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#social transitioning feels so rough but i think its bc transitioning feels so raw and rough to me still#and everytime someone he/hims me i do feel good but also so terrified and also feel like iâm just getting pity pronouns#which iâve seen like irl so much and its like. i cant really physically transition rn so itâs just like#i might just go back to they/she for now lol#the other day a vague acquaintance/friend asked me how my gender thing was going#and i was like in my head both annoyed he asked that but also felt like#i was being unreasonable because itâs technically public now#but discussing it where strangers could hear was too much#i kind of think its my fault because i just ran with what he was saying instead of saying i was uncomfortable#speaking of which ive been going on dates with this girl but im realizing that#even though like my brain is like i want to kiss its only because i want to get it over with but like i also just#feel dread#which probably is not good#i hope she only sees me as friend#the gender thing may also play a role if shes a lesbian and iâll feel terrible if i kiss her under false pretense#bc i put nb as my dating gender thing#okay rant over gn and hugs and i hope u all are havign a good time#EDIT i would say im nb i guess bc idk wtf is going on but đ
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Hi Cas :) I just need a lil advice if thatâs okay. Iâm straight but iâm proudly dating a trans man, and so we celebrate pride every year.Â
Iâve had people come up to me recently and ask me why Iâm celebrating pride. I donât make it a trend to out my boyfriend to people I vaguely know, so I tell them Iâm an ally.Â
I celebrated pride before I met my boyfriend (about 3 years ago) and I am an ally now, but to be entirely honest (and i regret this now), I didnât used to care that much.Â
I used to say I was an ally- but I donât think I really was. I just sort of, didnât care. But now I can proudly say I am an ally :)Â
Anyway, recently someone who me and my boyfriend have been like semi-friends with (I met him through my boyfriend actually) asked me why I celebrate pride. I told him iâm an ally. And he said âbut like, youâre more than an ally right? Cause of *boyfriend*â
This confused me, so I told him âNo? I mean *boyfriend* has definitely opened my eyes more to the lgbtq+ community since I started dating him, but iâm still an ally? What do you mean?â
Then he begun a rant on how people who date trans people ARENT ACTUALLY STRAIGHT.Â
I am angered.Â
I am very angered.
Iâm not gonna say it was easy at first, I wasnât very well acquainted with the lgbtq+ community, i had sort of a, live and let live, opinion I guess.Â
But when I met my boyfriend I fell for him pretty fast (which isnât my usual style).Â
It threw me when I found out, but I never really did question that Iâm straight?
And iâm not questioning that now or anything, I love my boyfriend, weâre actually engaged (as of two months, he proposed on the anniversary of the day we met) and weâre planning our wedding and going to pride like we always do and everything. (And in case youâre wondering, we agreed iâd carry on saying boyfriend instead of fiancĂ©, until I can say husband, cause he says itâs one of the little things thatâs gender affirming â€ïž)Â
I guess I just donât really understand why people think that dating a trans person changes your identity. For example, my family found out he was trans near the beginning because my sister cyber stalked him, found an old photo and figured it out. And then she âaccidentallyâ told our parents (sheâs since apologised), and they were all cool with it (although I was irritated heâd been outed) but they all IMMEDIATELY assumed I was Bi? And that I just hadnât told them.Â
Usually I ignore this (and iâm not offended that they think iâm part of the community or anything) but I find it a bit⊠like itâs de-valuing him and who he is? I donât know if that makes sense, but itâs like saying heâs not actually a man- cause I have to be something else to love him?Â
It just pisses me off, but he never seems bothered by it. In all the years iâve known him, and everything weâve talked about, he continues to be unbothered by it, saying that he canât change other ignorance.
And yeah okay heâs right, he shouldnât have to explain himself and neither should I. But why do people feel the need to assume? Or worse, give me a SPEECH about how iâm âprobably not straight cause my boyfriends trans?âÂ
Also, I seem to run into the same problem with his lgbtq+ friends saying that to me AS WELL?Â
Most of his friends are genuinely so lovely, and they all adore me (cause iâm awesome) and I adore them (cause theyâre awesome) but thereâs one or two who consistently make jokes about me liking more than men because of my boyfriend?
If they make comments in front of the others theyâre always yelled at, and my boyfriend always tells them to leave me alone. But he makes these excuses for their comments, like the environment they grew up and they lives theyâve had. And I donât feel like I have the right to tell them what jokes they can and canât make, but really?Â
Why make a joke that I HAVE to be something other than straight to date my BOYFRIEND. Stop saying heâs anything less than a normal man? Like I donât gettt ittt at all.Â
Someone once told me the definition of straight was to only feel sexual attraction to the opposite gender and thatâs why iâm not straight.Â
And I told them he IS the opposite gender.
And they went, yeah but heâs not Cis.
(also can I add a real quick, you literally cannot be a feminist and transphobic. Because so many people have said to me that the difference is whatâs in his pants. Why do you care whatâs in his pants? Why does anyone? Isnât that the whole point? Itâs so annoying).Â
OKAY I guess this is just a rant. I canât ask for advice on how to get everyone to just magically stop being a dick. BUT WHY? Why are some people like this?Â
Maybe if you donât understand something, just leave it alone. Donât keep harassing me about whether or not iâm straight and DEFINITELY donât ask me in front of my boyfriend dipshit.Â
Ooooo, this is WOW
Okay so...ugh. I'm trying to form my thoughts.
You are completely right. Dating a trans person doesn't change your sexuality. If you, a woman, are attracted to men and only men, then you are straight. It doesn't matter if those men are trans or cis.
I think the problem is, and I'm trying to word this correctly, SOME people who are arguing otherwise think they are doing so for a good reason? Like they're being allies? they want to recognize trans people as part of the lgbtqia+ community so much that they forget that trans people can be STRAIGHT, and so can their partners. It doesn't make trans people any less a part of the community, it just means that they're...straight.
By mixing up gender and sexuality, these people are essentially being the opposite of allies to trans people. They're not seeing trans men as men and vice versa. its hurtful and invalidating.
So yeah, you are completely in the right, and I think it's important to remember that even people in the LGBTQIA+ community are NOT perfect. EVERYONE needs to constantly work on being educated.
Also, shout out to you for being such an amazing girlfriend. You really seemed to be working to support your boyfriend and his needs.
Naming you straight anon <3
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my fav fics masterlist part 1 (A-M)
iâm currently procrastinating learning autocad & editing youtube videos, so here i am. this post is long bc of the format of the summaries - sorry about that, wanted to keep them formatted how the authors had them! anyway, this is all my fav fics, alphabetically. this is part 1. part 2 will be coming...at some point. grab a snack, grab a beverage & settle in friends. :)
as small as possible by mickey_d
âHarry is a rather shy omega who's quite convinced everyone (except his best friends) laughs at him behind his back and sometimes to his face.
Louis is a confident alpha who is taken with his best artist's friend.â
a million roses (bathed in rock nâ roll)Â by deLILAh
âau. harry sings in smoky dive bars; louis misses his flight home. they go to coney island in the morning.
(aka - harry is lana del rey, and louis makes him a star.)â
adore you by @isthatyoularry
ââWe invited our new acquaintances from uptown. Youâve simply got to meet their oldest son!â said his mother with a flourish, and suddenly it became abundantly clear as to why his parents had so adamantly demanded he join them in Deansville for the entirety of the summer.
Against his wishes, Harry spends the holidays at his familyâs summer estate, and is reluctantly pulled into a courtship he didnât ask for. Harry doesnât want to get married, but Louis does. They donât fit, but then again they really, really do.
Vaguely set in the 1920âs. Headpieces, jazz, fashionable canes, and flapper dresses, and that.â
are you taking clients? by @jaerie
âEscaping had been the hardest thing Harry had ever done. They'd stolen his child and nearly stolen his life. Being homeless and pregnant gave Harry few options. It's a last resort to let men fetishize his body, but the luxury of choice is something Harry doesn't have.â
and the truth shall set you free... by @jaerie
âBetism: A religion based on the belief that the beta gender has been chosen by God to protect and defend the purity and dignity of the human race by resisting and condemning the lustful ways and flawed biology of the alpha and omegaâ
ainât that a kick in the head! by @karasunonolibero and keysmashlesbian
ââWell.â Niall unlocks his phone. âIt wasnât getting the traction I wanted on Snapchat. SoâŠI tweeted it.â
What.
âYou tweeted it,â Harry states, nearing a state of brain dead. âTo your ten thousand followers.â
Niall nods, handing Harry the phone. âYouâre a meme, Harry.â
âIâm a what?â
âA meme. Itâs like an internetââ
âI know what a fucking meme is, Niall! Why did you make me into one?â
Niall has the fucking balls to cackle at that while Harry looks at the mess his former friend created. Videos of him screaming at Tomlinson about Tide Pods and his ass are being quoted and combined with memes to a create a level of memeception Harry has never seen before. That isnât even including the thousands of tweets of him falling up the stairs remixed with random Top 40 songs.
~
In which Harryâs a disaster gay who doesnât know shit about soccer, Liam drinks too many blue raspberry Coolattas, Niall knows everyone, Zayn looks dead, and Louis is Not Happy about sharing his breakout moment with âDrunk Hawaiian Guy.ââ
atlas at last by louisandthealien
âHe doesnât know what he had been expecting out of the road trip itself besides burping contests and too much shitty gas station food with Oli and Stan, but in the brief moment before Harry ambles up his driveway, Louis idly wonders if this is about to become some sort of Gay Coming of Age story.
Maine to California in ten days. In which Zaynâs an open-shirt hippie they meet somewhere in Ohio, Liamâs the pastorâs son running away from home, and Niallâs the number they call on the bathroom wall.
Itâs 1978. Harry and Louis are just trying to get to San Fran in time for the Queen concert.â
all i want is to fall with you by @2tiedships2
âThe pair looked at each other for a few moments before Harry moved forward and gathered Louis in an unexpected hug.
It was nice, but why the fuck was an unknown alpha hugging him? Maybe an even better question would be why did Louis feel so secure in this stranger's arms?
Harry quickly let go and Louis felt something pull at him.
"Sorry," Harry said, holding his hands up in surrender. "Shit, um, that just seemed a natural response for some reason. Iâm so sorry."
Louis smiled up at the alpha. "It's okay. Thanks again, Harry."
"You're welcome. I know it's horrible weather, and less than optimal circumstances, but this was a brilliant meet-cute."
What the fuck was a meet-cute?
Or the weekend ski trip where omega Louis discovers that he canât change a tire and his skiing skills are debatable but still manages to find the alpha who will change his life.â
ask and iâll obey by orphan account
ââSo, tell me what you want?â The younger boy demanded, and Louisâ mind filled with inappropriate images of Harry. Everything to do with Harry.
âIâŠâ He couldnât think. Could barely breathe, and his dick was so fucking hard in his track pants he didnât know why Harry wasnât pointing it out.
âYouâŠhave to do whatever I say for a whole day.â Louis blurted out.
âDeal.â Harry said without missing a beat, his green eyes shining like the light in The Great Gatsby. His easy agreement had Louis groaning, because Harry already did whatever Louis told him to do.
Or, the one where Harry and Louis challenge each other not to get off to see who will break first.â
and thatâs the tea by @2tiedships2
âIâd like an Earl Grey with milk and sugar, please.
Louis had the phrase memorized, even though it had disappeared off its place on his upper arm over thirteen years ago now.
At fourteen he didnât understand. Soulmarks donât just disappear. Not unlessâŠ
Unless one of them dies.
Or, the one where Louis loses his soulmate before even getting the chance to meet them, and he is in no way prepared for the kind of distraction his new friend Harry proves to be.â
a cauldron of love by @zimriya
ââOh for Merlinâs sake, yes,â Niall interrupts finally. âHarryâs been in love with Louis Tomlinson since that time in second year when he went and accidentally peed on him.â
Harry turns to face him, horrified. âNiall!â he squeaks out. âYou promised you wouldnât tell anyone about that!â
Niall just shrugs and wipes his mouth with a napkin. âAw, come off it, Hazza, was it really a secret?â When Harry doesnât say anything, he pauses and looks up. âIt was?â he says. âAh, bollocks.ââ
a fully armed battalion (to remind you of my love)Â by @mediawhorefics
ââHe was flirting with you by the way,â Niall says casually once heâs finished saying goodbye to Louis and heâs joined Harry outside.
âNo he wasnât,â Harry replies automatically, feeling his heart clench at the thought. Was he?
Niall simply raises a mocking eyebrow in response before wrapping his scarf twice around his neck.
âNot that it matters!â Harry says quickly, eyes widening. âI wouldnât care even if he did because heâs awful and the worst.â
Everyone at Hogwarts knows that Professor Styles and Professor Tomlinson absolutely despise each other. It's too bad that they're in love.â
all your mates are here by @londonfoginacup
â"The pack is... It's folding, Harry."
Like every werewolf does when they get to a new town, Harry joined one of the many local packs when he started university. Now, three years into his program, he's hit with the news that his pack is giving up, going their separate ways. In the wake of the holidays, the three single wolves from the Majestic pack are pointed in the direction of a new pack to join; one that's got struggles of its own.
A new pack, a new house, and two new roommates with personal space issues... Plus exams, of course.
Happy Christmas, here's to many more.â
a cage for every ugly spirit by @povverbottoms
âFirst-year uni student Harry gives up orgasms for Lent, featuring a cock cage and weekly prostate milkings on Sundays. Warning for religion kink. Written for the 1D Novena Ficathon.â
at last, at last by @suspendrs
ââCome with us,â Tommo says, stopping at the other end of the gymnasium, near the doors. âDonât let them make you suffer any longer. Come with us, and be human.â
Before Harry has even finished thinking it through, heâs on his feet, gaining the attention of every single person in the gymnasium. What has he got to lose, anyway?
Or, Harry is born into a cult in a post-apocalyptic world, and Louis is the leader of the rebel group tasked with the mission of shutting them down. Together, they make a rather effective team.â
all we have by colourexplosion
âHe looks at the person whoâs asked him a question and then immediately wishes he hadnât. Heâs beautiful, is the thing, and Harryâs met him before.
âNo, sorry,â he says, shaking his head, averting his eyes. Itâs an old habit, one heâs gotten better about resisting, but he supposes seeing Louis Tomlinson out in the wild transports him right back to youth club.
âAh, sâfine really,â Louis says, instead of just walking away like a normal person, âPretty boy like you shouldnât be smoking anyway, yeah?â
Harryâs cheeks flood with heat before he can stop it, and he squeezes his eyes shut. Of course. Of course Louis Tomlinson â the boy who basically made Harry realize heâs gay â thinks heâs cute now. Ten years after the fact, and much too late for it to do any good at all. Or, a 'Grown' auâ
a million one, a million two (a million more will never do)Â by @littlelostpieces
âWhile Harry doesnât want to spend his final year at Wilshire Academy sharing his space with yet another idiot roommate, he figures he could have ended up with a lot worse than Niall. As the schoolâs newest scholarship student, Niall provides a fresh perspective on Harryâs privileged life, as well as a grounding presence when Harryâs other friends, Liam and Zayn, are acting like lunatics. Most importantly, though, Niall introduces him to Louis, a cynical townie with zero interest in spending his time around entitled boarding school kids. Convincing Louis that heâs more than a trust fund and a charming smile wonât be easy, but Harryâs never been one to back down from a challenge.
An AU loosely inspired by the short-lived WB drama, Young Americans, and the Gotta Be You music video.â
a life that we share (i owe it all to you)Â by @all-these-larrythings
âWhen Harry's son came home from school crying he didn't think things could get any worse. Lucky for them, things were just about to change for the best.
or
Harry's son get bullied until Louis' son shows up :)â
all the right moves by @cherrystreet
âThis is the third game in a row that Harry has been distracted by the noisy boy in the stands, five rows back.
Thereâs really no reason that he should feel compelled to stare into the audience as frequently as he is, but he canât help it. This boy is a nuisance. And heâs loud. Even from basketball court with nine other players running by him, shoes squeaking on the shiny hardwood floor, and thousands of cheering college students, Harry can hear this boy nearly shrieking, his laugh more like a cackle than anything.
Itâs seriously obnoxious.â
boys fall like dominoes by orphan account
âHarry slips into an early heat while riding the tube. Naturally, that's when he meets Louis.â
baby we could be enough (iâll make this feel like home)Â by orphan account
ââDid you clean the table?â Harry asks Louis once Rose is done speaking, now occupied with trying to see if she can reach over and touch Harryâs hair from where sheâs sat. At Louisâ nod, Harry frowns. âYou didnât have to do that. Youâre my guests here, I couldâve dealt with it later.â
Louis just smiles easily, though, adjusting Rose on his lap so that sheâs facing Harry better. She manages to tug on a loose wave of hair, and she makes a noise of triumph that both Louis and Harry smile at.
âI donât mind,â Louis murmurs to Harry, even though heâs looking at Rose. âThis one here seemed very excited to talk to you.â
And, okay. Harry canât help but think of how domestic this feels, all of a sudden.
[harry is a photographer who's trying to find his place. louis is a single father with a smile that feels like home.]â
but if you close your eyes does it almost feel like by pukeandcry
âMarcelâs not sure what the draw is for Louis, but he finds himself looking forward to it, glancing out into the hall several times an hour to see if Louis might be walking by. Louis is just -- heâs magnetic, like heâs got his own gravitational field around him, and it makes Marcelâs stomach jump around nervously just being around him, but it only takes him a few days to realize how much he likes that feeling, the hitch in his chest he gets when he spots Louis across the office and smiles at him.â
burn this flame by @rainbowninja
ââYouâve played keeper before?â Tomlinson asks suspiciously, hands on his waist.â
Er, yeah,â Harry coughs. âLoads of times.â
âAlright Popstar, if youâre sure,â Tomlinson tells him with a shrug, his professional expression already curling into laughter. Harry tries not to read too much into it. After all, how hard can goalkeeping really be?
When Harry gets invited to play in a celebrity charity match with Louis Tomlinson, Manchester United's star player, he's determined to impress him with brilliant football skills. The only flaw in Harry's otherwise foolproof plan? He has absolutely no football skills, brilliant or otherwise.â
but why wonder, why wonder? by @100percentsassy
âThe one where Marcel Styles has improbably landed a job in the fashion industry, and Louis Tomlinson is the actor-turned-lingerie-designer heâs been infatuated with for years.â
babydoll blues by @thedevilinmybrain
âLouis is a high profile, filthy rich label executive who has the world at his feet - a music god.. Harry is the sugar baby trying to make a name for himself singing in shady bars and hanging off the arm of Louis' biggest rival. What Louis wants, Louis gets. But what if the game gets too hot and hits a little too close to the heart?â
back to seventeen by @ireallysawanangel
âAs a first grade teacher in a small town in Illinois, Harryâs life is pretty simple. He loves his job, is close with his family, and has a best friend he would go to the ends of the earth for. When a new soccer coach starts at the local high school, things start to get a bit more exciting for Harry. Because that coach just happens to be Louis Tomlinson; the guy Harry was unrequitedly in love with in high school.
Or the one where Louis moves back to his hometown and Harry realizes heâs still not over his high school crush.â
business or pleasure by therogueskimo
âBoss: Know why I called you in here? Employee: Because I accidentally sent you a dick pic. Boss: (stops pouring 2 glasses of wine) Accidentally?
or the one where Harry sends a snapchat to the wrong person, who just so happens to be Louis Tomlinson, aka his boss.â
baby shut your mouth and turn me inside out by ballsdeepinjesus
âAnd itâs good. Itâs really, really good. Except they havenât really talked about any of this and Harry canât muster the courage to bring it up. Niallâs words at the bar run through his mind nearly every day. Fresh meat. Is this a thing Louis does, then? Find a toy to play with for awhile until he gets bored?
He knows Louis, though. Heâs been friends with him for months now and he knows that heâs not just some heartless asshole. But he doesnât know if this is just a nice convenient hook-up to him or something more, like how Harry feels. And he knows he should ask, but heâs not brave enough. Not brave enough to possibly ruin everything when Harry can take what heâs being offered without complaints.
[harry and louis meet in a mcdonalds. louis is everything harry needs.]â
be my little good luck charm by @100percentsassy
âIn which Harry is a promising amateur golfer making his debut at the PGA Championship, and Louis is a Sky Sports anchor who would really rather be commentating on footie.
The other boys are around too: caddy!Niall provides victory pints, Liam is Louis's Very Serious co-anchor, and poor Zayn just gets his face drawn on.â
baby thinking of you keeps me up all night by ballsdeepinjesus
âLouis sputters in response, shaking his head wildly. Harry moves closer, placing his hand on Louisâ chest and trailing it up towards his neck to curve around. âI am younger than you. Bet you like that. Think you can push me around.â
Louis fishmouths, glaring at Harry who reminds him suspiciously of a shark at the moment. He smells blood in the water.
âIs that what this is about, Louis?â Harry asks. He leans in and fits his mouth against Louisâ earlobe, huffing hot breaths into his ear. âYou want to fuck me, donât you?â
[harry is a 19 y/o singer and louis is a 29 y/o actor with no love for teenage popstars.]â
but when we kiss... by @indiaalphawhiskey
âLouis only nodded, still smiling. âRight, okay. As much fun as this has been, I really doubt the lovely heated seating of my car will dull our banter. Or...â he dragged out the ârâ, eyes mischievous. âAre you really going to let aâŠâ he assessed Harry. âTwenty? Twenty year gap,â he confirmed. âBe the reason you get hypothermia? Is that really the hill you want to freeze on, Mr. Principled?â
ââ Or, while Harry and Louis adore the chase, they find they adore each other much, much more.â
boom, boom, donât you wanna go by anonymous
âIt doesn't take much to convince Harry to participate in Lambda Sig's annual ceremony for graduating seniors. She's hooked up with a few of the brothers already anyway, as lackluster as they were. She has to have her legs and bare bottom half on display for the rest of the brothers in the senior class to see, but she's always kind of liked being played with and definitely likes being on display. She's graduating in a few weeks anyway. What's the worst that can happen?
She doesn't expect contestant number fifteen to blow her mind in the first round. He doesn't let up.â
caught in your gravity by @lululawrence
âIt felt like the blood froze in Harryâs veins even as he got a bit lightheaded. He hadnât even made it two practices, only one of which he was remotely in charge of, without giving it all away and now he and Liam were both absolutely fucked.
