!
Yandere!bakerxSweet-toothed!male!reader
Yandere!baker who keeps on giving you free sweets/ pastries in order to make you fall inlove with him! and only a few weeks, he could already see the expected outcome! oh boy was he wrong
Yandere!baker who you clung unto when you found out your boyfriend was cheating on you! said baker was enraged and was betrayed that you didn't tell him there was someone who already owned your heart! not that it matter tho, he wasn't mad at you at all since he knows that was just a mistake
Yandere!baker who comforted you with mountains of pasties! even took a day off just to comfort and cuddle with you, the next day he was already open and broughtyou to work with him, wherever he went you followed, and even if not, he made sure there were pastries near you
Yandere!baker who got sick from overwork! so you decided to repay all his caring and did the same thing, cleaned his whole house, made him porridge and made him drink medicine
Yandere!baker who woke up with a hard-on and coincidentally, you came in with water and medicine. To show him gratitude once again, you wordlessly pushed him down the bed and pulled his sweatpants off, his smell and the warmth radiating was making you feel lightheaded, the sight was too- big and thick dick, twitching n releasing lots of precum! it was like begging to be sucked on
Yandere!baker who is having a hard time because he can barely move his limbs and desperately want to push you down his entire length, moans, whines and grunts echoed inside the steamy room as you were having the time of your life! swirling and sucking hard on the cock made the baker whinier and more twitchy!
Yandere!baker who finally came so you thought he was finished and just when you were about to leave, he grabbed your arm ang gave you the most pleading face ever! about to complainā€” the guy pulled you on his lap and asked for permission, whichh you of course, gave him consent. Lips mashed with each other, tongue fighting and grinding! it was just getting started but you were already turned on soooo muchh!
Yandere!baker who was moaning and grunting loudly, each time you go down! delicious sounds resonated throughout the entire bedroom, you were having the time of your life! riding the baker roughly, making the big guy whine and whimper for you to slow down! of course you were too far to hear the begging male! you just couldn't help it of course, that big dick was to die for, it was also superr warm and the reddish blush on his cock looks really cute! so of course, you did what any person would do, take advantage of that delicious dick! poor baker tho, slight tears were dripping from the corners of his eyes because of the pleasure and his flu itself!
Yandere!baker who finally gained a bit of strength and turned you both over with him now on top of you, pushing your legs over his shoulders and started his lovemaking with you, and boy did he immediately went on to pounding! each thrust made the bed bump to the wall! the force made the wall ornaments shake too and that made you worried! begging for the male to slow downā€” but only just looked down at you and smirked and instead, his thrusting js got more rougher 3x!
Yandere!baker who lovingly watched you as you clung to him and begged to go slower, your tears made him extra horny so he brought you up near the window and continued his pounding there! the cold sensation sent shivers to your spine and accidentally made you tighten up on him!eyes rolled back into your skull as you unintentionally scratched the male! shocked that the baker had so much strength! said sick male was having the time of his life, his sickness was long gone and now continuously pounded into you!
Yandere!baker who miraculously maintained such big stamina and plowed you everywhere the entire house!- bathroom, kicthen, bedroom, living room, balcony- yes! the sun was just slightly rising so baker told you to contain your noises as to not get caught, but little did you know, he wanted to get caught so his thrust's became much more rougher! you guys lasted there for over an hour
Yandere!baker who was refreshed when he woke up! flinching when he heard your sneeeze, apologizing tons of times and once again cooked you a delicious meal and lots of pastries! often giving you kisses but you avoided kissing him on the lips because your afraid that he might get sick again! no matter tho, he still does that with no complaints
Yandere!baker who was watching you wrapped up in a blanket and munching on the sweets he baked! feeling aroused that you were unaware and is having your own little moment! and little did you know he placed his special ingredient in thereā™”
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Uhh, not entirely satisfied with this but meh, inspiration from my flu rn, I'm bedridden-WHICH MEANNSSS, NO SCHOOL FOR TODAYY
edit: this also doesn't seem like a drabble našŸ™šŸ˜­
anw, tysm for reading!
Taglist!!
@darlingminjin @kikizhly
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Genre ā€”> Fluff
ā€”> what it's like being in a relationship with them.
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YEONJUN
ā€¢ He's so cutie
ā€¢ loves having at least a hand on your thigh or around your waist bc it makes him feel at ease
ā€¢ it's also js a natural reflex to just swing his arm around you or sum
ā€¢ I can see him liking physical affection; or just any affection at that tbh
ā€¢ he's just so opening loving especially to you so even if your love language isn't physically affectionate it's not a problem to him at all
ā€¢ I believe his love language is a little bit of everything but more heavy on gift giving, quality time and physical affection.
ā€¢ he loves gifting you stuff, he has the money and he may not always have the time so gifting you something he knows you'll like or heard you said you wanted is a way to show you that he still cares
ā€¢ quality time because he knows y'all can't always be together because of his schedules and stuff but he tries
ā€¢ anytime he can he'll send you a quick text to check up on you or a quick I love you text, maybe call for a few minutes or a quick visit on his lunch break to you
ā€¢ physical affection because idk I feel like he's so cuddly, esp when he's sleepy or it's been a long day, a long time since he's seen you (like after tour for example).
ā€¢ he lets you glam him up
ā€¢ like...full on you can dress him how you like, makeup, heels, cute hair clips, babe have fun he's just happy to be there and that you're happy
ā€¢ happy you = happy Junnie
ā€¢ he's also a guy who would stare at you in such a lovesick way just in full adoration staring at you
SOOBIN
ā€¢ soft giant
ā€¢ yeah, he's tall asf but he's so gentle and sweet
ā€¢ he was shy in the first month or two in the relationship before getting more comfortable with initiating things first n stuff
ā€¢ if y'all were good friends before dating I think he'll be a little less shy, but not by much. Just a little more confidence
ā€¢ he gives you piggyback rides, sometimes you don't have to ask like, if your feet hurt from walk or sum he'll gladly put you on his back or tell you to get in his bsck
ā€¢ I think his love language is quality time and gift giving
ā€¢ just being in the sa room as him doing your own thing, vibing
ā€¢ or clinging to each other and talking, or just clinging to each other doing your own thing
ā€¢ gift giving because I think he wants you to remember he loves you even if he can't always verbally tell you
ā€¢ he's shy leave him alonešŸ˜­
ā€¢ he's trying to get better at words of affirmation tho so it's ok
ā€¢ tucks you into bed and kisses your forehead, tell me I'm wrong you can't.
BEOMGYU
ā€¢ It's definitely never boring
ā€¢ the dates? Always spontaneous
ā€¢ like..it can be a random afternoon on Tuesday and he'll just start getting ready and you have no choice but to follow him lol
ā€¢ it could js be a walk, walking to nowhere in specific and if y'all find a cafe or a store you guys haven't seen before best believe you guys are going to explore that shit lol
ā€¢ not all dates ofc, some are planned and romantic
ā€¢ teases you a lot and is very playful but knows when to stop
ā€¢ he doesn't over do it, usually just to get your attention tbh
ā€¢ and this boy almost always wants your attention but it's okay bc you love him
ā€¢ loves putting your hair in little ponytails on the top of your head on each side and literally pouts so much if you try and take it out or complain about it
ā€¢ he giggles and is happy tho so ig it's worth it
ā€¢ I think he sometimes try and wake up a little earlier just to spoil you; gifts, food, ur fav snacks and drinks and some new clothes or orders lots of stuff from online websites just to surprise you
ā€¢ ofc there are moments where he knows to be serious or to calm down and enjoy the moment together w you
ā€¢ he's the sweetest and is just v playful, pls be kind to him.
TAEHYUN
ā€¢ he may seem cold or mean ig but he's so gentle and nice like he is the dream
ā€¢ he's okay with physical affection but it's not his favorite, doesn't mean he'll complain or try and get you off if you initiate some from time to time though
ā€¢ when sleeping, he will cuddle you because that's how he gets good sleep at night so enjoy it babes
ā€¢ words of affirmation and quality time
ā€¢ hes good at telling you words of affirmation, compliments and even tho he says I love you in special moments, he still tells you things to let you know he does love you, so much.
ā€¢ I feel like quality time is obvious; I think he's more kept to himself but can be very fun and expressive at times
ā€¢ spending time with you in the same room is something he likes doing
ā€¢ it's comfort to him just by you being near him or beside him
ā€¢ loves going places with you even if you've been there multiple times before. He just wants to be with you even if it's walking for ten minutes
ā€¢ he writes cute & short notes to you before leaving for work usually because he leaves and wakes up earlier then you
ā€¢ he DEF has a memory box of the things you've gifted him to cherish
ā€¢ he adores you and loves you so so much, he trusts you and you're his first priority; over his work too.
ā€¢ idk guys he's a keeper
HUENINGKAI
ā€¢ soft giant pt.2
ā€¢ memory box of things you've given him pt.2
ā€¢ you guys gift each other plushies and stuffed animals bc it's like a cute little thing y'all do
ā€¢ def keeps the stuffed animals/plushies you give him somewhere special separate from his plushies
ā€¢ physical affection, words of affirmation
ā€¢ he loves to cuddle, hold hands, kisses, hugs, literally anything he adores you
ā€¢ he's so sweet and kind and gentle and soft ARUGH OTL
ā€¢ he is the golden retriever bf
ā€¢ really likes telling you how pretty you are or how he thinks your hair looks cute that day and expects you to also give him compliments
ā€¢ actually, you better give him compliments and love him with all your heart bc he worships the ground you walk on so pls take good care of this big baby he's a sweet thang
ā€¢ never had a bad word towards you or raises his voice at you
ā€¢ I can see him sometimes trying to wrestle you a little but it's so gently it's just cute and y'all are a giggling mess
ā€¢ JS LOVE THIS BOY PLS HE DESERVES THE WORLD
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strawberryvanillafrosting Ā· 11 months ago
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success life story ā™”
heyy i'm here to share about my success story, the beginning is only before i started manifesting and about when i just started, all my success are on the very end of the blog, so feel free to skip directly at it if you're not interest by all the rambling !
have a good read ā˜†
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michiko is so pretty, i've literally been told so many times i looked liker <3
the old story that i donā€™t live in anymore
okay so before i didnā€™t hate my life, at all, but i just found very dull and so poor of entertaining like it was just too fucking regular and repetitive.also a bit depressing. i thought of myself of such an unlucky girl before and i was like affirming all the fucking time that i was unlucky and guess what? everything really used to go the way i didnā€™t want it to go every single damn time and iā€™d be like i knew it im so unlucky boo-hoo.
same for the money i would just go every single fucking day rambling to my friends how poor i was and how i wanted money so bad and the same story every single fucking for days, weeks, months.
i really wanted a new appartement and my own room cause i used to share same room as my sister and it really was getting on my nerves, i had no privacy and place for myself. the apartment was small, my mum always kept complaining about it and then she would argue about my dad about it but the reason why we couldnā€™t move out despite trying for several months was cause my dad had whole lotta debts and my mom had a really low paying and hard job she was exhausted and, it was quiet hard to see them being this unhappy and they still tried their hardest to make us happy so i really wanted to get back at them.
about social life i had very few friends and barely went out, i'd say probably one time a month. and i really wanted to get that life of the party, and those big ass friends group and also i was crazy desperate about having black friends cause i am black and literally the only black out here without none of black friends and i felt pretty left out like wtf am i the only black girl with no black friends cause all of them (that's so dumb tho.. ) were friends and gets invited to the most fun hangouts and i was embarrassingly jealous of that and also complained a lot about itā€¦and kept asking tf was wrong with me.
