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nadja-antipaxos · 2 years ago

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CAN’T MAKE YOU HAPPIER NOW - FIVE

Previously - Four || Masterlist || Next - Six

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: swearing, brief mentions of shooter at ATN, brief mentions of cruises scandal, talk of sex, PIV, fingering

Note: Thank you so much to everyone reading. Now that my Ted Lasso fic is done, I'm back on Suck Session, babies. This is a long chapter, but I've made you wait enough. Episodes covered at 2x04-2x07. Please enjoy your read and leave feedback etc if you liked it. xxx

Word Count: 7,151

For what feels like the millionth time that day, Nisha hits Kendall’s name in her phone. It rings. It’s been ringing all day since she saw the shooter at ATN on the fucking news. Antifa, political posturing, all sorts of bullshit, but no one can answer her one question. She hasn’t been able to breathe all day. She tries to keep it from the kids, but it’s impossible. She assures them that Kendall is fine without any evidence to back it up. Ramesh takes them to his house to distract them. Nisha declines because just the sight of her will worry them. Shiv texts her back letting her know that they’re safe around 5 pm. She asks about Kendall shoplifting which Nisha has no idea about but that’s all she gets. It’s dark when he finally picks up and her heart jumps to her throat.

“Hey.”

“Hey? You serious?

“I’m okay.”

“Yeah, I know. Shiv told me.”

“Okay.”

“I need you to come over.”

“Okay.”

She hangs up and clutches the back of her neck with her fingers. The exhaustion of the day finally hits her. She drags her feet to the fridge and grabs the chicken curry she made yesterday. She only ate at breakfast. She grabs a fork and digs in without heating it. She pours a glass of wine when she hears the knock on the door. She rushes over to it and sees Kendall on the other side. Instinctively, she throws her arms around him. His breath catches in his chest. She sighs. He doesn’t speak not wanting to disturb the moment. He inhales her perfume.

She pulls back and beckons him into the house.

“The kids in bed?”

“Yeah, at Ramesh’s. Since there was shooting at Daddy’s work and he wouldn’t pick up the phone.” She walks back to her food and he just stands in her kitchen like the most useless scarecrow. He nods. “Look, Ken. I know we’re not—our shit aside—you’re still their dad. I still need to know if you’re alive.”

“I know. I’m sorry.”

“I mean, I found out from Shiv but…anyway…I’m glad you’re safe.”

She turns away from him and puts the glass dish in the microwave.

“Thank you.”

She almost laughs. Why would he thank her for caring that he’s alive?

“We’re looking to buy Pierce. It’s a good idea. Would fit right in and it’s what Dad wants, so—“

“Jesus, Ken.” She scoffs. “You’ve had had his bit in your mouth before but this is fucking ridiculous.”

“S-Sorry.” He swallows hard.

She puts the dish back on the island and hands him a fork.

“It’s at Iverson’s spice level. You’ll be fine.”

“I like spicy food.”

“You have a limit.”

“Doesn’t everyone?” He knocks her fork away to grab some chicken.

She laughs and sees a small smile on his face. They haven’t been alone like this in a long time. He’s right next to her and he feels oceans away.

“So, um, what’s the deal with the batteries?”

“Batteries?”

“Shiv complained that you’re shoplifting and Daddy Roy’s covering it up.”

“Uh-huh.”

“I hope this isn’t a cry for help before you stick up a bank. Cause I got a lot of deals to finish this week—”

He laughs and hangs his head. He breathes in and exhales a choked sob.

She sets the utensil down and takes it from his hand before engulfing him in her arms. He buries his face in her neck and the tears drip onto her skin. She blinks back her own and holds him tighter.

“I wish you’d tell me what’s wrong.” She sighs, voice cracking. “I hate seeing you like this.”

He lifts his head but stays in her embrace. His thumbs wipe away her tears. She tilts her head up as he dips down and their mouths meet. He clutches her waist like if he lets her go she’ll disappear. She backs into the island and gasps at the stone hitting her spine. He tastes like cigarettes and hints of curry as his tongue moves into her mouth. She moans, gripping his shoulders.

He groans and scoops her up, locking her legs around his waist. He carries her down the hall and places her delicately on the bed. They break apart to remove their clothes but end up kissing before they get everything off. His fingers ghost over the fabric in between her legs and she bites her lip. Once their clothes find the floor, he pushes her down on the bed. His mouth still working hers while one hand fondles her bare breast and the other slips between her thighs. He swallows every sound she makes. No one else can compare. Every woman he’s been with can’t even come close to how perfect she is. She breaks apart around his fingers and yells his name. It’s everything.

She barely recovers before grabbing him and lining him up. He wants to say something to reassure her that he’s clean and always uses a condom with the others, but the words melt out of his mind at how tight she is. Fuck, she’s perfect. She’s so fucking perfect. He hooks her leg around his hip and she throws her head back. She meets his thrusts wanting him to move faster, but he wants this to last. Nisha isn’t used to him being this delicate. His mouth leaves gentle kisses on her neck as his thumb circles her slowly in time with his hips. She’s going to shatter into a million pieces. Kendall wants to tell her how much he loves her and how beautiful she is, but instead, he opens his eyes and watches the way her mouth falls open. She’s trembling, shattering and it’s the most gorgeous thing he’s ever seen. He can’t hold on after that and gives in.

Her soft breath pants under him. Her eyes are still closed. He was never worthy of her before…and now? He will never be. He doesn’t deserve her. She deserves someone strong who can give her everything. Not a coward. She never suffers fools and he’s one of them now. The blood on his hands and all the other people in his bed is an ever-growing chasm between them.

Kendall slips out of her and rolls onto his back. She goes into the bathroom. He allows himself to watch her sleep knowing he isn’t going to get this again. He wishes he could be the one to make her happy. Keep her looking so peaceful. She needs to find someone better and that’s not him.

Before the sun comes up, Nisha wakes up alone. She lets out a shuddering breath and lets the tears fall. How could she be so stupid?

It’s almost two months later when her period doesn’t come. She doesn’t even want to call him. They’ve never been in this position before. She couldn’t wait to tell him when it was Sophie or Iverson. Now, she wants the ground to swallow her up. He picks up on the second ring.

“I’m late. I’ll keep you posted.” She hangs up before she can hear his reaction.

17 years ago

After their first meeting, Kendall was relentless. Nisha told him multiple times that she was more interested in getting into law school at Columbia than dating. It doesn’t stop him. He got her an unlimited tab at her favorite coffee spot. She refused to use it and always paid for her own. He had her favorite dish from her restaurant delivered to her door for two weeks. When he saw her at a party on Saturday, she murmured a thank you, and that was it. She was perfectly friendly and that’s all she was. Friendly. He didn’t realize that she wasn’t as easily won over as the other girls on campus. Gifts no matter how extravagant meant little to her. When he bribed the writing center where she works to have her peer review his paper, he hoped he could talk to her, but she was strictly business. All it got him was a better grade on his paper and an excuse to see her for a month. She was far smarter than him in her sophomore year than he was in his senior year. She was a challenge and he loved a challenge.

Now

Nisha feels a little sore after getting her IUD put in. They said to expect it. The minute her period came, she called and made the appointment. She’s not taking chances. She took a half-day at work and allows Mayala to cook dinner. Her phone buzzes and she sees Kendall’s name. She doubts he remembered she was seeing the doctor this week.

“Yeah?”

“Hi, uh, how are you?”

“Not pregnant so you don’t have to worry. Not that you did.”

“Oh. Okay.”

Nisha nods. That’s about what she expected.

“That it?”

“We’re meeting with the Pierce family this weekend.”

She doesn’t say anything. She’s not giving him an inch. She was stupid to be so vulnerable with him before.

“They wanna know as a family before they seal the deal.”

She looks down at the black nail polish on her fingers. This has nothing to do with her.

“Dad wanted me to ask you if you’d come. I told him—”

“No. Marcia’s gonna be your token brown person.”

“Y-Yeah that’s uh, what I told him.”

“Okay. Thanks for that. Enjoy your rich white party.”

“Yep. Thanks.”

She hangs up the phone and lays back on the bed. Maybe she should get a new mattress and bedspread. Something colorful, unlike the terribly boring neutrals Kendall likes. She spends the weekend with the kids. Iverson gets to pick what they do Saturday and Sophie picks for Sunday. It meant a transportation museum and then a Broadway matinee. She finds Kendall sitting by her door when they get out of the elevators. The kids cheer and give him a hug. He looks relatively sober. Surprisingly, she doesn’t feel much looking at him. It just reminds her of the times he was locked out in college.

“Stewy put a sock on the door?” She asks dryly making him chuckle.

“Something like that.” Kendall stands up.

“So, we just saw SpongeBob and now we’re gonna do pizza. You wanna do pizza?” Nisha asks.

“Uh, sure.”

Nisha nods and lets him in. Iverson tells him all about the museum and the different subway routes he learned about—which ones no longer operate, how the trains have changed if he thinks there’s something inside the abandoned ones. Sophie prefers to tell him about the musical and what she liked and didn’t like. Nisha lets them do all the talking.

“Did you have a fun weekend?” He finally asks her.

“Go to spend it with my favorite people.” She smiles at the kids. She didn’t mean that as a dig. Okay, maybe a little.

“Mummy said we can go see Wicked again.” Sophie perks up.

“I like the set design.” Nisha shrugs. “The spectacle.”

They want a SpongeBob marathon consisting of four episodes before bed. Kendall stays for it, but she can see him on the phone. He gives them both a kiss before bed and Nisha tucks them in. He’s still in her kitchen when she walks back out.

“How was the NPR convention?” She asks getting a glass of water.

“We got the deal.”

“What Daddy Roy wants he gets.” She muses.

“One of the Pierces—Naomi—I slept with her.” The words tumble out of his mouth.

“I hope that’s not the old one. Didn’t think you were into Mrs. Robinson.” Her tone is sharp because she’s too tired to control it. She moves from water to wine. “You can’t go two seconds without humiliating me, huh?”

Kendall just stares at her.

“I don’t know how it’s so easy for you. I can’t even imagine fucking someone else. You? You can fuck me, leave, then find someone else immediately.” She laughs with derision. “Fuck, I tortured myself for months after kissing Stewy.”

Anger flashes across his face and he steps forward.

“You kissed Stewy?”

Shit. She hadn’t meant to tell him.

“Yes.”

“When?”

“You wouldn’t talk to me. You sold our apartment that day.”

“Two days? After two fucking days you’re all over Stewy?” He tries to control his voice but he fails.

“I was upset. It didn’t mean anything.”

“That’s fucking perfect, Nish.” He slams his hand on the island.

“He barely got his tongue in my mouth before I stopped it. Which is a lot more self-control than you have.” She spits, blinking back tears. She takes another gulp of wine. She wishes she had never done it, but he made her feel so isolated that day. He sold their first home without even talking to her. She didn’t want Stewy. She had wanted him. They had never been more in sync and then she was thrown out for reasons she still doesn’t understand. The tears spill down her face.

“Please, just tell me. Were you cheating on me the whole time? Or did your Kendroid brain flip turn off the monogamy switch one day?”

His face changes. He’s no longer panting like he’s going to break something because he doesn’t have to. He broke her. She whimpers. The most beautiful thing in his life and he broke her. He hates seeing her like this.

“No. It wasn’t the whole time.”

She hangs her head and sobs.

“My mom saw the photos, Kendall. She told Ramesh it felt worse than when she found out my dad had a mistress. Cause she never wanted it to happen to me.” She buries her face in her hands. “You humiliated me.”

Kendall exhales slowly and places his hands on her wrists. He takes her face in his hands. She should pull away, but she doesn’t. His thumbs brush her cheekbones. Those big brown eyes are swimming with tears as she looks at him.

“You don’t know how much I miss you.”

“You just fucked someone and now you miss me?”

“Baby, she’s not you.” He leans in closer. “They’re never you.”

Their lips crash together in a desperate kiss and he slides his arms around her back. She tucks her head under his chin.

“Please. Tell me what happened with the bear hug. I know something happened. I know it’s killing you. I can see it. Please.”

“Nish.” Kendall takes a deep breath. “I can’t.”

She shrugs him off and points to the door. “Go. Fuck, why do I always fall for it? You chose this. Deal with the fucking consequences.” She wipes her eyes.

“But just me? What if I tell my dad about you being in on the fucking bear hug, huh?”

If he told Logan, the first thing he would do is go after her. With his media empire, he would spill anything and everything about Nisha, her family, and even the kids. Iverson would be a prime target. They would be swarmed. Has Kendall even thought this through?

“You have no proof.” She straightens up and meets his gaze. Does he really want to make an enemy out of her? Has he learned nothing? “And you’re not credible right now.”

“You’d lie to him and sell me out?”

Her eyes darken as she steps forward. It’s not a side of her he ever encounters. He’s only heard stories about this version of her. She becomes unnervingly calm.

“For my safety? For my children’s safety? Against Logan?” She arches an eyebrow. “You better fucking believe it.”

Kendall storms out and she doesn’t stop him. If he goes against her, he will lose. Every time.

