#the art of apology 🍵

[violaceous-veneration]

🐘🐪🦌🐇 for the poly ask game

🐘 How big is your polycule?

Four! Me, big brother, Licorice, and our Ivlis!

🐪 Who confessed first? How did it go?

I did! It... didn't go well. But I'm stubborn! So my Sun is mine now! I won them through my sheer capability to annoy and my irresistible charm! It's quite the fatal duo, you know. I don't really think the others have... well, Licorice has. But I'm not entirely sure my Sun understands that as a confession! So I just leave them be to figure it out, it's very entertaining that way.

🦌 Were they already in a relationship when you got with your FOs?

Nope! I'm actually pretty sure I was their first in all manners. It's a pretty nice feeling!

🐇 Any plans to have kids?

I have kids! I don't really see myself trying to have more, but we'll see what happens!

- 🐇 (hehe, we share bunnies...)

More below cut. Don't question it.

🐘 How big is your polycule?

Officially, three. If you ask Licorice? Four. He's obstinate. Don't ask him. I don't particularly want to share my lizard with another.

🐪 Who confessed first? How did it go?

Nicky did. To his little flame devil. It didn't go well, he came ranting to me about it numerous times. But Ivlis learned to love him, I suppose (if you ask me, learned it was okay to love him). I was dragged in by my own jealousy. Didn't mean to fall for the lizard, and I certainly wish I didn't, but even a god stumbles. I've never... really confessed. To either of them. Nicky knows I love him. I attempt to show the other. I do it better some days than others, but I hope they understand.

🦌 Were they already in a relationship when you got with your FOs?

With Nicky, yes. You could also argue with Licorice, as well, but as stated prior... I don't like sharing.

🐇 Any plans to have kids?

Absolutely not. We've got enough. Besides, I've got enough nieces and nephews for an entire fucking kingdom of its own, thanks to the bitch that fucks like a rabbit.

- 🍵

🐘 How big is your polycule?

Four.

🐪 Who confessed first? How did it go?

Me... me and Mother? I did. I have many times. I hope she knows. I'm never sure she does.

🦌 Were they already in a relationship when you got with your FOs?

... Yes. Much to my chagrin.

🐇 Any plans to have kids?

That would be wonderful! I'd love to have kids. I'm sure I'd be a much better father than that dumbass or my uncle. And a great husband, too! I'd be so attentive and I'd love them more than anything else!

- 🍭

[littlegayteaboy]

Um...

Just saw a man on instagram that looks like adult zuko and I……….

[genericpuff]

SO I just got my stay-flats in for mailing prints which means I'm one step closer to getting my online shop open <3

But what I WASN'T expecting to also show up inside the box of mailers was my pre-order copy of Covenant!

Apologies in advance because my photos aren't the greatest, but I wanna share some pics of it because I'm really impressed with how these books look and feel.

For starters, the actual cover designs. The front cover features stunning art and has a nice gloss cover, whereas the backside actually has a softer matte feel with gloss golden text which compliments the overall aesthetic of the book very nicely.

As for inside the book...

I was so relieved to see how well the formatting was done. Those who follow me here know I spend a lot of time bitching about webtoons-related stuff and one of my biggest gripes is how the webtoon format overall is very unfriendly to long-term publishing, as many creators don't anticipate eventually formatting for print (and Webtoons certainly hasn't helped as for years they've perpetuated the notion that print books are "dead", at least until it came to them making money 🍵) It's not an easy task to convert a vertical webtoon into a page format comic, but I'm happy to say that Lysandra's team here knocked it out of the park. The panel and text flow is smooth and easy to follow, they always take full advantage of the page space given to them, and the overall structure of every page feels very well thought out to work for the story it's trying to tell (as this is an action comic with fight scenes which can be tricky enough to pull off in page format, let alone converting from vertical format!) They've also gone out of their way to properly format the episode divides, so episodes (or as they're called in the story's stylization, "books") flow seamlessly with very little breakage, unlike what you would find in some webtoon-to-print books that often find the flow interrupted by episode title breaks every few pages. According to the credits page in the front of the book, we owe a lot of the formatting to layout designer Miranda Mundt and book designer Carey Soucy! Well done!

The print quality of the pages is also superb, printed on high-quality glossy paper which makes for stunning colors that have translated well from web to print. The darks are very dark which is necessary for a comic like Covenant which has a very earthy color palette; but when there ARE color pop moments of pink, red, and blue, they really shine. Of course, there is a downside to this, which is that the glossy paper WILL show your thumbprints in the darker areas (especially if you have particularly oily hands like I do, ech) but hey, it adds character and it's worth seeing the comic's art come to life on the glossy paper.

Sooo yeah! This is a very competent and well-made book from an awesome creator and if I have ANYTHING to snipe about just for the sake of it, it's that it's no wonder Webtoons tried to keep the creator from promoting their book launch, because it frankly outdoes a lot of WT's own publishing efforts LOL Congrats on your book launch Lysandra, I'm looking forward to getting my hands on Volume 2! <3

[tamelee]

Hi, Tamelee❤, I absolutely adore your art and your analysis.

