#the emotional regulation on this girl is absolutely fucked! it’s not there!

[corpose]

i was going to go to sleep but someone decided to start doing fireworks outside, so instead i’m comforting my dog and thinking about vi and the few times she has emotional outbursts during the game and how only johnny gets to see that in her, only he is ever privy to that … rage, that anger ( and who knows by the end if it’s really just hers anyway ), and then the one time where it happens and he’s not there. it’s almost always destructive, a physical need to just scream and fuck shit up, because so much of how she carries herself is stilted, contained, professionally bitchy.

the earliest instance comes after the vdbs kill her. she comes to on the ground, choking on her own blood while johnny tells her what happened and she’s so angry, so fucking incensed. because she died. because someone fucked her over again and she should’ve seen it coming. there’s just this guttural screeching for awhile, and when she’s up on her feet she’s kicking the dead netwatch guy’s head, she’s throwing the laptop on the ground, she’s essentially taking everything she’s felt - bc she hasn’t had a real reaction to anything that’s happened to her - jackie’s death, konpeki, any of it - and that’s all funneled in right here. and then she wipes her face, smooths her hair, and goes to meet brigitte knowing she’s going to kill placide after.

then again when she realizes that songbird played her so, so well in pl. she just kind of goes numb, manages to stumble her way out of it all and when she gets home it’s destructo-rama. that’s the real reason she ends up leaving her mega building apartment. it’s a shambles when she’s done, someone even calls the cops to check on the noise. that one ends with her crying which, since she can’t actually produce tears unless she permits it, ends up sort of an uncanny looking panic attack because it keeps happening, and she’s getting worse, and it just keeps happening!

the next one is less rage, more . . . something else. she’s not really certain. panam offers her a place in the aldecaldos and she goes back to her car and drives away and the whole way home, i think again she’s doing that crying thing. no tears, but the heavy breathing, the blurred vision ( though that might be another relic malfunction ). she gets in a wreck and ends up spending the night at the sunset, high.

the last one is up in the stars. without him. she tears up her room and all she gets is takemura throwing a chance to put her in soul prison. in my perfect world, i think she at least considers coming across to choke him out.

[chushanye]

I love Kristen Applebees so much. She finds out she's expelled and is really calm about it, but she decides to make a strategic decision to trick her wack-ass cleric teacher into believing she is rejoining his church to find out more about the mystery. fake crying and everything. locked in. she's absolutely eating up her presidential candidate rival. is powering through emotional regulation when talking to her family. and i think "wow she's so fucking cool"... after watching her perform the worst flirting to get a girl to tell her information for that very same mystery. and then i think, "god she's the biggest loser to ever live" what a weirdo god bless

[hees-mine]

DESTROYED - L. HEESEUNG

Pairing: heeseung ⚥ reader

Warnings: smut, oral female receiving, mentions of violence, not proofread

Genre: 18+, smut, minors do not interact!

WC: 2,332k

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“If he puts his hands on you again, you have to let me know, you promise?” He holds his mother by the shoulders, looking at her with eyes full of seriousness, and she nods softly.

“Promise.” She stood on her toes, placing a kiss on his forehead.

With one last reassuring pat on her back, he heads towards the sofa, grabbing his backpack and putting it on his shoulders before leaving for the day.

As he exits, he locked the door, making his way down the steps and taking the sidewalk to school.

He’d be lying if he said he wasn’t thinking about his last encounter with you.

But it didn’t matter anyway. He had more important things to think about than some stupid girl.

That being said, it didn’t stop him from watching you all day.

Literally, all day.

Were you really that scared of him? Was he really like his father? Did he really even care?

He thought he didn’t, but wondering ate him up for the rest of the day, especially when you did your very best to avoid him by any means possible.

It bothered him because he never wanted to be a person to be avoided, but alas, he is, and what can he do about it?

He wishes he could go back to that day and just leave you alone.

Sure, it was quick, easy sex, but he gained absolutely nothing from it.

He knows he’s fucked up. He knows better than to get involved with others because he can’t regulate his emotions. He can only suppress them, and he hasn’t been able to do much of that lately.

So why he suddenly slipped up so easily was beyond him.

The thing he fears the most happening happened.

You were scared because of him.

He only knows two ways to deal with any situation, and that’s violence or anger.

It’s funny because only now did he realize how flawed that was. How could he deal with every situation with rage and expect people not to be scared of him?

But his past molded who he is today and instead of trying to change he just distanced himself from people cause he thought he was doing everyone around him a favor.

Who’d want to befriend a person with trauma?

When you first looked at him that day for a second, his curiosity was piqued cause you had been the first and only person to acknowledge him.

Of course, that’s his fault as well. He kept a low profile on purpose, so no one would try to get to know him.

But after years of being invisible out of seemingly nowhere on a random day, something about him apparently caught your eye, and you couldn’t stop staring.

What you wanted, he doesn’t even know, but he didn’t want to know because if you tried to get close to him, it’d only be bad for you.

Cause he was bad.

In his mission to protect his loved ones, he became a person who you needed protection from.

It started on a Sunday afternoon. He clearly remembers his dad always had that day off, a day that was meant for rest, and spending time with family turned into a never-ending shouting match with his mom's bruises and broken glass.

He was just ten at the time, a little too young to understand the gravity of it all, but by the age of sixteen, he was well aware because he was now a part of the Sunday shouting matches, the endless screams and cries that went on till late at night.

It wasn’t just yelling either as bad as yelling was he wished that was the only thing that happened.

But it was physical, too, which is no surprise because of the type of man his father was.

Tending wounds and cuts quickly became a nightly routine for the pair.

A time of bonding for him and his mother, the most important woman in his life.

But Instead of bonding over family vacations and road trips, they were bonding over their shared suffering.

Come eighteen it was just a staple in the household every night he’d prepare for it counting down the hours until a fight would ensue and pray it ended as soon as possible.

Six years later, he went from a cheerful kid with a bright future to someone who didn’t even know the meaning of bright.

All he saw was darkness, despair, rage resentment.

He doesn’t know why his mom stayed, but if she stayed, he stayed.

There’s no way he could leave her alone with that monster.

Unfortunately the situation and his lack of ability to direct his emotions elsewhere turned him into a person he had no control over.

He was angry at the world, angry at his dad, angry at his situation.

Why couldn’t his family be happy? Why couldn’t they have dinner and talk about their day like normal? Why couldn’t his father love him? Was he just that fucked up? Was all of this his fault?

He hates that he even questions himself for being at fault, but it’s hard not to when he was treated like trash by his own dad.

But deep down somewhere, he knows it’s not his fault, or at least he tries to reassure himself of that, but it was easier said than done.

So now he sits staring mindlessly out the library window, his face solemn, features tired and hardened.

An expression that never seemed to leave his face.

He doesn’t like feeling upset, but he just is. He always is, and yeah, he knows that’s a problem that needs to be fixed.

But who is he kidding? He’s a lost cause. He can’t be fixed.

Hell, he doesn’t even know if he deserves to be fixed at this point.

After what he’s done to you, to his father, to anyone that’s forced to be around him.

Sometimes he felt as if he was exaggerating because he knows people have it worse so what did he have to complain about.

He doesn’t know anymore. He’s just moving through life day by day without any regard for anyone who crosses his path, and that’s how it is going to stay.

He was set on that but as quick as his mind was made up it was changed as he saw you leaving the library the one where you first met.

Despite his better judgment and the anxiety he feels in his racing heart, he packs up and follows you out.

He stays on your trail, walking a good distance behind you so you won’t notice him.

Somewhere in him, he wished you did.

Maybe hoping that since you’re the first person to show him any interest that maybe you could bring something out of him that he couldn’t pull out of himself.

He knows it’s stupid, really, but he just wanted to be normal for once, have a girlfriend, go out on dates, make friends, and be a regular college student.

But that was buried so deep down that he knows it exists. He just doesn’t feel like it could reached.

Just like you couldn’t be reached as he watched you from afar, twisting your door open and going into your home.