Nisha’s glad to be at Shiva Tech the next day. Her brothers floated some names for general counsel since their current is retiring and Nisha said she wasn’t able to take it. Normally, they would just text her, but Kapil seemed very excited about this one and wanted her to come in. She sits at the table in the big conference room. Her brothers aren’t giving her any clues.

“We’re ready to make the deal, but we want your stamp of approval,” Ramesh tells her.

“I feel so included.” She puts her hand on her chest.

“Good. Cause that’s the only way this is gonna work.” Her head turns to the door opening. She recognizes the voice but her brain plays catch up to the person in front of her. Slight frame. Broad shoulders. Dark hair. Strong brow and cheekbones. Five o’clock shadow bristling over tanned skin.

“Holy fuck!” She jumps up and throws her arms around their oldest friend. “Sebastián!”

He laughs with his whole body and it echoes through her as he lifts her off the ground.

“You look amazing.” He sighs.

“Shut up, look at you.” She laughs.

She pulls back and glares at her brothers while Sebastián’s hand settles on her waist.

“You assholes, why didn’t you tell me?”

“We needed your blessing.” Kapil laughs.

“Stamp. Stamp. Stamp. Sebastián Velasco, General counsel. ” Nisha places her hand on his chest.

“After you turned us down, we needed someone we could trust,” Ramesh explains.

“I’m always second to you, Nish.” Sebastián grins.

“You’re damn right.” She laughs as her eyes wander over his face. She hasn’t seen him in at least four years. Definitely not since his divorce.

“He’s gonna be a nomad like me.” Kapil smiles.

“Does that work for you?” Nisha looks away from her brother and back at Sebastián.

“Yeah. The kids are in California. My last job had me here exclusively so I’ll actually see them more.” A smile tugs at his mouth.

“Good.” She pats him on the cheek. “You know Mom is gonna lose her shit.”

“The son she always wanted.” Kapil sighs.

“Oh, fuck off with that.” Sebastián glares at him with his hand still resting on Nisha’s waist. Kapil and Ramesh exchange a look but say nothing.

“Okay, enough enough enough. We have paperwork to sign.” Ramesh opens his folder. “We need this all squared away before Argestes.”

“Ah, the Olympics of conferences,” Kapil smirks.

“How is it the Olympics?” Nisha asks sitting next to him.

“I heard you get all the swag and they put condoms in the rooms.” Kapil shrugs. “I’ve never heard of that. Sue me.”

“Christ, Kap. Please don’t—I’m sorry I asked.” Nisha grimaces and Ramesh does the same.

It’s the Asuris first time at Argestes which has sparked a lot of chatter about Shiva Tech possibly dipping into media. If Apple could do it, why couldn’t they? Still, there’s been no confirmation, but the buzz makes them feel like the belle of the ball. Anyone who knows anything knows Nisha’s the essential element and the toughest to crack. She stays pleasant but knows none of them are what Ramesh is looking for.

When Kendall’s going back inside after a chilly conversation with Stewy, he spies Nisha standing out in a magenta blouse in a sea of Northface neutrals. Why is she here?

“Did you know about this?” He barks at Jess.

“Uh, um, no.” Jess blinks.

“Why not?” He snaps.

“Last minute addition?” Jess scrolls through her iPad. “Oh, Ramesh is doing a talk on using data responsibly tomorrow with Kapil. Otherwise, it says honored guests? And she’s not on here.”

“Uh-huh.” He needs to be thinking about cruises, but right now he’s rooted on the spot. He should go over there. Right? He should go over there. Who’s watching their kids? Her mother? Ramesh’s wife? Both? Whatever. She’s still legally his wife.

He should talk to her. He steps forward when he sees a strong hand touch her shoulder attached to the rest of the body of Sebastián Velasco. Ridiculously handsome Sebastián Velasco with his stupid flawless brown skin that only gets better with age. The 5’9” bane of Kendall’s existence.

“Why the fuck is he here?” He looks back at Jess.

“Um, I don’t know who that is.”

“Sebastián Velasco. He’s a lawyer. Why the fuck is he here?”

“He’s, um, Shiva Tech’s new general counsel.”

Nisha laughs loudly—a real genuine laugh. Sebastián grins and squeezes her shoulder.

“Fuck.”

17 years ago

Kendall graduated from Harvard with a decent GPA, a degree in business, and a job at Waystar. He didn’t make any progress with Nisha Asuri despite his many, many attempts. He didn’t think he’d see her again. Why would he? She was gonna be a junior and he was gone. So when he saw her in the lobby at the start of summer, he didn’t know what to do with himself. She looked very professional with a tight bun, a light blue blouse, and a black blazer. She had a lanyard that marked her as an intern. Why the fuck didn’t that ever come up? Gerri walked over to her and shook her hand before ushering her back to her office. Well, that would look good on an application to law school.

He wasn’t surprised at how well she did. She was basically Gerri’s assistant for the summer. She summarized her briefs and gave her presentation decks while he followed his dad around. She was always there before him and still working when he left.

The Lincoln Line was a fledging but incredibly popular newspaper in the DC area. It wasn’t great, but it was extremely conservative and it was outdoing their paper in the capital. Logan wanted opinions on how to crush them. Kendall suggested a few interviews with conservative superstars to remind everyone who really held the power. Then Nisha stood up.

“Respectfully, sir, is your only motivation to destroy the competition?” She asked, confidence unwavering.

Logan looked at Gerri. “Yeah?”

“After looking at their finances, acquisition and subsequent shutdown would be more financially effective. Nisha did the numbers last night.” Gerri handed him a folder.

“Sir, they are bleeding out. Even though they might be a critical darling, you’re the mogul.”

“So, why not let them fuck off and die? Kendall’s plan is solid.”

“It makes you look like the hero. That instead of being threatened, you offered to bring them into your empire.” Nisha explained. “You’ll own them and make sure they can never publish again. You strike me as someone who makes sure his enemy is dead. You don’t want to risk him getting better and stabbing you.”

Logan began to laugh and Kendall’s eyes darted between them.

“Fucking balls of a samurai on this one. Gerri, draft up your plan—and you, um…”

“Nisha, sir.”

“Nisha, bring Kendall in. Maybe your killer instinct will rub off on him.”

“Yes, sir.”

He rubbed his hands together before clapping. Kendall just stared blankly. Logan clapped him on the shoulder after Nisha and Gerri walked out.

“Watch that one. She’s too much woman for you, but you could learn something.”

Kendall took his dad’s advice and let her lead. She was far more ruthless than she looked. He was a little more distracted by her than he wanted to admit. She acted like a true professional and didn’t show any hint of annoyance towards him. She complimented him on his ideas and was a great partner. The more they worked together, the more she seemed to respect him.

He was jealous of how calmly she took his father’s criticism and even more at how he seemed to like her for it. She offered no excuses and simply did better the next time. How did she make it look so easy? His father would humiliate him over his mistakes and he couldn’t get a word out. So he yelled at him for being more emotional than “the fucking girl”. Kendall just nodded. Everyone left the room and he threw the folder in the trashcan before kicking it repeatedly. He could never get it right. She cleared her throat and he wiped his eyes, not realizing she had come back.

“I was wondering if I could take a look at your file?”

“Why? To give me more shit?”

She simply shook her head and pulled the file out of the trash.

“There’s something here. Just needs a little more finessing.”

“Yeah?” He sniffed.

“You’re smart, Kendall.”

“Right.” He scoffed.

“You are.” She put her hand on his shoulder and walked out with his file. Her touch burned right through him.

True to her word, she read it and handed it back with colorful tabs full of suggestions. In the next meeting, Logan didn’t have anything bad to say about it. He commented that Kendall had improved. He was just attracted her to before, but now, he was crazy about her. He met her in the kitchenette after the meeting and he moved in to hug her, but without thinking, their lips met. She leaned into him, standing up on her tiptoes. His head was swimming. After constantly thinking about her all summer, he was kissing her and it was better than he imagined. His hand cupped her face and she stepped back with wide eyes. She rushed off and he followed her to the elevators.

“Nisha. Please. Talk to me.”

“I can’t.”

“Why?”

“Please, Kendall.”

He grabbed her hand before she could run. Her breathing hitched and she looked down at his large hand swallowing hers.

“Tell me you don’t feel that.”

“I worked too hard to throw this away. No matter how much I like you.”

If he dated his fellow intern, no one would care. But if she dated the boss’s son, everyone would accuse her of sleeping her way into the internship. She didn’t deserve that. So, he let her go.

On her last day in August, Gerri brought her a cupcake and gave her a hug. She really stood out to earn affection from Gerri and a stellar letter of recommendation. She stayed late even on her last day.

“I think you can go home.” Kendall chuckled.

“Just one more thing.” She jotted down some notes for Gerri and put them on her desk.

“Can I walk you out?” He knew they took her badge at five.

“Uh, yeah.” She gathered her things and joined him in the elevator.

He didn’t see the way her eyes kept darting from the buttons to his face. Outside, the street was damp from the rain.

“How are you getting home?” He asked, not wanting to leave her.

“Oh, subway. I have a cousin I’m staying with in Queens.” She nodded.

“Cool.”

“Not really.” She laughed. “But it worked. It was really nice working with you, Kendall. Sorry I was so mean to you at school.”

“It’s okay. I deserved it. Great working with you too.” He offered his hand and she shook it. She waved and started walking towards the subway.

Kendall looked down at his shoes. He was standing in a puddle letting the rain seep into his expensive shoes. Fuck it. He wasn’t gonna let it end like this. He called after her and she turned.

“Can I please take you out for dinner?”

She just stared at him.

“Before—at school—it was just looks and trying to win. No girl talked to me like you did. I didn’t know you, but now, I can’t stop thinking about you. You’re so fucking smart and badass. I like you so much.”

She smiled. “I still don’t know if it’s a good idea.”

“Aren’t you tired of it? Being so good all the time?”

“You have no idea.” She smirked.

He raised his eyebrows. She sighed, cursed under her breath, and pulled him down by his tie. Her mouth covered his. He kissed her back harder. Her tongue nudged his lips open and he groaned.

“That a yes?” He was panting.

“Of course it is, you fucking idiot.” She rolled her eyes playfully and tugged on his tie.

“Love it when you’re mean. It’s so hot.” He leaned down and kissed her again.

Now - Second Day of Argestes

The other darling of the conference is Ryan Sutton. The 26 year old English born tech icon behind Her Tech and Girlie Can Code. She’s looking to branch out to the US and everyone wants a chance with her. She stands tall in a pale pink sweater and tailored grey slacks with wide hazel eyes, and china doll features. She looks bored by everyone who approaches her. That is until she sees Kapil.

“Kap! Hey, buddy.” She shouts with her Liverpudlian accent.

“Hey!” They hug.

“Welcome to Argestes.”

“You too!”

He steps back and ushers his siblings over.

“This is my big brother, Ramesh Asuri. This is Ryan Sutton.”

“Nice to meet you.” Ramesh smiles.

“Likewise. And this must be the secret weapon I’ve heard so much about.” Ryan turns to Nisha.

“Nisha. Great to meet you, Miss Sutton. My daughter just started your coding series on YouTube.”

“Yeah? What does she think?”

“She’s obsessed. She’d rather watch you than Harry Styles.”

“Wow. I really made it then.”

“I think you made it well before that. I’m looking forward to your presentation on Women in Business.”

“Thanks. I don’t think they’re gonna like it, but I don’t give a shit. Maybe I’ll get less pitches. So, what’s up, Kap?” She places her hand in her pocket.

“Um, well, we have a pitch.”

“Ahh, no, we were doing so well!”

“I know I know.”

“If it helps.” Nisha steps forward. “We don’t actually want to pitch you here. We’d love to meet you at our New York office.”

“Okay, and why should I do that?”

“Because I know you want equal footing. I’ve read who you’ve turned down. You’re taking your time because Her Tech is your baby. You’re not looking for a big check to buy an island while someone else has free reign over your blood, sweat, and tears. The rest of these people will see you as a goal. A conquest.”

“And how do you see me?”

“As a partner. We want you to work with us—not for us. Everyone else in this room—they came from money.”

“Like your husband?”

“Exactly. They don’t know what it means to build something. We do. We both came from the outside and made it to the top. I think that gives us a shorthand.”

“That’s why she’s the secret weapon.”

Ryan pauses, looking her over. Ramesh and Kapil hold their breath.

“Okay. One meeting.”

“Thank you so much. Really. You won’t regret it.”

“You Asuris are always surprising me. I thought Kap wanted to hit on me when instead he wanted to debate me about Linux. Show me what you’ve got.” Ryan offers a dazzling smile.

“We look forward to it.” Nisha offers her hand and Ryan shakes it. “Enjoy the conference.”

“You too.”

They leave her be and Ramesh claps his hand on her shoulder.

“Fucking killed it.”

“For real.” Kapil smiles.

Once the cruises article hits, everyone avoids the Roys like lepers. Nisha honestly had no idea because why would she? Most of it happened in the 1990s and the coverup is exactly the kind of thing Kendall wouldn’t tell her. For once, she’s glad because it’s not a mess she wants to be anywhere near. She’s smart and ruthless, but she’s not abusive. Every assistant she’s had has been promoted or left on great terms and her brothers are the same. If Ramesh or Kapil were ever accused of such behavior, she’d be done with them. She can’t say she’s too surprised considering the number of creeps at Waystar.