Do you think Kakashi's choice of words regarding Sakura's feelings towards Sasuke "She's hurting from loving you" is a forshadowing? Is there any chance that both Sasuke and Naruto are fully aware that Naruto's "I hurt whenever you hurt" is a shonen-appropriate version of ILY? And in general,to which extent do you think Naruto is aware about the nature of his feelings for Sasuke post-vote2?

Hi @lilasskickergrimes !! thankyou so much! 💕 I apologize for this being so late. This post went into a different direction at first and then it was sitting in my drafts for a long time >.< sorry!! Hope you're doing well 🥹

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Very long post, 🍵

Was Kakashi’s “she’s hurting from loving you” about Sakura to Sasuke basically Kishimoto telling the reader that if hurting because of the other person means they love them, then that is the same for Naruto and Sasuke? Since they hurt for each other, do they then love each other too? I mean, in a way, Kakashi's words can be used as another clue. It came up before and with other characters too (Sai), but I believe with anything- context matters. 

Oh, Sakura was hurting alright, but why was she hurt? 

Why was Sasuke? Or Naruto? 

Kishimoto often uses parallels, but I feel like some don’t realize that a parallel doesn’t mean something is the same thing. That’s why storytellers use alternate timelines or universes to explain a parallel, but it is in the name, right? “Alternate”. They go in the same direction and are similar in nature but never touch. A comparison of sorts. That’s why it always matters why a parallel is linked to the alternate element and why it never touches- thus is different. 

So, Kishimoto has shown what he values in romantic relationships for which he writes before. Like Dan/Tsunade, Minato/Kushina or even in earlier works like ‘Mario’. He always was able to convey a romantic relationship well if he chose to do so and if it was his intention. The same sorta clues are shown in earlier chapters where Naruto projects onto Sakura as she explains why she likes Sasuke and then he says that he understands her (pain) very well. A shonen-appropriate version (in your words) of “I completely understand how you feel Sakura, because if that's what it means, then I like Sasuke too and I feel the same way”. It is enhanced in the way he visualizes his art and message that Sakura is used as a tool (red herring) in order to mislead and yet have enough surface-level ammunition against criticism to make it seem like its otherwise. Unfortunately, those were the circumstances, but we wouldn’t have the story we do now if it weren’t for this.. 

However, Sakura hurting for “loving” Sasuke is not the same as Naruto and Sasuke hurting for the other. Kakashi even literally said that Sakura was hurting because she wanted to save Sasuke and she wanted him by his side.

Which means, Sakura is hurting because of selfish reasons. (Kishimoto’s words.) It is always about her and her wishes or what she thinks is best for another character without bothering to understand them first. (Note Naruto's expression as well.)

Sakura can’t hurt because of Sasuke.

Sasuke, apart from him and Sakura being teammates, never bothered with her and legitimately during the War couldn’t give a f- whether she lived or died. He didn’t have a personal bond with her, she was just part of team 7 and one he broke off the same way as everyone else excluding Naruto. She was never special nor precious as an individual. He reacted only to her intention of wanting to stab him in the back after she lied and had to knock her annoying ass out twice so she would stop following him because she selfishly thinks for some reason she’s more important to Sasuke, Naruto or even her team and the Shinobi world in general than she really is. But that is part of her character arc. Wanting to be included and then go beyond that so people will look at her back as she is insecure about the contrast between herself and Naruto/Sasuke, not just in terms of ability, but also the strength of their bond as said right before VotE2 where she points out what she lacks compared to Naruto. That she isn’t on equal terms in regard to Sasuke. Where she stops believing in both Naruto and Sasuke which she said she would after the bridge-scene, but then, yet again tries to interfere...

I mean... I have to give it to her, Sakura also does not give up when it comes to this. 

That’s why Sakura fans, the very hardcore ones, that see Sasuke as some price that only belongs to her, blame him for her pain. They favor Sakura and her selfish wish and want Sasuke to repent and live a life full of guilt and regret for all he’s done to her. For all the pain he has caused their favorite character even though that’s totally unbefitting to all that happened. Which is kind of why that scene with Kakashi is mostly criticized because he sounds like an irrational fan. (I don’t believe that’s exactly why that was put there, but alas.) Her pain is her own. And as much as people dislike Kakashi defending her, I understand why Kishimoto put it there, especially amidst all the contrast and especially because it was placed right before VotE2 and it continued with a talk about love/hate with the Hermit. What usually is the ending of a story, is where Naruto and Sasuke’s journey still only begins... really.. considering the entire Shinobi world and what they were supposed to do :/ 

Sakura doesn’t know or understand anything about Sasuke that’s why she also can’t hurt for him. 

