#the more fun medical stuff I’ve been doing recently is getting all my stuff in line for travelling later in the year

[chronicillnesscaneffoffplease]

When appointment prep has you remembering that actually? You have been through a lot and it’s okay to feel down about it. That you don’t like being medically complex, an “interesting case”. That you just want some answers for why things aren’t doing what they’re supposed to. It’s okay to feel like it’s a lot. I’ve condensed 6 years of GI and iron struggles to one page and it’s still a lot. And in other page of trial and error knowledge I’ve cobbled together mostly with the most wonderful dietician. But that’s okay.

[mila-mi-mi]

Life changing (sorta)

So yeah here’s some medic doodles. I hope you love them. But the reason why medic is in this post is not a coincidence.

Hem the beach thing is because I wanted to do summer drawings. It has nothing to do with him specifically.

(A bit of a long ramble. Feel free to skip)

Yesterday evening I got a letter in my mail. My acceptance letter. I have been trying to get into one for so long. Yesterday I received the confirmation I can finally do the last step (a four year one but still.) to complete a childhood dream. A dream I’ve been chasing since forever. Most people and some friends see only my dumb art and sometimes forget what I do on the side. Don’t get me wrong, I adore drawing. I love making pictures for people and hearing how I make them happy. (Which is so damn surreal. I’ve so far heard some of the most welcoming and warm words I have in years about my work.)

But if there’s one thing I’ve wanted to do more, it’s being a medic. To be the one to care for people and be able to bring comfort and save lives. I have been in the hospital recently for nothing too major but still it was kinda scary. But nice people who worked there made me feel less afraid and not ashamed to be scared. Saying they’d be there. I wanna have that effect on people. I don’t know where I’ll end up working one day, but I hope that wherever I will end up that I’ll be good.

Maybe I should cosplay as medic when I graduate. Not during the ceremony ofc. But after. (But that’s very far ahead atm)

I know that long captions are not fun. And emotional stuff is…ehh? If you read it all. Thank you. And let me tell you that I hope, wherever you may be, that your dreams will be within in your reach. I wish you the best.

If you read this euh…you’ll get a high five. Drop an 🍊 in the comments and we can high-five. ( very cool )

Groetjes 🤍

[quibbs126]

And now I have made a part 3 of the human Cookies, this time featuring the Legendaries

You know I’m noticing that recently I’ve been drawing a lot more. I mean I’ve drawn 3 pieces in the last two days and I drew stuff last week. Seems my medication is at least helping something, even if it’s not me doing actual work to get my life together like my parents hoped. But hey, it personally makes me happy I’m drawing more, so it’s at least somewhat of a win

I think I was spurred on to do this one because I was playing around with the Mii maker on my 3DS, and I was making Cookies and started making the Legendaries

I will say, the Legendaries are probably some of the more difficult characters to translate into normal humans, since their designs are more fantastical. Almost all of their hair is made of something not normal, like fire, grass or water, so I have to try and make it at least semi-cohesive. It also means a lot of hair dye

I admit, while Wind Archer doesn’t look terrible, he does look very boring, like a generic guy. But frankly I just don’t see him using hair dye, or getting a lot of piercings. He doesn’t feel like someone who would to me, and so he looks boring

On the subject of designs I’m not satisfied with, I think Sugar Swan came out the worst. I just legit didn’t know what to do with her design. I’m a proponent of short haired Sugar Swan, so I gave her that, but I don’t think it turned out the best. I also wasn’t sure how to incorporate all the wings and swan thing on her head. I got that but it’s not that great

Originally in Sugar Swan’s spot was Millennial Tree, but he wasn’t turning out great so I tried doing Sugar Swan in his spot. Maybe that spot was just cursed or something

I think my personal favorite of the bunch is Sea Fairy, I think she turned out fun. Honestly I can see her going either way with the hair dye, so might as well just give her the blue. The buzz cut thing was actually something I got from another Sea Fairy design that I really like. I was debating between her having black or dirty blonde hair, but I eventually settled on the blonde

Moonlight and Stardust were pretty fun. With Stardust, I wasn’t sure whether I should have him dye his whole hair blue or have him bleach the front of his hair. I asked on Discord and they said the latter, so that’s what I did. But also note, I realized that if I were to try and give him bleached front and also potentially blue tips, he would have had Yugi Moto anime hair, but just flattened down instead of all spiky. Like I’ve seen people draw Yugi with hair similar to it

I wasn’t really feeling it after Sugar Swan’s failed design, but Fire Spirit got my mojo back, I think he turned out good. And with that I was able to make a Millennial Tree design I liked a lot more (while also looking at someone else’s interpretation of his design and deciding to use locs as well). Maybe not the best but not as bad as it was before

I kind of threw in Frost Queen because last spot and also she is an elemental Legendary. With her, instead of her hair being dyed, it’s supposed to be that her hair has actually turned white from either stress or age, with a tiny bit of her blonde still there at the ends. Don’t know why I picked blonde other than light color though

In my head while I was drawing, I was trying to come up with human things for them to do, but I really only got as far as the Dessert guys and the Wizard guys

Moonlight is the heiress of the “Wizard’s” estate, and she lives there and is the self proclaimed custodian. I’m not really sure what Blueberry Pie and Sugar Glass are doing there, but they’re probably also here. I also don’t know what the estate really is, I just have the idea that it’s a big place that the “Wizards” used as a research place, until they just stopped using it or disbanded or died or something. Stardust meanwhile is either Moonlight’s half brother she didn’t know about, or they’re full siblings who were orphaned and then separated at a young age via the foster care system. Stardust’s journey there would be him learning of his sister and her location and then I suppose hitchhiking his way there until he arrived

Meanwhile, Sugar Swan owns this wildlife preserve, which is the Dessert Paradise (probably goes by another name but I can see “Paradise” still being in the name), meanwhile the Dessert guardians, including Wind Archer, are the other caretakers that manage and guard the preserve. Are they also Sugar Swan’s kids? Maybe, I don’t know. Wind Archer probably is though, and maybe Millie’s his dad, I’m not sure

Frost Queen I think is just an accomplished doctor who lives in a more remote area and takes care of patients with a rare condition that she specializes in the treatment of (and also contracted herself when she was younger). She also just kind of dresses like that I guess

Genuinely I don’t know what Fire Spirit does, he might just be like, Pitaya’s adopted son or works under Pitaya, I don’t know. I can’t see him with much of a job

I imagine Sea Fairy has some sort of job (that she might neglect), but I have no clue what that job would be, since it presumably impacts both Black Pearl and Abyss Monarch in some big way, so like, running an aquarium might be too low stakes. Her crush on Moonlight might be something like she met this cute astronomer one time at some sort of astronomy conference or something, but she doesn’t know where she lives and so doesn’t know how to meet her again. Moonlight also thought she was cute, but again, doesn’t know where she lives

And yeah, I think that’s about it. I hope you enjoy these designs

[mingos]

*crawls out of the ground like a mole, coughing up copious amounts of dirt*

so, hello.

    i try to keep things as vague & light as possible when referencing my homelife because, honestly, the last time i brought up anything tangentially related i was essentially told “you being upset is making other people upset and ruining the fun” so being anything other than ✨chaotic positivity gremlin wilder ✨ here makes me paranoid, hence why i’ll just disappear for weeks sometimes. 

but. 

