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A Haunting Reminder The Dark Mirror Research Foundation is located on Sage's Isle, far away from civilization, and dedicated to the research of the mysterious, dangerous, and supernatural. Silver is a young researcher at this mass facility, and when the foundation undergoes a test between two of their subjects, he has his protocols for if there is an emergency. But when that emergency comes, he finds himself cornered by the creature who raised him, with nothing but a locked door to keep him out. Amidst the blaring alarms and intense situation, can Silver hold off until security comes, or will he be swept away by his own traitorous heart?
Hey guys! This is a story that I have been brain-rotting over and annoying my friend Ell with for months and it is finally out in the wild! My friend, @serenescribe, beta read this for me and even wrote the incident herself in a ficlet request that you all can read here! I adore this AU of mine and I look forward to making my containment breach multiverse content for it. The story is pretty SCP-inspired for those who like TWST and SCP!
#twisted wonderland#lilia vanrouge#twst silver#slight spoilers for only like. one little thing.#the hint is hair#sebek is a good friend and he shows up#this foundation needs to unionize BTW#thank you ell for everything!#the olive pits#thats my writing tag now ig
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hey im curious
feel free to rb & explain your answer in the tags!
#i will go first <3#i reread my own fics all the time!!!#it's so fun!!#i am the target audience for every fic i have ever written#like even if it's a gift/for an event i write it bc i am genuinely interested in it#so of COURSE im going to enjoy looking back on those fics#i have uh 24 fics on ao3 now?#so i dont reread All of them#i mainly reread my longer fics bc i just have the most fun writing them#i encourage ppl to reread their own work bc#1 its fun to see how your writing has changed#(my writing has gone through So Much since i started in 2019 lol)#2 if you write for yourself then youll always love what youve written!#n e way thats my 2 cents#pls share w/ me i am very curious#thanks love ya#fanfiction#fanfic#<- promo tags ig
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many thoughts about these guys
#hollow knight#hollow knight fanart#hk ghost#hornet hk#the hollow knight#the knight#nailmaster mato#i have a lot of thoughts about the sealed siblings and how they would necessarily grow#this is way way in the future since theres no way theyre not at least semi immortal#and hell some of my now making this post some of my takes changed but i have many thoughts about how theyd look how long itd take them to#be comfortable enough to settle and grow and accept all the shit thats happened and will happen#etc etc#feel free to pester me about specifics if ur curious ig i dont wanna write an essay in the tags sdjksd#enjoy my little goobers#side note all three of them like dirt and digging its good for worms and trees#sits in the dirt not unlike a tree and basking in the sun seems like a wonderful thing to do#but also playing in the mud and kicking puddles too#yea#my art
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Currently being consumed by an Epic the Musical x Gravity Falls AU send help
Okay but seriously I've got a whole AU mapped out at this point and this would probably be the rough character lineup
Ford - Odysseus
Stanley - Eurylochus
Shermie - Polites (I swear there's a very good and comprehensible explanation for this)
Fiddleford - Perimides AND Elpnor (as per the cut songs)
Bill - Poseidon, and possibly also Zeus
Mabel and Dipper - Telemachus <3
In this au, Filbrick was king of Ithaca and sent his son Stanley off to fight in the Trojan war, but through a series of horrible misunderstandings, all three of the sons, including Shermie, who was next in line for the throne, get sent on the ships. Ford kind of naturally takes charge, because Shermie was never really a leader-y type.
Ten years of war pass, and there's probably a lot of drama and character development [Polites choosing to be kind despite the war and Shermie choosing to be kind too, despite the Vietnam War (in some aus at least) (i love the ex-military Shermie headcanon sm) can be something so special]
Turns out, when Shermie left, his wife was actually pregnant! They had a pair of twins (Dipper and Mabel are Shermie's kids in this AU, for obvious reasons)
Filbrick dies while his sons are at war, and his wife, Caryn, takes over in his stead. Why? Because. Dipper and Mabel are now in line for the throne, which is probably very stressful and makes them both the Telemachus of this au
Stuff happens, Shermie wants to go home and meet his kids after 10 whole years (I might shorten the time they spend at sea to 2 just so Mabel and Dipper are 12), and Shermie... dies.