She didn’t even try. And when Sakura did pick up on things here and there, she never bothered questioning those words like Naruto did and just went with the general narrative that Sasuke is a mindless criminal or that he’s changed for the worst. Therefore she stopped believing in him, his intentions and abandoned this version of Sasuke she didn’t like. She even had the time during the time-skip to do some research (as she did) as she had access to Tsunade’s notes, yet never, ever, once bothered to learn more about Sasuke to see if she could understand him. She only learned that Itachi is the one he wants to kill which was used as a moment to show that “she was going to do this whole thing with Naruto together” (and then failed multiple times). Like?? 

And also thought then it was okay to deliver Naruto to Akatsuki knowing he was a target if it meant “getting close to Sasuke-kun”. 

Tbf, Naruto deliberately kept her in the dark about certain information and didn’t want to wait for her, hence his reactions when he finds out Sakura knows a few details too. Even later when Sakura asks him when Akatsuki started targeting him, he’s not fully honest.

When Sai later says that Naruto is also hurting because of Sakura, (for a different post) there is some truth to that as part of Naruto’s fear is letting people down. 

That was the pain of the promise. It had nothing to do with Naruto wanting to keep it for her sake.

Sakura reacted very fake while ignoring Naruto completely who was bandaged all over, when she visited him after VotE1 to hear about Sasuke. Not a "hey Naruto how are you doing?" was heard or anything, but guilt tripping him in regards to the promise making even Shikamaru angry because he understood the hell Naruto went through.

Naruto didn’t take that well as you can see throughout the story. Maybe it looked that way at the moment because he’s somewhat of a people pleaser and hides his emotions well and he reacted with that Naruto-confidence, but it certainly did damage to their.... uh, friendship? Camaraderie? But that’s a different pain, yes? It stems from Naruto’s own character which made her treatment towards him worse just like Sakura’s insecurities and fantasies about romance aren’t Sasuke’s fault. At all. But because of it, they do clash, sometimes more subtle than other times.

I guess it was okay to Naruto as long as she could keep up. In times where she did, sorta help. But Sakura didn’t keep up, made her own resolve to get rid off the thing in her life that hurt her because she couldn’t stand seeing it, therefore tried to kill Sasuke and didn’t bother to understand, question or rely again on Naruto because she thought for some reason she was important enough to get through to him. Or rather lie to him as she did with Naruto. She failed what? 4?? 5??? times? Embarrassing. It just hurt her too much to not see that ideal image of Sasuke. That’s not love.

All those misconceptions that she holds hurt her too because it doesn’t reflect that ideal image she has of herself or Sasuke because her fantasy romance doesn’t exist. Not even Jun Esaka, her number one fan, can make it believable. Not even the sequel shows how rewarded Sakura was because even if "she got Sasuke", she never got his heart. She never received that love from him, but she can fake it.

Her ideal Sasuke is the one that stays by her side because otherwise she’d “just be as lonely as Sasuke was after the genocide of his family/clan” 👀 even though she made fun of orphans and then was willing to throw away her own friends and family even after Sasuke defended Naruto, all for this fantasy. She’d be willing to make light of Sasuke’s trauma by not giving a shit about her bonds as long as she would be together with him. It is the Sasuke she hopes that admits thinks of her in his heart as she preached about before VotE2, one she hopes she can be relevant enough to save even though she was never able to reach him. She didn’t go through some character assassination, it was always like this. The contrast was deliberate. Naruto said to her and Kakashi that after Pain’s attack, he understood why his words during VotE1 didn’t reach Sasuke. That’s because Naruto went through growth and development. Sakura never cared to find out and her plea is completely irrelevant and focussed on herself. And watch this!! We have a cover of Chapter 231 “a special power” with Naruto where the side text says:

“I won’t look away. I won’t give up. I am fighting for you.” 

Which is about Sasuke as this is a Chapter during VotE1.. and then the very next Chapter is Sakura with these words:

“Straight ahead. I think. I wish. I believe. I am.” 

Naruto faces what's coming but Sakura is stuck in this me-me-me fantasy. Come on!!!! If anyone doesn’t think any of Kishimoto’s author-narration is deliberate either then I dunno man. This is back-to-back contrast. All the other covers around them look different. There is a lot more of this but the point is, Sakura’s always been the same. Her pain is based on lies for which people blame Kishimoto it to be bad writing even though this is just her character. And that’s not me hating on Sakura, that’s just what it is. If anyone’s going to blame something, blame her lack of development, but that’s not always bad writing if it was a choice that Kishimoto made with a purpose... her selfish love was contrasting to Naruto for a reason. I hope the day exist where people can accept at least that. 

It is okay to not like how an author portrayed a character, but don’t blame it on something else when it is a consistent thing, lol. She constantly wants to try and prove herself in a way that would make Naruto and Sasuke (even Tsunade by making fun of her age or her oh-so-dear-friend-Ino that she ditched) less, by putting them down or wanting them to look at her back out of insecurity. She wants to keep up, yet portrays herself as better- ...then fails. Badly. So of course, Sakura is hurt. But no one is to blame but herself and its completely based on her own persistence to be relevant. 

