#the things that pass for knowledge i cant understand!!!

[carnageacorn]

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[lemonyboy97]

Heyyy I like your writing, and I was wondering if you could do like fluff/comfort of like Val, vox, and/or alastor with a reader who gets really socially anxious and shuts down when they get overwhelmed?

Wasnt sure what gender reader was so i did neutral, thank you so much for the ask! I havent gotten one in forever and i was fresh out of inspo ❤️❤️🫂 love you anon! (Also i threw in different relationship dynamics to spice things up and also because i cant imagine alastor being ANYONES 'boyfriend', that man would go from 'close friend and confidant' to 'fiancé')

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Fiancé!Vox, Boyfriend!Val, Husband!Alastor (seperate) x gn!anxious!reader

Warnings: brief mentions of sadism, anxious reader (obviously), not quite my definition of a panic attack but close to it

(Im going to do some loose headcannons about each of the boiz, then include a oneshot for each of them)

Fiancé!Vox

Headcannons:

I feel like Vox would be the best out of the 3 in this scenario, as he's the least sadistic. Vox is a very protective lover, he's also compassionate and doting (behind closed doors). If Vox notices you (its really a matter of when not if because this man WILL notice) becoming overwhelmed or overstimulated he is gently guiding you away from the crowd to check on you, 'Are you okay?', 'do you want to leave?', 'is there something specific bothering you?' are FAQs (frequently asked questions) His way of dealing with the issue is removing you from the situation altogether- taking you back home, wether thats to your shared apartment or the Vee's headquarters depends on whichevers closest.

Scenario:

You and your fiance, Vox, are at a release event for the newest VoxTech drop. Vox is proudly harping about the newest Tech he’s developed, an even prouder arm around your waist; how could he not be proud with his pretty little love on his arm? (He calls you his ‘pretty little thing’, ‘little love’ no matter your gender or size) He’s so absorbed in his success that at first he doesn't notice the subtle tremble in your hands, or the way you curl into him as if trying to hide, or maybe the way you flinch at the bright camera flashes. But when you let out a barely audible whine Vox immediately turns to you, all ears.

Vox suddenly realizes how overstimulating this all must be; the flashing cameras, the loud and frantic crowd, the music in the background, the shouting, the rowdy demons who are protesting- oh god how could he have been so negligent?

Vox is immediately passing the reins over to Velvette (much to her dismay), and gingerly leading you through the crowd, towards the back door.

“It’s alright, lovely, just through here… There we go…”

His words are gentle, and the hands on your shoulders to guide you are 10x more so. He leads you out the back and to the limo, and once you’re sequestered away inside he just waits- He knows when you’re ready for touch you’ll initiate. He knows that for now, just the knowledge that someone is aware and looking after you is enough to help de-escalate the situation.

“There you go, doll, breathe yeah? In…. Out…. In…. Out… good job, love, doing so well for me”

Boyfriend!Valentino

Headcannons:

Val is definietly more of a 'what do you mean?' Kind of guy, or 'just breathe?', you know? We know from his workers (ahem angeldust ahem) that he isnt the most... understanding with weaknesses and the like. So- while I feel like Val's approach is a bit more 'deal with it by not dealing with it' than Vox's, it is still heartfelt for his wonderful gf/bf/partner. Even if he wont directly address it, Valentino is the type to try and reassure you through touch, wether thats what you need or not, thats what he's got because this man KNOWS he is brash and he doesnt want to make things worse.

Scenario:

You had walked to Valentino's studio to bring him homemade lunch after he was complaining about his imps being 'inconcievably incompetent'. You are now awkwardly standing backstage, out of sight, as he directs a particularily.... raunchy... scene. You are visibly uncomfortable with screams and various sounds of... mixed sensations.. echoing around the set, along with flashing lights and dizzying scents. Altogether they make an array of overstimulating inputs, and after setting down said lunch on a side bench, a pretty note tucked into the lip of the basket, you stumble back outside, trying to catch your breath. Val follows you shortly after, he caught sight of you from across the set.

Valentino carefully sits beside you, pulling you into his side.

"You alright there, babycakes?"

You shakily nod, but Val sees right through you. He sighs and kisses your temple as he absentmindedly rubs your shoulders.

"Thought I warned you 'bout my work hours, baby"

You slowly explain that you just wanted to surprise him with lunch and he smiles, kissing the inside of your wrist.

"Damn, sugar, shoulda started with that, hm? Why don't I pop in and grab it- then we can share it out here while you get your head back on."

Husband!Alastor

Headcanon:

This man. This. MAN. It can go one of two ways depending on where your relationship is with him- but in this you are married so- he would be so attentive- like. You would barely be feeling the 'oh hey, this is a lot' feeling and Al would pick up on it and knight in shining armor you away from it. Alastor just KNOWS. He has like a sixth sense when it comes to you. He is so finitly attuned to every fibre of your being that you cant even hide it from him. He just KNOWS. Like- you're in cannibal town (because be real y'all go on dates there all the time and Rosie adores you) and the children are being rowdy but 'its alright, i can manage-' oh and there's Susan- 'yes susan, we are married- no, no susan you cant see my ring im a bit worried you might try to eat my finger- No, really i insist-' oop and here comes Alastor, scooping you up with a charming grin, Rosie on his heels. 'Come along now darling, our dinner is waiting'

Scenario:

You and Alastor are in the hotels lobby, greeting guests for a party Charlie is throwing to 'encourage the inhabitants', Alastors hand is protectively on the small of your back like always. The arriving demons are a bit rowdy but nothing too bad- the real issue is the howling, rambunctious laughter coming from the bar, poor karoke all but screamed into the low quality microphone (much to Husk's annoyance), flashing strobe lights arouns the room turning the guests pink, green, blue, pink, green, blue, pink, green, blue-

"Dear?"

Careful fingers snap in front of your face- effectively lurching you out of your spiraling thoughts. You swallow thickly and look up at your husband, shaky smile plastered on your lips.

'Yes, Al?'

He frowns as he gaze flits from one eye to the other, then, his mind seemingly made up, he summons his shadow, scoops you up, and shadow travels back to you twos shared room.

"Oh lovely, this certianly wont do"

He dotes on you, rubbing your tense shoulders, kissing the crown of your head, murmuring sweet nothings to your skin as he lays you down in your shared, king bed. And later, once you're half asleep and content in his arms, he lovingly murmurs,

"No more of Charlie's so-called 'parties' for you, my sweet"

A/n: Reblogs are always encouraged and appreciated! And yes i did like my own post. I am very proud of this, i wrote it in one day WHILE (legally) high on loopy pain medicine

[tracklessreason]

Hi. It's me again.

WHERE THE FRICK IS BUMBLEBEE?! Sorry, let me calm down and retry.

Thank you for answering my last ask, I can't help but notice how no one knows where Bee's ghost is. And Megatron is the one looking into the Matrix... Is he haunting Megatron? Trying to stop him from doing it? Helping him?

Is Optimus's ghost following Ratchet around like a sad puppy?

Also just the pairings- Jazz with Megatronus? THat sounds... like fun.

Do the primes miss the other Primes and ask their host if they can check on the other bots that got shrapeneled? Maybe one of them asks if they can find a way to talk with the others... or maybe they can talk trough the hosts... maybe... (ah ah possessed arc)

(PS I really vibe with Hive's whole deal, he is very cool :D and I'm devastated that I'm the one that discovered how he explodes)

Hug hug!

Hi again!!! Don't worry, Bee is still here!

His spirit is just...struggling. He's weak at first, flickering like a dying light bulb. He hasn't left the fractured core of the Matrix still in his corpse, but his soul signature is so weak no one can find him. He's just sort of trapped there for a while, in the burnt out room he died in. Until Megatron of course.

Megatron breaks into the autobot base, walks past every sleeping mech he could easily have snuffed, and steals the Matrix core, and by unintentional extension, steals Bumblebee. Now at first, Bee is rightfully upset. He hates being at the gloomy decepticon base, he hates Megatron for taking his voice, he's just mad. Time passes as Megatron tinkers with the core, and Bee regains strength enough to....throw things???