This obviously drives tension between Ford and Stanley 'Miscommunication' Pines, leading to trust issues down the road. They both just want to get home to see their mom and niece and nephew again.
(This is getting really long jifojgisjjflks and I haven't even mentioned Fiddleford and his parallels with the Lotus, or how Bill would play into the story. This AU is consuming me)
(Would anyone be interested in a Part 2?)
#gravity falls#gravity falls au#epic the musical#epic the musical x gravity falls#making that a tag now#my art#eeeehhh writing but still#I'm so excited for this au and idek what I'm gonna do for it#art? a fic??#stanford pines#stanley pines#shermie pines#sherman pines#dipper pines#mabel pines#caryn pines#damnit there are so many characters#epic falls au#thats the tag for it now ig
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i love that yall scream with me abt felix and stuff lolllll. i feel weird sometimes like i shouldnt post if im not writing cus yall are pretty much here for my writing.. so if im not writing like no one cares abt me lol but idk its still fun and it makes me so happy that yall still think of me even when ive not been active like thats so sweet?? jdnsjfjjs IDKK i cant articulate my thoughts correctly rn but i just wanted to say ily guys! 🤍🤍
#im so tired rn idk what im saying ldksjnfksk#lowkey kinda WANT everyone to forget abt me like PLSSS... the desire to fade into obscurity...... i hate being perceived 😭#i mean i feel like a ton of ppl already have lol#it feels so nice not being hounded for updates constantly..... phew...#ive barelu been writing this past month but when i do start again i'll probably not post anything until it's fully done cus like#i cant deal w pressure LOLL#if that wasn't obvious. but anyway#im starting a new internship which will be for the next 7ish months before i go back to school#soooo i'll probably have a ton more free time! no homework likeeeee lets go?#but yeah so no promises but im hoping ill get back into writing in a bit..! i do miss it#thats it for jems life update in the tags#dawggg ok wait yk what SUCKS. i have to start DRIVING......#im cooked fr i hate driving i can barely drive but 😭 i gotta go to WORK now ig...... cant just walk to classes anymore#and in crazy snow conditions.... fml......#my last internship i didnt have a license and just ubered everyday LOL#but that is so expensive#OKKAYY thats my main stress rn but once im moved and settled yall will hopefully hear more from me#like actual substance and not just screaming over felix. hopefully LOLLL#unless i get into a car accident. jk JKKK i will not even joke abt that that will not happen haha!!!+!! im not stressed at all#.txt
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all i can imagine right now is teenage theo’s stupid gay ass listening to the 2004 re-release of mr. brightside by the killers (because, yknow, vegas) on repeat while bitching about kotku in his stupider gayer journal and then having an internal crisis wondering why mr. brightside speaks to him so viscerally
#yeah i'm still on them. probably has to do with the fact that i'm currently writing some fics for them shhhhhhhhhhh#fun fact i heard mr. brightside multiple times at clubs (yes clubs) without knowing the lyrics until recently#when my friends were singing it at karaoke and i was sitting there like. THATS what this fucking meme song is about???#idk why i just never read the lyrics because i usually do when it comes to music but ig i didn’t care enough#anyway it’s a song about gay pining. i decided. and theo decker listened to it and punched a pillow or something#is this headcanon now in the fic i'm working on right now? you better believe it. i'm ridiculous at heart#the goldfinch#boreo#eve text#eve's great tgf rehyperfixation#< please block that tag if you are sick and tired of my bullshit
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Okay, but I'm casting my mind back to try to imagine how I would have felt about tboc daryl before season 10 got me so stupid about this show, when I used to be a casual viewer. And I still think I'd have just thought daryl lost his mind tbh.
This is just me going off on tangents about the show now, don't mind me.
