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stephaniedola · 1 year

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i seriously wish i was fucjing normnal why would i rather die than go get my car checkjed out right now

#THERES TOO MANY VARIABLES AND I AM SO DEPRESSED!!!!#the drugs arent working!!!!!#thots et al #im just so scared im gona get stuck there for like 3 hours and i literally dont think i can handle it #like im gonna start eating people #im so angry at the fact i even have to be dealing with this #i could just keep putting it off its not like i have a fucjking life beyond school right now #im just sooooo sick of the up and down #i just wanna throw the car in a swamp tbh

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sophiethewitch1 · 22 days

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When you have DID your inner dialogue can catch you off guard so mine often does and also cracks me up and just now we got the amazing piece of dialogue 'im not sure about go home or go hard today - I think it might just be go home or go home actually' and that's why instead of all the fancy and romantic names people give to their systems I just call mine the comedy club

#sophie speaks #this might just be funny to me and only me again but it did make me laugh out loud #btw we arent like a licensed comedy club or something youd pay to see we are specifically the type full of amateurs who are all drunk #probably on like. cheap but extremely sweet cocktails because despite their posturing the only bitch out here willing to front is me #and i only like extremely sweet drinks. also mulled wine but like mulled wine is frankly peak like idk what to say man #what is life without mulled wine. certainly not as warm ill tell you that much #what was this even about again #im taking new drugs they're working but they are making me interesting in all the wrong ways #i am such a case study #but all hot girls are ❤️❤️❤️

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ragingbullmode · 8 months

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the way i wanna fight this girl at work & turn her into paste so damn bad but instead i gotta play mental gymnastics to make sure me & my friends dont get fired

#personal #idk what her deal even is man !! shes sent several fake emails from burner accounts making up claims were all rude to customers & paints #herself as p much the jesus of the store to the point upper management had gotten involved but they wont do shit bc they dont have ‘proof’#which is like okay yeah its heresay but we all know its her & have proof its her but bc its outside of work shit we have we cant use it to #get her white ass fired 🙄 esp now that shes claiming my friends are doing drugs on the clock & planning to kill ppl #which is not true ????? but management hates the shit out of us so they arent doing anything to even help us while were getting harassed #in silence lolll like. man 😭

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pacifymebby · 9 months

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If you can be arsed with all those tags and fancy giving me brutal advice read away haha

#something is definitely going wrong for me because I want to go out tomorrow night with my mate who is thinking about getting a bag in and #and that lowkey sounds like a lot of fun to me and i wanna chip in but like i think B wants to come out and if he does i cant join in with #my pal because B would very much be against me doing that and like ugh #he doesnt even drink at the moment and i feel like out of nowhere hes matured but in all the wrong ways #like in none of the ways ive been wanting him to for the last few years #but in the ways which mean our nights out arent compatible anymore #and i know im the problem for wanting to be nihilistic hedonistic whatever #but i feel like im getting back the bit of my early 20s covid and working in care robbed me of #and hes already had his phase of that sort of stuff but like would be annoyed with me if i was doing coke around him and stuff #im definitely being selfish and should just say no to the drugs and like be a good girlfriend but #ahhhhhh idk if i cant have christmas like and i didn't get christmas eve at the pub then i kinda want boxing day at the pub with my mates #ugh #a tiny part of me is considering changing my plans with b and being borderline dishonest but also i know that #doing that is going to make whatever problem there is between us worse?#ultimately i know that im morally in the wrong here tbh and also like a bit of a loser

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an1muuarts · 13 days

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it was around 1:30 am when this was recommended to me

and it was actually scary wtf

(also cw for drug overdose if youre gonna watch it)

#this was...so random??#just horror and angst out of nowhere lol #i dont even know when this happens in canon #i dont even see phoenix be the type who would overdose on drugs #hes more like he would take more drugs just cuz he thinks the drugs arent working #but still i dont see him dying from an overdose #well #when i think about it #phoenix isnt the human nokia everyone says he is #sure hes a little sturdier than most #but he's just really lucky #tasers are designed for self-defense #von karma was just trying to scare the two maybe #richard wellington just wanted to retrieve his phone back i think. not to actually kill him #cuz to kill a person with a blunt object requires a lot of strength #for the poison bottle mia actually gave hypotheses on why phoenix survived #and the one in aa4 is an outlier and its just trying to depict a comedic scene #in the video phoenix had been overdosing for almost a month #or thats my interpretation of it #its never actually said how long he had been overdosing #but if its actually the case then luck cant save him #ace attorney #phoenix wright #pwaa #pw aa #rambles

