#the colours are fucked because Tumblr hates gay people (me)

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Messages from Discord server "ESU Paranormal Society" #general 20/10/20XX 2:34 PM EST SaintsofGames: Does anyone have ideas for what we're doing for our Halloween special yet? :3: I still think we should go with the haunted maid cafe SaintsofGames: O_o rnbowsheep: tbh I agree with Ant :3: Yay!! Lemon Boy: i also agree with ant! we gaming: yeah SaintsofGames: Guys… SaintsofGames: We can't just go to a maid cafe and walk around with EMF readers rnbowsheep: we could if were not cowards SaintsofGames: Or any of out other equipment like cameras and mics and backpacks SaintsofGames: Hey :( :3: Unless you have a better idea… :3: Maid cafe could pull in a lot of viewers Lemon Boy: & it could also be a ton of fun!! Lemon Boy: genuinely when was the last time we got to relax on the job we gaming: yeah rnbowsheep: see??? rnbowsheep: weve got midterms right now Bad its not the end of the world if we pick something easy for a change SaintsofGames: But we're ghost hunters! Lemon Boy: ghost hunters still get burnout :(

:3: I know you want halloween to be special but maybe something silly would be a nice change of pace? SaintsofGames: Skeppy, what do you think? :P: huh rnbowsheep: about our halloween special :P: oh that :P: actually :P: i may :P: or may not :P: have something :P: ~interesting~ Lemon Boy: what is it 0: ? :3: Can it beat maid cafe? :P: 100% :P: behold :P: drew p wiener convenience store SaintsofGames: That's not funny SaintsofGames: And also language Skeppy ^_^ rnbowsheep: im surprised youre not interested Bad :3: If anyone is genuinely interested in droopy wieners that's their own problem we gaming: yeah :3: Thanks Punz Lemon Boy: sometimes things just droop! Lemon Boy: though the fact that its a convenience store drooping is not all that inspiring :P: im dead serious SaintsofGames: There's no way that's a real store :P: im :P: dead :P: serious :3: It can't hurt to look into it at least?

rnbowsheep: I googled it just now rnbowsheep: its a real place and it has some crazy reviews online Lemon Boy: what kind of reviews?? SaintsofGames: You gotta be memeing… rnbowsheep: people complaining about the food mostly rnbowsheep: and the creepy store owner looking more dead than alive rnbowsheep: apparently its a miracle the store is still up and running rnbowsheep: looks like its rotting from the inside out from the pictures Lemon Boy: woah :3: How on earth did you find out about this Skeppy???? :P: i have my ways SaintsofGames: This is perfect! SaintsofGames: We can stage a small investigation and bring some business to a local store! Lemon Boy: …ill bring my extra sanitization kit lol rnbowsheep: good idea :3: As long as we keep it small and short :3: I really can't put more than 5 hrs/week into the channel right now SaintsofGames: Yeah we'll keep it small! Manageable ^_^ Lemon Boy: no more than 15 mins for the video! we gaming: yeah :P: so were doing this right rnbowsheep: yup rnbowsheep: does thursday work for you guys? Lemon Boy: ive got a shift at the clinic on thursday :( Lemon Boy: can we do friday instead? we gaming: I will take any excuse not to hang out with Dream downtown on a Friday night lets do Friday rnbowsheep: lol friday it is then :3: LOL! :P: perfect SaintsofGames: We're gonna have our best episode yet!

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a movie........

time for a rant that has been a looong time coming because

the FUCK??? NOOOOOOOOOOOO PLEASE NO NO NO PLEASE GOD IF YOU'RE OUT THERE NEVER LET THIS MOVIE SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY NEVER EVEN MENTION THAT SHOW EVER AGAIN IN MY PRESENCE it should fucking DIE and stay DEAD

the WORST fandom i've ever come across/been part of. everyone was so fucking braindead. god the bullying here was So Bad. vld fandom was the epitome of 'you can't enjoy what you like'. and the bullies were like, some of the most popular blogs here. the content creators (among others ofc) here were NASTY. the people making decent art were so fucking rude to almost anyone that didn't bow down to them and agree with their views on the show, sitting on their high horse like they were fucking gods or something when they were like, 17 or something. mind u voltron was a show about ugly transformers lions and a bunch of kids in space meant for 7 YEAR OLDS. like stfu it's not deep, it's not important. i get that this is the internet i really do but apparently everyone was a pedo and homophobic and racist and needed to be cancelled because they weren't pure angels. i hope the people who liked the show, both teens and adults alike, have grown up and learnt what those words actually mean and why you shouldn't just casually throw them around. i hated you all. u had to be so careful about what you said on here, it was like north korea or something. i remember how kids got bullied into deleting their harmless fanfics, the fucking voice actors got bullied on a daily basis, it was BAD. i remember i got hate for having shiro as my icon and the background was the bi flag colours. I AM BI. also, so what if i had headcanoned shiro as bi, you couldn't have stopped me or anyone else from thinking that, and also IT WOULD NOT HAVE MATTERED, HE'S FICTIONAL, HE'S JUST LINES AND PIXELS. i know this is going to shatter some of your worlds (or at least would have back then), but a random ass nobody on tumblr headcanoning a character as bi when said character is "actually" straight/gay/whatever is NOT going to affect irl queer people in any way, it does NOT have real life consequences. who gives a fuck. since when has the fandom given a shit about canon anyway? fuck you.

okay, i've been bitching about the fandom enough (no i haven't, there's no way you can ever bitch about the vld fandom enough). what about the actual show? well. once again it's meant for 7 year olds. who cares if it was good or not. i've seen seasons 1–6. i liked season 1, didn't really like anything after that since the show seemed to change so much. the first season kind of has a different vibe completely? idk how to explain it, it just kind of feels like the actual show and then the rest was just a long fanfic by someone who was in love with keith's character. but since i was watching the show with my sister who was 10 at the time, it was fine, otherwise i wouldn't have kept watching after seeing season 2 i don't think.

here are a few negative things about the show imo:

making keith the main character out of nowhere after s1 (where he definitely wasn't the main focus) was so dumb. god the showrunners loved keith sooo much, it was so stupid. keith was nooot a leader. whatever.

making keith the black paladin was also so fucking stupid my god. and yes, everyone here wanting LANCE to become the black paladin just because he was the fandom favourite (don't get me wrong, he was my fave too) was so fucking braindead too honestly. shiro or allura. no one else made any sense.

canon allurance SUUUCKED. like holy shit that was so bad and horribly written, even lotor and allura had a better love story and had waaay more chemistry (and their relationship ended badly, rightfully so). and NO klance was never ever ever going to be canon, you were so delusional. like lmaooo did we even watch the same show? i just really enjoyed their dynamic and that's why i shipped them together, whatever. but yeah, like i said the bullying here was disgusting and everyone was cancelled, great, klance seemed to be the only thing you were allowed to like so in that sense i was lucky.

everything they did with allura in the later seasons............ you know what? i'm not even going to start. because wtfffffffff, as a storyteller myself i ?????? what in the world were they thinking. but yeah whatever it does not matter.

the point of this post is that EW EW EWWWW FUCK THAT SHOW AND FUCK YOU, if you were in the voltron fandom in 2017/2018 i personally hate you

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WIP Wednesday

Posting actual WIPS on a Wednesday? Imagine that.

