#the cyrodilic way of life

[dundreary]

Quick, someone call the Mages Guild, because I have been brought back from the dead and there are probably necromancers afoot!

In the past few days I finally found time to get back to my mad ravings writing after a turbulent past year. I successfully reread and revised the entirety of The Cyrodillic Way of Life, fixing a lot of misspellings, repetitions and flow issues. I plan to continue the story soon.

It's weird, because I have all of those ideas where I want my characters to go and how to develop them, but it's so hard to get it down to paper... and then years pass without anything happening.

But oh well, here's to a more productive future 🤠

[skyrim-forever]

WIP Wednesday

Hello everyone and welcome to another wip wednesday ❤️ I was tagged by @thequeenofthewinter and I am tagging:

@bougainvillea-and-saltwater @dirty-bosmer @captain-of-silvenar @lucien-lachance @pocket-vvardvark @theoneandonlysemla

@firefly-factory @ladytanithia @sulphuricgrin @changelingsandothernonsense @umbracirrus @moriche

@hircines-hunter @scholarlyhermit

So I have been encouraged by some lovely friends (you know who you are ❤️) to explore a Modern AU Theomar as spies. Have no idea if this will end up on ao3 as life is in a strange place right now but I've been playing around with how to incorporate events of Skyrim into a modern context. But this snippet is mostly them flirting at the bar 😛 Under the cut because suggestive a button up shirt with the sleeves rolled up whore ass behaviour

“Can I get a between the sheets, with Colovian brandy if you have it?” 

“I’m afraid we’ve only got Cyrodiliic brandy and Geef.” They have Geef but not Colovian? Puzzled as to how the brandy from Morrowind is more common here, she orders the closest of the two.

“I’ll take the Cyrodilic.” As her suspicions were correct, the bar is almost empty save for a figure on the other end, it takes no time for her drink to appear. “Thank you.” 

The citrus of the orange liquor is delicious and burn from the brandy is familiar, thoughts of having five or six more tempt her; nursing a hangover at work was not the worst. That too was familiar, once she had even given a briefing to the Director after an attempt to empty the city’s sujamma supply. Wretched headache but she was good at her job. If not for the fact there was a meeting scheduled for first thing in the morning tomorrow, a meeting to establish the collaboration with those Altmeri Dominion diplomats, Theodora would have thrown her uncharacteristic caution to the wind. But tomorrow required everyone to be at their most professional to be thrown into the den of vipers, as her colleague Dram put it. Dramatic as always. Yet, she harboured a few concerns of her own. An odd way to describe them as even she knew they were not here in the spirit of diplomacy, that was evident based on her prior interactions with the Thalmor in Cyrodiil. Sarce they were, but it was obvious they had a need to put their golden hands over everything. The war hadn’t stopped, it just became hidden. 

As she finishes the drink, the last of the liquid is not yet swallowed when another is brought to her. 

“From the elf over there.” Too focused on drinking and thoughts of work, the agent forgot such a basic skill in her line of work: observation. Bringing the figure from her periphery to the centre of her vision, her concerns about the Altmer she’ll meet tomorrow are exchanged with intrigue at the one looking at her. Looking at his strong jawline and thinking about how satisfying it would be to grip his black tie, it doesn’t matter that he has a buzzcut. Different in very many ways he was. Offering him a smile and downing the drink, she approaches the stool beside him, sitting as she starts the conversation. 

“What are you drinking?” It’s almost unfortunate how handsome he is, now close enough to see the details on his face. Only somewhat knowledgeable on guessing a mer’s age, she can tell his over one hundred but beyond that she’s uncertain. Not that it matters. The slight chuckle he does is attractive, as is his voice. 

“Supposedly a Fine Elven Wine.” Very fitting she thinks. “Yet it is neither fine nor a wine, certainly not Elven.” Taking the glass from his hands, swirling it for a moment before she sips. Gagging at the taste. The mer laughs harder now. 

“Gods, that is disgusting. Here, let me get you something better.” Once again flagging down the bartender, she orders him a Collequiva, a fancy imperial wine. Watching as he has a taste, it seems it is satisfactory. 

“Hmm, better than I expected. Thank you…” Ah names, might be good to do that now.

“Theodora” she says. 

“Ondolemar.” 

Introductions out of the way, names all that needed to be exchanged; personal details kept under wraps due both to the secrecy of her work and her desire for privacy. Any other information he would need could be figured out after. In the event she found herself in his lap she could let him know what treatment she expects; deciding to start leading them there, she asks him a question. 

“Do you often buy human women drinks from across the bar?” His people in particular frowned upon such relations, would be good to gauge where his thoughts on the matter lied. 

“Would you believe I do not?”

“I would actually.” Why did he then… 

“You look too exquisite to sit alone at the bar, I have a feeling that this was not part of your original evening plans.” A bit taken aback but such a compliment as she was used to very different words from men, but the rest of his response is curious. It was a leap in logic to assume that off of what she is wearing alone, but it was correct. How did he know that?

“And what would you know of my plans? Maybe I wanted to get dressed up just to sit at the Winking Skeevar?” He dryly chuckles, drinking more of her recommendation. 

“Well then. I would say there are better bars to do that at. This one leaves much to be desired.” 

“Then why are you here?” She says. 

“My residence is nearby, it is convenient.” A reasonable enough answer, she had done many things because it was convenient at the time, many men fell into this category. Not the best but around. Good enough for the job that was pleasing her. Perhaps her eyes should not have lingered on his forearms, the neatly rolled fabric that was tight around the middle of them. Not lingering now, they trail up and over his torso as she imagines ripping the white button up off, let the buttons scatter and litter the floor. 

Returning to his initial comment on her appearance, she questions the word he used. 

“So I look exquisite?” A straightforward start, she’s curious where he’ll go with it. 

“You do, that is a lovely dress.” A straightforward answer, safe. It’s too safe so she amps things up a bit with a little test to figure out what kind of guy he is. 

“Hmm, well I’ve been told before by men that it does not leave much to the imagination.” 

“Then they do not have a very good imagination, now do they?” Another sip, more than a sip, a full mouthful and then he continues. “A simple man imagines merely the body, they neglect to think all which you can do with it.” Her widened eyes have him mistaken that he overstepped in his words, something which could not be further from the truth as she is imagining all the things she���d like to do with him. “I may have already had too much to drink.” 

“Oh I wouldn’t say that, Ondolemar.” Her hand reaches for his tie, tracing her hands along the complex knot securing it and enjoying the fact that although he is smirking, how he tenses does not go unnoticed. “I like a man who is forward.” 

[noah-moth-cursed-chaos]

The Brotherhood's newest recruit was. Annoyingly sociable. A chatterbox really, it baffled Arnbjorn to no end, to his knowledge, argonians preferred fewer words and told most things in body language, yet Zane never. Fucking. Shut. His mouth.

Astrid said she saw something in him. As did Nazir and Veez.

Arnbjorn just saw an annoyance.

"What did you think you'd do when you were young?"

Arnbjorn looked over at the man standing next to him, watching him.

"... What?"

"I'm curious, I mean, I know children don't typically dream of being assassins."

Arnbjorn stared at Zane like he had two heads, what made him think that they were close enough for Arnbjorn to speak about his childhood?

"... I wanted to be a linguist." Apparently the silence wasn't as off putting as he'd wanted. "I love language, it fascinates me. The way different people choose to communicate, ideas only present in one language or another, formalities and grammar and the way it all intersects with tone and body language."

Arnbjorn looked at him for a minute. He'd seen Zane's writing, a code of his own design, incorporated about five or six different languages and alphabets, some Arnbjorn had never seen.

It wasn't like he didn't have the skills.

Arnbjorn questioned how valuable linguistics were to argonians. Or if Zane would be listened to anywhere outside the Marsh.

"But, well. Dad was a thief. And when he died... Bellies needed to be filled, so I followed in his footsteps. And it lead me here."

"... You had siblings?"

"One, Tanasi. I miss him dearly. We had to part ways when we left the marsh, hopefully he's somewhere safe in Cyrodil." Zane's tone had... The slightest tinge of sadness, "Far from me, he was always a wonderful craftsman, hopefully he's left our old life behind and begun using those skills."

"You act like you're the thing that was fucking things up for him." Arnbjorn scoffed.

"A better brother would have been able to provide without leading the both of us into a life of crime." Zane stated, as if that were a simple fact, and not likely far more complicated.

"How old were you anyway?"

"... I was 14. Tanasi was 13."

"... What fucking choice does a 14 year old have? By the nine, cut yourself a bit of slack." Arnbjorn shook his head, "... I wanted to be a guard."

Zane was... Trying not to laugh.

"Hey! You asked alright! The companions were the closest I could get. But. Well. I've got a vengeful streak, and some bastards skimped us on pay." He looked over at Zane, "So, what drew you to the companions? You don't seem the heroic sort. And I can't say I know many other places you'd contract lycanthropy and live to tell the tale."

"The fact that you think I can't hold my own against a werewolf is insulting." Zane said, before pausing, "It was... Well it seemed right. I was in a new country, surrounded by new people. I was one of the people there when that dragon by Whiterun was killed, and the dragonborn absorbed the soul and all. He didn't want to stick around, but there were things to be done, and he trusted them to me for some reason. I suppose I was trying to prove I could fill those shoes." He shrugged, "The whole righteous schtick just didn't suit me. I killed some werewolf hunters though."

"You know the dragonborn?"

"Short khajiit, calico markings, big eyes." Zane said, "Last I heard he became the archmage."

"Divine shit, you do know the dragonborn."

"The imperials were trying to kill us both when Helgen got attacked. We escaped together."

"What'd you do to piss off the imperials?" Now Arnbjorn was actually starting to get curious. Dammit. The new guy was growing on him.

"Walked across the border. Ji'Ren was on the way out, but offered to turn back to show me somewhere I could stay, we walked over the border together just when they ambushed." Zane explained, "They smacked him over the head so hard I was worried he might not wake up at first."