STRONGLY on this one : i wanted a relationship so bad and i kept hating and being sad to those couple on tiktokā€™s. one time i actually cried cuz i wanted a boysā€™s love so bad like i was craving it so bad. i was in such despair state before..cringy ahh ā˜ ļø
i used to be rlly insecure about my looks too even tho at some moments i felt more confident, i kept comparing myself and waisting dozens of minutes enumerating my "flaws ". i knew about manifestation but not really about law of assumption , for me manifesting was really all about listening to subliminals, method and scripting. we all once knew that phase yeah? i used to manifest from time to time but then would just give up again,since i was not seeing results and so on. so useful wow.and then thereā€™s the others things like mediocre grades, poor family health, just constant tiredness and fatigue feeling,
tw : mention of being depressed,sh,ed, : felt empty like life had absolutely no meaning, suicidal thoughts, tried to end by over-consumption of medication, self-harm and bulimia, constant complaining and NEGATIVE ONLY mindset.
but now, NOW i tell you ever single thing iā€™ve just listed changed completely like every single damn thing iā€™ve just listed is no more, itā€™s out of the date, dead, buried and no longer existing !
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it clicked
then at some point at my life i was just like. yk what? fuck i just wanna change it all. then i really like reallyĀ  got into it all over again and for good. no more 1 week i try then giving up cause i ainā€™t seeing no Ā«Ā resultsĀ Ā».
i watched hours and hours of ppl talking about loa (iā€™m not saying you should do this at all itā€™s just that i was very under-informed and wanted to know everything about loa)on youtube, shoutout to rita kaminski and hyler who really put me into it and informed me. then i started reading nevilleā€™s pdf books, and tumblr blogs, kinda overconsuming but i liked getting myself informed.
and then thatā€™s where everything started and that i got aware of all the power i actually hold. all the things i actually can do just cause of my mind. i wrote down all my wishes in present tense ,like every single aspect i wanted to change/have in my life. and i started fully living in the end like really got myself into and at first of course, wavering from time to time in the beginning. it was pretty easy for me since i was used to manifestation.but what i didnā€™t do before is persist no matter what and thatā€™s what was really tricky for me in the beginning to persist no matter what and not just give up to bullshit 3D. but when i kept moving forward no matter the 3D and made it facts the only my 4D matters and everything has already happened, ALL and every single wish down to the last one flowed into my life. ONE by ONE every single hour of the day i would get my manifestations down to the last letter i wrote in my notes.every single thing
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success storyy
in a matter of few weeks like really 3 week-ish like- 1 month max.
starting off LUCK iā€™m extremely lucky now every single time i play gambling activities i win. iā€™ve won insane amounts at scratch cards i think iā€™ve won in total more than 5ā€™000$. JUST FROM SCRATCH CARDS.and before i started i NEVER EVER WON. now whenever i play thereā€™s not one time that iā€™ll win absolutely nothing even just a small prize
won huge lottery prize (from 200 to 12k the biggest iā€™ve won yet)
winning a gambling games, either online or dice rolling luck,bets, bingos etc.. its literally insane every one keep telling that i literally has got godā€™s blessing (iā€™m the god guysšŸ„°)
financially freedom, my parents upgraded jobs and iā€™ve got lots of incomes + the money my parents give meĀ 
all the debts my dad had, he got rid of ALL of them and when i tell you mf had a lot of emā˜ ļø
move out in a new huge ass condo which is a duplex (like really like i wrote it itā€™s actually scary how powerful we are..) Iā€™VE FINALLY GOT MY OWN ROOM and weā€™re getting my desired furnitures and decorating the house iā€™m so grateful
friends and popularity i think biggest shock for me is really this. like my social life has gone from very paisible to completely fully booked and passioning life. like seriously iā€™ve been to more parties, concerts, birthdays, and hangouts during the last 2 weeks holidays than in my entire life
got lot of new friends, healthy relationships and quality time passed on lots of fun activities and sm memories
black groups friend. WITH AN S.so thankful to myself to be this good a manifestation i litteraly got into a black friend group of girls and iā€™ve never felt more at my place and understood this much. and these girls know the black group boys (when i tell you that 2y ago they were the person that i wanted to be close with so bad..also theyā€™re really hot and funny lol)so we hung out with them and i was literally so highlighted and became pretty much friends with all of them !!Ā 
my man. HELLO I LITERALLY MANIFESTED MY DREAM RELATIONSHIP? when i met him i didnā€™t actually realize right on the spot that he was exactly how i wanted him to be and reading back to when i scripted out all the things i wanted at the beginning, everything matched. heā€™s literally physically and mentally the man of my dream LIKE REALLY. weā€™re no bf and gf YET cause itā€™s just a little soon but we see each others super often and we have the best relationship ever i swear itā€™s giving wattpad. the flirting is crazyyy.
dream bod.from head to toe my desired body. heavy on the lower body all for that azz and wide hips.ive got smooth and clear skin and smell good all the time!! litteraly flawless face + got my braces which suits so much and dimples
plenty of vacations (went to ibiza, usa and dubai )
lenient parents they use to be so strict before i swear its crazy they let me go so easily now, i can hangout without asking 3 days ,like they accept even if i've gotta go in the next hour or if wanna go on trip that's in another country. i can come back home so much later too
attractive & magnetic aura + being really charismatic (everyone i met keep telling me iā€™ve got this thing that really makes them want me, get closer to me)
good grades without doing much
perfect self-concept - as i kept living 24/7 in the state of wish fulfilled, my self concept only got better making me really know what iā€™m worth and never wavering/ going back to the old story
whole ass pc set up
all of my desired skincare/makeups/shoes/clothes
and so much more...
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i hope y'all liked my blog and that it motivated some of you to NEVER GIVE UP cause y'all are reallyy some powerful mfs and y'all already got all of yours desires !!
Ėš ą¼˜ā™” ā‹†ļ½”Ėš honey kisses, shayama
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school spirit and all! - soccer!frat!rafe cameron (+18) - part iii (final)
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what the fuck.Ā 
as soon as the words left his mouth, you wondered how many hits to the head soccer players got each match, because there was no way in hell rafe cameron was in love with you.
suddenly hyperaware of your nakedness, you stood up, almost falling off his bed in the process.
in a frantic scramble, you reached for your clothes, tugging on your jersey inside out and hopping around on one foot trying to pull up your shorts.
"what's wrong with you?! we just had sex!"
rafe blinked, still dazed from your anything but innocent activities.
ā€œuh, yeah, that's kind of when these feelings hit me.ā€
you paused, one leg in your levis shorts, the other still ā€œbareā€, and shot him a look.Ā 
Ā "you don't just drop the l-word after sex! are you insane!" you managed to get your shorts up and fastened, albeit a bit crookedly, ā€œjesus christ.ā€
ā€œi didnā€™t mean to freak you out, it just cameā€”"
ā€œyeah, well, maybe lead with something less dramaticā€Ā you snorted, tugging your shirt the right way around.Ā "i mean, who does that?"
he laughed, the sound rich and warm, and for a moment you were torn between being annoyed and charmed, ā€œiā€™m sorry. i meant it tho.ā€
ā€œno, you didnā€™t.ā€ you shot back, rolling your eyes as you fumbled with your shoelaces.
ā€œi did,ā€ he insisted, his voice earnest, but you were too busy wrestling with your stubborn converse to look up.
ā€œyou don't even know me."
"course i do," he looked offended, like you insulted him, "your birthday is on october 8th, and your favorite color is blue. your favorite food is picanha and kimchi ramyeon. you do this thing when you're happy where you just speak really loud, all the time and when your favorite song comes on, which is all of them really, you always squealā€”"
you think you lost at least three brain cells as you stood there, jaw dropped to the floor, listening to him list all the things he knew about you.
correctly.
"yā€™know what sherlock?ā€ you said suddenly, standing up, finally fully dressed but still feeling exposed. ā€œi need some air. a lot of it.ā€
ā€œwhat?ā€
ā€œiā€™m leaving.ā€
ā€œwaitā€”" you hear the sound of sheets ruffling, ā€œwait a secā€”dammit!ā€
you didn't look back as you hurried out of his room, the sounds of the frat party thumping from downstairs, music seeping through the walls. the hallway was packed with people, and you pushed your way through the crowd, your mind racing. oh my god. everyone was seeing you leave rafe cameronā€™s room in a hurry. there was no way in hell youā€™d have a peaceful week after this.
you were almost reaching the door when you felt a hand grab your upper arm. you turned around to see rafe, now dressed in shorts and a t-shirt, ā€œcan we talk about this?ā€
the music was deafening, forcing you to practically scream to be heard. ā€œwhat part of 'too much' donā€™t you get?ā€
ā€œwhy?ā€ he asked, his voice barely cutting through the noise. ā€œwhy does it have to be too much?ā€
ā€œbecause it is!ā€ you shouted, then softened your tone just enough to be less harsh, ā€œjust let it go.ā€
he let go of your arm, but his eyes stayed locked on yours. ā€œā€™m not asking you to say it back, okay?ā€
you felt the weight of curious eyes on you. the partygoersā€™ stares only made you want to leave even more. desperation clawed at your chest.
rafe closed his eyes, shaking his head slightly, ā€œdid that really feel like only sex to you?ā€
you bit your lip, the regret hitting you immediately, but you couldn't stop now. you needed to get out.
ā€œyeah.ā€ you replied, even though your heart screamed at you to take it back.
he stepped back, letting go of your arm completely. ā€œfine. go on then," he said, his tone flat and lifeless. ā€œjust go.ā€
ā€œiā€™m sorryā€”" you started again, but rafe's expression hardened. heā€™d never looked at you like that and you hated every single second of it.
he stepped back further, creating a physical distance, as if to save himself the hurt, ā€œleave.ā€
you didnā€™t have to be told twice, you wanted to be anywhere but there. you couldn't delete the image of his face when you rejected him from your brain.Ā 
as soon as you were outisde, you pulled out your phone, and dialed pope's number. he picked up on the third ring, his voice laced with excitement.
"the dick was that bad? i could've swornā€”ā€
tears were already threatening to fall as you tried to steady your voice. "pope, can you... can you pick me up?"
ā€œhuh?ā€
"i just... i need to get out of here," you managed, voice cracking as you wrapped an arm around yourself, feeling strangely exposed.
"shit. okay. i'll be there in ten minutes.ā€
you found a quiet spot near the edge of the campus, too embarrassed to sit outside rafeā€™s frathouse with so many people coming and going. leaning against a tree, you sank down, hugging your knees to your chest.
what the hell were you doing? had you just permanently ruined your friendship with rafe? let your little mommy issues get ahead of you?
when pope finally pulled up in his car, you climbed in wordlessly, unable to meet his eyes.Ā 
ā€œwhat did he do? you want me to punch him? cause yā€™know iā€™ll call jj and weā€”"
you leaned your head against the cool glass of the car window, ā€œthis was such a fucking bad idea.ā€
he glanced at you briefly before focusing back on the road, ā€œwhat? why?ā€
ā€œbecause.ā€
pope's brow furrowed in confusion. "what did he say?"