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soggypotatoes · 3 months

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I keep feeling this yearning lately, this tight feeling inside me all the time esp when I'm trying to sleep, an intense sad feeling that nothing I do makes better and I think I'm just yearning for comfort. for someone to talk to me and touch me and look after me a bit. it's just been so long, and I've never let myself experience.. actually can't remember a single time in my life I've let myself experience being comforted lol. every time someone tries I get so tense and anxious and I have to get out of it

#ed mumbles #im running out of ways to deal with it #cutting isnt helping like it used to #drugs are currently making it worse #pet cuddles arent working #baking isnt working i just feel numb after #i need more ambien lol #cause i cant get past that aversion and even if i could #i don't know. theres too many barriers #there have been times #like as a kid crying.. but my mum always ignored me or told me to stop playing dumb #tried once as a teen and she just rolled her eyes and said shes sick of teenage girls #when i tried with my dad he left suddenly while i was talking #HE ASKED ME TO TALK TO HIM ABOHT IT #he left bc i was talking too much and not letting Him talk #a few times cried in school but i just sat there crying and nobody noticed #then i stopped being able to cry #idk man #i just need a hug and for someone to make me tea and be close to me #but at the same time id rather die

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anotherpapercut · 1 year

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people acting like there isn't still very much an active stigma against cannibas and cannibas users is going to be my joker origin story

when i go to the doctor they still put cannibas use under the tab "substance abuse". not even just substance use. it is fully assumed that people who use cannabis, even as a prescription medication, are abusing it. just because you're friends with a couple of dumbass stoners doesn't mean that we've abandoned the idea as a culture that weed is a bad and scary and dangerous and highly addictive drug that will ruin your life if you use it once

#idk what its like in other countries but in the us and especially in red states fear mongering about weed is alive and well #'it ruins lives' -direct quote from a library board member making it so we can be fired for testing positive even w a prescription #i just take umbrage with posts about addiction that go out of their way to mention weed which we all learned in 6th grade is addictive #but dont also mention that this true of all prescription drugs and that a person can be dependant on a drug for health reasons???#yeah i get anxious and cant go a day without weed. because i use it to treat my anxiety and pain. i also get anxious without my wellbutrin #but people arent lining up to make posts about it?? and like you CAN obviously become addicted to prescription drugs its super common!#so i kind of feel like it would be far more useful to say 'this is true of ALL drugs. including weed caffeine and prescriptions'#you should always research ANY drug you take. prescription or not. find out about addictiveness + side effects + other drug interactions #and you should talk to someone if you feel anxious about your relationship to drugs. prescription or not #there have been many times where i was prescribed way too many drugs at once and it made me feel anxious and uncomfortable #so i talked to my doctors and consolidated several and it actually made them work a lot better #locked reblogs because i KNOW people are going to read this is 'so you should never ever talk about negative consequences of weed'#and im pretty sure the people who follow me will be able to understand thats obviously not what im saying #but as soon as it leaves my blog whos to say. but anyway like. I think we should talk more about addiction to all substances #and not just the ones that were already covered in DARE #I feel like at this point everybody has heard all of the negative possibilities with weed use at least once #and that's not necessarily true of caffeine and even like. benadryl lmfao #I might delete this in 10 minutes if I psych myself out akbdjznsjf

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ear-motif · 1 year

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christ i hope in 50-100 yrs we look back on today's psychiatry like we look back on bloodletting and humors now. just. jesus those guys were trying but holy shit

#ITS ALL GUESSING!!! YES THERES SCIENCE BUT WHAT DRUGS SPECIFICALLY WILL WORK?? WHO KNOWS!!!#watched ice cream sandwich's vid on adhd meds and holy shit yea #adderall is great for ACTION but does nothing for FOCUS #maybe i can add vyvance then #i dont wanna give up adderall bc its also treating what i suspect to be cfs or narcolepsy (more likely just general excessive daytime #sleepiness but idk)#or maybe my ssris arent working anymore!! WHO KNOWS!!#delete later

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orcelito · 1 year

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Tfw I have an appointment tomorrow for my cringefail ribs which have not been fixed by the anti-inflammatory drugs in the slightest

Kinda don't wanna go lol

#speculation nation #i... Should... i am just so tired lol #my headache has not gotten better. shitty fucking close.#i just want to write but it's hard to write when my head hurts lmao #and i shouldnt stay up too late. i went to bed way too late last night lol #just. ugh. i GUESS i should go to my appointment.#but idk what theyre gonna do. at this point i might straight up need an MRI bc the drugs just arent working #i dont wanna do an MRI 😭😭😭😭 my birthday's in less than a week 😭😭😭😭😭

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pear1ridge-a · 1 year

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I just think. I think more violence. More horror.