It’s brought up in passing, but Ramesh assures everyone that they’re not together anymore. She would say it, but she feels a little put on the spot. She doesn’t feel like saying “I’m in the clear cause my husband’s a secretive asshole”.

She feels eyes on her as she brings a glass of water to her lips. Among them is Kendall. She feels a tug in her gut. She’s so used to cleaning up after him and offering advice that part of her is surprised he hasn’t at least texted. Things really have changed. He locks eyes with her and she can’t read him. His default look is varying degrees of misery. She feels a hand tap her shoulder. It’s Sebasti��n.

“Think we should draft a statement?”

“No. That seems reactive. It has nothing to do with us.”

“Okay.”

He presses his palm between her shoulder blades. She turns to face him.

“Oh, look at that.” Stewy appears behind Kendall. “That’s a nice reunion of old friends.”

“Hmm.” Kendall wants to look away but he sees the way Velasco keeps his hand on her back. It’s been like that for five minutes now. They haven’t seen each other in years. How the fuck are they so goddamn comfortable with each other? She should be shrugging him off.

“He was like her first boyfriend, right? First…everything.”

Kendall clears his throat not wanting to give a response. He’s well aware of their history.

“Fuck me, he’s hot. You’ve got heroin chic and he’s just a fucking specimen.”

Kendall exhales through his nose, burning with jealousy. He knows exactly what Stewy’s trying to do. And Christ, it’s working. Velasco tilts his head and she smirks. He would give anything to know what they’re talking about. Nisha laughs, straightening his wire-framed glasses.

“Looks like you’re not in the way anymore.” He tuts.

“Heard you two kissed.” Kendall finally tears his eyes away.

“Barely, bro. I’m not the one you need to worry about.” Stewy chuckles and walks away.

Kendall steals one more look before leaving to prepare for the panel. He had wanted to talk to her, but he didn’t even get near her. Fucking Stewy. He has no idea that Nisha watches the panel from the back. Ramesh’s eyes nearly roll out of his head every time Kendall speaks. Nisha has seen this fight play out at many family dinners. All vying for Logan’s approval. The dinosaur comment isn’t going to go over well. She leaves.

“You okay?” Ramesh goes after her.

“How bad…is this?” Nisha moves out of the hallway to a more isolated spot.

“Um…you only did the internship before law school. You’re clean. And Kapil just joined the board so we’re fine.”

“Right.” Nisha just nods.

“I gotta go change for the panel. I’ll see you there?” He hugs her.

“Yeah. Definitely.” She gives him a half-smile.

Their panel is well received. No controversy. No drama. Just good business. Without Kendall, these things are so much easier. She walks back to her room to freshen up a bit when she sees Kendall walking toward her. She sighs.

“Hi.”

“I know you know. And that we’ve been fighting. But—”

“We haven’t talked since you stormed out of my kitchen with your hissy fit.”

“Hissy fit?”

“You were—”

“I was just standing up for myself and our children.”

“Nisha, listen. Can we just talk—I know you—”

“No, you listen. I’m here for my brothers and their company. Tell your dad to clean up his own fucking mess.” She blinks back the tears and jogs over to Kapil and Ramesh.

They turn and see Kendall staring at her. Kapil flips him off and Ramesh slings his arm around her guiding her away. Dinner is a blur. Once she’s back in her room, she doesn’t even remember what she had.

A quiet knock on the door causes Nisha to get out of bed. She isn’t doing anything besides looking at her phone. She opens it and sees Sebastián in her doorway.

“Hey.” His voice is soft.

“Hey.”

“Seemed kinda checked out at dinner. You okay?”

“Yeah just ran into Kendall before. He actually thought I’d help.”

“Wow. That fucking sucks.”

“Thanks.”

He stammers at the same time she starts talking. She chuckles and shakes her head. She looks over his shoulder. She doesn’t expect the press to be lingering around the lodgings but she wouldn’t bet against it. He raises his eyebrows. She nudges the door open and nods. He closes it behind him.

“I’ve wanted to do this all weekend.” She grabs him by the collar and crushes her mouth into his. He nips at her lower lip and pulls back.

“Really?” He chuckles. “Cause I’m just here for extra condoms. I’m all out.”

“Fuck you.” She laughs.

“That’s the idea, honey.” He takes hold of her jaw.

His mouth moves firmly against hers. The mouth that gave her the first kiss when she was eleven and he was twelve. Very chaste and quick. Lasted only three seconds before he was called home for dinner and ran down the street. The mouth showed her what a French kiss was the night they snuck into the community pool to avoid the California heat. Her mom working eighteen-hour shifts left her alone a lot and they took advantage. The mouth that trembled on her neck as she lay still beneath his awkward hip thrusts for five minutes in her childhood bedroom. Neither of them knew what they were doing other than making sure they didn’t go onto college as virgins. He climbed out her window and down the lattice when they heard her mother’s car pull into the driveway. The mouth that swallowed her sounds in the backseat of his Camry when he made her legs shake with his fingers before her sophomore year of college. The last time that mouth had been on hers.

They are both older now with four kids and two failed marriages between them. Age has made him much more comfortable with his body and how to use it. His hands squeeze her waist and lift her off the ground onto the dresser. She’s tired of feeling like shit and wants to feel good just once. He licks his way into her mouth and she clutches a handful of his dark curls, moaning. He feels good. He feels very good.

When she wakes up in the morning, his tanned back faces her. All of her muscles are sore in the best way. He hears her stir and rolls over.

“Hi.”

“Should I go?”

“No.”

“You sure?”

“Mhmm.”

“Last night was fun.”

“You know…this is just sex, right? I’m not even divorced yet and—”

“Nish, we’re good. I promise.”

She giggles and covers her face.

“Oh? Now you’re shy?”

“Shut up.”

His fingers dance over her ribs tickling her. She can’t contain her laughter and squirms.

“Hold on, hold on. I’m looking for something.”

“Sebastián, I swear to—" She’s cut off by her own moan as he dips a finger inside her. His thumb rubs the bundle of nerves and he adds another thick finger. He curls them and she arches her back.

“God!”

“Found it.”

Things only get better for the Asuris after Argestes. The pitch with Ryan Sutton invites another meeting that invites another meeting that leads to lunch. Kendall sees all the phones online. They look harmless, but Velasco is always right fucking next to her. He has a feeling his father might be the one who sent the photographers when he asks if her brothers are pimping her out. Kendall doesn’t answer. The pictures on Instagram are worse of close dinners, laughter, lots of wine, and even one where Nisha has her chin on Velasco’s shoulder for a smiling selfie. Was this fucker just waiting? Did he attend their wedding thinking one day it’d end and he’d slip back in? He hates this. Even fucking Naomi Pierce seems to only make him forget for a little while.

While Nisha’s out finalizing things with Ryan, Kendall calls her multiple times while downing more and more beers. It’s the early hours of the morning in England after his mother refused to talk. He misses her so much it feels like his heart is thousands of miles away ripped from his body.

“I’m willing to tailor this to whatever you’d like,” Nisha tells her ignoring her buzzing phone.

“Really?”

“Look, Ramesh has a reputation for being selective—“

“And ruthless.”

“Right, but he’s not. He knows everyone wants to see him fuck up and he’s passionate about protecting his interests. Her Tech would be one of them.” Of course, Kendall would be trying to ruin this in his own way. She shoves her phone back into her purse.

“I’m sorry. I know that’s not professional. That’s not how I usually am. My husband and I have separated and work schedules, kids and their schedules, it’s just a difficult time. Not that I’m not committed to you or—”

“Oh, it’s okay. I had a breakup last year and I don’t have any kids so I can’t imagine. I think I’m ready to sign some paperwork.”

Sebastián smiles and pulls out his briefcase.

In the limo back to her place, he places his hand on her knee.

“You are a vision. Fucking magnificent.”

“Shut up.”

“I’m serious. Thank god Cecilia only calls about the kids.”

“I don’t know how you did it.”

He places his hand on her wrist. “Support from everyone who cared about me. And a great lawyer. I can recommend some firms.”

She smiles at him and threads her fingers through his. She finally answers Kendall when she’s in her bedroom getting undressed. The back of her dress is open.

“Hi, Kendall.”

“Nish, oh god.”

“What?”

“It’s fucking awful here.”

“The horror movie that was never made starring your mother.”

He laughs a little too loudly. “Fuck, you’re so amazing.”

“Not hard to make fun of a proud colonizer.”

“I’m sorry.”

“About your mom? She didn’t colonize India personally.”

“No. I would never tell my dad about….you and the bear hug. You’re an amazing mom and you’re always gonna look out for our kids.”

“Ken, where the fuck is this coming from?”

“Miss you, baby.”

“You wouldn’t if you’d just tell me the truth.”

“No, I just wanna talk to you. You don’t understand.”

“I do, Ken. Believe me. Everything is always up to what you want and I’m tired of it. It’s exhausting and I can’t do it anymore..” She licks her lips and her vision blurs. “I want a divorce.”

She hangs up as Sebastián walks out of her bathroom with a white towel slung low on his hips. She can see the patch of hair below his belly button. He’s so hot it hurts.

“You okay?”

“Mhmm.” She kisses him deeply.

His hand trails down her neck and settles between her breasts. “Tell me, honey. Tell me what you want.”

“Make me feel good.”

It doesn’t take him long. She hisses as he bites Spanish words into her skin. He flips her over and places his palm on the base of her spine. This is exactly what she wants. To forget.

#succession #kendall roy #kendall roy x oc #kendall roy x ofc #oc: nisha asuri roy #fan fic #happier now

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barrys-butterfly-garden · 3 years ago

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“What's down there? She was in that room with the sphere. What's happened to Rose?”

“I don't know. I'll find her. I brought you here, I'll get you both out, you and your daughter. Jackie, look at me. Look at me. I promise you. I give you my word. “

i am a puddle. i am a mess. (god bless y’all can finally let that leave the table of your memory)

#HE'LL HAVE TO ANSWER ME ONE DAY #THAT DAY IS TODAY BECAUSE HOLY CRAP THEY'RE IN A MIDDLE OF A WAR THEY DIDN'T REALIZE WAS EVEN GOING ON #AND THAT'S. HIS. FAMILYYYYYY #that's all i've got for this episode. um. i'm going to enjoy it and cry see y'all on the other side #ep: doomsday #dr who lb 21

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wingsofhcpe · 3 years ago

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SNOWPIERCER S3 EPISODE 4: GOD SAVE THIS FUCKING TRAIN

Mel haunting Alex is tearing me apart but also it would lowkey be real cool if she was actually hunting her train, her engine. Y'know, poetic. And since we've started with the supernatural shit anyway (don't think I've forgotten about Layton's visions), why not? May as well go big or go home.

MAMA GRANDE?? 😭😭😭

The last Aussies too... I'm in so much pain, why does this season keep killing characters off screen. I get it was the flu and everything but still.

Ngl for a moment I thought the cars blocking the track would be the ones Layton got rid of during S1. That would have been cool too.

Pike is PISSED and also not taking Layton's bullshit and you know what? Good for him.

Also Pike I love you but how did Ruth fall in love with you when you literally walk around in your PJ's. Gremlin man.

Oh Roche ..please get yourself together, your daughter needs you!

(although I did very much enjoy it when he stabbed Wilford in the heart. Bastard absolutely deserved it).

RUTH AND PIKE DATE TIME. PIKE MAKING HER LAUGH. I'M CRYING.

Ruth with her hair down like that is gorgeous pls queen do that more often and also marry me.

Also idk why but she reminded me of Zelda from Breath of the Wild in that episode. Does that make Pike Link?

Me whispering "now kith" in That scene and my mum shushihg me. We're both SO invested in this ship.

Pike telling Ruth she should lead 😭 what a simp, I love him.

Also uh, I know we were all joking last week that they were going to fuck but um. Okay. So that happened. Good for them, good for them.

RUTH WHAT ARE YOU DOING WHY DID YOU LEAVE HIM I KNOW YOU'RE A WORKAHOLIC BUT LIKE. DON'T BE DAFT HE LOVES YOU.

"teal is not your colour" Pike how DARE you. I will have to hit a hard pass on that. (....but I do see the symbolism that she shouldn't just be on hospitality and should take a step up and actually lead. Clever one).

Oh Alex...OH ALEX.... The little flashbacks with her friend ruined me, they both deserved so much better.

Speaking of, I LITERALLY OWN THAT SAME BUNNY PLUSHIE. I'm not shitting you I have this very bunny and I'm gonna post a picture asap because holy shit, of all the things to relate to it had to be the plushie???

I love how the show decided to explore Alex's dynamic with Wilford, how she still loves him even though he's an abusive piece of shit. As someone with an abusive father, who cannot bear to think of anything happening to him even though I hate him, this scene really hit home and I found it exceptionally written.

This is the first time I'm actually 100% on Zarah's side and Layton can suck my fucking dick, also poor Madame Headwood, grabbing her dead husband's shoes for comfort the moment Layton lunged at her 😭

I want a redemption arc for Jupiter and I'm not even joking at this point.

