#the bit at 0:57 aeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeahahahahahahahahououououououououou etc
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big fan of rhythm game songs that if i was like maybe 5% less insane would be absolutely unlistenable
#is this me calling this song bad. no. if anything its me calling it good#the bit at 0:57 aeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeaeahahahahahahahahououououououououou etc#other notable entries in this genre include route 80s and- hang on ill post that as well
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gnf cooking stream highlights
saw some people say they wouldn’t be able to watch george’s cooking stream because of school/work so i took note of some things that happened (with very rough timestamps. like really rough and it happened ~around~ that time) so they could relate to jokes/etc being made on the dashboard/timeline without having to watch the entire 4 hours of the stream immediately :) hope this is helpful in any way ? lol
quick stats: george beat his highest concurrent again this stream with 307k viewers by 133k and gained more than 10k subs :o
0:00 cooking stream start. cute thumbnail and music!
5:10 starts talking
8:00 shows self, fixes his camera/s (he has two different setups) and talks to chat for a bit
11:30 what is on the menu? a starter (mozarella sticks), main course (steak), dessert (a secret!)
18:40 the first step is to hands with…. dishwashing liquid
20:00 actually starts preparing steak. “it’s got good marbling ? idk how to speak chef they just say marbling”. attempts to rub seasoning into the steak...
28:00 starts preparing the mozarella sticks
34:40 “dont swing your knife around >:(” “I WILL SWING MY KNIFE IF I WANT TO SWING IT [swings knife]”
39:00 “these are probably going to turn out terrible… but as long as we’re having fun, then we’re fine! right? i guess? probably.”
45:00 he puts paprika into the egg mixture while trying to make mozarella sticks........... he throws out the eggs and has to reset
52:00 “that’s pretty bread-y! that’s pretty bread-y!”
53:00 calling chat donuts because they keep trying to backseat cook lmao
1:02:20 dream calls. “you’re the worst chef ive ever seen in my life what’s wrong with you? you suck!”
1:03:00 sapnap calls. "you look cute with that hat on :)" george hangs up on him to talk to dream lol. “i’m ditching you for dream.”
1:05:37 dream calls again
1:11:30 thinks the breadcrumbs are too thick, which is why they aren’t sticking to the cheese. he attempts to “squish” them.
1:11:45 “is there a hypetrain? choo choo!”
1:12:00 dream calls again
1:18:55 “gogy ramsay? yes that’s actually me!”
1:21:13 karl + chris calls “everyone comment if you think george should be in tales of the smp tonight!”
1:24:00 dream calls again to give advice about double dipping the mozarella sticks
1:30:30 starts preparing the fries. george is impressed by a potato peeler. he eats a raw potato later on ?
1:40:00 he makes funny gestures! introduces the ~air fryer~! (which he says he bought specifically for this stream!)
1:44:00 starts cooking steak
1:45:00 “what can we do for 5 minutes?” and then holds up a fucking knife?? i dont understand him
1:48:50 dream calls again. “be careful when you’re frying it’s very dangerous!” george: “he’s FARMING AWWS guys”
1:52:30 HES PREPARING FOR AN ACTUAL FIREE HELP MEEE
1:56:23 sapnap calls
2:00:00 people started gifting subs because dream tweeted about it :) sapnap talks about his new video, sapnap thanks george’s subs for him so george can focus on his cooking :) sapnap also helps him calm down when he’s visibly nervous about what’s happening and is overall just super supportive!
2:13:20 actually starts cooking steak
2:13:50 sapnap’s hot take about sugar cookies: people who hate sugar cookies can go to hell
2:15:28 “i kinda burnt it… it’s not bad.. it’s grilled..” he starts panicking a bit n is a bit dangerous with the hot oil it scared me a little lol
2:17:55 carries the fucking steak with tongs across the kitchen
2:18:00 shows his steak. it looks good!
2:21:45 george hyping up his french fries
2:24:30 karl joins the call
2:25:20 george talks to the camera to thank karl
2:25:50 george excitedly jumping around to announce something! karl (jokingly) announces george will be on the tales of the smp
2:26:40 fit check! george puts his feet on the table to lift up his entire body? also they are talking about boogers ? idk i can’t hear
2:28:40 george talking to the camera to twitch prime
2:28:58 dream calls him to cut the steak
2:32:00 FINALLY CUTTING THE FUCKING STEAK. it looks good!
2:34:25 taste test “not gonna lie, best steak i’ve ever had, ever! ok it’s not the best, but it’s actually really good”
2:38-39:00 ish bad joins
2:40:00 bad built chef gnf in minecraft! cute!
2:43:50 karl: “george i love you” george: “thank you ^-^”
2:44:47 apparently dream messaged their discord chat for karl and sapnap to stop making fun of george’s mozarella sticks “his cheese sticks are fine.”
2:45:30 dream joins to tell him to put the mozarella sticks back in the freezer
2:47:10 starts frying mozarella sticks. he isn’t being too cautious with this too so everyone in the call is worried he’ll get burnt skdhsk. burns a mozarella stick
2:53:00 dream and sapnap heat transfer discourse. sapnap thinks he can dip a fork into molten lava and it won’t be hot (immediately). he is wrong.
2:57:00 quackity joins
3:08:20 george lore: apparently doesn’t care if his food is hot or cold
3:09:15 looks into camera again
3:11:00 apparently dream was the first sub on george’s channel! so he has the founders badge!
3:13:00 karl teases dream for saying he’d kiss george if puffy hit 11k subs yesterday lol. they were also teasing bad about being weird about the maid dress throughout this.
3:14:00 the secret dessert is pancakes!
3:18:00 “will be... like wilbur (wilby)”
3:30:00 flipped a pancake! worked. around this time they’re making fun of george allegedly calling a “crepe” a “pancake”, when this is what they call pancakes in the uk.
3:38:30 george wants to stream with gordon ramsay lol
3:44:10 everyone leaves the call except for george and dream. “it’s just us.. alone together.. with 200 thousand people”
3:45:00 sub count is at 18550 and dream wants it to reach 20k! george is just sitting there getting subs
3:47:20 george trying to take a picture!
3:49:27 dream tells chat to keep subbing
3:52:00 dream gifts 50 subs to help reach the sub goal. again george is just standing there getting gifted subs lmao
3:53:00 ish they hit 20k! george gained more than 10,000 subs this stream!
3:57:45 fridge reveal lol
3:58:45 fit check again
3:59:11 making a tiktok
4:02:50 dream REALLY wants to see george with messy/fluffy hair for some reason???? he farms messy hair pics. “wait WHAT oh my gosh holy cow WHAT i’ve never seen your hair like that. now that’s a good instagram photo.” apparently “it’s a look”... from the end of the extras shirt video ? someone help him
(george looks really good though. this is something best experienced yourself...)
around this time i think they say how can they get to 500k views and they say what if they streamed the meetup! and they say that they will!
4:13:00 BIG GEORGE LORE PLANNED ??
4:14:00 ish "thank you dream" is trending. it’s obviously for the pictures but neither of them seem to realize that.
4:14:30 dream tells george to get hair gel so he can look like this all the time. my god
4:17:00 stream over !
#georgenotfound#sorry if i got anything wrong ?#also good morning/good night it is. very early here#i will have more coherent thoughts tomorrow :]#maybe#long post
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White shirts
Bts video
0:32 - DoTae leadership dynamic
0:35 - Strike a pose, Jaehyun-ie. I need a crying smiley here to express myself. It’s been ages since bratty Jaehyun’s last appearence.
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Jaehyun teased Doyoung (but of course) here. It’s an old move, rarely seen nowadays, of Jaehyun doing something contrary to Doyoung. Jae hears Do and Tae (eyes to the left, the direction of sound), a thought comes to his mind (eyes to the right, thinking), he glances at Do and turns to Mark to say his joke. Note that Jae didn’t turn to Tae nor did he looked at him after Tae laughed. Poor Tae is always ignored. Jae didn’t wait for a returned look from Mark or Hyuk. The point was to tell the joke to everyone, for others to see he opposes Do’s words.
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1:37 - JaeWoo. Jokingly but Do did throttle Woo after Woo’s attack on bunny ears.
1:56 - Doyoung repeats Jaehyuns comically forced smile (square smile) before bursting into laughing. Reminds me of the moment when Do puckered his lips after Jae on EnNaNa.
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1:57 - Look at Jaehyun moving his arm away when Johnny touches it with his back. This is a normal avoidance of body contact on autopilot. Which doesn’t happen with Doyoung.
1:59 - Normal Doyoung calmly turns to look at another neo. Also Doyoung started to admire smiling Jaehyun but made himself look away. See him dropping his smile for a bit, distructing himself.
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2:04 - This instant turn to look at laughing Doyoung, hehe. Whipped.
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2:30 - Taeyong always gets to Doyoung through whining, lol.
2:34 - Do started bickering with Tae as he does in real life but then glances at the camera, remembering they are being filmed, and turned his retort to a funny remark. Listen to the change in tone.
- Rock, paper, scissors with Taeil. The return of university student Doyoung.
2:57 - Haechan turning around not wanting to miss the fun.
Hyuk and Tae teaming up. Hyuk’s face, hehe.
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Siblings, truly.
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3:23 - Doyoung immidiently finding a person (Mark) to tell about his achievements (the win against Taeil). Do likes to brag.
I think Tae had pink hair at the end of February. It’s a long collab.
4:32 - Jae glancing at Bae.
4:59 - A sudden appearence of Kim Dongyoung.
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11:00 - JaeDo shooting. I’ve observed other couples and can say that the photographer didn’t direct neos (exept occasional “look at the camera” reminder). Jaehyun using Do’s leg as a guitar is his idea. And Do let him.
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You’ve seen Jaehyun with Jungwoo, so it should be apparent to you now how easy and welcoming Jaehyun is around Doyoung. He initiates contact, he brings Doyoung tightly to himself, etc. As for Doyoung, the playfulness that Jae evokes in him is present. Do’s reaction to Jae is different from his reaction to Woo. With Woo it’s “you are hilariously ridiculous”, with Jae it’s “you are adorably ridiculous”.
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See how the inner corners of the brows are slightly upturned? This what makes the eyes so extra smiley. The more small muscles are involved in a smile, the stronger emotion it reflects.
Whipped.
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Again a very open projecting expression. Doyoung often laughs loudly, but not often with lifted brows of delight.
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11:31 and 11:36 - Do says something, Jae confirms and does. A very JaeDo thing. TaeDo acts similar at times, but with not as few words.
12:10 - Yes, Doyoung, we know, your bf is the finest and prettiest.
The lopsided smile at the end shows that his praise was sincere. He isn’t faking something here.
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Pink shadow makes Jae’s eyes look swollen. Strange choice.
- Johnny lost weight. No cheeks to speak of.
15:06 - Do’s favourite pasttime, go away and stand/sit somewhere away from the rest.
15:32 - TaeDo. Do put his arm on both Woo and Tae, but not Jae.
Tae is always instantly ready to play wih Do.
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The second boyfriend is also whipped.
Here Doyoung demonstrates another smile, contained. No gums, no lifted inner corners of the brows. He is pleased with his joke and the exchange.
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If you can tell, all 3 Doyoung’s smiles are mirthful but without a trace of shyness/bashfulness. “Heh, this is fun”.
This is a semi-fake smile. Do is mirthful, but he widened his smile for the camera. Cheek muscles don’t painfully pull his lips like during the real big smile (you can’t see the gums over molar teeth) . The way we say “cheese”.
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And the proof is the fact that Do relaxed his cheeks easily a second later. You know when you start to earnestly laugh it’s hard to stop, you are not in control over your muscles anymore.
16:28 - Doyoung and his tendensy to “harm” Taeyong in some way, heh.
16:40 - Those calves need to work and earn their keep I guess.
The right kind of JohnTae.
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Taeil’s favourite colour is yellow. He has a yellow phonecase. And Taeyong likes pink.
22:45 - Haechan slaps Jae’s butt. Listen to Jae’s hyung voice, when he asks “what was that?”. Playful, but not high in pitch.
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Then Jae joins Hyuk.
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The power couple.
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#anatomy of jaedo#Haechan is a full star#the second boyfriend#Taeil is a four leaf clover#Johnny is a parrot#JHDY2021
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SC Elevate! 2021 - Day 3
HELLO AGAIN! We're back with ~45.4K words of femslash fun, including 6 fics and 1 podfic! We hope you've been enjoying the talents of this corner of the fandom. There are 3 more days to go, including today, so let's get to it!
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birds of a feather (flock together): T; Alexis/Twyla; 11,132 words
Alexis Rose made a mistake ten years ago, and the only thing that ever mattered – her daemon, Zara – is gone forever.
What happens when she finds them again, singing on the shoulder of the waitress at Café Tropical?
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between nothing but the thin air and the unknown: T; Stevie/Ruth; 4315 words
Four times Stevie realizes her relationship with Ruth isn't what she thought it was.
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like glass from sandy ground: M; Alexis/Twyla; Ted/Alexis; Alexis/Mutt; Stevie & Alexis; Alexis & David; Alexis & Original Female Characters; 18,211 words
Five times Alexis ran from grief, and one time she didn't.
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every road has a turning: G; Alexis & Moira; Alexis & Twyla: Moira & Twyla; Alexis & Moira & Twyla; 3568 words
This weekend is going to be perfect, and Alexis is going to make sure it’s all about Twyla. Okay, and a tiny bit about Alexis, who hasn’t taken a weekend off in too long and really deserves it. But then Moira decides to tag along.
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My Love, She Keeps Me Warm: M; Stevie/Twyla; 7845 words
Stevie and Twyla have been friends for years, girlfriends for months, and fiancées for just a couple of weeks. Almost no one in Schitt's Creek knows about the second two developments. On a trip to Vegas to celebrate Alexis and Ted's upcoming nuptials, more wedding bells are ringing!
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[podfic] know that i'm yours (to keep): T; Alexis/Twyla; 0:51:57
Five times Alexis and Twyla talk at Café Tropical.
And one time they talk somewhere else.
[podfic of know that i'm yours (to keep)]
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on the hunt: T; Alexis/Heather; 516 words
Alexis is out on a mission
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So, as I continue my great 2020 re-watch of Supernatural, I am once again just... baffled at the details I missed the first time around. I just finished 5x14 “My Bloody Valentine”—the episode with Famine—and I wasn’t thinking too hard about it at first. Mostly because it seemed like such a goofy episode at first: the Cupid antics, the bits of Cas throughout, the funny morgue doctor, etc. I had totally forgotten it was the Famine episode. I remembered only after Cas confirmed the deaths that were happening throughout were not Cupid’s doing.
Prior to that, I snapped a couple quick videos to a friend of mine like “haha, look at Dean being the poor repressed bisexual he is lmao.” What scenes am I talking about, you ask?
This first scene, right as Cas pops in at the beginning of the case and has this really strong, direct attitude —I dub this “Hot Scary Cas”—that leaves Dean... a little flustered, was just kina funny to me. Cas goes off on this mini rant about stopping the rogue Cupid and Dean just has this... expression. See for yourselves, skip to 0:40.
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That’s just... hmmmm. Dean’s looking at Cas with these... half lidded eyes and leans in to say “of course we do” the way he does and what? Y’all expect me to believe that’s not code for holy shit Cas is so hot when he tells me what to do hhhhhhhhn???
This second scene also just had me CACKLING. You couldn’t even hear the original audio half the time in the clip I sent my friend. I was just laughing and asking myself why the hell anyone thinks Dean Winchester is a straight man. Skip to 0:57 for the start of it.
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So, this naked Cupid gets all up-close and personal with each of them and Dean “doesn’t like it” and his eyes keep flittering around and HE KEEPS LOOKING DOWN. This man is (bi) PANICING. He’s freaked out (warranted), but he literally can’t keep his eyes level with everyone else’s! Like, Dean, dude, are you okay??? Do you need to sit down??
Alright, so now that I’ve pointed out these two scenes, you’re probably wondering what this has to do with Famine. My answer to that? Everything.
Everyone in this town hungers for something. Love, sex, food, money, demon blood in Sam’s case, and burgers in Cas’. Dean though? Seemingly unaffected, right? Yeah, he says it’s not because he’s well adjusted or anything like that, he just doesn’t hunger for things. He wants, he gets. Famine though? Famine doesn’t exactly understand where Dean’s hunger is. He says Dean’s empty, basically dead inside. There’s nothing that could fill the chasm inside of him. Dean’s literally and figuratively been to hell and back, so this dude is messed up. Fair.
However, I would like to argue that he’s not as unaffected as others may think. He’s actively not hungry for certain things like sex and food. At the start of the episode, Sam gives him the opening to go out on Unattached Drifter Christmas Valentine’s Day, to go find some lonely, desperate women. Dean basically says, “nah.” Same with the burger at the restaurant. Yes, he enjoys casual sex and greasy burgers, but he doesn’t hunger for them in a way that matters. In a way that could fill the void inside of him. He feels empty and these simple pleasures in his life do nothing to make him feel less so.
There’s nothing that leaves him hungry in the same way that literally everyone else in this episode is. It doesn’t come close, but there is a want there. The chasm inside him is far too large to be filled with just one thing—he’s too damaged and broken and repressed. Yes, that’s right. He’s struggling with his bisexuality in this episode. It’s subtle, it’s not obvious, but it’s there more than usual. Looking at Cas the way he did, looking at the Cupid the way he did. There’s something there. He’s not driven by Famine’s hunger to outright face and deal with his attraction to men because he’s just so empty and broken, but the lingering pull is there. His bisexuality, his attraction to men, it’s there but it’s... kinda unimportant in the grand scheme of his life, especially amidst the damn Apocalypse. His want, his hunger, it’s there, but it’s faint.
It wouldn’t fill the pit inside of him, but it would be a start, it seems. While things like food and sex and alcohol and whatever else would be like a couple grains of sand in the pit, dealing with his bisexuality—a very real part of himself he has kept buried deep inside because the life he has had to live doesn’t give much room for the kind of introspection necessary to consolidate those feelings and emotions into a tangible, fulfilling identity—would maybe be a couple handfuls of sand in the pit. Exploring his bisexuality could never fill the chasm, but it could maybe narrow the walls.
