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Something that brings me great joy: birds can literally be dragons if I want. Dragons can have feathers. Dragons can have a beak. Dragons... can just be birds... and they come in lots of colors and sizes. some live in cities. some hunt. some are super smart. some are fluffy. the world is such a magical place*
🥺 💖 ✨
*This is sounds crazy, and I can barely put this thought into words, but its so real to me. magic is real, but people learned how it works, so its science.
what if we could understand magic and still have it feel special? life is so rare, and im here to enjoy it all (100% not disregarding science, love science, im just saying its so SPECIAL you know??)
Reblog this so people actually see it, I feel like it might be important. Dire even. To know.
#whoag#i had a moment of uncontrollable love for this planet and the creatures in it#and for whimsey and imagination#and anything can be what I want#magic is anything#science is magic#magic can have rules and be understood#the only difference is it feels magical#let science feel magical guys it's such a huge life hack#romanticize the fuck out of everything because you're special and you live in a special world and it's okay to believe that#birds are dragons#romantic#romantizing life#shower thoughts#storytime#hot take#life hack#birds#birdblr#dragon#dragonblr#magic
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Once the theatre monkey discovers angsty broadway musicals its all over y'all
or: I got a new personal project I'm workin' on! I'm at the first pass on the animatic rn! I forgot that 'generate matte' is a thing you can do in SB Pro for a whole hour!! I'm suffering!!!
#lmk#lego monkie kid#animatic#wip#storyboarding#fanart#six eared macaque#liu'er mihou#lmk macaque#shadowpeach#sun wukong is not here but he is haunting the mini-narrative#mac thinks HE's doing the haunting lol nah dude your ex-mans is living rent-free in ur cranium#I heard this song in a 'cartoon villain playlist' and only learned later it was from a play and went like:#“and i can feel bitter shadowpeach feels in this chilis tonight”#something something Denial something something river in Egypt#this is what happens when u don't talk about your feelings#POV: you're on the downward spiral but you're taking it like a waterslide#for real my favorite part of mac's character arc is where he's justifiably Bitter About It#but that won't stop him from being UNjustifiably a huge piece of work and Extremely Biased about it#it being the past events where two monkies both managed to fumble the bag in adjacent but slightly different ways#macaque ilu but u are not genre-savvy sometimes#i know mac is a chinese character BUT#he would totally spell theatre <- this way if he learned to read/write in english#i actually headcanon that his magical celestial monkey hearing would make it REALLY easy to pick up new languages but not the writing#oop i forgot: song is For The Record from 36 Questions#which I have not seen so idk how thematically relevant the og song context will be here
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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metal help me understand csp
MOSQUITO ☝️
#trying to doodle in csp :0#these were made on different stages of eepy#csp is so cool but so much more complex than krita#like. what do u mean u can specify shortcuts for EACH BRUSH???#this is why this was done mostly with only one brush cos i didnt know and assigned stuff wrong lol#but man the brushes really do feel better here. Mechanical pencil and pencil are really niceys#idk how to make reflections so i put a magical white circle on her forehead and random white spots shhh#there is a lot of stuff here that i dont like specially the shoes but eh i liked doing them#trying to be less negative about my stuff and accept doing them a bit slower#metal sonic#wee my art i gues#sth
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Reasons I want to write a version of Jane Eyre that ends with Jane becoming a nun
She's used to living in an all-female community with basic attire
She has academic and artistic interests
She's religious
She needs a better religion than whatever Helen Burns had going on
She wouldn't have to marry Rochester
It would piss off Charlotte Bronte
#jane-u-eyre-y#jane eyre#charlotte bronte#i read the bit about jane's cousin who became a nun and just...wow#she's clearly got zero idea of what catholicism or religious life actually is#it's kind of hilarious#a supposedly christian story has more sympathy for actual magical superstition#than for the idea of a life of prayer#i suppose this is a good time to mention that charlotte and i are not kindred spirits#this is the most obvious example#but there's an overall sense that this book takes place in a mind#that's turned like 30 degrees from the direction my mind goes in#everything's just kind of off-kilter and i can't quite wrap my head around it#it reminds me a bit of the experience with girl of the limberlost#only not as bad in this case#that book sat in the uncanny valley#i can't decide if this one feels less unsettling because it's weirder or not as weird#it's weird in a different way
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If you have Clover living with their monster friends, you gotta play up the differences between their biologies and make Clover look like a genuine freak in their eyes. You just gotta.
