#the dursleys fucking suck

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I'm back and ready to make you cry

Slytherin!Harry AU.

Imagine 11 year-old Harry developing a crush on 11 year-old Draco

And because he doesn't know how else to show affection, he starts cleaning his side of the dorm, washing his clothes, doing his homework, etc...

And Little Innocent Confused Draco™ is like ??? because "why is Harry doing the house elves' chores? He okay?"

Eventually, though, Harry tells Hermione about what he's been doing and why, and she's so sad for Harry, but also decides to help him show Draco affection without being a fucking servant.

Years later, after the war, after Hogwarts, after getting married, Harry remembers and tells Draco, and they're both kind of sad but find it pretty funny in the end.

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Ron literally mentions on the train in book one "I think we have a [Muggle] cousin who's an accountant but no one talks about him much" like...wouldn't Arthur just...go talk to his cousin?

And another thing why are wizards in Harry Potter so confused about how muggle society works when it’s established in lore that most wizards at this point have muggles in their families or are muggle borns themselves that’s something that confused me even when I was a kid

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Hey there! I woud realy like to know what do you think about Harry's and Dudley's relationship

Rereading the books I figured that they have a resemblance of a sibling dinamic. A fucked up one for that mater, but they where still raised together

What's your opinion about this, basead on the books

Like, a very fucked up sibling dynamic where the parents have clear favorites. Though, I don't know if I'd personally call their dynamic sibling-like. Yeah, they were raised together, but their dynamic lacks a lot of the aspects sibling dynamics usually come with — and I'm not sure what's the word for it, bit it's a sense of belonging, of sorts.

Like, siblings, even ones that have a crap relationship, feel a certain affinity and responsibility for each other. Harry and Dudley don't really have that. They don't consider each other under the 'family' category in their own minds.

Like, Harry saves Dudley from the Dementors, not because he's supposedly 'family', but because he isn't. Harry doesn't really think of the Dursleys as family. He saves Dudley because it's the right thing to do. Because as awful as Dudley is, he doesn't deserve to get his soul sucked out by a dementor. Harry saves him because he's a good person, not because he cares for Dudley.

And Dudley only starts the process of thinking of Harry as family really after the dementor attack. He doesn't really see Harry as family as they grow up, I think.

They see each other more like a roommate you don't like but have to live with rather than a sibling.

Just, like, think of Fred and George, they play mean pranks on Rom, and they're incredibly rude & mean to Percy, who is rude right back when he can. There is animosity, there are fucked up elements in the dynamic (Molly constantly compares F & G to their older brothers in an incredibly unfair way) — and yet, they care. Percy cares for his siblings so much. Fred and George may have their cruel moments, but they don't actually want any of their siblings hurt. There is an undercurrent of love and loyalty and belonging — a sense of a family unit, even if it's a messed up one. Harry & Dudley don't really have that unit aspect of it. Their dynamic is much more simple growing up. There isn't the complexity that comes with a messed up sibling dynamic where they truly care against their better judgment. That's how I see it, at least.

Like, Dudley and Harry only have the fucked up aspects without the parts that make a sibling dynamic feel like a sibling dynamic. They don't really feel like family. They don't even know each other well enough to register as overly familiar with each other the way siblings do, especially once Harry starts going to Hogwarts.

So, I don't really see their dynamic as being sibling-like.

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I am re-reading OotP. I am so disappointed in Remus (it's ok he's still the loml and he could still get it).

Like this man constantly pulls the rug from under my feet. For one, he's so cute when he worries about Harry or comforts Molly for the 100th time in the book...or when he makes sure the kids are okay or sits with the werewolf at the hospital (although it was probably to avoid Molly's wrath lol).

But MAN, when Harry firecalls Sirius because he is so disgusted with his dad, Remus let me down.

P.618 "Then, Lupin sait quietly, 'I wouldn't like you to judge your father on what you saw there, Harry. He was only fifteen-'" EXCUSE ME WHAT?!?

Then Harry says "I'm fifteen!" Damn right he is and he is not nearly as vile as his dad was.

P.619 "'Was he playing with the Snitch?' said Lupin EAGERLY." My man is reminiscing of his teenage years watching James bully Snape. REMINISCING.

I struggle with this because I found "Snape's Worst Memory" very sad and painful to read and here it feels that, for a character who SEEMS to have so much empathy for others...makes me wonder how much of this is an act (both the laughing and being empathetic). I wonder if his reaction would have been the same had Sirius not been there? Remus is so fucking desperate to please. That's all he wants really, for people to like him. Sirius is one of his only friends left, so he was not going to start admonishing him in front of his godson, right?

Love you Remus but you suck man :( but i love you because you suck.

Both very tasty examples of Remus-isms. Thanks for sharing them. This man is a mess... his Lycanthropy is nothing compared to the small things he does that are unhealthy, mean and... Remus-y.

One of my favourites is when Harry is almost desperately 'joking' about how the Dursleys think of him, and Remus just keeps shrugging him off: Ch3 pg54

Lupin was sealing a letter addressed to the Dursleys. “Excellent,” said Lupin, looking up as Tonks and Harry entered. “We’ve got about a minute, I think. We should probably get out into the garden so we’re ready. Harry, I’ve left a letter telling your aunt and uncle not to worry —” “They won’t,” said Harry. “That you’re safe —” “That’ll just depress them.” “— and you’ll see them next summer.” “Do I have to?” Lupin smiled but made no answer.

It is such a small thing. Ultimately he is just telling Harry he has written to his guardians - which isn't bad of him, necessarily. If Moody was telling harry he wrote the letter i'd say 'wow he's being gentle and polite today'. He is just doing his job as an adult...

...But Remus KNOWS Harry. Harry isn't just some kid he is acting responsible for: he adores him. Harry is desperate for role models. He needs emotional support. But Remus just does the bare minimum. He gives him nothing. he keeps him, emotionally, at arms length.

When people say Lupin is a good dad to Harry - absolutely not. He was barely an uncle. He was a bit scared of Harry, I think.

As you pointed out - he adores his memories of the past, when he felt free and happy and supported, when he had friends by his side every day and they had fun together. Rose-tinted glasses. When he could believe that he was a good werewolf.

But Harry is so much fucking better then all of them. He puts them to SHAME. Remus doesn't want to have his pristine past poisoned by facing the fact he wasn't a 'good werewolf' at all. He was a bloody irresponsible one, not in a 'silly boys' way either. They acted terribly and he continues to act so now, as an adult.

He knows all this in his heart... but those memories are all he has.

He is stuck in that past, he hasn't really ever grown up. He even 'plays' professor - the cool, fun teacher everyone likes. Sirius? Sirius looks to the future, generally. "What can I do next?" He has his own childishness and trauma, but the past is the past and the future is controlled by the present.

