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I drew this from memory but its not too bad lmao, hair is a little long so let’s just say this is preteen Philip
I’m losing it, I’ve been drawing for 3 hr and then got kicked from my old high school email account and lost it all… I drew this in a few minutes to cope since apparently I can’t upload the lost media 💀💀💀
#this little guy has witnessed so many hangings#philip wittebane#the owl house#toh#toh belos#belos#belos wittebane#emperor belos#the owl house belos#toh fanart#belosposting#toh phillip wittebane#the owl house philip#phillip wittebane#toh philip#belos fanart#belosfanstakeover#pip wittebane#kid belos#kid pip#kill me#the original looked more traumatized#this one is more numb inside#this new art style gives kid Belos vibes#dark forest don’t starve vibe?#idk still haven’t played the game 😭#I’m ranting again I’ll just keep going till I run outta tags#I like the bean eyes#my old one’s mouth looked cool but idk how to recreate it 😭#I’m calling my old school and BEGGING to have access to my email once more
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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again
#My art#One Piece#Long post#Sir Crocodile#Nico Robin#Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare#Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child#But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead#IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about#And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away#In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out#(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet#She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it#IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook#Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook#But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY#Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic
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…maybe I’m just a robot with enough human neural tissue jammed in my head to make me stupid.
#me drawing mb: be sadder. be more traumatized. look more upset. be angrier. feel more rage. look more unhappy.#HA HA I finally had an original composition idea#okay I’m sure it’s not original but I came up with it myself ehehehe#also spectra brush with hue jitter on I love you#murderbot#murderbot fanart#secunit#tmbd#tmbd fanart#the murderbot diaries#trafosu
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A new Master and Padawan duo!
Had a lot of fun making them, I’m attached to them now ahdhsjfh
(Bonus of Suan before and after Order 66)
#Star Wars#star wars the clone wars#star wars oc#jedi oc#original characters#original character#ocs#love their duo so much aaaa#i like more how suan looks after order 66 than before GAHSGDHSH#bro survived a traumatic event and became hotter as a result#doodles#i also did my research and apparently mirialan Jedi usually train other mirialans as tradition#but i figured that suan wouldn’t mind training a non mirialan#he probably was so excited he FINALLY got a Padawan that he didn’t give a fuck
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I know Wicked is not going to make Dorothy a young kid like in the books but I really like when dark versions of childrem literature do keep them as kids.
Not in "it's more fucked up" light but in this is also a metaphor for kids growing up in a weird scary world while most adults never actually explain anything and either expect them to already know or to be forever oblivious. And so the kids have to figure it out. To make themselfs the decision to remain kind, to learn to love the new world or at least the people in it.
And I do think being a kid is part of the reason Dorothy reacts to Oz so diferently than the Wizard. Yes, it is also because she is a good person. But Dorothy is a kid she is used to things that make no sense. So she goes to an insane new world and her first instinct is to learn. She is quicky to accept that animals talk and scracrows walk and tin man have life. Because she is open minded yes, but also because kids know they don't know everything in a way most adults don't.
But Dorothy also killed (she didn't but you get it) someone and was praised for it. And she is scared and she wants to go home. And everyone keeps teeling her she did the right thing and that all she needs to do to go home is meet this amazing all powerfull guy and kill the horrible mean witch. And every fairy tale has evil witches. So maybe it's okay. And she takes it. Because she is a child and she is new and they are adults.
But she is kind. She befriends all this traumatized adults with backstories and connections she does not know (just like real kids don't know the past of the adults they trust) and she just wants to help them. And she notices that the Tin Man already has a heart and the Scarecrow has a brain (Fiyero was likely lying from the start but Dorothy does not know that) and that the Lion does have courage. And she decides it also means she has to do the right thing so (and I'm going Wicked books here) when she meets Elphie all she wants is to apologize. She knows what is like to lose family and also she knows the witch protects the animals and Toto is her best friend, so anyone that protects animals cannot be that evil specially when the animals here are really just people but different shaped. She doesn't know if she will ever be forgiven but she wants Elphaba to know it was an accident, to know she is sorry, to know someone else is mourning her sister, to know that it is scary and unfair. To give her the shoes back if she can finally just take them off.