i’ve clearly been gone for a bit, will probably be gone for a bit longer, and since i’ve been getting messages from folks wanting to check in on me i wanna give a more detailed update than usual. i feel guilty for not responding directly, but for reasons i can’t get detailed on other than “the idea of having a conversation with 99.9% of people right now is terrifying” (is this what being nonverbal is, chat?) with even the .1% being a super recent development, a queue post into the void is my solution.

i won’t get that detailed, but if light references to domestic abuse, addiction, or just family issues in general are hard subjects for you - nothing past this paragraph is too pertinent anyway, so don’t worry about having to stop. all you gotta know is that some Bad Stuff with family happened, but i’m safe & i’ll be back in maybe another week or something. 

anyways. i was living out of hotels for about 3 weeks. 

more like 16-17 days if you want to get technical because 4 of those days i had an actual scheduled hotel for my twin’s wedding at the end of august - but i’ve basically been bouncing around since august 21st. the night of the 20th, i had a horrific fight with my family member and, for the first time ever, i left. don’t know if would call it brave on my part - since we were leaving for a trip anyway, this is just the first time my suitcase was already packed.

right now, i’ve been at another relative’s house since the 11th. i tried to go back on the 1st because, even after years of this, i’m apparently way too easy to convince everything is going to be fine…  but by the 2nd i was out of there again. 

currently mulling over my next move here because, as much as the common sense answer is to stay away, anybody who’s unfortunate enough to deal with this knows how complicated it is. i’m scared for this person’s safety as much as i am for my own. no one else really checks on them, and i’ve already had to deal with several medical emergencies they’ve had like bad falls & breathing problems. i don’t like leaving them alone for long because the guilt at the thought of something bad happening to them and no one knowing for possibly days or weeks eats me up.

i logically know i’ll have to get past that eventually because i can’t let my life be dictated by this incredibly toxic cycle forever or i’ll never be happy, but now isn’t the time. they also have a dog who would similarly be put at risk if something happened to them, so it’s a lot for me to worry about.

but, having said all that, we’re currently in the apology stage or i guess the negotiation stage because, after the shit that happened this time, i’m making it perfectly clear i’m not stepping foot in that house until they do something. detox, treatment, rehab, disulfiram, soberlink, therapy – something. we’re kind of running out of things for them to try at this point, but at least they used to try. they haven’t really been doing that this past year and I’m the one suffering the most because of it.

so yeah, that’s where things are at the moment. i’m mentally not doing so hot - but I’ve got my dog, and being able to sleep in a bed i’m familiar with for a change and not a hotel (I spent so much money on hotels, guys i’m cooked) is nice relief while I wait out whatever the hell is happening. talking to them over the phone again pretty much drains any of the energy I’ve got back, but it sounds like they’re starting to "get it' so hopefully they’ll start to take this seriously again because I can really only take one more year of this (if even) until I just need to accept these things aren’t my responsibility and move on.

honestly, having a close-knit group of friends/support system for the first time in years has really reminded me of that and given me the confidence to take a lot of steps to live for myself for a change, and to think about prioritizing my own happiness for once, which wasn’t the place i was in at this time last year, or the year before that, or the year before that - so I just want to say thank you again to anyone whose ever helped talk me through something or really just been nice to me at all. this is why i always remember to be kind because it can genuinely do a lot for someone going through something, because i know it has for me.

anyway uhhhhh i hope you are all doing well, and with any luck i’ll be chilling on here by the start of october. can’t miss spooky month and this insufferable pink bird’s birthday, after all.

much love.

[little-pocket-medic]

i’ve been sorta avoiding medic all week out of nerves, but i really need some healing.

i’m in the medbay, trying to explain myself to him. he looks exasperated… and kind of distressed? like seeing me hurt is upsetting him more than usual.

see, doc, i was climbin’ a tree, trying to get a picture of this really cool bird i thought you would like, and i kinda sorta may have fell out of it.

twenty feet out of it.

so uh… i hold up my left arm. it’s pointing in a direction that i’m fairly certain arms are not supposed to point.

listen, i know you’re kinda too small to really use the medigun right now, but maybe you could talk me through it? i can’t find engie anywhere and who knows how long he’ll be gone, and my arm really, really hurts.

he cautiously agrees. i know he hates it when other people touch his stuff, but i do my best to reassure him that i’ll be good and do exactly what he says.

i bend down so he can hitch a ride on my unharmed shoulder. he instructs me on how to use the ceiling-mounted medigun- press this button, turn this knob, set these numbers on its control panel. seems like this model packs more of a punch than his portable battlefield one.

i push the power lever forward and shudder with relief as the red energy flows into my arm, setting the bones into place and knitting them back together. when it’s done, i wiggle my fingers. it’s like nothing ever happened.

damn, doc, this is pretty satisfying. i can see why you like doing it… why you miss doing it. hey, don’t look so sad, doc, i’m sure you and engie can fix this crazy size thing soon. it’s not like you’re gonna be tiny forever…. right?

he’s leaning against my neck now, so i can’t really see him, but his breath sounds a little shaky. is he scared of heights?

i carefully pick him up off my shoulder and cradle him in my hands to get a better look at him. he’s hiding his face. why?

i hear a tiny sniffle.

oh.

doc, hey, are you okay? listen, don’t cry- i’m really sorry if i made ya sad. doc, i promise you won’t stay this size forever. and even if you did, i’d still lo-

shit. i didn’t mean to say that. well, i’ve gone this far.

i’d.. still love ya, doc.

and- and i mean that! yes, i’m serious. listen, i’m really sorry to have told ya when you’re havin’ a breakdown and all that but i’ve been overthinkin’ that note like “what if he takes it the wrong way and hates me” or “what if he thinks i’m just makin’ fun of him” and i been sick with worry all week and i couldn’t frickin’ take it anymore!

what?

no, of course it’s not just sexual, doc, i don’t see you as- as some sort of object. i like you. as a person. for reals.

🫀 anon

TW: Angst, mentions of arm injury/sex. Nothing graphic.

Medic let out a tired sigh. Writing in his journal wasnt the same as it used to be- therapeutic. Calming. But now, he's just struggling to hold a pencil.

A pencil. He could barely hold a pencil.

The team had been struggling without him recently. Tales of their losses always found their way back to him- tales of his failure.

Sure, being small was fun for a bit. But it long outlasted it's welcome. He just wanted to be back to his old routine. His old small talk with Engineer after battles. His chess games with Heavy.

....his bickerings with Scout.

As Scout came into the medbay, Medic pulled his notebook shut. He turned to him, frowning at the state of his arm and the likely false story.

He couldn't do much with it right now. He could have Scout try and cast it, but it was very likely he'd mess it up and cause more issues. Well, Medic could talk him through the Medi-gun. Worth a shot.

The Doctor explained how to use the ceiling mounted healing device in a low, monotone voice. He didn't do it on purpose- the lack of sleep and the abundance of stress simply took a toll.

He climbs onto his shoulder, getting a better view and allowing the other to hear easier.

Scout seemed to get most of what he said, as the runners arm went back into place. He rambles as he usually does, trying to reassure the Doctor that it wouldn't last forever.

Would it last forever?

Medic grabbed his sleeve and leaned against Scouts neck. It very well could- Engineer normally fixed problems very quickly; This was taking weeks.

Scout seems to take note, picking the little German up and holding him in his wrapped hands.

Now in view, Medic has a harder time concealing his sorrows. Normally he's rather good at it- but with everything piling on...

