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Thumbprint AU (aka BSG Soulmate AU) additional ramblings
Last night, I was explaining some of the concepts behind this fic to my roommate. So, naturally, rather than working towards anything I actually am writing/planning to write, my brain was still on that track and fleshing out some of the other details/thinking about some of the Impacts moving forward XD
Brief background, for those who don't actually want to dive into the fic: it's one of the ones I wrote for Year of the OTP, it's a BSG Soulmate AU.
I'm...generally not actually super into soulmate AUs, unless they're baked into the worldbuilding of the story itself (i.e., some fairy-tale retellings trend in this direction; heavily prophecy-based settings; lifebonds in the Valdemar series; the Sun-blessed and shadow in Starless which I'm currently rereading...)
But in this particular universe, I think they're interesting. Not because of the way prophecy and destiny work--in fact, I'm not even really touching on that side of things. Mostly I was interested because of how that might impact any among the Significant Seven, given the culture they exist in. Specifically Caprica and Athena. (I'm writing Caprica/Baltar for the challenge; but there are other soulmate sets I'm interested in.)
Anyway, the rules I came up with:
Not everyone has a soulmate
It is possible to have multiple soulmates 2a. They do not necessarily have to be each other's soulmates
It is possible to have platonic soulmates
The mark is your soulmate's thumbprint; the location varies
The marks appear after both (or all) parties involved have reached an emotional point of no return, which is why it's so inconsistent.
I've picked out five soulmate relationships for this AU, though I'm not sure I'll actually write anything further about them, but just for reference:
Gaius and Caprica
Helo and Athena
Bill and Saul (platonic)
Bill and Laura
Saul and Ellen
Some further thoughts behind the cut
So, starting with Gaius and Caprica - His emotional point of no return is giving her the codes/granting access. - Hers is her confession - This means, as shown in the one-shot already written, their marks appear during/after the chaos of the attacks. - Hers is on her thigh - I did put some thought into the locations of these marks; sometimes there is a level of Meaning that I can articulate, sometimes it's just Vibes. In this case, it's...sort of both? In that it's something that you generally have to be already intimate with her to know. - She notices it as soon as she downloads. - His is on his collarbone - The placement here is that--it's something that's generally covered up, or easy to cover up without looking like you're Actively Hiding Something...but it's also fairly easy to uncover. Once it is, it's something he can explain away (or at least cut off any further questions). For once, by telling the actual truth--his soulmate isn't in the Fleet. (No one's really going to follow up on that.) - This might impact how things fall out between him and Kara. - I'm...actually not sure when he notices. Unless Head!Six points it out, for the first couple of days he might assume it's a random bruise...except it's a pretty specific shape, and then it doesn't fade... - Other potential threads/directions this could go: - Possibly Caprica's alliance with Boomer breaks down faster. Boomer does not have a thumbprint. - This might impact Gaius's relationship with Gina (at least once she's out of her cell/after the actual Pegasus/Resurrection Ship arc; I...don't think it'll necessarily cut through the tangle of Everything Else in the moment, but in the aftermath). - It doesn't really affect things with Head!Six or Head!Baltar, I don't think. They're already...A Lot.
Bill and Saul - So, 95% of the reason why I'm including them is to highlight some of the Rules of this AU (i.e., platonic soulmates are Also a thing; you can have multiple soulmates who aren't necessarily tied to each other as well as you) - Also, it's frankly hilarious to have a cluster where Several of the people involved despise several of the others XD - Bill's mark is on his shoulderblade; Saul's is on his bicep. - Saul's is entirely Vibes; Bill's is because Saul always has his back. - I don't know when the marks appeared, in part because parsing the timelines here is. Complicated. Also don't know the specifics behind their points of no return, but oh well. It doesn't...super matter by the time the series starts, I don't think? - (I am considering adding Felix and Dee to the list as another pair of platonic soulmates, because their relationship definitely could be written that way? But I haven't explored it much/don't have any real thoughts on it).
Bill and Laura - Their point of no return is actually a shared one! It's on Kobol. - They're also (probably) the only ones with a shared point of no return. Make of that what you will XD - Her mark is at the pulse point on her left wrist. - Mostly Vibes here. - His I keep changing my mind on where it should be...any suggestions? - (I love these two, I very much enjoy reading about them; but I don't actually write them myself very often hence not a lot of Fleshed Out Details here)
Saul and Ellen - I'm pretty sure they woke up in their new lives with their marks and it was built into their new personas as a result, but. uh. yeah, who the frak knows, anything to do with the personal timelines of the Final Five is. a Mess. - His is right over his sternum; hers is at the nape of her neck. - Pretty much entirely Vibes here. - They're included in part for some of the same reasons Bill and Saul are included, in part because my best beloved 2000-year-old dysfunctional robot drunks in love (every time I rewatch the series, I like them more and more; particularly Saul), in part because "you guys are horrifically toxic in a way that strangely works; you are perfect for each other; please never involve anyone else in your bullshit.) - (But, of course, other people are involved in their bullshit XD Bill, Sam/Chief/Tory...)
Helo and Athena - Okay, so here's where things could Really Go Places in terms of AU/canon divergence. - Athena's point of no return, obviously, is her decision to take Helo and run rather than sticking with the plan. - His is actually after that, during the confrontation with Kara when he stops Kara from killing Athena. - You'd think it would be earlier, that point where he turns back to rescue her rather than continuing on on his own. There's two reasons why I'm going here: - First, it actually genuinely makes sense to me. There's the complications with (as far as he knows) her prior relationship with Chief. Then there's the whole Reveal. It's not until Kara is threatening her that he has this moment of Clarity and realizes that--whatever else is going on, whatever other complications there are, he needs this Sharon in his life. One way or another. No matter the cost. - Second, it's for Storytelling Reasons, which I'll come back to in a second. - Both of their marks are actually visible unless they are Actively Covering Them Up. - Athena's is on the back of her hand. - Helo's is on his cheekbone. - Which brings me back to the second point for putting Helo's point of no return where it is. - Because the marks appear once both parties have crossed that line. - Which means Kara actually sees Helo's mark appear. - Obviously, this has a huge impact on everything when they get back to the Fleet. - The first instinct, of course, is that the marks are fake--tattooed on or something. - But Kara actually witnessed when Helo was marked. - Also, any infiltration attempts by Athena get. A little more complicated. - ...I don't actually have a plan or anything, lol, just. Hoo Boy That Changes Things.
...so, yeah, that's where I am. XD I don't know that I'm actually going to write any of this (I have other projects that interest me more), but I figured getting it down on paper, so to speak, and out of my head was a good place to start!
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KimCom in a Batfam AU
Kim Dokja: Batman
I donât care that heâs more like Catwoman personality-wise. He is just as much of a serial adopter as Bruce
Yoo Joonghyuk: Catwoman
The Punisher
Han Sooyoung: the (LegoBatman) Joker
Or Harley Quinn so she can pair with Sangah
Lee Jihye: Stephanie Brown
Teenage girls with reluctant respect for the team leader. guys câmon
Lee Gilyoung: Dick Grayson
Eldest Daughter Syndrome đ
Shin Yoosung: Damian Wayne
They both like animals. Otherwise, Cassandra Cain
Biyoo: Jarro
They act the same. Look at Jarroâs dialogue and tell me Biyoo wouldnât say the same things
Kim Namwoon: Jason Todd
Edgy (reflections of Kim Dokja/Batman that are somewhat resented because of the similarities). Dead. Stayed in Hell for a bit.
Han Donghoon: Tim Drake
Heâs part of KimCom and I will fistfight you if you say otherwise. This is fanon Tim Drake, but itâs okay. I could also say Barbra Gordon, butâŚ
Jang Hayoung: Barbra Gordon
The Wall of Communication + her standing with Kim Dokja
Lee Seolhwa: Leslie Tompkins or Talia Al Ghul
Depends on if sheâs hood or âevil.â The only difference is that she dates Catwoman instead of Batman if sheâs Talia. If sheâs good, Anna Croft is Talia
Yoo Sangah: Poison Ivy
VibesâŚ
Jung Heewon: Wonder Woman
LOOK AT HER
Lee Hyunsung: Superman
LOOK AT HIM
#lmk if you disagree#these are rough outlinesâŚif I had the motivation I would write it#I NEED PPL WHO HAVE HYPERFIXATED ON BOTH PLEASE#I couldnât add Duke Thomas because unfortunately#Batman beats Kim Dokja by 1 (one) orphan#no he doesnât actually. I js thought Babs would fit Hayoung better#dokja: 7; bruce: 7 legally#if you count Steph he wins#ugh#orv#dc comics#orv x Batfam#kim dokja#orv crossover#orv batman au
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Only Children
Barbara has been the last Bat in Gotham for two weeks when her surveillance finds Jason. It is a long-forgotten but somehow still operating security camera in a grainy corner of Gotham that tips her off. Settling in for another long day in, ironically, the Jason Wayne Gotham Public Library, founded almost ten years ago, Barbara immediately receives a notification that one of her searches found a match.
Usually she keeps her day work separate from her night work, for both security and personal mental health reasons. Lately sheâs been slipping. For the past two weeks, her mind has slowly been consumed by a burning call to find them find them find them bring them home.
âPlease be real,â Barbara says to anyone, any higher power listening. Her laptop itches in her lap as she abandons her desk in the library and heads to a back room, where she can conducts her investigations with more secrecy.Â
The stale air of the back room greets her with a swirl of dust as the door slams shut behind her. Barbara wheels herself to the low desk and boots up the desktop. If this notification is a trap from someone who knows or suspects her identity, she wants her personal laptop safe. From the desktop, she opens the surveillance footage that tipped off one of her automatic searches.Â
Last night, 4:34 am. West Murray Road. A southbound van (white, no license plate) pulls to the curb. People dressed in all-black clothing spill out of the east-facing doors. There are no distinct features amongst any of them, save for one. He is wearing a white workout shirt, stained deep brownish red in too many places to count, and ripped jeans. The footage is incredibly blurry and grainy due to the time of night and the quality of the camera, but the manâs arms are behind his back in an awkward position which indicates that they are being forcibly kept there. Two of the people wearing black press close to his sides, adding credence to this theory.Â
Over his head is a black bag.Â
Barbara isnât one for fits of emotion, but the past few months are driving her to extremes. She pauses the video. Breathes in. âPlease be real,â she repeats. âPlease.â
A mantra that reveals her worst fears: if sheâs hoping that this kidnapped, endangered individual is one of the Bats, whatâs the worst-case scenario?Â
4:35 am. The hooded man suddenly drops to the ground and rolls backward. His arms flash to the sky. They contort out of something bright and silver. Dislocated joint, Barbara thinks while the horrible, fearful hope mounts. His hands slide around his neck until they find something. A moment later, the bag is off his head. His feet are carrying him backwards.Â
But the people in black are coming. And the manâs blind, backwards flight has carried him into a brick wall on the opposite side of West Murray Road. His head scans the street. His eyes find the camera, which the people in black missed, and for one dreadful moment Barbaraâs surveillance footage has a perfect 480p view of his face. This is the moment that flagged the searches currently running on every camera that Barbara has access to.Â
Jasonâs mouth makes the very distinct shape of the letter O. The people in black pile on him like wolves on a wounded deer. He goes down fighting.Â
4:54 am. The people wearing black drag him across the street and disappear into a building on the east side.Â
âOh God. Oh my God.â Barbara pauses the footage and allows herself twenty-three seconds of resting her face in her hands and just breathing. Then she gets to work.Â
The basic problem is as follows: Barbara has no idea who has Jason.Â
The building on West Murray Road is an abandoned liquor store; Barbara can find no sign of legal use since 2019. She can, however, find a long history of mysterious white vans dropping off mysterious customers at that very spot, for at least a year. Clearly, itâs an organized crime group that has Jason. But most Rouges of Gotham are leaders of organized crime groups, including Jason. Red Hoodâs band of merry men are slowly falling apart with the sudden disappearance of their leader, but thatâs the least of Barbaraâs worries. Hell, even the Bats fall under the category of âorganized crime.âÂ
The underlying problem is that Barbara has absolutely no support. She is the last Bat left in Gotham since Jason disappeared. Before that, it was Barbara, Steph and Jason. Steph disappeared on an ill-fated solo rescue mission to save Cass. Right now the best Barbara can hope for is that sheâs still alive.Â
If Barbara runs a rescue operation now, itâll be blind, alone and chair-bound. If she fails, she will be exposing the last remaining hidden member of Gothamâs BatsâOracleâto the criminal world. To date no one has come looking for Oracle, which means none of the Bats have given her up.Â
She doesnât know who has Jason, what state Jason is in, or what obstacles she can expect to face. These are the exact reasons why she and Jason told Steph not to rescue Cass just yet. Now the situation is even worse: Barbara is the last one left free, the last one still in Gotham.Â
But what other choice does Barbara have?Â
--
Izzy stumbles upon the package on a dismal Sunday afternoon. Itâs a black box large enough to hold a pair of shoes, resting in a suspiciously-colored puddle on the side of the street. The surface is shiny, and when Izzy pokes it, she canât tell what the material is. Izzy turns the box over, ignoring the suspicious liquid running down the sides. Itâs not poisonous. Probably. Thereâs a button built into the bottom side of the box. Immediately, Izzy is suspicious; nothing this nice sticks around the Bowery for very long.Â
Against her better instincts, Izzy presses the button. She leans back as the lines appear along the sides of the box and it hisses open. Inside the box is mostly empty, save for a small pile of cash in $20 bills, and a tiny metal something.
âI have a job offer for you,â says a mechanized voice.
Izzy grabs the cash and kicks the box away. Heart pounding, she stands up, backs up, and watches in morbid fascination as the box bumps harmlessly against the curb. Thatâs good, right? Thereâs no person, just a voice and an empty box which is far enough from Izzy that she could probably run away if gas starts coming out of it or something. She turns over the wad of USD in her hand. Maybe itâs coated in a poisonous substance. Anything could happen in Gotham, and Batman hasnât been seen in months. The villains are getting bolder and bolder.Â
âItâs just cash,â says the mechanized voice. Whatever filter that voice is using makes it clear that the voice belongs to real person, but also obscures any identifying features.Â
Izzyâs head jerks up from the cash. She narrows her eyes at the box. âAre you watching me?â
âYes,â says the voice, refreshingly honestly. âItâs just upfront cash. If you take the job, thereâs a lot more on the other side.â
The thing is. Just because Izzy knows better doesnât mean that she doesnât need money.Â
âWhatâs the job?â
âLetâs take this inside,â requests the voice.
Izzy glances up and down the street. On one side is an abandoned dock house where Izzy spends too much of her time. On the other side are a couple of run-down buildings which may have real stores or may have fronts for less-than-legal businesses. Whoâs to say.Â
âWhatâs the job?â Izzy repeats. She approaches the box again, lying innocuously open on a cracked Gotham curb. Gingerly, she reaches into the box and picks out the tiny metal thing. When she puts it in her ear, the mechanized voice speaks up again.
âDelivery,â says the voice succinctly. It is much quieter in her ear. Izzy supposes this is one way of making sure no one is eavesdropping.Â
âWhatâs the catch?â
âItâs dangerous,â the voice says promptly, continuing the trend of suspicious honesty. Izzy sincerely hopes that this honesty is not a cover-up for a worse truth. âBoth the handling and the drop-off.â
âHow much you offering?â
âTen thousand grand.â
$10,000 just for an errand. Izzy thinks she might be sick. Surely this is too good to be true. Really, she just needs some medical bills covered. The problem is that she doesnât yet know how much money sheâll need. If she tells this mystery person, maybe she can get all her expenses covered rather than get $10,000 in cash. On the other hand, thatâll hand her identity over to this person. Who has already admitted to watching her. Ah, screw it.
Izzy picks up the empty box. She brushes her hair in front of her shoulders, so that it covers the earpiece. âCan you cover medical bills or does it have to be in cash?âÂ
Familiar Gotham sewage smells follow Izzy onto the next street. She hears the very faint sound of typing from the earpiece. So there really is someone on the other end.
âI can get someone to lend a hand.âÂ
Izzy squeezes her eyes shut and pictures it. Every inch of stress thatâs been weighing her down, every worry, down the drain, wiped away. Itâs ridiculous. This is Gotham. Even it it wasnât, itâs too good to be true. Izzy knows better than this. She had her dumb teenage years but this would be the stupidest thing sheâs ever done.Â
It is an unusually warm November day, but Izzy pulls her fuschia sweater in tight. âWhat do you need me to do?â
--
Brian doesnât believe in second chances or coincidences. Nevertheless, heâs taking this thankless, illegal guard duty grunt work because heâs fully out of options. They say his employer doesnât give second chances. Itâs also awfully coincidental that this off-the-books guard duty has him loitering outside some run-down storefront off West Murray Road. He used to live on this street, though much further north.Â
âWhat dâya think weâre guardin?ââ Asks Rocky, Brianâs fellow guard who named himself after the movie.Â
âNone of our business.â Brian throws some sort of pebble at Rocky, who only looks at him in some mixture of boredom and disgust.Â
âHeard someone screaminâ last night,â Rocky continues.Â
âShut the fuck up and donât ask questions if you wanna live,â says Brian, keenly aware of how Rockyâs voice echoes through the abandoned street. West Murray Road doesnât get much love from Gothamites, and even less at night. The most entertainment Brian has seen all this time is two rats fighting.Â
âAlright, calm your tits, Iâm just bored as hell, man,â Rocky defends. âNothing interesting ever happensââ
âHey.â
Both Brian and Rocky jerk out of their distracted, half-asleep slouches. Thereâs a woman with a purple(? Pink? Red?) sweater standing right in front of the door theyâre supposed to be guarding. Sheâs wearing a mask, but thatâs pretty normal. Itâs Covid-19 season, after all. They fail to look down and see the small package at her feet. Their attention instead falls to the black box in her hands.Â
âI have a delivery?â The woman motions with the box in her hands.Â
Rocky and Brian both jerk back, hands fumbling for weapons while they attempt to get a clearer picture in the near total darkness.Â
âThis some kinda joke?â Brian snaps.Â
âUh.â The woman backs up a step. Maybe Rocky took out his gun. âListen, Iââ
BANG.
A horrible, indescribable scent slams into Brianâs nose so hard it shoots all the way into his skull and rattles his brain around. Vaguely, his eyes observe the woman adjusting another mask, a gas mask, under her K95 mask as he collapses to the sidewalk. Then he blacks out.Â
Barbara is moving her drones before the two guards hit the ground.Â
#batfam#my writing#my fanfiction#barbara gordon#jason todd#antebunny's ficlets#another abandoned work#it was gonna a villains win AU comprised solely of batsibs rescuing each other#like rarepairs but for siblings (or sibling adjacent)#like barbara and jason#steph and damian#dick and cass#abandoned it cause i ended up writing part of tim's arc for my amnesiac tim fic 'the second worst thing to ever happen to those orphans'#and cause i just couldn't justify cutting out all the batfam friends#like starfire wouldn't let this fly holy crap#just checked my outline for this fic is 3.7k lollll#my google doc of batfam fic ideas is just over 80k howww#that's 20k more than my original work#i was so happy it passed 60k and that immediately got overshadowed by the damn ideas doc#QAQ#it do be like that#OH and i almost forgot:#inspired by this amv#https://youtu.be/xKUX9wGgINM?si=4SRiJWn4n-LsM78V#so well edited incredible match on action i really thought it was real for a sec
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The near-irresistible urge to immediately begin writing the next story in my Stitch series VS the knowledge that I should take a break and prepare for nano so I donât burn myself out⌠which will winđ¤
#Iâve been working on the outline for the next story#and my god itâs SO tempting to start writing it immediately#but also#itâs looking to be LONG#like maybe the longest yet?#and I kiiiiinda want to work on my original novel for November#and Iâm also doing LUtoberâŚ#common sense will probably win but grrr frustrating#Iâm a little obsessed with writing#faye talks#faye rambles#stitch au
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should i rewrite my first L x reader fanfic as oc x canon or keep it x reader
#txt#poll#no matter what wins i will do whatever i want#im just curious to see if anyone votes... and what they may pick#L#self ship#ive started redoing the outline and omg... its so fun typing on my laptop#i prefer it sm#but yah#watching L die again :( i want to make my 12/13 yo self happy with her no kira aus#of course the notebook is in both of them... just used in diff ways. AND NOT BY STUPID LIGHT đĄ
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being in uni while writing a super long fic is kinda perfect for me because I have Uni Resources TM like constant access to whiteboards and a study room I can spend days in at a time
#i work for 18 hours. shower. sleep for two hours. go back to the same study room#wall to wall floor to ceiling whiteboards my beloved#oh you need to see a visual timeline? i gotchu#you need to plan an arc in one coherent line with flow? gotchu#you need to organize what every character in a scene is doing and why visually? i gotchu#outlines? done#motivations? done#character arc maps? already there babe#whiteboards for the win#if chalk wasn't a Bad Texture it would be chalkboards#song being loud#mando skywalkers au
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Opinions on the other serpentine generals/tribe leaders?
My main opinion on Fangtom is that he has the silliest name in all of ninjago and I respect him for it. Also that the two heads thing was handled weirdly? Like why they didnât just make the heads be like bickering twins I will never know, but the completing the other headâs sentences is just annoying imo.
I also donât have many thoughts on Skalidor, but he also strikes me as the kinda guy that doesnât have many thoughts in his head anyways so
And pythor is a gaslight gatekeep girlboss but also incredibly cringe fail if that makes any sense
#agathaneutral#thanks for the ask!#me and hazellum are getting really close to finishing the outline of the bog shrooms au#and skalidor does get a minor role in it so win#ninjago#camish blabbers#serpentine
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#polls#tumblr polls#mha#fanfic#kiribaku#bakugou katsuki#kirishima eijirou#midoriya izuku#the two krbk fics would be outlining#deku fantasy au would be starting the rewrite of the fic I posted last year#and the oneshots will just be writing prompts or smaller ideas I have saved to ease back into writing#technically the oneshots will be the first thing(s) posted but whatever wins will be what I work on this weekend when I get time#traveler writes#traveler speaks
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attached | ghost x f!reader
i have no idea what it is that binds us together. but it doesn't really matter.
type: one-shot (8.4k)
cw: zombie apocalypse au, mature language and content, suggestive language and content, dark!ghost, dark!reader, reader described as curvy/plus-sized + has hair long enough to braid, graphic depictions of violence + murder + gore, depictions of suicidal thoughts + intentions (no actual action), mentions of depression + sadness + loneliness, depictions of assault + harassment (not by ghost), horror movie vibes, unprotected piv, allusions to baby trapping, cumplay, oral (fem!receiving), 18+
Death can be a curious thing. It used to be something definitive. Exact. It used to mean the end of something.