He felt a bit off in season 1, I can't lie. The costume change would have thrown me even if I wasn't as attached, because I'm probs just the type of neurodivergent that struggles with too much change at once, and him being away from TF, in Europe, and looking so different, then calling Laurent useless, then the ways he looked at Isabelle at the end of 1x06 - that was all just too different to the Daryl I knew idk. But I stuck with it.
But having his first on-screen kiss be so entirely unpredictable for what I thought I knew of his character felt gratuitous*. And then it's like suddenly I'm being railroaded into following him on this rolleroaster that I don't understand. One minute he's longing for home, the next he's playing baseball and "just having fun". Then home has found him, but now he's invested in this kid I still haven't learnt to feel invested in yet. And he's never even talking about anything to do with home anymore, even after Carol is there? It's suddenly all just about Laurent, and part of the problem for me is there wasn't enough balance to convince me of the story.
And I think this was most of my difficulty with enjoying TOWL, too. (Don't come for me please for talking about my personal experience of watching TOWL.) I watched TOWL first out of all the spinoffs, and I remember this one part where I think Michonne and Rick were in a kitchen or something and Rick felt so different to me and it made me sad, and then she called it out. And he said something like that it's been so long, he's lost who he used to be or something like that. I can't remember exactly, but it made me sad. And I think, for me, I didn't get enough glimpses of the Rick I recognised within the short 6 episodes that I never felt satisfied or happy with it. And maybe I needed more TF references or something??? I didn't even feel enough concern for Judith or RJ from him - maybe I'm misremembering, but I think your memory of the feeling something gave you is important. I get that the leadership want these spinoffs to be accessible to people who didn't watch the flagship show, but I think that's a big part of where it's losing the magic for me.
The thing that was better for me about DD season 1 is that it was all about getting home, and his determination felt relentless throughout the first 5 and a half episodes before it suddenly got weird with Isabelle acting like they've been a family for 19 years. Like, before that, I felt connected to his mission.** But then in season 2, it's almost completely gone, and Carol feels like the only part I can still connect with. Like, I know Rick didn't mention Daryl either I think, but I wish both of them had talked about each other. Idk, it just would have felt more like it's giving me something I can connect with? Rather than just throwing the characters into entirely new situations and also deliberately making them feel a bit out of character?
That whole part in TOWL where Michonne feels surprised to find Rick a bit changed is so similar to what they seemed to want to do with Daryl and Carol, and I don't really get why they did it to either of them. It's more believable with Rick than Daryl bc 1. He isn't Daryl and definitely adapts more to new environments, and 2. It had been many, many, many years, not like a month. But idk, I still wasn't keen, but at least they gave it a redemption arc or whatever you'd call it. With daryl it's still just like - ???? And for what reason??? I don't know. I just don't find it compelling idk idk idk.
*Even in season 9, when we met Connie, I felt a bit like 'oh are they gonna force a ship here bc they have them spending time together 🤨 (rather than just letting connie want to help for her own character reasons rather than making it about daryl and shipping), but if it's gonna be someone who isn't carol, I think I'm okay with connie', like bc we actually had reasons to like her and there was chemistry with Daryl. So why neither Connie nor Carol, but Isabelle? The show just never got me invested in darabelle in any way.
I already liked connie before they had her going on missions with daryl, so I actually cared about her a lot. I loved seeing her on those missions bc I was excited for her to have more screen time and I found her character empowering. So, I didn't want to see her reduced to just being Daryl's love interest, and tbh, I don't think they handled it well, bc they still reduced her to being Daryl's accessory, rather than giving her her own character depth. But I *still* would have been more on board with pairing up Daryl with Connie than Isabelle. Tbh, by the time that Carol was broken up with zeke, and they had the conversation about running away together, I didn't think of Daryl and Connie as making sense to pair anymore... But I also didn't see much point in the Leah romance either, so whatever, I guess this show just has a pattern of pairing up Daryl with random women he doesn't have chemistry with, instead of the ones he does?