As long as we are all baring our hearts on tumblr, I have to admit that I have been struggling to write anything since I wrapped up Eternal Life (back in the first week of April). At first I figured I was simply burnt out since I wrote all 42k words of that fic in just about a month, but given that I've started three separate WIPS since then and made zero progress on any of them, I'm wondering if I am just out of stories. I hate all my words--even though I really love some of these concepts. So, as you may have noticed, I've been distracting myself with sewing projects because good progress is so clearly visible there...

Anywho, to motivate myself, I decided to post a snip of each today and hope that having bits out in the world will motivate me to finish at least ONE of them! All untitled. Set up and snips below the cut.

Very creatively titled "Party Robot," this WIP is a silly/fluffy one-shot inspired by an article I read a while ago about a growing trend in American weddings. This one is the furthest along and will likely see the light of day eventually...

A nervous bounce.  From a robot. I recognize that bounce. “I thought you said Shepard was working tonight.” My voice is tight. “He is.” Bunce replies, similarly strained. “What did you say he does again?” Panic rises in my chest.  “He’s in entertain–”  Whether Bunce trails off or I simply don’t hear the rest is irrelevant because the music has changed from easy dinner instrumentals to much-too-loud techno and the show is clearly starting. As the synths build, driving towards a crescendo, my brain reels with the growing realisation that Simon would never just abandon me at the last minute, would never send me anywhere alone, certainly not my cousin’s gay wedding, which is every kind of milestone given his Old Families lineage and Pitch blood specifically and– “PARTY PEOPLE!” The DJ booms into the mic. “Have the grooms got a treat for you!”

A multi-chapter AU I have lovingly nicknamed "Baz in a Bubble." It is sad and angsty and is proving significantly more difficult to execute (despite having a complete outline) than I once thought it would be. Who could have guessed having one home-bound character would make me too sad to write? Thanks to @thewholelemon and @hushed-chorus who've listened to more than their fair share of my griping about this one. Anyway, here's the first bit of BAZ POV:

There are exactly 297 stars in the sky above me. I count them while lying in my bed every night. They do not twinkle or flicker hello like real stars. Instead, they glow a constant yellowish-green that reminds me of the colour artists always make toxic sludge in the cartoons I grew up watching. It's the colour of superhuman villains and their evil plots. Of poison. Of danger. It's the colour of the plastic star stickers Fiona put up on my ceiling when I was 10 and spent the whole year crying and begging her to go outside. Just once. Just for a minute. Because I was starting to forget what fresh air smelled like or how it felt to have grass prickle against your bare feet or how the stars lit up the night sky in Hampshire. There are no stars in the middle of London. Not outside my window. Not in this room.

And then the WIP I have the least progress on (literally almost nothing) but I so desperately want to write and could really use a thought partner to help me brainstorm/plot/figure out what the hell I'm doing--- a canon divergence where Simon successfully exposes Baz as a vamp and Malcolm steps the fuck up as a father. Here's a bit of Simon POV:

It didn't matter anyway. Pitch Manor was empty. While [the Mage] ranted and raved, I wandered into Baz’s living room. The TV was still on. Peppa the Pig was playing. A half-dressed Barbie was splayed on the couch next to a small bowl of grapes, all cut in half. I picked up the doll and brushed her tangled hair out of her face.  Why didn’t I know Baz had a sister? A family that ate snacks together in front of the TV? Parents who loved him so dearly they fled their whole lives under cover of night? In the days that followed, I sat in meeting after meeting with the Coven, listening to The Mage. He demanded the casting of tracking spells, pushed through more dark creature reforms, and rambled about the miscarriage of justice and the dangers of harbouring monsters.  But Baz wasn’t a monster.  He was just a boy.  A scared boy.  A boy who ran because he wanted to live. 

Anyway...here's to accountability via tumblr. Maybe once I've slept for several weeks and feel more refreshed I won't be so frustrated by every word I know, or more precisely, all the beautiful ones I can’t seem to find…

Thanks for the tag @bookish-bogwitch. Cannot wait to devour the new chapter of BPD!

Hellos and high-fives to all. May your words (and art) be faring better than mine: @raenestee, @cutestkilla, @roomwithanopenfire, @facewithoutheart

@emeryhall, @artsyunderstudy, @aristocratic-otter, @larkral, @rimeswithpurple

@drowninginships, @valeffelees, @shrekgogurt, @blackberrysummerblog, @iamamythologicalcreature

@run-for-chamo-miles, @thehoneyedhufflepuff, @arthurkko, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe, @youarenevertooold

@beastmonstertitan, @supercutedinosaurs, @rbkzz, @fiend-for-culture, @theearlgreymage

@brilla-brilla-estrellita, @skeedelvee, @ic3-que3n, @talentpiper11, @ivelovedhimthroughworse

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RANT!!!

Have a Marie cause why not :) (I love her.)

Edit: Edited

The ship Pearlina for example, is probably one of the most popular ships in Splatoon. Like, ok, I know everything leans towards them being gay and that, but it's not canon yet. Therefore, people can have a say to whether or not they are gay. And that's fine. I don't mind that at all. What I DO mind, is the fact that the whole of tumblr is so fucking toxic over it.

I think the splatoon community is so toxic. Like, I have to agree with everything the majority of the splatoon community says on tumblr.

Like, If you don't like the ship, or don't think it's canon that they are gay, people will bully you and bully you into believing it's true, call you homophobic and that shit. And if your post doesn't have Pearl or Marina kissing or super close to eachother, then you will not receive as much likes or followers.

The community is so, "You HAVE to agree. You HAVE to like things we do. If you think Off The Hook is overrated, your opinion doesn't matter to anyone."

I really feel like I don't belong in tumblr, because personally, I don't ship Pearlina. There. I said. It. Go on. Say im homophobic, treat me like shit and say 3 thousand reasons why Pearlina is true. I dare you.

Pearlina isn't canon until Nintendo says it is. And until that day, I will not believe they are gay. I will not believe Pearlina is canon until Nintendo says it themselves. I don't mind if you ship it. Go ahead. Just keep the shit to yourself.

The other thing I want to talk about is the community saying "If you do this to a character, you are a God and amazing and if you dont your fucking useless."

Example: Making Callie have darker skin than Marie. Like, I love that. I love when people do that. It really looks beautiful on Callie. But saying the extra stuff like that? That your amazing if you do and a peice of shit if you dont? Like, what if I don't do it? What if I give her canon skin colour? Am I not good enough for you? Will you say I'm white washing your fAvOuRiTe idol because I didn't give her the shade the fAnS wAnT?

Oh gosh. People can't have their own opinions anymore. The splatoon community has made me hate so many wonderful things about splatoon. Just stop this toxic shit. Please.

[bijouxcarys]

I really didn’t want to have to do this, as the last thing I want to do is get into any kind of drama in the wrestling fandom on Tumblr. But it seems as though there’s a certain narrative going round regarding me and other writers on this app.

No idea where to start with this to be honest, but I want to make it abundantly clear that I am not the anon that’s been sending transphobic/insulting asks to anybody in the fandom. I don’t even know the person who’s been receiving these asks.

I didn’t even know there was shit going on until I suddenly became suspect number 1 last night.

mysticreigns2. acknowledge-reigns.

I have nothing to do with any of the hate that’s being thrown anyone’s way.