Starlo thinks he knows humans soooooooo well because he's watched human movies, yet the split second he sees their nose bleeding from the dry air, he's like "Ah shit. Any sort of bleeding is bad. Is this a fatal amount of blood loss? What do I do??? It just keeps coming out!" Ceroba is like "There can't be that many differences between a monster kid and a human kid. I've already raised one, how hard can another one be?" And then they get the flu, and since disease isn't really a thing with monsters, she's concerned that they're starting to Fall Down (<- okay, this one isn't funny). Martlet finds out that humans need to supplement their diet with things like fiber and iron, but apparently you can't just feed them cut up pieces of cloth and iron filings, that'll kill them. They find out that humans have internal organs and are made of cells and they're be simultaneously disgusted and intrigued. Like, you're made of a bunch of little parts? And those parts make up flesh tubes in your body and stuff? And they're doing their own thing all the time?? Without your awareness??? Does it feel weird????
"Oh, Clover has a 105°F fever but that's only a few degrees higher than how warm they usually are, I'm sure they're fine." <- Deranged statement uttered by one of them at some point.
#i don't think that monsters get diseases/have biology like humans do so all of this stuff is completely foreign to them#for them it's all tied to stuff like mood and the health of their SOUL. a good meal + some love + healing magic will fix most ailments#gonna get super hc heavy here so bear with me.#i hc that monster magic can't fix diseases. only injuries.#also human medicine is toxic to monsters. partially bc they have less mass than a human their size but also bc their bodies#aren't made to process them. a dose of aspirin would make a monster very sick/kill them depending on their size and such.#also human food and monster food are very different. humans who eat monster food will never be sated. they won't feel hunger#pangs but they won't be full either. also it's good for healing injuries but it doesn't have the necessary calories/nutrients to#be sustainable. (i ignore this in instances where Clover stays Underground bc the story of Clover dying via wasting away/vitamin#deficiency is not something i wanna explore myself). meanwhile when monsters eat human food they find it very dense#it's packed with flavor. it doesn't have any magic in it so they can't live off it but they can learn how to eat it with enough time#though their portions are always gonna be a bit small.#it's all a bit dry but i find this stuff interesting.#their friends are so lucky that clover is so damn self-sufficient because oh my god it'd be a disaster otherwise#char: clover
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i know i said i was happy about how mel's story went, but the more i think about it the less i'm sure about that. this is very much connected to how the themes of classism and wealth disappeared in s2, but mel in the beginning was the epitome of piltover. she wanted to advance piltover to prove herself to her mother. to "put piltover—" and by extension herself, "—on the map."
she wanted wealth just to have it. and i'm not blaming her for anything that happened, especially with hextech! she, just like jayce and viktor, could not have known what it would lead to. i mean yeah heimerdinger said so but who the hell listens to heimerdinger? but anyway i think mel changed throughout s1, much in thanks to jayce. by the end she's become more cognisant of the mistreatment of zaunites. she's the first to vote for their peace. she was a good person all along but now she knows how to act on it. it's also seen more in s2 act 1. when she covers her painting with gold, it's symbolic—she won't act according to what her mother might think. she won't let her desire for approval dictate her anymore.
so somehow i wish those themes were. continued, somehow? like again they were dropped not just with mel but the whole show and it makes her story a off to me. there's no meaningful commentary on war or classism or how her ideology stands opposite to her mother's. like some people have said, it feels like she doesn't have much agency, even if she is really cool. and that to me is a shame because agency felt like her thing. "to shape your own destiny" as she says to jayce in s1. i know her collaborating with the black rose (but not fully joining them) and learning magic is supposed to represent becoming independent from her mother, taking her own path, but some other aspects of her character were thrown away... the more i think about it the more i'm thinking they kind of #girlboss-ed her a little bit. maybe to sell another champion. i can't help but feel like even though i enjoyed seeing her on screen, the payoff didn't feel proportionally satisfying compared to her setup in s1.