**I always remember that Zabel pitched the idea for the show as "what if, in trying to get home, you find something else?", and the thing is, in order to get me to be convinced that Daryl "found something else", I'd have needed A LOT stronger of a pull for the French story. There was nothing there that hooked me to becoming convinced of Daryl finding something while trying to get home. Just having him voice the words "I found something", having Laurent the prophet say "you miss her too, I can tell", putting his crossbow next to Isabelle's hospital bed, and having him look at her for an extended time after she recovers, doesn't suddenly convince me of that idea. Idk. I'm not in the TV industry, so I don't know how that magic gets done - like when season 10 slowly turned Lydia into one of my favourite characters after she was introduced as an antagonist. But I have enough brain cells to see (from the moment they nonsensically forced them to share a bed??) that they were trying to convince us Daryl found "something" in France, and tbh, if I can see the strain in their efforts to make it happen, it's probably not working. And even NR couldn't answer why Isabelle when asked at NYCC. He was literally like, "idk they have similar pasts?? Idk???". Like, girl, if you don't know, why should your audience?
#I write a lot of stream of consciousness bs like this and usually just save it in my drafts lol bc why would anyone want to read it#and it just takes up space but idk today im pressing post and prob gonna delete it later tbh#also again PLLLLEASE dont come for me about talking about one of the spinoffs im not even going to tag it#I mean im not even going to type it here so it doesnt tag it#my takes arent meant to be perfect theyre just my takes#and specifically rn im trying to look at it from a gut feeling place rather than an over analysing place and these are mostly my gut feelin#daryl dixon is a horrendous title and ive felt that way since before I became as invested as ive become#that was a gut feeling#and now im just obsessed with it#thats just how my ADHD brain works ig#but I happily watched twd without being obsessed with it for 12 years which is 11 years and 8 months longer than ive been obsessed with it#my brain just decided this is my next hyperfixation bc s10 happened to wow me right as I was getting bored with my last one#my last one was actually hiking mountains lol that was a lot healthier and more socially acceptable and I didnt receive any online bullying#tboc#the book of carol
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i wish i wasnt so deeply self conscious about everything i enjoyyyyy i wish my most indulgent fantasies didnt all boil down to 'what if someone just UNDERSTOOD me on matters i never actually talk about and felt the same way about things'
#shut up dave#every time im having too good of a time just vibin by myself i inevitably do a 180 n get sad#bc the evil rama in my head is like thats weird and not allowed stop that#okay ive had a solid cry since writing that last tag im less fucked up now. ig i do have this one friend who gets me there...#i could talk to them...i could. try molding them to my needs.......#(<-sounds rly bad when i say it like that. this is because i am a vile fiend.)
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I meant to write more for a pt 2 lore post earlier but didn't end up doing so, so pls take these AU sketches(Mark & Jense and then some assorted sketchies)
#i should never have drawn them as catboys bcs now they appear as catboys in mind half the time 😭😭#its only on paper but i drew more catboy sketches of them than whats included here 😭#seb reminds me of my cat where hes being all nice and cuddly and then will bite you out of nowhere#seb in his frilly nightgown is very important to me!!!#i meant to draw both of them in nightgowns but brain wasnt worked too well tonight#so thats why these are mostly half finished#the bottom seb is too remind myself i have a regular art style 😭😭😭#mark in this au is so funny to me. bro is tortured by having to be with seb like practically every waking moment#he basically is a offically provided live-in bestie 😭😭#*based on real life thing. i think its funny how you can be royalty yourself +#but bcs youre not part of the imperial family you can still be reduced to the job of having to dress the emperor 😭#^ so thats mark in this au#seb promoted him to an important role when he became emperor but still makes mark do his old duties 🤭🤭#jense is in charge of all the horses and transport and things. thus: ye olde horse girl#im sorry but in historical AUs all f1 drivers are legally obligated to be horse girls. its literally canon#so sorry for the catboy sketch. it will happen again.#but ig i dont wanna go too deep into lore stuff in these tags cause yeah. another post in the works!!#i think about it and have talked about it a lot. but its hard to like contain all of it to bullet points and such#my brain is not built for writing fic i think so idk of youll ever get that from me. but lore yes i will deliver#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#jenson button#mark webber#f1 fanart#formula 1 fanart#catie.art.#formula 1#boy king au