"I still dunno how I feel about having you as a brother, but I will admit you live a damn interesting life."

Now it was Zane's turn to laugh, "I just go where life takes me, it tends to direct me down a lot of interesting side roads."

"Like becoming an assassin?"

"It has been interesting."

"Well, just make sure you're good at it. I'm gonna need more stories and I can't get them if you're dead."

[virginianmetrofaerie]

ondolemar headcanons bc again WE ARE LACKING

please bear with me i am a; autistic and b; obsessed with grumpy bald men. Some NSFW and Romance headcanons but nothing too explicit.

Not exactly middle aged, but not some sweet young thing either. If we're going off the idea that a 200 year old Altmer is elderly, then Ondolemar would probably be in the 75-85 year old range; the human equivalent of about 34-38. Not afraid of growing older, as in his eyes, age and wisdom is something to be respected and desired rather than feared and lamented.

Most definitely a little inbred. His bloodline is long, respected, and as pure as it gets (mostly thanks to getting a couple cousins together every now and then).

I saw something on a tes forum discussing how the Thalmor most likely occupied the majority of the Noble upper echelon in the Summerset Isles. This would be the case for Ondolemar, his father being a high-ranking Thalmor officer, and the same as his father before him.

Being the blueprint of racial purity and male attractiveness in Altmer society, Ondolemar is likely very popular with the ladies. Most definitely has a girl somewhere in every port across the Empire. However...

There has been significant pressure from his family to marry and produce an heir to carry on his family's name (especially going off the canon idea that Altmer only produce 1-2 children per couple). However, it is also an idea that Ondolemar has been putting off. He finds himself quickly bored and annoyed by any women that cross his path and desires someone that will challenge him. Frankly, he wants a woman that he can court and chase and put effort into wooing over, rather than it being the other way around.

Cares less than he actually shows about the intermixing of races across Tamriel, though is very adamant on Elven Supremacy (however, does have fascination and respect for Argonians and Khajiit). However, he will not touch a woman who is not another Altmer, unlike some of his other Thalmor colleagues such as Ancano who has most definitely had a cheeky roll in the hay with an Imperial or Dunmer woman.

A great enjoyer of sex, and is quite good at it too. Most likely going a little nuts in Markarth as the only other Altmer there are his two blokes™ as well as Calcemo and Aicantar.

Very wealthy, both generationally and through his own efforts. Doesn't flaunt his wealth, but definitely enjoys the finer things in life; expensive imported wine, high quality leather, fine art, exotic food... the list goes on. One thing he noted about Skyrim was the lack of industries supporting such exuberant wealth; in Summerset, most individuals, even the middle class, were wealthy to a degree, thus most of the industry advertised luxury and premium items. If anything, the humbleness of life in Skyrim impressed him (after he got over his initial repulsion).

I headcanon that he does own property in Skyrim; though he has an office in Understone Keep for the purpose of investigating Talos Worship in Markarth, he has been provided an abode nearby by the Embassy. He also would own private property in a more Imperial city, such as Solitude, as a means to get away when he is given some time off.

Very religious, and takes his job rather seriously, though is absolutely sick of it, and sick of Elenwen.

Skyrim had not been his first post, yet his most recent and his least desired. He had been stationed in Summerset, Elsewyr, Valenwood, and very briefly in Cyrodil Previously. Elsewyr had been his favorite; he enjoyed the culture of Khajiit as well as the tropical weather.

[seigephoenix]

Kinktober 2024: Free Space

My second Halloween themed free space for Kinktober! A trip to Skyrim is in order for my favorite Dragonborn and werewolf. These two are a comfort ship of mine.

Ship: Aurelia Tullius/Farkas Content Warning: bath sex, fingering, p in v, mostly plot for this one with a little porn Length: 2.7k

13th of Frostfall

“It’s time for that ghastly tradition,” Skjor complained as he stared out the window as the city of Whiterun prepared for the festivities after dark.  The children already wore their carved or stitched masks resembling creatures of myth.  The Companions stayed inside during the holiday as most disliked the use of magic during the festival.  Vilkas leaned back in his chair as Roscar made his way up from the barracks.  He looked uneasy, which alarmed the inner circle.  Their Harbinger rarely had that look in his eyes.

“I received a report from the Thieves Guild over in Riften,” Roscar began and Skjor scoffed.  Roscar sent him a quieting glare and Aela put her hand on Skjor’s shoulder.  “There are reports out by the springs of the Pumpkin Spectre.  I would normally attribute this to a youth’s prank, but the Guildmaster assures me that this is serious.”

“And you trust this Guildmaster?” Skjor asked cautiously.  He was surprised when even Aela nodded.  “A thief?”

“We’ve come to an understanding with the guild.  Given who is associated with them.”  Skjor took only a second to think about it and he heaved a sigh.

“Of course.  The Dragonborn.”  Roscar nodded.

“She isn’t the Guildmaster, if that’s what you’re worried about.  Her only formal affiliation is the College of Winterhold, but that woman has more connections in Skyrim than I do.  And I’ve lived here my whole life.” Roscar chuckled as Aela grinned at Skjor.

“Wait, if Aurie is with the College then surely, they’d deal with the Pumpkin Spectre?” Aela asked.  Roscar nodded and crossed his arms.

“About that.”

Whiterun, Market District

A cold chill went down Aurelia’s spine and she whipped around to see what was behind her.  Nyx and Nazir looked back at her as she stared at the streets with a suspicious gaze.  “Aurie?”

“I thought I felt something watching me,” she replied before turning back to her friends and hurried to catch up to them.

“Is that your costume?” Nyx asked as Aurelia grinned and gave a small spin.  “I’ve never seen a dress like that.”

“It’s from Cyrodil.  It was the latest fashion when I left.  Apparently, my mother snuck it into my trunk that was delivered to the soldier’s barracks up in Solitude.  My uncle sent it to me and at least this way it gets some use.”  Nyx chuckled as Nazir rolled his eyes.  The dress could barely be called a dress.  The material appeared to be held together by the grace of the divine.  Silken scraps of fabric draped over Aurelia’s legs resembling the petals of a flower.  The top had a plunging neckline clasping to a brooch at her waist.  The back was just as sparse and Aurelia felt a little uneasy showing off her scars so much, but she had to get used to them eventually.  Aurelia put a mask on her face to resemble a spriggan and that was her costume.

“I can’t believe your mother did that,” Nyx said as they approached the stalls setting up in preparation for the evening.  She’d received the same missive from Sylvana and had made her way to Whiterun.  Nazir had to see it for himself.

“Why are you two in Whiterun anyway?” Aurelia asked after they finished carving their pumpkins.  She set a small light spell in hers and grinned at the flickering light.  Nyx set the candle in hers and Nazir set his aside as normal.

“We had a mission close by and Nyx wanted to see you.”  Aurelia grinned at Nyx who gave her the same warm smile in return.  Nyx wanted to protect Aurelia and so she would not be leaving her side that night at all.

After sunset

Aurelia wandered the streets as she saw the kids running along the edges of the pathways, screeching in laughter as they scared each other.  She gave them the treats she carried when they approached her.  They all paused as the lights flickered out with a strong breeze.  The children screeched in laughter and ran back to their parents, thinking it was all a grand game.  Aurelia did as well until she felt the cold prickle at the back of her neck.

“Aurie,” Nyx called out as they searched for her in the crowd.  “How could I lose sight of her!?” Nyx looked around worriedly as Nazir searched the crowd as well.  “Wait!  The Companions!”

“What do you mean?” Nazir asked.  “I know they are well acquainted with her.”  Nyx shook her head.

“I can’t say.  It’s part of the agreement I have with the Harbinger,” Nyx explained and while Nazir didn’t like it, he understood the secrecy.  The Companions kept their secrets and Nyx would keep theirs.  “But they can find her.  Keep looking please.”  Nazir agreed and watched as Nyx bolted towards Jorrvaskr.

She burst in causing all the warriors to jump to their feet.  Farkas was by her side first and helped her up.  “Farkas.  Shit.  I lost sight of Aurie in the marketplace!”  Roscar’s gut twisted at those words.  “I swear it was only a second but she was gone.  I can’t track her, but maybe you can?”

“If anyone can, it’ll be Farkas.” Aela assured Nyx as Farkas was already out the door.  “Let’s go and wait in the marketplace, maybe Aurie just wandered off.”

“Somehow I doubt it, but I’d like to think so.”  Nyx shook her head and she walked with Aela and Roscar back to where Nazir was.

“I haven’t been able to find her, but one of your people just rushed past me going that way.” Nazir pointed over his shoulder towards one of the side streets.

“I told you that Farkas would be able to find her.  Woe be to the Pumpkin Spectre,” Aela said with a laugh.

Side streets

“Hello?” Aurelia asked as she whipped around at the sound of the creepy laughter.  “If this is one of your pranks kiddos, it isn’t one of your better ones.”  Aurelia shivered at the icy breeze that surrounded her.  She turned at the sound of someone approaching and lashed out only to encounter warm flesh.  A familiar scent wrapped around her.  “Farkas!”

“You shouldn’t wander off.”  She puffed up at him and he ran a hand down the back of her head, checking for any injuries.  “Are you hurt?”

“Hmm?  No.  Why?” He breathed a sigh of relief.  “Why?”

“Roscar got a note from your thief friend.”  Aurelia tilted her head curiously.  “The Pumpkin Spectre is after you.”  Aurelia pointed to herself.

“Me?  What for?” Aurelia asked but he could only shrug in answer.  She huffed in annoyance and crossed her arms over her chest as she tried to figure out what the hell a spectre wanted with her.  It was ridiculous, unless.  Farkas bared his teeth menacingly as the creature appeared behind Aurelia.  She looked over her shoulder and her eyes widened.