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an interesting thing I learned today was that global warming might result in a negative leap second sometime in the future
(admittedly the earth's rotation is affected by lots of complicated factors so it might not be that clear-cut, but anyway)
so you may be thinking 'but leap seconds are like a single second? so short! who's going to notice?'
well tbf the impact from these leap seconds is going to be most strongly felt by high precision things like GPS or NTP servers whatever (and the poor devs who have to maintain the software lol) but leap seconds have historically caused unexpected problems in financial markets and all sorts of websites and servers as well, so...
in any case, I find all this really fascinating and pls bear with me while I nerd out a bit about this :P
so normally speaking, the Earth's rotation should be gradually slowing, because the pull of tides from the Moon and so on (though there are other influences too, like fluid flow in the outer core, the movement of Earth's crust, etc. so it's all very complicated)
until recently, the length of a day has been about on average 1-2 milliseconds longer than 24 hours (note that there are seasonal variations though).
1-2 milliseconds may not seem like much, but it adds up over time!
in fact, it's the job of the IERS to monitor the difference between UTC (universal coordinated time) and earth's rotation angle (UT1), and decide when to insert a leap second to prevent them from drifting too far apart
the current version of UTC (as defined by the ITU) requires the difference between UTC and UT1 to be no greater than 0.9 seconds. The IERS typically inserts a leap second when the difference grows to 0.6 seconds.
HERE'S A GRAPH
see, the difference between UTC and Earth's actual rotation angle keeps drifting. UT1 keeps falling behind UTC, so those vertical lines are every time the IERS inserted a leap second, to bring UTC and UT1 back closer together
since UTC is ticking faster than UT1 bc of Earth's rotation slowing, we typically need to insert positive leap seconds for when UTC gets too far ahead
positive leap seconds take the form of an extra time second 23:59:60, which happens at the same instant UTC everywhere around the world
historically, we've needed to insert a leap second every 1-2 years or so
it's not very regular tho, bc the Earth's rotation can vary in unpredictable ways. Even earthquakes and the filling of the three gorges dam had a detectable effect on the Earth's rotation.
but what's this? if you look back up at the graph above, you may notice that the graph seems to flatten out near the end there. Why's this happening?
here's ANOTHER GRAPH (with tiny text sorry)
the squiggly green line here shows the deviation in length of day relative to a SI day (i.e. 86400 SI seconds). Look for the ±0 ms baseline on the left vertical axis.
in the 1970s Earth's rotation was in the range of 1-2 ms longer than an SI day
but recently the length of a day has been shortening, and in 2020, there were a large number of days where the length of a day was actually slightly less than 86400 SI seconds! (mostly by less than a millisecond, but still)
2020 had 28 of the shortest days on record since 1960, and days in 2021 are predicted to be even shorter (note that the difference is on the order of milliseconds... but stillllll)
this is actually why we haven't seen any leap seconds recently. The previous one was in 2016. In fact this is the first time since 2003 when we will have had a 256 week period without leap seconds
and this in fact might cause some GPS systems to bug out hehe. In the widely used gpsd package, there was a recently reported bug "GPSD time will jump back 1024 weeks at after week=2180 (23-October-2021)". This bug happened bc the code author wrongly assumed that leap seconds would be more frequent :3
and if the Earth continues to speed up like this, the IERS may need to insert a negative leap second at some point in the future, to bring UT1 and UTC back closer together
this would take the form of the UTC clock going from 23:59:57 to 23:59:58 and then skipping directly to 00:00:00.
in the history of UTC there has never been a negative leap second, so needless to say software ppl aren't too excited at the prospect of this happening :3
so what's causing the earth's spinning to unexpectedly speed up?
there's been some research that suggests changes in the density and circulation of ocean temperature rises might result in a net transfer of mass to higher latitudes. but the predicted time deviation doesn't fully explain the changes we currently see
there's also the idea that ice melt results in water running downhill, resulting in a redistribution of mass closer to its axis of rotation
but at the same time, a redistribution of ocean mass to the equatorial latitudes would result in mass going farther away from Earth's axis of rotation
or maybe it's just Earth's crust and magma and stuff doing weird things again, who knows!
the Earth's rotational axis isn't static either; it can shift, and that might also change the effective rotational inertia
it's probably a complicated combination of a whole bunch of factors
but anyway, why do we even have leap seconds?
well the main motivation for leap seconds was when we switched from solar time to atomic time around the 1950s-ish. So before our clocks became accurate enough to tell the difference, we just said "yo, a second is 1/86400 of the time it takes for the sun to go all the around the sky, by definition" and that's good enough! the length of a day can vary by a few milliseconds from year to year but we wouldn't have been able to tell the difference.
but gradually timekeeping precision requirements grew so eventually in 1967 a second was defined to be "9,192,631,770 periods of the something something something caesium atom" which was way more precise and good for atomic clocks but bad for keeping the clocks in sync with the sun
so the concern was without leap seconds our atomic-clock-based timescale would drift relative the sun and then eventually we'd have solar noon when our clocks said midnight and vice versa
I mean, sure, that probably wouldn't happen for thousands for years, but procrastination is bad, ok?
but still admittedly leap seconds are somewhat controversial and there's plenty of Discourse™ about this, esp. in academic circles and stuff, so if any of you into that kind of thing here's one possible starting point :3
anyway some ppl have made some code to make predictions based on IERS bulletin A, so based on the latest Earth rotation measurements as of 29 July 2021, and whole bunch of (and I quote) "very large, probably unjustified assumptions"...
expect a negative leap second in the ballpark of June 2029 :3
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You don't actually have to answer all these if you don't want to I have a lot and I'm trying to be picky with questions but I failed XD
6, 12, 16, 20, 21, 24, 33, 46, 47, 49, 56, 57, 58, 65, 70, 63, 76, 81, 85, 86, 87, 88, 95, 97, 98
Oh boy AJSHSHS it's fine hehe
6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?
- I've no idea, mostly preppy and casual? When I was a kid I used to go full tomboy style but recently I've been wearing skirts and dresses ✌️
12. name of your favorite playlist?
-I have two favorite ones that I've made, one is the classical/instrumental/inspirational/writing one that's called Super Sound Collection, and the other one is just for all my other songs, it's called 💕✨Sue but make it aside❤️🎊😉
16. most comfortable position to sit in?
-Oof I don't like sitting lmaooo, maybe with my legs crossed, or leaning against something!
20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?
-Oof for writing book ideas it's in a notebook, when I write the requests and such it's always on tumblr, sometimes on draft and sometimes I just whip it out and post it there and then ajsjdbdb, don't really like writing on my computer bc i write faster in my phone (and it's easier to do it in my bed with the lights off lol)
21. obsession from childhood?
-Hmmmm Monster High? And maybe also Dork Diaries, I have all of them until the 9th (idk if there's more ajshdb) also maybe Diary of a Wimpy kid, which I have till the 12th, one day my great great grandkids are going to be so happy I never threw them out lol
24. favorite crystal?
-OH OK! So rubies and also esmerald (that how you say it? The green ones lol), bc their colour is just so pretty and vibrant and I love it! So pretty (i don't really know any more crystals lol sorry for being so basic ajsjsjs)
33. most used phrase in your phone?
-Se me hace una falta de respeto, which I use with my friends. It's basically means "this is so disrespectful/I feel so offended rn" which we always use joking hehe.
46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?
-Well my dad has been loosing like a loooot of weight these past few years and he just gives me the shirts he doesn't want to wear or just don't fit him anymore lol, I use them all as pj's and it's super fun and comforting! Also they're super big on me which is 100/10
47. favorite type of cheese?
-Ish, idk I am not like a super big fan of cheese....the only one I stand it's mozzarella lol
49. what saying or quote do you live by?
-if you kill yourself, people you don't know or like are going to act as if they were your friends and milk the situation, so stay alive out of pure spite
56. favorite tradition?
-Whenever it's Christmas my whole family gets together, we go to grandma's house, bake cookies, exchange gifts, make tamales and then my uncle and cousins do a small sketch, where they act or sing or dance etc etc. I used to be part of all of them until I became a teen, then I was too cool for that shit lolol but since there are still little kids in the family we keep doing it for them :D
57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?
-Uhhh living in another country without being able to speak english uhh...the other ones are struggles I haven't overcome ajsjsjsjaybe I've gotten a bit more chill with le ✨ anxiety ✨ and ✨depression✨ but they still come up sometimes ahsbs
58. four talents you’re proud of having?
-I DON'T HAVE ANY ANSNSBSBS I GUESS I CAN EASILY MEMORIZE SONG LYRICS? BUT THAT'S ALL I CAN'T REALLY DO ANYTHING ELSE AJSHSB MAYBE BEING ABLE TO EAT 30 BROWNIES IN A DAY WITHOUT BEING SICK
63. five songs that would play in your club?
-Hmmmm One Punch OP (f it lol), bohemian rhapsody, somebody to love, shut up and dance (a classic) and maybe killing kind? Idk I don't listen to much club music lmao it'd be the most boring club everrrr
65. any permanent scars?
-Uhhh tw I guess but uh- (we boutta get depressed in here y'all) self harm ones ajsjsjs I have a few that still haven't faded out and probably never will. Also scratches from my cat HOW ARE THEY SO STRONG LMAOOOO and emotional scars from school and shit (I may have added new physical ones to the collection from falling last time during PE 💀💀)
70. left or right handed?
- I'm left handed, the only one in my family lol, and everybody always seems so surprised for some reason??
76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?
-French fries, chips and mashed potatoes lol
81. fireflies or lightning bugs?
- I've actually only seen fireflies once, and they were pretty cool so I'll go with them :0
85. fairy tales or mythology?
-BOTHHHH ALL THE WAYYYY
86. cookies or cupcakes?
-Depends, but probably cupcakes, only if they're chocolate ones and maybe have chips.
87. your greatest fear?
-Being a ✨failure✨ and also the sea and space, fuck that shit (IM SORRY LMAO ITS JUST SO SCARY!!)
88. your greatest wish?
-I wanna be someone my parents and family are proud of, also to have a bunch of kids and my own library room one day :0
95. favorite app on your phone?
-I like tiktok ajsjdjd, spotify and tumblr, those are the ones I use the most
97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?
-Literally only my mom's and 911 IM LIKE A 5 YEAR OLD LMAOOOO I don't even know mine 💀
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My theory on Eve’s MVs, from Sister to Raison D’etre
People have asked, and since no one else has yet (and since I’ve always wanted to do it), I’ve went and put together a theory that connects all of Eve’s MVs into a single large narrative about the cycle of depression. Since I go over every song in-depth, and each song is filled with detail and complexity, it’s long. I actually had to skip over a lot of little details making this, because if I did the length would just get out of hand. Also keep in mind that I’m not assuming my theory to be the “one true meaning.” I just took a lot of personal meaning from this series, and its portrayal of depression and how to overcome it has helped me immensely. I want to do these videos, which are clearly labors of love, some justice.
*I’m going to put time stamps for the other songs to make things easier to follow. It's not required, but I recommend that you rewatch the previous songs as you read.
**Each of the early videos have a dominant color to them, which is often used in later MVs to subtly reference them, which I’ve listed next to the title.
Sister (Red):
The first Eve MV released was Demon Dance Tokyo, but I believe the 1st, and arguably most important video in the timeline is Sister. The MC suffers from severe depression throughout the series, and this is where it originated from. His sister died in an accident while he was young, and he was overcome with guilt that he was so distant from her while she was alive. He felt like this happened because he was rotten to the core, with him declaring that even if he went back in time, he still would've made the same mistakes, because that's just the kind of person he is. He ends up repressing those memories to deal with the guilt, and he becomes distant from people. The video's expressed entirely through notebook paper and paper mache because as a child, the MC was fond of drawing and sketching, and used this to cope with these difficult times and express himself.
Chocolate Town (Brown):
This song’s pretty easy to miss, as it’s under the account of the artist “Sou,” who did many collaborations with Eve in the past. It’s sung by Sou, but written by Eve, and it shares too many similarities with his city-scape series to be ignored. It fits perfectly in between “Sister” and “Demon Dance Tokyo.” There’s a large time skip between the two songs, in which the MC goes from grief-stricken child to selfish teenager, and this song fills in that gap, making for a more seamless transition. His appearance here is more similar to that of “Sister” (0:15), as he tries to live the way he used to. The world is no longer a rose-tinted explosion of color, but a uniform chocolate brown, more sickening and suffocating than sweet (0:51). He doesn’t experience new things anymore, he just stays in his comfort zone and drowns himself in the things he knows, as he’s locked in place by a vague apprehension that eats away at him (0:21). He’s suppressed the memory of his sister, but the guilt remains. That guilt leaves him unable to connect with people the way he used to, out of fear of hurting or being hurt. The ‘book of spells’ from Nonsense Literature is referenced, as the MC keeps the deeper parts of his heart locked away (1:30). As he grows distant, his friends do the same (“Mason does seem quite superstitious,” which you could take to mean the MC’s real name is Mason) [0:32]. He tries to just ignore it and go with the flow (0:36), but it’s not enough. The tries to drown himself in desire to ignore the pain he’s feeling (1:10). Deep down he knows it’s wrong, but the guilt he feels keeps him trapped (1:15).
In the second half of the song, it’s revealed that after Ano Ko Secret, the MC successfully worked up the courage to talk to the blue haired girl, and a friendship formed (2:00). As shown in later MVs, the two would play on the playground together, and we see here that even during this difficult time, the MC felt complete when he was with her. Even so, here she’s obscured in chocolate, showing that the MC is unable to see outside his own problems. Because of his selfishness, he’s unable to connect and they grow apart (2:08). Losing her hurts him, as he lost the only real friend he had left, so all that’s left to him is his suffocating city of chocolate (2:30). He tries to just keep enjoying his little comforts and joys (2:45), but it’s not enough as his “heart is destitute” (3:08). His pain and guilt continues to eat away at him from the inside. Being alone isn’t enough for him, and he won’t let himself truly connect with other people. Combine that with his focus on simple pleasures, and it’s no surprise that he turns to being on top of the ‘social heirarchy’ as a teenager in “Demon Dance Tokyo.”
Demon Dance Tokyo (Green):
This song depicts 3 people touring around Tokyo, dressed in the finest clothes and dining on the finest food. In actuality, this city is in the MC's head, and is a metaphorical manifestation of his psyche. That's the style and layout of this series, they all take place in the MC's head, and almost all are in a city that changes from song to song to reflect his mental state. In this case, he sees this touristy, trendy world because he's like a desperate tourist, trying to run away from his problems by flying off somewhere else and drowning in the superficial; food, parties, clothes, women, etc. Since he repressed his guilt over his sister's death, this is how he chases happiness; by running away from that guilt and chasing materialistic fulfillment. Relationships to him are the same way. He just chases after people who look trendy and beautiful to him, and puts on a fake mask to appear cool. That greed is personified by his crocodile form dining on the women and the massive Godzilla towering over the city. He wants to be above everyone. At 2:40 of that song, his undercurrent of loneliness takes over, as it often does, because those kinds of relationships never last. At 2:57, that loneliness overcomes him, making him desperate. He's still selfish and bad at relationships, but he swears to one girl that he'll be her everything on matter what. This leads into the next song....
Nonsense Literature (Black):
This is where things really get bad for the MC. Out of desperate loneliness, he tries to get into a serious relationship with this girl (maybe one of the girls from the last song), but he doesn’t really know how to connect with people anymore, putting thick mental walls between them. Despite regularly meeting with the girl, he doesn't really know her at all,which is why she has a cone on her head throughout the video. As a result, their relationship is no more than "becoming idiots, dancing on air," so it doesn't take long for them to start fighting and disagreeing, at 1:16. Since he refuses to open up to her, he starts to feel trapped and bitter around her, becoming paranoid at 1:29, and eventually believing she's taking advantage of him and lying to him, that she doesn't understand him at all, that he doesn't even understand himself, that he might be going a bit crazy, but they keep hanging out, during 1:42. At 2:00, he can't take it anymore. "I lost my composure when you laughed at me in scorn;" either he was genuinely betrayed by her or he just misunderstood. Either way, that betrayal severely damages him, and depression takes over hard. While you see many tiny dancing demons throughout these MVs, the main face of his depression is the mysterious cloaked One-Eyed Man. He essentially acts as the devil on his shoulder, feeding him all the worst ideas, telling him to protect only himself, morality be damned, and believing that he's doing it for his sake, that he's protecting him. In this case, he uses this moment of weakness after his betrayal to take control of the MC. He rips his guts out, opens up his head, and stuffs it with books. It’s the same as whispering into his ear "you don't need people, they'll only hurt you. You don’t need this world, it will only hurt you. I’m all you need. Use this sharpened blade of words to ensure no one will ever do this to you again." The MC, smiling, gratefully accepts. He cuts ties with that girl, as well as the rest of the world. He's become a monster: safe, but empty.
Dramaturgy (Light Blue):
This one is basically "depression the song." This time the world is like a stage play, with the MC being an actor. After shutting himself out from the world, he's lonelier than ever before, his self esteem skyrocketed down, and his life has come to a screeching halt. He no longer even feels human. Every day is a struggle just to keep on living. By making the whole world into the enemy, he's incapable of revealing any of himself to them, disassociating to the point that he might as well be just an actor wearing a mask. He's trapped even within the safety of his own mind. If you act only how everyone wants you to act all the time, eventually you feel like there are actual physical walls all around you. It's exhausting to keep up, and you start to forget who you are. He’s also developed an inferiority complex, and a fear of other people. He just doesn’t want to be betrayed again. At 2:13, he wants to reach a climax where he breaks out of these walls around him, but he can't do it, because he NEEDS them, they’re there to protect him. The One-Eyed Man makes sure he never forgets this. At 3:28, we get a kaleidoscope zoom-in to the MC's psyche, which stops at a floating white cube. These cubes contain him at his deepest level, his fundamental perception of himself. His hopelessness, and the One-Eyed Man's words have reached to his very core and torn him apart at the deepest level. At 3:48, he's lost himself. He likely becomes a shut-in at this point as well, only doing the most basic necessities and heading straight to his room when he gets the chance.
