#the album has been on repeat all week XD

[moonspirit]

Hello Moon,

Might we have some more Grandpa Levi? The thought of him with all the grandkids around him warms the heart.

Personally, I think that when the first kid is just learning to talk, they will try to call Levi Captain, but it will come out as Capin, and it’s a name that will stick. From then on, all the grandkids will call Levi “Capin.”

I imagine Levi is one of those people who is just naturally gifted with babies; if you have a crying baby, give it to Levi, and in 5 minutes, tops, the kid will be snoozing away. In fact, he just has a calming air with kids in general, and I imagine whenever the ambassadors have get-togethers or Family reunions, Levi will be found with all the kids snoozing around him at some point.

Levi also seems like one of those adults who refuses to talk down to kids, no matter the subject. The kid could be talking about unicorns or wizards, and he’ll be following along as if he were talking to an adult (maybe with a few fewer swears, but he can’t help himself if one slips out)

I think this has already been said, but one of the grandkid's first words will be a joyful and loud exclamation of “S**T” or “F**k” he will insist it wasn’t him

One thing he secretly likes doing but would never admit is pretend tea parties. He thinks it’s important to teach children proper tea etiquette, such as how to serve guests and proper stirring techniques.

One year, the guys will get him a photo album with pictures of all the grandkids. While he thanks them in a subdued manner, it is to him the greatest gift he ever received, and he keeps adding more and more photos over the years.

As always, I’d love to hear what you think.

Oohhhhhh this grandpa Levi propaganda has me going all asskdjasjhfsakfk T/////T

Because "Capin" Levi oh my god! It's so ridiculous, everyone else has a good laugh when their kids are running towards Levi for a hug, but he shoots them a glare and says "What? What's wrong with Capin?" It only makes them laugh harder because they just can't stand how adoooooorable it is. That's their former deadly Captain reduced to a Capin now!!!!

And yes he's a human sleeping pill. In fact I hc that Armin, Annie, Jean etc end up relying on him a lot when their infant children just refuse to sleep across weeks and weeks. Levi becomes quite used to opening the door to his former Scout kids sporting unkempt hair, eyebags, dark circles and formula stains, babies on their shoulders and going, "Captain... We haven't slept in a month... would you please..." And BAM- Ackerman Daycare is open again!

The "not talking down to kids" part made me laugh so hard xD I can just imagine a situation where one of the kids is going, ".... and then, my unicorn horse will FART SMELLY GAS into the evil monster's face, and the monster will DIE, and-"

But Levi says, "Unicorns can't fart smelly gas, they fart rainbows."

"But.... rainbows are boring!"

"What if the rainbows are poisonous gas--like cyanide--disguised to look colourful? That way, Unicorn Horse can take down the evil monster faster."

"Hey! That's so cool! .... by the way, what's cyanide gas?"

"... Nothing. Don't repeat that to your mother."

(30 mins away in a town center, Annie sneezes).

And pretend tea parties yes, yes. Levi visits dollhouse experts and carpenters and orders a custom-made pretend tea-set. It's all very nice; tea etiquette and proper stirring techniques are necessary skills for children to learn so they can go out into the Big Scary World. It's an excuse for him to drink more tea, let's be real.

It's all so cute and wonderful to picture T^T thank you for this!

[ilovedthestars]

Tag Game

Woo I've never done one of these before! I was tagged by both @ineedlelittlespace and @snugglyeldritchjellyfish , thank you! :)

Rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better. I know a lot of the people following me from discord already so I'm just gonna...tag some people lol. Feel free to ignore if you don't want to do the tag game yourself!

Last song: Never Gonna Not Dance Again by P!nk is playing in my headphones as I type this :) I love P!nk, I'm far too young to have been a fan since she got started but I discovered her newer music a few albums ago and she has a new one out that I've had on repeat all week. Love how brutally honest and yet optimistic her music is.

Last show: I don't watch a lot of TV, hmm...I think the last show I watched on my own was Good Omens, which was fun! I've also been watching Battlebots with my family over my break--we're a liiiiittle behind, we're still catching up on the 2021 tournament XD (don't spoil me!! we've got a bracket going!)

Last movie: Genuinely cannot remember. Possibly Into the Spiderverse, which I finally watched for the first time in like...September, and might rewatch tomorrow with my little brother before I head back to school. (It's sooooo goood)

Currently watching: 2-year-old Battlebots with my family, but that's it! I don't do a lot of TV.

Currently reading: I haven't been reading much lately, and when I do I tend do go through books in a day or two and then be done with them....I did just finish a reread of This Is How You Lose The Time War that I started months ago lol. Just as good on the second read through! That book is poetry, highly recommend.

Current obsession: Still deep in the murderbot fandom, although I don't know if I'd call it an obsession lately...I'm tired, lol. Other small-scale obsessions lately: the Wacom tablet I checked out over break and have been learning to use with Clip Studio Paint, the way the sun looked on the 7 inches of snow on the ground today, and really good vanilla ice cream.

Tagging some people, but no pressure if you don't want to! And if I didn't tag you but you see this and want to participate, consider yourself tagged :) @fishdetective @mercurialfeet @mintowls @just-a-lonelypenguin @cephaliarch (I can't tag your main for some reason??) and @voidlingremnata

[maryse127]

Spotify Wrapped

(plus my rambles as commentary)

Artists

Taylor Swift to absolutely nobody's surprise. Tho this year I am only top 1% last year I was 0.something%

Yoko Shimomura keeps her well deserved second place!

Nobuo Uematsu because wow you can really tell I went to a Final Fantasy concert early this year and loved it :)

Fall Out Boy thanks to their amazing album So Much (for) Stardust and their collab with Taylor Swift on Speak Now Taylor's Version

Måneskin also thanks to an album drop and concert early this year

Songs

Electric Touch (feat. Fall Out Boy) (Taylor's Version) (From The Vault) by Taylor Swift and Fall Out Boy - I love how stupidly long this title is XD But also just, Two of my favorites collaborating on a remake of one of my favorite albums of all time. I love this song.

Cruel Angel's Thesis because damn the Evangelion obsession was Very Strong back in October

I Can See You (Taylor's Version) (From The Vault) by Taylor Swift - I Can See You and you guys can see that I love Speak Now. Also at one point I realised this song fits my self indulgent Final Fantasy XV au so yeah of course this has been played on repeat A Lot XD

Too Much Is Never Enough by Florence + The Machine - Did somebody mention Final Fantasy XV? This song is so beautiful and I recommend it to everyone even if you don't give a shit about the game.

Valse di Fantastica by God Yoko Shimomura - Final Fantasy XV My Beloved

Honorable mentions for songs lower on the list:

One Last Kiss by Hikaru Utada which is also an Evangelion song and ended up at place 6 despite me only watching the movie it belongs to 3 weeks ago

Actually all the Utada songs from the Evangelion movies made top 100 in these 3 weeks

The Call by Regina Spektor at 18 because damn I must have been feeling very nostalgic about Prince Caspian (I used to be obsessed with that movie)

The entirety of Songs from Final Fantasy XV by Florence and The Machine being in the top 12 as it should be (I am once again asking yall to listen to this album)

There is a grand total of 40(!) Final Fantasy songs in this list. Most of which (32) are from FFXV

Highest Ranking non Final Fantasy XV Final Fantasy song is Suteki Da Ne from FFX which has more to do with the Final Fantasy concert than me actually playing FFX this summer (this song is sooo beautiful)

FFXV main game: 18, FFXV dlc: 7, FFXV Florence and the Machine: 3, FFXV piano collections: 4

FFX: 2, FFVII: 2, FFXVI: 1, FFXIII: 1

And 2 from the concert being the main Final Fantasy Theme and a medley of FF1-3

[yuuana]

Music Monday #250: SUGIZO - Raummusik release: December 2016 genre: Techno, Ambient cw: flashing, light flares

I've been feeling shitty and thought reposting some of my early picks would be a way to keep the series alive on really bad days … only to discover that when I started this series (in May of 2017!), I didn't really do anything except post a pick. My how things have evolved since then! XD

So yes, my very first ever Music Monday selection was neither Korean nor pop music (exactly). Guitarist, violinist, composer, producer, singer, horrible dancer, and all around angelic being Sugizo has been a consistent fav for decades now (I remember when his daughter was born; she's got a college degree now), so when he released Oto back in 2016, I was a very happy jagu. Oto was another exploration of ambient and more European trance styles (as opposed to the rock music he makes with Luna Sea, X Japan, and now The Last Rockstars), which is, to be honest, a big reason why I picked Raummusik to start my series of shares - Oto was something different and wasn't getting the attention I felt it deserved in the VK circles I was in.

Raummusik (German, literally "room music") is a chill, strum and bass ambient vibe check of a track. It's more about creating a vibe and even the vocal layers are treated more like instruments than discrete lyrics. The video leans into this as well, as a combination of performance - we get to see Sugizo's hands as he plays guitar and fiddles with levels - and visualizer. The light effects wash out the video at repeated intervals, though the overall contrasts are fairly muted, but it's the sort of video that's easy to put on and then walk away from.

After some early rounds of licensing issues, Oto should now be up for streaming on at least the major streaming services, along with some of Sugizo's other releases over the years. Unfortunately, the original album is now out of print, though it may be findable in the secondary market if one is very lucky and patient.