Remus wants to sit and sulk in the past. If he had a penseive like Albus he would be drowning himself in it, day in and day out. it takes Tonks, Harry and a fucktonne of support to grow him up. Which is cool! Sometimes people need it, and its worth it in the end.

I don't think Remus' reaction would have changed much without Sirius there. Maybe he would have just been a little quieter, but I think his feelings would remain largely the same: They are good memories. Perhaps they didn't act the best, but they were only kids, right...? (pointedly ignoring the fact that other kids, like Harry, act so much better than they did without even trying.)

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harry potter/draco malfoy

goodnight hero, goodnight prey

After the war Harry wakes up inside his cupboard, in the body of his ten year old self. It can only mean one thing. His plan worked.

or

A Harry from a dark future goes back in time for less than altruistic reasons, taking down all the Death Eaters in the process will just be the cherry on top.

good morning, love

Harry wakes up with the sunrise.

He hates doing it, always has, but all those years being forced to get up at five in the morning just to cook breakfast for the Dursleys that he wouldn't even be allowed to touch left him with that particular quirk.

But he's not there anymore

He's not in Hogwarts, either. Somehow, he survived his school years, he survived a war, he won that war, and now he's living in Grimmauld Place and feeling... quite good actually.

After all, he has his Draco sleeping next to him.

Backfire

Draco tried to curse Potter with a chastity spell. Potter bounced the spell back to him. Draco wouldn't be able to come unless Potter allowed it.

Draco was beyond fucked.

Buckshot

All Harry knew was that Malfoy was definitely up to something, and he was going to figure out what it was.

Then blond shit shot that damn spell at him. In hindsight, that had been one of the best things that ever happened to Harry.

lately it feels alright

Draco isn't even planning on having morning sex. He's getting ready to leave for class when Harry pounces. The four eyed monster just drags him to the bed and kisses him like hasn't seen him in years, like they haven't just spent a night in each other's arms. Potter's ridiculous like that.

Draco just knows he'll end up being late for class (and he hopes Harry's dormmates are heavy sleepers.)

angels like you

It slips out of him while he has Draco pinned down on the floor.

"Let's have another one," Harry says as he sucks on the bite mark in Draco's beautiful neck.

It turns out to be one of his best ideas.

bad idea, right?

Draco knows he shouldn't be doing this.

As he stands in front of the mirror, looking back at a face that doesn't belong to him, he knows that what he's doing is a mistake, but he keeps going anyway. He doesn't recognize the person in the mirror, but he knows he looks great, he looks sexy, like temptation.

It's perfect.

If Harry is going to cheat on him with someone, it's definitely with this girl.

let's (not) pretend

His wife has filled the house with chintz. To keep it real I fuck him on the floor.

You Show Me Yours (And I'll Show You Mine)

"What is that!?" Draco practically shouted. "That—thing between your legs! What is it? and why is it so... big?"

"My prick?" he asked, confused. "It's always been big."

Draco frowned at him. "It's weird. I've never seen one."

That just confused Harry. "Then what do you have down there?"

"It's just different," Draco huffed, his eyes locked on Harry's cock. “Maybe it’s a muggle thing.”

"Show me?" Harry asked.

Draco bit his bottom lip, considering it. "Alright."

when rome's in ruins

The first time Draco met the Boy-Who-Lived, he'd been drunk in a muggle bar in the middle of London.

The second time they met, Harry had been sitting on the front seat for his first Potions class of the year.

Needless to say, Draco knew he was in for a long year.

hit the brakes before you crash your broom

Punishment was not something Draco liked. It was by definition never enjoyable, and he more than understood that, but he also accepted that it was something he desperately needed.

That's where Potter comes in.

“Your problem, Draco,” he said conversionally, “is that you always want to have the upper hand, always have to have the last word. You don’t know when to stop, whether you're winning or losing, and tonight, I’m not stopping either.”

shades of green

Meeting Harry Potter for the second time doesn't go the way Draco expects.

"Malfoy. Draco Malfoy," he introduces himself with a hand stretched out, trying to follow the script he had memorized in his head.

Harry gives him a cold once over, and ever so slowly, he takes Draco's hand in his own, his grip so tight it almost hurts.

That's his first clue.

The Road To Here

Harry's not sure when exactly he went from wanting to break Malfoy's face whenever he saw him to wanting to stuff him full with his pups, but if he were to make an educated guess, he'd say it was about... five minutes after he figured out what wanking was.

But still, he was a rational human, he could fight Malfoy during the day and then wank to images of Draco during the night, it was a perfect system… Right until he presented as an alpha and all of his repressed desires bursted out of him like a dam breaking.

The Birth of Venus

A glimpse of silver is all it takes for Harry fall hard and fast. He may not know who, or even what the creature is, but he's nothing if not stubborn, he had to learned how to survive on his own, how to live, how to thrive and go for what he wants.

And what he wants is for the pretty blond to want him as much as Harry does him.

toxic (a taste of your lips)

“You could always let him fuck you,” Pansy said to Draco. “I'd pay to see that.”

Draco made a face.

“Oh, we know you would,” Theo said evenly, “but Draco here is too proud to lose his topping gold star.”

“He's scared that he'll like it a little too much and will forget how his dick works,” Blaise added unhelpfully, and Draco felt his whole face turn red with fury.

He stuck his tongue out at them. What did they even know?

Contrary to Common Convention

After a failed first time with Harry, Draco is ready to run away and pretend it never happened, but the omega is not willing to let something so small ruin their budding relationship.

"Can we just... Can I try something?" Harry asks, his voice almost desperate as a wild idea comes to him.

Draco's expression is pained, but he takes a deep breath before speaking, and putting all his trust on Harry, the alpha asks. "What did you have in mind?"

james potter+harry potter+james sirius potter/draco malfoy

A Potter Tradition

Saying Jamie is excited to go back home for the holidays falls short.

After recently turning seventeen, he's more than ready to enjoy all the benefits adulthood brings, like using magic outside of school, getting his apparating license, and more importantly, joining his dad and grandpa in the family traditions.

He's been waiting for this moment since he learned about it, and now, as the train reaches the station, there's only one thought in his mind.

He can't wait to join the Potter tradition of breeding Draco's pussy.

sirius black/harry potter

You Put A Collar Around My Neck (I Call It Love)

If you were to ask anyone in Privet Drive about Sirius, they would tell you that he’s little Harry Potter’s dog. He’s a bit scary given his size, almost as big as the boy himself, but he’s otherwise harmless… as long as you treat Harry well, that is.

If you were to ask Harry, the answer probably wouldn’t be much different, either. Sirius is always Harry’s obedient puppy. He’s trained him very well, after all.

james potter/severus snape

contact with the enemy

No plan survives contact with the enemy. Severus should have remembered those words before he tried getting one over James Potter.