On that note I want to hug Javi and protect him forever it's what he deserves.

Till really being everyone's babysitter and therapist in that episode huh.

Till and Asha are actually a great ship, I'm rooting.

Also good idea yall, let the severely traumatised, panic attack-prone person get drunk and roam around in a rave party! No way this will backfire on all of you.

LJ straightening her hair.....mwah.

But also that means she's the girl trying to stab Os from the trailer... here's to hoping it's just knifeplay.

I think that's all but at this point you guys know me, you know I'm gonna follow up with like 50 Ruth/RuthPike posts so. Ahem. Love you all. And I'm sorry for what I will become for the next 24 hrs before I sink back into attack on titan hell and start screaming about my beautiful wife Hange Zoe.

#snowpiercer s3 #snowpiercer season 3 #snowpiercer spoilers #snowpiercer #andre layton #melanie cavill #joseph wilford #ruth wardell #bess till

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fanfictionandshi · 4 years ago

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Hey. If you're at all ok with it, could you do a Pico x reader where the reader is having a ptsd episode? My abuser's birthday is coming up and I've been feeling pretty on edge. I keep finding myself slipping back to the years I wasn't really in control and wasn't treated like a human, like I was a disposable doll.

Again! Please please reject this if you at all feel uncomfortable! If you want to discretely reject this, just post "I heard my grandma's cat loved pizza crust" and I'll know. I won't be mad at all! Your comfort is my priority. I'm sorry if I'm bothering you.

Intro: Hey. I have no problem with this, I am happy to help. I was checking my inbox (IK I’ve been kinda inactive lately) before I went to bed and saw this. I actually had no intention of writing today but after seeing this request you gave me just the boost I needed, so thank you! I hope this isn’t too late, and those who have requested I will get to your requests soon! I hope you enjoy anon! (Also fuck your abuser they deserve to die in a ditch, nobody can change my mind) One Pico x gender neutral! Ptsd attack! reader coming up!

Category: SFW and angst to fluff

TW: cursing, mentions of ptsd, and ptsd attacks.

“Babeeee I’m home!” Pico yelled. No answer. “Hm, that’s pretty fuckin weird. They usually come running up to me when I come home.” Pico put down the groceries on the counter. “Babe?” Pico walked into the bedroom you two shared. “Babee- ...” Pico went silent at the sight. You crouching on the floor. You looked... like a mess. You were hyper ventilating. Eyes glassy, with tears streaming down your face.

“... Y/N?” “Stop it, I don’t want to see it anymore, please...” “Y/N...!” Pico quickly rushed to your side. “DON’T! DON’T TOUCH ME! GET AWAY FROM ME!” You turned away form Pico quickly, putting your hands over your ears. Pico quickly moved away from you. “Hey hey hey! Babe, relax. It’s me. It’s just me.” “I DON’T CARE WHO YOU ARE JUST GET AWAY FROM ME!” Pico stepped back further away from you. “Hey hey see? Look, I’m not gonna hurt you . “... really?” “Of course really, it’s me babe, Pico.”

“... Pico? Babe?” “Yes, yes! It’s just me love.” You turned to Pico, still crying. “Please, make it stop!” Pico slowly got closer to you until he was sitting right next to you. “Make what stop? Tell me what hurts.” “I-I I’m seeing it again! Flashbacks...” “Okay...” “A-And I can’t breathe! Please I can’t breathe!” “Shhhh. It okay. Let’s do our breathing exercises.” “... Okay.” “Breathe in” You both take a deep breath. “Hold for 5 seconds...”

“And exhale for 5 seconds...” You both breathe out. “Let’s do that again, okay?” Both of you do the exercises together a few times until you were calm. “You okay now?” “U-Um, a lot better than before... Thank you babe.” “It’s nothing, really. Butttt” Pico hit your head, hard. “OW! What was that for?” “For scaring me, dipshit! You looked so sad and shit and I was worried!”

You both talked and watched some TV for a bit before getting ready for bed. After both of you laid down, Pico turned to you. “Before we go to bed, what was it about?” “What?” “The flashbacks.” “...” You quickly grew silent at that. It’s not that you don’t trust Pico, you just aren’t over what happened to you yet. It was just such a traumatic experience. You don’t want to let him down, but you also don’t want to- “You don’t have to tell me”. You jumped, thinking so much about how to respond that you forgot Pico was actually there. “I understand, you know? You need time. And I will give you it.” You shot up, scaring Pico. “... Babe?” You quickly hugged Pico, crying.

“Thank you.”

“It’s no problem, dumbass.”

You both fell asleep soon after in each other’s arms, cuddling for the rest of the night.

Author: WOOOOOO my eyes hurt. Ngl this is way easier on computer ( Yes I usually use my phone) Hope you enjoy and this comforts anybody who has gone through/is going through this type of thing. I hope I did it up to your liking, I was so nervous if I didn’t- Now to get to these 5 other requests-

#pico x reader #ptsd tw #fnf pico #fnf x reader #comfort #cringewritesandshi

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stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale · 3 years ago

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How would you rank telltale's other games (not including twdg)?

Of the ones I've played, from best to worst imo:

1. Tales from the Borderlands. Listen, I've never picked up a Borderlands game, never had any real interest.... but I love this game. While twdg is my favorite from Telltale, I genuinely believe this game is the best thing they ever put out and I will be forever pissed that this didn't get a sequel. Great characters that actually grow and develop relationships with one another, antagonists that are enjoyable and hateable [in a good way], great story, great writing, choices that matter.... overall amazing game. If you haven't played it, go get yourself a copy. Do it, do it now, play it and have fun.

2&3. Batman s1 & s2. I believe s2 is the better of the two, but s1 is still one of the best from Telltale. I'm not a big Batman gal, I don't really get into the DC world, but like with tftb, I adore this game anyway despite not being super familiar with the source material. Anyone who has watched my streams of s2 in particular knows how emotional it makes me. I just.... Bruce and John Doe's relationship throughout the season just gets to me, it's so well done and heartbreaking. Also, I love Bruce as a playable protagonist, he's fucking great.

4. Game of Thrones. Yes, really, I'm putting it this high. I'm actually shocked that I enjoyed this game as much as I did because again, I didn't watch the show, didn't read the books, not a fan of the source material. I went into this blind. While it has a slower start where I felt like I had to force myself to really pay attention otherwise I would get lost, once I had a grasp of the characters and the four storylines, I could relax and get immersed and enjoy the experience... well, "enjoy" is a loose term, I suppose. Also, it has a certain choice later in the season that actually haunts me. I still think about it to this day. Like... I had to pause the game, I had to breathe, I had to cry to chat during the stream I was doing, it hurt me deeply and I haven't let it go. Holy shit.

5. The Wolf Among Us. I love this game. Bigby is one of my favorite playable protagonists in any Telltale game. I love the aesthetic of it all, I love the character designs despite a lot of the characters not actually being favorites of mine. I love a good murder mystery. It has an amazing soundtrack. I do feel like this game is held back a bit by some of the side characters, and the reveal of who the big bad really was is.... ehhh, could've been better. Still totally worth playing, though.

6. Minecraft Story Mode. Uuuuggggghhhhh...... and we have a huge drop off. I can't with this game. It's awful. It's boring, it's slow, the characters have one-note personalities, the plot is dumb, Jesse isn't allowed to have a character because they gotta be vague so you can project yourself on them which I don't love, it's riddled with fake choices that don't matter, it feels passionless, and there didn't need to be eight episodes. Oh, and it has one of the most botched death scenes I have ever experienced in a game. Like... I have little to nothing positive to say about mcsm. It feels nothing like a Telltale game, it feels a knock-off but it's not and I hate it. There was one choice that I kinda liked, the one where you gotta decide which armor to wear but whoever's armor you take, they're left defenseless which results in them getting killed. I like that you have six Jesse's to choose from in terms of looks.... um.... Lukas was okay? The murder mystery episode with all the dumb youtuber cameos was probably the best episode of the eight. Again, I streamed this game... ask anyone who was there how miserable I was the entire time. It still pisses me off that THIS got a sequel but Tales from the Borderlands, Game of Thrones, and Wolf Among us didn't. It infuriates me that it made more money that those better games. I just.... UGH.

7. Guardian's of the Galaxy. The only reason this one is below mcsm is because I literally couldn't finish it. Not because it was so terrible... no, I physically couldn't finish it because it was a broke mess. I kept getting stuck and soft-locked, I had to back out of episodes and then go back to pick certain choices because some choices just don't work and break the game. Another one I streamed, and once we hit what...? the end of ep3, I believe? we got stuck and I gave up and just read from the wiki of what happens at the end of the episode, and then just moved on to ep4..... only to have it fucking break halfway through ep4 with no way to continue other than to restart the episode from the beginning and pick different choices that wouldn't break everything and I just..... I couldn't do it. I read from the wiki for the rest of the game.... it was ridiculous. I can't believe Telltale actually released something so broken. And it wasn't just my copy, a lot of people had the same issues I did. For as much as I fucking hate mcsm, at the very least I was able to finish it.

Those are the ones I've played. And no, I haven't played mcsm s2 because I can't get my hands on a copy and I'm not willing to watch a playthrough. I never want to touch that game ever again. I would rather play Life is Strange: Before the Storm than mcsm and that's probably the biggest insult I could give it. Ugh.

But yeah, the other games are great, highly recommend.

#asks #there are other telltale games i wish i could play #but they're not available anymore since they shut down #like the jurassic park one #i do own a couple of their sam and max games but haven't picked em up #so can't judge those #what about you guys? what's your favorite non-twdg telltale game?#least favorite?#......does anyone actually hate mcsm as much as i do or am i just the dramatic one? i'm probably just the dramatic one #also now i'm thinking about the damn choice in game of thrones #and i am saaaaad :'[#i'm not exaggerating when i say that choice physically hurt me #i'm still hurt sksksks

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addictofsupernatural · 4 years ago

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OHSHC Rewrite: Episode 3b

Beware of the Physical Exams!

Host Club x reader

Summary: When the hosts convince y/n to get help, she finds trouble instead.

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"Y/n, we've come here today to talk about a problem regarding you."

You looked around nervously, and began your verbal diarrhea. "Okay, um, first of all, I want to say I'm sorry. I know it's our number one priority to make the clients happy, and I was side tracked, and that's on me. I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have been unprofessional with Alarico and that's super my fault. I know I need to get 100 guests and I'm only at 39 but I can do better, and again I'm really sorry for everything about yesterday, and—"

"Y/n," Kyoya cut you off. "This has nothing to do with your quota, or Alarico Gonzalez's behavior."

"Oh." You said dumbly.

"This is about your anxiety attack."

"Oh." You grumbled, though you quickly regained your composure. "I'm sorry you had to see that senpai."

"It was no trouble, and I've read that they can be very sudden and frightening to those who get them." He stated.

"We're really worried." Hikaru said.

"Yeah," Kaoru agreed. "When Kyoya told us, we had no idea how to help."

"You have to take care of yourself y/n-chan." Honey clutched usa-chan.

"Yeah." Mori said.

"That is why," Tamaki said, pointing to you. "We've decided to set up an appointment with the school therapist today!"

"Woah, let's not take it that far. I'm okay guys, really."

"You didn't look okay when you had trouble breathing yesterday." Kyoya stated.

"That was just a little hiccup!" You explained. "Things happen. I'm okay now, which is more important, right?"

Tamaki stepped up to you. "You're going to therapy, and that's final!"

"No." You said forcefully. This struck his feelings, and he sulked in the corner. You sighed. "I'm sorry I worried you all, and I'll be careful next time. I don't want to waste time and cut any classes so a therapist can tell me depressing things. I just want to forget about sad stuff here."

You gave them a smile. "Well, she seems unmotivated." Hikaru stated.

"But how are we going to get her to agree?" Kaoru asked.

Mori then thought of something. "Squishy ice cream."

That struck a nerve. You gasped and carefully looked at them, and Tamaki then got up. "That's right~ You were so busy last episode that you never got to try any, did you~?"

"Did you hear that?" Hikaru whispered mockingly. "She's never even tried squishy ice cream before. Isn't that sad?"

"Talk about a tragedy." Kaoru whispered back.

You nervously laughed. "C'mon guys, you don't really think of me as such glutton because I'm poor and never had it that I'd force myself to go to some therapy for some ice cream would you?" You kept nervously laughing, and everybody else smiled at you. You then quietly asked, "What time is the appointment?"

"We knew it." The twins said.

You scoffed and smiled. "You guys are something else. Why do you even care about this?"

"Don't refer to yourself as this!" Tamaki exclaimed. "If you need anything, know that I'm always here for you."

"You mean all of us are here for her?" Hikaru asked.

"As I said before, you are all the homosexual supporting cast!"

You let out an involuntary laugh. "Really senpai? Supporting cast?" You asked, walking over to them. "That's a little self absorbed of you." You then thought of something. "Can you guys do me a little favor though? Let's keep the therapy sessions to ourselves. My clients get worried easily and I feel weird when they get curious and ask me about my issues."

"Well, your appointment is right after the physical exams," Kyoya explained. "So that might be an issue."

