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Today's medical update, please pardon any weirdness as I am using speech to text, and please excuse how long this is. I put an excellent picture of Fancy at the end for you. Here we go.
The shortest version is that my GP is going to try and centralize this. I have made an appointment for Monday. We are going to start over from the very beginning. New specimens, new cultures, everything.
The long version is kind of wild ride. It's going under a cut
My GP is now telling me that on two of the occasions that I went to Urgent Care or the hospital for a UTI, the records say that I did not actually have one.
This makes no sense whatsoever. I was symptomatic and I could smell it. On both of these occasions, I was told in no uncertain terms that I did have one.
I do not believe I was lied to at either facility. That means the only possibilities are that the testing was done improperly, the results were charted improperly, the records were sent over improperly, or I didn't understand what was being said to me.
At this point, with this absolute clown show that has been unfolding around me, this ridiculous circus where each act is fraught with nonsensical antics even more baffling than the ones before, I am literally unable to come to any conclusions. This is absolutely maddening.
And it's frightening, because there is something wrong, genuinely, and it might be something that they are unable to detect with the methods they are currently using. That's scary for a multitude of reasons, one of which is that they are not going to be willing or able to treat something if they do not think it exists. The other is that it opens the door to the possibility of their being further testing, which makes me violent to even contemplate. I want what is wrong with me to be simple, easy to treat, and relatively benign.
This has been frustrating, and drawn out, and I am sick of it. By itself it isn't enough to completely break me down. It's been almost unbearable when combined with the facts that I have serious concerns about the health of three of my cats, that my father seems to be worsening in his condition, that I have several other medical storylines going concurrently with this one, one of which is extremely stressful and frightening, and that all of this fuckery and running around has caused me to have to cut out most of the very, very few enjoyable and meaningful activities that are present in my life.
It has impacted my ability to be present for my partner, and for my pets, for me to sustain communication and relationships with people who are not my boyfriend or my best friend, and to simply fucking relax.
Also I can't fuck. Like, I know that this is the laugh at horny people website, but that is significant. Receiving not just physical touch but intimate touch is one of the very few ways I have of assorting ownership over my own body at this time.
I feel my identity has shifted from an internally defined "struggling person just going about their business" to an externally defined identity as a patient with a body that is sick and who must now structure their life around the demands of a system that does not care about me in the slightest, even though the providers usually do.
From the outside I know that this doesn't seem that terrible. I've spent the vast majority of this with no pain, and the times I have been in pain haven't crested a 3. If it weren't for the fact that I don't know what it is, it would be relatively trivial!
Unfortunately, because this isn't all I have going on, it's been really fucking things up. I space my appointments out so that I have time to recover between each one. I have PTSD, I have medical trauma, I have emotional reactions after stepping into a medical facility for any reason, and when things go wrong even in a very small way they can be intense. I manage this by allowing myself to have the reaction, experience all of the feelings, and come back to myself. It is a healthy way of doing things. It doesn't work, though, if I'm having to deal with one thing after another and no time in between to recover from it. This is essentially what has been happening to me for 2 months. Appointments, phone calls, messages, fixing mistakes, having to explain my history repeatedly as it gets ever more complicated. There's a lot more to it than just one appointment a week, which is already a lot for me.
I know this is something that chronically ill people deal with all the time, often for years, often for life, but the extent of it is new to me and very difficult to bear. My personality is vanishing under the weight of all of this crap. I do not feel like myself.
So yeah, sorry for rambling so much but this is just been...I don't even have the words to describe it. Nonsensical, but in an unfortunately consequential way. I've been going in circles all this time, apparently.
I don't really expect anybody to read all of this. But if you did, thank you. It means a lot to me. This place, and all of you, function as a sort of pressure relief, and a source of constant, pleasurable entertainment. I know many of you empathize with what I'm going through, and that helps me to feel less alone. That all by itself is so important.
Anyway, here's my cat.
She got to be on the puzzle table and was very smug about it.
#there is a cat at the end of this post#screaming endlessly into the void#I am screaming into the void#not the cat#just so we are clear
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"Sad Cat Poem" by Spencer Madsen
#Undertale#UTDR#Undertale fanart#Flowey#Chara#Asriel#Asriel Dreemurr#Sad Cat Poem#GOOD LIRD THIS TOOK FOREVER. I haven't drawn Undertale since 2016 but I got the idea in my head and had to see it to its end.#Now before anyone says anything: FAQ#Q: Why aren't the pronouns changed? A: This is about Asriel. Not Chara.#Specifically about Asriel becoming Flowey and being unable to reconnect with what's left of his family as a result#Q: Why does [x panel] look rushed? A: Finals week.#Q: Any dogs here? A: One!#That about covers it. I hope.#Anyway I don't make comics very often for a reason. Peace and love#Hrokkall Art#Long post#1k#2k#5k#10k#Comic
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i love when raiden answers the codec and reports his situation is "wet and miserable" LOL hes so real to me...