âShit,â Harry breathed out. âWho all have you told? Does everyone know? I thought I covered it better than thatâŠâ
âNo, no,â Louis said quickly. "Theyâll figure it out soon enough, though, because theyâll get used to you changing things up, but youâre only going to trip over your so called Americanisms for so long before they realize itâs because you donât actually know fuck all about football.â
Harry sighed. âYeah. I figured. I just need to bullshit for long enough to allow Liam to get the situation figured out from his end.â
âRight, which brings me to my entire point. I think we can find a mutually beneficial arrangement with all of this.â Louis leaned forward. âYou need to learn the ins and outs of the sport incredibly fast. I can help you with that.â
âWhat do you want in exchange?â
Or, an AU inspired by a 30 second trailer of Ted Lasso that doesn't actually have much in common with the show at all.â
counting the steps between us by zarah5
âAU. So, yeah. That year abroad helped Harry establish that he is in love with his best friend. Now, if Louis would stop treating him like a little brother, that would be awesome. (Additional ingredients: a collapsing tree house, a lot of pining, the other three boys as Louis' new best mates from university, and a camping trip. Serve hot.)â
come in and change my life by @lightwoodsmagic
âHeâd had the same neighbours since heâd moved into the building, a lovely, wealthy couple in their late sixties who had always invited him around for tea on Sundays. Martha had dropped off homemade biscuits the day heâd moved in, so Harry figured he may as well repeat the sentiment. He could hear someone getting closer to the door just as a flush ran through his body; oh fuck. His heat was close, too close to be knocking on a potentially unknown alphaâs door, but it was too late. The door swung open, and Harryâs mouth dropped. Heâd never been overly interested in football, couldnât find the fascination in watching men run around after a ball for hours aside from their uniforms, but he knew who this was. Louis Tomlinson, alpha, captain of Manchester United, star in a number of Harryâs heat addled fantasies, was his new next-door neighbour.
Or, Harry and Louis become friends when Harry looks after Louis' cat during away games, until one night at a party changes everything between them. It's just a shame Louis' going to be away for the FIFA World Cup for three months.â
cookie jar by fanshae
âLouis catches Harry with his hand in the metaphorical cookie jar and stays to watch.â
counterculture by @sadaveniren
âIt all culminated to this: Harry in the middle of a crowded basement, music blasting from the live show on the far side, shirtless amongst alphas and omegas who all werenât covering their scents. He took a deep breath of the heavy air and he felt alive.â
convalescent boy (with a heart of gold)Â by @londonfoginacup
âJust as the professor beginning to mess with his powerpoint, the door at the back of the balcony creaks open and Marcel looks back to notice Louis Tomlinson, The Louis Tomlinson, slip in and take a seat in the very back.
Marcel is starting to feel like his life is a comedy. Only yesterday was Louis Tomlinson on his floor at the library. Now heâs in his seminar. What is happening?
âHey Mars,â Nick says, not particularly quietly as he leans over. âIsnât that your crush?â
Marcel smacks him.
Or, the one where Marcel is a nerd who loves to learn but loves to go to theatre productions even more, and may or may not have a long time crush on the lead in most of the plays, Louis Tomlinson. The same Louis Tomlinson who seems to be appearing wherever Marcel is. Funny, that.â
drape me in your warmth by @husbandau
âTMH era fic where Harry is an omega whose heat comes a little earlier than expected and really, who is Louis to deny him his knot?â
deep in my heart i know thereâs only you by ballsdeepinjesus
â"Will you do it?â Harry whispers. Louis has to lean closer just to hear him. He furrows his brows and shakes his head, not knowing what Harry means. âWould you donate for me?â
Louis is dumbfounded. âIâm sorry, I thought you just asked if Iâd donate my sperm. Can you repeat yourself?â
[harry and louis are best friends who engage in some platonic baby-making. very platonic.]â
donât move in (donât move out)Â by @2tiedships2
âOnly one more week and Harry would be living under the same roof. Gone would be Liamâs alpha scent, quickly replaced with Harryâs. All Harry. Louis was going to fucking die. Youâd think Louis would be used to it by now, that Harryâs scent would simply fade into the background like Liamâs did. But Louis had a feeling he would simultaneously be living in Heaven and Hell once Harry moved in.
Louis was pulled out of his thoughts when Niall smacked him on the back of his head.
"The fuck was that for?" Louis asked, rubbing his head and looking at the bloody Irishman he called his other best friend.
"You were basically drooling, mate,â Niall said. âThat was a courtesy smack to keep your daydreaming from seeping into your pheromones."â
do you like my sweater? by @icanhazzalou
ââLook, for a Sadie Hawkins dance the omegas are supposed to invite the alphas instead of the other way around.â
Niall and Liam shared a look. âThat⊠sounds like the sort of thing you would usually be all over, Lou,â Liam said, face pinched in confusion. Niall nodded his agreement.
âYeah, if omegas were hosting it,â Louis replied sourly. âItâs one thing if we decide that weâre going to ask the alphas for a change. Itâs insulting that they think we need their permission.â
When Harry's alpha fraternity decides to host a Sadie Hawkins dance, outspoken omega Louis has a thing or two to say about it.â
donât have to go to the pool by @kingsoftheimpossible
âLouis is the captain of the swim team, Harry is in love with him a bit, and there's this ritual before Big Meets. Everything goes fine. alternative summary: a suspicious lack of swimming for a story involving a swim team.â
dom louis by @comebackassholes (summary is from first work in the series)
âDear Mr. Louis, Hello. Iâm Harry. I got your contact from a good friend of mine and was wondering if I can get your services. My 30th birthday is coming up and all Iâve ever wanted is to get spanked, maybe more? If youâre interested, please contact me. Iâd love to hear from you. Sincerely, Harry Marcel reads over the words. He guesses there isnât a much better way to ask for what he needs. He almost changes the name again but decides Harry is fine. Itâs generic and nothing that can be traced to him. At least he doesnât think so. Okay, heâs overthinking again so he clicks the send button before he can talk himself out of it. His heart races as soon as he does. He almost wants to take it back, figure out a way to undo it, but he takes a big gulp of his wine to calm down. Itâs fine. This is fine. He can do this.â
do not falter (thereâs a star ahead)Â by @londonfoginacup
âIt's Christmas Eve, and every single one of Louis' family members are crowded inside his little flat. Really, what more could he ask for on his birthday?
The present he never knew he wanted - in the form of an omega from his past - might just make this his most memorable Christmas.â
enjoy the ride by @2tiedships2
ââStop sulking and get up. I have a proposition to make.â
âNiall?â Louis questioned. âDo you think I should put glow in the dark stars on my ceiling?â
He looked over and found Niall giving him an unimpressed look.
âSo, no?â Louis asked. âNo stars?â
âWeâre going on a road trip,â Niall stated.
Louis looked back at his starless ceiling and waved farewell to Niall. âCool. Have fun!â
âNo, you idiot.â Niall let out a frustrated sigh. âYou, me, Liam, and Harry.â
Louis glanced over to Niall and back to the ceiling. âWhoâs Harry?â
Or the one where Louis, an omega more than tired of being treated as lesser than alphas, is forced on a road trip by his beta besties only to meet Harry who might just be the alpha he never knew he wanted.â
even as young as you are by ologist
âHarryâs sister has a baby. When he goes to meet her, he finds more than one new love of his life at the hospital.â
everywhere and nowhere by @2tiedships2
âNiall took a seat and said, "Apparently Louis' downstairs neighbor is a fan of giving Louis creepy gifts. Maybe I should go introduce myself and tell him that Louis actually prefers food."
"What has he given you?" Liam asked.
Louis shrugged as it were no big deal. "There was a rabbit's foot keychain on the door a little after he left from introducing himself and there was a small teddy bear sitting by my door tonight. Obviously I can't prove it's from him, but they seem to have his scent. I could be wrong though."
"Wow," Liam said, looking deep in thought. "That's old school."
"What's old school?" Niall asked. "Giving creepy gifts?"
"I've never known an alpha to do it, to be honest, but he's courting you."
Louis couldn't contain his look of disbelief directed at Liam. "He's courting me. Like some sort of romantic shit they'd do in the 1800s or something?"â
from eight until late, i think about you by supernope
âAfter finding out that his University of Brighton roommate has a YouTube channel, Harry starts up his own channel, on which he posts videos of himself doing weekly challenges. He strikes up a friendship with Louis, a popular youtuber in London, that starts in the comments on their videos and progresses to texting, skyping, and talking about each other in their own videos far too often. They fall for each other long-distance, but put off meeting face-to-face as long as possible, too nervous that they'll screw it all up.
Involves a bunch of YouTube challenges (AKA excuses for Harry to get naked), some awkward snapchat mishaps, and a whole lot of pining.â
face your fears by @sadaveniren
âHarry is a single father, pretending to be a beta after his alpha mated him and left him. Heâs getting by just fine raising the twins when Louis walks into his bakery. Too bad him and Louis will never be a thing.â
foolishly, completely falling by dea_liberty
â"Now that heâs actually gone and done it, there seems to be no way of going back - no rinse and repeat, no ctrl+alt+del, no abort button, no help to be had. Heâs fallen into a black hole and he cannot seem to find a way out. The black hole is also known as Tumblr. More specifically, itâs known as Tumblrâs Larry Stylinson tag."
OR: The one where Louis becomes a Larry shipper by accident.â
faking it by @donotdialnine
âA uni AU in which Louis has been Harryâs best friend since he offered him cubed fruit on the playground, and they spend more time cuddling in their dorm beds than they do apart, but itâs not like that. Or is it?
Aka Harry pretends to date his best friend to escape unwanted attention from a too insistent classmate and hopes it wonât blow up in his face. Featuring embarrassing dildo accidents, awkward boners, longing, first times, late night conversations, emotional discoveries and Niall as the exasperated friend with bad advice.â
feel so foolish by @juliusschmidt
âLouis and his friends keep laughing at Harry; he's sure of it. But he's not sure why.â
fever started long ago by @mediaville
â"Stay." His brain is skipping backwards but his mouth is skipping forward. "Like, in this bed? With me."
The words hang in the air, somewhere in between their naked chests. Louis licks his lips, and a tiny crinkle appears between his eyebrows. "Why?"
Does there have to be a reason for everything? Does everything have to be a debate? Why does Louis ask 'why?' and not 'why not?' Harry's already annoyed that he wants him to stay. "I'm ill," he says, sniffling for good measure. "I need supervision."
Louis hesitates, looking uncertain, and Harry doesn't like that look on him. "It's late," he says eventually. "You need your rest."
"We'll sleep," Harry promises, and as if on cue, he yawns. He is rather sleepy. "It will be restful."
SPOILER: Styles gets his way. It's not restful.â
fiction romance by orphan account
âHarry has a type.
He likes older, sophisticated, mature men. Well-educated men. Men with life experience and passion for arts and social causes. Men who are established in their careers, who've sorted their lives out.
Niall knows this.
And so Harry can't understand why he's sat here opposite Louis Tomlinson.
A punk Louis/uni Harry blind date AU.â
freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this by @rosesau
âHarry (not so) secretly crushes on the cute footie player and fills pages with sketches of him.â
follow me down this time by supernope
âHarry first noticed Louis in his second term at Hogwarts, and despite three years of inventing ways to stumble across Louis, he's never managed to actually work up the courage to speak to him. Also known as, self-indulgent Hogwarts AU, because every fandom needs Hogwarts AUs.â
faith, trust, and a little pixie dust by orphan account
âLouis loves Halloween. Harry hates everything about it, but he loves Louis. And Niall loves vodka and glitter so there's that.
Or the one where Harry has been pining for his best friend and roommate for years. It takes a costume party, an Irish fairy and a sprinkle of pixie dust to give this fairytale prince his happy ending.â
foolishly laying our hearts on the table by @runaway-train-works
ââYou think Harry wants that?â
âDunno. Maybe. Wanna make him happy.â Harry takes advantage of the red light heâs pulled up to turn and look properly at Louisâ face. Heâs not even looking in Harryâs direction though, focused instead on something out of his side window, head drooped, mindlessly playing with the string of his hoodie between his fingers, lost in his own world somewhere. For some reason, it makes Harryâs spine straighten.Â
âBecause heâs your best mate?â Harry questions carefully.Â
âHeâs my boyfriend.â
He couldnât have heard him right. âWhat?â
Louis releases a deep breath, still not turning around. Harry wonders who he thinks heâs talking to right now. âHeâs so pretty. Want to kiss him all day long. And buy him a big house and give him presents and marry him.â
Or
The one where Harry is in love with his best friend Louis but doesn't think he stands a chance until some wisdom teeth and a rather unusual confession might just change his mind.â
give you my fever by beautlouis
âAnd heâs wanted it even more since he met Louis, it's driven him insane, he spends 90% of his life turned on because of Louis and heâs had no relief at all. Heâll wake up at night too hot and itchy, with Louis warm and sweet smelling next to him, and unable to do anything but wank unsuccessfully, with no release. âI can try,â Louis says, close enough that Harryâs eyes cross a little trying to look at him. âI want to, Iâve never been with anybody, like, Iâve snogged people, lots of people, but Iâve neverâtouched anyone.â He clears his throat. âIâd touch you, Hazza.â
Harryâs breathing picks up. âYes.â He doesnât think there was a question but heâs a little overwhelmed. âYes,â he repeats, dizzy.
*x-factor era. harry's never had an orgasm before, louis gives him his firstâ
gathered on wings by @twopoppies
âAs Harry lay by Louisâ side, covered in sweat and come, he knew he should feel ugly, messy, ruined, like the life heâd left behind. But something about the way Louis looked at him, the way he stared at him with want and awe, made Harry wonder if heâd ever feel this beautiful again.
Harry rolled his eyes at himself for his momentary romantic dreaminess. As good as this was, he knew it was nothing more than sex. He literally couldnât afford to fall for just anyone, no matter how fit they were.
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What Harry Styles wanted was to be taken seriously as an artist. What he needed was a new sugar daddy to pave the way. Louis Tomlinson is an artist who isnât what Harry is looking for. Somehow he still manages to turn Harry's world upside down. â
gorgeous (it makes me so mad)Â by @artxghoul
âHarryâs a coffee barista with nothing really going on for him except for the occasional flirting with, some, particularly hot male customers. But when a new guy starts coming in, he suddenly doesnât know what to make out of any single situation anymore.
or: Harry is a hot mess. Liam is a brilliant roommate. Niall is a wise lesbian co-worker. Clifford is a good boy. Louis is a bad boy. Circumstances are bizarre.â
got my eyes on you by @eleadore
âHarryâs not supposed to take off his clothes, but itâs one of those unspoken rules, much like donât have a wank with your best mate and definitely donât make that a regular thing, fuck, what the fuck.â
give a little sing to the singles by @londonfoginacup
âHarry Styles is an adult now, with a real adult job (and benefits! Whatever those are!). He spends his days at the copier. Copying things.
That being said, no one told Harry that being an adult came with a confusingly chaotic boss, a copier machine that would be hell-bent on ruining his life, and a coworker so good looking that Harry might just have to quit. After all, Christmas is coming and if their office doesnât win the decorating contest, Louis has threatened to break several laws and kneecaps in retaliation.
Happy Christmas, hereâs to many more.â
haven by orphan account
â"I take it youâre not a new student?â âWhat?â Harry mumbles, caught up in the way his eyes are quite literally sparkling in the light. âOhâNo. Not a student.â âAre you a sub?â Louis asks. Harry clenches his hands into fists, holding them behind his back as he stumbles a bit. âI donât, uhâI mean. Iâve never really gotten a chance to be a true sub, you know? My ex-partners were always scared theyâd hurt me. But, likeâIf I trusted someone a lot, and if we used a, a safeword. And talked about, you know, boundaries, thenâYes, yeah, I-Iâm a sub.â Louisâ eyes are so wide, his cheeks puffing out in the effort to not burst into laughter. âOh shit, oh my god,â Harry whispers. âYou meantâOh god."â
horizontal like a quarter to three by orphan account
âThe worst part is that Louis just wants to get really rough with him. He's wanted it right from the start, and it doesn't make sense, because Harry's always been so gentle and understanding and sweet, and yet all Louis wants to do is fuck him up.â
homegrown by casuallyhl
ââIt wasnât an easy decision, if Iâm honest,â Harry admits, shoulders sagging in on himself. âMoving is really difficult. My whole life was in Manchester. But Manchester didnât want me. Leeds did.â
âWell, Leeds is happy to have you,â Louis says, giving Harry a kind smile.
Harry brightens a bit at that, undeniably pleased. âYeah?â
âYeah,â Louis replies, expression soft and lips curved.
Or, a gardening AU where Harry is new to town and the newest volunteer at the local gardening club, Louis is the attractive grandson of one of the members, and the nosy volunteers hatch a plan to get them together.â
hike up your skirt (and show your world to me)Â by anonymous
âLouis has a very hands on approach to training his new secretary. How else can he make sure Harry realizes his full potential?â
have a nice trip by @kingsofeverything
âWhile Harry and his roommate Louis are stuck at home practicing social distancing, they decide to take a little trip to pass the time.â
holiday greetings (and gay happy meetings)Â by @2tiedships2
â"Onwards to drop me off at Robert's before you go to Harry's!" Louis proclaimed when they were safely in the car. Or at least Louis was safely in. Niall was still brushing the snow out of his hair that Louis had accidentally dropped on him.
"We're picking up biscuits first," Niall grumbled as the snow melted into his hair. "You can wait in the car."
After three times of the car sounding like it was dying a slow and tragic death, it finally decided to start.
"This is what happens when you try to change the name of your car after five years," Louis said as a reminder of Niall's stupidity. "You'd be upset too if you were a car named Greased Lightning with a passenger trying to get it renamed to Dusty."
"To be fair," Niall explained, "the name Dusty does seem a bit more accurate."
"Make sure to leave the car running while you're getting whatever you're getting from Harry," Louis said in disgust. "This car is going to choke for good after that comment and I don't want to be stuck at Harry's place when that happens."
Or the one where Niall's dead car and and a foot of snow conspire to force Louis into spending time with an alpha he hates.... or does he?â
hard for me to know i might see you around by @coffeelouis
âThe next profile shows a guy and his horse both crashing into the ground, the bio below reading:
"Hi, I'm Louis, I suck at riding horses so I ride dick."
Harry rolls his eyes and swipes left, but before he can consider the next profile in his feed, thereâs a quiet âOofâ from right behind him.
[or, a TINDER AU where Harry swipes left on Louis' joke of a profile, then ends up stuck next to him on a trans-Atlantic flight.]â
in all its imperfections by @briannamarguerite
âFrom: Louis Tomlinson To: Undisclosed Recipients
Hello!
Iâve asked the front desk and you lovely folks are the ones who are on the same level as me in the car park. I found a to-do list today that looked somewhat important because it has lines of poetry scribbled at the bottom that seemed like they might be for a card project. The stationary has a moose in a canoe at the top of it (and he is quite adorable). Let me know if itâs yours!
Cheers!
âOh. My. Fucking. God,â Harry whispered, his eyes darting over the sentences again willing them not to make sense. They did, they did make sense. âOh. My. Bloody. Fucking. God.â
The next thing he knew he was on the floor, staring at the ceiling, with a very concerned Liam hovering over his head.
"What happened, mate?" Liam asked.
Harry just pointed to his computer.
Liam bent over Harryâs desk to read the email. âWhat? This isnât bad. Is that your to-do list? Did you finally come up with the inside text for those cards?â
âLeeyum" he groaned. âItâs whatâs on the list.â
âOh,â Liam paused for a beat. âIs it dirty stuff?â
Harry nodded.
There was more silence. And then, âDirty stuff with Louis?ââ
i wanna get dirty with you by awriterwrites
ââYou good?â
The manâs voice rang out like clear bells from a church tower, light and airy with a gentle rasp like a knife on toast.
It took Harry a moment to realize he was talking to him.
âMe?â Harry squeaked out, his voice a bit wobbly around the edges.
âJust waiting for you to get settled, sweetheart.â
This guy was a naturalist? The headmaster of an outdoor preschool? Harry felt a little woozy. Like he might collapse or propose. He wasnât quite sure.
**** Harry is a kindergarten teacher. Louis is revolutionizing education--one child at a time. A conference may be an unlikely place to meet someone, but somehow Harry finds Louis and Louis helps Harry find himself.â
i donât wanna be your friend, i wanna kiss your neck by crybaby
âHarry has been in love with Louis Tomlinson for four years, five months, and thirteen days.
Harry had fallen in love with Louis Tomlinson like how heâd seen in movies, and how heâd read in all the books heâd stolen from Gemma, headfirst and shameless.
The only problem was, that in films and books, love was always either returned instantly, or else it took time for unrequited love to lose the first two letters, and since the first option was obviously not true, Harry decided he would wait for the second to become reality. And so Harry waited, three years, eight months, and four days, before his heart had been broken by a gentle rejection and a misplaced blowjob, before Louis and Gemma had packed up and gone to Manchester for university.
(Harry is a hopelessly romantic omega and Louis is his sister's best friend)â
i want your high love and emotion, endlessly by deLILAh
âau. louis is sick of vajazzling, harry is saving up for a tandem bike, and they master their own destinies.
[or, camboy harry goes in for some intimate detailing, and something big happens.]â
if tomorrow never comes (we had last night)Â by @fallinglikethis and @all-these-larrythings
âLouis accepts the call without bothering to look at the caller ID. Only Zayn would be a big enough asshole to call him at two in the morning. This fucking better be important. âThis fucking better be important,â Louis greets.
On the other end of the line comes a soft giggle. âLi, you donât usually curse. I donât know whatâs gotten into you, but I like it.âÂ
Yeah, thatâs not Zayn. Louis sighs, his anger melting into resignation when he realizes that itâs some poor bastard probably drunk dialing his ex or something. âSorry, mate. Think youâve got the wrong number.â Based on this Tumblr prompt: "Accidentally called your number while drunk asking for a ride and you actually came au"â
iâll crash until you notice me by @aliensingucci
âLouis sets off to Barbados to oversee the massive resort his family owns known as Sandy Hill. For years, he's been looking for a change in the monotony of his life, seeking adventure and perhaps love too. What he doesn't expect is the bright eyed boy who spills a milkshake on his shoes.
Cue the summer loving.â
into another (another) serotonin overflow by mercutionotromeo
âHarry wants this year to be different - wants it to be the year that he finally gets over this stupid crush. Heâs going to uni, he needs to decide what he wants to do with his life.
Instead, heâs deciding what he wants to do to Louis Tomlinson.
Or: Sweet first time sex wherein Harry's adorably awkward, Louis is achingly cool, and Harry rides Louis wearing his jersey.â
iâve been thinking âbout it all day lsforever
âWhen he heard about the job opening, from his nosy Aunt of course, Harry was ecstatic to go down there and talk to the shop owner. Her name is Perrie, and she and her best friend Louis opened the shop together not too long ago. Harry remembers the pair well from when he was in school.
or, Harry gets a job in Perrie and Louis' potion shop. He wasn't planning on the huge crush he develops on his boss.â
iâm not that other guy by @jaerie
âHarry has just come back from maternity leave when he unexpectedly goes into heat. He runs into a coworker on his way out.â
introduction to dynamics by @juliusschmidt
âLouis Tomlinson is the outspoken omega in the 'Introduction to Dynamics' course Harry wishes he didn't have to take. He's nearly certain to present as a beta, after all. Things will be simple for him.â
itâs not what it looks like by @kingsofeverything
âQuarantine allows Harry the time to improve his sewing skills, thanks to the face masks he makes for friends and family. Proud of his work, he posts a picture on Instagram, but it's not what it looks like.â
iâd burn this city down to show you the light by @nobodymovesÂ
âHarry's a sheltered rich kid and Louis's a punk with a heart of gold. They meet when Louis breaks into Harry's house, Harry obtains an instant and all-encompassing crush, and they spend the summer falling into a whirlwind romance.â
i made a map of your stars by @brightbluelouÂ
âHarry does not have a crush on Louis Tomlinson. Yes, Louis is very pretty and funny, and Harry may have had more than a few inappropriate thoughts about him, but he certainly doesnât like him. (Except for the fact that he totally does.) or, Harry is the shy boy in the back of the class that no one really notices. Louis is the loud, outgoing football player that everybody likes.â
in dreams by @haydolce
âAU. When Harry moves to a new city, his new flat come with a number of sweet, anonymous gifts and surprises that brighten his days. Could it be a friendly ghost? Another friendly presence in his new building is his tattooed neighbor, Louis, who seems determined to put a smile back on his face.â
i do not feel the fear of falling (thought i could fly)Â by turismoemocional
â"After months of being showered with attention from the gorgeous boy, Louis feels like heâs experiencing a drought, and he yearns for even a single look in his general direction. He's pining and he knows it, feels like he's wilting. He canât decide if being fired and arrested and disowned by his mum would have been the better outcome at this point."