“By the Nine but you’re ugly.”  Farkas and the spirit both paused at her outburst.  Farkas couldn’t stop the laugh that escaped and Hollowjack rattled his bones at Aurelia.  Farkas grabbed her when she started towards Hollowjack.  “You’re just a damn Daedra.”

“What?” Farkas whispered as Hollowjack recoiled at her yelling at him.  “Are you certain?”  Aurelia looked over her shoulder and gave him a scathing glare.

“Of course I’m certain.  Cyrodil celebrates this festival too, and I learned all about its origins.”  She pointed towards the Daedra.  “And I know you picked me because I’m carrying something you want for your damned festival.  Picked it up at an abandoned temple the other day.”

“Give it back.”

“Alright already.  Hang on.”  Aurelia yanked free of Farkas and looked down as a few of the silken petals fell into his hands.  “Well, that’s fine.”  She turned back towards the Daedra and crossed her arms.  “First things first.  You bring us back to Nirn, specifically Skyrim.”

“Wait, we’re in Skyrim.”  Aurelia shook her head at Farkas and that’s when he realized there was a strange smell that he couldn’t place in the air.

“No.  We’re in Detritus.  His domain,” she said pointing to Hollowjack.  “Now send us back.  Then I’ll give it back to you.”  Hollowjack rattled his bones at her.  “Nope.  That part is not up for negotiation.  Bring us back or I make what you want into bone ash.”

“It is done.”  With a snap of his fingers they were in Aurelia’s home in Whiterun.  Farkas looked around in surprise before stepping closer to her, keeping his eye on the Daedra.

“Well, that is handy.  And here is what you want.” Aurelia waved her hand and the horse skull appeared in Hollowjack’s hands.  Farkas heard the faint call of a horse as if it was coming from a great distance away.  “Now, go enjoy your holiday and leave me be.”

“Your soul,” Hollowjack said pointing towards Aurelia.  She let out a laugh that bordered on maniacal, it unnerved Farkas.

“When I die, I want to see the spectacular war between the daedric lords that will happen.”  Both Hollowjack and Farkas stared at her in quiet surprise before the Pumpkin Spectre simply stepped through his portal again, closing it rather quickly behind him.

“Hah, that was easier than I thought.” Aurelia shook her head and turned to face Farkas.  “Were you worried about me?” Aurelia asked as she clasped her hands behind her back while looking up at him.  He nodded, looking at her with the worry still etched into his face.  She reached up for him pulling until her lips touched his in a feather soft kiss.  “You didn’t need to.  I knew Hollowjack was going to come after me.  I looked up what the skull was and kept it with me until the festival.”

“You knew?” Aurelia nodded at his question.  “And you still kept it?”

“Well of course.  I wouldn’t pawn it off on some poor unsuspecting soul.  As many Daedric princes as I’ve faced down, I think it’s better for me to personally take this one on.”  Farkas shook his head but he had to admit that Aurelia had more encounters than anyone he’d ever heard of.  “Plus, I could’ve gotten us out of that plane anytime.  I know the spell for opening a portal to Nirn so I wasn’t too worried.”  Farkas stared at the wall as he tried to wrap his mind around how powerful his partner was.  And he thought of her as a partner and not just a lover.  In his mind, they were on equal footings.  “Though I should let Nyx know I’m fine.”

Aurelia flicked her wrist and the message was sent.  Nyx was relieved and passed the message along to the Companions.  She and Nazir headed to a safehouse for the Brotherhood in Whiterun to sleep for the evening.  Roscar finally let himself get some sleep without worrying about a damned Dragonborn traversing damned planes of existence.

Breezehome

“You want to take a bath with me?” Aurelia asked, tilting her face up towards Farkas.  He nodded and pointed towards her tub.

“I’ll fill it,” he said but she shook her head.  He narrowed his eyes.  “No magic.”

“What?  Why!?  It’s a lot quicker.”  She turned to face him as he got that stubborn set to his jaw.  “Magically summoned water won’t harm your precious werewolf ego,” she said poking his chest with her finger.  Farkas glared down at her and grasped her finger, tugging until his lips pressed a kiss against the palm.  “Besides, this house doesn’t have a well pump nearby.  I do in Solitude, but not here.”  He sighed heavily.

“Fine.”  She grinned and waved her hand towards the tub.  Farkas watched as the water magically rose and steam floated from it.  “Still don’t like magic.”

“But you like me?”  He nodded.  “Then that’s all you need to trust.  You don’t have to trust magic but trust me and know I’d never do anything that would harm you.”  He opened his mouth to argue but agreed.  He could trust her, and he did trust her.  He grumbled a little but he agreed it was more efficient than filling it by hand.

“Now, to get this thing off.” Aurelia jumped when his hand brushed the front of her outfit.  She looked over at him when his fingers twisted and set the brooch aside, and she grinned when his eyes widened as the outfit fell to the floor with a soft flutter.  “Yep, the only thing holding it together was that little pin.”

Farkas gave her a look that had her breath hitching in her chest.  He backed her up until her hips hit the side of her tub, smiling down at her in a way that unsettled her nerves.  Her heart thundered in her ears and lips trembled under his fingers.  “Get in the bath,” he murmured before brushing his lips across hers.  Aurelia smiled up at him and climbed in sighing as the warmth soaked into her body.  He climbed in behind her after stripping out of his armor.  “Now talk.”

“Hmph, you want to know how I came to acquire the horse skull of the Pumpkin Spectre’s phantom steed?  The one that carries the headless rider?”  Farkas nodded as he pulled her back against his chest.  She was safe and unharmed.  He’d been so worried and now all that worry melted away.  “It’s stupid.  I went into the temple thinking it held a word wall.  I stumbled across the horse skull on a small altar to Malacath.  Some poor sod felt betrayed last year by the Pumpkin Spectre and stole the skull.  I do not know how they came to acquire it, but as soon as I touched it, I felt the magic go through me.  So I availed myself of the College’s expansive library and found the damn thing in a book.”  She sighed and rested her head against his chest.

“You’re a trouble magnet.”  She grinned and agreed that it described her perfectly.

“Rarely do I go looking for trouble but trouble always finds me,” she replied and sighed when his hands slid up to cup her breasts.  “Farkas.”  He shook his head and leaned forward.  His lips trailed over her shoulder, savoring the feel of her shuddering beneath him.  He eased one hand between her legs, groaning when he found her already aching for his touch.  His fingers slid into her body, curling just right as his palm massaged her sensitive nub.  His teeth sank down onto her skin with each soft moan pulled from her chest.

Aurelia panted as the heat folded itself into knots between her legs.  She shifted until she was able to sit up and then sink down on his cock with her hand guiding him into her weeping folds.  His arms wrapped around her waist, keeping her in place as he buried his face between her shoulder blades.  He just wanted to savor the connection with her for just a little longer.  His lips trailed up her spine before parting on the back of her neck and nipping the sensitive skin there.  He groaned when her body clamped down on his cock.

Aurelia began to rock her body against his, seeking the friction she so desperately needed.  She didn’t care about the water or anything else.  She just wanted to make them both feel good.  Her head dropped forward at the feel of his teeth against her.  His fingers teased and gently pinched her clit, bringing her closer and closer to that edge.  A keening cry escaped her with each stroke and press of them.  She fell off the edge into a tempest.  Waves of heated pleasure crashed through her, her mind went blank from it all, and her fingers dug into the sides of the tub.  Farkas curled around her back as his cock spasmed inside of her.  She heard him whisper her name as he came inside.

They both sat in the silence for a few moments, just basking in each other, before he slowly lifted her off him.  A weak protest met his ears but he was determined.  He wanted more.  Farkas climbed out of the tub and reached in to scoop her out.  “Use your magic to dry us.  We’re going to the bed.”

[captain-of-silvenar]

👎🎭🌈🌧️🌌🤝

Oh my god, I'm sorry for how long this took lol. Let's do this round with Kerasil!

👎 Is there someone your OC can’t stand, despite them being on the same side or sharing basic values?

There isn't someone specifically that comes to mind right now that Kerasil would despises. Maybe Narsis Dren but he's harmless enough.

If anything, it's allied visitors to the city who don't show respect to her people or culture that put her in a twist. Kerasil can tolerate a lot from visitors, and grits her teeth a lot when it comes to politics, but it's not hard to heard the giggles and clipped comments about her people.

Oh my god, I just remembered about Captain Kaleen and it all came rushing back to me. There is someone who Kerasil absolutely cannot stand, and it was the choices Captain Kaleen wanted for herself and the Ayleid Relic.

Absolutely threw her hands up and smashed that thing so fast, forget how useful that thing could be; it enslaved the dead for personal use!

🎭 What is the one thing your OC regrets most? Would they undo it, considering how their life turned out?

As the Vestige, she regrets her earlier choices and choosing death over mercy for some of the people she encountered. After so, so long of being called to heroism and seeing the end results of her choices choosing to condemn someone to death didn't really change anything. So she wishes she could've given mercy to those earlier encounters, maybe they really could've changed themselves around. Maybe there wouldn't be another point of death in this ridiculous war.

As just the Captain of the Guard, she regrets not giving enough support out to the Silvenar. He died outside of her view, in the hands of the Aldmeri Dominion delegates in Khenarthi's Roost. It was out of her control, but Kerasil regrets for months and months at losing not just one, but both of her spiritual leaders within moments. And she blames herself for not ensuring their safety personally. Kerasil wouldn't undo it, change and moving forward are part of life and Valenwood provided a new Green Lady and Silvenar. But she sometimes entertains the thought in the depths of her mind.

🌈 Does your OC speak more than one language? If so, how many and which?

Being the Captain of the Guard in Silvenar means she meets a lot of different politicians, dignitaries, officers from her Alliance. So she's been made to and learned on her own several languages so that she can understand conversations when people come and visit the Silvenar.

Bosmeri is obvious. Same with Cyrodilic.