It shouldn't be possible. Somehow this unstable remnant of the Matrix doesn't contain him, but merely houses him, and as he grows stronger, he can appear as an apparition to Megatron. He uses it almost solely to hinder him. With no voice (even ghost Bee gets no respite) all he can really do is mess up Megatron's workspace and insult him through pantomime. Really he doesn't understand why Megatron puts up with it, but aside from the occasional fit of rage at his antics, the decepticon leader ignores him as much as possible and puts his all into trying to restore the Matrix.

Before long he starts having one sided conversations with Bumblebee. Its mostly complaints at first, and insults towards him and the autobots and whatever else goes wrong in his life outside of this little workshop Bee cant leave. It soon gives way to more private matters; intentionally or not, Megatron is revealing his very convoluted, very mixed feelings about Optimus Prime.

The war has gone on too long, why couldn't that idiot just see things from his perspective, he deserved to die, he will be brought back, how could his oldest friend just leave him like this...

To Bee it sounds...exactly like how Optimus felt about Megatron, just drowned in molten anger issues. Against his self preservation instinct, Bee decides to work towards putting this whole mess to bed. Nothing better to do.

With what limited knowledge and communication he has, he does his best to try and help Megatron fix the Matrix. They have spats still, and plenty of set backs, but things smooth over when Megatron (begrudgingly) admits to feelings of regret over taking Bee's voice. As an olive branch, Bee explains something to Megatron that he's been dying to know: how Optimus died.

Things sour fast. Megatron is determined to murder Starscream, Bee is frustratedly trying to explain that if he does so, this little partnership of convenience is over, and he will ensure that the Matrix is never restored. The end of the war relies almost solely on Megatron reeling in his damn anger, and Bee doesnt intend to allow any slip ups. He has no idea how this will end when Megatron leaves the workshop that night.

On the other side of things, the Primes are having a real...weird time?? The ones without hosts can communicate with each other, but the other four are basically cut off from all but their hosts. They don't have the ability to take control anymore, and even if they did, their hosts are nowhere near as easy to possess, nor as willing, as Hive Prime was. Ratchet especially has threatened to tear the Matrix metal from his frame and grind it to dust if Prima so much as thinks about trying it. The other three hosts are similarly put off.

Once again the Primes are relegated to giving advice, but it's not advice anyone seems to want, and yeah, it's mostly because of the wild pairings. Megatronus is constantly clutching his pearls over Jazz's laid-back attitude and deliberate ignorance of his wishes. Prima's calm rationality does little to temper Ratchet's snappy demeanor and only really gets on his nerves (how can you be so calm after what you all did?). Ironhide straight up refuses to acknowledge Quintus. Drift is probably the only one feeling alright with all this. Alpha Trion is generally reasonable, and isn't interested in having control over Drift's form, nor was he interested in it with Hive, so they just vibe like college roommates.

It's uncomfortable, but the Primes are used to sharing space. The worst part is actually sharing it with fewer mechs than usual. The Primes all miss each other to varying degrees, but for the most part are either too egotistical to admit it, or think it improper to mention.

Of course, grand prize for worst ghost time currently goes to Optimus. Dying, watching Bee suffer, feeling his friend's life force extinguish...

He might as well be a husk right now, full on silent treatment is all he's capable of at the moment. The other Primes know better than to try and speak with him. This is their doing to begin with, the channeling of their energy that strained Bee so heavily. Optimus follows the elected council around during the days, but at night he sits outside the room where Hive's body rests. He was there the night that Megatron broke in.

It takes immense effort to travel far enough out from the base to go see Megatron, and he needs several cycles to recover after every attempt, but he keeps doing it, knowing he could fade away permanently. When he gets there, he's too weak for Bee or Megatron to detect him. But he can hear their talks. He misses them both more than words can say.

(Sorry the response is so long, lol. This ask really got the gears turning in my head. I hope at least that makes up for being the one to find out that Ending 3 Hive dies bloody. I'm really flattered to hear you like him! For me that's quite high praise coming from you. Hug hug!)

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THIS SOMEHOW TURNED INTO A JIMMYTIMMY FIC THIS WAS SUPPOSE TO JUST BE A RAMBLE.. LOWKEY brainrot over Timmy and Jimmy right now. Ignoring the fact that the specials are some of the best episodes from BOTH of the shows (idk what people say 1 2 and 3 were all peak), the characters Timmy and Jimmy have such potential?? Like two polar opposites who use different forms of creation to express their creativity, yet similar kids who could find solstice within each other, as they both feel left out within their lives due to differences they cant quite fix, but still are able to understand each other. How they both became quick friends who bicker, and actually taught each other how to live, idk I think it's sweet.

Maybe they kept in touch over the years? That they texted till Midnight? That they considered each other their best friends at one point? I mean- it would make sense! With what they both go though, especially if it spans years, them becoming best friends, being able to understand each other like no one else, it makes sense. They would visit each other's dimensions as much as they could. They didn't want to destroy the multiverse, but they also wanted to see each other. Jimmy had a small google calendar that at least once a month, had "Timmy Turner stay over" or "Visit Turner's dimension." Jimmy and Timmy would have sleepovers at each other's place, usually Timmy staying a few days with Jimmy. They would go too amusement parks one day, and space the next. Jimmy became close with the computer programs "Cosmo and Wanda" as well, having conversations with them about his inventions, and giving him actual advice! (Mostly Wanda, Cosmo usually just tried to shoot random things with his wand- but he was sweet in his own way) They even had a prototype called "Poof" appear once in a while. He usually clung onto Timmy and would call him his older brother (he questions the true sentience of these beings). They both had memorized every nook and cranny of each other's houses/cities. They both could pass as residents there with how much knowledge they had of the other dimensions. Hell- all of Timmy's friends knew who Jimmy was and all of Jimmy's friends knew who Timmy was. They even visited each other's schools a few times! They were part of each others lives even if they weren't part of the same reality, Timmy would teach Jimmy how to relax, it was something Jimmy struggled with, especially as he grew up. He was making world-altering inventions daily, but when Timmy was around, sometimes he would just listen to him talk about comics or go on a walk on a different planet. It was peaceful, especially as Timmy would push that he didn't always need to solve everything, and he was allowed to take breaks. Sure Jimmy still overwork himself, but he doesn't feel as guilty when he takes naps anymore. Jimmy taught Timmy that he's never alone and that people do in fact care about him besides his godparents. That while his family sucked, he wasn't fated to just be miserable. He was creative, kind, smart, funny, and people were idiots if they couldn't see that. Timmy won't ever admit to shedding a tear that day, as well as getting a gift for him the next day (A drawing of Gonard and Jimmy, as well as a polaroid attached to it of Timmy and Jimmy on the beach, splashing water on each other.) Timmy gained a bit more hope in the future after that.

Eventually, Jimmy could really see Timmy being his friend forever, and actually had a meaningful bond with him. That he never wants Timmy to leave his side, even if they bicker like a old married couple everyday, even if people tell both of them that their way to destructive together, even if somehow- some enemy of there's wants to make sure they both end up dead, Jimmy wants to find Timmy every step of the way. Timmy would have had the same thoughts if he hadn't known that it was all futile anyway. He would have had the exact same feelings- he does! But he knows that after he's 18, it's over. He knows that the moment the clock strikes 12, he can never step foot in retrovill again, he could never hear the name Jimmy Neutron again outside of blurry memories from his friends. He would forget every adventure, party, sleepover, late-night drives, and multi-dimensional butt-kicking he experienced with Jimmy. Timmy tried to hold it off for so long, he really did. He refused to let Jimmy know anything about this, he didn't want Jimmy trying to solve this, he knew that would be impossible. He didn't want all of his hangouts to just be speculation on how he could stay, he just wanted to spend some time with his best friend. With the person he would have spent the rest of his life with, if it was possible.