#mel medarda#her characteristics; the whole point of her dichotomy with her mom;#is that she does not use violence. she fights and controls with words.#with her intelligence. with her knowledge of people and their minds.#so now thinking about it i'm a little :/ that not only#did we not get to see a lot of that in s2#but she just. became another fighter?#i also know there was that whole thing about how mages aren't accepted in noxus but#honestly? kind of stupid. magic violence is still violence.#and i know arcane retcons a lot of things but.#the lore noxus. was not like that iirc. and it feels like a strange thing to just make up.#done in service just to make mel a Cool Badass Mage™ while still saying#hey guys! she's still different from her mom don't worry!#also. hey. hey. why is she going back to noxus. can someone to explain that to me#like ok i know it's her only connection left. i kinda understand.#but at the same time...? what. is she gonna do there#i know sevimel is a crackship but i kinda wished she stayed in piltover to help#better things for zaunites. and help sevika on the council#(god knows she needs it)#that might have been a fitting conclusion to her character. to me!#look i cant lie and say i hated watching mel be all badass like. she's awesome.#but character writing wise... kind of let down?#we didn't even get to know more about her past or where she's from.#and yes i know they're prolly going to explain it in the new show because they were noxusbaiting hard.#but man... i don't know...#sorry holy shit that's a lot of words.#if anyone has any opinions would love to hear them. still very conflicted on this whole thing.#it just feels like i'm missing something.#arcane
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Origins is of course the DA game most closely in conversation with and playing around with Tolkien (right down to the walking talking poetree haha) -- and even more so than most works in the larger western fantasy tradition derived from Tolkien's work that DA:O also hails from and owes a lot of its Stuff to, what makes the game so great to me is that it's doing so very deliberately, and is subverting and deconstructing those tropes and entrenched ideas in some very interesting ways without at all denigrating what it's commenting on. (it doesn't have the almost disdainful undertones of the vein of fantasy that seeks to make the world more 'realistic' ala the more tedious reactions to G.R.R.Martin's work, for example, despite having the darker fantasy bent to it.) among other elements it adopts, what I find the most fascinating is the choice to use the same literary device/conceit Tolkien did in ostensibly only having in-universe biased sources and works to deliver the world through (which I feel is an underappreciated thing about his approach but is part of what makes his world so enduringly compelling and real-feeling -- the feeling of real scholarship devoted/applied to a made-up world. the grounding effect of a good diegetic footnote about source criticism, truly).
many things to be said there, and I'm glad each following game has taken on different perspectives and lenses and traditions to view the world of Thedas through because if you stick with that one too closely for too long I fear we could teeter precariously close to Pratchett's famous and bitingly accurate accusation of most modern fantasy of that era just being about rearranging the furniture in Tolkien's attic lol. and while you could accuse DA2 (my perfect wife who has never done anything wrong in her life to be clear) of many things, that's not one of them, they are pulling on some completely different strings for that one and both the game and DA overall is better for it, to my mind. as so many things in this series: worth staying with and exploring for an installment even if it might get stale if all of it was like this! people are understandably sad about the elements from previous games that they liked which were lost along the way, but that capacity for reinvention is to my mind a huge strength of dragon age as a whole.