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[ghoulfr13nd]

hi!!! this is the playlist anon from before, back to gush over ur music taste! (and i'm sorry this is gonna be a long ask fgdsafjksdh) your playlist was like a godsend in finding some good new music! and i will gladly say what i enjoyed about it! :D first, you reminded me about Metric! i mean- ok, Nimona reminded me about them first when they played Gold Guns Girls (i had a blast during this scene btw dgsh) but it was your playlist that made me really return to them and look more into their music more xD like, when i was listening to Now or Never Now i was like, oh this is so good whats the band and i was shocked it was Metric i had to double check fdsagj this song has just such a different feel than what i remember from them! thanks to you i've been listening to Art of Doubt and i think it's my fave album from them! second, Will Wood, Modest Mouse, Of Monsters and Men, The Crane Wives and Lemon Demon are also always a win in my book! fsdjsdf third, i discovered a lot of new artists thanks to you! but man, if i mentioned all the songs that ur playlist made me discover and add to my faves on spotify i'd have to mention like 90% of the playlist fasdhdfs but my absolute faves are probably the previously mentioned Metric songs, Lessons Learned by Matt and Kim, Boy by Ra Ra Riot, The Distance by Aly & AJ, Quiet Little Voices by We Were Promised Jetpacks (the delicate 'Crunch' on the guiter in this one is delicious!) and Shark Attack by GROUPLOVE in short: great playlist! thought about making/sharing more??? asking for a friend! 👀 (and oh man my music taste is all over the place I can listen to anything so recommending songs and judging what is good is hard fasdgjk but maybe something close in the vibes of ur playlist! hmmm you might already know it but ever heard about Fish in the Birdcage? (i mean the song but it's also a band xd) i had it on constant repeat for so long i love it so much i definitely reccomend it and their music in general! alsooo, maybe Be Good by Dominik Dudek, and sail away by lovelytheband? also idk if it'd be in ur style but this song has been on my constant repeat for the past week so: Great Time To Be Human by Jagwar Twin :D)

oh man ok ok ok

I LOVE Metric!! theyre one of the bands my brother and I both really like and we’ve been to one of their concerts — it was so good! (if youre interested in how that went I took a video of them playing Black Sheep!) I went absolutely rabid when I heard it in Nimona (NIMONA IS SO GOOD!!!!!!)

Will Wood’s IN CASE I DIE album was a huge point of obsession for me last year. my friends were deeply concerned about the amount of times I listened to Cicada Days (Live at Knitting Factory, Spokane, WA)

THRILLED TO KNOW YOU ENJOY MATT AND KIM THOUGH!!! ABSOLUTE REQUIRED LISTENING FOR ANYONE WHO WANTS TO KNOW ME. they were my FAVORITE band in high school and college, and I had several of their albums that I played in my car!! highly highly recommend Cameras and Silver Tiles by them (and also just the whole Sidewalks album!)

I’m crazy about my playlists and will absolutely never turn down the chance to share them so here are a few!

March March March March is what I was listening to in - you guessed it - March!

October feels different this year. is one of my favorite playlists from 2023. it has some overlap with my gender playlist and in general is just really close to my heart. (The Milk Carton by Madilyn Mei had been a HUGE obsession for me I LOVE that song)

if you want a wildly different vibe rat nao is my country music playlist (I Am Not Immune To Being A Southerner) (there’s also a little bitty bit of overlap with my October playlist!) (its not 100% country but its all songs that make my accent terribly thick)

a heart’s a heavy burden is my other pinned playlist on Spotify and it’s all of the songs (more or less, approximately) every song I’ve ever cried to

Quintessential Listening is my abridged music taste from my entire life and its a VERY LONG PLAYLIST that I don’t actually recommend unless you want a lot to choose from and/or have a deeper understanding of me as a person (I made this playlist for fun I admittedly dont listen to it much fjskfjdj) (fun fact nobody asked for but I love sharing: my 4th birthday party was themed after Somebody To Call My Lover by Janet Jackson) (ALSO the picture for this playlist is a collage of photos I myself have taken!)

you by no means have to listen to all of these I just wanted to give you choices. additionally, feel free to just go poke around my profile. all my playlists are public! i make a lot though and not all of them actually get listened to gjdkdkdk

i AM familiar with Fish in a Birdcage!!!! I love the song and also the band - my favorite song by them though is Rule #13 - Waterfall. my friend Kit is more into them than I am, I think, admittedly, but I still really enjoy them! if you like them, I’ll recommend the same songs I did for Kit (November by Sparkbird — The Room Is Filled With People That Love You by Foresight — So Alright, Cool, Whatever by The Happy Fits)

I’m not familiar with the other three songs, so I listened to them on my drive to work this morning. They were fun, I enjoyed listening to them!

Funnily enough, I’m going back to college this fall and I’ve had a hard time figuring out my feelings about it. my therapist told me to try making a playlist and I’ve been struggling to find songs that aptly convey how I feel. Sail Away is one of the first songs that’s clicked, so thank you!

I also listened to Great Time to be Human by Jagwar Twin (twice to make sure I absorbed it well) and it’s very fun!! it reminds me of Glass Animals (who I also really enjoy). actually rotated my friend’s ocs in my head a little bit to the chorus.

ALSO IF YOU WANT TO SEND ME A PLAYLIST, I WOULD LOVE THAT? no pressure to ofc but I love exchanges! I love sharing! I love learning about other people!

If you read all of this thank you for letting me ramble about music!!!!!!! I’m very intrinsically tied to my music taste and it makes me feel very seen to share it and for it to be enjoyed by others.

I hope you’re doing well and that you have a good day today!

[camaro-and-smokes]

List five things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last ten people who reblogged something from you. Spread the positivity!! 💘💘

Thank you so much for asking!

1. One of my favourite bands released a new album today (Hope is a Cult by Solace)

2. One other one of my favourite bands (Evergrey) I found just last year has tons of albums and all of them slap equally as hard. This song has been on constant repeat since two weeks ago:

3. Boring but makes me so, so happy: I have so much work that I have to turn new clients down. Not a moment goes by that I don't know that I'm both extremely lucky and blessed during current times, but can also be glad that clients like working with me and the results so much that they come back again and again.

4. I think I've already mentioned being happy about household appliances on some ask post today, but I truly am happy about having a dishwasher. I've been doing dishes by hand for the last 20 years (we lived in a huge house built in 1937 and it would've needed a serious plumbing renovation to have one installed so we didn't). About gdam time! (You know you're middle-aged when these things make you happy lol)

5. Being able to sleep without backpain! Another thing that makes you feel old when you're happy about it XD But I've had issues with my back for as long as I can remember, so it's not a small thing.

[shine-reblogs]

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Yoo! I've been tagged by @randomfae (except tumblr is broken and it didn't really tag me/I didn't get a notif, so we all lucky I saw it xD) to post the top 4 songs I've been listening to recently, so let's a gooo!

I should note that I usually listen to music while drawing and play whole albums, so this list is not gonna be super accurate in order to not make it 4 songs from the same album xD

The Breach, by Starset- (from their last album, Horizons, which I've been listening to obsessively for the last several weeks. I don't know what is it about this song but I really love it and makes me want to siiiing! A song I actually put on listen-on-repeat, which I rarely use)

Boundary (VY1V4), by Youtube user Heartbreaker- (I recently rescued this one from my Vocaloid obsession period, which was, pffft, like 6-7 years ago? I didn't remember the title or artist so it was really hard to find again. It just has like, a lot of emotion to it? A song that doesn't bring me down when in a good mood but that resonates with me when in a bad mood. Nevermind the lyrics because I)

DLH Afrodita, by Pascu y Rodri- (look, this song is very catchy, very fun, and about greek mythology, so what else could I ask for? xD Oh, yeah! It's also in my first language so that means I can actually catch onto the lyrics easily! :D)

And I'm gonna leave it at three songs because otherwise it's just the rest of Starset's Horizons album, lol! I tag @ineverpostmydoodles and anyone else who wants to join! ^^

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This must be the messiest drawing of jon ever known, but I saw this post and I needed to doodle it real quick xD

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So, I'm relistening to TMA (for the first time, so there's a lot of things that I didn't remember) and just- just- MAG83:

ARCHIVIST Look, Georgie, it’s not… You don’t need to worry. I mean, I’m not, I’m not on drugs or anything. [GEORGIE LAUGHS DISBELIEVINGLY] What? … I could be on drugs!

Jon is so dumb, I swear, bless him xD ❤

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I don't know if anybody else has made an OT3 version of the 'understand my ship in 5 minutes' before, but anyway, here's my edit of it in case someone wants to use it

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I'm relistening to S3 of TMA and needed to do this, it's probably been done before, but I don't care xD

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[sf9]

Ahh welcome to the fandom~ hehe I got into them in 2015?? So I absolutely lost my mind when eoeo came out. Haha omg and yibo he- he grew up really well. Seungyoun is so! So talented!! Did you listen to his latest release? ACCIDENT IS SUCH A GOOD SONG!! Also SF9?? Like?? The song was so good! Just kinda wished Juho had more lines, but hey, he looked godly as usual. Hehe here’s a pickup line: if I had a star for every time you brightened my day, I would be holding the galaxies -huru anon

it’s great to be here :’D I wish I stanned during eoeo era, it looked so great 😭😭😭😭 I lose my mind over Yibo daily ,,,,, many times a day ,,,, Yibo has an EXTREMELY special place in my heart ;_____; SEUNGYOUN’S ALBUM WAS SO AMAZING HDBHDBHDBD Buck is my favourite song off it and Accident?? Those high notes???? oh my god ;;; ALSO SF9 KSBDHSHDBHD I AM STILL SCREAMING??? I also wish Juho had more lines, also Hwichan but ;;;; iI love it so much ,,,,,,,,, omg Huru anon 😳🥺🥺🥺 I love it so much ksbdhsbhd you’re my special star :”))

[tunedtostatic]

Reply to @iffeelscouldkill on the great Vikady slowdancing post of 2021 because we've reached the point where my reply was going to have to do with neither Vikady nor slowdancing...