Altmeri spoken on a conversational level. She isn't fluent on the intricacy of cultural speech and naming conventions. She is fluent in reading them because of how many reports come to her desk in Altmeri against her will.

Ta'agra also on a conversational level. She doesn't get as much practice with this language as she doesn't get many Khajiit visitors. So she needs to refresh herself on it every time a new diplomat comes to visit the city.

🌧️ What is the favorite thing for you OC to do on a rainy day?

A rainy day can turn out two different ways. The best way is that everyone stays inside and finish up some slow chores while listening to the rain. Stoke the fires and share stories to their children.

Another way the day can turn is her children want to play outside. It is mud central and the rain in Valenwood is not misty and soft. It is like a heavy shower and one could have a practical bath outside from the pressure of it. Kerasil would join and chase her children round and round the courtyard before grabbing them and drying them off near the fire.

Either way, Kerasil values what time she has to be with her family and cherishes every moment she can get.

🌌 If your OC has a nightmare, what’s it most likely about?

There are a few different nightmares she has; it depends on which version of Kerasil I want to use. But both of them could happen so I'll list them.

If Kerasil is strictly just the Captain of the Guard, there is a horrifying nightmare where during her investigation into the necromancers in Valenwood that Melar was kidnapped. Coming back to their home and seeing it trashed and ruined and her husband missing just pitched Kerasil right into the dark. Even if that investigation is gone and done and Melar is here, just knowing that her loved one could be taken from her so easily is terrifying.

If Kerasil goes on and becomes the Vestige, it's easily just hazily seeing herself dragged to the altar and being sacrificed to Molag Bal. Feeling the knife stab into her chest and being ripped from her body and soul sent into Coldharbour. Visceral, horrifying, left a rotting scar in her chest she has to look at every time she looks at herself in the mirror. It was a turning point in her life that makes her confused if she is mortal anymore. Kerasil doesn't think about it if she can help it.

🤝 Does your OC have someone they want at their side when they are scared? Who?

Melar when she is closer to home. The warmth of her husbands arm and the safety of her house. Being able to be enclosed away from the stress of the world outside and make it just about themselves.

But she is typically not home. More often than not she is out in the field. And should she be on the field and hopefully with her best friend and investigative partner, it would be Vivaldi.

Forged from spite to a deep friendship, Vivaldi has a total understanding of the kind of work Kerasil does and the things they've seen investigating necromancy. The dangers they throw themselves into to protect the ones they love. To have a friend who will walk besides you through the dangers and fears and still stay at the end if someone you want to hold tight to and never let go.

[talldarkandroguesome]

25th of Second Seed, Sundas

It seems that Tel comes for their monthly visit with much news.

Apparently they have not bled since their last visit. the House is ecstatic. They all have congratulated themselves on their employment of the Bretons.

The one positive is, since it appears that Tel might well be pregnant, the Bretons have fulfilled their contract. And with such a quick period from their methods being utilized until apparent success, the clamoring for their services has been high.

Good riddance, I say. At least they are off. Mostly, it seems, to provide lectures to the grandmaster of every House, all of which are very excited to see how they can expedite the production of their own heirs.

Already I have heard that many scholars from the different Houses are beginning their own lectures either supporting or refuting the methods, some devising supposed better methods for guaranteeing pregnancy. Others say that it remains to be seen if such methods produce a strong or viable heir.

Whatever the case, I would hate to be any woman without means in House Telvanni. No doubt they will be doing many live experiments. All dreadful to the maximum.

To celebrate, the House allowed me to have my time with Tel free of other obligations, save for ensuring that I am doing my duty to see to nursemaids being interviewed, that the nursery is to proper standard, that Tel has the best doctors lined up, all of these things.

Of course, there will be a confirmation of the pregnancy to come. As it has been so little time, they will conduct the first one on Tel's next visit, but let us know it may take several months for the child's life force to be big enough to detect as separate within Tel's body.

The chefs have all been given instruction of what sorts of meals to produce to provide optimal nutrition to Tel and our new child as it grows within Tel.

As there was a rare circus in town, I elected to take Tel as a way to get their mind off of the madness of the House's response thus far. According to many in the Council, it is a fully authentic Nord Circus, hard to believe one would make their way to the warmer climate of Morrowind during the warmer months of the year, but that is what I was told.

Typically only Argonian circuses ever venture to Morrowind in the summer, fr under the tents it can get so very hot in the humid, scorching months from Midyear to the end of Last Seed. Still, they had such astounding reviews, I could hardly resist.

To say authentic, well, that was certainly untrue.

There were fully legitimate acts, of course. The falconry act and bear wrestling were certainly showcasing the real art and skills of Nords. And the mead they served, while of a drier variety, was the real thing.

Where things felt far more to be akin to the side show acts of Cyrodill, were the men in fake beards pretending to be the very worst stereotype of a Nord, right down to a very fake accent. There were calls to the audience to prove they could out drink a "true Nord lass" or to withstand the blizzards of the Throat of the World, all recreated there before you by mages.

Although the acting of what was, in some cases, an Imperial pretending to be a Nord, was feeding into the worst prejudices and calling it humor, there were occasional moments of actual feats. While the recreated blizzard was the work of mages, there was a point where the man, in naught but a loincloth, was not only pelted with snow, but encased within ice itself. And though I suspect there were some spells in place to support him from dying of the ordeal, it was quite an impressive showing. He did manage, with the very essence of a showman, to act the part of someone not bothered by the cold, even when his skin had turned purple in places. He did not even shiver. I have to applaud the acting in such a case.

I think my favorite part was the "Sabre Cat Princess". The narrative said that this bearded beauty was the sole survivor of a bandit attack as a child and was found by a female sabre cat who had recently lost its cub and adopted her instead, raising her as its own. And now, sabre cats, as though the maiden were one herself, saw her as one of their own. Of course she was wearing scraps of a sabre cat pelt, her beard, and they never quite explained why she had one, was spotted as the cats themselves. She had longer fangs and nails and did a whole act of being licked by one of them and then climbing into a pile with two of them and all of them looked just as docile as could be. A far cry from when they sabre cats were first brought out and scratching and roaring at the audience.

There feels as if there is more to that story. Not that I fully believe it, but I do wonder how she was able to successfully achieve such a feat.

The worst part of the circus was the clowns. I think they were supposed to be bad? It was difficult to tell. Their jokes, if one could call them that, made little sense. I think perhaps it was a translation issue in trying to tell some of them in Dunmeris. They should have kept them in common.

After the failure of the jokes, it was into a sort of slap-stick routine, very much like the morality puppet shows the Temple once put on. But it mostly was just an excuse to watch several supposedly drunk Nords fist fight one another and fall down a lot.

I give the circus credit, they did have some moderately good pickpockets. During the very impressive trick riding portion, mostly horses, though there was one kagouti, I felt a hand trying to reach into the fold of my robe where Dunmer generally keep their purses. I pressed a knife to the center of the wrist, still enjoying the show, and told the person, who was very much reaching up from behind the seating, that it was going to cost them if they wanted to get a hand into my clothing. Tel looked over at my words, worry plain on their face.

I know that they were worried I was about to murder a man at the show. Or at the very least, amputate one. The hand stopped and pulled back slightly, freezing when I pressed the knife harder.

I did not particularly care if they were pick pocketing the rich. That is a longstanding tradition of the circus and other shows of its ilk. And honestly, for the way I was misled by the Council, I was happy for other members and those nobles of the other Houses to find themselves with a lighter purse. So I let them go with a warning.

Tel looks so relieved and proud. They kept telling me how wonderful it was to see me granting such mercy. It seemed better to just let them think of it as a show of mercy than to try and explain that I thought that a redistribution of wealth was typically a good thing when it came to the elite of the city. It would have been a long conversation and I already know how Tel feels about laws being upheld properly, so I merely let them give me the compliment.

Sildras seemed generally excited about Tel's news. I think the idea of a sibling that will actually be living with him is truly exciting, though I know the age difference may be hard at times. He has lost so much and been kept from all his other siblings. I see how it wears on him. If nothing else, this happy news, which comes so soon after his nameday, has certainly lifted his spirits.

Now, the fact that Tel may in fact be with child did not stop us from enjoying the activities related to our arrangement. We made ample use of the intended purpose of the visit. Though with the watching eyes and pressure off of us, we were able to get back to our usual dynamics. It did feel more natural to return to my being the one to take their seed, rather than the other way around. Or perhaps it is just that I missed the sensation. Not that we did not do both, we certainly did, but it was nice to have some sense of normalcy return.

[changelingsandothernonsense]

Number two from the OC worldbuilding ask game for Sydari! Tell me all about them languages >:)

2. How does your OC communicate? Are they monolingual or multilingual? What is the linguistic environment they’re in? If they’re monolingual, is there a social penalty for only speaking one language, or is it the norm? If they’re multilingual, which of their languages or sociolects has the most/least prestige? Is there a separation between written and oral forms of the language? Can your OC blend in or does their language mark them in some way? What are their levels of fluency, and how do they feel about them?

