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I've been writing my dissertation like that gif of the cat frantically slamming a keyboard (you know the one) but it's got me thinking about professor Bucky and how he might incentivise you to get your work done for his class 😏
"You're not getting an extension. Don't even think about e-mailing me for one." The hardest part of dating your lecturer isn't actually the sneaking around; it's that he's a hell of a lot tougher on you than the rest of the class.
"But Bucky I-" You begin but he cuts you off and you know by the look on his face that there's no point pressing it.
"No. You're more than capable and you've got plenty of time to get it done. You don't need an extension, you need to apply yourself."
God, he's annoying. You know you can do it, you never said you couldn't. You just don't want to. There's a massive difference.
He pulls his copy of the required reading out of his bag, setting it on the desk beside your laptop and it takes everything in you not to bury your head in your hands.
"There. I've helped you enough." He nods towards the textbook but when you don't move, he flicks through the pages with a sigh, leaving it open at the chapter you know you should start with.
You sit there for another few seconds in a foul mood, mentally preparing yourself to sit here for the next few hours.
"How about I help you? I get the impression you need an incentive." He knows you too well, there's nothing more motivating than a little treat. "You have 12,000 words to write. For every 1,000 you write this week, I'll give you an orgasm."
Maybe you should complain about his assignments more often.
"Deal." Hell, if you'd known this was coming, you'd have started ages ago.
"Good girl." He laughs, amused at the rate at which your fingers begin to dance over the keyboard.
Getting started isn't too hard. You type out a quick plan of your chapters, dropping in the sources you know you'll need before starting your introduction and with your focus on your work, you hardly notice Bucky sinking to his knees under the desk.
You feel his warm, open mouthed kisses trailing up your thighs under your skirt and his soft groans drag your attention away from the laptop.
"Don't stop working." He insists, licking your sex through your cotton underwear, letting you enjoy the delicious friction on your cunt. "You're almost at the first thousand and it reads well so far." You feel his hot breath against the now wet cotton while one of your hands falls to tug his hair.
"If you stop typing, I stop licking." He threatens, pulling your panties to the side, gliding his tongue against your skin and groaning at the taste of your arousal.
You have just over 200 words until you reach your first thousand and it should be so easy but it becomes even harder when he sinks two fingers into you and you're able to hear how wet you are already.
His lips engulf your clit, sucking gently while flicking his tongue in vertical strokes in time with his fingers curling inside you. "Such a smart girl. I'm so proud of you." He hums before giving you a few broad strokes with a flat tongue.
He knows what his praise does to you and with your thighs clamped around his head, you fly your way through a few hundred more words. He chuckles when you proudly announce you reached a thousand but you don't stop typing at the same frantic pace.
"Sweetheart, if you want to get all 12,000 done this evening, I'll sit here as long as it takes." He smiles against your skin before giving you everything he knows you need. His tongue flicks quickly over your clit and his fingertips rub against the soft, spongy spot inside you and in no time you're gushing against his face, gripping his hair and riding your high out on his waiting tongue.
#becca's thots#becca writes spice#professor!bucky#professor!bucky smut#professor smut#look#I'm not saying I'm COMPLETELY screwed#but I think I've girl bossed too close to the sun#I emailed my diss supervisor on Friday asking when my deadline was#apparently it was a week ago 💀#she's giving me until this Friday bc she's an angel (and the date on some of her material was wrong)#but this is the busiest week of the year for me at work#I have a couple of 4am starts and a few really late nights#and it's period week#so if you happen to see me crying in the university library this week just let me get on with it#but I WILL churn out 12000 words#but truly this post is one of my biggest weaknesses ^^#men who know you're capable of doing more and try to encourage you rather than convince you that you could get away with doing less 🤤
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What, like this means anything?
They’re on a case where Dean “lost” another game of rock-paper-scissors with Sam while negotiating who would “fake date” their conveniently present angel friend for the Couples-Retreat case Sam came across.
Sam always knew it was going to be his brother and the angel from when he first realized he’d found an obvious case at a couples retreat on the Outer Banks of NC.
He found them both in the map room/bunker foyer. Castiel was sat in a chair on the far-end, closer to the staircase, while Dean sat at the corner of the map table, just to Cas’s left. He was taking up the longer stretch of table with a few beer bottles past his elbow, a spare, field-stripped rifle in front of him, and something else he’s covered with his forearm.
Considering the information Sam was walking in with, he decided to keep a polite distance; noticing the way they leaned towards eachother on the map table, with their elbows brushing every chance they got between little comments out of Sam’s earshot, it painted this scene a bit differently for the younger Winchester after a decade with these two idiots.
He was extremely mindful while deciding between rock, paper, and scissors—considering to himself whether Dean would break their usual pattern and/or if Sam should attempt to counteract it. He tried not to give away how he was looking at their situation while responding to Dean’s, predictable, throw of scissors.
“Tough luck” Sam said with a practiced tight grin and a swift double-pat on his older brother’s shoulder as he began a side step towards the hallway leading to the kitchen for a cup of coffee. That, or just to excuse himself from the tension he just brought into the room.
After Supernatural: The Musical, Sam had understood to avoid bringing up anything close to “Cas/Dean” directly in conversation with his brother… but this case… it looked promising.
Dean seemed sure of himself with his usual choice of scissors, but also panicked. Like this round of hand signs meant more than their usual division-of-labor/danger.
But now Dean’s been staring at Cas for a little too long after their brief negotiation.
What can of worms did Sam just open on himself?
Very cautiously, but attempting a laissez-faire mask towards the words he chose next, Sam spoke, “So, we thinking long-term boyfriends? Fiancés? Husbands?” He could feel the anxiety sweat begin to accumulate under his shirt, anticipating his brother’s chuffed response being crafted already.