In an effort to retract his previous statement, The runner let's something slip.

'I love you, doc.'

No, you don't. Medic says, almost angry, in a stern tone. 'You don't even know me...' He wanted to add, but didn't. He already said too much.

He listened to Scouts talk about how he didn't just see him sexually, but he might as well of been on mute. Medic wasn't listening anymore.

Unless you vish to torment me furzher, you may leave. He says, taking off his glasses and wiping his eyes. Talk to Engineer about zhis. I'm not paid to be your zherapist...

Cold. Even for Medic. His emotions were getting the better of him.

While never conventionally kind, Medic always had his ways of showing he loved his fellow mercenaries. This was out of character.

[ficfinder-general]

Hi! I’ve read lots of CodyWan, and nothing is hitting anymore. I like very specific things, and I’ve read all the popular fics, but if you could recommend me stuff with this criteria loosely…

IMPORTANT

-With or without smut

-over 30k words,

-complete fics preferred, but if it is ongoing it has to have been updated less than 3 months ago.

MAIN POINTS:

-forbidden romance, like Cody and Obi-Wan have to sneak around to stop people from knowing

-must have happy ending. Doesn’t need to be a complete fix it but I just want them to end up happy

LESS IMPORTANT BUT I STILL LOVE:

-Sith Obi-Wan. Enemies to lovers never fails.

-Cody doesn’t have rapid aging, or it’s mentioned that it stops eventually or the chip fixes it.

-good brother relationship between the vode, especially between Cody and Rex

-clones speaking mando’a!

DO NOT INCLUDE:

-major character death

-too much angst

-any 212th/obiwan, cloneship, or poly ships including Obi-Wan or Cody. Just the two of them.

I know this is quite specific but I need a fic rec that I haven’t read before, and CodyWan was the ship that brought me to AO3! If you can’t find anything that’s okay but if you have any good recommendations, please tell me!

Hmm… Honestly, I can see why it’s hard to find fics that fit these criteria.

My first thought was The 212th Medic Skull Has Had Enough series by ihathbenobiwankebobied (@ihathbenobiwankenobied). It’s a collection of shorter fics, but overall more than 50k words long and there’s lots of sneaking around (and whump but they’re pretty fluffy at the same time! It's not too angsty in my opinion and the secret relationship aspect makes it kinda fun).

Regarding the Sith!Obi-Wan fics, I can wholeheartedly recommend the Name of the Game by esama (@esamastation) and I got my head checked by frostbitebakery (@frostbitebakery), both of them are amazing, but you might’ve read them already.

Since you said you’ve read a lot of fics, I checked ao3 for works I have not read yet, but you might be interested in them:

Peace in the Realm by Rosawyn: looks like a really intriguing medieval AU, completed, 85k, rated M, Cody and Obi-Wan are in a secret relationship

No End in Sight by TreeOfTime: rated T and up, completed, 31k, Sith!Obi-Wan, and seems promising in terms of sneakiness, since Cody’s Qui-Gon’s commander and Obi-Wan fights on the side of the Seppies.

The Good Sith series by sonnyrain: It’s long and ongoing, but it was recently updated (and 8 works are already completed) It’s a time travel fix-it, and as far as I can tell, Cody and Obi-Wan are forbidden from loving each other at first and will only get together later on.

Does anyone have any suggestions?

[silverbladexyz]

Feel free to ignore my ask if you end up getting overwhelmed with requests. I demand that you prioritize your health and wellbeing over anything else I request!

So, I’ve been in the mood for love triangles recently, particularly Soukoku x reader or Fyodor x reader x Dazai (cuz I love their competitive nature over things they mutually care about) however, let’s make the reader naive and oblivious to a lot of what goes on around them so whenever the two people from whichever threesome you pick to write are competing behind their back or even in front of the reader, they’re just like, “hey Dazai, isn’t the sunset super pretty today?” And if it’s not too much to ask, could we make the reader have epilepsy who gets embarrassed every time they have a seizure in public or end up causing trouble for other people with their disorder? (Message me if you need details on what it’s like if you don’t know) but like, I always see anxiety, depression, bad thoughts, and that kind of stuff, but not once have I come across an epileptic reader before so as someone with incurable epilepsy, it would be nice to read at least one

Again, don’t feel obligated to write this request if it’s too difficult or it makes you uncomfortable or especially if it takes a toll on you health. Stay healthy and take care of yourself!

Shadowww!! Welcome back, and ofc I'm perfectly happy to write this for you ^-^ This is Dazai and Chuuya with reader btw

The image does not belong to me. It belongs to it's original owner.

TW: Threats, mentions of death, Soukoku being competitive idiots

Dazai and Chuuya in love with reader

-So I think that you would know them both back when Dazai was still in the Port Mafia, and still continued to keep in contact up to the present time

-You were just a normal civilian, however, you had somehow managed to befriend and even catch the eye of two particular hot men. And when they both figured out that the other had feelings for you, oh boy did the drama escalate x10

-Basically they would be bickering and throwing insults at each other a lot more, and sometimes it might even have ended up in Chuuya beating up Dazai if it weren’t for your intervention. It still doesn’t stop them from sending death glares at each other though, and anybody could literally feel the death vibes emitting from the both of them

-Even though they were both fighting over you, they had a mutual agreement to work together to protect you from any dangers. Many times you had survived countless incidents because of Dazai’s swift brain and Chuuya’s extraordinary ability to fight

-But what was so frustrating was your obliviousness and your naive personality. Dazai could be outright telling you that he loved you while Chuuya would bring you to all these fancy places as an indirect message of his feelings towards you, however, you had always brushed it off and thanked them, saying ‘you’re such a good friend’. Both are ready to shoot themselves if they get friendzoned one more time (lmao dw they won’t)

-However, the first time you had a seizure in a public place, both stopped their bickering at once. Dazai helped you to get into a position that wouldn’t put you at any risk of harming yourself, while Chuuya did call for medical help/got your medicines for you. They were confused on why you were embarrassed about your epilepsy, but when they learned the reason, nobody is going to get away with making fun of you, or even staring for a second too long in public

-If anyone dares to make fun of you or bully you for your epilepsy... don’t forget that there is an ex-mafia executive with his former partner who wouldn’t hesitate to do unspeakable things for you. That person would consider themselves lucky if they weren't already given a warning by a certain bandaged detective

-I feel like they would learn more about epilepsy and what to do, so that the next time you had a seizure, they would know what to do. It still doesn’t stop them from bickering on who gets to roll you into the recovery position though... but these bickers are normally very short because their number one priority is to help you

-Dazai would verbally cheer you up whenever you were feeling down, and Chuuya will buy you nice things and take you to beautiful places to help you feel better. Both are trying so hard to tell you how much they love you without directly saying it because of social anxiety actually it’s fear of rejection and losing to the other person

-However, there are a few moments where they both finally get along, and it is when they see you gazing at something with clear admiration in your eyes. Normally it’s the pretty sunset, and both finally shut up because they don’t want to ruin the moment for you. The air is finally peaceful for once

-But don’t think you’ll be in peace for too long. Some time or later, they’re both going to confess to you, and you’ll have to choose which one you’ll accept into your life romantically

-Or just reject both of them and slay as a single pringle 💅 slay with me bestie xD

@sariel626 @pixyys @pianotross @the-mourning-stars @nekokinax @yuugen-benni @xxelfmamaxx @lakeside-paradise @catzlivedforbsd