Sydari primarily speaks Cyrodilic, she grew up in Windhelm, and her native tongue was heavily repressed, particularly after the Great War. Ulfric's ascension saw a city-wide crackdown on all cultural practices that deviate from Nordic tradition. You'd think that would mean she picked up Nordic? No, her people were mostly confined to the Gray Quater with a few exceptions, Dunmer were not permitted to speak Nordic. They are not permitted to engage in their festivals or freely hold their own. So Cyrodillic, as the lingua franca of Tamriel became Sydari's first language. It's the only language that she can read and write in. And even then, her literacy leaves a lot to be desired. She coasted by with semi-literacy until she couldn't hide it any more. Dunmeris, though heavily repressed as of 4th Era 199 was freely spoken in the Grey Quarter just long enough for Sydari to pick it up. These restrictions came in slowly throughout her childhood, ramping up with the outbreak of the Great War, around the same time she fled the city. She's semi-fluent in the Windhelm dialect, though she never learnt how to read, let alone write using the daedric alphabet. Her father was no help, though he did speak exclusively in the Vvadenfell dialect of Dunmeris, it was often slurred, mumbled monologues that she only half remembers. She never really thought much about it. It's not a language commonly used in Skyrim, and though some of the Dunmer in Riften spoke a similar dialect, it was never the language anyone used to address her. Her husband knew even less, so she had to teach Brand-Shei a few key phrases. (The journal Sydari finds in the Pride of Tel Vos was translated for her by Enthir for a few favours). She was always mildly bothered by the fact she couldn't read or write in Dunmeris, mostly due to an old note she was given as a child, something secret she kept as good luck. She's had multiple opportunities to have it translated, it's just something she's built up in her mind over the last half a century. It's almost better to not know what it says. There's a scribble of an eight-legged creature she later discovered was either a netch or silt hopper, the drawing was kinda crude. Sydari hadn't really planned on visiting Morrowind, her life was in Riften, she had a home, and was attempting to build a family. But things go wrong as they always do and she found herself alone pursuing a job on Solstheim. She found that she couldn't really understand the version of Dunmeris that was spoken in Raven Rock, she had the basics but there were intricacies, phrases, implied context that she just did not have the background to understand. What makes it worse was that her knowledge was just assumed, most Dunmer that live there come from Blacklight. Sure a handful lived in Windhelm but that was before the more obvious restrictions. When she first arrived, it was hard to get anyone to speak to her unless she switched to really basic Dunmeris, Skyrim-born Dunmer are somewhat pitied but not coddled. If she wanted to speak to them, she had to use her mother tongue. Sydari is pretty good at bullshitting, so she's been able to bluff her way into acceptance. Geldis was willing to speak to her in Cyrodillic right off the bat. The guy is usually pretty open and wouldn't disparage her for not understanding half of what was being said to her. Being a tavern owner gives him more experience in dealing with outlanders. Teldryn spoke to her using Cyrodillic pretty early on, though he still assumed she was more fluent than she let on. He writes to her exclusively in Dunmeris and it's begun to cause issues. She's asked Geldis for translations on several occasions but she's embarrassed by her lack of knowledge. She mostly just switches to smiling and nodding. Only getting the letters translated if he brings them up. The letter form is familiar but she hasn't made the connection yet.

[your-talos-is-problematic]

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Stuff I’ve Written:

I Won’t Ask You to Wait (If You Don’t Ask Me to Stay) - Afonya and Brelyna Maryon; 3rd Era Morrowind AU (6,435 words, 3/17 chapters)

“Aular Maryon just wants what’s best for his daughter Brelyna, and right now, that’s hiring the young Dunmer Afonya Orel as her personal guard. Afonya, who comes from the mainland, is in need of a job, and Brelyna is in need of a friend. It’s a match made in Moonshadow, but their growing bond is threatened by trouble in both the Maryon and Orel families.”

That Word Was Afonya - Afonya x Brelyna Maryon fluff (925 words)

“On a quiet night, hundreds of years after the events of Skyrim, Brelyna Maryon conducts a ritual to see her deceased wife again.”

No Rest for the Gifted - More Afonya x Brelyna (1,872 words)

“Brelyna’s always tried to keep the best interests of her classmates in mind. Tonight, an anxious Dragonborn is no exception. Especially because she’s head-over-heels for said Dragonborn.”

Tags:

Things not relating to Elder Scrolls are #not tes

Spoilery live-blogging of my playthrough of hollow knight is #posts made from the forgotten crossroads (I have beat the game, so it probably won’t be active)

Spoilerly live-blogging of Baldur’s Gate is #baldguysgayayeayeaye (also defunct for now)

My attempts at writing are sometimes under #probby conquers writers block

Stuff about my tes ocs are #switch skyrimverse, and individuals are #oc afonya #oc elia #oc eltid

Stuff relating to my Tav OC is #tilia of tragedy

Elder Scrolls OCs + Tilia under cut! They’re still very new and very in development. I’ve also written nothing about most of them. They have a lot going on in my head though!

Very detailed post about Afonya and Tilia (my Tav!) Probby don’t forget you put this link here

Picrew for first three

For fourth

Afonya/Afonya Orel/Afonya Maryon

Dunmer, She/Her, Lesbian, typically 20-23

Last Dragonborn, House Telvanni, Arch-Mage, Nightingale

Born as Afonya Orel, but dropped the last name when coming to Skyrim, then changed it to Maryon when she married Brelyna. Has distinctive white eyes due to an ancestor’s dealings with Sheogorath.

Lives in Heljarchen Hall (The Pale) with Brelyna, Lucia, and Runa. Formerly lived in Whiterun. Born on Morrowind’s mainland.

Elia

Dunmer, She/Her, Lesbian, 19-20

Afonya’s younger sister of three years, and one of her closest friends. Didn’t come to Skyrim with her originally, but Afonya paid for her passage after the end of the Civil War. Works as a servant to Thane Bryling.

Lives in Solitude, born on Morrowind’s mainland.

Eltid

Altmer, He/Him, Pansexual, lost count but around 150

Companions

Spent the first ~80 years of his life dating and looking for a husband willing to pay his sizable dowry. Joined the Thalmor after a bad breakup because it was the only other life path he had access to. Attempted to desert twice, and was successful once. Hates the Aldmeri Dominion for many reasons, including their promotion of very conservative ideas in Altmeri society and for taking both his sister and the love of his life away from him in different ways.

Lives in Jorrvaskr, but lived for three years at the Thalmor Embassy, and about thirty in Cyrodill, and spent his early life in the Summerset Isle in Alinor.

Tilia of Tragedy

Tiefling, She/Her, Lesbian, 30 (at beginning of game)

Lawful/Neutral Good, Karlach Romance

A draconic sorcerer who grew up in Elturel, Tilia is incredibly friendly, optimistic, and inquisitive. She lived with her parents until tieflings were banned from the city, after which her and her parents split up and moved to Baldur’s Gate and Waterdeep, respectively. She worked as a tailor and studied history, then the nautiloid thing happened. Post-game she lives with Gale and Karlach in Waterdeep and helps teach Gale’s students.

Less Developed OCs: Bertrana (Victoria)

Breton, She/They, Straight, 32

Dark Brotherhood

Assassin and member of the Dark Brotherhood for eleven years. Also writes a column in the local newspaper that reports on more secretive knowledge that is desired by the people of High Rock.

Tyernath Sea-Myth

Altmer, He/Him, Gay, 263

Dark Brotherhood

Altmer pirate. Joined the Dark Brotherhood after coming to Skyrim, and travels with Faendal.

[thanidiel]

A Visit to Skaven

“What is this, Sai?” came out in a tight voice, her want to laugh only barely suppressed as the, at the time, young woman’s hand brushed over the strangely inefficient clothesline: tied to a second stake no less than five inches away from where the first line had already anchored around another post. 

It was the sort of nonsensical, mundane, detail that a hundred people could walk by without a thought paid. Which then made it perfectly ‘Sayidra’, who always functioned even now it seems at a mundanely nonsensical level. Perhaps, terrifyingly, moreso now that she is completely non beholden to anyone, or any sort of communal responsibility.

And quite like the Redguard herself, so much so as to suddenly make this moment timeless, she responded by jutting her chin high in the air - not as though she had taken some offense to the remark and thus needed to draw herself up and fill her chest with air. But, rather, she simply did not see anything wrong with her innovation. 

So, she jut up her chin and the Redguard proclaimed firmly, “The rope was too short.”

There was never much room to ‘debate’ Sayidra on these things; she used to chop down potatoes and yuca into logs because it was the most straightforward way to process the vegetable. And when the Tumnosh twins, exasperated, had dropped themselves to the floor and gone to show her how their hearthwife and sisters would scrape off the skin with a spoon than to discard so much food for scrap, she had harrumphed and said she was to wash the dishes after the tubers. So how could she procure her own spoon?

Verita had wondered vaguely in the back of her mind as she journeyed here, on if Sayidra had modified her uncompromising order of operations at all now that she was buying her own food, with her own coin.

Right now, the odds did not look good.

“You have rope lying all around, why not just swap it?” This was a foregone sort of exchange without much hope to its name. But there was a charm to this routine, regardless. It made her think to when her legs felt so foal-like, and her hair felt so frizzy, and her mind so flustered.

“It was already tied.” Ergo, she resolved the immediate problem at the time. If the rope is too short, simply add another stick. To her older comrade, there was often no preplanning or perfect item for the task. It was only the items in front of her eye that progressed her to the next step. This sort of conversation often wisped by her ears between Sayidra and the others of the Dunehound.

And in a way, that ambient sort of hardheadness and desire to think only on moving forward, made her friendship, the consideration Sayidra had always paid to her on virtue of nothing else than Verita’s breathing life, a deeply intimate and unforgettable affair.

“Fair enough,” conceded. Though as she bent to finally acknowledge the pup that had been trundling after her heels since she arrived, with flattened hands that pat and rubbed along the flanks of its body, the Imperial found she could not help but to add further, “...aren’t you worried about cluttering up the yard?”

“Ongo sen tukta?” questioned back as Sayidra had moved at this point across the stone walkway towards the door. “This is my home,” reverted back to Cyrodilic after that peppering that their crew was once so fond of. “I hope to entertain no one except you and perhaps my brother’s family from here on out.”

“Not Hakeesh or Sahiri?” Most of everyone got along. But if anyone else could call themselves a friend of the older woman, it was those two. There were many a night in those days where everyone would filter out of the galley with their dinners in hand, and Sayidra would creep and slow until the last souls had turned their backs. She would settle somewhere in that scant space and solitary Hakeesh, too, of Skaven would be heard. And it was an even more known, common, sight for the Alfiq to grow bored of her inventorying and make her way to Sayidra to chatter, and chatter, and chatter, while the Redguard worked as steadily as ever.