Or - Harry is 19, Louis is 25. Student/Teacher relationships should remain strictly professional at all times... That's not to say they always do. Things get messy quickly.â
itâs halftime. are you ready to go? by @gaycousinlarry
âReason #12 - Because it's halftime.
Harry would like to think that he doesnât know how he got himself into this. Only⊠heâd be lying. Because he knows exactly how he got himself into this. Oh man, does he know, and itâs all because of a certain Louis Tomlinson. Alternatively - football is gay and Harry is trying to cope.â
itâs like i breathe you by orphan account
âLouis shrugs, grabbing the smoothie and taking a sip of it. Heâs not really bragging. But. âIâve kind of always had everything I wanted.â
âEverything?â Harry asks, genuinely interested, his green eyes wide.
Louis looks at Harry, smiling at him across the table and twirling a curl around his finger. Not everything.
or the one where louis volunteers to teach high school students about the ropes of business and running a company of your own, but he certainly does not plan on running into harry styles.â
i know how to whisk (but teach me anyway)Â by @2tiedships2
âLouis scrunched his eyebrows in confusion. âI donât understand. Unmated alphas donât just go into a rut out of nowhere. UnlessâŠâ
Louis grabbed onto Niallâs arm in desperation. âAm I a homewrecker? Does Harry have a mate? Oh my God, was he not flirting? Did the change in his scent not have anything to do with my smell yesterday? Did I just make that up!?â
Louis let go of Niall and dropped his face in his hands. âI knew it was too good to be true.â
âYouâre an idiot,â Niall stated. Louis looked up to find Niall rolling his eyes. He snapped his laptop closed and moved to stand up. âI need to get some work done. Why donât you stay here and think back to ABO dynamics 101.â
With that Niall hopped off the couch and headed to his room. He stopped and turned to Louis before he made it to the hall and said, âOh, and Lou. You may want to reconsider your outlook on soulmates.â
Louis yelled after him. âSoulmates arenât a thing, Niall!â
Or the one in which banana bread just might make Louis change his mind about soulmates.â
itâs in the contract by anonymous
ââI canât make rent this month,â Harry says.
âAwesome,â says Mitch. Mitch is the house leader. Heâs the one leading the house meeting. âFree your schedule on Friday, Phi Sigma Kappa are coming over for game night anyway.
Harry swallows, nodding. âAlright,â he says.
Harris puts a hand on his thigh. âHey,â he whispers into Harryâs ear. âIâd pay at least thirty for you.â
Harry snorts. âThanks,â he says. âGood to know Iâm an expensive bitch.ââ
just jump by @jaerieÂ
âFinally, after years of suffering alone, the insurance plan at Harry's new job covered omega heat services. As a grown omega adult, it finally felt like the right time to try it out. And, since taking an entire week of heat leave would really put him behind at work, using a service to shorten it seemed like a responsible decision. At least thatâs how he rationalized it. He was nervous about his decision but it was too late. The doorbell rang.
âHi!â The alpha said again and Harry took the hand he offered and shook it firmly. âIâm Louis from Omega Services. Itâs nice to meet you.ââ
just for me by @canonlarry
âHarry is a supermodel with a fake boyfriend. Louis is the captain and star forward of Manchester United with a fake girlfriend. They should have no problem having a completely platonic lunch between friends.
(They do.)â
just one look (and i fell so hard)Â by @disgruntledkittenface
âLouis takes a small step back, breaking the moment first. âWell, I shouldââÂ
âDo you want to come up?âÂ
The words are out of Harryâs mouth before heâd even planned them, and he bites his lip.Â
âOh, thank god,â Louis laughs, stepping back into Harryâs space. âI wasnât, umâŠâ âWasnât ready to let go of you yet,â Harry finishes quietly, glancing up at Louis. âYeah,â Louis nods, reaching up and twirling one of Harryâs curls in his fingers. âYeah, exactly.â
Harry has wanted to go to the Shubert Theatre ever since he moved to New York and lucked into a rent-controlled apartment just outside of the Theatre District. When he finally gets his chance, he hopes the night can meet his sky-high expectations. But the last thing he could have expected was the man seated next to him.â
know you better. by @wabadabadaba
âIt didn't help that oftentimes Niall and Zayn's other friend, Louis joined them and from all the stories Marcel has heard about Louis, he was positive they wouldn't get along. From their description, Louis was loud, annoying, and competitive. He liked to tease Niall and Zayn mercilessly and he was creative. Being a tattoo artist, Louis knew things about art that Marcel would simply never understand due to his analytical mindset. He was the complete opposite of Marcel and Marcel didn't think he would ever last in a social setting where he had to be with Louis.
or the one where Marcel and Louis fall in love.â
kiss me on the mouth and set me free by @maggieisalarrie
âLouis has his head thrown back in a laugh, his wet fringe hanging in front of his eyes, and a beautiful flush to his cheeks. From this angle, the sun hits his face just right to where the beams of light are shining in between the spaces of each individual clump of watered down eyelashes. His chest is showing through the soaked material of his white jersey and it seems that his biceps are attempting to break free from the sleeves that are clinging to his skin.
And Harry can do nothing except take it all in. He doesnât even think heâs breathing at this point. He is literally stuck in place, admiring the true beauty of Louis Tomlinson, while being surrounded by fit footballers and generally attractive people. He doesnât think heâs ever been in love before, but if Louis let him, heâs pretty damn sure he could change that in the matter of a few nanoseconds.â
kiss from a rose by @chloehl10
âHarry is the quiet one in the office no one ever notices. Until Louis does, that is. When notes start appearing on Harryâs desk, he ponders who is behind the kind words, oblivious to Louisâ attempts to get his attention...â
knock knock, i love you by beautlouis
ââWell,â Louis says, searching for something to relieve this tension. âI think if a bloke gets kicked out of his stats exam for a knock knock joke, he deserves to hear the punchline, yeah?â
âOh!â Harry says, beaming. âI forgot where we left off, what was it again?â He looks overjoyed to be exchanging a shit joke.
âAh, you said knock knock, then I said whoâs there, and then you said Noah,â Louis supplies helpfully. He hates that he's actually curious about the rest of the joke. âSo, Noah who?â
âOh,â says Harry, in a much different tone, dragging out the syllable. He looks bashful now. Louis cannot keep up with this boy, it's going to kill him. âRight, well.â He shuffles his feet. Fuck, what kind of knock knock joke gets a boy nervous? âNoah a good place we could get something to eat?â
[Harry and Louis get kicked out of a statistics exam for passing a knock knock joke note, and subsequently fall in love. Harry's a virgin, there's a cat, a hot cocoa date, a lot of sex, even more knock knock jokes, and everything is lovely and happy.]â
love is divine by @aliensingucci
âBeing a witch doesn't help when it comes to unrequited love.â
let me outshine the moon by sarcasticfluentry
ââFuck,â echoes Liam, shaking his head at them with a small smile on his face. âJust donât get yourselves killed.â
âYou can come too, if you want,â says Niall, standing up.
âI wouldnât be caught dead at a vampire bar,â Liam scoffs, standing up as well. âWait. Fuck.â
...or, boarding school students Niall and Harry chance a trip to the local vampire bar.â
letâs talk about making love by istajmaal
ââThatâs my name, baby, Iâm Louis.â The voice on the phone inhales sharply, then says, âGonna take my cock now, princess?â
Harry lets out a high-pitched mhmm and shudders as he pulls his fingers out of his hole, groping for the vibrator. âNice to meet you,â he says, feeling a bit dizzy with how hard his untouched cock is.
Louis is just a simple phone sex line operator, but to Harry, he's Daddy.ââ
loving you is free by @littlelouishiccups
âLouis is a workaholic record label CEO who hasn't been on a date in nearly a year. Niall and Liam make an account for him on a sugar dating website as a joke. And then Louis meets Harry.â
laundry room by beautlouisÂ
âThe third Wednesday of the new year, Louis finds himself in the laundry room, just as he was the last Wednesday and the one before that. Heâs doing pretty well with his New Yearâs resolution. The only problem so far is the company he finds in the laundry room. It seems that itâs just him and one other boy whoâve chosen late Wednesday nights as prime laundry-doing time. That wouldnât be a problem except for who the other boy is.
Heâs seen this boy around; itâs hard to miss the long-legged, long-haired dream that lives in Louisâ complex. He likes to wear very sheer shirts and very high boots; he is incredibly fucking gorgeous and yeah, Louisâ noticed him but heâs never spoken to him. Until tonight, apparently.
[Louis and Harry are both students living in the same apartment complex. They end up having the same laundry night and time. Louis can't stop staring at Harry and he can't figure out why Harry consistently points out Louisâ inside-out shirts, and his untied shoes, and messy hair. Enter slow burn-ish flirting, banter, awkwardness, and a lot of laundry.]â
lead me out on the moonlit floor by @scrunchyharry and @beauxbatonslouis
âIn all honesty, Harry was long forgotten, cast aside by a dimpled stranger and too much champagne. He was almost glad, now, that Harry hadnât come, because he wouldnât have met this stranger, this tall man who could make his heart flutter with a single glance.Â
Victorian!AU where Louis is a wealthy lord throwing a masquerade ball for his birthday and Harry is a toymaker who's only confident when he's wearing a mask.â
let our hearts collide by @crinkle-eyed-boo
ââLiam is in a coma.â âYeah, we can see that,â the father says, throwing his hands in the air. âGod, this is the most depressing Christmas ever,â the blonde sister mutters. âHis vital signs are strong,â Dr. Higgins assures them. âBrain waves are goodââ âBrain waves?â the mother wails, taking Liamâs hand in hers. âOh my God!â âHow did this happen?â the father demands. âUm, he was pushed from the platform at the subway station,â Harry pipes up. The entire family turns to look at him, confused. Harry shrinks back, wishing he could have just kept his big mouth shut. âWhoâs this?â the father asks, pointing at him. âUm, Iâm Harryââ he starts. âHeâs Liamâs fiancĂ©!â Jade adds helpfully from where she stands by the door. Every jaw in the room drops, including Harryâs. Oh, shit. Shit shit shit. What?
When Harry, a lonely transit worker, saves the life of the handsome commuter he's been secretly pining for, an innocent mistake results in Liam Payne's family believing that Harry is engaged to their son. In the Paynes, Harry finds the big family he's always longed for...and a love he never saw coming.
A While You Were Sleeping AUâ
lemon eyes by @turnyourankle
âIt's not proper for omegas to mess around with alphas before finding their bondmate. But Harry doesn't give a damn what's proper and fully intends on getting as much experience as he can before even trying to find one. As far as he's concerned, the right alpha won't care, and he'll have some fun on the way.
And who better to start with than Louis Tomlinson, the alpha with the worst reputation on campus?â
like how your hands feel me up and down by ballsdeepinjesus
ââHow do I look?â Harry asks lowly. He turns around and gestures towards the unzipped back of his skirt for him to help. Louis stumbles forward and places a cold hand on the exposed side of Harryâs stomach, steadying him while he pulls the zipper up the rest of the way. He pushes Harry back into the dressing room and stands behind him in front of the mirror. âItâs -- youâre tight,â Louis chokes. âItâs tight, I mean. Itâs. Yes.â His hand is curved around his hip now, squeezing lightly.
âTightâs good, right?â Harry murmurs, batting his eyelashes. He almost canât believe himself.
âVery good,â Louis grunts.
[louis works in a halloween shop and harry needs a costume]â
my pleasure (to make you mine)Â by @zanniscaramouche
ââThink about it.â Niall raises an eyebrow at him before amiably leading the interrupting customer to the other side of the store.
And the thing is, even a day later, Harry's done nothing but think about piercing his nipples.
Harry decides to get his nipples pierced. Louis is the piercing artist with a smile that breaks every rule of the universe.â
my service, your pleasure by @hershelsue
âHarry moves in with Louis, his childhood best friend. He had always enjoyed doing things for him, never putting much thought into it. What happens when they're in the same space all the time and Harry can't keep his hands to himself? Surely, his adoration bursts at the seams and a very suspicious Louis tries his best to keep up.â
milk kinship by @jaerie
âHarry had aspired to become a wet nurse since first learning about the honored and respected tradition when he was a teenager. The first documentary heâd seen had been detailed and brutally honest and Harry had still fallen in love with the idea. Itâs origins were rooted in highly regarded positions of the royal staff and were credited in playing a role in the lives of some of the most famous children in history. There were medically trained wet nurses and other milk services for mothers unable to feed their babies, but true wet nurse nannies could only be afforded by the rich and famous. The glamorous life appealed to Harry even if his understanding of his role changed to a more realistic view over time. As a starry eyed kid, that was where he wanted to be.
Or Harry is a wet nurse and isn't allowed to have an alpha. He may or may not break his vows.â
make tea, not war by @whateverdelusional and @popsongnation
â"Is he the messiest?"
"Yes."
"Does he do the washing up?"
"Never."
"Does he make his bed?"
"Never."
"Hopeless, hopeless flatmate. Would you rather be with one of these guys?"
"Nope!"
Or: Louis attempts to become a better flatmate, much to Harry's dismay.â
masterpiece by @rainbowsandlovehl
âHarry stared at his phone for five minutes, waiting for a response before giving up. He scrolled through instagram for a while but nothing caught his fancy. He sighed deeply, glancing up for a second before looking at his phone again then blinked. Wait a second... Harryâs head snapped up quickly and he did a double take because this guy surely hadnât been there the last time Harry had checked the place. No, this person was new and beautiful and different and Harry was pretty sure he was openly gaping at him.
Harry is unwillingly dragged to an art gallery by Niall and his evening turns out better than he expected when he meets Louis. Featuring bad pickup lines and ample flirting.â
meow or never by velvetnoodle (goldfishsunglasses)
âHarry is having a terrible, no good, very bad day.
Heâs holed himself up in the back of the university library, stealing an entire sofa for himself. The fact that no one has said anything to him about it just goes to show how much his feelings must be on display. Thatâs nothing new; Harryâs always worn his heart on his sleeve. And cried easily. Not that heâs crying yet, but heâs close. Itâs been a right shit day, and Harry just wants to go back to his room and bury his face in Evieâs soft fur. Unfortunately, he no longer has that luxury.
When Harry is forced to choose between getting kicked out of student housing or giving up his cat, a moment of self-pity leads to the discovery of a third, and much more appealing, optionâ
my things arenât the only thing youâve stolen by beautyhaz
âHarry thinks he's gone insane when things begin to go missing at school and only one boy knows where they are. It turns into more than he expects.â
midnight memories by grand buzz
âLouis Tomlinson is the successful author of several children's books. Those books happen to be the favourites of Eve Styles, Harryâs six year old daughter. Never one to deny her anything, he takes her to a book signing where Louis will also be reading an excerpt from his new book
Of course, Harry doesn't expect to fall in love with the author whose books he reads every night--but that's exactly what happens.â
make him want to sin by @becomeawendybird
âThe strangerâs sharp gaze landed on him immediately, the eye contact shattering through Harryâs defenses. For the first time in his life, Harry had an instantaneous reaction to someone. The man stared down at him with interest, like he wanted to take Harry apart and put him back together again, piece by piece. Harry wanted that more than anything, and he wanted it right now. It took every ounce of strength he had ever possessed to not drop down to his knees instinctively.
All from one glance.
Harry is a curatorial assistant at the London Museum of Natural History, on the day of the big annual gala he catches a glimpse of someone unexpected.â
thank you to all the authors for creating wonderful fics! youâre all so talented and valued. :)
#blue raspberry coolatta#thedevilinmybrain#zanniscaramouche#hershelsue#2tiedships2#lululawrence#londonfoginacup#jaerie#disgruntledkittenface#crinkle-eyed-boo#ballsdeepinjesus#fic recs#fic rec#fan fic#larry fan fic#fic masterpost#fic masterlist#kingsofeverything#gaycousinlarry#sadaveniren#aliensingucci#juliusschmidt#all-these-larrythings#chloehl10#beautlouis#okokok i'm playing it safe and stopping here#my fic recs
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of slushies and shitty coffees ft. iwaizumi hajime.
đŹ iwaizumi hajime + gender neutral!reader
đŹ 1.5k, convenience store worker!reader, vague immortal and reincarnation au
đŹ this was for vee but i think she deactivated đ§ââïž its also the first one i wrote back in october so its ... maybe not my best
"you know what i am, don't you?" + being immortal boils down to 70% loneliness, 20% doing whatever the hell you want, and 10% recurring nuisances that bear an odd resemblance to your first love.Â
To say you hated working the night shift would be an understatement.
Sure, most days it passed with relative ease and allowed you to study on the clock, your studies rarely interrupted. A group of friends with the munchies here, a fellow student in need of a pick-me-up there, and an elderly woman that came in like clockwork at the 4am mark to buy cat food for the strays living nearby. You were well-acquainted with the few regulars of your shift and fond of the night manager, Saeko. On paper, there would be little to hate.
But the classes you had a mere three hours after your shift ended were nothing short of a living nightmare to push through; at this point, youâre sure that your blood is almost entirely comprised of the slushies and shitty coffee you spend your shift helping yourself to.
In fact, youâre in the middle of making yourself one of these slushies when the door opens behind you. âWelcome,â you throw over your shoulder, catching a glimpse of the customer as you achieve slushie-making self-actualization.
Your mouth goes dry instantly.
Youâre sure they donât just let Greek gods walk into the nearest 7-11, but thereâs clearly a first time for everything. Heâs handsome, with a jaw sculpted from the highest quality marble money could buy. In an attempt to prevent your jaw from hitting the floor, you take a long sip of the slushie. âFuck!â you hiss, clutching your head as you wait for the brain freeze to recede.
In the time that it takes you to get back to the register, the attractive stranger is about ready to check out. âJust this for you?â you ask, the only noise being the whir of the air conditioning and the scanner beeping at the energy bars. When you donât get a response, you glance up at him. Heâs looking right at you, but thereâs something deeper behind it.
Itâs like he knows you, that youâre as familiar to him as the beat of his heart, the air in his lungs. Itâs both too heavy and entirely too intimate for an interaction that consists of you ringing up his 2AM transaction of three protein bars. âThatâll be $4.17.â
He pays in exact change. Not another word is exchanged between you, but the intrigue and infatuation you have for the stranger lingers, even into the classes you have the morning after.
The next time you see him, heâs with someone else. A friend, you assume â the man with the perfect brown hair ribs at him as they walk in. Once he makes eye contact with you, however, he falls silent.
Youâre beginning to feel like youâre missing out on something, especially when the strangerâs friend pulls him over, saying something in a hushed whisper. Something begins to prickle at your skin, and itâs not (just) the way the AC vent blasts on you from where youâre sitting.
Thankfully, Saeko has excellent timing, bringing the mop out and greeting the two with a wide grin. âWe doing alright over here, boys?â They nod, Mr. Shampoo Commercial saying something about midnight cravings before they make their way to the slushie machine.
âListen,â Saeko whispers to you as the mop passes your spot at the register, âif those boys do or even say anything strange, you know what to do.â When youâd first started working the night shift, Saeko had been very clear that your safety was her top priority.
(âYou college kids remind me of my baby brother,â sheâd told you one night as you dusted the shelves. âI know itâd kill me if any of you got hurt.â)
You ring up two slushies: one cherry and one cola. Mr. Shampoo Commercialâs the one paying, and itâs as youâre returning his change that he decides to speak. âDonât you remember us?â His voice is smooth, with a dangerous lilt to it.
âOikawa,â warns Mr. Protein Bar. âDonât.â
âWhy not, Iwa?â To you, Oikawa asks, âItâs been a while, donât you think?â
âIâm sorry,â you say, trying to keep your voice even in the face of his questions, âI donât know what youâre talking about.â Your foot is poised to knock over a busted shelf behind you; it was Saekoâs alarm system, something she claimed could be heard from anywhere in the store.
A look is exchanged between the two men. You donât bother trying to read it; itâs the sea and the storm, roiling with a language only the two of them are fluent in. âSorry,â Iwa says, taking his slushie and shoving the cherry one in Oikawaâs hands. âHave a nice night.â
You donât see Iwa for a few weeks. The next time you do, heâs alone. Itâs another wordless exchange; this time, heâs buying two cans of shitty coffee. âIs your friend waiting outside?â you ask. He looks surprised to hear your voice, probably expecting you to give him the bare minimum after your last encounter.
âActually,â he rubs the back of his neck, sliding one of the cans your way, âthat oneâs for you. Sorry about what happened last time.â He pops open the tab of his coffee. âOikawa doesnât know when to keep his mouth shut.â
You nod, opening your own can. âWhat was that all about?â you ask, taking a stab in the dark. You miss, unfortunately: he almost chokes on his coffee, the lines on his face growing more defined as he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand.
âDonât worry about it.â
Itâs a shitty answer paired with shitty coffee, but you take it.
And if you notice that he almost glimmers with an unreal sheen under the flickering fluorescent light, you dismiss the thought. Nothing else seems very real at three in the morning anyway.
He becomes another regular, swinging by twice a week. Two cans of coffee, paid for with exact change. You donât have the heart to tell him that as an employee, you could just take from the pot whenever you wanted before you had to brew a new one for the morning rush. At first, he slides the can to you and wishes you a good night on his way out, but he grows more chatty as the weeks go by.
He asks about your day, asks about class, asks about work. Never does he share anything about the life he leads outside of shitty coffee and the four walls of the humble convenience store.
But it comes, little by little, like mismatched pieces forming the mosaic of Iwaizumi Hajime. You see it in the weight of the world trapped in his gaze, the way he rolls broad shoulders as if expecting the bones to crack. Most of all, you realize as you take a sip from your can one night, itâs the way he seems to know you better than you know yourself.
It started simple enough, a nod and a flash of something on his face when you told him what you were majoring in. A knowing chuckle, more to himself, when you mention how the old woman that bought cat food was one of your favorite customers. It comes, little by little, until one piece remains. The only way to get it is to ask.
He beats you to it. âYou know what I am, donât you?â he asks as youâre lifting tonightâs can of coffee to your lips. You spare him a glance before taking a long sip, delaying a response for as long as possible.
âYou definitely look too good to be human.â
The corners of his lips twitch. âItâs good to know you never change.â You set the now empty can on the counter.
âHave we met before?â Iwaizumi, at least, has the decency to look sheepish. âYour friend with the perfect hair asked if I remembered you.â He snorts with the identifier youâve given Oikawa, but you press on. âI donât. But I think you remember me.â
You wait with bated breath for the final piece to fall into place, but he regards you with a look you canât read.