___

Sasuke and Naruto share a history of similar pain even though they’re very different, opposites even. 

Before that, Sasuke yells at Naruto that he doesn’t understand what it means to lose bonds with the people who are precious to you. And that is true.

But Naruto is scared, confused and about to lose Sasuke. As well as losing Sasuke to Orochimaru whom Naruto very much knows that he wants Sasuke’s body only (as he learned during his fight with Kimimaro too). And Sasuke, to Naruto is a precious bond as established in LoW who also just admitted that Naruto is his closest friend! Not only have they shared secret smiles before they even talked to each other, but Sasuke already sacrificed his own goals twice for Naruto and his body moved on its own to protect him and cushion his falls. Sasuke showed his vulnerable self (what he calls a weakness) to Naruto by showing he cared more about him than his own life. Hence them being so awkward with each other after LoW. Next to Iruka it is the first bond he’s ever had and it’s more than just a bond. Of course he fights so f- hard and would not give up even he didn't quite understand what it meant. Sasuke understands what Naruto means here though as his third tomoe awakens at the thought of breaking that bond with Naruto. Because it hurts. 

Kishimoto spends 8(!!!!!!!!!!) pages visualizing how much Sasuke is in pain because of this and then some more. I want everyone to know how absolute insane that is. Not panels, PAGES. 

Then, in order to avoid breaking that bond "on a whim" (okay Sasuke), Sasuke sets a resolve to gain power his own way by sacrificing years of his life to go to a man that only wants him for his body because of the resentment towards his brother, but mainly because he couldn’t kill Naruto. And the only way you can do something like going to Orochimaru willingly, knowing what his intentions are even if you’re afraid... is the Shinobi way, to kill your emotions as much as possible (at least not show them which is different, yay to subtext), but when it came to Naruto... Sasuke couldn’t get rid of his emotions and feelings. The only way to break off that bond, his past completely was by getting rid of all of Naruto. All he had left was Naruto. (Sakura who?) And no matter what he said afterwards, his actions speak louder than words. Throughout the story, despite his front, Sasuke is in a lot of pain. 

Naruto spends majority of part 2, ‘pining for Sasuke’, which hehe yes, but it’s way more than that, right? 

Naruto fought tooth and nail to hold onto his bond with Sasuke and when he was fed information about Sasuke having changed and him just being a mindless criminal, he fought against that too. He constantly questioned whether things were true and didn’t just blindly trusted the people that told them things as Naruto rightfully already doesn’t trust people that well, but despite his limited view, he trusted Sasuke. He never once abandoned him regardless of anything. No matter what he heard or saw, he knew what he felt and he knew that Sasuke would be able to look in his heart (bumping fists through fighting) where his resolve lied which completely contrasts Sakura’s. Naruto wanted to bear Sasuke’s burden together and if it came to it, die. To not be Jinchuriki or Uchiha, to not be pained with the burdens or see Sasuke hurt by them because of it..

Helloooooo~~~ 

Pain is a large chunk of that understanding between them that ultimately mutually happens as Sasuke says:

.. that they’ll now be able to share the pain in each other’s hearts. Among many other things. That not only did they look inside each other’s hearts, they accepted it all. That Sasuke too will open up to Naruto’s pain, that he accepted him fully, including their shared feelings. And with that, hope and dreams. Naruto and Sasuke in this kind of future where they are Ninja and peace is not certain, will most likely stumble upon conflict but then willingly hurt for the other as they share their burdens since they are able to live and work towards a future they both wished for in a way that doesn’t include self-sacrifice or people-pleasing. That was part of the promise of this chapter.... 

Naruto and Sasuke. 

Not Sakura who decided on her own while lying to everyone to bear the Shinobi burden to kill the one she thinks she loves but doesn't believe in and painted as a changed-for-the-worst criminal because it is too painful for her. Then got brushed off with a brotherly forehead-poke. Wtf. Like actually? Lmao. 

"And in general,to which extent do you think Naruto is aware about the nature of his feelings for Sasuke post-vote2?"

Naruto is very aware of his own feelings and it is for sure love. But what else can you say about it with an open-end (699) like that? I'm genuinely not sure but I feel like any more than what we got would've been perfect for a blank period story 🥲

[chaklinlandhello]

Happy birthday! Our nice boy Ultra Magnus!) My friend and I drew two pieces of art, subscribe to him in TG, because he will appear here often, and there you will learn a lot of interesting things about us!

"просто поговорим за чашкой чая" - telegram

-I couldn’t pass by, because this is my favorite character.

although I’ve been in bed for a week after surgery and that’s why there haven’t been posts here for so long

I apologize for this and I will try to post at least something, at least just text through Google translator

have a nice day ✨

My friend:

let's celebrate!👍 ✨

Happy birthday to you~

*song*

Pjpjjppjjp -пхпхпх = XD

-sorry, i don't speak English:__

[take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar]

For the Let’s Break The Ice ask game 🍵

🐇: 58, 35, 23, 24 (wasn’t sure if there was a limit or just 1 I’m sorry)

For Minato: 26, 30, 53, 68

Apologies if that’s too many I decided to send the same amount for each, not all of them have to be answered

{𝑸𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔, 𝒒𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔-- | 𝚆𝚑𝚘'𝚜 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚊 𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗?}

No worries dear, these weren’t too many at all~💕 especially since i didn’t have a limit in mind when reblogging anyways lol, anyways, as for the questions--

58: Favourite weather?