That made her friend laugh while she, herself, had eventually risen from the ground and made her way towards the aroma of rich meat roasting in spices now freed by the wide-open door. “Hakeesh has grandchildren to harry him in his kitchen now, and I don’t think Sahiri can bring herself to travel without the Dunehound.”

“Remember when that zhazza in Wayrest tried to pick her up?”

“...yes,” and though the other woman had not nearly the same humor as Verita, for once her smile opened in a broad display of those coffee-stained teeth, “His goat-shriek still warms this heart of mine.”

These sorts of moments always came soaring on pretty little wings, free and fluttering with its momentum, “Bogrum was fucking enraged even when we all got back.” But, of course, when the weight caught up to it - that fragile thing could never have held up. “...I was so glad Jhareem and Erissalie were there,” continued on with a sudden quietness that changed the words entirely to I miss them, do you miss them?

And that sobered the other as she wrested free mutton from the coals, and scraped off flatbread stuck to the inside of the oven. Which, as suddenly as Verita had lost her loud voice, suddenly made her feel very selfish, and very oafish. A tight and braided twist of feeling through feeling within her gut, and she wanted to be very small then. So she meekly found the table, sat down, and clasped her hands together.

Of course Sayidra misses them too. How could she not miss a lover and a friend? If anything, she probably longs for this man that will never make and share a home with her, will never grey and grow fat with her, will never be here with her, every day. She didn’t need it rubbed into her face by someone else that will never know that same grief.

It made her simply feel worse, and yet more loved than ever, that the Redguard was now brushing her hand through hair much looser than the multitudes of thin, wiry, coils of her own after the meal had been placed down in front of the Imperial.

“Eat, child,” moved right on, stepped right on, continued right on in that so-timeless way of Sayidra’s. Grief, was also a matter of moving forward for the Redguard. No time to dawdle and cry, no purpose to be found within. The motherly run of callused fingers, with fine sand and ash pocketed within the lines of dark skin and pink palms, brought her back just briefly to a time less wondrous. Though mostly that hand just dug up another conflicted lurch of frustration, then self-criticism.

She wanted the older woman to talk. Talk, in this context, being a broad and shapeless idea that held the conveniently transformative weight of an emotional tornado. Which meant that she actually wanted her to cry, which actually meant that she wanted more comfort, or actually she wanted to be frankly coddled, which all actually stood for I WANT YOU TO GRIEVE LIKE ME. Or rather, actually, for her. Please, grieve for her, too, Sayidra. 

She wished that the world would stop and grieve for the days she still spent feeling just as top heavy as a tree about to snap in twain. That cursed weight of deep loss, of so many moving forces of her life all redirected in a shiver of fate, bearing down on her neck to where that, if nothing else, showed the distinctive identities of body and soul. 

For how is it that her body could have mustered a breath at all, when everything else had sagged so sadly as to waste away?

“...I wanted to show you and Jhareem this for years, whipped garlic. It was always too troublesome before,” muttered on as Sayidra spooned into a squat vessel and generously dolloped several mouthfuls of the spread atop tender goat’s meat. And in the Redguard’s way, that meant I see you. I’m sad too. Come with me.   

That was where things went inward again, the silent whispers of I’m stupid. How could I be so stupid? How else could she ever respond to a loved one’s concession? Pop, pop, pop-- there her thoughts sizzled in that lick of shame. You’re so selfish, when did you get so selfish? Mistakes simply loved to burn themselves out at the front of her belly.

Just be graceful, the churn of her guts told her.

So she tried a smile, there. It was tentative, and fake, and almost nervous to be here, but it was heartening too in its own way. The resolution to have made herself just smile, also came with the creaking momentum of wheels slowly starting to move again, and slough off the sticky muck that had snared it.

“Remember,” begins again. Quiet and almost rasping as she found her voice again, “When Erissalie first came, and she lost her mind at Hakeesh for serving garlic to the Khajiit?” That added a sprouting touch of sincerity to her smile; their dear friend was so foolishly outspoken with the way she let her heart lead so readily.

Her pack was still slung on her back, so she had freed it with a slump towards her hip that brought it gently thudding onto the seat next her. And then because the very sight of the plate afore her was too tempting, she saw about pinching off some of the flatbread and using it to pocket the delicate meat afore her. She’d meant to procure her usual offering to the Redguard— when did Sayidra’s skin start to thin and line like that? It shouldn’t have been long ago, but yet— but her own hunger always liked to tumble over itself all of a sudden. Inattentive until the compulsion ached ravenously through her belly and pushed up behind her ribs regardless of anything else rumbling in her blood.

So then it became another pinch, and another, and then all pretense to an already rude affair vanished entirely as the pinches soon changed to torn sections, flaked meat and garlic smeared like debris across a ship’s bow. She would have been more careful if this had occurred before someone less familiar (thankfully she, like most women, simply grew more elegant of hand as she aged from here). But Verita didn’t need to, so she ate just as she needed, chin tucked and eyes only occasionally tracking her taller comrade.

“She questioned me some months after that on if it hurt,” exchanged. Bluntly, exasperatedly, that sort of distaste rolling around her frank and heavy mouth that you reserve only for friends. That hurt again, like the faucet had to gush one more time even though the pipe was already closed up. Mostly because her lightness was already this wobbling little bird righting itself from the ground, and continuing the conversation felt like as if the young Imperial had righted the plumbing only to get called back and asked if she added any clay, if she examined the weakness proper, could she account for how long that would handle? Sometimes she felt stupid for other reasons than solely her tenderness. She started to feel stupid then because she was so quick to convince herself that she already fluttered up from the prior falter. Because she wanted to convince herself and like how those of only twenty-five summers do, she tried to convince herself in that moment with a chipper and false retelling of her feelings. A lie that was so dull it only lasted less than ten seconds.

Shame hissed in another lurching boil of her gut. If the last bout were like little licks tickling her skin, this felt like she was being held right over the flame. And before it’d leave her in peace to cook in it, it’d rip all the water out of her and make her curl up in this gristly little band of displeasing meat if shame had things its way. 

Just be graceful. Just be graceful. Just be graceful. You can’t change that they’re dead. It doesn’t help. Just be graceful. Please just be graceful. You can be graceful, old girl. She doesn’t need this from you.

This part of this old story was going to be a scrabble. The tears were frogging up below her chin and she needed to fuss and putter in any sort of way she could, before they could push any higher. Thinking was slowing down her escape.

Stop thinking. Just be graceful.

Generic response (as earnest as her squished little sense of befuddlement was at this time): “...if what hurt?” questioned. Appetite evaporated away at this point, not as insulated from the fire like the rest of her; her hands still playing at this aimless act of repetitively swishing soaked bread and meat to remake the diagram of garlicky lines on her plate.

Proudly, her friend replied with absolutely no cushioning or fanfare to the coming impact,

“Me and Jhareem.”

That sent the fragile little thing of her heart shrieking and aflutter, shooed away from where it had landed with its wobbly and flapping wings. Mixed up as it was, laughter bubbled out as much as her diaphragm began to spasm and hiccup with the surge of tears springing fat, wet, and dark, down shaking cheeks.

“—S-Sai, that’s so gross—”

I don’t want to be graceful.

[mareenavee]

For Nyenna c:

24%. How easily does your character trust their feelings with others?

24%. How easily does your character trust their feelings with others?

This is a good one, too! Thank you!

Previous asks have established that Nyenna didn't grow up in a particularly welcoming and supportive environment. The person who actually had her back the most during her formative years was Eris, her step-brother, who was functionally an outcast due to being a Dunmer, even though he as the heir to the estate had his own set of expectations on his shoulders.

He would keep her safe from the bullies who would make fun of how fair she was, or how un-Bosmer-like her whole family was. How odd and unheard of their situation was. Maybe some of them had issue that her family wasn't Green Pact and actively cleared land for gardens and Alchemy, though in a place like Haven by 4th Era under Thalmor governance, it really wasn't commonly followed anyway. (headcanon, this.) Eris always advocated, especially during their flight from Valenwood and Cyrodill, absolute caution in all things. So she had been timid and quiet and reserved most of her life, out of necessity.

These days, Nyenna finds it easier to trust other people than to trust herself, insofar as she tends to believe the best in people even after all the pain she's been through. Mostly because she'd been told for so long there was no "best" in people. But her friends and found family in Whiterun helped her change that perspective, and realize not everyone is out to hurt her. Sometimes she learns lessons the hard way, if people betray that trust. Sometimes she betrays the trust of others and has to wrestle with that kind of guilt. When that happens, she tends to keep that inside, though she's not really great at hiding her anxiety from certain others who care about her and know her well.

She does eventually get married, fully believing it is her only chance at peace, safety and kindness after a lifetime of ingrained unkindness. The thing is, she doesn't yet understand what love is, or what it could mean. She married fairly quickly seeking some sort of solid ground. Her husband isn't unkind or anything like that, but it was a fast thing. She dove for the opportunity to settle and stop running for once.

Her destiny crashes down around her not long after her wedding. Eventually, she does meet someone else who, without bardically proclaiming their love, shows her what this kind of support could be. And she falls hard. (Even in this arc of failure and failing to meet expectations on the account of a few characters.) But with her ties to someone else, she does not verbalize how she feels right away. She ends up feeling a lot more guilt than she expected. (Which again she tries unsuccessfully to hide.) So while she isn't as free with talking about how she's feeling, it's not that she doesn't trust the other people close to her. It's that she doesn't know how to trust herself. -> The World on Our Shoulders (AO3)

[orangevanillabubbles]

What were the events that led to Nolwenn coming to Skyrim, if she didn't grow up there? If she did, how'd she end up in/near Helgen for Alduin's appearance?