Youâre about to chalk it up to another swing and a miss, but he pulls out his wallet, a worn leather thing. From it comes a single picture, the color faded yellow, the image predating even black and white photography.
Itâs Iwaizumi, looking just the same as he does now. Heâs got his arm around the person next to him, pressing a kiss to their forehead. The other person is grinning from ear to ear, and it doesnât take long to recognize who it is.
Itâs you.
#haikyuu x reader#iwaizumi x reader#iwaizumi scenario#haikyuu scenario#iwaizumi hajime#half-assed tagging bc i dont rlly care anymore#anyway this is a fun concept but to me its clearly one of the ones that cant be made into a 500k epic spanning all of time itself#oh to reach slushie making self actualization#me googling for firsthand experiences of 7-11 night shift workers#i see room for expansion but hm . maybe for the ao3 post#anyway . hee#shoutout vee idk if she remade but she was my first req
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Thank you, Paige! Sorry for the bit of a delay in answering đ
what do you wish you hated, but actually like?
Probably something like 90 Day FiancĂ©? Iâm sure it could/probably should be considered problematic for some of the couples they let on (50 something white man with a 19 year Filipina who wonât let her touch the car window? Yikes!) But itâs a train wreck that I canât stop watching.
vague about your crush(es)
I answered this here, but Iâll just talk about the kind of people I get crushes on. Tall, dark hair and light eyes, feminine no matter their gender. Idk Iâm not super picky looks wise. I like people that are genuinely funny, donât need to be super smart as long as youâre willing to be constantly learning new things, and just kind and considerate of others. Also, just please be Will Graham in season 1 of Hannibal
is there someone you have mixed feelings towards?
Yeah, thereâs a few people in real life I like, but also make me question how much I actually like them. Not any of my friends, but I have a few acquaintances who seem cool but then do something questionable. Guess thatâs why theyâre not actual friends!
talk about an au or story you came up with
My John serial killer AU (though, I suppose itâs not much of an AUâŠ). Still donât know if I want my girl as being unsuspecting, knowing and not caring, or being a final girl tbh. But I do love the sexual tension between a slasher and their final girl/boy/person đŹ We can all blame @smut-goblin for this one!
do you like makeup?
I like makeup, but Iâve only worn a full face a couple of times since the pandemic started. Since people are mainly seeing my eyes now I just do my brows and lashes, everything else is bare under that mask lol. I definitely prefer skincare, though! Your makeup isnât going to look good if that skin is being neglected.
do you prefer space or the ocean?
The ocean! I love how freeing it is to be in a massive body of water! I donât know if I would feel the same about orbiting through space. Also, if Iâm being honest, every billionaireâs obsession with colonizing space has soured me on the idea tbh.
if you could pick any planet besides earth, where would you live?
lol this is hard since I donât want to go into space. Maybe Mercury or Venus since theyâre hot? No cold planets, please! Lemme go there and see just how much heat I can truly withstand.
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OC Interview - Tandreth
name â âWhoâs asking?â he grins. âIndoril Tandreth, if youâre Velothi. If youâre one of the jarlâs men, Iâm no one.â
are you single â âQuite. Why, are you looking to change that? Iâm a hard man to tie down.â
are you happy â âMy coinpurse is full, I have a collection of various artifacts and treasures, someone to warm my bed every night - I suppose I canât complain.â The smile leaves his eyes, however.
are you angry â âIâm Velothi. Itâs in the blood, so they say.â You canât imagine the aloof man in front of you furious by any means, but thereâs a bite of challenge to his tone.
are your parents still married â âHah!â he laughs. âThey never were. Everyone calling me a bastard is right in more ways than one.â
NINE FACTS
birthplace â âThe Ashlands. Northwestern Vvardenfell, back in the day - now the entire islandâs ash.â
hair color â âBlack, but Iâm told the sun turns strands brown if itâs bright enough.â Tandreth combs his fingers through his curls. âI bleached it white, once upon a time. Didnât want to look my sister, you see.â
eye color â He flutters his eyelashes. âRed as Azura cursed them.â
birthday â âThe tenth of Sunâs Dawn. Year 430, of the Third Era.â Tandreth waits for the math to be done, eyes twinkling playfully. âI look good for my age, donât I?â
mood â âThey change like the weather. Now? Or most often? The answer to both is bored.â He tries to look at the sheet of paper and the notes upon it. âTell me you have something better to ask.â
gender â Itâs not the interesting question he wanted. âIâm a man. Not that the local Nords seem to believe me.â His smile grows wicked. âTheir wives do.â
summer or winter â âTheyâre the same thing, here in Skyrim.â He sighs. âSummer. I like to be able to feel most of my fingers.â You note his left pinky is missing.
morning or afternoon â âMorning. I like to watch the sunrise before I turn in for the night.â
EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
are you in love â âAlways am.â he sighs dramatically, lounging further back in his chair. âHow can anyone not be? Tamriel is filled with the beautiful.â
do you believe in love at first sight â âNow weâre at the interesting questions.â Tandreth kicks his feet up on the table. âOf course I do. Love at first sight, hate at last sight - isnât that how it tends to go?â
who ended your last relationship â It catches him off guard - heâs leaning his chair back on two legs, and nearly falls over. The front feet of the chair connect with the floor loudly as he settles himself. âThe law.â he answers simply. âAnd gold.â
have you ever broken someoneâs heart â The next question quickly repairs his high spirits. âDozens, Iâm sure. Donât mistake me for cruel - Iâve never been dishonest about what I am. I canât prevent others from lying to themselves.â
are you afraid of commitments â He rolls his eyes. âYou sound like Raansi.â he mutters. âIâve spent the last fifty years in Skyrim, I think thatâs commitment enough.â
have you hugged someone within the last week? â Tandreth opens his mouth then frowns. â... you know, I havenât.â he realizes aloud, and is clearly troubled by it. âMaybe I should give that great dragonborn ox a hug. Iâve gotten good at dodging her hammer, you know.â
have you ever had a secret admirer â âI like to collect the letters.â he grins from ear to ear. âThey donât stay secret for long, if I can help it.â
have you ever broken your own heart? â Those red eyes of his drop to his nails, where he makes a display of picking at his cuticles. âDonât be foolish.â
SIX CHOICES
love or lust â âLust is simpler. Thereâs less tears involved, much more fun for all parties. I donât need someone simpering over me to feel like a whole person.â he answers, perhaps a tad defensively.
lemonade or iced tea â âIced tea offers much more variety in flavor. Thatâs a drink for Hammerfell or Elsweyr, not this frozen tundra.â
cats or dogs â His mouth twists. âI donât keep pets. Humans live short enough lives, animals are asking for heartbreak.â
a few best friends or many regular friends â âI have a very large circle of acquaintances and paramours. Does that count?â
wild night out or romantic night in â âA wild night out, of course. It helps one feel alive.â
day or night â âAs much as I hate the cold, night. Have you seen a full moon over the snow on a clear night? As bright as day, and clear as crystal.â Thereâs a dreamy expression on his face.
FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS
been caught sneaking out â âSeveral times. Not all for troublesome reasons, I assure you.â
fallen down/up the stairs â âI am the pinnacle of grace.â Tandreth looks almost offended to be asked.
wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? â âThere was this necklace I tried to steal from a sleeping beast of a woman, and I nearly had my nose broken for the trouble.â You think itâs a joke, but the grave quality to his tone suggests that Tandreth takes any threat to his nose very seriously.
wanted to disappear â âWanted to? I can.â Perhaps he is dodging the questions.
FOUR PREFERENCES
smile or eyes â âTheyâre intertwined. Part of a smile is in the eyes, you know - and theyâre at their best when smiling.â
shorter or taller â âTaller.â he answers first, then wrinkles his nose - his reflexive response has brought up something uncomfortable. âI donât mind either way.â he adds hastily. âIâve been very happy with people of all sizes.â
intelligence or attractive â âYou must think me vain indeed.â He tilts his chin upward. âBut aye, Iâll say it - beauty. Not all can find tomes to pore over or tutors from the imperial province. Beauty isnât just in the face, or the form, itâs an energy all its own.â He gestures vaguely with his hands. âA school of magic, perhaps. Difficult to define. Itâs why I love it so dearly.â
hook-up or relationship â âIâm a hard man to love.â he says with a dramatic shrug and an affected sheepish smile. âBut I donât leave my bedmates wanting.â
FAMILY
do you and your family get along â Tandreth exhales shortly. âI liked the other questions.â he mumbles. âPresently? Only my sisterâs left of it, and weâre not on speaking terms.â
would you say you have a âmessed up lifeâ â His smile is entirely without humor, a grim thing that ages him by decades. âDonât worry, dearest. I live my life to the fullest.â
have you ever run away from home â âI think every young lad does, at some point.â Heâs picking at his nails again.
have you ever gotten kicked out â âBy my family? No. But thereâs a few cities Iâm not allowed to set foot in - do you have the time to listen? ... no? Pity.â
FRIENDS
do you secretly hate one of your friends â âWhat intrigue!â Tandrethâs good humor returns. âIâd have to have them to bear some secret distaste. The people I hate in my circle I make no secret of.â
do you consider all of your friends good friends â âIâll stretch the definition of friend to play along with your questions. No. You donât live as long as I have by trusting anyone but yourself.â
who is your best friend â For a moment you think heâs about to say âno oneâ, and youâre correct - but the pause before he says so is notable indeed.
who knows everything about you â âMy sister, I suspect. Weâre twins, you know - sheâs an hour older. Will never let me forget it.â He snorts. âYouâd think she had decades on me, the way she carries on. She knows everything - so she might was well know everything about me.â You sense heâs a little bitter.
He offers to take you to a play in town after your work day is complete. You respectfully decline, and he respects your professionalism - but he still winks on his way out.
#oc interview#oc: tandreth#hey guys it's time to learn about king shithead#can u read between the lines and see beneath the shithead guise?#imma do one for idunn and maybe raansi if i can get some art of her done
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Yup. Part One. This absolute monstrosity quite literally grew wings and took on a life of its own, so yes, there will be a part two shortly, and it will be NSFW.
I shared the mood board/aesthetic for this over on Discord and a couple of people said they were excited, so I hope you enjoy it! It's set in Old Trollbridge, and you may pick up a passing reference to another character whose story was set here... Let me know in the comments if you remember them... Thanks also for your wonderful and enthusiastic feedback on Winter Solstice Chapter Five!
Contents: former school bullies, reader with a very slight potty-mouthed internal monologue, being physically attracted to someone(s!) that you didn't like intellectually/emotionally, watching said people kiss/be physically affectionate, the old 'oh no we've been paired on a project and will have to work together now or we'll get bad marks' trope, and some general growing up :) Wordcount: 5766
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Winding up at the same university as the two biggest dicks from high school would have been - trying - enough, but to end up not only in the same department but also in the same damned classes was just downright cruel of fate. And yes, that was absolutely the right word for them.
The University of Old Trollbridge was known for its academic excellence in all areas, from cutting edge medicine to more traditional approaches, and the centuries-old institution was a bastion of learning, with places hotly contested. Youâd nearly run herself into the ground in school to pass the right exams to get here - to leave all the pettiness of high school behind and finally start over - and here they were. It was going to be exactly the same. You could feel it. Theyâd worm their way to the top of the hierarchy again, and everyone would worship the ground they touched, and it would all just be awful.
âFucking hell. This isnât happening,â you cursed, watching the familiar and very particular hue of the nagaâs dark green scales as he slithered across the entrance hall of the history faculty building, his muscular tail rippling with a million iridescent, deep emerald green colours. The atrium wasnât exactly flooded with light, so somehow he looked like a living shadow.
People watched him; everywhere he went, people noticed him. He was probably one of the more famous undergraduates the university had had in recent years, what with his familyâs ancient bloodline and apparently endless bank vaults, and his brief but extremely successful stint in modelling. The fact that the naga and his best friend (and almost literal sex god), Iltho, had gained a place was not all that much of a surprise to anyone, but youâd hoped they wouldnât have chosen the same flipping department as you for their undergraduate studies. Not that they could be accused of paying their way in; for starters, the university had not accepted that kind of thing for generations.
No, they were both beautiful and unbearably smart too.
It was indecently unfair.
Your lip curled. Just as youâd been about to turn away, your roommate caught up with you. Youâd put down that you didnât mind who you were put with - gender or species - and for once, youâd actually lucked out. Rachel was an extremely talented spell caster, and, from what youâd seen of her in the first two days of your acquaintance, extremely tidy. âWhatâs up?â she asked, smiling up at you from beneath a thick curtain of vibrant, pastel pink hair. She was also about a foot shorter than you.
You jutted your chin at the naga.
âOh my god, thatâs⊠wow. I didnât know we had a celebrity in our department!â she giggled, elbowing you playfully in the side. âGods above⊠heâs gorgeous. Itâs sinful. It shouldnât be allowed. How am I supposed to concentrate in Old High Runic if heâs sitting there looking like that?â
âHeâs also a massive cock,â you snorted. Fucking âDrake Shimmerscaleâ. Even his name was a giant cliche. Fancy noble lines with their fancy stupid names.
She tilted her head curiously. âYou⊠know him?â
âWent to school with the bastard. Him and his best friend -â you cut off, eyes widening, as a second figure strode out of a doorway and exclaimed loudly. âFucking⊠speak of the devil.â
âThatâs a bit harsh,â she said, her eyes also locked on the newest arrival. It was easy to see why sheâd thought youâd been referring to his appearance; his skin was a deep, ruby red, he had enormous, black, curved horns, a blunt-ended tail, and the bat-like wings that hung down his back looked like theyâd been dipped in dark ink at the tips. He was also built like a bull and turned heads wherever he went, and here was no exception. Of course, the incubus would have to keep his âinfluenceâ under control while at the university, but that didn't mean he didn't just naturally exude sex appeal anyway. Six-foot-something tall, with long, black hair that he usually wore pulled back into a thick braid studded with golden beads, he had flashing golden eyes and a mouth made for kissing.
Everyone had fantasised about being with him (and/or Drake) at school. Iltho had looked twenty-five since the age of fourteen, and acted like it too. Confident, cocky, quietly arrogant, also filthy rich, and stupendously intelligent, there was nothing that Iltho didnât have. Really, the duo had made a striking pair, with the milk-white of Drakeâs skin and the heated crimson of Ilthoâs, their gemstone eyes of yellow and green, and their aloof personalities. The pair had ruled the school without having to do so much as lift a finger. Theyâd also done nothing to stop the lesser bullies posturing and vying for their attention. âPopularâ they may have been, but theyâd also been about as liked as a Nightmare at a slumber party.
âNo,â you said. âItâs not harsh. Theyâre both awful and they made life hell for the rest of us.â And with that you turned away, heading for the library.
You fumed as you stalked along the corridor and up the stairs towards the departmentâs ancient library. Yours was, appropriately enough for the History Faculty, one of the oldest buildings in the university, and it was absolutely everything youâd ever hoped for or dreamed from Old Trollbridge. The sheer aesthetic of it was mesmerising. Taking a huge, deep breath of the slightly musty air as you stepped into the library, you tried to put the pair of bullies out of your mind. This could still be your fresh start, surrounded by fragile parchment and vellum, leather spines, ancient oak tables, and the vague tingle of magic in the air.
There were wards in the ceilings to syphon off excess ambient magic in places like this, and as you let your eyes roam up and follow the conductive brass rods embedded in the ceiling, you nearly crashed into one of the long trestle tables that had been placed in a remote alcove, lit on one side by a huge, leaded, arched window and framed on the other three by bookshelves. As if fate had chosen you a place to settle down, you stared at the empty space for a moment before deciding that this would probably be your study spot for the rest of the year. It was right at the back of the library, and seemed out of the way enough that it wouldnât be on the regular stamping ground of first years looking for the standard texts. It was also open enough that it probably wouldnât be sought out for⊠other activities. The stacks, with their dark corners and endless shadows, seemed much more appropriate for that.
Yes. This would be perfect.
And you wouldnât have to think about them here either.
Gods, even trying to get the thought of them out of your head prompted a flare of hot ire. Iltho and Drake had been inseparable at school. Class A bullies who just stood there and let everyone else spar and jockey for the dubious honour of being their latest minions and underlings, letting their wealth and, in Ilthoâs case, âcharismaâ carry them through. Half the school had been in love with them at one point, influence or not. And yes, even you had admired them from a distance. Rachel was right - they really were absolutely fucking gorgeous. Both of them. And it fucking sucked.
An hour later, a shadow passed in front of that beautiful window and you glanced up as someone halted beside your table. âThatâs a familiar sight,â a deep voice chuckled.
Your stomach dropped and you felt your face fall with horror before you schooled it into something a little more acerbic than youâd ever managed in school. Funny how a few monthsâ internship abroad over the summer at one of the worldâs most prestigious historical institutions could change everything. You hardened your eyes and noticed the way he watched you.
âIltho,â you said flatly as you cricked your neck to look up at him. âYou're blocking the light, but I canât tell if itâs your wings or your ego thatâs obliterating the sun. Would you care to move?â
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đŹđđĄđđđšđ© đđ§đđđąđš - attack on titan
eren x fem!oc
attack on titan au
inspired by 'see you in my 19th life' webtoon
author's note ; eunji is the 18th life name whilst hyejin is her general name :)
intro : sweet summer day
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memories are strange entities. they lay dormant in the cave we call the mind until all of a sudden - something as minuscule as a waft of a scent walks by, triggering a forgotten incident from decades ago.
as humans, we wonder about the memories of our previous lives which remain with our souls eternally. we ask questions about: who were we? how did our past selves use to act? perhaps they were delinquents who wreaked havoc on the neighbourhood or perhaps they were a pair of goody-two-shoes who could do no wrong.
maybe we even had a significant other whose love used to fill our days with boundless bliss?
it all seemed like a classified secret which the brain could never gain access to no matter how hard it racked all its neurones in an attempt to search for all the answers.
however, hyejin ban must have been a glitch in the system.
when her first life occurred, she didn't think much of it and lived it to the fullest as much as a working-class girl could in the 1800s (society was something of a different nature in those time). she grew up with plenty of friends and siblings, fell in love with a boy who had lived next door and worked as an average house-wife whilst the husband provided the money required to live comfortably with not much to worry about except for disease.
to say that hyejin was surprised when every detail of her previous self came flooding back to her would be an understatement. there is no word in the english dictionary to describe the shock which devoured her.
she had heard conspiracies of those who claimed to remember fragments of their past lives in her village before however she never thought them to be a thing of truth. it was as if all the memories had been transferred onto a hard drive and inserted into her new body, making her age at least 80 years as her 'life' flashed right before her juvenile eyes.
nonetheless, she tolerated having two sets worth of memories and had a rather quiet, peaceful existence with only her family to bid her a farewell as she silently passed. she watched as the 19th century came to an end and the world transitioned into a new one, marking an end of an era.
flash forward a few more lives and her soul had endured more than anyone could ever comprehend. each body presenting a new perspective on the mixed bag of earth. each body which she took on was distinctly different from the last as all her lives came in all different shapes and sizes as well as randomising which gender she was. from world wars to famine to milestones such as the first man walking on the moon, hyejin's mind remembered it all. only to leave it behind as the never-ending cycle of death and reincarnation continued.
some lives were shorter than others as unfortunate environments cut the thread of life much too soon, leaving much of the life to fall to the pits of hell. sometimes hyejin was treat unfairly as she suffered the struggles of poverty and faced many of the evils which the world had to offer. yet instead of living filled with resentment and agony, she took these as opportunities to grow wiser as a being. eventually, school became repetitive as the knowledge taught had already been ingrained within her.
as hyejin became used to her circumstances and gained a better understanding of what was happening, she set rules to live by. one of which was to let go of any burdens and troubles of past lives which could mental strain to her present and subsequent self.
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hyejin was rebirthed for the 18th time as 'eunji yun' and quickly she learnt that she had been born with a silver spoon in her mouth. she grew up surrounded by maids ready to cater for her every wish and need, it was a life where money would never be an issue and her family showered her more love than she had ever encountered before. at the age of 6, her family brought a younger sister into the world who not before long began to mean the absolute world to <> and she took it upon herself to fill the other half of the parental figures that was left empty by her hard-working father.
the sun was shining brightly when hyejin's mother guided her to the family car, telling her vaguely that she had business with another mother at another household not too dissimilar from theirs. the girl let her curiosity get the better of her and asked why she had to come along - her mother just turned to look at her with a mischievous glint in her eye and replied with a face plastered with a simple smile that held no information. hyejin despite being wise beyond her years reacted with a childish sigh and dramatic slump in her seat as the car started to drive away.
soon a house in the distance came into view, the car slowing down as the wheels entered the extensive drive. hyejin thought her house had been grand however this house was the epitome of luxury even the air had the distinct smell of the rich. on the journey, she had been told this was the residence of a wealthy chairman whose son was of a similar age to her.
upon walking in she couldn't help but gasp from the grandiose of it all, the chandeliers hung on the ceiling twinkling away as the striking staircase sat in the centre of the foyer. her awe was shattered as she heard a chuckle infused with honey from a woman whose aura held as much awe as the impressive atmosphere of the interior did.
'you must be miss eunji yun, what a pleasure to meet you. i'm carla jeager.'
'pleased to make your acquaintance, thank you for inviting my mother and i to your household.'
all the etiquette lessons were quickly put into action as hyejin's voice uttered the stock response which she had practised numerous times growing up.
carla found the amusement in this textbook conversation and responded with another sweet chuckle
'no need to be so formal, your mother and i are very good friends, please make yourself at home.'
she spoke with such a heart-warming tone that felt so down to earth, it was like listening to melodic tunes of birds chirping - you wouldn't believe that her family was one with the highest status and wealth.
'carla, should we brew a pot of tea?'
her mother interjected whilst handing over her faux fur jacket to the maid who had discreetly made their way beside hyejin in the foyer. she had not even noticed that she had already slipped off her diamond-encrusted heels.
'ah, what a good idea! let's move to the kitchen'
eagerly the pair of mothers walked side by side already engrossed in a different conversation it was clear that they had much to catch up on.
swiftly after pulling her sneakers off, hyejin started to take a few steps before carla turned around, halting her,
'there's no need to follow us, i'm sure you would have a far more entertaining time with my son who you will find in the library up the stairs. will you be able to find your way?'
hyejin hadn't noticed the glow which consumed her eyes as she smiled at her, there was an extremely low probability that she wouldn't do what carla had asked of her.
'of course ma'am, don't worry too much about me and please proceed with your intended business.'
as hyejin heard the receding the steps of the mothers she couldn't quite help but catch wisps of their conversation.
'she conducts and speaks so eloquently for a 12-year-old.'
'sometimes i forget that she's even a child at all.'
holding onto the handrails, she looked back with a knowing smile as she began her descent up the stairs. following carla's instructions, the library was easily found. the walls filled to brim with all types of books from fairytales to encyclopedias on insects and ladders at every corner to aid with the books at the very top shelf that was too high for even the tallest of humans. the centre of the room held plush sofas and chairs clearly carefully chosen for the purpose of being able to read enjoyably.
hyejin's eyes fixed themselves onto a figure, not much taller than the 3rd shelf, desperately trying to grab at a book that was just out of his reach. his tiptoes only doing so much to increase his height, the girl scoffed in amusement at the sight in front of her and strolled over to the black-haired boy.
