#thats it for my mini vent LOL

[marukfe]

I'm still dwelling over that stupid thing I said to a stranger GDJAFAK

I'M REALLY HOPING I SENT IT AS ANONYMOUS CUZ IT WAS A REALLY STUPID QUESTION..,

Idk dude they might just think im a weird person and that I shouldn't even exist at all or something

Aaa man this is why I don't trust my brain when I'm eepy </3

[tinukis]

not to get personal or anything but one piece genuinely helped me become more emotional again. sometimes i still hate being emotional, especially crying a lot but— seeing my favorite characters cry or breaking down let me cry with them and just show me it is ok to cry. ive struggled with crying for years to the point i couldnt cry At All no matter my methods

it was until marineford- or rather purposely spoiling myself about if ace is really dead bc i was in such huge denial bc he was like my 2nd favorite... it was until marineford i cried so so so much. ace's death and seeing our beloved luffy who we've been following since he was just in a barrel with so much ambition... break like that. he was broken enough to the point he didnt care if he died from headbutting boulders/cliffs. and we get the backstory of asl, learning that luffy actually had two brothers and that he didnt have anyone left. until jinbe was there to take him out of rock bottom and reminding him of what he still had.

anyway, one (silly) reason that i hate being more vulnerable/emotional i guess is that i will cry easily when it comes to the tragedy of these characters 😭

one piece just has excellent storytelling and how it can make you feel such intense emotions from the strawhats to characters that we thought werent important

[solarclispe]

Hello everyone! Before we continue posting and stuff, here are some facts about me, my oc and content!

Oc!!

Name: Solar Ramirez

Age: 20

Likes: Cats, music, staying inside

Dislikes: Snakes, yea thats pretty much it

Mini description:

Solar is a young angel trying to balance her interest, socialization and academics all at once in high school. Although things may be hard, she never fails to keep an energetic and bright smile for those in need. But theres one problem, her insecurities. Even though shes top one, shes always insecure whenever she sees people succeed.

Creator and content!

Hi! My name is Cherry but call me solar. I can speak indonesian and english and a bit of tagalog too. I also like drawing and making small skits or comics! Btw, im looking for some friends so feel free to talk to me

CONTENT

-Gacha

-comics/skits

-digital drawing

-sometimes fan ocs in animes

-vents(not much tho lol)

Thats all, have a good day ^u^

[cloudjumpervalka]

brain thought stuff

so ive been doing weekly therapy again for the past couple months and as i mentioned before i love my therapist. shes my age and also trans so ? thats great. all my other therapists have been older women that made me explain what being trans/nb is over and over again despite labeling themselves as lgbt friendly therapists lmao

anyway like. im really discovering how ingrained my low self worth is into my brain bc it really did start with my earliest memories and just kept getting into more toxic situations

i was emotionally neglected growing up and bullied k-12 for a plethora of reasons. when i did get my first friendships/relationship, they were like. borderline abusive* (both my therapist and i are hesitant with this word)

i have years of feeling like my self worth is reliant on how unhealthy people view my usefulness to their life?

i need to like. learn how to find myself worthy of just existing. worthy of waking up and being able to, as my therapist said, "breathe, eat, and fuck"

it feels really weird too bc i have spent years feeling like a waste of a person and like. inheritely a horrible person who is too self absorbed to realize it. i know i have made mistakes and could have handled these situations better, but it doesnt define me as a person. i try every day to be a better person for myself and my loved ones and its always weird to hear "well an actually shitty person wouldnt care about getting better" bc i then trick myself into being im one of those assholes utilizing therapy talk to justify my shit behavior

idr why i started this lil vent but like. idk it feels like therapy is working this time. its helping me realize some things, its helping me learn how to not fall into the same patterns (my therapist said im like an addict that cant leave unhealthy situations) , learning where my values lie and how to pick those values out in other people

most importantly tho, shes having me try to not define myself as an artist but rather someone that makes art. i have so much fucked up brain layers over my self worth and it being tied to what i create, i was starting to have like mini breakdowns over not getting enough attention for my work, which shouldnt matter bc i should do work for myself.

ive gone back to sketching in a real sketchbook and not posting a lot of my work bc then i am doing it strictly for myself. but maybe ill post a sketch collection at a later date for fun.

i still want to work on "angelkin" project aka SERAPH. which is an art project i started a yearish ago that is a self biographical look at these most "toxic" relationships and the feelings of devotion/obsession with uh. spoilers: the 3 people in my life that threatened suicide to various degrees/reasons towards me. bigger spoilers, imagine this also being tied in to my own self worth being connected to how well i can be Everything to someone. hence the angel theming

eh whatever, i hope you enjoyed my ted talk bc my lunch break at work is over now LOL

[goodfully]

long time no post.. life updates? grad school really is kicking my butt</3 i finished up my first year tho and am currently taking classes over the summer semester as well. i'm trying to pick myself back up and be more alive again, but it has been difficult honestly hahaha

it's funny bc halfway through last semester, i thought i had to drop out of grad school or else i was going to kms, but here i am still in school and still alive! also ofc with all the protests more recently (free palestine!), i think i was just so drained of everything. on the other hand, i'm happy with the papers i had written in my classes and i just submitted one of them to a philosophy and education conference, i really hope it gets accepted... i also just paid my overdue housing fees and tuition for the summer semester.. LOL help

readings updates? i read milton's "paradise lost" over last semester for a class and it was absolutely brilliant honestly. genuinely i need to read the bible LOL anyway i had started reading iris murdoch's "the black prince" but i haven't been able to continue reading past the nussbaum's intro since my classes started again. i also really desperately want to read steinbeck's "east of eden" hahaha but i only have time to read stuff i have to read for classes. i imagine that i wont be able to finish reading dostoyevsky's "the idiot" and tolstoy's "anna karenina" either until after i graduate... it makes me a little bit sad, i wish i had more time. i guess that's why i haven't posted anything here either, since the reason i made a tumblr account in the first place last year was to ramble about "the brothers karamazov" and "my brilliant friend" and i havent read a single book for fun this year so far</3

admittedly, i've been feeling sooo alone..! one of the things on my summer bucket list is to start seeing a therapist but i still cant get myself to do it hahaha i dont think theres anything a therapist could say to me that i havent already thought about to myself. i think what i actually need is get diagnosed, is it autism or personality issues or ocd..? but what do i know, right! regardless.. i'm also just so busy with my jobs and with my classes and with resting by self isolating in all the times between.