No, now it's a beginning. Not a sweet beginning, but a beginning nonetheless. It turns a new tide. Reactivates cells that were once dead. Sparks nerves that used to be dormant, that used to be dark. It makes muscles move even when they aren't supposed to. Brain-dead, but still hungry.
He hasn't been able to understand the phenomenon quite yet. He's tried. He's picked up a few books and tried to do his own research, but it's difficult when there is no way for him to view the cellular structure of it all on a micro-level. He cannot see the way it grows or how it takes over. He hasn't been able to figure out what techniques it uses to keep a body awake even when the central organs no longer function the way they're supposed to. What keeps it moving? What keeps the feet running and the stomach hungry and the saliva warm?
Why is it that when he plunges his blade through its heart, it still kicks? The brain is its engine, as with his own body, but this is different. The brain runs even when it has lost its necessary components. Blood circulation, oxygen, the things it needs to thrive; but this state of being is not like his own. It doesn't need the same things it used to need because its purpose is not to keep a body running. Its purpose is to eat. To infect. And that is all.
He likes to play games these days. He has a lucky silver euro, one he pried off the dead body of someone that he hated. He spit on that body before raiding his pockets. He hated that fucking brute; he disgraced the style of wearing a mask by using a fucking t-shirt instead. Perhaps Austria is a beautiful country, but it certainly produced one of the most unlikable of men. He thinks even if the world was still right-side up, he would've killed him anyway. The only thing useful about him was that he was carrying a few extra magazines and this coin in his front pocket.
Every morning, when he wakes up, he makes whatever will happen that day a game. If the coin lands on heads, he gets to kill himself today. If it lands on tails, he has to endure 24 more hours before he can play again. The rules are simple. The game is easy. Everyone knows how to play it, but not everyone will like to win it.
Today, he decides to do something different. Today, he decides if he wins, he will wait another day. He has never won this game; he decides if he can't win it, he'll manipulate it until he gets what he wants.
It hits the table with a light clink. It rattles around in a few circles before settling, and when he leans back in his chair, he sighs. He knows what it will be even without looking, but he looks anyway. When he sees the carved outline of its face-side up, his eyes flash. He won.
He never wins.
Something is keeping him here. He chooses not to ask questions. There isn't anyone to ask anyways. No one answers when he speaks. He doesn't think there is anyone left to listen.
If someone would ask him why he doesn't just put the muzzle to his temple and pull the trigger, he would just say that it was because that was how the game is played. Those are the rules. He can't try unless that's what it tells him to do. There is no fun in cheating the game; it wouldn't be proper, it wouldn't be correct. It would be grounds for disqualification, and that just wouldn't do, not for him.
He has to do things the right way. Always. It's how you keep order in a world that has none left. It's how you maintain structure even without the lines drawn in the sand. This is the way things are done; God is not waiting at the end of a very long staircase, He is rattling that coin on the table and waiting for Ghost to take a peek.
He thinks it keeps landing on tails because perhaps God is tired of playing this game with him; Ghost has never been surprised. He will always be ready for disappointment. Giving a gift is no fun when the recipient simply receives it.
It landed on heads today. He won the game. He tried to play it differently, but someone won't let him.
There's snow on the ground this morning. It snowed all night, coating the ground in a few inches of powdery ice. He looks away from the window and back towards the mirror, continue to run the razor over his head. His blonde hair falls in clumps in the sink. He keeps it neat and short, close to the head, and then he does the same with his face. He cuts the stubble close, keeping his face clean, but it doesn't wipe away the rest of his face, the things he can't just cut away. The scars, the ridges, the skin that closed over wounds angry and white and uneven. He can see his teeth through the broken skin above his lip, the yellowing of them now that he only brushes them a few times a week with his lack of proper toothpaste, and he grimaces when he sees the new red spots of raised skin left behind from the dirty mask he wears now. He dips his toothbrush into his bottle of water before brushing, careful to scrub his gums properly before spitting into the sink.
When he finishes, he makes his way back into the bedroom to get dressed. He did the washing yesterday; he found a creek only half frozen over, and he made use of the bar soap he keeps and managed to clean off most of his clothes. He feels a little better slipping into his cargos now that they aren't drenched in sweat or dirt. He tucks a long-sleeve into his pants before putting a thick windbreaker on over it, but he finally feels complete once he slips his mask on over his face. In the mirror, he adjusts it, making the skull straight, and he blinks back at himself. The mask does more than just hide him from the dead.
It keeps the living walking a careful circle around him, and he wants to keep it that way. He hasn't spoken to a single person since it began. He stopped counting the days once his boots ran out of space for notches. Anyone he sees now, he scares them off with one look, or he puts them down before they can take a step closer to finding out if he's real or not.
He doesn't take chances. He has always had a special skill, being able to sniff out the bullshit before it begins. He leans into it now, and it isn't a bullet wasted if it stops the chaos before it can wind up.
He still wears his tactical gear. He can't part with it. His holsters have not failed him, still buckled around his thighs. His vest is still strapped on, and without it, he feels naked. He has long since discarded of the Union Jack patch on his chest; there is no king nor country anymore. They are colors in different shapes, and they mean nothing now; they were buried a long time ago.
His backpack feels light. He's running out of bullets, and he doesn't like how it feels. Nowadays, he has to go further and further to get what he needs, and recently, he's taken to picking up everything and simply moving to make the trips all the easier with no home to go back to.
It's not all that different to the life he had before. He never stayed in one place too long then either. He signed the shortest leases, and he would move once it was up, never lingering and never buying more things than he could carry in the back of his truck. His memories are in his head and nowhere else. He keeps no trinkets. He saves no pictures. There is nothing from the old life that needs to be brought into the new. He shifts between both lives, one foot in the past and one in the future, and he thinks that's what really makes him live up to his name.
He's a Ghost. A drifter. Standing between two places at the same time, not knowing which to stay in and which to leave. It would hurt, if he was really human inside, if he could feel anything at all.
But he's not. His insides are nothing but organic matter. His head is a clock, ticking, counting down, but he's not aware of when it runs out.
He digs the heel of his boot into the snow to gauge the depth. It barely comes up over his toes. He huffs a little before taking a peek at the map tucked into his vest. He had circled a place just north, a main street he is hoping will have a stash of things he will need.
Ammunition. Weapons. Food. Water. A new book, for fuck's sake, maybe a Sudoku puzzle that isn't already scribbled into.
The forest gives him cover, so he sticks to it. Out in the open, he would stick out, dressed in all black. He keeps to the trees, ducking under the leaves and trying not to leave too much of a track behind. He doesn't plan on staying in that cabin again, but if he must, he doesn't want anyone seeing a way to come back to it.
The one thing he does appreciate about this new place is the quiet. It lingers, and it's calm, and when he breathes, the world breathes back. He feels like he had always been telling everyone to shut up, but now, his voice hasn't been used in months. Even when he passes other people, he doesn't speak to them. If they don't spot him, he keeps to the shadows, and if they do, they don't see him for long enough to know what hit them.
It's a good stash. The store had been rifled through by now, but in the office, there had been a nice drawer filled with supplies. A few boxes of ammunition, a revolver, and a new blade to stick in one of his boots. He picks up some other odds and ends. Batteries. A roll of yarn. A small sewing kit. A few pens. His backpack feels a little heavier, and it's a weight he appreciates when he makes his way back outside.
He sticks to the alleyways as he searches for the roof over his head for the night. He decides the cabin he slept in last night was too close to the road; if anyone was driving or following it, they could find that place too easily, and he wouldn't be able to sleep another night comfortably there knowing this truth.
He finds himself veering off road just enough. It's fucking cold, freezing, and he's grateful to the mask for helping him keep it together as he ducks under the wind and keeps an eye out for any nearby landmarks. Sometimes, on slow days like this, he would sit on a ridge and kill infected for sport. Practice focusing his sight, calculating the wind, keep his mind in check by hitting his targets and ridding the world of another one of those things.
There are different kinds of hunters out today.
He hears them before he sees them. He knows what kind they are when he hears their laughter. Low and untamed, sloppy and fucking messy. They always are. These kind spoil their treasures. They eat their food until it makes them sick, and then they do it all over again. They never learn their lesson.
When he settles his rifle down along a fallen tree, he eyes them through his scope. There are two of them. Both are fattened, with dark hair and lazy eyes, and they look greasy. Their clothes are in ruins, and their packs are light, and Ghost figures that they look enough alike to be perhaps brothers, or maybe cousins. Their smiles are equally as sadistic. The taller one tugs something along, and when Ghost aims the scope down a little, he sees her.
Her.
He's dragging her by her legs. She's kicking, but it's hard for her to do much when her arms and legs are bound by mismatched bits of fabric and rope. She's crying, that much is clear, squirming as she spits and gargles around the gag in her mouth as she tries to break free. She has heart, but she isnât a fighter. If she was, she wouldâve realized her teeth could snap that fabric of her gag, and she would know that the knot theyâve tied succumbs easily to upwards pressure.
He follows them. They keep going, dragging you and laughing as they make it to a makeshift camp hidden amongst a clearing. There's a few tents set up, a small dip in the earth to hold a campfire, and when they settle on tree trunks to sit, the smaller one takes a blade and cuts your gag off, leaning over you with a low chuckle. They mean to maim and to take and then to kill, and you know this when you look into his eyes.
"Hello, darling."
"Bite me."
He laughs again, dropping onto his knees over you, but when he gets close enough, you sit up with what little strength you have and bite him along his ear. The cartilage rips, and you tear half his ear off, and then he's scrambling off of you, screaming, holding the side of his head as he rolls around in circles in the snow. He colors it red, and you snarl with satisfaction. Ghost takes a deep breath in and lets it out shakily. The look in your eyesâhe can taste that, roll it around on his tongue. You did not clock the poorly-tied knots, but you do see opportunity, and you are the kind to take it.
"You bitch!"
Just as the taller one is about to get on top of you, Ghost decides he's seen enough. He closes one eye, lines up the sight, and he lets out a cool breath as he drops the both of them within a second of each other. They fall easy; a bullet clean through the back of their heads, and now they're finally quiet again. They will not get up, either.
Your lip trembles as you look towards the trees. You watch as the leaves rustle, and when you see a man emerge from the thick of them, you start to cry. You think maybe you're seeing things; you must be so dehydrated, so hungry, that a reaper has come for you, and you are much deader than you thought.
The reaper stares down at you curiously. He swings his rifle over his shoulder, tilting his head to the side as he bends, getting a blade out of his boot before he cuts the restraints that bind you. He doesnât hesitate when he does this; he does not deem you enough of a threat to keep you bound.
You sit up slowly, wiping your face, and when you meet his eyes, you're surprised to see how human they are. They're dark, but alive, and he has blonde lashes and pale skin underneath. He covers himself, but you can still see him. There's a man under there, not a reaper.
Just a man.
I hate men.
You shake off the rest of the restraints, turning your wrists and ankles and flexing your muscles for good measure. When you realize you are nothing but a little shaken up, you look back up. He's still staring at you, hard eyes lowered in a glare as he looks you over. He's sizing you up, maybe, deciding what to do with you. You meet his eyes one more time before gathering the saliva into your mouth and spitting onto the floor. It's a garbled mess of blood, from the flesh you had severed from that man.
He blinks slowly at that, makes some decision that he doesnât voice out loud, and then he starts to walk away.
You stand on shaky legs, taking it as your cue. You watch as he rips open the flimsy tents that those men had left behind, and he's already grabbing backpacks and rifling through them for goods. He already starts filling his own vest and backpack with the things he finds; some flashlights, fishing line, more food and ammunition. You follow him, moving to the other tent beside it and starting to grab their things and toss them outside. You get to your knees and open the packs, laying out what you find carefully. They have interesting materials in here, ones you associate with explosives. C4. Lighters. Batteries. Wiring. You clench your jaw when you pull out the last box in the bag.
Condoms.
Bunch of pricks.
He finds your discoveries useful. He opens up an empty pack he found and fills it to the brim with supplies. When he zips it up, your stomach drops when you think he might toss it over his shoulder and leave. It only sinks for a moment before he turns the backpack around, holding it up for you.
You pause for a little and think. It only takes a few seconds for you to decide to stand up and slip your arms through the straps.
When he walks again, you follow.
The sun is setting by the time you find somewhere to sleep, but it looks like luxury to you. A quaint little brick house tucked between the hills, a ways from the road and positively hidden. He spotted it through his scope a few hours ago, and he made a beeline for it. It's difficult to keep up with him; he has incredible stamina and the longest legs. He moves like a ghost, too quiet for his own good. You would never know from looking at him how stealthy he could be. For such a huge man, you would never notice him before he could get the drop on you. It makes you conscious of your own steps and how loud they are, and you try to mimic the way he moves as you keep walking.
You don't know why, but you think he must be very pleased with how quiet you've gotten. You don't know why that fact pleases you, too.
He makes you stay outside when you arrive. He pulls a small handgun out of his backpack, and he checks the chamber before handing it to you. He clicks his tongue, forcing your eyes on his, and he puts a finger to his mask-covered lips, telling you to keep quiet. You take the gun from him, pointing it at the ground and holding it at your side, and he touches a knuckle under your chin before he twists a silencer onto his own gun.
You watch with rapt attention as he clears the house. His movements are quick and calculated, and he keeps low to the ground. It's mesmerizing. Big and capable, one with the shadows. The only thing you see in the dark is the white of the skull over his face, and if you didn't know it was him, you would think that you have just seen God.
But God isn't real. Apparently ghosts are.
He is back outside in less than ten minutes, nodding his head at you. You take it as your cue to come towards him, and you hand him the gun back when you pass him. You go into the house and immediately start to light some of the candles scattered around. You set your backpack down, rubbing your shoulders out, and you take a seat on the couch.
It hits you then, the gravity of it all. Men are your captors, and then they are your savior. They'll never leave you alone. They'll never let you go. You were ruled by their iron fist in a previous life, and you will endure their wrath in this new one.
You start to cry. It's the first sound you've made since screaming. You cover your face with your hands, and you don't know why you feel safe enough to cry, but you do, and it comes out of you fast.
He tilts his head to the side as he watches you. It's a strange thing to see something so...alive. He's used to only seeing things moving that can't speak back to him. If he does see things alive, he puts them down as if they are rabid dogs.
He can't find it in himself to kill you. Something is so odd about it. About you.
Everything about today seems more than coincidence. He won the game today. And then he found you.
When he tries the sink in the bathroom, he's surprised to find it working. He grabs a bowl and fills it with water, and when he comes back into the living room, you are staring at one of the flickering candles blankly, shivering. You have stopped crying, but your face is still wet with fat, lingering tears.
It looks like you've been hit by a brick wall. Your hair is matted in places, in tangles. Itâs in desperate need of a cut. It's stuck to your face around the perimeter, caked by sweat and mud and dried blood. Your clothes are in ruins; you wear a ripped jumper, thin jeans, and the soles of your boots are starting to fray and come off, and he can see where you've tried to mend them unsuccessfully with duct tape. You wear no jewelry, and your fingernails need to be cut. Those men have left marks on you, but those will fade.
He kneels in front of where you sit on the couch. Using a threadbare cloth, he dips it into the water and raises it to your face. You show no resistance. You let him wipe your face off, the tears, the dirt, the blood. It stains the cloth ugly, but you can't look at anything else except for his eyes.
They're so dark. Brown, like bark, like honey. You haven't spoken a word to him yet, but the silence is sort of bliss. All you can hear is the drip of the water when he rings out the cloth.
He helped you. He didn't have to. He could've kept walking, but he stayed with you. He didn't leave you. He could've walked away again, but he let you follow.
He isn't a good man. You know that. Anyone who has lasted this long isn't a good person. You've done the same. You've let it take you, once or twice, let the snarl in the back of your throat guide your hand. You've let the voices fester, let them eat at the acid in your stomach until they begged for more, and you won't admit it, but it felt good. Felt good to protect yourself. To rid the earth of something terrible. To say no.
He must understand that. He's decorated in its essence, the one of understanding, the one that says I know what it's like to take matters into your own hands, and he did it with you, too.
He's doing it now, cleaning you up, and you don't know him, or his face, or his name, but you'll try hard to give it back. To give him something. To tell him you are worthy and not useless. It doesn't show today, how far you've come, but you'll try.
"Thank you," you finally whisper. He's dragging the cloth over your bottom lip, and he blinks rapidly, as if a bit startled by hearing your voice. When you speak again, it's to tell him your name, and he thinks for a few moments before continuing, wiping under your jaw.
He doesn't sleep that night. He stares out the window, like a guard dog, and he lets the soft breaths of your sleep keep him awake.
The gas lighter on the stove still works. It takes a match to light it properly, but when the fire starts, you take some of the soup cans from your pack and make breakfast.
Your smile when he comes into the kitchen nearly blinds him. You look more rested than yesterday, and you ladle some soup into a bowl for him, setting it down at the table. He notices the two bowls, his and yours, and he notices that his bowl has more food.
It is then that he decides to keep you.
What he doesn't know is that you've decided the same. The world has thrown you the way out. A man, built like a bear, happy finger on the trigger and capable of getting you out of harm's way. You need to convince him that you are worthy. You need to convince him that you are valuable. A keepsake.
Men are what start wars, not what end them. Men are the cause of chaos and destruction, it is prevalent throughout history, and it is why you are here now, in a place that doesnât exist, where people donât breathe the same air anymore. A man thought himself correct, but he was wrong, and he didnât listen when someone told him otherwise. They are the ones that take advantage of your vulnerability, and instead of trying to understand it, they use it to get what they want.
You can do the same.
You start by mending his clothes. He's laid some out to dry after washing, and you notice the tears in his shirts. When he comes back a little while later, with dinner hanging off his shoulder, you are seated on the couch, feet tucked under you, with a needle in your hand as you sew up one of his shirts.
You've bathed, found new clothes, warmer ones, and your hair is braided and off your face. He hates to say he prefers you a little dirty, but he likes this, too. A natural beauty. A soft face.
You make a real dinner that night. There's canned vegetables that you try to spruce up with the spices you find in the cupboards, but the real meal is the venison you're served. He butchers it outside like a professional, and he sears it on the stove with a perfect touch. When he feeds you that first bite, your mouth explodes with flavor. Your belly is full that evening, and when he blows out the candles for bed, he eats you out in the dark of the corner bedroom.
He's not sloppy like you thought he might be. Not overeager. He's easy with it, casual. Big hunk of a man smothered between your thighs, and he laves his tongue through your folds like his very own personal dessert. He drinks straight from the source, holy water spilling sweet between his teeth, and when he gets his tongue inside of you and holds it there, you nearly leave earth for somewhere else. You come like that, too, his filthy mouth sucking on your clit before he's slipping that tongue in you again, and you mewl against the bed as he tucks his hand under your ass and spreads you wider.
He tells you his name a few nights later. He doesn't speak, not ever, but when you're crying around his thick fingers, he whispers it against your ear.
"'s Simon," he growls, and you know what he means by that. He wants you to say it while you bounce on his fingers, when you rut against his thigh. He wants you to say his name when you're coming undone riding his face, when you're wetting his mask with your pussy and making him choke on your cum. Such a wet, sweet girl you are, and sometimes he skips wash day for his mask so he can shove it into his mouth and pant around it and taste you while he fucks his own fist.
It's insanity, he thinks, as he's cleaning his rifle. The idea of traditional. But it's what befallen him, what he sees all around him, and he tucks his index finger into a hole too small to pinch himself just to make sure he isn't living a dream. You're in the kitchen, mending more clothes, something warm boiling on the stove. There were seeds in the greenhouse, and you're saving them to plant in the spring, so for now, you make do with canned goods and whatever Simon hunts for during the day. You found books in the attic, and you read them at night, head in Simon's lap as he plays with your hair or rubs your sore ankles or cuts your nails. You're the only one that ever speaks; he hasn't said a word to you except for telling you his name, and you're content to be the only one that uses their voice.
He always listens. You told him one time that you loved the shade of green that the trees wore, and he came back one day with a sweatshirt of the same color for you. He noticed you trying to mend those terrible boots, and he found a new pair for you, your size this time, barely worn and fit for winter. He brings lots of things for you; books, clothes, even rocks sometimes, when he just thinks he found one that you might like.
You do like them. You have started filling a small bowl with the ones he brings, and he notices you rifling through it sometimes, just looking at them, and it makes his chest swell with pride.
Like giving a treat to a dog. Like giving him a fucking bone.
He teaches you how to shoot. You know how to pull a trigger, but thatâs the extent of your expertise. He teaches you how to stand, how to turn the safety on and off, how to hold the gun between two hands so not even his own can take it away from you. He makes sounds when you please him. Hums low, lets out a soft breath, sucks in the air through his teeth. You canât see his face, but the way he looks at you when you fire a bullet and knock bottles off their ledges, it warms you, all the way down your spine, reaching your toes. You want him to keep looking at you this way, so you try hard, and he notices.
Youâll never be what he is, but the small victories are what have him chubbing up in his cargos and falling asleep between your thighs. You give, and he takes, and he keeps coming back for more.
He teaches you that distance is your strength. You arenât like him; you arenât built like a brick house, you wonât be bigger than a lot of your opponents. You need to keep them away from you, however you can. He makes you good with that gun because itâs your best chance, but in the even that you lose it or you run out of bullets, he shows you how to aim a hatchet so that the blade always lines up between someoneâs shoulders.