'need a hand?'
she hadn't meant for there to be a snarky tone however the words which tumbled out appeared as condescending when in reality she had just wanted the tiny boy who had yet to have a growth spurt.
'who are you? i don't need any help.'
his brows were furrowed together and his voice filled with defensiveness - hyejin thought to herself that it would be entertaining to watch this stuck up boy act in a childish manner.
going against the prideful boy's wishes, she reached over his head to slide the book that he wanted out of the bookshelf.
it wasn't long before reams and reams of disgruntled refusals came flowing out his mouth.
'get out of my way'
well, he was certainly direct with the way he spoke and with his words.
'you're in the way-'
the exasperated boy did not get to finish his second rude remark before being smacked on the face by the book which he had so urgently wanted.
this is what you most definitely call karma.
'you should mind your manners kiddo'.
it barely took a second before an ear-splitting screech encompassed the whole house.
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Character Interview: Epitome
I couldnât resist, I love my tiefling wizard daughter.Â
Saw @s0tcââs post tagging anyone interested, and knew I had to go for it. Not sure who the hell would be interviewing her, but Iâm interested in playing around with her written voice, so weâre doing this anyway.
For the mutuals who are my party members in this campaign: some backstory spoilers follow. I tried to keep them fairly vague, but there is some info here that you donât have yet. Just a heads-up.
Tagging: Anyone who feels like it!!
(This art is a commission I got from @needlesslycrypticââ, btw â see the full portrait here, if you havenât already!!)
âș NAME â She brings a hand up toward the hollow of her throat, gesturing to her person. âIâm Epitome. Pleasure.â That last word sounds distinctly insincere.
âș ARE YOU SINGLE â She exhales in a half-hearted laugh. âOf course.â
âș ARE YOU HAPPY â Â "Hm, thatâs a weird question. I suppose Iâm as happy as I can be, but... well. Ambitions keep people on their toes.â
âș ARE YOU ANGRY â "At you? No.â She gives you a look of mild amusement. âAt certain individuals and organizations who shall, for now, remain nameless? Very much so.â
âș ARE YOUR PARENTS STILL MARRIED â Her eyes narrow. âOh, I donât even know if theyâre still alive, much less if their relationship survived." She comes across as rather dismissive.
NINE FACTS
âș BIRTH PLACE â âRight here in Baldurâs Gate, although I left for a while, at a fairly young age. Been back here for about...â She stops to do the math in her head. âEight years now.â
âș HAIR COLOR â Â âItâs white. You can see me, canât you?â
âș EYE COLOR â âWhy ask when you can just observe?â She leans forward slightly, half inviting, half daring you to do the same. Behind her glasses, her eyes are a milky white to match her hair. At first they seem to be one solid hue, but on closer inspection she does have irises and pupils, only slightly offset in color from the rest of the eyes. Theyâre staring directly at you.Â
âș BIRTHDAY â âThe 27th of Flamerule, 1469 DR.** Iâm 25 years old.â
âș MOOD â âOh, just ecstatic to be here.â She sounds sarcastic again, but her smile is genuine.
âș GENDER â âI generally prefer to be seen as a lady. But Iâm not picky.â
âș SUMMER OR WINTER â âHard to choose. I think I enjoy the summer myself, but... people appreciate fire more in winter. If you take my meaning.â
âș MORNING OR AFTERNOON â âAfternoon. More people out and about.â
EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
âș ARE YOU IN LOVE â "No. Should I be?â
âș DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT â âNot particularly.â
âș WHO ENDED YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP â "Who said Iâve ever been in a relationship? Quite frankly, I donât understand what all the fuss is about.â
âș HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN SOMEONEâS HEART â âPossibly, but not in the way youâre thinking.â
âș ARE YOU AFRAID OF COMMITMENTS â "All commitments I make are to myself, first and foremost, so there is nothing to fear.â
âș HAVE YOU HUGGED SOMEONE WITHIN THE LAST WEEK? â âDoes a fey spirit in the form of a winged cat count?â
âș HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SECRET ADMIRER â âIf I have, Iâd like to think Iâd have known about it... and maybe found a good use for it. But nothing comes to mind, so no. I doubt it.â
âș HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN YOUR OWN HEART? â âI have regrets, if thatâs what you mean. But I prefer to take chances and live with my mistakes, then regret never trying at all.â
SIX CHOICES
âș LOVE OR LUST â âYou really enjoy asking questions about my nonexistent love life, donât you? Why donât you answer this question for me?â
âș LEMONADE OR ICED TEA â âBoth.â
âș CATS OR DOGS â âCats... but Iâve come around to dogs a little. Lived with someone who really liked them.â
âș A FEW BEST FRIENDS OR MANY REGULAR FRIENDS â âI prefer a great number of casual acquaintances.â
âș WILD NIGHT OUT OR ROMANTIC NIGHT IN â âAgain with the romance! Iâm starting to get annoyed.â She doesnât sound annoyed; she sounds like sheâs teasing.
âș DAY OR NIGHT â âNight.â She grins. Her canines are longer than average. âI can see in the dark.â
FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS
âș BEEN CAUGHT SNEAKING OUT â âYes, many times. No one ever seemed to care much, thoughâ well, except the one time.â
âș FALLEN DOWN/UP THE STAIRS â âGraciously, no. Not yet, anyway.â
âș WANTED SOMETHING/SOMEONE SO BADLY IT HURT? â "I still do.â She doesnât elaborate.
âș WANTED TO DISAPPEAR â "At one time, yes. Badly. But not anymore.â
FOUR PREFERENCES
âș SMILE OR EYES â âHere we go again,â she says flippantly. âTaking a non-romantic angle: I can tell a lot about a person by their eyes. Smiles, on the other hand, tend to be used as a disguise for all sorts of ugly emotions.â As if to prove her point, she smiles wide.
âș SHORTER OR TALLER â âDoesnât matter to me.â
âș INTELLIGENCE OR ATTRACTION â She takes a more serious tone than usual to answer. âI love learning. Knowledge has always been, and will always be, my greatest pursuit in life.â She relaxes a bit, begins speaking more casually again. âSo obviously, I like conversing with smart people... or at least, people who can provide the information I want.â
âș HOOK-UP OR RELATIONSHIP â âHow does âneitherâ sound?â
FAMILY
âș DO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY GET ALONG â  "Depends on what you consider my family. If you mean my birth parents, then no. Absolutely not. If you mean my...â She deliberates for a moment. â...my teacher, then also no, although at least he sort of saw me as a person. Enough to let my young, stupid self argue with him a few times, and not smite me where I was standing.â
âș WOULD YOU SAY YOU HAVE A âMESSED UP LIFEâ â "Definitely,â she deadpans.
âș HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY FROM HOME â "Yes.â Then she adds with mock reassurance, âI had some help.â
âș HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN KICKED OUT â âHmm. More like my teacher kicked himself out, leaving me to get my affairs in order on my own.â
FRIENDS
âș DO YOU SECRETLY HATE ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS â âIf I did, I wouldnât tell you. Thatâs the sort of thing you keep to yourself, in case said âfriendâ could still do you a solid.â
âș DO YOU CONSIDER ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS GOOD FRIENDS â âNo... although I have a surprisingly good feeling about a few people Iâve met recently.â
âș WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND â âWinnie! Sheâs, uh... sheâs my familiar. In case that wasnât clear.âÂ
âș WHO KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU â âWell, my teacher knows more about me than most people.â She sighs, her face falling just a little for the first time. âAn extremely powerful mage, off doing god-knows-what in god-knows-where... has potential dirt on me.â She gives you a wry smile. âRemember when I said I have regrets?â
**Â Yes I bothered to look up the Forgotten Realms calendar for this question â in irl terms, she was born toward the end of July.
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( FRIEND OF GRANT'S ) ebony harrison ( 24 / she/they ): demigirl & friends who seemingly clicked despite emotional distance, and acquaintance of mallory's. ( nina nesbitt ) ( PACE / 20+ / SHE/HER )
hello ! so, iâm typing this up straight after acceptance ( lmao, talk about eager ) so hopefully anything i inevitably forget, i can add between now and when thisâll actually be posted, so you actually have some decent info to work with ! but iâm pace ( which is obviously an alias but,,,, pls just call me pace ! ) and my pronouns are she/her ! and moving on to the one you actually wanna know about...Â
ââ â okay, so !! as you can see above, ebony is a friend of grantâs ! on the surface, they seem to just âgetâ eachother, but of course ebony is completely oblivious to who he really is and what heâs capable of. however, because ebony isnât the most open and uhh,,, Not-Closed-Off as people, it kind of works ? in a,,,, neither of them ask too many questions kind of way ? itâs mutual, yâknow ?she kind of sees him as a guy whoâs Not Like The Other Guys ( while lowkey a voice in the back of her head is like ALL GUYS ARE LIKE THE OTHER GUYS ) and they just seem to Understand eachother. but ebony can be a sceptical little fuck, and sheâs generally just Wary in general sometimes, but she also wants to believe that some people are good and their intentions are as they seem and itâs Pure. even if she EVER got creepy vibes from grant, sheâd either be like CREEP EVIL NASTY BYE SEE YA or convince herself sheâs making it up because of relationships with people in the past. but ofc, the worst part is that heâs never given her any reason to think grant is anything but just a nice, charming guy whoâs maybe a little pretentious and quiet but thatâs basically the worst thing about him, and if it were to happen now, sheâs in too deep for it to be a red flag. yoikes. but we all know that to everyone else he just looks like a,,, Nice Guy. either way, heâs a friend, and their lack of actually being as close as they may seem isnât that weird for her ( which i shall explain in a different bullet point bc this is long ! )
ââ â she isnât a complete plum, and wonât turn a blind eye forever, but in the recent months/so far, sheâs come to grantâs defence, thinking that anybody whoâs pointed the finger at him is a) unoriginal and b) has clearly never met him. she thinks itâs cruel and unnecessary. like, her pov is that he lost his girlfriend, who told the story of what happened/was going to happen to her, and itâs as simple as that, in a âwhy would mallory write about that otherwiseâ kind of way. sheâs applying logic to it and iâm like oh,,, honey,,, you sweet summer child,,, plus, grantâs manipulative ass is looking all kinds of charming and innocent and whatever. HOWEVER, things slowly unfolding and eventually ebony beginning to question things ! yes pls ! internal conflict !
ââ â however, ebony also briefly vaguely knew mallory ! she attended a few of her yoga classes ages ago, and itâs a complete coincidence that ebony knew the both of them. if/when grant ever mentioned mallory to ebony, the name wouldnât have clicked, and since she never met her outside of the classes, it took her a while to click why mallory looked so familiar when everything blew up after her death. it kind of weirds her out that someone she knew was murdered, and that it never clicked that Grantâs Girlfriend was the one who taught those yoga classes, but itâs just a complete coincidence !Â
ââ â TW FOR ABUSE MENTION: ebony hasnât read the book, and doesnât plan on it. she might one day if sheâs feeling impulsive and self destructive, but because of the subject matter, sheâs avoiding it. it had nothing to do with being grantâs friend ( even though most people would probably question if itâs the Moral and Ethical thing to do, that doesnât even cross her mind -- sheâs not the most moral of people tbh ) and has more to do with the fact that sheâs been in an abusive relationship in the past, herself, and sheâs just like............nope. ( / end of tw ! )
ââ â she didnât grow up in new york, and has only called it home for for a few years. but she also travels a lot, and is very flaky, and can disappear for periods of time just to show up announced a few weeks later. itâs not weird for her to drop off the grid for a bit ( sounds safe, ebs ) and itâs not weird for her to ditch social circles and local hangouts in general and just ghost, and sheâs also lived in several different states across the country. she cannot commit to anything ever, including places. itâs actually odd that sheâs been in new york for so long, but she loves the energy and the spirit of the city. and itâs massive so if she tires of a certain spot, she can drift elsewhere ! plus.........plot convenience.Â
ââ â sometimes she might feel a little out of place tbh ! sheâs not an academic and she definitely didnât come from money, and doesnât have an abundance of it now, either. sheâs a bartender, as thatâs always her job when i play her lmao, but i might give her another too but iâm still flipping back and forth so..... tbd !
ââ â TW FOR DEATH: a bit of background: she was born in california to amelia robinson & david harrison, a young couple who hadnât been together all that long when they found out they were expecting, but were madly in love nonetheless. david was completely devoted to his daughter, but he sadly died when she was seven. after his death, some hard truths to swallow came out about him, and her already distraught mother was even more heartbroken. life was pretty rough after his death and her mother couldnât really cope anymore and became someone that ebs ended up not really recognising, and she became kind of cruel. sheâs since forgiven her mother for who she became and therefore how she then treated her daughter, but theyâre not close. ebony left cali for a few years after turning seventeen, and when she returned at twenty, she found her fatherâs broken watch, which she sometimes still wears now. it looks out of place on her thin wrist, especially since the damn thing doesnât work, but she likes it nonetheless and refuses to get it fixed. in ways like that, she can be,,, a little pretentious ( again, why her friendship with grant works ) and while weâre on the subject of that..... ( / tw ends ! )
ââ â her personality is a little messy. she can be very........difficult ? especially as a friend ? though sheâs kind-hearted and forgiving and can be very gentle, sheâs also temperamental and vague and selfish. she doesnât mean to be selfish, but she just is. itâs,,, probably infuriating to some people ? as well as the fact that sheâs very easily misunderstood due to being hard to understand. yet she also doesnât like people making the effort to try and understand. yet also wants someone in her life who does understand her. like.........she wants something, but wonât let anybody make the steps to get the thing she wants ? like.............jfc, ebs. she also cannot deal with anything, and itâs not uncommon for somebody to think that everything is going fine and theyâre getting on with her great, but then shit hits the fan and the real things happen and sheâs like !!! bye !!! so, again, sheâs a bit of a flight risk right now. bc like...... well, a murderâs a pretty big thing, my dudes. but also, in her mind, one of her friends is going through some Big Stuff what with his girlfriend being âmurdered by her exâ so although most people would be like âgosh golly i should be there for himâ thereâs a part of ebony thatâs like âcannot............deal...............want.......................to yeet.........â but because itâs his Trauma to deal with, itâs easier for her to stay. for example, if something happened between herself and grant that was mutual ( no matter what it was ) that caused angst, thatâd be more of a reason for her to Yeet because it directly effects her ? if that at all makes sense ?
ââ â quick thing about gender and pronouns !! gender is messy and complicated ( to her ) and she accepted that long ago, but she identifies as a demigirl. her pronouns are she/her, HOWEVER she really appreciates when people use they/them when she hasnât explicitly stated her pronouns to somebody. she just ,,, thinks itâs the respectful thing to do, but it also makes her feel Valid. she mostly identifies with the gender she was assigned at birth, and tends to present very femininely, but that doesnât make her any less nb, yâknow ? and she doesnât like people,,, forgetting that sheâs Not A Woman ? a lot of the time sheâs worried people wonât see her as being nb and even her nb friends sheâs sometimes convinced will just forget sheâs Not A Woman ?? however, sheâs okay with sometimes being referred to as a girl, but always on her own terms. like.......her mobile header literally says âsad girls clubâ but like..... on her own terms, yâknow ? so tldr: if we could pls refrain from referring to her as like âthe womanâ or âthe girlâ in threads, thatâd be greatly appreciated !
ââ â some extras if you want to see/read more about the goblin: stats, playlist, pinterest, aesthetic, old drabbles*, old about/drabble. she doesnât have a full bio, as the last one i wrote ended up being over 7k words and honestly.........who has the time
* if you click this one, please be aware that trigger warnings apply for abuse, as well as vague/tiny mentions of pregnancy.
extra connections !!! if u want !!!! idk !!!
ââ â friends from out of town ! if anybody is from anywhere else in the u.s outside of ny, or they spent a lot of time somewhere else, they totally couldâve known eachother a few years ago. bc ebony has lived in several different places, i can probably wiggle things around and make it work no matter what state theyâve lived in !
ââ â friends ! as you mightâve gathered from the rest of the intro, ebony can be a little Difficult, but sheâs still kind at heart, and can be soft, and thoughtful ! so, friends that have no problem with her, friends who call her out on her bullshit, friends who sheâs ditched in the past, friends she parties with, friends who have tried to Fix her, friends she trusts more than most, etc etc ! as the great sutton foster once said, anything goes !
ââ â fwb/hook-ups/flings/exes ! whether theyâre things of the past or kind of ongoing, itâs pretty open ! ebony likes people of any and all genders, and ( not dissimilar to mallory, actually ! ) has no problems spreading her love around. which is basically the beating-around-the-bush way of saying she has a lot of sex with a lot of people, and i support her ( ... eh, when itâs healthy ) but one night stands, friends that have no problem keeping things causal, people she dated for a while, something that started casual but Feelings happened and itâs messy, all kinds of stuff is good to go !
ââ â people who were also in the yoga classes mallory taught at the time ! it wouldâve been a while ago but if the Yoga Peoples wouldâve been there back in the day too then perfect !
ââ â grantâs other friends ! people who met through grant ! we all have that friend we met through a mutual murderer, right ? or someone who eb met through grant and they canât fucking stand eachother ? someone she met through grant but then shagged and now itâs awkward ? people who were actually friends with eachother first and one of them introduced grant to the other ? people who she only met at malloryâs funeral bc they were both there to support their murderous pal ? having the two of âem meet unrelated and then find out casually like oh shit u know my good bitch grant ? wild ! all kinds of shit !
ââ â roommates ! what are the realistic chances of a group of roomies all knowing either the gal who got murdered or her boyfriend ? slim as fuck but plot convenience !! maybe two or three roomies ? nyâs expensive and ebony isnât a rich gal !
ââ â tbh though i also really love just.......... throwing the characters into a situation and seeing how things go, and having people meet for the first time and stuff, but i also love pre-plotted and intenser stuff, and messy/complicated plots work really well with eb ! i love all kinds of things, iâm down for w/e. while weâre on connections though, i tend to suck with plotting and iâm sometimes a little slow with ims, but i just want to make that Known so itâs not taken personally or anybody thinks iâm not interested anymore or anything ! iâm definitely replying, i promise !
okay so if you read all of this, youâre a saint and greatly appreciated ! apologies for the rambling ! feel free to drop by if youâd like to plot or anything like that ! ps. pls enjoy the fact that i scheduled this while watching the ted bundy thing on netflix, bc it tickled me. bit too fitting huh lads.Â
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The Dude with the Glowing Paint | Artist!Bucky Barnes x Gender-Neutral!Artist!Reader
Summary: artâs great, but spending hours in a small gallery can get very boring, very fast, but meeting another artist makes it better
Warnings: one Titanic reference, lilâ bit faster past than usual, more of a 40âs!Bucky personality than Post-Hydra!Buck, nothing else I donât think
Word Count: 1.1k
A/n: first off, thank you very much @stardustandbucky for motivating/encouraging me, I started 3 fics and got around to labeling the others
Also, I spent at least one day a month in my grandmaâs art gallery since I can rememberâsometimes other galleriesâso this is all very familiar and if youâre wondering, this is the weird plastic cup Iâm talking about in this fic
â â â
Standing in front of one of the largest paintings, I frownedâI missed a spot when I went over it with a fine tooth comb.
I had graduated art school a year ago and I was lucky enough to get my art into a gallery via the help of a friendâs friend. It also meant Iâd have about ten feet more of space in my apartment for a month.
As it was opening night of my exhibit, I decided to wander around until I had to go to workâlucky it was also the opening night for another artist about thirty paces away from mine, so we had each others friends mixingânot that I knew who the other artist was.
âYouâre staring very intensely at that flower.â
I glanced to my right, seeing a guy with smirkâmuch more casual than literally everyone in the building. He had his hair in a bun and punch in one of those weird shaped plasic cups that were supposed to look like glass.
âZoned out,â I said, taking a deep breath and looking back at the painting. I hadnât socialized with straight up strangers since the beginning of art school.
âFirst honest person tonight,â he commented.
I let out a laugh, covering my mouth. ââKnow what you mean, second honest person,â I said, smiling.
âSo which is your favorite?â He asked, making a vague motion towards my exhibit.
âMy grandma would say you canât choose a favorite,â I said slowly. âIâd say I prefer that other dudeâs art.â
He chuckled. âDude,â he started, smiling, âI have to disagree with you.â
âArguing with you would be like arguing about music,â I sighed out, shaking my head with a grin. âButâchaâre wrongâthat dude uses glow-in-the-dark paint, this dude doesnât.â
âYou noticed that?â He asked with a bit of astonishment.
âItâs got that weird green tint,â I shrugged, looking back at him, and studying his face this timeâa half smirk half smile, gentel blue eyes and his eyebrows were furrowed, skeptically.
âGlow-in-the-dark paint makes you like that dude more than this one?â He asked.
âTotally, I have no respect for anyone who doesnât use glow-in-the-dark paint,â I said, half joking.
He hummed, nodding. A blonde guy came up to him and tapped him on the shoulder. âHey, Bucky, Peggy and I are gonna head home,â the blonde guy said. âHave fun with that sarcastic flirting.â
âDunno what youâre talkinâ âbout, and itâs a lot better than the flustered flirting you do,â he said. âSee ya later, punk.â
When the blonde one left, I leaned towards him. âBucky as in the dude that uses glow-in-the-dark paint?â I asked, raising my eyebrows mischievously.
âKnew I shouldâve used James,â he said, sticking out his hand. âBucky Barnes, nice to meet you.â
â(Y/n) (y/l/n), pleasure to make your acquaintance,â I said, shaking his hand. He raised his eyebrows and jabbed his thumb towards my painting. I just nodded.
âHow does a proper artist like my stuff?â He asked.
âProper artist? You have an exhibit at the same gallery as I do,â I said, rolling my eyes. âAnd ya gotta reevaluate your view on my taste, because I really want to go check out the paper mache cat show on the floor below us.â
âThereâs a paper mache cat show? Would anyone be angry if we abandoned this and went down there?â He asked, with hopeful wide eyes.
âWe donât technically have to be here, itâs just polite to watch people judge your abilitiesâletâs go look at paper mache cats,â I said, smiling.
We ran off like children to the lower floor, abandoning the formality of our gallery and stepped into a crazy room full of wild people and colorful paper cats.
âI suddenly feel very over dressed,â I commented as we entered the gallery.
âConsidering thereâs a lady wearing a bright orange feather scarf, I wouldnât worry about it,â he said with a smirk.
I let out a laugh. âDude⊠that scarf looks fabulous,â I said, playfully punching his shoulder.
âIf I could find one, think I could pull it off?â He asked.
âOh, if you find one, you find me, and I will a sketch you wearing it and make sure it goes down in history,â I said.
âThat a promise or a threat?â He asked. âI think that would be a great way to go down in history.â
We walked around the gallery, joking, laughing and admiring paper cats. He went to put his empty punch cup in the recycling bin and cane back with two bowls of ice cream.
âWasnât sure if you wanted chocolate or vanilla, so your pick,â he said, holding them both out.
I carefully picked up one, smiling. âWhat do I owe you?â I asked.
