#the internet's been my home for years now...

[sideblog-side-b]

I don't live on my reservation nor do I live in the state its in so I miss a lot. But I just found out like-okay let me give some context.

I haven't posted about this a lot because it's been incredibly rough on my family, my mom especially and also because honestly, the internet isnt kind to natives.

I havent even mentioned this except for maybe once or twice on my old blog in fact. But I feel like in honor of my cousin and to showcase how you can push support for MMIW locally and federally, I should do more than just mention her.

I've been so focused on world events and my own mental health that I just saw this news and I'm sobbing. She was my cousin and she deserved so, so much more than she got. She should've raised her baby. Her death shouldn't have been what it was. It shouldn't have been made into a true crime videos.

But her birthday is a holiday after pushes from her family and not just within the tribe, but for her city.

She also has an act that was created in her name to help make sure other indigenous women, girls, and two spirits don't go through the same thing.

More than 4 in 5 indigenous women have been subjected to violence, and Alaska Native women report assault rates 12 times higher than the rest of the U.S. On some reservations, Native women are ten times more likely to be murdered.

[...]

Savanna’s Act clarifies federal, state, tribal and local law enforcement responsibilities with respect to missing or murdered Indians; aims to increase communication and coordination between federal, tribal, state, and local law enforcement agencies; improves tribal access to resources and information such as the federal criminal information databases needed to respond effectively to missing and murdered Indian cases; requires data collection related to missing and murdered Indian people, regardless of where they reside; and directs U.S. attorneys to develop regionally appropriate guidelines for responding to missing or murdered Indians.

All that said, please educate yourself on MMIW. This site is a good starting place. And mark May 5 (the official day of awareness for MMIW) & August 9th on your calendars for me and all the indigenous women who can't use their voices anymore

And for anyone like me who's been waiting for some kind of progress after learning about her, heres an update from just yesterday (Jan 11 2025)

[faizfamily]

A call for help to those with living and compassionate consciences, to those with good hearts, to those with humanity, and to pure people who know the value of the human being, support living in peace and freedom, and know the meaning of mercy and dignity, and people who love Palestine? 🇵🇸🍉📣

I am your brother #Fayez from #Gaza, and this is my mother and her name is #Anaam. I extend to you a helping hand and assistance to save the life of my mother, whose pain I cannot bear, which I see every day and every night due to the severity of the illness. She suffers from several chronic diseases and other diseases, and suffers from a chest crisis and high grades. Heat, shortness of breath, and some liver disease. I ask the generous people who love humanity to look at my mother’s condition with compassion and mercy. We We are not beggars. We are people who love life and living with the simplest rights. We love freedom and peace with the least means. Here is my number on WhatsApp: 0592853224.☎��☎️ I can prove to you my mother’s condition via video and my name on Instagram: faiz_taweel69����📸, but more than a year and a half of war led to the loss of everything. Our dreams and our future are our source of livelihood. Our home, our memories, our ambitions. I have become 29 years old and have not yet accomplished anything in my life I did not complete my education. There is nothing left for me from this war except my mother, and I do not want to lose her. I have lost many members of my family. We were displaced, displaced, and hungry. We were displaced more than 10 times until we ended up in Mawasi Khan Yunis, in a tent in which an animal and not a human could not live. It could not protect us from the cold. Not even rain. Even our most basic rights have become impossible. Every day there is killing, displacement and destruction. We travel great distances until we sit on the Internet and explain. You have our message. Please do not ignore us. We are human beings. Please, my mother is in bad condition and needs treatment. I ask those with good hearts and living consciences to extend a helping hand and help to my mother, who does not move a finger. We were expelled from the hospital due to failure to pay the bill. She is now in the tent, consumed by cold and pain. Please, please, help me to save her. Her life. I don’t want to lose her like the rest of the family lost. I trust you. Every donation and every contribution will help save my mother’s life. $10 will not detract from your wallet, my friend. Stand with us in this ordeal and war that has no mercy on man, animal, or tree. Please help me, even if just a little, and let us overcome these obstacles with your presence. Only I can help my mother and overcome this obstacle. Be my brothers and help my mother before it is too late. There is news saying that the Rafah crossing will be opened next month. Help us get out of this war safely. The link is on the personal page. I will not be long for you, but This is part of our daily suffering. You will not be able to live a day of this life that we live, let alone a year and a half of this suffering. 🍉🇵🇸🇵🇸😭😭🙏🙏

