#the pain years
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new official illust of them with puppies healed something in me
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#nobara kugisaki#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#file name pupys btw bc they r all. pupys#6 pupys in this image#cries eternally u kno the cruel thing is there is no winning fr me when it comes 2 creating art fr this series#i draw them in canon situations i experience pain i draw them in noncanon Relaxed situations i experience pain#illusion of choice.....#regardless i care them so much i would MUCH rather them b in a sunny field with dogs#i will endure the bittersweet feeling of being an audience member n knowing that their reality is nowhere this tranquil#i can dream :'< i can draw :'<#anyway this took a billion years bc i made megumi stand smh#he didnt fight or anything but th overall Composition ws a bit harder 2 navigate because of it#smth smth sizing smth smth planes idk i cant draw#i think it makes sense tho! nobara/yuuji sitting chilling casually rolling a tennis ball fr their puppies#meanwhile megumi Actively trying 2 train his#head in hands god im MISERABLE#anyway this will b available as a print per request if any1 wants 2 b miserable with me
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hold that heart close... happy birthday, wanderer!!
#genshin impact#wanderer#scaramouche#ever makes art#i finished this drawing two minutes too late... clown emoji#HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANDERER you have so very many painful years behind you but infinitely more hopeful ones ahead
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Some doodles for @theashemarie 's Pearlina superhero au fic "And take off your mask":D
(Pls go read it it's so insanely good
#The angst is so delicious it's giving me physical pain#splatoon#splatoon 3#pearlina#splatoon fanart#splatoon 2#marina splatoon#pearl splatoon#splatoon au#supers au#Also thank u ashe for giving us 34-year-old businesswoman Pearl Houzuki with eye bags and scar-crossed eyebrow
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Your friends and family with chronic pain aren't doing well.
Yes, even the ones that say they are.
Yes, especially the ones that are complaining and lashing out already.
Chances are high that however bad they will admit things are it's actually worse. By a lot.
We're conditioned to be "okay". If we're breaking down at non scheduled times we aren't coping well. I promise.
Your sibling/partner/bestie/parent who is breaking down without preamble on a Tuesday is suffering. Be kind. We're sorry.
#cautious commentary#chronic pain#chronic illness#I'm grieving the me that was and the me I could have been#I'm jealous of my past and of others#the parts I say out loud are a fraction of what's under the surface#and this is with years of therapy
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I see you disabled people who don't know your family medical history because your family members couldn't/wouldn't/weren't allowed to go to the doctor and never got diagnosed, or don't know your family.
I see you disabled people who didn't know you were disabled growing up, physically or mentally, maybe because your parents didn't have insurance and couldn't afford it/wouldn't take you seriously/didn't think it was a problem because they had it/doctors couldn't figure it out.
I see you disabled people who have bouts of an issue that you grew up with, that are/were infrequent enough that you never really thought about it and dealt with it on your own, and when you have one in front of people who weren't medically neglected, you wonder why they look so horrified as you describe it.
I see you disabled people who didn't/haven't had any amount of care or accommodation for their disability since it started, because you couldn't get diagnosed.
I see you disabled people who grew up thinking everyone had the same problem as you and that it was normal and so you accepted it, because you didn't understand how the human body worked and had no real frame of reference nor the language to ask for help, or the people around you saw it and just ignored it.
I see you disabled people only now understanding that what you experience is abnormal, and that there are things that can be done to help it, make it easier, or at least help you understand yourself better.
I see you disabled people that will never be able to get diagnosed or get the help you need, whether from being poor, lacking insurance, or any number of reasons.
This shit is hard, and there are people who will never quite understand your struggles. It doesn't seem to get talked about as much, but I wish it was. Please know I love you, and you aren't alone.
#Disability#Disabled#Cpunk#Mental illness#Medical neglect#Living with people who grew up going to the doctors is wild. Turns out most people don't have heart attack-type symptoms 1-3 times a year#Or blisters. Or random moments where a body part is in pain. Or any number of my health issues I may never come to understand#There would be a higher national statistic of people who are disabled if people could be diagnosed#And I swear by this.#Healthcare
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The Dungeon Meshi crew 'leap' into action!
#dungeon meshi#marcille donato#laios touden#senshi#chilchuk tims#Full confession time: I originally planned to post this last thursday so I could caption it “Hoppy Leap year everyone!”#But as I was sketching I realized that the tentacles and Tansu party stuff came first#So devastated to have the frog episode and leap year be a week off. Almost a beautiful coincidence.#I love how they play on Marcille's vanity to get her to wear the outfit AND repair the situation#It is true her ears make the suit look very cute.#And shout out to our girl for having her priorities straight (heh) and not wanting to rescue her crush in a frog skin suit.#Though we all know Falin would be so into the idea. The painful thing that dungeon meshi never lets us forget is her absence#Falin would love to dress as a frog...She is meant to be there so much that it is painful. Beautiful tragedy beautiful writing.#The red dragon arc starts next week and I'm clawing at the walls. To those who are anime only: Get ready.
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PIIP PIIP
#deltarune#spamton#jevil#my art#HIIIIIII i just wanted to clean this up to post but i lost control and before i knew it it was lined and colored. sorry.#its an older sketch i think like a year old or something but ive always liked it#for the spamvil brainwormers in my Opinion this takes place after they both reunite#and jevils greatest joy is turning spamton into a soundboard of pain and suffering.