What he didn’t expect was.. well…
Dean huffed out of his nose with a subtle, humorous breath, and turned to Cas, Though, he didn’t meet Cas’s curious gaze. “Aren’t we profoundly bound or something? Could just tell people that like it’s an inside joke.” At this point, Dean was going back and forth between fiddling with the stripped weapon on the map table and his own fingers, shifting the way he was sat in his chair to straighten his back out.
Cas looked down at his own hands in his lap, “I’m sure that could be found amusing to some people,” he seemed very tunnel focused on his own fiddling hands, until he looked towards Dean again, and Sam could have sworn he saw the angel’s right knee move to stretch under the table.
Dean very subtly jolted at what anyone could only assume was Cas’s knee having rested against Dean’s own left bow-leg beneath the bunker’s most frequently used table. There was tension filled silence before Cas continued his thought, “though I’d imagine that the strategic option would be to formulate some alternate narrative as to not confuse the ‘normal people’ should they ask for details.” Another long pause followed Dean’s unreadable expression toward their angel friend.
Cas’s fingers moved up to his tie and top dressshirt button, looking straight off at nothing in particular as he measuredly tightened the tie and fastened the white top button beneath the (now-professional-looking) blue knot at Cas’s throat. “When humans want something really really bad, we lie,” relaxed blue eyes shifted over to the green ones that had captured the whole spectacle of Castiel apparently knowing/remembering how to clean up so quickly after all these years. “Better to be prepared, should we be questioned, of course.”
Dean’s jaw clenched in its usual, yet currently weighted response to himself swallowing something down. Whether it was pain, guilt, doubt, fear, or something else, not even the older Winchester could decipher, not with this almost-nauseous pull in his gut.
He couldn’t stop. It was impulse. Now he was staring, mouth closing and opening as his throat bobbed with each swallow. “Right— yeah— Smart, Cas…”, another swallow.
‘Knew it, jerk.’ - Sam’s internal monologue relayed toward his older brother for the next few days as he began to awkwardly handle what he just started to unravel between Dean and their fallen-angel friend…
This may have been more entertaining in concept…
#I’m gonna write a fic#idek where there’s a couples retreat#I did no research I just picked a beach I knew of#re-watching The Astronaut Lovers#I will be doing fanart of this random Spanish film#It inspires me#I got distracted on my rewatch and started writing this#i’m so far off from the original source material#but idgaf#Destiel#i’m gonna write a whole fic#BlanketFortMotel#on Ao3#never posted before so idk if I’ll pop up aside from my bookmarks#but I’m copy pasting this whole post into a word doc to add to for my first work#sam winchester#dean winchester#castiel#supernatural#dean is bi#pretend dating#fake dating#case fic#ficlet
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@earlgrey--tea you asked who learned French just by watching TV shows and I'm thrilled you asked.
Here is the paper Peter Llewellyn Foley published: Picking up a second language from television: an autoethnographic L2 simulation of L1 French learning. Looking over the paper again now, he did 1500 hours of audio-visual French material for native speakers. He read toward the end of that period for some hundreds of hours, and he talked to people in French similarly toward the end of that period for some hundreds of hours. I read the whole thing, and I recommend anyone else who's curious reads the whole thing. Because my takeaways may not be the same as another person's. The paper includes what he did, how he studied, how he tracked his study, what study materials worked best (he found children's cartoons with a lot of visuals of what is being talked about were the easiest to learn from in the first few hundred hours - and adult television where they talk about things not directly visually shown as some of the hardest stuff that he used once he had more understanding of the language).
His paper shows at least 1 person could learn French by watching shows (with children's cartoons being best at the beginning stage until you learn more words), and trying to figure out what each thing means as you hear it. He did a lot of puzzling out the sounds he heard, using context and guessing what was being talked about (for curiosity's sake he did the opposite of what ALG Automatic Language Growth articles tend to suggest people do). He did not do any reading later sometime after 1000 hours, and it's fascinating how different he imagined French spelling was based on his guesses from the sound, compared to how it is actually spelled. He did use some graded readers for learners once he was reading.
He did not look any word translations up when watching all those shows. He personally makes the guess that if he HAD looked up words, if he HAD used French subtitles, and if he had focused entirely on children's shows at first, his progress might have taken less time. But his experiment did not do that, so it's only a guess, and actual success of people who've looked up words should be referenced instead for how successful or not it is (people like r/Refold learners look up words while watching shows), and he did not use any video materials made for language learners but my personal thinking is that Comprehensible Input type lessons at the beginning stage may have worked even better than children's cartoons.
To me, his level of understanding and ability to do things lines up fairly well with Dreaming Spanish's roadmap estimated hours to do X things. That makes sense to me as Peter basically studied with stuff made for native speakers, which eventually became more comprehensible. And Dreaming Spanish is designed to be fully comprehensible to a learner, until they can comprehend stuff for native speakers. I imagine Peter had a harder time initially, but as an English speaker learning French, with all the cognates, maybe he didn't have to learn as much to cross the threshold into comprehending children's shows as someone learning a language with no cognates.
I wrote my in depth thoughts about his paper here but it's mostly just rambling.
