#the doctor when speech 😔

[tremastersweb]

"You're right. But when you look across the vastness of the universe, up close, even in the midst of the most dire situations, there's always people helping each other. Being kind. To those who need a hand, and against those who make it impossible to exist in such conditions... Those who seek to maintain and amplify their individual power... Whether a society applies this at large or not is clearly not a question of nature, but nurture... I mean, it is survival after all, to help each other, and to accept diversity."

He tilts his head back, looking at the ceiling, memories of the many times he had witnessed such acts lighting up his eyes as a smile forms on his face. He then thinks of Vera, who with her own amnesia and through her fears, doesn't seem to have it in her to give up when it comes to helping her fellows, even faced with tasks that seem rather impossible. All her research on the virus, which so far seems to go nowhere, yet she still tries, because she cares.

Then 'Lin, who despite having clear trouble in understanding social interactions and how to take care of herself, seems to try her best to help as well. Her explorer spirit, and how she brings gifts with every single one of her expeditions. All the times he's caught her by the medbay door, keeping him company, despite everything he'd done.

Then, he glances at the Magister, who not only has done his fair share of help for everyone as well, but he alone had decided to go rescue Arthur, and as far as he'd been telling him, he's always had it in his hearts. He looks at his clothes, ones he'd been saving for him, in the case The Master would have accepted to travel with him, to see all this wonder together. He looks... beautiful, this way. Truly. He wonders how it could have been, if it wasn't for the curse. Well, he'd rather share this joy with him than never.

"...I just wonder why we can't do the same, instead of forcing each other into silence, when we struggle. We're supposed to be the "most advanced planet" in the Universe, and surely, in some aspects, but...! I firmly believe advancement should not equal power and repression, but compassion instead... And it will never be perfect, it can't be, but it can be better, less lonely, more hopeful... you know?"

His smile disappears as he remembers, once again, that their planet is gone.

"Or, well, maybe, it could have been."

He sighs and fidgets with his fingers, then glancing at his counterpart's as well, until he speaks.

"...Ah."

He observes his claws. Well, at least the bleeding won't be a problem anymore, but... A sting of guilt punctures his chest as he realises, it's his fault. That's the virus further advancing, and he made him worry. He frowns as he goes to wash his hands, returning his attention to the inhalers and unboxing the second. He definitely doesn't feel ready for them, but that's something he must sort out. If not for himself, he can always do it for someone else, again, that is easier. He stuffs it in his other pocket, and carefully gets off the bed - the room isn't spinning anymore, everything is back to its proper space in his perception, and he's not shaking half as much, albeit he's still a bit weak.

"I think so, yes, that at least, I... By how much have we delayed...? We better get to it as soon as possible- I would appreciate it if you drove, yes."

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

bits I remember from John Mulaney's tour act that didn't make it into the Netflix special:

- his Natasha Lyonne impression 😔 it was much funnier than the Fred Armisen one tbh

- something to the effect of 'before my intervention everyone agreed to be nice to me in their speeches. except they all forgot to tell Nick Kroll that. and he went FIRST'

- during the 'trust doctors' bit he got sidetracked and started making a flat earth joke, he was like 'I'm not saying I believe it, but like-' and someone in the audience yelled 'BOO' and he immediately shot back 'OH FUCK YOU YOU DO NOT WALK AROUND GOING WOOOOoooooOOOO I-I-ITS A-A-A S-SPH-PHERRRREEEE' while doing this truly incredible flailing of his limbs

- 'do you know how weird it is for your baby to get mixed reviews? do you know how goddamn weird it is to announce your baby and have people go 'ehh, I liked his old work better'

- he also joked that getting divorced, getting into a new relationship and having a baby so fast was just him following the "baby steps" rules of getting clean lol

- when he was listing everything he was addicted to one of the drugs got a 'woo!' from the audience which turned into crowd work of finding out what everyone in the theater was addicted to

- he asked a teenager in the audience if he vapes and the kid said no and then his friend sitting next to him screamed 'DON'T LIE TO HIM!!!' loud enough for the whole theater to hear

-oh also there was a lot more about going back and forth with his poor accountant lol. this is all I noticed off the top of my head! wondering what was different in other tour spots?

[midnxght-sweet-time]

Before I start my bible about how much I liked "tart thief", I must clarify that English is not my first language, so I apologize if I am not understood 😔

I love how Riddle's personality is so canon! The more I read I thought of "THIS IS SOMETHING THE RIDDLE WOULD SAY", at the beginning of the story our red tyrant comes screaming and ruining the whole atmosphere of friendship between the students, I myself felt the fear of being caught! Even the dorm members felt afraid of Riddle even when they knew of his innocence and that was shown very well in the writing <3

I loved the obscenity and how he included Riddle's obsession with discipline in the Queen of Hearts rules (Excuses to fuck his lover <3)

Reading the previous anonymous I fully agree that the reader became pregnant. My mind is filled with thoughts of a pregnant darling and Riddle as a father, I feel like he would be such a sweet father afraid of making the same mistakes as his parents :(

In conclusion: I fell in love with his writing ❣️

• Anon 🦋

IM—

Thank you so much sweetiesss T o T

What a cute little butterfly you are~ I wanna squish you >;33

Dont worry I get what your saying and honestly— Im afraid to say but english is also not my first language. Im chinese so Im still trying to get use to modern day fanfic writing in english and practicing descriptive writing is an experience. Especially for smut.

Usually in chinese its either very straightforward because personifications and figurative speech is mainly used in poems.

But yes! I did my best to impersonate Riddle and make sure he stays in character while also having that sweet sweet chills 7w7

I wanted a Riddle fic to have the vibe of what if darling gets caught by the tyrant boi and said tyrant will have to punish them. Huehuehue- im not sure if anyone has done it before but atleast I took inspiration from the Alice in Wonderland live action scene. That poor froggie :((

It wasnt suppose to be a smut actually. But then I wanted a scenario where darling gets caught for doing something rash and Riddle sees this as an oppurtunity and takes it. His mind is all hazy with all the rage of you daring to cross the rules while also being lowkey horny to get you stuff full with his babies♡

Though it will be a troublesome aftermath with what comes with keeping the child, the joy that this small baby will bring to Riddle will be all worth it.

Riddle will be looking at the newborn with such wide and fascinated eyes seeing it snuggled up in a blanket the doctors wrapped it up in laying comfortable in your arms and Riddle is just so eager to hold his creation. Looking at you like "may I? Please? Gimme gimme-"

Mmmmm Riddle being such a sweet father tho! But also a very nice husband > <

He promise to take care both you and the child and live happily ever after with the both of you~

He will probably live somewhere far away with you and be so happy to have a life of his own away from his mother and hopes to give his child the life he never had, giving them proper care and love but also still needing to step in when his child does something wrong. He will be fustrated with how mischevious and reckless they are but cant help but notice how similar they are to their mother.