hmm i've gotten five more piercings since the start of the year and i've been somewhat keeping track of time based on when i got my piercings and when i'll get my next one... i don't know what this means but it's just been a little concern of mine that i can't seem to ground myself unless i can feel a part of my body "healing"...

also.. happy pride! global queer liberation! ahh, happy pride to fellow aroace ppl! haha thats another thing ive come to terms with recently. as far as my "summer bucket list" goes besides potentially seeing a therapist, i'd like to kiss somebody, get my hair dyed, get more piercings haha, go to a club wearing just a binder and a mini skirt, get back into learning calc and sketching..! alright, i think that's all for life updates here... tbh this is probably more for me to vent hahaha all the best wishes

[mythtiide]

THIS GOT KIND OF LONG … putting dis under a readmore

ok so very very fast rundown of the au

sierpinski is an old attraction similar to the pizzaplex that focuses a bit more on the educationional side of things. itd been closed temporarily for some reason then just went completely abandoned as the years went by

Ariane (journalist) goes to investigate on why it closed -> goes missing

Elster (also journalist, maybe coworker?) then takes her place and works both on gathering more information as well as find out what happened to her gf

im starting to realize this is a lot like fnati sweats

Theyre like actual animal mascots in this au too; though im still not sure if theyre just birds or if theyre all just different animals…… anyways! id like to think that each replika unit (barring elster) has their own themed mini attraction dedicated to them.

Kolibri is a librarian; a lot of her shows is stuff about encouraging kids to read and get a library card ect

ara is an engineer; she mostly focuses on STEM stuff like problem solving and building teeny robots

adler is either a teacher or a scientist i cant reallt decide =w= (though tbh i am leaning more towards teacher) <- no specific topic just yet hes still forming in my head

falke is an athlete, teaches kids about staying fit and healthy ect ect ect

eule is a musician; she mostly teaches on playing music + creativity and arts in general <- important to note that j think she has little props of instruments so that she can play alongside the children

i reallt sont hace a solid idea for storch, star or mynah….. i have a few but none of them are particularly strong enough i feel….

I started thinking about what sorts of mechanics would elster have to deal with so… heres some disjointed hypotheticals

Ara has no bottom half, shes permanently stationed at a workbench in the middle of her auditorium. So during the night shell crawl around through the vents to your office, shell go away if you shine a flashlight into her eyes

eule has a sound based mechanic, if she wanders into your office you can turn on the music box in her room to make her wander back to her stage

kolibri is particularly sensitive to sound, so tripping the security system alarm should make her leave

adler has really good eyesight so i think your best bet would be turning off the office lights entirely

while i dont have any spesific mechanics in mind for these 2; storches and stars 100% work together to fuck the player over i think

other random notes

ariane IS possessing the falke animatronic; do i know how she died? no . LOL

^ due to ariane now possessing falke; her grief and anger at dying kind of influences the location entirely. Making the once friendly animatronics all aggressive and evil raaah!

a fun idea i thought of would be to make a pirate caverns like section that takes place in the maintenance tunnels underneath the plex . yeah aras also down here (she wants to kill you)

anyways thats a look into my twisted mind and an alternate universe where signalis was a fnaf fangame instead of a survival horror game

guys if i made a “what if signaljs was a fnaf fangame” au would u still love me

[rawrtriesagain]

Long post incoming idk how to do Read More on mobile, sorry. Tldr: just a post abt my writing as usual and stuff about my interest in lwa (nothing crazy)

I know I talk abt my old fuckin fics all the fuckin time (like Jesus theyre old enough to be considered toddlers now) but anyway this is my vent blog and y’all will never hear the end of it so guess what still has an absolute GRIP over my mind after 3 years

Its forest of arcan- im jk its dreamer of stars lmaooo. I reread it right now for the funsies after months of forgetting abt it, and each time I read it I think “surely I am over this story and can move on with my life” and like the first half of the story its like yea I kinda am over it haha but then the second half just obliterates the thoughts and runs me over and I just lay in my bed and contemplate my life and go into like a State of Emotions and simply have to talk about it (but it also could be because its 4am at the time of writing this)

I do think it mostly has to do with nostalgia though. Truthfully I’m probably not able to write smth like that again because it was 100% written completely on emotion and quite actually everything bad Diana was feeling in the story was smth i was also going through so it was easy to… write a vent and disguise it as a fic LOL. But I was also running on the high of being in love with my best friend which also really easily translated to everything going on in the fic blah blah nobody remembers it but me so this means nothing to anybody and im being cringe and gay on main (not even my main)

ANYWAY the point of my babbling here is that honestly I miss having that intense amt of emotions that would spur that level of creative writing? Like yea forest of arcana (not updated in over a year) is fun and all but it definitely isnt written on a personal level like dreamer was. I also just genuinely miss writing lol and its like ok bitch why dont you write then and then its like good question why dont i?? I probably still enjoy writing more than i do drawing and i know my blogs say otherwise but the two mediums are both definitely different outlets for my life. Maybe i would change my mind the day my art is actually good tho 😛

Im laffing rn seeing me talk abt this “deep” different outlets of life cause like when u think abt it im also literally just Currently describing little witch fanfic and fanart since thats all i do LOL. Not that theres anything wrong with lwa being my Muse of course, but it just adds humor in whatever the emo hell im going on about

Another side sad mini vent but i dont think im as into lwa as i used to be which also waters down my interests in doing things, but im literally not interested in any other media or fandom rn either so lwa stays my hyperfixation. Plz dont be alarmed lol im not saying im NOT into lwa anymore since diana is still a fuckin god to me like 10/10 chara design and vibes, but its definitely not as strong as it was when i first joined the fandom 3 years ago. And you know what maybe it has to do with me not watching little witch academia in full in those entire three years after i first watched it lmao. Most of the friends ive made in the fandom are pretty much gone too which is sad but is what it is. Sometimes i get a burst of seratonin when i think about smth diakko and definitely like now when i reread my fics i also remember the Emotions i had for these Gays and it like floods back for a bit like a buff.