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The whole week went on like that, him following you, watching you.

It’s weird he gets that, but that's the closest he’s ever gonna be with you.

Maybe he wanted to apologize at least he thought about it but the last time a sincere apology came from his mouth was so long ago he couldn’t remember.

Would you forgive him? Probably not.

That fact made him sa-

He didn’t care one way or the other.

Yet after taking a one-day break from practically stalking you, he was at it again.

This time, doing something that probably wasn’t his best idea.

He quickly closed in behind you, catching you completely off guard.

“Shh shh,” he shushed you while covering your mouth and quickly opening the door to the dreadful classroom that you have been stuck in with him one too many times.

Before the panic could settle in your veins, he gently kissed your forehead. “I'm not gonna hurt you, y/n,” he breathed out, dropping to his knees before you and putting his hands on your thighs, stroking them up and down softly.

Shocked by the suddenness of his actions, your body grows weak at the sight of him kneeling down before you.

He grips your thighs, making you gasp softly, his hands bunching up your skirt. “I promise.” he draws his face closer to between your legs, peering up at you with his big round eyes.

You know you should say no, push him off, curse him out, and leave, but you were weak for him. Even after everything, you were still oddly drawn to him, so you stayed still, waiting for his next move.

“Let me make it up to you” he looked forward, his face leveled with your core, the outline of your pussy lips being shaped by the tight cotton material of your underwear.

He leans in, kissing you there softly and inhaling your scent, his cock growing embarrassingly hard in a matter of seconds.

Then his tongue falls from his mouth, slowly lapping at your core. “Heeseung,” you breathe out quietly, head resting on the door as you feel the familiar heat between your legs.

He listens to the sounds of pleasure that come from you, his eyes closing shut as he gets into it, his tongue sliding back and forth until your panties are damp with more than just your arousal. His hot tongue feels even better now that you can feel him through your soaked clothing.

He tugged your underwear down, revealing your perfectly shaven cunt. He licked his lips at the sight licking all over your smooth vulva, groaning at the softness as it met his tongue. You taste, sound, and look so good.

He uses his cold fingers to spread your lips apart and slide his tongue back and forth through your engorged folds.

Your hand finds his hair, fingers instinctively running through it, tugging at the roots, causing him to furrow his brows in pain, but he likes that cause pain is all he knows.

The pointed tip of his nose rubs your clit, and you whimper in pleasure cause it felt so so good.

He used his right hand, sticking two thick fingers in your aroused cunt, working you open on them as your knees buckled.

After filling you up, he removes his finger from inside you and stands up so he can take you somewhere more comfortable. He lays you on an empty desk, setting you down gently as he takes his rightful place on the ground on his knees, eating you out for forgiveness.

At least, that’s what this was in his head. In some way, this was easier than saying it out loud. He could only hope that you somehow understood him since sex was the only positive experience you had with him thus far.

His fingers slip back inside, prodding at your hole, his fingers curling up and rubbing that one special spot in you.

You gripped the desk, head thrown back as you moaned and whined at the sensation. He was so good with his tongue that you couldn’t even think about anything he’d done up to this moment.

Sucking on your clit he releases it with a lewd pop looking up from between your legs, loving the raw reaction you give him.

Chest heaving, mouth parted open, and your pussy squeezing on his fingers almost too tight he can barely push in, but he forces his way past your tight walls fucking you faster with his digits, your delicate body squirming on the desk.

He gulps down the juices that he collected on his tongue, sucking on your nub again, and you squeeze your eyes shut as your orgasm quickly builds.

“Fuck” you say breathlessly, and the soft curse that leaves your lips makes him go even harder fucking his fingers into you at a rapid pace, his lips wrapped securely around your clit, sucking an orgasm out of you.

Both your hands find his hair, this time tugging and pulling at it as you bite your lip and roll your hips into his face.

He moans against your heat as you yank on his hair. “Heeseung,” you say, blissed out, shaking before him, and the tight clench around his fingers is all he needs to confirm you’re feeling good.

He groaned, eyes rolling back in his head at your taste as he rode out your high, slowly rubbing your walls, giving you the most pleasure you’ve ever felt.

He licks your clit gently, careful not to over-stimulate you as you welcome every single last one of his touches.

You huff out a heavy breath, your heart pounding in your rib cage. As you catch your bearings, your hearing still sounds muffled due to the sheer intensity of what he’s done to you.

When you’ve settled enough, his fingers slip out of you, and he doesn’t hesitate to suck them clean.

He licks off the remainder of your cum and then kisses your clit.

He slipped your panties back up and helped you stand, his fingers lingering on you just a little longer than they needed to.

His eyes shifted, and he almost looked nervous as his eyes darted to your lips but shifted away even quicker.

You two shared eye contact for a few seconds, both of you searching for words, but coming up with nothing, he turned away and disappeared out of the classroom before the silence became too much.

A faint smile reaches your lips until you make a face of realization, finally registering what just happened.

Even when you come to and fully understood what just took place you didn’t regret a second of it.

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[15-lizards]

thinking really hard ab my clegane daughter ocs again... me nd @sshireens have created such a rich and fucked up life for them...

time to be cringe on main and force y'all to listen to me talk ab them <3 <3

Dagmar (elder daughter from the first wife) vibes tho I don't have a set in stone face claim for her yet these r her general vibes. Obviously she's not as pretty as these models she's kinda unfortunate she takes after her dad. Really deep set eyes and heavy brow bone, square jaw, wide nose, tall and stocky for her age. Kinda like Brienne if she didn't have good vibes.

Anywayssss she's so much like her uncle that Sandor sometimes wonders if he did some sort of asexual reproduction and had her. Really keeps up the tradition of Cleganes being rabid (but loyal) dogs. Super hostile and antisocial, absolutely CANNOT regulate her emotions, borderline personality disorder queen omg. Low tolerance for basically anyone and anything (except her sister) and has really huge emotional outbursts over seemingly small things. Except for when she's around Gregor cause she goes into safety mode and just shuts out all stimuli. Just super tense, constantly on-edge, and really disregulated emotions she has literally never known peace. Her cortisol levels are So High.

Why is she like this u may ask??? excellent question. Answer: nuclear threat to all women Gregor Clegane happens to be her dad. When she was like barely 2 her mother died "mysteriously" so she got to be alone in Clegane Keep with her rapist murder dad, his rapist murder buddies, and some horrified servants and a septa. Yippeeee. Obviously Gregor felt the need to establish dominance over every woman and girl, and this was only increased by her intense personality, so Dagmar is subject to all kinds of abuse as a child. She learns pretty quickly that u can't really fight back against him so she just shuts down anytime he's in her vicinity as to not pose a "threat" to him. It sorta works. Then lets out her emotions on everything else: serving boys, kennel hounds, herself, etc etc. Half of the time she's in a blind rage and the other half she's in a hopeless dissociative state :) Actively suicidal and she's not even fifteen. HOWEVER when she's like six the light of her life and reason to keep living is born...