#he is like a wet cat always#raiden#mgs2#meruzart#metal gear#i might have more drawings to stick at the end of this post idk i need to look thru sketch docs#metal gear solid
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this is like all I could think when I first played this scene
#og post#my art#ghost trick#gtpd#ghost trick phantom detective#sissel ghost trick#lynne ghost trick#missle ghost trick#sissel#lynne#missle#painstakingly recreated the park in csp to get cool angles of it#SPOILERS FOR THE END OF GHOST TRICK:#really funny that in fact they left most things to a kitty cat.#though i can't even say 'bold words coming from a kitty' because like that's still something a cat would say#'ur trusting the dog? unlike me the incredibly qualified cat'#ghost trick spoilers#i guess#1k
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puppy kitty
#dog#cat#furry#animal#digital art#illustration#tattoo#pdx tattoo#first tattoos start in two weeks YAY#ill post an official update later (hard to explain but the school has schedule restraints making it difficult on my end)#BUT IF UR READING THIS & in/near pdx and are willing to let me practice on you in december please mssg me 😏
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scuggies
#rain world#survivor rw#monk rw#hunter rw#gourmand rw#these are originally for a silly powerpoint night with friends but I ended up with another idea#originally i want to post them with the rest of the downpour cats but I don't have the time atm rip
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of course i remembered Fionna Friday come on now
#adventure time#fionna and cake#fionna campbell#cake the cat#simon petrikov#whats funny is these drawings i end up posting together are usually drawn literal weeks apart on whatever friday i decide to post#art that i drew#fionna friday
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Squirrelflight Squirrelstar
#note: im actually proud of this one! last time I really did love making squirlf have the colourations of an actual squrriel#but the thing is I really love dark red squirrelflight and I felt like I didnt do that much and also faded away from how-#-I actually see her in my head and just pushed myself to finish it since I was struggling with artblock#and I ended up not really liking it after I posted it yet people did and Im glad! I hope this one people will like too!#sorry for the ramble#wc#warrior cats#warriors#wc designs#squirrelflight#squrrielstar
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put them in a room together and no one will come out alive (●'◡'●)
#tma#the magnus archives#elias bouchard#gertrude robinson#jonathan sims#jonah magnus#jon's shirt says i love cats and cat picture#maybe i should one day post my shitpost like 2-month old tma pinterest meme redraws but idk if i have to find original memes that i refernc#cause some people include original memes in the posts and some don't#i loved drawing this#but oh my gosh how many troubles i've came through with this one#my disk said let's go let's be silly and boom! look! randomly 100% usage without a reason#and my windows crashed when i like 1/3 done with drawing#and i was saving drawing at that exact moment so file got fucking corrupted#file repairs apps didn't help but i managed to open file with krita#IT WAS THE ONLY APP THAT OPENED THE FILE ARE ITS DEVS MAGICIAN?#at the end it was a windows problem not disk's i fixed usage problem by reseting? system#also it was gertrude's sketch layer that was corrupted#fighting demons in my pc was feeling a little bit colin-coded#a lot of tags but i needed to complain about this situation
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.🖤🔄🤍.