I think something im very interested in for both the spark of writing and also the revitalization for my love for diakko is that i wanna do like a oneshot slice of life series for diakko. Just something easy, cute, subjectively funny, and a vibe. I still fantasize abt diakko shenanigans even if mundane and i wish i could also capture it more in my art but im not at that level yet, so writing it is. First i probably need to rewatch lwa in full since ive forgotten most everything except for key diana scenes haha oopsie And sucy world episode that was a good fuckin episode.

Anyway thanks for reading this far if you did lol sorry for the LONG ASS NONSENSE POST. Sometimes i see how i type in my blog and to people and compare it to my writing and its like where the hell did my comprehensive english go. Sorry if this was just hard to read from the lack of grammar and punctuation but thats showbiz anyway stay tuned for the next diana content ttyl bffl rofl xD zomg

[strawbrryshak2]

How i did my Pyro TF2 mask :D

hai!!!!! this is a "tutorial" on how i did my pyro mask.

STUFF U NEED!!

-craft foam (i used 3mm thick foam :3)

-thin clear acrylic, or sturdy plastic

-mechanic towels (for paper mache)

-flour, warm water, and salt (also for paper mache)

-BALOON (for fun and also paper mache)

-a little tiny fan and a battery (OPTIONAL, but recommended)

- a LOT of hot glue....

- cardboard

-and black spray paint and acrylic paint ofc!!!!!!

OK.... STEP 1

first, to make sure it fits all good, use the craft foam and make a "base" out of it. Use strips of foam and hot glue. shape it 2 ur head and try it on!! (it will look very silly)

I also shaped out the snout (????????????) after 4 extra sturdiness

make sure to leave a little excess room bc the paper mache will change how it fits on u!

Also, in this step i cut out circles out of clear acrylic panels, and glued them into the eye holes. But u can also use a sturdy plastic.

ALsO ALSO!!- I messed up a bit on this part- I should have tinted the plastic here, but I didn't and ended up having 2 do it with sharpie later. When you make yours, make sure to put like a thin layer of dark plastic or whateva works 4 you. (the sharpie was bad, but it could work if you scribbled on the outer layer of plastic and NOT the inside........my bad lawl)

STEP 2

Paper mache!!!! (I don't have many good pics of this part so just trust me)

First, you blow up a balloon where ur big head would go in the mask, and find something to put it on.

My dad helped make the paper mache, but basically you mix hot water, a bit of salt, and flour until you have a thin mixture of it all.

Next, cut the mechanic towels into strips, and cover them in the goop. Then lay them on your base, and make em smooth as possible! repeat until the parts u want covered are covered <3

heres a mid progress shot- yeah there a balloon in there! i also ended up covering the snout (??????????) completely with paper mache.

After your done, put a fan on it and go to bed!!!

If you did it right, you'll need to add another layer after the first one drys, so just repeat and don't forget the fan after your done!!!! (It helps the paper mache dry a LOT faster its craze)

Here is it finished and dry!!!!! (pop yer balloon yay!)

It looks really silly i hope u enjoy

( im wearing a balaclava under to keep my hair outta the way)

PART 3 Paint! mask off the eyes, and front of the snout (??) spray yer black everywhere u want, let that shit dry, and do a few layers. when its all covered, go in with grey acrylic and do the inner eyes and front snout and vent thing. Don't forget the "optical mask" bit in-between the eyes. this can be hand painted on its no biggy. if u fuck up u can do touch ups with black acrylic, just don't go overboard (I did oops)

STEP 4?? (i hope this all makes sense so far lol)

and add the side thing?? like this part here

basically, just get something that is large and circle like, cut out some cardboard and glue foam around the edge. I am not good at describing but I think you can figure it out form there, if u have any questions dm me lol

after u painted that too just hot glue it on :)

ALSO. This part is optional but extremely important if you don't wanna sweat balls (as much) mini. fan.

here is mine lol (THE BLACK SHIT INSIDE THE MASK IS SPRAY PAINT!)

a fan like this could work, but the bigger u can go the better.

for the connector bits, the fan can be turned on and off, so get a switch like this

My dad, (engineer tf2 irl i am not even joking) soldered the wires on 4 me and made sure they lined up. I can do a qna with him later about it if anyone really wants 2 know but yeah. Fan!

pART step 5>>?/

Put on your balaclava (spy???) and boom thats it your pyro tf2 for realz now!!!!

i hope this helps someone out there!!! bye!!!!!! if u have any questions dm me or comment something <33333

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

ah yeah, i think quarentine has given people some opportunity to actually just sit with the person they are, rather than be rushing around for the person they want to become. its good you got smth good out of isolation! ah thats great! hope you had fun and ur partner in crime speeds back home so you can get out more hehe.

ah yeah ty, good suggestions.

hmm good point, i was sort of putting it separate to the whole not-sexualising thing, but yeah. mmm yeah i totally agree, some of the enhypen fics/imagines *shudder* and even reading innie stuff is just a bit *icky* cos everyone still thinks of him as our agi ppang. yeah def would be good but sadly this just seems to be the world we live in. :(

ah yes the holy masterlist (not sarc) i have actually read in the rain and gladius maximus before, but ill go look for in class! oooh thats good! character development lol. hmmmm yes champagne problems was the angst to end all angst, that shit hurt. it was actually one of the first of your fics i read and i recall almost crying over the whole thing, it was so heartbreaking, i can see how it almost made you want to drop angst. good that youve allowed yourself some lee-way tho :)

hehe thats so cool. okay here we go, ill try not to be mortally offended (/hj)

cheese - yes same, i liked it but that was all there was, it wasnt a super standout track. it was rlly underwhelming for me but some of the hook is super catchy so there is Redemption (tm) in store for cheese maybe

thunderous - mmm, yeah at first i totally agreed, i think they suffer from too much good music syndrome, that all their other tracks are such fucking bops its hard to stay at that level of perfection. the choreo was beautiful tho and tbh, the track has grown on me since ive been watching all the vids abt it. its my brothers favourite track