"Alright then," Tamaki announced. "Gentlemen, it's time to enact The Keep Y/n's Secret Safe Plan!"

Later that day you walked with the twins to the physical exam, though the line was going to be too long to not miss your therapy session. When you went in there, your mouth hung open. "What the hell is this?!"

"It's just a regular physical exam." Hikaru said.

"I've seen malls smaller than this." You whisper shouted, speed walking to hold each twin by the arm, timidly looking at all the people and fancy stations. "This is so out of place for me. I feel so awkward."

They paid no mind to you gripping onto them, or at least tried not to. "Seriously y/n, you need to stop being amazed and scared at everything here." Kaoru said.

"I was amazed and scared of the host club when I walked in. Look at us now." You offered. Neither of them said anything but looked down at you. You then saw Mori and Honey dressed up in doctor attire. "Wait, what?" They put their fingers over their mouths shush you. "So obvious." You muttered.

"I have those two for back up in case this plan doesn't execute properly." Kyoya came out and explained.

"Why are they in doctor uniforms?"

"It helps set the mood." He pushed up his glasses. "Disguises make our mission feel like a real espionage."

You watched the doctor encourage a girl as three other nurses clapped for her. "This is weird." You said. "All the staff here are actually nice."

"Of course." Kyoya said. "All staff is chosen by the chairman. It is a school, but it's also a business. He wants the students to be happy, and most students here already have their own doctors for their families. So this, is just a formality."

You quietly scoffed and shrugged, shaking your head. You and the twins kept walking when someone bumped into Kyoya, and Kyoya's gaze lingered on him.

"Huh." The twins then began taking off their shirts to do their exams, and girls started squealing. "See now?" Kyoya asked. "Physical exam day is quite popular with the ladies."

"Hm. My physical exams in y/c had us also do exercise. Everybody was rude and just wanted to get everything over with, and that makes more sense than this." You then shook your head. "But girls here would probably still be squealing for that too because sweat is apparently attractive too."

The twins were being themselves and girls continued squealing. Mori and Honey took this as an opportunity to push you into a corner nobody was in. Tamaki then caught you from behind. "I've been waiting for you princess." He said in your ear.

"Tamaki senpai?" You turned your head.

He giggled in your ear. "You're so cute when you're surprised." He then stepped back. "This is it, the inevitable moment."

"What are you gonna do?"

He shushes you with his finger. "Don't worry, I'll protect you." You felt your cheeks tingle. That was until he put on a wig and stepped into the exams area. "I am ready to take the exams." He announced in his best impression of your voice.

"Hey, is Tamaki trying to dress as a girl?" One girl asked.

Tamaki was shocked, as if he didn't realize people would notice. The twins then bursted out laughing. "He actually did it!" Hikaru laughed out.

"I can't believe he didn't know that wouldn't work!"

Tamaki blushed and angrily grabbed Hikaru. "Why didn't you tell me it wouldn't work?!"

"It's payback for calling us homosexual supporting cast!" He laughed out.

Tamaki looked over at you shyly with big sad eyes. "Um, listen y/n," he timidly said.

"Did you really think that would work?" You asked, and your tone showed that it was a genuine question. He said nothing but pouted, causing you to glare at him. "Big words senpai. Small execution."

"Come this way y/n," Kyoya said. "There's a private room waiting for you."

"Senpai, you look like your enjoying this." You smiled at him. Tamaki dropped to his knees in the background.

Kyoya was smiling as well. "Well, I did need to get my revenge too. I don't appreciate being called supporting cast, homosexual or otherwise."

You both walked away as Tamaki weakly reached for you while fading away. You then went into a room with a female nurse. "Good morning Miss Y/l/n. It's a pleasure to meet you. I've been informed of your circumstances, so we can hurry along this process."

"Thank you ma'am."

"Of course. Step right this way please. You can undress in there." You nodded and stepped inside the dressing area.

The boys were listening to this girl cry about a doctor who supposedly made a pass at her. "I've never been so terrified." She cried.

"How scary!"

"Do you think he was a pervert?" This girls were huddled around her for comfort.

"I had a feeling this might happen." Kyoya thought out loud. "Earlier today I saw a strange man in a white lab coat, though clearly not one of our doctors.

"Shouldn't you have said something sooner?" The twins asked in an annoyed manner.

"I'm sure it's no big deal. I'm sure the security guard will catch him." Kyoya offered.

They still listened to the group in the back. "Tell me," said a doctor. "Did you see where this man went?"

"Yes sir, he was headed towards the private clinic down the hall." The boys were all silent as they realized that he was going to your room.

You had just unbuttoned your shirt, leaving you in your bra. You were about to take off your pants when a man went into your changing room and was peaking outside. It was almost like he didn't see you. "W–um, excuse me, but—"

He rushed over to you and covered your mouth with his hand. "No, it's not what you think. Please just be quiet."

"Y/n!" You both turned to see Tamaki in the air. "Tama-chan~ kick!" He kicked the man in the face and sent him flying into the wall. Tamaki then spun in the air a few times before coming down to the ground.

The twins then appeared. "One. Good looks that attract the public eye."

Kyoya then stepped out of the shadows. "Two. More wealth than you can imagine."

Mori then spoke up. "Three. Chivalry that will never be able to overlook,"

"The hideous wickedness of this world." Honey finished.

As you hugged yourself Tamaki gently placed his own shirt over you. "That's what make up the Ouran Host Club!"

They posed, with an exception of Mori and Kyoya, saying, "We're here, watch out!"

"Please don't hurt me! Spare me my life!" He bowed as you buttoned up Tamaki's shirt. He then got back up. "I run a small medical clinic in the next town over."

You were taken aback by the sudden fact. You looked at Honey, whispering, "Why is he telling us his life story?"

Honey shrugged, and you all listened. "My name is Yabu." You suppressed your laughter, since Yabu is another word for quack doctor. "You see, I came to find my daughter. My wife left me a month ago and took my daughter with her! I know that my daughter goes here."

You sat down to be at the same eye level with him. "Well now that I'm invested into the story, I gotta ask. What happened to make them leave?"

He explained that he kept giving people money and they don't usually pay them back. The latest time was the last straw, and they both left. "I can never say no to anyone. I don't blame them for not wanting to constantly live in debt. But I wanted to see my daughter one last time, so I wandered through the streets and was pounded by rain until I came here. But once I entered I was mistaken for a doctor, here to examine students!"

You smiled. "You mean they mistook the guy wearing a lab coat as a doctor? That's... wow."

"And then it happened," He ignored you. He then explained how he asked a girl for directions and she ran away screaming. "And before I knew it, there were all kinds of people chasing me!" He was bursting with tears.

"So tragic!" Tamaki was also crying.

"Pardon me," Kyoya said. "But I think you may have the wrong highschool. Are you looking for Ouran Public Highschool?"

"Yeah?" He stopped crying and looked up.

"I figured that might be the case. This is Ouran Academy, private institution. Your daughter doesn't go to school here."

He looked shocked, and the twins began to voice their opinions. "Man, you don't even know where your daughter goes to school? That's pretty sad." Hikaru said.

"Yeah, I bet your relationship's messed up because you don't pay attention to them, not because of some stupid debt."

"Wow Kyo-chan, you figured that out pretty quickly." Honey congratulated him.

"Well, the daughter of such a small business man could never afford to go here." You scrunched up your nose I'm response.

"Kyoya," Tamaki said. "Could you make a map of the public schools in this area? I'd like to help this man."

Kyoya looked surprised for a second, but smiled and regained his composure. "Whatever you say."

As the man got up you stepped in front of him. "If you'll allow me to give some advice." He nodded. "If you get there and school is still in session, don't just go in. Wait until she's finished with school, or else you're gonna look like a creep and she'll be too angry and embarrassed to talk." He said nothing and nodded, bowing. He left soon after, and you were all still in the private room. "Well, sorry to do this, but can you guys please leave now?"

Everybody looked surprised. "Y/n, are you still angry with me?" Tamaki said. "You're not going to quit the host club are you?"

You turned to him and smiled, patting his shoulder. "Don't be silly senpai. I need to get to that stupid therapy sesh and you need to put on a shirt. I just gotta take the physical exams and I'll give it back to you." You then turned around and smiled. "Let's get this straight though. I'm not doing it for some food, I'm doing it for my debt."

You giggled, and Tamaki smothered you with a hug. "I can see right through you! I know you're doing it for some squishy ice cream!"

He was smothering too much. "Okay, stop it! The shirt's riding up!"

"Red card!" The twins said in unison. They then dragged Tamaki out and everyone else followed.

You finished your exam fairly quickly and was guided by your nurse to the room of your therapist. "Good morning." She grinned. "Please sit anywhere you'd like."

You had decided right then and there that this was going to suck. There was fancy decor and expensive looking items. There was a nice looking couch and even nicer looking chairs. She had a desk that looked like it costed way too much, and she wore expensive clothing. This was all too much. You didn't belong in this room.

You silently sat on the couch. "I hope you feel your most comfortable self with me, so we can talk about anything you want." Her grin was still on and her tone was still chirpy. You said nothing. "Do you want to begin the conversation?"

You hesitated before speaking up. "May I ask about your background?"

"My background? Well that's an incredibly boring subject, but go ahead! Let's not have any secrets between each other, okay?"

You were silent for a moment again. "How were you brought up? Was it surrounded by things like this?"

You didn't try to smile. You didn't want to be here. There wasn't anything wrong with you, so there wasn't a reason to be here. Besides, this room itself was giving you anxiety. "Things like this? Well, I'm not really the materialistic person, but if you're asking me if I was born into a wealthy family that helped paved the way to my position, then yes. I was born into this."

Her smile never faltered, and you didn't like it. You didn't like the feeling of any of this. Exposed, you felt so exposed. It made you put your head down in shame. "Then don't you think you're a little overqualified to be talking to me right now?"

She was taken aback, but began writing in her notebook. She slightly nodded to it, as if she had decided something. "My, is that what you think?"

What the hell would she even write from that? That you have self esteem issues? That you're self conscious about yourself here? You deserved so much squishy icecream for this. You only shrugged.

"You don't seem very relaxed right now. Maybe we could talk about why that is." You shrugged again. Her smile almost left her face, but she hung onto it. "We can't make any progress if you we don't put in effort dear."

You sucked up your annoyance and smiled, bringing your head up. "If you want me to be happy about this, you could've just said so. And the reason why I'm uncomfortable is because this room is making me uncomfortable."

She then wrote in her notebook again. "I see. Is it the atmosphere? We can go outside to the garden if it makes you feel any better."

"Is this session a one time thing?"

She chuckled. "That's not how progress works."

"Then we can stay in here so I could get used to this feeling."

It was like she cornered you. She knew exactly where to strike. "Do you always feel like you need to comply to things? Like you have to be the one to adjust?"

You frowned. "Where did that come from?"

"Please answer the question dear."

"I don't know, I guess. I have to though. It's not like everybody else has to change their viewpoints to accommodate only me."

"Do those viewpoints make you upset?"

"No."

"I'd appreciate if didn't lie to me."

She seemed to have every one of your moves calculated. She suddenly knew how to outsmart you. "Sometimes, I guess. I don't know. They'll say a comment or two about how different commoners are to normal rich people. It's weird. I never considered myself normal, but I'm different for another reason here than before."

You wanted to slap yourself for saying that. She only wrote in her notebook again. "How were you different before?"

"It just sometimes felt like us against the world. The four of us were unbreakable and we didn't care that it was that way. I felt proud to be looked down on, in this weird way, because my friends were down there with me laughing at everyone else."

"And now?"

"Now I'm down there alone. Everybody looks down on me, but there's no one else to share that with. It just sucks sometimes."

"You have two separate friend groups that you mention. Do you feel differently towards the one back in y/c than here?"

"I never felt ashamed with my y/c friends, I guess. I don't know. They knew everything about me, and they still loved me for it. Maybe I feel like my friends here will just pity me if I open up more?" You brought your knees up and buried your face in between them. "Ugh, no offense doctor, but this sucks butt. I thought this was supposed to help me with my anxiety."

"And you don't feel anxiety when thinking about your new friends finding things out about you?"

You couldn't help but let out a laugh and fall to lay of the couch. "Damn it, you're actually pretty good."

"People can be more complex than you might think. Just as you feel like they won't understand you because of your background, you aren't giving them a chance because of their background." You looked up at her. She was still smiling.

You chuckled. "You really do suck." You then sat up straight. "Hey, how are other people like with your sneaky forwardness?"

She waved off the question. "Oh, I'm usually not like this at all. I normally have to go through this journey with them until they figure it out on their own. I figured you weren't like that and would prefer someone who wouldn't baby you. It's actually quite nice to get straight forward answers back."

You genuinely smiled. "I'm sorry doctor, I think I underestimated you."

She had a different smile on this time. "Hm. Tell me something that your new friends don't know about you."

"That's kinda hard. One of them ran a background check on me."

She chose not to push her luck and not ask about that. "Well, it can be a small fact."

You let out a sigh and looked down again. "I mean, I was at the store the other day and bought them all keychains. Once I brought them to school I realized how worthless this would be to them. So I just kept them.