He makes sure he isnt too rough on them like how he is with you ;)

[adrianicsea]

saw ask. so let's say hypothetically (not really) all the apprentices are autistic (they are) headcanon them

LET’S GOOOOOOO!!!! i do hc all the apprentices as autistic in their own ways (except adam, who in my mind/writing has standalone adhd) and i definitely write them that way in my fic, lawrence especially.

lawrence:

it runs in the family, but his parents were both very ignorant/in denial about it so lawrence thinks that there’s nothing unusual about any of his mannerisms. he has a sneaking awareness that He’s Not Like Everyone Else but i think he usually chalks that up to the decades he’s spent being closeted.

he loves and finds comfort in the ritual and routine of putting on formalwear, and i think he feels more comfortable in suits/formalwear than he does in casual clothes.

he has a hot and cold relationship with eye contact— he knows it’s important and that people expect it of him, but in prolonged conversations, or when he’s feeling threatened or vulnerable, lawrence can’t maintain eye contact the entire conversation and has to look away.

his, ah… halting speech cadence comes from his autism.

the medical world has been his special interest practically since birth. as smart and privileged and as “cultured” as his family is, lawrence actually doesn’t know a ton about other subjects (particularly related to literature/the arts) because he’s been spending all his time reading about medical stuff since he was a kid.

somewhat related to above, i think he suffers a lot from burnout because he doesn’t have any other hobbies or big interests aside from medicine and also because he’s constantly pushing himself to be an overachiever and ignoring his needs and shortcomings 😔

left to his own devices, lawrence’s eating schedule/sense of mealtimes is ABYSMAL. it got worse once he was actively practicing as a doctor, since his schedules could be so long and unpredictable. he really needs another person around to remind him when it’s time to take a break from whatever he’s doing and have something to eat.

his pattern recognition and observational skills are UNMATCHED, but he tends to only apply them to situations where he judges that there’s a problem to be solved. he probably couldn’t tell you the color of a house that he drives by every day, for example.

amanda:

she has naturally high empathy and a very strong internal sense of justice, right, and wrong. part of the reason she suffers and agonizes so much over her work as an apprentice is because the lessons that john’s drilled into her head are in direct conflict with amanda’s own values. (this is also complicated by the decades of mistreatment and abuse she’s faced at the hands of the justice system, which has further skewed her natural moral compass.)

she has a VERY hard time processing and moving through her emotions— any sort of high emotional state can put her into shutdown and/or meltdown territory very quickly.

amanda is very sensory-seeking and uses sensory stimulation to help with her emotional regulation. if there are no safe avenues for her to do this, she will turn to harmful sources of sensory stimulation.

hoffman:

hoffman has EASILY the highest sensory intolerance to loud noises of all the apprentices. part of the reason he constantly has such a bitch face and bad attitude is bc he’s been rawdogging the noise and bustle of working as a cop for 20+ years and trying to hide how much he hates the sirens and gunshots and such.

he doesn’t really like to talk, and he also struggled a lot with reading when he was younger (partially due to inherent factors and partially bc he didn’t grow up in an optimal learning environment).

he can understand some jokes/sarcasm/metaphors, but oftentimes it goes over his head and needs to be explained to him. he speaks very bluntly and directly bc MAKING those sort of speech abstractions is a little beyond him.

king of flat affect. his facial expressions and tone of voice are NOT indicative of his internal emotional state‼️

i think that, like lawrence, hoffman is aware that something about him sets him apart from his peers and makes them a little uncomfortable, but in his case he sees that as kind of a good thing since it keeps people from getting too close to him and possibly getting suspicious. what DOES kind of hurt hoffman’s feelings (though he’d never admit it to anyone) is that his fellow apprentices don’t really seem to like him much, either.

in terms of special interests, i think he’s always been fascinated by like construction equipment and big vehicles and stuff like that. if he were given a good pair of earplugs or noise-canceling headphones, he could literally sit and watch a construction site for hours on end.

[atlas-library]

Thank you so much for your reply💞💞 I'm the anon that asked about if toge talked or not during silly time® I loved the answer so much thank you💞💞

If it's ok for me to ask, I also have another question!! A while back you wrote about how you think he would sometimes "go cold" on other people (and I think it was mentioned in the nsfw alphabet too). Are those depressive/manic episodes? What goes on inside his head when he does that? Is it something that is triggered? Does he even realize he is being cold to other people?

(also, sorry for not replying sooner🙏🙏)

note (after i FINALLY finished writing this post) : GUESS WHO FINALLY FINISHED WRITING THIS!!!! this is probably all over the place, i'm so sorry, but honestly this is taking me so long and driving me crazy so at this point!!! i shall blabber about specific points in other posts rather than trying to keep everything in this one. Enjoy!! :D

making my night once again, anon 😔​💗​ literally never apologise for "not replying sooner", you could have literally never replied and it would have been okay, don't worry you don't have to feel obligated to do anything 💗💗💗

and i'm so glad you're asking this question omg 👁️ i've had this on the back of my mind (and in discord convos) for a while now, i guess it's time to talk about it a bit more 😔✨

listening to nda while writing this because the bass gets to me

okay so, quick disclaimer, i'm not a doctor 👁️👄​👁️ i read articles from google and try to find testimonies from people, but 👁️👄​👁️ which is why, if i say some wrong shit, please correct me, like, genuinely 👁️👄​👁️

cw. inumakis are sketchy, scarification mentioned, child abuse/neglect too, mental health ohgodbuckleup, personality disorders (from cluster b), aspd + bpd mentioned, toge seeks some thrill by jumping off buildings and bridges so that's nice 👁️👄​👁️ ig we can say that's some suicidal ideation/attempt there 👁️👄​👁️

Okay so, we need some background info before we dive in Toge's mind and mental state.

The Inumakis are very secretive, seen as a cult (something that's honestly kinda "wild" in the Jujutsu world because... wym we're kinda a cult but we got this big secretive cult that's more of a cult than us......), and they're basically naturally ominous even when they don't try anything.

The first thing you notice when you see an Inumaki, if they're an Inumaki by blood, is the markings on their cheeks. I personally don't hc them as tattoos, but as burn marks (which then had purple ink rubbed into the wounds) : the Inumakis use scarification as a way of identifying their clan members. Still, it's very specific: you need to be an Inumaki by blood. But your blood is only recognised as Inumaki if your mother is a "pure" Inumaki. (For clarity purposes, we'll use the word "pure" to describe Inumakis by blood).

Toge's father is an outsider who married his mother, a pure Inumaki. Despite his father being an outsider, this makes Toge a pure Inumaki. Toge has a cousin, his uncle's daughter, who doesn't have the markings because his uncle married an impure Inumaki.

INUMAKIS WITH CHEEK MARKINGS

Kanon (Toge's mother)

Kanon's brother (Toge's uncle)

Toge

INUMAKIS WITHOUT CHEEK MARKINGS

Toge's father

The wife of Toge's uncle (Toge's aunt)

Shion (Toge's cousin)

You can also get markings on your tongue, but it only happens if you have the cursed speech. Even then, there are different levels of cursed speech: so far, Toge's cursed speech is the most powerful in the clan. Thus how he got his tongue marking (made by burning as well) at a young age, before he even turned five.

I like to hc his mother, Kanon, also has cursed speech, albeit a lighter version that didn't draw attention and thus let her avoid the branding on her tongue. The more emotional she gets, though, the more powerful it gets (it "leaks"). Gojo experienced it first-hand, although only for a simple command ("Stop").

Toge's mother is, with her husband, the head of the clan. This actually doesn't mean much, Inumakis are very individualistic when it comes to the outside world, but they're very close with their own. They have this entire "us vs them" mentality, something that also leaks out of Toge whenever someone criticises the ways of his family (Maki does it the most). He regrets it instantly whenever it happens, mostly because he disagrees with most of his clan's customs and traditions... it's just his first instinct to separate himself from the person criticising them.

Toge's mother being the head of the clan simply means she's the clan's spokesperson whenever politics are involved; she also gets the final word during meetings, but it doesn't often reach this point. It did for Toge when his cursed speech got dangerous though (when he was barely two years old), and she basically forced the rest of the clan to let Toge stay with them.

(I know I'm talking about his mom a lot but she's very important. 😔)

🍙 small breather 🍙

Kanon, Toge's mother, is pretty much the roots of Toge's mental state. He's a carbon copy of her, physically but also psychologically: they're both strong-minded, resilient, kind and smart— But they're also control-freaks.

Kanon always had Toge glued to her hip, and even though she didn't mind him befriending Shion, his cousin, she clearly only let it happen because it made Toge happy. Kanon loves Toge more than she's loved anyone else— She loves him more than she loves her husband, by a large margin. Toge deserves the best because Toge can do no wrong— He can, actually, but she doesn't care. He's her son, and she'll love him till her last breath of life. When the accident happened and Toge got sent to the school, Kanon's mind broke a little, and she lost some of the control she had over herself during all these years— She became quiet and docile, weak, always hiding in her husband's shadow. Gojo met her that way, even though he knew better than to mess with her.