Jimmy was working on a surprise gift for Timmy. He was trying to do something creative rather than scientific since that was Timmy's style. He was trying to sew patches onto a pink hoodie, small white stars being embroidered along the sleeve. It looked simple sure, but it was something Jimmy was working on for days! He even set aside his latest project for it, which is saying a lot for Jimmy. They had planned a hangout just 2 days before his birthday, he knew that Timmy always spent his birthday with his computer programs, so an early birthday gift was due! Jimmy could hear the portal booting up from behind him, and he felt a spark of excitement within him. When Timmy stepped out of the portal, Jimmy folded the hoodie in his hands and was ready to hand it to Timmy, he hopped off his chair and walked to Timmy. He noticed the redness in his eyes and his tired demeanor, huh, must have had an adventure with his computer programs the day before. He was going to say Happy Early Birthday and a snarky remark on how he's surprised he reached adulthood. Timmy didn't let Jimmy get one word in before he broke the news though "Jimmy look, please please don't be mad at me I just-" Jimmy could already see the sweat forming on Timmys head, god did Timmy mess up again? dId he fuck up with some sort of extraterrestrial creature and needs his help? for the love of science. "I have something important to tell you." Timmy quietly says. Timmy shoved his hands into the pockets of his hoodie, as he slightly looked down to avoid direct eye contact with Jimmy. "I've wanted to tell you for the past YEAR, and it been so hard to even find the words!" His voice is quickening in pace, he even grabs his hat and starts to fidget with it in his hands. "and I know I fucked up by not telling you sooner I know, but you deserve this explanation for what's about to happen, and I'm just gonna spit it out right here and now-"

Jimmy could see how panicked he was as if he was on a time limit. ... "I'm going to forget you, and retrovill- everything. There's nothing you can do about it either." ...At first, It was denial. Jimmy was so confused, he said he could probably just make a memory machine and bring them back later, all these "dramatics" weren't necessary. I mean, forget the past 8 years? He could practically sense the bullshit coming from that statement, He was already about to start working on it before Timmy refused. He explained how if he kept his memories, the computer programs could "fry up" or whatever. Jimmy just said he could alter them to have better software, but Timmy refused. "Look- I can just upload your memories into my computer and it'll be fine! I already have a bunch of videos of us throughout the years it wouldn't be too hard." He explained very casually, Jimmy quickly glaced over his lab as he said this, his hand following to showcase all the gadgets he could use to easily solve this!

"Jimmy no" Timmy put his hand on his nose, slightly squeezing it. "these programs are beyond whatever science-thingy you can do- its not just science its more complicated-" Jimmy interjected "Science can fix everything Turner, I thought you've known me long enough to know that," He said smugly as he slightly grinned at his comeback. Timmy just glared back, and Jimmy could sense that Timmy didn't want to just bicker around this "Jimmy you can't fix this, this isn't even possible to comprehend to the human mind, even a genius. I can't explain how the memory erasure works but I NEED to forget" Timmy puts his hands in the air as he says this, and his eyes get slightly wide as he continues on "or else there would be consequences that I don't want either of us to face, or my family, my world!" He exclaims with all the emotion he could muster in his voice. "I'm not letting you touch Cosmo or Wanda either." Jimmy quickly realizes with a quick look around the lab and Timmy's clothes that the computer programs weren't even there with Timmy, he must have thought this out, smart bastard.

Then, it was anger. They argued till their voice broke, until screaming was all they could do. Jimmy was furious, why wouldn't Timmy tell him. He must have known, all these years, he must have known that everything would shatter and become whatever shit show is happening right now, Jimmy was so sure he could fix this, while Timmy was saying it's not possible, and all Jimmy could do is keep asking why isn't it, while Timmy would just avoid the question. He was thinking of every single invention, every single piece of technology, of scientific knowledge that could help, until Timmy says that its out of Jimmy's hands, and that he knows nothing can be changed. "Why the hell wouldn't you tell me?? I could have solved this by now, I could have, why the fuck wouldn't you have let me" Jimmy puts his hands in the air as he exclaims this Timmy takes a step back "Because I knew you would have a meltdown over this, I knew you would just try and solve this with whatever gizmo you have and then come up empty-handed-" "Since when have I ever come up empty-handed." Jimmy takes a step forward, frustration dripping as he stares Timmy directly in the eyes. Timmy takes a slight pause and just slightly squints his eyes. "You would have if you worked yourself to death" His voice slightly breaks as he says this, his feet feel stuck to the ground. Jimmy can feel his face heat up "You didn't let me try!" He can hear his own echo in the lab at this rate "Cause I wanted to hang out with you! I wanted to actually be with you at the moment, not worried about- this!" Timmy gestures to Jimmy himself as he says this, his voice getting more and more meek. He was practically pleading, with Timmy, begging him to let him at least let him try. He was coming up with different solutions, maybe living in Retrovill instead! Sure he has no idea what that would do to the multiverse, but he could invent something to protect the fabric of it while Timmy stays, or maybe if Timmy would just let him alter his computer programs he can figure out a way to make sure his memory wouldn't overdrive their software, or maybe he could look at da rules himself and check for loopholes- or maybe- "Stop. Please just- just stop." Timmy's voice cracks as he says this, tears shining in his eyes. Jimmy could see his own reflection within them. He could see his own crazed expression, and how it affected Timmy. He focused on every single detail of his face, the heavy eyebags, the dull blue that was usually an aqua, he even noticed a small redness in his cheeks. It hurt, it hurt so much and he didn't. He didn't know what to do, and he hated not knowing what to do. It's a horrible feeling to not know what's going on, or what's happening around you. It feels empty and insulting, like it's a personal attack on who you are, and what you've been working towards your whole life.

It was the first time Jimmy cried in years. Hes not much of a crier, he's more of a scream-into-a-pillow or sulk-quietly type of guy. He doesn't like making a big fuss about his emotions, especially as he got older and was taking more serious projects that could actually impact the people around him. The last time he cried was probably when he was 11- but now it felt uncontrollable. Timmy soon quickly followed suit, tears flowing out as small hicks can be heard out of him. It was one of the worst days of Jimmy's life, no, it was the worst day of his life. How can this be something so out of his control, that he was about to lose his best friend, one of the most important things to him in this entire multiverse and he could do nothing. Jimmy was in a hysterical fit, he pulled his hair a bit as he felt his breathing quicken, he didn't know what to do he just didn't he's stumped. Hes Jimmy Neutron! Boy genius! He has 8 PHDS and multiple Nobel prizes under his belt, he has explored places that the average human can't even fathom, and yet he can't even save- Timmy always knew what to say. He was quick to comfort Jimmy the moment he saw him spiraling. He gently put his hands on Jimmy's hands and lowered them from his head, Jimmy didn't like physical contact, but god if he could glue Timmy's hand to his he would. He looked at Jimmy's eyes and smiled his stupid bucktooth smile. As if that would make everything go away, as if that would erase the fact that he's going to go away forever, Jimmy couldn't help himself from smiling back though. God Timmy was the one about to forget everything and yet he comforts Jimmy? He ridiculed himself in his mind for making Timmy help him, and yet he wanted to hear whatever he had to say so, so badly. Timmy took a deep breath before talking "I've, never been the most articulate," his voice strained, like he's struggling to talk. "but please trust me when I say this. Even if I forget, there's nothing that could erase all the fun we've had together over the years. These memories, just cause they're not in my mind directly, don't erase the fact that they happened!" Timmy states with hope in his tone, he slightly rubs the back of Jimmy's hands with his thumb. "Somewhere, out there, in some form of reality, it showed that we spent all those years together fucking around, and that will always mean everything to me." He looks at Jimmy's eyes when he says that, and grins at him. Jimmy laughed a bit at that sentence, which caused Timmy to smile even more, he didn't stop talking though. "No matter who I meet, no matter where I go, no one can ever top you Neutron, and I promise that. Even if we both forgot somehow, even if the world was destroyed, it wouldn't erase the fact that at one point, we existed together, and everything was ok." After an hour or two, Timmy spent the whole day in his dimension. He said goodbye to Cindy, Sheen, Carl, and even Jimmy's parents. Sheen and Carl cried a bit, they didn't fully understand, but they said they'll miss him, and that they'll read the crimson chin comics Timmy lent them in remembrance. Cindy hugged Timmy for a few minutes, she actually considered Timmy really good company, and she lent Timmy one of her hair ties, even if he never used it, Timmy said hell keep forever. Jimmy's parents were.. hard to say the least. They both liked Timmy, but they didn't get the full grasp of him leaving, so Timmy just said that he was moving abroad to England. They just asked him to visit whenever he can and to keep in touch. It almost made Jimmy cry for a second time that day, which would have been a new record.