"that he loved me.ā€
ā€œwhat the fuck?!" your body jolted forward, your heart racing from the sudden stop. the motherfucker accidentally slammed the brakes.
ā€œpope, what the hell?ā€
ā€œmy bad, fuck,ā€ he muttered, regaining control of the car and easing back onto the road, ā€œhe dropped that shit on you?ā€
ā€œyeah.ā€
ā€œokay, thatā€™s kinda fucked, butā€”ā€œ pope glanced at you again, concern etched on his face. ā€œlook, cameron might be a lot of things, but heā€™s not a liar. man, heā€™s the complete opposite if you ask me. too fucking honest for his own good.ā€
ā€œhe picked the worst time to be honest,ā€ you muttered, wiping away a tear, ā€œi literally had his dick in my hands!ā€
ā€œdude!ā€ pope faux-gagged, ā€œi donā€™t need the details, jesus.ā€
ā€œsorry,ā€ you said, half-laughing through your tears. ā€œitā€™s just... how can he love me? he doesnā€™t even know me! thatā€™s whatā€™s pissing me off the most.ā€
that was a lie.
pope sighed, shaking his head. ā€œi donā€™t know, but it sounds like heā€™s really into you. you spent a lot of time together, right? maybe he knows you better than you think.ā€
he does.
ā€œdonā€™t get smart on me pope howard. i need your support right now, not this sentimentalist bullshit.ā€
pope chuckled, ā€œyouā€™ve got to talk to him. yā€™know that, right?ā€
you groaned, lifting the palms of your hands to your eyes, ā€œwhy?ā€
ā€œbecause you care about him, you dumbass. thatā€™s fucking obvious.ā€
ā€œstop making sense,ā€ you mumbled, sighing heavily. ā€œi need you to be angry with me, pope.ā€
he shook his head, a small smile playing at his lips. "i'm your best friend. my job is to tell you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear.ā€
you slumped further into your seat, ā€œthis is your fault anyway. you planted the stupid idea in my brain.ā€
ā€œme? this is all you.ā€
your mouth dropped, ā€œbe fucking serious. you told me to sleep with him! for sports!ā€
ā€œyeah, okay, iā€™ll take the blame butā€¦ā€
ā€œbut?ā€ you narrowed your eyes in warning, ā€œbut what?ā€
he shrugged innocently, ā€œyou never listened to me up to that point. i didnā€™t think youā€™d do it. thatā€™s gotta mean something.ā€
ā€œstop making me think,ā€ you muttered under your breath, letting your head fall back against the seat. ā€œi just want to forget this whole night happened.ā€
ā€œmaybe you just need some time to figure out how you feel.ā€
ā€œi donā€™t feel anything,ā€ you lied, staring out the window at the passing lights. ā€œheā€™s just rafe cameron.ā€
pope sighed again, the kind of sigh that said he didnā€™t believe you for a second. ā€œwhatever you say."ā€
he dropped you off at your dorm, waiting until you were inside before driving away.Ā you made your way to your room, collapsing onto your bed. why did you feel like such a terrible person?
you grabbed your phone and scrolled through your contacts, stopping at rafeā€™s name. your thumb hovered over the call button before you shook your head, tossing the phone aside.
you needed time. time to think, time to breathe, and time to figure out what the hell you wanted.
the next morning, you woke up with a headache and a sense of unease that settled deep in your chest. you dragged yourself out of bed. pope had texted you, a simple ā€œhope youā€™re okay <3ā€ that made you smile despite everything. you quickly replied, assuring him you were fine, even if you didnā€™t fully believe it.
you werenā€™t.
not when your first class of the day was with rafe. but you could do it.
you walked into class just in time, like you always did, only this time you were dreading the inevitable awkwardness of being sat next to rafe.
you hadnā€™t thought this through. he usually got here before you, real heavy on being on time for everything he did. you tried to keep your eyes locked on the professor, who was gathering the material for class, but you still took small peeks towards the door, expecting to see him stroll in at any given moment.
except he never did.Ā as the lecture progressed, he never showed up.Ā 
when the professor eventually asked about his whereabouts, kelce, his friend who sat a few rows behind you, raised his hand casually.
ā€œrafeā€™s not feeling well today,ā€ kelce spoke up, his tone nonchalant. he glanced over at you briefly, a knowing look in his eyes that made your stomach twist.Ā 
oh great, so now you were the witch of the wicked west to all his friends.Ā 
the professor nodded sympathetically. ā€œalright, thank you for letting me know, kelce. make sure he gets the notes from todayā€™s lecture.ā€
kelce nodded in acknowledgment, and the class moved on, but your mind was racing.Ā rafe skipping class wasnā€™t like him. the timing felt deliberate, almost as if he was avoiding you after last night.Ā 
as the lecture continued, you realized rafe wouldnā€™t be the only one needing notes. all youā€™d done for two hours was scramble down a few words, none of them making any sense. you struggled to focus on the material. every glance towards the door was met with disappointment.
maybe this was serious. maybe he hated you now.
after what felt like an eternity, the class finally ended. packing up your things, you hesitated before deciding to approach kelce, who lingered near his seat. youā€™d only spoken to him a handful of times, mainly when you and rafe studied back at the frat house.
kelce was nice. but the look he was giving you now, was anything but.
"hey, kelce," you began, trying to sound casual.
"hey," kelce replied cautiously, eyeing you up and down.Ā 
you swallowed, suddenly feeling self-conscious under his scrutiny.
"um, is rafe okay? is he sick?ā€
he nodded slowly, his gaze unwavering, ā€œthe flu. got it last night."
"l-last night?ā€Ā 
ā€œyup.ā€
ā€œoh.ā€
kelce's brows furrowed slightly, ā€œlook, i donā€™t know what happened. but, heā€™sā€¦not doing okay.ā€
your stomach sank. it was clear rafe was avoiding you, and the guilt gnawed at you even more. "i just... i didn't mean to..."
kelce cut you off gently, his voice softening. "thatā€™s none of my business.ā€
"yeah," you murmured, feeling utterly inadequate.
"he'll come around," kelce reassured you, though his tone lacked conviction.
you nodded dumbly, unsure of what else to say. part of you wanted to apologize again, but...youā€™d done nothing wrong. there was no need to explain yourself.
"thanks," you managed weakly, offering a half-hearted smile.
kelce nodded in response, his expression remaining neutral. with that, you turned and hurried out of the classroom, feeling the weight of kelce's gaze on your back. the hallways felt suffocating, with whispered conversations and curious glances that only amplified your discomfort. did everyone know? was there a journal column telling everyone who got laid last night? fucking hell.
back in your dorm room, you collapsed onto your bed, burying your face in your hands. this was worse than what youā€™d expected. you couldn't stop seeing the image of rafe's hurt expression, his quiet insistence that he meant what he said.
your phone buzzed beside you, and you hesitated before picking it up, sighing in realief when you saw it was a text from pope.
"baaaabeeee, how did it go?"
did he really want to know the mess you'd made of things?
after a moment's hesitation, you replied with a simple,Ā "not great. think everyone hates me lol"
pope's response was almost immediate.Ā ā€œshit. you wanna to talk about it?"
you bit your lip, undecided between wanting to unload everything and wanting to bury it all deep down. in the end, you settled for a brief reply.Ā ā€œlater."
that went on for a week and three days.
you avoided rafeā€™s usual hangouts, keeping your head down and focusing on your classes. you still hadnā€™t seen him, and it was starting to drive you crazy. you needed to talk to him, but you were scared. like, shitless scared, of what heā€™d say, scared of what youā€™d feel.
it was hours later when you finally saw him again. you were in the library, buried in your notes, the ones whoā€™d stolen from pope because you hadnā€™t been able to focus properly in any class and you hated that youā€™d let a boy have so much control over your brain, let alone a jock.
when you looked up and saw him standing at the entrance. he looked a little too good. the typical shorts hitting just above his knees, a loose sleeveless shirt that showed off his muscles way too much for your sanity, and his hair peeking out from under a snapback.Ā 
good enough to eat.
he spotted you almost immediately and then quickly turned his head to side, ignoring you.Ā 
ouch. okay, fair enough all things considered.
your heart skipped a beat. it was now or never. for a moment, you considered hiding, but you knew you couldnā€™t avoid him forever. taking a deep breath, you stood up and made your way over to him.
ā€œhey,ā€ you said softly, your heart pounding in your chest, trying to sound as casual as possible.
rafe looked up for a second, then returned his attention to the phone in his hands, ā€œhey.ā€
ā€œcan we talk?ā€ you asked.
he shrugged, and it took everything in you not to punch him in the face. ā€œsure.ā€
you swallowed hard, trying to find the right words. ā€œsorry about the other night. i-i didnā€™t handle it well.ā€
he nodded, but his gaze remained on his phone, fingers typing away. ā€œyeah, i get it.ā€
you frowned, sensing that something was off. heā€™d never ignored you before, he wasnā€™t even giving you the dignity of looking at you as you spoke to him.Ā 
ā€œare you okay?ā€
ā€œfine,ā€ he replied curtly.
before you could ask him what the fuck is problem was now, a girl approached, her smile bright, almost blinding you. she was ridiculously pretty, with long braided hair and sparkling brown eyes.
a literal doll.
she looked between you and rafe, ā€œhi, are you ready to go?ā€
your heart sank as the girl slipped her arm around rafeā€™s arm and he finally put his stupid phone away and smiled down at her.
heavy on the ouch.
ā€œyeah, letā€™s go,ā€ rafe said, his voice softening, but then he turned to you, his expression blank again, ā€œsee you around.ā€
you stood there, watching them walk away feeling like a complete fucking idiot. like you were being pranked. what the hell was that? was he trying to make you jealous? or was he moving on that quickly? was there even something to move on from?
you returned to your seat, barely registering the world around you.
is that what he meant by telling you he loved you? youā€™ve been feeling bad over a boy who clearly only said what he said because you fucked him too good? wow.
you tried to focus on your notes, but your hands were trembling. without realizing it, you started tearing at the pages, ripping them apart. by the time you looked down, half of your notes were in shreds, scattered across the table.
ā€œdammit,ā€ you hissed under your breath. you gathered the torn pieces, stuffing them into your bag. there was no salvaging them now.Ā 
with a frustrated sigh, you pulled out your phone and dialed popeā€™s number.Ā 
ā€œwhatā€™s up?ā€
ā€œi need to get fucked up tonight.ā€ you said bluntly, not bothering to hide the frustration you were feeling.Ā 
ā€œbuy a guy a drink first?ā€
you could hear him snicker at his own joke, ā€œshut up. are there any parties?ā€
ā€œyeah, heard there's a big one at the delta house. everyoneā€™s going.ā€
ā€œokay. weā€™re going too.ā€
pope sighed, ā€œi donā€™t remember signing up for this.ā€
ā€œshut up and pick me up at 9.ā€
you decided that tonight was the night to go all out. no more hiding, no more feeling sorry for yourself. you rummaged through your closet, tossing aside clothes that were too plain, too boring, or just not the vibe you were going for.Ā 
finally, you found itā€”the perfect outfit, and possibly the sluttiest thing you proudly owned.
you slipped into a sleek, black leather mini skirt that hugged your curves perfectly, hitting just the right spot on your thighs. you paired it with a cropped, red satin top that showed just enough skin to be daring but not over the top. the top had a deep v-neckline, accentuating your collarbones and drawing attention to the delicate gold necklace you wore. the outfit was completed with a pair of knee-high black boots, giving you an edge and adding a few extra inches to your height. you never wore them out, too worried that your feet would be killing you after a couple of minutes, but tonight, if you got drunk enough, you wouldnā€™t feel shit.
you looked at yourself in the mirror, adjusting the top and smoothing down the skirt.Ā 
your makeup was bold, different from what you usually didā€”a smoky eye that made your eyes pop and a deep red lipstick that matched your top perfectly. you left your hair loose, allowing it to fall in soft waves. satisfied with your look, you grabbed a small clutch and headed out.
when pope arrived to pick you up, his jaw practically hit the floor. he stared at you, eyes wide, as you strutted towards the car.
