We'll burn the sky | part eleven
Warnings: 18+, mentions of smut, angst, mentions of substance abuse, mentions of death, mentions of cheating, mentions of reader smoking cigarettes
Pairings: Rockstar!Eddie Munson x Rockstar!fem!reader | Steve Harrington x fem!reader | past Eddie Munson x Chrissy Cunningham
Summary: Corroded Coffin plays at the hideout again, friends, family and.. enemies show up
Word count: 8k+
@mysticmunson thank you for your amazing ideas as always, bestie🥺
Series masterlist
inspo for the outfit reader was wearing
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Eddie’s words and actions kept you up all night. His touch lingered, you could still feel his lips on your neck as your mind repeated his words.
I’m yours, I’m all yours, I’ve been yours right from the start, you have my heart, sweetheart. You’re all I want.
You stared at him with a dumbfounded expression on your face as you searched for the dishonesty in his eyes, only to find none. He was saying the truth, he wasn’t lying, he never lied about his feelings for you.
Despite the things he said to you before, despite the girl that he kept a secret from you for months, you believed him. You finally realized that he never pretended, you were never just a placeholder, he never used you for the band. Right then, he let you see inside his mind, all his walls crumbled and he let you see everything.
And all you saw was a broken man who found love and comfort in you.
Yes, now you know that he never lied but now you are all the more scared. You already found out what it feels like to lose him, what it feels like to live without him, what it feels like to get your heart broken by Eddie Munson
What if you will truly lose him someday?
What if he will leave you?
What if he will find someone better?��
What if he will get sick of you and abandon you the way everyone else did?
All these what if’s run through your mind but the one that truly matters doesn’t.
What if he stays?
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The hideout is bustling, loud music is playing in the crowded bar, laughter and loud voices are heard from every corner in the bar. Eddie looks around in awe. A look of pride is lingering on his face.
Despite performing on big stages, in front of even larger crowds, in front of thousands of people, he can’t help but feel more excited than ever. This is where it all started. No longer is the place filled with emptiness, the place is filled with people, ones that came here just for the band. A lot of them, he doesn’t even recognize.
But he finds the five drunks, still claiming their usual table, just like they did two years ago. He talked to them earlier, all of them giving Eddie pats on the back and telling him how proud they all are.
He smiles to himself.
Wayne is sitting at the bar with Steve and Robin, all three of them are seemingly in a deep conversation as they wait for their drinks.
The teens are here too, sitting around a round table, he eyes Lucas who is the most excited one out of them. He chuckles to himself, knowing that he is only excited to see you.
After setting everything up on the stage, Eddie walks to the small backstage room to get you. He raises his fist to knock on the door but it opens just before he can do so.
He freezes and his jaw drops. You look good, you always do but tonight, you look insanely good.
“Jesus H Christ,” he mumbles to himself.
He lowers his hand and takes a step back, letting his eyes rake over your body. His cheek flush red and his eyes darken as he eyes your outfit, your exposed skin, your cleavage, your beautiful face, your hair that you no doubt spend the last hour on.
His stomach flutters and suddenly he feels very hot.
He whispers your name in shock.
You blush at the way he is staring at you. Crossing your arms over your chest, he suddenly groans, eyes widening as he stares at your boobs in the little top that is laced together in the middle, exposing your skin and covering your boobs just enough.
“Like what you see, Eddie?” you ask teasingly.
He just nods, still staring at all the leather covering your skin.
“Y-You look so fuck… so hot,” he stutters.
You can’t even help but chuckle. That’s the first thing he has said to you after last night, after he went inside before telling you, that he is willing to wait for you.
You wish you could go back to the way things used to be but you can’t, the pain is still so fresh and all your fears have caught up to you ever since the night you found out about her.
You can’t be vulnerable with him, at least not yet.
But maybe you can go back to the beginning.
“Thanks,” you smirk, “Steve helped me pick out this outfit.”
His eyes flash with jealousy and he has to restrain himself from rolling his eyes.
“You should’ve seen all the other outfits he made me try on, just for him.”
He furrows his brows as his awestruck stare turns into an icy one.
“He also made me try on lingerie but that wasn’t very appropriate for the stage,” you shrug.
“Stop that,” he mutters angrily.
You raise your brows, smirking at him, “why?”
“You know why.”
You shake your head, jutting your lip out as you pretend to think, “no, I don’t.”
He looks hot. He ditched the leather jacket he was wearing earlier, left in a muscle shirt that shows off his toned arms and tattoos. He is wearing dark pants with his trusted belt with the handcuffs. The rings you love so much and the highlight of his outfit tonight; the bandana around his head.
You take a step towards him, giving him an innocent smile, “you look nice,” you whisper, running your hand down his arm, “I love the bandana, Eddie.”
He looks a little speechless, as though he doesn’t understand why you are talking to him like this, why you are touching him and acting the way you used to before it all went to shit.
The way you look at him and the way you touch him, reminds him of the way you used to do when you just met but something about you seems different now, perhaps it’s the intensity of your feelings or the pain you have gone through ever since then.