These people digging into all my other socials, screenshotting things, crossing boundaries etc is not something I had on my bingo card for 2024, but here we are.

With that being said, I’m going to have to address posts that people are now seeing I’ve made.

It’s unfortunate that these people have taken my posts about transgenderism and used it as evidence of me sending anon hate. And I hate that I have to explain myself and my opinions for this stupid situation.

Yes, I made a post about a popular/highly discussed situation. And yes, I shared a meme that indirectly rejects GAC for children. And I have my own reasons for believing these two things, but I don’t go out of my way to terrorise anyone over it.

Those two opinions are not indicative of me sending hate to people online. I don’t think someone is a bad person based on their identity, I don’t care what someone chooses to do with their own lives, as long as they’re not harming anyone else. I’m not anti-trans, anti this or that, because I don’t care enough to put that energy into it.

Regarding my supposed “racism”… I made a post a while back talking about how people—people, not poc exclusive—on certain areas of the internet instantly judge the quality of one’s writing based on the colour of their skin. The post was not even extreme, and one read of it will show a whole different picture to the one that’s being painted.

And the post about “gay tumblr” was a fucking inside joke and a reference to something going on at the time in an entirely different fandom that has nothing to do with you, so idk what to tell you there.

I’m not racist. I’m not transphobic. I’m not homophobic (literally gay as fuck). I have never sent hate to ANYONE on Tumblr in all the years I’ve been on here. And I absolutely am a safe person to talk to.

Anyone who’s actually had a conversation with me knows that.

Usually I would let things like this lie and move on, but I’m not about to be accused of something quite serious that I didn’t do. Last night was the first I even heard of someone receiving hate via anon asks. I didn’t know any of this shit was going on and now suddenly I’m the one that’s been doing it all?

Very confused at the situation. Nothing I can do to prove it wasn’t me. And if there is anything I can do to prove it wasn’t me, I’ll fucking do it. Because this fandom is one of the only things I have right now that gives me a sense of being apart of something, and I don’t for a second want people to start thinking I had anything to do with this.

Anyway… I don’t know what else to say. And if anyone wants to talk to me about all this, my DMs are always open.

Love you all 💕

[decepticon-nerd]

Thanks for tagging me @novafire-is-thinking

1. Are you named after someone?

I am not named after anyone, but if I have one more person ask me if I'm named after the girl from FRIENDS I'm going to scream. My name is technically biblical, so I hate it, however there is a bird with my name so that makes it a bit better.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Uh. Today. I'm having a day. :)

3. Do you have kids?

No, nor do I want any. I am not fit to be a good parent.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yes. I can come off as a bit of a bitch, but I don't mean to. I've taken to making a silly voice when I use sarcasm so people can tell I'm not being serious.

5. What's the first thing you notice about people?

My self given nickname is Oblivious Prime because I do not notice shit. I also don't remember shit, so if I notice something, once it's out of my field of view it just Does Not Exist

6. What's your eye colour?

Brown

7. Scary movies or good endings?

Am I allowed to say both? Horror movie, with a relatively good ending? Or a wholesome movie with a good ending, and on the other hand, the most gruesome thing imaginable? I like both

Also, probably unpopular opinion, I actually enjoyed the Slenderman movie. Do with that information whatever you will

8. Any special talents?

Uhhhhhhh. No? I don't think so (genuine)

9. Where were you born?

Probably a hospital

10. What are your hobbies?

My hobbies used to be drawing, gaming, and listening to music. I technically still do all of those things, but I mostly doomscroll on Tumblr now. If I can break the doomscroll, I attempt one of the above.

11. Do you have any pets?

Her

12. What sports do you play/have you played?

I used to play soccer and was apparently good at dodgeball in school

13. How tall are you?

I'm 5'5" and apparently give off short king energy because all of y'all said I was 5'3" or 5'2" 💀

14. Favourite subject in school?

Art and forensic science. I love anatomy and yet I suck at foreshortening said anatomy

15. Dream job?

I don't know about dream job but I want to be in a house in the mountains with a goddamn goat and a chicken telling capitalism to fuck off and drawing funky little gay dudes (and funky little gay robots)

I'll come back to dream job when my head doesn't feel like a can of spaghetti

No pressure tags: @she-toadmask @transingthoseformers

[perfectcringecharacteroftheday]

I'm guessing this is an American blog, right? That explains the immature approach to LGBT issues. Seriously, do people like you guys even know how badly the neopronouns are hurting gay and trans people in other parts of the world? How far back the US's hyper-liberal crap has set back our rights in OTHER countries? Please consider someone other than yourself for 2 seconds, thanks. My South African trans self certainly doesn't approve.

Why the fuck is it always OTHER TRANS AND GAY PEOPLE who are to blame for transphobic/homophobic peoples existences and not, you know, the transphobic/homophobic people.

Do you assume you are the only on who bleeds? Who suffers? Who lives in danger or fear? I live in Texas, even the liberal areas are rife with hate crimes and police brutality, especially for people of colour (LIKE ME). Do you think that this mogai headcanon blog from 2017 is some major political figure in the american queer community? I was in high school, eating government paid for lunches and going to a youth group after school for dinner when i made this blog, homie.

Im fucking sorry the mean homophobes blamed tumblr and its silly pronouns when they got caught commiting hate crimes, i really am, but telling strangers on the internet that the way they relste to and express their genders is hurting YOU isnt the way to fix it. We've got our own shit to deal with, thank you.

This sint even fucking victim blaming, at this point, you're yelling at the other guy with a bullet in his gut because his is lavender and that means its Special™️. This is breaking your neighbors windows because he got a new car when youre both still living in a slum. This is the fucking picture of counter revolutionary infighting.

I hold no delusion that i am not in a privileged position compared to a lot of other trans people in my own state, let alone the world, but i refuse to allow this fucking farse of an argument in my ask box.

-mod hanni

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I posted 14,710 times in 2022

That's 13,328 more posts than 2021!

141 posts created (1%)

14,569 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@cat-boy-tits

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@haboat

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I tagged 2,179 of my posts in 2022

#homestuck - 41 posts

#drugs - 37 posts

#psychonauts - 15 posts

#my art - 14 posts

#unreality - 13 posts

#dragon age - 12 posts

#queer - 12 posts

#antisemitism - 10 posts

#cultist simulator - 10 posts

#oh no - 9 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#no op sorry im still going to read “a hasty toilet” as “i cocked my ass and fired it like a gun into the chamber pot shattering it instantly

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

How Do you Do Fellow Cultists?

I made a uquiz to find out what your main Principle would be if you were a character in the cultsim world >> https://uquiz.com/8wxELS <<

blease enjoy

81 notes - Posted April 11, 2022

#4

tryna act normal during an enlightenment ascension

94 notes - Posted April 8, 2022

#3

So I just found out that there’s been some confusion between the Genderqueer flag, and the old UK suffragette flag that’s been co-opted by TERFs. Rather than give up our nice flag to the people who want us silenced and dead, I figured I’d offer up a temporary solution :)

See the full post

257 notes - Posted March 3, 2022

#2

Hiii ok so!!! Folks!!! When people were saying Don't Interact With Corporate Accounts because they will try to emulate tumblr culture

⬇️ This Is The Sort Of Posts They Were Telling You Not To Interact With ⬇️

This blog started posting in june of this year and 100% of their posts are totally straight-laced ads for switch games and promotions. Almost all posts are complete flops with under 10 notes with a handful getting up to maybe 200 notes. This post that mentions bowser's hot balls is the only one to break past that (for obvious reasons). Most of the notes on this one are people being reasonably incredulous "is this a parody account??" "they knew what they were doing" etc. I get it, but Don't Do That.