But luckily for him, he gets exactly what he wants, just maybe not how he wanted it.

sirius black/harry potter/James potter/lucius malfoy/draco malfoy

oh brother, we'll go deeper than the ink

The parchment seems to contain a family tree. Right below Sirius, and connected to James Potter and Lucius Malfoy are two names written in perfectly clear calligraphy.

Harry James Potter Black ; Draco Lucius Malfoy Black

His jaw falls, leaving his mouth wide open while Draco finally regains his voice. "So you're telling us that Sirius Black—"

"Sirius got both of our dads up the duff!?" Harry interrupts, finishing Draco's sentence for him.

or,

the one where Harry and Draco discover their true parentage almost one year deep into their rivals-turned-friends-with-benefits situationship

we'll take the trail marked on our fater's map

Sirius should have known this would happen eventually.

He doesn't say anything when he sees it, but he notices it. It's impossible not to.

He sees the way Draco’s eyes travel down when Harry stretches in the morning and his shirt rides up, the way Harry's breath falters when Draco bends over to pick a stray piece of the board game they’re playing.

He notices because he’s looking, too.

or,

the one where Harry and Draco band together to make their dad(dy) lose his mind.

i'll be harder than your husband to get along with

It all started when the Dark Lord lured the Potter brat into the Department of Mysteries, only to end up being exposed to the masses after Lucius failed to get the prophecy from him.

Lucius knows what that means for him. It's the third time he has failed Him, amd he knows this time he won't come out of it alive.

Maybe that's why he does it. When he apparates, he goes not to the Dark Lord, or to his wife. No. He goes where he promised himself he would never go back to.

He goes to Sirius Black.

or,

the one where Lucius is not having a good time, and gets some comfort from his family

my lover's blood rushes right through me

There's a boy sleeping on the chair next to James' bed.

When he wakes up, he blinks a couple of times, running a hand through his hair to push it out of his face, and in doing that he reveals a pair of familiar green eyes, and a scarred forehead that James would recognize anywhere.

“Harry…?” he asks, his voice barely above a whisper.

“Dad?” the boy—his son replies, voice full of something raw, green eyes shining with wonder.

or,

the one where James wakes up from a very long nap and then proceeds to question his life choices.

blaise zabini/ron weasley

Bullseye

Set after chapter 4 of Buckshot.

Ron leaves the party drunk and is followed by Blaise.

They both know what they want, even if only one of them is willing to admit it.

It's no matter, Blaise will give it to him regardless.

harry potter/fenrir greyback

Gathering all his remaining strength, Fenrir howled loudly into the air, after which he knelt and fell to the ground, his eyes rolling to the back of his skull as he lost consciousness, his broken body left sprawled on the ground.

The Boy and the Bitch (written in collaboration with AlexWolf292)

He didn't know it, but on the other side of the clearing, a young boy was walking towards him, his green eyes perfectly visible even in the darkness of the night.

Help was coming, but it wouldn't come for free.

derek hale/stiles stilinski

he's all that and more

One of the first things people learn in St. Ailbe's is that you don't mess with Stilinski.

At first he doesn't seem like much, just 147 pounds of pale skin and fragile bones, an hyperactive kid with gangly limbs that is unable to speak without some form of sarcasm, his first impression is harmless enough.

But that impression never lasts long.

or

5 times Stiles showed he was more than he seems + 1 time he didn't need to

midnight present

By the time the moon went down and Derek came back home, Stiles was deeply asleep.

The sight of his mate would've been enough to work him up on a regular day, but then he noticed them.

Stiles was wearing gray boxers.

Stiles was wearing the special gray boxers.

Douche Wolf

When Stiles Stilinski appeared at his door asking him to go with him to look for a dead body, Jackson knew he only had two choices:

one, close the door on his face and spend the rest of the night worrying that he was going to get himself stuck in a bear trap and die

or

two, suck it up and go with him so he can get him out of the bear trap when he inevitably gets stuck in it.

He could also ask Danny or Lydia to go with them, but Danny was busy taking care of his little sister and Lydia would rather eat glass than spend the night running around in the preserve. So really, he had only one real option. - Or, a season 1 retelling where Jackson gets bitten instead of Scott, because there is no Scott at all

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(Random) Must Read Drarry & Tomarry Fanfics

i know ive no excuse as to why it’s been so long since i last post – i was busy with life yknow & at some point i thought that my Drarry/Tomarry time was done but noooo – these knuckleheads just dont want to leave me alone, no matter what fandom ive joined – Drarry/Tomarry fandom would always be my safespace & comfort space & i would always come back home to them SO im back & hopefully may be of service again – so my fellow drarry/tomarry lovers heres some random drarry&tomarry fics that certainly help me get back to reading ! enjoy lovelies ♡

drarry fics :

Running on Air by eleventy7

Platform : AO3

Tags : Alternate Universe – Canon Divergence, Broken Draco Malfoy, Broken Harry Potter, Angst, So much Angst, Involvement of Time-Turners, Time-traveling Gone Wrong, Draco Malfoy needs a Hug, Harry Potter needs a Hug, Quidditch Superstar Ginny Weasley, Mystery, Drama, Friendship, Slow Burn, Romance, etc.

( Rated T, 74,880 words, multichapter, completed )

Draco Malfoy has been missing for three years. Harry is assigned the cold case and finds himself slowly falling in love with the memories he collects.

THIS IS A MASTERPIECE & IT’S UR LOST IF U STILL HAVEN’T READ IT BECAUSE IT’S SUPERB. THIS FIC GIVES U THE FEELS & ARGH JUST READ THE DAMN THING !!!

The Body Keeps Score by Anonymous

Platform : AO3

Tags : Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst and Porn, Porn with Feelings, Mutual Pining, enemies to fuck buddies to lovers, sorta - Freeform, more like, enemies to fuck buddies to friends to lovers, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Trauma, Healing, Boundaries, Falling In Love, Touch, exploring the parameters of consent, Drarry being Drarry, etc.

( Rated E, 13,571 words, oneshot, completed )

Draco cries during sex.

A story about touch, intimacy, and the healing we find through mutual trust and love.

✨feels✨

Worth Losing Sleep Over by MelCalder

Platform : AO3

Tags : Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, PWP, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha/Omega, Alpha Draco Malfoy, Omega Harry Potter, Hogwarts Eighth Year, Self-Lubrication, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, First Time, Loss of Virginity, Knotting, Scared Harry, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Mildly Dubious Consent, Smut, Humor, Fluff and Smut, Hurt/Comfort, kind of, A Pinch of Angst, etc.

( Rated E, 9,491 words, oneshot, completed )

Draco is kind of exhausted, but some things are worth losing sleep over. And study time.

It’s been so long since ive last read abo trope featuring our boys & well, i want more.

One Day’s Difference by MelCalder

Platform : AO3

Tags : Fluff, Established Relationship, non-graphic birth, Pregnant Draco Malfoy, Midwife Luna Lovegood, Vaginal Birth, Draco Malfoy has an artificial vagina, Smitten Harry Potter, Eccentric Draco Malfoy, etc.