The way you listen makes him salivate. The way you blink up at him and say yes, Simon and take his orders, it makes it difficult to keep away from you.Â
Today marks two months in the house tucked on the hill. Simon hunts, and you cook, and you live in some sick, twisted housewife fantasy at the end of the fucking world. Simon provides, and you keep, and when the box of condoms falls out of your backpack one day, you glance at Simon for just a moment before he's on you.
It's animal, that first time. He tackles you practically onto the carpet of the living room, and he props you up onto your elbows and only pulls down your jeans enough that he can fit his cock between your thighs. You hear the tear of the condom wrapping, and then he's laying over your back, sinking to the base, cock nestled inside of you as he grips your throat gently and fucks you into the carpet. Poor beast, he's definitely going to need his knees massaged after this, but you can't think about that much when you're taking the fattest cock of your entire life and trying to survive underneath him. It's that fine line between pleasure and pain that you're desperate for, and you pull threads out of the carpet as you try to hang on and take it like a good girl.
You can hear his voice. It's low, and subtle, but he grunts with each agonizing thrust, hips snapping against your ass as he fucks you back onto him over and over and over again.
It's primal. Nasty. You wish he wasn't wearing a condom, you want him to be in your skin, you want him to fill you until you're full, let it spill over, and then do it all over again. You want him to bite into your throat and tear, and you want him to eat you and then put you back together, and then do it again and again and again.
"So big," you gasp, and he falters at that. You recognize it, the need for praise, and you latch onto it with claws and stay there. I need him to stay here with me. "So good...so good t-to me, Simonâ"
He groans. It's music.
Keep me. Keep me. Keep me.
"Simon, pleaseâ" You scratch at his arm, not satisfied until you feel blood. When you break the skin, he laughs, a breathless laugh that has your eyes rolling back in your head as he shoves your face into the carpet and mounts you like a fucking horse. The deep slap, slap, slap of skin is enough to send you away, send you home, your mind foggy as your pussy squeezes him for all he's worth. The slick of the condom is pleasant, but you want it raw. You want every part of him carved into you, and you arch your back, suck him in, whine and cry and beg for him to just, "please, Simon, I need it, I need it."
"Need wot?"
The sound of his voice is whiplash. He hisses when he sinks deep, staying there, holding you at a sharp angle so he can knead your ass and watch it bounce back on him. He sucks on his teeth, and there's drool slipping out of your mouth. That accent, his voice, like velvet, from deep within his chest. You want to hear more of it.
"Be a man," you gasp. "Be a man, and fuck me."
He doesn't see the desperate look on your face when he slips out of you. He doesn't see the relief that washes over you when you hear the condom come off, latex crumbling as he tosses it, but he feels the warmth of your pretty pussy when he sinks back in, skin to skin, and feels you clench for dear fucking life.
"Fuckin' Christ," Simon groans, and you reach back for him, gripping his arms, forcing him to fall over on top of you. He settles with his elbows on either side of your head, and you bow your back and grip the carpet again as he fucks into you nice and slow, deep, fat head leaking precum and making you cry because finally, yes, please, this is it, what I want, I'll have you forever.
You're so pretty. Even in his past life, Simon never got to have anything pretty. He was too ugly, too big, too awkward. Any woman of good faith stayed 100 yards away, as if his mere presence was a warning alarm, some invisible radius that kept them away from him. He always thought it was for the better. He always thought good riddance, they shouldn't have me, I shouldn't have anyone. Not when only days before, he had tortured a Russian militant until he had no teeth and hung his severed fingers on twine around his own neck.
But you won't run away. He's given you opportunity. He's left the cottage and staked out the outside just to watch you, and all he sees is you moving between windows, shaking out the dust from old blankets and washing the dishes. All he sees is you sewing his clothes and cooking his food, and when he comes back inside, all he sees is your smile and your face and your pretty mouth that falls open when he makes you come all over his hand.
Now it's the end of the world, and he lets a coin flip decide whether or not he lives or dies. And even when he flips it now, it never agrees. When he asks to die, the coin tells him no. When he asks to live, itâs always interrupted by you.
Yes, it tells him. Yes, yes, yes, because it's been keeping him here, because it knows, because it saw, because he couldn't see both sides of the coin, but he can see it now, plain as day, and she's underneath him now, letting him inside, and she's begging him to come and to fill her up, and she's crying because he's such a big man, and she wants him everywhere and always and all at once, and Simon is nothing if he isn't an insatiable bastard that can finally be fucking selfish.
The way you say his name could make him move mountains. That soft breath you take. The falter of your voice. The whine. The world has gone quiet, but he'll make a new one, and he will leave it at your feet for you to step on or pick up.
Whichever you choose. You can do no wrong.
When he comes, he moans. Into your ear, he lets you hear him, lets you bask in his pleasure as he spurts hot inside of you, hauling you a little higher on your knees so he can make sure you come, too. He gives you the palm of his hand to grind on, fucking into you at the same time, humming deep when he feels you squeeze around him and shatter like glass.
He takes his mask off for the first time that night. You see his face, all of it, not just glimpses when he lifts it to eat or to drink, you see the whole thing. He has a terrible looking face. Something only a mother could love. Too old of scars to be from this new life. They slash across his brow, across his cheeks. He has a jagged nose, and the skin around his lips had been reconstructed poorly from however they had been slit.
He's a terrifying piece of flesh. He is surprised when you lean in and kiss him. He's even more surprised when you kick off your jeans, turn over, and fuck him again.
The mantra that sounds like mine repeats in his head over and over. He feels it, deep, warm and beating under his ribs alongside his heart that hasn't moved in a long while.
He found you in those woods, kicking amongst predators, and he took you home with him. Picked you up like a stray, fed you, clothed you, and now you've stayed. For a moment, he thought it wasn't real. Thought your full belly is what kept you here, the warm house. He didn't mind pretending, but he figured it wouldn't last.
He doesn't think that anymore. Not with the way you kiss his severed face. You nuzzle into it, cup his cheeks, and he finds it agony when you pull away.
He hovers now. In whatever room you are in, Simon must also be in it. If he leaves, he makes you board the doors, and you are only allowed to open them if he knocks in his special way. He tested you once, came back earlier than expected, and he was so pleased you did not open the door to his casual knock and only the special one that he made you come one, two, three times with your thighs locked around his face.
A terrible thing happens.
Not to you.
You're searching the greenhouse. Hoping to find some flower pots for the herb seeds you found, you're rummaging through the cabinets beside it. Your gun is sitting away from you, and although Simon would chastise you for this, you feel safe here, and it doesn't bother you.
It flings itself at you. It cries, what used to be a teenage girl, reaching for you because it wants a chunk of your softness, of the life you pump into the muscles that keep you running. You're protected by all the clothes you wear for the weather, and it is slow because of the cold freezing their rigid, dead bones, but it does not lessen the hunger, the fight, the determination to eat and spread.
Before it can bite, the back of its head explodes. You close your mouth and shut your eyes as rancid brain matter splatters the white snow and you, and it is wrenched off of you immediately. Simon stands there, his pistol in hand, and you have never seen him quite so angry as he is right now.
His eyes are wild. He heaves under that tact vest, breathing hard, and his grip on the handgun shakes, so much that he has to shove it back into the holster at his thigh and lean over to pick you up off the ground.
He jostles you. Growls. Is nearly an animal himself as he shoves you up against the glass of the greenhouse and snarls.
"Wot the fuck is wrong with ya?!" Simon snaps. "Is y'r fuckin' head on?!"
It's so quiet in your head even as he yells. Your eyes tear, but not because you're upset. You reach out and cup his face gently, and he stops. Stops talking, just watches, just looks at you as he bends and leans his forehead against yours and squeezes you to his chest.
What is this thing you have? What have you become? What innate thing has festered between you? Heâs gripping the edge of the glass so hard, you hear it crack under his hand. There is some kind of sick sense of devotion among you. Some kind of responsibility. Heâs angry because something under his tongue tasted bitter when he saw you struggling. It wonât be this easy. He wonât make it this easy. If he doesnât get to die, then neither do you, and he will make sure of that, because that is the only way this game can remain fair.
You never wander to the greenhouse again. He makes you promise (lest he wastes his cum between your thighs instead of inside you, that's it, promise me).
Another terrible thing happens.
Not to you.
They're wanderers. When they knock at the door, they don't use Simon's special knock, so you don't open it. Instead, you blow out the candles and hide, peeking at them from the fogged window in the attic.
They are men (you aren't surprised, they seem to be the only thing that survives nature's heavy hand). Cold. Shivering. One of them is bleeding, you can see it from the blood trail he leaves in the snow that seeps from somewhere under the hem of his jeans. The one uninjured tries to force his way through the door, but Simon added more deadbolts to it, and it doesn't give under his weak attempts. You trade your handgun for the rifle, aiming it at them. If they get through the door, maybe you can draw them back out, keep them away from the house.
You try to stay quiet, but the healthier one uses his body and a log of wood to get through. They're desperate, desperate enough to not care that breaking through the door cuts him severely, splits through his jacket. The second man limps behind him, getting inside, and you decide to put the rifle back.
You will stay quiet until Simon gets back. Your strength is not being a bulldozer, so you'll hide until he can be that for you. You steady your breathing; even if they make it to the attic, you won't go quietly. You tried that last time, and if it wasn't for Simon, you'd surely be naked and dead in that clearing that you were dragged to.
This time, if you go, you will take someone with you at least. Severed ears are not enough. You will not make them artists, you will make them forgettable and unrecognizable, and you will give back what they give you tenfold. Even if it kills you.
It takes them all night before they finally make it to the attic. They eat your food and take showers in your bathroom and stink up the living room, you can hear them. And when their bellies are full and their minds wander, you dread the pull of the attic door as he wrenches it open and the ladder falls.
You manage to kill one as he drags you out from the corner. He latches onto your ankle, and as he pulls, you put your finger on the trigger of your handgun, and you put one right between his eyes. The other takes advantage of your moment of pause, turning you over onto your stomach so hard the gun flies across the attic from your hand. He tosses you down from the attic, and you land on your side in the hallway, and you cry as you get to your elbows and crawl, trying to get to your feet, but he's larger than you.
He catches you in the kitchen. Slams you over the kitchen counter, using his weight to pin you down, but Simon taught you better than that. He taught you not to give in. He taught you not to give up. You think about him when your fingers find the discarded fork on the counter and you drive it right through his fucking eye.
You don't stop. You don't let his cries keep you from bringing your arm down again. And again. And again. You make his face your blank canvas, and you paint it with your anger. For every man that ever touched you. For every man that ever thought himself worthy to have you. For every man that tried to make your body his prize, you poke a thousand holes in him, and you scream with him as you do it until he can't scream anymore.
You're holding the fork and standing over him when Simon comes home. His handgun drawn, silent as he makes his way in, his body visibly relaxing when he sees you. He glances at the man at your feet, still alive, gurgling there, choking on his own blood as he tries to breathe through the holes that are scattered across his face and neck. You meet his eyes, and you smile. It's uncanny to do it now, but you are happy to see him.
"There's..." You sniffle, wiping your face with your sleeve. "There's another i-in the attic."
You donât get to see him smile under the mask. You donât hear the near purr that leaves him as he climbs the ladder and sees the perfect place youâve left your mark. Heâd frame it if it wouldnât rot.
You twirl the fork in your hand before going to the sink, dropping it in there, and you close your eyes as you listen to Simon's footsteps as he goes into the attic. It takes him a little less than an hour to get the bodies out the back door, and when he comes back inside, you're already wiping up the floor in the kitchen.
There's nothing to talk about. This is normal. This is just another day. Tomorrow, you might have to do it again, and you'll still cook dinner after sunset and clean the kitchen like you're doing now and sit Simon on the edge of the bathtub and cut his hair.
Simon found chocolate on his trip today, and you make cake with it. You sit in his lap under the candlelight, and you feed each other, bite by bite, and you giggle when Simon gets it all over his lips.
You kiss him to clean it off, and then you reach for another bite of cake. There's some measure of satisfaction you feel when your tongue finds the dent in the fork prongs from when you used it earlier. The chocolate tastes better somehow. Sweeter.
You catch him in the morning, limbs tangled with yours under the sheets, flipping a coin. You smooth a hand over his thick chest, along his pudgy stomach, and you watch with him as the coin lands on the bedside table, falling flat.
It comes up tails.
He decides then that he doesn't have to flip it anymore. It's pointless. He asked for answers, and he got one.
You were not luck. You were fate. And because of it, the coin will always land the same way.
His thoughts are interrupted when you reach for the coin. You twirl it between your fingers, thinking. He doesn't see what you see, but that's okay. Maybe he'll let you play now. Some other game, a better one.
Heads or tails, win or lose, alive or dead. Either way, you are attached. Woven together, thread by thread. There are no vows to say in this new place, but you aren't tested by the same kinds of things. There is no law to keep two people together, no governing power of men that say if left is truly left and that right is really right.
You are drawn together by shared experiences. The same trauma. You won't leave each other not because you said you wouldn't leave, but because there is no one else in the world that has seen the same things you have seen and has done the same things you have done. There is no one else in the world that will forgive you for what you had to do to survive. That will love you not just in spite of it, but because of it, because you did what was necessary, and you are here now to learn a lesson and not suffer its consequences.
It's just a game. If you win, he wins. If you lose, he loses. If you're alive, he's alive.
And if you're dead, then he must be, too.
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Hopelessly Devoted To You (18+)
⥠Pairing: Greaser!Bang Chan x fem!Reader
⥠Genre: grease inspired 50s au, some angst and fluff, this was supposed to be a long full length fic but it somehow became just porn with plot lol
⥠Word Count: 11.2k
⥠Summary: You were so excited to see him againâ the guy you'd spent your entire summer with, entagled in a fleeting but explosively sweet romance. But the Chris you meet again isn't the one you remember, and now if he wants to win you back he's going to have to prove just how devoted to you he really is.
⥠Warnings: chan is referred to as chris, smoking (cigarettes), some misogyny + toxic masculinity + fuck boy behavior, some 50s references and lingo, 1 instance of reader shoving chan in a fit of anger / sadness, jealous and mildly possessive chan, minor appearances from felix, changbin, minho, and hyunjin (who goes by sam)
⥠Smut Warnings: 1 reference to reader losing their virginity to chan, references / flashbacks to other smut scenes before the main scene, light dom/sub dynamics, switch!chan, pet names (doll, sugar, baby), public sex, car sex, exhibitionism, oral (f rec, referenced m rec), fingering (f rec), nipple play, daddy kink, panty stealing (kind of), squirting, 1 mention of reader having pubic hair, maybe a lil breeding kink??, protected piv
⥠Notes: i've had this sitting in my drafts since december and finally got around to finishing it gfdhgfh this is incredibly self indulgent as grease is one of my fave movies ever and chan as danny zuko is constantly rattling around in my brain. the build up is pretty short (by my usual standards) as i moved the plot along a lot quicker than i normally would so idk if it's my best work but hopefully you enjoy it!
⥠Disclaimer: please read responsibly, and remember that this work is fiction and meant strictly for imaginative fun. the idols used in fics are more accurately faceclaims and personality outlines for imaginary characters, and should not be interpreted as factual representations of existing people.
You remember well the first time you met Chris. Lounging aimlessly at the beach with the sunset on the horizon, his feet in the sand with a silver dog tag necklace hanging low over his bare chest, a cigarette from his previously discarded jeans held between his lips. Fresh from the ocean with beads of water still dripping off his toned body, slicking back his damp hair before fumbling through a different pocket for his lighter.
You watched him bring it up to his face after successfully digging it out, cupping his other hand around it to protect the flame as he lit the cigarette in his mouth. You watched him take a long drag, watched him blow the smoke out from the corners of his mouth, watched him sigh before deciding to towel dry his legs enough to wrangle his jeans back on.Â
The beach had been quickly growing sparse by the time you spotted him. Groups of friends clearing out to make it to the local diner before all the tables were filled, parents wanting to get their kids to bed before the moon fully rose in the sky, couples on double dates bunching up in one car as they decide to hit the drive-in together.
You yourself were in no rush to leaveâ you came alone, tired of your parents bickering during what was supposed to be a fun family vacation. Youâd stay as long as you could, youâd decidedâ really soak in the peace the sea brings before returning to your auntâs beach house, where you were all staying for the summer.
But safe to say, the sight of him enraptured you. He was handsome, devastatingly soâ you never expected to see a man with a visage to rival even that of James Dean himself with your own eyes, but there he was before you; and your heart stuttered when he glanced over in your direction.
He had just finished pulling his jeans up and over his haunches when he noticed you, cocking a brow when your eyes metâ and you could tell in an instant that he knew youâd been staring at him. His smile made your breath hitch, pretty dimples peeking out on his cheeks as he acknowledged you with a playful wave.
Hesitantly, you lifted your hand and waved back, and he grinned, eyes still locked on yours as he pulled up the zipper of his jeans. He turned back to his belongings on the ground, shook the sand out of his white tee before pulling it on. He grabbed his leather jacket, slung it over his shoulder before turning to look at you once more.
You swallowed, face running hot from his gaze aloneâ you hoped, as he began walking towards you, that you could play it off as having not put on enough sunscreen before coming here. You were sitting on a towel, legs to your chest with your arms wrapped around them, but you lowered them as he approached you.
He tossed his cigarette to the the side once he was close, letting its flame fizzle out in the sand. He looked you up and down when you stood up, introducing himself with a charismatic smile that made your heart race faster. You stuttered when speaking, and his smile widened, one of his hands going to rest in the pocket of his jeans while the other kept his leather jacket in place over his shoulder.Â
Chris was the most, to say the leastâ and when he asked if heâd see you again tomorrow, you promised him he would. You watched him walk over to a beat up, old top down cadillac, throwing his jacket into the car before jumping inâ literally jumping in, hand on top of the closed car door as he hopped over it into the driver's seat.Â
He gave you another glance after starting the ignition, and you smiled meekly as you offered him another wave. Chris grinned, raising his hand to say goodbye before putting it back on the wheel and burning rubber out of the parking lot.
You spent nearly every summer day with him after that. Days at the beach spent splashing each other in the water while you giggled, hopping in his cadillac to go catch whatever new flick was showing, or sharing a milkshake at his favorite diner. Heâd hold your hand as you walked through the sand, giggled with you over silly inside jokes while eating burgers and fries, hugged you tight after you gave him a chaste kiss on the cheek at the end of the night.
Chris gave you dimes to pick tunes on the jukebox, and would sing along to your selections with the prettiest voice youâd ever heard. He took you to the county fair, would shoot you goofy grins after kissing you with lips sticky from cotton candy, got on the ferris wheel with you and squeezed your hand when the height made you dizzy, kissing away your nerves when you reached the very top.
He won you a teddy bear from the soda toss, put his leather jacket over your shoulders when the sun set and the air began to chill, wrapped his arm around your shoulder while you were waiting in line to buy some popcorn. Heâd lean down to whisper a joke in your ear, and youâd slap his arm with a giggle while he squeezed you closer.
You watched him soup up the engine of his car, and heâd take your hand after a long day of working on it, pull you in to dance with him while the radio blared the hippest tunes. When he was satisfied with the restoration of his cadillac, he started taking you out on long drives, wind whipping through your hair as he drove fast through the back streets of the city.
Heâd drive you to secluded hills overlooking the city, where youâd make out until he had to drive you home in time for curfew. Heâd park his car far down the street, away from where your family could see him dropping you offâ because Lord knows your mother's heart would give out if she saw you spending your vacation with a guy that looked like him.
And through it all, days spent back at the beach where you first met him were always your favorite. You would let Chris lay you down on a towel in the sand and kiss you over and over, until you were both heaving and hot. You lost your virginity to him like thatâ alone on the beach, towels laid down and moon high in the sky after having snuck out of the window of your guest bedroom to meet him.
Heâd whisper sweet words in your ear, make you fall apart with deft fingers and an equally deft tongue. Sometimes, instead of sneaking out to see him, heâd be the one showing up at your guest room's window, grinning at you as you opened it to let him in. Heâd fuck you there, in the bed with his hand clamped over your mouth to muffle your moans of pleasure, lest your family discover what it is youâre really up to while "alone" in your room.Â
Chris would crawl over to you in the passenger seat at the drive-in, sink to his knees and dip his head underneath your long poodle skirt, the flick on screen long forgotten as he pulled your panties to the side to kiss and lick your dripping pussy. Sometimes heâd fuck you there too, parked all the way in back with the windows and hood of the car up to hide what you were doing (as if the rocking didnât give it away to anyone who happened to look.)
Sometimes, when he parked up the street to drop you off after sharing ice cream at the drive thru malt shop, youâd lean over the gear shift, taking his cock out of his jeans and sucking him off right there, with not nearly enough care for who could possibly see you. Heâd give you the sweetest kiss before helping you out of the car, promising heâd see you tomorrow too, and the day after, and the day after that, until eventually your familyâs summer vacation had to come to an end.
Chris was a dreamboat that day, as he always wasâ hair greased back with a few curly strands left over his forehead, loose black tee tucked into his jeans, leather jacket on with its collar ever so slightly popped, his dog tag necklace sparkling when the sun hit it just right. He was leaning against the door of his newly souped up cadillac with a lit cigarette resting between his lips, though he promptly threw it to the ground when he saw you walking over.
âThereâs my girl! And ainât she a doll,â he grinned as he pulled you to his body, kissing you sweetly as you blushed. You werenât wearing anything he hadnât seen you in beforeâ just one of your usual white blouses and pretty pink skirts, but he always made sure to tell you that he thought you were the absolute most.
He walked around to the other side of the car, opened the door for you and closed it shut behind you when you got in. He hopped into the driverâs seat after, starting the ignition and turning to you with that beaming smile that made your stomach flip. âWhatâs the plan today, sugar?â he asked, throwing his arm around you while leaving one hand on the steering wheel.
