#the first half had me in tears
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hahahahahahahahah
i am the sanest person y'all
~spoilers for s2 ep37 under the cut~
WFT IS THE INTRO HOLY SHIT- MY BRAIN STOPPED WORKING THE SECOND I HEARD ALL STAR START PLAYING-
OH NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO N O
WILLY- SCARY'S BACK
WILLY THAT PIECE OF FUCKING-
OH NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO N O N O N O O O O
SCARY'S GOING TO GRANT OH SHITE-
OH? OH.
Grant punch #1
HELL YEAH NORMAL
"Scary's the beaten the broken and the damned" FUCK-
DAMN NORMAL
"And when it says you can touch a creature, can I touch myself?" hah, nice
YES SPARROW
Kiddads lore? Kiddads lore.
Oh Scary bestie-
"Something has broken in Normal and all of his rage is spilling out right now, like all of the fucking shit that has been bottled up for him, just fuckin taking L after L, it's just all coming out and he's taking it out on these pizza guys" oh nooooo~ NORMAL SO DESERVES TO GO FERAL
"Just tug on my toes" "tug on my toes so I know when to sword these pizzas" "you manage to somehow out homoerotic Neon Genesis Evangelion" suddenly the gif they posted on twitter makes so much sense-
"Normal looks at this, and sees it through the darkness somehow and says, "everybody's falling in love, wiTH EVERYBODY ELSE BUT ME" and then I smash the wall and grab a fire axe and just start going to town on the fucking pizzas up here" NORMAL. DESERVES. TO. GO. FERAL.
"You whirling dervish of homoeroticism and pizza and video games" I need to use this line
How did this ep become to homoerotic-
NICKY!
"Vegans only"?
"This podcast may be the only thing without a visual component to end up on wiki feet" so true Beth, so so true-
Grant punch #2?
GRANT-
Grant punch #3
"Vegans only".
FUCK YEA SCARY
"A vegan has to eat through all that meat" Normal and Sparrow nooo-
Normal and Scary moments <3
"Whoever can bring Terry Jr back gets the anchor" fuuuck- "I'm really sorry it doesn't- it doesn't work like that anymore" FUUUUUCK-
MESSAGE TO TERRY MESSAGE TO TERRY MESSAGE TO TERRY MESSAGE TO-
OH SHIT LINK YOU GO GIRL(?)
y'all now what i'm gonna say:
Double Therapy for all!
#holy shit y'all#the first half had me in tears#like fetal position screaming crying sobbing throwing up-#the whole shebang#normal had me screaming cause like#yessss#bestie deserves to go feral#the link and taylor????#the homoeroticism of it all???#gosh-#swiftli nation how we doing?#then the ending#OHMIGOSH#the scary and normal moment <3#in tears#several dead and many more injured#(both in the ep and because of the ep)#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dndads spoilers#scary marlowe#normal oak#lincoln li wilson#taylor swift (not that one)#grant wilson#fuck willy stampler#screaming crying sobbing#whispers of the raine
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#ninja showdown#my immortal soul#first ninja x chase young#rc9gn first ninja#first ninja#chase young#rc9gn#xiaolin showdown#randy cunningham 9th grade ninja#me @ me; how many art tropes we gotta draw for those two? also me: yes ;)#listen. LISTEN. the world is kinda shit right now and im sad and so im drawing a lot of these two rn to comfort me#but instead of drawing all those great angsty soul-tearing ideas i had. do you know what my brain decided?? DO YOU???#it saw a picture of Chase with wet hair and went: you know what would be very cool idea??? ;))) and i promptly sketched almost 20 pgs#comic where absolutely nothing actually happens but 14 of the pages contain half-naked wet men!!!!!! AND YOU KNOW WHAT#somehow its not even the worst thing i drew because right after that???#my brain was like heehoo what about some love spell/pollen trope?? ;3 & i kid you not i doodled some of it and now im just sitting here#with my head in my hands wondering wtf am i doing as i stare at a doodle of love spelled first#so ye guess what im gonna be working on this month lol
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THE WELL AND THE LIGHTHOUSE PMV/ANIMATIC
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very very jean valjean centric because i love him and he deserves the world <3 im not sure if pmv or animatic would apply better to this, but either way, i hope you enjoy it!