As You Like It (Yellow):
You might’ve noticed that although yellow’s the most prevalent, this MV has plenty more color to offer. It's probably the most colorful so far even. Not only that, the pacing's way faster, the music more upbeat. Why would this come immediately after the most depressing and hopeless song yet? That's because this song is in the MC's imagination, like a daydream. While he's lost almost all hope, trapped in his own head and unable to move forward, he's still able to cling to hope by escaping reality into this fantasy. In this escapist world, he's cooler, a popular musical artist, singing his heart out to a big crowd. And he's able to conquer his fears, deal with his stresses, and connect with a girl the way he wishes he could. After all, while he doesn’t let himself connect with others out of fear, whether he realizes it or not,he just wants to be loved and understood. So he makes up this ideal fantasy girl with perfect fashion taste (0:03), who can do that for him. In the song, he represses his true self in the form of the Glove-Mask Man so that he can deal with life’s stresses (which hit him one after the other at 0:35, and are symbolized by the rocket taking off at 0:22), and he disassociates, literally splitting into two people. He starts to struggle against him (1:33) so that his honest self can reach her, and he finally pulls it off at the end, her responding with a wholehearted smile (3:26). A perfect conclusion. Thing is, his ideal girl is a reflection of reality as well. The playground at 0:28, where he wishes he could go back to his childhood memories, partly shows that he’s letting his past drag him down, but he also describes talking with this girl in memories of old, because he had a real-life friend when he was young that he would talk with at a similar playground. She is his goal in these dreams, because he never forgot those times they had together, and he has subconsciously idealized her as a result. On a sadder note, this fantasy also confirms that he’s become a shut-in in reality, as we see him lock himself away in his room (1:02). That’s what he wishes he could escape from. Regardless of the truth behind the scenes, this dream of his gives him hope that he’ll get through this difficult time.
Outsider:
Now we leave the escapism and return to the MC’s mind he’s trapped in. All the past colors come into play here, as we see that the only color in his world comes from these past scars and experiences. He can’t see anything else, he’s painted by them. The test tubes everywhere (0:59) show that he's genuinely trying to deal with his pain by organizing and compartmentalizing it, and by grasping onto hope with his fantasy, he's able to get by. But he's not at all perfect at it, with his little demon-monsters knocking over test-tubes and purposely painting each other. The pipes everywhere all lead to his brain, with each of them pumping these experiences and memories into him. It’s like they’re in his blood stream, a part of him. These pipes also nourish past monsters, like the Godzilla monster depicting his narcissism. He’s come to hate these less desirable parts of himself, so at 1:30 he tries to just break the tubes to sever that part of him, but that just breaks the overall flow, flooding his brain with black, bringing him back to square one. You can’t just get angry at yourself and remove all your flaws. It takes immense time and dedication. This accidental overflow causes some of the monsters to transform into even worse forms. At 3:02 he's sitting next to an especially nasty-looking demon, shaded black and red. This demon is a reminder that his refusal to confront his guilt toward his sister is at the heart of all of this. He keeps struggling with himself, hating himself, and he won’t tackle the fundamental problems. But at least he’s fighting. The last lyric "because this tiny bit of courage will ignite the fire in my heart," shows that just by being aware of the struggle, he's trying to change and improve, he's not giving up.
Tokyo Ghetto:
This song takes place after a lot of time has passed. His cityscape is more dilapidated and volatile. Now, instead of the One-Eyed Man, the prime demon in control is the blue robot with the teeth mask. The robot symbolizes anxiety, a primal, damn near uncontrollable feeling which desires to keep him here by any means. He’s always watching, and he’s not afraid to get physical against the MC when push comes to shove. The shady-looking people in the town are extensions of that anxiety, individual worries and fears. This is why the town is more colorful, yet somehow more harsh and uninviting. All this time has allowed the anxiety to get in his head, to drive his imagination wild and fill his heart with more and more worries. He wants to believe these worries are on his side, but they just want the easiest path(1:41), they don’t give a damn about his wishes. The MC makes meager attempts to escape from the hell of his own mind, always being swiftly pulled back into a never-ending cycle (0:40). After a long while of this, he meets a girl who he sees much of himself in, and he reaches out to someone for the first time in a long while, in the hopes of maybe being saved by her (1:02). Problem is, she acts the same way he used to back in Tokyo Dance, and he winds up getting a taste of his own medicine. Every time he tries to get close to her, she just pushes him away. Like him, she’s actually hiding pain from the past too; she just refuses to show it (2:01, “it was sentimental, though it wasn’t like you at all) . At 2:40, we get a full glimpse into her mind. Many pairs of her shoes are bound together all around her, symbolizing that day after day she ties herself down, and the holy statue behind her symbolizes her holier-than-thou attitude. At 2:55, she happily bites into one of those shoes, drawing her own blood. She hasn’t yet learned that her self-destructive lifestyle isn’t the right way to go. At 2:59, we see their two psyches summed up perfectly. The girl, shrouded in darkness, putting up a cool front and slowly losing herself, standing confidently all the while. The MC, aware that he’s in a bad place, but desperately groveling, searching for any kind of escape at all. Without being able to find solace in the girl, shadows grow, the town floods, monsters come out of the sewers, the Blue Robot gathers his power (2:55). The MC’s anxiety is bubbling up as his desperation to find an escape increases. He’s pinned down by the water (symbolizing stress and struggle to change), and with the girl out of his reach, merely electing to watch him crumble, the Blue Robot is free to strike with all his might, revealing his true, monstrous form (3:48). The MC, in his weakened state, is torn to bits, reduced to trash (4:01). He’s back to square one, and the cycle begins again. He remains trapped in the Tokyo Ghetto.
Ambivalent:
After being trapped in that cycle for so long, the MC decides that he needs to do some serious soul searching. He looks deep into his subconscious, deeper than any song that’s come before. He peers all the way into his basic, fundamental outlook on life, to try to get to the heart of the problem. Keep in mind that he’s not trying to commit to any real action; he’s just introspecting, trying to take a look at his core values. This world is split in two sectors: the safe pink room, where his heart and memories lie, and the planet, which symbolizes change and reality, or rather his perception of it. He’s been resting in the pink room, stagnant, for so long that everything is overgrown, and his heart is weak, without motivation. Even resting is exhausting for him, something he’s only able to do thanks to his yellow wheelchair representing his hopes (As You Like It). The MC wants to understand why he can’t venture out onto that planet. Every time he tries, it’s a labyrinth of endless signs all telling him to stop and turn back. The plants themselves attack and hurt him. It’s a volatile world full of unknowns and hostiles. The source of this hostility is the disagreement between him and the cat, who's with him at all times here (1:26). Believe it or not, this cat is the One-Eyed Man’s true form. He doesn’t appear mysterious or “all-seeing” because the MC is self-aware of the One-Eyed Man’s influence, and he’s just thinking in the safety of his room; the One-Eyed Man has no power without perceived danger. He’s a cat because he represents the primal part of us from long before humanity developed complicated cognitive ability and intelligence. He only cares about the MC's safety and desires, and doesn’t give a damn about anything or anyone else. He was always watching, acting as the hidden voice behind every decision. When the MC wanted to run away from the pain of his sister's death (Sister), he helped him. When the MC desired safety from the world above all else (Nonsense Literature), he granted it to him. When he struggled with depression (Dramaturgy), deep down that desire never actually left. When that desire became the core of his being, the cat even created the Blue Robot as a sort of "hired muscle" to keep the MC in check for his own good. Despite the awfulness of the One-Eyed Man's actions, he’s just granting the MC's wishes. He genuinely cares about the MC and wants what’s best for him; that’s why he’s so cute and small. But the MC has been blaming him for all of his problems, without understanding his own responsibility in the matter, leaving them at an impasse (1:26). They both come to understand their disagreement with the words: “when I was a kid, I picture myself as a main protagonist in this world. I started to get embarrassed so I turned my eyes away.” (1:36). He's finally come to accept and understand his share of the blame, rather than just blaming the cat. His hair being green here could also show that he never truly grew past his selfishness after all this time. He begins to recall all the things he’s taken for granted and ignored in his life, and he realizes he wants to protect them (1:48). He doesn’t want to just be selfish, he wants to live for their sakes and be useful to them. Now that they’re talking on even terms, the cat can understand his desire for selflessness and gives him a match. They've agreed to stop letting memories of fear and pain that have long since passed guide their every move, so they burn them away (2:00). Those times won’t disappear, but it doesn’t mean they can’t move beyond them. The cat now realizes he was being overprotective, and that the MC can make his own decisions, so he decides to try and get out of his way (2:15). The MC's world is no longer centered around his own desire; he can see the 'bigger picture' (2:24). But while the cat is taking a more reserved role in his life, he didn't completely disappear (2:55). After all, desire is what gives our lives meaning. The difference is that the two are now a pair bringing out the best in one another, a balanced mix of selflessness and desire. Now that they’re in agreement, a world of possibilities is open to them, and the MC is ready to reach out and grab them, and begin his life again (3:01).
Last Dance:
The MC has now returned to the outer layers of his mind, and he wants to turn his newfound paradigm shift into action. Due to this shift, the city’s layout has gotten more realistic, lively, elegant, and inviting, far closer to the real world. He and his demons are hiding from it all at the center of his mind, a small, comfy room resting above a black center (2:32). This is to show that the MC is aware that the real world wasn't the problem; his own outlook was. His nails are being painted red by a demon to show how long he’s been letting these memories paint him without fighting back (0:22). He doesn’t blame them though, he understands himself and how this all came to be, so he gives one of his demons a hug (0:25). The room is more organized and homey to reflect his understanding. But he sees how small his world has been, and he wants to try and get out. He’s decided what he wants to do, but still easily comes apart when trying to move (0:37). He's put back together, revived by the support of the One-Eyed Man, who's lost his overbearing, omnipresent appearance, and learned to keep his dark side more under control (0:41). It's possible he's even taken on 3 different forms simultaneously, to reflect how both he and the MC now understand his multifaceted nature (0:47, 1:00, and 1:03). So the MC is spiritually strong, but he still unravels in the face of anxiety. At 0:33, he says “with different values, that guy who I hate put on a ridiculous sneer," referring to the Blue Robot, his main enemy. Even though the One-Eyed Man created the Blue Robot, it was never in his control. Anxiety doesn't think for itself; it's a raw, unfiltered emotion that carries out its objective long after its needed. The MC can't beat it alone, even with the One-Eyed Man's help. He realizes he absolutely needs the support of others if he’s going to move forward, and he needs a goal to get him moving in the short-term. He recalls the thing that’s given him hope for all this time, the person who was at the center of all his hopes for tomorrow, and the person he wants to protect most (1:52). It was a girl who spent time with him back when his sister first died. He was in a dark place and full of guilt, and that girl’s kindness gave him hope. But he drifted apart from her due to feeling guilty that he didn’t deserve to be around someone like her, that he would only get in her way. But he always idealized her, and those memories kept him going long after they stopped meeting. The elegant woman dancing is his perception of that memory (1:52). She’s also the girl from As You Like It, but that version of her was only a fantasy he himself didn’t even realize was based on her. She’s here because he only now consciously realized this, and he wants to reach out to her again and start over, without being selfish or afraid. Now fully motivated, he vows to be like “the melancholic patients who chose tomorrow,” and venture out into the world in spite of fear (2:12). He’s taking a leap of faith, venturing on a thin balance beam along with all his demons (3:02-3:32). Obviously they won’t really leave, since they’re a part of his psyche now. He has to understand and accept them, thereby rendering them harmless, or at least manageable. He reaches the girl (3:36), but before this point, he realized something about her. Notice that her hair is painted a light blue, the color of Dramaturgy? This means that throughout the song, upon examining his memories of her more closely, he realizes that she wasn’t as perfect as he was choosing to remember her. In reality, she was suffering too, and the reason they drifted apart so easily was because they both felt undeserving of each other. Deep down a part of him always knew, but when he gets a taste of the blue paint, (2:14) it's the first time he consciously considers the idea. When she tears off her hair and he gently caresses it, he accepts that her pain was real (3:15). He's finally taken the physical journey out of his mind, and he gives her a gentle, honest smile; a far cry from his actions in Demon Dance Tokyo (3:35). At 3:58, the One-Eyed Man gives the MC a book from Nonsense Literature, this time as an honest offering. The One-Eyed Man will help him through this new chapter as a partner, rather than a controlling force.
We’re Still Underground (Orange):
Now it’s time for the grand finale, We’re Still Underground, in which everything finally comes together in the most stunning video so far. This video marks the first time the MC has ever accepted the real physical world in the entire series. After Last Dance, he’s finally venturing outside of his room and moving forward again. As a result, this video is the real world mixed together with his mind. It’s almost like a fantasy world, filled with weird and unknown things. After all, in Last Dance he said “I will not understand everything right now,” but he’s still going to move forward. The camera shows reality, then pans down to the MC’s perception of things. His mind is now jaw-droppingly beautiful and full of color and life. The crows from Tokyo Ghetto are now beautiful pink birds, and big flying ‘monsters’ personify his newfound hope and optimism (0:14). The world is filled with vegetation and vines, similar to the blue planet from Ambivalent. Again, this is all new and uncertain to him, so it’s covered with the same vegetation. At 0:20, we see that much of the city is flooded, calling back to the water from Tokyo Ghetto. He’s moving forward, but much of the world is closed off to him due to that stress and worry. At 0:28, cloth being hung like laundry symbolizes how the MC is more collected and calm than before. We zoom into the house he’s spent so much time in, and it’s dark, overcrowded, and filled with masks symbolizing his mental journey (0:35). As an added bonus, his hair is orange, which is the color we’d often see in Outsider when all the colors were mixed together. He finally ventures out to fulfill a basic task, buying from a gas station, but even that proves to be a little too much. The people around him are shifty looking like in Tokyo Ghetto, and eventually a big octopus busts in and forces him to leave and settle for a vending machine (0:40). Both in the gas station and vending machine, you see the eye from the One-Eyed Man marking various items and signs, symbolizing that he’s using desire for the end goal and new things drive him forward (0:41, 0:43, and 0:46). The lyrics here are him wondering if he’s good enough for the girl he’s going to try and meet again, and deciding that if she’s hurting so much, then he needs to help her through it. Meanwhile, we finally learn who this girl he looks up to actually is. She looks very different from any version the MC had in his mind, dressing quite plain and modest, and having both blue hair and blue eyes, perhaps to symbolize her Dramaturgy-type depression. We learn that that song sums her up pretty well, but her depression still takes a somewhat different form from the MC. She’s not afraid to go out, but the life she’s living is completely dictated by other people. She’s afraid to do anything for herself. This is why she receives texts from the One-Eyed Man, and her world looks so realistic, dark, and rainy. She believes this is the only possible road for her, that THIS is reality. She’s like the opposite of the MC; she’s TOO selfless, and her One-Eyed Man, her desires, have taken on the form of everyone around her, as it believes that’s the safest route for her. She herself is empty. At 0:53, the playground is fenced off; no playtime allowed, your childhood doesn’t matter, your memories don’t matter, those times you played with the MC as kids (As You Like It) don’t matter. At 0:54, she sits in her house, dejected, the zombie poster behind her a good description for her mental state, and there’s a constant hue of water all around her. She always feels like she’s drowning, anxious that something about this isn’t right, that she’s about to lose herself. Meanwhile, MC is biking over to meet her (0:59), but they both end up falling into water (1:06), drowning in anxiety right at the moment before they both meet. Once they meet, they each see an answer in each other, a person to rely on in this difficult stage of their life. The two of them are then seen running toward a sort of junkyard of gold (1:26). Now that they see hope in one another, they are able to catch a glimpse of all the good things in life that they had taken for granted, ignored, treated as trash. Upon seeing it, they decide they want to move forward, and bite into an apple, symbolizing rebirth like Adam and Eve. They’re accepting this new chapter, and all the sin and desire and change that comes with it. For a moment, at 1:40, the girl sees the world the way MC does, with the beautiful monsters and rising bubbles everywhere. She’s inspired by his hope, and realizes she’s “still underground;” something needs to change.
At 1:44, the camera pans underground to show us a web of complex piping and overgrowth. It’s meant to call back to Outsider, and I think to show that while he’s moving on and changing, he still has an undercurrent of guilt with him. At 1:49, we see the girl surrounded by posters of people. They all have one eye; she doesn’t just feel oppressed and subservient to her loved ones, she also feels like she must be obedient to society’s whims as well. The lyrics here are calling back to everything that the MC went through in the past, especially Tokyo Ghetto at 1:55, where he remembers that giving up made him feel at ease, and that he feels helpless because of it. But his hopes and dreams (2:06) kept him believing in tomorrow. We see more shots of the duality between the two of them. At 2:15 we see the girl skateboarding on a bright green skateboard, rather out of place and spontaneous, hinting that she’s playing at embracing her individuality and optimism again. (Also, at 2:20 we see a poster of an apple with the One-Eye on it. This could further imply that rebirth and upheaval are what she truly desires deep down). The line at 2:22 “I’m not saying this as a joke, but everyone mocked me,” could imply that either his selfish, fake self of old would never be listened to by others, or that the demon residents of his mind aren’t going to help him (again calling back to Tokyo Ghetto). At 2:21, both characters’ strong desires for change finally manifest in a Matrix-style “red pill, blue pill” choice. They now have to take a true leap of faith, and accept that their lives are going to change irreversibly from this point on. We don’t see them choose, but the line “It’s goodbye to this town,” speaks for itself. At 2:26, we get a badass shot of the pair as two halves of the same whole, perfectly in agreement on what must be done. They’ll support each other through what happens next. At 2:28 we see a massive protest from the less agreeable parts of his mind, likely people from Tokyo Ghetto and on the far left the glove man from As You Like It. The billboards say “No,” and “Give Up,” and some have the One-Eye on them, perhaps a plea for the One-Eyed Man to return to their side. At 2:31, the MC and girl are seen spraying graffiti in direct rebellion to everyone, perhaps a last burst of courage before making the big choice. At 2:35 we see the MC abandon his bike in a carnival, perhaps a last goodbye to his naive childhood and an acceptance of adulthood. At 2:36 we see the girl with an umbrella in the rain, which is meant to further connect her to As You Like It. At 2:45, the pair has made their choice, and the town begins its massive upheaval. At 2:51, the two are back in the playground they used to play at, swinging way up in a leap of faith, looking toward the skies. At 3:00, “there will be no rerun,” this is the moment. At 3:08, he vows not to avert his eyes anymore, to accept whatever life throws at him without running away. At 3:13, the pair move up toward the future, toward the skies. The line at 3:18 is extremely important, as the MC directly calls back to when the two were young at the playground. He remembers how the guilt they both felt kept them from relying on one another, and while he treasures the friendship they had, he wants to make sure they never grow apart like that again. 3:23 is them coming to fully understand where they went wrong at that playground, and where they went wrong after they drifted apart. The MC’s mind is filled with symbolism; books from Nonsense Literature, birds for his greed and overactive mind, board game pieces for his attempts to distract himself and shun other people, every-day appliances for his focus on basic survival rather than true living, the list goes on. The girl, however, is completely empty, just an empty husk with no will of her own. They vow that while they’ll always be imperfect, they never want to return to this state of being. They cast aside these fake, improper forms they’ve made for themselves. At 3:36, we get to see VCR tape footage, a clear sign that this is in the past, showing sketches the two shared at that playground as kids. This calls directly back to Sister’s paper notebook style. Sketching was how the MC expressed himself as a kid, so it was deeply personal for him, and it looks like for the girl too. The images of a monster boy and a magical girl with horns come across as cries for help and a desire to escape, but neither of them realized the other’s suffering. This was where it all began, at a time where neither of them really understood what was happening to them; they were just kids. The VCR tape then shuts off, we see flashes of the town, and a messy drawing of the MC saying “goodbye.” He’s finally made peace with himself, he accepts the mistakes he made, he’s saying goodbye to that naive child that was behind every decision of his, and moving on. At 3:51, the two are played in reverse, undoing the damage they’ve been causing to themselves. This is a goodbye to their self-destructive tendencies. The line “wait for the 1, 2 signal,” directly calls back to As You Like It, and how once they get the ball rolling, things are going to happen really damn fast, and they need to be ready for it. 4:03 is the epic climax, where the Blue Robot, anxiety, once again appears in a last-ditch effort to stop the two. He’s not in control anymore, and he knows this, so he reveals his true form: a massive, feral, insane, uncontrolled mess of fear that wrecks havoc all across the city, almost like it’s willing to destroy the whole thing if it has to. The two are prepared, and together they run with everything they’ve got. At 4:14, we see masses of planes dropping hellfire on the beast in an attempt to quell it. Perhaps this is the One-Eyed Man, dropping in one last bit of support for the two. Maybe it’s a show that the pair now has more control over their minds, and are finally able to fight back against the entities that used to control them. Whichever it is, it’s enough to save them, and at 4:21 the sun rises, the two safe and sound overlooking the now destroyed city. At 4:23, the cube from Dramaturgy, their core, is perfectly fine, showing that they’ll get through this massive upheaval intact. At 4:25, we see that amidst the destruction, a massive tree has sprouted up, symbolizing rebirth. Perhaps this tree was able to sprout up from the piping underneath, meaning that the two making peace with themselves allowed their pasts to finally stop clogging up their brains. Finally, the video rewinds to before their upheaval, and we see the MC’s room, this time in the real world, no strings attached. We’ve finally been shown the real life setting for the vast majority of the MVs. Not long after, the MC pukes up darkness, which is a little nod to the fact that while the world itself wasn’t technically real, the pain and struggle he was going through certainly was.