#tate is so good for it bc of the natural horrors of his life and the people surrounding him 🥰#no but write intense shit w my muses always pls #i can work stuff out for any muse but tate is v similar to kurt in that i can put him in Any situation with ease #and i like to use that opportunity to physically and mentally fuck him up 🥰#bradley kidnapping him was top tier of me bc that was his best friend! he knows what makes him tick!#plus hes the one that. heavily encouraged tates drug use when he was younger and it wasn't addiction but it was. close #and for bradley to then force dose him when hes kidnapped when hes older and clean is just #its such an easy way to keep him more docile and to make sure that even if he gets away he has to deal with withdrawal #and it'll never be as simple as just escaping and being free #he still has wounds he has to heal and he has to go through withdrawal and he has two fingers that arent gonna come back #him shooting bradley in the dick is iconic and deserved and good #trying to turn the gun on himself after. less good extremely painful #drug abuse cw #kidnapping cw #ask to tag //#idk how this just turned into a rant ab me loving tate and hurting him but here we are

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jrcarchived · 2 years

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Idk, i feel like people should not have to justify their lifestyles.

#like if someone uses drugs or doesnt work out a lot or rides motorcycles #dont even know why people take such issue with the last thing #if they arent causing harm to anyone leave then alone #why is that so hard for people to understand?

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clownpassing · 12 days

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i love healthy coping mechanisms

#txt #op #i been feeling a little sewerslidal today soo instead of acting on that i made myself some mushroom lemonade #now i'm gonna go bike to work to dropoff bday brownies for my coworker #and then from there i'm going to the park to practice my contact staffing some more #the healthy coping mechanisms is a joke btw #i know shrooms arent the worst drug in the world i just think it's so funny(sad) that i cant have a decent fucking day without #substances anymore lol. im so fucking stressed all the time. i feel so pathetic bc i dont have the strength to be sober #anyways.

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rainingincale · 7 months

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#*eye twitch* i hate how affected i am when people refute things i say that i know are true #and if its something that Technically could be debatable i try to be nice and find a middle ground but theyre a patronising prick about it #i just feel so dumb when i know im fucking not #like a lot of how the world works and is run is because of evil fucking people and their money #and to be told 'oh no drugs and gangs are the root causes of these problems' like sure they contribute but you think there arent a lot of #rich people that benefit and actively contribute to these systems???#whered the drugs come from. who uses trafficked people.#like ive watched documentries and read articles about this shit but in the moment i just dont know how to articulate myself and i cant #remember exact facts so i get brushed off as just being someone thats deluded #its so fucking exhausting #le text post #and the lesson basically is idk why i keep trying and i should just keep my mouth shut tbh

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teamkrissy · 8 months

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Today was my office holiday party and I let an older part timer that I don't know very well come out to smoke in my car. She was kind of rambling and she said she used to be a nurse and she's surprised how many rules and regulations you have to follow in a book store. She was saying there weren't really any guidelines she had to follow as a nurse :|

#shes worked here for over a year and like i get only working 20 hours a week means you arent thinking about the job as much so it takes #longer to learn #but she was saying shes been written up a lot more here #but like what regulations is she talking about? making correct change? not giving out personal or financial information?#im not a nurse but i have been to drug school with them and it seems like theyre pretty regulated #why arent you a nurse anymore?

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nychthemeron-rants · 8 months

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So I'm planning to start weight-loss drugs soon because Im big enough to have it covered by insurance, and Im already wondering when the comments I'll get on my body will go from "good for you!" "You look so much better" type bullshit to "You should lose even more" type shit.

#my goal isnt to be thin #my goal is to get to “mid- size”#and its mostly because i have severe medical paranoia and my current weight makes it worse #so im dreading the compliments just as much Im dreading the eventual “lose more” comments #why cant people be normal about other people's weight?#like i told my grandma and aunt that i wanted to pursue weight loss drugs and their gave me the whole 'we were so worried about your health #and “about time” comments #which really stung because while im big #im not big on the level of having health issues #and ive been tested for shit to back it up #I wanted an “oh okay” “Hope that works out well for you” reaction #like please please just support people where they are at and if you arent their doctor keep your opinions to your self #tw weight #tw weightloss #weight #weight loss #weightloss #vent #also im dont hate my body beyond the anxiety it gives me #i think i look fairly pretty

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anotherpapercut · 2 years

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literally last night had my office Christmas party for the tutoring center I work for and we have a little group of math tutors that are all queer and we hadn't seen each other in forever so we decided to go out to the gay bar after and all night we were telling people we were all math tutors together and the look of shock on these people's faces when they realized they were talking to 6 queer math nerds was incredible

#literally how are there SIX of us queers just in the math tutors #i know that the science and cis tutoring centers also have several queer/trans people #also the math side boss is a pan woman married to a woman ❤️#anyway cranky because my work group is cooler than yours arent you #one of them is not only a math tutor but also like one of the best known djs and drug dealers in town #my friends are so cool sorry to brag

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