domino - YES GODAMMIT IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE TITLE TRACK. the raps, the vocals, the vibes, the fucking domino sound in the back? i would have streamed that shit on repeat. but tbh, as good as it is, it doesnt have that sort of grandness/oomph that skz seems to like in their title tracks so i can see why they chose thunderous (tho domino would have been so good) *sigh*

ssick - yeah same, not my fave track by a long mile, the crowd cheering was a ?strange? choice and the chorus was a bit bare/empty, plus like i mentioned earlier, it was kinda funny to me for some reason but ill still play it if im playing thru the whole album

the view - ahh one of those not like other girls (/j) i honestly think its just a good party song, just a bop to play in the background when nobodys rlly paying much attention. its pretty generic pop music but catchy

sorry, i love you - hehe yeah i thought it was going to be sadder as well, but i rlly loved the fact that they all just got to sing, which almost never happens, i dont think ive heard felix sing for a long time, so i enjoyed it. wasnt rlly a standout track but i just casually like it. looking forward to the fic haha

silent cry - this song i swear, some bits are rlly good and then others are just? why?? it does sound like a dance song tho idk. definitely not one of my faves either

secret secret - YES its so good! its such a chill song and i love their vocals in it. the combination of lo-fi/fake strings backup stuff and their heavenly vocals just makes it *chefs kiss* im listening to it rn and just... its so beautiful. it gives me pumped up another day vibes ya know? like my pace is edgy get cool, this one is energetic another day i feel like. overall i love it

STAR LOST - ah thats so cool! i didnt know that! on first listen this song had a similar vibe to secret secret but then the beat came in and ahh its such a good song. i can totally imagine them putting this song to a concert footage vid, this song is so sweet.

red lights - LMAO YES ITS SO AWKWARD WHY DOES IT GO ON FOR SO LONG ah thats good! yeah good point, its quite intense hehe. but that is my fave trope and this is lowkey my favourite track on the album so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just the combination of hyunjins and chans voices, the backing music, the lyrics ahh red lights my beloved

surfin’ - yes lmao its always a shock, i feel like they should have put gone away in between them, but its such a fun cute song, i cant get rlly mad. yeah, as an aussie i think im contractually obligated to like beaches lol. sand im not such a fan of, but my familys rlly into fishing and my brother loves bodyboarding so we stay at a beach house at least twice a year and we live like 5 mins from 3 different beaches (hehe all aussie cities are on the coast lol) so thats cool. do you like beaches?

gone away - ah gone away my beloved, i love this song sm, its just so pure and showcases their vocals and lyrics so well. yes the pitch change is very out of the blue, i feel liek they went directly from seungmins soft vocals to hans powerful ones which was an interesting choice, but hey, im not complaining

wolfgang - YES IKR ah im so happy he got to be included in that era and song. yeah its such a full on song i cant rlly listen to it if im in a quiet mood but its very motivating :)

hehe mood, i hope they do! ahhh no rest, but at least you wont have to pull a blink and wait a year for any word from the group lol. im not rlly into nct but im excited for them! ah hopefully youll be able to sneak some rest into that chaotic schedule, with enhypen (idk if u stan but yeah) squeezed into it haha

<3 w.a. 🐺

i wheezed at partner in crime, it reminded me of smth. i have a lee know fic in the drafts that i wrote 'in honor' of him (and his departure-ish). i'll tag you when i finish it, if you want. it's a rather hilarious one.

oh my god. based on my experience on the collabs i've joined before, writing explicit shit for '01 & '02 is not accepted (nct's maknaes) but with enha's hyung line '01 & '02 somehow it's okay? i do a double take every time i see fics like those i mean, technically, it's legal but still what the fuck. maybe it's just not for me at the moment. not at us venting our frustration about this. it's just something that's so accepted here that i am (in all honesty) slightly uncomfortable about. but oh well. that's kpop writerblr for you.

man i could've linked all the fics in the ask instead so you wouldn't have to go looking for them! i think i saw you like in class the other day (the fic i renamed into sharp-tongued, god it took me a while to remember the new title). describing champagne problems as an angst to end all angst is one way to put what i was feeling back in december. it just hurt to write and admit?? if that ever happened to me i would prolly cry :d

okay back to the album talk! i love how you answered with more thoughts. i love exchanges like these! i am a victim of the cheese hook and it's now one of my favorite tracks in the album. PLS, TOO MUCH GOOD MUSIC SYNDROME. that's on our self-producing kings 😌💅 also, your brother has taste! as i am typing this, domino's currently playing in my head and i realized that too, that it doesn't have that 'vibe' of a skz title track. honestly, this could be a title track of another group. ssick is starting to grown on me because i found the beats cool kdjsk not the not like other girls 😭 the view is the generic pop that i don't like but i get why a lot of people enjoy it. sorry i love you scratches a certain itch that i find myself singing the first few lines every time i remember it. i too would want to hear felix sing more!

> a mini junction on the album talk bc i got side tracked. on that topic, i want skz to switch positions at some point like i know those allrounders are capable of doing so. specifically, i want to hear seungmin rap!!!! (yk in the recent weekly idol he talked faster than changbin in a challenge and changbin is like the fastest rapper in kpop that's active atm if im not mistaken. my dandy boy has some potential and i want it UNLEASHED.)

back to album talk. silent cry is basically sad music to twerk to. secret secret is definitely one of my favorite tracks :( i loved how you compared the tracks HAJSAH i burst out laughing bc yk what, you're right! i want to make a star lost edit of skz but i simply do not have the time i want to cry. i love the song so much. ok, my dreaded track, red lights. idt i have played the track since we last talked. my friend sent me the lyrics tho and i'm itching to write a twisted au out of it. idk if you're comfortable with yandere but somewhere along those themes. the obsessive type of love that's sweet at first but turns rotten. IMAGINE IF THEY PUT GONE AWAY BETWEEN ASHJA it's like going from 50 shades to the notebook.

i was about to ask if you lived near the coast and you literally mentions it here god im so stupid. yes i LOOOOOOOOOVE beaches so much. living in an archipelago is fun :( i live in a part of the country that's more island than city so every time i want some vitamin sea it's accessible. i heard the waves in australia are great :( anYWHOOO gone away :(( every time it plays im compelled to skip it because it makes me sAD AND NOWADAYS I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO BE SAD. contrary to you, i dislike my quiet moods because i tend to overthink a lot.

i have this little analogy about how there are stays that enjoy songs the generic pop + mellow songs and then there are other stays that enjoy the noisy tracks. in my mind, it's like a perfect balance that makes me feel like all the tracks are loved in the end. just by different people.