Kanon's and Toge's minds are so similar it's scary. The only big difference between them is: Kanon learnt how to deal with her chaotic outbursts and recklessness. Meanwhile Toge never learnt any coping mechanism— Mostly because Kanon didn't want to admit he was that similar to her. Thus, the adrenaline Toge is constantly seeking, the reckless behaviour, and the cold shoulders.

Now, regarding your questions about Toge "going cold".

Okay, so, again: I'm not an expert. But, I personally hc Toge has having antisocial personality disorder with comorbid borderline personality disorder... which is basically a ride, and at first glance looks like the literal embodiement of "you go from 0 to 100".

Okay so, this part is going to be a bit messy because the point right now isn't to write a whole essay about how or why Toge would have these PDs, nor to check every box for him to "qualify" as having these PDs; I guess we can call it "random facts that tie in with your questions", in a way. Idk, it's gonna be messy.

Toge has little to no emotional empathy. Let's start off by saying empathy =/= good person, so if you disagree please do some research and if you still haven't changed your mind, do some more research. <3

When I say Toge has little to no emotional empathy, it basically means that he pretty much... doesn't care about people. On an emotional level, at least. For example: Maki could cry and he wouldn't feel anything, perhaps mid-annoyance because her sniffles are too loud (if it were Yuuta, it'd be pretty because Yuuta genuinely looks pretty when he cries. Still though, the sniffles are annoying).

What Toge has instead is cognitive empathy. He may not think you losing your grandma in a traumatic accident is sad to the point of tears, but he's able to understand why anyone would cry at that, and he respects it and even offers you a shoulder to cry on. It actually makes him The friend when you need to vent or cry about something: he won't get emotionally involved, at least not like people with regular emotional empathy do, but he'll still listen (because he's a great listener) and basically ask you what you need most: for him to share your emotional outburst, for him to go on like nothing happened, or for him to hype you up without any of your previous outburst lingering in the room. Since he has little to no emotional tie to most things, it makes it easier for him to adapt to what you need, especially since he won't feel any guilt for not crying with you about your dead fish.

It can definitely make him sound a bit "callous" at times, or make him look like he doesn't care (he does, but in a very neutral, dare I say "monotonous" way)— But he does make sure you're feeling okay. He just doesn't necessarily share your feelings towards most things, or if he does it's really toned down, even for simple things such as joy (but again, it doesn't mean he's emotionless or dislikes you in any way).

Toge is addicted to adrenaline. Part of it is because he needs to feel. Part of it is also because he's used to sacrificing himself (more on that later). And part of it is because he loves the adrenaline rushing in his veins and numbing him from anything.

I've talked about it before, but Toge's a passionate soul, someone who gives endlessly and expects nothing in return— That's just how he is. His curse prevents him from talking, gives him one less way of sharing. And it's frustrating. All of this also ties with his own trauma, the neglect he faced when he was still at the Inumaki compound, of course— But he also seeks danger to cope.

Gojo's often found him on top of a building, or on a bridge, not always jumping but always looking down. Always playing some balance game— A dangerous game Gojo wouldn't even dare call an edgy prank. Toge doesn't think when there's danger, or maybe he does— He thinks about the best course of action, how to protect everyone but him. He's not part of the equation. Not only because he's extremely selfless; also because his only selfishness is putting himself in harm's way.

Toge thinks very little of his life. This entire thread so far doesn't include any significant other (other than canon characters) Toge would have, not because I don't want one included but because it's about his behaviour in general; but I think it's worth mentioning the people who hold Toge dear, whether it's romantically or not.

Toge is too selfless to live, but also too selfless to die. His only selfishness is caused by the adrenaline rushes he seeks.

Toge's a weapon. He's a thorn, an inconvenience, a dead weight people have to endure; he bleeds and makes people bleed, he's the flame that burns moths in the dead of the night. Of course he's helped people before, it's hard to live a life without helping at least one person, whether it's saving them from a collapsing building or helping them cross the street. Still.

Toge can't love, Toge can't allow himself to love. Last time he did, Gojo took him away.

Toge feels, Toge loves, Toge has only known obsession and destruction, yet he takes care of people like he takes care of the school's garden: gently. It's ironic that he's unable to do the same for himself.

He lacks empathy, he doesn't lack feelings but lacks the skills of expressing them, he lacks a stable mind that would make him happy or sad all day instead of happy-sad-sad-sad-happy-happy-sad-happy-happy— His way of showing he cares is by giving, but what else is there to give once you've run out of silly words, run out of gestures, run out of money? His life. So he pushes people away when there's a fight, yells to run, and only when everyone he cares for is safe or gone does he part his lips to bleed enemies: "Die," he spits out, similar to a snake sinking its fangs into its prey. No one needs to fear him, no one needs to see how ruthless he can be— So he gives his life, buys time, hopes that everyone will turn their back on him.

Toge sometimes has "lows" and "highs". What does that mean? From Maki's point of view, that he goes from 0 to 100 very fast. That he's hot and cold. Then again, she wouldn't be (entirely) wrong.

No one knows what triggers a low or a high; Gojo has an idea of the type of situations that would trigger it, but nothing precise. Yuuta doesn't know either, but he gets it— Or at least he tries to. Those two have seen Toge in distress the most, and still don't find much to say about all this.

During lows, Toge stops caring, starts fantasising about acting selfish, yet always chickens out— Again, that's not who he is. He feels a bit down, a bit angry at the world, but nothing a nap can't fix; unless it's a big low. Then, he hides in his room so he can cry and hit his head with his palm, tries to breathe louder than the sounds stuck in his eardrums, spams Yuuta with texts so Gojo doesn't have to catch him jumping off a bridge again.

He hates himself, too. More than usual. And, somehow, that's the hardest part.

Yuuta's had to find the right words too many times, he's had to explain to Toge why he cared so much about him and why he'd never stop caring as Toge was harshly pushing him away (both literally and metaphorically). Maki doesn't always have the patience, and she's already yelled "Okay, whatever!" and left— Only to feel guilty and check on him by the end of the day.

Gojo, similar to Yuuta, doesn't leave either— The only difference is that Gojo doesn't try anything. He'll follow Toge around and will talk about random stuff happening, but won't try to comfort Toge in any way. Toge likes it. Yuuta can be too overwhelming, too caring towards him— Almost too desperate to show his undying affection to the people he loves, and Toge finds it humiliating whenever it happens during a low: it's like Yuuta's pitying him.

Toge pushes people away so he doesn't get hurt. They'll hate him anyway, it won't take long before they fear him or decide he's the worst, even though he tries so hard to always be kind— They'll think he's manipulating them, and Toge doesn't know if it's true or not. Probably to some extent.

So he pushes them away first. This way, he knows why they'll start ignoring him, and he won't have to hurt from it. But... he also pushes people away because he wants them to stay. That's the biggest irony; he'll try to act cold and mean, to hurt them enough that they leave and never come back... because he wants them to stay despite all this. He wants to be loved despite his flaws, despite his curse, despite the fact that he's a thorn and not a rose.

Gojo stays, he's never left. Panda stays, he's understanding. Yuuta stays too, but he's confusing. Maki leaves but comes back, they're two sides of the same coin. Toge has people who care about him, but it's never enough; he's a time-ticking bomb, a mess of a curse.