“Thank you, sweetheart,” he whispers.
You nod, giving him a small smile.
“You ready for the show?”
“So ready,” he sighs with a smile on his face, “wanna go out together?” he asks, holding his hand out for you.
You look down at it, heart fluttering in your chest.
You always go out hand in hand, it shouldn’t be anything new and yet something about it feels different. Perhaps it’s because you are in his hometown, about to perform in front of his friends and family and he isn’t hiding you or your relationship.
You look back into his eyes, seeing the softness in them, it somehow makes your heart ache.
You place your hand in his and he smiles at you. You expect him to lead you to the stage but instead he raises your hand, “give me a twirl, sweetheart,” he grins.
“Really?” you snort, knowing that he only wants to see what the back of your outfit looks like.
He nods.
Shaking your head, you chuckle and give him a twirl, the groan that leaves his lips gives you satisfaction.
His eyes almost bulge out of his skull when he looks at the way your ass looks in those tight leather pants, “holy fuck.”
The sound of your giggle fills him with warmth. He never thought he would get to hear it again, at least not directed at him.
He can’t explain the sudden change of your behavior towards him, yesterday you still gave him the cold shoulder, side glances and huffs of annoyance, today, things seem different. Perhaps, you finally decided to give him a second chance, maybe you believe him now, hopefully you do.
Holding your hand makes him happy, though he can still feel the tension in your body and see the distance in your eyes. You don’t trust him and maybe you never will but he is happy to at least have you like this. He will take the teasing over the cold shoulder any day.
When you walk out onto the stage, he intertwines his fingers with yours and gives your hand a squeeze.
You smile at Gareth and Jeff, you haven’t seen them since your arrival in Hawkins, you can’t believe it but you missed them.
You look up at Eddie, watching the way his eyes glow with happiness and excitement as the people cheer for him, for the band. He waves at some people he recognizes from school, ones that didn’t give him a hard time.
He looks at Wayne, a proud smile lingers on his face as he claps for his nephew.
He looks at his friends, eying every single one of them with a big smile on his face.
Eddie couldn’t be more blessed to have such amazing people in his life. His uncle and his friends always supported him, they were always there, they were the ones to encourage him to live his dream, they were the ones who had faith in him and then you came along and you made his dream so much bigger.
Despite the pain he caused you, you look up at him with a soft smile on your face, pride and love in your eyes, for a second you push it all away, the pain, the heartbreak, the sadness. You look at him. You see the emotions in his eyes, the gratitude. You are happy for him.
You know that Eddie had a hard time growing up here. This town caused him so much pain and suffering. People treated him poorly, his father abandoned him, childhood friends turned on him, kids at school bullied him, his girlfriend broke his heart and stomped all over it.
The man that stands in front of you is still a broken child on the inside and you can see it behind all the happiness in his eyes.
You let go of his hand, taking a step back from him, you reach for the microphone.
Eddie gives you a puzzled look but you don’t look at him, looking at the crowd instead as you wait for them to quiet down.
“I love you, y/n!” Lucas yells and you can’t even help but laugh, especially when Max hits his chest with a laugh. You form a heart with your fingers at him, laughing again when he places his hand over his heart.
Eddie chuckles at him, shaking his head. He is happy to see you getting along with his friends.
“Hello Hawkins,” you finally speak into the microphone, “thank you for giving me such a warm welcome but first, let’s give the guys some love, let’s give the stars of Hawkins a round of applause!” you say as you look at your bandmates with a grin on your face, clapping for them.
Gareth gets up from behind his drums and starts clapping for himself, giving the audience a cocky grin before he blows you a playful kiss. Johnny chuckles at his friend, shaking his head as he looks at the audience.
Jeff rolls his eyes at his friend, unable to fight the smile off his face though. He looks at the large crowd, this has been the fullest the place has ever been. Corroded Coffin never had much of an audience except for the five drunks who are cheering for them like crazy now. Jeff waves at them, grinning.
“These guys are one of the best people I know. I'm glad you all found each other and created the best band in the world. Eddie,” you pause as you turn back to him.
His gaze softens as he looks into your eyes. His heart begins to race as you bring all the attention to him.
“I hope you can see how loved you are,” you say, gesturing to the audience, to his friends and his uncle, “you are the most talented person I know, the best performer in the world. Thank you for letting me be a part of your dream. Now, let’s give it up for Eddie Munson, my favorite rockstar.”
Eddie can’t even hear all the cheering, the applause and his friends cheering his name. His heart is thumping and the biggest smile is resting on his face as he looks at you, watching the way you clap for him too as you smile at him.
He can’t even help himself, walking towards you, he grabs you, swooping you off your feet, he holds you tightly, he hears your squeal even over the cheers that just got even louder. You wrap your arms around his shoulders and hug him tightly, enjoying the moment you have been craving for so long.
Both of you close your eyes for a moment, hearts racing and fluttering but feeling whole again as you finally hold each other again.
He smells your perfume as your hair falls in his face.
“Thank you,” he whispers into your ear, pressing a soft kiss to your cheek.