Nolwenn grew up in the Imperial City raised by her mother and part of a wealthy Breaton trading company. She was kinda trained her entire life to take on the Cyrodillic branch after her mother. Her mom was, overbearing. And due to issues between her parents, she saw her father less and less as she older. By the time she was a teen she only spoke to him through letters she snuck out of the house so her mother wouldn't know. When she was 19, she discovered her mother's plans to arrange a marriage between her and the son of a imperial council member. She took what she could and ran away, taking a ship to Solitude. She then made her way down to Riften on foot to see her father and join the guild. She was 19 when she joined the guild. 23 when she was betrayed by Mercer and "died" for a couple of months before killing him. 24 when she and Brynjolf had collected 23 of the 24 stones of barenziah. 25 when the stress of trying to find the last one got to them and a arguement over her methods led to her pulling one of her disappearing stunts. During that year she joined the dark brotherhood and found the last stone in the ashes of the sanctuary. She returned, they made up and when traveling through Falkreath one sunny afternoon, came across the wreckage of Helgen and saw Alduin flying away.

[sunxdusk]

[ STRADDLE ] : while sparring, sender gains the upper hand and pins the receiver in place, straddling their waist in the process.

The night was cold and heavy bursts of rain swept across the sky, followed by the occasional thunder but no lightning. The storm was undoubtedly the result of some storm atronach summoning lightning earlier that day. However, Savos had reassurances that the storm would dissipate by itself, so there had nothing to do but watch and wait while he scolded the student responsible for even summoning such a deadly creature. The open windows in the training room made the interior chilly, but it was the closest Briengr had been to being outdoors for three days, and he liked the smell of fresh rain.

There was so much information and many reports coming from the borders of Winterhold, and Savos Aren’s spies in the Cyrodill, that he barely had time for sleep. At moments like these, he would generally seek the old Dunmer’s counsel, but those days were gone, as he was too busy to provide any sage advice. More than anything, Briengr wanted to lose himself in oblivion. Bury his boredom in a layer of fog from the ale, but he couldn’t even manage that as Hithfaeril had promptly snatched the tankard from his hand hands and dragged him out to focus on his training.

And that was how he wound up fighting for his life against his lovely opponent and getting pinned… Again, and again, and again.

Briengr was on the ground before he could blink, but at the last second, he managed to twist just enough to avoid being pinned by the little Breton. Her sheer skill bore him down, overwhelming him the way it had all the previous times he’d pinned her. While he appreciated Hith’s efforts not to hurt him, he was as helpless now against her as he had been the first time they’d sparred together. Then, Briengr’s only hope had been to remain on his feet, evade her attacks and look for his chance, but she’d already taken him down. Desperately he braced one foot on the ground and pushed, seeking leverage, but she’d already straddled him, a conjured dagger pressed lightly against his throat in warning.

Oh, this… this was nice.

“You’re a wicked woman, aren’t you?” Even defeated and at her tender mercy, Briengr still couldn’t shut his big fucking mouth; desire rode him like an unbearable itch, an implacable hunger. His body moved under her, dancing its need, calling to her with her soft weight pinning him down and the hot scent of her body. By the Nine, he was bored and wanton, and fuck, he needed her now!

"Why don't you use your pretty little blade to cut our robes open? We have this room all to ourselves and doubt the old man will hear us make much noise."

@ramblingsofamoonwatcher

[macbeth-of-glamis]

the never-ending moons : prologue

our protagonist, amiel greyire, reflects on his past life decision and what he’s done.

fourth era, year 171. he was 19. he’d been fighting for his entire life as an orphan. but this time, it was different. he’d been picked up from the slums of the capital city of alinor, in the summerset isles. by that time, the war in cyrodil had already been bubbling and they needed soldiers. children. the aldmeri dominion needed children to fight their wars with men. it enraged him to his very core. even at that age, before everything, the way they stole him away made his blood boil. mer was not superior over man or beast, and man and beast were not superior over the mer. they all were awful in their own rights.

he gripped the chair he was sitting on in the briefing room as sweat dripped down his forehead, heavy pants leaving his parted lips as his bright blonde hair stuck to his forehead. he was changing. the aldmeri dominion made him like this. they forced him into this. threw him into a pit with the sabre cats, one of which was a carrier for the lycanthropy, and he got bit. there were six orphans in the pit, he was the only one who emerged victorious. one other survived, but… he was different. the orphan, who was a year younger than amiel, had to be dragged out, almost dead. amiel on the other hand, had ripped the throat of the lycanthropy-infected sabre cat out with his teeth, the metallic liquid coating his teeth and dripping down his chin. the ingestion of the lycanthropy infected blood is what caused his affliction.

his head twitched as he took a deep breath. his fingers tapped against the underside of the chair, closing his eyes. he was listening to the battle plan of his squadron. they were sending him, a child still, onto the front lines. sure, he was over eighteen— of age in the summerset isle— but he was still very much a child. he hated the aldmeri dominion. he never wanted to be this, he never wanted to be a soldier. yes, he was rotting on the streets— homeless and hungry— but he never would have chose this unless he was kidnapped from his bed in the middle of the night, which he was.

he remembers when the white-gold concordat was signed, outlawing the worship of talos. he was a devout trinimac follower from childhood, and did not follow talos— he did not doubt the existence of the human who rose to godhood. outlawing the worship of someone infringed on the rights of the people. this should have only applied to the empire, but, much to amiel’s dismay… this was taken away from everyone. even those that did not follow the empire.

he remembers the day he deserted. his half transformed paws dug into the dirt of the side of the valus mountains. he was trying to flee into morrowind. his paw was dug into the dense clay and dirt of the mountain, gripping on as he scaled the steep mountain. his feet were half transformed as a way to grip into the dirt, but then it began to crumble. he fell, a hundred or so feet to the forest floor below him. but, he was left unharmed. his hands and feet shrank from paws into his mer-hands and feet. he shouted, ripping off the aldmeri dominion emblem that was sewn onto his pack. he hated them, he hated who he had become. his blood boiled in his body and he roared, hands hitting against the dirt beneath him. he just wanted to leave. he knew the thalmor would find him one day, and he knew he’d never outrun them, but he’d at least try. his slender hands rubbed against his neck, knowing the marks that were there. stripes, mimicking that of a saber cat. he touched his fangs, sobbing. he wished he wasn’t like this.

he remembers his travels through tamriel. and through these travels, through these thirty odd years— he barely aged. his lycanthropy changed him. slowed the aging process. he was spotted in cyrodil by an old friend, who commented on it. amiel said nothing, and then left again for morrowind. he lived in blacklight for three years before being run out of morrowind. he lost control, ripped apart a little boy. he still thinks about that kid. he didn’t deserve that. after that, he ran to elsweyr and lived among the cat people. they were similar to him, in appearance, but they knew what he was. they didn’t like that. he left elsweyr after four years.

he lived in valenwood the longest, even though the aldmeri headquarters was based there. he knew if he hid long enough before emerging, they wouldn’t find him. he lived in aronthia. he met a girl, tyria. she was a nord who moved there from skyrim. they got married. he lived in aronthia for sixteen years. he loved it, he loved his wife. he kept his condition under control. until he didn’t. he ripped her apart as she slept. she couldn’t even fight back as his canines ripped into her.

he cried for the first time since seeing his fellow orphans die in that pit. there was so much blood. and in the center of all of that blood, was a wedding band. a shiny, golden wedding band that was tainted with the crimson blood of his now deceased wife. he sat in the corner of the room, shaking and sobbing. he was a monster. he hadn’t lashed out like this since he killed that little boy in blacklight.

instead of turning himself in, he left. he was a fugitive of the nation of valenwood. he knew if he turned himself in, he would have been given to the aldemeri dominion. he couldn’t bring himself to go back. not ever. he didn’t know how long he ran. but, it had to have been no more than four years. he crossed into cyrodil again, but then legally— for once— made his way across the border and into an entirely new place that he had never seen before.

skyrim.

[ulderansisters]

Lynea Ulderan

Character Chart

Character’s full name: Lynea Ulderan

Reason or meaning of name: Name given to her at birth

Character’s nickname/title: Dovahkiin, Dragonborn, Champion Of The Skies, Little Dragon, Queen of the Nords.

Reason for nickname: Titles given to her by the people of Skyrim

Birth date: 17th Evening Star, 4E 177.

Physical appearance

Age: 24

Weight: Lynea is slim and scrawny, often described as the runt of the litter. Her arms and legs are slightly toned from her years of adventuring, however, and she has toned calves and biceps. 

Height: Lynea stands at 5ft 5inches.

Eye color: Taken from her mother, Lynea has green eyes with specks of brown throughout them.

Skin tone: Lynea is extremely pale and does not tan in the sun, her face and shoulders are often burnt from spending time outside.

Distinguishing marks: Lynea has a scar across her back from her battle with Alduin when his claws cut deep into her back. She has small scars dotted across her body from adventuring and has a birthmark on the left side of her stomach.

Hair color: Lynea has blond hair that looks almost white in a certain light.

Hairstyle: Her hair is often tied back to keep it out of her face and to prevent it from getting tangled. If she is at home, she will wear her hair down or in a loose braid.

Voice: Lynea has a feminine voice (Voice claim: Jessica Brown Findlay as Lenore in Castlevania)

Personality

Good personality traits: Lynea is gentle. She was told by her sister that she is too kind for her own good and that she needs to stop being so nice to people. She finds it difficult to say no to people and her kindness has been taken advantage of many times. Much like her sister, she is charitable and warm. She is fiercely protective of her family and will fight to protect them. Her kindness should never be mistaken for weakness.

Bad personality traits: Lynea doesn't like to be wrong, she finds it embarrassing and as a result, she finds it hard to admit when she is in the wrong. She is also extremely impulsive and will take off adventuring without a word of warning and will remain out of contact with loved ones for weeks. She doesn't do this intentionally, she's just forgetful.