In the end, you spent the day as you had many times beforeâ driving through the city, hitting up the diner to split a strawberry milkshake, and watching the sunset at the beach; the same beach where you met him, and where the house you were staying in lied just a couple hundred yards away. You were sitting on the rocks, his leather jacket off and resting behind you, his arm curled around your waist.Â
His jeans were filthy with sand, as was your skirt, but neither of you caredâ you just stayed there together, watching the sun sink lower and the waves crash against the shore. Chris kissed you when you looked up at him with watery eyes, agonized over the idea of never seeing him again. Heâd given you the best summer of your entire life, and all you wanted was to stayâ but you couldnât. And though he comforted you the best he could, you both knew it was the end.
Chris held your hand to help you off the rocks, gave you a kiss before you turned away to make the walk to your auntâs beach house. And you both knew it was the endâ but not just yet. He came to your window later that night, and you let him in, bringing your hands to his face and eagerly pressing your lips to his.
He walked you back to the bed as you kissed him, laid you back gently and crawled between your legs. He made you cum on his fingers before reaching into the pocket of his jeans, pulling out a condom and tearing it open with his teeth. He rolled it easily down his cock, his jeans having fallen down his legs just enough to let him fuck you.
You reached your hands underneath his shirt, hungrily tracing your hands over every inch of his skin. Your nightgown was bunched above your thighs, legs spread wide to accommodate him. He eventually pulled the top of it down too, exposing your chest to him and leaving your stomach as the only covered part of your body.
Sweat dripped from his brow, his normally perfectly slicked hair tousled from your fingers sliding through itâ and you didn't care that the pomade in his hair dirtied your fingers; in fact, it made it feel nicer when you brought your hand to one of your breasts, and rolled your nipples between them. Your stomach flipped when he grinned and called you a dirty girl, running a hand through his hair to grease up his fingers too and tweak the other nipple not being played with by your own.
He kissed you to muffle your moans and desperate whines, and it was nowhere near as effective as when it was his hand clamped over your mouth, but it was better. He had to slow down when fucking you fast unintentionally made your bedframe slam against the wall, and you gasped, praying no one woke up from the sound.
Thankfully, no one came knocking on your doorâ and though you were both desperate, clinging to one another hard and sliding your tongues around each otherâs with fervor, he fucked you slow and deep after that. "Chris, daddy, pleaseâ 'm gonna cum," you moaned when he brought his slicked up fingers to your clit.Â
Chris groaned before kissing you again, and you came with a muffled cry, your nails digging desperately into his biceps. He kept rolling his hips into you through it, your body trembling with sensitivity until he eventually came too, all his cum spilling into the condom.Â
He stayed for a while after that, holding you close and wiping tears from your eyes with his thumbs. He snuck out in the middle of the night, promised you despite it all that it wasnât the endâ youâd see each other again someday, he just knew it; he wanted you to believe it too.
You got a couple of hours of sleep before morning, and gave your family the best smile you could manage as you tossed your luggage in the trunk of your dad's chevy bel air. You slouched in the back seat, trying not to cry and wishing more than anything you were in Chrisâ old cadillac instead.
The Chris you reunited with wasnât yours, and if it was, then fate was cruel for bringing you back to him.
The Chris you knew wouldnât have looked at you like thatâ like youâre a desperate and fast girl, or an overly smitten near stranger hoping to get her kicks from him one last time while his friends snickered behind him. The Chris you knew wouldnât join in on their snickering, tilting his head with an amused expression, tongue poking his cheek as he combs his fingers through his slicked back hair.
The Chris you reunited with wasn't yours, and the realization that you didn't really know him the way you thought you did utterly broke your heart.
You were back in the cityâ your parents, after having settled whatever marital disputes they were having, decided to settle down here. They loved their time together in the city when all their little tiffs were said and done, and they could tell you loved it here too.
They thought itâd benefit everyone to set up shop somewhere new, where everyone could reset. Plus, your mom wanted to be close to her sister againâ and you certainly wouldnât complain about spending more time at your auntâs beach house.
You desperately wanted to see Chris again, and you knew itâd only be a matter of time before you didâ unlike you, he grew up in the city, lived here his entire life. And while itâd been months since you parted at the end of summer considering your parents had to do a lot of work to shift the family business to a new location while also looking for a decent house up for sale, it would happen eventuallyâ you were certain of it.
And soon enough you did see him, knew in an instant it was him even at a distanceâ because youâd recognize his restored cadillac anywhere. He was leaning against the car door like usual, cigarette in his mouth and leather jacket on his back, with a circle of friends around him. You never met his friendsâ he told you they were pigs, said that you wouldnât like them much.
Besides, you were only going to be in town a few short monthsâ why waste your precious few days hanging around with other people when you could be alone? Thatâs what he always told youâ and as you tentatively began to walk up the street closer to them, you could tell they certainly did talk more vulgarly than you were used to hearing.
âCâmon man, you gotta let me borrow her,â one of his friends begged in reference to his car, âsheâs a real pussy wagon. My chickâll cream if I pick her up in it.â âGet your own wheels, bozo,â Chris shoved him with a laugh, âI ainât lettinâ you take my girl on any joyrides.â
âWhat if you come too? Make it a double date, you knowâ and nobodyâs got bigger tits than Annette. I got dibs, but sheâll be real nice eye candy for you,â his friend persuaded and Chris hummed, as if seriously considering it. Would he really go?
âMm, maybe,â he grinned, tossing his cigarette to the ground and digging it into the gravel with his foot, âYou do got a point. Tell her to bring a pretty friend, and Iâll think about it.â You blinked, stopped walking and simply stared at him. Had he moved on already? Itâd only been a few months, but maybe you fell for him harder than he fell for you; the thought of it made your heart sink to your stomach.
His friend cheered and hugged him tight, and Chris pushed him away with another laugh, running a hand through his hair to fix it up as he characteristically did whenever it got even the slightest bit out of shape. In that same moment is when he glanced over in your direction, catching sight of you by pure coincidence.
His eyes widened when he saw you, mouth gaping open for a split second before he called your name in a mix of utter shock and joy. That was more like the Chris you knewâ and it gave you hope. You ran up to him, and he to you, bringing his hands to your shoulders and touching you up and down your armsâ truly, he couldnât believe you were here, and he had to touch you to be certain it was real.Â
âWhatâ what are you doing here? I-I thought you went back home with your folks, I thoughtââ he was smiling, entirely giddy as he looked you up and down. âWe moved! Iâm here to stay,â you told him excitedly, bouncing on your heels as you stared up at him.
It made you so, so happy; to the point that the contents of his prior conversation entirely lifted from your mind. It pains you thinking back to how naive and lovesick for him you wereâ you wish you'd have known better.Â
âI canât believe it! Iââ he started to exclaim, but then realized his friends followed him, crowding around his back while shooting him inquisitive looks, and he quickly took his hands off you.
He cleared his throat, tucked his hands in his pockets in a gesture meant to bring him back to his aloof state of being, and he grinnedâ not that pretty grin that made your heart flutter, but a wicked one. âI meanâ thatâs cool, baby.â
You didnât like it, your brows furrowing at the change in his demeanor. âChristopherââ you started, but one of his friends spoke up before you could talk much more. âWhoâs the chick?â he asked as he looked you up and down, and Chris hesitated. âOh, uhââ
âOh, I know!â the friend suddenly exclaimed, hit by an epiphany, âthe one from the beach you wouldnât let us meetâ the one who puts out. This her? It is, isnât it?â
Your face burned red, unpleasant heat crawling over your body as the rest of his friends snickered. He told them you put out? Why would he do that? Your expression crumbled, body trembling with embarrassment and grief, but Chris kept his own cool.
âDonât worry, doll, I didnât tell them all the horny details,â he smirked, and his friends' snickers erupted into full on laughs as they slapped his back in amusement. Your body burned hot with indignation, eyes welling with tears as your frustration and anguish boiled over. You shoved him as hard as you could, though it hardly even caused him to take a step back.
âI wish Iâd never laid eyes on you, youâ you creep!â you cried before turning away, ready to run back home to throw the teddy bear he won you in the trash and sob into your pillows. âThatâs not all she laid on him,â one of his friends commented under his breath, the rest laughing and hooting as you sprinted away from them, back down the street.
Chris just watched, body tense and face sullen, heart twisting in his chest. He watched you turn the corner, wiping tears from your eyes before you disappeared entirely out of view, his friends still laughing and giving him pats on the back.
But when he turned to them, he put the smirk back on, and they all hopped into his car to hit the drive-in as if he didn't care about what just happened with you, as if the guilt wasn't going to eat away at him every night.
The next time Chris sees you is weeks later, at a new mom-and-pop shop freshly opened on the edge of the city. Heâs there with his friends, all of them jumping out his cadillac before heâs even fully parked, rushing inside to grab a good table.
And when he walks in, itâs not his friends that he sees first but youâ sitting at a booth with another guy across from you. There's an empty plate with tiny remnants of ketchup still left behind that he just knows you used for your french fries, and a milkshake between you with two straws stuck in it.
Part of him is relieved you arenât sharing a single straw with the man like you wouldâve done with him, but his gut still twists from the sight regardless. And when you giggle at something indiscernible the guy says, Chris feels liquid hot envy boil in his blood, jaw tightening and fists clenching as he cracks his neck.Â
âChris, over here!â his best pal, Felix, calls from across the shop, and thatâs when you see him too. You canât help but look when you hear his name called, eyes widening when they land on him. He tenses, eyes lingering on you for a few seconds longer before he inevitably joins his friends at the table they scouted out in the middle of the room.
He can't focus on anything his friends are sayingâ the only thing he vaguely hears through the fog in his brain is Changbin begging the others for spare nickels so he can afford the dog-sled delight. It all becomes tuned out noise, because all he can think about is how much he missed you, and how much it pisses him off that you're here with someone else.
It's Chris' own fault, he knows that, and that makes the feeling even worseâ like bile in his throat that he can't swallow down. It doesnât take Minho, the most perceptive of his friend group, to notice that heâs staring at you and to comment on it.
âWhat, you still hung up on that chick?â he questions, and Chris scoffs as he snaps out of his fog, leaning back in his chair and acting as aloof as he can bring himself to. âWhat? No, of course not,â he says, but his eyes still linger on you, fingers twitching with irritation when he hears you laugh again, and watches you playfully slap the manâs arm like you would do to his.
Eventually, you hold out your palm to your date, and he watches the guy dig through his pockets to give you something. Chris knows immediately what's happeningâ youâre waiting to be given a dime or two, and youâll saunter off to the jukebox to pick a new tune once theyâre in hand.
He watches you rise from the booth, waits until youâve made the walk over to rise from his table, muttering to his friends that he needs to hit the can real quick. He takes a few steps in the direction of the bathroom, and then immediately turns, going straight to you instead.
He props an arm on the jukebox after he approaches, leans against it and looks down at you as you cycle through the record choices. âHey baby,â he tries, but you ignore him, donât even spare him a glance as you continue to give the jukebox your full attention.
âListenâ Iâm sorry,â he tries again, and you just hum in acknowledgement, still not turning your gaze to look at him. He swallows, glances back at his friends who are perfectly oblivious to what heâs doing, and then back to you. âI justâ you know how it is, right? The guys, they expect me to act a certain way, andââ
âThatâs why Iâm so glad I met Sam,â you interrupt, turning around to look at your date and offer him a sweet wave. Chris hates it, but at least youâre talking to him nowâ heâll take what he can get. He still ends up scowling however when your date waves back, and you turn back to the jukebox, still without glancing up at Chris himself.
âWhat, you like that square?â he scoffs as he looks your date up and down. Heâs smartly dressed; pristine khaki slacks and a brown sweater vest pulled over his white button up, his hair in a neatly styled, respectable crew cutâ but thatâs not your type.
At least, he hopes it's not; because that would make Chris the outlier, and thatâs not what he wants to be. Heâll also be damned if he ends up losing you to a goody two shoes like that.
âHeâs sweet to me. And I donât have to question what his intentions are, unlike with you,â you reply, and the emphasis put on 'you' makes his heart sink. While he certainly deserves to hear it, it doesnât make him any less upsetâ not with you, but with himself. He really let his pride and reputation get in the way, and he knows he fucked up. But he wants you, and surely you know that, right?
You finally settle on a tune; Those Magic Changesâ the one he knows is your absolute favorite. The one he even used to serenade you with once whilst dancing, you giggling away with a cute blush on your cheeks whilst he twirled you around. He sang it more exaggeratedly towards the end, purposely putting on a goofy voice to make you laugh harder as he dipped you down.
He kissed you before lifting you back up, and then again when you were completely upright, your hand on his shoulder and his arm around your waist, your other free hands intertwined. The way you looked at him when he pulled back from the kiss made his heart pound, but he played it coolâ shot you that grin that always made your legs feel like jelly, kissing your cheeks when it made your blush deepen.
Chris liked feeling the heat of your blush against his lips, liked having your hands on him even when it was in the purest of ways, liked the way you giggled and smiled at him when he playfully winked at you. The memory strikes him hard when you press the play button to start the song, and he takes a step back from the jukebox, fists clenched at his side.
You look at him thenâ really look at him. Instantly he feels small, your gaze that once held so much love for him now meeting him with the utmost scrutiny. He fucked up, he knows he didâ but what does he do now? He canât even trust himself to say something without fucking it up even worse.Â
And the pain of it all hits you tooâ he can see it in your eyes just before you steel your expression, and do your best to act unaffected. "See you around, Christopher," you mutter as you turn away from him and the jukebox.
You walk back to the booth where Sam awaits your return with a smile, while Chris just stands there, your favorite song blaring painfully loud in his ears as he stares at your back. "..begs you please, come back to me, please return to me, don't go away again," the lyrics mock him harshly.
He doesn't know what to do, but he knows he has to do something, anything, to show you heâs sincerely sorry. He needs to show you he still wants you, needs you to give him another chanceâ more than heâs ever needed anything.
The next time Chris sees you is once again by coincidence, while heâs sitting alone in the parking lot of the sock hop his little sister just begged him to take her to. He was trying to decide what to do with his timeâ if he left, heâd have to come back in a couple hours to pick her up, but surely it was better than sitting around outside, bored out of his mind while he waited for her.
He could go in, but sock hops arenât really his thingâ the only time he ever danced was with you, and he didnât plan on changing that. All heâd do inside is stand on the edge of the room and watch his sister dance, and he didnât much feel like doing that either. Besides, his little sister was a good girl, and she didnât need, nor want, his constant supervision.
And heâs just about to turn the key in his ignition and burn rubber when he sees you, arm linked with stupid fucking Sam as he opens the door for you with his free hand. And fuck, he doesn't even care that he's about to crash your dateâ he just needs to talk you. He jumps out of his car in a rush, pulling open the door to the building and heading straight to the line leading to the dance floor.
Chrisâ jaw tenses when he sees youâ Sam is leaning down to whisper something in your ear while you wait in the line, and you cover your mouth as you giggle. He hates how similar it is to the days he spent with you at the fair, waiting in line for rides and popcorn. The envy bubbling in his gut makes him feel sick, and he has to take a breath to calm himself down before he approaches you.
He steps to where you are in the line when he feels mellowed out enough, you and your date turning around curiously when they hear his voice call your name. Your eyes widen when you see it's him, but youâre quick to correct your expression before your date notices anything off about you. âCan I talk to you?â Chris asks, not at all acknowledging Samâs presence beside you.
Even when you divert your gaze to glance at your dateâs reaction, Chrisâ eyes stay firmly on you, awaiting your answer. âPlease?â he follows up, and it makes you swallow. Itâs the first time heâs ever taken a pleading, desperate tone with you, and he can tell rejecting him isnât going to come easily to youâ it gives him hope that you'll finally hear him out, maybe even take him back.
âIââ you hesitate a moment, and just as Chrisâ new, shiny hope begins to dim, you unlink your arm from your date. âIâll be right back, just stay in the line,â you tell Sam before shooting Chris a look and walking past him. He follows you back outside, and you cross your arms as you stand against the cold brick of the exterior.
âWhat do you want?â you cut straight to the point. Thereâs a million things he wants to say, but his built up jealousy causes him to ask the stupid, burning question first and foremost. âSince when do you go to sock hops?â he questions, and it almost makes you laughâ heâs unbelievable, breaking your heart like that and then pulling stunts like this.Â
âSince nice boys ask me to go with them. Why, you jealous?â you accuse him and he scoffs, trying once again to play off what he feels. âMe? Jealous? Donât make me laugh,â he says, unable to help the instinctive reaction to being called out. And he instantly regrets it, but itâs too late to take it back.
âOh, so you wonât mind if I go back inside then?â you ask as you step away from the wall, starting to walk past Chris and back to the doors. He grabs your arm to stop you, and you look up at him expectantly. âDonât, Iââ he grits his teeth, hesitates for a moment, but ultimately decides to be honest, âI am, okay? So donât.â
He lets your arm go, and his admission thankfully proves enough to make you stay. You settle back against the brick wall, but you donât look at him afterâ instead you look down at the ground, staring at your sleek, black and white saddle shoes instead of meeting his gaze.
Itâs silent for a moment, with Chris wracking his brain as he tries to figure out the right thing to say to you. âWhat you did was terrible, you know,â you end up breaking the silence first, your voice soft.
âI know, Iâ I meant it when I said I was sorry,â Chris says while moving a step closer to you, and still you hesitate to look at him. âI didnât believe you. Still donât,â you reply, and honestly, he canât blame youâ he shouldâve been more sincere when he approached you.
But he was being a fucking idiot, still trying to play it cool even though it was just the two of you standing there by the jukebox. And who gave a fuck if his friends happened to look over and saw him talking to you? Why should he care? Is it really so wrong for him to be whipped for you?
Even the first time he saw you again, he should've done all the things he really wanted to do. He should've kissed you and hugged you tight, should've told you how happy he was to know youâre here to stay, shouldâve flipped his friends the bird and told them to fuck off if they questioned him. But he didnâtâ he cracked under the expectations, and you suffered for it.
Thereâs a lot he wants to say, but he doesnât know how to say itâ heâs never been vulnerable about his feelings before you, but he wants to try. Even if he screws up over and over again, heâll keep tryingâ because you deserve it. And he should apologize again, sincerely, but thereâs another question burning in his blood that he has to ask.
âDo you really like that guy? Youâre not, likeâ going steady, are you?â Chris questions and you shrug, finally looking up from the ground to meet his eyes. âThat depends,â you tell him, peeling your back away from the wall to stand directly in front of him, holding your hands behind your back.
âOn what?â he follows up, and you smileâ a small one, but itâs enough for him. âOn you,â you answer, and the hope flares back up, drowning out the envy and shame in veins and replacing it with pure, unfiltered glee.
âYeah?â he grins as he tilts his head, and your smile grows the tiniest bit more as you nod. You may still have your doubts about his sincerity, but the fact that youâre willing to give him a chance is all he needsâ heâll use the time you give him to prove it to you, to make sure youâre left with no doubts that youâre the one that he wants, to promise that he'll never break your heart again.
âCome with me then, back insideâ youâre gonna be my date,â he says as he holds out his hand to you. Sock hops may not have been his style before, but they can be for you. âWhat about Sam?â you question, but still take his hand regardless.
âHe can stag it the rest of the night for all I care. Youâre mine, sugar,â Chris replies, and it sends butterflies sweeping through your stomach as you giggle in delight. âAnd your friends?â you ask next, knowing itâs very well possible heâll crack under the expectations of his rep with them again if they see you together.
âFuck âem,â he replies easily; and youâre both sure itâll be easier said than done for him to not give a shit what they think, but heâll do his best. He doesnât want to do anything to make you regret giving him another chance. âLetâs dance, baby,â he grins at you, pulling you along with him as he steps back inside the building with you in tow.
Thereâs a thought in Chrisâ head that he never before thought heâd ever haveâ the sock hop was perfect. And well, maybe itâs not the sock hop itself necessarily that he enjoyed, but youâ yes, it was most certainly you. The time spent with you was everything heâd been missing, everything he couldâve ever hoped for following your departure from the city and his subsequent abysmal fuck up.Â
He knew he didnât deserve any of itâ and he was certain you were going to share a more serious talk about it all later, but he couldnât deny the satisfaction he felt walking back into the building and seeing Sam utterly bewildered that his date was now clinging to his own arm instead.
And he wonât shirk his responsibility to do better by youâ heâll own up to his mistakes, heâll change, be someone deserving of you. It may take a lot of time and effort to unlearn all the dumb shit heâs taken in over the years, but he swears heâll tryâ tonight is just the start of a lifetime of proving to you that heâll do anything to keep you.
All night, youâve been positively radiantâ and truly, Chris has never felt luckier in all his life. He delighted in the way you smiled at him while dancing, enjoyed the way you squealed in excitement and bounced on your heels when the live band decided to play a cover of your favorite tune, couldnât help the way a goofy grin spread over his face when you pecked him on the cheek following a slow dance.
Youâre the only one in the world whoâs ever seen it, you knowâ the only one who gets to see his dimples, or to hear him giggle. The only one heâs ever sung to and danced with, the only one heâs ever wanted to stay up all night talking on the phone with, the only one heâs ever taken out for more than a quick and simple joyride in his car.
He could feel the inquisitive, disbelieving stares tooâ Chris has lived here his entire life, and everyone knows the kind of guy he is. And maybe heâs simply luckyâ he knows heâs nothing but a delinquent, knows his reputation precedes him, knows he doesnât deserve the affection of a good girl like you.Â
Regardless of it all, you love himâ enough to give him another chance even when he hasnât yet done enough to earn it. And effortlessly, you unlock the soft part of himâ the part of him that desires and yearns and wants. He burns for you, the only girl in the world his heart has ever raced for, the only who knew who he was beyond the rough surface he projected to the rest of the world.
Now youâre outside tentatively standing next to Chrisâ car, waiting for him to come back from confirming with his sister that sheâll hitch a ride home from her friends instead of him. It embarrasses him how she grills him with questions about youâ and he answers in the vaguest of terms, having to promise that heâll fill her in on it all in more detail later, but to please just let him go be alone with his girl.