[kingofbodyrolls]

Hiii Lissa, just saw your post and first of all, thank you so much for mentioning me in your latest post, it truly means a lot 🥹❤️‍🩹 tbh i don’t usually write reviews for the fics I read but after finishing the "Coming Home" series, I felt I had to because it was so beautifully written and I’ll hold it close to my heart 🥰 Most of the time, I'm a person who read everything in author's/blog m.list; so i will make sure to read your other stories andddd Im actually planning to binge read friendcation too hehe ✌️

Anddd based on your recent post, It sounds like you’re going through a really tough time and I want you to know that it’s completely okay to feel this way. I’ve been there myself many times when doubt sets in and it fades my passion :(( Taking a break to think about your passion and your space is really important, so don't worry <3 also remember that your worth as a writer isn’t measured by likes or comments BUT it’s about the joy and fulfillment you find in the process ✨️ It's your blog, your creations, your emotions, your feelings; don’t ever feel sad or hesitate to take the time you need bcz its also important to prioritize our mental health.

those who appreciate your work and your kindness are still here, cheering you on always ❤️✨️ When you’re ready to share again, I'll be excited to see what you write and will always support you !! I wish i was your friend irl so that i could hug you and tell you many times that it's okay to feel all this emotions 🫂 Since couldn't, I'm sending you virtual hugs 🤗 "Believe in yourself, trust the process and go with the flow, the nature will always guide you" - this is something i always tell to my friends and myself :) Lastly, we dk each other at all but if you ever feel like you need someone to talk, I'll be always here to hear you.. Cheer up and take care of yourself, love youu lissaaa 😘🫂❤️

(pls ignore my grammar mistakes here and there 🫠)

Oh Honey 🥹 Of course! Your review meant so much to me, and it cheered me up so much 🥹 That’s so sweet of you, but you don’t have to read it all if there’s one or more stories you don’t vibe with! But I hope that you enjoy those you decide to read (if not all, there’s a lot lol), and you’re always welcome to write a review or comment, but you don’t have to if you don’t want to (silent readers are also okay) 🫂 Oh, and thank you so much for saying you find my writing beautiful 🥹 Friendcation is a banger! I’m sure you’ll have a lot of fun reading that one 🫶

Wow, that was a really beautiful way of putting it; and you’re right. Honestly, I’ve been struggling with mental health on and off for many years, but this is the first year that I’ve really done something about it by being consistent in going to therapy (quite many times before until I found the right fit), and now I’m also on medication, and it’s helping a lot. I still have a lot of work to do, mentally and emotionally, but I feel like I'm on the right track and I’m getting there. Step by step. I’ll get there. Doesn’t matter how long it takes, but I’ll get there. I know it. I’m sorry to hear you’ve gone through rough times too 🥹🫂 If you wish to talk or anything, my dms are open 🫂 This is honestly one of my biggest passions, and I’d hate to end up not loving it anymore (that has happened to my love of photography, but that’s another different talk lol). Mental health is so important! So if you want to talk, you’re always welcome! I feel like talking helps a lot, and also knowing that there’s people out there who have been through similar stuff or felt the same—knowing you’re not alone 🫂

Thank you 🫂 I’m honestly very surprised by how many who cares—but it really warms my heart and I appreciate it so fucking much 🥹

Oh you’re just so sweet!!!! Thank you for the hugs!! 🫂 Virtual hugs are also good 🥹 I wish I could hug all of you irl too!!!

That is such a good, sweet and inspirational quote and it really resonates with me, it’s very beautiful 🥹 Thank you so much! I’ll take that to heart, believe, trust and let nature guide me ✨

Thank you so much Honey 🫂 The same goes for you, even though I don’t know you—you seem very sweet, lovely and nice, and you’re always welcome to my asks or dm 🫂

Love you too and take care too 💜😘

(and what grammar mistakes? I didn’t spot them, but please do ignore mine)

[nametakensff]

hello! Love your writing! I’ve never played D/isco E/lysium but read your fics anyway because they’re just THAT GOOD. Anywayyy this ask is actually abt your incredible steddie writing! was wondering what your steddie head cannons are in the mutual fetish au?? Maybe before they discover the fetish is mutual - How do each of the boys feel about sneezing in public? Embarrassed or could care less? How do they usually cover (or not cover lol)? Do they excuse themselves? Are they able to stifle or control their sneezes? Do their sneezes change if they’re sick vs allergies vs random tickle? Are they courteous sick people or clueless patient zeros lol? Any and all additional thoughts are more than welcome bcs I currently have brain rot after reading your series!!

Ahhh!! 😭💕 Thank you so much, anon! It means the world that you would read my DE stuff even if you’re not into the game yourself ✨️

As for S/teddie, I do have some headcanons that more or less continue throughout the series, though I haven’t read any of my fics back in a while so I apologise for any glaring inconsistencies 😅 I’ll answer your questions then see what else there is to mention!

💕 S/teddie Mutual Fetish AU headcanons 💕

(Loooong answers under readmore! Some NSFW things, naturally)

Maybe before they discover the fetish is mutual - How do each of the boys feel about sneezing in public? Embarrassed or could care less?

🖤Eddie🖤

He doesn’t mind sneezing in public in general – like, the odd sneeze here or there. They’re not nearly as loud or attention-grabbing as Steve's. However, the issue is that he has fucking awful allergies. Not just seasonal ones like his hayfever and mould in the autumn, but to a ton of chemical scents like perfumes and hairsprays, then also dust, and feathers…He’s just got an extremely sensitive nose. Combine that with the fact that he is prone to multiples and often has drawn-out fits if he can’t escape the source of irritation, it is less than ideal. If he’s having a rough time, and hasn’t been able to take any medication, then the sneezing will draw a lot of attention that he just cannot be bothered dealing with.

Another issue is that he gets off to his own sneezing – especially if he keeps going. So he has to deal with the humiliation of people watching and maybe cruelly judging him and the risk of popping a boner.

So, to summarise: a couple of sneezes here and there are no problem at all. He won’t think too much about it. He’ll probably even enjoy it and the odd blessing he gets from friends. But sneezing in public when his allergies are going haywire? Super embarrassing, incredibly unfortunate. Finding out about Steve’s mutual interest is a game changer for him – he becomes stupidly exhibitionistic around Steve but also gains a little more confidence in general.

💙Steve💙

He hates sneezing in public. He’s good at hiding that he hates it, but still – it is not fun. Because others sneezing is so intensely sexual for him, he feels uncomfortable doing the same around other people. Steve’s sneezes are also very loud, and he is terrible at holding back and stifling. Given that his sneezes are big in general, they can get messy fast. Huge, spraying affairs that make everyone around him jump several feet in the air. It’s just no fun for him at all, though he has enjoyed the flirtatious blessings he often gets from the girls he courts (or rather, courted before Eddie).

Steve is more prone to colds than Eddie. I don’t see him having any significant allergies except for to the odd scent – but when he does have an allergic reaction, his sneezes are just as colossal. I haven’t explored it a massive amount but I’ve really been thinking recently about him being a photic sneezer – not horribly sensitive, but bright sunlight will make him sneeze a couple of times a day unless he takes the precaution of wearing sunglasses.

After getting to know about Eddie's mutual fetish and starting their relationship together, Steve is still pretty embarrassed about sneezing in public. He learns to love indulging his boyfriend, and the fact that Eddie gets off to how big and loud and messy his sneezes are makes him feel marginally less disgusting. Even still, I don’t think it’s something he would ever really get used to.