ā€œi'm sorryā€”are we going to a strip club or to a party?ā€ he blurted out.
"are you slutshaming me?"
"no, but be real for a second."
you rolled your eyes, but a small smirk played on your lips. ā€œdonā€™t be dramatic. just wanted to look good.ā€
ā€œlook good?ā€ pope repeated, still in disbelief, ā€œsweets, you always look good, okay? but this? you look like youā€™re about to rip someoneā€™s heart out.ā€
ā€œgood,ā€ you replied, sliding into the passenger seat. ā€œthatā€™s the goal.ā€
he shook his head, muttering something under his breath about needing to keep an eye on you all night.
ā€œyouā€™re gonna tell me what happened?ā€
ā€œnothing happened.ā€
ā€œright.ā€
the delta house was already packed when you arrived, the music thumping so loud you could feel it in your chest. you walked in with pope by your side, determined to leave all your worries at the door.
ā€œalright, letā€™s get some drinks,ā€ pope clapped his hands, rubbing them together before leading you to the makeshift bar. you could feel eyes on you as you walked through the crowd, whispers and stares following your every step. you ignored them.Ā 
so what if people knew you fucked rafe? that was your business, not theirs.
you grabbed a tequilla shot, downing it quickly and feeling the alcohol warm you up from the inside. pope handed you another, and you sipped it more slowly, trying to steady your nerves.
ā€œeasy. ā€˜m not holding your hair back if you throw up,ā€ he warned, nudging you gently. ā€œjust relax and have fun. cleoā€™s joining later.ā€
ā€œawwww, look at you being soft."
ā€œshut up. donā€™t embarrass me in front of her."
you placed your hand over your heart, ā€œi would never!ā€
the night wore on, the party growing louder. you danced, laughed, and mingled, trying to keep your mind off rafe and the mess you'd made of things. pope stuck by your side, and cleo, the girl of his dreams, joined you eventually, her energy infectious.Ā 
you were happy heā€™d found someone.Ā 
you were at the bar, grabbing another drink, when you saw rafe walk in.
your heart nearly dropped out of your ass, but you forced yourself to stay calm. he was with the same girl from the library and seeing them together made your stomach churn. he hadn't even noticed you yet, too busy talking to her.
"pope," you called, nudging him. "look who's here."
pope glanced over and sighed. "ignore him, please. we're here to have fun, remember?"
you nodded, drowning another shot, "right. fun."
it was easier said than done. every time you glanced their way, you wanted to storm up to him and punch him in that stupid perfect face. why did it bother you so much? he was just a guy. just rafe cameron. you downed another drink, hoping the alcohol would numb the emotions swirling inside you.
ā€œgoddamn mama, are you drinking yourself to death?ā€
jjā€™s presence barely phased you, ā€œyes.ā€
ā€œwhatā€™s got you so worked up?ā€
you groaned, not really in the mood for his antics. ā€œnothing. just havinā€™ a good time.ā€
ā€œyeah, right,ā€ jj snorted, stealing your drink and taking a sip. ā€œtry again. this shit is 95% vodka by the way.ā€
you snatched it from his hands, ā€œdonā€™t drink my shit.Ā donā€™t wanna talk about it.ā€
ā€œalright,ā€ he held up his hands in mock surrender,Ā ā€œdance with me then?ā€
ā€œno.ā€
ā€œpleaseee,ā€ he begged, jutting out his bottom lip in a ridiculous pout, ā€œcā€™mon.
despite your best efforts to stay frustrated, his infectious energy made you crack a smile. "fine, but just one song maybank."
jj whooped, ā€œatta girl.ā€
he grabbed your hand with a mischievous grin and pulled you onto the crowded dance floor. you laughed as he twirled you around, his movements were surprisingly graceful. one time he made you faceplant the floor, so this was an improvement.Ā 
his energy has always been infectious, jj was a literal golden retriever in human from and soon enough you found yourself letting go of all the worries that had been weighing you down. you moved in sync with him, your hips swaying, and your arms following the flow of the music. jjā€™s playful antics kept you entertainedā€”he'd throw in a spin or a sudden dip, making you laugh even harder.
but then, he leaned in close, his voice barely audible over the music.
ā€œguess who's watching?"
you raised an eyebrow, trying to catch your breath between giggles.
"who?"
jj nodded towards the edge of the dance floor, where rafe stood with a group of his friends. ā€œmy number one fan. been eyeing us since we started."
ā€œuh,ā€Ā you glanced in his direction, catching rafeā€™s gaze briefly before he looked away, ā€œthatā€™s weird.ā€
ā€œi know you two fucked.ā€
your hand instantly reached out to shove jjā€™s shoulder, ā€œshut up.ā€
ā€œi'm serious. youā€™re gonna let him watch or show him what he's missing?"
on one hand, you were furious at rafe for bringing another girl to the party so soon after whatever had happened between you two. after telling you he was in love with you. sure you were a bitch after, but that didnā€™t mean you didnā€™t care for him. on the other hand, jjā€™s always made you go off the rails, in a way that stoked your pride.Ā 
ā€œfine,ā€ you said with a defiant grin, ā€œletā€™s give him a show.ā€
jjā€™s smirk widened, and without missing a beat, he spun you around and pulled you in closer, moving with even more enthusiasm than before. the music pounded around you, you couldnā€™t even tell the lyrics apart. every twirl, every dip, every sway of your hips was a message to rafeā€”whether he was watching or notā€”that you were done feeling sorry for yourself. as the song reached its peak, jj dipped you low, and you laughed breathlessly. you glanced towards where rafe had been standing, but he was gone.
then, without warning, from the corner of your eye, you saw a commotion erupting nearby. before you could react, the crowd around you began to murmur and part, revealing rafe. what the hell? what was this? a coming-of-age movie?
his usually friendly composed demeanor was gone, the glare in him was enough to scare anyone in his way. he stormed towards you, his eyes locked on jj. and then it clicked.
ā€œoh for fuck's sake,ā€ you groaned under your breath, knowing that nothing good would come out of it.
"hey, what theā€”" jj started, but before he could finish, rafe swung a punch at him.
yep, there it was.Ā 
the blow caught jj off guard, knocking him back a step. the music seemed to stop, or at least fade into the background as chaos erupted around you. people gasped and shouted, some pulling rafe away while others checked on jj.
you pinched the bridge of your nose in annoyance as you watched jj touch his jaw gingerly.Ā 
ā€œwhat the fuck, cameron?ā€ jj groaned, ā€œwatch the pretty face.ā€
rafeā€™s chest was heaving as he glared at the other blonde, fists typically clenched by his side, looking as if he was ready to pounce on him again. before he could take another step, you placed yourself in front of him, blocking jjā€™s figure sitting on the ground.
ā€œupstairs. right now,ā€ rafe opened his mouth to spit something, but you cut him off, ā€œnow.ā€
he moved silently, following you up a flight of stairs to a quieter area. you could hear his breathing from miles away, he was still worked up. you found an empty room and stepped inside, slamming the door shut behind you.
ā€œwhat the hell was that?ā€ you demanded, turning to face him.
rafe ran a hand through his face, frustration evident in his every movement. ā€œi donā€™t know, okay? i justā€”i saw you with him, and i lost it.ā€
ā€œoh, so youā€™re a caveman now?ā€
"god, you can be so fucking infuriating," rafe exploded, throwing his jacket into a corner of the room, "i saw you. touching him like... like none of this matters!"
"none of what matters?" you shot back, incredulous. "you show up with another girl after telling me you love me, and now iā€˜m not supposed to move on? what do you expect?"
"me?!" he jabbed a finger into his chest, his face flushed with anger. "that was my damn tutor! i wasn't trying toā€”shit. you think i'm trying to move on? i told you i loved you. that shit doesnā€™t just disappear because you don't feel the same way."
now you just felt stupid.
"your tutor?" you repeated, trying to wrap your head around the new information.
ā€œwe werenā€™t exactly on speaking terms and i needed help with calculus,ā€ he muttered, ā€œdidnā€™t think youā€™d want to speak to me. and i was still sad.ā€
rafe shifted uncomfortably in his place, his expression now softer. you felt the sudden urge to hug him, but you didnā€™t.Ā 
ā€œyou said you were supposed to move on,ā€ he says carefully eyeing you.
ā€œi did?ā€ you lied, suddenly feeling like the room was closing in on you, ā€œi donā€™t think so.ā€
ā€œyou did,ā€Ā he said firmly, taking a step closer to you. "i meant what i said that night. did you?ā€Ā 
you looked away for a moment, ā€œrafeā€”ā€œ
ā€œi donā€™t care if you donā€™t love me, you donā€™t have to, not right now. i just need to know if you think you can, one day.ā€
this wasnā€™t the rafe who punched jj, or the rafe who stormed through the crowd in a fit of jealousy. this was the rafe you were used to.Ā 
your ears were ringing as he closed the distance between you. his eyes searching yours, desperate for an answer. the anger had melted away, replaced by a raw, aching need. fuck, he was good.
ā€œlistenā€”ā€ you started again, but this time your voice was softer, trembling. he was so close now that you could feel the heat radiating off his body, his breath mingling with yours, ā€œcan you back up? jesus. canā€™t think properly with you close.ā€
ā€œdonā€™t want to back up,ā€ he whispered, his voice low and rough. he didnā€™t move, instead leaning in even closer, his lips brushing your ear, ā€œyes or no?ā€
ā€œcameron,ā€ you breathed, trying to maintain some semblance of control.
but he wasnā€™t having it.
his hand cupped your cheek, tilting your face up to meet his gaze. ā€œtell me you donā€™t feel this,ā€ he murmured, his thumb tracing your lower lip. ā€œtell me you donā€™t want me too.ā€
he held your face by the jaw before leaning forward on instinct to kiss you but stopped himself right before he did. eyes on his lips now, completely entranced, you leaned forward to finish what he started but he was stopping you with his thumb. you stayed close though, gaze still fixated on his bottom lip and when his eyes flicker up to yours again, theyā€™re wild and dark.
ā€œyou gonna make me fuck it out of you?ā€
you couldnā€™t deny the way your body reacted to him, the way your pulse quickened every time he was near, ā€œand if i do?ā€
he didn't answer immediately, instead closing the gap between you in a heartbeat. his lips crashed against yours, his hand sliding from your jaw to your neck, wrapping his fingers around it as he squeezed you deliciously.Ā 
all of a sudden, you were pressed against a wall, his body firm against yours, pinning you with his weight. he got a groan out of you, tilting your head as his grip tightened on your hips to keep you there, secured to him.