And cue Iva (younger daughter from the second wife) and if she ever survives to adulthood (unlikely) it is Scripture to me that she looks like a young Carol Kane. Sunken cheeks, pallid skin, wide protruding bug eyes, long nose, dry and frizzy pale hair. Very very sickly because her mom gave birth a month early and then died bc of it. So all she has is her big sister :]

While Dagmar's response to most things is aggression and really reactionary over-emotional outbursts, Iva is the complete opposite. She likes to run and hide in corners every time she senses confrontation or even gets slightly uncomfortable. Very very avoidant and anxious. Gets to live in her own little mind palace most of the time bc Dagmar is there to protect her. However Dagmar protects her a little too hard and now she is overly dependent on her big sis. Pathetically helpless. Selectively mute a good bit of the time bc it all just gets to be overwhelming and she feels safer just not interacting with the outside world. Super passive like an actual human doormat (if she ever let anyone actually talk to her)

And she is the way she is for [see Gregor reasons above]. However since Dagmar was there when she was born, her big sis sees this weak little baby and feels protectiveness for the first time in her life. Iva is HER baby and Dagmar never lets her out of her sight. Not in a cute overprotective sibling way but in a really aggressive "don't do that you stupid idiot I know what's best for you don't ever leave me way" cause that's how she shows her love so Ivas like Ah this is what love must be like. Obviously Dagmar can't protect her from everything so Iva is abused in the same ways, but slightly less often because Gregor sees her as less interesting and less of a challenge because of her passiveness. So Iva's response is to make herself even smaller and ignore all her problems to live inside her own head lalalalalala

And when they're together oh these girls give a new meaning to Codependent. Dagmar sneaking into Iva's room after Gregor leaves it one night and getting so upset to the point of breaking things and grabbing Iva until she bruises her sister even more. But Iva is comforted by it because that rage means Dagmar cares ab her. Dagmar literally beating a stable boy into a vegetable state (or killing him, ur choice) for trying to grab Iva's skirts. Iva is in literal medical shock seeing a (near) dead body on the ground that got put there for HER while Dagmar is smiling with her bloody knuckles bc it felt good to hurt someone protect her sister (She actually feels horrifically guilty about it later but manages to ease the cognitive dissonance by telling herself that she was protecting Iva so it absolves her of everything bc Iva is perfect and fragile and can't be hurt). One time at a feast when the girls are in their pre/mid teens, Gregor makes an offhanded comment about marrying "the prettier one" off soon and Dagmar forgets her dad trauma for a hot second, bc her urge to keep Iva safe is that strong, and literally throws a serving plate at his head. Later when Dagmar is in her room, with three less teeth and five new giant bruises, Iva is cleaning her up and weeping and just wanting to curl up with Dagmar in bed and forget the rest of the world forever. Meanwhile Dagmar is planning out the murder-suicide she will enact if Iva does get married off. She doesn't tell her sister that just yet but Iva would be more than okay with it. Cause how can Dagmar live without her guiding light morality pet only good thing she has and how can Iva live without her only dog her only knight. YAYYYYYY

[sky4cherry]

hi #1 bob sheldon defender

can you pretty please elaborate on what you think bob’s relationships with the other socs are ?

ok sooo sorry this took me so long but i am so incredibly ill and my brain is not doing its job 🙂‍↔️

putting this under ‘read more’ because this turned out long

bob and paul: they’re obviously really close!! i hc them both as being only children, which bob feels kinda different for since he’s grown up with chet and brill who both have 2 siblings each, and trip who has a brother. they definitely view each other as brothers, hence why paul was quite as fucked up as he was when bob died (also like to be fair he did watch it happen so there’s that too)

bob and cherry: guys they are so important to me,,, girlboss gf and girlfailure bf… obviously they are head over heels for each other, and cherry’s the only one bob is really vulnerable around, which makes it all that much harder when he’s been drinking. they both want to help each other get through the bad times, but they both know that it’s inevitable that bob’s going to get caught up in the social divide :( they are so important to me :( bob who doesn’t know how to comfort cherry about her parents arguing but really wants to try

bob and marcia: the idea of bob being very wary around marcia because he’s scared she’ll spread slander about him is so funny to me because she is only 3 apples tall!! you’re telling me you’re scared of her when she’s 3 apples tall and riddled with anxiety?? they’re close because they’re the two who are closest with cherry, so they spend a lot of time together, but bro is quaking in his boots because he’s so scared she’ll put the embarrassing shit she knows about him to use

bob and trip: dyslexic bob sheldon who claims he just ‘doesn’t get it’ when he struggles with homework, and trip who helps him out without making any jokes at bob’s expense. trip (in my head) presents as quite stoic on the outside even though he’s secretly silly, while bob is more outwardly silly, so they balance each other out. trip who knows the best out of all the guys that the fighting is worthless, but knows exactly why bob does it. and bob who knows trip doesn’t fully support the fighting, but encourages him to join in so trip can control something. they’re not the absolute closest of the bunch, but they are very important to me!!

bob and chet: bob sheldon who wreaks havoc on his parents to try and get them to parent him better, but he takes things far more seriously when chet is the one being ignored by his parents. bob who doesn’t let chet go a night sleeping at his own home unless it’s by choice, so he always fixes up the couch for him in case chet lets himself in while bob’s asleep. they’re close. they’re so similar in the way they’re treated by their families, and how they choose to cope with that treatment. i don’t think i can actually put into words how important they are to meee!!!

bob and bev: oh you thought he was scared of marcia? beverly jitney-bush is no man’s peace. they’re close in the way they argue a ton but it doesn’t change their dynamic at all! with bev constantly at brill’s, and brill living 2 doors down from bob, they spend a lot of time together! bob’s probably the most headstrong guy, while bev’s the most headstrong girl, so they’re both close and at constant odds with each other. i think they argue because they’re similar, but they know they understand each other well enough to know when they’re going too far.

bob and brill: childhood best friends type shit!! they’ve known each other since they were little kids, and brill’s always balanced bob out really well. when bob’s letting his emotions guide him, brill’s there to help him regulate himself. they’re pretty big opposites from each other, but it’s something that really comes in handy when one gets in a situation he’s not exactly equipped for, because the other will always come to his aid. all the more tragic considering bob and brill make direct eye contact when bob gets stabbed

[cardboardqueen]

ok so i read The Goblin Emperor recently (absolutely recommend) and it's given me some thoughts about a:tla specifically post canon zuko

he is the very young very new leader of a nation that's very abruptly lost its previous monarch. He's spent the last few years away from court and almost certainly isn't used to using his court manners even if he does technically know them. He's taking the country in a very different direction than his father with bold new political ideas and radical friends. The only heir to speak of is someone he'd really rather not pass the throne to. While he does have some support from his elders he was absolutely Not trained to take the throne and certainly not with so little warning.

sound familiar?

so now I'm thinking of a post-canon zuko fic of epic proportions that goes into as much detail in the world building and politics as TGE does.

Zuko finding a good secretary jesus christ please

Zuko slowly learning how to talk to his cabinet members as an adult, trying to balance being their Fire Lord, trying to be seen as an equal in competency and not a boy king, and acknowledging that he really isn't up to speed.

Zuko learning all the servant's names

Zuko's struggle not to lose himself in the overwhelming force of being The Fire Lord

learning regular teenage emotional regulation but instead of telling your dad you hate him because he asked you to turn the music down you're screaming at your minister of agriculture in front of the whole cabinet and you can't remember why it was important

he was expecting the assassination attempts and even the coups. He wasn't expecting the more subtle attempts to lock him out of his own government

look i know we all love ignoring the political implications of gay shipping, but zuko is absolutely not in a stable enough position to be the first fire lord to get gay married. we're ignoring the opportunities presented by a well suited marriage of convenience. are they co-conspirators in world betterment and shenanigans? does the fire lady get him to take a fucking break for once? is it a slow burn where they eventually fall in love but like, 7years into being married? do they have elaborate arrangements of 'cultural informants' and ladies in waiting that are just a stream of consensual lovers? some options for your consideration under the cut

Yue (in a yue lives au)

most reassuring to an international audience

nonthreatening to a domestic audience

the optics of marrying the NWT princess are great and logical without requiring too many mental gymnastics

has spent her whole like preparing to do something unpleasant for the sake of her tribe and would probably consent to the marriage

politically powerful but a non-bender, very low chance of a waterbending heir

zuko has grown up around girls that could kill him and respects women, the fire nation might be an improvement on the NWT

once she breaks out of her shell she'd be a snark machine

the in world artists would get a kick out of the water/fire symbolism. there would be so many plays and paintings and poems

i understand that her death has symbolic and narrative importance but let me play here

Mai

relatively reassuring to a domestic audience

minimally objectionable to international audiences

marrying into a family that was powerful and favored in Ozai's time would pacify traditionalists without requiring zuko to actually make traditionalist political decisions

Mai can play the court game even if it drives her mad

azula would have an internal fit but they may be able to maneuver it such that it manifests as azula being driven to make Mai the most successful fire lady that ever was