I think I’d have to say either the weather in spring or fall, where it’s not too hot out, and generally just nice out-- since i like being out when the weather’s mild, but get kinda grumpy at the world when it’s too hot cold lol (tho, i cant put up with the cold more easily than heat)

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

In terms of a serious cry? I’m not totally sure-- But, if it’s just a general cry, than it was a friend of mine. Seeing as the other day we went on a small kick of listening to songs that hit a little hard and we both got up in our feels lol--

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

Currently none, but~... I have debated on getting standard lobe piercings done-- just haven’t committed to if I really wanna do it lol

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

Hmm, it’s been a hot minute since I’ve had to deal with school, but... From what I remember, it was a mix of history and language arts (not sure how widespread calling the subject by that is, but-- it was basically the whole English deal--)

26: What are you craving right now?

“Hmm... A coffee and something sweet.”

30: What’s irritating you right now?

“Honestly?... The fact that me and Shizuma-kun haven’t had nearly as much time together lately as I’d like.”

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

“Took a shower after wrapping up some editing work.”

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

“Mmn... I’m not totally sure, but-- Probably either Shizuma-kun, or Nii-san... Maybe Mama.”

[ekkurea]

APOLOGIESS FOR THE LATE REPLYY (RENDERING ANON HERE AGAIN PHEW) YOURE KIDDING ME ? I LOVE LISTENING TO OFHER PEOPLE's journey and story and READING YOURS WAS KINDAA SWEET AND INSPORING IN A WAY.. i feel tge pressure to create tge perfect art and it gets to me ngl.. but reading your process and your answer about yk the whole ai art thing.. i dont see why i even i want to compare myself with that level when my own style is kinda still developimg.. youe so rite! no one can take away the process the understanding you have of the colors ... the way you see your art blooming.. even ai would terribly fail at capturing it and i think tahts why your drawinsg are just so perfect bec they hold that creative aspect .. THERE IS YOU IN THEM!! (your lamguage is not am issue i assure you trust me i am not a native eng speaker myself..) *self patss!! WE RE DOING GREATT!! )

also its nice to speak to artists here i have lile one artist to artisy comversation here except you and i enjoyy our talks!! (hope youre not too overwhlemed by work and taking caree)

Brand of personality, creativity, business👇🏻☕️💞

Please do not apologize! Life is so fast and I am also sorry that I don't always have time to respond on time! I couldn't even find the time to draw orders in the last few days, because I had a lot of other work to do.

But I am really happy from every conversation we have🌸(*´◡`*)🌸Your words are so kind that my heart breaks! This is something I will try to keep in my memory forever💖

I hope that you direct such words of support to yourself🍵🌿💗 And I want to support you as well! I have not been in your shoes and I will never know what you are going through, but I will be rooting for youଘ(੭ˊ꒳ˋ)੭✨

I understand how suffocating the pressure of art can be. I had to reach the peak of my nerves to start being calmer and more rational about it. And even now, if I don't have a job at some point, I can panic. (Although in recent months, thanks to all my clients, my panic is pleasant and only because I'm not in time. You are the best!)

I will try to entertain you and maybe you will be interested. I follow the illustrator Alexandra Dikaia and she has always emphasized the importance of authenticity in illustrations, taught how to create own brand of personality and thus realize myself. I'm still a bad student who never finishes her homework, haha. But I come back to them when I get "lost". Everything has its time. Now, because of the war, she was forced to move to England and met Professor Gordon Hamme. He is the author of the practical course "How to build a craft business" (How to create a business for creatives). I haven't had the opportunity to buy this book yet to review it, but the recommendations say it's a great book to look at creative business from both the personal brand and business side. It sounds like a lot of fun. And it helps to look at art not only as something unattainable, but also as something that can work and how it can work. I would also like to create my own merchandise store someday, because I love it when illustrations become practical objects. Oh, dream…

I'm still fascinated to see that someone has my drawing hanging in their home or as their avatar or something! Friends, if you ever send me a photo of your room with my drawing on it, you should know that this photo will remain in my phone forever. Haha.

О! And if anyone has any recommendations for interesting and useful literature for creative people, please share, I'd love to read it and maybe someone else will find it useful too.

Thank you again for this message! Take care of yourself and have a good rest, I always enjoy talking to you! See you soon☆⌒ヽ(*'､^*)chu

[artistlara]

I’m sure it’s obvious enough what’s been on my mind this past few days

[nevess]

— How you met him;

[ the overwhelming feeling of having so many creative ideas at once and not having enough time to do them. ]

🌱… description: you met Shinichiro by accident while trying to get to the art room.