(I think Veilguard is coming in as a close second in Tolkien conversation-ness if only in outlining/revealing the worldbuilding that indeed may have been planned since DA:O around the animosity that SHOULD by all rights exist between dwarves and elves in this universe (as per Tolkienesque tradition standards). but doesn't really because you see: politics and the many pitfalls of conservation of knowledge over the ages. our ancestral enmity got semi-intentionally lost between the floorboards of history and you know what. maybe for the best. the humans are already up to so much shit you gotta keep your eyes on them at all times you can't be brawling with each other in the deep roads while they're still around getting up to their nonsense or they'll just pile up even more of it)
#dragon age#dragon age origins#been thinking about the unreliable narration/in-universe texts only element being the thing da:o took from tolkien that's most defining#for a LONG time and I want to write something smart about it sometime but alas. this is what I've got right now haha#I think *some* da:o nostalgia is about that familiar safe childhood feeling of Fantasy World in a pattern that was so deeply entrenched#for many many MANY years. it's been in the groundwater of the genre for so long it's only fairly recently the patterns were broken#on like a mainstream sort of scale. I know I'm getting older b/c I keep going 'how do I explain to some of these people#that the world (both the real one the fictional one and the gaming one) was a very different place back in 2009' lol#and I agree there's something so tremendously comforting about it even with all the grimdark elements more in the martin vein#that's also in da:o. the same way you get satisfaction out of the structural familiarity of fairy tale logic but for a whole genre#da:o follows the Rules of a fantasy world in post-tolkien tradition -- even when it's subverting them it's doing so in reference#to a set of tropes and ideas both you and the game are deeply familiar and comfortable with#(da:o IS also just a really fucking good game I'm NOT saying people's love for it comes from being blinded by nostalgia haha#just an observation of a thing I've recognized in myself as well. there are elves there are dwarves there are talking trees and dragons#and basically orcs. all is as it should be and everything makes sense <- the part of me that grew up on lotr and derived works lol)#and while the other games also have all these elements they don't USE them in the same way and it doesn't feel the same. it's so interestin#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#only in the vaguest way but still#you know what veilguard occasionally feels more like actually. sci-fi! and it's not an accusation or a bad thing for me I think it's great#da:i veers more to high fantasy and da2 feels weirdly low-fantasy -- it's a story where magic also happens to exist but I almost forget lol#it's a magical world and magic is integral to the plot but thematically it's so much about real-feeling political conflict#da:o is a Quest in da2 you're new in town (and it gets worse)
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2024 reads / storygraph
Asunder
slow-paced high fantasy
a woman who has a contract with an eldritch entity allowing her to see the dead & survives by taking various jobs
when a job searching for stranded smugglers in a cave goes wrong, she ends up with the soul of a dying stranger bound to her shadow
along with a scholar and her old childhood friend, they travel to his home country to find a way to unbind him and save them both
dark fantasy world with gods, demonic entities, arcane magic, and semi-sentient beasts used as transport
#asunder#kerstin hall#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#okay SUPER fascinating worldbuilding with some very visceral creatures and biological constructs and interesting magic systems.#many things I like. A great cast of characters. Honestly I could read tons more stories set in this world.#it’s very slow building and meandering narratively; focusing on the complex journey of the main character#didn��t love the audio narration tbh - it felt like some lines are read with the wrong emphasis or tone? but I got used to it after a while#So this has one of my absolute favourite tropes (bodysharing.) unfortunately it turns it into a romance which is. well.#it just doesn’t hit the same if you make it romantic!! so that kinda made it change traintracks from being on a direct line to#potentially 5 stars to a whole different station where i do not live. lol.#I SUPPOSE it’s a well developed relationship and I’d prefer romances more like that than instalove I guess.#I did love their dynamic; too; but suddenly realising it was romantic threw me for a loop. I had put him in the annoying dad category.#I do also feel like we didn’t get quite enough of him as an individual person and characterisation - which obviously makes sense to an#extent; but I felt like I only got to see more of him in the brief time around his father.#Also he was surprisingly chill and nice to her immediately considering he was essentially her hostage???#Anyway I did enjoy a lot of it; it just suffers the unfortunate tragedy of#[literally my favourite thing made for me] [turns that thing into literally my least favourite thing i hate]#but also -random dude you’re bound to being overly protective and considerate despite barely knowing you (platonic/familial vibe) - yeah!#random dude you’re bound to being overly protective and considerate despite barely knowing you (romantic) ehhhh…idk.....#(to me personally. i'm sure people enjoy that. whatever)
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I discovered these paintings by James McNeill Whistler recently, Nocturne in Black and Gold: Falling Rocket (top) and Nocturne in Black and Gold: The Firewheel (bottom). I’m sharing them because they make me think of Nevermoor, as so many things do.
With paintings, a nocturne refers to the depiction of night. This is derived from the musical term, where a nocturne refers to a musical piece that is “inspired by, or evocative of, the night.” These both just come from the fact that “nocturne” essentially means “of the night”.