“Go Eddie!”
You both laugh at Lucas’s cheer.
Eddie squeezes your waist as he places you back on your feet again, giving you a smile, he steps back and reaches for his microphone.
“Thank you, guys,” he says as he looks into the audience, “we can’t start before welcoming my girl, my favorite rockstar, y/n was the one who made our band whole, she was the one who made our songs even better, the one who made it all better. Let’s give it up for the best rockstar of all time!”
You blush at his words, watching the way he claps for you with the people. Smiling at him, you watch him get his guitar.
While Eddie got to see your walls fall for a moment and he finally met your sweet and soft side again, he didn’t expect it to be over just as quickly as it came. The moment you started performing, you let the devil out.
You were never shy on stage and you never had a problem being affectionate with him but today, you are different, so much more affectionate, intense and intimate. What may look like a normal performance to the audience, looks so much more intimate to Eddie.
Your lust filled gazes, the mischievous looks in your eyes as you press yourself against him or run your fingers down his chest drives him crazy and it doesn’t even stop at that.
As if he doesn’t already have a hard time controlling himself and his feelings, you end up getting on your knees, right in front of him. You lean back and arch your back, running your hand down your chest as you are singing your lungs out.
Eddie’s eyes widen, he clenches his jaw as he stares at your body. You look sinful.
Your hair is tousled, your skin is glowing, a satisfied look crosses your face as you rake your eyes down his body, winking at him before you move onto your knees, reaching your hand out to one of the girls in front of the stage, who takes it right away, eyes lighting up as she stares at you in awe.
Eddie swallows harshly, fingers strumming the guitar as he leans forward to sing his part. He cannot tear his eyes away from you though, lingering on your ass now. God, the things he would do to you.
He is grateful for his guitar, otherwise everyone would notice the tent in his black jeans. The thought of having to perform three more songs, seems like a torture to him and it truly ends up being torture.
Your teasing never stopped, if anything you kept taking things further and further.
He is enjoying himself but he does wonder what brought it on.
When you raise your brows at him and tilt your head towards the entrance, he follows your eyes and finds her, Chrissy. Her arms are crossed and she stares at you with a scowl on her face, angry eyes flashing whenever you look her way.
She is jealous of you, not because he loves you, not because he wants you but because you get the attention that she used to get. Chrissy never loved Eddie and thinking back to it, she knows they should have been nothing more than friends, perhaps things could have been better that way but it’s no use to ponder over what could’ve been.
She doesn’t hate you but she hates that you were the reason for him to turn his back on her. Her anger only sparks when she looks at Jason who stands next to her with a smirk on his face as he eyes you with a hungry gaze in his eyes, the one that doesn’t go unnoticed by Eddie either as he finds him staring you down like some hungry animal.
Eddie’s possessiveness gets the best of him and he ends up pulling you into his chest, leaning his forehead against yours as he grabs your microphone to sing with you. You smirk at him, licking your lips as his hand slides down to your lower back.
You are his and he is yours and he wants everyone to know.
-
After the concert, you and Eddie get pulled away by his and your new friends, they are still cheering you on, gushing about your performance. You smile as you watch Eddie being pulled into a hug by Dustin and his uncle.
Wayne gives you a hug, patting your shoulder as he compliments your voice. Your heart warms at his words and the smile he gives you. You feel grateful for his kindness and you are very happy for Eddie to have someone as amazing as Wayne in his life.
“Thank you so much,” you smile at him, “you must be so proud of Eddie.”
He nods, “I am,” he chuckles as he glances at his nephew, “boy was always a troublemaker but I knew he was special.”
“Yeah,” you smile, “he is very special.”
The smile on Wayne’s face grows even bigger when he sees the way your eyes soften as you watch Eddie.
“Hey Wayne, come here,” Eddie calls for him, “I gotta tell you something.”
“Yeah, it’s super important,” Dustin chuckles.
Wayne grabs his beer, excusing himself with a smile before he turns to Eddie.
“Hey Rockstar,” Robin speaks into your ear as she comes up behind you, wrapping her arms around your shoulders, she pulls you back into her, “can I take you out on a date? Your performance did something to me.”
You giggle at her words, turning to look at her with a smirk on your face, “sure, where are you taking me?”
“My place,” she winks, flashing her pearly whites at you.
You raise your brows at her, giggling, “let’s go,” you purr jokingly as you reach for her hand.
“Whoa whoa,” Steve gasps as he interrupts your playful flirting, “why are you stealing her from me, Robin? Let me enjoy the groupie life for as long as I can,” he jokes, rolling his eyes.
“Sorry, Stevie,” you pout, “I found my new groupie.”
He clutches his heart, “ouch,” he mumbles, “and here I thought we had something special.”
You slap his arm, laughing, “shut up.”
Out of the corner of your eye, you see Lucas and Max walking towards you. You turn towards them, smiling at the teens. Before stopping in front of you, Lucas already throws his hands up, eyes flashing with excitement, “you were so amazing!” he exclaims before he grabs Max’s hand again.