PULL A BLINK. bro i fucking hate yg entertainment. they have the biggest kpop girl group LOCKED in their basement when they could be (and i mean this in the most business-like way not morally) milking money of the quad. they're yg's biggest hope at not being bankrupt atm so it's a damn fucking mystery to me as to how they aren't doing anything. (jk i just realized lisa solo album soon, but i still need a ot4 cb hELLO)

i stopped looking forward to the teasers. rest > kpop boys. i don't want to sound like a cult member but have you tried checking out nct? are they just not your thing? (i get it tho, that's one hard group to get into). and yes i do stan enhypen!

wow i love how long these asks are! they're like online penpals. but i also want to ask about you! how have you been lately? are you feeling okay both mentally and physically? how's the weather there? do you have anything that you want to talk about? maybe an interesting book you read? feel free to bring up anything you want to share! i'm getting conscious about talking about myself HAJHSJ

and yet another long answer B) i am sooo sorry T___T should these ask exchanges feel draining to you, feel free to stop sending them in AAAA

[pepperpixel]

thoughts and feelings about. my life below the cut. like depression and shit?? u aint gotta read this shit if u dont wanna lol

warning i basically wrote this post like a fuckin diary cuz i wanted to write my thoughts out. so its super jumbled and messy. pls don’t feel like you have to respond, this is just for me to talk lol. vent some stuff. clear the air of my brain.

these past months since graduating high school I basically haven’t taken a moment to think about anything ever. i wake up in the morning i have like. mini waffles and coffee. i watch a couple videos and then draw draw draw for the entirety of the day. i might eat something else. or i might not, i might drink something else, or i might not. and then i lay down and watch more videos until 3-5 am. i then go to sleep. or i don’t. and then i wake up. repeat repeat repeat. every single day. with a few exceptions. of course i’ve gone out a couple times and had fun. but then i go back home. and do the same thing i’ve been doing. for the past months. on autopilot... over and over and over again. i watch the same videos over and over and over again. i draw and then hate everything i make over and over and over again... and i don’t even have the space to be upset about it... because im always doing something to not think about the stuff that bugs me. its just like im a robot on a cycle.and im not even doing the things i need to do. im doing pointless things. im doing the same pointless things over and over, and i have this constant dread in my heart that everything’s gonna come crashing down on me and i just keep ignoring it. and not doing anything about it. until im laying in bed every night and it hits me. but i still keep not doing anything. and my life continues to be nothing. day in and day out.

anyway... i cried today for the first time in a while, and im actually happy about it.... i used to cry all the time. about everything. and i hated it then. but. i like, haven’t given myself the space or time to feel emotions... or feel human.. in what feels like a rlly long time. and i don’t know exactly how but for some reason today i just started thinking. about all the stuff thats changed in my life that i’ve been avoiding thinking about all these months. and i thought about how it made me upset.. i allowed myself to be upset. instead of just brushing it off cuz im “supposed to be stronger now” because i’ve been to therapy and i don’t have panic attacks anymore and thats all that rlly matters right?? all that other stuff that makes me unhappy can just be brushed aside because its manageable. everyone has to deal with bad stuff. why should i be especially upset about it, just move on, just don’t think about it. sure you’re literally eating and drinking barely anything every day and u get an average of 4-2 hours of sleep each night and u barely feel like you’re still alive but that doesn’t mean anything! this is just what life is post graduation! youre fine!!

so. crying kind of. reminded me how it felt to. feel stuff?? like,, it made me feel normal again. like a real person. which im happy about.. i feel like it knocked some sense into me or something.

i used to write down how i felt a lot too. to work thru my feelings and get them out of my head. i haven’t written down or talked with anyone about my feelings in awhile cuz i haven’t thought about my feelings in awhile... but im writing stuff down now cuz it feels like the right thing to do, its what i wanna do. and i still can’t 100% sort thru all of my feelings. there’s still that vague stale miasma.. the dread of the unknown of adulthood. the worry of being a failure, but. im so happy to have taken the time to just feel some of the feelings that i can sort thru. nothing new bad happened. i didn’t have a panic attack. i just cried a bit and got upset over some stuff i’ve been ignoring.. it feels a little like a break through.. and it made me want to feel more.. honestly.. its better then this awful nothing repetition. i’m gonna try to work on being more human from here on out. thats a weird way to put it but i don’t know how else to phrase it? just, taking more time to breathe. to just be alive in the moment. in real life. not on a computer. ((also, i kno thats a thing dumb old ppl say but like.. being obsessively glued to my computer to avoid real life is part of the issue. im not even doing anything of substance im just.. doing jack shit nothing)) i don’t need to do everything right now. sometimes i just need to sit in my own brain and sort stuff out... and then i can really focus more on the stuff i actually need to do. maybe then i can start really feeling in control of my own life. idk.

anyway... tldr i felt emotions,,, it was a mixed bag.. hopeful for future??

[roylustang]

extremely not-well-remembered vent post about something that happened when I was like 8 under the cut

I suddenly remembered this happened to me and it keeps popping up in my head and I want to get it out or something idk

so I was at the summer day-camp version of the latchkey program of my elementary school one day and we were all playing in the gym like recess-style free time. I remember I walked up to a group of kids and asked if I could play with them (idr what they were doing) and they straight up said ‘no’. I was like kind of shocked and i don’t remember what my exact reaction was but it was probably along the lines of ‘well I don’t want to play with a bunch of assholes anyway’ kind of thing. So I just walked away and started playing some game with my main group of friends at the time.