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Maybe I'm just cursed 🤪
#trigger warning for everything that follows in these tags btw#i am in need of some venting into the void#so im gonna vent#so uh#im almost out of time to find a new job before i have to leave my flat and move back with my parents#in the past 27 days ive filled in 189 job applications#6 of those led to interviews#so far 5 of those have been rejections#i even started looking at jobs that paid way less than i can feasibly live on just so i could at least cover rent and stay here but no luck#anyway thats already sucky#and then ive had to go off my adhd meds because of continuous and annoying fuck ups with my drs and im hesitant to work to fix it cause#might be moving counties anyway lol#my depression is the worst its ever been in about two years i struggle to want to exist day in and day out and#this morning i found out my dog - my baby who i dont live with because i moved cities - he lives with my parents#we found out he has an agressive cancer - and i have to now make choices i dont feel ready to make#and im just#do you ever feel like youre already one the ground but life wont stop kicking you#and i feel#so lonely#my friends are doing everything right my cousin who i live with is always checking in on me and i am still#convincing myself i am being a burden i am the problem i#my whole life is collapsing and i#even writing this all out in tags my brain is yelling at me for being an 'attention seeker' or smth and idk#i just wanna#idk#its complicated ig#im fighting#i am fighting so hard#i just want ppl to know im doing my best thats all#anyone who read all of this - hi - i hope youre having a beautiful day. its all going to be okay in the end 💛
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Hey so Snap this is going to be so fucking weird, but honestly don’t care. So I was watching a clip of Drag Race Philippines and it was the make over episode and I think they were making over family members and this father was all about getting into drag. So, I just wanted to tell you never forget how much of a lovely loving kind and caring father you have, who loves you and protects you and makes you feel heard. That’s all.
i'd have to die before i forget how great my dad is thank you for the opportunity to brag about him again anon
#snap chats#no smarmy one-sentence response i fear i never play about my dad's character and its been. A Month so i gotta be earnest#Comically And Topically tho i still wonder wtf my dad meant when he said 'i always thought of being a girl' when i opened up to him#part of me thinks he was just joking and thats probably it but also ....... //audible confusion + vine boom + eyebrow quirking//#its so funny you brought up my dad though i was thinking of visiting him this weekend#last week my Bitch Ass Mom wanted to watch a movie with me and since speak no evil was coming out i proposed we see that#since starting therapy shes been 'trying' to be closer with us but she still doesnt like me on a fundamental level so get bent ig#but she hates horror movies and made a whole show of not wanting to go and how american movies are so brutal and blah blah#this was right after she took me ice skating with her .. cause shes obsessed with ice skating now ... like maam please#i like skating so thank you but ... idk ... she never wants to do things i wanna do#then again we're pretty different i think so. LOL sorry i like horror movies and nothing you like apparently#im glad she didnt come cause i just went with my bro and since the theater was Virtually Empty we just cracked jokes the whole time vjlaekv#plus i just know my mom wouldve been annoying and i wanted to enjoy the movie !!!! which i did ty !!!!!!!#but yk who LOVES horror movies and who i used to watch horror movies with all the time growin up !!!!!!!!!!#i havent seen a movie with my dad in forever.... the last one we saw was so long ago but it was some weird owen wilson movie i think#wait now that ive dragged my mom into this she started therapy Did I Share That. Im Reminding You Anyway#but the most vile thing i ever heard her say was that she admitted to me she never loved my dad 'emotionally'#like wow ..... a thousand life times in hell for you i think i cant even begin to describe the rage chat i could write a novel#but i only have 30 tags so i wont. i should call my dad tho.. this is inspiring me to call my dad thank you anon#if youre still reading Double Thank You. i havent complained about my mom in a while and this was just funny timing overall vjRLKJAEVK#ok im gonna go talk with my dad now. my college friend's coming oevr in like three hours and we're gonna watch glass#cause that came up in convo yesterday Long Story so that should be funny vjlekjlakj
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doors open is so unserious like for real. why did he say numbers. this equation produces 2010 btw. This means literally nothing because nothing happened in 2010 relating to strangled red afaik .* what the fuck stocks did steven have in 2010. What businesses was he investing in in 2010 . What the fuck did he know that we don't . What was the reason for this. Did he know ?