She is brave and when she discovers the Wizard is a farse she shows it to everyone. And it's not planned in any way because she is a kid. She doesn't have the maturity, the trauma nor the context Galinda has. Hell she must have noticed Glinda loves the witch and it might be the one reason she does not call Glinda out as well, not any strategy just thinking love can fix all cause she's a young kid.
[I also just think baby Dorothy would make everything funnier. And of course I have the personal fix it that Glinda and Elphie make amends post cannon as them (and Fiyero) find about Tip and raise Ozma as the polycule they should've always been (and also try to fix Oz from very different angles). Only as the Oz books go Dorothy and Toto come back (with Uncle Henry and Aunt Em this time) and she and Ozma fall in love (homoerotic best friends and co-princess wich is the same). And I think Ozma going to present Dorothy to her low key parents only to learn Dorothy has very diferent forms of history with them is golden.]
P.S: This was edited so I will add that in the original I made the point that I consider the three girls that best follow this lost child in a world of horror and wonder having to figure it out by themselfs with a but of an allegory for growing up and the expectations unfairy placed upon them as queer and neurodivergent even if unintented so (it's also accidentaly about gender in my head). The girls being of course Dorothy, Alice and Wendy.
P.S2: I know in the books they just die and in the musical they run for our world but it's my fix it and let's be honest Oz is in shambles and a very traumatized Glinda will not fix it all by herself and she deserves some support.
#mostly I love original dorothy#and i do like book wicked dorothy at least what i remember of her#and i want more of her#even if judy garland teen dorothy is also perfect#wicked#dorothy gale#fiyero tigelaar#elphaba thropp#galinda upland#ozma of oz#ozma tries to introduce dorothy to her family#and Dorothy hugs Fiyero as an old friend#cries for forgiviness to a stunned Elphie that only now realizes how much this child was traumatized#and sends mean looks/has huge trust issues with Glinda who also just now realizes she traumatized the kid
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Some new art of a very very old oc of mine! From like, when I was an 8th grader in middle school to freshman in high school I think, I haven’t thought about this character or the world she’s from in like… years, but my brain suddenly remembered she existed! And so I drew some art of her!
Visually, she’s absolutely mostly the result of my child self sticking Toko Fukawa from Danganronpa and Peacock from Skullgirls in a blender and lettin it fuckin rip. Personality wise she’s a bit different tho… she’s into politics! As in,,, she’s in politics ghgh, she’s like the chief of the surveillance department for the country of (mostly) witches that the story takes place in. And one of the advisors to the head ruler witch,,, she sucks! Hardcore! she’s def a villain lol
#I made 2 videos for this story and she’s in 1 of them#the idgaf video. at the 30 second mark#but. even tho I specifically remember when I first designed her she had the eyeball braids!#or at least eyeball buns#16 year old me got rid of em!!! for no good reason!#they were fun and cool and fitting for her role and character!!! what the hell 16 year old me!#original#original art#original characters#my ocs#artists on tumblr#eyes#doodles#the other video from this story I made is the something’s not right meme lol#the difference in tone is fucking tremendous#that one tho is more… a lore tidbit… like… it’s background on a phenomena of the setting…#as a middle schooler I did not give a shit about major or minor or background characters tho. or even actually telling a cohesive story?#like. I started w a few characters. and then. went on to characters they were connected too. and then characters they were connected too#and then on an on and on it was just a web of vaguely interconnected dudes in a vaguely interconnected world#no. real narrative lol. but I had fun w it! it was cool. I wish I still had my sketchbooks w the stuff I made for it#I feel like it’d be a fun thing to look back on… sadly fire took them… damn u fire ghg#* shakes first at past horrible traumatic experience *#anyway yeah! enjoy art of evil eyeball lady w no name lmao#*fist not first… spellings hard#partial nudity#in the second pic. but also u can’t rlly see anything so. I think it’s fine?#I’ll still tag just in case tho
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in which my vampire ocs meet the past versions of themselves
#low stakes 🦇#my comics#i've got some serious comics too but they are way harder to post hahah#so anyway - details.#bat didn't change much. i gave him battier ears because i learned what bats looked like#morten also didn't change too much. but i sure drew them with a ton of hair. and it was more blackish/purplish/blueish than simply Blue#rune was literally my in-game born sim that i adopted as an oc#then i traumatized him :)#as for einarr..... well you see#in 2017 he was literally just a prototype. barely even a character yet#a quick draft for who the heck could possibly be bat's sire since i gave mort a sire (bat). the original idea was that he died#and then i didn't get back to him for Months#when i got better ideas for him <3#so yeah#i may reblog this with drawings from the time#i tried my best replicating my old art style that had clearly changed very slowly and gradually since then :]#it was very strange#this is seven years of difference
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Chrysididae
The Birth of the Hero Chrysididae!
