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there's nothing as devastating as the way aemond talks oh-so-softly to alicent in 1.09. so much fondness in his voice.
what other man has ever spoken with her as gently as aemond did in that scene
#hotd#house of the dragon#alicent hightower#aemond targaryen#alicent x aemond#the only person she clings to#the only man to touch her without ulterior motives
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I just learned why Shad hates Irene in canon and knowing what I do now about everyoneās favorite the Matron, I can say with my whole heart,
What the hell, Irene
#I keep coming across audios of Hyria telling Ireneās story too#and I can see why the people of Ruāaun love Irene! I see the saint they do in the stories#but I can also see that by the time she got around to Shad she wasnāt that person anymore#she was alone because of her power until she came across Shad and I can see how that might develop into clinging onto him with such an#intensity that she sends him to other realms to foster whatever their relationship is and falling in love with him#Shad is the only person Irene has ever known thatās on the same level as her so it makes sense she wants#him as a lover as something more intimate than what they are#but Shad was tired of being feared and hated and so he falls for the one person who acts very positively towards him#all Shad wanted was to be loved. to have a family.#and he got it! he had the love of his life and a beautiful baby girl and even a close group of friends in the Divine Warriors#and when they need the relics to protect the realm he understands that theyāre made with human souls and he accepts that#for the sake of the greater good#only for Irene to use their daughter to make HIS relic and not tell him heās using the weaponized version of their daughterās soul#heās obviously furious when he finds out. he confronts Irene heartbroken that she would do such a thing. Why their daughter?#and then she turns the rest of the Divine Warriors (who all worship her) against him#No wonder Shad wants revenge! No wonder heās after every last fragment of his relic he can get his hands on#thatās all thatās left of his baby#Or maybe Iām thinking way too hard about a block roleplay#mcd irene#mcd shad#divine warriors#dropofsunlightextras#mcd rewrite#mcd#aphmau minecraft diaries#minecraft diaries#aphblr
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1.06 / 2.09 (33)
#the way they both cling to their families while in distress#their families are their most cherished people that they somehow can't reach#HĆ¼rrem has literally lost them long ago#while Ibrahim has reunited with them and has placed them close to him due to his own love for them and his position in the castle#but it's precisely that same position that distances him from them and *will* distance him from them even *more* down the line#the reactions here also reveal how HĆ¼rrem and Ibrahim view death#HĆ¼rrem embraces it because she's lost so much already#they always want to separate her from the family she has and the family she's built in some way#and it's like they succeeded here - it has already happened - she's taken from Sļæ½ļæ½leiman the only other person she could latch onto and from#her child she was going to have from SS that would show that she was actually going to keep on that she can't be separated from her family#*this time* not so easily but it's over it's done it seems so let her go to her mother and father at least let her return to them#let her reunite with them that's all she can have after she's already dead#after she's failed and the evil in the palace has seemingly taken over - in her E01 dream it was *they* who made her push forward#in order to commemorate them in the first place; she doesn't mention her sister tho even though she was there in the dream too#and I think that's because at this point HĆ¼rrem searches for protection for *help* and her parental figures can provide that to her#more than anyone else; namely they guided her in her dream mainly her mother so she goes first#it all also goes to show how her latching onto SS is a gradual process as she calls him only later#Ibrahim clings to life as embracing death would indeed mean losing absolutely everything completely#*fully* separating from his family he returned to found and reunited with after he wasn't sure about whether it's even possible#and what's more he has both his past and current family in front of him in the present; he can't let that go he *won't* let that go#so he urges his father and Niko not to leave him as in not to let him give up to help him in the fight he thinks he can still win#but he doesn't mention his mother namely because she isn't there in that picture she's fully gone and already symbolizes#a more distant past that wounds Ibrahim too much and he comes to want to evade as this ep is soon after#his scandal with Hatice; no wonder she appears in E44 and urges him to go home thus to go back as he wants to move on so badly#more subconsciously than even the usual#magnificent century#muhteÅem yĆ¼zyıl#muhtesem yuzyil#hurrem sultan#ibrahim pasha
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Genuinely wondering what they're planning to do with Rhaenyra and Mysaria. Is it going to be just a one-off thing, just the heat of the moment? Maybe friends (colleagues?) with benefits? A full-on romantic relationship?