"Pushing for a better relationship with your friends will maybe let them push with you. They might like the gifts. You don't know until you try it."

"Thanks doctor." You smiled at her.

"One last question, how did you act with your old friends? Were you touchy feely or more to yourself?"

"Um, touchy feely I guess." You then thought about how you and your friends never really had respect for each other's boundaries, though none of you cared. "Really touchy feely actually."

"Try to work on getting to that level with your new friends." She then checked the time. "Oh, it seems we just ended our session. I'm glad we got this far, and there's so much more to talk about. I'll see you next week."

"Yeah, okay." You smiled and got up.

"Oh, dear,"

You stopped. "Yeah?"

"Why don't you give your old friends a call? You seem like you miss them."

"Okay." You said, chirpy. "Bye!"

You walked back to the physical exam area, and everyone was just about finished. All your friends stared at you as you silently walked over to them. You didn't say anything and looked spaced out.

"Y/n," Tamaki quietly asked. "Are you mad at us for sending you to therapy? You're making a face."

"I'm just thinking senpai." You didn't look at him.

"About quitting the club?!" He grabbed you by the shoulders.

You gently poked his face and pushed it away with your finger. "About whether or not I should give you guys something." The bell rang and you looked at the twins. "Oh, let's go guys. Bye everyone."

Nobody said anything. You went to your class silently. "Uh, y/n?" Hikaru asked.

"Hm?" You turned to them.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Kaoru asked.

You smiled and hugged them both. "I'm sure."

After school you decided to use your phone and call the one person you know who also has a phone. The other two were also there, and the three were planning to see you as a surprise on Monday. Luckily, Jasmine can't keep a surprise to save her life.

You entered the host club with a big smile, setting down your bag to turn and see all the boys staring at you. "What?" You asked, still smiling. "Oh! The gifts."

"So you actually did get us something?" Kaoru asked.

"Yup." You brought them out of your backpack and walked over to Mori. You handed him a keychain of a small black belt. "I heard someone say you were in kendo, so I thought this would be nice."

He smiled and patted the top of your head. "Thanks."

You excitedly nodded and bent down to Honey, giving him a bunny keychain. "I thought it would kinda remind you of usa-chan if you two were ever apart."

His eyes shown as he held it in his hands. "Cute! Thanks y/n-chan!"

You walked over to the twins, handing them a tweedle dee and tweedle dum keychains. You didn't know how to explain this one, so all you did was nervously chuckle.

"Get it?" They only stared at it and back at you as you awkwardly walked away and went to Kyoya. You gave him a paintbrush keychain. "One of my clients told me you could paint?"

He smiled and took the gift. "Hm. Thank you y/n."

You grinned and walked over to Tamaki. He was like a puppy who was excited to get a treat. You didn't take any notice in the blush on his face, nervous yourself that he'd say something about the piss poor gift. You put a small bear keychain in his hand.

"I know you have a teddy bear like this, and I've seen your dorky led pencil with the bear on it." An arrow went through him. "So I thought this would be a nice addition."

"No offense," Hikaru said, staring at the gift in his hand. Everybody turned their heads to him. "But you know these are kinda useless to us right?"

You frowned, but quickly replaced it with a smile. "Yeah," you nervously chuckled. "I'm sorry. It's stupid, I don't even know why I got them. Sorry." You then quickly began to walk away. "I'm gonna get my stuff set up."

You made some special tea for your first guest since she mentioned last time it was her favorite. While you were doing this, Tamaki stormed over to Hikaru. "What was that about?"

"What?" He shrugged. "It's true. I don't get why everyone's acting like this is some treasure."

Kyoya began writing in his book. "According to my sources, y/n also gave her friends back home keychains. It's a gift that she can afford, but it seems to only be something that she only gives to those she holds dear." They all looked back at Kyoya, who was still writing. "Don't you think it's peculiar that right after she talked to her therapist, y/n said that she felt comfortable giving us each a gift?"

Kaoru didn't know what to say, and Tamaki grabbed Hikaru's shoulder. "Listen to me." He said quietly. "You have to apologize to y/n. She wanted to do something nice for you, and you showed your gratitude like a slap in the face to her."

He looked over to you in an annoyed manner, walking over and tapping your shoulder. You flinched but still mustered up a smile. Before he could say anything, the host doors opened.

He didn't get the chance to say anything for the next three hours, as you were always busy with a new guest. Over the three hours guilt began to plague him. Why was he feeling bad? It was a harmless fact. His chest felt heavy.

Finally when they were all gone, you began cleaning as quickly as possible. He tried to slyly get closer to you, but you noticed and kept moving to a new area quickly. It was annoying him. "Hey," he called out to you in a demanding tone. "Are you mad at me or something?"

You didn't look in his direction, busying yourself with cleaning. "No. Why do you say that?"

"Tch." He didn't have patience for the feelings inside him. "Why are you avoiding me then?!"

You, as well as the other hosts, were surprised by the sudden outburst. You let out a sigh, turning to face him and giving him a smile. "Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry that you had to raise your voice at me."

"Why are you still being nice?" He said in a quiet manner, embarrassed for yelling at you for no important reason. "I just yelled at you."

"Um, I'm sure you're used to having people's full attention." You offered a shrug, your smile still sticking. "People who're raised by hearing a lot of yes's are usually bound to be more demanding. It's only natural, so it's whatever."

"No it's not!" He raised his voice again. "You should be getting mad at others being rude to you. Don't be such a pushover!"

His words stung, and you dropped your smile. "Don't call me that." You said a little forcefully.

"You know what? Next time you go to therapy, work on that!" You didn't say anything and angrily continued cleaning while everybody stared at Hikaru. Tamaki was being held back by Kaoru, while Hikaru was just staring at you. Damnit. This was supposed to be an apology, but he made things worse. "Y/n—"

"No."

Your simple demand got everyone's eyes to you. Kaoru and Tamaki held each other from how scary you looked, while Hikaru stepped a few paces back. After a few seconds he was ready to retaliate with another comment, but before he could he was pulled back by Kaoru.

"Hikaru, try to calm down." Kaoru offered.

This got him angrier. "I don't even need her to forgive me! It's always been me and you, and we never needed anyone else! Why should that change now?"

They both stopped when they noticed you sadly staring at them. You then looked back at your cart full of dishes and rolled it away. When you came back you only saw one twin bashfully staring at you.

"Look y/n, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said those things, and—"

You began to giggle. "Wow, I never knew people thought of me as so much of an idiot to really not think I can tell some twins apart. Nice try Kaoru." He looked at you, shocked. You kept walking, before stopping to quickly say "I appreciate you trying though."

You walked over to the other twin, who was tied up and squirming under Tamaki's foot. You motioned for Tamaki to back down, which he did as you sat down next to the tied up twin, pulling down the tie over his mouth. "What was that for boss?!"

"If you cannot respect a woman properly, you will have to handled improperly!" You flashed Tamaki a smile for the comment, and he began rolling on the ground and muttering about how cute you are.

You turned to look at Hikaru, who angrily looked away from you. "So, I get it now." You grinned.

"Get what?" He shyly looked over to you.

"Why you're so nonchalant about everybody. It's because you're used to only relying on one person your whole life." He looked at you in awe. You really understood that. "Honestly, it's pretty amazing to look at. I wish I had a life companion like that."

"But don't—"

"Nope, still not gonna talk about that anytime soon. The point is, I get why you weren't concerned about my feelings, and the important thing is that you're thinking about them now...kinda. As long as you're actually sorry then all is good."

He looked away from you and muttered a sorry. You nodded and untied him, standing up to face the others. You let out a sigh and bowed politely. "I sincerely apologize for the unnecessary drama I brought to the club."

You felt a strong hand pull on your arm to lift you back up. You looked up to see Tamaki gently smiling. "Don't think you have to put your head down for us, and stop thinking of yourself as an outlier. We all enjoy your company."

You smiled back, and remembered what your therapist and you talked about. Try to become touchy feely with them. They're all still your friends.

You wrapped your arms around his neck, quietly saying, "Thank you senpai." You pulled back and saw Tamaki as a blushing mess, causing you to quickly yank back. "Sorry! Ugh, I knew I shouldn't have listened to my therapist about being more touchy feely."

"Actually," the twins said as they came to each of your side, back to their flirty selves. "You can do that with us!"

You let out a breathy chuckle. "You guys are so bipolar and I love it." You then walked over the Kyoya. "Are we all still hanging out tomorrow?"

He wrote in his book. "Oh course. Have you decided where we'll go?"

"Yup!" You grinned. "The swap meet!"

"Swap meet?" The twins asked.

"Well, I think you guys call it a flee market here in Japan." You then looked back at the twins. "Call me tomorrow morning so we can pick everyone up and go."

"Roger!" They saluted.

"Wait, y/n," Tamaki said.

"I'm sorry I made you uncomfortable Tamaki-senpai. I'll be less touchy with you from now on."

"Wait y/n! I did like the hug, I promise!" He sobbed.

You giggled. "You don't have to lie to make me feel better. Well, gotta go. Bye guys!" And with that, you left.

"Mama~"

"Is there a problem Tamaki?" Kyoya slyly smiled.

"What if y/n won't hug me anymore?! Who else would she hug?"

"Hm. Well, she could always come to any of the other host members—"

"Are you saying you would let my little girl hug you and smother you with love?!" He barked.

"Hm, if it helps her, then I suppose." Everybody else left Tamaki crying in the music room.

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Author's Note: Well, I don't know about you guys but this chapter felt like hot garbage to me.

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97-liners · 3 years ago

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HAHSHAJ heya it's Sol! If you don't mind I'll stay on anon for just a lil longer, nothing to do with you personally (I've been following your blog for awhile and you're lovely!!!) but honestly I just get irrationally nervous about being perceived online 😅 The anxiety will relax over time tho so pls give me a lil bit and I'll get out of my head funk eventually, and off anon! Talking with you is really fun!!! 🥰

HAHA okay about the Carat thing 😂 I was actually suuuper into SEVENTEEN's music when they first debuted, and went to their high touch event/showcase in 2017 when they visited my country! It passed by in such a blur that all I remember is that I made a goddamn fool outta myself in front of Dokyeom cos his megawatt smile all up in my face was just so unexpectedly overwhelming that I yelled out "BAM" and whapped his palm out of sheer panic HAHA 🤠 Knew their names, but at the time there wasn't as much content out variety-wise and over the years I kinda drifted away. More of a casual fan now, so I don't really feel like I'm deep enough to call myself a legit carat (yet?)! Also I just really like your writing style and voice, so at this point I'll give anyone you write a go because I know I'll enjoy the ride regardless 🥰

But

Jackie

Did you just say,

Thick thighs????????

Asking for a friend, who is certainly not me HAHAHA

Real talk though lmao dear lord you make the best case for beautiful man inside and out choi seungcheol 😭😭😭😭 I'm so, so impressed by the stories of his leadership and by the way people talk about it!? 'Attending every single meeting pledis meeting about svt so they don't get mismanaged' PLS MY HEART 😫💕 (oh after school :'((() That's a good, caring, responsible and caring man right there, everyone needs someone like him in their lives ugh ✊GOOD GOD, AND HE'S A NATURAL CUTIE????? WITH STRONG ARMS AND STRONG THIGHS?!?!;?! A BUILD A HOME FROM SCRATCH KINDA BODY?????? A MAN WHO IS THOUGHTFUL, AND GIVES OFF 'PROTECT ME' VIBES AS MUCH AS HE DOES 'I CAN PROTECT YOU' ONES!?! PLEASE I need to sit down... I'm already sitting down but I need to sit down harder

You make a very convincing argument 🤧 Seungcheol seksi wormhole here we come eheh ⛷️

bro!! you met seventeen?!?!??

ok ngl. until november 2021 (yeah two months ago), i didn't know anything about seventeen and i will admit that i thought they had 17 members (a reasonable assumption for someone who didn't know anything about svt!!). i think they first came on my radar in 2017 when they dropped don't wanna cry, and i listened to that song on repeat over and over and over again and tried to learn the choreography. i think I always knew that they made bops? like i listened to clap when it came out because it was an iconic bop. i liked left and right because it's also an iconic bop. i listened to rock with you because it's also a bop.

i only really got into svt because i started watching going seventeen in november after seeing a gifset of them playing shout in silence in the tribal games episode. more specifically, hoshi being completely terrible at shout in silence made me watch the episode, and one thing led to another....

before i got into svt, i really only could recognize woozi by sight (because he's smoll and cute, or that's what i thought before i learned the members). i knew of jun, because he's a living meme in chinese kpop fandoms and also because nct china-line talk about him all the time, and shortly before i started watching gose, i was obsessed with minghao, because he's exactly my type.

anyways all this to say: if anyone's a fake carat, it's me LMAO

i completely did not expect to become so obsessed with seungcheol but it just sort of happened!!! like ngl, i didn't even think he was one of the more attractive members at first. but he's got an insane body and huge thighs and arms. like, the boy is THICK. and i've always been bothered by kpop-buff guys like johnny who are actually really skinny and look like they'd snap like a twig if they tried to lift a really heavy object, but seungcheol looks STRONG. and then it spiraled from there!! he's so cute!! his laugh is an instant serotonin boost! i want to protect him but i also want him to protect me!!!!!!

anyways sorry for writing a literal ESSAY lfajslkfdjslkdfjl

#ask #sol

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photolover82 · 4 years ago

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The Masked Singer Season 4 Episode 10: THE SUPER SIX/THE SEMIFINALS Featuring a *TRIPLE GASP* Triple Elimination (Commentary & Guesses)

Oh hello friends! Welcome (or welcome back) to Ana’s Masked Singer Recap, the blog where I, Ana, recap The Masked Singer for all of you lovely humans. Today, we are recapping an episode that is wow insane and I have a lot of things to say (well not a lot, but I have things to say, ok? I am building up suspense here). We finally have all of the contestants together, groups gone, all 6 of them! So, let’s get into it... the recap is gonna look very different since you know, triple elimination, so you’ll see how it goes, it’s kinda gonna be like how I did the Group A and C finals.