They are testing the waters and trying to figure out how to get ads past your adblockers. When you reblog a post like this for any reason, they succeed at doing this to every one of your followers.

Do Not Engage Means: Do Not Fucking Engage!

1,254 notes - Posted November 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

If I can get tooth-rottingly sincere for a second? TERFs and radfems are destined to lose in the end. A movement centered on hating others- especially a demographic that is and always has been present in every culture and group throughout history, and always will be- is utterly unsustainable. It is forced to prey on the vulnerable in order to recruit, and that kind of hatred just... weighs on you, colours your perceptions and makes you unable to engage with the world in a healthy way, drains you until you’re just an empty husk. If every trans person were wiped off the face of the earth today and every mention of us redacted from all history, there would still be kids born tomorrow who look at their assigned gender and go ‘hm. don’t like that’ and do something different. They would find people just like themselves and we would persist. I have no idea what the world is going to look like when I am long gone, but I know for certain that there will be trans people in it, just as there will be gays and lesbians, there will be bisexuals, aces, aros, nonbinary folk and EVERY infinitesimal point within the queer spectrum, because its simply not possible to expunge us from the world without eradicating all of humanity. That’s the thought that keeps me going, you know? Even leaving aside gender stuff- the urge to self-create and self-express, and the urge to love ourselves and love each other- it’s woven into our very natures! No matter what happens, that light can’t be snuffed out. Thank you for your time, and stay hydrated.

6,270 notes - Posted March 4, 2022

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[adam-sadmon]

Aight so this may be me self-assassinating this account but I'mma say it anyway:

Shuake/Jokechi has ruined the P5 fandom on tumblr for me

I'm lucky that my favourite 'villain' of all time (take a wild guess who that is) fortunately has a fandom just as devout, and honestly when I come on tumblr for P5 content it's solely for Maruki, not because I don't love every fucking thing else about P5, it's my favourite game of all time and has been there to help in so many times of crisis throughout my life, but the P5 'fandom' on Tumblr outside of Maruki is just Shuake/Jokechi.

And why do I even hate Shuake/Jokechi?

It (wrongly) simplifies a great character, Akechi, and reduces him to any other palatable yaoi tsundere, and it hasn't gone unnoticed that the vast majority of Shuake/Jokechi shippers are cis women who fetishise gay relationships. Seriously, Akechi is such an interesting character because he DOESN'T love Joker, they have a complex relationship not because they're the 1,000,000th 'hates each other but secretly wants to bone' yaoi ship but because Akechi is the one young adult spurned by society that the Thieves just couldn't help, who's fascinating because instead of succumbing to the power of friendship he's a dark reflection of the Thieves' rebellious hearts, so much so that he decides to take down Maruki because he REFUSES to live in a world where he's not the master of his own fate.

Their shipping actively ruins other characters by default. I've seen so many people be like "I wonder if Haru and Futaba only bite their tongue around their parents' murderer because their friendship with Joker and how much they know he loves Akechi'. Like yeah fuck them just being nuanced characters with their own trauma and ways of manifesting and working through it while holding to their own ideals and morals regardless of how hard it is, they're not the hunky twinks, fuck em.

It's pure delusion, like it's not even like that one single frame in the Colours Flying High opening is responsible for the ship, its been a festering weed in the fandom since the game came out. There is NOTHING in the game (though how many Shuake/Jokechi shippers have actually played the game is another question) that implies that Joker and Akechi are in love, and I wouldn't even mind so much if this one delusional fantasy wasn't the entirety of the P5 fandom on tumblr.

And really, I do genuinely wonder how many people have played the game and still ship them, I don't know if that'd make it better or worse, cause I've known people to spend their time shipping characters from franchises they have literally no investment in and know nothing about outside of the surface layer, and that surface layer, at least as portrayed by the Shuake/Jokechi ship is: beautiful, pale tsundere twinks. My friend put it best, in that for the sheer amount of cis-man on cis-man ships that are big on this site, I haven't seen one that's between 2 black men. Like yeah, in canon Joker and Akechi are Japanese, but I'm not gonna pretend to be generous enough to give the benefit of the doubt that that's how shippers see them.

And before anyone asks 'it's just a harmless ship that makes people happy, what's the harm? ', I mean, yeah, no ship that I've yet encountered as run up in my house and stabbed me yet (yet) but it undeniably has hurt mine and a lot of people's engagement in one of our favourite pieces of media of all time.

P5 is a story about found families, about shirking societal expectations and not being forced to find a place for yourself in THEIR world but being content in your own, it touches on government corruption, misogyny, rape culture, the fucked up education system, the very ideas of what happiness is and if it is what we as humans truly seek, and it's all been boiled down to two of the (and lets be real) least interesting characters in the story hating each other but secretly wanting to fuck.

P. S. No its not just because I'm Ace

[obsessive-daydreaming]

Y all have to understand that SuperStraight is extremely fucking transphobic and here’s why :

- It’s harmful to the way cis people see trans people.

This makes people think that trans people look a certain way, that trans woman look like men and trans men look like women, which is stupid. Some trans people look more feminine or masculine because they are comfortable with it.Are you gonna look at a masculine girl and give up on her because « She looks like a trans person ? » No, because you can’t be sure of that fact just by looking at her. You can’t deduce a girl has a dick because she looks masculine. That’s literally harmful to everyone.

- This is not a sexuality, it’s a preference. I am so fcking mad right now.

This whole sexuality thing is just cis men trying to divide trans women and cis women because they feel insecure in their own sexuality. They think loving a trans woman makes them gay, and that’s extremely stupid. You can be a lesbian and want to only have pussy. You can be a gay man and only want to have dick. You can’t create a whole sexuality just for that. This just proves that people don’t think trans women are women. Talking about women, let’s talk about the cis ones.

- Cis women only space or something.

Women are jumping at the opportunity because they feel like Trans people are « invading spaces made for women ». This is just cis people trying to act oppressed. People are saying that in a subreddit made for women, trans women that show their progress in their transition are getting more upvotes than cis women talking about their rapes. How is it their fault ? It’s literally other people, upvoting it because they think it’s neat, and you’re blaming the women for posting it ? I agree that it’s sad that your rape isn’t getting attention, because you need the support, but why blame trans people ? Beside, this subreddit isn’t just about trans women, why not blame the other posts that have gotten more upvote than yours ? I am sorry for that, but don’t blame trans people.

- Trans people forcing themselves on people ?????

Um. Okay. Now basically what they mean is that people are telling cis people that they are transphobic ??? For not wanting to ruck someone without their preferred genitals ??? The problem with that it’s... not trans people that says this. Most of the time it’s cis people that have no idea what they are talking about. I’ve been on TikTok, and Twitter, and even tumblr sometimes, but most of the times people that says this are cis people that think they have the right idea, but they’re wrong. Most trans people are kinda sad when they hear it, but they know it’s true.