âA sketch of me in an orange feather scarf,â he said. âNah, donât worry about it, it was free.â
âFree ice cream and a causal atmosphereâthere doing it wrong up stairs,â I said, smiling happily.
âThey are,â he agreed with a mouthful of ice cream.
We continued to wander around till we saw every paper cat twice and all the photos on the walls. We talked about how we got into paintingâI was born into it and he picked it up as a hobby, âart therapy, reallyâ he had corrected himself, and his friends persuaded him to try to put it in a show.
He also said he had to be careful about where he put his paintings because having glow-in-the-dark paint stare you down while you tried to sleep was unnerving.
An alarm on my phone went off, interrupting my story about my weird professor who wore kilts and flip-flops to class year-round.
âIâve got to get to work,â I said, letting out a sigh. I ummed for a moment before pulling my card from my cardigan pocket and held it out to him. âText me if you find an orange feather scarfâI donât answer calls if I donât know the number.â
â â â
Bucky and I texted over a month, a met up with him for lunch a couple times with his friends or mineâthe only real difference between his and mine were mine were mostly artists who still ate instant ramen noodles and most of his were over achievers; two of them were engaged, completely over achieving.
One afternoon, after a long nightshift at the diner, I received some texts from him while I made coffee.
Bucky: Dude
Bucky: Dude, guess what
Then a selfie came in of him in a fluffy orange feather scarf, beaming. It looked like he was in a homemade soap and crafts shop.
Bucky: Jake, I want you to draw me like one of your French girls,
Me: Donât finish that quote
Me: I drew a French girl once, in a baggy sweater and sweatpants
Bucky: Do you still have that drawing?
Bucky: If I take you out to dinner, can I finish that quote?
Me: Did you just ask me out?
Me: I mean yes, to both of those things
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Virtual Love (4/?)
Co-Writer: @500shadesofblue Pairing: Connor/DFAB!Reader (Gender is unspecified) Rating: T (Chapter), NC-17 (Entire Fic) Chapters: 1 / 2 / 3Â / 4 Summary: Virtual reality is becoming the next great evolution of technology: some say on-par with Elijah Kamskiâs breakthrough design of the first modern-day android. It has immeasurable potential; to enhance, to assist, and to completely break the bounds of our reality.
You, as a member of the team spearheading the technology in a branch within Cyberlife, have developed a working prototype. Itâs finally finished; all thatâs left is a series of trials to check if itâs functioning properly.
On the first test run, however, you find an android named Connor standing in the middle of your virtual kitchen.
Several nights later, youâve almost gotten into a routine.
The android you encounter in your prototype tests is an⊠intrigue. Itâs far more advanced than any android youâve ever encountered. Connor is interesting, and once your alarm at his presence wore off, his opinions, his questions, enthrall you. Youâve never spoken this way with an android before, talking just for talkingâs sake, and making conversation actually gives you something to think about after a long day of industrial labor.
...Dammit. There you go again. Calling Connor a âhe.â
âHey, Connor,â you say lazily. Youâre laying on your back, outside in the meadow again, drawn to its sunshine and splendor after a couple days in the real world with dreary rain. Connor, ever respectful, is a couple feet away, properly seated, cross-legged and presumably ramrod straight. You wouldnât know- youâre staring up at the sky. Itâs bright and clear, but you know that the sky in the real world is dark and strewn with stars.
Not that you can see any stars in Detroit.
âYes?â he says. You exhale softly, feeling the warmth of the earth below, seeing the blue of the sky above. Today - or rather, tonight - itâs filled with puffy white clouds drifting across its expanse.
âDo you have a gender?â
The air is thick with tension, his hesitation almost audible. You keep your eyes on the clouds.
â...What does it matter?â He finally says, and alright, that definitely wasnât the road you were expecting him to take.
âIâŠâ You almost want to sit up, feel that the subject matter is serious enough that itâs warranted, but you want to hang onto the plausible deniability that staying still, staring up at the sky gives you. You let your thoughts percolate, brewing your ideas, arranging them into a picture youâre ready to present.
âIâm big on respecting what people want to be called, whatever that may be,â you finally say, rawly honest. And by this point⊠youâre not going to say it, but youâve been talking with him for almost a week. The level of familiarity youâve reached is beyond acquaintances, from coin tricks to twenty questions, suspicion to wariness to peaceful acceptance.
âAnd even if youâre an android, and not âpeople,ââ you continue, a bit awkward, âto tell you the truth⊠itâs been pretty damn confusing in my head.â
âOh?â he says. You canât quite discern his tone.
You donât know why youâre telling him the truth, but⊠itâs easier. Plus, whoâs he going to tell? âI keep going back and forth in my head,â you confess, âbetween calling you âheâ and âit.ââ It feels like an ugly confession, halfway-between perfectly acceptable and strange. âI thought itâd finally settle the matter if I asked you what youâd prefer. No harm in it, right? Either way, I can get it settled.â And I can stop agonizing about it.
âItâs kind of you to ask my opinion,â Connor says, and behind the soft tones of his voice, you can hear the grass and flowers rustling. âItâs very considerate.â
âItâs not⊠Iâm not being considerate,â you say, oddly defensive, because youâre not . Youâve barely known this android for a week, and youâve talked every night, but⊠âItâs not kind to ask what people prefer. Itâs common decency, especially if youâre unsure. Just because youâre an android doesnât mean you donâtâŠâ
Have feelings.
â...doesnât mean you donât care about what youâre called,â you finish, lamely.
âStill,â Connor says, âitâs polite of you.â
Your social patterns, honed over decades of interacting with humans and trying to be mindful and respectful, get weirdly mixed up when youâre actually speaking with an android, interacting for a long period of time. Plus, you donât know how to keep contradicting him without sounding both ungrateful and like an ass, so you just lay there, breathing slow, looking at the sky.
âAndroids donât have⊠donât have natural gender, as such,â Connor finally says, breaking the silence, âat least not the way that human beings do.â
This is your cue to sit up.
You lift your arms up from your sides, reaching forwards, heaving yourself up from horizontality. Youâre in a simple, loose tank top (canât go braless while expecting company, even if the company is an android) and a ratty pair of knee-length shorts, loose and comfortable. With all your bare skin, the grass feels lovely, and the sunshine even lovelier.
You finally sit yourself in a comfortable position again, and when you look at Connor, his eyes are transfixed on your face in that odd way he does- unblinking, intent, absorbing information keenly.
âGo on,â you say, ignoring his staring, scooting to face him. You cross your legs, propping your elbows on your knees and your face on your hands. The way youâre sitting, now, youâre facing him, a little less than two feet away. This close, you can see all the subtle shifting expressions on his face, the yellow flickering of his LED made golden by the sunlight.
âAndroids donât have gender, as such,â he says eventually, looking away. You turn your gaze in the same direction, looking over the field of endless flowers. Among the kaleidoscope of color, you spy splotches of pale purple in clusters of green, heart-shaped leaves.
Dog-violets.
âOur preferences are⊠hardwired into us,â Connor continues, voice distant. âGender makes humans comfortable. So, as such, I do prefer being called a âheâ over an it.â
There. Thereâs your answer.
âPlus,â Connor says, and you feel his gaze on the side of your face. âBeing referred to with gendered pronouns facilitates integration, as it humanizes us in the eyes of others.â
Right.
âSo youâre good with âheâ?â You say, turning back to look at him. In another one of his typical expressions (which you recognize even in the short time youâve known him), his eyebrows are slightly drawn together, mouth subtly downturned.
âYes,â he says, a note of finality in his voice. âIn fact, Iâd even say that I prefer it.â
âOkay,â you say cheerfully. You pivot neatly, flopping back down in the grass. You can feel the smile blooming on your face.
You donât know why, but you feel lighter.
âDoes that answer your question?â he says, voice filtering down from above. He almost sounds amused.
âYup,â you say, popping the p. âPerfectly, thanks.â
âWhy did you want to know?â He says.
You donât know why heâs pressing this.
âIt doesnât kill me to give common courtesy,â you say, a small frown on your face. âEven if itâs just to an android. When something has a face, when Iâve been talking to it for more than five hours cumulatively⊠when it has opinions, and questionsâŠâ you turn to look at him, and at this angle, you can only see his suit, the slope of his neck, and the hard cut of his jaw. And his mouth.
âItâs hard not to humanize something when things are like that.â
You look away, back at the sky.
âI think I understand,â he says.
After twenty minutes more peaceful silence, laying in the warm grass under the bright blue sky, you tell him see you tomorrow and you log out.
Work is boring.
You spent your life working towards this. Battling through high school, through college, through long hours of internships and grunt work and working your way up the ladder until finally you made it where you wanted to be.
Virtual reality development.
But now that itâs done, you just feel⊠well, youâre not sure.
You want to test it. Spend all your time inside VR, practicing manipulation, seeing what you can do. But you still have a job, technically, even if all you do is troubleshoot. Itâs still not ready to be released to the public; guides need to be written, instructional manuals, tips and tricks and things to be aware of. Itâs most of why your whole team is still troubleshooting the damn thing. Such a complex project coming together is bound to create gaps in awareness, blind spots as people focus on perfecting their own corner of the tech. Experiencing VR as a whole gives a fuller, better picture. SoâŠ
So, why canât you test the tech at work?
Well, you left the damn headset at home on your coffee table, thatâs why.
So you huff, turning your attention back towards the code youâre reading over for a friend. Mere formalities, at this point. You know itâs completely fine.
When did your nights become the highlight of your day?
You push the thought to the back of your mind and keep working.
That night, you phase into VR between one blink and the next.
Your eyes shoot open and you scan the room- ah. Connorâs on the other side of the couch, his âusualâ spot.
âHey, Connor!â you greet, smiling.
âHello,â he says, and gives you a slightly sad but evidently genuine attempt at a smile. It terminates somewhere between its command and execution, leaving him with an awkward twist of the lips, but youâre used to it by now.
âHey, okay, idea,â you say, businesslike.
You see him perk up, attention sharpening.
âWe should practice manipulating the virtual reality,â you say, gesturing around the room in a vague, sweeping generality. âItâs all Iâve been thinking about all day, honestly. And I bet youâd be good at it!â
Youâre not sure if Connor has practiced conjuration in the time between your little coin trick and now, but if he has, you havenât seen it.
âI have made several attempts,â he says, and youâre not even surprised that heâs managed to find the time. Youâre not sure how you know, but Connor seems⊠crafty. You have a feeling heâs good at finding loopholes and ways to achieve his goals.
You raise an eyebrow. âHowâd they go?â
He smiles at you, and this one almost looks genuine. âVery well, though the tests were simple.â
And, as you watch, holds a hand out in front of him. When your attention refocuses, he clenches his fist, and when it opensâŠ
Slowly, his fingers unfurl, revealing a coin.
You laugh, bright, head bobbing and eyes scrunching shut as the laughter is startled out of you. When you open your eyes, still grinning, Connorâs almost smiling, too.
âDid you enjoy that?â he says.
âIt was great!â you canât help how your voice sounds, unduly enthused. This shit is so cool.
He starts fidgeting with it, but you turn your focus inward. What can you do? Theoretically, your only limits are your own imagination and willpower.
Can you change your appearance?
Whether or not itâs possible, you donât want to do that, now. For one, you donât want Connor asking questions. (Or considering doing the same.) You like Connor, you do, but⊠trust?
Trust is something different entirely.
So you close your eyes and clasp your hands together, holding them in front of you, arms parallel to the ground.
You hear Connorâs distant what are you doing? but you tune him out, focusing inwards. What can I summon? Start simple. How aboutâŠ
Your mind flicks from object to object, ranging from the practical to the wildly impractical. A red rubber ball. Dancing flames. A glittering, gem-encrusted dragonfly. A purple blossom. An ornate, painted egg.
An eggâŠ
You feel something building between your palms. Warm, and tingling, almost. Like a word, on the tip of your tongue, but you canât quiteâŠ
And then thereâs something between your hands, forcing them a few inches apart to make room, and your eyes fly open.
Your eyes dart to Connorâs face, his eyes transfixed on your hands. You can hearâŠ
Peeping.
You open your cupped palms, slowly, supporting the chirping creature within. You keep looking back and forth, from Connorâs face to your own opening palms, a slow reveal.
You sigh as you take in the sight, settled between cupped palms: A fluffy yellow chick with shiny black button eyes, peeping and looking around. It looks- it looks real , feels warm and downy soft in your hands.
âYouâve created life,â Connor says. He sounds sincere.
âThe facsimile of life,â you correct him, a warm smile stealing over your face, using a thumb to stroke the chick lightly along the side of its small, feathered body. You can feel itâs tweets reverberating through its chest, quieting as it settles into your hands, placated by touch.
âItâs very⊠small,â Connor says, voice quiet. He looks enthralled, more entranced than youâve ever seen him.
âDo you want to hold it?â you say.
âOh, IâŠâ he looks almost⊠embarrassed? But surely, youâre imagining that. âIf you want. Thereâs no purpose to doing so.â
âHere,â you say, soft, holding it out, keeping your palms together, careful not to jostle it. You stop stroking it and it starts cheeping again, but it settles as you stroke a fingertip across its chest.
Connor steps forward, reaching, and cups his hands together under yours, cradling them. Illogically, his hands are warm. Bigger than yours, large enough to easily encompass them. And those facts are⊠irrelevant. You push them to the back of your mind.
Unbidden, you feel a flush rising to your face as you part your hands, slowly withdrawing. The chick tweets, panicked, as your hands start to move away, and it staggers into the cradle of Connorâs palms. Connorâs fingertips drag against the back of your hand as you pull away- irrelevant . You take a step back: You need some space.
âI canât scan it,â Connor says, and you canât read his tone. His voice is soft. âI can only⊠feel it. I can sense its warmth, and its texture. I can hear it.â
As if called to action, the chick starts peeping furiously, feathers ruffling, looking around frantically.
âPet it,â you suggest. Your eyes keep flicking back and forth between his hands and his expression. The chick looks even smaller in the cradle of his hands, and his face has a familiar expression on it: intensely focused. âIt worked for me.â
âComfort,â Connor muses, voice low. But he curls his pointer finger away from the rest, stroking along the chickâs feathers, and it quiets.
You want to say I wonder whatâll happen when we log out? But you know whatâll happen to the chick. Itâll stop existing, like everything does in VR. Unless you establish the server permanently⊠but thatâs beyond beta testing, only available when the final version comes out. Your house, the meadow outside⊠itâs all default, generated every time you enter VR.
âWillpower,â Connor muses, snapping you out of your reverie. The chick is still in his hands- oh, itâs dozing off. It looks like a pile of golden fluff, soothed and quiet by Connorâs petting. âYou summoned this⊠this facsimile of life through willpower. Did you foresee its behavior?â
âNo,â you say. âI just picturedâŠâ a baby bird. A chick. The color wasnât planned, nor its need for⊠comfort.
âYes?â Connor prompts.
âI just thought of a baby bird,â you say. âHatching from an egg.â
When you go into the next session, Connor is absent, as is the chick. Your virtual-cat isnât there, either.
Youâve never felt more alone.
The next session, Connorâs back.
Your cat - whoâs gotten into the habit of settling on your lap for your long, nightly VR sessions - comes along for the ride, too. You know itâs not actually your cat, but it sure acts like your cat, affection, quirks and all. Itâs comforting, at least.
So you practice summoning vibrant plumed feathers and scraps of colorful fabric for your cat to play with. Connor, expression colored with amusement, keeps to his side of the couch.
Youâre dangling a vibrantly red strand of yarn for your cat (whoâs batting at it playfully), jerking it back and forth, when-
A mouse goes flying past your face.
You shriek, jerking back- oh goddammit, Connor.
You shoot him a glare. The mouse - which your cat is racing over to investigate - is currently motionless and clearly mechanical, joints segmented and body hairless, skin a shiny chrome. You can hear whirrs and buzzes as your cat - overjoyed at the superior toy - sprints after it as it starts to scurry.
âWhy are you like this,â you say, grumpily settling deeper into the couch.
âI figured Iâd utilize my own expertise to contribute towards your goal,â he says smartly. You refuse to look at his face, but you have a feeling that heâs looking smug in his own self satisfied, android-y way.
You grumble, but you both spend the rest of the session chatting softly, watching your cat chase the mechanical mouse around your living room.
That night, as usual, you go to bed with a smile.
(You donât know how or why, but somehow, Connor has become a part of your routine. Moreover, heâs become the highlight of your day.
Virtual reality and its manipulations are incredible, and you're becoming better and better at twisting reality. Connor, too.
Things were going so well.
It makes sense that something had to break.)
âWhat...are your thoughts on androids?â
The question catches you off-guard.
You had expected something along the lines of your background, maybe even your professional credentials--it is what most people tend to ask when getting to know someone else. College you graduated from, notable achievements in your career, that sort of thing.
You didnât actually expect Connor--an android itself--to ask you about your opinions of them.
Itâs a bit unnerving, actually. You feel your thoughts flutter for a moment, unable to come up with a response that wasnât anything more than a jumble of confused noises.
Your thoughts on androids?
âI--well,â You sputter out an attempt of a sentence before coming back to yourself. âCould you clarify? Thatâs aâŠ.really general question.â Not to mention awkward. Odd. It left a slightly sour taste in your mouth.
Connor blinks. You can practically feel him processing your words, though itâs barely a moment of silence before he speaks again.
âSimply your general view on androids as a societal topic.â He speaks as if heâs discussing the weather. âIâve met many people who think quite negatively of androids for their impact on the job market, among other things. I was wondering how you saw androids due to your position and background.â
His words are fluid, somewhere between sounding rehearsed and spur-of-the-moment that it leaves you feeling off-kilter. Surreal. Youâre not sure why heâs asking- did he hear something in real life, during his job, on the topic? Is he coming to you for your opinion? Youâre not sure why.
Itâs a cold reminder that the being you are speaking to is simply not human.
âWell, I meanâŠâ You canât keep your eyes on his--they look a hair too intense, too focused. You save the moment by looking out, into the meadow, as if any number of the flowers in the distance caught your attention. âTheyâre...helpful?â
You hear Connor let out a cut-off hum. Is he asking your opinion for a purpose?
It takes a few seconds to collect your thoughts in a way that sounds professional, deserving of your background and education that should have given you a bit of worth to speak on the topic. You are no expert by any means, but androids were a part of everyday life for a lot of people--they arenât something you can just choose to ignore. Plus, working for Cyberlife, you can't really afford to have an unprofessional opinion.
âI think that the discovery of androids were a great aid to humanity,â you say, words coming out slowly. You're not sure why youâre so cautious about the words youâre using--he's just an android, it's not like he's going to argue with you. He doesnât have an opinion. â...I think that, despite the employment issues, androids have been a great tool--â The word sits awkwardly in your mouth. â--in many fields of expertise. Medical, technological, research and development, even childcare.â
Is there a purpose to what youâre even saying? Youâre answering the question of an android, what purpose would Connor even want to know--he didnât even have the capability to have desires.
With the way you talk with Connor, sometimes you forget. But you shouldnât. No matter what he says, what information he shares⊠heâs an android.
Heâs not human. Why am I even being careful? Itâs no different than taking survey answers, right? Asking without a purpose, without a desire--without a soul?
But you answer the question as honestly as you can.
âIâve met a lot of people who share a less positive outlook than you do for androids in society,â Connor says, tone immeasurable. âItâs interesting to hear the opinions of those around me as I continue with the missions Iâve given.â
Your internal tension breaks, and a huff of amusement comes from your mouth before you can stop it. Connor looks over to you just as your eyes move back to meet his gaze.
âI mean,â You offer him a shrug. âI never thought an android would ask me on my opinions on androids.â
âI am programmed to learn from my environment,â Connor starts. Does he sound defensive?  âI am also equipped with a multitude of subroutines to help me incorporate myself in a variety of social situations. I felt it appropriate to ask since you say that you work within Cyberlife.â
âSo, youâre curious,â Your words slip from your mouth before you can stop them, a moment of naive amusement against the forgotten truth.
Connor's gaze is hard and cold in return, a quick shift from the gentle look mere moments before. âI have already explained that I do not exhibit curiosity.â Connor definitely sounds defensive as he speaks and it, more than anything, seems surreal. âSeeking information is simply a byproduct of my programming to solve difficult cases that require complex thought processes to work through.â
Oh.
You swallow down a lump in your throat, cold reality settling into your thoughts. You try to save the moment between the two of you, scrabbling together the shredded pieces of the conversation with a half-genuine smile.
âThat sounds like curiosity to me, however you want to explain it.â
Connor doesnât seem to have a response to that. He doesnât seem to meet your eyes at all after that, staring off instead into the distance, entrenched in his own thoughts. Is he angry at you?
Is it even possible for him to feel anger?
Ten minutes of tense silence later, you wish him curt farewell and log out of the program.
Youâre not sure why, but you feel sad.
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WELCOME ROSE, YOUâVE BEEN ACCEPTED FOR THE ROLE OF ANTONELLA PICQUERY
Admins Note: My favorite femme fatale has arrived to stun us all. I absolutely squealed at your interpretation of Antonella. Every facet of her narcissism, her excessive indulgence and proud ego has been carved out. The sample paragraph had me chuckling, poor bloke! All in all, I canât wait to see Antonella twirl past midnight, capturing sin with every step she takes.  Congratulations on your acceptance again, please make sure to head your way to the checklist and submit your account within the next 24 hours!
OUT OF CHARACTER
Name / Alias: Rose. Pronouns: She/Her. Age: 21. Timezone: EST (GMT +5)Â
IN CHARACTER
Full Name: Antonella Margaux Picquery Sexuality: Bisexual. Gender/Pronouns: Cis Female. She/Her. Hogwarts House: Slytherin.
Head canons
warning Mentions of death, narcissistic shenanigans.
ONE She caresses her loverâs cheek. I could kill someone, if I needed to, she thinks, and then kisses her. And even if I didnât need to, I think I could.
TWO There are two sorts of lovers. Curiosities and passions. The former begins on a whim, at the briefest mix of boredom and interest. And is done with and gone as quick as it occured. The second is sweeter and, well. She doesnât pursue them. Sheâs too beautiful to pursue anyone or anything. Anything she desires eventually must make its way to her. So she keeps the door open. She sets out the trail of breadcrumbs and waits for them to find themself where she always knew they would. In her thrall. Itâs inevitable.
THREE Antonella has a higher tolerance for pretty muggles over ugly wizards. Far better to listen to idle small talk pour from lovely lips, rather than intricate spells from a cracked maw. In fact, she once had a muggle. He glanced about her apartments and laughed, nervous. Irritating. But he looked like the angels had cut him from the night sky. She wanted to sink her teeth into him. So she did. Until one day, she met a golden eyed half veela and left him, forgotten, in Morocco.
& HORUS âStay with me,â she says. âI love you,â and it feels like the truth. The best lies always do. He stays, she stays, they stay. One day she lies to him and it feels like the truth, tastes like the truth, sounds like the truth. And while she remembers the words in stunned silence (were they the truth? impossible) he leaves.