*other than doors open being released in 2010 which is confusing as fuck why does he reference the year this was written. what. Did he write doors open. Is he the narrator for doors open. what fucking angle was smr going for
#wispy chatters#i will stop now. apologies#not tagging this one ive put two in the strangled red steven tag already.#hidden treat if you check my blog. i guess#also strangled and doors open were published 3 days apart which is funny to me#strangled was first on dec 1st doors open was dec 4th#which.. entirely makes sense that strangled red the prequel and actually well written one was last in publish date#bc iirc strangled red was 2012 so 2 years later.#according to the person who reuploaded strangled SR was 2011. so 2011 or 2012. january 2011 is funny tho bc uh.#if true thats like a month after strangled and doors open. ONE month and the writing quality was so much better#ig strangled red just has a better format bc strangled and doors open r like easter egg game format creepypastas#it wouldve been funnier if he said 2001 because ( COUGHS UP BLOOD
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tbh all things considered im at least glad that my discomfort with totk is what really drove me to really discover a lot of the discussion and analysis into the racism and orientalist stuff and... all of that in the zelda series, since i was halfway aware of it in the past but only more recently started to really look into it further and see what others have to say about it
#salty talks#loz#legend of zelda#just been thinkin abt this after seeing a few more posts abt the way the gerudo and ganondorf are typically treated#like... im not exactly new to learning about the nastier parts of something i like and moving to enjoying it while being critical of it#i mean at this point being a warrior cats fan is the same as being a warrior cats hater#but since warrior cats' issues is more about the misogyny and ableism that was has always been a bit easier for me to pick up on n stuff#while the racism and like in loz is a bit harder (as a white fan of the series) so im just. glad? that theres a lot out there about these#aspects and im trying to better understand the issues with all of this and why its all bad and stuff#like esp with movie worries and my own writing of the ganonbeck fic wherein ive tweaked some gerudo stuff#like. idk if it was a good move to tweak it so that gerudo males are just very rare rather than 1 per century#like rn i plan on them running into another male gerudo in chapter 2 among some other gerudo to make good on that#and like idk if thats a good tweak to the lore or anything while sticking to most of the shit canon has to offer#idk im just glad that im now more actively learning about this stuff and all of that even if ive maybe been a bit tactless in some tag rant#idk what the point of this is ig im just having a little reflection moment abt whats changed in my knowledge of the series' meta elements#since totk crash landed in my general vicinity
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Finally! Some actual art of my newest blazeborn, The Grave Raven! As usual, actual infos on toyhouse, short version is they dig in dirt a bunch and get haunted for it. Fun stuff!
And individual versions of my favs, for your viewing pleasure:
^yeah that last ones a meme redraw
#ough lava hair....#doodles#my ocs#my art#meme art#minecraft origins#the grave raven#the hell herder#lords in there too but barely im not tagging them#because i love explaining i will point out my very clever lava hair physics. based on the way lava flows depending on the dimension.#it gets more liquidy while in the nether. cause its just so dang hot ig. fun to draw thats the important part!#i promise the next blazeborn will be short again#(yeah im already thinking on a 4th blazeborn. watch out.)#oh also just cause im rambling ill mention#uhhh was writing up lore for my version of blazeborns and kinda made a homebrew dnd race. so i have that now. if anyone is interested.#no idea if its balanced. working up courage to ask my smart dnd friends. we'll see
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okk, I've been at a major blank for the castle infiltration chapters I had been writing. Normally I just write whenever I get the inspiration to, though it's been almost 2 months now and I still have absolutely nothing for that story. I do not think I'll continue that story; if I do, it probably won't be anytime this year. I do have a new hyperfixation and story idea though so that will probably become my whole blog. I'll start posting about that soon!