The walk to Jimmy's lab was quiet, barely a sound was made between either of them. You could hear the small footsteps they were both taking, walking a bit slower than average. Once Jimmy entered his lab, he could feel the cool breeze of the ac he left on lingering. He saw the portal, and he knew that he had to power it on. That he couldn't just keep Timmy here, but his feet wouldn't take another step. "Thank you." Timmy puts a hand on Jimmy's shoulder as he says that. Jimmy can't even say anything, he has no words could really express any emotion he's feeling right now. He just nods slightly and smiles at him. He knows that's probably the last time they'll ever smile at each other again. Jimmy finds the switch to the portal and boots it up, he sees the green swirl and feels nauseous just looking at it. Usually, the sight would trigger some excitement within Jimmy, but he just feels dread as he sees Timmy walking up to the portal. He really wished he could just freeze time and hang out with Timmy for one more second, but he knows he can't. Jimmy just sighed and was ready to wave goodbye, until he remembered something so important- god how could he forget- that he screamed at the top of his lungs- "TIMMY WAIT!" Right before he left, right before Timmy put his foot into the portal, Jimmy ran to his desk, ransacking it for- YES! Jimmy found the gift he was making Timmy at the corner of his table, with all the new sewing supplies he bought just for this occasion. Once he grabbed it he threw it to Timmy's way. Timmy snatched the hood and slightly gasped when he saw it. Timmy held it with such care, he called it sappy, but he couldn't erase the grin on his face. He tackled hugged Jimmy, and Jimmy barely could keep his footing. Jimmy could feel Timmy grabbing onto the back of his coat, and him relaxing onto his shoulder a bit more. Usually, Jimmy would complain about almost losing balance, and how suffocating hugs feel, but this time he latched onto Timmy as hard as he can. He pushed his head onto his shoulder and refused to be the first one to let go. It was the last hug hed ever receive from him, and he wanted to stay like this for as long as time would let them. Once Timmy let go, he turned around walking to the portal again. Jimmy could feel the tears pricking his eyes again, but he didn't feel as hopeless as this morning. "TIMMY!" Timmy abruptly stopped walking, mere centimeters from being transported into his dimension. "You're still the idiot I've known all these years if you think I'm not going to try and find you in the future." Timmy turns his head to see Jimmy smiling proudly at Timmy. "I don't care if your 30 working a desk job, or a famous comic book writer, or actor, or whatever! I'll go to your dimension myself, and find you. I'll figure out how to get your memory back, and.. if I can't- I'll just be your friend again, I'll do it all over again, and I promise that." Jimmy finishes off with a confident note. Timmy, in all his pessimistic glory, can't help but believe in Jimmy. "Thanks, Boy genius." "No problem, Average kid who no one understands."

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Is “willingly unloved” canon to the roomates au?

yes, unless it is excplicitly stated all comics/ drawings under the hashtag r canon!

it was also a bit of a character study of ethan, i wanted to draw what i think he would act like after going through something as traumatizing as re8 and re7. a lot of the times ethan getting horribly hurt (arms/legs cut off) is either passed off as a joke of "haha he lost another arm" or passed off as him being a idiot being stupid. i wanted to explore how those things would affect him and how all his past relationships did as well. both mia and chris, two people he cared for and trusted broke his trust, mia on two different occasions. (pls dont turn this into a anti mia post lol, its just straight canon im just acknowledging what she literally did. what she did affects the people in her life, and this post is about ethan. it doesnt nesscarily matter what her intentions were since the execution was still horrible so pls dont get upset at me)

in re7 he suffers the consequences of someones lie, and it repeats in re8. i feel like he would be far more reserved after re8. he cant trust anyone and he now lives with the knowledge that he and his daughter r bioweapons and there organizations out there to get him. in this AU chris is helping by trying to return ethan to a normal life but after re8 ethan would not trust chris imo. not in a way where he thinks chris will turn him into the BSAA or whatever but more like hes worried that chris is possibly hiding something important or planning something he doesnt know.

he would have major trust issues and probably would have huge difficulty with opening himself up to another connection, especially since leon is friends with chris. ethan would probably be wary due to association.

after re8 he is left with nothing. his wife lied to him again, and the man who was suppose to protect him did a horrible job at it LOL. he has rosemary and thats it. and at any moment someone could take her for being a bioweapon. he would live a life of paranoia and stress trying to give rosemary and normal life while trying to keep her safe at the same time. i feel like getting divorced with mia would be the best option for ethan. as much as they loved each other it wasnt healthy. mia wanted to forget and move on while ethan knew nothing and wanted to understand more. its unfortunate i know. in re8 ethan has a book about weapons and says, "its not paranoia if theyre really out to get you."

its honestly so tragic 😭

in a more realistic way to canon, ethan was doomed to die in that village. a life after it all, after surviving re8 would be horrible. the BSAA is corrupt so hes stuck with chris trying to hide and live a normal life. theres no where for him to go.

BUUTTTTTT... in a cutesy AU where leon and ethan r roomates he gets to heal so yayy. ethan would definetly be very hesitant to open up to leon and would probably not trust him for a long time

for now its just him and rose

[gatorbites-imagines]

Can i request the continuation of jason todd and dick grayson yandere ask? Maybe add in smut aswell. (Don't force yourself!, Take a good care of yourself 💗)

-🥚 anon

Yandere Jason Todd x speedster male reader x Yandere Dick Grayson

Part 2

Headcanons

Imagine sitting in a spinny chair petting a cat like a bond villain. I have wanted to write a part two for this for a while. Instead of reader just dating his og universes version of them, what if reader was dating multiple people 👀? Cuz you cant imagine the kid of Thawne being a nice person.

Ill refer to readers original universe as OG verse, and the yandere universe as yan verse cuz its easier to understand.

Part 1 can be found here

In part 1 yan Dick and Jason has pretty much abandoned their former dimension in smithereens after having wiped out the entire justice league, as they tried to stop them from crossing dimensions and tearing a hole in reality itself to find you.

So, when Yan Dick and Jason appear in your OG dimension, different procedures set up by the league notify them about the tear in reality and how unstable it is. They’d rush there and find two bloody and battered versions of Dick and Jason, and thinking they fled some battle or a doomed timeline, they bring them to the tower.

When Jason and Dick wake up, they immediately fall back on the many tricks they had been taught under their batman, who was apparently even better at lying than OG batman, as they believe them when they claim their home dimension was destroyed and they have nowhere to go.

It takes a while to work Yan Dick and Jason into the league and their hero roster, but they never suspect them of being anything less than heroes and stable. They start calling them Rick and Jay since it gets confusing with multiple people named the same thing.

They don’t drop hints that they know you, but they do try to figure out where you are and what you are doing at all times, but its harder than they thought it would be. Who would have thought trying to track a guy that can cross dimensions and time at will would be so difficult.

Rick almost bursts a blood vessel when he hears some of the younger OG league members talking about how “Mach 10 has been dating multiple people at once”, and Jay wants to curl up into a ball and disappear and tear himself apart.

Their obsession finally starts showing through the cracks as they use league resources to find you and stalk you. More and more cracks appear in their masks and fake personalities, as they see you going on dates with other people.

Jericho, Jamie Reyes, Roy Harper, Garth, Kyle Rayner, the list went on. You seemed to be dating multiple people at once, at the same time, as you used your powers to be in multiple places at once.