Also @ghostsquidsandspacebees please do post your mixes!! I would be especially excited to listen to the Campathi one :D I'm always in awe of people who can do fanmixes because I just don't seem to know enough songs in order to come up with them? But they're really cool!

#TSCOSI#Vikady#fanmixes#I am still singing The Mountaineer to myself so I think I know what's going to be on repeat for the rest of my work day#also YES someone beside me used Campathi as a smooshname#I am also partial to Captain Soup which some people use as a ship name#and hey why limit yourself?#we should have a concept ship name for Vikady too#And Brian x Krejjh#what about... mint trees for Vikady#hahahaha that's terrible#someone come up with a better one#and for Brian and Krejjh#I want to say Renegade Pilot after Brian's line about being a renegade academic#but that just sounds like a descriptor for Krejjh xD#also Renegade Academics could be a name for a Brian and Violet friend ship#anyway I'd better stop before I start trying to do Park and RJ#what am I doooooing in these tags#someone take tags away from me

The fanmixes are those ones I've been pulling together since spring, so rest assured they are slated to be posted! I'm doing one for each crew member (except remaining unknown quantity Park, poor Park, or maybe lucky Park since all the mixes have heaps of angst tracks), and I was planning to post those first, then the three canon ship mixes, then miscellany like noncanon ships and Other Violet.

I haven't quite finished the first, Sana's...it's admittedly already on the longer side for a non-shuffle mix, but it needs a couple more tracks in the middle before I'll be happy with it. I've been listening to tracks I haven't heard by artists I like, and I found another good Sana track this morning...

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But as I said in my tags there's...actually no reason for character mixes to come before the ship mixes? I think that that started as a vague plan when nothing was close to completion, and now it hadn't hit me yet that all three canon ships are ready. The Campathi mix is still on the shorter side, but shorter mixes aren't a bad thing, so I'm calling it done! Ship mix time! (I know, I could always interleave characters and ships, but I like categories. 😄)

I have. Never heard "concept ship name" as a term for that kind of ship name, I love it. I read "mint trees" and my gremlin brain immediately came up with something far worse:

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I like the idea of "battle poetry" for Brian/Krejjh...they create battle poetry and he studied an epic poem. Of course, that could create confusion between battle poetry the ship name and battle poetry the thing. I can't think of any serious suggestions for Vikady... I actually think the fatal flaw of both mint trees and tea tree is not that they are silly but that the mint tea was also kind of Arkady's thing, so it would be nice to combine stuff that has to do with each of them. (Anyone?)

I HADN'T SEEN CAPTAIN SOUP. Glorious. I definitely got Campathi from you, IDK if you came up with it or just popularized it ("popularized" = "got at least one other person to start using it"...everything in a small fandom is relative, eh)?

The only ones I've come up with are Tripatel and Tripateliu, when I was trying to come up with a smushname for Arkady/Sana and thought it was cute their surnames nested together that way. Then I realized Violet's does too!! Fate, clearly.

To come full circle, I came up with Tripatel in the process of tagging my first post about fanmixes, since they were the start...

Last week I was listening to a new album and thought “hey this is a good Arkady/Sana track I should make an Arkady/Sana fanmix” which is all well and good but then as I was building the fanmix I kept running into tracks that’d work better for Vikady or Sana/Campbell or Arkady or…..and long story short I now have fanmixes in progress for Arkady/Sana, Arkady/Violet, Campbell/Sana, tscosi in general, Violet, Arkady, Sana, and Krejjh

arkady/violet arkady/sana campbell/sana does arkady/sana have a smushname a quick search reveals nothing that would bar sakady or tripatel from ship name use i think i'm gonna go with tripatel because I simply think it is cute that their names nest together that way

(Technically Arkady/Sana is at the rear of the posting queue because noncanon, but I'm also chicken since "Much of the appeal is that it'd be such a messed up disaster" seems like a great way to alienate anyone who doesn't ship it and anyone who ships it in the sense of thinking they'd be good together. But I'll human up and post their angsty, angsty tracks some day. 😆)

[13thhero]

i was tagged by @risingthrutherainierfog Thank you!

who was your first favourite artist?  Mohamed Mounir (he is one of the most famous and loved Egyptian singers!)

who are your current favourite artists? Picking favorites is something I have been struggling with in most aspects of life. I find myself interested in several things but unable to pick what means the most to me out of them. I currently have my songs divided in 19 music folders, 14 of them are of artists and the remaining contain random stuff of certain kinds (Arabic, English, Japanese, etc) by artists that I don't have enough songs by yet to give them their own folder or just interested in a single/few songs by them rather than the artist themselves. I'm also currently going through a weird phase so I hope it's okay that I did not really answer this question! (Mounir is still my favorite Egyptian singer. That's what I know for sure!)

are you into musicals?  Nope.

are there songs you consider so special you only listen to them very rarely?  No, but I'm dealing with an issue that is kinda similar to this. When I get attached to an artist I avoid listening to him (this only happens with guys) most of the time.

what’s your preferred way of listening to music? (time of day, medium, situation)  When I'm drawing (haven't drawn in months though) or playing on my favorite sites. I like to listen to Arabic songs when I'm saving pictures of the western artists I like as it sort of feels like I'm sharing music I love with them (it makes me feel a little less lonely). I love listening to my music on my phone's music player. I find late night when my family are asleep (past 1 am) the best time to listen especially since I don't sit on my laptop or draw in my room (I mostly only spend time in my room when I'm asleep). Sunrise is even better but I wish I would wake up early rather than go to bed when it's morning!

what would you say is the most niche music you listen to?  I'm not sure what 'niche' means and google did not answer my question. ^^;

what’s your favourite music related movie/tv show that’s not a musical? Don't think I have any. ^^;

albums or playlists? Playlists.

favourite albums? I don't really have favorite albums. I listen to songs from all albums individually (I do have an obsession with having my songs tagged with album name/artist/year/etc and I'm especially obsessed with album covers and the order of songs in albums). For rock/metal artists I always download full albums even if I so far only like/is familiar with one song from the album since I know there's a probability I'll like more in the future. The full albums are on my laptop while my phone has only the songs I like. So far there's still not many albums that I have the entirety of on my phone.

is there an artist you’re trying to get into?  Yeah, a lot actually! There are lots of bands that I'd like to be more familiar with. I use Spotify to find new music or become more familiar with bands I already listen to. I don't do this all the time though because it requires being in a certain mood and sometimes listening to the stuff you already know feels more comfortable.

whose music do you find overhyped? I can't speak about western music, but I almost never find myself into the new Egyptian stuff that people around my age listen to. They sound like songs you'd listen to on repeat for 2 weeks and then completely forget that they ever existed. I bet that's what these people do.

what’s an underrated song? Can't speak about this either. There are songs I like that I never hear people talk about but I might just be isolating myself too much. xD

what’s a thing a bunch of songs do that you love every time? This is about Egyptian songs (that aren't rock). I love when they have an electric guitar or a bass I can hear. I also love when the drums stand out. I love when they have elements that remind me of rock songs. c: I also have a soft spot for having several violins playing the same melody (I'm not very familiar with music and art terms in English).

what song is better acoustic? I think there's one in my head but right now I can't remember what it was... (my memory is weird and it's almost 3 am at the moment...)

what’s the worst song of all time?  'Best' and 'worst' are very big words for me. There are many songs I can't stand but I don't think I will ever consider something as the 'worst' (or the 'best' either).

do you put individual songs on repeat? if so, for how long and how often? I do! Until I tell myself "that's enough!" or think of other songs I'd like to listen to. A lot of times when I start listening to a new one I find myself still unable to stop thinking of the song I had on repeat so I go back to it. I believe I'd listen to songs on repeat in the past way more than I do now.

do you make your own playlists? I'm not sure if this counts, but I have two playlists on my phone's music player. One that has all my western (in English) songs together and one that has all the Arabic songs. I'm very organised and have folders but these playlists help when I want to listen to all western or Arabic artists that I have without having to deal with the long list of all my music and skip through many songs.

headphones or earbuds?  Earbuds. I do love headphones but they feel uncomfortable and make my ears hurt when I listen for longer periods. :c (my ears are very small which might be why)

do you always sing the lead vocal or do you harmonize sometimes?  I never sing along when listening to music and rarely sing at all. I wish that wasn't the case but this is something related to my mental health issues.

a musical confession: Well, this might sound depressing but it's something that has been making me feel down. My ability to enjoy music is not the same as it used to be in the past. I'd say I'm not too far from losing it completely. I don't listen to music that much anymore. When I listen for the first time after several weeks of not listening the experience feels charming. The next day it feels less charming. The third day it's even less charming and I find myself skipping songs more and more. The fourth day I have almost lost my ability to enjoy listening and start getting annoyed with songs. I know this problem is with me and not the songs. I also don't have the ability to relate to songs even though I desperately need something to relate to. I need to have something in this world that feels like it's by my side. This is most likely caused by my deteriorating mental health but I still find it very shameful. I mean, what kind of person is one who dreams of being a musician yet does not have the ability to actually enjoy music anymore??

tagging: I don't really communicate with anyone on here/have many mutuals (wish I would stop isolating myself) so I'm not sure who to tag!