On a basic level, this just reminds me of Nevermoor by the aesthetics. The dreamy nighttime setting strikes me the most, but also the sparks of yellow fire that make me think of Wunder. Think of how many important scenes happen at night- Morrigan on Eventide, the Museum of Stolen Moments, and the Hollowpox in Courage Square. But the concept has me thinking, obviously, about the Wundrous Art of Nocturne. The only songs we know are Morrigan and Squall’s, who both chose nursery rhymes as their Nocture. Their choices make me think of lullabies, sung at night… and there’s lots to think about with that.
#does anyone else see or understand my vision…..#nevermoor#nevermoor in the wild#another post from my drafts cuz I feel bad I have no art to share#only art history classes I actually took was animation history and then ancient and medieval so most of my info or knowledge from#anything later relies on me looking it up and seeing what research and info is online and etc etc etc#anyways. love whenever magic (of the wundrous arts variety) in nevermoor is compared to art or the process of making art. <333#I need to make a Pinterest / some other sort of site where I can share everything visually that reminds me of nevermoor. but also filterabl#and also where I can add notes for why different stuff makes me think of nevermoor or what I associate it with…..#bc I’m often sharing architecture in the discord but I also am always bookmarking clothes and stuff that I don’t share lol#I saw two clocks the other day at a history museum and also an alway thinking abt the Prague astronomical clock so my brain is always like:#‘wow just like the skyfaced clock :) nevermoor :)#circling back if anyone knows some sort of site like Pinterest where you can have bunch of images with notes and also filter between#different attributes pls lmk. I’m not a coder so I can’t think how to make smthn like that myself lol#I started this post like a month ago that’s why I don’t have anything better to say besides ending with ‘much to think about’ lol
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Just as a reminder, the Undergus twins (the Oggles) both use they/them pronouns!
#i know coggle referred to hoggle as their brother in the latest ep#but they're nonbinary and specifically genderqueer as per their S1 titlecards#(on the term brother being used)#(for me it didn't register as weird)#(i'm nonbinary and don't mind the term sister specifically from my sister as she's only ever had one)#(so sister from her is less 'female sibling' and more 'term that only and specifically refers to me')#(meanwhile i mind more if my parents or brother do the same thing as it has that more specifically gendered feel)#(but then again that's just my own personal experience and every trans person has different experiences)#(that's just my hc about it)#dimension 20#misfits and magic#d20#mismag spoilers#dimension 20 spoilers#coggle undergus#hoggle undergus#the undergus twins
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long-ish rambling about farewell shinsengumi and joui war gintoki and hijikata parallels under the cut
there's a direct parallel that's acknowledged in canon about ginhiji's situations in the joui war and the farewell shinsengumi arcs but their situations have key differences
gintoki talks abt the impossible "choice" he was given - neither "choice" being in any way favorable. and ultimately by "choosing" he says he lost both his precious things - his friend and his sensei
the main thing that is different is the trust & support that sogo has for hijikata and his leadership. despite all the bad blood between them - he still cares for, or at the very least, respects hijikata enough to wait for him to make the call on what to do. sogo could have easily rebelled against the bakufu without hijikata but it's a matter of principle and a matter of trust
and idk man there's something to be said about hijikata & okito not falling into the gintaka trap despite the circumstances easily calling for it ... mainly because of their reciprocated trust in each other + mutual love for their taishou
and i (admittedly) have not watched further and can't speak/dissect takasugi as readily, it's still very interesting to think that ultimately he loved shoyo more than he loved gintoki. whereas gintoki, despite everything, loved shoyo's teachings & his friends more. this isn't to throw stones at either character but merely the tragedy of their relationship..