This World To You:
This song is like the epilogue of the MC’s journey. He’s overcome his inner cycle which has kept him trapped for all this time, learned to empathize and think things through (2:07), and he’s now able to confront the feelings that were at the core of this struggle all along: his guilt toward his sister. During a beautiful purple sunset, he’s bicycling through the vivid new world open to him, grieving for her and accepting that “her tomorrow’s never coming” (0:48). This acceptance hurts him (0:31), and at first it even feels like he’d rather things just remain the way they are, (0:37) but it’s the only way he can learn from his mistakes and become someone she’d be proud of. He thinks from the newly found perspective he has, and seeing things more objectively, more selflessly, he wonders how similar her life was to his (1:11). He’s seeing his sister not as a vague, hazy image built up in his head made up of his worries, anxieties, and guilt, but as a normal person, with their own worries, feelings, problems, and dreams. By empathizing with his sister, coming to terms with the improper image of her he built up in his head, he’s able to move on, and empathize with other people in a similar way. By doing this, he no longer has reason to be afraid of the world out there, and he can start to reach other people’s hearts, learning from the mistakes he made in the past. Instead of wallowing in remorse over his sister, he can be someone she’d be proud of, and help other people who are hurting in the way he couldn’t with her. This spurs him on, and although the fact that she died so early is a fact he’ll always carry with him (1:52), he’s found a hope for tomorrow he’s needed all his life (2:14). However, he also accepts that death and pain is always a possibility (2:20), and that things won’t always go his way. But instead of fall into despair, he’s able to believe that things will get better, and that he has the power to make them better, reflected in the beautiful vista filled with sea creatures swimming in the sky (2:38). The creature at 2:39 is elegant, beautiful, a sight to behold, vividly painted by all sorts of colors, a callback to Underground. Its face also looks similar to the girl he’s managed to reach, symbolizing that reaching her is one of the cores of his hope. Throughout the video, we see the city to change to reflect the MC’s stream of consciousness. At (0:02), the MC is recovering from the wreckage after the mental battle in Underground, and he’s dealing with the grief of his sister, and as he comes to terms with it, the buildings gradually get cleaner and more structured, eventually colored with lights of his empathy and understanding. At (1:51), he continues to change toward hope and acceptance, and he moves toward an industrial zone, reflecting how the city is moving forward, springing back from this change stronger than ever, rebuilding and even adding new zones and structure. At (2:12), we see the sign “think it through,” as a reminder that the one-eyed man, once a force he saw as evil, is now a friend, working with him to overcome his anxieties and fears. The signs throughout the city spatter negativity like “arrogant” and “pathetic” and “regret,” but are now mixed in with “hope” and “future” and “I would put a flag here.” Then at (2:37), his hope is stronger than ever. Then finally, the MC’s empathy and selflessness is made manifest in a way it never has been before. At (3:01), the MC’s city seamlessly transitions into the perspective of the girl, and at (3:20) it beautifully changes into the girl’s more realistic view of the city. By empathizing with and reaching her, part of her perspective has now become his, as he’s able to learn from her and see things more objectively. He’s come to terms with his guilt, and allowed himself to truly connect with someone. By doing this, the world has opened up to him, and he’s finally able to become a part of society. He has made it.
Baumkuchen End:
At this point the MC has managed to enter society and step into the real world without running away (0:09 and 0:16). Rather than monsters of anxiety and fear, everyone he sees are normal people just like him. However, things aren’t going quite how he thought they would. He’s not afraid anymore (0:46), but he feels surprisingly empty. The world is a little less vivid than Underground, and the MC’s hair has been colored white, blank and aimless. He’s realized that things are more complicated than he expected. He went through so much to overcome his mental hangups, and now that he’s succeeded, life is still going forward. He’s struggled with that mental cycle (symbolized by the orange and blue swirl at 0:57) for so long, that he’s having a hard time seeing past it, and he feels unsure what to do with himself now that the cycle which defined him for so long is gone (0:45, “there’s nothing left to do”). In Tokyo Ghetto, the reason he couldn’t escape from himself was that deep down, he didn’t really want to leave. Part of him wants to go back to that time where things made sense, and he could comfortably wallow in hopelessness and self-pity (0:30). It’s like he hoped that once he reached this point, the credits would roll and everyone would live happily ever after (0:34, “there seems to be no ‘critical hit,’” and 0:37, “I was expecting an answer,” and we see the MC’s many paths disappear in front of him, leaving a blank wall of vague white). Not only that, but the MC is having a harder time with empathy than he expected. He wants to see beyond himself, but his own limitations are getting in the way of that. His ego has swelled somewhat after his victory (0:41), against his better judgment. Whether he likes it or not, he’s not an omniscient being that can just teleport into other people’s perspectives and points of view; he’s a human being, with their own emotions and biases and egos, and he can only see other people through the cage of his own skin. At 0:24, he vents over this struggle, lamenting “it’s all about me,” feeling both “disgusted and separated.” He hates these limitations and how he’s growing apart from the girl he reached out to. He’s afraid of getting trapped in a never-changing rut in which he can’t reach anyone, never changes, and slowly loses himself again (symbolized by the optical illusion triangle surrounded by orange inside the MC. It’s a cycle, always moving further inward, never changing.) However, things are far from hopeless. The MC isn’t the kind to give up anymore. He’s grown, and he’s more self-aware of his predicament. Throughout the video he’s introspecting, thinking to himself (0:48) and refusing to look away from the problem (0:43, 0:29, 0:38, 0:46, all throughout the video). To deal with these newfound problems, rather than get complacent and give up, he’s decided to ‘go back to school’ (0:41 and 0:58) and accept that he still has a lot to learn, that he needs to keep improving. And this time he has plenty of help. All the sides of his mind that were once his enemies: the one-eyed man’s multiple sides, the black blob of terror, the anxiety bot, and the bull-faced man (which is a japanese symbol of young people’s perspective of society); now that he’s managed to reign them in and keep them in check, he understands that they’re a part of him and they’re not going away. So instead of shunning and hating them, he’s decided to teach them how to work together (0:58). And since they’ve always wanted to help him, they eagerly accept. Through this teacher-student relationship, he’s realizing that there’s a lot he can learn from them, and they can actually help him in positive ways, like a paradigm shift. They actually have more sides and depth to them than he realized, and by shunning and fighting them, he was suppressing important parts of himself needed to improve. For example, the MC let desire aimlessly control him for so long (1:10, a strong callback to the brown of Chocolate Town), that for the longest time he ran from and shunned it (1:12). However, that desire is actually needed to motivate oneself to learn and change. That’s why the MC’s other sides are now wearing brown (0:47), because they’re all painted by the MC’s personal desire to improve. Understanding this, at 1:15 the anxiety bot makes a “no” motion, to tell him that he shouldn’t run from it. Speaking of the anxiety bot, his appearance has changed; he looks more inviting and friendly, and isn’t defined by the blue of depression anymore. “Anxiety bot” isn’t really the right name anymore, now he should be called “Motivation bot” instead. Because of the MC’s paradigm shift, the bot isn’t focused on instilling fear anymore. It’s instead focused on giving the MC a desire to improve. Because he needs a little fear to put things into perspective and keep from getting caught in a rut. He needs that reminder that time is limited, and that if he doesn’t do something, he may very well end up lost and alone. They both believe in him and know he’s strong enough to manage, so they use that fear as drive to move forward. Anxiety’s been symbolized by water throughout these MVs, and we need water to survive, so the MC keeps it under control and make sure he only takes it in in small doses (symbolized by the water bottle at 0:44).
Now that all of this is in place, the MC can start to really confront and understand the problem. He decides that the main thing he wants motivating him is the fear that the girl is suffering, with him unable to reach her or help, basically a repeat of what happened all those years ago (1:16). He’s not going to let that happen, and we see him twirling a yellow key (1:23). This is a callback to the fantasy he dreamed up in As You Like It, and how he realizes the fight isn’t over, he still needs to make that dream real. He defiantly declares “I don’t care if it’s a lie” (1:24). He’s going to make it real. At 1:25 his other sides all proudly take the stage. This calls back to Dramaturgy, but now he’s not afraid of the stage, he embraces it confidently. Now, after deciding his next move (1:30), he takes action. His first step is to hear the girl’s perspective for himself, to ensure he doesn’t create a convenient image of her in his head like he did with his sister. At 1:33 he talks to her with the support of his other sides. He opens up to her, sharing his worries and fears (“when he gets annoyed with his daily routine, he wants to break it down”). He talks in the third person because he’s starting to look at himself without being as clouded by emotion. In response, she confides in him. She tells him that she’s still having a hard time, she’s not sure if she can manage through the day-to-day, desperately gripping the rails (1:42). At 1:45 we see a shot of stairs, symbolizing that she’s suffering an uphill battle, unable to see her destination. Not too different from the MC’s situation. The girl is in a hospital gown connected to an IV, calling back to the hospital theme of Last Dance. Whereas before she was an elegant light as he struggled sick in bed, now she’s the one who needs his help. He processes what she said (1:48), and realizes that of course just reaching out to her isn’t enough. She needs to be helped through her predicament. If anyone here’s played Persona, think social links. Just wanting to help isn’t enough. He needs to regularly make time for her, teach himself how to properly talk to her, and gain life experiences. Basically, before he can tell her how to improve her life, he needs to work to improve his OWN life, turn himself into someone she can look up to, instead of just wallowing in his uselessness. This snaps him back to reality, gets him out of his doldrum (1:52 “I was attacked by this helpless dizzy night”), and we even see him reading a self-help book. A little bonus detail, in the background of the train as the MC is fighting to improve himself, we see the girl from Tokyo Ghetto, wallowing in self-pity. Turns out letting herself be consumed by her bad habits didn’t work out so well, and now she’s all alone. It could also be the MC’s old self from Tokyo Ghetto, as a visual reminder of how far he’s come. Back on track, we see the MC visiting a bakery, and ordering a strange ring cake, a Baumkuchen (1:55). This cake appears throughout the MV, and is a visual metaphor for the MC’s current actions, and how his perspective has changed. The cake is visually similar to a tree trunk, and a tree is a symbol of strength. It lives for up to entire centuries, and almost nothing can bring it down. This is possible because of its incredibly sturdy trunk and roots dug deep into the ground. A tree has rings in its trunk as a marking of its age, and the more rings it has, the longer it’s lived. This means that the stronger and wiser a tree is, the more rings it will have. Quoting a Japanese chef who specializes in Baumkuchen, “The appeal of the cake is in its many layers. The layers represent the accumulation of happiness, making it a strong icon of luck.” Sound similar? So by purchasing this cake, he’s moved beyond the As You Like It fantasy in which he does one big thing and the credits roll. Now he understands that the story’s never really over. To keep himself from falling back into his old ways, he has to create a sturdy trunk out of many small rings. This means taking on positive habits and responsibilities that he continues constantly throughout his life; working a job, going to school, scheduling his time, learning to cook, reading books to learn. He seeks to keep getting more rings, making more roots, and never getting too set in his routine. He now understands that the battle is never truly over, and he can always improve more. That’s why he’s willing to jump off the building for the cake at 2:05, because he comes to accept its importance. Once he does that, everything clicks, and he sees the light again. At 2:08, the girl’s IV is juxtaposed against the beauty of the sky. At 2:15, the Motivation Bot acts as a sort of gatekeeper. He hears the MC’s newfound purpose, and allows him to move beyond his little apartment from 0:25. At 2:18, he becomes more self-aware. He sees the enormity of the world, and how much he has to learn, and he realizes that if he keeps assuming he’s done all he can then he won’t be able to keep up. At the same time, it’s beautiful, and full of opportunity. At 2:28, the other selves watch him with pride, and once things have sunk in, they’re there to calm him down and snap him back into reality. Now the MC’s learning from them. They listen intently, (2:33) and once he’s ready to fight to get his life together and reach the girl, the Motivation Bot gives him a big hearty throw to get him started (2:42). At 2:47 we see the chairs the MC had been resting on, painted orange and blue to symbolize his previous cycle of guilt and self-destruction. They’re now empty, as proof that the MC is finally setting himself up to move beyond that cycle. At 2:45 the girl’s anxiety and hopelessness coalesces into a teddy bear, a callback to Ano Ko Secret. This is a final challenge to the MC’s selfishness and childishness, something he must overcome to finally reach others. Since her pain is a reflection of his, he’s essentially fighting himself too, and the bear attacks him with a laser at 2:53, tearing down part of the red tower from Demon Dance Tokyo. If you remember, in that song the tower was a symbol of the MC’s memory of his sister. Now, it’s being damaged because if the MC can’t grow beyond his past mistakes, he won’t learn from the mistakes he made with his sister, and he won’t be doing her life justice. 2:54 calls back to the MC’s fall at the beginning of As You Like It, a symbol of his frustration and hopelessness toward his situation, but now when he hits the ground (2:59), he takes it in stride, grits his teeth, and keeps running. At 3:04, he uses everything to fight to reach the girl; the memory of his sister, the help of his other selves, his positive habits and drive to improve. At 3:14, for the first time, the girl’s eye is colored with orange, meaning the MC’s efforts have truly touched her. At 3:16, the MC successfully reaches the girl, with the help of all his other sides supporting him. He’s made it, and at 3:20 the glove man from As You Like It gives him a round of applause. He’s sitting in the orange-blue chair, he’s nothing more than a dream. The MC has accepted that the battle doesn’t just end, made his dream real, and the glove man is proud of him for that. At the beginning of the video, at 0:19, the explosion from As You Like It rocked the MC and girl’s world, but this time he was ready for it, looked straight ahead, and overcame that trial he feared so much. The MC’s journey will continue, and he’ll be ready for whatever comes.
Raison D'etre:
The MC reached the girl, and that's deeply affected her. The MC realized he could only help her after helping himself. By being a living example of what she wishes to be, she not only knows she isn't alone, she's also starting to understand what she needs to do. This video is the first time we see solely in the girl's mind rather than the MC. Her outlook's changed from the pure blue of sadness to a mix of the black of discontent and the yellow of hope. As she leaves her now messy room, going about her daily routine, she starts to get lost in introspective thought, likely something she hasn't done in a long time. Her falling into the underground of her mind, it looks similar to Ambivalent. That's because we're looking deep in her subconscious mind, seeing her fundamental outlook. It's like the mind of a child; pieces of an amusement park, a mess of toys and blocks. Our previous looks at her were almost barren of imagination; grey, lifeless, mundane. But here it's full of color and life. This shows all her deeper emotions and hopes were buried deep down inside her, and she kept from becoming totally empty by making sadness her purpose, her identity. Atop it all, we see the queen of this place, an alternate version of her with her old all-blue color scheme. An imposing crescent moon presides over the entire city, and the blue girl wears a similar crescent as a mask. A crescent moon is merely the first stage of the moon's cycle. It's perpetually a crescent moon here because the girl never moves forward, she's always waiting for something to change things for her, and this mentality blinds her. We even see that her leg is chained by blue as further proof. We can see by all the toys and such that she's being childish, she's emotionally immature. She's elected not to think and to just assume things will get better, letting her hopes come to her. If you look closely, her robot-arm things look like distorted, stylized power outlets. We see in her irl room that she's constantly plugged in, a little too exposed to technology. Nowadays our perception of the world is all too skewed by our biases via the internet. We believe what we want to believe, and there will always be a group of people online to confirm it. This girl is no different, the internet is keeping her that much more locked down. We see irl that as she walks around, the uniform grey people around her flicker like a computer glitch. She's not seeing people as they really are, the internet is skewing her perception. When we see her in the subconscious world, she's cloaked in black and red. The red is used to symbolize the girl looking to her past. For the male MC, red was almost always negative until Baumkuchen End, as guilt toward his sister was holding him back. But with the girl, the past is actually a source of hope, as she remembers the good times she had with the MC as a small child. She sees who he was, and who he's become through nothing more than his own strength. She also spins her past regret into something positive, as her failure to see outside herself and reach out to him more back then has turned into a vow to do better now. So her past frustrations and memories are coming at odds with her present blue self who expects others to come and fix things for her. At the 1:30 mark, she wakes up after this realization, horrified, having a bit of a quarter-life crisis. She finally sees things for what they really are, and she knows this can't continue. We then see the irl city surrounded by red, in the windows, street lights, cones. She had the opposite problem of the MC. While he looked to the past too much, she didn't do it enough. She needs to remember the past to remember who she is, to be able to make her own decisions. At 1:40 we see a sort of medical blockade, to show that she's put a much needed temporary stop to things so she can think about where her life's going. As she walks along, moving up stairs rather than down, she sees her black and red reflection. It scares her, because it can't be ignored at all anymore, it's pervading her real life as well. Essentially, there's no going back to her old way of life now that she's seen the truth. In her subconscious, the mental bedrock supporting the irl city fails, and her world turns upside down. Turns out her "realistic" view of the city wasn't any less a delusion than the MC's. She fights with her present self, doing markedly better, and forces her out of the subconscious and into the real world. She can't hide anymore. Now that her present self has been brought into reality, she really starts to see the truth of things. At 2:38, she sees her current path for the barren, ruined wasteland it is, and screams out in discontent. At 2:41, she realizes she'd been drowning in stress and fear the entire time, choosing not to notice. At 2:45, she's in the fetal position surrounded by a cocoon of introspection, a symbol of rebirth. At 2:48, she sees her present self in a beautiful field of reeds, as she comes to understand her. Finally, at 2:57, Her present self is flanked on both sides by red cones. She clearly sees who her enemy is, there's no doubt in her mind anymore. The two fight, her present self almost like that of an omnipresent goddess, what with her blue rays and power of flight. Yet the red girl is still able to reach her, breaking her mask of wait in the process. When she sees her face, she's almost dumbstruck, realizing her present self isn't just her enemy, she's a part of her. The two meet in the middle, coming to an understanding, similar to what the MC did in Ambivalent. The red of the past lifts away, reverting back to the yellow of the future, as the two are ready to move forward. The girl then wakes up with a smile. Like the MC, she's not going to wait on a miracle to come and rescue her anymore. From here on out, she's going to make her own choices, and decide for herself who she wants to be.