#rant#earlgrey--tea#replies#i think of Peter's paper whenever i wonder how many hours i need to study#cause i figure okay i'll make SOME progress in 1500-2000 hours#possibly less#but if i havent studied at least that long. no matter what method im studying. i need to temper my expectations to be below B2#i also think he's a wonderful case of if you can learn from purely material for native speakers and doing NO word lookups/no study in your#native language#there are certainly ways of studying in ONLY the target language which hold your hand MORE than what Peter did#(comprehensible input lessons. the nature method textbooks.)#and there are things a person can do to make what Peter did EASIER (like studying 2000 common words in flashcards/anki then looking up#new target language words in reading and shows in a target language dictionary)#(or using target language subtitles from the start like Peter theorizes may have helped more - although there's argument that could've#worsened his listening skills)
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Added 3 muses!
Penelope Appleton-a magical rat with an impossible tail
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Ji-Hu Davidson: A cursed homeless man trying to get by.
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Masal Dickens: A former soldier dhampir who loves animals and absolutely does not have abandonment issues thank you very much mister therapist.
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Enjoy my nerds! Let me know if the links work.
#text#words#readin material#nothings//ooc#mobile#before i wake//mun#join the ranks//new muse#muses#rat#eldritch#vampire#dhampir#Masal#Masal Dickens#crimson red heart-stone from the start//Masal#Penelope#Penelope Appleton#new muse#but nothing can touch your happy thoughts anymore//penelope#jihu#ji-hu#Ji-Hu Davidson#when silence falls does no-one care//ji-hu
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So i finished Becoming Eden [Its me I'm trees] by @madnessmadness a week ago and im feeling very normal still
In fact i felt so normal i made this

I'm so happy how it's turning outtt !!
more images of the inside under the cut









#it contains the fic up until chapter 18#and the moment Lenipez finishes formating the last chapter i'm adding that and the additional material#and then start working on the cover#also#if anyone is interested in the Word document to do something like this (insane) or to just have the fic downloaded#you can message me or Lenipez (they have the more author aproved version)#but probably after chapter 19 is done :DD#becoming eden#bookbinding#trigun#vashposting
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consider: mad genius who's also a very kind and lonely old man
actually adores children and connects with them better than most people because they are both openly candid, creative and curious
struggles with the asexual conundrum of wanting a spouse and offspring but ultimately Sucking So Much Ass at building intimacy with another person he skipped that part altogether and mad scienced his way into a family
#talking to the wall#wd gaster#gaster#thats him right there alright#sighs. thinking of him#might delete later?#just in case i get embarrassed of saying words shfjdfhdj#definitely illustration material though#college has just been taking a real toll on me in regards to art ⚰️#cannot wait to draw his date attempts#they all pretty much boil down to that one family guy clip#who the fuck starts a conversation like that I Just Sat Down#this is a very important man.#a very important smart man.#a very important creepy; inappropriately honest; forward to a fault; impossibly and intimidatingly smart old man.#who may or may not have made a few visits to the mental hospital in order to make sure he's not a danger to himself in his manic spikes#if there is such thing in the underground#“ok pops timeout yeah? you're very on fire. literally.”
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So, something that has still been bothering me about misanthropy in nonhuman spaces, as a pankin fae endel is that... not all humans have access to human privilege and hegemony. Not all humans have power over nonhumans or benefit from our society being human-centric. The fact that even alterhuman spaces can still be centered around humanity even, doesn't always benefit all humans in those spaces.
The easiest example: We have human headmates in our system. They are, for all intents and purposes, otherkin in a way that those of us who are fae AREN'T. While we are all perceived as human, they are essentially humankin, humans in a physically nonhuman (or magically modified to pass for human) body. Their internal identity is fundamentally altered by our plurid and bodily identity.
In fact, the experience of being a changeling has also fundamentally altered our faeness as well. Culturally, having been raised human, we have some connection to human culture as well as to the fae culture we long for but haven't gotten to know. It's similar to our experience having been adopted into a blended family, where we have a complex relationship with both our Mexican and white american heritage, especially with the fact that what our body and our cultural heritage are, are different.
We feel fundamentally somewhere in between fae and human while still being fully fae, or more accurately we are still fully fae while having become a bit human on top of that. Our faeness+humanity aren't two fractions equalling a whole, but something greater than a whole. The faeness itself, while influenced and changed by the humanity, isn't itself any less fae.
Here are some other examples of marginalized humans, most of which we have personal experience with:
1. A werewolf who is both human and wolf.
Not all werewolves consider themselves to be human due to their lycanthropy, but some do. Lycanthropes face extreme oppression which is often sanist in nature, and is certainly anti-nonhuman. For those that identify as human, them being BOTH human and wolf is a fundamental part of the oppression they face. In the same way, multigender people who are men and women are oppressed for being both, while monogender trans women and trans men are oppressed for being noncis. Nonhumans and marginalized humans/humans who are also nonhumans can both be oppressed. This also applies to other weres and those who are nonhuman AND human.
We should mention here that some of us are weres, though our main shifter identity is tied to our fae identity. We do have were identities separate from it though. I would also say that some objectkin identities might be essentially the same as this, particularly dollkin where the doll itself is a doll version of a human? At least, some of my dollkin identity does seem to fit this in the same way, where it's explicitly related to humanity or both human and nonhuman.
2. People who are fictkin or factkin of a specific human character/person, even when that character or person presents as or is human-standard in appearance and abilities.
They have their otherkin identities refused and denied, despite it being a human identity. They are marginalized for an identity which is directly human, and have also faced exclusion and hate from otherkin communities during our history for those same identities.
3. Human members of nonhuman (especially physically nonhuman) systems.
This is itself more because of pluralmisia, but human members of nonhuman systems are often oppressed because they are seen as the same person as the nonhuman headmate and therefore as nonhuman themselves.
Much in the same way that a butch cis woman being attacked by transmisogynists is still that butch cis woman being affected by transmisogyny, so too are human headmates being marginalized by anti-nonhumanity. The target of a form of bigotry or oppression is the person who that bigotry/oppression was being used to hurt, regardless of whether or not they actually are that identity.