#about the events i didnt include in this: i know their significance they were just cut out because i couldnt find a way to apply it#to the lyrics or there were other moments i wanted to include more#ok with that out of the way every tag past this one will be me talking about the process of making this etc etc#basically a yap fest and fandom tags#45+ hours of work wow#never made anything like this before!#im very happy with how it turned out though :3#blood sweat and tears went into this#at points i didnt think id be able to finish this but! its here! i finished it! aah!!!!!#file size was too big to post straight to tumblr had to upload it to youtube first </3#UGH IM SO PROUD OF THIS#i did a lot of vaguely talking about it but ITS HEEREEEE!!!!!! ITS DONE! FINALLY!!!!#not sure what else to say other than wow this took me a long time and it drove me half insane#les miserables#les mis#jean valjean#valjean#inspector javert#javert#fanart#les amis de l'abc#< tagging them as a group because theyre there for one frame so it counts </3 and for some reason half the fandom is on that tag. why.#sorry les amis fans youve been deceived#art#marius pontmercy#cosette fauchelevent#pmv#animatic#dont you dare let this flop. please.#i spent 2 months on this please please please please dont let it flop.
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"Albie" (main story 11-21)
At the end of Episode 11 (Part 1), we find out that "Albie" is simply a name that Vyn made up on the spot when Rosa asked. He may have been inspired by his own birth name, Vilhelm Richard Albert de Haspran.
In Chinese, Vyn choose the name "阿明". "阿" is a prefix used to form nicknames, "明" can be a name but also means "bright, clear". In Vyn's Romantic Rail Getaway card "Food for Thought", he tells us the meaning of his name:
You can see the character 明 appear in the word 明亮 ("bright"), although 明 is such a common character that I wouldn't say that this Chinese text alone is enough is sufficient evidence to show the connection between the two names. It's the way that the "Albie" and "阿明" happen to coincide in the name "Albert", which made me take note of Vyn's "careless" choice in name.
If the Chinese name was intended to subtly reference "Albert", I can certainly imagine imagine this as one way to preserve that reference through translation, even if it becomes more obvious. We do have an example of the translation preserving plot-relevant wordplay in a name: Lowe Leare ("Lowly"), originally 萧仁 ("小人", both pronounced "xiao ren" but with different tones). However, there's also an incident of a plot-relevant name being missed through translation, though it was in an event (not the main story) that probably foreshadowed a distant plot point and had infamously bad translation issues.
Anyway, it remains possible that "Albie" is a coincidence. However, after Vyn and Rosa wrap up their conversation about Albie's name, the narration makes a comment on the importance of that moment:
It isn't until the whole case is settled that you are surprised to realize something... You had briefly touched on the key to cracking the case at this very moment.
...which at least gives me enough confidence to not feel silly writing up a whole post about it. We've only seen part of this case, and there's a lot of mystery still surrounding Vyn's behavior so I don't have any definitive hypotheses on why Vyn might have chosen his own name for Albie. Is there something that made Vyn seen himself in Albie? Did the delinquent's attitude remind Vyn of the cruel, stratified world that he was born in? Is he reminded of how people who have imperfections will be tossed aside and abandoned? I guess we'll see when part 2 of this episode is released.