( Rated E, 10,307 words, oneshot, completed )

Draco’s sacrifices his god-given body and has (mostly) no regrets.

if u want to read realistic depiction of a pregnant (mpreg) Draco then fucking read this shit

tommary fics :

Holly & Yew by LovelyLotus

Platform : AO3

Tags : Childhood Friends, Magically Powerful Harry Potter, Eventual Healer Harry Potter, Wool's Orphanage (Harry Potter), Smart Harry Potter, Possessive Tom Riddle, Child Abuse, Master of Death Harry Potter, Historical Inaccuracy, Time Travel, Alternate Universe - Childhood Friends, Growing Up Together, Possessive Behavior, Smitten Tom Riddle, Parseltongue, Soul Bond, Codependency, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Harry is bad at eating because the Dursleys suck, 1930s, 1940s, World War II, Future Power Couple in the Making, Self-Harm, They are besotted with each other, Animal Death, Slow burn but very Tom and Harry centric, minor necromancy, Tom Riddle Loves Harry Potter, Harry Potter Loves Tom Riddle, Childhood Sweethearts, Harry Potter & Tom Riddle Attend Hogwarts Together, Ambiguous Romantic Relationships, Their relationship will be pretty lovey-dovey from the start, Oblivious Harry Potter, Unhealthy Relationships, First Year: Complete, Second Year: Complete, Homophobia, etc.

( Rated M, 214,621 words, multi-chaptered, ongoing )

After a bout of accidental magic when Harry is six, Vernon goes too far. When Harry wakes up, he is gravely wounded and more than fifty years in the past in another world. After some shuffling, Harry ends up at Wool's. There, he meets Tom Riddle, his mysterious roommate, eventual best friend, and the love of his life.

Inspired by a doctor he meets in the past, Harry is determined to go into medicine and protect other children like himself and Tom. Tom has his own dream of becoming Prime Minister. The boys quickly become inseparable and are determined to help each other down their paths to build a life together.

He wanted Harry. He had never coveted anyone this much.

Tom understood now that some part of him had never given up on having a… friend. Someone who understood him more than anyone else. Someone who would always take his side.

In a flash, he knew he would do anything to have Harry Faye’s loyalty.

this is a widely known fic nowadays, ive seen it being on the top recommendation list on many platform.. & it’s totally worth the hype 🖤

to have and to hold by partakeninwitchery

Platform : AO3

Tags : Auror Harry Potter, Minister for Magic Tom Riddle, Established Relationship, Domestic Fluff, at least i think it is, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Obscurials (Harry Potter), only mentioned you don't meet her, Sane Tom Riddle, as sane as he can be anyway, harry too tbh, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, No Boy-Who-Lived (Harry Potter), Alternate Universe - No Voldemort, tom could've tho, etc.

( Rated ?, 2,531 words, oneshot, completed )

“Everything alright, Harry?” Tom said, walking into the kitchen.

Harry froze where he was bringing the cup of hot tea to his lips, he’d thought Tom would be at work until late. He slowly put the mug back down, gritting his teeth through the twinges of pain moving his arm caused. He could only hope his husband didn’t recognise the faint smell of a pain potion mixed in his tea.

just tom being overprotective over harry – nothing to take seriously, except tom took everything to personal matters (hahahaha)

The Darkening of Your Soul by Maeglin_Yedi

Platform : AO3

Tags : Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Time Travel, Time Travel Fix-It, Alternate Universe - Time Travel, Do-Over, Fix-It, Fix-It of Sorts, Eventual Smut, Eventual Happy Ending, Master of Death Harry Potter, Bottom Harry, Morally Grey Harry Potter, Consensual Underage Sex, eventually, Sane Tom Riddle, Possessive Tom Riddle, Top Tom Riddle, Idiots in Love, Harry Potter is a Horcrux, Harry Potter is So Done, Harry Potter is a Brat, Harry Potter is Bad at Feelings, BAMF Neville Longbottom, Neville Longbottom is a Good Friend, Manipulative Albus Dumbledore, Misguided Albus Dumbledore, Angst and Humor, Maybe some character bashing, Slytherin Harry Potter, Good Slytherins, Slytherins Being Slytherins, Oblivious Harry Potter, Sane Voldemort, Somewhat Good Voldemort, Harry Potter is the Heir to the House of Black, POV Harry Potter, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Mental Health Issues, Past Child Abuse, etc.

( Rated M, 260,497 words, multi-chaptered, ongoing )

Harry is betrayed. Harry gets a second chance to do it all over again.

There is just one catch. If Harry gets to keep his memories from his previous life, so does Voldemort.

THIS IS ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING TOMARRY FICS I’VE EVER READ HANDSDOWN ! like it gives u hindsight & how butterfly effects works & so on ! this fic deserves all the attention it gets really ! Oh, & tommy boy has blue eyes in here – that wasn't s crucial information but i can’t stop thinking abt that

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Random Headcanons for Drarry (which I'm going to include into my fanfiction)

Harry Potter

growing up at the Dursleys - disgusting muggles;

Abuse/Neglect/and all those good things...

at the age of 6, teleports in front of WolfStar; gets adopted, receiving a new name - Hades Perseus Black (the irony of him being called after Medusa's beheader) and being sorted in Slytherin, cuz he belooooong;

also he the Slytherin Princess cuz I say so

Draco Malfoy

Harry's boy- I mean best friend;

crushing on him since they met (god so cheesy) - his father will definitely hear about this;

smart boi who likes books and potions;

Slytherin's Prince

Fred & George Weasley

cuz we love the twins;

are also in Slytherin;

cunning & ambitious pranksters;

worthy Weasleys;

secretive and always together... very sus...

Hermione Granger

also goes to Slytherin;

Family Secrets are revealed;

very devious and Pansy Parkinson is there as well soooo you already know where I'm getting at

One of the Mother Hens of the group

Pansy Parkinson

knows all the gossip in the wizarding world

most likely knows your secrets too

Hermione's best friend and possible girlfriend

Fashionista and the other Mother Hen of the group

Theo Nott & Blaise Zabini

being the gay couple they are and we support;

don't call Theo 'Theodore' if you don't wanna wake up with nasty hexes;

Blaise is the cool and laid-back one compared to his partner

Cedric Diggory

lives cuz he deserves to and is the same age as the twins;

surprisingly gets resorted into Slytherin;

likes Luna a lot

the Twins' Best Friend and secret partner in crime

Luna Lovegood

we love and so does Cedric; shhh don't tell anyone, but Luna probs knows about it already...;

same age as Harry and the rest

her destiny leads her to be part of Slytherin~

Sirius & Remus Black

also known as Siri & Remy (or Moony);

best parents award;

teaching together and supporting Slytherin against Gryffindor;

everybody knew that they should have been in Slytherin but nobody could prove it

Severus Snape

called Sevy or Sev behind his back;