#again like listen.#with the situation as it was i dont think even if takasugi was fine with gintoki's decision they wldnt have been able to save shoyo#but i feel the degradation of their relationship post that awful situation was mainly because of their conflicting views on how to handle i#vs shinsengumi or rather mainly sogo & hiji deciding to trust in each other#so like even if they come out of this with wounds or losses - their relationship wld be able to survive it i feel#which is ultimately my point like im not talking abt sogo & hiji trusted each other so they can save kondo#and takasugi and gintoki failed and therefore- like it's not a moral failing on their parts#but like merely the differences in their bonds with each other#anyway yeah. idk it's like very fresh on my mind and i wanted to put this out there#ginhiji#<- only in like . spirit . lol#gintaka#hijikata toushirou#okita sougo#takasugi shinsuke#sakata gintoki#gintama#magic's gintama
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Hi Pia
Why did Gary growl and cover Efnisien's face/mouth when he said the safeword? Was he angry and trying to stop Efnisien from saying it so he could continue? If yes how did he manage to pull himself back from the brink of doing something unforgivable?
I think Gary was so uncoordinated in that moment, he wasn't thinking 'I need to shut you up' but there was definitely an instinct of: 'How dare someone tell me to stop.'
There was a visceral war with himself when he growls vs. when he places his hand on Efnisien's face, almost like he's trying to feel his breathing and his voice. It's a very quick motion, and while Efnisien assumes it's to shut him up, I actually think Gary was literally very out of it in that moment and was kind of bracing himself to even understand what happened.
Like, this is a guy who didn't respond to a lot of basic language and sentences for three days, or when he did, mostly could only do so in basic sentences or even single words. So while the peak alpha grokked the 'how dare you' pause, I think it was like a 'wait is an alpha trying to stop me from taking what is mine' level of confusion. He places his hands on Efnisien's face, almost like he's trying to find where the words came from, in my mind. Like someone who is blind who is trying to find a fan switch in a new place. They don't quite know where it is, but they know it's important in hot weather.
He then does hear more of Efnisien's voice (in the form of a distressed shriek) and immediately stops.
I really don't think this is as clean as 'he was fully aware, heard something he didn't want to hear, and made a choice to make sure Efnisien couldn't safeword again.' I don't even think he knew at the time what he heard, or how to understand it, only that he heard it and that he had to stop.
If yes how did he manage to pull himself back from the brink of doing something unforgivable?
Tbh Gary has the safeword to literally stop himself from doing the unforgiveable. And he does it with an immense amount of willpower that almost no human will ever really comprehend. Dude was barely even conscious at the time. Just like Efnisien spent many hours in a heavily dissociated receptive headspace, Gary does the same but from a more dominating peak alpha side. Literally just ruled by hormones in a very primitive way.
I'd say he's one of the only peak alphas in the world who can actually listen to a safeword at all in that state. I don't even think Temsen could.
#asks and answers#dr gary konowalous#underline the black#efnisien ap wledig#underline the rainbow#underline worldbuilding#the whole 'how did he manage to pull himself back' is - well he heard the safeword#anon there are people who hear safewords and do experience a flash of anger#or a flash of 'i don't want to fucking stop'#if they're heavily in domspace it can actually take a few seconds to understand#that you have to snap out of it#and it can feel pretty intense and difficult in the moment sometimes#it's kind of a fanfiction myth that as soon as a person hears a safeword#they magically and immediately feel only concern#i mean many do go to that#but if you're deep deep in topspace#and someone safewords#sometimes the pause is#'what the fuck just happened and why do i feel like i got hit in the head with a crowbar'#i feel like people who have experienced deep topspace will understand what i mean#just like subs who have been in subspace and begged for shit they would *never* normally consent to#while in that space#will also understand what it's like to just enter a radically different#frame of mine in certain mental spaces#i'm sure most of gary didn't want to stop and was angry about it#what stopped him from doing something unforgiveable was literally that safeword
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zomg... the girls! Sketched out! And a few characters I never showed designs for! haha! I keep thinking about the beach, so this is their swimwear.
I hope to make a full fledged drawing for all of them soon~ then the guys~~
Some newbies are: Aura (blue!) Katya (Gold!) and more of Verra (Green!) We'll eventually see more about them as I draw more things and doodles.