A student film premiers, a lost heiress in enraged at the perceived betrayal of her sponsor, classmates, family and even oldest friend.
Why she wonders, why do these things keep happening to me?
It is a question she had wondered before but only rarely, too often it was too easy to find some enemy to blame, or her own lack of exceptional talent.
But on this day, when she reflects on Gabriel Agreste's souless stare from the tablet, something clicks.
He did this on purpose.
Like one domino hitting another, it sets off a chain of memories and with them a realization.
On what was to be Adrien's first day of school, the first Akuma appears, despite the fact that surely other teenagers were embarrassed or angered.
This should have scared Adrien and compelled him to stay home, but no.
So it is again with Stoneheart, but somehow, for some reason he chooses Chloe as a victim despite nearly every member of class being terrified and enraged, despite his intent to be to confess his love to Mylene.
He still takes the time to kidnap Chloe, who was the instigator of Adrien's rebellion.
This would be her first near death, but not the last.
Lady Wifi would come next, suitably aggrieved perhaps but to what purpose? Hawk Moth of all people should know Chloe could not have been Ladybug, so there needs to be another motive, one to target the girl and not a presumed hero.
Ah yes, punishing her for helping Adrien slip his grasp.
Evilillustrator, would be next, neglecting the humiliation and abuse his teacher subjected him to in favor or murdering a girl for a snide comment regarding his crush.
Now you might say, what of Roger, Rose, Juleka and Kim?
But remember, even an Akuma will not go against the deep and abiding instincts of its source human. Their loved one's may be in endangered on accident or in a deranged bit to assist them.
But never would they be intentionally harmed.
In this same vain, a man who believes wholeheartedly in his duty to be of service to the community, a girl whose most malevolent self only wanted a dream wedding, a girl who wished to be seen and a boy who wished for love to disappear.
All Akuma that either would not or could not kill by their nature or that of their powers. They would be insufficient for breaking the girl who defied him.
Antibug is where things begin to change.
Convinced that her beloved idol hated her just as her mother always had, Chloe began to break. So much so she could not avoid his Akuma this time.
Able to defeat Chat Noir and a fair match for Ladybug she was one of the stronger Aluma. Not in the upper echelons like Style Queen or Sanboy, but worth stoking over the coals for an even greater reaction.
Speaking of Style Queen, you may question why Gabriel would allow his son, who has so far avoided all harm from any Akuma to be struck low.
I remind you that while his control is great it is not infinite. I would add that not only does Hawk Moth's ego outstrip his control but so too does his scheming.
Why snub the notoriously angry Style Queen? Why would Nathalie, an otherwise sensible woman go along with the insult. Only to see him retract it the next day? Why was Gabriel who has refused to leave his manor in all other attacks absent when the Style Queen invaded his home?
Why if not for the fact he sought to make Style Queen and with Mayura's help could do so. But she was not enough alone, but her presence would bring about inspiration for his newest scheme.
It would bring about Queen Wasp.
But first, you may question why Gabriel would allow his son, who has so far avoided all harm from any Akuma to be struck low. I remind you that while his control is great it is not infinite, and would go further and note how strange it is that Gabriel would be absent from his manor.
He would not leave during any other Akuma attack, yet the this one? How odd, lest
Murdered by her mother the day before, then rejected by her yet again, mind on the edge of snapping she orchestrated her own self destruction and from the wreckage crawled the first Akumatized Miraculous User.
For we cannot call her a hero.
Who was the next Akuma, but her own father. His intent with her just as it was with his wife, to keep her in Paris for his own pleasure at her expense. Conveniently ensuring Hawk Moth's new muse could not slip the leash she did not even know was fastening around her neck.
Just as hoped it would see, she was chosen this time to wield a Miraculous and she would be chosen again on Heroes' Day. Hawk Moth's only known effort to Akumatize others rather than letting the people of Paris do his work for him.
This was where we first saw sign of Mayura and to any who have been wondering. Yes, this is why The Collector & Simon Says mean so little. There was always a hidden second who could have commanded the Akuma, and if not, paint a target on his back from a target so far away that the here's would surely arrive in time.