ā€œthis isnā€™t fair,ā€ you pushed at his shoulder with your palm so that he pulled away to look at you, ā€œyouā€™re playing dirty.ā€
ā€œso what?ā€ he breathes out, jaw relaxed as his hips start to grind against yours.
your hand reached out to grab his shoulder for purchase when your hips started to move on their own, ā€œoh fuck.ā€
rafe arched his hips sharply, teasing your clit, eliciting a gasp as you leaned your head against the wall, your chin tilting towards the ceiling. he kissed your neck, where sweat-dampened hair started to cling at your nape.
when did it get so hot in the stupid room?
ā€œyouā€™reā€”oh, gonna f-fuck me in a strangerā€™s room? real romantic,ā€ you tried to sound casual, but it came out all wrong when his fingers pressed into the plush of your ass.Ā 
he laughed against your skin, the sound making you tighten your legs around him. you were glad his hands were currently busy because a single touch between your thighs would expose how wet you were.Ā 
ā€œyou can say it.ā€
your arms slided past his shoulders and loosely locked behind his neck, ā€œno.ā€
rafe shook his head, ā€œyou asked for it.ā€
ā€œrafe.ā€
he was poking his tongue to the inside of his cheek looking at you as if he was ready do destroy you whole, ā€œtold you i was gonna get it out of you.ā€
you blinked slowly, savoring the sight of his face, then your wrists, still crossed behind his neck, tugged gently, drawing him closer, craving his threat, ā€œyouā€™re gonna fuck me until i confess?
he lowered his head until his forehead met yours, your fingers could sense the rapid throb of his pulse beneath his jaw, his eyes tender, holding an adoration you never knew was possible. no one had ever looked at you that way.Ā 
you pulled him by the fabric of his shirt, hard enough to make him understand he needed to do something. you moaned against his lips, fingers threading through his hair as he trailed kisses down your neck, sucking and biting gently at the sensitive skin.
your skirt rode up as he rutted into you, and his hand slipped under the fabric, fingers grazing the edge of your panties, teasingly close to where you ached for him most. you gasped, arching into his touch, silently begging for more.
ā€œrafeee,ā€ you whimpered, ā€œplease."
he pulled back slightly, his breath ragged, eyes dark with lust. ā€œsay it,ā€ he demanded, his fingers tracing patterns on your inner thigh, driving you crazy with anticipation.
ā€œno.ā€ you managed to choke out, feeling a flush of heat spread through your body.
he raised a brow, ā€œno?ā€
his fingers slipped beneath the thin fabric of your panties, finding you wet and ready. he groaned at the feel of you, his thumb circling your clit with just the right amount of pressure to make you moan his name. you clung to him, hips bucking against his hand, chasing the pleasure he was giving you.
ā€œyou sure?ā€ he murmured against your skin, his voice husky and full of promise.Ā 
you barely had time to think about changing your answer before he plunged two thick fingers inside you, curling them just right to hit that spot that made your vision blur. your back arched off the wall, your head falling back as waves of pleasure crashed over you. he pumped his fingers in and out of you, his thumb never leaving your clit, pushing you closer and closer to the edge.
ā€œrafe, i'mā€”ā€ you couldnā€™t even finish the sentence, your body trembling as you felt the orgasm build, ready to spill over.
but then he was pulling back just as you were about to fall over the edge. it was maddening, the way he seemed to know exactly how to bring you right to the cusp of pleasure and then deny it. youā€™d only fucked once before, and it felt like heā€™d memorize every single thing you liked. every spot that made your toes curl.Ā 
ā€œplease, let meā€”ā€
ā€œyou said no, babyā€ he interrupted, a mocking smile curling on his lips. ā€œyouā€™re not ready.ā€
his fingers moved with practiced precision, slow and deliberate, stoking the flames of your desire without allowing you any release. every time you felt the pleasure building to its peak, heā€™d ease off, bringing you back down, only to start all over again.
you clawed at his shoulders, trying to pull him closer, but he held you firm against the wall, his body a solid, unyielding barrier. ā€œplease,ā€ you begged again, ā€œi canā€™t take it.ā€
ā€œoh, you can,ā€ he scolded, lips brushing against your ear, sending shivers down your spine. ā€œand you will.ā€
his thumb pressed against your clit, rubbing slow, torturous circles, while his fingers thrust inside you, curling just right to hit that spot that made you see stars. you bucked against his hand, your body pleading for release, but he kept you balanced on that knifeā€™s edge, never letting you tip over. motherfucker.
ā€œI need to come,ā€ you admitted, your voice cracking with desperation. ā€œplease, baby. i need to come.ā€
rafeā€™s pretty blue eyes darkened with satisfaction at your words, but he still didnā€™t relent.Ā 
instead, he slowed his movements even more, drawing out the pleasure until it was almost unbearable. you writhed against him, your body trembling, every nerve ending on fire.
ā€œyou want to come?ā€ he asked, his voice a seductive purr, ā€œthat bad, huh?ā€
ā€œt-this isnā€™t f-fair.ā€
ā€œawww, sorry baby."
ā€œfuck, fuckingā€”"
ā€œthatā€™s my girl,ā€ he murmured, his voice filled with approval. ā€œjust a lil more, yeah?ā€
he increased the pace of his fingers, his thumb rubbing faster against your clit, and you felt the pleasure building again, higher and higher, until you were sure you couldnā€™t take it anymore. but this time, he didnā€™t stop. this time, he pushed you right to the edge and then, finally, let you fall.
your orgasm crashed over like a train wreck, your body convulsing with the intensity of it. you screamed his name, your nails digging into his shoulders as you clung to him, riding out the waves of pleasure that seemed to go on forever. rafe held you through it, his fingers never stopping, drawing out every last bit of your release until you were a boneless, panting mess in his arms.
ā€œgood girl,ā€ he murmured, his voice soft and filled with affection.Ā 
he kissed you tenderly, his lips a gentle contrast to the intensity of what youā€™d just experienced. as you came down from your high, he held you close, his fingers still inside you, his thumb gently stroking your clit, sending aftershocks of pleasure through your body.
you couldnā€™t find the words to answer, your mind too foggy with pleasure. instead, you just held onto him, your arms wrapped around his neck, your face buried in the crook of his shoulder.
rafeā€™s fingers slowly withdrew from you, leaving you feeling empty and aching for more. he lifted you gently, carrying you to the bed and laying you down with his casual tenderness. he climbed in beside you, pulling you into his arms, his body warm and solid against yours.
ā€œi love you,ā€ his voice was a soft caress against your ear. ā€œi meant it.ā€
you looked up at him, ā€œi know,ā€ you whispered, leaning in to kiss him, ā€œi think i love you too.ā€
ā€œi know.ā€
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soobnny Ā· 6 months ago
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dating him | lee know
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ā come over, the cats miss you āž
chan | LEE KNOW | changbin | hyunjin | han | felix | seungmin | jeongin
if he wasnā€™t a menace before (impossible btw), he sure as hell is now
this man is relentless
teasing as his love language
just loves riling you up bc he thinks ur reactions are so cute
and he smirks a lot too
if he wasnā€™t so damn attractive, u wouldā€™ve wiped that smirk off his face !!!!!
ā€œwait min, i got a textā€
ā€œnice to know you have friendsā€
u hate him šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
heā€™s such a little shit that heā€™s even rilling u up during ur dates
like
laser tag games where he kisses you to distract you before taking you out
HEā€™S SO MEAN
heā€™d push you against the wall with a sly smirk and you think you wonā€™t fall for it again, but you do
every single time
u shouldā€™ve known better
this is lee ā€œresident cheater in all possible gamesā€ minho
anyways
he is also an ass lover ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
iā€™m sorry but u cannot go into a relationship with him without expecting him to always have his hand on ur ass in some way
so in short
the trope is giving u thought he was out of ur league but heā€™s actually a weirdo
so now uā€™re dating the Weird Kid
(u wouldnā€™t want it any other way)
his other love language is acts of service
i said in my chan one that minho also gives Chief Hong from hometown cha3
like tell me iā€™m wrong
man wife #2
he is ur personal handyman
heā€™s just good at everything
will most probably only do it for u tho
seungmin: hyung can u fix my sink
minho: no
seungmin catching strays šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚
you: babeā€”
minho: what do you need me to do now
he says it in fake annoyance too
but heā€™s got his tools in his hand already ready to do whatever u want
obsessed i tell u
he drives u around too
if you have an event, a party, a project, anywhere you need to be
heā€™ll drive u there
he always makes time
AND he picks you up too like shut up
it could be a party that finishes at 2am and heā€™s just waiting for your call to pick you up
sometimes, you tell him he can just sleep early bc your friend will give you a ride home
when you get home, look ā€¦ heā€™s still awake
heā€™s been waiting for you to come home this whole time to make sure youā€™re safe
BUT he doesnā€™t say anything
the moment he sees youā€™re alive and breathing (and doesnā€™t need taking care of), heā€™s on his way to the bedroom to sleep
when u look around, heā€™s done the chores already
he just does things to lessen the load that u might have u know
if uā€™re so stressed with anything, heā€™d silently clean up ur room or bring u food
so u donā€™t have to think about that anymore
also the best chef in town btw
he likes cooking together
and by cooking together i mean like he does all the work and u just stay there and keep him company
he canā€™t risk ur clumsy ass injuring urself
comforts u thru his cooking too
would baby u and feed u when uā€™re sad
his favorite dates with u are quiet, homemade dinners
just likes being with u and u only
away from everyone else
as niki would say, i donā€™t like anyone except sometimes you
itā€™s in moments like those that he just unwinds and shows u his softer sides
heā€™s honestly just so gentle and soft
he looks at u with stars in his eyes
ugh such an attentive listener too
sometimes u think he isnā€™t listening, but heā€™s got it all memorized
ā€œyeah u mentioned it on our date 3 months agoā€
like damn
anyways, moving on
his pet names for u give olden times
honey, darling, jagi
but also loser, idiot, stupid girl (endearingly)
so u two are giving me old married couple
uā€™d both wake up early and have coffee or tea together and just talk abt anything
also this is far into the future but like
sneak peek at minho as ur husband
i think u two would be the type to have a garden
like gardening would be ur little hobby
he grows fruits and vegetables
u beg to grow flowers
OK BACK TO BOYFRIEND MINHO
randomly sending selfies thru the day
THOSE selfies
u know what iā€™m talking abt
forces u to send selfies back
(ur photos are all saved and hidden in his phone but he will never tell u that)
oh uā€™ve also become his catsā€™ mom btw
one of ur favorite errands to do is going grocery shopping for his cats
uā€™d always end up buying them a gift
ā€œuā€™re the reason my cats are spoiledā€
SUUUUUUURE minho suuuuuuure
cat fashion shows
like dress to IMPRESS
(btw idk why but i feel like u could force him to play roblox with u)
he also uses his cats to lure u to visit him btw
ā€œsoonie misses u, uā€™re being a bad motherā€
itā€™s just him who misses u letā€™s be real
and if ur favorite thing to do with him is cat shopping, his is walking by the han river with you
he loves walking
esp when itā€™s with you
just a peaceful walk tbh like yall donā€™t even have to say anything
tho sometimes when heā€™s feeling playful, heā€™d suddenly play tag with you
ends with both of u just sitting by the river and looking at the lights and the stars and holding hands or maybe ur head on his shoulder
damn wish that were me fr
when u go home, u watch some variant of a trashy reality tv show together
uā€™ve basically seen it all
but if anyone were to ask u what happened in those shows, yall wouldnā€™t know
u two were too busy just making out instead of paying attention
or falling asleep
old married couple iā€™m telling u
expect to also be dragged into his camping
when he has particularly long days off, heā€™d propose going camping together
ah, the beauty of warm bonfires and quiet conversations
heā€™d take good care of you the whole time
like yessss do your job as a man and fix up this entire camping site
and he does
tho, aside from camping, heā€™d also suggest hiking to take in the view of the mountains and the pretty sky
uā€™d wake up early on both occasions just to watch the sun rise
in contrast to these very productive activities, sometimes minho also just loves lazy sundays where you just cuddle for the entirety of the day
what more could he want
u and his cats with him
thatā€™s honestly just the dream
good luck cat mom
have fun acting like an old married couple with lee know
he is the dream man
nonchalant to anyone else except u
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jakesangel Ā· 7 months ago
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jake as your boyfriend headcanons <3
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loser boyfriend
āƒ jake's loves for physics is something you have always been fond for but u certainly wasn't ready w the amount of content he watches and MAKES you watche as well. he is a cutie n will make you a playlist to catch up on him or to watch together. he will be shy about it at first, but once he will feel secure enough or that ull give him enough reassurance, he will share it w u n hopes ull talk to him about it.