Regulus is his Soulmate - forget Lily;

being done with everyone, but has a soft heart for his snakes and supports Drarry;

WolfStar's Bestie~

Regulus Black

Reggie!!

lives and loves Severus Snape;

enough said..................

teaches History of Magic at Hogwarts;

enjoys playing pranks with Sirius, and the Weasley Twins

Lucius & Narcissa Malfoy

lovingly called Luc (Lucy - by Siri, Remy, Sevy & Reggie) & Cissa;

awesome parents

fighting the Potters

Voldy Moldy, I mean 'Tom' Marvolo Riddle

NOT the bad guy here (duh)

doesn't look like a snake hybrid whatever that was;

resembles his younger hot self;

don't call him Tom or Tommy - he will try to skin you alive and then torture you;

may have a thing for Bellatrix

Bellatrix Black (hopefully a Riddle soon)

the best Aunt even if she is a bit crazy.....

okay maybe a lot of crazy...

she's still crushing on Marvolo, which ain't a secret

Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore

head chicken of the flaming chickens

Chief Asshole of Wizengamot

Master fucking Manipulator

Daisy Potter

Harry's younger twinsister

supposed "Girl Who Lived"

nicknamed Lazy Daisy & Crazy Daisy

a fucking bitch, who has a crush on the very Slytherin and very gay Draco Malfoy

Lily & James Potter

the worst parents

suck badly and so do the rest of the Weasleys (of course with the exception of the twins, Charlie & Bill - tho the latter two don't really appear in my fanfic)

Molly & Arthur Weasley

can't tell their twins apart and disregard them

simply bad parents

it's all about the money

Percy Weasley

turns into an asshole after Oliver Wood and Marcus Flint got together;

actually fought Marcus, but sucks for him cuz Marcus became even more handsome

Ron Weasley

the worst friend one could have

likes fame and money

very jealous

major bully

Ginny Weasley

too obsessed with gay Harry, who rejects anything and everything the girl gives him

screeching voice

ridiculous personality

[buckybarnesss]

Heather~~~

What is your opinion on Lydia's mom?

Especially in s4 and s5

I feel like there's a lot to think about when you think about how Lydia got the banshee gene from her Dad's mom - and Lydia's parents are divorced since s2? Maybe?

Feels like a lot of strange emotional issues there for sure!

all the parents in teen wolf kind of suck tbh. it's something we should acknowledge more i think. teen wolf deals so much with growing up and part of that is realizing that your parents are humans which makes them flawed and fallible.

natalie martin unfortunately didn't get much characterization until later in the series which makes her hilariously sort of neglectful and checked out in the early days of the show. like girlie pop let stiles into her daughter's bedroom while lydia was in a negligee and drugged up.

but susan walters is delightful and an icon so she became a more and more frequent guest start but lbr she's also married to linden ashby which is part of the equation there.

it's always been an interesting choice to me that they never recast lydia's father. he was present when she was in the hospital in season 2 and than he disappears but yet lydia's banshee powers come from his side of the family.

that alone puts his comments about lydia's behavior in the tell in a different perspective. still shitty but interesting with hindsight.

ms. ramsey: let me tell you, there's plenty to say about lydia. mr martin: did I not predict this? natalie: here we go! total nuclear meltdown, as usual. mr martin: what is it? her grades? concentration issues? erratic behavior? natamlie martin: i'm not the one who told her she had to choose who she wants to live with! as if that wouldn't warp a sixteen-year-old girl. mr. martin: just tell us what the problem is.

i also find the comment elias stilinski made during his lucid moment in sundowning about natalie to be, well, mean but also accurate about her and also about lydia.

elias stilinski: you're natalie martin's daughter. am i right? you look like her. she was pretty once too. she also liked to talk like she was the smartest person in her room.

it's their worst traits. lydia in season 1 is all about this. in the beginning lydia is vain and condescending. natalie can be as well as it's of course where lydia learned it from.

natalie martin is someone who is characterized by her fears in a lot of ways which makes her so very frustrating. especially in the later seasons and her fear pertaining to lydia comes directly from what happened to lorraine.

she's both afraid for lydia and afraid of lydia's abilities. natalie does love her daughter and we see her attempt to support her frequently but it often falls just short of what lydia actually needs. natalie's fear prevents her from fully understanding lydia.

she never quite overcomes this either even though by the end of the show she knows the big secret. she's aware of the supernatural but she refuses to acknowledge it properly even with her own daughter.

forgive this reference, but it's kind of dursley-ish. she wants everything to be very normal thank you very much. she fears how other perceive her and her daughter.

i do give her a few points for not running from beacon hills though. she does try to help the kids out in school. it's not always with the greatest understanding but she did cover up the beast incident and tried to get scott, liam and malia to the end of their high school careers.

so i find natalie martin a frustrating character but i think she contrasts really nicely with the other parents like melissa mccall, the sheriff and the argents.

i also find it hilarious that peter kept trying to date her and melissa to fuck with lydia and scott. it's fucked up and manipulative as scott and lydia are his two favorite chew toys that aren't derek but like it's also really funny.

[feliciakainzofspades]

A very stupid Harry Potter thing

So while doing my makeup today, I was spacing into the void and this thought came to me and now that I'm thinking about it, here's a stupid AU that may or may not be fueling my femboy fetish:

So, let's be real, Petunia probably tried the concealer trick to hide Harry's scar. Now, what a lot of people don't know -and actually, I just learned this myself today :D - is you can actually use concealer to highlight and brighten certain areas of your skin.

So, one day Harry's doing the concealer thing before Primary, he notices the glow and experiments before heading out; just the under eye cheek bone area. Oh my gosh, I look like I'm glowing!? Maybe this concealer stuff isn't so bad after all. Heck, now he has girls asking 'Harry, what are you doing? Your skin is glowing?! Teach us our secret!?" Harry's just stunned pikachu silence cause he didn't know how he did that.

Continues doing it, surprising Petunia since she usually had to fight him into wearing it. Whatever, at least we can hide the damn scar and keep him looking normal. Well now it's a double-edged sword, since one night, Vernon left the cupboard unlocked - He hasn't done anything "freaky", we can try this one night. sneaks into the bathroom and gets the mascara out. Okay his eyes were a bit irritated the day after cause obvious being obvious. But no-one knew he took his aunt's, they just knew that one day at school, Harry's lashes are fuller than usual.