#tears of themis#vyn richter#tot vyn#tears of themis analysis#mo yi#tot translation#thoughts of themis#was the ''albie'' reference really obvious or not?? i honestly have no idea. but it only clicked for me bc i was staring at both versions o#text side-by-side and i was like. WAIT A MINUTE.#doing fan translations is fun bc even after there's an official translation; you might read something almost 2.5 years later that triggers#some deep memories (bc u took so so long to translate and had to agonize over every single word choice oh my god)#god i did my first translations two and a half years ago. sounds CRAZY when you put it like that#but honestly great experience 10/10 i'm always wishing i could go back to that time. also nothing makes me feel more powerful than when i k#know i have an easily searchable script of certain cards thanks to my own translation. it was SO EASY to find that RRG excerpt#hmm should i crosspost to the themis subreddit. i do have an account but i use it mostly to talk about console otome games
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ppffftthh
#i made coffee and drank water this morning purely by chanting stop being a wanker out loud at myself#i got out of the house and went to buy new foundation and felt like a fucking eyesore the whole time but i did it#i managed to play 30 minutes of disco elysium which is usually something i can do regardless of mood#i even logged into genshin for the first time in a whiiile to play the new questlines and couldn't even follow that#i bought sushi for lunch because maybe eating something fun and good would move me#i went for a nap. i've listened to half an episode of 3 different podcasts. i washed my face. i've had a shower#i edited the 3k alangaipa smut i've had written for weeks but am too chicken to post#i added 2 sentences to an akkayan fic i've halfheartedly been working on for a million years#i deliberately closed out of a gif i was working on because i'm the most annoying person on earth to me today#i want to burst into tears but they won't come#if anyone finds a spare sense of purpose i'll be staring at the ceiling and trying to figure out how to. something. idk.#ignore me i just needed to whinge#so it is decreed
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Everyday I wonder wether or not I should delete Tomcat Disposables off my Playlist.. (It's a beautiful song) (I sob uncontrollably whenever I focus on the lyrics for more than 2 seconds)
#I have extreme hyperempathy towards animals. This song. Is not good for me but gaah is there cheese in the great beyond!! FUCK!!#SLICE OF PARMESAN!!!#The first time I tried to sing it I had to stop half way. Literal waterfall of tears#Will Wood#tomcat disposables
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..... The ending makes me wonder if I should make a million spam posts being excited about the way that Rick acted, if it was all just in Morty's mind anyway.
#I honestly had really low expectations for the show for multiple reasons for the finale#The first half almost brought me to tears which is saying a lot#and felt like watching a movie from the quality#but considering the way that it ended I feel a little bit... I don't know#teased underwhelmed cheated etc#I'm going to feel like an idiot now freaking out about all the Rick moments that we got with Diane#rick and morty
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Have you ever thought about how Linebeck describes Jolene as "crazier than a rabid squid"- only to then be possessed by a literal rabid squid later in the game?
Cause I sure have- especially after seeing a lot of your BellumxLinebeck stuff
mmmmghmm im gonna be honest i haven't thought about it much at all
linking it to my bellum x linebeck thoughts, im not too sure what to make of it in context with my other linebeck notes and w/e
there's also my idea that linebeck has a special interested in shellfish and by extension squids, and the idea of him having a weird thing for bellum, and just... enjoying sealife, and it's kinda of...
he compares her to a rabid squid to link in order to i think... offer a shorthand explanation of what she's like, and i think it (with some other stuff) is kinda just another little peek into how he might feel abt her?