Heâs certain that no one else would believe it if he told them, but his intentions to be alone with you are entirely pure. Now that heâs close to having you as his again, he wants to do right by youâ take it slow, kiss you soft and tender, touch you light and chaste, respectfully, sweetly. He wants to take you on dates again, wants to save up all his quarters to buy you something special, wants to devote his every moment to showing you how sincerely he loves you.
He wants you to meet his friends properly (after he gives them a stern warning to be gentlemen in front of you), wants you to meet his parents, and he wants to meet yours in turn. He wants to stop playing it cool and aloof and confident when he feels somethingâ doesnât want to keep pretending that the way you look at him doesnât drive him wild, not just with lust but with adoration.
And certainly, you know that Chris is softer than he outwardly appearsâ youâre not blind to the way his cheeks and ears burn when you kiss him sweet and call him that name that makes his heart skip a beat. And unlike you, Chris knew what he was doingâ so it was natural for him to always be the one leading your little song and dance, even when on the inside he felt like he was going to positively combust from the way your eyes sparkled at him.
Thereâs something youâve been wanting to tryâ something that you couldnât before, because your summer together passed by in a blink, and there was so much you didnât know when your relationship first began. And Chris has taught you a lot in your time togetherâ maybe more than he even realizes.
He may not know it, but heâs made you into a real insatiable minx. And now that you know heâs willing to beg and plead and grovel for you to take him back, oh how it makes your heart race with the possibilities. How far can you take it? How far is he willing to go for you, to prove that heâs devoted to you entirely? Would he really do anything to keep you?
Chris told you, just a few moments ago as the sock hop was coming to an end, that heâll do anything and everything to make sure you donât regret giving him another chance with him. He looked you straight in the eyes, vulnerable and entirely sincere, squeezed your hands in his as countless promises left his lips.Â
Could he be manipulating you? Is he nothing but a dirty liar? Itâs certainly possibleâ but youâd like to believe the Chris you knew last summer is the truest version of himself. Youâd like to believe that the Chris you saw tonight isnât an act to keep stringing you along. So you want to try somethingâ something bold, something the you of last summer wouldâve never thought to do.
You donât think your shyness will ever entirely evaporate given that Chris is such an utter dreamboat, but he does well enough at playing it cool, so who's to say you canât do it too? You can be playful and enticing, can play it coy and innocent while you flutter your lashes at him, can smile and pout at him in a way that makes desire spread through his veins like explosive, hot fireworks.
When Chris walks back out of the building you have to make a conscious effort to ignore the butterflies in your stomachâ youâve decided youâre a woman on a mission tonight, after all. The parking lot is sparse now, and the last stragglers from the sock hop all shuffle to their cars, his sister and her group of friends being among them.
Though you only met her briefly, you offer her a pleasant wave goodbye, and she smiles at you as she returns itâ though you donât miss the way she shoots her older brother a look after. A look that says âdonât fuck this up for yourself.â It almost makes you giggleâ you like having his sister on your side; you get the impression sheâll chew him out if he doesnât shape up the way heâs promised to.Â
Chris doesnât turn to you until after his sister and her friends have peeled out of the parking lotâ youâre not sure if itâs because he wanted to make sure she was going to be safe, or if itâs because he felt like sheâd gotten enough of an eyeful of him being affection with you, and heâd be embarrassed if she saw anymore. You like either answer.
âHi baby,â he says, soft and sweet as he smiles, and it makes your heart once again skip a beat. Even after hours of dancing, he still looks utterly perfectâ not a single piece of his greased up hair out of place. You hope youâre faring the sameâ you didnât really get a chance to look at yourself in the mirror at the end of the night to know for certain, but you want Chris to think you look divine.
âAm I taking you straight home?â he asks; itâs dark out now, but you still have a fair amount of time before youâre expected back home. And while heâd love to spend more time with you, he isnât going to assumeâ this is a trial period, after all; he still has to earn that, heâs sure.
Calling you his earlier was more hope on his end than confidenceâ he wants you to be his, but he knows he has to earn your trust back first. And heâs going to be a gentlemanâ any boundary you have, heâll adhere to, no matter what. He refuses to fuck up with you again.
âNo,â you answer short and simple, smiling up at him as you do. But before he can ask you what you want to do until curfew, youâre speaking again. âMy shoe's untied,â you pout, leaning back against his car while gently lifting your foot from the ground to show him, âcan you fix it for me, please?â
âYou want me to tie it for you, baby?â he laughs a little as he tilts his head to the side, thinking youâre just oh so cute when you keep up the pout as you nod. He gets down on one knee easily, and you put your foot right on his knee, watching as he ties your laces back together. When heâs finished, you donât put your foot back on the groundâ you press it right to the middle of his chest.
âBaby?â Chris looks up at you curiouslyâ and thereâs a twinkle in your eye heâs never seen before. He almost thinks youâre going to kick him back on his behind, but you donâtâ you take your skirt into your hands, and start to pull it up. Slowly, it rises above your calf, your knee, your thigh, until he can see your pretty white panties, with its precious little pink bow in the center.
âS-Sugar, whatâ what are youââ he stammers, struggling to form words in a way he never has before. Youâve never exposed yourself to him like thisâ just out in the open, with no barrier between you and the rest of the world. You arenât in your bedroom, you arenât inside the car with the windows and hood upâ youâre out, in the middle of the fucking parking lot where anyone could see.Â
Fuck, even the times at the beach, when he made love to you in the sand, were much, much more secluded than thisâ because those excursions were isolated, close to your auntâs beach house and happening in the dead of night. And this is very much notâ itâs barely even 9 oâclock, and youâre at a public venue; anyone could come by, and for any reason.
âI need your help with something else too, daddy,â you say as you pout some more, clearly acting coy, and he swallows as he stares up at you. âCan you do it, daddy? Can you help me?â You take as much of your skirt's fabric into one hand as you can, keeping it lifted above your thigh while you move your other hand between your legs, pulling your panties to the side to show him your pussy.
The action sends all of Chrisâ blood careening to his cockâ he canât believe youâre really doing this right now. âRightâ right here? N-Now?â he gulps, taking a quick glance around the parking lot. Youâre alone now, but stillâ he never thought youâd do something so bold. Even just fooling around in the back seat of the cadillac with as much privacy as he could give you made you impossibly shy.
âYes, here, now,â you tell him, keeping your panties hooked to the side with two fingers, while using the other two to spread your folds apart for him the best you can. Youâre trying to entice him, and fuck, is it working. He never thought heâd see you this way, and itâs making him feel so utterly electricâ heâs a fucking live wire, and heâll pour his current straight into you.
Anything you want from him, itâs yoursâ he doesnât need any convincing, heâs already impossibly ensnared by the rope that is your desire for him. And fuck, he said he wouldn't do this, said he'd be a gentleman, take things slow and build back up to intimacy with youâ but if you're practically begging him for it, how can he resist?
Chris takes your foot into his hand, carefully lifts it from his chest and throws your leg over his shoulder before he crawls closer to you. The concrete of the parking lot ground is brutal against his knees, but he doesnât give a shitâ you need him, and thatâs all that matters.
He replaces your hand, keeps your panties shoved aside with his own. Now that your hand is free you use it to hold onto the car door and give yourself some extra support as he starts placing kisses to your clit. His lips always feel so perfectâ especially when he licks them first, gets them nice and wet for you; the sensation draws out a pleasant sigh, but you both know it isnât really enough.
Chris likes to tease you, make you wait until youâre squirming and trembling from all his repeated kisses, gets you so worked up you could beg and cry before he finally gives you his tongue. But tonight is about getting what you want, when you want itâ so as much as you enjoy his soft little kisses, youâre not going to let him work you up.
Heâll be the one fraying at the edges, the one desperate and pleading, the one who feels like his brain is filled with cotton, looking up at you from down on his knees with glassy eyes full of need. You let go of the car door, bring your hand to his head and thread your fingers through his hair. You pull back just enough to have his head tilting away from your pussy, making his eyes land straight up at you.
âBabyââ he gasps, and again you meet his gaze with that sinfully deceitful pout. âYou said youâd do anything for me, daddy,â you say as you shoot him your best doe eyed look, âDid you mean it? Will you do anything for me?â Fuck, youâve got him throbbingâ you can see his erection straining against his jeans, and it nearly makes you grin in delight.
Still, you donât crackâ Chris always does well at only showing you the version of himself he wants you to see, and you will too. You wonât give him your meek looks or timid declarations of desire for more of his touchâ heâll only see a new you; a confident you who knows exactly what she wants. Youâve learned from the best, after all.
âWell?â you demand when he doesnât immediately answer, and you watch him swallow, swearing you can see the shiver that spreads down his spine and throughout the rest of his body. âY-Yeah baby, I meant it. Iâd do anything for you,â he tells you, hoping you canât see how red his face and ears are getting in the low light.
âProve itâ prove you want me, prove youâre good for something,â you say, and again he shivers, breath catching in his throat. âEat it, make me cum.â Fuck, Chris is reelingâ he still canât even believe itâs really you talking to him this way. His brain feels like a faulty circuit board, all his synapses sparking dangerously as they fire off, ready to ignite his blood and engulf him in an uncontrollable flame of desire.
When you let go of his hair, he wastes no time diving right into your pussy, eating you out like a man starved. He brings his free hand to your ass, squeezes and holds you in place while he shakes his head to get more of you on his tongue, his nose bumping your clit and making your legs quiver.
You bite your lip, doing your best to suppress the loud moan he brings out of you by sucking on your clit. His plush lips wrapped around it, the flicks of his tongue, how expertly he sucksâ itâs already so overwhelming, in the best way possible. Chris does his best to sink lower, tries to lick at your hole and get his tongue inside, but itâs hard like thisâ heâs not sure if he can.
âB-Baby, doll, let me lay you down, in the car, let meââ he pulls away from your dripping center to look up at you, and fuck, he looks ruined in the prettiest way imaginable. His eyes are hazy and pleading, glistening with your arousal from the tip of his nose all the way down to his chin, sweat dripping down his brow. âNeed to spread you out, Iâ please? Gotta taste more of you.âÂ
Shit, you canât deny you want itâ especially not when heâs begging like this. You nod, and he smiles at you in appreciation, a smile that makes your knees even weaker than they already are. You take your leg off his shoulder, and he quickly rises to his feet, giving you a messy kiss before he ushers you away from the car door to open it for you.
You crawl into the back seat, and he follows, slamming the door shut behind him. He waits until you get comfortable, not acting until you're lying propped against the opposite door of the car. Chris hooks your panties in his fingers, pulls them down your legs and tosses them aside into the footwell; it'll be a sweet treat for him when he finds them again later.
He'll keep them, he thinksâ stuff âem in his pocket and take them back to his room, where they'll lie safe and protected under his pillow. It's a dirty thought, one that'd otherwise fill his gut with shame, but right now all he feels is needâ need for you to cum on his tongue, need to give you everything you want and more.
He settles on his stomach between your legs, and itâs certainly not easy, but he manages well enough. One of your legs ends up over his shoulder again while the other stays spread out with the help of his hand holding you under the knee. And finally, his tongue dips into your hole, and itâs pure blissâ maybe even more so for him than you. Heâs hungry, utterly ravenous; all he can think, breath, and taste is you, you, you.
âChrisâ your fingers, need your fingers,â you whine more shamelessly than you would've otherwise liked, but you know he enjoys it. He separates from you long enough to run his fingers between your folds, making sure theyâre nice and slick for you before he presses them to your hole.Â
He slides one finger in first, bringing his mouth back to your clit while you adjust to the feeling. Your legs are already trembling by the time he adds another finger, and when he starts curling his fingers to hit your most sensitive spot while flicking his tongue against your clit you can hardly even breatheâ itâs just so, so good.
Your stomach is clenching, thighs and legs shaking hard, your release building up with an intensity youâve never felt before. âOh, fuck, Chrisââ you cry when he presses the tips of his fingers into your spot harder. Youâre certain that if it wasnât for the fact that youâre still wearing your shoes, your toes would be curling from the pleasure.
Your pussy sounds so sloppy and messy, and Chris himself isnât making it any betterâ heâs drooling so much, his saliva drenching you just as much as your own dripping arousal. Youâre breathing hard, and even your hands are shaking as they continue to hold up your skirt to watch him devour you.
âOh my god, âm gonna cum, Iâm gonnaâ fuck, gonna cum for you daddy, please donât stop,â youâre crying loudâ and you know you should at least try to be quieter considering how out in the open you are, but youâre too far gone to care. With your head thrown back, you whimper and moan, high pitched and loud, eyes rolling back as your orgasm takes you.
It feels like itâs endless, the waves of pleasure ceaselessly jolting your body as your vision blurs white; and you feel wet; so, so wet. Itâs only when you finally come down from the high and lift your head back up from where it thunked against the car door to look at Chris that you realize why you feel so drenched.
Itâs not just your thighs that are dampenedâ itâs your skirt, Chrisâ face and shirt, the leather of his seats; all of it is soaked with your cum. Your face starts to burn hot, and you swallow as Chris stares at you, almost bewildered. âBabyâ did you just..?â You squirted for him, because of himâ he doesnât even fucking care how much of a nightmare itâs going to be to clean his car, all he can think about is how fucking sexy it is.
You simply nod, because itâs all you can think to doâ you really werenât expecting this to happen. âOh my god, baby, you have to do it again, please, you have to,â he practically whines, and his enthusiasm over it makes you giggle. You honestly feel more than a little shy about it, but Chrisâs apparent elation makes it worth the tinge of embarrassment.
You reach out for him, take the necklace dangling from his neck into your hands and pull, urging him to come closer to you. He crawls up your body, and you kiss him, sliping your tongue into his mouth and tasting yourself all over him. âFuck, youâre so dirty baby,â he groans when you pull away, âwhat are we going to do, huh?â
It makes you giggle again, a soft thing full of mischievous delight. He basks in it, giggles with you before he kisses you again. âNeed your cock now,â you tell him when he pulls away, and shit, heâd nearly forgotten how fucking hard he is whilst wrapped up in pleasuring you. He can feel it straining against his jeans, desperate for stimulation of its own.
âYeah? Want my cock baby?â he asks, grinning at you the way he always had before; you tug on his silver chain again in response. âDonât forget, youâre giving me everything I want. Everything, okay?â you say once his face is mere inches from yours again, making him look you closely in the eyes. Chris swallows as he nods, the smile you offer him once again making his brain feel fuzzy and floaty.
He looks you over once more, really takes it all in before he scrambles over the front seat, reaching for the glove box where he still has some spares from your time together over the summer. Condom in hand, he settles back over you, and you help him with his jeans while he tears the package open. He spreads it quickly down his length, and you take your legs in hand, holding them under your knees to keep yourself open for him.Â
The sight of you like that is dizzyingâ legs open, skirt bunched up all the way to your stomach, pussy wet and glistening, with the hair there matting from how wet you are; youâre perfect. So fucking perfect. He moans as he pushes into you, so slick that you take him with ease. You take his face in one of your hands and pull him down to kiss you, a desperate one that makes pleasure lick over every inch of his skin.
Chris rolls his hips into you slowly to start, while you let go of the leg you're still holding to wrap your limbs around him, keeping him pressed close. He grabs onto the car door, uses it to keep himself steady when he starts to pick up the pace of his hips, harsh breaths and low moans leaving him freely. Neither of you are trying to be quiet, the street lights are burning bright, the hood of his car and the windows are down, anyone could hear you or see youâ and the excitement of it all makes the pleasure he feels all the more intense.
âBaby, your titsâ let me see âem, please, can I see âem?â he asks between labored breathsâ he needs to see them, has missed them more than is probably allowed. You quickly do as he asks, fumbling with the top few buttons of your blouse to expose yourself to him. You tug down your bra so he can see your breasts bare, and again he groans, bringing his free hand to one of them to brush his thumb over your hardened nipple.
âOh, youâre so prettyâ so, so pretty baby,â he says, groaning when the words make you clench harder around him. It doesnât take long for the car to start rocking with the motion of his thrusts, his rhythm quickly growing sloppier. Heâs been so worked up, and believe it or not, he hasnât actually fucked anyone since youâ he feels so high strung and on edge, and he doesnât know how much longer he can hold out.
He just hopes he can make you cum again before he does, or at least make you cum with himâ he needs you to be happy with him. You can feel his cock twitching and throbbing, you can tell that heâs already impossibly closeâ so, like the little minx you are, you talk dirty to him, wanting to see him utterly unravel at the seams. âYou gonna fill me up, daddy? Make this pussy all yours?â
Chris gasps and shudders, goosebumps erupting all over his impossibly hot skin. He knows he canât actuallyâ all heâs going to really fill up with his cum is the condom, but fuck, the thought of it is making his head swim. âY-Yeah, gonna fill you up baby, daddyâs gonna make you so full,â he breathes, and God, that really does it for you.
You bring your fingers to your clit, rubbing in quick, practiced circles. Even through the condom he can feel you gushing and soaking his cock, and it sends him over the edgeâ as do the sounds of your incredibly pretty whimpers and moans of pleasure. His hips still when he cums, his bottom lip tucked between his teeth as his eyes roll back, head thrown back in utmost bliss.
It takes Chris a few moments to recollect himself and catch his breath, and he slowly slips out of you when does. He tucks his softening length back in his jeans before he helps you fix your bra, and smoothes your skirt out over your legs while you button your blouse back up. âYou feeling okay, baby?â he asks, wiping messy strands of hair out of your face.
Youâre both covered in a sheen of sweat, faces flushed and hot, hair utterly a messâ itâs obvious, even with your clothes fixed up, what youâve been doing. âMhm, are you?â you ask, and he smiles, giving you a quick peck on the lips. âIâm peachy keen, jelly bean,â he replies and you giggle, kissing him once more.
He looks at himself in his rearview mirror when he pulls away, does his best to fix his messy hair while you lift yourself up from your propped position and stretch out your aching limbs. He then takes another glance around the parking lot, and notes that youâre still the only ones hereâ thank God. He was too enraptured by you to check earlier, and heâs grateful that no one else has showed up.
âShould probably get you home now, yeah?â Chris asks, looking at the clock on his dashboard and noticing itâs now getting dangerously close to your 10 oâclock curfew. He helps you get into the passenger seat when you nod, and you smile at him when he settles in beside you. He turns the key in the ignition, one hand resting on your thigh while the other stays on the wheel, and he drives you home.
Chris parks up the street, like he did all those times at your auntâs beach house. He watches you walk over to your house, and he smiles when you turn around to blow him a kiss. At 11 he leaves his car, walks up the street to your home, and approaches the only window with a light still onâ the window to your new bedroom. And you smile as you open it for him, letting him crawl his way inside.
He sees the teddy bear he won you at the fair sitting right in the middle of your bed, nestled against your pillows, and he smiles, delighted that you still kept it even after he broke your heart. âI love you, baby,â he tells you in a whisper after a sweet kiss, ânever gonna hurt you again, I promise.â
âYou better keep that promise, mister. Or I might just have to make you jealous again,â you warn and tease him with a cheeky little smile. He strips out of his jeans and tee shirt as you turn off your lamp, lies down beside you after you settle into your bed, runs his hand up and down your back as you press yourself against him. Head on his chest, with your arm and leg tossed over him, he kisses your head and smiles once moreâ because as he promised, this is just the start of a lifetime.
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pairing: theodore nott x gryffindor reader
summary: enemies with benefits with theo where they're constantly insulting each other but they still can't get enough. smut. au where characters at hogwarts are aged up to be 19+. mdni. / requested by anonymous.
author's note: co-wrote this with lily (@softeliza) <3 we honestly wrote this as a theo x hermione, but swapped hermione for reader
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Theo's judging eyes watch as you dice the sopophorous bean before tossing it into your cauldron, your gaze shifting between your opened textbook and your cauldron. A bead of sweat drips from your forehead. You were meticulously following the directions, and yet something still didn't seem right about your potion.
Theo scoffs, shaking his head. What an idiot, he thinks.
"You're supposed to crush it." Theo says, demonstrating pointedly with a silver dagger and popping the squashed bean into his own cauldron. The cauldron bubbles, and the liquid shifts a shade darker.
"You're supposed to follow the instructions, which clearly say to cut it," you say through gritted teeth.
Potions was the one class Theo never followed the directions for, and yet he always seemed to be doing significantly better than you. You hated that.
"You know," you add with a huff, annoyance laced in your words. "Just because you don't respect the rules any other time doesn't mean you shouldn't follow a simple recipe."
There was something about pissing you off that gave Theo the right amount of joy to get him through the day. Hearing you huff at his words was like finding a jelly slug in a mountain of acid pops. It was glorious.
"Do you believe everything you read?" Theo asks mockingly, his eyes unmoving from the cauldron in front of him. He doesn't know why he was helping youâthis was meant to be a competition for the coveted felix felicis. Maybe it was because Theo knew you weren't going to listen to him anyway. "Besides, I respect the rules." Theo says, but even he can't keep a straight face at his claim, his lips tugging into a smirk.
"I believe everything I read in a textbook," you say, your eyes narrowing and your mouth falling open in shock. Was he serious? "You know, that book of words that literally outlines how to make the potion? How else would you know how to brew it?" You hope he doesn't notice the genuine curiosity in your question. You actually wanted to know how Theo knew what to do all the time. It was so infuriating.
"Natural intelligence and charm." Theo says coolly.
In actuality, Theo had managed to find a textbook filled with inscriptions, correcting the printed text with tips and tricks on how to brew a potion every time. But he wasn't going to tell you that. Theo would gladly and happily let you believe he was gifted.
Theo peeks at your cauldron and has to hold a snort back. It looked just about ready to implode.
"This is a simple recipe, huh?" Theo muses. "Is that why your potion looks and smells like absolute shit?"
"Maybe I just thought I'd throw you a scrap with this one. I mean, we both know you're in desperate need of some luck, especially on the Quidditch pitch. If anyone needs this win, it's you."
"Oh, so you watch me on the pitch, do you?" Theo says with a smug grin.
You roll your eyes. Curse him.
Theo stirs counterclockwise a few times and then once again clockwise. The potion bubbles again. This time, it shifts into its final colour form. Bingo.