This continues under behind the back, Harry's doing paper routes to get allowances cause the Dursleys sure as hell ain't payin' him for his chores. Buys his own stuff and hides them in his 'room'. This continues until Hogwarts, now he's fretting cause "BUT HOW AM I GOING TO GET A NEW PITCH BLACK LIPSTICK FROM MAYBELLINE?!" Finds out about the Vault? "Okay, I rocked this budgeting thing, I got this. Got my school supplies, how much do I have left? Yes! Time to get that Viper liner from Sephora! Should look up magic makeup looks to impress my new classmates"

But. This would start the Malfoy vs. Potter feud It wasn't Draco insulting Ron in front of Harry on the Hogwarts Expression Wasn't Draco bragging about his broom collection at Malfoy Manor while getting fitted for robes. Oh nooooo

It was because "Uh, who is this kid that's a lower status than me rocking a killer eyeliner? That wing is so sharp it could kill a person." Tries sucking up to Harry. Got shot down. That was the third Time Potter shot him down! How dare he! Fine, Potter, if that's how it's going to be I'll show to you that I'm the superior one and you will be so awed by me you'll have no choice but to leave that Blood Traitor Weasley.

Thus, began the Hogwarts Makeup Feud; every day, Draco shows up with something mind blowing; amazing blend of colors, gemstones glued to the outer corner of his eyes, he's looking like a fucking Faerie up in here. There's no way Potter will be able to top genuine emeralds and onyxes in a faux mask! Now he'll have to admit I'm his better!

But what's this? Harry shows up with a steady painted mask as his eyeshadow look; a lion mask with nothing but Gryffindor Colors! How many shades of reds and golds did he use?! No matter, one time thing - WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE'S SHOWING OFF A SLYTHERIN LOOK- ARE THOSE SCALES ON HIS FACE?! Potter, what the hell?! "Wig Cap" Wig what?!

This continues no matter what. Philosopher's stone, Harry has UV light eyeliner - how are they glowing without a UV light in Hogwarts? Magic! Chamber of Secrets, he lost some rhinestones while fighting the Basilisk, but hey, the setting spray is insanely powerful and his look hasn't melted yet. When he first died at Voldemort's hand? Voldemort made sure to have someone writing his victory speach.

"I suppose Potter deserves some recognition, write that he died the way he lived, looking like a swan" BITCH HE LIVES AGAIN! And Voldemort now has to live in the afterlife knowing he got taken down by a fuckin' twink who decided to one up Draco one final time.

Draco showed up in a corset top and was still casting spells without problems. Harry's not going down. HE'S FIGHTING VOLDEMORT IN HEELS. SUCK IT MALFOY!

Throughout all seven years, Harry and Draco had been doing this, trying to prove a point to someone. What was that point? What were they trying to tell the other? They don't know but they're not going down without a fight

[craw-dacious]

Thats the art of getting by, by sarewolf

Again, new to marauders. This fic 3 that I’ve read. Feel free to shoot me recs, currently looking for ~100,000 word fic with a good angst balance and no major character death.

Summary: Overall this story was INCREDIBLE. I loved the writing style, such a good amount of angst, and an easy to follow narrative. It raised Harry like exactly how I wanted and was so cutey and sweetly and UGH

SPOILERS BELOW BEWARE

Chapter one

I already like the opening quote. Can tell the writing is going to be good.

God the angst is already great

He’s only 24 wild

I kind of forgot just how much he lost that night, like all of his closest friends were dead. Even in canon, with no world star this probably sucks the worst for Lupin.

Okay I’m actually crying already

I’ve been wanting a babyfic since the first one I read

This is such a hard thing to do, parenting is hard without the trauma and sob storying

Chapter two

I wonder how they are going to reincorporate Sirius

And I’m concerned about Harry’s quietness, I feel like that’s not consistent with who he grows up to be

Hoping for some baby Ron and harry content eventually 

I never give Kudos until the end of the fic, this is incredible and I absolutely adore it already

Literally crying from how sad Remus is Jesus

Chapter three

YES love old lady gossip

Neris is so cute delicious

Plus Harry is opening up a lot, so far very happy chapter!

So gay bruh

HARRY BEING SAD TOO IS KILLING ME JUST A BABY FR

This is actually fucking INFURIATING him being like “Sirius never loved us” like BRO I know you’re being LIED TO but I CANNOT HANDLE IT TOO SAD

Chapter four

Now I need to be a depressed widow with a three year old son who loves me

Like I think just having a child would patch my soul

This is actually the cutest thing ever love love love

I think me and remus lupin are the same person

Like gay traumatized werewolf = teenaged girl

“Oh the memories, oh the love” SO ME

YES RON AND HARRY BEST FRIENDS IM GONNA SOB

Damn he’s in love with Sirius fr fr

Can tell this is a shift, so gonna do a small recap

Wonderful characterization

Remus kind of being forced to push forward is great narratively, a little concerned about how it will work with pacing

They write Harry very well, not annoying as children can often be in fic

Chapter five

This is what I wanted, you see James and Lily in harry and remus is just thoughtful and reflective enough to show the audience the importance of this its just MWAH

Oh my god

Baby trauma. He’s so cute and being such a little bitch

Literally so sad, like remus is such a better parent than the Dursleys could ever be but him knowing what harry had makes it sad

If I have to read “angry fucks” again im gonna lose it, say sex please, at least sometimes

YES HE’S FREEEE

Chapter six

God this sucks, like I know they aren’t truly in danger but the emotional turmoil goes crazy

3 chapters till we get Sirius saying it now

Cannot understate how much remus’s pining and distraught connects to me

Like I can tell they were in love but SO TOXIC which, again, is teenage girl core

Not to diminish the relationship, I think the way teenage girls evaluate breakups and romance is like peak human condition and is incredibly poignant amidst the issues of war and death and loss.

YES FUCK YES HELL YEAH INNOCENT INNOCENT INNOCENTTTTTT FUCK PETER HATE THAT SON OF A BITCH

Chapter seven

UGH I know I said fuck Peter but this still sucks ass

When do I get to see Sirius. Ik I said 3 chapters but I didn’t mean it

Damn Petes evil as fuck

The justice in him being DECLARED innocent is so beautiful. I wish that could’ve happened in the books, he died being known as a shitty, terrible human being

Chapter eight

Ok skip this shit and jump to the gay sex I do not want a flashback rn I need TEARS

Jk obviously its important and builds suspense, well written two with good symbolism

Fuck fuck fuck fuck just kiss please I need them to kiss please

Like I actually cannot watch them be fucking roommates ill vomit

Sobbing sobbing sobbing “I hope not” Jesus fucking christ let me suck the authors dick I love this sm

Chapter nine

Just taking in the idea that both Sirius and Harry see each other as a replacement for James in the books, that is such a beautiful like concept with such horrible influences on how they treat each other and I really want to see how its reconciled here, if its relevant at all

Harry with his two dads that barely speak to each other

I do need reconciliation but making sure the weight of tragedy is like there also seems important

But also, please, just fuck already

Chapter ten

Ok remus time to put your big boy pants on and apologize

Like actually nothing will fix itself until you say sorry man

“He’s pack” BRUH harry

Pls having to tell everyone you’re living with this famous not-criminal is so funny I actually am losing it

Pls just be nice to each other for once bruh

Yay!! Nice!!