Maybe he's not kind by nature; maybe the reason he tries so hard to be nice and giving is to hide how deadly he's forced to be.

anyway hope that answers your questions! 😃​

[theatrekidstatus]

Chapter 8:

"I'm so happy y'all are dating,because y'all wouldn't shut up about each other" daveed announced "for real all y/n would talk about was anthony and I couldn't even talk to him" Renée added "leave them alone" Leslie said putting his arms around us (a/n not even gonna hold y'all I forgot about Leslie until I read a story with him in last night😭😭😭) "you two are going to be the cutest couple ever" Lin said grinning that big grin "thanks Lin" "anytime" let's get to rehearsals of rehearsal "ugh" "I know I know but we have too,y/n you'll be the audience" "cool ooo can-" "no you can't yell boo if someone messes up" "awww" "HAHA" jazzy cackled "🖕🏾" "ok PLACES" Lin yelled "Que groffsauce" *insert preshow speech* "Leslie" "how dose a BASTERD,orphan,son of a whore and a Scotsmen dropped in the middle spot in the crabien by providence and squalor grow up to be a human and scholar" "y/n's boyfriend" "the ten dollar founding father without a farther got a lot farther by being a lot smarter by 14 they placed him in charge a trading charter" "daveed" "and everyday while slaves were being slaughtered and carted away- something's wrong with my mic" "if this is a joke it's not a funny one David" "it's-" then he started mouthing something "damn...ok if anyone did something to daveed's mic fess up now I won't even make you confess why you did just confess" "no one ok good I'll call tech and have this checked out daveed just articulate" "COOL" after his oak part "what's your name man" "Alexander Hamilton my name is Alexander Hamilton and there's 1000,000 I haven't but just you wait just you wait" "when he was ten his father split full of it debt ridden two year Alex and his mother bedridden and" "Alex got better and his mother went quick"moved with the cousin committed sucide left him with ruined pride something new inside" "Hi excuse me so sorry but the mic you wanted us to check out/fix was purposely damaged It seemed to be stepped on.punched,kicked,chewed? And other things that make us not want to even look let alone touch and it might be unfixable "ok CAST CREW AND OTHER meeting now everyone audience "ooo a mystery" I whispered to ant he looked a little tense "you good" "well I'm a little nervous how the show finna Turn out we've had only a few days of practice" "I'm sorry ant" "huh why *gasp* DID YOU DESTROY HIS MIC" "what no I'm sorry that i relapsed and took 2 days off of rehearsals and I'm sorry something happened to his mic and take more time" "hey I'm It's NOT your fault you relapsed it's those dumb idiots online and I know you didn't cause the mic thingy it's not your flaut ok" he said he's BEAUTIFUL green eyes "OK QUITE DONE EVERYONE,LISTEN I KNOW THIS ISNT A BIG BIG ISSUE BUT THE STUFF SOMEONE DID TO THAT MIC I SENT DAVEED TO THE DOCTOR AND THEN HOME" (all caps cause ArTiCuLaTiOn) Lin said with anger and concern "DAMN" we yelled "I know now I know said who ever messed up the mic could fess up and we'd move but if they wanna confess what you did,why'd you dove and why hide it literally that's it" Lin tells us "and-"

He's cut off by a text "OH HELL NO YOU PHYCHO PUT HONEY ON HIS MIC YOU GUYS KNOW HE IS ALLERGIC" "OH HELL NAH" I yelled Everyone looked at me "My bad" "Listen we will continue this rehearsal but if no one fesses up then YA OUTTA HERE" Lin yells everyone look at each other "if you did it you'd tell me right" he asked I wasn't to mad because he was worried for his best friend "I didn't but if I did I'd tell you" "ok good" I texted the "renèe, Pippa, jazzy AND Y/N" GC if y'all did I won't snitch but did y'all

Jazzy poo bear😭🙄🔛🔝‼️🗞️🧍🏼‍♀️🫶🏾🤭🎶🗣️🪄✅😑👍🏾🩷😂👦🏿🖕🏾😘❕🔥😔👦🏾💞👹❗️🔊🎩👦🏽: do what I was sleeping the whole meeting

Pippy poo😀🥹☺️😃😅😊😄😂😇😁🤣🙂😆🥲🙃: omfg jazzy so you know how so messed daveed mic

Jazzy poo bear😭🙄🔛🔝‼️🗞️🧍🏼‍♀️🫶🏾🤭🎶🗣️🪄✅😑👍🏾🩷😂👦🏿🖕🏾😘❕🔥😔👦🏾💞👹❗️🔊🎩👦🏽:yeah

Pippy poo😀🥹☺️😃😅😊😄😂😇😁🤣🙂😆🥲🙃: he was trying to see if someone would fess up because there'd just have to explain why they did it but if they don't there outta here and no y/n I didn't do it

Jazzy poo bear😭🙄🔛🔝‼️🗞️🧍🏼‍♀️🫶🏾🤭🎶🗣️🪄✅😑👍🏾🩷😂👦🏿🖕🏾😘❕🔥😔👦🏾💞👹❗️🔊🎩👦🏽:ohh i ain't do it now but you nèa nèa

Mommy nèa(not dirty🙄)😉😗😝🤓😌😙😜😎😍😚🤪🥸🥰😋🤨🤩😘😛🧐🥳:no i kinda like daveed

Ooooooooooo (they all texted)

Mommy nèa(not dirty🙄)😉😗😝🤓😌😙😜😎😍😚🤪🥸🥰😋🤨🤩😘😛🧐🥳:omg you guys SO immature

                        Okay so y'all are clear Ant and I didn't do it so yeah 

I was walking around I was singing Burn and and ant came from the shadows

"I'm your boyfriend how dare you not tell me you can sing"

"I'm sorry I love you don't hurt me," I say while slowly falling on the floor My last boyfriend would hit me when I didn't tell him stuff "Hey hey I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you come here I love you too and look at me I will NEVER hurt you," he said hugging me on the floor maybe not all men are bad "an-t," I say through tears " "yes babe" "your my boyfriend?" "Am I?" he asked nervously "Yes, yes you are" he smiled so hard "Let me wipe your tears please" "OK" his thumb slowly went down my face getting rid of my tears "I have to go on stage are you ok?" "I'm fine" "ok let's go" he reaches out a hand and I take it he takes me to my favorite seat in the audience and went in the wings I watched the rehearsal they did it with a recording of Daveed's voice they got far to they got to 'say no to this' WITHOUT ANY BREAKS tech member Katie messed up so they had to stop but Lin made sure she didn't feel guilty "damn I want some cookies" I mumbled "I know" I pull out my phone and text thayne

CoOkIe MoNsTeR😏😕😫😤😒🙁😩😠😞☹️🥺😡😔😣😢🤬😟😖😭🤯:is this y/n

                                                    Yes and I want cookies

CoOkIe MoNsTeR😏😕😫😤😒🙁😩😠😞☹️🥺😡😔😣😢🤬😟😖😭🤯:no

                         Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

CoOkIe MoNsTeR😏😕😫😤😒🙁😩😠😞☹️🥺😡😔😣😢🤬😟😖😭🤯: because I fucked them up last night

[damelucyjo]

Are we finally getting somewhere, guys?? 🤔

Episode 5 - Signs

Things are not going well for our boys 😔

Side note: I love Chris & Arlo 😂

Smack him harder Mae!!

That fucking text was from his dad?! 😂😂 I just learnt way more info than I wanted or needed!

Well said Roy! It’s really pissed me off that Ted has always been about them being a team, but has been happy for them to fully rely on Zava since they got him

Is this a continuity error?? Her hair was down at the match now it’s up?? 🤔 or is this not right after the match?? We’ve never seen her change her hair during the day before, have we??

Not that it matters anyway. Hannah always looks amazing, as we know! I’m glad this dress is making a comeback 🥵

Yes!! Shout at him babes!!

I love all of their reactions to it too. Ted’s tiny little smile is very cute

Beard’s little “I think” 😂 and Hannah trying very hard not to laugh. RELEASE THE BLOOPERS YOU COWARDS!!!!

YYEEEAAAHHHH!!!

Michael Jackson! (Sorry, only people who have watched Stella will understand why I want to say that every time Patrick Baladi is on my screen 🫣🤷🏻‍♀️😂)

This whole interaction is brilliant. Rebecca kind of stumbling over words because she’s thinking of all the signs and as she’s looking at the matchbook John just happens to walk in! And him seeming a little flustered, but happy to tell her he’s moved on and happy. He absolutely doesn’t come here often hoping to run into her 😳😂

Hannah’s face and whole reaction at ‘shite in nining armour’ 🫡 ALL THE AWARDS!!