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[floofiestboy]

I absolutely think Akai/Rumi would be a far more interesting path to take, but unfortunately yeah I doubt that Aoyama would consider it something that could cause an online uproar. It's definitely possible that the one am*azu account made up the "flaming" part of Aoyama's comment, since no other sources have reported it as of now. But with the other accounts at least reporting that Aoyama said there was a ship "he can't say" he was planning to progress... I still think it's likely am*azu either way. As you say, there's only so many possible het pairs left.

I do suspect that Rei actually has a family and wasn't raised in an orphanage - unsure if you've seen it, but Aoyama mentions in the WPS volume Q&A that Rei can speak English well due to his home environment - but if Aoyama makes it so his family is actually perfectly normal and fine... man. I wouldn't even put it past him at this point T_T

Yeah, my primary issue with the pairing is that it invalidates so much of what we've been told of them until now. In addition to your excellent points about how it would conflict with Rei's characterization, even with Azusa, she dislikes being the centre of attention thanks to Amuro's popularity, and doesn't appear to be particularly starstruck by a 29-year-old man who still works part-time regardless of how attractive he may be. Dating Rei would go against that.

I don't think I could read DC without accepting my faves could end up in mandatory comphet relationships- but I expect the ships to at least be consistent with their established canon personality. And Rei falling for someone who doesn't see him as Japanese wouldn't be.

(Tangent: I dug into the dredges of Japanese Internet (5ch) while looking for sources for this year's Let's Talk, and I happened to find an Am*Azu Haters Thread around since 2017-2018 that was discussing the Let's Talk. I also wondered whether the Azusa bread line would be seen as more acceptable by native Japanese, so I searched back to right after the chapter release to see their comments.

While most people commented more on her "insensitivity" and how it would remind Rei of his childhood in a bad way, I did also see a couple comments about how it's "one step away from discrimination". While obviously the commenters on this thread were biased against the ship, I'd argue that them thinking to bring it up at all still indicates that both Arai and Aoyama ought to have been aware of the implications of that line.)

But really, that dialogue in ZTT Ch. 1 that Aoyama either wrote himself or signed off on is insane, especially when you compare how Rei’s mixed heritage is addressed in WPS by his friends:

vs. in ZTT:

The only way this makes sense to me is if it was meant to further emphasize how alone Rei is in the here and now. He has no one who sees him as himself anymore, and neither does he have anyone who’d get angry enough to defend him. He himself is used to this level of othering- it’s not even worth getting mad at anymore, even if he might spitefully overcompensate at home by cooking up a storm of food that actually suits his tastes. So he’ll never bite back against it himself.

I assume Aoyama was planning an am*azu endgame from before ZTT started, considering that early am*azu fantasy chapter. Why in the world wouldn’t he have instead written Azusa as an ally to Rei, in that case? She could’ve defended Rei against a casually discriminating background character, cementing her as a proper friend to Rei that he hasn’t had since he lost his last police academy buddy.

Instead, he chose to do the exact opposite.