Then another girl came up to our group and asked if she could play with us. I don’t remember what our reason was but we also told her no. The reason could’ve been anything from that I was still feeling petty from what just happened to me to she just couldn’t play with us right this moment because we were in the middle of a round of whatever game we were playing I literally do not remember. But then she snitched on us for not letting her join.

So naturally the adult in charge came and basically put us in a time out and we all had to sit really far apart from each other on the bleachers. I was sitting on the farthest end of the bleachers. When the time was up I saw her go to my friend on the other side of the bleachers and she talked to her for a minute and then let her go, and then she did that with my two other friends but I couldn’t hear what she was saying. I assumed she was just lecturing them about exclusion and whatever and then letting them go. So when she got to me I was prepared for a mini lecture and then to be let go.

But instead she sat down next to me and asked me some version of the question “What would you do/How would you feel if you were excluded from something?” and my dumb 8-year-old ass didn’t realize she was looking for a Specific Answer. Instead, my brain went “oh I know exactly what I would do because /this literally happened to me 30 minutes ago/” and I thought she wanted like, honesty, because usually adults want you to be honest so I straight up said ‘I would be sad but I would go find other people to play with’ because that’s exactly what I did. And then she kept me in time out for even longer because that wasn’t the answer she was looking for and then I realized immediately what she wanted from me. Also i was embarrassed because I was the only one of my friends that apparently got that answer wrong. 

After I told her the Right Answer and got out of time out I was so fucking mad at everybody. I was mad at those kids who excluded me for not getting in trouble for it, I was mad at myself for not snitching on /them/ lol and also not realizing there was a Right Answer i had to give, I was mad that that girl snitched on us and then fucking went and played with other people anyway and I had to watch her do that while I was in time out like bitch?? what was the point even, and I was mad that I was so blatantly punished for telling the truth. 

thats all

[daehwifi]

wildt wannaone dream

- admin xion

some of the funniest content you’ll get ig

- so a while back before i was even into wannaone

- i found some ppl in produce 101 s2 hELLA ATTRACTIVE

- also my dreams are rlly realistic

- so

- you’re in for a treat

- anywayss

- so in dreamland

- i got accepted into an art academy that consisted of the arts (music, dance and art no shit sherlock)

- and i was a dance student

- the school was big as shit and extremly modern with fun pop colours and all

- i enetered the school to be greeted with a bunch of people (hot ass people) talkimg and walking by etc etc

- and i eventaully find my dorm

- in my dream

- there was a public dorm and a private dorm

- public dorm was a huge ass room that was seperated by dividers and within each of those dividers holds 10 bunk beds and 10 closets

- the private dorm was

- your ordinary dorm lol

- but for one person

- i had a private dorm so shit was lit

- room was more aesthetic than my life and whole existance

- so as i was roaming around i stumbled across

- d a e h w i

- daehwi and i used to date

- i repeat

- used

- we broke up mainly because daehwi had to move but you guys didnt want your friendship to come to an end

- but daehwi had this girl standing beside him

- and hes greets me and he basiclly highkey ignores his girlfriends and begin talking with me

- and we exchange contact and all since suddenly we both got new phones

- then i continued to roam

- i found myself in the boys public dorms

- and standing in front of me

- was

- shirtless

- daniel

- yes

- and this boy is like

- “oh hi there,” caSUALLY

- and i’m like

- “lol hi,”

- daniel and i end up becoming like bEST FRIENDS

- like there was a time in class where we were working on mini robots and had batteries and somehow we all ended up throwing batteries at each other

- but daniel and i were extremly fucking close

- and daehwi and i ended up catching up

- despite girls not being allowed to go into the boys dorms

- i was a rebel and was like hAH FUCK THAT

- eventually the head master finds out and is like hhhh i cant stop u sooo

- hE PUTS ANOTHER BED IN DANIELS DORM

- btw daniel sleeps in a public dorm

- daehwi and i ended up talking a lot

- and it turned out he was having a lot of relationship problems

- so i basiclly helped him out a lot with his relationship despite being his ex

- but eventually daehwi broke up with her

- so one day we were all in a circle playing truth or dare

- and this kid asks daniel truth or dare

- daniel says truth

- he asks him

- “would you date xion??”

- and hes like

- “tbfh all of us would if she wasnt reserved,”

- aND IM LIKE

- WHA T?

- YOU WOULD?

- IM RESERVED?

- BY WHO?

- WHAT?

- and everyone just looks and daehwi and im like

- ‘o fuck okayyyy’

- eventually

- time skip woosh

- daniel wanted to borrow one of my usb’s since i had some shit on there he wanted to see

- istg its not porn

- and daniel wasn’t allowed in the girls dorms like how girls arent allowed in the guys dorms

- i highkey broke that rule but it’s okay

- i entered your room, ready to get the usb as stood right in front of me

- sh i r t l e ss dan i el

- hair wet

- with shorts on

- i was looking at his back as he turns around and is like

- “oh hi” cASUALLY

- i’m lowkey dying on the inside

- “hi” i reply

- hE PUTS A SHIRT ON

- THANKGOD

- as i just

- stared at him

- and he smirks

- aND OO OBOY DOES THAT PLAY WITH MY HEART STRINGS

- some shit happens

- thats a blur

- and bam

- daehwi texts me

- at night

- probably wsnting to vent or talk or some shit

- and im like

- long story short, he kisses me and i wake up (:

[minnyhyuk]

tagged by@sanhatation for the 11 questions tag this will be interesting

1.Would you rather explore the many planets in the universe or explore the wondrous depths of our oceans?

Explore the many planets in the universe because we have seen pictures of the universe and I would love to explore the galaxy as it is very beautiful with various of different colours, stars, constellations and many things.

2. Can you describe your favorite color without saying what it is and its shades?

my favourite colour is very warm, i would kinda think its silky and have a sense of comfort and feel loyal to others and yourself, like one of the shades of drink in ASTRO baby mv.

3. Your bias texts you, mistaking your number for one of their friends. Do you talk to them and keep up an act or do you admit the mistake? How do you do it? What happens after?

welp if my bias sends me this I would laugh like a maniac and just talk to them and see where things go to and maybe throw more jokes around until one is done with one another. 