*If you’ve read this far, then thank you so much. I’ve really enjoyed making this, and these MVs have felt like looking into a mirror. Whenever I wouldn’t understand what a video means, I would just think in terms of my own struggles and experiences and everything would quickly come together. I doubt any of this was even what Eve and his animators intended, but that’s the beauty of art. Regardless of what an artist intends when making something, its messages can sometimes resonate with its viewers in ways even they didn’t expect. These MVs have impacted me so deeply that I had to get this out there, and if it reaches even one person and helps them a little, then posting this will be worth it.
Bonus Song:
Ano Ko Secret (EVERY color):
I was having a lot of trouble deciding where this song could fit, as it’s just so damn colorful and happy. In a tale about depression and guilt, why would the MC have such a fun romantic comedy amidst it all? He already has a daydream in the form of As You Like It, he doesn’t need another one. And then it seemed obvious. This song is at the beginning, before everything got out of control after the MC’s sister died. The MC and blue-haired girl have their true hair colors, because they’re both real (0:43). They’re both quite young, but because the MC is a standard happy-go-lucky kid (with an overactive mind and a touch of narcissism), he FEELS like a grown-up. When he sees the blue-haired girl, he’s infatuated with her at first sight, so she’s pretty and mysterious, also a grown-up (0:52). The MC is constantly experiencing new things, symbolized by the multi-colored bears popping out of the gacha machines en masse (0:11). He has no idea what the future might hold, but he’s eager to see it all. He even has a good friend in the form of the especially large orange bear (1:22). As orange is what we see when all colors are mixed together, this shows that the MC is able to confide in his friend and be totally honest around him. The fact that he’s a bear instead of a person could also symbolize how the MC literally sees himself as the ‘Main Character’ of his life, and others are background characters. Again, a little on the narcissistic side. But he’s so interested in the girl, that she looks different from everyone else. Because of that interest, he’s afraid to talk to her, so he enlists the help of his friend (1:03). Even together, he can’t gather up the courage, so his friend consoles him (1:19). When he finally does manage to talk to her, (albeit only through texts), all she seems to care about is his friend (1:37). He likely had a crush on her too, so with all her interest centered on the friend, asking her on a date is out of the question. He feels left out, betrayed by his best friend (1:54). But, angered, he refuses to give up, and he pushes past his fear to reach out to her anyway (2:05). Despite his best efforts, his anxiety wins out (symbolized by the black bears shooting down the white bears), and he stops just short of reaching her (2:18). However, he sees the girl reject his friend from the sidelines (2:47), and he rushes over, looking past his feelings of betrayal to console him (3:01). He doesn’t meet the girl, but when he saw her reject his friend, for a moment he saw a bit of himself in her, symbolized by them both exploring the same bear shop at 2:41. It’s a feeling he doesn’t fully understand, but he’s not afraid of her anymore, and he later works up the courage to talk to her off-screen, as proven by later songs. Neither of them truly realizes how similar they are to one another, and how their fates will be later intertwined, but their friendship will be a source of hope for them in the coming years.
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Crossover vs Non-crossover Pairing Breakdown for S.W.A.T. (2017)
To the best of my knowledge, this information is accurate as of 12 Feb 2021 with 204 listings on AO3.
No pairings were indicated on 41 out of 204 fics and often overlapped with Gen (20.09%). Technically, no pairings were indicated on an additional five, but the summaries stated or implied pairings: Chris/Street (2), Chris/Street [unrequited] and Chris/Kira/Ty (1), Luca/Deacon’s Sister (1) [canonical name unknown, Josie in the fic], Original Female Character/Unspecified SWAT Member (1). There are also three Character/Reader fics (Chris, Luca, and Street).
Excluding Crossovers
Polyships are entered on 10 fics in two varieties. Three characters in a triad: Chris/Kira/Ty (5). Three characters in a vee: Chris/Kira and Kira/Ty (7). (There is overlap with triad and vee usage on 2 fics.) This leaves the majority of forward slash pairings as two characters and without any OT3 or polyamory tags. Six involve gender unspecified original characters, which leaves a gender breakdown of 39/57 M/F (68.42%), 14/57 M/M (24.56%), and 4/57 F/F (7.01%). The most entered M/F pairing is Chris/Street (19/39 or 48.71%). There’s a tie for most entered M/M pairing with Hondo/Street and Luca/Street at 4/14 or 28.57% each. The most entered F/F pairing is Chris/OFC at 3 / 4 or 75%.
The most entered pairing indicated by an ampersand is Chris & Street at 19/84 (22.61%). Second place goes to Luca & Street at 15/84 (17.85%). Third place is tied between Hondo & Street and Street & Tan at 11/84 (13.09%) each. The fourth most entered pairing is Deacon & Street at 10/84 (11.90%). I would like to clarify that this does not combine similar tags together such listing out each teammate pairing (Street & Luca, Street & Tan, etc.) with a combined pairing like Street & 20 Squad.
Crossovers
Tbh, I’m not entirely sure what to do for these fics. There are 14 instances of otherwise canonical pairings that have anywhere from one additional show to nine additional shows listed. Of these, 10 are for the forward slash pairing Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez. There are four pairings that focus on pairings from other shows and crossover into S.W.A.T., and due to Ryan Bergara and Shane Madej being cast in s3e16 (Gunpowder Treason) as Eric and Ira, there are 13 fics that crossover with Buzzfeed Unsolved and Watcher Entertainment that have forward slash pairings for Eric/Ira (8 of these also have forward slash pairings for Ryan/Shane tagged).
When it comes to a character from S.W.A.T. being paired with a character from another show, it’s a bit hard to tell the extent of differences in the crossover listings when they range from one additional show (9-1-1 (TV)) to ten additional shows being included. There are a whole bunch of ampersand pairings that involve Evan “Buck” Buckley from 9-1-1 (TV), but adding on additional characters in an ampersand list makes it a bit hard to compare to smaller ampersand lists.
I did find the inclusion of Criminal Minds to be interesting because Shemar Moore (the actor for Derek Morgan) was cast in S.W.A.T. as Hondo. There are 15 fics where Derek Morgan and Hondo are the same person or character, so the pairing Derek Morgan & Spencer Reid would more accurately have Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson | Derek Morgan in the first part of the pairing.
Non-Crossover List of Forward Slash Pairings:
* Christina “Chris” Alonso/James “Jim” Street (19)
* Chris/Kira/Ty (8)
* Kira (S.W.A.T.)/Ty (S.W.A.T.) (7)
* Christina “Chris” Alonso/Kira (S.W.A.T.) (7)
* David “Deacon” Kay/Annie Kay (6)
* Dominique Luca/Original Character (5)
* Dominique Luca/James “Jim” Street (4)
* James “Jim” Street/Molly Hicks (4)
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/James “Jim” Street (4)
* James “Jim” Street/Original Female Character (4)
* Christina “Chris” Alonso/Original Female Character (3)
* Devlin (S.W.A.T.)/James “Jim” Street (3)
* Bonnie/Victor Tan (2)
* Christina “Chris” Alonso/Jilly (S.W.A.T.)
* Dominique Luca/Original Female Character
* James “Jim” Street/Victor Tan
* Dominique Luca/Tuana
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Original Character
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Dominique Luca
* Christina “Chris” Alonso/Dominique Luca
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/David “Deacon” Kay
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez
Non-Crossover List of Ampersand Pairings:
* Christina “Chris” Alonso & James “Jim” Street (19)
* Dominique Luca & James “Jim” Street (15)
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & James “Jim” Street (11)
* James “Jim” Street & Victor Tan (11)
* David “Deacon” Kay & James “Jim” Street (10)
* Christina “Chris” Alonso & Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson (2)
* Christina “Chris” Alonso & David “Deacon” Kay (2)
* Christina “Chris” Alonso & Dominique Luca (2)
* Christina “Chris” Alonso & Victor Tan (2)
* James “Jim” Street & Molly Hicks (2)
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & David “Deacon” Kay
* Ty (S.W.A.T.) & Original Character
* Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & Darryl Henderson
* David “Deacon” Kay & Annie Kay
* Buck Spivey & The Team
* James “Jim” Street & Robert Hicks
* James “Jim” Street & Original Female Character
* James “Jim” Street & 20 Squad
Crossover Pairings:
* 9-1-1 (TV): Christina “Chris” Alonso/James “Jim” Street, James “Jim” Street & 20 Squad
* 9-1-1 (TV), All Rise (TV): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez (2), David “Deacon” Kay/Annie Kay
* Strike Back (TV), Blindspot (TV): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez
* Blindspot (TV), Rosewood (TV), Blood and Treasure - Fandom, Grey's Anatomy: B-Team (Web Series), Station 19 (TV), The Good Doctor (TV 2017): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez, Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Original Female Character [named Nichelle]
* Chicago PD (TV), Third Watch, Chicago Med, Chicago Fire, Grey's Anatomy, Station 19 (TV), Rosewood (TV), Blindspot (TV), All Rise (TV 2019): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez
* Chicago PD (TV), 9-1-1 (TV): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez
* Murder in the First (TV): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez, David “Deacon” Kay/Annie Kay
* Station 19 (TV), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV), Rosewood (TV), All Rise (TV 2019): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez
* Station 19 (TV), Grey's Anatomy, Rosewood (TV), Chicago PD (TV), Blindspot (TV), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez* Station 19 (TV), Blindspot (TV), 9-1-1 (TV), All Rise (TV): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson/Jessica Cortez
* 9-1-1 (TV): Evan “Buck” Buckley/James “Jim” Street (4), Evan “Buck” Buckley & James “Jim” Street, Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & Evan “Buck” Buckley, James “Jim” Street/Tommy Kinard, Christina “Chris” Alonso/Shannon Diaz
* 9-1-1 (TV), Hawaii Five-o (2010): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & Evan “Buck” Buckley, Christina “Chris” Alonso & Evan “Buck” Buckley
* 9-1-1 (TV), NCIS, NCIS: Los Angeles, Hawaii Five-0 (2010), Scorpion (TV 2014), Criminal Minds (US TV), Chicago Fire: Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & James “Jim” Street, James “Jim” Street & 20 Squad, James “Jim” Street & Marty Deeks & Evan “Buck” Buckley, James “Jim” Street/Walter O'Brien (past), James “Jim” Street/Spencer Reid (past)
* 9-1-1 (TV), 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020), NCIS: Los Angeles, Chicago Fire, The Umbrella Academy (TV), Grimm (TV): James “Jim” Street & 20 Squad, James “Jim” Street & Marty Deeks & Evan “Buck” Buckley, James “Jim” Street/Molly Hicks
* Chicago Fire, Chicago PD (TV), 9-1-1 (TV): Jay Halstead & James “Jim” Street & Evan “Buck” Buckley, James “Jim” Street & Evan “Buck” Buckley
* 9-1-1 (TV), 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020), NCIS, NCIS: Los Angeles, NCIS: New Orleans, Chicago Fire, Chicago PD (TV), Chicago Med, The Umbrella Academy (TV), Grimm (TV): James “Jim” Street & Marty Deeks & Evan “Buck” Buckley
* 9-1-1 (TV), 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020), Chicago Fire, Criminal Minds (US TV): Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & James “Jim” Street, James “Jim” Street & Bobby Nash, Evan “Buck” Buckley & James “Jim” Street, James “Jim” Street & Wallace Boden, James “Jim” Street & Matthew Casey, James “Jim” Street & Owen Strand, James “Jim” Street & TK Strand, James “Jim” Street & David Rossi, James “Jim” Street & Robert Hicks
* 9-1-1 (TV), 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020), NCIS, NCIS: Los Angeles, NCIS: New Orleans, Grimm (TV), The Umbrella Academy (TV), Chicago Fire, Chicago PD (TV), Chicago Med, One Chicago: Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson & James “Jim” Street, James “Jim” Street & Everyone
* Criminal Minds: Jennifer “JJ” Jareau/James “Jim” Street (3), Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson | Derek Morgan & Spencer Reid (15), Daniel “Hondo” Harrelson | Derek Morgan/ Original Female Character
** Derek Morgan is tagged (Derek Morgan & Spencer Reid, for example), but the summary indicates Hondo and Derek are the same person/character in the fic.
* Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior: Dominique Luca/Original Character (2)
* Harry Potter: Harry Potter/James “Jim” Street
* MCU: Clint Barton/Jim Street (2)
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1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?
4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?
Smart but distracted.
6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?
![Tumblr media](https://64.media.tumblr.com/abe88265b4fe6e5b4dc58e83528e1850/99ec759469c7593e-52/s400x600/71dd260db689011ba4979f7bace139f146be0a37.jpg)
Goth Ninja, babyyy!!!
11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?
Two eggs, a few pieces of ham, a tortilla, a bit of cheese, hot sauce. Coffee with Stevia. That’s it, that’s all.
12. name of your favorite playlist?
CYBERPUNK DYSTOPIA (currently a fave, anyway)
18. ideal weather?
20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?
Laptop. Just faster.
21. obsession from childhood?
Vampires. Haven’t grown out of it. Sorry not sorry.
22. role model?
Don’t really have one, atm.
26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?
Be in the water. Preferably catching waves and not eating sand when they take me to shore.
27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?
STAYING THE FUCK INSIDE. FUCK WINTER.
29. best way to bond with you?
Just talk to me. Start with stuff we have in common, and if all else fails...
MEMES.
30. places that you find sacred?
The gym. My car. My apartment. Libraries.
31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?
A variation of the above picture, but now with bonus ‘I’m gonna beat your ass’ black surgical mask. ;)
40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?
Some dumbass buried a gun in the front lawn of the school over a weekend, intending to use it come Monday. He rolled up and IMMEDIATELY got arrested by our resource officer. Also, someone left a used condom in the Stingray petting tank at prom (yes, our prom was at an aquarium. It was NOT big enough.)
43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?
Hoodie WITH a bomber.
44. favorite scent for soap?
Garden Sage and Mint. Rosewater and Ivy. You see where I’m going with this, right?
49. what saying or quote do you live by?
Smile and nod.
57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?
Feeling at home in a gym, leaving home and making it on my own, cutting toxic people out of my life.
61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?
62. seven characters you relate to?
1. Lisbeth Salander (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) 2. Letty Ortiz (Fast and the Furious) 3. Mad Sweeney (American Gods) 4. Danny Williams (Hawaii Five-0) 5. Geralt of Rivia (The Witcher) (that’s all I can think of off the top of my head)
68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? I’m about to get yelled at for some of these, so I’m sorry in advance:
1. Takis (there’s an aftertaste that’s 100% cardboard box) 2. Wasabi (to quote the illustrious Desus Nice: “It’s like hot for no reason?”) 3. Taro root (holy fucking bitter. I know, I’m a bad Brazilian. I’m sorry, just no.) 4. Platano (again with the cardboard box...) 5. Sweet Potato (WAY too sweet)
76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?
Fries. Followed closely by hash browns.
84. barbie or polly pocket?
Barbie, ‘cause I only had one Polly Pocket as a kid and got bored of it pretty quick.
88. your greatest wish?
To have someone to come home to.
90. luckiest mistake?
When I was 18, we moved back to Canada from the States. When I went to get my Canadian license, the lady didn’t realize that Florida had graduated licensing same as they do in Canada. So she gave me a full license when I was really only supposed to have the one that lets me drive alone during the day. Oops. ;)
95. favorite app on your phone?
Instagram.
96. desktop background?
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yo.
Soooooo yeah. I know I’ve been kinda least-in-sight lately and have a very overdue Precipice chapter in the wings, etc., etc. Uh, basically, my BB got behind and then a little bit away from me. Deadline is not an issue in terms of completeness, but it’s gonna be quite a bit messier than I like at this stage in an event like this. Well, I’m planning to Power Through over the weekend and hopefully I’ll get more tweaking done than I expect? We shall see.
ANYWAY. I don’t know how March will look--more on that in Monday’s Coming Attractions post, of course, but work will get SUPER BUSY, along with other ongoing challenge commitments--but I’m still hoping to start posting my regular fics again? Lol. At least finishing Arc Seven so I can move on to Promises and Preludes because I’m super excited for some of the stuff happening there.