i mean he also compares link to a dog in that one letter? i'm not sure where im going with that one. i dont think linebeck particularly likes dogs
i'm not sure abt the link between that and him getting possessed, jolene is kind of just... there a lot of the time and doesn't really do anything except 1) show that linebeck has enemies and 2) show that people know about link's quest by the end, linebeck generally references sea creatures a few times in ph
relating to bellum x linebeck, i dont see him comparing jolene to a squid an indicator of anything in relation to that, with linebeck having a thing for bellum its more of like. there's a lot of complicated ideas i have with what goes on between them during bellumbeck and bellum being a squid thing is more linebeck having a bit of a monsterfucker streak and having a bit of a thing for like. being tied up. as for literal squids he kinda just likes them as food and to dissect and learn about
like i think 'rabid squid' is more like linebeck just tossing out some derogatory shorthand to explain how he thinks of jolene as some fucking. violent annoyance he has to deal with that he doesn't fully understand
tbh i see the comparison but imo it comes down to a difference in characters and interactions and histories, there is the rabid squid thing (and i think in the manga too theres a vague parallel drawn ig) but im not. sure. what there is there just beyond. linebeck talks about sea creatures and wants to get the fuck away from jolene
i'm not entirely certain what you've been thinking about with that comparison, but i haven't been thinking much about it and it's kinda. eh ig???? its something
#asks#musicncomics#like im gonna be real jolene is a character i do everything i can to avoid half of the time#im not too sure what your thoughts on this are but i can tell you like jolene leagues more than i do so like. idk#idk i have a hard time talking abt jolene bc i Do Not like her so im not really sure beyond this stuff its just. idk#bellum also isnt a literal squid like looking at actual squids the most comparisons are surface level and dont work too deeply#he kinda just looks like one at first glance but 1) doesnt line up well enough and 2) we dont have enough info on him anyways#hes more a reference to a squid than an actual squid bc there is the reference to sperm whales and giant squids fucking hating each other#but while oshus is literal whale bellum is like. some thing in the shape of a squid#im not sure what parallels oyu can draw between the jolene thing and bellum thing. if anything theyre opposites?#w/ jolene its like things got so bad (or w/e) that he just robbed her n fucked off and she decided that was enough to warrant murder#while with bellum things get so good (w/ link and co) that he risks his life for em and is turned against them for it?#tbh this kinda comes down to me having a pretty negative bias against jolene and. that ship. so yeah sorry#im not gonna give this any main tags or anything this is way too far off the beaten path and kinda negative#idk i hc linebeck as gay and a lot of other linebeck hcs just kinda. suggest that he kinda had a really shit time w/ jolene#i dont like her im trying to figure that shit out so i can be like. fair at least in how i write her but i dont like her#salty talks#sorry that i keep tearing away from the rabid squid thing but its like a minefield when i try to talk abt anything w/ jolene#theres not a ton of parallels or like shared themes or w/e and its just too dissimilar in little ways that its just. a thing#ill add this in a few hours later idk if youll see jt but like. i can go in depth and discuss stuff#in dms like im fine with that its just weird in posts bc like tagging and my thoughts are a mess#like if you wanna elaborate on your thoughts thats fine
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I am about to burn my gynecologist office to the fucking ground
#everyone keeps giving me incorrect information#FOR A MONTH AND A FUCKING HALF#first they told me I needed a referral and I got the referral#then they told me the referral was done incorrectly and to call my pcp and correct it#it took my pcp a WEEK to correct even though I called every day#now with the correct referral there telling me I DIDNT FUCKING NEED ONE IN THE FIRST PLACE#and then when I called to schedule… they tell me that the referral authorization is wrong#WHYYY ARE YOU PLAYING REPRODUCTIVE HEALTH IN A STATE THAT HATES WOMEN#while making this post I was on the phone with them and had to tear them a new ass because if they had listened to me a fucking month ago#NONE OF THIS WOULDVE BEEN A FUCKING ISSUE#I hate American healthcare
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dacryphilia
The very worst thing you can do right now is bore me. Caleen shudders. “You’re not going to believe me anyways, are you?” Her voice tremors, and Dedra wants to hear it break. “No,” she says slowly. She can feel a smile tugging at her lips. She fights like mad to suppress it, and fails. It pulls at her lips, threatening to split them, and she lets her teeth show. “I suppose not.”
Or; The Interrogation Scene and some bonuses from Lt. Dedra Meero's point of view.
Or; Sophia "Dyke With Bad Taste" A-Flickering-Soul saw this
and this
and THIS
and thought, "How can I not write the most reprehensible, terrible, Dead Doveish 2.6k words about it?"
Mind the tags.