[storiesforallfandoms]

feeling used ~ machine gun kelly

word count: 2105

request?: yes!

@kellysimagines : “I was wondering if you could write a imagine where the reader is a hairdresser and she is best friends with Rook and he introduces her to mgk and they become really close and after a couple of dates they started dating and she goes with him too premieres and shows and stuff and he gives her presents and stuff and people in the media think she is using him for the fame and money and he is on tour and he somehow believes it and we break up and one day he finds out his ex spread the rumor and he comes to my salon and he apoligizes and he proposes there?”

description: when rumors start about the relationship between a super successful rapper and a normal hairdresser, they start to get to colson’s head, and he makes the worst decision

pairing: machine gun kelly x female!reader

warnings: swearing

the ex in question i’ll be using is chantel, but i just want everyone to know that i don’t have anything against chantel irl. i don’t even really know her all that well XD

Dating someone famous was as both amazing and tiring at the same time, and you wouldn’t change that for the world.

You were just a normal hair dresser, nothing to extravagant, just a hair dresser in a local salon in downtown LA. Sometimes famous people came in, but the place wasn’t anything that anyone famous was raving about. But you liked it that way, you preferred the smallness of the salon, and of your life. The only big, show business thing in your life was that your best friend was a drummer for some famous rapper that you hadn’t really heard of until your friend started touring with him. And that’s when your life truly got crazy.

Rook introduced you to Colson and it was like love at first sight. You both clicked right away, and after a few dates you decided to make it official. You started joining Colson on red carpets for his movies and to parties for his album releases. He bought you anything and everything you could ever want, and had you spoiled within months of being together. Not that any of that mattered. You were just happy to be with him.

Of course, with a relationship with a famous celebrity came hate. The hate started just a month after your relationship, and at first it was the usual “you don’t deserve to be with him”, “you’re a skank”, “lmao he deserves better” type comments, which were easy to ignore. But within the past month or so, things escalated. People were claiming that you had been using Colson to get publicity. Someone had told the press that ever since you and Colson had started dating, you started getting lots of clients, especially famous ones, and that once you were big enough you were going to dump him.

That couldn't be more wrong. Your clientele stayed the same after you started dating Colson. You never once mentioned that you were a hairdresser or for where in any interviews, not that you really got involved in many of Colson’s interviews anyways. The hate didn’t bug you, however. You were so in love with Colson that you could care less what anyone else thought about you.

You were finishing up a clients hair one day when one of your colleague’s clients stopped to look at you.

“Are you (Y/N)?” she asked. “MGK’s girlfriend?”

“I am,” you said with a smile.

She glared at you and hissed, “Attention whore!” before turning and walking out of the salon. You rolled your eyes. That wasn’t an uncommon occurrence either.

“What was that about?” your client asked. She was a regular, a nice lady in her mid 40s that came in at least once a month to get her hair re-dyed. She was probably one of your favourite clients.

“Just some fangirl of my boyfriend who believes I’m using him for attention,” you told her. “It’s nothing new, I’ve been over it for so long.”

“You really don’t deserve that. You’re such a nice girl!” she told you. You smiled gratefully at her.

“Hey, (Y/N),” called the receptionist of the salon. “Call for you, says it’s your boyfriend.”

“Tell him to give me a minute, I’m just finishing with a client.”

When you finished up and sent your client along her merry way, you almost skipped with happiness over to the phone and answered with a cheery, “Hey baby!”

There was a brief pause. Confused, you repeated, “Colson? You still there?”

“Hey (Y/N),” came his familiar voice. You wanted to smile, talking to Colson always made you smile, but he didn’t sound very happy. You furrowed your brow in worry.

“Are you okay, babe?” you asked him.

“We need to talk.”

The worst four words to hear from anyone. The look on your face must’ve alerted your receptionist that something was wrong as she got up from her chair and offered it to you, saying she was going to “check on something”.

You sat down on the chair. “What’s wrong? Is everything alright?”

“I...I don’t think we should continue our relationship.”

And just like that, your heart ripped in two. You tried not to start crying, since the salon was currently filled with your coworkers and their clients. You took deep breaths to stop yourself from crying.

“Why?” you asked him. “Colson, what’s wrong?”

Colson sighed. “I just...I don’t like this feeling that you’re using me, (Y/N).”

Your eyes widened then. “What? Colson, don’t tell me you believe those rumours. You know I’m not using you for fame! I haven’t gained anything from our relationship other than just getting to be with you. You can even ask my coworkers if you want, I haven’t gotten any new clients or any new publicity.”

“It just doesn’t feel like a relationship,” Colson continued. “We don’t even talk all that much since I’ve been on tour, and I’m always buying you things - “

“You insist on buying me things!” you cut him off. “And I work all day. I text you before work, I text you on my breaks, and we facetime every night. I can’t talk to you all day when we’re both busy, Colson.”

He was silent before simply saying, “Goodbye (Y/N).”

You held the phone to your ear listening to the dial tone for a moment longer. You couldn’t believe that Colson actually believed the rumors! How could he believe you were using him? After all the amazing times you spent together the past year, all the private moments, the kisses, the “I love you”s that you genuinely meant. And he really chose to believe some internet trolls over his own girlfriend.

One of you coworkers noticed your blank stare and come over to ask if you were okay. You merely shook your head. She took the phone from your ear and placed it back on the desk before calling for the receptionist.

“Cancel any other appointments (Y/N) has for today,” she told her. “Put them in any openings she has for the next few days.”

“I can’t just cancel for no reason,” you said, although you felt numb and you knew working like this was a bad idea.

“I don’t know what just happened on the phone but I know it’s hindering your ability to work,” you coworker said. “Go home, get some sleep, cry if you have to. If you want, when I’m off, I’ll grab some wine and come over and we can drink and talk shit.”