Theo, with an expression beaming with pride, calls over Professor Slughorn to inspect the potion. You zero in on Theo's cauldron and let out a small sigh. You didn't need confirmation from Slughorn to know that Theo did it. That bloody asshole did it.
Slughorn tosses a single leaf into the cauldron. The leaf disintegrates, and Slughorn clasps his hands together and announces, "We have a winner! Class dismissed!"
As Theo receives congratulations from all around, you begin to tidy your workspace, empty your cauldron, and pack your things. Anger boils in your stomach. As much as you tried to avert your gaze from Theo, your eyes are drawn to the tiny vile Slughorn passes to Theo. With a triumphant smirk thrown your way, he tucks the potion into his pocket before cleaning his workspace.
"Try to use it for something other than trying to sleep with girls," you quip, clutching your books to your chest. The confident, holier-than-thou persona slips over you like a glove. It was a default shield whenever you felt threatened, especially academically. And Theo was often on the receiving end of it all. "I mean, I'm sure you could use some luck in that department, but I doubt that's what Zygmunt Budge had in mind."
"I'm doing quite well in that department, actually." Theo says. With looks and an attitude like his, girls were flocking to him like nifflers to gold. "Much like potions, really. They all just come to me."
Theo awaits your signature glare and snarky remark, but he was simply met with a silent shove to his shoulder as you headed to the door. His brows furrow, disappointed in the lack of repartee, before Theo's walking after you. He falls into step with you, following you through the dimly lit corridors of the dungeon.
"What's the rush, little lion? Can't stomach losing?"
"I'm not in a rush; I just don't want to be around you. Don't you have some dingy hole to crawl back into?" You fume, your grip on your textbooks tightens, and your pace quickens.
"You wound me." Theo simpers, clutching his chest in mock-hurt.
Being in Theo's presence was getting you more and more riled up. You felt like you were minutes away from becoming a human version of a Filibuster Firework. Theo loved when you got like this. He can't quite pinpoint the exact moment he realized why he liked seeing you so worked up, but he's quickly reminded by the staggered breathing and the rapid rise and fall of your chest.
Theo continues to stroll alongside you, an air of arrogance in each step he takes. You quickly realize you have no idea where you're headed. The echoing of both your steps, coupled with the hovering nuisance on your side, makes you let out a sharp, frustrated exhale. You turn to Theo, glaring daggers into his stormy eyes.
"Can you just go? You're soâugh." You growl, unable to find the proper words.
Theo's brows perk upward. There's something familiar about the expression you give him. He'd seen it before. Last time he'd seen it, the two of you ended up christening the boy's change room after a Quidditch matchâSlytherin should beat Gryffindor more often.
Before you can articulate your frustrations, Theo grabs you by the wrist and pulls you into a vacant classroom. The feeling of his fingers around your wrist sends a jolt of warmth straight through your body. Theo pins you against the door, your books falling to the floor with a sharp thud. He skillfully locks the door with a slight flick of his wand before muttering the muffliato charm and putting his wand away. Darkened eyes meet your gaze, a mixture of amusement and want in his eyes.
"I'm so what?" Theo demands. His hand caresses your cheek before roughly wrapping around the base of your throat. "Use your words."
Your mind goes hazy, as if you've been confunded, the moment you feel his hand on your throat. You'd never admit how much you loved when Theo did that.
With a shaky breath, you meet his intense gaze to say, "Infuriating."
The way you reacted to Theo's touch was unlike any other girl he had the pleasure of fucking at Hogwarts. You were just so obvious, and Theo had no shame in admitting that he found it all extremely arousing. Of course, your mouth would claim otherwise, but Theo always had a plan to occupy your pretty little mouth.
You bite down on your lip, stifling the whimper begging to escape. Your breathing is in sync with each other, and the sexual tension makes the air around you thick.
"Are you going to fix it? Or are you just going to stand there like an idiot?" You tempt, leaning up slightly, just to see if he'll close the gap between your lips and his.
"I don't know," Theo responds, keeping a fair distanceâonly enough for your lips to brush lightly against his. To keep you wanting. Theo leans into your neck, ghosting breathy, teasing kisses up until he's milimeters away from your ear. "Are you going to say please?"
"You've got to be kidding," you huff, shooting a glare at Theo as you try to keep your breathing steady.
You weren't exactly experienced, at least not like Theo. You had a few moments with others, but no one had ever gotten you to feel as good as Theo did. It enraged you that Theo knew how good he made you feel, but you also took pleasure in knowing that you must be riling him up just as equally because Theo always seemed to come crawling back.
You bring your free hand up, tangling your fingers in his lush, brown locks, before tugging his head back a bit so he could look at you. He groans at this. It was one of many acts that really got Theo going, and it just so happened to be where your hands gravitated to the most.
"Please," you say, the tiniest of smirks on your lips.
Anticipation runs through your veins. You didn't need to say anything else. By the way he was looking at you, his lustful eyes boring into your gaze, Theo knew you needed him right now.
"Good girl," he muses with a cocky grin.
The first time Theo had praised you like that, while laced with ridicule, it had elicited a whimper that had him reeling. Today was no different.
Theo moves his hand from your throat and down to your waist, expertly pulling you away from the door and onto the desks behind him. Theo wastes no time and captures your lips with his. One hand finds your thigh, teasing up your bare skin and under your skirt. Your hands find and tug at his belt. Theo unbuckles it and tosses it aside.
"Let's see if you can keep it up." Theo says hotly against your lips.
It was in your nature to be good. But with Theo, there was that bubbling voice inside you that beckoned you to misbehaveâto get under his skin. To be bad, all so he could teach you a lesson. Which is why, as Theo plants nippy, wet kisses down your neck, you can't help the words that blurt out of your mouth.
"Let's see if you can make me shake, likeâwhat was that bloke's name..." You trail off, pulling him up by the collar of his shirt for another kiss and wrapping your legs around his waist to keep him close.
There was no other guy, of course, but you wanted him to think otherwise. The mischievous glint in your eyes changes to amusement as Theo's eyes darken. His fingers drag possessively across the insides of your thighs. It was hard for Theo to imagine you with someone else. You two weren't exclusive by any means, but the way you'd whimper and dig your nails into his back had him feeling territorial.
"Shake?" Theo asks against your lips. There was a tinge of something in his tone, and, deep down, you wanted it to be jealousy. "I'll fucking make you shake."
Feverish kisses move down your neck, eliciting a whine out of you, his free hands taking residence on the base of your throat. He plants open-mouthed kisses down the sensitive spots along your neck, sucking softly on the skin, surely leaving a mark everyone would be able to see. Theo pulls back to admire his work. He's pleased. You, on the other hand, were equal parts excited and annoyed. Excited because the sensation made the blood rush to your cheeks and to your core, and annoyed because you had to explain the markings to your friends.
"Theo," you hiss. "You know better."
Theo doesn't listen, obviously. Instead, he moves down your body until he's crouched and face-to-cunt. Slender fingers reach under your skirt, hook onto your panties, and slide the garment off. In an instant, Theo's between your legs, lapping his tongue relentlessly over your clit.
"Oh my god," you gasp, one hand grasping onto the edge of the desk, your back arching instinctively to bring yourself closer to his tongue. Your free hand finds his hair again, your hips rolling to meet his movements.
Theo's smirks into your core, a low groan escaping his lips as he feels you roll onto his mouth. Strong hands position themselves on either leg, urging you to spread your legs wider. You try to obey his silent requests, but it's not enough. Impatience hits him hard, and he's repositioning your legs so they're slung over his shoulders, a firm hand pushing your hips down onto the wooden desk. The new position allowed him to be flush against you, his tongue circling your entrance and lapping up any arousal.
"Theo," you moan, louder than normal.
You could tell he was pissed. It'd always been your goal, especially in intimate settings, but Theo had never been like this. He buries his face between your legs, his nose rubbing against your clit as his tongue works on your opening. He dips a finger in and withdraws it out of you slowly, contrasting his unyielding tongue. Your eyes flutter shut with pleasure.
"More," you choke out. "Please, give me more."
Your moans were fueling the already raging fire in him. Fuck, he needed to hear more of that. Theo uses his free hand to hold you steady, his tongue and lips unrelenting. He adds another digit inside of you, curling his fingers against your spot. Theo wanted to make you cum now more than ever. He wanted you to remember that even if you were fucking someone else, he was the only one who could make you unravel like this.
"Sit fucking still then," he growled against your slit, stormy eyes shooting up to look at you.
You fight hard to listen to him, desperately trying not to squirm. Theo was cruel enough to stop and leave you high and dry, so it was in your best interest to do as instructed. You dig your nails into the edge of the desk in an attempt to keep your focus on something other than the pleasure growing inside of you.
"Th-Theo," you gasp. "Iâ"
You're close, and you know what Theo wantsâwhat he always wants. Theo wanted you to ask for permission, and with the image of someone else messing with you fresh in his mind, Theo needed to know he had that control over you now more than ever. Breathy pants fill the room, and you fear you can't hold it back any longer.
"Fuck, please. Can I please..." You moan, throwing your head back against the desk.
"Please what?" Theo says roughly against you. If Theo's cock wasn't already erect, it would be now. Your moans and gasps of pleasure were truly something that needed to be studied. Who knew these delightfully ragged breaths could come out of someone so irritatingly uptight? "Words, Y/L/N."
The fog of pleasure Theo has you in has made it impossible for you to do the one thing you pride yourself on: following the instructions. Typically, Theo would remove himself and make you beg for contact. Today, though, his actions were ceaseless. Despite your strong will to be good, your body wouldn't cooperate.
"Oh my god," you whimper, your back arching as an intense orgasm washes over you. Your body jerksâno, shakesâand your moans are broken up by desperate gasps as wave after wave hits you.
Theo curses under his breath. As pissed as he was that you didn't ask, Theo graciously allows you to release on his tongue, lapping up your sweet fluids. He'd reprimand you later. As you come down from your high, your body collapses onto the desk. You've never felt anything like that before.
Theo stands and slides his fingers out of you slowly. His darkened, lustful eyes are trained on yours. As much as he enjoyed the view, Theo wasn't happy.
"Don't," you breathe. "I knowâI should have... I know."
"So much for following instructions," Theo says, disregarding your words. He licks your arousal off his fingers casually, and the sight makes you shift and clench your thighs together. He was the hottest irritant you've ever seen.
"Fuck off," you say with an exasperated huff. You prop yourself up by your elbows, slowly moving into a sitting position. "You didn't exactly help the situation."
So maybe Theo was being a bit of a prick. Not like he could help itâyou squirming and moaning for him like that triggered something primal in him. Theo didn't want to stop; he wanted to make you scream for him. Still, it really shouldn't have been hard to ask.
By the way Theo was looking at you, you could tell it would take more than a crass brush-off to wipe the icy glare and pouted lips from his expression. Delicate fingers grip onto Theo's shirt, tugging him closer to you. You ghost your lips against his, meeting his steely gaze. "Will you let me make it up to you?"
You don't wait for a response. Instead, you nip at his bottom lip before pulling him in for a slow, deep kiss. Despite his annoyance, Theo kisses back, placing a strong hand behind your neck to keep you in place. The kiss is full of passion, anger, and need.
You maneuver yourself off the desk, unbreaking the hot kiss, as you reposition so that Theo's the one against the desk. He acknowledges you taking charge, and he allows it because, quite frankly, whenever you did take charge, Theo found it extremely intoxicating.
Only now do you break the kiss, peering up at Theo as your hands fumble with his pants. He kicks them off just as you remove your own top, making a point of leaving your bra intact. Theo's breath catches. God, he wanted to bury his face between the valley of your breasts.
"So?" You ask again, a devilish smirk on your lips, your fingers making progress on unbuttoning his collared shirt. "Will you?"
"Go on, then." Theo says. It's not lost on him how much leniency he gives youânot just in this moment. Any other girl who disobeyed his instructions would have been tossed aside so he could move on to the next. But with you, as vexing as you were, you also very much intrigued him.
At his permission, you lightly push him back so he's sitting on the desk, giving him a much comfortable position to watch as you slowly unhook your bra, letting the garment fall to the floor. You can sense his probing eyes on you, and you can't help the sly smile that appears as you straddle him, one leg on each side of him.
Theo's hands find your waist immediately, slowly sliding up your sides, to your bare back, and then to your front. He squeezes your breasts, eliciting a breathy moan from you. Your skin was soft under his rough hands.
"And I thought you were going to let that ego of yours make a horrible choice for the both of us." You tease.
Theo's too enamoured with this new position (and view) to respond to your jests. One hand rests firmly on your jaw as he pulls you in for a kiss, his teeth grazing your bottom lip. Meanwhile, your hand moves to stroke his length, feeling Theo grow even harder at your touch.
"Shit," Theo groans.
"Someone's missed me," you whisper against his lips. Your thumb teases the tip of his cock, evoking a slight twitch out of him.
"God, shut up."
Theo wanted nothing more than to wipeâno, fuckâthat smug expression on your face. And he's just about ready to take matters into his own hands, but you beat him to it.
Still wet from your previous orgasm, you were beyond ready to have Theo inside you. You lift yourself up slightly, guiding him to your entrance. He bites back a groan, his hands gripping your waist. You lock gazes as you slowly lower yourself onto him, your mouth falling open in a glorious 'o' shape as you take all of him into you.
While this wasn't the first time you had Theodore Nott resting deeply in your cunt, you took a moment to adjust.
"Are you going to move, or what?" Theo growls impatiently, bucking his hips and roughly nipping at the soft skin on your neck.
His impatience makes you smirk.
"Hey," you say, with a wry smile. You snake your fingers up to his hair, tugging his head back slightly to give you room to trail a path of kisses along his neck. You were going to prolong this and make you both ache for more. You didn't want to be the only one who was a moaning mess today. "If I'm making it up to you, then it's my rules."
"You know I don't give a shit about rules."
"Too bad."
This makes Theo's jaw clench. Before he can utter another quip, you're rolling your hips, feeling him embedded inside you. The movement feels good, but you know it's not enough for either of you just yet.
"God, I'm thankful your ego isn't the only thing that's big," you moan against his ear.
This makes Theo's jaw clench. You hear a string of curse words in another language, something you've noticed Theo does in moments where his brain had short-circuited. Enough sense, it seems, is knocked back into him as you can understand the breathless words, "And you take me so fucking well."
Theo's lips find the top of your chest, kissing down feverishly. His tongue flicks expertly against your right nipple as his hand moves to grip your bare ass from under your skirt. You arch into him, letting out a sharp gasp at the dual sensation. Despite his sentiment about rules, Theo lets you control the pace. He holds back the strong desire to thrust upwards into you, to fuck you hard.
"Oh, Theo," you whine as you continue to roll your hips. You wrap your arms around his shoulders and lift yourself up, almost completely off his dick. Ghosting your lips against his, you push yourself back downâhardâfeeling him go even deeper. You repeat these movements, your moans growing louder.
Theo can't stop the thoughts of how gorgeous you looked from clouding his mind. You weren't bad to look at normally, but seeing you fuck yourself with his cock had to be one of the wonders of the world. Only if that were a reality, Theo's not sure he could stand anyone else ogling you like this.
"Yes, that... that feels good." Theo groans, his cock throbbing from your movements.
You press your forehead against his, your eyes locking with his as you continue. One of the things Theo liked most about this little arrangement was your unnerving ability to keep eye contactâthere was nothing more sexy than seeing the woman you were pleasuring crumble. Eyes can tell you everything.
"I'm trying toâ" you breathe, rocking yourself against him. The movement wasn't nearly fast enough, but the way you were moving had him reaching depths you didn't know were attainable. "âto be good."
"Are you?" Theo asks between pants, squeezing your ass roughly. He leans into your lips. "Can you be a good girl for me now?"
You give him a small nod, your eyes fluttering shut for a moment. Your breath is quavering as you try to speak; your eyes re-lock onto his. "Am I not being good for you?"
This makes him chuckle darkly. Theo wasn't an idiot. He knew you practically yearned for his words of praise. The knowledge was something he took advantage of from time to time, withholding and dangling his praise in front of you just to see how far you'd go to make him say it.
To prove to Theo you were being good, you push yourself down onto him roughly, a whimper escaping your lips. You increase your speed, unable to hold out anymore, fucking yourself hard, deep, and fast on his cock.
"Fuck." Theo swears, and he can't help himself now. Hands keep you in place as he fucks up into you, cock hitting your spot repeatedly and mercilessly. He relishes the feeling of your wet core around him. Your clit presses against his pelvis at each thrust.
You took pleasure (literally and figuratively) in Theo's natural ability in knowing. He knew what to say, how to touch you so you were melting, and when to take back control. His hands digging into your hips told you everything you needed to know: Theo was going to fuck you senseless.
"I want to be good," you pant, your nails digging into his back, grasping for a release.
"Then you know what I want to hear."
He holds you flush against him, arms wrapping around you as he continues to thrust. He can feel his own pleasure grow. Your head falls onto his shoulder as you feel it building up in your stomach again. This time, you weren't going to wait until it was too late.
"Theo, please," you practically beg. Theo was the only person who'd ever make you feel like this, and you were past the point of caring whether he knew it too. "Can I cum, please? For you."
"Yes," Theo hisses. He was close too. "Cum for me. Now."
Your orgasm hits you hard and fast, your head falling back as you drag your nails into his skin. Theo continues to thrust up sharply, chasing the high for the both of you. You clench around his length, the sensation mixed with your moans pushing Theo over the edge.
"That's my good girl."
Theo's praise for you was not lost in the chorus of breathy moans and grunts of pleasure. His addition of the word 'my' made you shake even more as another wave of pleasure washes over you.
"Oh, God, yes, Theo."
His hand moves to the back of your neck desperately, guiding you into him for a passionate kiss as he spills into you with a moan.
Ragged breaths fill the room. There was always a moment of limbo after every encounterâa moment where the two of you stayed entangled and nestled with each other, savouring the proximity and stealing last, sweet kisses. You knew the moment you got up, the two of you would go back to despising each other again, until next time.
"So?" Theo asks after a moment, expectant of an answer, as if you could read his mind. "That dumb git you mentioned earlier. Was he better than me?"
His question makes you smirk, and you have to bite it back so as not to show how content you were that he had lingered on that thought.
"You don't want me to answer that," you say, giving him a small pat on the shoulder before getting up. You slip back into your clothes and adjust your hair.
The answer should have been obvious to Theo, but you weren't giving him the satisfaction of admitting it because it did nothing for your reality. This was as far as this would go. Theodore Nott was a pretentious asshole who just so happened to be a good fuck. There was never going to be more than that.
"You definitely exceeded expectations today, Theo," you say, gathering your books from the floor. "But you didn't do anything worth an outstanding."
With a swift flick of your wand, you unlock the door and leave Theo in the vacant classroom, already fantasizing about next time.
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one wip i haven't talked about (bc it isn't a wip it's just an idea i've always wanted to do) is a professional tennis player au.... solely because i'm a big tennis fan
#i even have character outlines#sirius was retired and coaches now but before retiring he was known as the 'king of grass courts' bc of winning wimbledon 4 times in a row#remus ran a junior tennis academy#regulus was a 2 time slam winner (french + us)#james was also a 2 time slam winner (australian + us)#anyway. if anyone wants to talk to me about this au or tennis in general pls do#dil.txt
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A Single Daffodil || 6
Summary: Getting arranged to be married to your long-time crush wasn't exactly the fairy tale romance you were hoping for. Nor is the dynamic of the marriage, with your husband treating you like you don't exist. But you're going to make this work, whether he cares about you or not. And he definitely doesn't...right?
Pairing: Min Yoongi x Reader
Rating: 18+ minors DNI
Word Count: 6.4K
Genre: angst, romance, unrequited love, smut, enemies to lovers, arranged marriage au, businessman yoongi
Warnings: some angst, but this is a fluffy chapter so not much to say
Author's Note: hi everyone, i hope you're all well! sorry it took so long to get this out, i was really going through it and didn't have a lot of motivation to write, but this is finished now!! it's a lot shorter than i wanted it to be, but i decided it didn't matter and wanted to post anyway, so i hope you guys enjoy it despite the length (or lack thereof). thank you guys again so much for being so patient and understanding, you all are so amazing and i couldn't ask for better readers. i hope you enjoy the newest installment!
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Walking through the lobby of Yoongiâs apartment in what was essentially a morning after look left you with a new sense of embarrassment you hadnât felt before. You pointedly avoided eye contact with the security guard as you beelined to the elevator, hoping he couldnât make out the outline of a crumpled dress and lingerie in the bag hanging from your fingertips. The elevator takes what feels like an eternity to open its doors and once it does, you quickly ducked inside, repeatedly hitting the close button so no one else can enter.Â
Once you reached Yoongiâs apartment door, you breathed deeply, trying to calm your nerves before entering. You punched in the passcode, hearing the lock click and slowly turned the handle to crack open the door, seeing if you could catch a peek of Yoongi in the living room. Luck seemed to be on your side as the couch was empty, and you darted past the door, speed walking to the stairs to get changed. Making it to your room felt like winning a marathon as you shut the door behind you and chucked your plastic bag at the floor. You didnât know what you wouldâve done had you run into Yoongi dressed in nothing but Jaehyunâs shirt, missing even undergarments.Â
While you showered and dressed yourself in comfier clothing, making a mental note to wash and return Jaehyunâs shirt as soon as you could, you contemplated how you should approach your conversation with Yoongi. You hadnât talked to him since Friday night when youâd caught him on top of Jimin. You ran multiple scenarios of how a conversation with him would go as you entered the shower, wondering how he would react to you saying that you had feelings for him.Â
Wait, is that what you were going to do? Confess to him? You werenât sure about that. You knew you wanted to be honest with him but not that honest. ButâŚif you asked him to remain exclusive or said that him seeing people other than you bothered you, wouldnât he be able to put the pieces together from that? You sighed, letting the warm water trickle down your face, pushing your hair back against your scalp, at least not confessing would save you an iota of embarrassment.Â
You finished showering rather quickly, a bit too quickly for your own taste, you wanted to delay this inevitable conversation as long as possible. Picking your clothes was simple enough, aiming for a comfy outfit with a simple sweatshirt and leggings, noting the chilled air in the house.Â
Finally, you were ready. Physically, at least.Â
Emotionally? You wanted to crawl under your bed. But that wasnât an option, or so you told yourself, as you combed your hair and stared yourself down in the mirror.