Ok, so our Super Six are: Jellyfish 💚, Mushroom 🍄, Crocodile 🐊, Seahorse 🐠, Popcorn 🍿, and Sun ☀️

Ok so the format of this one was, um, dare I say, questionable, but the 2 masks from the same group go head to head and whoever loses goes home... yeah I don’t like it either, but here we go. Let’s start backwards with Group C:

Group C’s Battle is Jellyfish 💚 vs. Mushroom 🍄

First up was Jellyfish 💚 singing Stay by Rihanna ft. Mikky Ekko

Performance commentary: She did great, this song totally suited her voice super well, it was really great of a performance. I was really hoping she would do something move upbeat & fun, but it was still a good song choice, just a bit safe in my opinion. I still enjoyed it but there was no wow factor really compared to the others.

Competing against her, with the song Valerie by Amy Winehouse, was Mushroom 🍄

Performance commentary: ok his performance was pretty surprising, he surprises me every time he sings on the stage. I throughly enjoyed this performance, the choreography was spot on, I kinda loved it... That was until he started beatboxing. The beatboxing was a, um, interesting choice to do with an Amy Winehouse song of all songs you can beatbox to, but yeah it ruined it a bit ngl. It was a bit cringe, but you know what, he's versatile and we love that for him, so yay I guess?

Having said that, the person who lost this battle and was ultimately revealed was:

*DRUMROLL PLEASE*

Jellyfish 💚

Who was revealed to be...

Chloe Kim

Ok yes, I got it right! Look at me go, so far at 9/11 correct guesses! Anyways, yup it was sad seeing her go because she really did do such an amazing job!👏 to her especially since she isn't a trained singer and everyone else on there is (Super Six wise I mean). If this was any other season, she probably would be in the finals but everyone is insanely talented so I am not that surprised she got eliminated. She killed it tho! She should so consider singing like doing covers or something. She will be missed for sure.

Next, we have the Group B battle: Seahorse 🐠 vs. Crocodile 🐊

First is Seahorse 🐠, who performed Bruno Mars's That's What I Like.

Performance commentary: This was not her best performance ngl. She tried to go upbeat and do choreography which didn't work out in her favor tbh, but I'm getting ahead of myself. She was still amazing, but the song choice was not the best one, you know? Like she can go upbeat, I have faith in her because she is immensely talented it's insane. However, this particular song didn't suit her amazing voice. I honestly think she still did great regardless, I've just seen her do better.

Next came Crocodile 🐊, who sang I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing by Aerosmith

Performance commentary: Ok, I gotta admit that he nailed that performance, wow he really was like going through the competition kind of low key, but he really shone here. This was super amazing performance, he absolutely killed it, not the best one though (stay tuned) but still really great!

Ok, so who lost and had to take off their mask which made me super sad and kind of annoyed with this format:

*SAD DRUMROLL PLEASE*

Seahorse 🐠

Who was revealed to be...

Tori Kelly

I was really hoping that she would be in the finals, so this elimination made me (probably also everyone else on Twitter) pretty sad and annoyed because she didn't deserve to leave, Mushroom could have left in her place and I wouldn't be mad. Anyways, apart from that's I still guessed that it was her. 2 for 2! Woo hoo! I knew it was Tori Kelly from the beginning so yay. She really killed it & honestly would have been in the finals or even would have won if it was any other season. It is really sad to see her go, like Astronaut from season 3 if you remember how I felt about that you're an OG

Last but not least we have the Group A face off consisting of Popcorn 🍿 vs. Sun ☀️

First up, we have Popcorn 🍿, who sang Better Be Good to Me by Tina Turner

Performance commentary: Ahhh, ok I really wanted her to sing a Tina Turner song, and she did, which I was stoked about. However, this wasn't her best performance, I liked some of her past ones better. However, this song suited her voice amazingly, she really did a great job! Nobody did bad by any means, they are all amazing! So, yeah it was great!

Last but not least came the Sun ☀️ who sang When the Party’s Over by Billie Ellish

Performance commentary: Ok, this was THE BEST PERFORMANCE OF THE NIGHT HANDS DOWN no questions asked. She absolutely nailed this song and it was just her, her voice, acapella, almost no instrumentals and no dancers behind her. She legit made the judges cry! Like they usually talk & cheer when these people perform but they were dead silent, speechless. That tells you something, I could even dare to say this is the best performance of the season. Like, she better win & really bring it in the finals, because how can she top this? Idk, it was that good!

And the last mask going home is (are we even surprised at this point?)...

* DRUMROLL PLEASE*

Popcorn 🍿

Who was revealed to be...

Taylor Dayne

Yay! 3 for 3! I got 11/13 right now, kinda proud of myself ngl. As for popcorn leaving, I am not surprised, I'm still annoyed she stayed over snow owls but whatever she was great and an amazing sport. I loved her costume, it was the best one of them all. She's amazing and she will be missed

Ok that's it... Well I'm doing a part 2 because this isn't letting me put images on this blog post.. So I will share my guesses in part 2. Btw after this, we don't have an episode this week so December 16 I will be back recapping the finale

#the masked singer #the masked singer season 4 #themaskedsinger #celebrities #music #pop culture #tori kelly #chloe kim #taylor dayne #popcorn mask #jellyfish mask #seahorse mask #semifinals

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inactivespnblog · 4 years ago

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Supernatural 15x14 (Last Holiday) Thoughts

Ugh they really wanted to hit me with that "please forgive me" scene in the recap huh

This was just really funny to me, especially the way Sam says "it was in the 50s." Like the sass.

Please tell me they aren't going to use jack being in his room as an excuse to not really have him in the episode! I need to see him

Don't have to kill Amara too if Jack becomes new god, I'm just saying.

"Then we do what we gotta do" aw you gonna kill your girlfriend dean? (I just had to say that because that was the dumbest storyline)

"Dude, we fought the devil, I've killed Hitler, I think we can handle a few pipes" and sam's face after he says that is highly doubtful

Dean just pressing the button while Sam tries to tell him not to really just describes the whole show doesn't it?

Of course Dean would have Scooby doo boxers, like is anyone surprised?

"Language!" "That's it, I'm getting my gun" of course that would be his reaction

"But they were my boys. My family" "well that's very progressive" what is that even supposed to mean dean?

The sad look on her face when Dean says she can leave. I feel bad for her!

A mood

Abaddon did not actually kill all of the men of letters though? Sam and dean killed a bunch of them, though they were the british men of letters and not the ones she considers family. i don't know, just interesting to me.

Oh she's crying i feel so bad for her.

"What about jack?" love sam caring about his son

When jack showed up on screen, I literally squeeled his name and I just want you all to know how excited it made me.

He looks so sad dont hurt me like this

"She's making cookies, snickerdoodles. so if you want some..." i love how that's the first time Jack really looks at the door. Food is the only thing that can get this boys attention, huh? But then he just goes back to looking sad and it hurts me so much! Let this boy be happy!!!

"Do you think it's a good idea having her around?" "I mean we do have the son of satan living down the hall." true true but also dean, you were pretty hesitant about that.

Wow, they're becoming self aware. Who knew they were capable? But also, that's a bit hypocritical of you there Sam. Still love you though.

"Feels like Jack is hiding something." Please make that not true. i just want them to have a good relationship and be happy.

I love her so much for caring about Jack and trying to make him happy and making him a sandwhich like give Jack support please he needs it.

Okay but like those vampires weren't shown doing anything evil before sam and dean walked in so how do we know they were actually evil??? I'm not sure that not investigating is a good thing since it could lead to killing monsters that aren't actually doing anything wrong??? like are we going back to the early season mentality of just killing first? because i'm not a fan

Oh, she's doing christmas i love her. The decorations are so pretty

"Merry christmas!" Okay I never want this lady to go away. I'm sure it'll go bad and she'll be gone but i really do not want that. Her little dancing is great

"We are so keeping her" apparently neither does dean

Dean looks so happy and he's being so tolerable in this episode. I am shocked and confused

Just Sam's face, my god.

"Enjoy the world you're fighting for" someone needed so say it

Jack walks in and I get all excited and happy again, but ms. wood nympth seems to disagree by the tone of "this is jack?" please no but also his adorable wave makes me so happy. he's such a baby

"What are you?" Depressed, now leave him alone

"He's a millennial. Don't let that throw you. He's a good kid" i mean i still dont like dean but i love the supporting jack in this episode!!! But also jack is not a millennial? he's three years old. He was born in like 2017???

I love jacks smile when she gives him a smoothie but also am I the only one worried that the smoothies are poisoned? Like the writers don't let this child catch a break and with the way she was acting before I wouldn't be surprised.

Their faces when she tells Dean he can't have a smoothie and gives him tomato juice!!! I love it! Especially Sam and Jack's reactions

Why are sam and deans rooms so far apart? I mean like good for sam but why?

"Should i come or?" I love him he's so cute

How happy he is when he drinks his smoothie makes me so happy

Man she's gonna hurt jack isn't she? Please no.

"The only family I've ever really had is Sam, Dean, Cas, and... Mary" "Mary?" aw he looks sad again. poor baby

"Mary was Sam and Dean's mom and my um... she was a good friend." Wouldn't it have been great if he said grandmother? Also why didnt she asks about Cas?

"She sounds lovely. "She was but um i killed her." "Oh" lmao i can't just out of context that's just hilarious

"We all do things we regret, but life gives us second chances, and it is our obligation to hold onto them." Please don't let her hurt Jack! This is such a cute relationship so far. Let them be friends please I am begging. Jack needs more people to care about him

"Would you like another smoothie?" jack's fucking smile. I love him so much.

Jack looks so happy in this montage with his family!! Please spn i am begging you not to ruin this

Jack's halloween shirt is so cute! And I love that they're carving pumpkins! I wish Jack could have a Halloween where he went out and got to trick or treat with his dad's though.

I love sam smiling over at jack being happy but also don't let your three year old drink alcohol Sam like use some common sense dude

Sam has thor's hammer! I'm in love with this episode

I love that they had a birthday party for Sam! And Jack's adorable clapping makes me so happy!!!

To be continued with reblogs because Tumblr won't let me have more gifs.

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sativaaaaaaa · 5 years ago

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Just Us Two || Sarah Paulson

Part One 🔽

15: "I'm so so sorry."

16: "This is all your fault!"

|Reader's name is Gina and the baby's name is Ava. Time skip : 2 years later||

Gina

These past two years have been eventful to say the least. I found out that my daughter ended up having non verbal Autism. To any other parent that would be heartbreaking or something hard to deal with but I've managed to balance her and my job. Well... the job I did have. I've had too many scares with Ava's asthma so I ultimately had to quit to take care of her full time.

It gets a little hard.. Dealing with her on my own. I mean, I have family and friends and they do the best they can but when the sun sets and its just me and her in the apartment, things just aren't the same.

Since I don't have a job I can't afford Ava's therapy sessions so today was her last session for a while, just until I got some more money. She was making great progress though; we found out that music was a really helpful tool in having her interact and it was helping her make sounds and let loose. So in honor of her progress we decided to go get ice cream.

Everything was going smoothly until we ran into someone...

Zarlengo's Italian Ice and Ice Cream

"What do you want princess? Do you want strawberry or fruit punch?" As I was asking Ava what she wanted I held up one finger for strawberry and two fingers or fruit punch. Since she doesn't speak I've found ways and tricks to use when she has to decide between two things.

She looked at me for a while before holding up two fingers. I smiled and her before placing a small kiss on her nose as we moved up in the line. Once I made it to the front of the line I began to place my order.

"Hi can I have one scoop of fruit punch Italian ice and one small Arctic Cooler with strawberry Italian ice?" I shifted Ava on my hip while grabbing a $10 bill out of my pocket.

The cashier rang us up and handed me my change before we stepped to the side. There was some music playing lightly which made Ava kick her feet in excitement. Another smile appeared on my face as I began to dance with her in my arms while playfully nudging her nose with mine.

She let out a laugh before placing her hands on my cheeks and kissing my forehead.

"Thank you Avacado. Mommy loves her avocado's kisses!" I softly cooed at her.

The bell at the door rung catching my attention. I glanced over my shoulder just curious to see who it was but was immediately shocked when I saw Sarah walk in with her new girlfriend, Holland Taylor.