#andor#star wars#flickerthoughts#flicker wrote this#dedraposting#and HOW.#man. man. dedra meero character of all time to ME. i hate her sm. i wanna tear that woman apart. i wanna vivisect her.#man i have such cool people following me. i'm sorry guys.#when she said 'you're not going to believe me are you' and she just smiled and said 'no' so gently AUGH!#i had to. i had to. when she dragged her whole hand over her face. i had to. i'm sorry. i had to.#i think daily abt how denise gough was like 'yeah i can't replicate what my face did in that scene now' like....she was POSSESSED. same.#you need to know i literally told myself nah im not gonna get into her there's so many other amazing characters she's not that great#AND YET. there is a canon interracial lesbian couple w the most fascinating dynamic. there are so many good characters. AND YET.#man#mostly im proud of this bc it's basically exactly what i wanted it to be and it's short but still good and i worked rly hard on the ending#but also i feel terrible#but also i'm proud i finally finished a dddne fic! i have so many drafts and this is the first one i finished ;_;#but also...man.#it's like i completed spgtober recuperated for a month and had so much evilness built up in me i had to do this#man i took and edited these screenshots and adria arjona's acting is just insane this scene is genuinely terrifying she looks half dead#every actor in this series just fucking brought their a game im serious
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Someone told me that he 'like hanging around with me' and he 'love my smile' today
#years after my birth im finally finding out the genuine joy of making friends#also relief. ive got so used for my mere existence to be an annoyance to other people as a child so its so important to me when people say#they like to have me around#had to turn down a very big socialization opportunity bc i was hungry and i couldnt come with him - will try to make up for it next time#what he said was totally platonic btw hes gay and im not a man#he also told me 'when i first met you i thought you were trans' and the urge i felt to come out to him and say 'YES ACTUALLY (but also here#the nuances:') but it came out of nowhere and there were bystanders so i didnt want to risk it and just. 'honestly im not sure' was the bes#half-truth half-lie i could muster#but hey he made me comfortable with coming out to him so one day perhaps#gosh i wish im not going to mess up this newly forming friendship (?) with my little to non-existent social skills#man also has the same dumb humor as me. i have to find a way to keep him around#my mom would burst into tears if she knew how much i smile talk and am open around him. not my fault he is a person whom you naturally feel#safe around#normally people ask me if im 'angry/pissed/annoyed/sad' because i have a resting bitch face and dont talk much to anyone#the surprise people must feel once they get to know me better.. granted i cant name any but whatever lol
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not to be a pain-crazed wild animal. i KNOW i do this every time. but p*riods are so fucking crazy. like my cr*mps are so bad my body is trying to strangle itself but im awake and i need to be at work in 2 hrs and get thru an entire 9 hr workday as if im not in excruciating pain and im gonna bring my heating pad and my p*in r*lief cr*am if you catch my drift (💀) and i’ll need to use them DURING a busy day in which i will not see any other ppl who get periods in person and using them is gonna be a whole awkward thing. like omg. this is not fucking normal lol
#purrs#it is normal obviously. but it’s SO fucking frustrating like omfg the amount of time i lose every single month to being in pain like this#FOR NO REASON and like half the global population has to deal w that and it’s like it’s nothing. idk. despair and suffering and misery#delete later#menstruation tw#the thing that really gets me abt it is how my mom (ik i said i would stop complaining abt her on here but we have been fighting all month#LOL so im giving myself permission) gets so fucking pissed at me and my sister when we’re in too much pain to do chores bc she thinks we’re#being lazy / making excuses and then she compares us to o it brother like.. omg um YOU should know how painful this can be first of all and#second of all why would you even make that comparison when he doesn’t lose a third of his life to his body trying to tear itself apart! lol!#and yes i could work from home or calll out sick but consider: i am mentally illabout not being at work. which * is gonna be on my ass abt w#when they hear me say that bc i know im gonna make a whole awkward big deal abt my heating pad. UGHHHHH embarrassing lmaooooo#like why do people have REGULAR B*DILY F*NCTIONS!!!!! REGULAR!!!!!!! that REGULARLY put them in this amount of pain and we have to just deal#with that like it’s nothing and be discreet about and whatever. ew i sound like um… someone who cares too much abt stuff like this lol but I#im so mad abt it rn like oh my GOD can the pain just not be part of it can we just evolve to get rid of that or put structures in place in a#society for ppl to be more accepting / supporting / whatever of it. please please please please please#(also goes for more than just p*riods btw. like imagine if as a society we had things in place for ppl who are regularly in#chronic pain of any kind 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 what a world that would be 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 wow i sure hope it happens in my lifetime 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍)