4. Describe your favorite feature of one of your best friends without saying what it is. Why?

My favourite feature of my bestfriends is very caring and just allows me to vent or talk about complete nonesense and doesn’t judge me listen to kpop as she knows I enjoy it and she is completely okay with kpop.

5. What super power would you have and how would you use it? Hero or villain?

My super power would be either speed, strength or invisibility as it would be cool to be either fast, strong or invisible so you can do many things without being seen or being like the flash or superman. I would prefer being a hero.

6. What are three things included in your ideal type? Why? Would you accept someone without these features?

Trust, Understanding and Loyalty because with boys you would come across those who arent trust worthy, understanding and loyal to their significant other as love is a dangerous thing as it can be either blooming or destroying on someones self esteem, mental state so I would prefer someone who would be able to be trusted, understanding when it comes to situations and be loyal to their significant other.

7. Vampires, werewolves, or witches? If you could become one, which would you choose and why?

Werewolves because it would be so cool to transform into a wolf and run around and do stuff that I can’t do.

8. If you released a mini album with 4 songs, what would the song titles be?

1. Love Rocky 2. Why hurt me like this? 3. Stan Talent Stan ASTRO 4. Boys who are afraid of Cicada.

9. Describe what you feel right now by using a metaphor without including the word to describe how you are feeling.

I feel like a cat just hitting the hay whenever they want and not care for being judged.

10. Your bias from one group confesses to you in front of your bias from another group. They quickly confess their love. Who do you choose? they cannot be your ult. bias.

well f you man, thats gonna be hard as Im loyal to my ult rocky ;-;. But if I had to choose it would be Jimin as I feel he would treat his significant other as his whole world and shower her with love.

11. Your bias promises to go on a date with you on the condition that you plan it. Plan the entire night (where you go, why, what you eat, what you wear, the other places you go, what you talk about, etc.)

My bias and I would go as a date to the park and have a picnic, eating and chatting, laughing outloud and dance randomly when we play music around. Having a date outside is the best thing as it would allow you to talk with your bias in my case minhyuk and not going somewhere unless you want a day where you can relax and we would eat sandwiches, fruits, dessert. I would wear casual clothes shirt, jeans or shorts, running shoes. And talk about random stuff, like music, dancing, conspiracy stuff etc.. and then later on go to one of our house, meet their parent and watch movies or play video games or just cuddle and enjoying each others presents and once its time to go home, he’d be unwilling to say goodbye or let me leave begging me to sleepover and such.

well im gonna stop at that as I would put stuff that is too cringey lol.

I tag @dong-minie @ongwu @keyismystarlight @kangdnaiel

[deathevader9000]

positive journal  i love my friends

-woke up super early -marina woke up too and got breakfast with me!!! -art of theatre went well, my teacher commented how well i can discuss things? lmao??? m o o n l i g h t -i/o psych is literally the death of me -stagecraft wasnt TOO? bad??? but we have a quiz next week and idk how thats gonna go tbh -MET UP WITH JACKIE!!!!! -also i got the crew assignment i wanted!! -jackie and i walked around and vented to each other, eventually we decided to hit a dennys and get ice cream to help cheer each other up -bruh quesadillas -so much coffeee -we chatted about empire, one piece, and collin farrell lmao. It was just nice to be around her i love her so much -SHE gave me some GIFTS. a mini cholo we named pelon and a cute little dish with my astrology sign in gold ink over some BEAUTIFUL indigos and purples. I love her so much -took a nap lol -dinner with marina !!!!! -first day back at floklorico, i love them all so much. Also diego had a bunny up for adoption for some reason... yas.. flokloricoooo -came home, chatted with nicci for a bit -took a LONG shower because i was trying to help my bad mood ahh -it helped -karina and i chatted on the phone for a while, it was nice -finished making some pretty mail stuff. Heres hoping it doesnt get lost in the mail lol

count your blessigns yall life is beautiful

[wakairyuu]

🔥 just fukindo it anythin let it rip

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

Why do you let me have the power to speak my mind with out fear or what might happen? Lol ilu

I don’t... Understand why people vague blog with they have a problem with someone or something? If you have an issue then go talk to them about it? Kindly bringing up to them and chances are they will openly talk about it.

Complaining about something on the dash wont get anything done. Chances are, that person could have no idea they are being blogged about. So if the issue isn’t up front with them how are they gonna fix it? Its legit childish and pointless and make you look REALLY bad.

Now I totes get vauge posting if your venting and know the person wont see it. (like talking about shit thats going on in facebook or some shit) But posting in hopes that someone would see it is just fucking rude, hurtful and childish? 

I REALLY wish people would call people out on vague blogging. Because no one does anything about it. And thats not okay? They are like mini call out posts with out actually calling someone out. Because we all know if you called that person out on something ya’ll could have talked out; well it makes you look like that ass hole.

Its scary to talk to people but if they are dicks just unfollow or block them?

[greggreaen]

Safely Returning To Exercise After An Injury. Steps Coming Back Strong And Restoring Your Fitness.

Safely return to exercise after an injury with these coaching steps that will help you come back strong and regain your fitness.

“Hey friends! I got my boot off last week- HOORAY!- and have started to try and get back to weight bearing workouts. Its freaking hard! And I really struggle to pace myself- at the end of the day I often find myself overly sore because I wasn’t ready for the level of activity I engaged in. Anyone else in this boat? How do you handle it? Any workouts you’ve found that are weight bearing but not too weight bearing (lol)? How do you ease back into your workouts without going too far? After this injury I am so scared of getting another one!” – Ashley R, Hurt Foot Fitness Program member

This comment was from one of my Hurt Foot Fitness Coaching members to our private program facebook group. After her post, all of the other students chimed in with their personal thoughts and challenges in finding a safe return to exercise. Can you relate?

It’s one of the hardest parts of healing from an injury = SAFELY returning to exercise. Without the right program or coach it can be difficult to find the right amount of physical activity that allows you to make progress without setbacks.

Without guidance it’s a challenge to find the BALANCE of activity and rest. We go too hard too fast too soon. We feel lost, discouraged, confused. How do you get back into active living without getting another injury? What is the right rate of progression to follow?? What workouts should you do?