Sense of humor: Lynea has a terrible sense of humor, it's almost amusing how abysmal her humor is. She has somewhat of a dad humor and it's more cringey than it is funny.

Character’s greatest joy in life: Dragons. She is fully devoted to her fellow Dovah and works hard to spread the Way of the Voice. She becomes downcast and mournful whenever she has to kill them and she often prays to Akatosh after she takes a dragon soul.

Character’s greatest fear: Losing her purpose. She was without one for so many years of her life and discovering she was Dragonborn gave her life new meaning, it gave her a cause to be dedicated to and a reason to live. Despite the hardships that came with it, she feels she would be nothing without her gift.

Why?

In the years after she lost her parents and was separated from her sister, Lynea managed to escape capture from the Thalmor and sought refuge within Cyrodil, simply wandering from place to place. She became no one and had no purpose, only surviving for the sake of her parent's memories and the hope that one day she would be reunited with her sister again. Discovering her destiny as Dragonborn after returning to Skyrim gave her life a new meaning. People needed to be protected, she could give the protection she did not have and could do right by the people of her homeland. She is rather patriotic in the sense that she is proud of her home and heritage, she loves Skyrim and all it's people regardless of race and wants to protect them. She sees the good in everyone, from everyday citizens to bandits. 

What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil? Losing her sister. She adores her sister and always has, she looked up to her and idolized her as a child. Reuniting with her and finding her family again changed her for the better. She was surprised to discover the path her sister has followed and doesn't fully support her in being Guildmaster, but she sees the joy her Guild has brought her and knows her sister is changing the Guild for the better.

Character’s soft spot: Paarthurnax. She is devoted to him and his message, she cares deeply for him and visits him regularly. She can be stern with other dragons, reminding them of her birthright but she is smitten with Paarthurnax and doesn't have it in her to even raise her voice around him. She can often be found at the Throat of the World, curled underneath his wing as she meditates on words of power with him.

Is this soft spot obvious to others? Very, especially to other dragons, some call her Paarthurnax's Mon- daughter. 

Past

Hometown: Lynea was raised alongside her sister in Whiterun hold.

Type of childhood: Being the daughter of nobles, Lynea had a fairly comfortable childhood. A roof over her head, fine clothes to wear, and always food on the table. She had everything she could ask for and more. Her mother and father were devout Talos worshippers and openly praised God, they were proud Nords and loved their homeland. After the Thalmor and Empire entered Skyrim, many people worshipped Talos in secret but her parents refused and openly questioned the Empire's presence in Skyrim. It led to the Thalmor entering their home one night. Aemma, Alaisa's mother told her to hide in a nearby cupboard and told her sister to hide under a bed. The two children watched in hidden horror as the Thalmor broke into their home and slit their mother's throat, then dragged their beaten father away to execute him. Alaisa, filled with rage charged the Thalmor and as a result, was captured. Lynea fled into the night, terrified, she ran for hours until her legs gave out underneath her. She wandered for years, begging for coin to survive at first until she was old enough to swing a sword without knocking herself out. Then, she began mundane mercery jobs to make enough coin to survive. By the time she had reached her twelfth winter, she was a master swordswoman. She used her survival skills to keep herself safe, never sleeping in the same place twice and never using her real name. She eventually left Skyrim, traveling all over Tamriel and experiencing its wonders. Years passed and she grew curious about the state of her homeland, so she decided to travel back but was unaware of the growing civil unrest and the presence of the Thalmor in Skyrim. As she crossed the border, she walked right into an Imperial ambush, right place but wrong time. She was captured alongside Stormcloaks and shipped off to Helgen to face the executioner's blocks. Alduin's attack on Helgan saved her by mere seconds and she fled back into Skyrim.

Pets: Lynea and her sister had a pet dog called Frost.

Childhood hero: Her sister.

Education: Lynea and her sister were both well-educated by their parents. Lynea continued to educate herself over the years and loves to read. She studied the language of the Dov intensely with Paarthurnax and is almost completely fluent in the language.

Religion: As a child, Lynea and her family were devout worshippers of Talos. She has strayed mostly from her worship of Talos over the years and now dedicates most of her prayers to Akatosh and Kynareth.

Present

Current location: Lynea lives across multiple holds of Skyrim, holding the titles for Lakeview Manor and Hjaalmarch Hall as well as a home within Whiterun.

Currently living with: Lynea mostly lived alone but after aiding the Dawnguard, Serana accompanies her most days and nights.

Pets: Lynea has a soft spot for dogs and has two hounds, Meeko and Vigilance.

Religion: Worshipper of Akatosh and Kynareth 

Occupation: Dragonborn, Thane of Whiterun.

Family

Mother: Aemma Ulderan

Relationship with her: Lynea adored her mother and was extremely close to her. They spent most of their time together while Alaisa spent most of her time with her father. Lynea's mother taught her to read fluently and talk properly. Aemma was happy to see Lynea embracing a traditional way of life and often tried to encourage her sister to follow Lynea's ideals and path.

Father: Sjorael Ulderan 

Relationship with him: Lynea loved her father dearly but often spent her days trying to impress him. Seeing how proud he was of Alaisa sparked a fire in her that made her want to be better, to be more like a Nord. She craved her father's approval and although she had it simply by being his daughter, she wanted more. She wanted her father to look at her the same way he looked at Alaisa.

Siblings: Alaisa Ulderan

Relationship with them: Alaisa and Lynea were close as children. There are 7 years between them but they were close and spent lots of time together, reading and staying up till the wee hours to swap stories. The death of their parents tore them apart and Alaisa spent years hating her sister, blaming her for their death and for running from the scene when she stayed and fought until she was captured. After reuniting, Alaisa and Lynea talked and she began to realize how their past affected them and stopped hating her sister, understanding that they were just children and both terrified, did what they thought was best.

Spouse: N/A

Children: N/A

Other important family members: N/A

Favorites

Color: Blue

Least favorite color: Brown

Food: Venison stew, Sweetrolls

Least favorite food: Eidar cheese, leeks

Drinks: Spiced wine, water, milk

Least favourite drinks: Any type of mead.

Mode of transportation: Dragonback

Most prized possession: Her parents wedding bands

Habits

Hobbies: Lynea has a lot of duties and expectations, she doesn't have a lot of free time. But there are days when she doesn't have to be the Dragonborn, on those days she will call Odahviing down to her and fly on dragonback across Skyrim, exploring the sky with him.

Smokes: N/A

Drinks: Lynea, much like her sister, is not a heavy drinker and has only been drunk a handfull of time

Relationships with others

Person character most hates: Elenwen. After infiltrating the Thalmor agency, Lynea discovered Elenwen was behind the capture of her sister and the murder of their parents. 

Best friend(s): Serana. Lynea bonded quickly with Serana over their shared trauma and family issues. They are fiercely protective of each other and never leave the others side.

Love interest(s): Miraak. 

Person character goes to for advice: Paarthurnax. The dragon always offers words of wisdom to Lynea. 

Person character feels responsible for or takes care of: Lynea feels a responsibility to all those in Skyrim. As Dragonborn, she feels she must protect the people and keep them safe from harm.

Person character feels shy or awkward around: Delphine.

Person character openly admires: Paarthurnax.

Person character secretly admires: Esbern

Most important person in character’s life before story starts: Alaisa.

After story starts: Alaisa.

[theclaymorrigan]

FORGING THE SWORD OF THE GREAT QUEEN 📜 Scroll Thirteen:

"You have stopped scribing your memoirs," Sinder managed to make a statement sound like an indictment.

"Aye," shrugged I. We were hunting together near Rivercrest, our adopted hometown on the border of Cyrodill and Valenwood. We had cached one elk and were tracking a second, wounded one. He'd urged me to put what had happened down on parchment but, after filling a dozen Scrolls, the tale was only half told and I was weary or reliving in remembrance what had been lost. 

"Will you take up your quill again?" he pressed.

"Perhaps," I shrugged again.Sinder now ran a smithy in Rivercrest; repairing and tempering armor and weapons for me along with the occasional piece of jewelry. He and a fellow named Lond served the region well and made decent livings. I was considered the town hero which I found ironic since I was more like the town drunk, if you asked me.

"Much remains to be chronicled," Sinder continued. "The forging of Diindinok, Dezbomiin's betrayal, Fara's sacrifice…"

"Fara's killing, you mean!" I interrupted him. "Let things be called what they truly are."

"You did her a mercy, Clay," he reassured me for perhaps the thousandth time over the intervening years. "She wasn't long for this life at that point and ultimately being slain by Hircine's champion;...you, she was assured a place in his hunting grounds and avoided the degradations of Molag Bal's Coldharbour. What's more, this one postulates that you could heal from this heartwound if you honored her memory and, yes, her sacrifice for posterity. Every being living on Nirn owes her a great debt of which they are unaware."

I held silent for a time. 

"I still feel her with me, Sinder," I confessed. "Sometimes, on my 'adventures' as you call them, when I don't know which way to proceed, that floating, blue orb appears like when she cast that Clairvoyance spell and it guides me true. She still guides me, Sinder. I didn't know how to cast it, don't even do anything and it happens right when needed. I know it's her."

"Will you return to the henge that was once Talonscar again this year on the anniversary?" He asked dejectedly, neither confirming or denying his beliefs regarding my Clairvoyance claim.

"No," I answered. "She's not there anyway. She watches over me from The Hunting Grounds. But it is too painful to write down, my friend. She didn't really do it for all of Nirn. She did it for the love of me and I will never forget her. Ever."

"Will you stop drowning your grief in liquor?" he beseeched me.

"I won't drink any more," I said and his amber eyes lit up until I added: "I won't drink any less, either. When I see her in my dreams each night, I need something to make the waking hours bearable."

He nodded and said no more. We brought back an elk apeice that night. Neither of us has broached the subject since.

TO BE CONTINUED…PERHAPS.