They’re so like fucked up its messy brother

Chapter eleven

THIS IS SO CUTE IM GONNA KMS

The dog plushie, the memory album, literally everything god I love Christmas

Omfg. Sweater. Sobbing.

AND HITTING ME WITH ANGST AT THE END. This is such a good joy-depression balance

Like its SO SO SAD like irrevocably depressing and filled with grief but also like LIFE and CHILDHOOD and JOY and bruuuhh

Chapter twelve

evil

Chapter fourteen

Basically skipped twelve and thirteen

Jesus Christ

That was gay sex fs

The dementors kiss scene was fucking heart breaking, like devastatingly sad but obviously Peter deserved it

Actually idk, soullessness is so horrific

Then THE KISS and the SEX and everything it was so raw and good and Jesus fucking christ

I want to have sex with eric again bruh

Just so sad, and so happy at the end with the talk of learning to live with it and just UGH amazing I love it

Literally cannot think of a critique atm, im sure ill have some at the end though

FULL RECAP

Yes I know I skipped 16 and 17 and I'm sorry.

Overall this story was INCREDIBLE. I loved the writing style, such a good amount of angst, and an easy to follow narrative. It raised Harry like exactly how I wanted and was so cutey and sweetly and UGH. I will say I wish there was more to the plot than “everyone is sad and trying to not be anymore”While that is a completely reasonable story, it does make it a little boring. But because this fic is fairly short it works out alright. My only true criticism is going to be on the pacing. I am not sure at all when Harry and Remus were introduced to each other, or how far after that Sirius came into their lives. I also think Harry and Sirius’ connection, while amazing, was a bit unrealistic at the beginning. For a child with this much past to IMMEDIATELY latch onto someone like this is kinda wild, but it works for the story so no big deal honestly. I think characterizations were good, not great. However, this is a situation we haven’t seen marauders in and I’m not super familiar with how marauders are usually characterized outside of reading the books and watching movies, so I’d reevaluate characterization stuff once im more engrossed in the fandom.

This is something I just thought about while adding tags, having moody in this fic was nice. He's a character I'd like to see more out of what I've read so far in marauders

9/10, truly loved this one

[mo0nyy4siir1us]

I had to shower with cold water yesterday and I absolutely hated it (it's autumn where I live, I was fucking freezing) so I'm here today to ruin everyone's day!

What if I said

The Dursleys didn't let Harry shower with warm water

They never even told him he could shower with warm water. They told him it had to be cold or else he "doesn't clean up properly". Basically just lied to him out of pure cruelty, just because they could, just to make his life more of a living hell for him.

Harry didn't know about the existence or how comforting it was to shower with warm water after a cold winter afternoon. He didn't know until during third year he got a cold and Madame Pomfrey ordered him to take a warm bath. He laughed, thought it was a joke. Hermione and Ron looked at him with pure sadness in their eyes as later he explained them what the Dursleys always told him.

"Harry... Who- Who told you that? You've been showering with cold water during winter?" Hermione was horrified and Ron was ready to murder Harry's relatives.

I'm not sorry.

[realitybitesyouknowit]

Pros and cons of Ao3 and Fanfiction

I regularly wonder if i've read a fic or not after opening the link to whatever someone else was looking for in ao3. There's no good way to know unless you A) remember. B) wait a little bit and hope the number of times a link been clicked in history gives it away which not accurate cause I've had tabs open for months and not actually read them. Or C) Have the patience of a saint to scroll through the kudos to see if your tag is there cause I tend to kudos thinks 've finished or started and bookmarked. I wish your kudos stayed at the top of the list so you'd just know. Lord please don't ask me why I don't make collections cause I darn well haven't figured it out. Ergo why I share thinks on here with a million tags in hopes of finding things again if need be. My favorite thing about ao3 is the bookmark and save for later feature that fanfiction lacks. Alternatively I adore the fact fanfiction lets you fave stories and authors and then you can look through your faves to see what you have and haven't read base on authors I.E. for me I'm working my way through Beepkeeper atm didn't realize I hadn't binged them all yet. Not a fan of the follow story feature so much as yes it tells you there's an update in email but you have to remember where you left off yourself.

I also get sucked into the trap of rereading things rather than finishing the other 100 tabs already up because hey I loved that story. Vaguely remember bits and pieces but the ending is doggy so lets recap anyways. I bookmarked that story years ago and forgot about it waiting for updates but now it's finally finished and I need to know it from front to back. Last but not least that story has been bookmarked for ages and remains unfinished must to your dismay but you want to remember what everyone's talking about anyways. I'm about to go cry in a corner because I thought the The much better, Dursley's can fuck off, Slytherins are people too AU series was complete only to realize part 5 hasn't been updated since 2018.

They used the the thing!!!! Like there's a whole prompt about Charlie calling the dragons his kids wearing onsies on this site floating around somewhere and they used it!!!!!I just gaaaah nevermind Harry is just this precious bean that attracts all manner of dangerous and mystical creatures to him. Minnie is a bamf mama cat. Pansy and Hermione are the most terrifying duo in the world plotting world domination with their gf Millie along for the ride. Like This series is gold and its not finished and the cliffies gonna kill me.

[spywitch]

I loved all my elementary school teachers but like the one disappointing thing about all of them is how they loved harry potter and would do literary analysis on it a lot but didn’t realize at all how terribly written it is. Like yes Mrs. M it is at least more complex and better written than Twilight but thats a low low bar.

And the thing is I don’t think a children’s book has to be super well written and have detailed world building or political themes to be a good children’s book. The problem is HP TRIES to and is so awful at it.

[snakehouse-hisshiss]

Snape should have sympathized for Harry, should have been concerned for Harry

After all, he actually knew Petunia. He’s the one that could most vividly imagine a life with her as your Aunt and caretaker *visibly shudders*

[aerodynamicentity]

Some ideas that anyone can use

(w/ credit, you can change whatever you want) (i also may or may not write them)

Merlin

How We Change and Not

Basically BBC's Merlin, but with the parent's. The whole plot follows the love/hate relationship of Balinor & Uther, the immediate friendship of Ygraine & Balinor, the mutual hatred between Hunith & Uther and the suprise love of Ygraine & Uther. Some quest's and adventures on the side like the original series. Angst, fluff, banter, all that good stuff.

Over the Year

On new years eve Arthur comes back, to the suprise of Merlin and Leon (Immortal Leon for the win❗). Over the course of 2023 the knights come back, in their own "very them" ways, learn about the new world and learn to live in peace.

I just want the knights to come back and live a normal peaceful life!!! Also Merthur, but it's a side-plot. Because I love some found-family and platonic love.

New Old

S5!Merlin time travels to the past and try's to make this reality better (I can and will ignore the possible danger of it and I know you will to), while S1!Merlin gets a new mentor (can I call S5!Merlin a mentor?) and S1!Arthur gets gay panic every five minutes.