How do they usually cover (or not cover lol)?

🖤Eddie🖤

He will, if in public or has it on hand, try and cover with his bandana or one of his handkerchiefs. Since he tends to sneeze regularly, he’ll more often than not have these with him, occasionally a pack of tissues. When at home, he will still sneeze into things – if not his bandana/handkerchiefs or tissues, then shirts and blankets. He enjoys the way the fabric feels on his poor nose. He tends to wriggle his nose around a lot, and really gets indulgent with rubbing it. He tries to do this less in public to avoid having a visibly pink nose.

He sneezes openly a fair amount as well – sometimes the tickle, especially from allergies, is too much for him so he’ll just let it go and wipe whatever he may have baptised after he’s done lol. I think because he’s such a sneezy individual, if his mind is otherwise occupied (working on music or a D&D campaign, for example) he would sneeze whilst barely acknowledging it, perhaps leaning towards his shoulder briefly.

If Steve is around, he will happily sneeze uncovered, covered, all over Steve etc – whatever will get him the most worked up. He loves when Steve holds handkerchiefs for him to sneeze into and melts if he starts massaging his nose for him.

💙Steve💙

He tries to cover. God help him, he tries. But he is often so paralysed by the build-up and so slow in his movements it’s all he can do to turn away from anyone in the potential splash zone when the sneeze hits.

If he manages it, he’ll sneeze into his elbow or a tissue, but more often than not he’s either making a total mess of his hands or the hastily raised collar of his shirt.

He also likes when Eddie covers his sneezes for him, but only in private, and it takes a lot of getting used to since his sneezes tend to render whatever is being used to cover them useless pretty quickly. The first time he sneezes a tissue in Eddie’s hand to pulp is mortifying, even though Eddie is pretty much dying of arousal.

Do they excuse themselves?

🖤Eddie🖤

He will excuse himself and sometimes bless himself, but it isn't an automatic habit to do so. He’s obviously got a loud and audacious reputation, so on occasion I can see him not particularly giving a fuck about being overly polite and excusing himself in front of a random stranger, and definitely not in front of people he dislikes. He will gentleman the fuck up in heartbeat around most women and girls, though. He can be a lot more chivalrous than people realise.

💙Steve💙

More so than excusing himself, he will outright apologise. Depending on the situation, though, in order to avoid more attention, he just won’t mention it at all. Fake it 'til you make it, right? He's totally not embarrassed, not at all, nope.

Are they able to stifle or control their sneezes?

🖤Eddie🖤

He is a habitual stifler and he is exceptionally good at it. Only when his allergies or a cold are really kicking his ass, or he’s completely alone and the tickle is strong will he fully let go. (To be fair, his allergies are often kicking his ass, so.) I think he tends towards natural half-stifled sneezes – or when the sneezes are let out, they’re certainly not screamed. When they are loud and open, you know his nose has been thoroughly tickled.

He can hold back sneezes pretty well, at least if he’s able to sneak off somewhere to relieve the pressure every now and then. A lifetime of year round allergies has trained him well.

💙Steve💙

Steve’s 'stifles' are louder than most people’s sneezes anyway, and they tend to hurt, so he doesn’t really bother. He *wishes* he could stifle properly, but it is simply not in the cards for him.

He’s also terrible at holding back. If he needs to sneeze, his body is making him sneeze, doesn’t matter what he’s doing. He finds it exasperating, and the only thing that makes him feel better about it is how much Eddie is aroused by his total lack of control.

Do their sneezes change if they’re sick vs allergies vs random tickle?

🖤Eddie🖤

His natural/random sneezes are incredibly soft and airy. They tend to come in multiples like all his other sneezes, but not as many – maybe triples? When he has allergies, his sneezes are much more vocally desperate and tend to be quite wet – ultimately, he can makes quite a mess also. It’s just unavoidable, becoming that drippy with such a persistent tickle in his poor nose. His cold sneezes are pretty violent, but not too different from his allergy sneezes other than they tend to get messier much faster.

💙Steve💙

All of his sneezes are big, but his cold sneezes are messy from the get go. He goes through an absurd amount of tissues and handkerchiefs. They also tend to sound a lot gruffer and more nasal, simply because he gets so, so stuffy. He gets so blocked up on occasion that his sinuses audibly squeak in addition to the already loud, messy sneeze, so that fucking sucks for him!

Are they courteous sick people or clueless patient zeros lol?

🖤Eddie🖤

He is as courteous as can be. He’ll try and wash his hands as often as possible, he’ll cover his sneezes, he’ll (for the most part) try to keep himself away from other people. He really hates the idea of being perceived as gross; most of his boisterous persona is a kind of shield to control the way other people feel about him. If he’s being loud and performative, he’s the one in control of making people feel that he’s crazy. If he’s got a cold and can’t stop sneezing and sniffling and coughing, he is very much not in control. He’ll happily ditch school or work, if possible, to avoid becoming a spectacle in this very not-in-his-control way, and will do the same with particularly bad allergy days.

He will also, for the record, ride out the rest of his illness by jerking himself off in the comfort of his own home. If the sneezes keep on coming, so does he <3

💙Steve💙

This poor guy tries his best, but if Steve has a cold, and it’s tickling his nose, he is best avoided until well. He will absolutely be a patient zero, even if he doesn’t mean to be. It can take him a good few sneezes before he even clocks onto the fact that he's getting sick. So many factors are against him – he’s terrible at covering, his sneezes are huge, his sneezes spray a lot and make a great deal of mess…nobody is safe. Remember that he also tends to catch his sneezes in his hands, which he can't always immediately wash, especially in the middle of a work shift. He’s a walking, extremely apologetic germ factory who ought to stay in bed.

Other headcanons:

Eddie keeps pepper in his room canonically; he totally snorts this for a little rush, and thoroughly enjoys the sneezes. If he's bored in his room he'll induce for fun, which often leads to masturbation

Eddie is a dramatic exhibitionist, and has a lot of fantasies involving humiliation and being degraded for his frequent sneezes. He would eventually explore these with Steve

Steve used to induce in private growing up – until he figured out that this was a sexual *thing* as a teenager, and ever since he stopped. Inducing for Eddie, or being induced by him, is an incredible rush because it feels so thoroughly taboo but also quite healing in terms of internalised shame

During fetish play, Eddie will take the lead more often than not, at least in the earlier stages of their relationship. He fucking loves when Steve takes control, though; as their relationship blossoms he’s delighted to see Steve’s confidence grow. Steve isn’t hung up on sex in general, not even remotely, but like I mentioned above, it takes a little time to really embrace this fetish and assert what he wants without external prompting

Eddie will purposely hold back and walk to whatever room Steve is in to sneeze openly in front of him. Steve would do this if he could, but Eddie’s gonna hear his sneeze no matter what – sometimes even over whatever metal record he’s blasting

Eddie would absolutely invest in a super decent camcorder for ‘creative purposes’ like music – but he would totally also film himself sneezing for Steve on it. Steve would eventually do the same for him, and they would have their own little collection of tapes

I think Robin would eventually figure out the fetish and absolutely rib them about it – she’d tease Eddie a lot more because Steve would simply combust and die

Neither are especially comfortable with the idea of disclosing the fetish to other people - when Robin figures it out, they beg her to keep it secret. It's their private, special and personal joy.