But for now, since I know I haven’t posted much lately, and because I’ve been rereading the Valdemar series so it’s been on my mind, I’ve decided to share some more from my Jedi of Valdemar AU! Specifically, this is the Ginormous Timeline of Doom that covers everything from, like, two years before Anakin gets to Haven to Leia’s kids’ generation getting Chosen, etc. (working in a Blended Canon because that’s how I roll) Obviously, this includes many spoilers for the AU in question--and also, because I like to keep certain plot points/character beats consistent, a few things for other fics. Also, this is an admittedly niche-appeal crossover with a fair amount of self-indulgent stuff in here JSYK.
Let’s see, what else...oh! Those of you who read the Family of Spies AU will recognize some OCs from there. One of them actually technically originated in the Valdemar AU, even. Nikolai and his brothers, who get mentioned here, are OCs of mine who in the regular timeline/galaxy are Kallus’s sister’s sons.
Also, Much Much Credit to Roommate TK for serving as a sounding board/helping with brainstorming/letting me use some of her OCs in this XD
I think that’s all the disclaimers I need so...here we go! Feel free to comment, question, etc., on anything in this post or whatever else you’re curious about!
Valdemar AU Rough Timeline (covering 64 goddamn years; including ages and broken into three arcs because easier to count, etc.):
[ARC ONE]
-3 – Obi-Wan is Chosen (by Hondo) - Obi-Wan is 13; Padme is 11; Anakin is approx. 6; Bail is 15; Breha is 14; Palpatine is 40
-2 – Padme is Chosen (by Sabe) - Obi-Wan is 14; Padme is 12; Anakin is approx. 7; Bail is 16; Breha is 15; Palpatine is 41
-.5 – Padme’s parents and Mace are killed; Bail is Chosen as Queen’s Own; Palps becomes Lord Regent/Lord Protector (I haven't decided which title I like better yet) - Obi-Wan is 15/16; Padme is 13/14; Anakin is approx. 8; Bail is 18; Breha is 17; Palpatine is 42/43
0 – Anakin arrives in Haven after being Chosen by Ahsoka - Obi-Wan is 16; Padme is 14; Anakin is approx. 9; Bail is 18; Breha is 17; Palpatine is 43
2 – Obi-Wan is put into full Whites - Obi-Wan is 18; Padme is 16; Anakin is approx. 11; Bail is 20; Breha is 19; Palpatine is 45
3 – Padme is put into full Whites and Palpatine’s regency ends with a deceptively smooth transition of power - Obi-Wan is 19; Padme is 17; Anakin is approx. 12; Bail is 21; Breha is 20; Palpatine is 46
5 – Bail and Breha marry - Obi-Wan is 21; Padme is 10; Anakin is approx. 14; Bail is 23; Breha is 22; Palpatine is 48
6 or 7 – By now, the OT3 and a select few in their inner circle know that this is a Lifebond situation (not that they’re doing anything about it until Anakin, at minimum, has his Whites/finished his internship/etc., but they’re Aware and planning their futures with that in mind) - Obi-Wan is 22/23; Padme is 20/21; Anakin is approx. 15/16; Bail is 24/25; Breha is 23/24; Palps is 49/50 ((Note - I am going with an OT3 lifebond here for several reasons, including the fact that I don’t think Obi-Wan would be a very good Companion for Anakin (i.e., it would go like canon/Gala and Tylendel and No One Wants That), and this still showcases their extremely tight connection and also I like the OT3.))
8 – Anakin is put into full Whites; Dooku leaves Court and begins stirring up Trouble; discussion of when/who Padme should marry picks up/starts in real earnest. - Obi-Wan is 24; Padme is 22; Anakin is approx. 17; Bail is 26; Breha is 25; Palps is 51
9 – The civil war officially erupts - Obi-Wan is 25; Padme is 23; Anakin is approx. 18; Bail is 27; Breha is 26; Palps is 52
10 – Anakin loses his arm - Obi-Wan is 26; Padme is 24; Anakin is approx. 19; Bail is 28; Breha is 27; Palps is 53
11 – Dooku lays siege to Haven; Anakin and Ahsoka sneak out of the city and kill him - Obi-Wan is 27; Padme is 25; Anakin is approx. 20; Bail is 29; Breha is 28; Palps is 54
11 or 12 – Padme and Anakin marry (and make a similar private vow/commitment to Obi-Wan; Anakin gets the legal title because Obi-Wan emphatically does not want to be King, but doesn’t think he could refuse the responsibility if he was Padme’s legal spouse even if the Council/etc. would let him. Also Anakin becomes Weaponsmaster’s Second somewhere in here, but not 100% sure on exact timing, but almost certainly before the wedding.) - Obi-Wan is 27/28; Padme is 25/26; Anakin is approx. 20/21; Bail is 29/30; Breha is 28/29; Palps is 54/55
14 – Leia is born; her parents are not 100% sure who her biodad is but don’t particularly care. - Obi-Wan is 30; Padme is 28; Anakin is approx. 23; Bail is 32; Breha is 31; Palps is 57 ((Note: Luke is Leia’s Companion, as I’ve posted before, which is why he’s not here :D))
16 – Lavinia is born 2 years after Leia; her mother dies in an accident shortly thereafter - Obi-Wan is 32; Padme is 30; Anakin is approx. 25; Bail is 34; Breha is 33; Palps is 59
[ARC 2]
-4 – Leia is Chosen (by Luke); Lando and Amilyn arrive in Haven as Bardic students - Obi-Wan is 43; Padme is 41; Anakin is approx. 36; Bail is 45; Breha is 44; Palps is 70; Leia is 13; Lavinia is 11; Ezra is 12; Lando is 15; Amilyn is 12; Kanan and Hera are 25ish
-2 – Ezra is Chosen (by Ventress because the Kingdom clearly needed a little Pure Chaos) and joins Leia’s inner circle - Obi-Wan is 45; Padme is 43; Anakin is approx. 38; Bail is 47; Breha is 46; Palps is 72; Leia is 15; Lavinia is 13; Ezra is 14; Lando is 17; Amilyn is 14; Kanan and Hera are 27ish
0 – Kallus defects and comes to Haven with Zeb; Lando goes off on his Journeyman period - Obi-Wan is 47; Padme is 45; Anakin is approx. 40; Bail is 49; Breha is 48; Palps is 74; Leia is 17; Lavinia is 15; Ezra is 16; Lando is 19; Amilyn is 16; Kanan and Hera are 29ish; Zeb and Kallus are 35ish
1 – Pellaeon becomes Lord Marshall; Lavinia is Chosen (by Thrawn) and exposes her father’s crimes; Palpatine flees Valdemar (going West, discovering he has a latent Mage-Gift, and meeting Mother Talzin); Kanan is blinded as Palpatine has his minions try to kill the three people responsible for his downfall (Kanan, Lavinia, and Pellaeon) - Obi-Wan is 48; Padme is 46; Anakin is approx. 41; Bail is 50; Breha is 49; Palps is 75; Leia is 18; Lavinia is 16; Ezra is 17; Lando is 20; Amilyn is 17; Kanan and Hera are 30ish; Zeb and Kallus are 36ish; Pellaeon is 50
2 – Zeb and Kallus get their first kids; Ezra is put into full Whites; Amilyn goes on her Journeyman period - Obi-Wan is 49; Padme is 47; Anakin is approx. 42; Bail is 51; Breha is 50; Palps is 76; Leia is 19; Lavinia is 17; Ezra is 18; Lando is 21; Amilyn is 18; Kanan and Hera are 31ish; Zeb and Kallus are 37ish; Pellaeon is 51; Orryn and Mirah, are approx. 5
3 – Han meets Lando and is Chosen (by Chewie); I’m guessing Jacen is born around now, too? - Obi-Wan is 50; Padme is 48; Anakin is approx. 43; Bail is 52; Breha is 51; Palps is 77; Leia is 20; Lavinia is 18; Ezra is 19; Lando is 22; Amilyn is 19; Kanan and Hera are 32ish; Zeb and Kallus are 38ish; Pellaeon is 52; Han is 22
4 – Zeb and Kallus by now have all five kids probably? - Obi-Wan is 51; Padme is 49; Anakin is approx. 44; Bail is 53; Breha is 52; Palps is 78; Leia is 21; Lavinia is 19; Ezra is 20; Lando is 23; Amilyn is 20; Kanan and Hera are 33ish; Zeb and Kallus are 39ish; Pellaeon is 53; Han is 23; Nikolai is 14/15; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 9ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 7
5 – To the delight of their friends, Han and Leia finally start sleeping together and there is substantially less UST floating around - Obi-Wan is 52; Padme is 50; Anakin is approx. 45; Bail is 54; Breha is 53; Palps is 79; Leia is 22; Lavinia is 20; Ezra is 21; Lando is 24; Amilyn is 21; Kanan and Hera are 34ish; Zeb and Kallus are 40ish; Pellaeon is 54; Han is 24; Nikolai is 15/16; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 10ish; Mirah and Orryn approx. 8
6 – Lando and Lavinia start sleeping together regularly, but it’s Just Casual Let’s Not Make It Weird - Obi-Wan is 53; Padme is 51; Anakin is approx. 46; Bail is 55; Breha is 54; Palps is 80; Leia is 23; Lavinia is 21; Ezra is 22; Lando is 25; Amilyn is 22; Kanan and Hera are 35ish; Zeb and Kallus are 41ish; Pellaeon is 55; Han is 25; Nikolai is 16/17; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 11ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 9
9 – Shamie tells their dads they want to be a Sunpriest, studying with Chirrut in the Haven Temple; if he hasn’t already, Palpatine decides he no longer needs Mother Talzin and kills her; he starts building his power base/collection of client states in earnest - Obi-Wan is 56; Padme is 54; Anakin is approx. 49; Bail is 58; Breha is 57; Palps is 83 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 26; Lavinia is 24; Ezra is 25; Lando is 28; Amilyn is 25; Kanan and Hera are 38ish; Zeb and Kallus are 44ish; Pellaeon is 58; Han is 28; Nikolai is 19/20; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 14ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 12
10 – Leia and Han get married; Lavinia and Lando finally admit that Okay It’s Probably Not Casual - Obi-Wan is 57; Padme is 55; Anakin is approx. 50; Bail is 59; Breha is 58; Palps is 84 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 27; Lavinia is 25; Ezra is 26; Lando is 29; Amilyn is 26; Kanan and Hera are 39ish; Zeb and Kallus are 45ish; Pellaeon is 59; Han is 29; Nikolai is 20/21; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 15ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 13
12 – Jaina is born; Lavinia and Lando probably Officially Get Married or something - Obi-Wan is 59; Padme is 57; Anakin is approx. 52; Bail is 61; Breha is 60; Palps is 86 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 29; Lavinia is 27; Ezra is 28; Lando is 31; Amilyn is 28; Kanan and Hera are 41ish; Zeb and Kallus are 47ish; Pellaeon is 61; Han is 31; Nikolai is 22/23; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 17ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 15
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-2 – Anakin dies. - Obi-Wan is 62; Padme is 60; Anakin was approx. 55; Bail is 64; Breha is 63; Palps is 89 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 32; Lavinia is 30; Ezra is 31; Lando is 34; Amilyn is 31; Kanan and Hera are 44ish; Zeb and Kallus are 50ish; Pellaeon is 64; Han is 34; Nikolai is 25/26; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 20ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 18; Jaina is 3
-1 – Obi-Wan dies, then Padme; Leia becomes Queen (Han is also technically King at this point, crowned and everything, but this is generally considered Leia’s reign rather than Leia and Han’s reign as Co-Consorts) - Obi-Wan was 63; Padme was 61; Bail is 65; Breha is 64; Palps is 90 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 33; Lavinia is 31; Ezra is 32; Lando is 35; Amilyn is 32; Kanan and Hera are 45ish; Zeb and Kallus are 51ish; Pellaeon is 65; Han is 35; Nikolai is 26/27; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 21ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 19; Jaina is 4
0 – Bail dies; Lavinia becomes Queen’s Own; Thrawn Chooses Pellaeon (who is a little bit What about the whole thing) - Bail was 66; Breha is 65; Palps is 91 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 34; Lavinia is 32; Ezra is 33; Lando is 36; Amilyn is 33; Kanan and Hera are 46ish; Zeb and Kallus are 52ish; Pellaeon is 66; Han is 36; Nikolai is 27/28; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 22ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 20; Jaina is 5
1 – Elena and Alysia are born - Breha is 66; Palps is 92 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 35; Lavinia is 33; Ezra is 34; Lando is 37; Amilyn is 34; Kanan and Hera are 47ish; Zeb and Kallus are 53ish; Pellaeon is 67; Han is 37; Nikolai is 28/29; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 23ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 21; Jaina is 6
2 – Baby Anakin is born - Breha is 67; Palps is 93 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 36; Lavinia is 34; Ezra is 35; Lando is 38; Amilyn is 35; Kanan and Hera are 48ish; Zeb and Kallus are 54ish; Pellaeon is 68; Han is 38; Nikolai is 29/30; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 24ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 22; Jaina is 7; Elena and Alysia are 1
4 – Palpatine starts his real push at the Border and so there is War; Lavinia and Rolan go to work building a network through his client-states; Kallus has probably taken Cassian on has his Second by now - Breha is 69; Palps is 95 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 38; Lavinia is 36; Ezra is 37; Lando is 40; Amilyn is 37; Kanan and Hera are 50ish; Zeb and Kallus are 56ish; Pellaeon is 70; Han is 40; Nikolai is 31/32; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 26ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 24; Jaina is 9; Elena and Alysia are 3; bb!Anakin is 2; Cassian is 35ish (maybe a bit older?)
6 – Jaina is Chosen (by Winter) - Breha is 71; Palps is 97 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 40; Lavinia is 38; Ezra is 39; Lando is 42; Amilyn is 39; Kanan and Hera are 52ish; Zeb and Kallus are 58ish; Pellaeon is 72; Han is 42; Nikolai is 33/34; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 28ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 26; Jaina is 11; Elena and Alysia are 5; bb!Anakin is 4; Cassian is 37ish
6/7 – Final battle with Palpatine; Lavinia’s diplomacy fragments his army; Ezra and Ventress and their Semi-Controlled Chaos carve a path; Leia slays him on the field - Breha is 71/72; Palps was 97/98 (but doesn’t look it because Magic); Leia is 40/41; Lavinia is 38/39; Ezra is 39/40; Lando is 42/43; Amilyn is 39/40; Kanan and Hera are 52/53ish; Zeb and Kallus are 58/59ish; Pellaeon is 72/72; Han is 42/43; Nikolai is 33-35; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 28/29ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 26/27; Jaina is 11/12; Elena and Alysia are 5/6; bb!Anakin is 4/5; Cassian is 37/38ish
8 – Poe is Chosen (by Baby/BB-8) and comes to Haven; Breha has probably passed away by now but I’m not sure exactly when - Leia is 42; Lavinia is 40; Ezra is 41; Lando is 44; Amilyn is 41; Kanan and Hera are 54ish; Zeb and Kallus are 60ish; Pellaeon is 74; Han is 44; Nikolai is 35/36; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 30ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 28; Jaina is 13; Elena and Alysia are 7; bb!Anakin is 6; Cassian is 39ish; Poe is 14
13 – Lavinia dies; Finn and Rey are Chosen (by Shaak-Ti and Rolan, respectively) and come to Haven; Rose comes to Haven and she and bb!Anakin enter Healer’s Collegium at the same time - Leia is 47; Lavinia was 45; Ezra is 46; Lando is 49; Amilyn is 46; Kanan and Hera are 59ish; Zeb and Kallus are 65ish; Pellaeon is 79 (and has Retired by now); Han is 49; Nikolai is 40/41; Julyta probably the same or a bit older(?); Shamie is 35ish; Mirah and Orryn are approx. 33; Jaina is 18; Elena and Alysia are 12; bb!Anakin is 11; Cassian is 44ish; Poe is 19; Finn and Rey are 13; Rose is 11
Not in the timeline because Space (and also too many additional characters/ages to add): - Anatole and Ziya probably get married somewhere around when Leia and Han do (year 10 of part 2); he’s 22/23 and she’s about Nikolai’s age. Pavel goes into the Guard at roughly the same time, at 18/19; serves with distinction during Palpatine’s invasion; transitions to spying/covert ops type stuff somehow, working as an agent for whoever the Herald Spymaster is at this point (maybe Cassian? Doubling as Weaponsmaster (when said position is filled by a Herald) makes a lot more sense than doubling as Monarch’s Own, and those are the two we’ve seen…plus it would make sense with Cassian’s canon backstory.)
- Sergey, Alexsi, and Sofya are probably born in reasonable intervals over the next 10 years; Sergey will eventually be Chosen. Spellings on the boys’ names are still subject to change.
- Irene is still a Healer; though she’s a few years younger than bb!Anakin and Rose, probably 4 or 5 when they enter the Collegium.
- Bodhi and Jyn are still a big ol’ question mark (though I'm leaning towards her being the Companion and him the Herald?).
- Baze and Chirrut are around Kallus and Zeb’s age, maybe 5-10 years older. Chirrut is the Priest in the Haven Temple; Baze is retired Guard and currently a blacksmith.
#miscellania#open question night#valdemar au#shadowsong complains about writing#shadowsong writes star wars#shadowsong writes crossovers#au outlines for the win
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1. Name cianna [see-ah-nah]
2. Nationality mexican irish german romanian hungarian french
3. Age 20
4. Birthday december 17, 1999
5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) sun: sagittarius; ascendant: leo; moon: aries
6. Gender female
7. Sexuality uhhhhhhhhhhhh idk but i will willingly kiss either gender
8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) /tagged/my-face or u could just google pictures of fat rats
9. What do you/did you study? I’m currently a sophomore nursing major!
10. What's your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I’m currently a microbiology TA and I love it :) My dream job would be something with animals, like a vet tech or veterinarian
11. Your birth order i’m the oldest!
12. How many siblings do you have? 2 younger brothers
13. Do you have good relations with your family? my mom was my best friend, my dad and i get along better now that i’m in college, my brothers and i get along pretty well & we’re staring to get closer now that they’re getting older n growing up n developing their own personalities lol
14. How many friends do you have? errrr idk this is a hard question. i have a lot of acquaintances but i’d say i have maybe like less than 10 real friends??
15. Your relationship status single :D
16. What do you look for in a SO? funny!!!!!!!!!must be humorous!!!!and sarcastic and a little weird w darker sense of humor so we can laugh n be dumb together!!!!!!! also i would like them to be kind to me and those around them bc mean ppl suck. also they have to like animals. also i would like them to be loyal and trustworthy and 110% in love w me. and for physical stuff idk kinda attractive but NOT CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE like i personally don't really like the typically ‘attractive’ person???