“Yeah, you were so freaking cool,” Max smiles, “and I love your outfit, you look badass!”
“You two are so sweet,” you say, smiling at the both of them, “thank you so much, guys.”
Not only did you meet Steve and Robin, who quickly became some of your closest friends, you also met these two, their excitement whenever they see you makes you happy. Meeting them and the rest of the teens was one of your favorite parts about being coming to Hawkins, Eddie wasn’t lying when he told you about how amazing they all are.
“You guys should totally come to LA when we’re back there,” you smile.
“Oh my god,” Lucas mumbles, “we would love to, right?” he asks, grinning at Max.
Her eyes widen, “duh, of course we would love to come to LA.”
“Yeah, I would love that too,” Steve says, “but I still think that you should hire me as your stylist.”
Max and Robin laugh at his words, “you?”
You chuckle at the offended look on his face when he watches them eye him up and down, “uh yes, me,” he rolls his eyes, “who did you think went shopping with her?” he says, pointing to your outfit.
“Yeah, Steve actually gives some pretty good fashion advice.”
“Thank you,” he nods at you with a smile on his face.
You turn around when you feel someone staring at you. He is standing by the pool table, a cocky look on his face as he eyes you up and down, next to him no other than Chrissy causing your smile to fall.
You know who he is; Jason Carver. Blue eyes, blond hair, the mean look in his eyes and the expensive clothes are enough to give away his identity but then again, there must be ten Jason Carver’s in this town. Still, he stands out in the crowd, well, him and Chrissy stand out with their bright and fancy clothes, the disgusted looks on each of their faces as they look at the people around them.
A sudden surge of anger runs through you, he is the one who made Eddie’s life a living hell, both of them.
Your anger only intensifies when your eyes fall on Eddie, who is talking to a girl now. A bright smile is on his face, eyes flashing as he nods at whatever she is saying.
Your heart drops, a weird feeling settles in your chest as you eye them.
She is beautiful, short dark waves frame her face perfectly, her tanned skin looks soft under the dim light, she has tattoos on her right arm, ones that Eddie is touching now.
Oh god, what is that feeling in your chest and in your stomach?
He leans closer to her and it’s almost enough for you to leave, not wanting to see this. It was bad enough to find out about Chrissy, to see her kiss him, to see them hold hands but somehow this is worse.
Suddenly, his eyes meet yours, a surprised look takes over his face when he sees you staring at him with a sour expression. He winks at you, he fucking winks at you before he goes back to the conversation.
What the fuck?
She raises her hand towards his face, touching his curls. Irritation and anger bubbles inside of you and you can’t even stop the curse word from falling. You want nothing more than to rip her hands off of him and drag him away.
But he is letting her touch him and he even finds enjoyment in it, especially when his eyes find yours.
Eddie has never done anything like this before. Sure he talked to his fans, girls that wanted to be his groupies so bad but Eddie never showed interest in them like that, he never even let them get too close, the conversations were polite, about the band or other interests he might share with them and that’s all. He never gave you a reason to feel jealous, you couldn’t even feel true jealousy when it came to Chrissy but right now, you have that ugly feeling in your chest and it makes you realize that you don’t want to see him with another girl.
You down the drink that Steve ordered for you a while ago before you walk away from him and Robin, ignoring their confused glances as you walk towards Eddie. You push past a few people, giving them polite smiles.
“No, it looks good but I still think that you should cut your hair.” You hear her say, you want to roll your eyes and scoff.
Eddie’s eyes fall on you, his eyes light up.
“I think his hair looks amazing like this,” you swoop in, stopping next to Eddie, you look at her with a smile on your face.
Her eyes widen as they lock with yours, her lips part in surprise and she blinks for a few seconds before she opens her mouth to speak, “o-oh my god, hi,” she stutters, “I’m such a big fan, y-you’re amazing and you look amazing,” she says as she takes a step back to look at you, “I’m Tara.”
“Thanks,” you say, giving her a smile that doesn’t reach your eyes and that’s something that Eddie notices right away, he also notices the anger in your eyes and the jealousy.
The girl doesn’t notice anything though, her eyes are wide, staring at you in shock as though she didn’t just see you singing on stage.
Her giddiness would have been cute if you weren’t so distracted by the awful feelings inside of you.
“Tara was just telling me that my hair would look better if it was shorter,” Eddie says, looking down at you with a smirk.
You are jealous and that is something that fills him with excitement, not because he wants you to feel that way, you absolutely have no reason to feel that way but because this proves to him that you still want him, that you still have feelings for him, that you don’t want to see him with someone else because he belongs with you.
You shake your head, stepping closer to Eddie, “no, I love your hair like this.”
He notices the aggression behind your voice, the possessiveness in your eyes. It makes him crave you even more, it makes him want to kiss you right here, in front of all these people so he can show you that he only wants you, that he is all yours.
Eddie notices the way Tara is staring at you and it makes the situation all the more amusing.
He continues his conversation with her, fighting the smug look on his face, especially when you keep glaring daggers into him. You can hear your thoughts, you are mad, downright pissed, especially when she reaches out to touch his arm again.