Moreover, because pluralmisia is widespread and constant, human headmates in nonhuman systems (and even sometimes just who have nonhuman headmates) are near-universally and near-constantly seen as nonhuman, not just occasionally. The only times they are not is when the system tries to pass for human, and passing privilege does not exist. That is to say, the only time they are not seen as nonhuman is when every nonhuman member closets themselves for safety and typically also when they pretend on top of that to be a singlet.
Conditional privilege that relies on not being out and open as every part of your identity/identities - of hiding part of your attraction as a bi or pan person, of hiding part of your gender as a multigender person, of hiding your plurality as a system, of hiding your transness as a trans man or woman - that's not privilege, it's a hostage situation. There's nuance to this, but fundamentally, if you can entirely lose any privilege and power you do have just by being open about your/your system's identities - often facing even more violence from people who feel they were "tricked" into treating you well only because they thought you weren't the identity they were bigoted about - because of coming out or being outed, it's not privilege as we understand it in the context of oppression.
4. A human with superpowers, mutant abilities, or otherwise not human-standard appearance or abilities, especially one with exomemories of having been considered nonhuman in their universe/past or parallel life.
Many of them faced oppression if not outright attempts at genocide for being human differently, only to come here and face oppression for being that person internally in a body which doesn't reflect it.
To have other people marginalized by humans then turn around and say that they're actually privileged just for the human identity they were denied and may have risked their lives for in their original universe, simply because here they are human in a way the humans in power don't actually allow to exist and continue to oppress them over... it's just cruel. It's like how trans men don't actually have male privilege, because they are trans (and they are trans because they are men and men because they are trans, inextricably). While patriarchal manhood is privileged, trans manhood isn't part of that. Even a stealth passing trans man who is outed can face extreme violence if his manhood is revealed to be trans, and any even conditional privilege gained from hiding a core part of his identity will be stripped from him.
Doing humanity "wrong" is similarly marginalized. Being a mutant, a human from another world, a magic user, or in any way internally having abilities that humans here don't have, results in oppression from normative humans and having your status (and therefore privilege and power) as human stripped from you, often permanently!
Alterhuman humanity is itself marginalized - their actual identities are denied in the same way nonhumans' identities are. They are denied in the way that genderfluid people being called cis women and cis men face. Acknowledging only part of someone's actual identity but mislabeling even that as something it's not is part of oppression. Moreover, facing violence over refusing to conform to the narrow expectations of your identity enforced by those in power is especially oppression.
Being locked up in psych wards for human identities that significantly diverge from anthronormative humanity, facing actual literal physical violence and abuse for atypical human identities, having zero legal protection for alterhuman human identities - these are all forms of oppression. These all affect marginalized humans.
Hell, anti-nonhuman and anti-alterhuman oppression even sometimes affect nonmarginalized humans. While there's a large overlap between furry and nonhuman (especially therian) communities, human furries face anti-nonhuman AND anti-alterhuman sentiment just for doing humanity wrong by dressing up as anthropomorphic animals.
Very few of the furries that use the anti-nonhuman "they believe they're actually animals" actually believe that about human furries (or even nonhumans, since part of our oppression is them not believing us) but they still use it to harm those human furries even to the point of trying to get them fired from their jobs.
They believe it's wrong for people they fully believe to be humans to even want to appear in any way animalistic - which affects human alterhumans with animalistic characteristics as much as nonhumans with the same. What's being attacked is as much non-normative humanity as perceived adjacency to nonhumanity, and affects both marginalized humans and nonhumans.
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Anthrocentrism and anthronormativity are structures of power used to maintain human hegemony. They are used to maintain the relationship of humanity as an oppressor class and anyone those in power consider not sufficiently or correctly human as an oppressed class.
Not all humans have power over nonhumans. Some humans are themselves marginalized by their very human identity itself, because it is considered human in "the wrong way".
So why is this all important?
Attacking someone's actual identity never actually hurts the people who have power over you, but CAN hurt other marginalized people of that same identity.
As an example, "kill all men" hurts trans, nonbinary, and otherwise noncis men, as well as those who don't have access to patriarchal privilege because of other marginalizations not directly related to their manhood such as nonwhite and intersex men. Patriarchy as a system is as much transphobic, colonialist, white supremacist, and intersexist as it is sexist.
Human hegemony is as much sanist, enforces consensus reality, against past and parallel lives and exomemories, anti-soulbond and against those from other universes, and fundamentally anti-alterhuman as it is anti-nonhuman. These are built inextricably into the very foundation of human hegemony. They are neither incidental to it nor an unintended side effect of anti-nonhumanity; rather, anti-nonhumanity is one (extremely major) part of the enforcement of the larger structure of human hegemony.
This is without even getting into intersectional nuances of privilege and power involving identities that aren't directly human. A white nonhuman still has white privilege over a human person of color, even if that person of color has managed to access human privilege (something that, because of how deeply white supremacy is baked into society, it could be argued that they don't - especially given how much white supremacy literally relies on dehumanization). Moreover, in our society the white nonhuman will often have power over the human person of color.
Privilege and power are complex, nuanced, and not clear cut, especially when you get into intersections of actually privileged and actually marginalized identities. They are more so when you get into where otherwise typically privileged identities themselves are marginalized.
Nonhumans and alterhumans are both oppressed by the majority of humans. Lateral aggression can in fact hurt alterhumans, and isn't "punching up".