"omg y/n!! did you know that einstein has been proven wrong ?? apparently the speed of light isn't the fastest in the universe ??" he told you, buzzing of excitement. he is so excited you could see an imaginary tail waving n his puffy ears perking up. "omg what is it then ?", u ask smiling. "it's the quantum entanglement !!" he then went on and on about what quantum entanglement as if you could understand anything. but your boyfie is a cutie so you kiss him n let him be.
āƒ second thing jakes loves. legos. and it's his favorite kind of dates w you. either in his bedroom or in urs or even during ur picnics, u guys will alwasy make legos together. when he is on tour in the usa, he will go to the manufacturer and replicate the both of you in legos, your future ideal house and even add your pets :( you'll be making it together once he is back to your arms.
clingy boyfriend
āƒ he needs to see his pretty baby EVERYDAY, if not he will be calling u wayyy more or he will send u lots of voice messages n selfies.
āƒ he also needs his kisses n his hugs :( daily does of you or he can NOT fonction
āƒ when you guys are together his hands are alwasy on your waist or in the back jeans in the pocket because he is romantic like this įµŽ when u both are sitting, his hands can be on your lower back or your thigh. either way, he will be strocking the area lovingly
āƒ cuddles are also a must ! in the morning when you wake up together or at night before sleeping. but also when watching movies or eating. anytime n anywhere. even in front of the members. he loves u n he isn't shy to show off his pretty girl.
"let's eat on the couch baby, i want ur legs on you my lap ", he said taking his and your plates on his way to the living room. settles on couch, he takes ur legs to out them on his lap, kisses your temple and finally out his plate on ur leg so he can eat. "there we go, were lunch better like, no baby ?į©š "
āƒ he loves laying on ur chest, your hands in his hair or subbing his back. he would often fall asleep like this. he also likes laying his head on ur lap for the exact same reasons.
āƒ he would add kisses on u guys routine. like when brush ur teeth together he would kiss ur nose. or when u make breakfast ,he would come behind u and kiss ur shoulder and ur neck. kissing ur hand when eating together. kissing the top of your hair when u guys hugs, etc.
- talking about kisses, kisses w him are always different, you never know what to expect. they can be very passionate or full of love or teasing or filled w giggles.
scorpio boyfriend
āƒ as munch as he loves u wearing mini skirt, he can not let u go outside wearing this if he is not here. even his meme we ar won't allowed to this his heaven like gf. he can fight tho so he will let u go outside like that but by urself no.
- he isn't a controlling boyfriend but he won't like you going out w one guy, nor talking too much w them. he trust you but not men.
- because of that he can get a bit jealous, so if you both are in public and someone hits on you, trust me he will be making out right in front of the man.
down bad boyfriend
āƒ jake will be ur supporter #1, if he can he would be going out w ur face on his t-shirt. he also would want to participate in every event u have. your graduation, ur first day at work literally ANYTHING, he wants to be there for his baby.
āƒ evertime u would send a pic he would go feral, on text or irl, his friends are worried about you.
āƒ he will buy u everything u want n would go bankrupt for u. your eyes would linger on something for not even one second, it WILL be in ur hand few minutes later.
how to love jake VS how jake loves you hc
notes : it's my first time doing headcanons, please lemme kno what you think about and what other kind of boyfriend jake is ><
@imaluckygirl @luvj4key @heeseungswifefr @goldenretrieverjakezgirlbaby @jaeyunpinkyring
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luc1dvisual Ā· 17 days ago
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ā€œyou got me feelin nauseous!ā€ - winter gf headcanons
*includes both sfw + nsfw content*
SFW:
Before the two of you started dating, she found cheesy romantic gestures annoying and couldnā€™t stand girls who constantly talk about their romantic relationships
Of course she thinks there is nothing wrong with being in love, just attention-grabbing public statements of love irritated her
She would despise these stereotypes yet fell in love with you the second she saw you.
You still remember her amount of stuttering
You guys disagree A LOT over really small things, like the temperature in your shared room or what to watch on TV. Bickering is apart of your love language and despite some disagreements going on for days, you wouldnā€™t have it any other way
Winter is not too good with her words either but her body language is more telling
Itā€™s not just physically touching you but she would also do silent acts of service
she loves to give you kisses and likes to watch you squirm when she kisses you in sensitive places.
When your not bickering, she is pretty quiet and shy around you. Although she is a bit shy when it comes to affection or any romantic gestures really, she finds her own way to give you the love and attention you deserve
She loves to hug you and bury her small head into your chest or into the crook of your neck. She holds onto your arm and stands semi-behind you if she is nervous or she gives your arm a squeeze if your joking around
She also does this weird yet adorable thing where she bites your shoulder blade
not even hardly, just a little nibble
She looks up at you to look for you reaction, hoping you donā€™t react badly, almost looking up for validation
At first, you were a bit startled because she bit hardly but the more she did it, you got more used to it and the more softly she would bite
She would always try her hardest to stand next to you during photoshoots, sitting next to you during interviews or lives and even walk next to you at the airport
fans just act like itā€™s a cute friendship but little do they know itā€™s sm more..
NSFW:
I know most people headcanon winter as the top but i honestly think she would be on the bottom
Stereotypical but she def gives shorter/older short-tempered bottom to ur top (whether ur more tempered or patient)
She definitely gets flustered and goes pink when it comes to intimacy whether itā€™s kisses or hickeys
She definitely likes hickeys and asks for them, stumbling over her words as she does so
She tries her best to concentrate when kissing you but she is a bit less experienced than you so itā€™s def gonna be messy
Definitely has a biting kink when she becomes less shy. She bites wherever she can reach: shoulder, lip, cheek
Once you guys do it, she becomes obsessed and always wants to go at it. She teases you a lot as she gets more confident and who are you to refuse her?
You enjoy the little noises she makes so you do everything to overstimulate her so she can do it again and again
You love to tease her in bed, especially when your overstimulating her. You enjoy all her little reactions so you canā€™t help but say something about it.
She may even occasionally ride your thigh, hoping you grab her in different places too (hard enough for a mark to appear)
She may act all annnoyed with the hickeys and the bite marks at first but in the moment, she is begging for it.
She hates doing it in public so itā€™s almost always in the private of wherever the two of you live (which you think is worth it as she clearly enjoys herself more without the nervousness hanging over her head.)
She loves to sit on your lap whether itā€™s when she is riding your thigh or when your fingers are deep inside her.
She especially likes it when you wrap your arms around her waist or back to hold her close, whispering sweet nothings into your ear
She tries to top sometimes but she normally fails at it and gets dominated by you (not like either of you are complaining tho..)
note . . .
first post in awhile, swamped with school work but now I can rest and write at my own pace, Iā€™ll do a new fic soon and I am planning to have at least one fic for each member of each group on my masterlist before I do series so I can get more people who like my content to read a series when it comes out!!
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pomefioredove Ā· 8 months ago
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Hi! This is very very specific, butā€¦I've had a rough start to my day today, kinda relating to the topic of my requestā€¦
So I was wondering, would it be alright to request HCs of Jamil, Ruggie, Leona, Floyd and Rollo with a Reader who runs into an emotionally abusive/manipulative parent they haven't seen in a long time? The kind of subtle abuse that's hard to tell (from the inside, at least) is even abuse at all, and makes you doubt yourself a lot. Kinda narcissistic abuse
Kind of a hurt/comfort thing? Like how they'd deal with the bad parent and the Reader opening up a bit about it. Romantic or platonic, either one is good
Feel more than free to ignore if this kind of request isn't your thing: that's totally fine, I understand it's a bit heavy, not to mention very specific, so please do what makes you feel best. I hope you have a good day!
ahhh of course! I relate to this sort of thing a lot (although I don't use terms like narcissistic abuse since abuse is just abuse to me) and I know exactly what you mean. I love hurt/comfort and you're well within my boundaries since the only thing I wouldn't write pertaining to this topic is intimate partner abuse (like with an s/o). so you're perfectly fine! I enjoyed writing this <3
summary: comforting a reader with an abusive parent type of post: short fics characters: jamil, ruggie, leona, floyd, rollo additional info: reader is not specified to be yuu ("shrimpy" is used as a nickname during floyd's part tho), reader is gender neutral, food mention (ruggie's part), actual interaction w the parent happens during leona and rollo's parts, mentions/descriptions of emotional abuse, although reader is kinda vague about it
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Jamil Viper
Jamil knows what it's like to feel stuck.
That's really all he has to know when he recognizes that look on your face.
Perhaps you usually wear your heart on your sleeves, or perhaps you're better at keeping your emotions to yourself, like him, but either way he can tell something is very wrong the second he sees you.
It's a bit strange, isn't it?
Surrounded by people in the cafeteria and yet no one seems to notice the shadow cast over you.
He tries to talk himself out of it for the rest of the day. He has enough on his plate as it is, and it's not his problem. He's Kalim's keeper, not yours.
But that sense of unease doesn't go away.
He drags himself out of bed and somehow finds himself at your door in the dead of night.
And even though it takes you a moment to answer, he can tell you were already awake.
"Here," he says, handing you a warm meal in a container. "I noticed you didn't eat today. We had leftovers."
You don't feel very much like eating, but you accept the gift, anyway. It smells amazing. His cooking always does.
"Thank you," you mumble.
You can't think of anything else to say.
"Are you... well, Kalim sent me to ask if you're feeling unwell," he lies through his teeth.
"I'm fine,"
Another lie, this time of your behalf, which annoys him ever-so-slightly.
"You're clearly not. Are you sick?" the question is vague enough, said in such a way that leaves you with the impression that he wasn't exactly referring to a physical illness.
"I've... had a rough day,"
Jamil is quiet for a moment, thinking to himself. And then: "Do you mind if I come in?"
He's always so careful with his words that such a direct (yet polite) request almost catches you off guard. You step to the side, letting him in your room.
"I don't mean to pry. I know it's not my place," he says, watching you close the door. "But... Kalim is worried. Yes."
You shake your head. "It's fine. I'll get over it,"
It.