🍵 … warnings: language, other than that, nothing.  

🧳 … character/s: Sano Shinichiro.

☕️ … word count: 1.70k ; | date: February, 21th 2022

part 1, part 2, part 3…

a/n: this is the second partttt. It’s not proof read :)) i Tell me what other character you would like to me to write about?? <3

You were late, again. Running through the halls of your school, trying to get to the first period. You stopped and looked up at the ceiling for a second and as you inhale air you curse at the same time. Not only did you carry your school bag, you also brought your art supplies; which had a lot of weight on your shoulders. As if the universe wanted to fuck with you, your first class was on the third floor and soon to begin.

A sigh escaped your lips before you went back on your way. School went like usual and thankfully the teacher didn’t scold you for being a couple minutes late. It was time for the students to go to their extracurricular activities. Yours was art; at the other side of the building.

While trying to get your materials from one floor to another, you didn’t notice a tall figure colliding with your body. Both of you minding your own business, so the impact was a surprise. Apologies came out of your mouths until you spotted who it was.

Black hair slid back, dark eyes like the night looking at you with confusion and shame for what just happened. “My bad. I wasn’t looking where I was going.” You said to Shinichiro Sano, the boy who was standing right it front of you.

“It was my fault, don’t worry…” He kept adding apologies until he noticed what you were carrying. “Do you need help with that?” He asked while getting on the same stair, followed by a shy smile.

You nodded with your head in defeat. You were not weak physically, but everything you had done this week had you burned out on a another level. The dark haired boy in front of you send your way a polite smile before taking the bag you carried with your art supplies as both of you headed to the art room.

Your small talk was kinda rusty, since you don’t have time to socialize much with all the exams and preparations you have to go through in your last year of school. You had the same friends since 8th grade and this last few weeks you had been living under a rock filled with projects and assignments. Shinichiro-kun was the one who asked the questions even if the redness in his cheeks was quite palpable.

It surprised you how charming his personality was. You found him kinda intimidating since he had his reputation of gang leader, but he showed you a side of him that was totally different, leaving you curious to all the rumores that went around about him.

Once in the classroom he said his goodbyes and a comment he made, left you with a smile that you didn’t notice. ‘Hope to do this again, see you around’. Days went by and you saw him on the halls but didn’t cross words.

This felling that he left in you was something that you tried to minimize and ignore, since it was just one encounter. It didn’t have any meaning, right? You didn’t even know the guy!

There was no reason for you to be overthinking or daydreaming about romantic stuff with a guy like him… Not that you mind, but there were important things you had to do before redirecting your energy into romance.

The school year ended and you only crossed paths once, with an interchange of smiles being shared. For a couple weeks you focused on your own things while still being aware of him and his gang. You were getting ready for your daily sketch, while putting away your art supplies and deciding with ones to take.

Close to the cafe you frequent there was a bike, an image invaded your head: Shinichiro Sano. The guy you haven’t thought about in probably months came to mind in a flash. A soft smile was drawn on your face, as you remembered the gesture he did the last time you interacted with each-other.

You entered the shop and order the usual. After paying you sat close to the window so you could sketch the bike with a calm environment surrounding you. The smell of fresh coffee being served, the machines working to make that delightful and tasty fluid.

People interacting with eachother while their voices echoed in your ears. You loved it here.

Halfway your sketch you saw the owner of the bike get ready to hop on it. You couldn’t believe it, it was almost cliche and you had to take a second to recognize him; it made you laugh. You left your things and took your shot, taking the first step with took a lot of courage since it was hard for you.

You used many excuses to run from good things, the fear of messing up important relationships often let you paralyzed to the option of meeting new people. What if you get attached to them an then they leave? What if they never really appreciate you and end up hurting you even more? You had your own reasons as to why not dating while studying… Fear being one of them, yet, you felt currents through your body, pulling you towards the desire to want to share the silliest and most romantic things with someone.

You had done your job and made most of your last year goals come true… It was time to consider wether you were ready or not. The impulse that lure you to make this stupid decision, is the one you are grateful the most. Looking back you wish you’d done it sooner, since there was nothing be be afraid of. It was Shinichiro you were talking about, after all.

The man today is looking at you with love in his eyes, totally dumbfounded and enraptured by what he says is your beauty and charm. Who touches you with eager and shyness at the same time, while demonstrating how much he desires you and wants you. Both of you have learned to let go, to be more spontaneous and to maintain good communication. Who with his kisses calms any storm and steals away any doubt.

The black haired man who is standing in one knee, telling you a speech while tears of joy run through both of your cheeks. You can’t help it but say yes to his question ‘… Will you paint the skies with me and marry me?’.