“I always wanted to get a bat tattoo.”
“Oh, you should totally get one, it would look cool on you.”
You squint your eyes and Eddie almost bursts into laughter. Your jealousy is something so unnecessary but it gives him hope.
You still want him.
And he would be lying to himself if he said that your possessiveness isn’t hot, especially when you finally have enough and drag him away from the girl after coming up with some lame excuse. Eddie can’t even contain the smile on his face. Your hand is holding onto his as you pull him into the backstage room, not wasting a second to slam him against the wall after closing the door.
He almost moans at your action, especially when you press yourself against him.
“What the hell was that, Eddie?”
“What was what?” he smirks.
The angry pout on your face makes you look both cute and sexy.
“Why were you flirting with her?”
“I wasn’t–”
“I thought you said that you’re mine, that you belong to me,” you mumble, tilting your head as you look up at him with a frown on your face.
He stares into your eyes and at your lips, “but you said that you don’t want me anymore,” he mumbles.
You blink, sighing, you lean even closer to him.
“You are mine, Eddie.”
The hopeful and longing feeling has never been stronger than in this moment, especially when you stand on your tippy toes, brushing his long curls back, you latch your lips onto his neck the way he did to you the night at the roller rink.
His eyes flutter closed and a sigh leaves his lips, butterflies going crazy in his stomach as you begin to kiss his neck. His hands fall to your waist, grabbing you tightly and pulling you flush against him.
Out of all the things that he expected to happen tonight, this isn’t what he expected but god, does he love it.
“I didn’t like the way she was touching you,” you mumble against his skin.
He can’t even help but smirk, you are so clueless.
He moans when you find his sweet spot, kissing and sucking on his skin, you mark him up, wanting to show everyone who he belongs to and he will wear those marks proudly. He enjoys himself and the things you say to him as you continue to kiss him.
So long he has gone without your touch. Sleepless nights and restless days haunted him ever since the night he lost you. He has been thinking of you day and night, craving your touch and longing to feel you in his arms, to feel your lips on his skin, to feel your love.
He whimpers your name and you almost grow weak in the knees at the sound.
“Baby,” he whispers, running his hands up and down your back now, a smug smile making it’s way on his face, “as much as I love this, you gotta know something.”
“What?” you mumble as you pull away to face him.
“She was more into you than me,” he smirks, hands gripping your waist tighter so you don’t walk away.
He watches the way your brows furrow and he chuckles, “she’s like super gay, sweetheart.”
Your puffy lips part and realization flashes in your eyes, “oh,” you whisper as you start blushing, suddenly drawing back as you grow embarrassed and annoyed, “why didn’t you tell me?” you mumble angrily, slapping his arm lightly.
He bursts into laughter.
Rolling your eyes, you push his hands off of you, suddenly feeling like escaping the situation but Eddie has different plans, he grabs your hand and pulls you back, this time he slams you against the wall though, pinning both wrists against the wall.
“What do you think you’re doing?”
He leans down, copying your actions, he moves your hair back and latches his lips onto your neck, kissing the spots above the hickey he gave you.
“Eddie–”
“You know, I’m flattered,” he whispers as he kisses down your neck until his lips are right beneath your collarbone, sucking on your skin, he leaves more visible hickeys, “I’m glad to know that you still want me.”
You whimper at his touches, throwing your head back against the wall, you let him touch you and kiss you again, even though everything in you screams at you to push him away.
The cold metal of his rings sends shivers down your spine as he runs his hands down your back, you mewl at the feeling of his hands squeezing your ass.
“I’ve wanted to do this ever since I’ve seen your ass in these pants,” he groans against your skin, “you’re so fucking sexy, baby.”
He shoves his leg between your thighs, pressing it against your center.
“Eddie,” you moan, “s-stop.”
“I’m yours, you already know that, sweetheart,” he whispers, “but I hope you know that you are mine, you’re not Steve’s or anyone else’s, you’re mine.”
“Am I?” you ask, whimpering when you feel him against your stomach.
“Mhmm, you are mine,” he says, pulling away from your chest, he stares at the marks he left behind in satisfaction before he faces you again, smirking at the lust filled eyes. Wrapping his hand around your throat, he stares at your lips. The urge to kiss you is so bad but he doesn’t, he leans in though, staring at your eyes and the way they widen when he gets closer to you. He hears the hitch in your breath and the way you tense up slightly.
His lips touch the corner of your mouth, placing an ever soft kiss there.
“I know you still want me.”
You look into his eyes. To someone else, he would look smug and arrogant and yes, he does but there is also softness in his eyes and hope.
“I know you miss me.”
Yes, you do.
“I miss you,” he whispers, “I miss being with you, I miss having you in my arms, I miss kissing you,” he says as he places another kiss to the corner of your mouth, “I miss hearing those pretty sounds you make when I touch you.”
No, no, no….
His words and his touches make you feel dizzy, you want to throw yourself at him, you want to kiss him, you want him to take you.
You can’t even help but stare at his lips and lean in a little. You want him so bad, you want him to kiss you until you're breathless, you miss him, you miss the feeling of him too.