What did "it" mean? Surely this couldn't just be a lousy day.
"Did something happen?"
You hesitate.
"Have you ever... ran into someone who made your life miserable? That you thought you moved on from... and it starts to feel like you're stuck in that place all over again?"
Of course. Of course he knows what that feels like.
He has to live through that exact experience every day, without even being able to move on.
But he can't just say that. And this is about you, after all.
"I'm familiar with the feeling. I suppose that's what's ruined your day, then?"
"That's one way to put it," you sigh, sitting at the edge of your bed. "Sometimes it feels like all the progress I've made is just... null. Like I'll never really move on."
He hates how much he's relating to you. How much you're affecting him, now, too.
He follows you to the bed and sits beside you.
"Someday, though, you will. It may feel hopeless now, but... you won't stay stuck forever,"
Unlike me, he thinks.
"How can you be so sure?"
"I can't be. But you don't strike me as someone to give up after hardship,"
Like me.
You're quiet for a moment, seemingly considering what he told you. And then you hug him.
A nice, soft hug. Not abrasive or sudden like the ones Kalim gives. He'd almost forgotten what it felt like.
"Thank you, Jamil,"
He hugs back. "Of course,"
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Ruggie Bucchi
It was almost painful, watching you fumble with your wallet like that.
You couldn't seem to get the proper amount out, shaking like a leaf and apologizing profusely. Sam keeps telling you it's okay, but the line forming behind you is starting to grow restless.
Ruggie included.
He has places to be, after all, and he's got two whole crates of energy drinks to lug back to Savanaclaw.
He has half a mind to ask what the holdup is.
And so, he peers over your shoulder, ready to- oh, no. You're crying.
Damn it. Why can't things ever be easy for him?
He can't even chew someone out for taking up all his precious time without being thrown a curveball. And now he feels bad.
Sigh.
"Hey, I got this," he says, setting his heavy crates down on the counter and flashing a card.
Your eyes widen. "Oh, no, Ruggie, you don't have to-"
"Relax, it's Leona's money, not mine," he offers a grin, ignoring the tears trailing down your face. "He won't even notice it's missing."
The line behind you two breathes a collective sigh of relief (much to your embarrassment) and Ruggie shoots them a glare.
"I... I still can't accept this-" you start, before he quickly shushes you.
"Hey, if you wanna make it up to me, you can help me carry these things. I'll call it even,"
You're silent for a moment as Sam finishes ringing you both up, and then you take a crate. As quiet as ever. It's unnerving.
You're walking back to the Hall of Mirrors when Ruggie breaks that silence by bringing up your purchase. "So, what's up with the afternoon snack? Not that I'm judging- I'm jealous. I skipped lunch, shishishi,"
"Oh, it's nothing," you mutter. "Comfort food, I guess."
The concept of comfort food is extremely appealing to him. "Huh. Long day?"
"Something like that... Why'd you skip lunch?"
Trying to change the conversation topic? Clever. But he'll bite, anyway.
"Leona forgot some of his class stuff, so I had 'ta run and get it. Too bad he forgot where he left it... I was all over campus,"
"Did you find it?"
"Eventually. Or else I'd be busy getting my neck wrung instead of 'bein here with you,"
You nod, and the conversation swiftly dies.
After another awkward beat, he clears his throat. "So you... you wanna talk about it, or something?"
"What?"
"You know, your... your day," he mutters, shrugging. He's desperately trying to remember all of the things his grandma did for him when he was upset as a child. "Talking about it might... make 'ya feel better, y'know?"
You're quiet again, and for a moment Ruggie is worried he said something to offend you.
Then, much to his relief, your voice picks up. "I ran into someone today,"
"What? Like someone was giving you trouble?"
"No, not a student. Someone I don't see very much anymore. Um... I guess it just threw me off,"
He tilts his head to the side. "Why?"
"I don't... well, we don't get along very much. Something about them just makes me feel... very... small. Insignificant,"
You don't ask if he understands what you mean, but he does. Not that he'd ever admit that so openly to you at a time like this, but being small and insignificant is basically his job.
And as much as he likes the perks, he can imagine how rough it would be to deal with that and not get to use a bottomless credit card whenever the opportunity presented itself.
He struggles to respond for a moment.
"That's rough,"
Definitely not the sympathetic response he was going for. At least you don't seem to mind.
"I-I mean, sometimes we have to act small to survive. It's a part of life, 'ya know? But that doesn't mean you are small. Just surviving on its own is an accomplishment," he recovers from his earlier blunder, trying to smile. "You should be proud of yourself, if anything."
"That's..." you say. "That's one way of looking at it."
He sighs. "I'm not expressing myself very well, am I? What I'm trying to say is that you're not small or insignificant, and living life feeling like you are is a survival tactic at best,"
The both of you stop in front of Savanaclaw, and he offers another grin.
"And if you ever wanna talk about this stuff... well, I'm around... And you can come inside now, if you want. I could definitely find more stuff to carry!"
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Leona Kingscholar
Leona Kingscholar is very, very much enjoying parent weekend alone, thank you.
Of course his folks don't want to attend a school event for their disappointment of a second son. Why would they care? And on Cheka's birthday weekend, no less...
But that didn't bother him. Not at all.
As long as he slept through the weekend without being bothered by any happy-go-lucky nuclear family units, he'd live.
That plan lasts about five hours.
"You'd be better off doing something more useful with your time. Sports, or science, or... something that might help your future. But if you're so sure... I suppose it's better to cut our losses now than put any more faith in you. You just can never decide, can you?"
That voice. Unfamiliar, but drawling, laced with poison. Aggravating enough to stir Leona from his nap in the botanical gardens.
And it's getting closer.
"I just don't understand. Why get accepted into one of the most prestigious schools in the world just to spend your time goofing off?" a long sigh. "But as long as you're happy... we just want what's best for you."
Leona grumbles, turning over and trying to drift back to sleep.
"I'm trying,"
This voice is different. No- he recognizes it. It's yours.
"Are you? You know I know what's best for you, right?"
Sevens. This is your parent speaking to you? No wonder you've been acting all jittery lately.
He sits up, giving up on his nap, and continues listening in.
"I know," you say. "I really am trying, though."
"Did I say you weren't? Don't speak for me,"
This is getting ugly. Leona stands, stepping out of the shrubbery and clearing his throat behind the two of you.
You're the first to turn. "Oh- Leona! Sorry, we didn't mean to disturb you,"
"You're fine," he snaps, sharp eyes turning to your parent beside you. "Who's this, then?"
"This is-"
"Their parent," they go ahead and introduce themselves, cutting you off as if you weren't speaking at all. Like you're a piece of furniture hanging in the background. He's not a fan.
"Really? From the way you were talking, I would have guessed that you were their coach. Or boss,"
Your eyes dart between the two. "Leona-"
"You're fine," he reaffirms. "I was just looking for you, anyway. We really have to talk."
You pause, raising an eyebrow. He? Wants to talk to you? Now?
"Is it important?" your parent asks. The question is directed at you, although he answers.
"Very. I was just coming to ask you, very politely, I might add, to reconsider my offer,"
"Your... offer...?"
Your parent looks down at you. "What's he talking about?"
"Can't blame you for forgetting. I'm sure you're busy with all your... school... things. But I do have to ask you to rejoin the spelldrive club. We're in shambles without you,"
He gives you a certain look, one that clearly reads "Go along with it."
Leona Kingscholar offering an olive branch to someone is a rare occurrence. So you take it.
"Oh! Right, I have been busy with school. I've been meaning to get back to you..."
Your parent looks between the two of you with just the faintest hint of confusion, and then frustration. "You've been playing spelldrive? When was I going to hear about this?"
"They haven't been playing with us," Leona says, a small smirk already forming. "They're the team manager. They're way too smart to be out on the field- no, they're running the team, they're organizing everything, their strategy is like nothing we've ever seen. If only they were in Savanaclaw, we might have a chance at winning one of these years."
"Uhhh..." you start, looking between your parent and the oddly friendly and receptive clone that's replaced Leona. "...Yeah, right."
"Now, if you'll excuse us, we really have to discuss official club matters," he says, shooing away your parent until they eventually give in and leave.
As soon as they're out the door, you turn to him. "What w-"
"Are you alright?" he asks.
Stunned would be an understatement. "I'm fine,"
"Really? Cause you're looking at me like a gazelle caught in headlights,"
"I-I guess it's just been hard... having them here,"
Leona nods, closing his eyes as he thinks to himself. Then, he sighs.
"Yeah. I get that. Come on, then,"
You raise an eyebrow as he starts off in the opposite direction. "What? Where are we going?"
"Somewhere quiet and warm to nap. Being around that person sucked all the energy right out of me, I can't imagine how exhausted you feel,"
He turns to look over his shoulder with a smile. "With any luck, we'll avoid them for the rest of the weekend,"
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Floyd Leech
Of course, he can tell something's up right away.
Well... maybe it takes him a little while to tune into the conversation, but once he does, he notices you've been... awfully quiet throughout it.
His favorite little shrimpy? All sad? Moping around like a kicked puppy?
Now this catches his attention.
"Bored?" he asks. It's his first guess.
"Hm?" you ask, looking back at him. "No, I'm fine."
"But you're not,"
"Okay, I'm a little distracted,"
Now that, he can understand. But there's still something very off about the whole thing that he can't quite put his finger on.
"You're not telling me something," he states, matter-of-factly, crossing his arms.
You raise an eyebrow. "...And?"
"And I wanna know. I'm not letting you leave until you tell me,"
Your thought process is probably ranging somewhere between "oh, no," and "oh NO," by now.
"I sweaaar, it's nothing," you insist. "I just had a bad day, okay?"
"Why?"
There's no turning back now. He's invested, and until he loses interest, you're stuck here.
"It was... just... long. Can I go now? I have things to do,"
He frowns, and stands, and then puts you in a headlock. "Alright, where're we 'goin?"
"FLOYD!"
He drags you along with him, remembering not to be too rough as he takes you from place to place on his dailies. You begrudgingly learn to accept it.
When you walk back into the Mostro Lounge, Azul and Jade don't even bat an eye.
"You're thirty minutes late- ah, why do I bother?" Azul says, rifling through a stack of papers on his desk. He only looks up when he catches a glimpse of you. "Oh. Hello, there."
You wave half-heartedly. "Can I get some help?"
"Floyd. What is the meaning of this?" he asks.
Floyd pouts. "There's 'somethin wrong with them and they won't tell me what,"
"Are they ill?"
You lower your eyes at the two as they speak like you're not even there. "Hello?"
"Nah, they feel fine. They're all mopey, though,"
Azul hums to himself, lost in thought. And then: "Well, figure out what it is, and get to work, if you please,"
"Azul!" you shout. He ignores you.
Floyd drags you back outside the office and sits down with you at one of the tables, waving to concerned lounge-goers as they pass by.
"Now will you tell me?"
"Geez, alright, alright. I give up, you win," you sigh. "I... well, my parent was here earlier. At school. And we talked, and they... said some not-very-nice things to me. That's why I've been upset, okay?"
Floyd's smile immediately drops. "I win? But that's not a very good prize,"
"Tell me about it,"
"Why would anyone be mean to you, anyway? You're the best shrimpy I know!"
You avert your eyes. "It wasn't... mean... per se. Just... not nice,"
"Sounds mean to me," he mutters. "I don't get it."