One example that we've specifically been hurt by is access to community and resources. We're fully nonhuman, yet barred from many nonhuman spaces and resources for also being human/having human members. Where do you draw the line? Is being nonhuman at all enough? Are only system members who are zero percent human allowed to participate in these spaces and receive support? Are lycanthropes too human for you, in some cases even if they don't consider themselves human at all? Are "humanoid" - elves, dwarves, fae - too close to humanity?
These are all actual reasons I've been excluded from nonhuman spaces. You may be horrified by some of them, but still think that there should be spaces "for nonhumans only".
I agree that there should be spaces that center nonhumanity, that are FOR nonhumans. The problem is, you can't have a space for only nonhumans by excluding humans, because people who are both exist.
The way you draw the line is by selective inclusion. It means letting people who are humans into the space because they are nonhumans. It means letting us talk about the nuances of oppression we face for the intersection of our human and nonhuman identities in nonhuman spaces, because it's directly related to our nonhumanity even when also related to our humanity.
It means when in wider alterhuman/nonhuman community spaces, acknowledging marginalized humanity. It means, even when expressing justified negative feelings towards humans as a class, remembering that there are humans that are oppressed by that same class who don't oppress you.
It means not acting like expressing your blatant hatred of all human identity is always harmless just because of the oppression we face, that I have directly faced myself as a result of being fully nonhuman. It means not hurting other nonhumans and marginalized humans over your very real and valid anger at how humans have hurt all of us.
It also means recognizing that while emotions are morally neutral and it's necessary to have safe spaces to process them, it doesn't mean that they can't hurt other people or that said hurt is always justified. It means that just because something isn't morally wrong, doesn't make it morally right or a form of justice or resistance against oppression.
It means recognizing that you are capable of hurting people and doing real harm to other marginalized people as a marginalized person yourself. It means recognizing that you can even hurt nonmarginalized individuals, and that while a good ally will be an ally even if you do, repeatedly attacking a friend over an aspect of their identity they have no control over can do lasting damage and is just shitty and wrong. It means "I don't know how to tell you that you have to care* about other people" and that just because you have the right to be cruel about someone's identity, doesn't mean that you're IN the right for doing so.
*care as an action, not a feeling. We have ASPD among other things. Idgaf how you feel internally as long as you are not hurting the individual PEOPLE in your life, especially over things they can't control
It means that treating a whole identity as horrible and worthless will only hurt the most vulnerable people of that identity. It will only hurt those that experience a marginalized form of that identity or are otherwise significantly marginalized. A man who commits suicide over everyone in his life constantly attacking manhood instead of patriarchy is still dead, and somehow I don't think my friend Brian who is a staunch feminist and all-around decent person dying advances the cause of dismantling the patriarchy, for example.
(I also don't find the argument that "well if they're not that kind of [identity], they should know it's not about them" if you are the one making it about the identity itself rather than the behavior AS a person of that identity in the first place. Talking about how someone's identity gives them privilege and power and therefore makes certain actions more harmful to marginalized people is very different than treating the identity itself as inherently harmful, and therefore everyone of that identity as both deserving to be harmed for it and incapable of being harmed about it.)
I do think there's a time and place to express and process those feelings, just like there's a time and place to express very real patriarchal trauma that directly centers around men as a class. I also think that while emotions themselves are morally neutral, that expressing hatred of someone's inherent identity can absolutely be harmful. When people start acting on their hatred, even simply by acting as if it is morally right (let alone praxis) to hate all people of a specific identity and express that hate, it can be harmful.
Demonizing any part of someone's identity, identity essentialism (treating an identity as if it is inherently harmful or makes you evil), and especially denying that people of a given identity can be marginalized on that axis; these are the tools of the enemy. We do not use them.
It's also simply ineffective and inaccurate to attack an identity, rather than the systemic power structures that benefit the majority of people of a particular identity. So often, even so-called "trans inclusive" rad/ical femini/sm which treats manhood as inherently corrupt and privileged not only harms trans men, but also reinforces patriarchal masculinity itself.
Misanthropy - or hate and vitriol towards human identity - doesn't actually do anything to deconstruct or challenge human hegemony. This is because it's not the identity itself that's the problem, but the class inequality and oppression.
Humans are not born oppressors. If they were, nonhuman liberation would very likely be impossible, because even if we gained significant number and powers, they would continue to try to oppress us forever. No human would ever be capable of being an ally to nonhumans.
Now, don't misconstrue me - humans are largely born into privilege (with the exception of human alterhumans) - because of the system of nonhuman and alterhuman oppression we currently exist in. It is their humanity which grants them privilege and power over us, because that system makes it so.
The existence of marginalized humans only proves this. The point is NOT that the majority of humans don't oppress nonhumans and alterhumans. The point is that they do, but that humanity itself as an identity isn't inherently oppressive and harmful.
Honestly, this is such a complex subject that I've only scratched the surface here. I could go into the way I define harm as largely hierarchical - as in, being based in having power over another person - but also how lateral harm where you don't have power over another can still happen, specifically as a result of leveraging people and systems that do have power over them to hurt them.
(A trans person calling the cops on another trans person would be a good example of this. Even if both trans people are the same in every other way - every marginalized and privileged identity, even the same exact gender - the first trans person who called the cops has USED people who have power over both of them to harm the other.)
I could go into how humanity and nonhumanity aren't actually opposites and how the creation of this false binary most hurts those who are both. I could go into how this is basically oppositional sexism but for nonhumanity/alterhumanity - oppositional anthroism? 😅
I could go into more detail about the need for spaces to safely process negative feelings towards identities that consist mainly of nonmarginalized people, without harming marginalized people of that identity. I could go into the complexity of spaces like tumblr, where a lot of personal blogs are essentially virtual extensions of your private bodymind on a public site, and how that means balancing autonomy and simply curating your own experience with wider interactions as members of a community and what conversations we even choose to have entirely publicly to begin with.