Random Earth Kingdom Noble

afiak neither bumi nor kuei have children. idk what the heir situation is but i know there's an earth prince in alok so idk

'marrying an earth kingdom noble is a very logically and politically sound move' says zuko's cabinet. 'ok' says zuko, 'which one?' chaos ensues

someone tries to propose mai as an earth kingdom noble because her father was governor of New Ozai. the eyeroll is audible

great potential for OC shenanigans

Suki

sokka would throw a fit

potential for lovely zukki ot3 a la many of erisenyo's fics

allying with an important figure from mostly neutral kiyoshi island might translate to a mostly neutral political move and minimize outrage on all sides

she can make very heavy handed speeches about 'if we can forgive him so can you' when the earth kingdom representatives start getting mean

gives her an excuse to stay and keep and eye on zuko (and keep some warriors around to keep an eye on him too)

even if she didn't grow up in court suki is sharp, she'd pick up on the important bits quick and the rest she could pass off as her quaint provincial upbringing

imagine how the fire nation court fashion would respond to the Fire Lady in the Kiyoshi Warrior Gear. the heat exhaustion alone

Toph

objectively hilarious

i don't actually think it fits with her character arc about independence and growth but it's not significantly worse than making her a cop sooo

i really don't ship them so i'm imagining this for practicalities and logistics only but you do you

it would be absolutely hilarious for the bei fongs to go from 'no we have no children' to 'yes we would like to propose that our daughter marry the fire lord' overnight. even funnier if it's toph's idea and she has to wrangle proof that she is actually the heir of one of the wealthiest families in the earth kingdom

relatively reassuring to an international audience

the domestic audience doesn't know what to think. on paper she's a foreign merchant's daughter which is fine. in reality didn't she destroy like 10 war balloons? is that a war crime? she won't stop jump scaring the treasurer?

she'd get a kick out of redesigning all the parts of the palace that make zuko sad

the agni kai arena is now her earthbending practice ground, i hope you weren't attached to those tiles!

zuko's cabinet is free of secret loyalists in a week. toph spends her first month there roaming the halls listening for lying hearts

minor concern of earthbending heirs? she gets a kick out of all the anxiety

toph and azula would be hysterical to see interact. like introducing two cats through a bathroom door. maybe they fall in love idk. they almost certainly fuck at least once. their sparring matches threaten to destabilize the architecture and also the rim of caldera city

[silly-litttle-writer]

I have feelings about Aegon and since we’re all waiting for season two I’m gonna rant for a bit.

…

I’d like to talk about Alicent in the Green trailer saying something along the lines of “do you understand how much has been sacrificed to get you on the throne?” to Aegon and how low key manipulative that line is.

She knows Aegon doesn’t care about the throne but he does care about being burdensome to his family and that’s why the line most likely weighs heavily on him, we don’t quite know how he reacts from it but from the little bit in the trailer the line does affect him.

This is Aegon having to literally be dragged to his own coronation! This is Aegon trying to flee to Essos to avoid a war over the throne he doesn’t want or feel he is worthy of and ALICENT HAS THE AUDACITY TO SAY THAT TO HIM?! HE DIDNT WANT THIS! HE ACTIVELY TRIED TO AVOID ALL OF IT BECAUSE HE HATED THE IDEA OF TAKING THE THRONE SO MUCH HE WAS WILLING TO GIVE UP BEING A PRINCE! HE DIDNT ASK FOR ANY OF IT AND YOU’RE GOING TO USE THAT TO EMOTIONALLY HURT HIM?! Like I’m grateful the show is showing that side of her cause that is book accurate Alicent but I hattttteeee how Aegon is treated in the show and by the fandom.

I hatttteee that certain characters are deemed sympathetic and oh no poor them (Viserys) while others are not graced with an ounce of sympathy or most importantly empathy (Aegon). Is Viserys entirely bad? No, I hate him but I do not believe he has no redeeming qualities. He loved Aemma and he unfortunately realized his greed for a son was less important far too late, after he killed his wife for a son, does he love Rhaenyra and (sometimes, it’s rare cause Viserys is a coward by nature) stand up for her? Yes, but he is far less sympathetic than CHILD (say whatever you want about adult Aegon but child Aegon deserves none of what he is given) Aegon in my mind I will take no criticism on that. Viserys actively created the toxic environment he is surrounded by, if he’s suffering it’s of his own making. Aegon was a child for a bit of this nonsense and had absolutely no control over what happened around him.

Aegon is the son VISERYS FORCED TO EXIST. He manipulated (softly which is why people like Viserys more than like Larys Strong for example) but he still MANIPULATED (show Alicent not book Alicent cause book Alicent is the one who seduces him and manipulates him) Alicent into marrying him at 15, forcing her to have his children as she can’t deny her husband AND THE LITERAL KING. He wanted a son so badly he carved his first wife up to try to save the son that was killing her, this failed and so he forced Alicent to give him that son and then ONCE AEGON IS NO LONGER CUTE OR EASY TO LOVE HE TOSSES HIM ASIDE. He becomes completely and utterly absent in Aegon’s life and that’s not even talking about how little he cares about Helaena, Aemond, or Daeron, Daeron who was literally shipped off to another part of the continent. He does not care for Aegon, he doesn’t guide him, does not instruct him and teach him the ways of the world. Instead Aegon is stuck with having to rely on Criston “I bash in people’s skulls cause I can’t control my anger and I can’t get over the girl I fucked ten years ago” Cole and Otto “I view women as literal incubators for sons” Hightower, alongside Alicent “I’m a hypocritical coward who will damn and literally terrorize any woman who tries to find a way to cheat the patriarchal society instead of using my power as Queen to make my children’s lives better than my own” Hightower. These same people teach and raise him. One, they teach him to not regulate or handle his emotions. Two, they frequently and repeatedly beat and verbally insult him for just saying I don’t want to challenge my sister for a throne that isn’t mine. Three, teaches him and enables the toxic and sexist mentality perpetrated by the society that they live in that women are things to use and abuse by men and that consent does not matter to him because he is not only a man but a prince and she has no real right to deny him.

Why do you think Aegon grows to be an abuser? Because he was never taught anything else. His bad behavior was enabled or even encouraged, with only slight punishment from the same woman who literally paid his victim hush money to not tell people that her son forced himself on her. She stands there telling the girl her son forced himself on that “I understand” and “It’s not your fault” and then LITERALLY PAYS HER HUSH MONEY TO SHUT UP ABOUT IT AND GIVES HER WESTEROSI BIRTH CONTROL! THEREFORE ENABLING AND ALLOWING THAT BEHAVIOR AND SHE ACTS LIKE SHE HAD NO PART TO PLAY IN WHY HER SON BECAME AN ABUSER!

He is exactly your son. He is the son you chose to raise. Aegon wasn’t born like this, YOU MADE HIM LIKE THIS AND THEN DESPISE AND CURSE HIM FOR IT. He never had a chance to be anything else, he was doomed from the start and that is why I empathize more with Aegon than Viserys. Do I feel bad that Aegon was slapped and called out for forcing himself on a girl? No, he should have been properly punished. He should have been punished for that kind of behavior a LONG time ago. But that’s exactly the problem, Alicent doesn’t punish him for this behavior and then gets upset when he continues doing it. You created the “monster” in front of you and then are shocked when he does monstrous things. You made your own bed and now you refuse to lie in it and instead choose to frequently and repeatedly abuse, terrorize, and antagonize those who refuse to participate (Rhaenyra) in the system that turned you into a victim and your son into an abuser.

[slow-burn-sally]

My Favorite Characters with ADHD

Again, these are only my opinions.

Jeremy - The Secret Of NIMH. Come on. Look at him. He is a combined-type ADHD boy if ever there was one. Distracted, clumsy, impulsive, I bet the writers either had ADHD, knew someone who had ADHD, or had a child with ADHD.