#it could really go anywhere#or nowhere idk#though i don't think it's quite love as i've seen someone people say#like it's clearly rhaenyra floundering under the weight of everything#feeling all alone and abandoned#and mysaria is the only person she's fully got rn#so she obviously clings to her#it's just to figure out if it's anything more#it's also like daemon with alys#if the writers go there as well#rhaenyra x mysaria#rhaenyra targaryen#mysaria#house of the dragon#house of the dragon s2#hotd#hotd season 2
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y'know what we don't talk about enough? Hazel died. We talk about how she grew up in the 30's and 40's and we talk about how out of place she feels in the modern world, but! She died! She was dead! She has spent more time dead than alive, and not by a close margin!
How does that effect a person??? We got some of it in the flashbacks, but once those caught up with her present timeline and she shared them, they just kind of... disappeared. And she was a regular girl with some weird past experiences. That's one way of doing it, sure!
I think it would have been a lot cooler if she was just a touch creepier. If she felt a little bit Wrong. Yeah, in general she's more approachable than her brother, she's more sociable and less closed off, but. If you actually spend any time with her, it can be difficult to tell which child of the underworld is actually more unsettling.
Hazel is bright of personality and has a dazzling smile, but sometimes she'll just... shut down. She'll go completely blank for like half an hour and nobody knows what to do with it. Sometimes she forgets she's alive. Sometimes she'll spout the grimmest shit you've ever heard like it's nothing, she won't even notice it's weird until the room goes quiet. She spent decades in Asphodel, which is designed to make people forget about themselves and wander around for eternity, only she didn't have the luxury of forgetting! Wild! After she comes back to life, sometimes she forgets that she's allowed to Do Stuff now. She can spend so long sitting and staring at nothing. Sometimes she'll start crying on cloudless days because it hits her again that she can actually feel the warmth of the sun on her skin and she can hear birdsong. Every little mundane experience is a blessing and she will make you remember that in the most foreboding way possible.
#hazel levesque#hoo#mj talks#like. i am fascinated with characters who die and come back different and it JUST hit me that there was so much potential for hazel there#the idea of how death lingers was not explored At All in heroes of olympus#of course there's the obvious part in that there were what. 3 named character deaths total? 4 if you count leo#which i very much don't because it didn't stick! there were no consequences to this gigantic war!#the first series did well with that because we had plenty of named characters who died#even though some of them were introduced only to die like six chapters later. we still knew them on some level#and more importantly percy knew them. he felt their loss in a way that made consequences seem real#heroes of olympus didn't have any of that. hazel could have been a great way to talk about it a little more!#also i just love characters who have obviously gone through death. that has to change a person! tell me how it changed you!#anyway. i think i'll make hazel creepier from now on in my writing#she deserves it <3#nico is creepy in an obvious way. he's got power over death and that clings to him like a second skin. he can't hide it#and he's learned that he doesn't have to. there is power in being othered#hazel seems lovely when you first meet her! none of the death power all of the glitter and gold and riches#and then she'll look you dead in the eye and say 'you really don't know how lucky you are to be able to breathe until you can't anymore'#and move on like it's nothing! what!#underworld siblings
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honestly beth and jerry have maybe my second favourite relationship in the entire show just for how interesting and tragic it is. like its brushed aside a lot in favour of other stuff but they were really both just kids... and the saddest part about them is that they maybe do love each other but its always in some way artificial
#āi would find you in any lifetimeā but they never really had a choice#rick and morty#makes stuff like rixty minutes wayyy more sad#like they say they only had summer bc they blew a tire on the way to the clinicā¦ JAW DROP.#but also stuff like jerry talking beth back thru their first kiss and her admitting to hating it#alsooo like. ik they bring up a lot that beth was 17 but jerry was also like. 17. or around it. they were BOTH kids and they both had to#make hard decisions. and they both did everything wrong and are both unhappy#like as much as ppl cling to that one speech abt jerry being a parasite i think its true for both of them#they both need each other in a sick way. yhey both love each other and they both hate wach other#its just their different personalities and they way they view each other that sets them apart#rick views jerry as a parasite bc well.. beth is his daughter and a lot like him#and also u can argue he was projecting a lot in that scene#but in the end its beth who ends up going back to jerry#she needs jerry as much as he needs her. bc he gives her that unconditional love she missed growinh up#..anyway#do they have a ship name btw. berry. jereth. lol#for the record their relationship is terrible. but i love thinking abt it its sooooo compelling to me
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maybe itā they can be a proof that
iām not a monster
i can be redeemed in a way
thatā¦ ā ugh nevermind, itās stupid
#ooc. āļø ranted about this in the dc oc discord#i giggled#morgan and her need to feel like sheās āhumanā#hence why she clings to people that makes her feel like sheās a nice person#morgan drew#dc oc#dc oc rp#dc rp#dc#only in gotham#rp blog#carnival#slight#baby talk#i think
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ik you use to draw a lot of harry potter...i was wondering what your opinion of it is now?