I could even go into how different systems of oppression function differently, and how I would not apply the vast majority of what I've said to racial justice and white supremacist systems simply because people of color know better than me whether or not this applies to a system I unequivocally have privilege and power in. I could talk about how the majority of stuff that I HAVE seen DOES focus on whiteness in relation to how it grants privilege and power within the system, but that because my whiteness isn't marginalized in any way, that I've never myself felt hurt by venting about whiteness-as-identity. I could talk about how white supremacy functions differently from just about any other oppressive system (including ones like patriarchy which rely on it) in that white people ARE the closest to inherently categorically oppressors, while I would argue under systems like patriarchy, even a good majority of cis men are oppressed explicitly by patriarchal masculinity, precisely because patriarchal masculinity is white, het, christian, abled, and so on. I could talk about how the reason whiteness itself can't be marginalized is because it is conditional and a social construct, which is often revoked societally over ethnic identities such as jewishness and irish travellers.
I could talk about how dehumanization is a frequent tool of systems of oppression such as racism and ableism, and how that's rooted in anti-nonhuman sentiment. I could talk about how significant enough dehumanization as a result of disability stripped me of access to human hegemony long before I was ever openly nonhuman, precisely because systems of oppression rely on one another to remain in power.
I could talk about how it's not nearly as clear-cut as "human=oppressor, nonhuman=oppressed" and especially that equating oppression with harmlessness itself is used to harm other marginalized people and avoid accountability for it, especially by painting other marginalized people as actually privileged over you. I could talk about how reductive it is to take a single identity, nonintersectionally, and treat it as eternal victimhood, and how deeply antithetical that is to the very concept of intersectionality.
I could even get into how identity doesn't guarantee safety, and that the only way you can judge if someone is a safe person is by their actual actions.
But my main point here is this: when I say I've been hurt and harmed by misanthropy in nonhuman spaces, as someone who has experienced significant oppression for being nonhuman, because I am also partially human and our system experiences marginalized humanity, and get my actual experiences with marginalized humanity denied, picked apart, asked for "proof" (this is a complicated one, but it was about my own personal experiences that I was explicitly sharing), had the goalposts moved and was ignored when aside from community I couldn't at the time effectively communicate what nonhuman resources that I'd been barred from due to already being extremely badly triggered, I just want people to take the fact that misanthropy can be harmful seriously.
For the record, community itself is a resource - actually multiple. It is support - emotional primarily, but also sometimes financial, legal, or other structural forms of support. It is often access to other resources that aren't fully public - guides on managing dysphoria and living as your kintype or theriotype, on safety, on where to get species-affirming gear and even medical procedures, sometimes on exclusive discounts and community-run grants for the same. It is to some extent safety, depending on how the community is run - safety in numbers, essentially, if they are willing to stand by you in a storm. It is understanding and acceptance.
There are not a lot of public nonhuman resources outside of our communities, and that's a problem itself, but even of the material resources that are publicly visible, they often explicitly exclude even part-humans, human nonhumans, and marginalized humans who still would otherwise benefit from or have need of those resources. I have been told that it's not actually exclusion just to explicitly say that something is not for someone who needs it, because they can't technically stop you from using it anyway.
This was said by a person who just recently had been venting with me about people who will say bigoted shit like "endos f/uck of/f" on trauma recovery and general plural resources (both ones they created and ones created by inclusive people), who otherwise recognizes attempts at emotional manipulation and verbal gatekeeping as such, so it was very clearly just a double standard for marginalized humans and nonhuman humans.
My point is that we are hurting other marginalized people when we deny their experiences with oppression on the axis of humanity/nonhumanity for their non-normative human identities. My point is that I as a nonhuman have BEEN hurt by this. My point is that misanthropy is neither harmless nor all that useful in nonhuman and alterhuman liberation. My point is that nonhuman separatism is just as unhelpful and ultimately antithetical to liberation as any other separatism movement.
My point is that when even other nonhumans are telling you "hey, misanthropy hurts ME too", you should believe them. You shouldn't erase or ignore their nonhuman identity, you shouldn't deny that it's possible for you to laterally hurt or use oppresove systems to harm other nonhumans and marginalized humans, and you certainly shouldn't act as if hurting marginalized humans is actually morally justified.
My point is that you don't have to participate in it, but alterhumans and nonhumans ARE part of a wider marginalized community together, and that misanthropy will affect people in that community before it ever actually affects anyone in power (which it never will). My point is that our marginalized human siblings/cousins in this community are not our enemy, and we shouldn't be hurting them, let alone acting like it's morally justified to do so because of their identity which is actually marginalized even if you personally deny that it is.
My point is that hate is not praxis, humanity is not inherently bad or privileged, and that hurting and harming people who are not oppressing us is still wrong.
I know a lot of people in nonhuman and alterhuman communities already agree with me about misanthropy, but I've seen enough of an uptick in it lately to say something.
Misanthropy is not "fighting back". It's not always harmless. It's not always "punching up".
The way we achieve liberation may require violence - as a last resort, but still. Attacking other marginalized people, allies, and an identity itself isn't how we get there. Organizing, demanding recognition, acceptance, and rights, with support from our allies and other marginalized groups, is. We can't mistake revenge fantasies and lashing out for action and progress.
Again, there are and should be spaces for processing misanthropy. It's just bog standard bigotry, however, to be cruel toward other marginalized people on the basis of that very same marginalized identity. Denial of that marginalization is part of that bigotry (and can be used by our oppressors to further oppress them, no less. Don't be a pick-me or a token for them).