2. Newton Geiszler - Pacific Rim.

Also impulsive as fuck, a class clown, obnoxious, yet obnoxiously smart, and somehow still charming as fuck. He reads very ADHD to me. BB. Forgive me for using the meme gif. It's just so good.

3. Rose Nylund - The Golden Girls

Who doesn't love Rose? She's friendly, sweet, fun, creative, horny, and hilarious. She also can't remember anything for more than five minutes, and is the human equivalent of a small, cute dog who bumps into things a lot by accident. I love you Rose. Long live Betty White.

4. Sherlock Holmes (The Jeremy Brett Granada-Holmes).

I actually think Holmes may have had both ADHD and Autism, but really, Brett's Holmes is bombastic, impulsive (seeing a trend), able to hyperfocus at the speed of light. Overshares, blows up friendships. Cannot keep a clean flat. Hyper as all get out. Think about it.

5. Nadja of Antipaxos - What We Do In The Shadows

She's a hot mess. Distracted, forgetful, intensely interested in some things, and cannot be bothered to give a flying fuck about other things. Out of sight, out of mind. She's probably also AuDHD actually, but for the purposes of this list, I will draw your attention to her many impulsive and rash decisions surrounding her emotions, and her over the top RSD. She's so beautiful, help.

6. Jonathan Strange - Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell.

Oh my god such an ADHD boy! He cannot sit still, and he has no patience for rules or regulations. He's self centered, impulsive (hello!), running off on the King's Roads, and drinking mouse juice to make himself go mad on purpose. Failing at four careers before finally becoming a magician by absolute accident. I love you Johnty. Never change.

7. Cornelius Hickey (or whatever his real name is) - The Terror.

He's impulsive (aye-oh!), makes sudden, rash decisions, is prone to flashes of anger, has off the charts RSD, and though he manages to hyperfocus on sabotaging the expedition for his own needs, he still makes a lot of careless mistakes and fucks it up royally. Too bad one of his hyper-focuses wasn't "learning about ships". I love you Hickey, you adorable bastard. How is his hair always so good?

8. Back to JS&MN for Christopher Drawlight.

Christopher Drawlight cannot sit still to save his life. He's always being charming, chatting people up, and making social connections, both real and fabricated by himself. Only sometimes, he loses track of which lies he's told, and to whom, which gets him in a lot of trouble. His hyperfocus is social status, and he can't let it go, even at the bitter end. He's really one of my favorite characters, even if he is a horrible person. This goes for both book and show Drawlight, by the way. Both top notch. Both ADHD as fuck.

9. Dory - Finding Nemo.

I mean... do I have to say anything else? I don't think I do. I love Dory so much. I relate so, so much. Inattentive ADHD Fish Sister.

10. All versions of Doctor Who, but Tenant is becoming iconic, and I love him, so let's go with number 10!

Just an all around hyperactive ADHD guy. Fun, creative, adventurous, risk taker, IMPULSIVE (it doesn't end). But really, all Doctor Whos feel ADHD to me. There's something capricious and clumsy and dreamy and jumpy about all of them.

[whatitshouldvebeen]

Would Johnny still flirt with girls while in a relationship?

100% yes

Johnny loves attention, and he especially loves when women clearly want him. After all, who wouldn't want him?

Johnny would flirt even if you were standing right next to him holding his arm. He'd love seeing the jealousy ignite in your eyes, feeling your fingers dig into his flesh possessively. You have to be real careful to regulate your emotions, or he might just end up fucking another girl in front of you.

He wouldn't keep them though. He really only wants you, he just loves eliciting such a powerful response. The fact you want him so badly you're refusing to leave the room while he fucks her, even though he can tell it's killing you, turns him on like wild.

You stay in case she manages to do something he likes that you never thought to do before. You can't let yourself be outshone, and when she's dead, he's back to being your man.

---

"You know she meant nothing to me, right baby? She was just a slut. You're my special girl," he'd console you, holding you close and stroking your hair.

You would hold the bloody knife loosely in your hand, only just barely able to hear him over the rush behind your ears. She would lie dead on the sheets, murdered by your own envious hand. And Johnny would absolutely revel in the fact you'd murdered someone because of him. For him. Because he's yours, and more importantly, you're his.

[resonette]

i'm just kind of rambling at this point because i want to really drive home the fact that there are two distinct versions of seren that begin to bleed together when josephine is killed (and she believes caleb is dead too but this ain't about him rn). i think that seren is terrible with grief because of the physical pain it gives her. i think that she is literally dying of heartbreak when she goes into the n109 zone and that's why she doesn't care whether or not she makes it out alive. i think she is so... broken by the time the current storyline for 2.0 comes out that she is willing to do whatever it takes to get her answers if only so she can stop hurting.

i make multiple references to this metaphorical garden that she has the walls up for but i think after the house fire, after she loses hearing in her right ear and gains her implant, she does not have the strength to keep the garden walls up and continue to search for information. every time she turns around there is something that makes everything hurt worse - finding out her childhood friend has the last memory of her grandmother; finding out that her work partner has a bounty in the n109 zone; finding out that her new friend (and the person that she technically has the responsibility of ensuring the safety of) has dealings and targets on his head... every piece of information she runs into hurts her more and more and she's in so much pain that she's seeking an escape.

psychologically, we see this behavior with people who are su*cidal, this sort of inability to measure levels of danger or inability to maintain their self-preservation instincts, and i think seren shows that 100%. she's so bitter and angry and mean that any semblance of that kind-hearted girl she was is gone, and will remain gone until she can get some kind of answers that are more than just another aether core.

tbh i liken her behavior here to the end of j.j.k.'s hidden invento.ry arc where in his solitude, ge.to begins to partake into risktaking behaviors until he's reached a point of no return. i absolutely think that from chapter 8 onwards, seren loses any ability to differentiate her emotions or regulate them at all -- ergo, becoming a "hunted" commodity for the auction is easy to do, because she has no self-preservation instinct. she's so fucking tired that it hurts, and still she has yet to find any resolution.

[taysdorothea13]

bluey and carpet take on the eras tour but it’s literally just tay shitting bricks everytime she hears “mommy i lost ____” bc she knows that there’s going to be a day they’re not gonna find it

taylor thinks she’s safe from carpet trauma because betty leaves the blanket in the hotel room anywhere they go, but god you’d be surprised how far a blanket can travel when nobody’s around to constantly be supervising it. taylor’s thrown all of her cards to the wind when it comes to bluey. she’s accepted that the poor stuffed bear will get lost at least twice a weekend, but when bluey’s lost for an hour during the day, getting found right in the exact place taylor told wren to look but she was adamant he wasn’t there so didn’t… she can only sigh in exasperation when they finally get back to the room, the exhaustion from the show working against all of them, and just as she’s about to get into the shower betty starts freaking out because she can’t find carpet. those are the days when taylor really questions if her kids emotional attachment to inanimate objects was a good thing to encourage. maybe carpet stopped a few tantrums when betty was a toddler. maybe bluey helped wren regulate her emotions before she was really comfortable enough to seek taylor out herself. but were those sweet moments worth the stress and anxiety that comes from them going missing? sometimes she really wishes she could go back in time and never give either one of the girls their blankets. betty can’t sleep without carpet, wren can’t function without bluey, so it’s never a “we can look tomorrow” kind of situation, which means that no matter how exhausted taylor is, she’s on her hands and knees going through suitcases and drawers and piles of laundry that they really should stay on top of better until eventually she finds carpet tangled up in the blankets that betty kicked off the bed that morning when she was in a mood about having to get up at all. she quickly rethinks the ‘never should’ve given them these stupid fucking blankets’ thing when the girls are sound asleep, both clutching onto their comfort items looking like little angels, but that absolutely does not stop her from glaring the at the worn and tattered blankets like they’re her biggest personal enemy.