Just as you’re about to say ‘fuck it’ and smash your lips against his, something that definitely doesn’t go unnoticed by him, he pulls away, letting go of you and taking a few steps back, a smirk appearing on his face when he sees the irritated and confused look on your face.
“But you wanted me to stay away from you, so I’ll do that.”
Is he serious?
“If you want me to stay, just say so.”
But of course you won’t tell him to stay, not only are you confused and irritated, you are also really stubborn.
Rolling your eyes, you scoff, shoulders slumping as you lean back against the wall.
Eddie chuckles, “you know where to find me,” he says before leaving the room, slamming the door shut and leaving you standing there.
He walks back into the crowded room, the smug look still lingering on his face. He finds Steve and Robin hanging out with Jeff and Gareth, he orders himself a drink before he joins them, all of them in the middle of a heated conversation about what Christmas movie is the best. Eddie doesn’t listen to them though, instead he keeps his eyes on the door in the dark hallway, waiting for you to come out of the room and when you do, he is not met with the expression he expected.
You look annoyed and frustrated as you push past a few people, coat in your hand as you make your way towards the entrance, you left your handbag behind but he can see the pack of cigarettes in your hand. He follows you with his eyes, chuckling when you turn around to look at him, your brattiness comes out when you roll your eyes at him again.
He drinks his beer, waving at you, he laughs when he sees you mumbling something under your breath before you walk out.
Placing the bottle on the table, he gets up to follow you but before he can even take a step towards the door, Wayne calls his name, waving him over to his friends, “come here, boy.”
Steve raises his head to look at Eddie, watching him leave when his eyes fall on Chrissy who rushes out of the bar, moments after you.
-
The fresh air cools you down a little. The cold kissing your warm cheeks. Closing your eyes, you take a deep breath before you place the cigarette between your lips, a stupid habit you developed over the past few months. You don’t always smoke and probably go through only one or two packs a month.
Rummaging through your pocket, you look for the lighter, groaning in annoyance when you find none, you don’t pay mind to the door closing or the footsteps on the snowy ground, too busy hoping to find your trusted lighter in the other pocket.
“Hey.”
You freeze, the sound of her voice causing you to tense up. Taking the cigarette between your thumb and forefinger, you pull it away and turn to face her.
“Chrissy..”
Her brows are raised, a false smile on her face as she looks you up and down.
“Can I help you?”
She shrugs, smiling at you as her eyes meet yours.
She looks sweet, she sounds sweet, her smile is pretty, overall she looks like a pretty and kind girl but you can see right through her, though you can see how she was able to fool Eddie.
“I just wanna warn you.”
You can’t even help but chuckle at her words, at the faked concern in her eyes.
“Oh, about what?”
“About Eddie,” she says, taking a step towards you, “he is not who you think he is. You know, sweet and loyal– but you know that already, I mean, he cheated on me with you so..”
You frown at her words, wanting to defend him but you opt to hear her out first, curious about the things she has to say.
“Eddie may seem like a good guy–”
“He is a good guy,” you say, interrupting her.
She huffs a little but the polite look on her face remains.
“Is he? He cheated and he lied to both of us.”
Your eyes dart away from her, a sigh leaving your lips as you cross your arms over your chest.
“How long has he kept me a secret, y/n?” she asks, walking even closer to you, “all this time, right?”
Your clenched jaw and the annoyed look in your eyes gives her the answer that she’s waiting for.
“He never told you anything about me because he knew that you wouldn’t want him if he did,” she shrugs, “he used you.”
“Did he?” you ask, eyes meeting her’s again.
She nods, “yeah, I mean why else would he want you to join the band?”
“I don’t know,” you shrug, dropping your arms, you smile at her, “you tell me, he was your boyfriend.”
She squints her eyes and tilts her head.
“He knew who you were, he knew who your dad was. I mean, did you really believe him when he told you that he didn’t know you? His uncle loves your dad’s music and as far as I remember, you were in magazines before you even joined the band, so do you really think that Eddie hasn’t seen you before?”
Her words cut deep but you don’t show it, the amused smile on your face irritates her and you can see it as the nice girl facade begins to crumble.
You swallow harshly, blinking as you stare into her cold eyes. You would be lying if you said that her words didn’t make your stomach drop a little.
She is getting under your skin and she knows it.
“Eddie called me after he met you, he told me how he hit the ‘jackpot’,” she chuckles in satisfaction, “he knew that he would finally get what he always wanted with you by his side.”
When Steve told you about her, he didn’t leave out her special ability to lie and yet, you easily believe her, not because you would ever trust her but because those things lingered in the back of your mind ever since that night in Cincinnati.
“And look, he did get it all. The album, the fame, the tour, the money and that’s all thanks to you. He needed you. I mean thanks to you, he isn’t some useless freak anymore.”
Your breathing quickens, heart racing in your chest as you stare at her.
“You are pretty, y/n,” she smiles, “and your dad is– I’m sorry, was famous, that’s why people like you so much, that’s why he likes you so much but Eddie rarely ever sticks to one girl as you can tell. He will grow sick of you and once that happens, he will run the way he always does.”