Both are bisexual and both came to terms with their bisexuality because of each other

Steve feels initially insecure about his ability to talk dirty about sneezing purely because he feels like his vocabulary isn't expansive enough or he isn't creative enough, especially when Eddie just starts oozing pure filth at the drop of a hat. He gets over this suuuper quickly when it becomes apparent that it makes hardly any difference to Eddie - Steve saying "Gonna sneeze" is more than enough eroticism for him. Steve could sniffle in his ear and he'd be getting hard

That's about all I can think of for now! I hope this continues to fuel the brain rot, anon! 🥰

[knizuu]

Talk to me abt uhhh anything- Fang, Petey, OC, idc. ANYTHING U WANT💖💖

PLEASE IM GENUINELY INTERESTED IM NOT DOING THIS JUST CUS U LET ME- /gen

I get so nervous writing asks wtf

DUDE IM SO DUCKING HAPPY +omg same </33

COUGH well imma go in order lets go with the

FANG🫧….

SIGHH I LOVE HIM SM. tbh I see how people react to the recent idw miniseries which left the Hooligan fans really sour </33 to me, though, it wasn’t too bad?? I see how it works and honestly the only sad part to me is WHY DID HOOLIGANS BREAK UP AUH but im so used to “sonic canon ew” so like-I should’ve expected that sigh. So I can reason with how excited people headcannon/draw/make whatever of the guy it’s really cool since we all kinda agree? Like even with such a variety we all take the guy lovingly <33 which is sweet :> like its pretty chill-WHCIH IS FUNNY because Im actually really scared in small communities <- i made a post bout it once i-I EAT UP ANY FAN MADE FANG CONTENT FR i love all fangs really [so far] ^ ^ tbh even my school knows that-I did pottery of him, drawn him, spoke of him, my teacher saw a drawing of Fang I did and HE QUOTE: I was looking for that [SIR I GET IT IM PREDICATABLE/silly]

PETEY💠

Ok as much as heartfelt I feel about Fang-Petey is just some other freak of nature my family knows. I’m NOT EVEN JOKING-MY MOM SANG ABOUT HIM WHILE MAKING LUNCH/GEN GEN GEN-cough. Idk why but ever since my brother [the first dog man fan obviously] inserted dog man into my family [by 1. SHOWING MY FANART/BOOKS TO MUM 2. LETTING ME SING THE MUSICAL ALL DAY LON-/positive fs] its been insane/sILLY because-who expected everyone to say “Papa Petey” [i do NOT know how some typo made mo-ok my mom has a Petey problem/sILY AGAIN] in the car-at home…NOT ME THATS WHO. WHY IS PETEY SUCH A NORMAL THING IN MY HOUSEHOLD/positive sigh

OC🌸

OKK well they are ALMOST a wasteland but I have an original story to bring some ocs to life ^ ^ [including-sigh vague mention-the space dog lady and red haired lady ocs i have :3] ESSENTALLY: I’m calling it Brink of Bryony!! [Bryony is about a flower but in plot idk a city??] it’s just a human loser [red haired lady MAYBE] meeting alien folk [Cordella is there…i showed her ONCE] like my self insert hehe [Norolist] because OH NO beeg mister evil guy wants to take over Earth and this NICE alien people gonna protect it! That’s the entire thing, very unserious lmao. Pyrexavul is my precious <33 I don’t think I shared him?? I’ll share em all sometime hehe im too lazy LMAO. So yes yes I’ve been into making that story recently :> !!

ANYTHING🦐

OK SO my Luxury AU has been MANIFESTING MOI cuz i decided: why yes I WILL make a fic bout it!! Yknow just remaking the lore[cough this means me rewriting the first book of DogMan] and putting some stuff into one work ^ ^’ SO FAR I’m really getting into the vibes but what’s crazy is how I turned what I THOUGHT was oughta be a comedy-to a tragedy. No like I KNOW IM GONNA WRITE CUTE STUFF I WILL I JUST-….also might’ve included grief, addiction, ETC I dont even know how I got there 🙂‍↔️but it’s been fun! Especially since it makes me go down a nice study check with me lmao [I’ve been learning the medical field, laws, how media handles stuff, types of _, etc] hehe rubbing my hands together imma be so happy to write it all hehe and with that I’m learning about my characters a lot better! I thought of it more one noted because its a good start but now im actually learning more bout em :0 !! Love reworking stuff, redesigning, it’s been a huge part of me since idk when ^ ^’

COUGHHHH i think that all works out!! TYSM FOR ASKING I CANNOT EXPRESS THE WHIMSY I FEEL RN <33

[sleepiest-writing]

Hello✨✨ man I e been wanting to a mashup since forever so TYSM for this opportunity I genuinely greatly appreciate it✨

Ok so let’s see, I am 5’3 early 20s mex girlie (no real care for pronouns I’ll go by all and any) and non labeled sexuality (I’ll fall for anyone for any reason) possibly adhd or autistic but undiagnosed so no medical proof on that, I am a Scorpio, infp and year of the goat (idk I’ve seen those included in stuff) I love anything art related (arts n craft)? I draw a lot, and in turn also adore seeing peoples art journey, style and character designing. I also adore cooking and baking, but I am a beginner, learnings is so much fun anyways. I’ve been told that I can be energetic, kinda clingy, really forgetful and sweet. Which fair, my head is a constant mess that rarely runs on organized thoughts, most of it is impulsive,how fun. I get distracted easily, my attention span is pretty much nonexistent, and I forget a concerning amount of things throughout the day. I struggle to keep my areas clean but I’m getting better. My love/affection language would be physical touch, words of affirmation and gift giving, not even expensive things, for the most part it’s been homemade meals for my sisters, and small trinkets I find for my friends. I’m also a hopeless romantic, and I love all things horror :3 I also have little to no self preservation, and dares are always a go (I once ate a dandelion cuz me n my sisters thought it would be funny, and it was) oh yeah, I’m also an ambivert who loves to go outside, socializing is a nightmare but people are interesting and I wanna be more social, I’m just stupidly shy. I also have a lot of habits that others seem to like? My sisters have commented I’m very expressive via eyes, and on more than one occasion have caused them to fall laughing. A lot of my relatives have said I’m very loving and have way to much to give because I’m always hugging people I like and clinging to them (ex my favorite Tia), and friends have told me I need to stop being attached or wanting the attention of those who aren’t… All that good to me, I have a difficult time accepting things, change is hard and I can be irrational about things pertaining to my well being. And my last habit would be, that I’ve been called weak willed and dense as fuck, weak willed because it doesn’t take much to sway me, or get me to do something. And dense cuz social cues are difficult, like how am I supposed to know this person genuinely finds me enjoyable to be around, I call bs

Uh for the mashup I would like it romantic, and long If possible (idk if this is enough, sorry for the mess of info I hope it’s good enough :’3)

TYSM for granting this long time wish✨✨💕

Hello Hello! You sound absolutely wonderful, thank you for the matchup!

Also thank you for your patience because I know you've been sitting in my ask box for quite the while! Here's your lover boy ;D

꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒥

I match you up with....

TANG ! [US!papyrus]

☁︎‎‎‧ This guy WILL make you shitty crafts about your most recent interest!

☁︎‎‎‧ He LOVES when you cling to him, lets you grab his arm in public, hell depending on who's around he'll let you climb him- he loves it.