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"This extra space next to me belongs to you. I know where I end now. I won't get lost." -- shoot me (metaphorically) and leave me for dead (metaphorically) why won't you. To make this about Dylan and maybe it's about Connor, maybe it's about Brinksy, maybe it's about any journeyman in the NHL. My brain screamed Chris Driedger and his memorable (to me) Players' Tribune article:
And how can you mention Dylan and Zach (Za-ach, the way Dylan says it) without me having a breakdown about them? You simply can't. And for the younger dudes, maybe it's a little Bords/Briss, not yet steady in The Show, a little bit of distance, a summer that tries to erase and make up all the memories they've made separately... and then a blurry insta story in Vegas. Just like old times but somewhere else. Maybe it's not the same bed, maybe it's not the same set of forks, but maybe it's the principle of the thing.
Anyway, goodbye. Sorry for this, your tag walls make me break out in imagined scenarios.
Much love. xxx
please never be sorry for sending me messages <3 i love reading them i love getting them i think they’re beautiful and i love them i’m!!!!! [🥹💕🦋🫧✨💘😭 <- the best approximation of what my heart is doing]
ok NOW i am taking this step by step because every narrative here kicked me straight in the knees (metaphorically) i am w e e p i n g (literally): i knew tangentially about chris driedger going to seattle but i had never read his players’ tribune love letter to seattle & all i can say is oh. oh. and with the part about trains delayed but still being right on time—
sometimes a dream is a truth your heart knows long before you do. the space that the city and the team made for him (“you’d be the only guy on the team”)🗣️🗣️🗣️ !!! but the way that chris talks about needing to put in the work & leo not letting him quit,,, that’s chris filling up the teakettle with twice as much water, crowding one side of the bed (falling asleep against a bus window dreaming), becoming unburdened by the idea of not being their guy, not having the fallback being their draft pick to content and settle himself with. that’s chris betting on a future. that’s the train coming down the tracks, right on time.
(i am feeling unhinged about it)
SECOND. i know i was the one that said zach and dylan to start so technically i brought this on myself but also i have been ktfo by the mere mention of the way that dylan says zach’s name different from everyone else, stealing an extra breath, stealing as much time as he can get with him, which reminded me of a poem i just read:
The Need Is So Great, Jim Moore
^^^dylan still in love with zach even as he’s leaving, can feel himself losing him, and taking every sliver of the love in his smile that he can get. even if he knows zach doesn’t still feel the same way he’s drawing out the long goodbye & saying i love you in a thousand ways without ever saying it out loud (“i have been asking for a time but in ways that have no words” because he doesn’t want to ask too much, to ask for love) in the hope that zach will say it back OKAY I’M LEAVING i can’t do this
that was a lie because THREE. “maybe it’s the principle of the thing” please insert the most ungodly screech how could you just (lovingly) come in straight with the steel chair and bean me upside the head with that l i n e i think this story has the potential for such tragedy in it but also the most tender domestic longing because bords & briss have known each other for a long time (i think) and guys do sometimes lose themselves when they first get to the nhl.
it’s a big scene, you’re with big name guys, you’re finally doing the thing you always dreamed about, you’re no longer necessarily the best because everyone’s the best, you’re not sure how you fit in, you can get lost in the glitz and the glamor of it but you can also literally get lost in it, the slog of the season and getting caught up and down between teams and leagues and endless airports and buses and travel and ice rinks, losing your phone (accidental) and having new people hound you for quotes and fame and connection so you lose your phone (on purpose) and i think where i’m trying to go is: this could play out as the tragedy of borde going to the california coastline and briss shipping off to the vegas strip and both of them getting a little lost.