You smiled gratefully and stood from the chair. You felt like you were going to pass out, but you powered through it and made it to your car. The minute the door closed, you started crying.

~~~~~~

Weeks came and passed and you hadn’t heard a single word from Colson. But you were seeing plenty about him online. It was as if the day after you broke up he was being seen partying with girls, getting flirty. One tabloid even reported that two days after your breakup he was spotted leaving a party with some girl. You came to the conclusion that this was the real reason he had broken up with you, which hurt even more because it felt like he didn’t even care about you. That the whole year you two had spent together and he really threw it away and started hooking up with other girls in a matter of days.

You decided to throw yourself into your work. You packed your days with as many clients as you could, and when you didn’t have clients you were practising new hairstyles on the mannequins. It kept you busy enough that you didn't think about Colson.

Unfortunately, the breakup also resulted in your friendship with Rook being damaged. You two barely spoke, and when you did it was very obviously awkward. Rook never called or facetimed you like he used to, mainly because he spent basically every moment he was on tour with Colson, and some days you could barely bring yourself to text him because it just reminded you too much of the relationship you had just lost.

As the days turned into weeks, it seemed like getting over Colson was getting easier. You were starting to push every bit of sadness you had out of your mind, and you were doing pretty good at blocking out the memories of you past year together. You were recovering just fine, until the bell over the door at the salon rang one day and a familiar tall man stood there.

You stared at him for a long time as he just stared back, his blue eyes filled with sadness. You rolled your eyes and turned away.

“Do you have an appointment?” the receptionist asked. All your coworkers knew what Colson had done to you, and they were equally as angry at him. In fact, the girls were glaring at him in a way that you were sure he was going to die on the spot.

“No, but I’d like to talk to (Y/N) for a minute,” he said.

“She’s busy,” the receptionist responded. “Booked up solid for about a week. Want to make an appointment for next Friday?”

Colson shook his head and walked right past her. She called after him but he ignored her and walked right up to you. You ignored him for a moment, working on finishing up your clients hair, before turning to glare at him. “What do you want?”

“I want to talk,” he responded.

You rolled your eyes. “Oh, you talked quite enough when you accused me of using you. I’m busy, go away.”

He grabbed your arm, almost causing you to cut a wrong spot on your client’s hair. “What the fuck?!”

“I made a mistake,” he told you. “I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have listened to any of those rumors. I know you love me, I know what we had was real, I know what you were feeling was real. I was such a damn idiot, please I’m so sorry.”

Angry tears were starting to form in your eyes. You turned fully to face him. “Oh yeah, you seemed really fucking sorry when you were out partying with all those girls, when you were flirting them up, when you went home with one of them! What’s wrong? Did your new plaything dump you?”

Everyone was staring at your both, but no one was making any moves to stop the fighting. They were all too wrapped up watching what was happening to even think about breaking it up.

“No!” Colson snapped. “I never went home with any of those girls, I never even flirted with any of them! I partied to try and get you off my mind, but it never worked. You have to believe me (Y/N), all this time I’ve been thinking about you. I wanted to call or something but, being the idiot I am, I thought you had been using me. I found out recently that it was Chantel that started those rumours. Apparently she told some tabloid that she had witnessed us together in private, that you were very cold and that you obviously didn’t want me. She was trying to break us up thinking I’d go back to her. When I didn’t, she told me everything.”

He took your hands in his. “Baby, I’m really so sorry. I know sorry isn’t enough, I know I hurt you. I know I fucked up so bad. But I can’t be without you. You’re the love of my life, you complete me, as fucking corny as that is. I need you in my life.”

Suddenly he was lowering to one knee. You covered your mouth in shock as he took a ring from his pocket and held it up to you. “You have every right to say no, but I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I want to be able to call you my wife, to start our own family together, to just be happy together in general. (Y/N), will you marry me?”

Before the question was completely out of his mouth, you exclaimed, “Yes! Oh my god, yes!”

You had forgotten that you in the middle of a busy hair salon until your coworkers and their clients cheered with excitement as Colson stood and took you in his arms, placing a loving kiss on your lips. Not that you cared all that much. For the first time in weeks, you felt whole again, and you were beyond happy to be able to spend the rest of your life with Colson.

[autumnpleaves]

Do you have any song suggestions?

Also Achilles come down is one of my favorite songs right now, i’ve been listening to it on repeat for days! (So yay for tons of people finding cool songs!)

(Ignore me purposefully not answering this ask for a *long* time because I was busy collecting and compiling songs to suggest. Thinking of making it a Spotify playlist so you can listen more easily :)) 

I DOOOO!!!

And YEE! 

I have yet to do a full week of listening to that song, but it’s soooo gooddd!! 

(YAY INDEED!! :DDD) 

I’ve been listening to much more like pop and rap style songs lately, so 0-0  Be warned XD 

Okie! Song suggestions:  Warning: I kinda went overboard with this there’s like.. 50+ songs under cut. I might make a playlist for easier listening, honestly? Sure. Why not. 

1) Literally any song from Wilbur Soot (Understandable if it’s not some people’s style of songs, but Internet Ruined Me is a bop) (Also, Wilbur has two profiles on Spotify [Why? I don’t know] but it’s Wilbur and Wilbur Soot) 

2) Ghostwriter - RJD2  (Am listening to it at the moment while I type it out. Still searching while typing for more suggestions :D) 

3) All the Pretty Girls - KALEO  (Cottagecore vibesssss~) 

4) Canyon Moon - Harry Styles (And literally anything from Harry Styles, honestly, his songs are just so ~aesthetic~)

5) Out of My League - Fitz and The Tantrum 

6) Ultimately - Khai Dreams  (This is my favorite song, like ahjfdlad it’s good, the riffssss) 

7) Argeers - The Fyre and Lightning Consort  (Classical songs? Folk songs? In my playlist? More likely than you think) 

8) Sorry Haha I Fell Asleep - Egg (Pretty sure most people have heard this song before) 

9) The Jellyfish Song - Caroline Konstnar (Credits to Yawn for finding this song) 

10) Glad You Came - The Wanted  (Oldie but a Classic) 

11) Where the Watermelons Rot - Madelynne Whitt 

12) Malibu Nights - LANY 

13) Ancient Airs and Dances: Suite III, Siciliana  (Another classical? I’m on a rollll~ 😎)

14) Symphony No. 4 in A Major, Op. 90, MWV N16 “Italian”: I. Allegro vivace

15) Alice in Wonderland: Act I: Alice and her Sister  (Will this list just end up being a classical list from here on out? Perhaps, I’ll try not to though) 

16) invisible string - Taylor Swift  (Honestly the whole new album is a bop, go listen to it if you haven’t :D) 

17) Roses - The Chainsmokers 

18) Prelude - TwoSetViolin 

19) It Ain’t Me - Selena Gomez 

20) Echo - Talisk  (I literally found them just today, wow. It’s good) 

21) short kings anthem - blackbear (This one is a little out there, but the chorus I like :)) 

22) Can’t Sleep love - Pentatonix 

23) In Case You Don’t Live Forever - Ben Platt  (Personally, I don’t really like his version, his voice in this one is pretty eh, there’s this one other version that I really like, forgot which one though Ah- by Ryan Stewart) 

24) Hidden In The Sand - Tally Hall (Iconic animatic song)

25) Train Wreck - James Arthur

26) Producer Man - Lyn Lapid 

27) Ophelia - The Lumineers 

28) Arcade - Duncan Laurence 

29) God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen - Pentatonix 

30) Be Around me - Will Joseph Cook 

31) Overwhelmed - Royal & the Serpent 

32) Dandelions - Ruth B 

33) The Grey - Annelle Staal 

34) Take Yours, I’ll Take Mine - Matthew Mole 

35) It’s Simple, Child - Matthew Mole 

36) Running After You - Matthew Mole 

37) Hold On - Chord Overstreet 

38) Dreams - Joakim Karud 

39) Everywhere at the end of time - The Caretaker (It’s like a playlist of samples) (I personally haven’t listened to all of them, but it’s said to be really good) 

40) Brooklyn In The Summer - Aloe Blacc 

41) starstruck - biosphere 

42) SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK - Joji 

43) Sad - Bo Burham 

44) Tiny Dancer - Elton John 

45) Shotgun - George Ezra 

46) Paradise - George Ezra 

47) Life’s A Happy Song - Mickey Rooney 

48) Classic - MKTO 

49) Able Sister (From “Animal Crossing”)

50) Casin - glue70  (Meme music? Meme music) 

51) Inside a House - Amy Turk 

52) Mr. Blue Sky - Electric Light Orchestra 

53) Buttercup - Hippo Campus 

54) watch - Billie Eilish 

55) Be My Mistake - The 1975

56) IDK You Yet - Alexander 23 

57) Fire - Barns Courtney 

58) The Fall - half alive

59) Beige - Yoke Lore 

60) Marlboro Nights - Lonely God 

61) LEMONS - Brye 

62) Mariposa - Peach Tree Rascals

63) Can I have a Ride Home? I’m at a party and I Don’t Know Any1 - carpetgarden 

64) Down the Line - Beach Fossils 

65) Lucy - Still Woozy 

66) To My Parents - Anna Clendening 

67) Honey Moon - Birds in the Airport 

68) Interlude (For You) - Ashton Edminster

69) (Heh 69, nice ;)) Clouds - Zach Sobiech 

70) if you’re feeling lonely - Chance Pena 

0-0 

Did I go overboard with this? Yes. I do not regret a single thing. 

Hope you enjoy some of the songs I picked though! XD 

Bonus: 

Written in the Sand - Old Dominion 

The Other Side of Paradise - Glass Animals 

Rat - Penelope Scott

[sweetrosetta-martin]

Beatle tag (cause why not ✌💗) 

I’m new to this fandom online, so what best way to present myself but doing this (plz don't kill me guys I come in peace).

 But I do have to give an special to @sgt-revolver cause thanks to their post I decided to do it. 

How long have you been a fan ?: About two years if I’m not wrong, but god it has been two intense ones. Long story short, this band never was part of my life (grew up in a different culture) until the day I was reading some fanfiction in AO3 and stumbled across one about them. I then found out they were the guys behind “Let it be” and “Here comes the sun” so I decided do dig even deeper..... (Now I’m here simping and crying to their music at 2am) 🙃

 Favorite Beatle: Used to be Paul (man got a charm) but when I better discovered George as a hole human being, and not only a Beatle, I went 💥. Tho, sometimes I do get frustrated with him and stay on John’s side cause he was lowkey relatable and a big bi-disaster mood. (I suddenly feel bad for Rings.... srry bro ) 

Favorite era for music: At the beginning I didn't like the mop top era and practically only listened from Help! to then end, but now I appreciate each period as a part of the band’s musical history and can’t help to fangirl to most songs. (Tho I’ll always have a soft spot for 1966)

Favorite era for lewks: Each Beatles had its own I think. Ringo as a teddy boy (he looks like the bad boy of your dreams), George in 65` (longer hair but not to long and just overlay hotness) and Paul/John in 66`. (The perfect balance between early and late looks)