FIVE Antonella is morbidly blithe and playfully cruel. She believes life is only a series of distractions and games. It is an exercise in enjoyment and the one who lives best is the one who laughs most. So she laughs and lives for herself and her pleasure alone. Labor is what others do to support her wants and her yearnings; worker bees for a queen. She bears them neither gratitude or malice. Her payment is every moment theyâre allowed to observe her. What they have is symbiotic. Without culture, the arts, people like her, how could they ever bear their grim, small lives?
SIX Her grandmother dies, face haggard and hidden, and Antonella has never admired anyone more. When her mother comes to slide the veil away, Antonella slaps her hands. This is a final, sacred wish. The aesthetic preserved at all cost. She takes and keeps the lesson. She buries it in her heart, and lets it sprout.
SEVEN No oneâs ever made her grow up and so, there are traces of a childâs ambiguous innocence within her. An almost complete absence of empathy for others. An almost impressive preoccupation with herself and her own wants, needs, and comfort. If an acquaintance is weeping, she knows enough to say nothing of her slight hunger, to embrace and comfort them, but she will wonder, wistfully, of when can she go and indulge herself? She has spent her life being spoiled, and sees no reason why that should stop.
EIGHT Thisâs how her parents regard her: A living doll. A paradox. Dolls donât live. They exist. Theyâre displayed and owned. What do dolls exist for, if not to be handled? If not to be the eternal object to anotherâs subject. Nothing great could come from anything so slight, and delicate. This is the worst hurt of her half life.
& WREN She looks at Wren and says, âCharming.â This has only happened twice before, and the best time had been in an empty glen, her veins full of liquor and delight. The thestral had gazed at her and she at it. A warm, fondness overtook her, the same fondness that heated her neck when she considered Wren, the same fondness she had for all rough diamonds. For the beauty that hid itself in plain sight. With every rebuff and dismissal, the indignant fondness doesnât diminish. It grows. âQuaint,â she breathes under her breath, as Wren flees her, because she has been here before. She has done this before. And the sweetest part of a thingâs creation is its destruction. The artist knows best how to ruin art. Piecing it all together, building it all up, only to learn its most intimate machination, to know the best way to pluck the heart of it out, and watch it topple. Sheâs a child demolishing her sand castles, her blood hot and salted. Another game, another dear distraction; the foundation of life.
& EVANDER Antonella never accepts the bill when it comes. It has never and will never occur to her that she should. Sometimes she might consider the morality of an action. That itâs wrong, that it might hurt. But then here is the crux of the matter: She wants, so she does, and she takes. She wants her fianceâs friend, Evander, so she has him, and when she no longer wants him--a whim, a curiosity--heâs tossed aside. Forgotten.
& DARIUS Given the choice, she surrounds herself with beautiful things and beautiful people. Envy is rarely, if ever, a present concern of hers. She would say, I long to be surrounded by beautiful women and beautiful men. And never dream to add, Beautiful, but not as beautiful as myself. What a hypothetical, theoretical waste of breath. Where would she find anyone or anything as beautiful as herself? Or, since sheâs already sunk into the depths of myth and fantasy, more beautiful. In a story, or a dream? She mayâve met one such woman, in a nightmare, but it was only Antonellaâs reflection arisen from the dark sea. She mayâve met one such woman at a party, where she had been so wrecked with terror and drunkenness and desire that she knew she would die, but it was only her staring back from the window.
So her fiance isnât as beautiful as her, but she loves to look at him, and be looked upon with him. Has she ever looked finer than with him at her side, than with her at his side, their arms entangled? And has anything ever felt more distant and unsettled, than his hand on her shoulder? Stiff, dry, odd. Lust melts her lovers into her but he remains cold and far off. She might pretend to feel for him romantic distress when she clasps their hands together, but the more time passes the more her passion for him becomes devoured by pride and vanity and sooner or later, rage.
In Character Paragraph
Antonella sways, breathes in air soaked with color and delirium. Smiles at a girl draped in silver sparkle, her mouth like a melted rose. There are whispers and clumsy gazes directed towards Antonella, who preens. There are trumpets and saxophones screaming away into the night. âThe muggles are working themselves into a terrible frenzy tonight.â She loves it. Her walk is one-third dance.
âTheyâre called No Maj,â her companion, Douglas, corrects her, thoughtless, and she ignores him in the same manner. He hasnât noticed the anticipation of reverie around them. He doesnât have the nose for it as she does, and heâs too preoccupied with how he must look to her, anyways. Which is just as well.
A Rolls Royce waits to chariot them to an intimate gathering of artists, on the edge of Harlem and nowhere. Itâs a convertible; the interior all butterscotch leather that complements her dark silhouette, her cream gown, her easy privilege. Antonella drives because her companion canât and wonât. Because he becomes wrecked with a terrible sweat at first sight of the automobile. Because she wants to and itâs hers and she ignores his hand wringing. His vague mutterings on humiliation and control. Was this the muggleborn in him talking? How exotic. âI prefer portkey,â he says, finally.
âOh, darling, youâre no fun,â she replies, snapping her elegant, leather gloves on. Those gloves are too much involved in her excitement to drive. She has been overcome, for the past two days, by the thought of them and how sporty and fine sheâll look with her hands on the wheel. Her hair flying in the wind behind her, a cape of midnight darker than even the night around them.
How glamorous! And irresistable sheâll seem, even more so than she always does, if thatâs possible. She regards Douglas, her expression pleasant and juxtaposed against the frost in her eyes, âDonât tell me you get car sick, Douglas.â If he does, she just might abandon him right there, rather than follow him by portkey, or have him ruin her butterscotch seats. Her heartâs too much set on the idea of herself in the car with her gloves on. She imagines the jittering men and smirking women, their admiring gazes warm against her skin.
Rather than answer her, he gapes at her. His grey eyes wide and striking enough to remind her why she allowed him into her company. âMy name is Harold.â
âWhat is that, Henry?â she asks, his voice lost beneath the engines hum and her own delight. As the car takes off at a terrible speed, he forgets himself and what he means to say. He clutches the dashboard instead. Her smile is serene. His yelps escalate as the vehicle slips off the Manhattan Bridge. The East River swallows them whole, and Antonella peers at the sickly sea life swimming around their bubble.
âHow can you call yourself a wizard, Henry? Everything shocks and upsets you.â Ilvermorny must be a poor institution indeed. âItâs almost as if youâve never been in an enchanted vehicle before.â
âYou upset me,â he gasps.
Before she can reply, the car begins to sing, a sweet thrilling blues melody, and Antonella crows along with it, their voices clear and lovely above Douglasâs frantic complaints. The night looks full of possibilities. She can tilt the car just so and shake Douglas out into the blue beyond. (Cruel? Perhaps, but how cruel was he, to bore her so?) She can find someone beautiful and sink with them into the Atlantic. Laugh and drink at the intimate gathering. Laugh and drink at the frenzy behind her, instead, and fill those mugglesâ hearts with unexpected rapture. Swim with the sharks. Make love beneath the moon. Or any number of pleasures, as yet undiscovered. How good to be alive. How good to be Antonella.
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Drunk-Dialing Wormholes (MCU/Tolkien crossover)
A/N: This is for @uru-viel who recently Did a Very Cool Thing.
As a general rule, Darcy was against drunk!science.
She was, in fact, usually the voice of reason that shouted down the drunk!science. Â Darcy, as a general rule, tended to prefer drunk!dancing or drunk!marathons (preferably of B-level slasher films). Â Darcy did not think that drunk and science should be in the same hemisphere, let alone the same lab. Â The closest she had ever come to drunk!science was when she attempted to figure out the tip at Waffle House at 3:00AM on Thursday night.
Everyone made interesting decisions in college.
Today, she was making an exception to her general rule.  Today was a day for exceptions and skirting of rules and ignoring of guidelines.  Today was the day of Jane and Thorâs break-up.  Darcy would call it âthe big break-upâ but, truth be told, the relationship ended with more of a whimper than a bang.  There was long distance and then there was long distance, she was honestly impressed that theyâd managed to maintain the flame for the length of time that they did.
Just for the day, she was bending the rules.
âWine and science,â Jane said, the lower half of her spine undulating side to side as if her core muscles had forgotten how to work.  âWine and science,â she repeated, âis a marvelous combination.â
âI think thereâs more wine than science. Â And not enough whine.â
âI hate that I can hear the spelling change,â Jane muttered.
âYou know me so well.â
âToo well.â
âWounded,â Darcy said. Â âI am hurt.â
âYou are drunk,â Jane said, reaching over and gently pushing on her shoulder.
She obligingly swayed, tipping so far she almost unseated herself on the stool. Â âIâm the drunk half of this drunk!science experiment,â she said sagely. Â âNow go bring some more science into the party so I can bring more wine.â
âI...donât think thatâs how it works.â
âWe gotta keep it equal! Â Even! Â Ish!â
Jane pondered that for a moment, then nodded and shrugged. Â âI had... I had a thing I was going to do, with that - that-â
âThe other thing?â
âYeah.â
Darcy pulled a face. Â âNow Iâm sad, because I think I know which things you mean. Â We spend... a lot of time together. Â Maybe too much.â
Jane shot her a mournful look, âIf we werenât platonic besties-â
âWeâd be the bestest girlfriends,â Darcy finished, holding out her fist for a bump.
Jane bumped back solemnly. Â âIn another life.â
âOne without Thor.â
âOr Ian,â she added.
âUgh,â Darcy said, grimacing. Â âDonât remind me.â
âSorry, sorry... Iâll just,â she gestured vaguely towards the Bridge machine. Â âIâll just bring the science level up enough that we can open another bottle of wine.â
âIâll need wine and whine if weâre talking about Ian.â
Jane poked at the machine, âI had an inkling the other day, but it was a weird one.  I think my inkling was on the right track.â
âDid you write it down?â
âI didnât want to waste the ink if I was wrong.â
âCute,â Darcy said. Â âMaybe I should introduce you to Sam, he likes puns.â
âNo men, not for at least... three months. Â Mourning period.â
âFair. Â So...the inkling. Â Need paper?â
âNah, no paper. Â Just a few adjustments, like-â Jane wrenched at the machine, turning it a quarter to the left and then hitting a few buttons out of Darcyâs line of sight. Â âThere, that might do it.â
âMight?â
She shrugged. Â âThe inkling was vague and now wine. Â âMightâ is as good as itâs going to get tonight.â
âYou want I should press the red button?â
Jane pursed her lips. Â âUh...maybe we should wait until tomorrow?â
Darcy gave her an exaggeratedly patient look. Â âJane. Â Janey. Â What is tonight?â
âDrunk!science night.â
âThis night comes but once a relationship!â
âTrue, okay. Â Push the button.â
Darcy swayed over, one hand clutching her wine glass, and slung her other arm over Janeâs shoulder. Â She leaned in, pulling Jane along with her, until her hand could flatten over the big red button. Â She locked eyes with the older woman and waggled her eyebrows until Jane started giggling, then and only then did she push the button.
It was difficult to say who was more surprised when it worked: Darcy or Jane. Â But one moment they were cheerfully tipsy-slash-drunk in the lab and the next moment they were stumbling forward into a forest.
âThis isnât where I parked the bar,â Darcy said.
âOh my god,â Jane breathed. Â âIt worked!â
âYour inkling worked.â
âIt worked!â
âJane...â
âI canât believe-â
âJane!â
âWhat?â
âYou didnât write down the inkling.â
âWell, no.â
âSo nobody knows where we are and, unless theyâre like, as smart and specialized as you, odds are they wonât figure out how we got here.â
â...oops?â
Darcy squeezed her eyes tightly shut for a moment. Â âIâm too tipsy for this,â she muttered. Â âOkay, so, hereâs what we do. Â We walk until we find people-â
âPeople?â
âSentient beings, preferably ones we can communicate with, and then we ask them for help. Â Your machine can only move people through space, right? Â Not time and dimensions?â
âTheoretically, yes.â
âWell, ok then.â
âBut if Iâm wrong?â
âPanic, pain, the whole nine yards. Â But first! Â Optimism!â
âFueled by wine.â
âThatâs the best kind of optimism!â
Wine-fuelled optimism only got them about fifty feet further into the trees. Â The forest was dark, slightly dank, and quiet enough to impress upon the women the need for both speed and silence. Â The light, shaded by the overhanging branches and leaves, was dim enough to be confused with dusk. Â The weather was just warm enough that they were comfortable, but both wondered how that might change once true night fell.
âItâs too quiet,â Darcy muttered.
âDonât say that, youâll freak me out.â
âJoin me in my freak-out. Â The waterâs fine.â
âHa ha,â Jane muttered, carefully clambering over a massive downed tree.
There was no clear pathway, but the trees were too large to grow too close together and they provided enough shade that the space between them largely empty of sun-craving foliage.  There were mushrooms and shrubs, unrecognizable to either woman, but those were easy to navigate.  It was, after all, very simple to travel through a forest when you have no clear destination.
Being neither accustomed to camping nor even remotely acquainted with woodcraft, both of them were utterly surprised to find themselves suddenly surrounded by people with bows and arrows and skin that glowed faintly in the dim forestâs light.
âDefinitely not in Kansas anymore,â Darcy muttered.
One of the people stepped forward, lowering his bow. Â He said something in a smooth language that seemed entirely comprised of Lâs and Râs. Â At their obvious incomprehension, he switched to something with more glottal stops. Â Seeing their continued confusion, he scowled, stepping even closer, and studied them intently.
Darcy watched as his eyes skimmed over her and then stuttered to an obvious halt on Jane. Â She barely kept herself from rolling her eyes. Â Jane, for some reason unfathomable but utterly amusing, seemed to attract a certain type. Â That type was blonds, usually affluent blonds, but it was true regardless of placement on the gender spectrum. Â Darcy did not understand it, but after several years of friendship, including many nights at varying bars and/or restaurants, she felt quite comfortable making the broad, sweeping generalization that her friend was blond-nip.
He said something soft and quietly awed, then slowly slid his bow into a sheath on his back. Â He reached out a hand to Jane and-
Jane reached back.
Darcy watched with wide eyes as her friend accepted the hand and allowed herself to be drawn closer to the stranger. Â âUh...whatâs going on?â
âI...have no idea,â Jane said, never taking her eyes off of their new friend. Â âBut Iâm strangely okay with it. Â Canât tell if thatâs the wine talking or leftover thrill of success from the science.â
âMaybe both.â
âProbably both,â she agreed. Â âBut heâs...â
âHoly shit, heâs an elf!â Darcy squeaked as the stranger tilted his head to listen to them, long blond hair sweeping to one side to reveal a very pointy ear.
âHeâs perfect,â Jane breathed. Â There were stars in her eyes as she looked at him, and considering the womanâs hobbies, degrees, and life-long obsession, that was saying something.
It was, honestly, kind of adorable. Â The strange man and Jane were just... standing there. Â Gazing into one anotherâs eyes. Â After a minute or so, another one of the strangers (elves!) sheathed their bow and glided over to the trio. Â This one was a redhead and looked female, assuming that the elves subscribed to anything approaching human gender ideas. Â The ginger elf said something to the blond in that first liquid-silver language, it sounded soft and curious.
The blond responded, sounding just as breathless as Jane.
Ginger elf made a face like she was having too many emotions to convey. Â She turned smartly towards Darcy and made a broad gesture, obviously beckoning her closer.
âHi, I have no idea what youâre saying but Iâm totally not a threat,â Darcy said as she obeyed the unspoken command.
Ginger elf tilted her head to one side, looking amused.  She turned to the rest of the elves and said something hard and quick, head tilting to the left of where Darcy and Jane had been walking.  The others melted back into the foliage, though Darcy assumed that they were still there, and the elf turned back to her with a raised eyebrow as if to say, âWell?  You coming?â
âWell,â Darcy muttered, gamely following the elves and Jane, âwe found sentient beings, now we just gotta work on the communication bits.â
It felt like hours later that they reached something approaching civilization.  In this case, âcivilizationâ came in the form of a fortress whose walls were made of living trees.  Darcy gave them props for sustainability and their obvious support of the environment, but she was feeling tired, grumpy, and slightly queasy at that point.  Wine and exercise were not a good combination.
Much like wine and science.
Darcy, who at this point wanted nothing more than to curl into a ball and sleep off what was sure to be an awful hangover, was a being made of regret.
Then she glanced over at the blond, who had introduced himself as âLegolasâ in the most adorable âMe Tarzan, you Jane,â moment to ever make Darcy wish she had a functional camera, and her regret subsided.  Legolas and Jane kept sneaking glances at each other, and every time they locked eyes it was as if the world melted away.  And then either Tauriel, the redheaded elf, or Darcy would have to poke and prod them to get them moving again.
Darcy and Tauriel were well on their way to becoming friends in spite of the language barrier. Â There was an entire code of raised eyebrows and exasperated half-smiles shared between them as they helped shepherd their friends onwards.
The tree-fortress had a very large tree-door that Darcy decided not to think about too hard because the door appeared to be made of living wood and that was some next-level horticulture right there.  Beyond the gates was a city, but a tree city.  It was everything Darcy had imagined as a child when people described âtree housesâ to her, like Swiss Family Robinson meets fairytale, and she was instantly enchanted and enraptured.
The rest of the elves from the original encounter had melted back out of the woodwork and formed up at their backs as an escort. Â Darcy had a moment to feel wary before they were ushered into a very large tree-house-thing and into something that was obviously a receiving room. Â The tip-off was the very large and intimidating chair at one end of the room.
There was another elf-man sitting in the throne (because what else could it be?), long-limbed and graceful even stationary. Â He also had blond hair, and Darcy had a moment of worry as to whether or not there would be a blond-off for the favor of fair Jane. Â Clearly the wine had yet to leave her system.
The new, somehow even blonder elf was staring at Legolas and Jane with a faint frown, then his eyes swept over to her and - oh.
Huh.
Well. Â Shit.
His eyes were silvery, or maybe blue, it was difficult to tell with the distance between them but - oh. Â He had risen and was rapidly closing that distance. Â He stopped in front of her and reached out and, just like Jane, she reached back immediately. Â His hand in hers felt like that swooping feeling when a roller coaster first starts its descent down a big hill, like fireworks and killer harmonies and she was soothed and exhilarated all at once.
âWhat the fuck, Jane,â Darcy breathed.
âWith you, 100%,â she replied.
Legolas and her elf - shit, that was too possessive, that wasnât, but it was? Â Too confusing - started speaking in the flowing language. Â After a moment, her elf nodded sharply, then lifted his free hand to press his palm to his chest.
âThranduil,â he said.
âDarcy,â she replied, smiling helplessly.
She was feeling sightly better about the wine/science combo.
#amuse writes stuff#darcy lewis#jane foster#darcy & jane#darcy x thranduil#jane x legolas#cheating and relying on that fandom thing where elves have recognizable inklings towards their soulmates#elves and dwarves have soulmates#hobbits and humans have to figure it out themselves#lotr crossover#playing fast and loose with canon#story runs roughly concurrent with thor: ragnarok and slightly pre-hobbit#jane is blond-nip#this is a consistent headcanon of mine for jane#i also think lucius malfoy and possibly jadis would be into her#idk where this could go#no really
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Character Interview:Â âDavidâ
âș Name â Â âPrince. No, really - itâs Prince, but I can understand if thatâs a touch weird for people. Iâve started going by David since everyone just...thinks itâs a title and not a name. Mum was...she read one to many Dalmascan and Raenic fairytales.â
âș Are you single â "Blessedly so, yes. I...disklike commitments as such.â
âș Are you happy â Â âMore or less, sure. Emotions are fleeting. Ask me again tomorrow, and I might say otherwise. So would anyone else. Live in the moment, and donât dwell on making your feelings last longer than that.â
âș Are you angry? â Â âI wouldnât say Iâm angry, per se. I am a touch miffed at my management, currently. Theyâre trying to take more of a cut of my profits than they deserve. I may break from them, and start my own label, just to end that sort of shite.â
âș Are your parents still married â âYes, theyâve been so for longer than Iâve been alive.â
NINE FACTS
âș Birth Place â âGridania, though Iâve little affinity with the Shroud.â
âș Hair Color â Â âSandy blond, the kind that looks almost light brown when thereâs little light.â
âș Eye Color â âFunny that, but both my eyes are baby blue. Iâve a bit of a thing that makes the one look hazel-brown. Some scholar told me Iâve something called anisocoria, but hells if I know the details with it.â
âș Birthday â Â â21st Sun of the 2nd Umbral Moonâ
âș Mood â Â âCurrently? Bored. But like I mentioned before, emotions are fleeting. I may be bored at the moment, but that doesnât mean I will be the next.â
âș Gender â Â âI like to leave people guessing, thank you.â
âș Summer or winter â âNeither, really. Iâm fond of autumn, however.â
âș Morning or afternoon â âNeither. I live for twilight and beyond.â
EIGHT THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
âș Are you in love â âMost certainly - Iâm in love with myself~.â
âș Do you believe in love at first sight â âPersonally, Iâve never experienced the phenomenon, but Iâm sure others believe they have...which is why songs are written and sung about such. And if it can ignite the spark of hope...sure, why not.â
âș Who ended your last relationship â âI did, largely because I donât do relationships. Some people, unfortunately, donât get that.â
âș Have you ever broken someoneâs heart â Â âGods, all the time, though I try to let them down easy. Have you seen me?â
âș Are you afraid of commitments â âEntirely.â
âș Have you hugged someone within the last week? â âAll the time. While it makes my handlers nervous, I love immersing myself into a crowd, which often results in hugs and kisses. Perhaps a grope or two.â
âș Have you ever had a secret admirer â âSecret admirers are a gil a dozen when youâre a performer.â
âș Have you ever broken your own heart? â â...that would make a lovely sentiment for a song. Thank you.â
SIX CHOICES
âș Love or lust â âLust. Love requires too much upkeep.â
âș Lemonade or iced tea â âIced Tea, preferably the Lominsan kind.â
âș Cats or Dogs â âCats. Weâre quite similar, Iâm told.â
âș A few best friends or many regular friends â âI donât mind a few close friends, but one canât avoid having a tonne of acquaintances when oneâs from the stage.â
âș Wild night out or romantic night in â âPlease, that should be obvious. Wild night out.â
âș Day or night â âNight. Always night.â
FIVE HAVE YOU EVERS
âș Been caught sneaking out â âYes, and it drives my manager crazy. Which is why I keep doing it.â
âș Fallen down/up the stairs â âIâm far too graceful for that nonsense. Even if I did, Iâd make it look like I meant to do it. And Iâd look good doing it.â
âș Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? â âHasnât everyone? Iâm convinced they have, due to how popular my songs on the matter are.â
âș Wanted to disappear â âThereâs always the vague idea in the back of my mind that Iâd like to just...fake my own death or something. Take a break, and all that rot. Perhaps make a comeback afterwards, using the rumours of my death to fuel ticket sales...â
FOUR PREFERENCES
âș Smile or eyes â âWell, if it matters, the eyes. They are, after all, the windows of the soul.â
âș Shorter or Taller â âFor lovers? I generally prefer shorter, but I donât mind the Roegadyn or Viera or Auri from time to time.â
âș Intelligence or Attraction â Â âIntelligence. Stupidity bores me. Keep up, or move along.â
âș Hook-up or Relationship â âBy all that is holy, how many times do I have to mention I donât do relationships?â
FAMILY
âș Do you and your family get along â Â âWell enough, yes? None of them was all too happy about my choice in careers, but in the end, they came on board with my decision.â
âș Would you say you have a âmessed up lifeâ â âIâve a charmed life, really,â he states with a voice that drips with sarcasm.