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#barks#listen. if u wanna read it still that fine! who am i to tell u what u can and cant consume!#u dont hve to only consume Morally Pure media. its fine to read problematic books etc#u just. have 2 acknowledge. they r problematic. and understand how and why they r problematic. and also not shout 2 th rooftops u read#n enjoy said piece of media bc a) it can lead to people who dont understand why that media is problematic to approach it naive n wide-eyed#and b) in the case of hp the creator of th media is sometimes a horrible person. n when i see someone still pubically supporting and#enjoying hp im like. do u not care? abt th things she says? or are u just naive?#either way i want nothing to do with u#yes i loved it as a kid and it was important to me and some part of me will always find it important . but also . there r other books#hp is a childrens fantasy series. there are better ones. as an adult if ur still clinging on to it. let go. read tales of earthsea#and get sm perspective
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Not gonna main tag this because the proportion is all over the show, but I've not been able to draw for myself for a couple days and of course I draw one Doctor Prism immediately
#sigh. idk I'm feeling weird abt things again but that's not for y'all to worry abt#ohhh doctor prism save me doctor prism.....doctor prism save me..............sobbinngf..#[agent moose's art]#her and her robots...they do so much to me....she loves them so dearly and it tears me to shreds...#she just. she didn't deserve it. she got betrayed twice over and like. she knowingly walked into the 2nd or at least a bit#she knows Zor wouldn't use her research for good and yeah she didn't know the gravity of that nor the personal betrayal#but she didn't need to be manipulated into the position she ends up in idk IDK im so#curls up into a ball. openly weeps.#desparately clinging onto my ieytd hyperfix rn because it's the only thing keeping me grounded rn.l#<- exam season.#I'll be fine.... I'll live.............we muscle through...with my ieytd hyperfix keepibg me alive brah...#prospect of ieytd 4 is. a very vood motivator#j digress
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au where the black swan never had to abandon alluveterre, and sophie and biana keep sleeping in the same bed so much it becomes routine and they gradually get more cuddly as time goes by. and then they get more affectionate and emotionally intimate with each other too. and then theyāre at the classic sapphicĀ āare we dating or just really good friends?ā stage for a stupidly long timeĀ
#the more time this takes the better#also bonus points if they do end up leaving alluveterre anyway to go back home and whenever they're alone they go koala mode on each other#personally i think of biana as the one who's always clinging to sophie but i'm open to it being the other way around#particularly on hard days for sophie when she just needs the comfort of her...biana#definitely not gf what are you talking about#also if you think ahead in this au to the point where they're living either in the elite levels together or on their own together please#consider: the two of them actively seeking each other out as roommates and only ever using one bed and being. well. Roommates TM#whether this is established relationship or pining at this point i would be soooo in man#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#sophiana#sophie foster#biana vacker#kotlc fic idea#this is one of those ones where the slower the burn the better if you get what i mean
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guy trapped in a hell of his own creation: haha ive never done anything wrong in my entire life. and im always right:] anyway. why did my little brother move out:(
its so funny to me that at first glance tashi seems like hed be the most 'normal' out of all the clones but at least all the others are slowly healing n shit while hes just getting more and more insane each day and one day hell snap and explode and maim someone