True misanthropy - hate directed at human identity itself - shouldn't be prevalent in nonhuman spaces outside of those spaces for processing it. It's not worth the harm it does, and it's not even helpful in the end. Misanthropy should not be tolerated, because it is most intolerant to other nonhumans and marginalized humans, and just cruel and unhelpful to boot.
#nonhuman#endel#otherkin#therian#alterhuman#alterbeing#I just know someone's going to start ranting about how I'm saying that ppl of color shouldn't be able to hate white ppl for being white#when I explicitly said I wasn't saying this about racial identity because I don't feel qualified to speak on it#(they'll probably be white themselves too)#and that I'm 'tone policing minorities' and shit for saying 'hey if your actions are harming other marginalized ppl that's not okay'#because some people can't ever take accountability for their actions#and are more concerned with appearances of moral superiority and correctness than actual material harm reduction and liberation#(specifically people who claim that addressing lateral harm is 'tone policing' I cannot be more clear about that)#I'm never going to get through to those willfully and maliciously misinterpreting and misrepresenting my words#but a currently vaguely dogthing can dream#anyway cw for misanthropy mention
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EVEN MORE CUTE DOTTORE MOMENTS TO MAKE YOU SMILE 🙏 (because I am too tired to post anything of quality)
#smooches talks#ouhhhh... to experience the domestic life with him...#someone motivate me to start writing actual fics again...#the dottore honeymoon fic merely has the title “medicus scriptor amorem” and “Honeymoon fic” in the actual document LMFAO#i made it on... january 27 oops#idek if im gonna stick to that name because google translate for latin is so bad omfg#(TO THAT KIND PERSON WHO SENT ME IDEAS ILY AND I PROMISE I WILL RESPOND. I PROMISE IM NOT IGNORING U)#i also have another wip i havent touched with loving the harbingers when they weren't in the fatui yet#no like seriously i think churning out 50k words did something to my writing state 💀🙏#a snippet from dottores part: Il Dottore’s strength was nearly unmatched in the Fatui being the Second Fatui Harbinger and all.#what most people do not know is that he was… certainly not the best fighter during his Akademiya days.#A claymore was also out of the question - he grumbled when he had to lug his numerous research materials and parts to the desert…#In the end you settled on teaching Zandik the basics of a sword. do with this as you will...#however i am still so proud of myself for fabulam diu oblitus#i was rereading in class bc i was bored and i was like#damn i kinda ate with this#thanks for listening to smooches mini writing life crisis if u made it here#okay i go sleep now... i have midterms this week#OMFG THESE TAGS R SO LONG IM SO SORRY
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Masriel AU: in which Marisa is trying to convince Asriel to tell her about his research and he has a very hard time resisting her charm.
#his dark materials#hdm#hdm edit#masriel#masriel au#hdm au#asriel x marisa#marisa coulter#asriel belacqua#i always wanted to do a masriel au with that marisa scene so here you go#started out as an au of them playing footsie under a table but then it turned into this lol#or could be both#feels like something is happening here we cant see 😂#idk#theyd totally be doing sinful stuff of the sort in public places#if you look at it really quickly it seems like theyre actually saying the words or maybe its just my weird brain#my edit#dont you just wanna squish their faces together
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Arcane really works the best if you gut the number of romantic relationships to a minimum of two but I don't think the fandom is ready for this conversation. Might get a stroke or something
#fandom culture constantly ruins a lot of works of fiction where most of fandom tropes actively make the story and theming worse#but we gotta have our ships guys🫶🫶🫶🫶because there's clearly not enough of them already#like. people were actively acknowledging how ships ruin mouthwashing but i've only seen like. 2 posts about that on arcane#being mainstream was a mistake🫡🫡🫡#ok important update because my wording is confusing: i meant not shipping itself but reading the source material through shipping lenses#actively searching for opportunities to proclaim your ship “canon” while ignoring the overall picture#when people ship characters separate from the source material i couldn't care less. but it's when shipping influences the discourse i start#taking issue.
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The flipside to fans overstepping is show creators and actors who enmesh themselves in fandom. I get loving your work and wanting to share that with fans but that’s what the show and interview and maybe fan q&a’s are for? Like you said maybe some of it is unfair embarrassment because of past fandom’s that haven’t been particularly kind to sapphic shippers, but there’s also a boundary crossing with actors that get super involved with fans. Things get weird and cliquey real quick. Not only in that annoying way where other fans start to take their word as law but in a how much attention do you as a celeb need way lol. Maybe that’s mean lmao. But yeah it’s all so silly and unserious Im just always stunned that fandom is becoming so normalized.
LOL eesh yep i don't think i've ever really experienced it first hand on that scale before, but i can imagine exactly how annoying that would be. and stifling, actually. fandom space is kind of sacred... i'd hate to have somebody who's that close to the source material be looking over my shoulder constantly, critiquing my silly little brain worms.
i think it's very cool how accessible and normalised fandom is becoming, having experienced a time when it really just was not (and god, i imagine it's even wilder for the OG fandom elders), but it really does make it all the more important to find your own little tiny circle of similarly-minded weirdos who are on your level, and to become extremely liberal with the block button.