You weren’t a good person, so you hadn’t even felt bad when Jamie had cried finding out you were cheating on him with multiple people, you just shrugged and asked him what he had expected from Thawnes offspring.

It was common knowledge amongst the younger league members that you were down to a roll in the sheets with most, but there wasn’t a loyal bone in your body, and you could easily turn on whoever you were dating at the time if it was part of a plan.

Of course. Rick and Jay never saw you as the problem. How could you be? You were perfect, you were everything that mattered in the multiverse, and you could do no wrong. It had to be your partners that were the issue, they had to be neglecting your needs and leaving you having to resort to finding different ways to meet them.

OG justice league knew Rick and Jay had some issues, but they had always blamed it on coming from a dimension that had been destroyed by some unknown evil. But as time passed, they started to think that maybe the backstory they had been given wasn’t true.

It came to a head when one day Rick almost gutted Roy after he and Jay had followed you around Coast city, where you had met up with Roy and the two of you had gone on a date, ending with you two back in Roy’s apartment.

Rick and Jay were both cracking as they saw others put their grubby disgusting hands all over you and just doing whatever they wanted. Whenever they heard others insult you, they felt like repeating what they had done in their original universe.

After Rick attacked Roy, he was placed on probation. Jay was more subtle about his plans, as he wasn’t as blinded by rage as Rick and was more fueled by not feeling like he was good enough and blaming himself.

People didn’t even put two and two together for a while when your non league admirers started going missing, only to be found much later dead in many different ways. There was no way to tie the murders together, but it was clear there was a pattern, but no one could figure out what it was.

The league finally discovered just what type of people Jay and Rick were when you one day wandered into the tower. Maybe the league needed your help with something involving the speedforce, or the negative speedforce.

But the moment the two yanderes saw you, it was like they became completely different people, the masks they had been wearing for months shattered as they almost stumbled over each other to get to you first.

You just saw in your seat grinning to yourself as they clambered into your lap, vile threats of what he could do to anyone who touched to passing Ricks lips, as Jay warbled out apologies and begs for you to love him and appreciate him.

The league wasn’t sure what to do, but their suspicions only grew. It got to the point where they somehow track down the dimension the Yans originally come from, to see what really happened. Imagine their horror when they learn Rick and Jay killed all of them out of obsession fueled love for you.

But when they finally figured out the truth, Rick and Jay fully dropped their roles and started chasing you around like lovesick puppies again, butchering anyone who got in their way.

The league could lock them up, but they had also seen what happened when they were separated from you, and as long as they were around you and an had no reason to lash out, they seemed fine for the most part.

You had moments where you would peace out to different dimensions, especially when Rick and Jay started foiling all your attempts to mess around with other people, Rick always exploding in rage and Jay breaking down in tears and wails of misery.

Again, you were never a good person, and they annoyed you sometimes, but it was kinda cute to have them begging for scraps of your attention even as the league tried again and again to capture them and lock them away.

Rick and Jay never find a way to lock you away, you are just too powerful. But they at some point stumble across ways to make themselves stronger so they can keep up. Like making themselves speedsters, or developing gear to follow and track you, they come up with something.

But you learn an easy way to distract them is by piling attention on them for a while, get them comfortable, then you can peace out when they get on your nerves.

Jay is always easier to trick than Rick, as Jay is always aching for any tiny piece of attention and love youll give him, his knees always buckling when you kiss him or hold him, words almost akin to worship always tumbling out from between his lips towards you.

Rick is harder to trick, as hes always suspicious and angry, but an easy way is to dominate him in some way, like tying him up and then leaving him there, leaving him to get out on his own, or get help from Jay if he needs it.

All in all, the league is scared and cautious, but knows they wont be an active threat to the league as long as they have you. And your relationship with your yanderes is nowhere near healthy, with you only loving them like someone would love a pet or a toy, and them loving you way too much.

But what can someone expect from the offspring of Thawne, and two extremely unstable Bats.

[ozfi]

among blades other themes, it is about inevitability and fate. and these are underscored by an underdiscussed season charm point: everyone in blade is constantly communicating. at any given point in time, everyone has every single piece of information possible and plausible to have. if something new comes up, everyone works together to pass it along even if theyre not literally working together at that moment.

does this stop bad things from happening? does this mean everyone gets along? the answer to both of these questions is obviously no. having information doesnt mean you have the understanding of the implications of the situation, and everyone has their own thoughts, feelings, and motivations that dictate how they respond to things. "if they did X then Y would have happened instead"- i don't think anyone knows that better than the characters themselves! but they're always doing what they believe to be right in response to the problems surrounding them. the fact that even full knowledge cant save things from going the way they do makes everything feel even more like an inevitable, inescapable fate.

it also makes the times that information is restricted feel more tense, and when it can be used to solve problems it feels really good.

but it means when the characters fail, when problems that are seemingly tailor-made for their issues make them stumble and fall again and again, the fact they can look fate in the face, acknowledge their failures, and keep fighting for the people they believe in and the future they want to see, means you understand even more how much they believe in that future and how strongly they wish to fight that fate.

[acanth3]

The Sound Of The Stars English Translation

EPISODE 7/8

A Day Later

Jun: Yawn, fuu…..hmm, I should have slept well. I’m still kind of sleepy. 

Nagisa: …..It’s the jet lag. Don’t overdo yourself, Jun.

Shu: It’s best not to sleep again. If you do, the jet lag won’t go away forever. 

And it’s troublesome that you're all settled in my room. 

Jun: I know, I’m gonna force my body to move around 

I’ve encouraged Kagehira-san to travel into space, I’m not going to do anything that will exert me~

Mika: Thank you, Jun-kun! I’ll do my best to bring a beautiful star as a souvenir �� 

Shu: …..? I don't think you were this positive about it yesterday, what kind of mood shift did you have overnight, Kagehira? 

Mika: Jun gave me a lot of encouragement last night. 

The two of us talked about our youth and Jun-kun pushed my back…

I wondered if it was okay to throw away the dream I had since I was a kid, I made up my mind when I was told that. 

Jun: Haha. It wasn’t that big a deal, yea? 

Mika: Fuuu, I thought about it all night. 

I told Oshi-san that I wanted to be the star of my orphanage, right? 

If I can be an idol to go to space, I could be a planet for those children. 

Shu: …..I also remember those words from the festival. The story you told me during then was used as a reference for this plan. 

That’s why I permitted Saegusa to be involved in this. The world’s first idol to head into space, and deliver light to the world I think will be helpful. 

Mika: Thank you, Oshi-san! It’s come this far, I’ll do my best~ ♪ 

Nagisa: …..I’m glad Mika-kun seems to be happy. 

…..But, there are still two remaining problems in Mika’s space trip. 

…..It’s not that there's a challenge there’s something that won't be realized

Mika: Ehh!? There’s the possibility that it won’t be realized after bein’’ motivated so much?!

Nagisa: …..Sorry but if you can’t solve this problem, this space travel is ruined. 

…..So, Valkyrie you both have enough determination for this to die, I need you to solve this issue. 

Mika: So what are the two problems?

Nagisa: …..First is, “If the song intedned for this huge project is completed or not”

…..As Ibara stated before this space trip has been sponsored by many agencies

…..The rewards from that is that Valkyrie gains advertising 

……Which is why Itsuki-kun was asked to produce a song for the theme “Space/Universe”

Mika: Nnnhh~, If Oshi-san can do it, it’s okay?

Even if seniors (jun + nagi) have come here, what can you do about his progress? 

Nagisa: …..If there is no focus on completing this, therefore we can help Itsuki-kun with this work. 

Shu: Hmph, how unnecessary. Nothing more annoying than being lumped together with someone who can’t understand art. 

Mika: If you plan on doin’ that, then I’ll help Oshi-san too. If it's goin’ to be sung by Valkyrie I’ll put in some effort than do nothin’.

Nagisa: …..I can’t allow that. Mika-kun is Mika-kun. There are things you have to do.  