hopefully
#i had been so excited for that castle infiltration story but ive been so unproductive on it for so long now#everytime i think of it i just think back to how unproductive ive been in general with life and stuff at the moment#its made me really hate thinking about that story which sucks because i really loved the characters#and i had big plans for the story and everything#this stuff just happens though ig#and at least i have a new story now that i can direct my attention to#that way i can feel at least a little bit more productive#really hoping that i don't give up on that story idea too#i didnt even think that i liked writing that much until i stopped#and realised that it was kind of the only thing i was using to validate myself and feel productive so im not just wasting my days#i guess im probably setting myself up for disaster with that#i seem to have this really big fear of not being productive with my time while everyone else around me is#i feel like ill just wake up one day and ill be like 10 years older despite having accomplished absolutely nothing#only being able to 'show off' things that i did when i was a kid#im trying to break that mindset but it may be a while#for now ill just keep writing#sorry for the massive rant in the tags it wan't supposed to be that long lmao#not writing#castle infiltration#ok thats enough tags
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In the cool, plush core of the moon sleeps a mouse as we speak, dreaming of a world lush and green, then golden and undulating, then chopping and churning, a world of many surfaces with skies of many moods.
When it awakes, it will poke its tiny head out of a crater and bask in your glow as it does every morning. Here, all is still and silent. On that sparkling planet in the deep black distance, the sun seems capricious. But the mouse lives in the abyss of the body and therefore with a unique perspective on its essence. The mouse sees what other life does not see.
One needn't worry about unbecoming for the sake of containing a sun. Clouds may blanket the atmosphere of a planet, but still there burns a sun. The spots on the sun's surface may grow and shrink and shift, but still there it burns. And if one decides to cool it down like a waning flame or expand it in a cataclysmic supernova, still there it burns, and one has the right to revoke the state of their existence and become new.
Because perhaps the truth is you are not the sun--not alone--but it is rather a part of you. Your body is the solar system, each planet a world within the body, and each knows this glow in different ways. Some are nurtured by its warmth, others by its distance. Regardless of the sun's changes, they stay the course encircling it.
The universe cannot be held back, harnessed, fully comprehended. It pulls at the seams of solar systems as it pulls on its own seams. In that unstoppable shifting, we stumble. Sometimes it feels like our love and light slips from our fingers, shattering irrevocably in our falls. But what makes us cannot be seperated from us, even in times where our essence is obscured.
There is always another life to appreciate your life, no matter what happens. And in the least, there is always a little mouse in you that understands you in telescopic clarity and offers forgiveness for every change--no matter what, right into the end of time.
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#answered#this was sitting in my inbox for a little while#and i wanted to answer properly but i fear that responding back is a little...hard#not that i dont want to its more like this was so prettily written and just so beautiful i fear if i responded id just ruin it lol#so im responding in the tags bc i feel better about doing that#i appreciate whoever decided to write all this up and leave it here for me it means a lot#more vent in the tag#not really vent but ig just reflective i suppose with the last week:#i think i may have actually talked about it before but you have no idea how happy i am with just. the people im surrounded with these days#because even if im going through something ill always push my feelings down in order to make someone else happy#because idc what happens to me overall. if i can make someone else happy thats all that matters#but ik a lot of people take advantage of it so when something bad happens when im unable to help someone they used to get mad at me for it#so more reasons to kinda push my feelings aside to cater to them etc etc etc#but i think the past week has been nice too in realizing that the people around me are patient and just overall kind -- not really expectin#much of me#ig theres this understanding that we all have busy lives now and maybe thats just the gift of maturity as a whole#even if im not the super positive or comforting presence people put me as at least people still care and thats how i know im loved at least#ig in a way this ramble is just a very big thank you to everyone for that#theres a lot of kindness and warmth in this ask that i appreciate and only want to spin back to friends. i hope they can feel it#or that it reaches them#anons#kind messages
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