- Gay people are joining this mess and that makes cis people thinks they’re are right. ( spoiler, they are not )

Also this whole thing about people saying that caused other members of the lgbtq+ to join the SuperStraight. Now there is SuperBi, SuperLesbian and SuperGay. You guys are literally oppressed how can you oppress someone else and not see what you are doing wrong, you fucking idiots. You can’t say « I respect trans people » and then join a group that oppress them. You can’t say just support a small fraction of the lgbtq+, that’s not how it works. How would you feel if someone respected trans people but joined a hate group towards gay people ? Yeah, that’s what I thought. You don’t have more of a right to talk against trans people because you’re in the gay community, you and I have had different experience of oppression, and you don’t know what you are talking about. Even if you’ve researched it, there is a difference.

- Plot holes. So. Many. Plot holes.

Riddle me this, if you don’t want to be in a relation with a trans women because she’s not cis, would you accept being in a relationship with a trans man ? Even if you know that he’s a man, even if you know he has a dick. After all, he was born with vagina, wasn’t he ? Y all seem to forget that some trans women do have vaginas. So what then ?? I mean sure, she’s not cis, but she’s got everything a cis women has. You do realize most trans women want and will try to have bottom surgery, right ? Right ??? The only reason why you wouldn’t want to be with her is maybe because she can’t bear children, but what about infertile women ? Is that different ?

I think that covers pretty much it. I’m sure I could find other things, and I’ll probably post other reasons why this « sexuality » is fucking stupid. Also did you have to colour you flag the colour of Pornhub AND Grindr AND Halloween ?

( Ps ; sorry if i talk a bit weird, English is not my first language )

( Another Ps ; People talk like trans people are literally everywhere. But they are really not ? Theres a study in 2016 that says that only 0.6 % of the population is trans. The only reason you see so much is because of the internet. There is never gonna have more trans people than cis people ( that’s a shame ), stop worrying for nothing )

[ouyangzizhensdad]

the dead imperialist villain was homophobic & the canonly bi protag the readers are meant to sympathize with condemns said 2d homophobia.. what do they want from media? “swiper no swiping”

The intellectual clusterfuck of someone saying “well, maybe not all fantasy worlds need to include [oppression X] and maybe it could be nice sometimes or at least some people would prefer being able to engage in full escapism without being reminded of the real world and also for some creators it just feels like an excuse to bash on [group X] in poor taste so maybe let’s not” THEN becoming, in very smart, very inquisitive minds “if fantasy world contains or depicts [oppression X] then this piece of fiction is [oppression X]”. Stupendous. And aside from the slip-and-slide logic of it all, it annoys me because like:

1) It does not even consider if the fantasy world is being used as a way to explore real sociological/historical phenomenon in the first place. ATLA explores imperialism, genocide, industrialism, etc. and included sexism from the very first scene of the show. But boy, they decide to talk about homophobia in a manner that clearly aims to mirror how colonialism impacted current day homophobia in some Asian countries, clearly within that same storytelling continuity, and suddenly that’s unacceptable and homophobic by virtue only of its presence (I can’t comment on whether it was well-handled ultimately in the work, but it’s not like the argument being made was about anything else than this one panel anyway). Again, some people should learn how not to parrot shit they saw on twitter and tumblr without considering the context of the work. That does not mean they can’t criticise the work, but that at least if that criticism remains at the end of it all they’ll be able to frame it in the context of the work they are criticising instead of just repeating a line they learned somewhere else. Media criticism/analysis is not about learning by heart a rigid list of “This is Problematic” points which you can whip out as “gotcha!” arguments.

2) Competing!Representation!Needs!!! Some people want pure escapism where nothing reminds them homophobia/heteronormativity exists? Cool. But that does not mean all works of fiction now need to cater to them, specifically. Personally, as a queer, I hate these types of stories, for three main reasons.

First because they generally the creative fails to portray that fictional world in a way that feels believable or thought-through. Often, for example, they’ll think about homophobia but not heteronormativity without considering how those things are imbricated. Generally creators show their inability to produce a fictional world that would not be shaped by homophobia/heteronormativity, so as an audience it’s hard for me to suspend my disbelief. 

Second, I’m very aware that my queerness is socially-constructed--that is, that my preference for women could be as insignificant in the scheme of my life as my preference for certain colours or food or home decoration, but that because of the world I live in, it is something very significant about how I define and understand myself, and how others see me and what I’ve experienced and will continue to experience. Not only that, but my everyday experience of queerness is (sadly) more defined by my living in a homophobic/heteronormative world than it is about liking women. It’s harder for me to connect with narratives that will not, at least, nod to this reality (which does not mean the narrative cannot be feel-good or triumphant). On top of it all, so many queer experiences do not make sense unless they happen in a world that is homophobic/heteronormative--just because you don’t want to see those being explored does not mean it isn’t important for other queer creatives and queer audiences. To reduce stories that explore homophobia as “stories for straight people” really shows a failure to grasp the perspectives of other queer people in the community. 

Third, to build onto the second point, I’m just an edgelord bitch. I don’t like being white-lied to, I don’t like having my feelings coddled, I like being told how it is, I think though-love is the way to go. I want my escapism to remain grounded enough not to have me roll my eyes going “riiiiiiiiiiight”. Where some people see aspirational escapism, I feel almost gaslighted lmao. I remember reading this super long fic where this character was super depressed and burned so many bridges because he was scared of admitting he was gay and coming out, and then he suddenly came out to everyone around him and--everyone was so supportive, at best they were just ‘sad’ he kept that a ‘secret’ from them, no one said anything out of line or questionable, his life only got easier and better, etc. The narrative was telling him; see that fear was irrational and you needed to overcome the irrationality of it. I wanted to throw my phone at the wall!!! I can take a step back and see how that narrative can be reassuring to some queer readers who have yet to come out but I hated it so fucking much!!!!! I hated how it was only willing to discuss internalised homophobia but not homophobia. And like to me it is just not realistic and it completely took away my suspension of disbelief and just made me fucking angry. 

[whatiwillsay]

1) I fucking hate the "don't force a sexuality on Taylor" people in the case of the bracelet because they're acting as if a) the fan didn't explain what those colours and words meant together and b) that she doesn't have free will not to wear it. Also do they not realize that the forcing a sexy narritive is extremely homophobic or do they just not care?

2) if one of your nicknames is campy and if I ever meet you I'll probably say "I'm looking campy right in the face" as a greeting because I'm that much of a little shit

1. “don’t force a sexuality on taylor!” i said to taylor swift as she said gay pride makes me me, “hide in the closet”, bi pride flag, bi pride flag, pan pride flag, pan pride pant suit, “getting bitches and models” , “too in love to think straight”, “girls and girls”, *likes kaylor posts on tumblr*

seriously if taylor would just stop forcing queerness on herself it would save us so much trouble!

2. you can call me anything you like sweet cheeks. my name is whatever y’all decide!

[wild-at-mind]

It’s funny because I would actually describe my political views as pretty radical. However I don’t talk about it much online because the way it seems to be normal to talk about these things online is just utterly noxious to me. Sorry to use an old fashioned word but it fits the best. Like, physically repellant. The first thing is the very black and white thinking, it triggers a part of my brain (that maybe is the OCD or maybe the Evangelical church or a toxic combination of both) that causes me to emotionally seize up almost immediately.