☁︎‎‎‧ he's an extroverted introvert because of his brother, so he's chill with socialising and helps create segways that include you in the conversation without that weird awkwardness.

☁︎‎‎‧ However he is also absolutely horrendous when it comes to social cues, so he tends to fall back on his jokes as a backup.

☁︎‎‎‧ Adores how expressive your facial features are, catch this idiot looking at you and just melting - especially if you're mid-ramble.

☁︎‎‎‧ Again because of this brother, He's good at cleaning and organising- So tries to help whenever you let him, he'd never move your things around without asking. He would buy so many folders and binders for you for any art you may create.

☁︎‎‎‧ At first, he'd panic a bit about you being irrational about yourself. He'd have to ask questions to try and help, he's trying.

☁︎‎‎‧ Lastly, He'd not stand for anyone calling you weak-willed, he knows how to set healthy boundaries while also dealing with people who are used to walking all over others. Hopefully you pick up on how to put your foot down, but there's no rush for that, he understands it takes time and a lot of mental effort.

꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒷꒥꒷꒥꒷꒥

I hope you enjoyed this matchup! Once again I apologise for being so late with it but I hope your happy with it! I loved writing this :D

[vanitythevantropist]

Hey, hello! I'm the evil one who wants to know how you're doing with ADHD. I recently confirmed this diagnosis with myself, and to tell the truth, it's a little difficult for me huh

This may be an uncomfortable topic, so you don't have to answer! With respect and love, your little evil

Ohh no, it’s not uncomfortable at all :D

Honestly, I like talking about my mental disorders! Makes me feel seen when people listen and it might help others down the line! (Also I might become a disorder psychologist in the future so👀)

If you’ve been diagnosed recently, here’s the first thing I’ll tell you; don’t jump to medication yet. I tell this to everyone! Why? Because without good coping mechanisms, the meds won’t work as well as they could

A couple weeks ago, I started taking medication, but I only did so after I learned about my ADHD and how my mind works :3 I’m still learning but I feel it’s important to know enough before one gets a prescription

For me, I feel that being reminded by other people is really helpful! I can’t always keep track of time or remember things too well (my short terms memory is shit💀) so it’s nice not needing to be the one in the driver’s seat

I’ve also figured out that reading aloud is more fun for me than regular reading, especially if I pace :3 It’s pretty common for people with ADHD to find it difficult to read books n stuff

Sometimes I get really addicted to different games and stuff, which may make it difficult to focus on things I need to😅 It’s pretty likely that others with ADHD feel similarly, so just know that that’s normal if you experience it :3

The best way I know to handle that is to do it with someone else! I love learning new things and watching movies but I find it difficult to get into them on my own, so I learn things like forensic science during school and have movie nights with my family :D

I hope this is all at least sorta helpful💞

If you have any specific questions, please feel free to ask! I don’t mind questions, it’s why my ask box is open :>

[emo-hermit]

I’ve been having Thoughts recently and would like to share them. This time, they’re based off of a singular question:

What happens after Act 5?

And I don’t mean “Oh, what happens immediately after Act 5?”, I mean “Oh, what happens long after Act 5? What happens when people start recovering, and need to get discharged?”

In short: what’s the post-timeline story?

(this is a long post: my bad)

My answer to this is very Lucky-centric.

To summarise; after the baseball crew slowly begin to recover, getting discharged (this likely starts with the teenagers, whether it be because of Logan and Hailey finally getting together, or because they’ve reached a medical compromise so they can return to school) and moving on, Lucky decides to start training other new patients. He essentially becomes a physiotherapeutic coach for the patients to practice ball and get back into shape.

The main part of this story is the dynamics that result as people drop off. Namely, Lucky and Nicole end up quite close as they are eventually the last two remaining members of the baseball crew in the hospital, as they work there. While, obviously, they’re in contact with those that have left, they still grow close together.

That is; until Nicole tells Lucky she’s been offered a job somewhere else. Not even a barista job - something she actually wants to do.

That’s the core part of it. Other stuff includes:

The result of the teenagers being discharged. Namely, Logan and Hailey wanting to continue to visit, but still being forced to loosen the baseball meetings to twice, maybe once a week. The foreshadowing, I suppose.

The moment the baseball crew is finally so low (so more than just the teenagers have left now: supposedly the miner, Lucia and Cole go next) that Lucky has no choice but to either close it… or commit to what he now wants to do. He picks the later.

The gradual change of the original baseball crew now no longer being involved with baseball at all, returning to being regular patients or being discharged. Lucky is now better with people, while still harsh in his coaching, but has fully accepted where he’s at.

Not really placed anywhere in the timeline but the moment Lucky visits Miner and realises he’s packing his stuff, learning he’s being discharged soon. (Miner is a fun case as, seeing we meet him on the train, this leads me to assume that he lives quite far away from Middlesea, meaning regular visits are impossible. Also Lucky now has to start stretching himself).

The moment it’s just Nicole and Lucky left in the hospital at all. The conversations they have - the fact that THIS is when Nicole finally starts calling him coach (I imagine she refuses to while she’s actually part of the team) - so on so forth.

There’s a lot of ideas I have for this. I might develop it more, who knows?

Also obviously this weird post-timeline AU is not considering act 6+ but will do whenever we get more info on those. For now act 5 is just “the last act” in this scenario. Whoops.

[loreweaver-universe]

Well! That was a cute set of shorts. I liked that. Very little substances, but fun little peeks into the lives of Anne and the Plantars. My favorite was the video game one--I thought the spritework was very cute, the chiptune rendition of the main theme was great, and I'd definitely play a Scott Pilgrim-esque Amphibia beatemup. After that, my second-favorite was the off-roading short. It was a cool look at the environments of the island they're on, and in particular I'd like to see them do a more in-depth spelunking of that cave.

That's it for Amphibia for today. Next, we'll be starting episode 5 of Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts! I can't promise that will be today, but I'm going to try to get back in the daily-liveblog-at-noon habit. If it's not today, I will hopefully see you then tomorrow!

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[summaryscar]

yap pass. Go

I saw this the day I got it and meant to answer it a couple hours afterwards, but it’s now been 17 days, so…

Whoops. Might’ve gone unanswered a bit longer than I meant, but oh, well. We’re here now!

Not much good to yap about other than what I already do talk about a lot, which just so happens to be interactions with my best friend, but I’m worried people’ll get tired of hearing too much about it.

I’m still gonna yap about him, just not as much as I normally would.

He’s still such a sweetheart and one of the kindest people you’ll ever meet, I swear. Don’t know what I did to deserve having him as a friend, but I will forever be grateful for it.

The main thing I want to yap about today, however, is how stupidly expensive medical stuff is.

In order to go back to playing soccer after having ACL reconstruction surgery and getting my meniscus shaved down because it was destroyed, it’s recommended (heavily recommended) that I get a custom fitted knee brace.

However… it’s expensive and my parents don’t wanna pay for it. I’m able to pay for it on my own, I have more than enough money, but they won’t listen to me. Since I’m under their insurance, they claim it’s their choice and I don’t get a say. Doesn’t help that they brush me off every time I try to bring it up.

I tried talking to my mom about it the other day, and she looked me straight in the face and told me I’d never be playing soccer again. Ouch. That hurt a lot, but I can’t do anything about it.

I’ve also run into issues with my wrist, which isn’t anything new but it’s so annoying. Violins and percussion plus a dead wrist is not a fun combo. Doesn’t help that the orchestra I’m in is performing Tchaikovsky’s 5th symphony.