17. Do you have a crush? currently in love w the cute chinese boy who lives across from my dorm room even tho i have never even spoken to him n he is totally unaware of my existence!!!!!!!! hahah oops :D
18. When did you have your first kiss? i mean technically 3rd grade i think but that doesn't really count so like maybe 16????
19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? i mean in the long term i would definitely like to have a serious relationship but at the moment i’m only into casual stuff bc my heart isn't ready to be broken again sknfkjdbnkjd
20. What are your deal breakers? errrr i’m not sure....cheating is a no no, ppl that are interested in fucking every single person they see is a turn off, DUMB PEOPLE like ppl you can't even have a proper conversation with bc they're so DUMB, and ppl who r mean/judgmental/arrogant
21. How was your day? ok! accidentally slept thru my math class but caught a glimpse of my crush across campus when he was abt to smoke a cig and i got chipotle n i online shopped a ton from shein
22. Favourite food & drink deep dish spinach pizza from giordano’s & orange vitamin water
23. What position do you sleep in? i fall asleep on my left side hugging a body pillow
24. What was your last dream about? ate a braid of hair and inside the braid was bacon
25. Your fears not going to make it thru nursing school, not being financially stable as an adult, not having a family of my own, probably more but those r currently top 3
26. Your dreams i don't have any idk....maybe having like a house of my own and having as many animals as i want?? and i would like a loving partner with a daughter of our own
27. Your goals survive nursing school and lose 40 pounds and don't die before my cat
28. Any pets? i have a dog named cherry Cola, a cat named Leto, and a betta fish named Perc
29. What are your hobbies? writing stories about people in love, listening to music
30. Any cool places in your area? in my college town??? NO it sucks. in my hometown??? Not really it’s a small lil village with only restaurants and parks. but at home i’m near downtown chicago so that’s cool i guess
31. What was your last awkward situation? the first thing that comes to mind is my FIRST and so far ONLY encounter with my crush. we live in the same dorm building and i was wearing my nursing scrubs and had no make up on and about to go upstairs to my dorm, and then i heard footsteps and i was like ‘hahaha what if its my crush’ AND THEN HE FUCKIGJNG appeared from down the hallway to go back to HIS DORM [which is RIGHT ACROSS FROM MINE] and i literally STARED at him, then threw open the door and RAN UP THE STAIRS LIKE I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN HOLD THE DOOR OPEN FOR ME AND HE WAS LIKE SO CLOSE BEHIND ME I WAS JUST SO NERVOUS MY FLIGHT OR FIGHT RESPONSE TOOK OVER AND I FUCKING FLED I LITERALLY RAN AWAY FROM HIM I AHTE MYSELF SO MUCH IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!
32. What is your last regret? errrrr idk i regret a lot of dumb things.......
33. Language/s you can speak English n a LITTLE bit of Spanish
34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) i’m really into zodiac stuff and i have got to say they are pretty spot on in accuracy idk
35. Have any quirks? ummmm ofc!!i am the quirkiest person i know hajnjfxbkjx like if u asked my roommates/friends they’d probably be better at answering this than me bc i don't see anything abt me as quirky but they always tell me i am quirky and do weird things but idk man I'm just existing
36. Your pet peeves err idk currently its ppl that constantly brag about dumb shit
37. Ideal vacation somewhere warm with me + the ocean + the loml + unlimited alcohol
38. Any scars? yeah :D both emotional AND physical!!!!
39. What does your last text message say? ‘ok thats a more than fair statement’
40. Last 5 things from your search history how many carbs should i eat, chipotle bowl calories, is the grim reaper the angel of death, ceftriaxone adverse effects, red man syndrome
41. What's your [device] background? lockscreen is a peach-theme background i made and home screen is my weight loss goals
42. What do you daydream about? the characters in my stories.................and being skinny
43. Describe your dream home pretty brick house??? flowers outside??? 3 floors--main floor, basement and upstairs??? 3 bedrooms n 3 bathrooms maybe??? master bedroom has its own bathroom!!! and open concept main floor. big kitchen and very homey n warm all around. as for like an apartment i want something cozy and aesthetically pleasing and warm
44. What's your religion/Your thought about religion i don't have a religion but if ppl do have a religion then thats not my business
45. Your personality type entj but only bc i got 3% extraverted; i am very closely related to intj tho n i think i fit that one better
46. The most dangerous thing you've done uhhhhhh probably operating a vehicle while high out of my mind. definitely the dumbest thing i ever did 0/10 would recommend anyone ever doing that
47. Are you happy with your current life? its ok but it could probably be better. i want to be done w college and skip to the part where i have a successful career and my own home and i can lay up w the loml every night
48. Some things you've tried in your life alcohol???weed??gummy edibles....
49. What does your wardrobe consist of? sweaters/sweatshirts/leggings
50. Favourite colour to wear? black, maroon, peach, purple, gray, idk
51. How would you describe your style? oh jeez idk i wear whatever i want so like e-girl when i really try and basic white girl when i don't care
52. Are you happy with your current looks? no i hate everything about myself lol
53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? more freckles on my face....also be thinner n have longer hair
54. Any tattoos or piercings? my nose and septum are pierced!
55. Do you get complimented often? kinda by my friends but i always yell at them to stop so they don't compliment like as much bc they know i hate it but they still do it sometimes idk
56. Favourite aesthetic? i wanna be an e-girl yo!!!!!!!!!
57. A popular trend that you dislike nobody has a crush on me and i hate it
58. Songs you're currently obsessed with? pied piper by BTS
59. Song you normally wouldn't admit you like. anything by BTS lol i used to like be embarrassed for how much i like k pop but now i don't really care lol #stanBTS2020
60. Favourite genre? rap/r n b/alternative
61. Favourite artist/band/genre? i listen to every genre except country sooooooo yeah i really like billie eilish, BTS, the weeknd, juicewrld, lil nas x, trippie red, post malone,
62. Hated popular songs/artists? i don't rlly like selena gomez or justin bieber or taylor swift
63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 only - RY X i.f.l.y. - Bazzi novacane - frank ocean jungle - drake bang! - trippie redd
64. Can you sing or play any instruments? no and no
65. Do you like karaoke? no but i like to sing along to songs when I'm alone
66. Own any albums? haha noooo i got apple music son
67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? errr RARELY i used to listen to r n b stations tho
68. Favourite movie/series? idk donnie darko?? i also just finished tharntype n that was really good. also i liked tokyo ghoul. AND GIVEN IS REALLY GOOD
69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc i like horror/scary/paranormal/funny movies and i like love stories in books
70. Your fictional crush/es danny phantom, ken kaneki
71. Which fictional character is you? uhhhh idk...
72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so frerard, ryden, taekook, mewgulf
73. Favourite greek god? idk they all kinda suck but maybe hades
74. A legend from where you live that you like i don't really know any:(
75. Do you like art? What's your favourite work or artist? i like to look at art! i think van gogh is cool
76. Can you share your other social media? ig: ciannnna venmo: ciannnna
77. Favourite youtubers? i don't really watch youtubers but maybe shane dawson and emma chamberlain
78. Favourite platform? twitter
79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much time
80. What video games have you played? Which one's your favourite? i once played GTA5 that was fun!
81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) idk i don't really read anymore:/ i was into the hunger games and the twilight series when i was young. now i kinda read online manga and i really liked BJ Alex and killing stalking. and like for online books the unholyverse series, a splitting of the mind, the anatomy of a fall
82. Do you play board/card games? no but i like to play checkers and uno and cards against humanity
83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? nopee
84. Favourite holiday halloween is cool also christmas is alright bc gifts
85. Are you into dramas? i’ve been getting into thai boys love dramas lol sue me
86. Would you use death note, if you had one? um YES.
87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? everyone needs to be a little kinder and have a crush on me
88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? absolutely not I'm not physically fit and don't have useful skills
89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? vampire duh [or maybe ghost]
90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? i want to see my mom
91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? idk something cool ... i love the name Daisy
92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? idk probably kylie jenner
93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo idk the alien? 94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true -im very productive with my time management skills -my favorite color is purple -i don't get nervous when I'm alone in public
95. Cold or hot? cold
96. Be a hero or be a villain? anti-hero
97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? sing if i’m good at it but if I'm not good then rhyme
98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting
99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?immortal
100. ..... or .....? ......?
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List of Future H50 Fic
1) Graceless:
Danny loses visitation/rights until the reassessment of his job adjourns; after discovering Rachel is moving with Stan to Hawaii, he transfers to HPD. No one there knows about Grace (until he knows his fate, talking about her is too painful), not even after joining Five-0.
Until one day, he hears that precious voice say ‘Danno’ and he turns to the best sight in the world: his baby girl.
The bulk of the story will be of that scene, and the events that follow. It’ll have angst, drama, family moments - and pre-Mcdanno. Depending on how long it goes, they may even be starting a relationship. But they are definitely end game.
2) Any Man of Mine:
A combination of Steve things like the song, or the opposite to it. I still haven’t quite worked out all the details for that, but it’s what I’m aiming for. Will start off with a memory of Danny singing along to the song with Grace, and later will have her bringing up the similarities of their song and Steve to Danno, and bonding over that.
It’ll be pre-Mcdanno, but also that lovely trope where they’ve basically been dating for forever, but only one of them really notices it. Which will be Danny! Also, a 5+1 because I LOVE that!
3) Undercover WitSec:
This one is pure indulgence for me. I love the idea of Danny having been undercover when he worked back in Jersey, so in this he’ll have been undercover (thinking maybe with the mob?? Still deciding) and gotten close with a kid (placing this before!Grace, but still with Rachel) and when all is said and done, the kid (an OFC, because I can) is put in witness protection.
Shoot forward however many years, and he’s in Hawaii, and the only ones who know about this girl are Rachel (because she’s a big reason why he wanted a kid) and Grace (honorary big sister no one knows about; why she knows exactly I don’t know?? Haven’t figured that out yet) so when this girl shows up, calling Danny something no one understands in Italian cue the shocked reactions!
The reason she was in witsec is ‘dead’ so she’s back and it’s getting their lives resettled, have some nice pre-Mcdanno going on, then low and behold, the reason is not really dead and we have some action. Ends in established Mcdanno!
4) Serial Revenge:
Thought this one up at work yesterday and I am P U M P E D for it! Still figuring out a lot of the details, so this overview will be even shorter.
Danny is friends with this kid when he’s young, who seems so normal, but one day it’s discovered his parents are dead. Not only dead, but murdered. He has his suspicions about it, but nothing is ever tied together and so the kid (who something is obviously not right about - still figuring out that detail!) is sent to a mental hospital (foster care from there?? Don’t know yet!)
Flash forward and we’re in Hawaii, and there are killing happening that Five-0 dont’ know about until somehow, there’s a Danny connection and HPD calls them in.
Grace is sent away for safety, Danny is living with Steve for the same reason, bodies keep showing up, and it’s a race to figure out who it is, then to prove it AND stop him.
Killer winds up dead in the end, we get Mcdanno happening, and I am so very ready for this fic!
5) Dolled Up Steve:
Steve watching Grace at his house while Danny has to go do - something, and they play tea party and dolls and hey, dress up for the tea party! And when Danny comes back to find Grace doing Steve’s nails, look of intense concentration while she jabs away, and Steve is looking at her like she’s his whole world? So fond and full of love? That is Danny’s ‘oh shit I’m in love with this dumbass moment’.
I have a feeling this will jump from Danny POV, to Steve POV, back to Danny POV.
6) Sunshine & Whiskey:
Follows along with the lyrics that I chose a while back, and most likely will wind up a PWP. Maybe get some lime, maybe get some lemon. Just waiting on it to let me know what we’re doin’!
7) I've Got You Under My Skin:
The sap for this one! Established relationship, living together, and during a tender moment when they’re swaying in the living room/kitchen (haven’t decided;;) along to Frank Sinatra, someone proposes. <3 Then! Another chapter of them slow dancing to the same song at their wedding. <33
8) Pour Some Sugar:
So Danny in a private moment of Rachel’s bachelorette party did a strip routine for her and at a party Kono and Malia find out about it and it turns into him doing a very funny, extra snippet for Kono’s bachelorette party which he then gets to join. No one figures this out until Kono makes a comment about a tattoo that Danny has that’s not exactly public friendly, followed by Danny saying something about bachelorette parties getting crazy.
So Steve and Chin wind up finding out, which of course leads to Steve getting to see the routine in his own private moment, but made different so it’s just for him. And yes, there will be an explanation to why Danny knows how to do a strip routine, lol
9) Pictures Worth:
So Danny overhears Kono and Malia talking about tasteful pictures being done for a wedding gift and tells them “hey, that can be done” And he pulls them aside and shows them photos he took of a high school ex that she had done as a wedding gift for her wife, and “see, tasteful, just do it like that”
They discuss it and he helps them find someone on the island who will do it and be discreet/comfortable. What he doesn’t share is that before he took the ones of his ex, he did practice shots of himself so that he could be sure the gift turned out perfect. No one else knows this - not even Rachel.
I don’t know how Steve and Chin will find out (or why they have to, but I apparently like to involve the team in this set up *shrugs*) and Steve finds out about his private shoot and there’s Mcdanno goodness!
10) Too Close:
Old friends of Danny’s come to the island for a visit, and one night when they’ve had a bit to drink he admits that Too Close by Next makes him think of Steve, talking about the hot and bothered aspect of it - he’s quite smashed at this point. At a party for the old friends to meet the new, Kono and the girl friend (or the girl friend and the guy friend {they’re married!}) are talking about how clueless Steve and Danny are and how they need to get together already etc
Later they’ve had enough and the friend mentions the song mention so Kono sets it as Steve’s tone on Danny’s phone and ‘loses’ the phone so Steve has to call. The rest of the story is dealin’ with the aftermath of that and of course the Mcdanno!
11) It Wasn’t Me:
Danny and maybe Rachel having a normal day when all of a sudden their little angel goes through singing the chorus of the aforementioned song and just flipping their shit.
After finding out that they have Uncle Matty to thank because he thought Gracie was asleep but she wasn’t and having to explain that it wasn’t an appropriate song for her to be singing and something about “Cheating is wrong” so that when Grace finds out about Rachel and Stan and later Danny and Rachel (possibly) its just “so you two are hypocrites” or something.
Essentially I just want that initial freak out, and definitely will be finding some way to put Mcdanno in it!
12) DILF:
So Steve is Grace’s teacher and she overhears him saying that Danny is a DILF and later she asks her dad what that means and the choking on a drink and going bright red and trying to figure out what the heck to do with that, how to answer. The rest is yet to be determined, but of course it will be Mcdanno!
13) Love Bug:
YOU GUYS. I forgot about this one! This is what the title says: people of Hawaii are being bitten by a love bug, and the team is on the case to find out what the heck is going on! The effects can get more dangerous the longer there is no cure, so of course Steve is bitten. Not only that, but he just can’t seem to keep his hands or eyes off of Danny! There’s intrigue, case solving, and awkward I-couldn’t-keep-my-hands-off-you avoidance that all ends in lovely Mcdanno <3
14) Sleepy Prompt #20
“I think your hair is cute when you wake up, if only you could see it the way I did.”
15) Smut Prompt #57
“If we get caught I’m blaming you.”
16) Smut Prompt #59
“Wow, I didn’t realize you were that...flexible.”
17) Whumptober Prompt #7
Isolation
18) Whumptober Prompt #8
Stab Wound
19) Whumptober Prompt #9
Shackled
20) Whumptober Prompt #10
Unconscious
21) Whumptober Prompt #11
Stitches (continuation of day 3)
22) Whumptober Prompt #12
Don’t Move
23) Whumptober Prompt #13
Adrenaline
24) Whumptober Prompt #16
Pinned Down
25) Whumptober Prompt #18
Wake Up
26) Whumptober Prompt #19
Asphyxiation
27) Whumptober Prompt #20
Trembling
28) Whumptober Prompt #21
Laced Drink
29) Whumptober Prompt #23
Bleeding Out
30) Whumptober Prompt #24
Secret Injury
31) Whumptober Prompt #26
Abandoned
32) Whumptober Prompt #27
Ransom (continuation of day 26)
33) Whumptober Prompt #28
Beaten
34) Whumptober Prompt #29
Numb (continuation of day 28)
35) Whumptober Prompt #30
Recovery (continuation of day 12)
36) Whumptober Prompt #31
Embrace
37) Sleepy Prompt #34
“Will you carry me to bed?”
38) 5+1 Mistletoe
Basically the 5 kisses Steve shared under the mistletoe that were platonic and the one that meant the most. Gotta find my notes for this!
39) A.D.I.D.A.S.
A 5+1 esque fic of smut scenes!
So there are the ideas so far! A few have been mentioned in previous posts, I just don’t know how to link them in this one. They will be coming out in no particular order, and it will take one time because I will wind up writing multiple ones at once. It’s just a matter of which one is speaking louder to me!
I hope someone else is excited for this with me, and please, feel free to talk to me about any of them! Honestly I am so pumped to write them all, I can’t wait to get them all started! :D
Edit: July 19, 2019 August 21, 2020
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You know trump has escalated the drone strike program, right? And made it even more opaque? Use google for once - there is reporting out there on what few numbers investigators have been able to find. 238 drone strikes in his first two years. 176 in Yemen in two years vs 158 over all 8 years of the Obama administration. If drone strikes is why you think people shouldn’t vote for Biden you’re absolutely delusional. If you want to see them decrease at all, vote Democrat.
yes and there were only 57 drone strikes under the bush administration? i think there could be multiple factors for that number rising over the past couple decades like developments in tech etc. the dnc is slightly left of the gop but they are still a right-wing party and they LOVE killing brown people for oil money. trump is obviously an addled freak and he makes the us look worse but honestly us imperialism can stand on its own without a crackhead goon publicly lauding it, and i think its a little ignorant to blame an individual for structural problems in our society. im not trying to say that his power is negligible, but i understand his presidency as a SYMPTOM of a greater problem within america. i refuse to believe that a biden presidency would deescalate the drone program and i think its ignorant to attribute the increase in drone strikes solely to party politics.
and im definitely voting for biden in november???? in hopes that ppl like aoc and bernie can successfully move the dnc a bit left??? but i have 0 faith in biden himself and i can still criticise him??? obviously i dont want trump in office but u have to understand that theres only a very slight difference between the two men. i will vote for the more polite warmongering rapist but i am not going to enjoy it.
and thats not the reason im delusional btw
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Another trip booked with ‘Untravelled Paths’ & another success.