Then there is the endless belittling of anyone who slightly disagrees or you just don’t like. It’s all funny online shit and memes I guess but to me it’s so toxic. It says to me ‘if you become friendly with us, this will be you if you even slightly step out of line’. Or if it’s not belittling, it’s the refusal to interpret anything other than in the absolute extreme it can possibly be, like a few weeks ago when someone told me anonymously that I must be a nationalist defender because I said it’s not nationalism for Biden to address the American people and express hope for a better US after the Capitol Hill riots. I’m not even American but I don’t feel I was wrong to say that, like, I’m so glad some people can survive on a diet of endless unadulterated misery and pessimism but as I may have expressed before, that would kill me! (Or even if the sentiment doesn’t work for you personally 1. he was addressing  an entire, gigantic country, and 2. you are still jumping to the worst possible and most extreme conclusion about what he is saying. What is the benefit here?) Meanwhile, all the funny online shit and guilletine memes goes on and on. We all tweet rat emojis at the gay politician, it’s so funny and no one has a problem with it (because we will nudge them out of our cliche if they do), and the actual specifics of what we want and what we are trying to do, to be, as leftists, are never fucking talked about! I’m going to assume in good faith that some of the people talk about it with their irl organising groups but many people are not in a place they can meet with fellow leftists on their doorstep (i.e. me) and they came online to try and learn more that way, and this is what they got. What I think I find most difficult is how easily misinformation spreads through a kind of exaggeration, that cannot be corrected because if you do you look like you are defending the action being talked about. It always goes like: ‘X politician did this really bad, awful thing!’ ‘Actually, this is misinformation. What he did was this slightly less bad thing.’ ‘Oh, I suppose you think slightly less bad thing is ok then??!!’ Like, there’s not much argument with that, is there? The 2nd person really does look like they are defending the slightly less bad thing, even if their intention was just to correct misinformation, because of a quirk of how arguments work. What I rarely see talked about is why on earth is the 1st person putting out exaggerations like this, which you often see happening over and over again in political online spaces, and should they be held accountable for that? If slightly less bad thing is very bad, surely it will stand on its own if described accurately and not exaggerated? The worst part I think is how at some point online leftists seem to have decided all discussion of racism is meaningless idpol?! Like, I fully support the movement to root out TERFish ideology in lefty online spaces, but for gods sake why is there not a similar one to boot out this kind of quasi-racists in leftism? I think it’s because it spoils the fun if someone actually says ‘that joke about a person of colour who is in power doesn’t hit the same as it does about a white person, in fact it is offensive, even if that person of colour is in a position of power. If you are white maybe avoid that kind of joke towards ANY person of colour’. I have no idea how this shift happened, I understand a lot of anti-racism blogs on here went inactive when a lot of blogs did during the drop-off in users, but that was more of a reaction to the changing userbase than the cause of it. I’ve been here a long time and it has changed so much, the way people talk about racism, it’s like people think it barely matters in their leftist ideology now. Wtf?? For the above reasons I really feel that tumblr is no longer a good place for political stuff (and twitter definitely isn’t x10000000), leftist meme culture in general is very frustrating for me on any platform (e.g. my facebook feed during the last general election) and I think the best idea for me to learn and grow at this point is to get back to the primary texts these people are doing a very bastardised version of and work from there. It’s hard because part of me kind of believes that the only reason I think this is because the truth is I really am the very essence of the liberal they all hate. But that isn’t reflected in my politics at all! So what does it even mean?

[formula-what]

Hey with all due respect, you can say you enjoy speculating about people's sexuality without having to justify it with your struggle, I'm pan and I'm older than most people on tumblr but I've never felt the need to justify my engaging in fandom speculation with my desperation for representation or whatever? you risk diluting the lgbtq+ experience when you equate it to trivial projections. And in any case, this is a minor point but cuffing your jeans and such are funny stereotypes but they are just physical signifiers and that's a harmful way to categorise queer people.

Aight, huge tw for homophobia. I’ma talk about f1 and how much it sucks and I know a lot of people hate acknowledging that part 

I get what you are saying. But I wasn’t “using my struggle to justify my speculation”.

1) My “speculation” was a joke. It wasn’t speculation at all. It wasn’t based on any valid facts. Im not saying “oh I think for sure Lando is bi and when he’s says otherwise he’s lying” I’m just joking around. Me “justifying” was actually just me ranting about how the community treats lgbt people, im not using that as an ‘excuse’ and i dont need to

2) hmmm “struggle” weird wording. I can’t find the words right now but like, that just sits weird with me. I was talking about a fact. There’s never been an openly gay f1 driver. That’s it. Fact. I don’t think I would call it “my struggle”. If anything it should be f1s problem not mine.

1) you say “trivial projections” as if that isn’t what makes up my whole blog and entire personality

2) okay so, I’m sorry but part of the “lgbt experience” whilst being an f1 fan is being increasingly hyper aware of the fact that no one is this community wants you here. Tumblr is a huge exception. That’s why I like this site, go literally anywhere else on social media or in the real world and you will face bigotry almost immediately

F1 announced the We Race As One campaign during pride month and they didn’t even mention the lgbt community. Which yeah pissed me off a bit but I’m used it, what is really fucked up? Is that the comment sections on every social media was full with blatant homophobia for weeks and no one did anything about it.  No official member mentioned anything at all, or even removed the comments. Just because f1 used a fake rainbow that isn’t even lgbt colours and “fans” got heated that there was a slight chance that maybe f1 might start supporting us.

And god am I fed up with having to put up with constant hetronormativity and casual homophobia

There’s never being a gay driver because they’re terrified that coming out means that they will definitely lose fans, but they could also lose sponsors which could lead them to losing their seat in the team or place in f1. If sponsors start pulling out then they have to let the driver go, even if the team has no problem with the drivers sexuality. We don’t really know the repercussions because no ones been brave enough to try. The potential back lash is that big.  A driver in the junior series or just starting out karting wouldn’t dare come out because that could be the only thing that stops them from making it to f1 and finally living their dream.

And holy fuck whenever someone brings up the lack of gay drivers, they are always told that “f1 is full of the best of the best” “maybe they just aren’t that good” “there’s just not any gay people that can drive well” “there’s just not enough gay people trying to get into motosport, maybe if more tried then someone will actually succeed” and they genuinely don’t understand that that is 100% complete bull shit. And I’m fed up of people acting like this is our fault because we don’t try hard enough

so please dont start acting like this is ‘my struggle’ or ‘trivial projections’ this isnt me saying “oh boohoo this mean old man wouldnt let me try go-karting because im gay :((( f1 is so homophobic lets boycott it for being problematic” this is happening in real life and is impacting so many people. not just drivers but also dictates how the whole world views f1, its fans, and motosport as a whole.  

Yes I know. That was the joke.

[your-turn-to-role]

for the cr asks: 1, 7, 19, 29

hey, thanks!