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Hihi haha hoho huhu *im insane
#what just happened#thanks gaiman for pulling my hair and dragging me on the floor#can’t believe i waited 14 years to get punched#brb gonna process all this#coffee theory my beloved#good omens#aziraphale#crowley#otp#fanart#de bons présages#a/c#drawing#sketch#goodomens2#such pain#Spotify
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#for me it’s 3+ years#been working on a specific fic since 2020#pain and suffering#writing#poll#ao3#write#fic
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i wouldn't have met you
#guess whats stuck in my head now#i actually havent caught onto any shows or series for several years and to follow up this one i think has been really pleasant#and painful#its been really nice to see closure for simon hes such an old man skrunkle#i dont even watch a lot of AT in the past but i do know enough to feel that pain like Man i almost forgot shows can be Worth it#fionna the human#fionna campbell#cake the cat#simon petrikov#and a tiny dash of#winter king#qiiarts#fionna and cake#adventure time
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mombin pt 9!! it's been too long i'm sorry
(1)(2)(3)(4)(5)(6)(7)(8)
#stobin#stranger things#mombin#steve harrington#robin buckley#this is a panic attack i could see myself having no matter how badly i wanted kids#shit's terrifying#also i need to stop trying different brushes i hate it literally every time#also i'm in the 'fic writers stop demonising nancy' club#i Eat it when relationships end badly but let it be NOBODY'S fault#like think of the WORST breakup you had as a teenager. as a former 15 year old you're just so stupid and that's ok#sometimes 'i love you but we're absolutely not supposed to keep doing this' is MORE painful than one person being a raging bitch
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unconditionally
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi#yuuji#im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life#genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine#but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed#backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads#but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS#so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it#i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process#but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style#so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh#all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap#hina.comic
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🐙❤️
#may my future riddle and azul book 6 battles be easy and not cause me mental pain#happy new years my children#we made it wooo#🥳🎉🎉🎉👏🎊#time to spend my new years taking a nap#goodnight my loves ❤️#kisses all around#twisted wonderland#riddle rosehearts#azul ashengrotto#azul has contacts in okay I don’t wanna hear it#ID ONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW GLASSESS#also don’t even question the tentacles bc even idk where they’re coming for#I meant from sad face#we’ll say it’s magic#why are the emojis so bi gtf
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Hey, don't cry. Ghost yuri, okay?
(Now that you know the girls, they need to meet the boys!)
#payneland#edwin x charles#dead boy detectives#dbda#fem payneland#although technically as everyone is the opposite gender their last names should be different#OKAY you know the drill u get fanart and i get to ramble about it#Edith wears pants now#this pains me because i love drawing skirts but after she escaped hell#she met charlotte who made an offhand comment about how it's easier to move with pants#and edith who just spent 70 years running in hell went wait a tick#she feels safer that way is what i'm saying#interesting because as you can see she wore a skirt to confess and we know how THAT went but anyway#charlotte's mom was abusive of course#and she forced her to practice ballet despite charlotte being interested in a lot of other sports#she did fairly well at ballet but this means no cricket bat :(#i know we all love butch fem charles but as he's mostly gender conforming i decided to not do that#no reason for the bracelets but as i wanted to give her a choker i thought they would combine with the earrings#crystal is still crystal because his parents are weird artists who like stupid names#niko though... i don't know what to name him#dead girl detectives
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It's "bully Azul" time !!
(Og post here)
#(it pained me so much to draw Azul in the ugly Subway uniform)#you know#the more I think about it the more I realize I didn't grow past the 4 year old phase of bullying the kid you like#what do you mean 'I can't put snails on their head'?#how am I supposed to get their attention otherwise ?#that's me with my blorbos#I'm actually a 4 year old kid cosplaying as an adult#mello's drawings#twisted wonderland#twst#jamil viper#azul ashengrotto#twst mc#twst yuu#meme redraw#azujami#jamiazu#ashenviper#art#my art#oc x canon
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couldn't get it past your lips, could you? (aka the moment in the scene I knew pok was lying)
[ID: First image: a black and white digital drawing of pok gukgak sitting tied to a chair and bleeding from several wounds. we see him from the back. in front of him are two goblinoid but large demons saying, is there nothing you miss? do you regret dying? do you regret not seeing the life of your son? Second image: a sepia picture of a tiny riz sitting on pok's lap as seen from pok's perspective. pok is gently caressing riz's soft cheek with the back of his index finger. with his other hand, this one with a wedding ring on it, he's holding a big picture book that depicts a dog sherlock holmes. riz is grinning and excitedly pointing at the drawing with one hand while his other holds his dad's wrist to get his attention. outside the memory, pok is saying, i don't- i don't miss- and the words cut off. Third image: the drawing is again black and white. pok is back in the reality of being tied to a chair. he's staring forward with a blank expression, face battered, and saying, i don't know what to tell you. there are tears in the corners of his eyes. End ID]
#pok gukgak#riz gukgak#fantasy high sophomore year#fhsy#fantasy high#this has been living in my head for weeks and weeks#truly self indulgent as all should be#couldnt rly decide whether or not to make the first and third red but decided to leave it as is#i get a headache from red flashing back and forth#just imagine its there#fhsy spoilers#dan draws#that baby riz is immediately becoming my discord pfp see you all in angst and pain hell
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