#my art#my funky guys#HES SO FUCKING STUPID.#tashi im sorry ily but youre literally the dumbes fucking motherfucker ive ever seen. and a cringe loser. never change king<3#like. this guy realised he was a clone when he was a month old and decided to base his new personality entirely#on the idealised version of the original he made up in his head.#like he did this to himself!!! he chose to revolve his entire personality around being a 'perfect flawless mom friend'!!!!!!!#in his head hes like the most selfless & altruistic person to ever walk the earth but in reality hes a sad selfish mess who just wants to#be loved.#he started out as a pretty nice and level headed guy who wanted to help ppl but then it just spiraled when he made that his entire#personality bc of his inability to move on from a lie he really wanted to be true.#he percieves shiro as this perfect flawless leader figure and he wants DESPERATELY to imitate that. deep down its not enough for him to#simply coparent and share responsibility w the others. no no no he has to be The Leader and do everything himself!#this mindset results in him later on starting to dismiss and undervalue his familys work and commitment to keeping them all alive-#esp soup. like sHE WAS THERE W HIM FROM THE VERY BEGINNING THEY ARE EQUALS THEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY IMPORTRANT#AND HES SO FAR UP HIS ASS HE FORGOT. somewhere along the line he forgot. he missed the point. he spiraled too deep.#and he knows. he knows but hes so terrified of change and growth and admitting he CANT do this alone.#he wants to be a cool epic capable solo leader AND he craves family and connection soooo badly he cant live w/o his loved ones.#so yeah. hes an angry little pathetic freak<3 i love him#despite all that hes not a bad person. just a flawed guy thrown into a situation so stressful and traumatising that he clinged to the only#coping mechanism he had at the time and just sorta. ran with it.#dw he gets better tho! it takes a lot and his and sticks relationship is strained for a LONG time but he slowly gets better. good for him
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Finally drew the messed up guy of all time <3
#keese draws#rain world#rainworld#sliver of straw#consider my sliver more of an au than hc since I do a lot with them I wouldnāt do for an actual canon sliver#if we were to get a canon sliver characterization (which I wouldnāt want in the first place) Iād want smth Very different#with that disclaimer out of the way tho minor infodump time#my sliver is the youngest of her local iterator group along with being a fairly rare model#basically sheās built much more for efficiency and generally requires a lot less resources to power#this is largely because she doesnāt host a city like most iterators do and was made with the surrounding icy environment in mind#as a result sheās not nearly as environmentally destructive as most iterators#theyāre not Not destructive mind you but generally their tundra like surroundings have stayed relatively in tact#they host a research facility atop their structure and was generally meant to aid in the research of the stationed scientists#because of this it interacted with far far less anchients than most iterators did and only did in professional environments#because of this far less effort was put into its puppet and vocal box with its voice being entirely flat#it still managed to manifest quite the strong personality however largely stitched from its local iterators#internally sheās quite the wreck being very emotionally unstable and desperate for attention#she has piss poor emotional intelligence however and as such tries to find very tangible ways to help the ppl she cares abt#this ultimately leads to a self distructive downward spiral as she clings to the idea of solving the great problem as the thing they need#and by they I mostly mean the eldest of her local group and their once close friend gaze from the stars#said friend was very very attached to her city citizens and as such took the mass ascension very poorly to put it lightly#and as stars became more bitter and isolated sliver became more desperate to fix this#leading to them diving deeper and deeper into their research and making stars feel more and more alone and betrayed#culminating Iām start cutting off her communications and sliver fully blocking out the rest their local group#until yknow. the whole tripple affirmative thing.#stars was still completely cut off leaving the rest of their group to watched in quiet horror alone as all the drama happened#they were a lot less close to sliver so they were in an awkward spot between not liking the idolization of sliver while also not quite#being able to comfortably point out how dehumanizing it all is given they hardly saw them as a person either before this#Iāll have to design my iterator ocs that are sliverās group members soon I love them sm#they all kind of suck including sliver most distinctional family in existence
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Victoria Valentineā¦. I see you.