[la-galaxie-langblr]

what is going on w my brain

[pollen]

i've been diving a lot deeper into adhd symptoms and comorbidities and misdiagnoses and whenever i tell my boyfriend something i learned that sounds like me he responds with something like

[terresdebrume]

The problem when you're trying to check that your weight loss isn't excessive is that most of the results are either people discussing (fake) miracle diets or being like "of you drop more than 4.5kg/5% bodyweight in 6 months/a year it could be cancer"

And I'm sitting here like this is great but I have anxiety and this is not helpful -_-

[fluffle-writes]

I wanna. Pick them up in my mouth and shake 'em around like a dog obliterating a squeaky toy

[thewanderingzeppelin]

I'm alive!!!!

[steviescrystals]

MY LIFE IS NOT REAL WHAT IS GOING ON

[lieutenantselnia]

Internet archive I love you❤️❤️❤️

[the-toasted-teacake]

I knew I'd have an amazing time this weekend, but honestly—I didn't expect it could even come close to seeing Carlos' first ever pole and race win last year. Then Lando and Oscar and McLaren go and do that. Completely unexpectedly. With Lewis on the podium too! The roars of the home crowd.

Feeling very, very fortunate to have had two incredible visits here to Silverstone, seeing some massive moments for my beloved drivers 🧡 Very lucky indeed.

[pepprs]

idk how to reconcile my new self with my old self. also i fucking hate waiting. GRAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[ohmeowmy]

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[pressingpinkpetals]

does it piss anyone else off to be the only person who cleans in the house and get no thanks for it or is it just me and my family’s love of parentifying the eldest daughter (me)

[mohamed-mikki]

Help Mohamed To Survive and Restore His Life

Hello Everyone... I am Mohamed Mikki From Gaza, Palestine. 24 years old, my life has been difficult since I was young, when I was 17 years old, I lost my father, and with my determination to build my future, I decided to continue my education in the field of multimedia technology and develop my skills through many courses in the same field, and I was working alongside my studies to cover my expenses in the field of graphic design, I was preparing myself to establish my life and future.

My Father:

When I try hard and acheived success in my university college :

When I start my own work:

But the war in Gaza, especially in the north, brought with it a great tragedy, the war destroyed my home, my university, and my work, I was in the north, and I was displaced to the south where I faced famine and moved from one place to another in search of safety.

I have lived countless difficult and painful days during my many attempts to escape death, bombing, and destruction. In my places of displacement that the army says are safe but are never, life has become limited to escaping danger and searching for food among the rubble of destroyed homes.

My dream now is to travel abroad to continue my education, develop my skills, survive, and build my future that has been destroyed, as for the past nine months I have been unemployed due to the war conditions and the power and internet outage since the first day of the war, in addition to the frequent movement from one place to another to escape the war machine, missiles and death, as there was no stability for the absent work conditions.

Here your generosity can make a big difference, your support will help me rebuild my life and continue my education and will provide me with the opportunity to escape the circle of danger and destruction and strive towards a future full of hope and potential.

I humbly ask you to help raise funds to cover the costs of travel, education, and basic expenses as I seek to start a new life, every contribution, no matter how small, brings me a step closer to safety, stability, success, and building a better future.

Breakdown of Expenses

Rafah/Egypt crossing: $5000

Minimum Living Costs: $3000/per month

Egypt/Canada Tickets: $5000

Minimum Living Costs in Canada: $7000/per month

Vetted by:

@90-ghost

@northgazaupdates2

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your interest in my request, your support means more to me than words can express, with your help I can turn a story of loss into a journey of hope and resilience...

With sincere gratitude

Mohamed Mikki

[esyra]

After the hospital bombing, I finally heard back from my grandmother and confirmed that several of my relatives were murdered by Israeli bombing. Seven of them, to be precise. Three are still going, including her. We've been talking constantly ever since.

Asked if it was possible to head south, and was told they did but were also bombed there. So they decided to go back home, in Zeitoun. Their home was bombed and they were pulled out of the rumble, then driven by ambulances to the al-Ahli Arab Hospital. There were people in every corner. Gazans sheltering, sleeping on the floor. Gazans dying on the floor, waiting for beds.