Mika: Nnnh~, what are yer’ doin!? Not allowed to help Oshi-san, what am I s’posed to do!

Jun: There’s a second problem. You need to complete an exam to go to space. 

Mika: …Exam? Huh, I have to study?

Jun: Even though it’s a short space trip, due to the physical properties you need to have some knowledge on it. 

Isn’t it well known that the astronaut exam is hard to pass? It can't be that strict, safety wise, knowledge is necessary.

If you fail to pass the exam by the due date of the space trip. It will be cancelled for Kagehira-san and your safety is not ensured. 

Mika: R-really…I’m an idiot. I can’t pass the exam. 

Nagisa: …..For that purpose, COSPRO is going to help Mika-kun so that you can go. 

…..If Mika-kun cannot go to space this project will be ruined. Back in COSPRO, Mika-kun will be in big trouble if he cant pass this exam. 

…..Jun, I leave Mika-kun to you. 

Jun: I know. I’m going to take Kagehira-san back home with me~

Mika: Nnh~! Jun-kun even if were in such a hurry we should help Oshi-san with his music first….

Jun: Nagi-senpai will be helping him with that ♪,   worry about yourself first

When we get back home there’s going to be muscle training and english studying, please get prepared~!

Nagisa: …..Fufu. Mika-kun and Jun get along well. 

…..Let’s follow their example and continue together with the song♪ 

Shu: Non! This is crazy enough to be side by side with you. 

Get out of here now. Like I said before, I will not be cooperating with you. 

Nagisa: …..Hmph. Itsuki-kun you think I’m in your way, right? 

Shu: Didnt I say before that there is solely nothing more annoying than to have someone who cannot understand art by me?

Nagisa: ….Therefore, it’s okay if I just show I understand, 

Shu: What?

Nagisa: …..Maybe Itsuki-kun is stuck because he doesn’t know how to create art to express the universe?

Shu: …..!? Why think that?

Nagisa: …..Itsuki-kun’s uncertainty can be obviously seen from the amount of books obtained. 

…..I have a understanding on geology, how the Earth is related towards the history of planets.

…..Such as how in Germany, the town Nordlingen is built on top of a crater. 

…..If you want to trace back to the history of Earth it could be interesting to visit there

Shu: Hmm, for the theme ‘universe’ I dont just have to focus on outer-space but the planet Earth itself too? 

I see, I didn’t see it from that point of view. 

Nagisa: ….I also know some things about astrology. If Itsuki-kun wishes to we can discuss the Fermi Paradox. 

…..So, Itsuki-kun you’ll let me assist you?

Shu: …..You have a reasonable amount of knowledge. 

Hah….it could be a good idea, as you said before it’s because I didn’t know, I stopped

Regardless of your interference as an uninformed person, I will need your wiseness. 

It’s such a pity to rely on you, isn’t it?

Nagisa: …..Thank you. Since Itsuki-kun gave in and licked his bitterness aside, I’ll do my job correspondingly.

[batfambrainrotbeloved]

Hey so you know how you made Dick speak sanskrit in your fic? lives in my head rent free.

Why did he not speak romanian. how far back in the historical timeline was his clan(??? idk how to translate the word im thinking of into english but its “ନକ୍ଷ୍ୟତ୍ର”/ “ଗୋତ୍ର”) separated from the rest? How was it not prakrit? Were his parents just trying to reconnect to their roots? Did he learn it from his parents or was it learned while trying to connect with his roots? Does he ever realise that any songs and texts are all religious? Is HE religious with how many words in sanskrit straight up reference god?Does he feel alienated with how his culture is romani but his language is indian? Does he ever realise theres only one village in the world that speaks sanskrit as a native language and its over 13,000 km away? Does it get lonely realising that even damian’s knowledge of languages cant cover it?

Im sorry for ranting but my struggle to reconnect w my culture has me projecting HARD 😭

OH BOY- I have been avoiding some asks (because I haven't had the mental strength to give each the time and love response they deserves I swear im getting to yall) But THIS one was just far too good to pass (and im bored as hell in class)

I would say I do dive a little more into my headcanon culture stuff involving Dick and even Damien in Mama Bird (which again I REALLY NEED TO UPDATE)

BUT Let the rambling begin <33

Why does he speak Sanskrit in the fic vs any other language? Simply it was the closest language I could trace similar roots to Romani ancestery too that was easily acsessible dictionary/translator that I could use in my writings.

Canonically he probably WOULD speak a dilect of Romani or Prakrit etc, but in my desperate trying to look into the language and culture half of the resources I came upon were incredibly racist even for someone who had no idea about the culture before then.

How far back in the historical timeline was his clan??? (Clan/Tribe/Family are good english translation's) Im not familiar enough with Romanian clans to assign a specific one (Though from my understanding of research, The Grayson family would be desenced from Romani people lineages that used to reside in the Indus Valley region- yet another reason for the use of Sanskrit)

Were his parents just trying to reconnect to their roots? Did he learn it from his parents or was it learned while trying to connect with his roots? I havent thought into this TOO much, but i'll say as a headcanon that his family felt a great pride in their culture as some of the lucky few who could maintain their nomadic lifestyle with the circus. His Mother was probably less connected (only knowing from her grandparents sort of thing) and rediscovered her roots after meeting his Father who was VERY in tune with his culture.

And as such tried their best to reclaim those roots and share them with Dick. So yes he learned from his parents- but they were still fully connecting themselves.

Does he ever realise that any songs and texts are all religious? Is HE religious with how many words in sanskrit straight up reference god? This is more projection but as someone who grew up in the bible belt, (Translation- American southern region nicknamed "The bible belt" because of how ingrained the Christian Faith is in both religious practice and general culture) Dick is less belief religious and more culturally religious- he will use religious phrasing, have some habits/beliefs FROM religious background without being fully invested, and even some things he doesn't realize are heavily religious until pointed out.

Aka religious pratices in the way of how your mother would teach you to put knifes in the dishwasher upside down (so they wouldnt be as much of a hazard) but something you do because its how you were told instead of thinking about the WHY as much.

Does he feel alienated with how his culture is romani but his language is indian? Does he ever realise theres only one village in the world that speaks sanskrit as a native language and its over 13,000 km away?

Now this is more complicated, I don't know much about circus life (though I do actually have a friend I can ask so might change this later) But from what I know its a VERY mixed enviornment so Dick was both entrenched in his cultural lifestyle as a nomad with his parents proudly sharing their roots, while also being exposed to dozens of other cultures that were also "his".

Aka- Dick is an amalgamation of culture to the point he both belongs in more ways than most people could ever have, and yet feels completely isolated as a result since no one else understands why he gets upset when people wish him Happy Birthday early, why he always dumps the first steep of tea, why he "pays respects" to his bike and tools, why he sets aside food just to be thrown out, etc etc

Its nice, to be able to connect with people over so much, but at the same time it sucks when his family points out "weird habits" that he hadnt even realized were strange. (Thankfully after a few long talks, people stopped commenting on Dicks habits, anyone who does faces the wrath of the Batclan and just about every Hero from Metropolis to the edge of the Milky way)

Does it get lonely realising that even damian’s knowledge of languages cant cover it?

Actually Batfam DOES know some Sanskrit just by exposure of living with Dick. The one who knows the most is probably Alfred since he was the one dealing with the rambunctious kid who would get frustrated with instructions he didnt understand (and that frustration only getting worse for English being like 5th or so language)

None of them are anywhere near fluent though, but I like to think Dick has a pen pal/friends he practices with. Also because he's terrified of losing his proficency and in turn, losing another part of his culture his parents tried so hard to give to him.

And No need to apologize! Like I said, im an outsider looking in from a very different culture but I loved reading (what little good sources I could find) about this topic. Of course if you have any insights/comments/crituqes I would love to hear about them and thank you for the ask!!

[basilpaste]

Hello! Had a very weird crossover question to ask you, given your knowledge of Cookie Run Kingdom and In Stars and Time.