#sheās a less fucked up season 1 yasmin kara hanani#with a mix of alicent hightower#only ever doing whatās expected of you because who are you if youāre not a dutiful wife?#unable to even conceive of rebellion#and then mothering your partner so hard that you start to hate them for it#you give and give and give but hate it when they actually take#theyāre a little pathetic for taking actually. a little inconsiderate. canāt they see how much it hurts you?#but if they didnāt take you couldnāt resent them for taking and you Need that actually#Victoria clinging to duty and responsibility because thatās who she is sure but also because G ISNāT that way#clinging to it to spite G āwho so disdained itā in alicentās words#everyone talks about fucked up G is and how much of a shitty spouse they are#(which they are and we should definitely talk about it)#but likeā¦ reading Vicās POVs itās likeā¦. girl#Vic sorta hates G for being so horrible but wouldnāt really know what to do with herself if they stopped being that way#this is all just my own personal interpretation obviously lol#can you tell how much I love fucked up dynamics?#if: infamous#infamous if#victoria valentine#+ victoria valentine š«
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/3.11.24
#itās incredible how i feel tired just by the thought of swiping peoples profiles on a friend/meet app#like I really have to force myself#I forced myself to say to a girl I saw in july if she wanted to meet and she couldnāt back then and now Iām like okay I tried it Iām#I whine to myself Iām lonely yet looking for people is not a thing I fancy#I am convinced the people who would matter wouldnāt be found like this anyway#but chances of meeting people are 0#still clinging on to this person I met at the only friends of friend group thing which is almost sci -fi for me#despite I probably shouldnāt#and on top ov everything I always mess everything up because I canāt communicate well what I feel or actually I donāt really know that anywa#colleague added to me to a chat group pf expats here it doesnāt look exciting but I imagined that#I should see a high school mate after xmas#i am genuinely glad about it#although I am kinda thinking I should probably pretend itās all fine#last time was..2020 which feels like yesterday but is 4 years ago#Jesus cjrist#maybe I should still reply to that girl who gave me depression but her and the sister were quite into me#asked like in may if i wanted to hang out and do creative stuff (3rd time#and I had told myself after the second time which was also major depression time and winter#blues#that I was done with it although always pretending it was fun#but god I was getting depression from them#would take pics of us where I think I never forced a smile more than that time#and my policy is just b clear and polite#but I swear I donāt have energies to just text and say sorry we donāt match
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s. s ave me, meotoā¦
#n o t me clinging to meoto to retain my sanity bc g o o d l o r d today was the worst#today was truly a very bad; very horrible day indeeeeeeed#man. today truly was a comedic tragedy in every way possible. iād laugh if i were anyone else tbh#first i couldnāt start my workstation bc we were out of this cleaning acid thing.#t h e n this other branch lab sent over a precise amount of [reagent] that we needed to make the cleaning acid thing#*and* whatās worse was that they also demanded like. 1/5 of the acid we mixed. like bro. make it yourself mans.#but the worst part was when i tried to use a dropper to poke this sediment out of [tube i was supposed to be cleaning]#bUT THEN HALF OF THE DROPPER MELTED BC THAT BUGGER CANāT HANDLE HIGH TEMPERATURES AAAAAAAAAAAAAA#stupid new droppers man. the old droppers could handle 100 degrees just fine. s o now the tube is clogged with melted plastic and itās just.#lifeās *really* great sometimes yk~~~~? (ŹāæŹ)#and so the night shift dude who came to take over the workstation against expectations seemed kinda pissed that i hadnāt started anything#and im just there. with my intestines wriggling about like internal abdominal worms. tryin not to cry in the face of my mistake.#while heās fuminā away like a freakinā chimney or sth. like. man. no one asked you to take this workstation. you came here on your own. :(#anyway i ditched him and left for my break to calm myself down only to be approached by some random terribly lost middle aged to old lady#who was looking for directions to *somewhere* but she only spoke chinese aaaaaaaa#and i canāt read maps/i donāt even live in the area of my workplace so i have no idea if the lady managed to make it safely#but. lol. the lady showed me her message screen when she asked me for directions to her destination#and by pure coincidence the person she was texting is apparently related to someone with the same first name as me#the cons and cons of having common names man. i hope the lady managed to find her friend with the same name as me though lol#anyways. pls hw im begging. pls drop the crossfade for lxl birthday tmr i n e e d more meoto to carry onā#s o b s this is what im living for now ig. meotoā¦ā¦ā¦..
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man my heart hurts a bit. Who the fuck did this to my friend Iām going to fucking kill them
#the only person Iāve ever seen cry like that is me#when Iām badly triggered / really really losing it#wouldnāt be suprised if I have scratches / bruises from how hard she was clinging#breaks my fucking heart#even more so bc I know exactly how she feels#neglect wounds fucking hurt like a bitch#all I want when I get like that is be held
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