Merthur, reveal done early, Arthur accepting magic on his own pace, Morgana and Mordred getting the support they need, what else could you want :D !!!

Don't have name for this one yet

Based on the ep where we find Mordred, but instead of Mordred going into hiding he finds Merlin first, who pretends to be his brother. Mordred grows up in Camelot and never turns evil (and so doesn't Morgana), Merlin and Morgana become like older siblings to him, Arthur gets jealous, because they look like a family.

Just a fix-it fic, that I need :')

Glowing Like Gold In My Dreams

Reincarnated!Arthur and Reincarnated!Merlin have dreams of their past life, but they see different parts of it. By that I mean, in life Arthur saw Merlin as a lovable idiot, so now Merlin will dream of the more light-hearted moments, while Merlin saw Arthur as strong, funny, confident and generous and now Arthur will dream of the Merlin that past Arthur never got to see, at least not that much. And they both make art of it. Arthur paints beautiful paintings of his dreams that are all about Merlin and show how amazing he is. Merlin makes music with his band (he plays the violin and piano) about the funny, confident, kind, sarcastic dumbass that he dreams of and fell for.

(sorry for the longer explanation 😅 I just really like this idea and sorry for the maybe shit explanation it's 3:51 (am) and don't worry they do meet)

A Bouquet of Hydrangea's, Yellow and Red Rose's

Arthur gets turned into his 12 year old self, meets Merlin, who showers him with endless love and attention. Needless to say Arthur is confused, but doesn't want this strange man to ever leave. Arthur starts to love Merlin as a father more then his own, he seeks out Merlins approvel more then Uthers, his love, time, affection. And Merlin gives it to him with no problem.

(this summary sucked) Basically Arthur gets turned into his 12 year old self and Merlin acts like a father to him. Arthur gets attached. Arthur learns how to trust and love freely again. Oh and Merlin doesn't mind being seen as a father figure, he's suprised at first, but gets used to it.

Harry Potter

Wtf Is a Weasley?

Just a short fic about harry having his father's eyes & mother's hair and of course being confused as a Weasley by everyone. Even the Weasley's themselves.

Harry Potter and the Fucked Up Wizarding World

Harry at the age of 5 gets safed from the Dursleys and taken in by the Wilson's.

Until the age of 17 everything was wonderful! He had loving parents, one sibling that was his age and a family dog! But one day he meets 3 people who tell Harry what he is. A wizard. Of course he doesn't believe it in the beginning, but they prove that magic is real (they cast a 1st year spell).

Now he has to somehow fix the magic world and not fuck up.

[seriouslysam8]

Brumous Sneak Peek!

Chapter Seven: Occlumency

Sirius sighed, leaning against the lumpy back cushion of the sofa. His eyes glanced to over to the clock on the mantle to see it was half past five in the morning. Harry stirred next to him, his head sliding down the cushion and resting on Sirius’ shoulder. The kid curled in toward Sirius, soft little snores escaping his lips. They had been up all night, Harry too petrified to sleep yet not willing to admit to it. Sirius knew sleep wouldn’t come easy for him, not when the risk of possession haunted them. 

Harry’s glasses dug uncomfortably into his shoulder. Wincing, he reached up a hand and, as gentle as he could, tugged his godson’s glasses off his face. Harry stirred, a low groan sounding in the back of his throat, as he shifted. His legs lifted off the floor, curling up into an odd sitting up fetal position. His knees rested against Sirius’ thighs. A lump formed in Sirius’ throat as he placed a hand on Harry’s knee, remembering how a very little toddler Harry used to curl up against him all the time. Sirius couldn’t help the self-hatred that boiled in his chest. He should have fucking been there for Harry since that awful Halloween night. Except he was a fuck up, a bête noire, a waste of space, a bane to the name godfather. 

Sirius sucked in a breath, his cheek resting against Harry’s unruly mop of hair. There was nothing that Sirius wanted more than to be able to protect Harry, except he didn’t know how. Harry was being attacked in the only way Sirius couldn’t protect him. It was a battle fought within Harry, a space where Sirius could not go. 

The front door creaked open. Sirius was too tired to argue with Dumbledore over keeping Harry, knowing full well that Dumbledore would no doubt try to convince Sirius that the Dursleys’ was the best place for him. All Sirius wanted was to be left alone with his godson and try to keep him as calm as possible so that he could, hopefully, learn Occlumency. Sirius didn’t want to be the one to break into Harry’s mind, but he knew he had to. Harry trusted him, and Sirius just had to figure out how to help him. 

The answer came as Remus appeared in the doorway of the parlor. Sirius’ head carefully left the top of Harry’s, a finger pressing to his lips. The last thing he needed was for Remus to wake up his godson after an all-nighter of worry. Remus seemed to understand as he crept into the room, tugging his wand out of his trouser pocket. He pointed it at Harry and flicked his wrist, a pale-yellow light slithering over him. 

“We can talk now,” Remus announced as he sat down on the coffee table across from Sirius. “How’s Harry?”

“Exhausted,” Sirius replied. “Refused to sleep all night. Said he wasn’t tired, but I’m not a moron.”

Remus nodded. “The Auror Department has already started to interrogate the Death Eaters captured yesterday. Gawain and Sutton are taking the lead. Tegan has been by St. Mungo’s, already asking questions there.”

“But the Ministry is still denying what is happening,” Sirius guessed. 

Remus sighed. “Scrimgeour is meeting with Dumbledore today.”

“He’s taking the meeting?” Sirius asked, his eyebrows raising. 

“Scrimgeour hasn’t been entirely on Fudge’s side,” Remus reasoned. “He has admitted to Dumbledore in the past that the things Harry said about Voldemort’s return made a lot more sense than Fudge’s delusion he’s trying to spin. His hands are tied if he wants to remain Head Auror and provide us access to information, though.”

“Right,” Sirius grumbled. “Like we have a lot of access.”

Remus leaned back on the coffee table. “Look, just be happy he’s willing to hear you out when the time comes. There’s a reason he designated Kingsley and Sutton as the Auror liaisons on the wizard hunt for you. You’re no longer to be kissed upon capture, which is huge. Scrimgeour is willing to let you speak which is more than you had before.” 

“Let me kiss his boots,” Sirius replied, his head lolling back against the sofa. 

“It gets you one step closer to your freedom,” Remus reasoned, his eyes flickering towards Harry. “And one step closer to gaining custody of Harry.”

Sirius swallowed. “He’s staying with me this summer.”

Remus raised his eyebrows. “Did Dumbledore agree to that?”

Sirius nodded. “I think so, though I’m sure he’ll continue to try to convince me all week to send him back to Privet Drive. But I’ll tell you one thing, Dumbledore will have to pry him out of my cold, dead hands.”

Remus blinked at him, an eyebrow arching. “Tad dramatic, don’t you think, Sirius?”