‘Don’t believe her, believe him’ you tell yourself, you know what she is trying to do. She is trying to manipulate her, the way she manipulated him before.
You push the pain away, the insecurities and the doubt.
You think about the things Steve told you about Chrissy, about Eddie and her, about their relationship. How she lied to him, how she treated him, how she cheated and manipulated him all these years.
Anger rushes through you, she sabotaged her own relationship and now she is trying to sabotage you and Eddie.
“You know what, Chrissy?”
She tilts her head, giving you another one of her sweet smiles.
Neither of you notice the person walking out of the bar, both too focused on each other.
“Eddie is the sweetest person I know, the best person I’ve ever met and yeah, what he did wasn’t right and I won’t excuse that but he should’ve left your sorry ass a long time ago. You never deserved him. He is way too good for you, he was always way too good for you. You used him, you manipulated him, you treated him like shit and cheated on him and now you’re standing here in front of me and have the nerve to act like the victim? You’re an awful person, Chrissy. If you would’ve treated him right, he would’ve never done this to you, he wouldn’t leave, he wouldn’t lie and he certainly wouldn’t cheat. This is all on you, ” you say angrily, shaking your head at her, “You’re a fucking idiot, Chrissy.”
Her lips part and she stares at you in both shock and anger.
“I’m an idiot?” she scoffs, pointing to herself.
“Yeah,” you nod, “I know he gave everything he could, his love, his heart, I mean he wrote songs for you, you don’t just write them about anyone, he loved you and you broke his heart.”
You search for the guilt and the regret in her eyes and maybe there is some, somewhere behind all the anger.
“He was always happy with me.”
You can’t even stop the laugh from escaping. Shaking your head, you look behind her, finally noticing Steve, who looks between the two of you with a concerned look on his face.
“Oh, is that so?” you ask, looking back at her, “then why did he leave?”
Your words irritate her and you can see it clearly, it only makes you want to throw more fuel into the fire.
“If he was so happy with you, why did he run away from you?”
She frowns and crosses her arms, huffing as she looks away.
“If he was so happy with you, then why was he so desperate for me? Why did he feel the need to come crawling into my bed?”
She clenches her jaw, she is bouncing her leg, cheeks growing red from the anger.
“Chrissy?”
Three pairs of eyes land on the blond man as he steps out into the cold as well. He furrows his brows as he finds Steve standing by the door, he sizes him up before he turns to look at her, eyes moving between the two of you.
“Everything okay?” he mumbles, walking towards her.
“Yeah,” she whispers, her big eyes and pouty lips making her look vulnerable. She steps towards him, taking his hand.
You roll your eyes, scoffing at the innocent act of hers. Stepping away from her, you make your way towards Steve.
“Did you know that Eddie used to sell drugs?”
You halt in your tracks, eying Steve for a moment, he shakes his head at you, begging with his eyes to ignore her words but you still whirled back around.
Chrissy stares at you with a look in her eyes that you should probably be scared of.
You shrug, “yeah, so?”
“He also sold heroin and cocaine.”
Your mouth twists and shivers run down your spine, you know exactly where this is going.
“Did you know that he uses it too?” she asks, tilting her head, “go to his trailer right now, you’ll find some.”
No…
“He used to snort cocaine like every night.”
“Chrissy,” Steve warns.
“Do you really wanna be with someone like that? Someone like your dad?”
Your blood runs cold, you freeze and your eyes widen as you stare at her in confusion.
“You really loved your dad, didn’t you?” she asks, pouting, “it must have been so hard for you to find him dead on the bathroom floor with that disgusting needle sticking in his skin.”
All color drained out of your face the moment those words left her lips, angry tears well up in your eyes.
“That’s enough,” you hear Steve say as he walks towards you, he looks at you in concern, seeing the angry and pained look in your eyes, “let’s go, y/n,” he whispers, placing his hand on your shoulder but you don’t move, you hold your chin up high and raise your brows, urging her to continue.
“You will find Eddie just like you found him. Are you gonna survive that a second time?"
Steve could see the way her words hit you. He doesn’t know whether you want to scream or to cry but it breaks his heart to see you like this.
“Leave her alone, Chrissy,” Jason mumbles, rolling his eyes as he tugs at her hand, “let them ruin each other, that trailer trash finally found himself a princess.”
She chuckles at his words.
“Dude,” Steve warns, glaring at the former jock, “shut the hell up.”
“You wanna say something to me, King Steve?” he says mockingly, “you think I’m scared of you?”
“You should be,” you mutter, pushing away all the shock and pain, “your little girlfriend over here has been trying to fuck him for the past two years, all he has to do is whistle and she’ll come running like a dog.”
Chrissy gasps at your words but he only frowns at you.
Steve snorts but covers it up with a cough.
“You’re Jason, right?” you ask, walking towards the blond.
“Yeah.”