With Mayura's arrival came a new wave of terror, not just for Paris but Chloe in particular.
Don't believe me, I do not blame you, but it is the truth.
Over the months following Heroes Day, battle after battle would be fought before the former Miraculous Holder. Always in front of her home where the Bee Signal shone, always to see her rejected by her idol.
From this came Miracular.
Close, but not close enough, Chloe resister the Akum, but Sabrina could not and within moments of Chat's arrival Mayura was upon them.
The villains had been waiting, a clear signal they had been observing her for sometimes, a clear signal of their continued interest.
Especially given, despite the months of absence, the moment it was necessary, Queen Bee flew again. Even as Ladybug swore this would be the last time as she doubtlessly had done for the last two months of battle.
Only to change her mind as needs demanded it.
But do not think her egotistical my witnesses. It was not merely Chloe who was targeted but another as well.
Marinette Dupain Cheng. A girl who has yet to be Akumatized, who holds a disdain for liars and seeks truth. Such an ideal recipe for an Akuma that could force Ladybug & Chat Noir into the light.
Thus it was, she'd be framed for cheating, theft and assault before her classmates by one Lila Rossi. Perhaps this would not convince you alone but I ask.
How did Hawk Moth know the class he has so often predated on, the class which contains Adrien Agrest, if he did not have a hand in this event?
This was not the first time Lila was used as such. Whispering sweet lies into Chloe's ears about how to summon Ladybug but leaving her humiliated instead.
Has she not done the same with others? Kagami for instances.
Decaying day by day, and nightmare by nightmare, Miracle Queen approached and this is where it all comes together.
Her feuding parents presenting with a garment both ugly and enraging that binds them together by a man who proclaims himself a designer.
An Akuma on the scene in mere moments, to combine them into one. The parents turned against the child enough to harm her yet again, but kept from devouring her. Finally, the Bee Signal sabotaged.
Why this family, why this girl even before the Miraculous? Who would know her well enough to orchestrate such targeted strikes against her psyche? What man has the motive, resources and insight to break Chloe Bourgeois?
Why its the same man whose beloved assistant fell ill at the same time as Mayura vanished from the field of battle. Its the same man who had a hand in the transformation of Style Queen & Heart Hunter. It is the same man who promised a desperate girl a movie, only to rip it away with a subtle smile. Knowing his Akuma would find her soon.
But he was not ready for me, or in a way, for her.
Chloe Bourgeois, the girl you knew, no longer exists. She had no desire to anymore, more than Hawk Moth saw to that.
What she did desire was to prove she was more than a Super Disaster and means by which to free her from the role long since assigned to her.
For the latter, came a Sentimonster not long for this world. Its power exorcising that malevolent miasma of Hawk Moth. But even as it was destroyed the creatures magic did as it was bid.
For his voice had gone silent, the rage faded and the Akuma was taken into more than this mere suit but into the skin, to course through her blood and bury itself in her marrow.
Now I emerge from the girl that was once Chloe Bourgeois with three purposes.
To tell the world of Gabriel's crimes, to defeat Hawk Moth, and be an exceptional Hero.
I am Chrysididae and for what its worth, I am sorry.
#chloe bourgeois#miraculous ladybug#Chloe: The only way I can not be a villain is to become a monster incapable of evil#No girl you're just a very traumatized fourteen year old- oh oh no its too late#The first link is to the origin of her name#The second is to what I imagine she looks like#Oneshot#Kind of#I imagine Chat & Ladybug having dawning looks of horror on their faces as this is explained to them#I'd also include stuff like Chrysididae closing her eyes to 'skim' notes Chloe left her#& commenting on how the later in the year they were the more erratic and confused they were#As she was disintegrating in front of everyone and no one was helping#Chrysididae doesn't hold a grudge but she also won't let them try to bring Chloe back#Chloe doesn't want to come back & thinks she is doomed to be a monster anyway#Also Chrysididae is more aware of how creepy and terrible Chloe's parents are#Even if she doesn't deem them hers#So everyone gets a sense of how fucked up the situation was#Also Chrysididae is a good speaker because Chloe had trouble articulating her emotions and thoughts to others#A hero (in her eyes) shouldn't have that problem though so Chrysididae can explain things she never could
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Kochanski could not accept a different version of Lister to the one she had known in her universe.