Favorite song: Guess it depends on my mood, but it’s surely a tight between “Strawberry fields forever”, “Happiness is a warm gun”, “Lovely Rita” “While my guitar gently weeps”, “Don't bother me” and “Across the universe”. (This is such an unfair question xd)

Favorite album: Honestly I just can’t decide.. Its prob either “The Beatles (aka white album)”, “With the Beatles” or “Revolver” 

Unpopular/Controversial Beatles opinion: “Revolution 9″ is not an unlistenable song and has an actual artistic value. I mean, I don’t think is a song meant to be listened during a car ride, but I do think it encapsulates pretty well the chaotic and changing vibe of the late 60s. This song makes you feel unwell because it’s meant to. Despite that, I do believe it should not have been included on the album, but rather as a John/Yoko project. (Ik Geo had a input though)

A song everyone loves but you dislike: Never was the biggest fan of “Come together” or “With a little help from my friends”. They are not necessarily bad, but rather average for me

A song everyone dislikes but you love: “Run for your life”... I know the lyrics are quite nasty but its so catchy and I love George’s guitar in it. I also really like “Dizzy Miss Lizzy”, but I don’t know if it really is that unpopular among people

Your fantasy involving The Beatles: The PG one or the ??.. 

JK, but I would have love to meet them during their cavern/casbah days. Like about 1961, just to chat with them about rock n roll and even jam some songs. (Even if I’m not sure that I would love to do that as a girl or a guy). And I sincerely wish I could just have some deep conversations with George and John while we share a joint . I just wish I could have known them better... 

Tell us about the moment you knew you were a fan: When returning home after a long school day I decided to look after some live material (At the time I only knew like 4 songs). I put YouTube on my tv, and found “She loves you” . I was not the same girl after watching that video. If I could explain how I suddenly felt so much joy and excitement looking at them that I even started singing and dancing. The rest is history 😉

Did you ever have a genuine ‘The Beatles suck !’ phase before becoming a fan?: Because their music was not around me 24/7 growing up, I never got fed up with their music. For me almost everything was new and interesting, so I never had a hater phase 

Favorite Beatle’s book: Have not read any for the moment, but I’m dying to buy Cynthia’s and May’s books. (Also the autobiography “I me mine” by George) 

Thoughts on the old generation of fans: Even if the few experiences I’ve had with them have not been good, I know most of them are chill people. I also love some podcasts made by first or second gen fans. The only thing that I dislike, is the average boomer who will claim they know more than you cause they were alive at the time, even if the only song they know its “Hey Jude” . (Or those who treat John as a saint, and blame the hole break-up on Paul... smh)

If Hollywood were to make a high budget Beatles biopic, what is one thing you desperately hope they include?: I wish they wont do it (We already got enough movies), but if they do something, it would be better if it was a series and not a film. If it had to happen, they better not forget how young the guys really were and how they were actual people. I know they were ground-breaking in so many ways, but they were also human beings with many defaults and even a bit naïve in some aspects. If you only give me a wife-beater (nasty) John, delicate flower Paul, silent George and dumb Ringo, the cartoon series has done a better job than you. 

Do you read/write fanfic: One word.... Yes... *Hides her unfinished drafts*

Are you the only one in your family/friend group to enjoy them?: Sadly yes. I have to force my dad to play some Beatle music while driving cause most of the music he plays is raegetton, and even if I’m proud of my Latino roots.. I’ll do salsa or merengue anytime but not some Bad Bunny ok. 

Are you a shipper?:  Yup

Favorite movie starring/made by them?: Help!.. I mean I also love AHDN, but it’s just so funny to see them run around being high af as they play music despite Ringo being in mortal danger. (Also the visuals we get each song just give me such a MTV vibe. Its genuinely beautiful)

Do you believe in McLennon?: *smirks at the camera*

General opinions on McLennon?: Oh boy. The Lennon/McCartney relationship is one that seems out of my grandma telenovelas. From Paris to the breakup, their story is one of up and downs, but they never really stopped loving each other. Not even death could stop their link as Paul still dreams of him and thinks about John when composing songs. I understand that not everyone may be convinced that something really happened, but I think we all should be open to the possibility. 

If you got to change ONE thing about their history, what would be and why?: Brian’s death. The beginning of the end was the moment he passed away. With Brian the band would still have broke up (All things must pass, even the good ones), but it would have been less messed up. No Paul trying to take the lead a bit too much, Apple Corps probably being better handled and no Allen Klein messing up everything. (And probably no Yoko in the studio but that may be a bit of a stretch) 

What song has the best vocals?: As a group, “Because” it’s probably the one. Such a simple, yet perfectly well put vocals. The peak of their talent for harmonizing in my opinion. In another side “Oh Darling!” is prob Paul best and John’s voice in “This Boy” always get me

What song do you feel had no effort put into it?: Prob an unpopular opinion but “Eight Days a Week” is such a basic song. It’s not innovative, it just uses the formula, and I feel like around this time the guys were kind of tired and just fabricated the song to be a single. It simply not feels genuine, and for me it shows the biggest problem from the “Beatles for Sale” era. 

What is a well talked moment in Beatles history you genuinely believe to be false?: The way Yoko met John. The most known story is that they met each other at a Yoko art gallery, but many sources (such a Cynthia or Brian personal assistant) tell us a complete different truth. I do believe she knew the band, stalked John and force herself into his life, despite of the romantic tale she keeps repeating. 

What is something you KNOW to be true, but often gets erased in their history: John. So many things about John. Many see him as only a funny character and ignore so many cues that he was a man struggling with his own self esteem to the point of having eating disorders. Not forgetting his fluid sexuality, the fact that many think that as house husband all his problems went away or that he was a wife beater. John was more than the “Imagine” martyr or  monster so many people (even some fans) make out of him.

Least favorite look from a Beatle(s): Ringo in the Help! movie. Horrible mushroom hair 😂

Favorite look from a Beatle(s):  George Harrison in the “Hey Bulldog”/”Lady Madonna” videoclip. (I also want that cherry SG Standard so bad omg)

I really don’t know how many others have done it but here are my tags 

@rocknroll-imagines @moreofthatdrowse @cultofbeatle @joan-deserved-the-silver-hammer

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Weird Questions that say a lot

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? Teacups!

2. chocolate bars or lollipops? Lollipops

3. bubblegum or cotton candy? Cotton candy

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? We call elementary school primary school. It depended which teachers you asked, my favourites always said I was “conscientious, kind, and a pleasure to have in class”.

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups? Glass cups or bottles.

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? I have like 4 looks, pastel, boho, and goth/witchy/grunge, also vintage-inspired which wasn’t mentioned but I love it.

7. earbuds or headphones? Depends on the shape, I love my Razr headset because it doesn’t squash my ears, and I like galaxy bud shaped earbuds, the ones with the little rubber doo-dads that fit actually in your ear. Apple or a lot of older flat earbuds cause me a lot of pain.

8. movies or tv shows? TV shows. Movies are getting longer and longer and my focus is getting shorter and shorter

9. favorite smell in the summer? Rainy days!

10. game you were best at in p.e.? The game of queue-ducking (where you go to the back of the queue to avoid your turn), or dance, or the less strength intensive parts of gymnastics. Or crying, always been great at that xD

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day? Muesli, or nothing.

12. name of your favorite playlist? I prefer to listen to full albums rather than playlists, but I have a few favourites on Spotify. Born to Run 150BPM, Infinite Indie Folk, Irish Folk: Jigs and Reels, All Out 80s/90s/00s. I also love scene/pop-punk playlists.

13. lanyard or key ring? Key Ring

14. favorite non-chocolate candy? Message Hearts (or anything with that texture), the red pack of starbursts (the UK version is vegan). Does Turkish Delight count because if so then that is my fave. I also like gummies if they’re vegan.

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment? To Kill a Mockingbird (high school), or The Bloody Chamber (uni), or Hamlet (uni)

16. most comfortable position to sit in? One foot under me, the other foot out to the other side, but both in the same position (if the surface is flat), or knees up.

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes? I own a lot of shoes so there isn’t really a single pair I wear the most. Recently my Air Force 1s, I’m trying to wear them in because the previous owner didn’t so the cause blisters.

18. ideal weather? Cold, overcast, rainy, still. Or without the rain. or snow (as long as I’m not going in the car and I can go crunch my shoes in it xD

19. sleeping position? Either side, but my body is kinda rotated towards the bed so it’s like half way between on my stomach and on my side. 

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? Notebooks

21. obsession from childhood? Animals, dinosaurs, goddesses, magic, crystals, neopets, sims. I still love all of these things, I am a rotating door of obsessions, usually a bunch of the same obsessions on repeat.

22. role model? I don’t have one particular role model, I do have tons of people that I love and respect.

23. strange habits? I have so many strange habits that I have become one myself. Nothing actually stands out though because 99% of it is because of my brain.

24. favorite crystal? rose quartz or moonstone.

25. first song you remember hearing? Maybe Dancing Queen by ABBA, definitely the first I remember dancing to, but my dad loves music so I grew up with a constant stream of it.

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather? Suffer xD when I’m able to do so comfortably I’d love to go out looking for pretty stones, and nice sticks with my fiance, also would like to go on picnics with him, or a friend if I had one.

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather? Baking, drawing, crafts, standing in the rain. Everything.

28. five songs to describe you? 6/10 - Dodie Robert Frost - Mal Blum Caught in the Middle - Paramore Side Effects - Jade Bird Snitches Get Stitches - Onsind  Bonus track: The Seed - Aurora I wish I still had the playlist I made of songs I relate to, several of these were on it though.

29. best way to bond with you? Oversharing, or telling me about things you’re into.

30. places that you find sacred? Nature. My favourite spots are little creeks/rivers in wooded areas, but just like, all of it is special and should be treated as such. Also bedrooms.

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? I think maybe I’m not gutsy or whatever enough, but also unpredictable. I wear whatever I like, and I’m just as likely to cry in all of them as I am to accidentally get in a fight.