maybe there’s someone else, maybe i am steadfastly not thinking about “a summer that tries to erase and make up all the memories they've made separately” as either a summer of them pretending things are ok after a year of barely speaking and now being completely different people they never were before OR a summer of them trying to pretend like they can forget about each other because maybe they didn’t think their relationship was the same thing, is all, when they were or weren’t together. maybe it’s nobody’s fault but for the fact that they were scared and tired and lonely trying to make it in the big times and didn’t know how to show it. and then borde shows up with takeout and plastic forks in vegas and it’s december and nothing like winter in ann arbor and still they fill up all the empty spaces in each other with the things they didn’t know they’d miss until they were gone and this is the real thing, not whatever they were trying too hard to be, to recreate their own nostalgia for the love in their memories. it’s the principle of the thing, is all, to always be true to the love they have right now & not what they think it should be.
sorry that i wrote you kind of an essay of an answer but i had so so so many thoughts because your ask was so lovely so thank you for sending it to me (you are always welcome to!! i love your imagined scenarios!!! cannot even explain how much!!!) & thank you for taking the time to read my walls of tags :))) <3
#liv in the replies#every time you send me a message i do the thing where i’ve got heart emojis for thumbs & cease any coherency#FIRSTLY chris driedger who i loved as seattle’s goalie without even knowing the story:#dreidger fourth layer of a dream is making me tear up AGAIN hours later as i try to write this the echl the coast easy come hard to leave &#when he talks about being somebody’s guy laying my head down in the bog & dragging my hands over my face chris who let you say that. who let#u break my HEART i truly don’t think i will ever recover from the inception reference bc that’s what they all talk abt u know? the nhl dream#the players’ tribune articles are often some of the most poetic & touching sports writing & every time i am reminded i lose my shit about it#SECONDLY:#the ever present spectre of dylan’s first boyfriend zach werenski#i have so so so many quotes? drafts? posts? about the thing with saying someone’s name to call them closer to you i say your name to speak#more of you into the world so i will possibly look for some of those to say what i mean but also: this poem was originally reminiscent of#willingly by tess gallagher which is my ajax jack / superbuddies poem & this specifically did go with the a drop of paint / the light has#fallen through you part of it but there’s a part of THIS poem which i did not include that talks about the late light / has already happened#will go on happening forever & that whole poem with this now to say i know it’s embarrassing i’m asking for it :: easy to write about light#like falling asleep on the couch & having to carry yourself up to bed is the dylan/zach heartbreak of this. waiting & waiting for the things#you used to do & the love you used to / were promised to have with the hope that if you keep the coffee ready he’ll come drink it & instead#you have too many cups of tea one yours & one cold then half-warmed over & too sweet for your tastes but you’ve learned to drink it anyway#okAY now third:#this w/the UMICH BOYS? N O I DIDN’T EVEN!!! NOT A THOUGHT IN MY BRAIN!!! & now i can’t stop thinking!!! & i had an entire PLAYLIST already#a ??? while ago before i even truly knew the umich boys Narratives™️ i heard maude latour’s song ‘one more weekend’ & went hahaha isn’t that#a great song for when you have that One Summer of college before everyone splits off into their own lives? isn’t that a fun little umich boy#going into the nhl narrative?? to which i said NO but then it spiraled into a playlist &now there is delightful heartbreak to go with vibes#umich scholars please feel free to correct me if i’m wrong on any points i can’t remember anything presently about anything#also the f a c t that that vegas picture is real and i know exactly what you’re talking about is making me %^•*]+£’ bc how!! is that real!!!#okay ALSO just throwing in brinksy like a casual AHAHA have brainworm for a year (my autocorrect tried to go bringst like angst which. lmao)#connor and dylan… all of my journeymen… we did not touch that because i WILL start yelling about sam gagner and marc staal and#the chrysalis and the caterpillar