If White Lilly Cookie was to be suddenly isekai'd to Vaugarde during Mirabelle's quest, how do you think first interactions would go between her and the party? Also, how big do you imagine WL would become after said isekai-ing? Same smol cookie size, or suddenly normal human/"witch" sized?

i think its most fun if lilys suddenly like. generally people passing. you can do fun things with small sized characters but also the many generally people-sized sadnesses would not. exactly be easy for a cookie to handle i fear.

but for like... interactions. i think shed probably be of immediate interest to odile? which works out because i also think odile is the one shed get along with best. both because white lily is generally very intelligent and also because shes old as dirt. not that cookie ages are very consistent but the ancients are literally called ancient. lmao.

as for first interactions. hm. she is very smart and skilled and has some pretty solid survival skills, but she's entirely out of her depth. she knows humans to be witches, knows the face of man as the face of god. so shed be. understandably very warry of mira and the party i think?

something something. the party makes their way to a town abandoned because of the kings curse. the freezing hasnt reached here, but it will soon. strong sadnesses lurk around each corner. theyre strong enough to defeat them individually, but not the number wears them down. they get ready to run away in hopes to protect themselves when the sadness looming over them is enveloped by... a flower bud? not like any craft any of them have ever seen. the bud explodes, leaving the sadness defeated. they look around for the person who helped but cant find them!

she tails them for a while after that. which i assume siffrin would probably be the one to notice. the party is just as warry of her as she is of them when shes called out, but she did protect them with her weird craft. she introduces herself as a cookie. she mentions the 'licorice beasts' theyve been fighting. everyone is terribly confused but they do like. tell her about the quest. yadda yadda PARTY MEMBER GET! weird old lady.

also i think she and siffrin would have a lot to talk about. not that either of them would ever actually talk about their feelings without just like So Much pushing thats like both of their whole deals. the self sacrificerssssss.

[cosmicseapop]

Me gushing about dark birthday events (mainly pt 3)

man, I love when stories start off with something out of left field and then refuse to elaborate of it until later, and by then I’m invested. Start off with the hero wanting Atlas wiped off the face of the earth and you slowly start going ‘yea this place should be burned to the ground’, french kiss

Also love stories that take inspirations from myths, because ya know it going to be satisfying to watch the downfall

the temp items description have been fun to use as writing prompts for Esther and Dage’s interactions :D

Love the fact that Dage and Slaine test the hero’s resolve in Atlas’s slaughter and them immediately doubling down on it

Also accurate ES!Esther depiction and a bit of AoR Esther when she drops the hero act

Yara and Slaine’s interactions

Firstly, love that older Npcs are getting brought back and having character development

Narrative foils that contrasty talk shit together 

Imagine this, the hero’s mind space. They’re the one at the wheel, trying not to fall asleep. The Beast is just there, watching the destruction while eating popcorn. And Dage is rummaging through the hero’s memories while giving his two cents to keep them awake

And the Endless is like a sleep paralysis demon thats is slowly manifesting in the corner

Side note, the amount of trust in the hero to just be ok with the idea them looking at his memories without asking is sweet

the hero, forcibly shoving anything related to Malgor and their other kids in to a lockbox, shallowing the key, and throwing the box into the ocean: what family? I definitely don’t have a family, nope

Now the question is it because they’re actively avoiding think about Malgor, taking Drakath threat of killing anyone who learns truth seriously, or a mix of both. Who knows

Maleagant being the one to give Zedek shit for how he used his kids was great

new dragon form 

Edot is an eevee (no you cant change my mind)

Also the design is fucking sick

It kinda gives an explanation to why EDoT was purple in the timeline where they killed the QoM, if they somehow aligned their being with Chaos

the absolute trust between Dage and the hero 

The hero’s trust in dage to decline divinity 

Dage’s trust in the hero to lead the legion 

Also dage’s genuine concern for the hero 

the ritual sacrifices bit

I really hope this doest come back as a thing that the Jus Divinum uses to literally use the hero as a weapon against Evil or whatever their end goal is

I really hope this doesn’t come back at all, but its gonna and I hate it

Side note, love that the hero points out that Miseru and the others could have literally asked for their kids back or their souls healed and it would have been granted, but instead they used the chance to have a kingdom wiped off the face of Lore (which was understandable given everything, but damn does that has to cut deep)

I know the hero got a pass from OWO to destroy Atlas mostly due to Tranquility demanding it, but I wonder if it's also in part due to the ritual sacrifice. Like, would they have held the hero responsible for their actions knowing they were bond to razing it to the ground? Would it be an instant that they would have tasked the hero with hunting down people with the knowledge of the ritual after the fact? Or would they have just voted to Silence them to avoid anyone else binding a god to do their bidding?

the gap in memory the hero has from the ritual

Looking back on the dialogue from the hero, it sounded like it was a completely different being from Dage and the Hero (at least after the first cutscene). They had even refer to the Eternal like they weren’t the same person in part 3

And the ■■■■■ dialogue kinda confirms it

My take is that ■■■■■ was the Endless, but the Endless from the future where Dage accepted divinity and was at the end of eternity where they ended up alone, and he was just hearing the future. 

the bit about Sparagmos

Im reading it as the hero knew actually what they could have become with the Endless and wanted to cripple themselves in case they continued as the Endless and needed to be Silenced while they were still themselves

The divinity eye thing 

I have thoughts, but theres not enough to put into words atm other than ‘hey, that’s kinda concerning that its the same eye motif that the avatars get when stepping foot on Lore and might be the thing that distracted OWO at the end of RoCT’ and ‘the eye from the title card that’s sudden sus now’

Maya

Say it ain't so 

I thought the spy would be Richard since he’s insists on intercepting Hans’s letters to Victoria and the armor he’s wearing I think is Jus Divinum theme

I really hope its not Maya, she was my favorite npc from the earlier game

[ishankedurmom]

So. Arfid, right.

It is one of, if not the only eds that are passed down genetically (to my knowledge)

And guess who got that lucky family heirloom eating disorder? Thats right. Me.

And it sucks. Ive never been able to eat normally a day in my life and i never will. I have 3 safe meals and one i can choke down if im lucky. A few more safe foods than that. Most of my diet is whole wheat bread from two specific companies, craft smooth peanut butter, and 1-2% milk. Thats it.

And BECAUSE i have had arfid my entire childhood (im still a teenager but the pandemic + the rest of the horrors combo goes hard), my parents tried to "help" me eat more. By forcing me.

There are three categories of arfid: sensory issues/genetic, food trauma, and disinterest. I was born with the first one, my parents gave me the second, and the two combined led to the third.

My hunger cues got fucked up really bad by my parents. I wont feel hungry for days, but if i dont eat my parents will get all in my face about it. And i understand, i need to eat to be healthy and to live. But oh my god forcing me causes much more harm than good.

Eating when i dont feel hungry makes me feel extremely nausous. It sucks, but i learnt to just suck it up and deal with it as i got older. I had to

I learnt to deal with a lot of things

Feel like im gonna thtow up if i eat this?? Well fuck you actually if we throw up our parents will worry about us!! So swallow that stomach acid!!!!! Yeah, it feels like shit! Deal with it! Not actual advice to anyone struggling with this i am a horrible role model.

Dont want to eat/feel like we cant eat? Well you have to!! So start eating.

Have to go out to a restaurant? Order cheese pizza or plain noodles. I cant try anything new if my parents are around anymore.

This is all an extremely long-winded way of saying: i feel like im faking. I dont need a feeding tube, im not underweight - overweight due to the guilt eating and depression actually -, i dont starve myself (even though i want to), ect

I feel normal. I know im not. I have the diagnosis. But what if i am faking it? Just because im not struggling quite as much as people who developed it later in life?

Ughhhhh idk. Idk. I just needed to vent a lil.

