#then my grandmother was in the hospital

[eevylynn]

Of course my chromebook crashed right as I'm trying to get my Sterek Christmas bingo finished up! Why wouldn't it??

[handweavers]

my grandfather who raised me and for all intents and purposes has been my father my entire life is dying in the hospital and even as he's dying and suffering from severe dementia in his moments of clarity he keeps asking me if i have food at home and money and if i'll be okay. and no matter who he forgets and how angry and confused he gets and tries to fight the nurses, the moment he sees me he calms down completely and allows me to administer anything to him and keeps telling me loves me and i'm his sweetheart and his favourite person in the whole world and the best friend he's ever had. as long as he feels me touching his head or his shoulder or hand or sees me in his vision he is calm and quiet. it is a power that takes my breath away, the amount of love and implicit trust moves me to my bones. and i want him to go i want his suffering to be over i need him to free of this so badly i want nothing more than for him to let go. but i am so full of love and humbled by the enormity of his love for me that he keeps gripping onto life because he doesn't want to leave me and i just keep sobbing because i love him and i miss him already and i will miss him forever and ever. my best and oldest friend and the best father anyone could ever have. i want him to let go i need this to be over i can't bear to know he's suffering in this way any longer

[viridian-house]

I want so desperately to finish this one, but life has other plans for me this month. I learned a ton while working on it, so fingers crossed I can pick the momentum back up in the future

sakura, from my fic series the slug & the stars

[br1ghtestlight]

it's weird how some families have so much physical history and documentation going back generations and memoirs written by their great-great-grandfather etc and like in my family. i dont even know my grandfather's name. nobody does lol we dont know his identity. like how can some families be so well documented and then in other cultures its basically impossible to find that history especially if it was destroyed by colonization or war

[hamletthedane]

How did you conquer your fear of dogs?

That’s actually SUCH a sweet story - a dog saved my life.

My grandparents (who are farmers/ranchers) got a dog to help them with herding livestock and she was the calmest, sweetest, most well-trained dog who ever lived. She absolutely adored me but could tell I was petrified of her, so she always stayed in my orbit without ever touching me or coming too near.

One summer day when I was ~10yo, I’m walking back to their house for some lunch and she’s trotting a few yards behind me. Suddenly, she does something she’s never done before: she growls all deep and scary then races forward at top speed and knocks me to the ground.

I’m obviously terrified, but then I hear a rattling sound, a loud yelp, then another growl. Scrambling backwards, I look up to see a dead rattlesnake right where I was about to walk, with my grandparent’s dog whimpering and licking at her leg.

I go FLYING back to the house sobbing and hollering that we have to go get her, but just as we’re running back out the door, she comes limping up the road behind me as fast as she can, beelining straight for me to make sure I’m alright

Rattlesnake venom can kill a grown man and WILL kill a 10yo 50lb girl or a 2yo 50lb dog, so I spent the whole night laying on the kitchen floor with her, worriedly petting at her head and pressing my face into her soft fur as an IV dripped antivenom into her.

(and fifteen years later - only two years ago - I helped my grandad bury her under the live oak tree by the creek that she used to chase squirrels into. She died of old age)

…and honestly how can you be scared of dogs after something like THAT??

[dani-the-goblin]

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[rawliverandgoronspice]

words pale to express how much I hate macron at this point

[tanumaskoipond]

my senior thesis project is so. there’s so little previously done research on this topic and so i’m doing this literature review and going. mildly insane.

[villainsandvictimsalliance]

I appreciate a lot all the asks and be sure I've read them, just please be patient with me because I'm kinda going through stuff that has me a little overwhelmed <3 <3

[hilacopter]

does the name Hila have any meaning in Hebrew?

it means Halo or Aura :)

btw it's pronounced "hee-lah", not "hy-luh". taking the opportunity to say this since i've heard a lot of people pronounce it as the latter.

[onestepbackwards]

Me: *Sees Castlevania and Dungeons and Dragons is leaked for Dead by Daylight* Me: FINE I'll play dbd again

[bisan-is-trying]

There is nothing my heart craves more at this mentally draining time than genuine happiness. Please. I will take anything.

[ljubimaya]

I keep forgetting I actually have an older brother who I never met

[balentay]

it's funny how you can be fine one moment and then years old grief can hit you the next

[taocc-updates]

Genuinely, if this shit keeps going on i might have to take a bit of an extended break from taocc stuff. All of this mixed with a bunch of personal family things that have been going on is honestly just too much fucking stress for me to deal with, man.

I don't have the time, energy or will to put up with something that's THIS petty. It's so stupid, it's so pointless, it's been blown out of proportion and it's entirely SOMEBODY'S fault who refuses to give up on a bit that does not seem to even be their own, one that the person who started it doesn't even seem to find funny anymore.

I'm fucking done with it, man.

All of this over-- What, a silly little tradition? A silly little way to tell people "Hey, hop on call!" is what they're this caught up about??? It's disappointing, and it's cowardly.

now, with all of that said-- "Fuck it, I'm going to bed."

[eggs-love-loki]

Everyone at work all the time: it’s almost the Christmas concert! How exciting! Tis the season!!! Are you so excited Ms. Music Teacher!?

Me, experiencing a top contender for the worst week of my life: haha yay