32. top favorite vines? I feel so basic because I never really did the vine thing.  There was one that nearly killed me because I literally started to choke that was in some kind of office and the bit like can you run this past me again, and they just fucking legged it past them holding a folder up, Saw it once, never saw it again. Road work ahead. Why you can’t lift a house (might be a tok?) Brass dad and oven kid Look at this graaaaph Never learned how to read I can’t sit I have hemorrhoids The one with the people in blankets bobbing the nana nanana song Fr esh avo ca do Look at all these chickens

33. most used phrase in your phone? I love you - if I had to guess

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? right now, nothing. I often get the old Super Liquor jingle lodged in there though.

35. average time you fall asleep? 6am?

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing? Charlie the unicorn or that one Noodles video by Cyanide and Happiness. Are those even memes?

37. suitcase or duffel bag? Depends. I mostly use a bag though since I never go anywhere for long.

38. lemonade or tea? Tea? Usually if you ask for lemonade here you get Sprite which is not lemonade.

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? I had a vegan lemon meringue pie once, so good. Cake is easier to make though, and I can eat more in one sitting without getting sick xD

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? Um, the principal in my last year of school got caught for being a peeping tom a few years after I left.

41. last person you texted? My Fiance.

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets? Jacket pockets

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? Depends on the rest of the outfit and the weather. I wear Jean jackets most though.

44. favorite scent for soap? I love lavender, or vanilla/candy/fruity/baked goods type scents. I still have a bottle of Sugar Fairy spray from lush from a year ago and I love the smell of that.

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? Fantasy I think.

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? Nekkid?

47. favorite type of cheese? As a kid it was feta. Now I only eat vegan cheese. I was never a huge cheese fan tbh.

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? Rotten xD um probably a cranberry or something because I’m small, and I’m not a fan of cranberry.

49. what saying or quote do you live by? An it harm none do what you will. Or treat others as you wish to be treated.

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have? Probably one of the vines I listed above, either “run it past” or “can’t lift a house” because both of those resulted in crying and choking.

51. current stresses? My cat has been throwing up and having diarrhoea the past week or so, she’s been to the vet, it got better for a bit, but tonight suddenly got worse. Living with my parents who I have a very toxic relationship with. Living in a single very overfilled room. Trying to not spend money so that I can save up to move next year. Nightmares about my trauma. Either the house is haunted or there’s a build up of negative energy (probably that).

52. favorite font? I always liked the look of all of the script style fonts (freestyle, french, lucida, lucida calligraphy, Edwardian, Palace) but they’re not accessible so for anything people will actually see (which is literally nothing) I always go with arial.

53. what is the current state of your hands? Slight rash on one finger because I’m sensitive to what is in a lot of hand washing products apparently (never an issue until the pandemic), one broken finger nail that is a bit shorter than the rest. Not painted nails because energy. I always wear my engagement ring, usually I wear several other rings but with how my skin is being I thought I’d better not for a while.

54. what did you learn from your first job? Bakeries are hell, my circadian rhythm will not adjust to anything besides its natural state for longer than a couple of days at a time no matter how long or hard I try. I can absolutely fall asleep standing up.

55. favorite fairy tale? Ugly Duckling

56. favorite tradition? I don’t have anyway... Yet? Hopefully when I move this can become a thing.

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome? I’m interpretting overcome loosely here, meaning “I have not died from this” - Suicide of my first love - Bullying - 3 different jobs that all nearly killed me

58. four talents you’re proud of having? Literally can’t think of one. I’m not talented. I’m passable at a couple of things, but I worked for those things and I’m still not good enough for anyone to confuse me for being talented xD Those things I care about that I’ve worked on a lot are singing, art, languages, crafts? I still struggled to come up with 4. My bad.

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be? Aw jeez xD

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? Magical Girl! This is an easy one, give me the powers and the clothes yessss.

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.? Literally sitting here drawing a blank, so instead of favourite here is the first one that came into my head “eyes are the genitals of the head” (may have that wrong, I’m watching the Office for the first time rn)

62. seven characters you relate to? Clementine from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Amelie from Amelie Matilda from Matilda Quasimodo from the Hunchback of Notredame (also my favourite plush as a kid) Iris - The Holiday Jess - New Girl Amelia Shepherd - Grey’s Anatomy Struggled with this because suddenly I drew a blank and also couldn’t remember who my Fiance was talking about every time he’s watched a character and said “that’s you” repeatedly.

63. five songs that would play in your club? Starlight - Superman Lovers Pump It - Black Eyed Peas I Bet that You Look Good on the Dancefloor - Arctic Monkeys All the Things She Said - tATu Doctor Jones - Aqua Bonus: Push Up - Freestylers These are ones  I have memories of dancing to when I was younger so that’s how I picked, but I’d absolutely be a themed night club with different music on different nights.

64. favorite website from your childhood? Neopets, which I still play daily. The first I played was MaMaMedia, then Bubblegum Club.

65. any permanent scars? That’s a SORE subject heh get it heh

66. favorite flower(s)? Lavender, rose, peony

67. good luck charms? I usually carry gemstones if I’m needing to be particularly lucky, or sigils.

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? I hate anything spicy. I had rootbeer candy that tasted like literal dirt. I can’t eat banana stuff without gagging and getting a headache. I hate anything that is artificial blackberry or blackcurrant, tastes like shitty cough syrup.

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? Sea Monkeys breathe through their feet, but I remember where I learned that.

70. left or right handed? right

71. least favorite pattern? depends entirely on the colours, I like patterns. but certain stripes do make my eyes feel funny.

72. worst subject? If PE counts, then that. If not, math.

73. favorite weird flavor combo? I love pineapple on pizza but that’s not weird. Iused to eat cheese and jam sandwiches as a kid though.

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? I operate on how long it has lasted instead of how bad it is, essentially I get so desperate so I’ll try it even though it probably won’t help. I have the resistance of a rhino to most meds.

75. when did you lose your first tooth? No idea, like 4 I think? I did keep them in a weird little box for no reason though because they never got taken away from under my pillow.

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? I’m a fan of a good mash if it has lots of flavour (like gravy). Otherwise, crisps or fries.

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill? I grew a radish once! Something cat safe though these days, also maybe something heavy, and hard to knock over?

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? Grocery Store sushi, if it’s just veg.

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo? My only ID is my passport, and it is BAD.

80. earth tones or jewel tones? Both.

81. fireflies or lightning bugs? Fireflies (ten million of them to be precise)

82. pc or console? Grew up with PC. Now play my switch mostly.

83. writing or drawing? Both. Wrote more as a kid, draw more now.

84. podcasts or talk radio? Podcasts.

84. barbie or polly pocket? Both. But I prefered pollies as a kid

85. fairy tales or mythology? mythology

86. cookies or cupcakes? cupcakes

87. your greatest fear? Based on my nightmares, stairs.

88. your greatest wish? To live in a comfy house, in the country, with my Fiance, I have travelled the world, we have pets, I can function, we are free.

89. who would you put before everyone else? My Fiance and out animals.

90. luckiest mistake? Can’t think of any, most of my mistakes have been more like bad choices, also never turned out well for me.

91. boxes or bags? Depends what it’s for?

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? lamps, or fairy lights. Unless I’m particularly anxious, then overheads.

93. nicknames? None.

94. favorite season? Winter

95. favorite app on your phone? LINE, it has my fiance, and animated stickers.

96. desktop background? Little Twin Stars

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized? My own.

I never get asks and needed to distract myself so I’m going to just answer these anyway, like a survey or something. Original post by tr33-g1rl 

[quicksilverconnoisseur]

To celebrate the return of QS on AO3 with a huge new fic by @weconqueratdawn

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TheSeaVoices Drawing Playlist

A mixture of drawing moods, themes and favourites, not necessarily relevant lyric-wise but all very carefully selected for zero frustration - maximum flow, and perhaps an element of sexiness?

If you want a 43 track playlist for drawing or painting to - this works :)

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1- Wallowa Lake Monster, Sufjan Stevens

Fucking love the fucking lyrics! Beautiful story and atmosphere and voice. I hadn’t listened to Sufjan much before watching Call Me By Your Name and just caning Visions of Gideon for weeks after.

2- Experiment In Terror, Henry Mancini

From the 60’s noir thriller of the same name - so stylish and cool - what a soundtrack sir! I love the slow threat and slinkiness.

3- My Body, Perfume Genius

Similar slink here, dirty kind of glide. Have seen PG a couple of times live and just ABSORBED it into my soul - he dances up there like a beautiful table-dancer and the crowd is moving with him - always good albums to paint to.

4- Danke Schoen, Wayne Newton

Turn this way up! 21 year old Wayne blasts this out like a genius - his voice is amazing and so feminine. I know it from Ferris Bueller's Day Off originally where it is put to very good use.

5- My Little Brown Book, Duke Ellington, John Coltrane

I can listen to Duke Ellington all day every day, those brushy cymbals in this are so lazy cool. That’s the third sixties song so far.

6- One More Kiss Dear, Vangelis

Bladerunner, one of my favourite films.  WHAT A FUCKING SOUNDTRACK! This song was an accidental recording sung for the demo by Don Percival (not the intended singer) and the weird spooky vocal just worked for the mock vintage sound.

7- Verbarhemiopia, Ed Dowie

Released through Lost Map Records. I know these people and they always have great acts - I had a lot of exceptional experiences on the Inner Hebridean island of Eigg with them. This track is just a beautiful, pulsing moonbeam.

8- Just Like Honey, The Jesus and Mary Chain

Such a sleazy, druggy, sexy song - dirty guitar and sensual drums - the opening drum intro, borrowed from (another 60’s track), Be My Baby by The Ronettes coming up on this list at number 38.

9- Grid, Perfume Genius