Thats EXACTLY why I created my online programs: to give people the coaching, support, and tools to SAFELY return to exercise after injury.

Here are a few of my coaching tips on safely returning to exercise after an injury and a downloadable strength workout to get you moving in the right direction today.

Safely Returning To Exercise After An Injury. Steps Coming Back Strong And Regaining Your Fitness.

The first thing to keep in mind when getting back to weight bearing exercise after your time off is: Pace yourself and be grateful for every step.

How you plan your return will depend on the nature and severity of your injury and the length of time you’ve been out for.

I understand your eagerness to get back into your active life. You miss running, biking, hiking, jumping, high heels, you miss it all! But listen: going back too fast too soon will only give you a whole other set of problems. You don’t have time for that! It’s better to make slow, positive progress than to jump back into things before your body is ready and end up more hurt.

Remember first and foremost: always listen to your body and stop if anything puts you at risk for re-injury. The suggestions below will allow you to safely return to exercise.

How To Safely Return to Exercise After Injury.

INVEST IN YOURSELF. People always cut corners when in comes to their health. DONT be one of them. Your health is the foundation in everything you do. You get what you pay for. This is a time in your life when it’s 100% worth it to invest in professionals who can help guide you through the healing process. Because dealing with an injury often causes the body to develop muscular imbalances and strange movement patterns, it’s important to work with people who can help you heal your injury, retrain your body, and prevent future injuries. Only invest in people who you feel comfortable and confident with. Inexperienced professionals can hurt your progress or even set you back. Follow their guidelines and recommendations for when you can return to the gym, how hard to push yourself, what types of exercises are best, and the type of rehab you should be doing. My Hurt Foot Fitness Coaching program can help you. 

Build Slowly. Patience pays off in the long haul, do NOT rush things! Gradually increase the amount of time you spend weight bearing and supplement the rest with cross-training like all of the workouts in my Hurt Foot Fitness program. 

Keep Up Your P.T. A lot of people make the mistake of slacking on their physical therapy or other rehab exercises as soon as they start becoming more active. Don’t get comfortable and forget that, in order to prevent getting injured again, you still need to keep up on your preventative care. I call my P.T. exercises my “homework” and make a habit to do them first before anything else. Setting yourself up for long term success is worth it!!

Don’t beat yourself up. Be kind and compassionate to yourself as you ease your way back into active living. Don’t torture yourself with comparisons to your pre-injury self. It will only set you up for frustration and can ultimately derail your comeback. Track the progress you make post-injury and take every victory (ie: extra miles, faster workouts, etc.) as it comes. Be proud of yourself for staying patient, positive, and smart in the recovery process.

Take it one day at a time. Being patient is tough for everyone. Sometimes the only way to retain sanity is to take it one day at a time. Rather than focus on how much work you have ahead of you, look at what workouts and goals you can achieve for that day or that week. Set mini goals each week and check them off as benchmarks along your route to making a full comeback to active living.

Keep Up with Your Strength Training! Maintain your strength as you return to 100%. My Hurt Foot Fitness program is designed to help you keep your core stable and body strong. This is important to maintain as you get back into active living and will prevent future injuries.

There will be setbacks but you are strong and smart enough to deal with them right. In the healing process there will be setbacks. There will be weeks when you overdo it just a little bit and your body tells you it’s too much. This happens! I know it can feel defeating, but look at setbacks as an opportunity to listen to your body and reassess movement patterns or your workout schedule. Spend more time resting or meditating until your body feels ready to go again. Let your body tell you what it needs you to do. Before you know it, you’ll be back on track and better for listening, learning, and growing from each set back.

Positivity and Perspective: The biggest deciding factor in how well you can come back from an injury is perspective and your ability to stay positive. Even on the days when you’d like to burn the elliptical or bike to the ground, give yourself a little window of time to vent. You WILL heal and make it through this time. Look forward to each baby step forward and do not forget that each mile is NOT a given. Be grateful for what you can do. This will help you remain patient and keep your eyes focused on the long term and healing to full health.

Use a coached program like the Strong Body course to guide you through the transition. The most challenging part about coming back from an injury is knowing how to ease back in to active living without over-doing it or getting another injury in the process. Having a balanced fitness program is an essential part of healing so that you avoid future problems down the road. Injuries pile up if you don’t take care of them right! I’ve put together a safe program to help you build a balanced body to prevent injury and recover from one. Many Hurt Foot fitness clients have enrolled in the Strong Body program post injury and seen incredible progress. This program was designed to be used to help you restore balance in your body. No quick fixes. No extremes. Just real, honest work for real honest results. Learn more about the program here and when you are ready, I’d love to have you join us.

My Hurt Foot Fitness program includes downloadable workouts and videos to support you in returning to the active life you love pain free. Below is a sample of what you can enjoy when you enroll! Get the workout here. 

Hurt Foot Fitness Program Downloadable Workouts

Patience really is the hardest part of the healing process, but it is something worth practicing so you don’t end up in a constant cycle of injury, re injury, and pain. So practice! Practice being patient. Practice letting go and letting your body do what it needs to heal. When someone asks you, “When will you get better?” or “When will you be able to run again?” Tell them, “When my body is ready.” Take all the time you need to heal. If you do it right, you’ll only need to heal from your injury once. I believe in you and in your body’s ability to come back from this injury stronger. Be smart, be kind to yourself, and take it one step at a time in getting back into the active game of your life.

Coming back from an injury is hard I know. But at least it’s not as hard as actually dealing with the injury itself! Healing can be empowering and exciting if you let it. Make this YOUR opportunity to heal and feel your best. If you recover right, you’ll have a lifetime ahead of you of great workouts.

Have you ever faced the challenge of returning to exercise safely and pain free? Whats one tip that has helped you? Let me know in the comments below.

Heres to healing and you feeling your very best.

Love,

Caroline

Other things to check out:

How to listen to your body. 

Advanced workout you can do with a foot or ankle injury. 

Recover faster from your workouts with these foods and supplements. 

Is the Vegan Diet right for you?

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