You could do this. How hard could it be?Â
A glimmer of gold caught your eye on your desk and made you hesitate, seeing your ring sitting patiently on the flat surface. You reached for it, reasoning that if you wanted to commit to Yoongi, you should be wearing it. The cool feeling of the metal sliding onto your finger was grounding, something you needed for the conversation you were about to have.Â
Reaching for your door handle, you worried your lip over the fact that you still had no idea what you wanted to say. Should you wait until youâd formulated a plan? Or until you felt properly ready? No, youâd never talk to him at that rate.Â
As you opened the door, you stumbled back in shock, seeing Yoongi already standing there, looking disheveled and exhausted. He seemed equally surprised that youâd opened the door, showing in his slightly open mouth and wide eyes. You noticed the dark circles sinking in under his bloodshot eyes and messy bangs adorning his forehead, his lips were chapped and parted. Was he alright? But thatâs not what was important right now.
âYoongi-ssi,â you stuttered, caught off guard by his sudden appearance, âWhat are you doing here?â
Yoongi sighed, running a hand through already messy hair, before looking at you directly, âI wanted to talk to you. About Friday,â he paused, âAbout everything.â
Great.
âOh, okay, I actually wanted to talk to you too. Why donât you come in,â it felt awkward gesturing for him to enter your room but he looked like he was about to fall over any second and you didnât want to risk him getting a head injury. Guiding him to your bed, you watched him sit before pulling your desk chair up so you could face him.Â
âWould you like to start,â you asked, trying to meet his downcast gaze.
âNo, no, I want to hear what you have to say first,â he said quietly.Â
âOkay, well, firstly, I wanted to apologize for how I reacted on Friday,â you started, holding up your hand when you saw Yoongi begin to protest, âIâm not apologizing for being upset, Iâm apologizing for taking it out on you. In our agreement, you were allowed to pursue other people and I shouldnât have reacted that way, at least, not externally. You didnât really do anything wrong. But, to clear the air, I want to explain why I reacted the way I did.â
This was going well so far, or at least, thatâs what you were telling yourself. Yoongi seemed surprised but only nodded for you to continue, so you did.Â
âTo be completely honest, Iâm not really okay with us having an open relationship, I donât like the idea of you with other people or me going out with other people, it feels,â you weighed your words carefully, âIt feels disrespectful, at least, thatâs how I see it. But, I shouldâve made that clear when it was first brought up, so thatâs on me.â
Yoongi shook his head, but you continued on, feeling like you were unable to stop talking now that youâd started, âHonestly, this entire relationship has felt kind of one-sided. I donât like how you get upset at random things or draw a line between us so harshly. I understand that this wasn't ideal for you, Iâm not asking you to fall in love with me, but I do want us to work together.â
âI want us to try and at least be friends to start, I think we started off too hostile,â you continued, feeling like you were building to a crescendo.
âTo be totally transparent,â you took a deep breath, was this really what you wanted to do? There could be devastating consequences, but you felt in your bones that you wanted to be completely honest with him. You satiated your nerves by reminding yourself that you had your own apartment to go back to should Yoongiâs reaction be extremely negative.
âEven before we got married,â another deep breath, you could do this. This wasnât such a big deal, you didnât even have very deep feelings for him, they felt superficial. So with that logic, you told yourself, a rejection wouldnât be the end of the world.Â
âIâve had a sort of crush on you,â there was no turning back from here. You had told yourself you werenât planning on confessing, yet here you were, baring your soul. Your eyes were turned downward, afraid of seeing Yoongiâs reaction, the only thing you heard being a surprised exhale at your statement. Your fingers entangled with one another in a nervous tic as you slowly lifted your gaze to meet Yoongiâs.Â
His eyebrows were knitted together, in what expression, you werenât sure. His eyes held an emotion you couldnât read. His mouth was pursed in a sentiment you couldnât decipher. Why was he so difficult to read? Why couldnât you tell what he was thinking? It only made you more nervous. You had tried to quell your fears by telling yourself that your feelings were too shallow to warrant being so upset at a rejection, but you knew that it would still be devastating to you. When did your heart ever listen to logic?
As you sat in a silence that felt like it lasted minutes on end, Yoongi finally opened his mouth.Â
âI didnât know,â he stated, you still couldnât read his expression. Was that all he had to say? You could feel your heart sinking into your stomach and your eyes begin to well with tears.Â
âYeah, well, I didnât exactly want to announce it,â you retorted, feeling exposed and upset. You had confessed something of this caliber and that was all he could say in response? It was angering and you could feel the control you had over your expression slipping from your grasp. You turned away from Yoongi, attempting to steel your outward appearance, not wanting to let him see how much he affected you.Â
A hand caught your arm that was reaching up to run a hand through your hair, making you face Yoongi once more. His eyebrows were more scrunched together than before, making him look upset, but you couldnât be sure.Â
âY/N, Iâm sorry, I want to say more, itâs just a lot to process,â he said, biting at the chapped bits of his lip, making your eyes catch on the movement. You quickly averted your gaze back to his own, waiting for him to speak.Â
He released your arm, leaning back in his position on your bed, letting out a sigh, âIâve been thinking about a lot of stuff the past few days, and I want to apologize, for a lot. It was shitty of me to try to sleep with someone else, it was shitty of me to do a lot of things. You didnât deserve any of it. I shouldâve tried to get to know you better before we got married instead of imposing stupid rules, I shouldâve been nicer to you during the whole process, and I shouldnât have been so back and forth with how I acted towards you. Thereâs a lot I wish I had done differently, and I want to apologize for all of it.â
His words left you silent, mouth slightly parted in shock, not having expected such a genuine apology from his lips.Â
He took your silence as a sign to continue, âIâve probably been really frustrating to deal with, with how Iâve been handling this, but I want to make things clear, I definitely feel something for you too.â
Your ears felt like they were ringing, was this really happening? You hadnât even prepared yourself for this type of outcome, you werenât sure how to react.Â
âIt took me some time to actually come to terms with that because I didnât understand what I was feeling, but I can confidently say that I like you too. I want to make this work, I want to do this together, with you,â Yoongi finished, running a hand through his messy hair before looking at you once more.Â
You werenât sure of what to say exactly, your palms were growing sweaty and your mind felt blank. But you couldnât leave Yoongi hanging, you had to say something, anything.Â
âWe shouldnât try to start a relationship,â you blurted out, surprising Yoongi and yourself. But it was true to how you felt, with how things had progressed so far, you absolutely did not feel ready to jump into a relationship with Yoongi. The power imbalance felt too great, despite him just confirming that he had feelings for you too, you knew he could ask anything of you and youâd oblige. That wasnât a healthy foundation.Â
In addition to that, you didnât feel like you knew him well enough. You liked to be friends with people for a little bit before starting to date them, it allowed to get to know them without the pressure of a relationship, and usually only aided in your feelings towards them. Right now, you knew what you felt for Yoongi was too shallow to start a relationship that you would enjoy.Â
And the most important, you wanted to make sure you had an out. If a relationship between you and Yoongi didnât work out, you couldnât just stop seeing each other, youâd still be married. Youâd still have obligations to each other. You wanted to make sure that you and Yoongi could function as friends first, roommates at the least, before you jumped into a relationship that had the potential to end badly. If you knew that youâd be able to have a fall back plan with him, youâd feel much more comfortable going into this. It was a bad habit of yours, though, looking for a way out of situations before they had even come to fruition. You had tried to shake it, you really had, especially at the advice of your college counselor back when you actually got therapy, but it had creeped its way back into your routine.Â
Yoongiâs eyebrows furrowed, âWhy?âÂ
Biting your lip, you made sure to take an even breath, âWith how everything has been so far, I feel like itâd be better to start as friends. It feels too fast to jump straight into a relationship.â
Yoongi nodded slowly, âOkay, that makes sense. How about a compromise?â
Your attention quickly drew to his face, your eyebrows scrunching together in confusion and intrigue, âWhat do you mean?â
âLet me take you out on dates every now and then, we can go slowly so youâre comfortable,â he stated, sharp eyes carefully gauging your reaction.Â
You could feel your mouth open slightly in shock at his proposition, but your mind raced to consider the options, would you be able to handle dates with him? Would you even survive?
A new thought entered your mind, slightly unwelcome, but the fact remained that you didnât have to restrain yourself anymore. You didnât have to be concerned with whether you would survive dates with Yoongi anymore, because Yoongi liked you. It was mutual. There were no consequences to worry about, no reason to catch yourself, to monitor your feelings.
Because he liked you.Â
You silently nodded, still processing the entire situation, barely registering Yoongiâs returning nod.Â
âOkay,â he stated, a little breathlessly, âI should really go shower, so Iâm gonna do that.â He stood quickly, nodding at you, before rushing out your door. You werenât quite so far gone that you didnât notice his burning red ears, making you smile softly.Â
Hearing the door shut gently, you leaned back in your chair, exhaling loudly.
None of this felt real.Â
Did that really just happen?
You had spent so long pondering the possibilities and endless realities of Yoongi rejecting you, being disgusted, upset, or divorcing you that you didnât know what to do in the situation where he felt the same. Your mind was spinning and you felt yourself rise from your seat only to fall back onto your bed, staring up at the ceiling.Â
It felt like a dream, almost.
But the slight chill in the air, the feeling of the comforter beneath your fingertips, the distant sound of the shower running proved to you that it was real. A smile grew on your face as you sat in your thoughts, wasnât this the best case scenario? And it was truly happening.
Turning your head to the side, you glanced at the clock sitting on your bedside table. It was only around noon at this point, plenty of time left in the day. Noting the time made your stomach growl, berating your choice to have not eaten until now. You sat up, deciding to cook, leaving your room to head to the kitchen.Â
Cooking was a hit or miss for you, it really depended on what mood you were in, if you felt like cooking. You were in a great mood today, though, and it showed in your enthusiasm at wondering what you should make for lunch. Something light and easy, shareable. Because you wanted to share it with Yoongi.Â
You settled on kimbap, finding the necessary vegetables in the fridge and starting to chop them. When you were happy, you made spam kimbap, so thatâs what you made. A small little hum started up in you, influenced by the music flowing through your headphones, inciting a sway in your step and a tap in your foot. You hadnât been this content in a while, but it felt achingly familiar, a fond tug in your heart. You almost didnât know what to do with yourself without the lingering sadness or restriction on your feelings toward Yoongi.Â
You werenât sure if it had truly set in yet, the reality of the situation, but while it hadnât, you were going to enjoy the honeymoon phase of just having confessed to each other.Â
Flipping the spam on the stove, you quietly sang along to your song, using your chopsticks as a makeshift microphone in your muted movements. The last time you were able to relax like this, you recalled, was before you moved out of your apartment, after getting off a call with Hoseok and Joohee. The call had been a regular check in between the three of you and had left you in an exceedingly good mood and aggressively singing in your kitchen while making dinner. Your movements slowed and voice died as you thought about the past few months and how you had rarely had a moment of true content.Â
Your thoughts were constantly plagued by Yoongi and later, his actions toward you and what they could mean. You felt a wave of emotional exhaustion hit you now that your brain wasnât in overdrive trying to regulate your feelings and decipher Yoongiâs.Â
A glance down at the spam told you it was done and you quickly moved it to another plate. Turning around to retrieve the veggies, you were met with Yoongi standing silently at the edge of the kitchen, leaning against the pillar, making you stumble back.
âOh, Yoongi-ssi, you surprised me,â you breathed, pressing a hand to your chest before reaching for the veggies to lightly stir fry.Â
âMy bad, I shouldâve said something. What are you making,â he asked, walking over to you.Â
âJust spam kimbap,â you said shortly, keeping your eyes trained on the pan in front of you. You werenât used to him being this casual with you.Â
âY/N,â he called, drawing your attention to his form now leaning against the counter, âShouldnât we be more casual with each other? You still call me Yoongi-ssi.â
âOh,â you stuttered, âI suppose so.â This was maybe too much too fast.Â
âHow about it, Y/N-ah,â he said, a teasing lilt to his voice.
âUm, sure, Yoongi,â you said, trying to turn your gaze back to your vegetables, how did he switch up his attitude so easily?
You heard him chuckle quietly before you transferred your veggies to another plate.
âIs there any way I can help,â you heard him and you had to stop yourself from automatically rejecting his offer. You could change your attitude too, it couldnât be that hard. Hopefully.
âSure, would you mind taking the rice out of the cooker and into a bowl on the counter,â you asked, to which he quickly obliged.Â
This all felt a little too domestic, you werenât ready for this level of familiarity. It was a difficult transition, to say the least. You were used to maintaining apathy toward Yoongi, at least, externally. Your bodyâs natural instinct now was to turn away from him and mind your expression, it was tough to turn that off.Â
âWhy donât we both roll, itâll get done faster that way,â Yoongi suggested, innocently looking at you from the other side of the counter, unaware of the turmoil brewing inside you. Why couldnât you just relax around him?
âSure,â you stuttered, making your way to the table so you could sit and roll. Yoongi sat down next to you, not a care in the world it seemed, and began expertly portioning ingredients and rolling the kimbap.Â
You looked on in half-awe at his skill, your own hands slowing in their motions. Yoongi paused before looking at you, eyebrow raised.
âOh, sorry,â you said, feeling heat flood your face, âI didnât expect you to be so good at this.â
Yoongi only chuckled slightly before resuming his task, âYeah, Jin hyung and I used to make these during the holidays, Jeongguk too once he was old enough.â
The fondness in Yoongiâs voice made you smile, âThat sounds really nice. I can imagine Seokjin oppa being pretty strict in the kitchen.â
Yoongi laughed, a sound that was warm and pleasant to your ears, âYeah, I always thought heâd grow up to be a chef.â
You nodded, you thought so too, having witnessed the way he forced the kitchen staff at their home to let him join in the cooking and play expeditor whenever you visited Joohee.Â
You and Yoongi worked in a comfortable silence, entering a smooth rhythm of making the kimbap, ending with being delegated to slicing the rolls that Yoongi formed. Once you were both finished, you dug in, savoring the comforting flavor of the spam and stir fried vegetables.Â
Yoongi sighed into his meal, eyes closed, âItâs been so long since Iâve had kimbap, especially homemade.â
Your eyes traced down his side profile, noting his rounded out cheeks from food and contented smile, âYeah, itâs nice every once in a while.â
Yoongi opened his eyes, looking at you, âYeah, it is.â
You felt embarrassed as your cheeks warmed from his eyes on you, but you tried to maintain composure. It was clear, you decided, that his effect on you had only increased since your conversation.Â
It would be difficult to remain just friends, but it felt a little easier now that you knew you werenât alone in your feelings.
âWhat?â
âAre you serious?â
Joohee and Hoseokâs voices blended together as they shouted over each other on the video call. You giggled, shaking your head, âI still canât believe it either.â
âThatâs great, though, right,â Joohee asked, spooning another mouthful of noodles into her mouth, muffling her voice, âThis is what you wanted right?â
The million dollar question. It was, wasnât it? You felt content, and you were confident in that feeling for the first time in a while.
âYeah,â you smiled, âIt is. Iâm happy that weâre starting as friends.â
âY/N-ie,â Hoseok said softly, âYou look so happy. Iâm happy for you.â
âThank you,â you smiled, squeezing the Pokemon plushie in your arms, âIt feels really nice.â
Joohee sighed, âDamn, youâre making me feel really single.â
Both you and Hoseok laughed, making Joohee choke slightly on her ramyeon. Even while you were telling your friends, it still didnât feel real. Your head felt foggy almost, like you were in a dream, but youâd pinched yourself multiple times since this morning to confirm your consciousness.Â
âSo why did you decide to just be friends? Wasnât being together for real the whole point,â Joohee said after swallowing her noodles.Â
You paused before answering, unsure of quite how to phrase it. To say you thought it through extensively before youâd proposed only friendship to Yoongi would be a lie, it came out of you before you could stop it. It was something you knew you needed to do, to make sure this was going to last, relationship or not. You hadnât thought it out beforehand mainly because you hadnât considered this outcome a possibility.
âI needed an anchor, I guess. I needed to know that this could work even if we didnât get together, because weâre still married. And, I wonât deny it, I wanted to take it slow. I guess my feelings for Yoongi have been really shallow and I want them to be a bit more before we jump into a relationship,â you said, âI donât know. Maybe that was the wrong move.â
âIt absolutely wasnât,â Hoseok said, sending you an encouraging smile through the screen. You could see the moving boxes piling up behind him now that heâd finally found an apartment he liked and was close to his future studio.
Joohee nodded in agreement, âYeah, itâs better to start off as friends and work your way up. This relationship is already so unconventional, itâs good that you guys will be starting in a more grounded way.â
You smiled, the feeling of your friends backing up your decision made you feel more confident.Â
âAre you feeling ready to go back to work tomorrow?â
Your smile slowly faded, thinking about the pile of work awaiting you after two weeks of absence.Â
âYeah, Iâm excited to have something to do,â you started, fiddling with the pen at your desk, âBut our main project got delayed by the devs again, looks like some performance issues after beta testing. We still have to move ahead so weâre in the late promotional phase now, looking at some influencer endorsements. I was thinking of asking Jeongguk, actually.â
Joohee grinned, âYeah, that rascal will totally say yes. Heâs smitten with you!â
You felt heat take over your face as you stared incredulously at Joohee, âWhat do you mean?â
âHe just really likes you! I donât think he has a lot of gamer friends, at least that he knows in person, so I think heâs just really excited to have you as a friend,â she explained, pushing her bowl to the side.Â
âHe told me he likes older women,â Hoseok said bluntly, making you choke on your sip of water.Â
âWhat,â Joohee exclaimed, bringing her face much closer to the camera, âWhen did you talk to him?â
âWe talked a bit at the wedding, he heard me mention the dance studio so we exchanged contacts because he was interested,â Hoseok detailed, âI mentioned offhand that it was hard to find a date in Seoul and he asked what my type was. Then he just said that he liked older women when I asked him the same.â
You stifled a laugh while Joohee didnât hold hers back, making Hoseok join in too.
âLooks like Yoongi has some competition,â Joohee giggled.
âAs if! Iâm not into younger guys,â you wrinkled your nose.
âExcept for that one hookup in our fourth year,â Hoseok interjected, âWasnât he a first year?â
You groaned, covering your face, âI didnât know! He looked a lot older, and I thought we agreed not to mention that anymore!â
Hoseok and Joohee continued laughing, and even though it was at your expense, you couldnât help but join in. The weekend had certainly been eventful, but closing your Sunday afternoon with the comfort of your friends left you feeling quite pleased.Â
After ending the class with Hoseok and Joohee, you scrolled on your phone for a bit, catching up on unread messages and emails.Â
Jiminâs apologetic message stood out to you and you finally typed out a reply, quelling his concerns and promising that he had done nothing wrong. You hadnât mentioned the incident to Hoseok in case Jimin felt uncomfortable with it, so you were confident that the two of you could move past this easily. You also didnât want things to get awkward between him and Hoseok right before they started up the studio.
A soft knock on your door drew your attention and had you get up from your relaxed position on your bed, opening the door up to Yoongiâs form.
âHey, I just wanted to see if you had any plans for dinner,â Yoongi said, biting his lip and knitting together his eyebrows. If you didnât know any better, he almost looked nervous.Â
âNo, I donât, did you have something in mind,â you asked, inviting him inside your room.Â
âOh, well, thereâs a nice restaurant that I like to go to for some good comfort food, if youâre good with that,â he said, fingers playing with the thread on his black pullover, distracting your gaze.Â
âYeah, that sounds good,â you smiled, âIâll be ready in a few minutes.â
âOkay, great,â he said, a tad too loudly, before relaxing in his posture, âGreat. Iâll meet you downstairs when youâre ready. You can dress casually, by the way.â
âWill do,â you smiled, why did he feel so awkward? Maybe he wasnât as good at this as you had thought earlier in the kitchen.Â
He quickly left, nodding a short goodbye before entering his room and shutting the door. You did the same, turning toward your closet entrance, pondering what to wear. Casual, right?
Your finger dragged along the hanging clothing in the closet, brushing the different fabrics. You picked out a soft cotton t-shirt that you got from a work event and some jeans, settling on the simple look with a comfy oversized jacket.Â
Giving yourself a once-over, you deemed yourself presentable. You werenât sure if Yoongi was already ready and waiting downstairs, so you left and made your way down there.
Yoongi was waiting in much the same outfit as he was in before, but switched out his sweatpants for some dark, straight legged jeans and put on a black snapback. He looked far more casual than youâd ever seen and it was a welcome sight.Â
He smiled softly at you before tilting his head, âReady to go?â
You nodded, slipping on your shoes by the door and walking out into the main hallway. Yoongi and you were silent on the elevator ride down to the garage. It felt a little awkward, but it was a different type of awkward than before. Where before you both didnât know what to say to each other, now it felt more like you didnât know how to say what you wanted to. You werenât sure if that was better.
When you got down to the garage, Yoongi led you to a sleek black sedan, opening the passenger side door for you. You sent him a slightly confused smile as you got in and he clarified, âThis is my personal car. I donât use it that much daily because parking can be a hassle at the office, but itâll be fine where weâre going.âÂ
âOh, okay,â you responded, this mystery destination had started to feel a little bit ominous. As he walked around the car to the other door, you clicked in your seatbelt, wondering where exactly you were going. Yoongi slid into the driver seat, seamlessly starting up the car and clicking in his seatbelt. You saw him turn towards you, hand outstretched for a moment, before glancing down and retracting his hand.