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i have remade my pinned so many times bc it isnt accurate but here we go again . . .

hiya !! you can call me odd, oddie, lee or lily ! my irl name is lily but id like to be called lee when i feel gender neutral, male or just as a nickname !

dni if . . . 18+ ( ask to interact ) , lgbtphobic , racist , boyfriends hater , dreamsmp hater , crazy dream stans , supports doxxing , just a hate blog , countryhumans hater , hater of any of my fandoms

i am an asexual minor . please , be careful with what you say to me , ive already had someone send in an ask saying very nsfw things on my main blog ( that i rarely use ) that then accused me of being a creep afterwards .

my main blog is @thepoweroffluffyboysandmeangirls

i use the mobile website, apologies if anything looks weird

anyways , heres what this blog is about !

i can make x reader stories , layouts , icons , art , dividers , xenogenders , neopronouns , kinnie bingos , and more tba

fandoms i write for are

undertale

deltarune

omori

danganronpa ( blacklisted characters : m.u .ruma , s.y.k. maiz.n. , ruruk. .ndo ) ( i will write older! woh and also ha.j. t.wa )

toilet bound hanako kun

haikyuu !! ( still just starting w it )

my hero academia

five nights at freddys ( au )

stranger things ( i can write will with gn, male or genderfluid reader )

dont toy with me ( not that weird anime or whatever , the game about dolls is what im talking about )

eddsworld

countryhumans ( i only write for france , america , germany , third reich , russia and japan rn and france is genderneutral and japan is female )

genre :

fluff " bubblegum " 🍬

angst ( only a little ) " mint " 🍃

nothing specific " peppermint " 🍭

type :

oneshot " coffee " ☕

headcanon " tea " 🍵

scenario " water " 💧

ill add more when necessary

[disaster-j]

Dear J,

It’s a quarter past 1:00 am right now, and I still can’t sleep. So I decided to look at your other asks. And ugh, what is people’s problem nowadays? 😓 But to give my 🪙 about this: obviously I can’t judge anybody’s -> Off’s sexuality. (1. Because it’s rude; 2. Because I am not a psychic; 3. Because I’m not a famous person so I have no idea how they would deal with such a thing; and finally 4. Because estimating other people’s ideas and motivations has never been my strongest suit. 🥲) And I don’t think it really matters.

And I would never underestimate the trials of coming to terms with who you are 🏳️‍🌈 (god knows it took me nearly 20 years and I’m still learning every day!), but I don’t think we should underestimate how difficult it can be portraying someone like “us queers.” Especially if you’re unsure about your identity or not part of the community at all. And this is really not meant as queerphobic, but merely targeted at the toxic climate that has been created around BLs (which Off rightfully criticises), in which “skinships” and real life shipping at one point became the norm. And whatever the reason is (you weren’t raised in a way that made intimacy a part of everyday life, you simply aren’t a tactile person, you find it difficult to do all those things [or anything at all frankly] in front of masses of screaming people, you don’t feel the need to do those things, you don’t consider it part of working at your career etc.), not everyone is immediately comfortable with presenting themselves like that. (Mind you I’ve only been in the fandom for a hot second 👶, but even I can see that back when OffGun first rose to prominence, the “demands” were even more insane than now.) Even when it comes to accurately portraying a queer character, I would consider that a craft, especially when you aren’t queer yourself.

Obviously we, a small ensemble of “us” noble fans with common sense who just want our favourite actors happy and succeeding in their work, can’t do a lot to change the entire BL system. (Gosh, this almost make them sound like Tawi’s gang! 🤭) But what we can do, is be patient with all of the actors (especially the new ones or those who, like Off, don’t seem exactly “at ease” in the BL cosmos) and support them in their endeavours. And let the art (lmao ehh the “production” 😅) be the prime focus. So, instead of complaining about “lack of chemistry” or your “fave ‘couple’ not acting together”, try to focus on what other projects actors are working on or just new BL shows with new stories. Stories that can open a whole new world, whatever that world may look like. 🏳️‍🌈 🌏

Love from,

~ anonymatcha 🍵

P.S. Apologies for this long sermon. 😬 (That would be my other inner half, the declining Protestant one 🙃)

Very well said anon! I don't think there's much for me to add except that I really do think people should keep what you point out in mind when talking about actors, especially asian actors since queerness is still very much something taboo for so many asian cultures. Not being comfortable with BL culture doesn't necessarily make someone homophobic. Even when he was super uncomfortable with the demands from bl fans he never once acted like queerness itself was something disgusting (looking at krist) he was very clear about the discomfort coming from his own dislike of physical touch. And still he never treated Gun poorly for wanting to hold hands and hug. He was always very careful with how he portrayed and talked about queerness too. Even now he's one of the most vocal BL actors when it comes to talking about queer rights. Just today him and Tay were flooding the tl with articles about the marriage equality struggle in thailand. To say that he's "aggressively straight" or not a good ally or being performative just because 6 years ago he didn't like holding hands with Gun is just such a toxic take.