Lister, however, easily accepts the different versions of Rimmer he meets.
#red dwarf#imo it says more about lister as a person rather than a comment on the qualities of the relationships or anything like that#because for kris it was a big complicated and traumatic deal losing her lister and being stuck with a different one#and the rimmer that lister knows the best isn't the original one anyway he's a hologram. an approximation.#and then the hologram goes away and he's with the nanobot resurrected version.#and at first he's like oh you're the old one. the one you used to be. so he SEES a difference. these are clearly different people.#but then it's like nothing's changed. he treats him the same#and then the hologram comes back again and he's got to be different somehow too but they just go back to being bunkmates like it's nothing#and when you look at all the listers in skipper that rimmer meets when they learn he's a rimmer from a different universe#they're all like oh alright hi rimmer!#like???? it's so easy for him#not to mention how well he gets on with ace#I think no matter what. no matter what version of rimmer he's with. he's just glad it's rimmer#also I'm something of a lister/kochanski shipper. I love a tragic romance. so do not take this as a dig against kris bc I won't like that
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Ive been making Spotify playlists for my ocs and I decided to start making covers for them!
Of course, Opal had to be first so here's hers! I do hope that by the time I start drawing my comic I can finally have a better art style that doesn't feel too childish or awful to me and could possibly be closer to what I want it to be
#oc arts#oc#oc artwork#art#digital art#oc art#oc artist#original art#my original characters#i spent 3 hours on this#only...11 more to go currently...with about...six more to sketch#...this was an awful idea#i need to make an animatic storyboard tomorrow to save me-#i had to capture her 'going through immense generational sorta religious terrifying trauma look'#which is pretty much her throughout the whole ass comic but lets not get into that rn ☺️#i couldnt give her her processing traumatic events future haircut+color though cause thats a weebit too spoilery#plus i havent drawn it yet#fyp#artists on tumblr#tumblr art#art on tumblr#ok to rb
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[wip] YOUNGER SALEM JUMPSCARE
(he’s so pretty, my little ram— oh how the world wronged you)
[NOTE: HE’S LIKE 16 HERE SO NO GROSS COMMENTS]
#welcome to wolfshire#small artist#trans artist#character concept#original content#YOUNGER SALEM IS SO FUCKING CUTE BUT GODS IS HE FUCKED IN THE END#This is like right when he got his curse#baby boi#how the word wronged him and made him bitter with hate and violence that he can’t comprehend love and thinks he’s loveless#HES SO TRAUMATIZED MAN#the more I look the more I realize he’s like Mizu from BES fr#THERES SO MANY PARALLELS#IRONICALLY THIS PIECE REMINDS ME OF A QUOTE BUT IT WASNT INTENTIONAL AT ALL#big brain moment#FOR THE FIRST SPENCER ACTUALLY FUCKING THINKS
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this week's extra sauce is this quick little drawing of mr. Jonathan McScary guy Collins holding a random stray cat
#art#original character#oc#my art#scary men holding cats my beloved#low effort#who cares tho#the drawing is like 3 months old now tbh#the cat looks even more traumatized than him
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Fun fact: When the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle Epic Rap Battle Song blew up earlier this year I had no idea who Smosh, Ian or Anthony was. Like I think I recognized Anthony's face vaguely but with Ian, I think it was the first time I ever saw his face.
Weird to to think about.
#smosh#they only entered my radar when they bought back smosh bc of all the buzz that got created around it#and then i like originally got hooked into bringing a bunch of smosh videos bc of how gripped i was by shayne#like specifically bc he is a buff short guy and i just started getting into body building and i got hit with the strongest gender envy#so that was the reaosn i started watching the backlog and from that i got even more hooked bc i found the videos so funny#and then i watched the chosen Augustus vidoes and thought it would be funny to look up if there is any fics and there was. 6 of them i think#and THEN oh boy#i was binging so much smosh already but I had something very traumatic just happen to me and my brain needed somethings to latch onto#and it diddd#it did so strongly#anyway#big ramble
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"i don't want him to be anybody but himself." "you sure about that?" "yes." "'cause i heard he told you how he felt and you bailed."