âș Have you ever ran away from home â âYes, towards the end of my childhood. I wanted to become a performer, and my parents werenât thrilled. So I just..left.â
âș Have you ever gotten kicked out â âIâve been tossed from a few inns after hosting wild parties in them, even if we clean up afterwards and pay for any damages.â
FRIENDS
âș Do you secretly hate one of your friends â âNo. If I hate you, youâll know, as thereâll be a song about why I hate you.â
âș Do you consider all of your friends good friends â âNot particularly. Most of them are just hangers-on trying to ride on coattails or get laid, and all that.â
âș Who is your best friend â âMyself.â
âș Who knows everything about you â âPlease - the enigmaâs part of my appeal.â Tagged by Stolen from: @captainkurosolaire Tagging: Anyone/everyone that may want to take this.
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Magnus Chase and the Obligatory Hogwarts AU Ch15
On ao3
Once more I'm way too impatient to wait until Monday to update, but I'm sure you don't have a problem with that ;) FINALLY, Alex breaks up with Conall! Â *throws confetti* I'm sure you've been waiting for this moment as long as I have. Please bear in mind I've never written a break-up scene before so if I fucked it up, I'm sorry. I tried.
Alex was sitting at the edge of the Astronomy tower, his legs dangling over the side. It was a pretty big fall to the ground, but he wasnât scared. The Astronomy tower had a charm cast on it that prevented students from hitting the ground if they fell. From what Alex had heard, it was like falling on jelly.
Students were milling about the school grounds despite the chill. With Christmas coming closer and closer with each passing day the weather was getting colder and colder. A cool breeze blew and Alexâs green hair whipped around his face. In his warm coat and handmade scarf he wasnât that cold, and even if he was he wouldnât have minded. He found the cool made him feel more alert and he could certainly use that right now.
The old heavy door that lead to the roof opened with a loud creak. Turning around, Alex saw Conallâs head peaking from behind the door. His eyes scanned the roof before landing on the young Slytherin and stepping out of the shielding the door provided him.
âAlex?â he said hesitantly. âUm, hi. Sam said you wanted to talk to me about something?â What had probably been a statement came out as more of a question as the freckled Ravenclaw fiddled with the fabric of his robes awkwardly.
Alex nodded. âYes. IâŠâ Alex trailed of and he cursed himself. Dammit, he had no reason to feel nervous or hesitate! He had thought about what he wanted to do and how he was going to say it. With a deep breath he fixed a steely stare on Conall and spoke confidently. âYouâve been acting weird lately.â
There was a flash of⊠something in Conallâs eyes. Fear? Confusion? Whatever it was it was gone just as quickly as it came. âWeird?â Conall asked with furrowed eyebrows. I spoke too vaguely, Alex realized.
âYeah. Youâve been acting different around me whenever Iâm a boy.â They were standing about two meters apart and the air between them felt cold, and not just because of the weather. Conall seemed to shrink under Alexâs gaze and he shifted uncomfortably from one leg to the other without saying anything.
Alex moved his weight from one hip to the other and crossed his arms over his chest. âWell?â He asked, voice sharp and hard. He had expected Conall to deny the accusation or confirm or hell, even act like he didnât understand what Alex was talking about! He had expected everything but this silence and it somehow got him angrier than Conall denying what he did would have.
âIâm sorry,â the boy finally said in a quiet voice, eyes staring at the floor instead of Alex.
âIs that all you have to say?â Alex snapped at him, the pain and confusion and desperation he felt the last few days seeping into his voice and turning in a burning anger that he couldnât hold back. âSeriously, do you know what itâs like knowing someone youâre close to doesnât accept all of you? Itâs horrible, thatâs what it is!â Conall would still not look at him and his shoulders were hunched up as if he was trying to hide behind them
âYou have a nagging voice at the back of your head constantly telling you that they like you, just not that specific part! It,â Alexâs voice broke and the rest of what he had to say came out in a voice that was barely audible over the blowing wind. â⊠it makes you question whether the rest of your friends feel the same way.â
It was hard not to let the doubt Conallâs behavior created seep into other things. It would rear its ugly head like the monster in Alexâs closet and corrupt anything he was sure about. Did Sam really accept him, despite her religion? Â Did Mallory, T.J and Halfborn actually hate him secretly? Would Magnus â or anyone for that matter- like him regardless of gender?
Every time a thought like that entered his mind he felt like hitting his head on a wall just to remind himself that he was wrong and that his friends cared for him. They liked him like he was, confusing gender and everything, and he knew that. Still, it was hard for his brain not to instinctively pull up all the instances of someone who didnât feel like that, their harsh words and accusing stares. Those people were why he refused to take shit from people for his gender, yet it felt different when it was someone you knew and cared about rather than a faceless, nameless git. The thought hurt more.
Pushing the thoughts put of his brain, Alex blinked his eyes to push back the moisture that had gathered there. No way was he going to cry now.
âIâm sorry, I⊠donât really have an excuse for acting the way I did and Iâm sorry for hurting you, that was never my intention.â It honestly looked like Conall was trying to make himself look as tiny as possible in hopes that maybe then he would disappear. His voice was heavy with shame, same as his face. It made a part of Alex feel good and he didnât feel that guilty about it. Conallâs shame felt like payback for everything he had gone through recently.
âI know it wasnât, but you did.â Alexâs voice sounded confident and hard, no sign of sympathy for his soon-to-be ex-boyfriend. âI think we should stop this. The dating thing.â
Once more, Conallâs reaction wasnât what he expected. No surprise at Alex for wanting to break up with him â although if he really thought they would still be together after this he was stupid â no trying to change Alexâs mind, no fighting back of any sorts. He simply nodded and accepted it and Alex was glad he was at least mature about this. He didnât have the enrgy to put with any drama right now, at least not in a civil way.
âAlright. I actually wanted to talk to you about that since I realized how I was acting. Can we still be friends?â
The suggestion sent a pang of disgust through Alexâs entire body, the same as smelling something terrible would. No, being friends again with him didnât feel right, not now.
Alex shook his head. âNo. Iâm not sure how I feel about being around you anymore.â
Conallâs expression fell only slightly. Apparently he was expecting that answer. âI understand. Acquaintances, maybe?â
Alex shrugged. âI guess thatâs fine.â A âgood morningâ here and there didnât sound that bad. Just typical, dry communication with no real feeling behind it.
âSay,â Alex started saying when he remembered what Conall had said before asking if they could stay friends, âif you had wanted to break it off since you realized you didnât act the same around me on my male days, why didnât you say anything?â
It would have saved both of us a lot of trouble, he thought but he didnât say it. It was already pretty clear without either of them voicing it.
Conallâs face blanched and when he opened his mouth he was rambling. âOkay, itâs completely stupid and Iâm an idiot, but I was afraid of the confrontation. I donât like hurting people, well, I guess no one does, but I was basically afraid of hurting you.â What he just said seemed to register in his brain and he smacked his forehead so hard someone in the Slytherin common room must have heard. âAnd by not saying anything, I hurt you more. As I said, Iâm an idiot, wow. I kind of surprised you havenât slapped me yet.â
Alex shrugged, a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âCanât be bothered. And yes, youâre an idiot. If you wanted to break up but you wouldnât bring it up, how would that ever happen?â
He was almost laughing by now at how stupid that was and how stupid they were for staying in a relationship they both wanted to get out of.
Conall must have been thinking the same thing because he was rubbing the back of his neck in a flustered way. âI donât know. I sort of wished you would dump me because you liked Magnus.â
Alex would have laughed because this is probably the only time someone wanted their significant other to leave them for someone else. He would have laughed if the name Conall said hadnât stopped him dead in his tracks.
âWh-what?â He could feel his face burning as hot as a heater in the chilly weather and he was looking at Conall with eyes as big as dishes, wishing he would say it was just a joke.
Ales, Conall just looked at Alex confused. âYou donât? Iâm sorry, I guess I just assumed. You always seemed very close, I was actually afraid you were dating before I asked you out.â Conall laughed nervously, completely oblivious to how much Alex was freaking out right now. Was he really that obvious about his crush on Magnus? Had people noticed before even he had noticed? Did Magnus notice and did he feel weird about it?
âAnd you would act odd around him sometimes,â Conall went on, âlike, you would stare too for too long, so I kind of hoped you would break it off with me to be with him.â
Alex didnât speak. He didnât joke about how crazy or unlikely it was for him to like Magnus like that, he didnât laugh about it, he did nothing. He simply stood there, face redder than the Gryffindor banner, refusing to look Conall in the eye.
After a moment of silence, Conall was the one to speak up.
âDo you like him?â
Silence. Then, despite his heart beating like a drum, Alex nodded.
ââI think you should tell him,ââ Conall says after a few seconds. ââWho knows, maybe he likes you back. And if he doesnât, just be mature about it and things wonât be awkward.ââ Conall had the same tone of voice he had whenever he would quote something from the text book during lessons. âThatâs what Magnus said when I asked him for advice on asking you out. Well, he used different pronouns, but you get the point. Maybe you should give it a shot.â
Alex shook his head. âHe doesnât like me like that.â Merlin, who breaks up with their boyfriend just to have him give them romantic advice about someone else they liked?
âI donât think thatâs the case, but you know, what you do is your choice. I donât think I have a right to tell you what to do about that. Anyway, I should get going, Iâve been meaning to go to the library.â
Alex heard Conallâs footsteps as he left the rooftop. He was sitting back on the edge of the rooftop again, looking down on the school grounds but not actually seeing them. He was too lost in his thoughts. A cold wind blew by and he didnât bother pulling his coat closer.
Conallâs words rang in his ears. I think you should tell him. Who knows, maybe he likes you back.
⊠Should he go for it?
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A few weeks passed since Alex broke up with Conall. The Ravenclaw no longer sat at their table and the group of friends wouldnât see him unless they happened to have a lesson with him. Even then, they never went beyond a simple âGood morningâ or âHelloâ. The most any of them had heard of him was when he asked Percy and Annabeth how Ilvermorny was because he was thinking of signing up for the student exchange program next year.
âSo what do you think youâll do after school?â Annabeth asked Halfborn. It might be hardly Christmas but Halfborn, Annabeth and Percy â the three members of their group that were graduating this year- could already feel the anxiousness that came with their final exams.
âIâm not quite sure just yet, thereâs a lot of things I want to study.â Halfborn cut up a piece of his omelet and stared at it as he talked. He was lost in thought, they all knew that, but it kinda looked like he was asking a piece of egg for the answers he wanted. âIâm really interested in variations of spells from country to country. Iâm kind of thinking being a DADA teacher wouldnât be half bad.â
âI want to be a magic researcher,â Annabeth said. âPeople have been stuck in the same old spells and charms for so many years, even when magic keeps evolving. I want to test how far we can go.â
âGuess we know whoâs going to be the successful cousin,â Magnus joked. Everyone at their table laughed and Sam started talking to Annabeth about what she wanted to research. T.J asked Percy what he wanted to do, to which Percy just shrugged and said âI dunno. Auror?â
âOh, I forgot to tell you!â Annabeth suddenly said mid-sentence as she remembered something important. âSince the Triwizard tournament is next year, we managed to pull some strings so weâll be able to come and visit during the last task.â
Another excited discussion started among the students as they started talking about the Triwizard tournament, something that â weirdly enough - they had forgotten about.
âWe should all sign up next year!â T.J said. âWho knows, maybe one of us will be Champion!â
âThe tournament is very dangerous, we could get seriously injured,â Sam started, always the voice of reason, but upon seeing her friendsâ faces she relented. âOh, why not? The chances of being picked are low anyway.â
âAw, donât be like that, sis!â Alex said, throwing an arm over his sisterâs shoulders in a weird side hug. âIt will be fun! And maybe you can convince the teachers to let Amir come visit during the tournament.â
The conversation continued like that for a while, the group of friends arguing about which one of them was more likely to be picked as Champion. The conversation was sadly cut short when the bell rang and they had to get to class.
Alex, Mallory, Sam and Halfborn had History of Magic and they headed to the classroom like sheep to the slaughter. Halfborn had chocolates hidden in his pockets and he shared them with the other Slytherins in order to keep themselves (at least partially) awake during the boring lesson.
The four of them had devised a plan since the start of the year. They would take turns and every time they had a lesson one of them would pay attention and keep notes while the others napped on their desks. Today it was Halfbornâs turn, which is why he was eating his weight in sugar.
Alex didnât really mind History (at least when he didnât have to pay attention to their boring Professor). He could sit at the back, relax and sketch in his notebook until the lesson finished. He was sitting next to Sam right now, who had pulled out a book to read and hid it behind her textbook. Alex was sketching lines and curves on the paper, not really thinking too much about what he was drawing. Â
Halfway through the lesson Sam tapped his shoulder. He turned to her and made a âwhat?â gesture with his hand (he had been getting better at sign language lately, although he was still not as good as Magnus). Sam pointed to his notebook and mouthed âniceâ. Confused, Alex glanced down to see Magnus looking at him from the paper.
Stupid fucking romantic clichĂ©s â did he seriously just draw Magnus without even realizing it?
Much to Samâs confusion, Alex let his head fall on the desk with a light thud. Sam was even more confused when Alex started muttering under his breath. The only things she caught were âfucking feelingâ, âlike to make me sufferâ and  âIâm gonna beat up whoever thought this is funnyâ. Sam decided it was best he gave his brother some space.
Conallâs words danced around Alexâs mind as he was beating himself up over being reduced to a lovestruck schoolgirl by a boy with fluffy blonde hair and pretty eyes and an endearingly bad fashion sense and a nice laugh and- Oh, for Merlinâs sake!
Who in their right mind thought feelings were a good thing?
I think you should tell him. Who knows, maybe he likes you back. Alex heard Conallâs advice once more, though this time âKiss the girlâ played in the background with Halfborn at the vocals, for some strange reason (even his own mind didnât make sense anymore). Should he try out his luck and ask Magnus out? He could always reject him, but Alex hoped they would still be able to be friends afterwards. The small possibility that he would say yes made Alex feel like his heart had completely forgot how it was supposed to beat. The green-haired boy groaned into his notebook. Ugh, feelings suck.
Finally sitting up, Alex tore a page from his notebook and started writing. So a friend from Hufflepuff has wanted to ask this boy he likes out for some time now, but heâs not sure whether he should because theyâre friends and he doesnât want things to get awkward. What should I tell him to do?
Alex nodded to himself before passing the note to Mallory. He knew how stupid the whole âI have a friend whoâ thing was, but he hoped saying which house his friend was in would convince Mallory he wasnât just lying.
The redhead read the note carefully, sending Alex a questioning stare before quickly scribbling down an answer. She glanced quickly to see if the Professor was looking and gave the note back to Alex.
I think he should tell him if he has wanted to do it for so long. He should make it clear that he wants things to go on as always if heâs rejected.
Alex nodded to himself. Yeah, that sounded logical. His eyes moved down the page to Malloryâs little P.S.
P.S. Try not to be so obvious when you want dating advice, Alex.
Alexâs cheeks burned red and he hit his head on the desk again. He heard quiet snickering form Malloryâs desk and he felt her hand pat him quickly on the back. Alex continued to lay there, contemplating where he had gone wrong in life, until he felt a tap on his shoulder. Raising his head, he saw another slip of paper on his desk. He unfolded it to see a short message from Halfborn.
Go get him, love boy! <3 <3 <3
-Halfborn
Alex sent a glare to Halfborn, slowly tracing a line across his neck in the universal âIâll kill youâ motion. Halfborn only smirked and blew him a kiss. Alex slammed his head back on the desk.
Someone please put me out of my misery.
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Alex was running down the schools corridors as fast as he could. He had just finished Quidditch practice and he had hardly enough time to get his hair out of its messy ponytail. He was still high on adrenaline from practice and throwing balls at people to get them to fall of their brooms (Merlin, he loved this sport) and he decided that if he was going to do this he might as well do it now.
He was doing. He was going to ask out Magnus.
He run past the students milling around the castle, all of them surprised to see a sweaty Slytherin running like his life depended on it. Some tried to get out of his way but even if they didnât move at all Alex maneuvered between them easily without hitting anyone. (Okay, almost. He might have bumped into a random Ravenclaw that had her nose buried in a book and knocked her down, but he apologized and helped her up.)
If he remembered correctly, Magnus tended to be in the library at this time. Since he and T.J werenât in either one of their Quidditch teams they didnât have practice at this hour and would use the time to hang out in the library, doing (or trying to do) their homework.
Alex turned another corner and tried to will his hearts to slow down. This was going to be fine. He would find where Magnus was sitting, ask to talk to him in private if he was with T.J and then ask him on a date. He would try to play it cool if everything went well and Magnus said yes. If he said no he would be mature and say itâs alright, that he just needed to get out of his chest and ask that they keep being friends. It would be alright. Everything would be fine.
It would be easier to believe that if my bloody heart could stop beating like this, Alex thought bitterly, but pushed those thoughts down. Part of him was scared that for all his confidence and give-zero-shits attitude he would lose it in front of Magnus and make a full of himself. Then the logical part of his brain told him that heâs already made a full of himself in front of Magnus several times. Magnus had seen him attempt (and failing) to do the opening dance from Lucky Star, for crying out loud! There was nothing left for him to be ashamed of.
Well, things could still go badly and you could lose one of your best friends, but no pressure!
Youâre not helping, brain!
Finally, the doors of the library came into view and Alex picked up his pace. He accidently run into a student again but he managed to dodge in the last second (the other student wasnât that happy about that). He finally slowed down next to the doors to catch his breath and cast a quick cleaning spell on him, enough that he didnât smell of sweat. No way was he going to ask out Magnus while panting and smelling like a locker-room.
When he could finally breathe normally, he patted down his hair to make sure it wasnât a ratâs nest and walked into the library. He knew there was a table Magnus liked to sit at near the windows so he headed over there. As he got closer, he started hearing bits and pieces of their conversation.
âSay, Magnus, can I ask something?â Alex heard T.J ask. The Slytherin was standing behind a bookcase and if he pushed some books aside he could see the two boys sitting in a table by the window. Alex didnât make a move to walk up to them. He could just wait here until they finished their conversation. (Was he trying to procrastinate? Yes.)
âSure, go ahead.â Magnus was bent over a roll of parchment, scribbling manically as he tried to think of enough meaningless crap to write so he could reach the word limit of the essay. (Alex remembered showing him how to bullshit his way through an assignment like a Politian after the blonde had complained to him about having to write a very long essay.)
âDo you like Alex?â T.J spoke casually, but casual was nowhere near what Alexâs reaction was. His heart fell like it had burst like a balloon inside his chest and his fingers were gripping at the bookshelf so hard his knuckles had turned white. He could hear his heart beat like a drum at the prospect of finding out if Magnus liked him. He tried to breathe through his nose to calm down but it had little effect.
He concentrated as hard as he could and tried to hear what his friends were saying.
âYeah, of course I like Alex,â Magnus said, uttering the words like it was something as easy as breathing. It didnât seem possible but Alexâs heart started beating even faster. A blush started spreading across his cheeks and he tried his best not to smile wide like an idiot. Magnus liked him back, yes!
But Magnus hadnât finished. âWeâre friends after all,â he continued. Alex heart dropped instantly and the smile he had failed pushing back disappeared from his face.
No, itâs okay, he said to himself. He sounds a bit weird, maybe heâs just embarrassed to say it out loud. Youâd feel awkward too in his place. Alex wouldnât have answered that question without being forced to. Magnus could just be denying it, though his face was turned away from him so Alex couldnât see his expression to be sure.
Alex could see T.J rolling his eyes from the little gap between the books. âNo, I mean, like like. Like how Halfborn likes Mallory or Annabeth likes Percy.â The Ravenclaw spoke slowly, like he was speaking to a baby or someone completely stupid (which was a pretty good description of the Ravenclaw house now that Alex thinks about it).
Magnus didnât speak and Alex saw him writing his essay, ignoring T.J that was glaring at him with a frown.
âDo you have a crush on Alex?â He asked slowly and bluntly, holding Magnus by his shoulders so he couldnât look away.
âNo, I donât,â Magnus said and Alex felt the rejection hit him hard in the chest. âIâve never stopped to think about it, to be honest. Can you imagine me and Alex as a couple?â The blonde laughed lightly and Alex clenched at the bookshelf so heard he might break it.
He turned around and run out of the library, frantically wiping away the angry tears in his eyes, determined not to cry. Of course Magnus didnât like him, what was he thinking? Why would someone like him romantically, anyway? Why would anyone want him? Who would want him with his weird hair and inconvenient gender and his lame jokes? Nobody, thatâ who. Merlin, he was a mess.
Alex run to the closest bathroom â he didnât bother to look whether in was for girls or boys- and he stayed there until he stopped punching the wall with every stray tear that made it out of his eyes.
Back in the library, T.J was not convinced of what Magnus was telling him. Alex hadnât seen the blush on the boyâs cheeks when he first denied the accusations and he did not hear the light tremble and the hesitance in his voice the second time. Alex hadnât noticed how awkward and unnatural his laugh sounded or over-the-top his voice was as he tried to sell his lie.
âMagnus, how long have we known each other?â T.J asked with deadly seriousness. Without waiting for Magnus to answer, he continued. âSince first year. I know you, Magnus. Iâve seen you do both brilliant and utterly idiotic things. Do you really believe you can fool me with that?â
Magnusâs shoulders slumped and he sighed deeply. âNo. Worth a try though, right?â
T.J ignored the boyâs sheepish smile. âIf you like Alex, why wonât you do something? Iâve seen the way you look at him and youâre worse than Halfborn was, my friend.â
âLook, IâŠâ Magnus trailed off, unsure how to continue. How was he supposed to explain how small of a chance he had of being with someone as amazingly brilliant as Alex or how scared he was to try for something more that could fail and cost him one of the best friends he ever had?
âAlex just broke up with Conall and I just donât think it would be a good idea to ask him out immediately. He probably needs some time to himself, right?â Magnus said, applying the same logic Alex had taught him about essays to what he was saying. âAnd just being attracted to someone doesnât mean you want a relationship, so I might not even want to ask him out. Even if I wanted to, Iâd⊠do it at my own time. Thereâs no reason to rush.â
T.J sighed and picked up his quill again. âWhatever you say, buddy. You might be better than Halfborn and ask him out without our help.â
I donât think thatâs going to happen. Alex wasnât interested in him and that much was clear. He never brought up their almost kiss in the Room of Requirement so he obviously wanted to pretend like it had never happened. If thatâs what Alex wanted, he could respect it.
Losing him as a friend wasnât worth it.
*hides under the bed again* Don't kill me! I know this doesn't make things any better, but I could have made Magnus get a girlfriend to try and get over Alex, so... yeah, this was the better option for all of you. (Also I was too lazy to do the whole girlfriend thing and hey, I might like torturing you but even I have limits).
On better news, yes, next chapter is officially their seventh year and the Triwizard Tournament! *throws confetti again* Please send me any suggestions you have for the tasks in the comments because I need inspiration even if I have a general idea of what I want the tasks to be like.
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