#anonymous#asks#that 'start to take their word as law' point you made oh my goddddddddddd#one of my biggest pet peeves in fandom space in general#especially when it's just a fucking headcanon#or the blanket 'this character would not say that' 'this character would not top/bottom' 'this character would not x y z'#babygirl i can put that character through whatever tf i want and by the end of it i can promise you she WILL be fucking saying that#like good grief let there be nuance let there be exploration let there be 'i think it depends'#how limited is your imagination#makes me want to write the most outlandish stupid silly scenarios i stg#'this character can only be written in line with my own extremely narrow grasp on her source material' that's cool i'm giving her tentacles#and whatever she does with them next is going to be canon compliant#i feel like i got lost on a tandem somewhere along the way there i'm sorry
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is it just me or is mckimson in particular always putting those guys in gay situations
#when i was watching all the shorts for the first time i rly disliked mckimson's art style for some reason (ive since come around ��)#so i would skip a lot of them but later when i went back an watched them i was like damn i been missing out#theres a lot of dafpork material in here#an i started rewatching them lately an im like DAMN THERES REALLY A LOT like more than i remember#the more cartoons i watch an rewatch the more i cant believe i disliked any director#like i would watch my dvds an a mckimson credit would pop up an i would literally skip it askjdfhajsg thats crazy. charlie what were u doin#plus mckimson made my two favorite gophers. i may be the only gopherhead on earth but 👍#none of this is like super serious cartoon commentary or anything im just rambling#looney tunes /#dafpork /#sry i dont wanna clog up the tags alkjhg maybe if i finish something ive properly written ill put it in the tags but#rn i am just doing silly little casual viewer observations 👍#charlie words
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do you guys um. mods asleep anyone on the dash want to read 1.5k of roman history (tatd) fic i would be christening (haha) the tag for. and also help brainstorm with me to make it more than a scene but not an entire Plot 🙏

#not hockey but. i was possessed. that word count doesn’t even include the bullets points of me just screeching#i may have started to those about to die yesterday#and i may have immediately gone ‘ohhhh fuck okay’ about scorpus/tenax#to delete#liv in the replies#I am not about to post this on the archive because i would have to write god’s most unhinged author’s note to even explain in what way it#exists and ties into the existing show but like. ohhh i wanna do it. let me break a bottle on this one PLEASE i’m frothing at the mouth.#yes i need to rewatch the episodes also because i need to take detailed notes about the one (1) scene where they showed the steps up to the#platform of the circus maximus yes my search history looks mildly unhinged right now with just. me trying to find blueprints and googling#‘roman praetor short sword name’ ‘roman broach or pin cloth clasp name’ ‘circus maximus blueprint hall name cavern’ ‘roman floor material#it’s not that unhinged it’s just that it requires me to write like a 30k epic backstory in order to get to this climatic scene.#which i don’t want to do. but also I don’t think it makes sense without it you know? and considering I don’t know what the backstory would#be to even do a short-form summary of it do you see what the issue is 🫡
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sunday six already!?
tags: @four-white-trees @phantasy14 @passthroughtime @overdevelopedglasses @skysquid22
not much writing from me lately (i think the pendulum has swung the other way and i've been drawing a bit more), but i've poked a little bit more at sensei fic... here's more school club exposition lol, aside from that i've only made minor changes...
Much like the Dance Club, things had been picking up for the Robotics Club, who were preparing for their next skirmish in the RB Robot Rally. It was more common to see Itokura here than in the MRC clubroom because of that, and he liked to keep an eye on her. Though outwardly abrasive, she seemed to have settled into school again, or at least the clubs, and despite what she said, he thought she was going to stick around. Mystery was still her great love it seemed, but she liked being good at things, and didn’t want to leave Sakura-kun out to dry, programming alone, so she hung around here instead of the MRC.
The MRC kept them both very busy, though funnily enough it was outside the club itself. Yagami’s previously clear phone calendar was now filled with reminders and dates for club deadlines and competitions. Amasawa just had a way with people he supposed, and his own natural curiosity hadn’t helped.
#sunday six#slow progress but it's progress#sorry i know there's not that much to dig into 😅#i figure it's just the 'eat your vegetables' part of the fic. gotta get this stuff done so i can have the fun stuff later#i don't feel that confident in writing school story stuff yet#cause i need to be more familiar with the canon material + i haven't found direction yet#but well. better to have a starting point i suppose. that's what this is#have also been trying to toss around names for this fic but nothing's stuck. obviously not rushing it cause i have heaps of time#though it does feel good to have the first chapter baaaasically done#it's presentable but i need to check continuity on the robotics club so it's consistent with canon. but all the parts are there!#it feels really different to have all the parts there. weird... it's like... the picture is fuller or something....#ch1 is currently 6839 words out of about 31000 so there's quite a bit going on there#this has been a senseific update
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Thinking about finally throwing all my FF7 meta analysis and lore deep dive stuff onto a sideblog. It'd be reblogged from here, but I'd be able to organize it a little better, have a directory so people could find things more easily, and maybe it'd stop people from regurgitating things I say word-for-word for brownie points when they can just find and reblog the fucking original post(s).
#fandom vent#this happens WAY more often than I talk about#like constantly#not daily#but if I put up a ramble#there will always be 2-3 people on the twits or here#who immediately start saying the same thing#in the same words#acting like they're the ones that did the analysis#and it's really frustrating#y'all know I actually do research on this shit?#I check my sources#I review the source material#I get alternate translations to be sure#I read real-life research journals for scientific stuff#I research dates and real-world events and natural phenomena and religious history etc etc etc#it's not just 'nashi writes 2k words of bullshit and hits POST'#I do actual research for my analyses and my deep dives#I cite my sources whenever possible#I don't LINK all the time because that can kick a post from the tags#but I don't just make shit up#so people grabbing it and running with it as if they were the ones that did the work to figure it out#is super disheartening#my current big research project is figuring out if Reeve's surname#is actually rooted in Gaelic#because it's such a weird name#and it's possible that it's not spelled right#because it may be Gaelic#this is a theory that has not panned out yet#but I've been researching it on and off for weeks
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