This time a 4 night trip to the Puglia region of Italy – The Dolce Vita Puglia Experience
We flew from Luton to Bari with Wizz Air.
It was very cheap, about £70 each return.
It would have been even cheaper had Wizz not done their ‘Roulette Wanker Seat’ routine! Where unless you pay to pick your seats; unlike any other airline who will allocate you seats together – Wizz makes a point of making sure you are as far away from your travelling partner as possible!
So underhand. So out of order.
It is a 4-hour+ flight so is nice to be sat together.
The upshot, about a 1/3rd of the flight’s cost, was paying to sit together!
The saving grace is that overall, it is still cheap for the distance (& the convenience for us from Luton).
We did the lounge at Luton. The basic reason being that I had a credit left on my ‘Priority Pass’ membership which I wanted to use up before it expired.
1st Stop – Matera
The flight was good & when we arrived we were met by our guide Marius. We were the only 2 on our flight & found out there were just 2 more coming & they were on the later Stanstead flight that night.
Off we went to our 1st stop – Matera – It is a city carved into the mountainside. The original dwellings here were effectively caves.
It was quite an impressive place & we saw it first at night all lit up.
Our accommodation was – Residence San Giovanni Vecchio
We had a wander about & up to the main square, then back down to get some food in a little pizza place –
Trattoria Braceria Bellavista di Fedele Manicone
It was a nice little place, the food wasn’t amazing but it was fresh & the wine was cheap! – it was also served in a carafe with wicker around it & with small glasses.
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Standard ‘funny faces’ picture was required. Lisa is getting much better at them!
Lost In Translation
Whilst wandering around we found a bakery (Gran Caffe) that Lisa had seen whilst researching – it was stuffed with loads of dirty cakes!
We ended up asking a bloke behind the counter what was the best – he pointed out what sort of looked like doughnuts but with a bit of custard creeping out of them.
We ordered 2.
Wow! They were gorgeous.
So we then tried to find out what they were called.
One thing I need to say here, which was one of the reasons Italy grew on us, was the fact that most people don’t speak English, just Italian.
I love this. (we Brits are generally shit at languages so for once we didn’t have to feel guilty for this).
This then lends itself to a lot of gesturing & the use of Google Translate!
It is also how we arrived at what we called these – Titty Titty Lemon Cakes!
We ‘spoke’ to a woman & she tried to explain in Italian whilst gesturing to her chest & laughing & saying Limon a lot.
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Wehay! – Titty Titty Lemon Cakes
Loads of Lemon Titties!
Anyway, enough fun for day one & back to the apartment & bed.
The next day we went across the road for breakfast & finally met our other 2 ‘travellers’ – Kamal & Friddy.
Marius met us & gave us the ‘What to do’ rundown in Matera on a map.
We then went almost next door to a shop that had a model of the town so it could be explained further – it is very much a 3D type of place with lots of levels & alleys to explore.
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We did a lot of walking, the place was impressive & the weather glorious (it’s October!).
One of the places you are supposed to go is Casa Grotta which was a look at the ‘caves houses’ presented to you of how they were lived in.
Quite frankly, it was shite!
Throughout Matera, there are various sculptures of Salvadore Dali’s art. Can’t remember if there was a reason for this.
We also came across some a temporary art exhibition whilst we were there – some female sculptures sat in various places & some ‘turkeys’ which were individually designed & painted…..but, to be honest, they just looked like big cocks!
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Dali
Dali
Female Sculpture
Big Painted Cocks
Cookery Class At A Retreat
We all met up late afternoon to go to our cookery class. About a 30-minute drive & we arrived at some grounds.
From what we understood it was like a retreat. It was in the middle of nowhere & looked very nice.
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We made pasta dough from Semolina flour & then went onto make a variety of different shaped/types of pasta.
We also made 2 other dishes, one was made from nearly stale sourdough bread (soaked in water) rubbed with garlic & layered with tomatoes. The other was very similar but mixed with egg and herbs to make balls that were to be fried.
It was quite a laugh doing it with a few breaks so we could get a bit of wine in.
Then we got to eat all of our own stuff. It was pretty good actually & very simple.
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We got back to Matera, went for a quick nightcap & then bed.
Next day, we had breakfast & checked out – we were off to Alberobello
Bread & Focaccia To Die For
On the way though we were going to visit a traditional bakery that still uses a stone oven & only cooks sourdough bread. The place was called DiGesu’
Wow!, both Lisa & I could have died here. The bread looked & tasted amazing.
We got to try the various types of bread washed down with a small glass of red (well I did, it was 10.30 am but they wouldn’t have put it out if they hadn’t wanted us to have it).
The whole thing was very interesting.
A sort of byproduct from this style of baking is the focaccia bread.
They make the focaccia dough & put it in various spots in the oven to test the temperature.
Quite frankly it is one of the best-tasting things I have ever had! So much so that it was what we bought from the bakery to have later for our lunch.
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So we left there & were on our way to Alberobello.
Early Proof Of Tax Dodging
This place is very famous for the type of houses they have – they are called Trulli’s.
They are round in construction & were originally built without mortar/cement.
It is said that part of this style of housing came about as a tax dodge.
Landowners at the time were taxed by how many building they had; so the landowners would get their workers to build these house for them to live in.
When/if they got news of someone coming to check their ‘wealth’ the landowner would instruct his workers to take apart the houses thus avoiding tax.
So we got to stay in one for the night. This was right in the heart of the area where these were best preserved (& funnily enough where the tourists came). They were lovely.
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So off we went for a wander.
The Wine Tour – A Tale Of 2 Servers
Early afternoon we met up again to be taken to a local vineyard for a tour & wine tasting – Yay!!!
The winery was called I Pastini.
It was really nice here, a family-run place in lovely surroundings.
A young lady did the tour around the various buildings & part of the vineyard. It was actually quite interesting and didn’t go on too long which gets a massive tick!
They plant rose bushes at the end of each row of vines here. They do this as if there are pests/bugs etc, they will attack the roses first. This is like having a warning system for their grape crop & so if it happens, they can do something about it.
Simple but effective. I found stuff like this quite interesting.
Some wine tours we have been on are beyond dull.
And let us face it, nobody gives that much of a shit about how it all came about etc – we are there to taste & drink the wine!
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The wine tasting was good – we got a selection of nibbles to go with it.
As I recall we tried 4 or 5 wines.
What I do remember very well (which is where the problem lied) is that 2 people were doing the wine pouring for the tasting.
The side we were on was a woman who had clearly challenged herself to pour so little in the glass that it would have evaporated by the time you went to taste it!
It literally was the smallest amount of wine that could allow you to taste it.
On the other side of the room was the young lady who did the tour & she was making up for our loss with her pours, she wasn’t pissing about!
Kamal & Friddy were on her side & after about 3 they were not finishing theirs & pouring some away ready for the next one. I can’t even get my head around this, but we would have loved that problem!
The result – they ordered a case of wine to be shipped back to the UK & we bought a bottle to take away with us.
You would have thought that most people that own a vineyard & do these type of tours must have realised that if you get people a bit pissed they will get their wallets out.
We would have.
There is no question we would have also bought a case, they were pretty reasonable. Alas, we were sober & therefore could easily rationalise & avoid spontaneous purchases!
We left there, wallet intact, back to Alberobello.
We did a bit more wandering & picture taking; then went to a wine bar to try & rectify the wrong from earlier.
That evening we went to a nice little restaurant, the food was pretty good but I am not naming it. The service speed was a joke & getting the bill at the end was like pulling teeth. Such a shame really,
Next day was time to move again.
We had until lunchtime to wander around the bits we had missed & sneak in a cheeky beer before leaving.
The next destination was our final one in Bari.
On the way, we stopped for lunch at a little town called Locorotondo. We were told to have a little explore before settling down to eat which we did.
Was a very pretty little town with lots of rabbit warren type of streets.
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We wandered around for what seemed like ages looking for somewhere to eat. We googled various places but nothing seemed quite right & most were in these narrow streets which were in the shade.
A Perfect 90 Minutes With Wine, Meat & Cheeses
We finally, just before we lost the will to live, decided to sit at an outside restaurant that we had passed about three times – Controra
Quite frankly, this turned out to be one of the highlights from our trip. We sat there for about an hour & a half and was just perfect.
We had a great view, were sat under a shade (it was proper hot that day) & ordered a bottle of the white wine that was from the vineyard we went to the day before. We also ordered a plate of meats, cheeses & bread. It was all superb.
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It turned out, through broken English & lots of gesturing, that the woman who owned the restaurant/bar was the sister of the woman at the vineyard who was tight with the tastings (who turned out to be the owner’s mother!).
The toilets in this place were a bit quirky. My favourite part was the fact that above the sink there was no mirror on the wall, there was just writing saying ‘You Look Fine‘ which quite frankly is genius.
We left here to go to our next stop.
If we didn’t have to go, we would have happily ordered another bottle of wine, more food & sat here for hours.
Enroute to Bari was another stop, this time to visit an Olive farm – Masseria Brancati
We had the standard tour of the old buildings with old ‘machinery’ AKA massive stones that crushed shit, no big shakes in terms of new stuff.
What was interesting that we didn’t know, was the fact that olive oil used to be called ‘Liquid Gold’. It was the modern-day equivalent of oil i.e. it was used for all sorts of things and thus made it very valuable.
So much so, that they would hide & disguise where the olives were stored and processed to avoid being robbed.
The olive groves here were massive. All the trees were 5 meters apart from each other which was the distance required to make sure each tree got all the light & water it needed without imposing on each other.
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The slightly mind-blowing thing of it all is that all the trees were saw were at least 1,000 years old, quite a few were 2,000 years old & there was one that they had dated at 3,000 years old – so if Jesus did exist, this tree existed well before he did.
….and they are all still producing Olives!
Also, each individual tree is a National Heritage Site – they are all tagged & are monitored by satellite.
What the fuck!
The Buzz Of Bari
We left there and headed to our final destination – Bari. (** – Sidenote story – read at end)
We arrived & went to our B&B – Antipico.
Bari, we were told, was a lively local town.
There are tourists here, no question, but the locals outnumbered by far.
We liked it here and it grew on us very quickly.
We had a quick wander about and got a drink in this really cool little bar – La Ciclatera. It was a small place that had alcoves & stuff everywhere!
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Then back to get showered & changed ready for dinner.
When we went out in the early evening, we got to see what Marius has said about it being lively.
The place was buzzing with people everywhere. It was a Saturday night, yes, but not like you would think.
The big difference was that it was everyone. There were families, groups of young people, groups of older, groups surrounding by kids.
Everyone was out.
People were sat everywhere & anywhere and there was a lot of noise being created by what seemed like the whole community coming out to play.
We had decided to try a place to eat called MareViglie lo Sprofondo
We really liked it here, it was pretty busy but the service was excellent. Again, the lack of English speaking made the asking/choosing more fun.
This was very apparent from our starter order – we thought we had chosen a ‘premium’ platter to share – we pictured it being hams, salami’s, cheese, olives and the like – lovely!
What came out?
3 big portions of raw cold fish! – Salmon, Tuna & Swordfish.
A far cry from what we wanted but actually really nice.
The main course was better but somehow I ordered a pizza which effectively had chips on it & a bit of ham!
Lisa fared better with ‘mouse ears’ pasta.
Despite this, it was a really nice meal & a nice bottle of white.
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Afterwards, we wandered about for a bit; the streets were still full of people & this still included kids of all ages. We went back to our little bar again for a couple of G&T nightcaps.
The next morning we heading for our breakfast. Not quite the same as we had experienced in the 2 other places.
It was a short walk to a cafe where we were eligible for a free coffee & a croissant.
This was supposed to be the ‘Bari’ way……well, quite frankly, we preferred the other way!
Bari On Bikes
We then met up with Marius, Friddy & Kamal. This was going to be a tour around Bari on bikes.
Friddy & Kamal decided they didn’t want to do it. They were going to get a train & visit another town nearby. We said our goodbyes as we wouldn’t see them again.
A shame really as the cycle tour was really good – Velo Service
We saw a lot of places that we had already seen….but this time with some information explaining what on earth things actually were & with some history behind it.
Including Basilica San Nicola which was St Nicholas’s church – he was the patron saint of sailors, prostitutes & children; which sorts of works if you think about it.
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One of the stops has a bittersweet taste to it.
We stopped at basically a woman’s house in a square. she had a little kitchen set up outside.
We were going here to learn how to make pasta again as we did when we were in Matera.
This woman was quite a character, she spoke no English & just shouted for most of the time.
She shouted to her neighbours, to people walking past she knew…but most of the time she shouted at her husband.
Marius & the girl from the cycle tour gave us a running commentary.
She was laying into her husband big time.
Really slagging him off, saying how lazy he was & utterly useless arsehole! (he looked a lot like the character of Manuel in Fawlty Towers).
We sat there in the sun, with a beer & made pasta.
She cooked various things & we tried them.
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We really enjoyed it here, so much that we said to Marius about coming back for lunch, which he arranged.
We did our last bit of wandering & then headed back for food.
We had asked Marius to join us which he did before he had to leave for his flight.
Anyway, we had some lunch, it was like tapas really, a few small plates, nothing mind-blowing.
When we left and asked for the bill, they wanted 50 euro!
Holy shit! How much?!
We did the British thing and paid immediately asking no questions.
Then followed it up with a whole lot of bitching in private.
It did put a bit of a dampener on our last lunch to be honest, but such is life.
Since then I have looked at the Google reviews & a lot of people complain about the ‘Quantity to Cost’ ratio, so it wasn’t just us she stiffed which is nice to know.
Anyway, off we went & found a little bar to get a bottle of white wine & while away an hour or so until we were ready to head to the airport & home.
Another great trip with Untravelled Paths to a lovely part of Italy.
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** – Sidenote Story:
When we 1st arrived in Bari, a friend of mine, Simon (Hells Bells Hols Bols) rang me. I text back to say I was away in Italy & would ring when I got back to the UK.
A variety of texts were then exchanged where it turned out that not only was he also in Italy, he was also in Alberobello! & further to this, he & his wife Rosemary had bought a Trulli! He was actually there having work done!
Gutted!
Had he rung the day before we could have all met up for a beer & seen their new holiday home (which they will be renting out when finished) – you can find it on Instagram – https://instagram.com/trullo_genista
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I decided to answer it all so you can know more bout me maybe
If you’re lazy it’s okay just pass by
1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Closed
2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
Sometimes eh
3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
In?
4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
No thats a bad thing <:0
5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
idk
6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
Yeah, it’s a kind of collection I think
7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
BE RUNNIN
8: Do you have freckles?
acne. a lot of acne
9: Do you always smile for pictures?
No, I don’t like faking smile :-(
10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
haha let’s don’t talk bout it
11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
Sounds dump but yep
12: Have you ever peed in the woods?
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13: What about pooped in the woods?
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14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
No what kind of psychopath do that
15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
yes
16: How many people have you slept with this week?
..5-10.. I just goes a camp thing..
17: What size is your bed?
IDK
18: What is your Song of the week?
......Earth...
19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Yes, it’s okay for girls to wear blue too so why not >:0
20: Do you still watch cartoons?
A LOT
21: Whats your least favorite movie?
every Thai movie ever
22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
With my mom becuz I’m a good bo i
23: If you’re a girl, bra size? If you’re a guy, pants size?
uh 30??? I dun remember :/
24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
I don’t
25: What is your favorite food?
I D O N ‘ T W A N N A E A T
26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Alice in Wonderland....idk why but yeah..
27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?
Now my sis
28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
girls can join boy scouts in TH too so both :0
29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
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30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
In a Thai language exam..yknow
31: Can you change the oil on a car?
Uh no
32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
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33: Ever ran out of gas?
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34: Favorite kind of sandwich?
ham n cheese ah
35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
R I C E
36: What is your usual bedtime?
12.00 pm or even later
37: Are you lazy?
why ask lmao
38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
“We don’t do that here”
39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
dog. Just dog.
40: Are you horny?
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41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
?????????????????
42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
L E G O S
43: Are you stubborn?
sometimes
44: Who is better…Leno or Letterman?
Letterman >:0
45: Ever watch soap operas?
maybe
46: Are you afraid of heights?
YESYESYESYESYEYSYESYESYES S
47: Do you sing in the car?
A LOT
48: Do you sing in the shower?
no (or at least do a lip sync)
49: Do you dance in the car?
sometimes
50: Ever used a gun?
is toy gun counts
51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
1-2 years ago
52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
yes
53: Is Christmas stressful?
.....yes
54: Ever eat a pierogi?
no
55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
A P P L E
56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Teacher, doctors,...etc..
57: Do you believe in ghosts?
I AM THE GHOST
58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Like a thousands times haha
59: Take a vitamin daily?
Nu
60: Wear slippers?
Everyday, everywhere. (even in a wedding or somethin)
61: Wear a bath robe?
Nu
62: What do you wear to bed?
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63: First concert?
A free concert in a Songkran festival
64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
SEVEN - ELEVEN
65: Nike or Adidas?
Nike
66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
CHEETOS
67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds :)
68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
Nah
69: Ever take dance lessons?
No
70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
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71: Can you curl your tongue?
NO
72: Ever won a spelling bee?
Nu :(
73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
No but also yes
74: Own any record albums?
Yes :)
75: Own a record player?
Yes but also no :)
76: Regularly burn incense?
idk
77: Ever been in love?
A LOT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
78: Who would you like to see in concert?
Hatsune Miku would be great
79: What was the last concert you saw?
A concert of some random singer I don’t know bc I din’t listen to Thai musics
80: Hot tea or cold tea?
Cool pls
81: Tea or coffee?
Choco bleach
82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Snickerdoodles mayb
83: Can you swim well?
I ever almost drown to dead so guess what
84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yes but just a bit
85: Are you patient?
up to the situation
86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
DJ 😎😎😎
87: Ever won a contest?
A Chinese hand writing contest.
88: Ever have plastic surgery?
No what kind of 12 yrs old do that
89: Which are better black or green olives?
I don’t eat them idk
90: Can you knit or crochet?
Eh no
91: Best room for a fireplace?
you better not make a fireplace in a room.... okay maybe a classroom is okay
92: Do you want to get married?
:)
93: If married, how long have you been married?
No I haven’t
94: Who was your HS crush?
Don’t have one :/
95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
that’s.....a yeah
96: Do you have kids?
NO
97: Do you want kids?
NO AND ALSO NO
98: Whats your favorite color?
yello
99: Do you miss anyone right now?
@ruzz-0v0 😔😔
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