I rec the video!

10- Here, Pavement

Oh Pavement - a big part of my identity! - Live, they are a fucking dream! This song is a regular ear worm.

11- Demon Host, Timber Timbre

Great lyrics, great album

12- Animal Friends, P-ano

The only song I’m into on this album, the atmosphere is great. A sad little song.

13- Sleepwalk, Santo and Johnny

1959 so lets call it 60’s again XD. A great instrumental - that slide, steel guitar sound is lush and the asmr trigger of my dreams

14- Hang Out The Stars In Indiana, Al Bowlly

MY FAVOURITE SONG OF ALL FUCKING TIME. I can and do listen to this on repeat all through a drawing even if it takes a day. Withnail & I introduced me - one of my favourite films. And, of course Bowlly is on The Shining too.

15- Wasted Teens, Monoganon

Lost Map records again, excellent and crazy live performance from these on Eigg.

16- The Alien, Ben Salisbury, Geoff Barrow

Such dark foreboding anticipation. From the Annihilation soundtrack - brilliant film and score. I love Portishead too.

17- Life Is Just A Bowl Of Cherries, Al Bowlly

Hey cheer up everyone - fuck it!

18- Wanna Sip, Fever Ray

I do! This is from their live recording at the Troxy - I WAS THERE —- oooooooooooof fuck WHAT A SHOW honestly!

19- Lipstick Stains, Jay Som

“I wanted to musically capture the immediate and intense but beautiful feeling of infatuation.” —— yep!

20- Heat Wave, Snail Mail

Yes! They are brilliant - saw them live at End Of The Road and the tent was CRAMMED!!!!!! The atmosphere was amazing - she is so young and so great.

21- I Love How You Love Me, The Paris Sisters

Hello 1960’s! The creamy Spector sound and that spoken word is amazing.

22- Shadow, Chromatics

Loved this on Twin Peaks The Return, it’s a gem and perfect for drawing/painting to.

23- Bankrobber, The Clash

I always sing ‘Daddy was a vampire’

24- Do Your Best, John Maus

Slo-mo beauty.

25- Canadian Girl, The Walkmen

Nice vintage-tinged weirdness and soul.

26- Wave of Mutilation (UK SURF) Pixies

I love Pixies, only seen them live once but it was very, very, very special. Beautiful, laid back b side version that I prefer to the album track.

27- Fell An Ox

There was a time where all I would listen to was King Creosote - it was an obsession! I have lost count of KC gigs I’ve been to.

28- Slow West, Django Django

Love the film, love the soundtrack, loved Django Django up till the last few releases. There is a live version of this on KEXP from four years ago which is the one I usually listen to. Fucking brilliant live - got to see them on Eigg one time too. I rec the Slow West film if you haven’t seen it.

29- Withnail’s Theme, Jack Hallam

Great film and soundtrack - a big favourite.

30- Portofino 1, Raymond Scott

60’s!  Ha - I hadn’t realised this at all till writing all this.

31- Lady Gaylord, Raymond Scott

From Manhattan Research Inc a collection of his advertising jingles and snippets from the 60’s

32- The Pink Room, Angelo Badalamenti

Filthiest song ever? From Twin Peaks Fire Walk With Me

33- Goodnight Felicia, Chris Bear

From the score to excellent TV show, High Maintenance. I do love Grizzly Bear anyway and cried at their last gig I went to - I always cry at gigs though so….

34- Plainsong, The Cure

My teenage self was a massive Cure fan and I dedicated my record player, school books, wardrobe and bedroom to them! Saw them live only once (the LIGHTS!!!!) because I was too young, obsessed over Robert Smith a lot! This song and the whole album were a big favourite. Beautiful.

35- A Reluctant Hero/Betsy/End Credits Taxi Driver, Bernard Herrmann

I love Herrmann and I really love Taxi Driver. This is just…. ooof!

36- I Fall In Love Too Easily, Chet Baker

Jazzzzzzzzzzzzzzz 1954- what a pretty little voice.

37- Looking Back I Should Have Been Home More, Richard Swift

Just lovely, so sad about Swift.

38- Be My Baby, The Ronettes

The best opening song use ever- MEAN STREETS - turn this RIGHT up please.

39- Go, Sparklehorse, Flaming Lips - Daniel Johnston cover

Doubly sad because of Sparklehorse and Daniel Johnston. I have seen The Flaming Lips many times throughout their career - from small gigs to radio telescope gigs! What a fucking show!

40- Every Night, Perfume Genius

Just nice stuff. Like I said - live he is so sensual- his moves are amazing.

41- Fireflies Made Out of Dust, Happy Jawbone Family Band

Great track. Love the lyrics.

42- Sleeping Lessons, The Shins

Richard Swift again, on keyboards. I really enjoy the historical references and atmosphere on this.

43- Smoke Rings, Les Paul, Mary Ford

1952 - ssssso ssssssspooooky

[queerchoicesblog]

Missing You (PM, Alana x F!MC)

This fic was requested by @esteladannishreyakamilah for the VDay project hosted by @endlessly-searching-for-you ! It’s inspired to the song You Belong To Me by Jason Wade (yeah, the Shrek song xD) which I also quoted below!

In short, Leah (PM F!MC) is sad because today is her and Alana’s first anniversary but her girlfriend is not there. Our beloved Interpol agent’s still on a mission and it’s almost a week since she last heard from her. Leah has always been perfectly aware of what being with agent Kusuma implied, but she cannot help but feel lonely and nostalgic. Sure, Alana is on a job but did she truly forget about their anniversary? 

Prompt: Long-distance relationship

Word Count: 1170

Perma Tag: @brightpinkpeppercorn @psychopathdreamer21 @abunchofbadchoices 

Tags: @kennaxval

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Leah was on her way back home when it sank in. She did her best to keep herself busy at work but now she was sitting in the metro and she had nowhere to run. No errand or small talk with a colleague to distract herself with. In a desperate attempt to fight the melancholy growing inside her, she decided to put on some music but she sighed in defeat as the first song of the shuffle selection started playing.

See the pyramids around the Nile Watch the sun rise From the tropic isle Just remember darling                                                                                             All the while You belong to me See the market place In old Algiers                                                                                                        Send me photographs and souvenirs Just remember                                                                                                     When a dream appears You belong to me

She felt a lump forming in her throat. That song always reminded her of Alana, her adventurer. 

And I'll be so alone without you Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Today was her first anniversary with Alana. But she wasn’t there. She was still on an Interpol mission and on silent radio for almost a week. Leah sent her a few messages, knowing well that Alana didn’t want her to call when she was away: she would make a call whenever she was safe and free to talk. So far she always did so, this time she just briefly answered her that she was okay and not to worry.

Leah had always been aware of what being in a relationship with Alana implied, she knew from the start. She could still see Damien grimace when she told him:

“Are you sure about this, Leah? Being with Alana can surely be exciting at first but you soon discover that’s tough too. She’s an Interpol agent and she will always put her career first. You’ll spend more time miles away from each other than together, you won’t hear from her for days maybe weeks when she’s on a mission...I’m not saying this because I’m a sore loser and I don’t want you to date my ex, Leah, I - well- speak from experience. I’m just a concerned friend: as I told, you deserve someone who would make their heart your home and I’m afraid she will never do that”

What he didn’t understand was that Alana did make her heart her home but you can’t put a rare bird in a cage and expect it to be happy. You just have to let her go and hope your love is strong enough to make her come back to you. 

But he was right: it was tough, tougher than she first thought. Sure, Alana made it worth it - underneath her cynical and detached appearance, she was a very caring partner- but Leah felt lonely nonetheless at times. It’s the price to pay in a long-distance relationship, she repeated to herself. It helped but it didn’t heal her melancholy. Her heart tightened when she woke up alone in her bed instead of in Alana’s loving arms. She missed every moment with her: coming back home to find Alana waving at her from the couch, cooking together, laughing and watching movies curled up in each other arms, holding hands in the street, the way her girlfriend’s body still stiffened sometime in an unexpected embrace only to relax as soon as she realizes she was home.

Her train of thoughts was interrupted by her doorbell ringing. She put down the glass of wine she had already poured and headed there, sighing.

When she opened the door, her neighbor Kurt was standing there.

“Hey Leah! How’s my favorite neighbor doing?” he said chirpily.

Leah managed to give him a weak smile.

“Long day at work, what about you, McDreamy?”

Kurt laughed.

“Don’t know why you keep calling me that way but consider myself flattered. And I feel you, girl. I’m on my way to the hospital and I got assigned to a 24hour shift. Say a prayer for your favorite paramedic”

Leah pouted and gave him a sympathetic look.

“I will cook something for you for when you come back” 

“You’re a blessing, I swear but no need to, Leah. I know you’re busy too! Oh before I forget about it” he nodded to a box in his hands and handed it to her “I collected this for you this morning. I literally bumped into the mailman and since you had already left and the poor man had other packages for me, I took this one too” 

“Thank you, Kurt. That’s sweet of you...but I haven’t ordered anything lately” 

Kurt playfully bumped her arm.

“Maybe it’s a surprise! Cheer up, girl! I better go now, I don’t wanna be late. Have a nice evening, Leah!”

Leah greeted him and closed the door. Then she walked to the kitchen counter where she left her glass and put down the box. When she opened it, she saw a leather photo-album and a letter on top of it.

When she began to read it, she gasped.

Leah,

This photo album caught my attention in a flea-market in Old Town. I know it's not new and the edges are a bit worn-out but I’m pretty sure you would have loved the booth where it was laying. All sorts of antiquities and “objects that once lived a life of their own”, as you put it. I walked closer and smiled thinking of all the comments you would have made: you would have stayed there for hours! Then...it reminded me that I won’t be there for our first anniversary and I felt awful. I will never give up my career nor settle down for a romantic relationship but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to be with you as much as possible. Especially on days like our anniversary. I’m so sorry, Leah. 

In the end, I bought the old photo album and put some photos in it. You know I’m not good at expressing feelings and all but...I would love to fill this album with you. It will take a while cause there are tons of frames and well, to be honest, this is actually why I chose it. Future plans still scare me but I think we make a good team. Will you fill it with me?

Happy anniversary, my love. Oh and in case you forgot:

“Just remember till I’m home again I belong to you”

Alana”

A sob escaped Leah’s mouth as she opened the album to find the photos Alana already added: the whole squad smiling to the camera at Hayden’s new house, Leah playing with Hamza, a photo Nadia took at one of her parties of Alana and her dancing, a selfie of them sharing a New Year kiss, Alana smiling fondly at her over her shoulder as she walks to the airport gate.

Alana always found a way to make it worth it. She’s worth it, Lena whispered to herself.

She took a sip of wine and grazed her fingers against the empty frames.

You’re truly something else, agent Kusuma.