People need to let asian actors be. Asian countries aren't as open to queerness. Not even thailand. In fact, being openly queer in the thai industry has effectively killed a lot of careers and even insanely good actors like Fluke and Gun struggle to get good roles bc execs don't want to cast them in "masculine" roles. It's a whole homophobic mess over there. So yeah, people aren't always gonna be comfortable with the BL industry and a lot of queer actors won't actively come out for years still. People shouldn't judge them without considering the context of their situation.

[violaceous-veneration]

Fumus: Something's off.

Ivlis: Maybe you've finally developed human emotions and feel bad for hurting people.

Fumus: No, but that's funny.

[kiasnocturnality]

Hii hello! If i may ask, and apologies if you have answered this before, but what were your inspirations for making all your ocs? How did you go about creating them and having them be so unique? Do you have any advice?

Wishing you a wonderful day!

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AHHHH!! I love questions like these lol, I always wanna talk about my OCs hehe

I've already made a few other posts about how I came up with their names and some fun facts about them/ their creation which can be found on my blog

In general my blog was inspired by darlingverse! I really love her blog and characters and I wanted to try it out for myself! I'd also been wanting to write for original characters for a while and wanted to do so on a separate blog bc I want my main blog to remain as reader-inserts and fanfics

Alois was originally inspired by Alucard from Castlevania! I wanted a character with a tragic background as opposed to a story that's currently going through tragedy and someone who's classy and sensitive. I like the idea of non-humans hiding amongst/ living alongside us so I made the whole backstory with his ancestor and the night court and his big family (ahem also if any of you ever want to ask his sibling something or make requests for them, I would love that). The albinism was originally just for character design but it soon became a defining factor of his family and status. The night court has been separate from the human world for a long time so I thought that they would have different means of measuring power in society such as the strength of their supernatural abilities as dictated by their heritage (made clear in the Leblanc family by their albinism).

Nasana was inspired by a drabble I wrote on anon on nagaparadise's blog! I love nagas a lot and want to make more content for them lol. A lot of Nasana's character is based on aesthetics and I wanted him to be quite solitary because who doesn't love a "I hate everyone but my s/o and Lixue" trope?

Takeshi was prompted by some of wyyvern's art and his character was heavily inspired by Tomoe from Kamisama Kiss! I wanted someone as mean as he was flirty and as caring as he was cold. He's old so I wanted to give his character a lot of development and yet not enough at the same time if that makes sense? Take has done some terrible things in the past and while he does not actively try to redeem himself or feel overly guilty, he is able to recognise that he was a victim of his abandonment and having no moral guide made him what he was - there was a brief period of time where he hated his nogitsune nature but he quickly recognised that while his circumstances had not been his fault, it was his responsibility to come to the realisation that he needed to change and then to make that change of his own will.

Desdemona was my little bisexual heart wanting to put some women on this blog AHAHA. She's very much a femme-fatale, she learned English through old films so she speaks with a transatlantic accent. I wanted a woman who was classy and gothic, much like Lady Dimitrescu. Also mommy issues go brrrrr

Aphaeleon was just from a want to make an angel OC! I really enjoyed learning about angelology and Enochian and I just love the idea of someone whose corruption has deluded him into viewing his own corruption as purity. I went to catholic schools when I was younger (I'm a Hellenist now though lol) but I still really like the catholic 'aesthetic' and I've also taken some inspiration from the band Ghost in terms of this character in a modern setting finding a way to charm people and gather his own following (though of course Aphae's is a bit more extreme than a metal band lol).

Va'ari and Taru were inspired by House of the Dragon and Fëanor and Fingolfin from the Silmarillion (originally they were going to be twins but I decided to make the succession crisis worse hehe). I wanted a setting where I would write court politics, fractured families and a succession crisis and also I thought that faeries would have some good potential for dark/yandere content hehe (Taruqu'inel being so desperate for love that he tricks you into giving you his name so you can't leave if he commands you to stay? HELLO?? Va'ariniel needing to secure everything she has so she can't lose it making her trick you into eating fae food so you can't return to your own world? I'll write it one day)

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This is a SFW agere and little account for @0bsccrelaughter ! We follow from there and interact from there! Apologies if you get confused. Mass like/reblogs are okay!

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Shows: Bluey, little vampires, Sanrio, octuonauts, wild kratts

Activities: Writing, drawing, coloring, stimming, playing, chewing, learning, pets, being animal/object, sleep, tea parties,

Not like: TOH (nothing against it, just not for us!), yelling, loud noises, big feelings, barney, paci (sometimes), most textures, church,

[teapartyedits]

Ah cool! Could I have icons for a Polyblank then please? There’s no official art of him so you might have to look for fanart, my apologies! No specific theme! Thanks! -📺

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Hiya anon! I just used the live action trailer version of him if that's okay! Hope you enjoy! ヾ(＠＾▽＾＠)ﾉ

-Mod Bubble Tea

[violaceous-veneration]

Ivlis: Is this mistletoe?

Fumus: Uh, no, no, that is basil.

Ivlis: Too bad cause if it was mistletoe I was gonna kiss you.

Fumus: Yeah, no, it's still basil.