"Well, sometimes these things just... don't make sense. It's my fault, anyway," you sigh.
His gaze sharpens at that. "'An who told you that? You didn't do anything! I'm starting to really dislike this parent of yours,"
His sudden mood swing doesn't phase you, but it does lift your spirits... just the tiniest bit. Even if you wouldn't admit that to yourself. "Hey, it's fine. I'm over it,"
"You sure you don't want me to squeeze 'em?"
"Heh. No, that's okay. I would like you to let me go, though,"
His eyes widen at the sudden realization he still has you in a headlock and he quickly releases you.
You sit up, stretching and rubbing the back of your neck. "Thanks,"
"My arm was starting to hurt, anyway..." he thinks for a moment, looking back to the office door. "Ya think I can use that to get out of working? I wanna spend more quality time with my favorite shrimpy. You could use it!"
You look to the door and shrug. "Hey, worth a try, right?"
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Rollo Flamme
Out of all the things to ruin the day, of course it had to be your parent.
The disappointment between the two of you was palpable. And even though it was only a brief encounter, it was enough to sour the rest of the afternoon for the both of you.
The first thing Rollo noticed, of course, was the manner in which they carried themselves. As an authoritative, important figure, puffing out their chest and towering over you. What gave them the right...?
They were not a leader, nor a public figure, nor anyone of interest, if your earlier mentions of them gave him any idea. Nothing but an adult who spoke to the both of you as if you were tiny children.
He loathed being talked down to.
Perhaps he should have said something sooner than he did, and perhaps he should have said something more than the interruption he used to excuse you from the conversation.
And now you're just quiet.
"Are you well?" he asks, looking at you from the corner of his eyes.
You shrug.
"I apologize for not speaking on your behalf sooner. I did not want to be rude,"
No response at all.
Your silence was driving him mad. He couldn't get a good read on what you were feeling when you kept looking away like that.
"If you'd like to return home early, I would understand and escort you promptly,"
"No,"
A response. Not a good one, but a response nonetheless.
"May I ask you a question?" though he doesn't really wait for your permission to go on. "Why do they speak to you like that?"
That comment seems to jolt you, and you turn to look at him with wide eyes. "What? Speak to me like what?"
He struggles for the right words.
How could he describe it? It was so... odd. The words they spoke to you didn't sound cruel, but there was something sinister lurking beneath them. And not even in the typical "polite for the sake of it" sense.
Each response they gave was laced with a sort of venom that seemed to sting you. You had grown quiet, distant, as if you weren't really there at all.
Of course he was familiar with such tactics. He could weave his own words with ease. But you had done nothing wrong- you were guiltless. Why were you being punished?
He couldn't quite come up with an answer.
"You seemed uncomfortable," he finally says, looking away again. "I apologize for such an experience happening to you under my watch."
"It's not your fault,"
"It certainly isn't. And it's not yours, either,"
A blanket of silence falls over the two of you until he speaks again.
"You have nothing to feel bad about," he reaffirms.
Another pause.
"And I don't mean to intrude. But if you ever need my assistance, you know where to find me,"
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lover-of-mine Ā· 2 months ago
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Hello and welcome to Anna thinks they just kickstarted Eddie's queer arc and *coldplay starts to play* it was all yellow (and blue). (metas on the blue and yellow here and here if you feel like reading)
I feel like at this point I have made the point that I think Eddie's queer arc is gonna be yellow where Buck's was blue very clear (post on that here, more on the theory applied to buddie here), so I'm watching for any amount of blue or yellow around Eddie. The whole thing comes back to the way 704 is very blue and yellow and the climax of Buck's bi arc, the coming out scene since it's the one scene Buck chooses to come out, is also blue and yellow, but Buck himself is blue.
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This actually starts in the locker room in 701 tho, but we have established that Buck is blue, so they are in the wrong colors. They're also in the wrong colors during the will reveal, which is interesting if they follow through it this particular symbolism the way I'm expecting them to.
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The will reveal is interesting because they don't match their backgrounds the way Buck does in the coming out scene, but the backgrounds have the right colors, but I digress.
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The thing is, the thing that I keep waiting to happen, happened. The sandy yellow shirt. Something about Buck's journey to blue, is that he is in darker shades of blue while Eddie is in neutral tones, mostly black, until he reaches a shade of blue that's basically the color of Oliver's eyes, so it's a brighter color.
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So my working theory is that Eddie is gonna mirror that, and we will have Buck in neutral tones while Eddie finds his golden yellow, that right now I'm 90% positive will be the shade behind him in the coming out scene, but Eddie's arc will be lighter shades working up to the darker ones. And this is a promising start.
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But I wanna talk about Eddie's arc on the episode. Because his arc is blue and yellow, but he's drowning in blue. Which is the wrong color. And not just because the uniforms are blue.
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Something in particular that's intriguing me is the fact that they changed the waiting room of the hospital, so it is yellowish now, where it used to be a more neutral blue color.
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Something else is the fact that this is the school from 504, an episode called home and away, that has "you're the guy who likes to fix things" conversation, where we actually discuss the way blood family knows you differently than a significant other. So we have a few s5 callbacks going on, and I feel like this will be a pattern, even though I don't think Eddie is in route for another full breakdown, I think deconstructing parts of who he is will have a lot of callbacks to his s5 arc.
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The dialogue of the ambulance scene is very interesting too, because Eddie is talking about fixing someone's heart in less-than-ideal circumstances, and he actually manages to pull it off after some struggle. I'm probably reading too much into it, but the fifty/fifty on 2 attempts is making me šŸ‘€ because if we take this to the more metaphorical possible Eddie and his own heart, unless we are talking Buck, he failed all times, but it interesting to think Shannon vs Buck since Ana and Marisol where superficial relationships. Considering what we know, how young he was and the way his relationship with Shannon got to serious to fast vs the way Buck squeezed his way into his life and Eddie did take some leaps of faith in less than ideal conditions, I can see a symbolism hidden there.
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The talk with Bobby is also interesting because of the whole yellowish setting and the implication that the issue can be traced to the mustache, and since we know the mustache is gonna be important for Eddie's character in the following episodes.
But the thing that had me screaming was actually the shop scene. I wrote a meta on this (you can read it here) but 911 uses blue and red for parenting issues. And the shop, the car the dad is working on, and the equipment are blue and red. And that makes sense, they are talking about parenting. Eddie is there as a father, at least at first.
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And all of this is happening while Eddie is in white.
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After they go outside, while Eddie is talking about being a father in a more detached manner, he is surrounded by the blue and red, even though the chair is yellow.
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But while the dad is talking about his struggle understanding his kid, he is blue and yellow. This is interesting even though I don't want to sit here and say that Weston is queer just based on the fact that he's a cheerleader, because yes, the blue and yellow is used for Buck, but is also used for henren, and if we expand on the 911verse, it is also used for tarlos, so the metaphor there.
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And attached to all the struggles Eddie has expectations that were placed on him, and specifically 517 where Eddie talks about his father not wanting to seem weak, and how that obviously affected the way Eddie grew up and how he moves on to defending Weston by saying he survived something he knows soldiers who wouldn't, we have something here. Because we don't have the focus on the red anymore once Eddie starts talking.
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The green elements of the scene are interesting in the same way I said the orange is interesting about the birthday party (read that one here). Eddie is a green character, I feel like a lot of us associate him with army green, but if I'm right about the color theory we have going, Eddie can't live his life as a secondary color. That's where getting to his yellow comes in.
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Eddie needs to move on from that. We talked a lot about the green army armor, with that jacket he wears when Shannon dies and when he leaves the 118 (first 2 pictures up here) so he needs to stop hiding behind the green. And the green is there, but it is out of focus, it's not supposed to be the main thing even tho it does take a lot of space in Eddie's frame. Mostly because you can see the yellow very clearly behind the dad, but not the green car behind Eddie, the edges are blending, which is good. He is moving in the right direction.
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He also ends the episode drowning in blue again, which, yk, wrong color.
He's also in the same color he was in 506 after the whole kidnapping and yet another moment Eddie risks everything because there's a kid involved. But this time he can't go home to his kid. Someone give him Chris back right now (set on this parallel here).
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So, since Buck's queer arc was blue and yellow, and Eddie just started an arc with those, I am choosing to believe they just kickstarted Eddie's queer arc.
That's all for today, if you read this I love you šŸ’œ
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weeping-statue Ā· 20 days ago
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ā€œThe loss that shaped me.ā€
-Angst; Blood; mentions of stabbing; nothing extremely gory; this is set in the past;
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He should have protected you, he should have done better.
If heā€™s being honest there was a lot of things he should have done, but never did.
Like tell you he loves you more often, be more empathetic, open up about his emotions.
He knew from the start that he might lose you, either from your own hands or the enemy. But he wouldnā€™t let you go so easily. He made you hold on, he made you need life. If you loved him as much as he loved you, youā€™d stay. And stay you did, until he got sloppy.
You were cornered by the enemy, he had told you to run for it, run and donā€™t look back. That heā€™ll be fine. He just didnā€™t account for one of the stray enemies behind coming after you.
When he had finally managed to get out of there, adding more blood to his hands, more souls to haunt him, he went to look for you. Only to find you in a pool of your own blood. A large hole in your stomach, as if they had plunged what ever nearby object they could find into you.
It was cruel, and unfair, and all of the other words he could think of.
He ripped off a piece of fabric from his clothes, and tried to stop the bleeding, even tho he knew it wasnā€™t going to work.
The hope he had fought against the reality.
He only glanced up when he heard your unsteady voice, brows furrowed and jaw locked.
ā€œAll I ever wanted was to feel okay. At the time I believed my demise was the only way out. Because of that, I used to have open arms towards death, I wanted it even though it didnā€™t want me back. But now that my feelings are returned, I donā€™t know if I want it anymore. How selfish is that?ā€
ā€œItā€™s not selfish,ā€ he breathed out, hands gripping tightly at yours. Watching the blood drip out of your mouth with each cough.
ā€œYou worked hard, trying to- no, not trying to fix me, or save me. Trying to love me. You knew what could happen, yet you still found room for me in your heart. I canā€™t explain how thankful I am for you.ā€ Your hand gently squeezed his with what little strength you had.
ā€œStop it. Donā€™t talk like that. Youā€™re gonna be okay, I know it. Weā€™re gonna find you help, and youā€™re gonna be back on your feet and in my arms like nothing happened.ā€ That was the hope in him talking, believing his own words until heā€™d have to learn the hard way.
It wasnā€™t just a blow to his heart; but to his ego. Heā€™s never lost, not a battle, not a game, heā€™s always come out on top. Or so heā€™d like to believe. But losing you felt different, it felt so incredibly wrong. Like this wasnā€™t meant to happen. Like it wasnā€™t real.
The moment he watched the life fade from your eyes, was the day heā€™d figure out how cruel the world could be. Heā€™d never forgive it, heā€™d raise hell for this brutal act. Nobody could replace you, nobody could stop him until he was reunited with you.
Idv; Norton Campell, Richard Sterling, Weeping Clown, Naib Subedar.
Bleach; Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez, Kenpachi zaraki, Shinji Hirako, Renji Abarai, kisuke Urahara.
Rdr2; Arthur Morgan, Dutch VanDerlinde, Javier Escuella, John Marston, Sean Macguire.
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