I want to know what’s wrong with my wrist, see if it’s just overuse or whatever, but my parents don’t because money.

I have loopholes, however. My best friend (you know, the one mentioned earlier), well, his parents work at the orthopedic office in my town, so, being one of his friends and all, I managed to get free X-rays and a free brace one night after spending time with his family. His mom overheard us talking about it multiple times throughout the night and just kinda stole me for an extra half hour to get those done and gave her husband look at the X-rays.

Nothing is necessarily wrong with my bones, they just look a bit funky. But they’re not broken or damaged, which is good! I just have weird bones

But don’t tell my parents about the X-rays, they don’t know

So now I know it’s not anything bone-related, but my wrist still hurts, which isn’t good

I’ve also been struggling with school and home stuff, but that’s a whole other issue that would probably take a few more yap sessions, so moving on

Good news now: for the first time in months I’ve written about 1,000 words in one sitting. Yay! Turns out writing on a laptop/Chromebook (definitely not my school issued one (it is)) is a lot more motivating than on a phone

I might get a chapter out in, like, the next month. But I keep saying that and I’ve yet to update my most recent fic since the beginning of August, so…

[ohburrryoureabsolutelyridiculous]

Tag you’re it!

What’s your favorite book and why?

Of Mice & Men, Catcher in the Rye or Flowers for Algernon I remember reading these in seventh grade English class & my teacher was just so much fun I remember her making learning really fun. Those books have really stuck with me because of her my whole life.

If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?

I just recently got my passport & really want to plan a trip overseas to the UK and/or Italy are top of my list.

What hobby would you get into if time and money weren’t an issue?

I practice photography I wish I had more time to go to more interesting places.

Do you prefer coffee or tea, and how do you take it?

I always want coffee but because I was diagnosed with Ménière's disease in April I’ve really had to cut back on my caffeine intake (much to my dismay). I usually just do a simple iced coffee with some kind of flavored creamer. Tea I like Chai’s or just a simple tea with cream & 2 sugars.

What’s the most memorable concert you’ve ever attended?

I saw Fleetwood Mac before Christine died, that was pretty life changing.

If you could have dinner with any three people, living or dead, who would they be?

Freddy Mercury, Vincent Van Gogh, Joseph Quinn – I want him to roast me a chicken (IYKYK)

What’s a skill you’ve always wanted to learn?

Pottery

What’s your favorite movie genre?

I always lean more towards comedy or documentaries, but I find myself in crazy situations if an actor/actress I like is in a film.

Do you have a favorite podcast? If so, what is it?

Morbid, Crime Junkie, Off Menu are my top 3

What’s one item on your bucket list?

I want to travel outside of the US. Might seem pretty generic but while I’ve done it countless times, I have a massive fear of flying so flying over seas would be a great achievement!

Are you more of a morning person or a night owl?

Definitely a night owl.

What’s your favorite way to relax after a long day?

I’m a creature of habit so I love to just kickback with a comfort show or movie to help decompress.

If you could master one instrument, what would it be?

Piano or violin

What’s your favorite childhood memory?

I just always remember being with my siblings. I always really just loved being with my dad<3

Do you prefer the beach or the mountains?

It definitely depends on where I’m at currently & how I’m feeling. In this current moment I’m leaning more towards the mountains.

What’s your go-to comfort food?

I’m not too peckish lately due to medications I’m on but I always want Pasta.

What’s a cause you’re passionate about?

Promoting mental health awareness & advocating for chronic illnesses

How do you like to spend your weekends?

The same way I decompress after a long day just kickback with a comfort show or movie, listen to music or podcasts. I like to get caught up on laundry or around the house cleaning on my weekends. Also, the typical go for coffee or drinks with friends when we can.

What’s your favorite season of the year?

Spring & fall

Do you have any pets? If so, tell me about them!

I have a Boxer/Weimaraner mix named Olive & a Harlequin cat named Fig they are the lights of my life.

What’s your favorite way to exercise?

Going out & getting fresh air, chasing my nieces & nephews around, biking, kettlebells are a good way to get out frustrations

What’s a recent movie or show you really enjoyed?

I only just started watching Agatha All Along because its’s new. I’m always looking for recommendations please send me some because I’ve been watching the same stuff.

Do you collect anything? If so, what?

Concert & movie ticket stubs

What’s your dream job?

Something involving photography or Graphic Design

What’s your favorite thing about your hometown?

Oh god…leaving? People love talking about The Office when I tell them I’m from the Scranton area of Pennsylvania.

If you could have any superpower, what would it be?

Teleporting

What’s a challenge you’ve overcome that you’re proud of?

The healthcare in the US is a joke as many of you know. Mental healthcare is even worse when you try to get legit help. I spent the first half of 2024 really really struggling with depression & I really had to conquer that on my own, which I did.

What’s your favorite thing to do outdoors?

Breathe, sometimes I feel like I’m suffocating so going out & getting air in my lungs is something I don’t take for granted (anymore)

Do you prefer reading fiction or nonfiction?

I’m not a big reader anymore (seventh grade English really paid off huh?)

What’s your favorite way to express creativity?

Digitally I like making things

Who is someone you admire and why?

My sister, she’s the strongest person I know. She is basically my 2nd mother.

What’s a tradition that’s important to you?

We have a few Christmas traditions I’d like to keep around if I ever have a family (unlikely)

What’s the best gift you’ve ever received?

My sister even though she’s older.

If you could live in any time period, when would it be?

I feel like the 1960’s & 1970’s was probably the best time

What’s your favorite type of cuisine?

Pasta all the pasta 😂

Do you prefer traveling solo or with others?

With others of course it’s more entertaining!

What’s one piece of advice you’d give to your younger self?

Don’t be so hard on yourself everything’s going to turn out fine. Talk to dad & see him more.

What’s your favorite game to play?

I love to watch people play games it reminds me of growing up with my brother & watching him play games.

How do you usually celebrate your birthday?

Depends, I’ve always wanted a surprise party.

What’s a movie that always makes you cry?

Oh god there’s so many, anything involving people with cancer or where the animal dies.

Do you believe in fate or free will?

Absolutely

What’s a trend you wish would come back?

When it was illegal for people to come near you at stores during COVID. Why are you standing SO close to me?!

What’s something you wish you could do more often?

Photography

What’s your favorite way to give back to the community?

Always donating for the animals, we just did a big donation of toys, blankets & food for our local center.

What’s a fun fact about you that not many people know?

I don’t grow arm hair🤷🏼‍♀️

How do you stay motivated during tough times?

I really try to focus on my breathing, if I find myself feeling depressed I’ll try to motivate myself to get up & move. I did a lot of word searches when I was self-healing the beginning of this year. I’ll also try to notice the signs & talk to my sister or my friends.

What’s the last thing you learned that surprised you?

That honey never spoils. Archaeologists have found pots of honey in ancient Egyptian tombs that are over 3,000 years old and still perfectly edible! Honey’s low moisture content and acidic pH create an environment that resists bacteria and spoilage.

Do you have a favorite quote or mantra?

No does anyone have recommendations?

What’s your guilty pleasure?

Nothing that gives you pleasure should make you feel guilty. If you love it, flaunt it, let that freak flag fly!

What’s something you hope to achieve in the next year?

I want to move out of Nevada, move back east & be closer (physically) to my sister.

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