He cleared his throat before switching gear and pulling out from his parking spot. Yoongiâs driving was smooth and relaxing, making you melt into the leather seats and stare out the window at the sun beginning to set. Yoongi had started up some soft jazz on his speakers making you further enjoy the quiet ambiance of the evening drive.Â
After a little while, Yoongi pulled into a small parking lot, next to an empty grassy lawn near the Han river. Shutting off the engine, he quickly exited, speed walking around the car to open your door for you barely after youâd finished unbuckling. His dedication to chivalry made you chuckle softly, thanking him with a nod as you got out of the car.Â
While you were distracted by the sight of city lights reflecting on the Han river in mesmerizing shimmers in time with the water current, Yoongi gently led you to an outdoor eating area with some plastic covers keeping out insects and smoke rising from the kitchen near the back. Delicious smells of cooking meat and seasoned vegetables filled your nostrils and you inhaled gratefully.Â
Yoongi led you inside, nodding at the older woman by the counter and guided you to a two seater table in the corner. The older women quickly brought you drinks and side dishes, affectionately ruffling Yoongiâs hair before he prattled on an order of meats and veggies, letting you do the same after him.Â
While you waited for your food to arrive, you took a moment to observe your surroundings further. It wasnât what you were expecting, when Yoongi said he wanted to take you to dinner, but it was certainly welcome. The loud chatter and laughter from other tables fed into a cheerful environment and the gentle smoke from meat cooking made your stomach growl.Â
Yoongi seemed to be quite familiar with the staff as well, leading you to question him, âDo you come here often?â
He smiled, shrugging his shoulders, âNot as often as Iâd like to anymore. In college, though, Iâd come here all the time with Namjoon and Jin hyung. The ahjumma there has been running this shop for over twenty years, I think, and she knows me fairly well by now.â
The thought of a college aged Yoongi sitting at these tables with his friends and enjoying charred pork on top of a bed of perilla leaves, laughing at something Seokjin said, made you smile.Â
âAre you okay with coming here? Instead of a classier restaurant,â Yoongi asked, though he didnât seem to be afraid of your answer.Â
You shook your head anyway, âOf course I am, Iâve been craving some barbeque actually. Joohee, Hoseok, Mina and I used to go to these all the time in college too, but those were much closer to campus. The view is nicer here,â you finished, looking out onto the river through the almost see through plastic sheets.
âMina,â Yoongi questioned, looking at you.
âOh,â you stuttered, inwardly cursing yourself for letting that slip, âShe was my ex, back in college.â
Yoongi nodded, not seeming too taken aback, âMakes sense. Those kinds of meals always made those college exams worth it.â
âDefinitely,â you laughed.
The older woman approached your table balancing multiple trays and expertly set the food down in front of you. You didnât have to cook your own meat here, so you and Yoongi immediately dug in and began wrapping the meat and vegetables in lettuce and cabbage.Â
The two of you sat in a comfortable silence while you ate, too preoccupied with the food to really focus on conversation. As you both eventually slowed your eating, Yoongi began asking you basic questions, wondering about your work, friends, and hobbies. You happily answered him, returning the favor by diving into his own interests and life. It felt natural, like two people just hanging out and getting to know each other.Â
You found that this was the most relaxed youâd felt in Yoongiâs presence so far, and it was definitely something you could get used to. Watching his cheeks puff up when he ate, his eyes close as he savored the flavor, and his smile as you answered his questions made you feel warm and lucid.Â
You soon finished up and Yoongi stood to go pay, even though youâd offered.
âYou can get it next time,â heâd said, smiling down at you. That made your cheeks flush and you had to look away from his gaze.Â
The drive back to the apartment was calm and serene, the scenery of the river blowing by through the window. Your arm rested on the surface between the two front seats and you flinched slightly when you felt Yoongiâs elbow touch yours. His eyes remained forward but you spotted the red tinge to his ears, betraying his indifferent exterior.Â
It was cute, you decided, chuckling quietly. You left your arm in its position, pressed against Yoongiâs.Â
It was nice.Â
Yoongi collapsed onto his bed, breathless. Had this weekend even been real? The rollercoaster of emotions heâd experienced had left him reeling, from unimaginable guilt and self hatred to elation that you harbored feelings for him to a calm and quiet first date with you.Â
He flipped over in bed, sighing into his pillow. It felt unbelievable what had happened in the past two weeks since heâd gotten married. Heâd been so headstrong in protecting himself and drawing harsh boundaries, dealing with the confusion of growing affection for you from when your families had dined together all those months ago to now.Â
As he donned his clothes for bed, he recalled your earlier proposition. To start as friends, he mused. It didnât seem like a bad idea. Yoongi was well aware of the wrongs heâd committed against you and he was determined to make up for them.Â
He wanted to take the opportunity to show you that he was a good person, despite how you two had started off.Â
It wouldnât hurt, either, that itâd give Yoongi the chance to get to know you better, something he was desperate for. He thought back to your dinner by the river, the way your skin glowed in the soft yellow lighting, tendrils of smoke framing your face, and the flush of your cheeks due to the warm atmosphere.Â
Youâd looked ethereal.Â
Heâd thoroughly enjoyed your conversation, reveling in being able to learn so much about you. You were slowly opening up and it was exciting, heâd been craving getting to see more sides to your usually stoic nature.Â
Earlier that day, after your climactic conversation, heâd spotted you in the kitchen after his shower. You were humming along to a song heâd assumed was playing in your headphones, your hips were swinging gently, and your foot was tapping along to the beat. Heâd stood there for a while, admiring your form loose and relaxed in front of the stove.Â
Heâd never seen you like that before, but he decided right there it was a sight he wanted to come back to every day.
It would a lie to say Yoongi wasnât nervous about how quickly his feelings for you were developing. He had felt them building up during the wedding preparations, especially so during the rehearsal dinner and ceremony itself. But the way he was becoming overcome with fondness and affection for you was maybe a bit concerning.Â
Another reason why your decision to start as friends was probably the right one. Yoongi wanted to savor every moment of falling for you, and you falling for him. He wanted to catch your eye from across the room and make you smile, he wanted to bring redness to your cheeks and make your eyes dart away, he wanted to feel his heart race when you smiled at him, cuddle with you on the couch during a movie, and feel your palm against his as you walked the streets of Seoul.Â
As Yoongi fell asleep that night, he dreamed of a sweet and slow romance between you two and of daffodil petals in your hair.Â
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i've had this idea for a kind of cracky jason todd x reader hockey au rattling around in my head for close to 10 months now but i don't think i'm ever gonna have the motivation to sit down and write this particular fic, so! here's the outline for what i would have written. honestly if anyone wants to adopt the fic, go for it.
you're the assistant manager of the Gotham Knights, the city's beloved hockey team that hasn't had a shot at the regional championship in years. this year, the impossible's happened: the Knights have made it not only to the championships, but to the top six teams. there's only three games that stand between the Knights and total victory, but the first team you're set to play is notoriously dirty. send opposing team players to the hospital in stretchers regularly kind of dirty.
and so what do you do? well with not only your job but your hometown pride on the line, in a fit of desperation you reach out to famous local crime lord Red Hood. high on caffeine and adrenaline, you ask if heâll be an alternate goalie (he's already got the right helmet for it) going into the championships because no one in their right mind is going to sabotage a crime lordâs team right in front of him. hell, just with him riding the bench, it might be enough to save your boys from getting the shit beat out of them.
and of course jason isnât really a big sports fan but he is a son of Gotham so like hell is he gonna let the Knights lose at their one big chance if he can help it. so Red Hood becomes the teamâs alternate goalie and yeah, the first few practices are awkward, but because toeing the line of insanity has paid off so far, you tell him that yeah he may be a crime lord thatâs there mainly to intimidate the other team but heâs still gotta do practice drills if he wants any ice time during the game.
and when the other team finds out, they throw a fit. their manager tries to get him barred from the game, but Hoodâs not a meta, has never actually been prosecuted for a crime, and technically his legal name is last name hood first name red so they canât make him give up a civilian identity just to play. the publicity around the attempts to bar him only drive more interest surrounding the regional championship and suddenly every single game of the next few matches is sold out. you're keeping your job based on that turn around alone (the Hood jerseys sold out in minutes), but now you're determined to get these guys to win.
jason as red hood accidentally becomes a permanent part of the team after they win the regional championships and then get bumped up to compete for the national championship. you're no longer afraid of him because even if you've never seen his face, you have carried him moaning back from a session with the physio because he's got soo many weird injury issues that are finally getting long term treatment. kinda hard to be afraid of a guy who's just been giggling from pain as the 8-year old knot in their neck finally gets released, you know?
as the Gotham Knights get closer to their first ever national championship title game, jason starts to develop a weirdly good relationship with the rest of the Bats. they may disagree with his methods and ethics but Gotham actually has the chance to win at something so they wonât go after him for now. at least not until he wins them that trophy. and anyways, keeping busy with hockey mean's jason's got less time to be putting heads in duffel bags which really goes a long way to making bruce happy.
along the journey to the championship cup, jason and reader fall in love.
#jason todd x reader#jason todd x you#jason todd x y/n#jason todd x gn!reader#jason todd x fem!reader#jason todd x male reader#red hood x reader#red hood x you#sunnie writes đť
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lucky charm ⥠(hogwarts!au azriel x reader)
a/n: this is entirely inspired by those "xxx quidditch entrance song" tiktoks. i have no other excuse, but i hope you like it! (and if you hate it, don't read it!)
summary: ravenclaw!azriel plays against the slytherin quidditch team. you're his good luck charm.
"please", Rhysand, muttered as he caught up to you and Feyre going to breakfast. "Ravenclaw is NOT going to win," he said - pointedly staring at your blue and bronze robes.
"Yeah," Feyre agreed, her green tie seeming brighter than ever. "We're going to win, cause our team has us on it." she said, grinning slyly at you all entered the great hall.
"We'll see..." you sung to your friends, rolling your eyes as you got up from the table, heading over to the Ravenclaw table.
"Hey Luc!" you say, spotting your friend eating in what looked like a fit of nerves. "Ready for the game, keeper?" you asked, patting him on the back as you took a seat next to him - your favorite food appearing in front of you.
"Honestly? No," he said, "Rhysand is a damn good chaser and Feyre is the best seeker we've seen in a while," he said.
"And you're the best keeper we've had in centuries! Don't even worry Lucien, you're going to do great. I have full faith that Ravenclaw will win." you said, despite not being 100% certain yourself. He was right, Feyre and Rhysand (and the rest of Slytherin) were damn good.
"Sure, sure. You only say that cause Azriel is on Ravenclaw too." he said, wiggling his eyebrows at you with a teasing tone. It seemed the whole school knew of your budding relationship with your teams star beater.
"Whatever, don't you have to practice or something?" you said around a bite of waffles. His eye widened as he glanced up at the clock before shoveling the rest of his eggs into his mouth. He gave you a quick wave goodbye before grabbing his broom and running out of the hall.
You grinned and finished up your breakfast, heading back to your dorm to get ready for the big game.
----- âĄ
The crowd roared around you as you climbed up to the highest seat you could get at the game. The wing whipped your hair around, as the blue and bronze scarf around your neck kept you warm.
"Nice makeup (Y/n)!" someone yelled out at you, as you gave them a grateful smile. You worked hard on it, blue and bronze surrounding your eyes, with Azriel's jersey number on your cheek as a last minute show of support.
Before you knew it, the opposing crowd started roaring, the Slytherin entrance song starting to play.
"everybody wants to rule the world.."
The song echoed throughout the stadium, green and sliver smoke filling the field. Silhouettes of the players started appearing to the left of the field, Rhys and Feyre's outlines clear as they appeared out of the smoke.
The beat dropped and the entire Slytherin team got on their brooms, flying to the middle of the field. Rhysand pumped his fist into the air, triggering a cascade of screams down the Slytherin side of the field. As the beat built up, the players got higher and higher. Suddenly, the music stopped and they all dropped down to eye level - getting into position for the game.
"Honestly? A 10/10 entrance." your friend piped up next to you. You couldn't help but agree.
The crowd started to die down from that amazing entrance: people talking to their friends and chit chatting, the Slytherin team talking strategy.
Suddenly, you hear faint whistles and clacks echoing through the stadium. The crowd went silent in anticipation of the incoming entrance by the Ravenclaw.
Then, the drums started resounding throughout the stadium - going directly through everyone and vibrating through their cores. You grinned, knowing that Az had taken your song suggestion for their entrance tonight. The drums ended with a flourish, blue and bronze confetti erupting throughout the stadium.
"all the birds of a feather.."
The Ravenclaw players entered through the confetti, flying in circles around the stadium - looking like blurs of blue just zooming past everyone. The beat ended and the players exited the circle one by one, flipping in the air before landing in place.
Azriel, unlike Rhysand didn't hype up the crowd at all. He didn't need to. At the sight of him, the entire crowd erupted.
He didn't care, he was looking directly at you. You flushed under his gaze, giving him a quick thumbs up as a show of support. He smiled gratefully before turning to roll his eyes at his brother on the opposing side.
Once the players were in position, the game began.
----- âĄ
The game was neck and neck for the most part, with Azriel or Lucien blocking most of Rhysand's advances. Nevertheless, Slytherin was in the lead.
Your focus stayed on Azriel for the most part, tracking him as he shot across the field. He was completely in his element, and you were in nothing short of awe.
He could feel your stare as he played the game, loving you and loving the attention. Forgive him if he flexed a little harder, and showed off a little more during the game. He had a pretty person to impress after all.
Despite your attention attuned on Azriel, your gaze flickered away as you watched the Ravenclaw seeker and Feyre suddenly dive to the ground, spotting the snitch. If the seeker caught the snitch, Ravenclaw could overcome the lead Slytherin had on them and win the game.
The whole stadium went quiet as everyone watched the two seekers twist around one another, up and down through the field as they chased after the snitch.
Suddenly, Feyre swerved out of the way as a bludger appeared in her line of flight. Your eyebrows furrowed as you glanced up at Azriel, who smirked - knowing his plan worked. He shot a bludger in Feyre's direction (not intending to hurt her) to throw her off her path.
He was successful! The Ravenclaw seeker sped up and caught the snitch, flying up and thrusting her hand up in the air in victory. The half of the field you were on erupted in cheer as bronze and blue confetti erupted once again.
You cheered alongside everyone, joy overtaking everyone's face. You took the time to study Azriel's face, as he high fived and celebrated with his teammates. Then, he turned to face you - flying towards you.
"All because of my lucky charm, huh?" he said, as he leaned forward on his broom so his lips could meet you own. You smiled into the kiss, shaking your head while laughing.
He didn't need a lucky charm, but you were glad to be his lucky charm any day.
#azriel x reader#acotar x reader#acotar fanfic#azriel fluff#azriel shadowsinger#azriel x oc#azriel x y/n#azriel x you#azriel#acotar#rhysand x reader
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⸝IN PROGRESS
last updated 14.11.2024
a-n ! this is mostly for tracking and tag list purposes. these will all take a while because they're all on the longer side and are subject to change!! + i'm a slow writer and often very busy. but it's still fun to show you guys what i'm working on :) taglists for all of these are open!
CASHMERE COLOGNE.
falling for his client is definitely not part of jay's job requirements. quite the opposite actually. especially when said client is soon to be married off to super rich, super talented, super hot park sunghoon.
PAIRING bodyguard!jay x artist!reader
CONTENT â ď¸ smut. mdni. angst, fluff, bodyguard!au, self-doubt, reader is an artist, sheâs also shameless, (escaping an) arranged marriage!au, sunghoon really doesn't wanna marry you... but it's mutual so. honestly this is getting way more romcommy than i anticipated...
STATUS writing
WORD COUNT currently 9k, total est. around 30k (we hope)
warnings + more wips under the cut
WARNINGS: multiple smut scenes, voyeurism, exhibitionism, masturbation (f), spit, things happen in a car, reckless driving, public sex, use of maâam, edging, orgasm denial, protected and unprotected sex, snowballing ...more to be added
TOO GOOD TO PUT A PRICE ON IT.
you would be crazy to turn down free rent in exchange of getting fucked daily by the guy you've been pining after for months, but your step brother happens to want something in return too.
PAIRING stepbro!sunghoon x reader x camboy!jungwon
CONTENT â ď¸ smut. mdni. roomate!au
STATUS outlined
WORD COUNT estimated around 10k
WARNINGS stepcest, live-streamed sex, threesome, yes reader fucks sungwon for rent bitch i would too! ...more to be added
PUSSY JACKPOT !
you spend an extravagant night with jake and his friends at a casino to celebrate his latest promotion. it takes a wild turn when your sweet boyfriend decides to go all in and bet on your even sweeter pussy, knowing how all of his friends have been dying for a taste. no matter who wins though, you know it's gonna be you hitting the jackpot.
PAIRING bf's best friend!jay, heeseung and sunghoon x reader, bf!jake x reader, jay focused.
CONTENT â ď¸ smut. mdni. gambling
STATUS outlining
WORD COUNT tbd
WARNINGS infidelity, semi-public sex, stepcest, rest of hyungline get to watch ...more to be added
BUCKLE BUNNY RODEO.
the yearly PBR world finals hit your hometown again, and as always you find yourself dealing with all the losers coming to your bar to drown their sorrows in alcohol. things take an interesting turn when the winner shows up and challenges you to beat the shabby mechanical bull at the center of the overcrowded bar, promising you an even wilder ride upstairs if you're willing to take his offer.
PAIRING pro bull rider!jay x bartender!reader
GENRE â ď¸ smut. mdni.
STATUS outlining
WORD COUNT tbd
WARNINGS alcohol consumption, body shots, temperature play, facesitting, spit, cowboy jay has chest hair argue with the wall!! ...more to be added
âł PART TWO.
it's been a year, and jay's fellow pro bull riders want a ride too, after hearing so much about you from their dearest friend. and who are you to refuse them, when they're talking so sweet and dirty?
WARNINGS heejake take turns, wet humping, like very wet, thigh fucking, tit fucking, oral (m. rec) ...more to be added
LAST TRAIN TO LONDON.
in some lives you're a painter, in others you're a musician, a writer. in some you get to grow old, maybe away from jay, maybe right beside him. in some you get to love him until your last breath, even when you're young and stupid. you're all over the world, all over time and all over jay's heart, for he lives and breathes to love you in every lifetime of yours, even if you don't remember. he always looks for you yet it's always fate bringing you back to him, this time it's by making sure you don't miss the last train to london.
PAIRING immortal!jay x mortal!reader
CONTENT angst w an hopeful ending, fluff, â ď¸ smut, soulmate!au, reincarnation!au
STATUS outlining
WORD COUNT tbd
WARNINGS tbd
EACH TIME YOU FALL IN LOVE.
the sun shines bright even in the face of death, your most beloved husband cold in his casket despite the warmth of the weather, and sunghoon wishes circumstances were different.
or, you and sunghoon ponder on what could have been.
PAIRING sunghoon x reader ( + jay )
CONTENT angst, very minimal fluff, â ď¸ smut, old peopleđ, multiple character deaths, time skips... more to be added
STATUS outlined
WORD COUNT tbd
WARNINGS tbd
⸝SERIES
MOTION PICTURE SOUNDTRACK.
jake has to be the most infuriating, cocky, stuck up actor you've had the displeasure to work with so far. and you wish you'd just rejected your role when your pr teams have the fantastic idea to push the limits on those... relationship rumors about you and your horrible coworker that have spread like wildfire everywhere.
PAIRING co-star!jake x movie star!reader
CONTENT angst, eventual fluff and â ď¸ smut, fake dating, rivals to lovers.
STATUS outlining
WORD COUNT total est. 60k
WARNINGS tbd
A LITTLE DEATH.
your time at the academy is up and the choice of the companion for your graduation mission is ripped away from your hands without a notice, gifting (cursing) you instead with three less than ideal ones.
or, jungwon feels a little more human every time your touch lingers on his skin
PAIRING trained assassin!jungwon x trained assassin!reader
CONTENT â ď¸ smut, mdni. angst, rivals to lovers!au, rival families!au, found family trope, everyone and their mama needs therapy, multiple character deaths, a lot of action, morally gray characterization
STATUS writing
WORD COUNT currently 11k, total est probably some shit like 150k i'm sick
WARNINGS multiple smut scenes ...more to be added
ENHYPEN AS SEASONS. hyungline + sunwon âł where i assign the members to a season and make fics out of it ! all of these contain smut but also tooth rotting levels of fluff jsjejdje i'm sorry this isn't me usually!! what happened!!!
⢠SUNGHOON AS WINTER / hockey player!sunghoon
âł your younger brother brings you along on a snowy new year's eve trip to the mountains with his hockey teammates in hopes of finally getting you and sunghoon to get along.
⢠JAKE AS SPRING / florist!jake
âł jake feels it's his duty to smooth out that frown on your face when you first meet him, as the self proclaimed town-happy-pill. he loves his job like nothing else, driving around in his flower delivery truck right along with layla, making everyone's days better. while you can't stand how bright he is all the time, what the hell is his deal anyway?
⢠HEESEUNG AS SUMMER / beachside barista!heeseung
âł bleached hair, salt water, warm sun and sand between his toes. waves crashing, the buzz of alcohol and muffled thumping of music, heeseung loves summer every time all the same. this year you just happen to make it so much better, and even when he knows you're only there for this vacation, he hopes you can stay and warm him up for the colder seasons too.
⢠JAY AS FALL / ex!jay
âł your friends convince you to try your local coffee shop's new blind date experience, months after your very first heartbreak. you don't expect your ex to be your match. or, mending a relationship turns out to be a lot more trouble than resolving murder mysteries.
! bonuses
⢠SUNOO AS SPRING BREAK / ex childhood bff!sunoo
âł truthfully, leaving for a different college after promising you'd go to the same one in hopes of quenching his feelings from blossoming further wasn't sunoo's best move. or, sunoo is itching to finally be back home.
⢠JUNGWON AS CHRISTMAS / frenemy!jungwon
âł it's no secret that you and jungwon butt heads constantly, and your friends have gotten quite annoyed by your antics. so what better way to resolve this if not assigning you two to be each other's secret santas? or, everyone is a little kinder once christmas comes around.
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