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Don't watch Clannad, you will cry
#radiostatic.txt#I AM SOBBING#there were 2 eps in the first part that made me cry. I found it very cute overall but those eps got to me#clannad after story though....#the first half was all good. like oh this is so cute they're growing up and starting a family and everything :)#and then ep 16 came and I have not stopped crying since#I was like nooooo they wouldn't do that. they would not do that to me. it's gonna be fine and they'll be happy#and nothing bad will ever happen to these characters ever#and then they did do that and I cried#it's like nooo the sad is over it'll all be good and happy now. and then it wasn't#like it got happier again and I was like oh ok good this is good (while still sobbing)#AND THEN THEY THREW ANOTHER GUT PUNCH AT ME AND I CRIED EVEN HARDER#everything with Ushio had me in tears. I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY DID THAT TO ME#I am literally full on sobbing over here#I am never going to be normal ever again#it did have a happy ending tho. Everything was fine for real#I really started this show like 'I want to cry about something' and then I was like 'oh this isn't as sad as I thought it would be'#and then it was#I loved this show but also wondering why I wanted to do this to myself#I never cried this much about fictional characters before in my life#clannad#also Fuko is the best character
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when the homestuck epilogues dropped in 2020 i cried real tears because i got scared that davekat would break up (i was 50% right ‼️)
#me when my irls find the Public post i made: 😨🤯#why did they mean so much to me at 13#(i know the reason but its a secret 💪)#homestuck#im not tagging this as spoilers it has been 2 years and it is literally the homestuck epilogues#davekat#i must admit i actually enjoy ONE half of the epilogues#i always loved meat anyways 💪💪#gonna end up on that out of context twitter account for that one#tumblr you have become my diary#because i needed to get this out in the open before i start wanting to actually give myself amnesia#do you know the worst part#its that#if the epilogues were released this year i very much probably wouldve had the same reaction#mental illness#the way they were DUBIOUSLY canon at best in the first place#and i shed actual tears over it
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When a customer jumps to wild conclusions about your motives when you forget to do something you always have trouble remembering to do; because your checkout routine was disrupted and/or ran very, very long; and still makes a fuss over it when you are willing to, and actually do, fix the issue, scolding you for it throughout…
Over (at the absolute highest) five dollars off on a two-hundred dollar purchase. Wow.
I mean, yeah, I fucked up; but it was an honest mistake, I felt gutted bad about it, and ultimately I corrected the error, so I’m good right?
I wish she hadn’t walked out before I could apologize formally though. I don’t like hurting people.
#retail hell#this happened awhile ago but d a m n#I won’t give specifics but it ended with me working through tears for the rest of the day and my nose running all over my inner mask so…#that was fun#not to mention the fact that she basically voiced one of my intrusive thoughts JUST as I was starting to not think so much about it#and just behave normally around people with a decent sense of awareness about stuff#in fact that was the very first time I wasn’t thinking about it#I won’t say it’s just women but I will say this:#I have yet to be talked to with the “I’m putting you in time-out “ voice by a man#maybe it’s because women see me as a young person who could be their teenage daughter and feel enough of a sense of camaraderie with me#that they are comfortable yelling at me as if I am a member of their family#or they could just be rude and hostile toward retail employees in general#I’d rather not assume things though#some days I wish I had a formal diagnosis for my Weird Brain Stuff so I could explain that#I have nothing against you; I’m half-aware and running on fumes 24/7#my short term memory sucks ass#I set my designated store mask somewhere when I got home a week ago and now I can’t find it#I lose my stylus(es) at least once a month#I have to ask my coworkers what they said fifty times over because my brain shakes itself like an Etch-A-Sketch when I go to do the thing#it is literally pathetic#neurodivergent problems#not being believed is something else istg
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