Keeley having the same photo as Ted for Rebecca is cute

I’m so proud of Keeley!! Also tits. I’m sorry 😔

And that shirt was a choice, Miss Jones!! 😂

Shandy just makes me incredibly angry. And I know that’s the point, but July god 😡

These two have amazing chemistry. I am a RoyKeeley girly, but they cute!

These boys all knowing about She’s All That makes me very happy 😂 just when I think I can’t love them more

Again, Dani I love you 😍

Of course Beard danced in college. I will never be surprised about thing I learn about this man!

ROY FUCKING JOINED IN!!!

I love that they are including Trent

Protective uncle Beard 🥰

Roy, baby, who hurt you 🥺

Is Trent’s cup plastic?! How the fuck didn’t it break when he dropped it 😂

Aww, poor Leslie. Trying to do him job at the expense of his friend 🥺

Rebecca shutting it down straight away by changing the subject. Exactly, girly

The complete shift in Higgins’ whole self is brilliant. And of course he believes in psychics 😂

THE UNIVERSE IS FULLY OF THINGS WE CAN’T EXLAIN, REBECCA 👀

Of course he called his mum to practice that speech 😂

“Hey, Coach” “Hello, Rebecca” 🫠

THEY ARE SO IN SYNC!!!!!!

Yes, thank you Barbara for basically telling Keeley she needs to fire Shandy

I’ll say it every time she’s on screen if I have to; I love Barbara 😍😂 Katy is amazing

This scene really is all over the fucking shop! 😂 and here’s the bitchy female character that is very much real but we don’t get on the show 👍🏼

Fancy as fuck waiting room! And peep all the same women she saw when she left John. Well done on that one

Okay, is this hesitation because she can’t decide who she’d put? Or because she feels like she has no one?? 🤔

It might just be me, but this connection she has with this doctor feels very familiar (if that’s the right word) has he been her doctor forever? My initial reaction was that he knew her dad and I don’t know where that came from 😂

She looks so hopeful 🥹

“Unless it’s animal crossing. That shits fucking soothing” please never change, Isaac 😂

I feel so bad for Jamie that Zava says exactly what he says and they all go crazy for it, but not him. But he is getting a taste of his own medicine so…

I LOVE YOU DANI!! 😂 I love that they’ve giving so much to Cristo this year

Ted going to water then swapping to alcohol when Jake is mentioned 🥺

Barbara loves violence. Why do I love this??

I love the detail of Roy telling all the guys ‘cut, slice, mash’ their opponents, or in Colin’s case ‘cheer until your voice bleeds’, but tells Sam to ‘outclass ‘em’

Proud he didn’t pee on his trousers. I, too, and proud of you Ted 😂

“Henry’s a good kid cause you’re his dad” 🥹

Jade is so unnecessarily rude

I really do love what Nick is doing with Nate this season. It’s so layered and delicious

“Love someone for who they are not what they are” 👀

Sweet Nate, you don’t need her

They can’t function without Zava now. Shocking

I’m sorry, but Leslie’s Meemoji thing looks like my dad and that’s hilarious to me 😂😂

Hannah’s face journey in this scene breaks my heart. Nothing is said and yet every time is said at the same time 🥺 ALL. THE. AWARDS!!!

So twice she’s tried to call Keeley and she’s not answered 🤔 And she’s spent a good chunk of this episode alone 🤔 metaphors me thinks 👀

Keeley, babes, you can’t sleep with her after realising you can’t talk about Roy

Jade & Nate is interesting, but I’m not sure I’m behind it yet

Beard, you could have won that game if you hadn’t let the boys become a team that relied on Zava! (Why does this make me angry ITS NOT REAL!!😂)

A tactic his dad taught him that he passed onto his son 🥹 beautiful

Ted helping himself from a panic attack starting! Proud of you, babes!!

Gina fucking Gershon 😂 great callback!

I’m so happy to see Ted back giving his pep talks. And the boys being so invested in that sign because they’re so invested in Ted and his lessons.

OMG TED SWORE! 🫣😂

The order of these shots is interesting; Nate & Jade, Keeley & Jack, then Roy alone straight after, then Rebecca alone in the car still fixated on that FUCKING MATCHBOOK 🫠

Woah, what an episode! So much to unpack!! Of course I have many thoughts and feelings about most of it.

But it’s Amsterdam next week, guys! I will never be ready 🫡

[complete-idiot-in-love]

You know you think about someone when you start copying their speech patterns.

I was at a doctor's appointment and then whole time she was explaining stuff I kept going "Okay" like Gricko does, didn't even realize I was doing it until halfway through the appointment 😔

My brain has been permanently altered by found family goofy bitches

[fandomjunkyard]

putting the ball in your court. for the ask game: doctor who!!!

AAAA OK meant to do this yesterday but I was completely blasted

Favorite Character

It's gotta be The Doctor, I absolutely love this dude. 9 is such a fun yet jaded feeling doctor, 10 has the best Arc and honestly the best season (4) out of any of the new series (still haven't watched Oldwho yet I will one day), 11 has this Wonka-esque feel to him very whimsical but still capable of darkness, and 12 seems so tired of it all at some points and then is so excited to be alive almost like 9. (plus that war speech is so amazing blows me away god I'll never get over it) All things considered it's 10 but 12 is a close runner up!

Second Favorite Character

DONNA NOBLE MY BELOVED AAAAA!!! She will not be bossed around! She is a smart, funny, courageous, outspoken super temp and she means the world to me!!! Her interactions with 10 are amazing especially when he stops her from putting herself down. (but imagine her with 9?? Art)

Least Favorite Character

Overall? Pretty much anybody besides Graham or The Master from 13's run, not really saying much I just didn't really care for any of them. Graham says something a little funny every now and then, and The Master is well... The Master so it's less of I liked them rather they entertained me enough for me not to dislike them.

Character I'm Most Like

Honestly I would say Donna Noble but sadly I don't really have her spine. 😔 If we're going for a goal to aspire to I'm going for 10 or 12, please I'm begging give me some quick wit my brain is always running at half power.

Favorite Pairing

I don't really tend to ship things in media, it's pretty rare that I'll find something I like enough to ship. However, I do enjoy the angst that Ten x Rose gives. I think if I were the shipping type maybe Nine x Rose or Doctor x River would be what I would gravitate towards.

Least Favorite Pairing

Doctor x Donna, I'm begging let them just be friends, just good ole pals. Platonic soul mates if you will.

Favorite Moment

Ooooooo this one's hard. I love 9's talk with Blon in boomtown, all of his moments in Dalek, everybody lives!, plus his regeneration. I adore so much from 10 but some highlights are all of Midnight, the Family of Blood two parter, his time lord victorious arc, and just so many other little bits of dialog (especially with Donna). 11 has his Beast Below and Victory of the Daleks outbursts that I really love, his Colonel Run Away speech, River's talk with him in the same episode (you make them so afraid), and my favorite line of his "The good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant". I really enjoy 12's war speech, all of Oxygen, "Do you think I care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference?", all of Heaven Sent, his "Fix it now" speech in Face the Raven, and so many other little quips and comments! Honestly just love this time lord getting absolutely pummeled mentally.

Rating/10

Infinity/10 I'M SO EXCITED FOR ALL THE NEW STUFF WE'RE ABOUT TO GET!!! Thank you for sending this one! Since I've been introducing some friends to it I am rotating it in my mind constantly!!

I just dumped a lot on here geez apologies!

[expectiations]

No. Please keep the "The Doctor, specifically Eleven—especially Eleven—never told River 'I love you'" statements far, far away from me. 😔 (Side-eyeing THORS yet again.)

He told her those words over and over, with such glee. I will die on this hill.