[dreamypqulson]

— this is me trying

requested by anon: madison having a horrible day. just absolutely awful. she's having flashbacks to hell. she's moody to everyone, snapping at the other girls (even zoe), wants comfort from her moms but doesn't know how to ask for it. it takes all day for cordelia and misty to figure out what exactly is wrong with her, not for lack of trying on their part. but they finally do and they comfort her? pls & thank u

pairing: cordelia goode x misty day x daughter!madison

warnings: slight mentions of some of madison’s traumatic experiences but not very detailed.

word count: 2300

If Madison Montgomery was having a bad day, then everyone was having a bad day. It wasn't exactly Madison's fault. From a young age, she was taught that being cold and angry was better than being sad and weak. She never truly had the opportunity to be upset over things; never had the time in between movie scenes, never had someone she could cry to, never had a safe space to actually release the tears.

Now she did, and she didn't know how to actually do the whole sad thing. In the moment, it felt good to be brutal. If everyone else was upset, even if it was due to her own antics, it would make her look like the stronger one. At first, it did. But now, everyone could see entirely through her.

Madison was still recovering from multiple traumatic things; hell was still taking a tole on, not only her mental health, but her physical health too. She was still, at her grown age, learning how to regulate her emotions. It embarrasses her, upsets her, angers her. She doesn't want to be like this, but she doesn't know how to fix it.

Today had been a particularly hard day for Madison. Throughout the night, she spent waking up from nightmares. That bled into the daytime; flashbacks almost every hour. The lack of sleep only increased her temper and irritability.

It was breakfast time at the academy when everyone figured out that today was not going to be too good. The main witches sat at the small breakfast table in the kitchen while Cordelia cooked up some breakfast for everyone over at the stove.

Madison sat there on her phone, her typical stone cold face on as always. Nothing was out of the ordinary, but Cordelia certainly made a mistake by asking Madison to help out.

"Madison, sweetie, can you get the plates for everyone?" She doesn't know why she asked Madison to help out. There were multiple of her girls that would've done it in a heartbeat. And Madison, when asked to, usually does do what she's asked, she just makes a big stink about it.

I'm this certain moment, however, Madison had seen something on her phone that had triggered a memory of hell. All she could hear was Cordelia's voice contorting into the store manager back in the afterlife. It sent her spiraling.

"Fucking god," Madison yelled, slamming her phone onto the table. It surely would've broke if it hit the wood any harder. "Why can't you leave me the fuck alone? What am I? Your goddamn maid?"

All eyes adverted to the angry blonde. Madison had become much softer, nicer, after her trip to hell. This was not Madison. Nobody understood what had possessed her to suddenly act this way.

Cordelia and Misty glanced at each other from across the room. If anyone knew Madison, it was them two. The younger witch had opened up to the both of them shortly after her return from hell. Every since, they had become her "mothers" and the only people who she would let her guard down around.

"Um, alright. Zoe, do you mind?" Cordelia said, softly, and decided to ignore Madison's outburst. She did not feeling like getting into an argument this early in the morning. And either way, she began to find it hard to even punish Madison after everything that happened between the three of them.

Zoe hummed her approval and got up to help Cordelia with the task. Madison rolled her eyes and scoffed at this. Something inside of her pushed her to make a snarky remark. She was angry and she needed to blow up at someone. "Yeah have your little fucking puppy dog help you."

Zoe looked back at Madison, ready to argue back, but when she saw the flame in those green eyes, she opted out of it. Cordelia spoke for her instead, "Madison Montgomery," she scolded and gave her that look.

Madison, however, was not backing down. Not right now. Not when she was filled with so much anger. "Do ya want to go get some fresh air with me real quick?" Misty whispered from directly across the table. Sometimes Madison just needed to breathe.

As angry as she was, as much as she wanted to pick apart every single thing about Misty, she couldn't, she wouldn't. Instead, she simply rolled her eyes again and walked out with Misty.

They made it outside, the early April air relaxing them both. They sat on two black chairs on the front porch. Only then did Misty realize that Madison's hands had been in a tight fist. Her knuckles were turning extremely white. She wouldn't even look at Misty.

"So what was that about?" Misty asked, but not unkindly. She was the perfect person for Madison to open up to; Misty had been to hell and back too, she understands the anger, and sadness, and confusion, and even the flashbacks.

But Madison did not want to talk right now. She just wanted to Cordelia and Misty to shut the fuck up and hold her. But how could she even ask for that? Even her own mother wouldn't do that for her when she was little.

But she knew the two witches would. Because, over and over again, they had. That had done everything that Madison's needs. Had canceled meetings just so Madison could calm down in their arms.

"I don't want to fucking talk about it."

Then we won't talk about it, Misty urged to say, but settled on saying nothing at all. She understood Madison. Maybe not to the same degree, but after her trip to hell, she knows how nasty it can get when someone doesn't understand that she's too angry and overwhelmed to speak.

They sat in silence for some brief moments. The warm, soft spring air gave Madison a sense of serenity. The silence with most of New Orleans still asleep or just waking up. Madison was never an outdoors person, but she can certainly appreciate this.

Cordelia eventually came outside to bring the two back in for breakfast. Her footstep were soft and light, everything that Madison needed. "Hey, you two. How are we?"

Madison decided to not answer, to not even acknowledge Cordelia's presence, so Misty spoke for the both of them. "Okay now." And the young witch could hear Misty mouth something to the supreme, she just couldn't pinpoint what she was saying. It was about her, she assumed. And then her mind wandered away.

"Alright well, breakfast is ready if you guys want to join?"

That's not what Madison wanted. She wanted to sit here with her 'mothers' and be held so tight that these awful thoughts and feelings get squeezed out of her. Still, she found herself walking back into the house, feeling quiet and vulnerable as a mouse.

-

The rest of the long day Madison spent going between cigarette breaks and causing issues with the other girls. It wasn't that she wanted to fall down this hole again. Deep down, she was truly proud of how far she had come. Ever since her return, everyone had noticed how much softer she became (and it really made her feel good).

Fairly, Cordelia was sick of breaking the arguments up and putting out accidentally fires from one of the girls getting a little too angry with the bitchy witch. She wasn't necessarily upset with Madison, she just wanted to get into her mind and figure out the issue.

She talked to Misty about it. They both agreed that it would be best to catch Madison alone and talk to her about it. She only breaks down in front of them, alone, and it's the end of the day so she must be tired of this tough facade by now.

It was the end of the day when Misty followed Cordelia into Madison's bedroom. They decided to give her her own bedroom when she came back from hell. She was older now, and Zoe and Queenie had their own anyways too.

Misty sat atop of Madison's bed, making herself comfortable, as Cordelia stood with her arms crossed beside her. They could both hear Madison's footsteps, the clicks of her obnoxiously big heals. Cordelia took a deep breath and prepared herself for the mental impact as the door slowly opened.

"Oh my god," The young witch huffed, "what do you bitches want? I'm trying to get to bed, not have some fucking witch gathering.”

"Madison. Please sit down, we just want to talk to you," Cordelia said softly, motioning to the spot between her and Misty. She could see Madison contemplate it, but eventually gave in and sat down with a dramatic eye roll.

She urged to say something. To make fun of the way Misty dresses or how Cordelia was standing. She couldn't say a single thing though. She found herself stuck, staring at the wall as if it were to turn into a line of endless angry customers or if her old casting directors would walk through the door and force her to strip for the cameras.

"We noticed that you seemed very irritable today," Cordelia starts off, but she's not accusing her of anything. She's not trying to come off aggressive towards the young witch. "...And Misty and I wanted to check in with you and see how you're doing."

"Cause, ya know, it's okay to not be okay, Madi," Misty chimed in. She knew Madison took not being okay as a weakness and constantly needed that reminder. "We know ya don't like reaching out for help but we don't want to rip ya of it either."

Madison huffed again. Her arms that were angrily crossed against her chest eventually unfolded. Cordelia took a seat beside her, sensing that her tough facade was quickly shattering. She wanted to be ready to pick up every piece of Madison and put her back together as best as the glue could hold.

"I'm fine," Madison finally settled on. But she was not fine. And although she said she was, her own voice betrayed her; full of emotion.

"Ya not fine. Don't even say that. We are here for ya."