“Why don’t you take your girlfriend and get the fuck out of here, you clearly don’t belong here,” you mutter angrily as you step closer to him, eyeing his white button down beneath the black coat, “this isn’t some concert sponsored by your shitty church.”
He grins at you, irritating you further.
“Oh yeah, I just wanted to see what that freak made out of his life, didn’t think he would ever make it out of the trash park, I think he fit in there pretty well. That piece of garbage–”
Your fist meets his face before he can even finish his sentence.
“Fucking asshole.”
He grunts in pain as he stumbles back, Chrissy shrieks as she rushes to his side, “Jason!”
He pushes her hand away, holding his hand in front of his eye, “you crazy bitch!”
Another fist meets his face but this time it isn’t yours, it’s Eddie’s.
If it wasn’t for Chrissy holding him up, he would’ve dropped to the ground. He clutches his nose, grunting and groaning in pain.
“You wanna say that again, Carver?”
Your heart begins to pound in your chest as you look at Eddie, who stares at the blond in anger. Jason pushes Chrissy away about to move towards Eddie.
Steve grabs your waist and pulls you back, knowing that you will jump in front of Eddie, “that’s enough, troublemaker,” he mumbles as he holds you against him.
Chrissy jumps in between both men, placing her hands on Jason’s chest, “Jason, stop! Let’s just go, you’re bleeding already!”
He tries to push her away but she doesn’t budge, “please.”
“Yeah, listen to your girlfriend, Jason,” Eddie spits.
The tension is high and the anger is all around you as you all stare each other down.
“Get the fuck out of here!” Eddie yells at him.
Jason scoffs, “fucking prick,” he mumbles.
Chrissy looks back to you, intense and angry eyes staring at you.
“You’re gonna regret that.”
“Just fuck off, Chrissy,” you mumble.
She rolls her eyes, scoffing at you and Eddie before she leaves with Jason.
“Jesus,” Steve mumbles, finally letting go of you, “are you okay?” he asks with a soft tone in his voice.
Eddie turns to you as well, rushing towards you, his concerned eyes are the first thing you see when you look at his face, he grabs your hand, checking your knuckles for any injuries but you pull your hand away and look down, “I’m fine.”
You take a deep breath and close your eyes, the moment you feel yourself relaxing. Your tears come back, threatening to spill.
Steve whispers your name, still staring down at you in worry. What Chrissy said about your dad was true, he saw it in your eyes when she said it.
“W-What happened?” Eddie asks as he looks between you and him.
Steve avoids his eyes, not knowing what to say.
Your breathing quickens, eyes burning as you open them.
How does she know?
“C-Can someone take me home, please?” you asked brokenly.
Both men stare at you in concern and sadness, wanting nothing more than to pull you into a hug.
Eddie glances at Steve who gives him a sad smile and a look that tells him; she needs you now.
“I’ll walk you home, sweetheart,” Eddie whispers.
“Do you want me to drive you?”
Eddie shakes his head, “no, it’s fine, the motel isn’t that far away.”
“Yeah,” you say, raising your head to look at Steve, you try to give him a smile, “see you tomorrow?”
He nods, taking your hand, he squeezes it softly, “yeah, call me later if you need me, okay?”
Your gaze softens, squeezing his hand back, you smile, “okay, good night, Stevie.”
“Good night, y/n,” he whispers, pulling you closer, he kisses the top of your head, “I’m sorry about what happened.”
“It’s okay, I’ll be okay.”
Your words worry Eddie even more, he frowns, heart aching in his chest when he sees the glint of sadness in your eyes. He reaches for your hand after you pull away from Steve.
The first five minutes of your walk are spent in silence. You don’t speak up and neither does he, despite the concern and the anger he still feels as he thinks of Chrissy and Jason.
You sniffle, trying to keep the tears from spilling. You look ahead, watching the snow fall, painting everything even whiter than before. The cold wind is harsh and it only makes your tears well up even more.
A hollow feeling settles inside of you.
Images of your dad laying dead on the bathroom floor are back in your mind, images you always try to push out, you don’t want to think about it, you hate thinking about it.
You feel nauseous and scared when you think of Eddie being in his place.
Was she telling you the truth?
Eddie never gave any signs that he was using drugs. He never wiped his nose after leaving the bathroom, he never sneaked away, his pupils looked normal, his skin was clean, his behavior was normal and yet, her words left you feeling sick and anxious.
You can’t do this.
You can’t lose him.
You can’t go through this again.
“I can’t do this.”
You stop walking and let go of his hand. Eddie halts in his tracks, looking down at your hand before he glances at you, “w-what?”
Your bottom lip quivers. You don’t look up at him, you can’t.
“I can’t do this again,” you mumble.
Your hands are shaking, not from the cold but from the fear. His heart breaks all over when he sees how broken and scared you look. Rushing towards you, he cups your cheeks, “what are you talking about?” he whispers as he tries to get you to look into his eyes.
“I can’t stay in the band.”
His stomach drops, eyes flashing with fear, “what?”
Tears brimmed your eyes as you finally looked up at him, “are you using drugs?”
You search for the truth in his eyes but you only find shock and confusion.
“I– what?”
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