I quickly whipped around and thankfully my number was called. I walked up to the counter and I grabbed Ava and I's Italian ice before retreating to the back of the parlor so Sarah wouldn't notice me.

Seeing her made a bunch of old feelings, good and bad, bubble to the surface. Ava was the only thing keeping me grounded at the moment so I just decided to enjoy my time with her instead of worrying about who was around me.

Soon we were done and I grabbed some baby wipes out of my purse and cleaned Ava before collecting our trash and standing up.

"Come on Avacado, its time to go home." I picked her up and placed a kiss on her cheek but as I started walking to the door Sarah looked over at me briefly making eye contact with me.

I cursed in my head seeing her walk over towards me. I wanted to bolt out of the door but I stood there with Ava in my arms as she got closer.

"Gina? Oh my goodness. Um, how are you?" She stammered over her words seeming a little nervous and a little shocked.

"I'm as good as I can be. How are you?" My voice lacked emotion and my stare was blank. I was trying really hard to keep my cool but memories of her leaving and me going through labor by myself kept flashing in my head making me upset. But I concealer my feelings for the sake of Ava; I didn't want to frighten her and make her have a behavioral episode.

"Umm I've been. I've been okay I supposed. Who's this little cutie?" Oh.. So she wanted to act dumb.

"This is Ava, my daughter. She's 2." I gently tickled Ava's side to get her attention. She squealed and tried to grab my hand which eased my anger some - but not all the way.

"Well hi Ava." Sarah gave her a little wave and Ava gave her the same before laying her head on my shoulder. Sarah looked confused for a second before glancing at me for an explanation on why Ava didn't speak.

"She had non verbal Autism. Today was her last day of therapy for a while." I muttered trying to keep my cool. Talking about her struggles always made me upset. Not at her but at the fact that everyone basically left me at the first sight of trouble; Sarah included.

"Oh my goodness. I'm so so sorry. Why was this her last therapy session? Shouldn't she been in therapy until she speaks or something?" Sarah rambled on in a low voice trying not to cause a scene or draw attention to us.

"I can't afford it. So we'll keep doing what we can at home until I come up on some money to pay for her sessions." I shifted on my feet realizing that my anger was slowly growing by the second. It almost bursted to the top because she touched me... She grabbed my arm and tried to soothe me. Like really?

I stepped back from her as soon as her fingers grazed my arms. My eyes held fire but I kept my voice calm as I looked her dead in the eye.

"Don't. Touch. Me."

"Gina don't be like that. I can explain everything." She bargained with me. She reached out to touch me again but I moved away before she could.

"There is no explanation in this world that could vindicate what you left me to endure by myself. You just left without a warning, blocked me on everything possible without a second thought. Your careless and selfish decision made our friends feel like that had to choose and guess who got chosen. Certainly wasn't me obviously because if it was I wouldn't be saving everything I could possibly get my hands in to provide for the child that you wanted and left me with and now I can barely provide for her because the person who vowed to have my back through thick and thin decided to leave me when life got a little too heavy hitting for her liking. There is nothing you can say or do to ever get me to forgive you. This is all your fault."

Hot tears were streaming down my face but my voice never wavered in volume or emotion. Her face read nothing but pure guilt. She had nothing else to say. She just stared down at her shoes leaving nothing but silence between us.

I scoffed and wiped my face with my free hand turning around and walking away from her and out of the parlor. I tried to hold my emotions in as Ava and I walked home but the tears just kept flowing but I wiped them every time they fell.

I had to be strong; for myself and for Ava. I was all we had. No one else had our backs. It was just us two......

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|| Sorry if us this is a little trash. I just got off of work and decided to write this since I had a bit of energy left. But I digress. Avacado is Ava and avocado put together 𝒐𝒃𝒗𝒊𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒍𝒚, Zarlengo's is a real ice cream and Italian ice place where Im from so yeahhh. And an Arctic Cooler is half vanilla ice cream half flavored Italian Ice. Its really good guys 😭 But that is all for now. |

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Destiel Chronicles

(Vol. XIX)

It was a love story from the very beginning.

Tell me the Truth

(6x04/6x05/6x06/6x07/6x08/6x13)

Hello my dear! How have you been? I'm here with another volume from this Chronicles.

This time I want to talk about the truth as a recurrent topic in the first half of this season.

I'm gonna mix some bi Dean concept too, this will be mostly a Dean centric meta.

O want to give thanks to my friend @agusvedder , she couldn't make me the gifs for this meta but we discussed a lot about this topic. Thank you girl!

Let's start...

Saying goodbye to Lisa and Ben

Ok, I will collect here an amount of observations I made in several chapters in which we can see Dean breaking up with Lisa and Ben as his family.

In episode 6x06 Live Free or Twihard , calling back to 6x02, we had Dean feeling himself a monster and becoming one.

At the beginning of the episode, the Winchester brothers went to investigate to a house, a girl's room, vampires fan. Dean found a book and this is what he reads...

DEAN. Look at this. He's WATCHING her sleep. How is that not rape-y?

This is very significant because when Dean is turning into a vampire, he decided to go visit Lisa and Ben to say goodbye... So when he arrives, he just stays there by Lisa's bed watching her sleep. As a real monster. After this we all recall he pushed Ben violently and ran away. This was the beginning of the end.

In episode 6x06 "You can't handle the truth" written by Sera Gamble, even when it was a very Wincest episode, it had a very interesting topic about ASKING THE TRUTH YOU CAN'T EFFORT.

And related with Lisa here, he called her, and because he had asked for the truth, he receives the truth from her. A very hard one. She snapped at him this...

LISA: You've got so much buried in there, and you push it down, and you push it down. Do you honestly think that you can go through life like that and not freak out? Just, what, drink half a fifth a night and you're good?

DEAN: You knew what you signed up for.

Dean is excusing himself with her, she knew, he's like this. He won't change. Hunting is his life.

LISA: Yeah. But I didn't expect Sam to come back. And I'm glad he's okay. I am. But the minute he walked through that door, I knew. It was over. You two have the most unhealthy, tangled-up, crazy thing I've ever seen. And as long as he's in your life, you're never gonna be happy.That came out so much harsher than I meant.

Here, we have the pathologic codependency between them, but as it was written, and here's my opinion, is screaming Wincest all over, we know Sera was a fervent fan of the boys, and this doesn't surprises me. Lisa is being very hard and honest with Dean. Things are not Al right between them.

DEAN: It's not your fault.

LISA: I'm not saying don't be close to Sam. I'm close to my sister. But if she got killed, I wouldn't bring her back from the dead!

DEAN: Okay, Lis... I'm not gonna lie. Okay, me and Sam, we... we've got issues. No doubt. But you and Ben --

Here is Dean saying "Everything you had just said is truth", so more Wincest for the bag.

LISA: Me and Ben can't be in this with you. I'm sorry.

And this was the end for sure.

In this same episode, we had this scene...

Gif set credit @paladeckis

The woman is dressed in lavanda color, si, basically, is a Lisa's mirror here,asking for a lot of attention and Dean is giving her that not very hopeful answer... So yeah, Dean had decided which life he wants for him. Maybe, and as I said before, he doesn't feel he deserves a good life, or maybe because he feels like a dangerous monster that can destroy good things.

Now... Let's jump to 6x07 "Family Matters"...

There's a singular quote by the Alpha Vampire:

DEAN: I didn't realize we were on a first-name basis.

ALPHA VAMPIRE: Of course we are. After all, you were my child... for a time. Dean, tell me... did you enjoy it?

Ok, I know this is a creepy way to see it, but... Immediately after episode 6x06 we had this. And beacuse Dean is in the break up process with Lisa and Ben, this could be taken as a Dean/Ben mirror... Ben was the "monster's son" for a while, or at least that way is how Dean see it inside of him. So, symbolically, we are talking about that here.

Now... Episode 6x08 "All dogs go to Heaven" a very blantant Dean mirror with the dog-man here... First of all... Remember the monster watching in silence while the woman sleeps?? We have the same again here... The dog-man (skinwalker) his name was Lucky.

There was interesting words exchanging between Dean and Lucky, and please pay attention to Dean's speech...

DEAN: Hang on, Sam. [to LUCKY (MAN)] Listen, you don't have to tell me why you're with the family. I get it.

LUCKY (MAN): Oh, you do, do you?

DEAN: You killed every threat that came near them. You care about them, in your own whack-a-doodle kind of way. It's obvious. What I want to know is, who was that guy you were kibitzing with? He a skinwalker, too?

So... Isn't it Dean talking to himself? Do he feel like a abandoned and hurted dog that needed a refuge? A family? Now... Check this other quote...

DEAN: What are you gonna do to that family, really? You gonna put your jaws around that little boy's throat? Clamp down, listen to him cry for his mom? 'Cause I'm gonna guess that these are the only people who in your pathetic life have ever showed you any kindness. So it's either that... or you can help us stop it.

Again, the scene of Dean pushing Ben against the wall when he was about to transform into a vampire (a monster) and then... Again talking to himself. Is so blantant that my heart broke instantly...

After this, Dean decided not to shoot him bc he knew that dog was him... But things didn't end well for Lucky...

When he tries to come back to Mandy and her son, this is what happened...

MANDY: Get away from this house, you psycho. And if you ever, ever come near me or my son again, so help me...

LUCKY (MAN): I know I probably deserve...

MANDY closes and locks the door.

This is the end for the monster that wanted to have a family, the difference here is... Dean really wanted to have this kind of life?

And the answer we already know...

Gif set credit @frozen-delight

Dean is puting salt on the windows while he's saying he's out... Tell the truth Dean.

And in 6x13 "Unforgettable" Dean said another thing to his brother (to himself) to put a final period here...

DEAN: Sam, y-y-you got to understand that all that crap last year -- all of it -- none of it was you.

Ok Dean, we get it. This last year trying to be a man with a normal life and family, it wasn't you. It was a lie.

Sam's lies and foreshadowing Castiel's secrets

Before to continuó with this meta... I promised you some bi-Dean scene... Here you have.

Look how Dean checks out the police man and he even greeted him that way. As we know... Dean likes uniforms... 😉 (This gif was made by my gorgeous friend Agus!)

Ok... Let's start with the brothers here...

We all recall that scene when Sam just watched as Dean was turned into a vampire. Ok... So Dean saw it too. And that was one of his biggest alarms about his brother. This happened in episode 6x05.

In episode 6x06, another interesting parallel with the Winchesters brother and Sam's lies.

SAM: You know what a "tell" is?

OLIVIA: Excuse me?

SAM: It's a poker term... for when you're bluffing. Like what you just did with your hair.

OLIVIA: What are you trying to say?

SAM: You're lying.

DEAN is surprised at the force of SAM's inquiry.

OLIVIA: What?!

SAM: Tell us what you did to your sister.

Ok big parallel each time Dean wanted to obtain the truth about what happened with the vampire and why he didn't take care of him.

So after this we had the big scene with VERITAS, and very very WINCEST thing right here...

Gif credit @whiskeyandwhine

Look at their hands touching... Yep very disgusting and very Sera Gamble era. 😒 I'm just pointing things here for you to see what this woman wanted to do with the show.

Let's see continue now with CAS.

In this same episode we had another confession that could be analyze as a parallel and foreshadow of Castiel and his secrets.

SAM: So, you had some idea Corey might have taken her own life?

ROOMMATE: Well... she had been going through a bit of a hard time lately... at school. And then, um, her cat, Mittens, had just ran away. But, really, it was her boyfriend. She was sure that he was cheating on her. But he was just very good at covering his tracks. Which, of course, made her completely obsessed with --

Ok we are here talking about Castiel... The "boyfriend" term will be use by Balthazar twice, one with Dean and the other with Sam, referencing to Castiel. Castiel is the boyfriend, and he is cheating on Dean and Sam.

Gif credit @never-forget-viva-la-pluto

Gif set credit @sam-spirit-winchester

Also, making Balthazar calling Castiel as the Winchesters's boyfriend, equally... Another SERA GAMBLE tool, "look Cas isn't Dean's boyfriend, is Sammy's boyfriend too, so... Is irrelevant."

Episode 6x07 we had the boys discovering SAMUEL was working for Crowley, so the entire episode is a big foreshadow of what was about to happen when Dean, Sam and Bobby discover Castiel's deal with the King of Hell. And is also the episode in which the idea about Purgatory and the power of souls is presented.

And ironically, we'll have Dean and Sam literally working for Crowley too, so ... A little hole in the narrative here... But hey... We don't talk about this Season, don't we?

To conclude

Dean asked for the truth and he had it with his brother and he will have it with Castiel, the problem is... Is he ready to handle it?

The first half of the season was a foreshadow for Castiel's secret and we could see in many episodes how the writers showed us what Dean felt by leaving Ben and Lisa and how he will have to handle with a big betrayal.

In Sera Gamble era we had a lot of references to Wincest and holes in the narrative, that we will see more often in the incoming episodes.

I hope you like this! C-u in the next Chronicles!

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If you want to check the previous season 6 Chronicles, the links are here: XV, XVI, XVII, XVIII.

Buenos Aires July 11st 2019 1:47 AM

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