She really wanted to rip Misty into two for that. Just leave me the fuck alone! But her mouth kept talking and her eyes began to produce tears. "I'm angry okay! And i'm fucking upset and tired and It's all just fucking shitty right now!"

Cordelia scooted closer to her, placed a hand on her back. That is what pushed the salty tears to finally slide down Madison's face. "What's making you hurt, sweetheart? Talk to us."

"Just everything! I'm so drained. It’s so hard to keep going when I walk into a room and everyone's fucking okay and i'm really not. I just want to make them feel awful so they can just experience an ounce of what I have to feel every goddamn day!"

Cordelia and Misty glanced over at each other while Madison broke down and refused to make eye contact. "And it's so much. I'm sick and tired of being back in that hell hole when i'm just sitting at the table. It's all I think about every fucking minute!"

Madison let the words flow freely. She felt comfortable and safe here. For the first time in her life, she could say that she wasn’t ashamed to admit how she feels inside.

“Well thank ya for telling us that,” Misty finally says, after brief moments of silence, “I get how scary it is to have flashbacks, don’t think for a second that ya are alone with this, Madi.”

“That’s right. And I can’t even imagine what it’s like, but I will always been here to listen, or to calm you down. Whatever you need.” Cordelia doesn’t understand what it’s like to die and be living in her worst nightmare. But she does understand hardship, pain, and the feeling of loneliness. “How about we make a plan for when you feel like this? Instead of getting angry or sitting with these bad feelings we can figure out something that helps you?”

Madison quickly blinked away the rest of her tears. She wiped away the mascara steaks on her cheeks but all that did was smudge it. “This is fucking stupid but I don’t entirely hate being in the greenhouse with you both.”

A smile formed on both of the older witches lips. “That’s not stupid.”

“Not stupid at all, honey. Does that make you feel better? We can start going in there more often with you. Even just to sit there if you’d like.” Madison hated plants, and bugs, and heat, and anything that made her feel disgusting. But, it felt like a safe little sanctuary in the greenhouse. A place where nobody would bother her time with the only two people that make her feel loved.

Madison simply nodded because she could feel a lump forming in her throat again, making it impossible to speak. Not stupid. Her feelings were not invalidated and it felt really good. Her own mother never let her actually feel emotions when she was little. That’s what made her become so cold. Younger Madison was jumping for joy at the moment.

She let out a sob and her face completely fell into her hands. Cordelia was quick wrap her arms around her small frame and kiss the top of straight blonde hair.

“We love you, Madison. So much, sweet girl, like you’re our own. We’ll do anything to make you feel better.” And for once, Madison felt just okay.

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[go-go-devil]

Top 5 autistic headcanons and top 5 aroace headcanons?

TRIPLE A LET'S GOOO!!!

Autism:

Dale Cooper (Twin Peaks): One of the most obviously autistic characters to ever grace television. The allistics just didn't get it probably because he was "too social" or whatever other slight deviation from what's stereotypical in autistic characters

Kris (Deltarune): I genuinely believe Kris is deliberately autistic-coded, mostly due to that "How to Care for a Human" book you find in the library in Chapter 2 but even beyond that all of their described behaviors are SUPER relatable to me as an autistic person (and bring me back to how I felt about it in my youth...)

Daniil Dankovsky & Various Other Characters (Pathologic): Thank you once again for showing me the light in how truly autistic Daniil is at his very core <3 Besides him though I'm also in agreement with the very code of Classic HD that Peter Stamatin and Grace are on the spectrum (tortured savant and death-obsessed weird girl rep respectively), but I would also argue that Yulia Lyuricheva is autistic as well. I mean the woman is described as someone who "sits in the corner and quietly observes others" and invented an entire philosophical theory in an attempt to explain the pattern of random events invisibly triggered by people. That's what we in the business call STEM-influenced autism :)

The Lodger (Knock-Knock): Yet another video game character that is so intensely autistic. Willingly living in isolation, simultaneously longing for and hating the presence of guests in your house, talking to yourself while pacing through the hallways & infodumping about the most niche scientific field imaginable? It's so relatable 🕯

Diane Nguyen (Bojack Horseman): This one maybe doesn't have the most "evidence" compared to the others per say, but I honestly found myself relating to a lot of Diane's personality quirks and struggles AS an autistic person (ex: hating surprises, trouble regulating her emotions/prone to emotional outbursts, having the most specific overly-convoluted Halloween costume ever). With her I think I'm more in the minority for this hc since her other mental illnesses overshadow her autistic traits, plus her's aren't nearly as obvious as Juda's (who as far as I'm concerned IS canonically autistic even if it's not outright stated by the characters)

Aroace:

Patches (Soulsborne Series): There is no fucking way this man has ANY desire for sex and romance. The only hole he's interested in are the enemy-infested ones he can kick you down! Plus I do know of that one famous line he says in Dark Souls 3 which he claims to be "devoid of all worldly wants" so this might as well be canon

Artemy Burakh (Pathologic): I don't care what the shippers think, I just love the idea of Artemy having a narrative revolving around the concept of "love" while being alienated and eventually coming to terms with how he himself doesn't experience this emotion in a socially conventional way. Besides just 'cause he's aroace in my mind doesn't mean he can't form QPR's ;)

Death of the Endless (The Sandman): ABSOLUTE AROACE ICON! She's a being who loves humanity, but keeps a reasonable distance between any individual person due to her role in taking their souls upon their death. Though instead of being all moping and "oh I can never allow myself to truly be close to those I love T_T" she's instead endlessly jovial and enjoys every second of spending time with other humans in a platonic fashion, brief as those seconds are in the grand scheme of her job. If that ain't actually positive aroace rep I don't know what is 🖤

Every Character in Hylics: All of them are aroace. They're functionally immortal clay aliens who probably don't even need to procreate in traditional means to produce new life, and besides they're more interested in prog rock than romance anyway 🌙 🎸🌯

Holden Caulfield (The Catcher in the Rye): A very personal hc for me. Reading that book was one of my earliest instances of me relating to a character for their lack of desire for sex and romance; in particular the whole story about Holden losing his best friend Jane due to her no longer valuing him as a friend and wanting a boyfriend instead, to which he couldn't find himself filling that role. It's just such a vivid portrayal of THE aroace experience of having your platonic connections become "lesser" in the eyes of society, and it really pisses me off that so many contribute this character trait of his as something "he refuses to grow out of" because no it fucking isn't! But then again most analyses of this book are godawful ableist pieces of shit so I'm not exactly surprised there's a lack of meaningful analysis on the main character being sexually deviant alongside his mental disorders

[pissfizz]

YES I DO!!! <— responding to bandori post

I like a lot of these girls but I will start with my two absolute faves so you can get a taste

First I’ll start with Chu2, or Chiyu tamade! She’s well. A 15 year old girl if that tells you anything, and also a bit of a genius. She skipped a grade in school, making her a third year despite only being the age of most 1st years. She is also the one in charge of forming RAS, which was a. Very difficult and rigorous process for both her and the prospective members I’ll say that much

If you read just the beginning of the RAS story she sounds like a total bitch. And that’s because she kind of is. She’s demanding due to her unreasonably high standards, and she seems to be really arrogant. But as time goes on you see she really does have a heart, and she grows to care a LOT about her bandmates as people instead of just pawns in her plan for fame. She specifically has a deep bond with her (later girl)friend Pareo. She makes a lot of mistakes, but she has a few key moments for character development where you see she really is trying. I honestly think it’s obvious she has ADHD and a lot of trouble regulating her emotions, which is something being with Pareo and the rest of the band helps. She’s also just really funny. Wears cat ear headphones all the time no matter what, is like 4’10 and mad about it, doesn’t bathe, and is rich as FUCK. Has a one-sided rivalry with Yukina from Roselia (my third fave character), and Yukina is just like 😐 because she’s like 19 and already has enough rivalry in her life.