At first, he’d say it hesitantly—a mumble, barely able to meet her gaze. But then… oh, then. He saw how her eyes would light up (Eleven: "I think you mean 'go sparky,' human 🙄😒😑") every single time he said those three simple words. So, of course, he got curious—scientific about it, even. Tried to be sneaky. Tried to gauge her reactions each time he slipped those words into different moments. Charts and graphs may or may not have been involved. Considering he keeps an entire diary just for the two of them, I’d say it’s not entirely out of the question.

By the time we get to Let’s Kill Hitler, he’s comfortable—finally comfortable enough—with telling her those three special words. He knows who she is. (She’s a Pond! My beloved Ponds! 🥹✨) He told her, his burgeoning River, that he loved her. No hesitation, no stammering. He knew. He knew how to reach through all the conditioning the Silence had instilled in her. He knew that love—their love—was the driving force between them.

Just as it was River’s unwavering love that saved Ten a lifetime ago, it was Eleven’s boundless love that saved River in return. His love gave her the strength to break free, to defy the Silence, and to choose her own path forward—on her terms.

Nine gave up the hard-fought intimacy they shared for the future they would one day have. (And yes, he read her diary—studied it—to understand her better!) Thirteen, feeling a bit rusty after all this time, tells River "I love you" with that sappy grin of hers, blushing redder than a tomato. Naturally, River teases her for it—because who else could roast and love the Doctor in equal measure quite like River Song?

We've seen how Twelve's guard immediately dropped upon seeing River, becoming all goofy and silly. He would still be wrapped in his usual gruffness, but when he'd finally say it, the weight of his words would leave no room for doubt. "River... I love you," he’d say quietly, almost as if it hurt to admit it. Yet, his eyes would soften, and the vulnerability in his voice would speak volumes. It wouldn’t be a frequent declaration, but when it came, it would carry the full depth of his devotion—a love that transcends lifetimes, expressed in the quiet moments they shared between adventures.

Fourteen would tear up every time he said it, his voice thick with gratitude for the second chance to tell her, again and again. And Fifteen? Oh, he’d say it with that trademark irreverence: “My consort, love of my lives, I love you.” Seemingly flippant, perhaps, but his eyes would betray the depth of his emotion—a profound, soul-deep love. Another lifetime with River Song. Another chance to choose her, always.

Eight would say it softly, with the gentlest sincerity, his voice trembling just slightly. “I love you, River,” he’d murmur, as if the words were too precious to speak aloud. His love would shine through in the way he looked at her, in every touch, in the poetry he might whisper when no one else was listening. With Eight, love feels like something tangible—intimate and all-consuming.

Seven would be cryptic, saying it almost in passing, perhaps while tinkering with one of his intricate schemes. “Did you hear me, River? I said I love you—keep up now, there’s a universe to save!” It might seem like nonsense to anyone else, but River would know better. His love would manifest in the way he always ensured her safety, playing the long game to keep her in his orbit.

Ever the gentleman, Six would declare his love with dramatic flair, a hand over his hearts. “River Song, you are a marvel, a revelation, the absolute love of my lives.” He’d back up his words with grand gestures—eloquent speeches, flowers from a distant galaxy, and endless acts of chivalry. His love would be bold, unashamed, and utterly heartfelt.

Five's love would be earnest and boyish, almost desperate in its intensity. “River, travel with me. Please. I don’t think I could bear the stars without you.” He’d write her heartfelt letters, leave her small tokens of his affection, and look at her like she hung the constellations herself. For Five, loving River would feel like falling—beautiful, dizzying, and completely overwhelming.

Four's love would be quirky and effusive, expressed through warm smiles and tight hugs. “My dear River, have I mentioned today how much I adore you?” He’d tell her in the middle of an adventure, while sharing jelly babies, or as they watched the sunrise on some distant world. For Four, love is simple and constant—always present, like the scarf around his neck.

Three would be gallant and composed, expressing his love in the most refined and gentlemanly manner. “My dear River, I trust you know how deeply I care for you. I always will.” His love would come through in his unwavering loyalty, his protective nature, and the way he’d prioritize her well-being, even while trying to maintain his trademark dignity. It might seem reserved at times, but his actions would speak volumes.

Two’s love would be playful and mischievous, often disguised behind clever banter. “Oh, River, I suppose it’s only fair to tell you—I do love you, you know. But don’t let it go to your head!” He’d twirl her around mid-adventure, a twinkle in his eye, his affection bubbling over in spontaneous acts of joy. His love would be vibrant and full of life, as unpredictable as he is.

With his gruff exterior, the First Doctor might struggle to articulate his feelings, but when he does, it’s with profound sincerity. “River… you are quite extraordinary. I suppose I might even say that I love you.” It would be a rare moment of vulnerability, his voice soft but steady. His love would be shown in the way he watches over her, in the grudging respect he holds for her brilliance, and in the quiet, unspoken bond they share.

Anyways, Eleven is known for being physically affectionate with her. He wrote poems for her. He broke the rules of time for her. He is always on time for her despite being the regeneration infamously known for being tardy. There is no universe—no timeline—where you could convince me he never told her those three special words. Because no matter what, they always chose each other. That’s what makes them work so beautifully: despite their flaws, their mistakes, their unhealthy coping mechanisms—they. choose. each. other.

Why else would even their enemies declare, “This woman is the known consort of the Doctor”? That “she is the perfect bait”? That “when this woman is in danger, the Doctor will always come”? Whatever my issues with The Husbands of River Song and its Eleven-bashing undertones, as always with Moffat, the truth is in the details. Flemming’s words hint at countless unseen moments where the Doctor—cough Eleven cough—becomes everything his enemies fear: the Oncoming Storm, the Beast of Trenzalore, the Madman in a Box, the Time Lord Victorious, the Destroyer of Worlds, the Bringer of Darkness, the Shadow of the Valeyard. In those moments, he unleashes his full fury on anyone who dares to harm the woman he loves.

I’ve said this before, and I’ll say it again: River Song is the exception. She is always the exception.

River: Three words. Say them and I'm yours.

The Doctor: Three words.

River:

[celestialholz]

Celestial Live-Reacts: STP 2.7, 'Monsters'

... If this isn't Tapestry 2, I'm fucking writing Tapestry 2.

Off we go!

"The true sovereign of nature..." quite the enigmatic speech from someone I have never seen and looks rather like Julian Bashir

... God, I miss Bashir 😔

Sorry, "you WERE a human?" Excuse me????

He's claustrophobic! Bless him ❤

"The man who hates enclosed spaces spends his life in the infinite cosmos" - yeah, sounds about right. Heaven forbid we get this man some therapy and he actually DEALS with shit, can you imagine 😂

"You're not very interesting." 😆 "I'm really quite dull", anyone?

"Even your closest friends call you 'captain'"... wow. English psychologist Q is a dick.

... You know when you're so repressed that even your own BRAIN gives you an innate therapist who sounds far too much like that one god you really like? 🙃

He's so uncomfortable 😭

... Thank you, CBS, for that image of Picard holding a sun. I have exactly the fanfic to put that in. 😍

"Once upon a time, there was a queen with fiery red hair... and she was female." 😂😂 Fucking hell. Reason #383048 why Jean-Luc shouldn't have kids

This is why he likes reading, bless 😍

"There is no better teacher than one's enemy" - true, if you're ridiculous enough to consider him your enemy 🙄

"... To lift them up with inspiring speeches." "I'll never be able to do that." Oh, you of little faith 😍

... The monsters are real? Spidey sense? 🤔

His mother is also a speechmaker! Of course she is ❤

... Oh fuck 🙃

Titles! More lady writers!

Ah, hello my dears ❤

"If that whole thing starts up again, I'm quitting the gang" 😂

"Everyone loves us", "we're the main event"... fourth wall whom 🤣

... This isn't Tapestry 2, is it 😒

Admiral = done

"There's a thousand ways to die out there", mmm... "It's not safe out here", anyone?