1) How did you first discover Critical Role?

uh, friends, mostly. i was one of the later people in my friend group to get into it, though i’m definitely the one who’s gotten the most obsessed with it now 😂

i have one friend who’s been following it since the really early days, like early 2016 or something? and was very into taliesin’s characters (they have a very similar aesthetic), but stopped after molly died

another friend who’s more into dnd shows just bc she really likes dnd rather than particularly for the story has also been into it for ages, and was pestering me to watch for at least a year before i actually did

(not that i didn’t think i’d like it, it just takes me forever to get into stuff bc when i get into a fandom i get super into it and then am resistant to leave it, and there’s a limit to how many characters i can hold in my brain at once, also because starting a new thing that has literally thousands of hours of content is intimidating as fuck)

but it was also just, fanart of jester on tumblr? she didn’t even end up being my fave of the m9 (though i definitely love her), but she’s 100% my aesthetic to the core, and seeing a lot of art of her around i was like “okay i wanna know who this girl is bc she seems cool”

and then about, idk, 9-10 months ago i started cr2? and fell in love with nott within about two seconds of her speaking, which made me listen long enough to fall in love with the other characters as well, and then after i caught up (which was just before ep 73 aired, i was watching it with more or less all of my free time) i watched campaign 1 in a similar fashion and here we are

7) Do you have any official CR merch?

does explorer’s guide to wildemount count? or the vox machina origins comics? bc if so, i have those (digitally anyway)

but in terms of most actual merch, no, not yet, i’m not 100% ruling it out, but i live in new zealand so shipping is a huge pain and i haven’t come across anything yet that is both within my price range and that i care enough about to pay a shit ton for shipping

(honestly, would have bought any of the dice sets, but the only one that’s been out while i’ve been in the fandom was the whitestone opalite dice and those were suuuper expensive)

(real pretty though)

19) Who’s your favorite CR cast member (Matt, Laura, etc.)?

ohhhhhh that’s so hard to choose. every time i think of any one person at least four others show up in my head like “hey what about us!”

i think i’ll just answer this by saying my favourite things about each of them

matt - really cool person. really fun storyteller. so much more of a dork when not being a DM, it’s not a side of him we get to see often but it’s one i’d love to see more of! i’m still amazed he does this every week when he’s said a couple times he hates being on camera, like... matt, how do you do that. i am a little in awe of you

travis - i love his whole approach to rping? like the whole “you have to take risks at every possible opportunity because whether it succeeds or fails, it’s always worth the chance you’ll make something amazing”. he’s highly relatable as an adhd player. also he’s said he doesn’t want to put romance stories in his dnd characters and i get very attached to characters that could be headcanoned as aro so i really appreciate that

marisha - she’s fucking badass. i am constantly in awe of her bravery to continue to play her characters really well when she gets so much hate with them. also, she’s a really good actor? i feel like no one says it enough but she really is. love all her liveshow outfits.

liam - now, i’ve been that one theatre kid who was way too obsessed with hamlet at like age 15? so like... i feel you, liam. love the places he goes with his characters. love everything about vax. love the language he uses while rping and the small little gestures he comes up with that add so much to a character, i’ve written a couple posts on it

sam - now, on one hand, sam is the cast member i relate the least to. on the other, he did make nott who i love with all my heart. i’m also just really impressed by everything he comes up with as scanlan, especially the super long ode to vax which had to be at least partially improvised/written during that episode

laura - continually dedicated to proving you can make female characters that are super detailed and full of depth while also always being down to make stupid dick jokes. really good actor. very cute and very ridiculous. also, [harp music] ~laura bailey~

taliesin - i love his dedication to being goth, queer, and colourful all at once? bc big fucking mood. love his characters, love his weirdness, love his random pockets of obscure knowledge that occasionally come up on the show and everyone’s like “how the fuck do you even know that”

ashley - is it not enough to be gay and in love with ashley johnson? but no seriously she’s super cool and also a dork and i adore her

29) What’s the most devastating CR PC defeat/death?

i mean..... it’s gotta be molly, right?

like percy’s first death and vax in the finale were both heartwrenching as fuck, but both kinda felt like they were meant to happen? percy, while he came back and i’m glad he did (which also helps make it not the most devastating), taliesin had kinda planned for that to be the end of percy, and it did tie things up in that tragic way his character archetype often goes. had that been permanent, it would have hurt, but it would have felt fitting. and vax, god, i will never be over dalen’s closet, but he had a lot of time to come to grips with his own death and that made it, more cathartic rather than just painful

but molly was just, i mean i knew it was coming before i even started watching, i tried my best not to get attached and then got attached anyway

and i really love what it did to the plot and the characters and i wouldn’t trade away caduceus now we’ve really gotten to know him

but goddamn did that have an impact

[mab1905]

84 Questions

original: 

https://fuckyeahsurveys.tumblr.com/post/61049002526/84-questions

1. Put your music player of choice on shuffle and list the first 10 songs

Someone New (Hozier)

Cactus Tree (Joni Mitchell)

Budapest (George Ezra)

And Dream Of Sheep (Kate Bush)

Nancy Mulligan (Ed Sheeran)

And Then She Kissed Me (St. Vincent)

Level of Concern (Twenty One Pilots)

Lovefool (The Cardigans)

Best For Last (Adele)

Video Killed The Radio Star (The Buggles)

2. If you could spend a week anywhere in the world, where would it be and why? Would you take anyone with you?

Japan. I travel a lot and it’s been on my list for a while, I would really want to go to the Hayao Miyazaki/Studio Ghibli theme park, if it ever opens that is. I would bring my best friend, Layla. I also would love to go to Amsterdam again.

3. What is your preferred writing implement? (eg. Blue pen, pencil, green pen) 

My ink nib cartooning pen (similar to a quill, but without the feather)

4. Favourite month and why? 

October, not too hot, not too cold, and of course, Halloween!

5. Do you have connections to any celebrities (even minor)? List them.

Nope, met several, got to true connections though. 

6. Name 3 items you could pick up from where you are.

My iPad, my Leatherman Multitool, my collection of David Bowie postcards.

7. What brand logo is closest to you currently?

The Apple logo

8. Do you ever play board games or other non-computer games? Got any favourites?

Chess. Card games like Solitaire, Black-Jack, and Castle. A game that I can’t remember the name of but it’s essentially a board-game version of Capture The Flag. Mostly Chess.

9. A musical artist you love that isn’t well known

St. Vincent? I’m not sure if she’s well known or not.

10. A musical artist you love that is well known

David Bowie. 

11. What is your desktop background currently?

A picture of Apollo 11 accompanied by the words “It won’t fail because of me”

12. Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them

My best friend Layla, through the iMessage app.

13. First colour name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow

Salmon

14. What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in?

My iPad, my computer, my collection of vintage stopwatches

15. What kind of headphones do you use?

Sony, wireless, noise canceling, over-the ear 

16. What musical artists have you seen perform live?

Twenty One Pilots, Sylvan Esso

17. Does virginity matter to you?

I guess? I think it’s important, it’s certainly some kind of ‘milestone,’ but I don’t think it should be treated like the scale of a persons ‘purity.’ It’s important because it’s sex, and (hopefully) that means that you’re sharing a consensual, intimate experience that feels fucking great for both (or all, if it’s more then two) participants.

18. What gaming consoles do you or your family own?

Z e r o, although I’m hoping to buy a PS4 at some point so I can play Detroit Become Human.

19. What pets do you have? What are their names?

Juno is my cat, she is an adorable grey tiger-striped shorthair. She’s got little white mitten-paws and it’s absolutely ridiculous.

20. What’s the best job you’ve ever had?

Doing tech at a local theater

21. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had?

Teaching art to little kids (I like kids but it was just exhausting)

22. What magazines do you read, if any?

The New Yorker, and the National Geo if I’m like, waiting in my doctor’s office or something.

