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-Amanda Lovelace

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“SOMETIMES I JUST MAKE SHIT UP” is probably the most real thing I have heard about anxiety. Half the stuff my brain tells me regarding anxiety, is typically catastrophizing. 

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Health Update

I am happy to announce that I am hemorrhoid free after three months of hell. Take your vitamins, drink water, and don’t strain!

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My first blackout poetry. Really enjoyed this, will probably do more.

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I am still here.

Sorry I have been AFK for a bit. I have had a lot of life changes that include some adjustments. I cannot share as of right now but I should be able to in a few weeks. I cannot wait to share the news. 

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Self Care in the Helping Professions

Pre-COVID19, we lived in a society that was so focused on individual career progression that it was almost frowned upon taking the time you deserve (accumulated time: sick and vacation), advocating for yourself, and missing work. 

During COVID19, things were starting to change. We as a society started focusing more on mental health awareness and stigma, self care, and becoming the best versions of ourselves.

After the world opened again, I have started to advocate for myself as a person and employee, I am not afraid of taking time off from work, I try my best to focus on my self care and becoming the best version of myself. I am so proud of myself for being able to call out of work without feeling guilty. 

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Am I talking to myself? Is anyone out there screaming at the walls?

Substance by Demi Lovato

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Progress

Showing my body some love and self care today. I have been feeling sick the past couple days and instead of forcing myself to go to work and be miserable and potentially get others sick; I called out of work to rest my body and for once I am not overthinking about work while not being at work and I don’t feel guilty. 

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2023 is MY Year

I know I say this every year that “(xxxx) is going to be my year!” and then it never ends up really being my year. I am changing that this year. I am not overworking myself, I am being kind and caring to myself, I am spending more time with the people I love, doing more of my hobbies, I am going out to concerts and I am bringing my husband to see his two favorite bands this year. I am going to continue to do things that make me happy. I am tired of feeling like I am doing nothing in my life. When people remember me (if they even do), I want them to remember all the stuff I did and not that I sat at home on my ass all day, every day. 

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Some days are harder than others. I just keep reminding myself that it’s a bad day and not a bad life.

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My husband sent me this when the article first came out. I don’t typically get my information from CNN; however, it’s not a bad read and thought I should share.

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This is huge, NATIONAL Suicide prevention hotline is changing their number. Something shorter, quicker, and easy to remember! Please spread for awareness. This could save someone’s life!

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I'm alone, in a room full of people, on a street full of broken homes

Alone in a Room Full of People by Blackbear

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I can’t wait until I can start enjoying life again…

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Parentified in the Helping Professions

It makes sense to me that a lot of parentified individuals ended up going into the field of helping professions. Is it because they actually enjoy it or is it because that is all they know?

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I had therapy today and we discussed my mom having breast cancer and the treatments she has been getting. I couldn’t help but notice that my inner child was really upset. I read Jeanette McCurdy’s self memoir (100% would recommend) and it was really relatable at times. I think that the book brought up some unresolved feelings and emotions that I wasn’t aware of. Today was a really good session.