#Because I realized I never drew the girls as much as I did the guys#I used to exclusively draw women until I figured out how to draw men... I then awoke drawing nudethaniel and speedo vincent#so we're reeling it back a little#Ryoko Kui said she draws her oc's outfits in modern times to see how the different characters would dress. I thought about it- it definitel#says a lot about your character!#Monica is REALLY tall. And muscular! with a strong ability! no wonder she's taken down armies! She doesn't care to swim much but will use#a rashguard to swim in.#Sera is copying her style a bit but thankfully owns an actual wetsuit. Feels like home considering how her aerodynamic armor is designed#Sonia is sonia. She seductively asks Vincent to help her put sunscreen on... Only to be met with an albinoid man's journey to sun poisoning#He eventually gets greased in sunscreen and aloe vera after what feels like hours of nagging him. (it was forty five minutes.) Sorry Sonia.#Some things cannot be changed. When he did eventually look at her body he laughed at her ass being out rather than think anything naughty.#Not girl Summer. Vincent did end up helping her with the sunscreen though. “Lmao you can't do this yourself or something?” ruined the magic#Karin tailored her swimwear. She bedazzles her arms with accessories <3 Her nail polish can detect drugs <3 & cyanide caps in her earrings#Poor Katya is a supermodel but is way too thin... Strohl doesn't say it.. But he's worried. She makes way too much money to want to quit.#Verra is in rabbit mode because her summon LOVES to swim and hey who is she to halt its fun?#Aura is pretty modest and prefers to meditate in the water or by the shore away from all of the roughhousing. Nate and Strohl join at time#They kind of freak out when she starts floating though. Or invoking the elementals of the seas. The guys are both areligious. Awkward.#Especially when the waves start to get a little rowdy minutes later. Strohl is torn between considering religion and asking for a tutorial.#ark_systema#A_S textposts#Solely for the tags#Devsneakpeeks
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on the surface a laboratory seems like a pretty odd building to have in a small town like magic mountain row. why would the town spend their funding on a lab instead of growing their own economy and supporting their local businesses and residents? shouldn't they be trying to grow their community? unless, perhaps, the town had been built for one purpose and one purpose only: to hide whatever strange, possibly illegal research could be happening within.
no one would suspect anything weird in a neighbourhood like magic mountain row! we're nothing like that little fishing village with the strange creatures and the mad scientist who performs secret experiments in her basement. just don't pay too much attention to the runoff from these buildings. anything you see out there is totally harmless anyway. mutations are natural in life. they're probably healthier for you too. here at mined we care about our community, and we are always striving to achieve great feats in human engineering. soon we will be living forever.
#you know those towns that only exist because people did experiments over there and they needed a place for the scientists to live?#yeah#that#mumbo jumbo#hermitcraft#geminitay#cant stop thinking about how we got two labs in magic mountain#and they feel so different yet so similar#thats for another post though#hc10
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Maybe you found the spot on the map
But lost the kid on the way to the mark
Tell me now were you digging for gold
Or digging yourself in a hole?
Now tell me “now, where’s the head in the clouds?”
Now tell me “now, where’s the bright eyed lad?”
Now tell me “now, where’s the kid tellin’ tall tales?”
Siren, Colm R. McGuinness
I can’t explain the emotion this song gives me about my dragon age ttrpg character Saeed but it’s making me cry
#my oc#creations#Saeed#Saeed Piraeus#we haven’t even gotten into things that would make me this emotional over him#like we’ve just been chillin in this mansion#granted it’s 500 years in the future after being kidnapped by fae#I’m feeling grief for things that haven’t even happened#it’s what if#what if one day#his dream was to be a famous writer! Varric levels of famous!#he’s also a performer! sings and plays instruments for crowds!#and now he’s in this future where magic doesn’t exist anymore#he’s the last of his kind in so many ways#tevinter doesn’t exist anymore#mages don’t exist anymore#adventurers and bards don’t either#and now he’s treated like a hot commodity#bc magic#his home is on the bones of redcliff castle#he is mourning so much but he’s the master of the house and has to put up this front that he’s doing okay!#people only care because he’s new and has magic#they don’t care otherwise#(except the other party members)#me: I need to figure Saeed out I need to connect w him!#my brain today: okay!!! here’s stuff to cry about!!!!!!!#I have to dm today in like 30 mins and im CRYING#about a different game!!! aaaaaa!!!!
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