Estonia is playing 80s kids' show Knightmare, for anyone who likes a niche reference ✊

What IS this monster thing? Am I in a Doctor Who episode that stars Patrick Stewart? 🤔

"You may terminate your session now"? "Something else is happening here?" Whaaaaaat

"We're all here for you, Picard..." 🤔 I get it, they are, but they're self-aware. His brain's screaming at him. Never mind Q, this guy's Vic Fontaine 😂

"Perpetually untethered in ways of the heart"... oh fuck, this IS Tapestry 2 isn't it, just more allegorical... and without Q 😒

"A secret shame... something you're afraid others will see..." ... Oh, wow. They really went there, huh. 😂

"STOP!" And that is what gets him. Damn, that is telling...

"... And you don't know how it ends..." What's behind the white door, huh? Because shit, a girl could speculate for days...

Can't help but notice that of all the costumes they could have given Babycard, he's got a suspiciously familiar white, ribbed tunic on... 🙃

Oh shit, bye Estonia 😂

She shuts her son's helmet against the swearing 😂 Theresa's great ❤

... This is some serious Doctor Who shit. Doctor Who has a vibe, and this episode has it in spades

Poor Theresa 😂

Try something new, kid ❤

"I just WORK in outer space" 😆

... Just realised that Estonia's more a concerned mum/aunt here, and I quite like it? She suits this sort of thing much more. She's seemed cold and strictly business outside Renee, but this offers her a sweet little niche, and therefore already more personality than her counterpart.

Soft Lesbian Intermission 😍

Seven is a coffee fan - wonder who she got that from 🙃😂

... "My ready room"? Really?

IT'S HIS DAD. Dear lord... and I thought he was quite Q-like... 👀 Wrong sort of daddy 😂

"You ruined her, you broke her" - another mirror of Tapestry, where we found out his father makes him distinctly uncomfortable 👀

Tunnels... thousands of ways to die down there...

... There's no monster. "Couldn't save her either... not from her own mind." 😭 I'm a massive fan of this. This gives his father dimension he's never been credited with, and another reason for Picard to be traumatised - not only does he have to get over the fact that the mother he loved dearly wasn't quite sane, but the fact that he's had no way to turn to his father and try and work through that, because he didn't know how to process it either. And Babycard didn't get that, has placed the blame on him all his life. ❤ Maurice still seems harsh and strict, but clearly, he cared. ❤

Lovely piano version of the series one theme here 😍

"You'll do so much, one day. You'll save worlds." Aunt Estonia is a new take and I'm here for it 😍

They're back... BUT WHAT IS THAT DOOR? 🤔 That's so Picard. We see such great insights, but never the true him. The 'secret shame'. 👀 It can't be so simple as sexuality, surely, or that sense of rebellion that permeated through the original Tapestry... can it? That door's going to be key...

... Rios is staying here isn't he ❤

"Picard feels like a father to me... even though I'm not a son to him." Much like Maurice feels like Jean-Luc's father, yeah? *holds up mirror once again*

These two are lovely 😍

'Hey babe, son, check out Daddy's cool spaceship' 😂 Okay, maybe they're going with him

"Jurati, with a side of Borg Queen" - yes my good waiter, I'll take ten 😂

... Wow. More hot women who sing well. 👁👄👁

What did that bloody window ever do to you 😆

"You saved her" - did you, though?

She IS Romulan!

"All of that was part of Q's plan, that you experience those memories." ... Whoa whoa whoa, he meant for this? Meant him to get run over and everything? 👀 Q is a master of engineering, my god 😍

... Also, yeah - Tapestry without Q, but not really. He's behind that white door isn't he 😆

"I've been letting him control... what if the lesson I take is: know HIM?" Imagine that Jean-Luc, bothering to work out Q's motivations early. Could not be you 😂

... No, but really. Finally, he's making some form of connection; finally, he's starting to work out that Q's doing this for him. Thought we'd never fucking get here 😂

"I always take Q as unknowable... but here he is, so late in my life, STILL fixated on me!" Yes...

"He needs this trial to happen, but... he's saying it's about me, but it's deeply personal and urgent to him..." YES...

"And if we understand why that is, then we can go on offence!" ... NO 😒 Fuck's sake Picard... never have I been more frustrated with a character I love so dearly. You were so close! 😭

Also, shall we have a fucking quick think on why, Jean-Luc? Just for a moment? Because jesus christ, is it not PAINFULLY OBVIOUS 🙃

... This is so indolent it's almost out of character. Picard is not a man driven by emotion, but at this point, it's the just the logical conclusion. *soft Celestial scream*

"Sounds like you want to summon Q... flattered, but that's beyond my capabilities." "Yours, maybe, but..."

Guinan, ladies, gentlemen and lovelies: for all your omnipotence-summoning needs 😂

... He didn't even ask. Dear god. 😂

El-Aurians and the Continuum had a truce????

'Denizen'??? Do the Q live with others? Whaaaat? That's lore chaps 👁👄👁

"I'm not going to call them gods, that's for damn sure" 😂 And she'd know, apparently...

Food and drink unites El-Aurians, hence the bars! Beautiful 😍

... Wow. Q drinking Earl Grey when meeting Adam hits different now 😆❤

Also, my thanks to CBS again - every time I've had Q drinking ludicrous cocktails in my fics is now officially validated 😂

"Every action vibrates, every word has resonance... metal and liquid can capture the half-life of a moment, so when I say the truce was made over a bottle..." Okay, a. prose is delightful 😍 and b. this is why she hates Q isn't it, because he ignores that shit and does what he likes 😂

Does that make this... the Treaty of Alcoholeron? 😏 Yeah, don't mind me... I'll just be going over here... to laugh 😂

"El-Aurians hear the world like music" 😍

Hurricane in a bottle, oh god 😆

... And he's... not here. 👀

"It didn't... work." Ohhh. Ohhh no.

So he's either ignoring it... or he's cut off from the Continuum. Can't be good, can it? 😭

... Not to be that guy, but Picard is too slow, and Q's in too deep... and even this hasn't made him get it. This thing that has been engineered specifically for him to get it. This is going to be Picard's cartharsis; Q dying for him is going to be what it takes for him to WAKE UP. I swear to all that's fucking holy, I hope I'm wrong... and I hope they fucking fix that shit in series three when I'm not... 😡

"An El-Aurian summons a Q, a Q appears." ... Who the fuck's this guy, then? Wrong Q? 🤔

Go on...

... Ah, shit. Not a Q, then. 😂

He's dropped his badge...

... Okaaaaay, and breathe...

Celestial Rating: 6.5/10.

This episode is a fucking trip. Beautifully imagined and realised, but I do not enjoy where this is going... and I do not enjoy Picard being this ignorant. 🙄

[baylardo]

Girl this is so like prone to change YOU KNOW ME my mind wanders hahaha and I haven’t read these books and Protectors’ wiki doesn’t have a book summary just a premise lmaO RIP

I’m very INTRIGUED by the vague idea I have of events that happen in protectors regarding Janeway returning to earth just cause like,,,,,, I don’t have the full picture I haven’t read these books yet obviously but FOR AU PURPOSES I guess I’m wondering how Janeway gets from Earth back to the DQ inevitably when the premise of Protectors involves like, her superiors in Starfleet questioning her abilities given the trauma she experienced and potentially wanting to reassign her blahblahblah. Supposedly she doesn’t give an epic speech behind her need to return to the DQ (sad 😔👌) cause that would be cool in my brain eheggh. I guess I’m like BRISKING the idea that she’d maybe fret over reassignment, externally having this list of reasons as to why she’s needed out there, maybe bring up the fact that her kids are out there too, I just imagine her being like ‘I’m a mother’ but HEH secretly having this internal punch and motivation that she’s preggy and she neeeeeeds to get back out there. I suppose it’s be cool too if after her imploring and utter rejection and denial for her to return out there she’d just BAIL and be like k bye heck yall lol I wanna go back to my space boyfriend and our freak kids and also I’m pregnant hahaha SEE YA. It would be less sexy if they’re just like omg go for it admiral Janeway return to ur fleet aha but I suppose that might happen also. Inevitably though I’m like hehe :3c the idea that she’d know she’s pregnant and trying to hide that from eeeeeveryone during this duration of time because it’s so obviously a BIG ISSUE and maybe a clouded of judgement on her end and is obviously driving her decision making. I’m curious as to what the extent of her medical examinations would be,,, if she BEGS for the emh to help hide her condition from starfleet (this is why I imagine she’d just put up with him smothering her so much after the fact like it becomes their little secret for a while and the Doctor likely becomes her confidant and she might cry to him once about how she’s scared to tell chakotay and he consoles her over it and maybe ruins the mood by remarking on her mood swings or something HAH)