Here’s her falling into her rival and being embarrassed about it

Here’s her on a date

And here’s her being cute surrounded by animals

And honestly I’ve rambled enough so I will just talk about hina in another ask maybe.

SORRY 😭

UWAHHH SHES SO CUTE SHE SOUNDS SO FUN OMG

[thattargboy]

What’s your perspective on the fight at Driftmark?

Short answer: I don’t blame Aemond (or. I blame him a little because disrespect, but the kid lost an eye so he gets sympathy points), I especially don’t blame Rhaena or Baela, they did nothing wrong 🥰. I kinda blame Luke and Jace because they were the ones with the knife, but mostly their parents because why was no one watching these kids???? Should there not have been a guard outside their rooms or something????

Very long and repetitive answer: I understand that as soon as Laena died Vhagar was a free dragon, and “technically” Rhaena had no claim over her. That doesn’t change the fact that she was an eight year old girl who has just lost her mother (who had ordered that dragon to kill her and that definitely factors in), so I understand why she felt entitled to try to claim her and why she hadn’t attempted it yet.

So yeah needless to say, claiming Vhagar during the night of the funeral was very disrespectful on Aemond’s part. Does it make sense why he did it? Absolutely. He was like 10 (?12?) being bullied by his big brother and his nephews and he wanted to prove himself by claiming the oldest and biggest dragon in the world because It Be Like That, and yeah he was technically right in like that Rhaena “should have” tried to claim Vhagar. But like I said. Eight year old girl at her mom’s funeral. And also Rhaena understands what it feels like to feel inadequate over lacking a dragon so really Aemond what’s your play?

Also we have no idea that Vhagar would have even accepted Rhaena if she did try to claim her, but honestly I think she would have. No real reason there other than vibes so feel free to disagree.

Ultimately, Baela, Rhaena, Luke and Jace should have gone to guards or their parents if they thought something was going on with Vhagar but then again they were kids so I don’t blame for not doing so, and I think we all have taken something into our own hands when we kids that we should have went to adults for (I do however blame their parents for not having anyone watching them and instead banging on the beach at his wife’s funeral). But like. They weren’t being watched and they took things into their own hands, like kids do, and they reacted very emotionally and got into a fight (and no, 4v1 is not fair, but also they are all like 12 and under. I know y’all have seen playground fights like that in your youth. If they were older I’d be like oh yeah fuck all four of them), like kids do.

And honestly if Aemond didn’t lose an eye I probably would just be like “haha little shit got what he deserves,” because like. Not to sound like Bobby B here cuz fuck that guy but. Kids fight. It’s a thing they do because like emotional regulation is undeveloped and all over the place. It’s over. (Thinking about it because that scene was an obvious parallel to the one in GoT, making that comparison with Cersei and Alicent is both genius and fills me with rage)

But to get back on track, Aemond did lose an eye, and y’know permanent mutilation and a scuffle between cousins (and uncle/nephews) are two very different things.

Jace never should have brought the knife and honestly for once I can’t really see the kid logic there. I guess I can compare it to like being a kid and thinking you hear a burglar and instead of waking up your parents you grab a bat (okay now I’m seeing the kid logic, Jace you’re free to go. Still why did he even have a dagger in the first place kid’s like 9???)

And then there’s Luke, who I’m giving some leniency because he’s the youngest, but again even a 7 year old knows better then to cut a boy’s eye out.

Like yeah from his perspective Aemond was about to brain his brother with a rock so yeah I kinda get it. But us as viewers are not 7 year olds in the middle of a fight, and we could see that Aemond was not moving, and really Luke should have been able to see that too but also, need I say it again? A kid in the middle of a fight. I honestly kinda thought it looked like Aemond was gonna put it down but no one else seems to think that so I’m just gonna assume I’m wrong

Ultimately what I think the problem was no one was punished. Back to sounding like Bobby B because obviously none of the kids should have tortured (or sharply questioned) or lost an eye as compensation (really girlie, charging with his knife is iconic but very stupid). But to bring it back to the playground thing, if that was fight in an elementary school all of those kids would have been getting in trouble.

Instead Viserys threatened his wife and children over the truth. So. Yeah. Fuck all the adults in that situation.

(Also I do understand and sympathize with both Alicent and Rhaenyra in that scene. Alicent’s son has been made permanently disabled and no one is on her side not even the child’s father, it makes sense that she kinda snapped, and yes even though it is the truth, calling her children bastards puts their lives and their inheritance in danger, of course they’re both going to try and protect their children it’s what mothers do. Understandable and sympathetic, and even justifiable doesn’t mean they were exactly in the right however.)

Westeros needs some sort of man price, at the very least Luke should have been made to apologize (and then apologize again when he’s older and actually means it instead of laughing at the pig) and in a world where we got more episodes and they emphasized that this is a family we’re watching tear itself apart I would have liked to seen Aemond at least try to put water under the bridge with Rhaena and only Rhaena (and maybe Baela but she wasn’t really involved) when they’re older.

(Like maybe if we got to see Aegon and Helaena’s wedding, and Rhaenyra’s family was invited. That could’ve been cool.)

All that said (and sorry for saying so much), the way everything played out makes sense and I wouldn’t change it except like I said with like older Aemond and Rhaena attempting to make amends before shit hits the fan.

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Jersey Shore S1

Episode 2: "The Tanned Triangle"

Characters introduced: Ron Ron Juice

The episode opens with Snooki on the phone with her parents and they all agree she should come home.

Mike is still laying the moves on Sammi heavily; made her breakfast and he's calling his her work partner. Sammi is EATING IT UP - she shows her poor taste from the beginning.

It's the first day at work and "Jolie" is absolutely over it and says it beneath her, despite signing up for this.

Sammi gives Snooki a pep talk but she's throwing shots the whole time, so I'm not sure if it really had the desires effect. Either way, Snooki is emotionally drained by not being the center of attention 😂 Seriously?

I was wrong. It worked! Snooki is going to stay. After that, Sammi and Mike go to work in basically matching outifts - both wearing black tank tops. Of course the confessionals are about how well they vibe...

JWoww and Angelina's boyfriends are worried that the two girls will cheat but they both say they have something good with their boyfriends....we'll see.

As expected, a few hours later while they're out; JWoww is all over Pauly and Angelina is all over random guys buying her drinks. Back at the house, JWoww and Pauly are making out in bed and we discover that his penis is PIERCED.

Sammi is asking who else in the house likes her and Mike takes this opportunity to start trashing him - and he openly admits it. The beginning of his villain arc is already here!

Fortunately, Sammi is aware that she needs to be careful with this situation. While these two are gossiping on the roof, Snooki brings her pick of the night up there. While she's trying to make a move, the guy is unsuccessfully trying to hook up.

Then she claims they weren't ever going to hook up...okay girl.

The next day, Angelina doesn't remember cheating and Vinny has pink eye - supposedly from burying his face in an older woman's behind as they danced. Yeah...I don't know.

Second night out:

The Ron Ron Juice makes its debut and Mike is very confident that Sam wants to hook up with him. He also says he has it and Ron doesn't. To his credit, when he does kiss Sam, she happily reciprocates it - just gross.

Pauly and JWoww are once again playing their game of will they or won't they. For some reason, when they share a kiss, she blocks their faces with her hands. She then leaves because she doesn't want to cheat on her boyfriend...which is about 2 mins too late.

Sam then makes a move on Ron, fracturing Mike's very fragile ego. He confronts Sam but she's unphased because she's single- of course, Mike is now playing it that he's shut it down with her. Obviously, Mike then picks a fight with a random because he can't regulate his emotions and it ends with Pauly hitting someone and getting kicked out.

NOW, he's convinced Angelina is into him but she's definitely being a raging b*tch to innocent bystanders.

Notable Quote:

"I think this job is beneath me, you know? I'm a bartender, I do great things." - Angelina

"I'm the princess of fucking Poughkeepsie." - Snooki

"I don't give a f*ck if you fat, ugly or old. I'll dance with you. It's hilarious!" - Vinny

"I guess I technically cheated on my boyfriend." - JWoww