#the cat witchs guild#the misc adventures of mochi and lime#tcwg#tmaomal#limochi#art#mochi#lime#ocs#original#PALETTE SWAP PALETTE SWAP PALETTE SWAP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ive been wanting to do this for so long....the m-34th purposely makes their uniforms white to be the anti-witch black color#and they both look DAMN FINE#limes def thinking abt how she looks like a bride#it took me a while to decide if i should also swap the gold#but the gold looks too good with the uniform...#i cant stop looking at this#ignore my sad excuse for crossed legs at this angle i gave up#hehe it reminds of an idea i have in beta about the m-34th letting witches off the hook post-ending#and changing their uniforms to black#idk if thats actually what happens but it would be wholesome for lime to come home in a black uniform#and mochi gets all emotional he looks so handsome#i just realized i messed up some of his uniform details#this is what i get for not looking at references for my own characters#also what i get for rushing a piece in 2 hours instead of taking my time#cat bow hat really fucks man#edit: i fixed the things that were bothering me hehe
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#mousegirlheart#puppygirltitty#blini cat#OP DISABLED REBLOGGING IN LESS THAN A DAY PRESUMABLY BECAUSE THE POST GOT TOO WILD AND BIG SJQKFKSKSKS#had to reblog for that sonic adventure joke at the end#it's too beautiful and i hope to finally play the $2.50 version i got on Steam the other month#(it was a HUGE game for me as a kid. so many good memories with my little Chaos)#sonic the hedgehog#funny#cat#also just from this post i learned that 'blini' is a Russian food#so basically replacing the blini with waffles is pulling a 4kidz move qjsfkksks#(altho i assume the person who made that edit just wanted to include their own favorite food. no shade lol)
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“ Ah, It’s a Wonderful Cat Life ”
#ruikasa#tsukasa tenma#rui kamishiro#pjsk#pjsk fanart#tsukasa pjsk#rui pjsk#project sekai#ah it's a wonderful cat life#i am obsessed 👍#this drawing took ages to make#quite literally 12 hours or so i think#but it was defunitely worth it in the end#go check out this post on my other socials too LOL /nf
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Cait Sith Carried like a Cat.
#Cait Sith#FFVII#FF7#FFVII Rebirth#FF7 Rebirth#idk why Red feel the need to carry Cait like momma cat but I totally approve#I just hope that scene last longer#I love those two uwuuu#n fatmog#I finished the game around a month ago btw lol#thought to post something after that but in the end no time and the moment passed away sob#tldr idk wth happened in the end but this game is a joyful ride 95% of time#so yea play ffvii rebirth everyone its good
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paint me like one of your french murfs
#murf#star trek#star trek prodigy#prodigyedit#star trek prodigy spoilers#prodigy spoilers#my gifs#my posts#mine: prodigy#startrekedit#trekedit#trekdaily#scifigifs#cinemapix#userthing#dailyflicks#usersource#tvedit#filmtvdaily#userstream#useroptional#scifiedit#animationedit#animationsdaily#need someone to make a video edit of the one where a cat has been put into the titanic montage with jack#but do this with murf. there must be enough scenes for it. i can imagine the scene at the end of it with jack painting murf#and rose walks in and sees them ahahahhaa it's living in my head but i need it with my eyes#sidenote: gone down a mandela effect wormhole because it's actually 'draw' and not 'paint' ahaha i know in the film it's draw when i watch#but pop culture for me it's always paint. love how things get widespread like this. pls don't drag me for writing paint. i like it better
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cat burglar
redraw of this but tabaxi nami
#i didnt have any ideas but i wanted to draw dnd so i jsut started scribbling my dnd strawhats as screenshot redraws so i didnt intend to-#color or post this and it ended up at. uh. 300 px. stares into horizon#i had a lot of fun witht he background tho#if i end up drawing more dnd piece ill make a tag ig#wtf... art#one piece fanart#cat burglar nami#nami#dndpiece
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Symbiosis
Imagine a universe where humans and Cybertronians are from the same planet; where it's a combination of earth and cybertron just extra big. On this planet organic and inorganic life coexist rather peacefully. A lot of them actually rely on each other. For transformers until they have a human partner they are unable to be a full combat efficiency and they can't really groom themselves. Humans being on a rather large hard to traverse planet with a lot of dangerous creatures is hard for them to protect themselves and travel far distances. There are emotional benefits of course as they are both fairly sociable species who likes having companions.
So every few weeks or so transformers and humans will get together to talk and exchange services. No matter if the Cybertronian is an autobot or a decepticon. During these events bots will try to get a human buddy; with bribes, friendships, anything of the sort.
Humans are quite valuable to the inorganic species considering their ever lasting centuries-long war. So all bots are pretty protective over their human charges. This has led to many problems of bots becoming too controlling and or overly possessive. Which causes humans to be more reluctant to bond with a transformer causing these relationships to be more rare that causes bots to be more possessive over their human(s). It's a nasty cycle that keeps feeding into itself that is definitely going to lead problems down the road but for now things are relatively peaceful.
#hfy#humans are space cats#humans are space orcs#transformers#transformers x humans#transformers & humans#cybertronians#Cybertronians & humans#tf au#i can't help ending some protective bots in my posts#probably a link to a emotional but I have to many to care at this point#symbiosis au
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