[bi-demon-ium]

15 and 21 for Mr. Benedict obviously :-)

15: favorite line?

honestly i have no idea because like. im really bad at memorizing lines or just generally remembering them. but the ones that come to mind completely randomly are:

the conversation with milligan outside the cabin where he's like "i ask so much of you" just. oof. that's more an exchange in general tho than specifically a mr benedict line

same as the last one but comedy instead, but the whole exchange with curtain where hes like "why didnt you reach out to me?" and hes like "i did" and hes like "kidnapping is not reaching out"

"is anyone going to acknowledge this is WEIRD?" "no, it is. it is" . also "you wanted a bunch of smart orphans for a deadly mission. i get it" "ideally not deadly" and "that was a ruse" "a LIE!!!" "that was a ruse" just his interactions with constance in general dlfkgjdfgkljdfg i love them

i also just appreciate how he interacts with the kids in general, and just everyone in general for that matter but thats not really a quote dflkgjdfghh--

the little speech where he says “please hear me: you. are. needed. ..I know this world has made you feel unwanted, abandoned, angry—but it needs you. desperately.”

"I Have Absorbed Every Dimension Of The Problem."

“first i ask them to go undercover and risk their lives and now CHEATING????”

the conversation with milligan but specifically where he's like i'm here for you. when and if.

i'm sure i'm missing a lot i just..... i lvoe him. if i had to pick i'd probably either choose one of his interactions with constance, the "please hear me: you are needed" thing, or the "when and if" thing. still not narrowing it down a lot but it's fine.

21: wild card; talk about anything

uhhhh FUCK it's too broad it's too broad!!! listen i just love him so much.

okay some uh. some random thoughts then:

uhhhh he like. listen. he really likes giving AND receiving hugs. like on one hand. hugging someone tight and resting his chin on their head and rocking them a little???? holding them close and feeling them relax and they're warm and hugging back??? good shit. but also this man does not get HUGGED enough and like the vibe of Being The One Held like. especially with YOUR head tucked under someone's chin or curling against their chest/into their side!! FUCK!!!! hugs for mr benedict!!!!!!!! hugs for mr benedict for One Thousand Years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mr benedict has very strong opinions on certain pieces of literature. he's generally quite non confrontational and pacifistic unless he's already really, really upset/stressed (which is like, a good portion of canon, rip mr b 😔) but like. he may or may not have gotten into a fistfight his junior year over frankenstein. i mean they were both fucken nerds so its not like it was an impressive fight but still.

i wonder if mr benedict draws. i think writing would be more his style, although he probably stuck to non fiction for a long time but he had his more creative stuff hidden away, rarely taken out and scribbled away at, but perhaps one way he tried to work through feelings he otherwise bottled up, but like. he also doodles, in the margins of his notes and on findings and maps and reports, without even thinking, little sketches of his friends, of birds outside, of books and sunlight and flowers, of spirals and random patterns, and like. maybe they're actually pretty good, or maybe they're hilariously bad but sweet, but i think he'd still do it either way just without thinking, hands moving absently as he was thinking hard about whatever research they were doing, like. you ever doodle in class and you're half spaced out bc your mind is actually like 70 percent on the lecture but youre paying just enough attention to move your hand and form a little drawing and it helps you focus more? like that yeah

listen. whether it's actually a reference to doctor who or he's just Like That, i think mr benedict would wear the fourth doctor's scarf. while there's potential sad backstory of him and his brother actually watching it as kids in the orphanage, also just yoinking the apparent backstory for the scarf and it being like. number two offers to make him a scarf and tells him to pick a color. he says he likes all of them, so she can choose herself or maybe make it striped with all the colors. he is expecting a normal length scarf. she returns with the longest scarf he's ever seen, with all the colors and also all the yarn she'd shown him. he's like. [wheezing] oh my god its so long . i .... number two this. this isn't what i meant. but also. i unironically adore this and am going to wear it whenever i need a scarf. he probably does trip on it but he also 100 percent uses it to trip either the ten men or curtain himself and it's fucking hilarious. and while i did mean just how it looks normally bc i think the vibe would suit him, also if it had some green plaid on it what of it? (also now picturing constance with her own version and it's like...... is it funnier if it's a mini replica or if it's exactly as big but that means its wrapped around her tiny little head/neck/shoulders like a million times ldkfgjdlfkgjdfg,,,,,,)

[bunnywand]

gonna start by saying i actually rly enjoyed the new doctor who episode!! it wasn’t as good as spyfall (but tbf what could have been?? 😧) but i still thought it was fun, i liked of the characters, the humour was good and like w/ spyfall i’m enjoying the companions getting 2 see like, a darker side 2 travelling w/ the doctor, and i’m wondering where that’s gonna go?? 😳

i didn’t even Dislike the speech at the end, the one thing i wish was different tho was i think it would have worked better if the planet wasn’t earth 🤔 like the parallel was already obvious when the concept of orphan planets was explained, i think it would have worked better w/ “and if we don’t change our ways the same could happen 2 earth too!!” being the message, like it felt p depressing and hopeless 2 me w/ it being earth, which is unusual 4 doctor who.. 😖

especially bcos like the doctor waved it off as “it’s only a possible future” but afaik that’s not rly something they’ve done in the show b4, it seemed out of place within the rules of the show bcos they don’t rly do like alternate timelines or anything??

i just think it’s a shame that an episode i liked is probably gonna go down as another thing 4 the “sjws are Ruining doctor who with political correctness!!!!!” losers 2 yell abt, when w/ just a slight change it could have been much better.. 😔

[13andherbluebox]

It’s 4am and I’m in bed and I just started thinking about TPOTD and how Thirteen felt so loved from everyone, especially Yaz, and I started crying lmao love that for me 😔✌️ sorry for my rambling below I’m tired and a mess but want to get this out before I fall asleep.

Thirteen to me in particular has always felt so alone and isolated even from the beginning (even if she was surrounded by people and it’s why I think she needs to be around so many people) so her feeling so LOVED by everyone. Her past regenerations. Her past companions who are friends and her family. And Yaz, who she already knows loves her so deeply and is IN love with her- Yaz radiated her love for Thirteen in this episode in tenfolds and Thirteen FELT it all. I was so worried the last episode was going to put her through even more emotional trauma and hurt and heartbreak… I am sad her ending and exit was so abrupt but I am so RELIEVED that she felt so loved and happy and was able to accept her end with a genuine smile and not her usual go to doctor mask facade she wears when she puts her walls up to hide how she feels. She loved being herself, in the end after a constant battle of identity. She loved who she was, she loved being with Yaz who stayed with her… her entire regeneration… and she felt so genuinely cared for and loved by everyone else. As a viewer I felt loved. Her end speech fills me with such warm emotions and love too… I don’t even know how to describe it. Her being gone hasn’t hit me yet, because it felt more like a ‘until the next time’ or a ‘see you soon’ rather than a definitive goodbye. And I think I needed that after the constant pain I go through each Doctor regen lmao. Whenever it finally hits me… well… I’ll be a wreck. Sorry for my rambling I’m not paying attention to spelling or sentence structure. I could write a whole essay about this and how I feel but I just wanted to get my thoughts out rn lol.