[fictionfixations]

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twst book 7 jp spoilers (i talk about jp spoilers while referencing a vignette) (i talk about silver and lilia)

"I'm no longer concerned about blood relations. I'm my father's only son, now and forever."

i know that his whole 'father hates me' thing spiraled from kind of an error in judgment?? or well. like. he was feeling so many emotions and shock at once that he didn't really think right, which could be similar to him learning that he and lilia weren't related, and thus running off into the rain without a plan

its just kind of sad to go through this with that knowledge of what happened later

also i find it. so endearing. that lilia named silver after the one thing that came from lilia, y'know? something that made silver his instead of just 'the dawn knight's son'

i wish. that they could both truly understand how much each of them loves each other (silver so he never doubts it again :( ) and lilia to be able to understand that silver wants to take care of him, that it wouldn't just be a burden considering his significantly shorter lifespan.

i just cant help but think about how when silver ran off we see lilia's thoughts because hes just like '..i thought he noticed. no, i was being purposely vague, because i didnt want to see his sad face...'

but then we learn from silver that he was all smiles during then (which i get, wanting to be that firm support pillar that cant be affected by anything for a child)

but i also feel like. lilia still views silver as a kid. and thats fair, but silvers also going to be of age soon. and i know its kind of this shock when you realize your parents are human or something (like, that they can get hurt)? (but also i think we reached that point the moment lilia revealed he was going to die. well like- he said he was leaving but also silver just straight up says 'pass on' SO. note how lilia was being purposely vague too.)

i just feel like lilia could stand to not be so nonchalant about things, and be able to be more willing to rely on silver since thats clearly what silver wants (even if it was a 'burden' because silver just wants to help :((( )

im just sad

[revoleotion]

Tsubaki loves his family, but it doesn't change the fact that they don't understand what it's like to be a Servamp, they understand what it's like to be a vampire but while similar it still ain't the same. Cause while subclasses cant die of old age/most things that can kill humans, they can still be killed, unlike Servamps who can never die. The knowledge that if they die you will never see them again, because while most can take comfort in the fact that they could enter the afterlife to see those who've passed servamps don't get that option, they'll just be alone again.

They also don't really get just how much having a bad/incompetent even can absolutely fucking Decimate a servamps mental health and sense of self.

So it'll be nice for him to have someone else who understands in his life

Right!!! And I don't think he needs a classical "sibling" relationship in his life, he just wants someone to understand him and someone to know about him!! He wants to be seen! But he's very happy with his friends/family he chose.

[pap3rcrown]

im thinking about mike walters and why the fuck he views his interations so differently then literally any other character

*disclaimer, im only caught up till episode 89 so around mid season 8, which means i am very far behind and much of this is probably common knowledge or disproven but i want to talk about it anyways !!!!!

i believe it is purely bc he has seen so much more than literally any other character at this point, and because of that he is so different than the other iterations of himself. take michael for example, dude is literally a cowboy. he puts up such a violent front rather than let these two younger iterations of himself see the that he is also a mike. and it's hard for mikey as someone who is so removed from this older grizzled iterations of himself who has experienced losses mikey has not had to go through yet, struggles to connect that michael is him, that he will become him. "you become me, remember that." mikey refuses to make that connection to michael, and even mike on a smaller scale. mike is a much closer to mikey in many aspects but is still disconnected as he has been through things mikey never will due to the corrections, he also is just those 5 years older, which is an entirety in when you have time travel. even the other mikeys which are literally him from the same time period don't connect to him. he fundamentally has different experiences then them, and they don't connect to him for the same reason. overmike didn't have to watch edgar and all of base die, he didn't have to go back and correct that, and mikey didn't watch edgar turn into mustard seed and almost successfully escape base, they have fundamentally different views on that situation.

its also the fact that he is the one who has make variants the most and watches them die the most. he (and all of the mikes) have seen different iterations of themselves with pasts and future they themselves will never see or are just waiting to happen. he has seen michael kill mikeys and he knows what they will do for survival and its almost easier to remove himself from the other mikes as to not spiral. i think frequency of this happening is a huge reason why people like edgar and ann do not have this reaction to other iterations of themself even when they do something different than they would (again i'm more calling back to mustard seed here). edgar can understand why mustard seed did what he did when his back was pressed against the wall, mustard seed is still him, edgar makes his peace with that and knows its him in a way the mikes can't with their iterations as they have seen so much more and things that they cannot explain. ann (as far as i know) works purely in house at base, she doesn't go on field missions, she doesn't have to do the dirty work the mikes do and therefore her iterations do as present her would, there are no experiences besides the passing of time that separate them, she hasn't seen the versions of the future that the mikes have.

mikey unlike the others has also met his iterations on a much more intimate level than literally any other character, he knows how time and experiences will change him, to the point that he no longer recognizes them as himself. he also changes based on his experiences with the latvia mikes as he matures much fast than michael did in his time, he knows where this life will lead him and he wants to prepare himself even if just a little bit. which is why he gets so offended when chance (i cant remember if it was him or shadow im SORRY) says he wouldn't be that sad if he died because there are other iterations of him. chance and the rest of base view the iterations as extensions of themselves, which is something mikey no longer has the luxury to do. as the latvia mikes have proven they have their own agenda. because base has made mike their field agent (still have no idea why they made that choice but whatever.) he has seen so much more then them and see exactly how what he goes through effects them.

its also worth noting that mike just has a personality that is productive to this line of thinking, he is stubborn to a fault, and likes to burry his feelings rather than express them. this leads to these different versions of himself to also have these core tendencies, which breeds distance, i mean just look at michael and mike, they would both rather go to the flinchites then ask each other or base for that matter for help.

all this to say is that i believe if there were to be a thesis to mike walters relationship to his iterations it would be that experiences are what build us and innate personality traits often come second to the instinct to adapt.

[caligvlasaqvarivm]

hello!!! i hope you're having a good week :)

was wondering if you could classpect my fantroll from my weird little writing project.....(its called huebent and i should probably start posting about it)

he already has a classpect but im really curious as to how someone else perceives him SO, basic rundown:

Fuschiablood, Fimros Parexi. He has two siblings and basically had to raise his younger one but he adores her like a lot. In Huebent, there can be multiple heiresses(or heirs because. transmasc.) alive at once but they're ranked like. by who's the most affective at their job as an heir/heiress?? While he's alive he's ranked the highest and faces extreme pressure to be constantly doing SOMETHING productive. He's also chronically ill and a cane user which does greatly affect his ability to do things but he pushes it anyway because he really wants to he useful. Around like 15 a 16 year old, Nirsol (Goldblood), is hired to be a guard of sorts for him but like other than his sister Nirsol is like. His first actual friend and helps Fimros recognize whats going on within castes outside of his highblood bubble. He and Nirsol are friends for YEARS and are matesprits for like 4 years until the the looming cult threat gets more serious, and Fimros' health just gets so much worse but he feels he NEEDS to work to protect anyone he cares about, but he just cant. Nirsol mistakes this as Fimros not caring and they break up due to it. During their time apart, Fimros internalizes the way his society sees him as cold and uncaring and tries acting that way. He also engages in a relationship very begrudgingly with Runaan (Violetblood). That relationship goes horribly and since Nirsol is back doing bounty work again now that he assumes he's done with Fimros, Runaan asks him to kill Fimros. Nirsol cant do it even though he hates the way Fimros is now, he knows that Fimros likely has a reason (and he still loves him). Ultimately they begin to bond again and Nirsol starts helping Fimros with work and stuff until Fimros is killed by the cult as a way to scare people. Nirsol takes revenge and dies himself but that's his own thing. In huebents version of SGRUB or whatever i call it later, the 12 trolls playing the game receive a sprite that is basically someone they deeply cared about who had passed but the troll being sprited would appear based on how the player perceived them. Fimros is his sister's sprite but basically gets to stay as himself due to his sister deeply understanding him. His arc in the game consists of him being forced to acknowledge what he did wrong within being a leader and in his relationships to people, taking that knowledge, and helping his sister be successful at leading and helping others. And then post-game he is revived (along with Nirsol) and they get to live happy with eachother and Nirsol's adoptive daughter. I just love my fantrolls and think it would be awesome to get a classpect :))

thank you for taking time to read this if you do ^_^

uhhhhhh are we talking like trolls from alternia