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"the only thing that makes him worse...is you." "i know. why do you think i left?"
today on: i'm literally never gonna be not angry about how jemma was treated throughout s2
#like. this could have been her villain origin story.#tbh it looked like it was gonna be for a second there#but yeah going through the same traumatic event as your best friend and saving his life and trying to help him recover#right after he told you he was in love with you and wouldn't let her help when she tried#and leaving because everything you do seems to make things worse and hearing he's doing better while you're better#only to return and hear that he's been telling anyone who will listen that he told you how he felt and you bailed#still continuing to be treated. Not Great by said guy who says he's in love with you and preferred the hallucination of you he had#and gets frustrated with you when you try to literally do what he wants (to help him. to use you to talk through.)#(only for everyone to insist that you Must have feelings for him even when you continue to say you never thought of him that way)#only for him to ultimately have the attitude of 'if you won't date me i can't even try to be friends with you' p much the entire time#idk man! it'd be my villain origin story!#this is not a fitz friendly blog#every time i rewatch this show he grates on me more and more#(also to be noted: not just the way he is with jemma. the way he is with most characters.)#and like. i hated mack through most of s2 and then in s3 he became one of my favorites so like! i can change my opinions of characters!#just like how i used to love fitz and now i hate him lmao#several bad puns later – out of character.#idk i'm just gonna tag it as that for now#if u read these tags to this point you're the real mvp and i love you
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my vitriolic hate for the parentals only grows btw. everything i overhear is in fact a big fat negative in our relationship
#i am becoming less and less guilty about this the more they cause me grief bc all we fucking do in the polycule is reparent each other#and the ways they have both been horrible has basically been entire emotional neglect and constant abuse for having the gall to live#i have zero respect for them genuinely. i don't fucking care anymore#i barely enjoy moms company anyway because more and more all of our autisms clash#plus she called me codependent once so i stopped being a child around her. so#i really have no more parents anymore. i know my parents hate me. i know it#i dont want to do this anymore#I'm so tired of being alive#i really want to just die right now#fucking. mimi tries to be so sweet but its fucking hard id rather just stop trying to show any sort of love#i hope tht when the parentals look at me all they feel is how much i hate them i NEED them to feel haunted in their own house bc of me.#every one of both of my partners parents have basically been split on me. i was ok with them once until they fucking pushed me enough that#now i literally cannot see them without hate. i hate every one of them for how they treated and still treat my partners and how they make#both my partners dread every second of having to be around them or speak to them or do anything with them#im fucking tired of being treated like they fucking made able bodied children WHEN THEY IN FACT DIDNT. SURPRISE ASSHOLE YOU TRAUMATIZED YOUR#KID INTO DISABILITY#now none of us can fucking function in the world were all 3 disabled stupid autistics who can barely not yell at each other or whatever and#i infact dont blame my partners because i know its not the fucking cause its what they were fucking taught and i have no more grace in me to#give to the parents who raised them. there is no grace for them. there is simply you fucking couldve been better. you failed and you have to#fucking live with the fact that you fucking failed as a parent#i fucking hate everything about the parentals genuinely. there are so much of their lives and interests that i do not respect because their#lives apparently came first over their kids. and i dont care anymore i dont care about reasonable “excuses” i dont fucking care when#i reparent their kid without their fucking input or thought or opinion. fuck off#i fucking hate it here#🥩#🐣#🌤️#original#vent
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girls when the kindness is still there despite everything
#been thinking about my dnd character a lot and i was like. ''what if there was an evil verion of her >:)''#and the simplest idea for that would be if her childhood was just slightly different#so for context its a scifi campaign and my character escaped her gang-ridden home planet and lives in a starship as a racer#which she's good at bc when she was still in a gang she was a getaway driver. bc she's a elf and since they age differently she looked like#a little kid. and it's less suspicious to have a little kid hanging around in a car than an adult#but for the evil au her gang applies that same philosophy and makes her a lookout instead#so her instinct in danger would be to observe and calculate rather than to just Get Out of There#meaning that when stressed by the violence of her planet she stays and tries to figure out how to stay safe#rather than just stealing a ship and dipping into space#so she stays there for the rest of her life. and does anything she can to survive.#she loses the morals that made her original self leave and becomes bitter and aggressive to anyone she sees as dangerous#and it makes me think. that's not an evil Cass. that's a scared traumatized and alone Cass. Possibly more alone than her original self#who spent a decade as a teenager shutting out every single person she could. which was easy bc. it's space#so ''evil'' Cass is. pretty obviously redeemable. the kindness is still there. despite everything
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