23. Inspiration behind your URL?

It’s just my initials and a year from the Edwardian era

24. Inspiration behind your blog title?

It’s just my initials 

25. Favourite item of clothing?

My reddish-brown knit sweater vest and my floral bow-tie (often paired together)

26. Are you friends with any exes?

I made a very conscious effort to cut my exe out of my life… we were not happy for a very long time to say the least

27. Name at least one book you loved as a child.

Strega Nona, it’s about an Italian witch that makes great pasta in a magic pasta pot. My dad would read it to me and my sibling in Italian.

28. What’s your native language? If that language has distinct regional variations, which variation? (eg. AU English, US English)

US English

29. What email service do you use?

Gmail

30. Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in?

So many things. Here's the list:

A giant David Bowie poster, a plaque that says “David Bowie IS,” five David Bowie postcards, a giant Abbey Road poster, all of my patches from summer camp, polaroids of me, my friends, and my family (including my cat), ticket stubs from concerts and plays, two trail markers that I took off of fallen trees on two important cross-country backpacking trips I went on, playbills from a bunch of broadway shows I’ve seen, a poster that says “Stonewall was a riot,” a DC Comics poster, a Pink Floyd poster, a few paintings of mine, and a painting that I got for free from a street artist I befriended in Rome when I was twelve

31. What’s your favourite number, and why?

16, 24, 21, and 8, some numbers make me uncomfortable, but these are just very soft and light and nice 

32. Earliest moment in your life you can remember? 

A rocking chair with fruits painted on it sitting in a dark room and my great grandfathers brown leather loafers (I remember early early stuff in just images or stills, not full moments)

33. What did you have for dinner yesterday?

Pasta with shrimp

34. How often do you brush your teeth?

Usually twice a day, but I’ve been waking up later and later and sometimes forget in the mornings

35. What’s your favourite candy/chocolate?

I don’t know the name of it but it’s this chocolate bar that is stuffed with caramel, hot chili flakes, and crunchy bits of baked tortilla. It's one of the greatest things I’ve ever tasted.

36. Have you had other blogs on Tumblr? Do you have any other blogs currently?

I used to have one but I deleted it because I never used it

37. If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat?

I would probably walk into the kitchen, realize that too eat something I would have to muster the effort to cook something instead, and then decide to just have a glass of milk instead.

38. What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of?

Downton Abbey (primarily Thommy)

Chernobyl HBO (as well as the Leonid Toptunov/Sasha Akimov subfandom)

Lord of The Rings and The Hobbit (books and movies)

CrankGamePlays

Buzzfeed Unsolved

Star Trek TOS

Philosophy Tube

The Dark Crystal and The Dark Crystal: Age Of Resistance

39. If you could study anything, what would it be?

If I had the energy to fully wrench my life in a completely different direction I would like to become a professional scuba diver and study the ocean. I already am a scuba diver, but it’s a hobby and not something I’m able to do very often at all.

40. Do you use anything on your lips? (eg. Chapstick, gloss, balm, lipstick)

I’ll wear chapstick if I have a cold

41. How would you describe your sense of humour?

Intellectual and dry

42. What things annoy you more than anything else?

People who think they’re better than everyone else and people who recognize a fault in themselves and then refuse to work to change it

43. What kind of position are you in at the moment?

I’m laying on my bed, hunched over my laptop

44. Do you wear much jewellery?

Occasionally I’ll wear a necklace or a few rings. I have a lot of non-traditional bracelets (I literally just have pieces of canvas and industrial tie-line wrapped around my wrist). I’m a gay guy and I like to sort-a walk the line between feminine and masculine (often leaning more towards the masc side), so it really depends on my mood.

45. Who is the leader of your country, currently? Any other levels of government with leaders? (State, region, province, county, district, municipality, etc)

A cheese-pizza flavored pringle is currently POTUS and every day the thought of that tears away at a piece of my soul. 

46. Last 3 blogs on your dashboard, not including any of your own

@shochmonster @velvet-of-the-night @panicsheerbloodypanic

47. What do you carry your money in?

My pocket, I have a wallet and I don’t use it

48. Do you enjoy driving? Why or why not?

It’s fine, don’t love it don’t hate it

49. Longest drive you have ever been on?

Three days

50. Furthest away from home you have ever been?

Went on a trip to Switzerland to visit family, I think that’s the farthest but I’m not entirely sure.

51. How many times have you moved house?

Twice

52. What is on the floor of the room you’re currently in, not including furniture?

Five paintings, stacks and stacks of books, boxes filled with stuff (mostly more books), plates, glasses, cutlery, clothes

53. How many devices do you own which can access the internet?

2, and iPad and a computer

54. Is there is anything that is guaranteed to always make you happy?

Listening to music

55. Is there anything that always makes you sad?

Thinking about my past for too long

56. What programs do you currently have open?

Google drive, I’m writing

57. What do you associate the colour red with?

Blood and fire

58. Last strong smell you can remember smelling?

Shrimp and butter

59. Last healthy thing you ate?

Three green olives and a handful of bean sprouts

60. Do you drink tea or coffee, and how much per day?

Used to drink coffee like it was life support (which it essentially was), now I’ll have the occasional cup of tea.

61. What do you associate the colour blue with?

Birds and rain

62. How long is the closest ruler you can find?

I don’t think I own one

63. What colour pants/skirt/etc are you currently wearing?

I am wearing olive green corduroy slacks

64. When was the last time you drank water?

30 minutes ago?

65. How often do you clear your browser history?

Never

66. Do you believe nude photos can be artistic, rather than erotic?

Nude anything can be artistic, it can also just be normal, eroticism is in the eye of the beholder.

67. Ever written fanfiction for anything?

Yes dear god so much fanfiction.

68. Last formal event you attended

I genuinely can’t remember, I am have extreme social anxiety and don’t go to events like that unless I absolutely have too

69. If you had to move your birthday to another date, which one would you choose and why?

I don’t care about birthdays

70. Would you prefer to be at a beach or in the countryside?

Beach, I love to swim, I’m also a surfer

71. Roughly how many people live in your town?

Uhm… eight times the number of people who live in the state of Montana and that doesn’t count daily commuters and tourists (New York City is essentially just a tin of sardines, except inside are 8.399 million sardines)

72. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?

No, but three of my friends were born on the day just after my birthday.

73. Favourite place to shop? Can be a certain store or a place where there are multiple stores

The Strand Bookstore, L Train Vintage, any antique shops in the town of Hudson, New York 

74. Do you have a smartphone? What kind? If you don’t, do you want one?

I used to have an iPhone 5SE but then it stopped working after a few weeks of quarantine and I haven’t gotten a new one (I’ve had it for about 5-6 years so it makes sense)

75. What is your least favourite colour, and why?

I don’t have a least favorite color, but my favorite color is prussian blue

76. How do you spell grey/gray?

Grey

77. Go to your dashboard and describe the image shown in the radar section (below the “Find blogs” link)

It’s anime fanart for a show I’ve never heard of

78. What difference is there between how many followers you have, and the number of blogs you follow?

3

79. How many posts do you have?

219

80. How many posts have you liked?

619

81. Do you post mainly reblogs, or your own content?

Mostly reblogs but I do my own content as well

82. Do you track any tags?

No, just blogs

83. What time is it currently?

10:39

84. Is there anything you should be doing right now?

writing

I’m not quite sure who to tag so it’s just open to anyone I guess?