Four were declared dead on arrival, three were in need of surgery and other three were just bandaged. Then, a bomb was dropped in the parking lot that made parts of the ceiling collapse, like Dr. Ghassan Abu Sittah reported in that horrific conference/interview. Those in need of surgery died.

By the way, just in case you didn't know: the Church of Saint Porphyrius, the third oldest in history, bombed by Israel a few days back, was located near the hospital.

When looking for new shelter, they saw schools with signs hanging outside, "We can't take any more families." They met families, sympathetic but already sheltering too many people. They're now staying in an apartment building they found empty. Sleeping in the corner of the living room. If the family comes back, they'll apologize and leave.

Told me she was saving her phone battery for when the bombing stopped, and she had to ask for help to rebuilt the neighborhood. But she doesn't think it's gonna stop anymore. The ones still with her are mute most of the time, like they're saving energy, but she feels lonely and wanted to talk. There's no internet and to connect to WhatsApp, people are buying "a card from the supermarket, there's a password and username." Not sure what she meant. Still, the internet is inconsistent and won't load neither videos or images nor pages, so she doesn't know what's happening on the outside world.

Told her there were a lot of people protesting to stop the genocide, she replied, "The bombings are getting worse by the day." The bombing yesterday was the worst she ever witnessed. The entire neighborhood is infested with the smell of death, of decomposing bodies. Bodies are piling up in the streets and she's not sure if it's because they ran out of places to store them, but most of them are in bags. The smoke of the bombings hide the blue sky—she hasn't seen the clouds for a while.

Asked if I could share their pictures, names and dreams with people and was told, of which I partly agree, "they're not entertainment." If anyone genuinely cared, they would be alive—I'd argue there are people who do care, but I'm not gonna lecture her pain. And they don't deserve to be used to fulfill someone's sick fantasy. Told me to remember what some Israelis do with pictures of dead Palestinians. And I do.

For those of you who are not familiar, many times before settlers got together to celebrate the murder of Palestinians. For one, in 2015, Israeli settlers set a house in Duma, West Bank on fire. An 18-month old baby, Ali Dawbsheh, was burnt alive. Both parents later died of wounds and only a 5-year-old, Ahmad, survived, although severely injured.

Two celebrations of their murder are widely known, one at a wedding and others outside the court in which two were indicted for the terrorist attack. In the wedding, guests stabbed a photo of the toddler, Ali, while others waved guns, knives and Molotov cocktails. Israel's Minister of National Security, Itamar Ben-Gvir, was present.

That's what happens in an apartheid. Palestinians are so abused by authorities that their "innocent civilians" come to accept the brutality as necessary or are desensitized by our suffering. After all, it's been 75 years—get used to it!

So I won't risk the image of my loved ones, in fear they are used in these kinds of depravity. I will say, though, the world lost a young footballer. Lost a female writer and an aspiring ballerina. Lost a kind father, who was also a great cook, and a loving mother that enjoyed sewing and other types of handicraft art. Lost a math teacher and a child that wanted to become one.

People think Israel is testing new weapons on them. There's civilians arriving at the hospital with severe burns, which they thought was from white phosphorus, but apparently the pattern is different from the one caused by white phosphorus. It's widely believed Israel tests weapons in Palestinians.

Jeff Halper, author of War Against the People, a book on Israel's arms and surveillance technology industries, said: "Israel has kept the occupation because it's a laboratory for weapons."

They've ran out of drinkable water and the "aid" Biden sent was only for the South of Gaza and no fuel, for hospitals, was allowed in. Many shelves in the supermarket are empty. She said many are convinced that if they don't die from the bombing, they'll die from starvation or dehydration, or whatever disease will develop from the dirty water they're drinking.

Told me all people do now is pray, cry and die. Told me she hopes West Bank is spared. Told her Israel bombed a mosque in West Bank and dozens of Palestinians in West Bank are being murdered by settlers, so she bided me goodbye.