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Another finished baby quilt! The first photo is more color-accurate than the second
#sewing#handmade#quilt#baby quilt#I was calling this the#pink lemonade baby quilt#but the backing colors are like all colors of Sesame Street characters and it’s so bright and cheerful#that instead I think I’ll call it the#sunny days quilt#that means pretty much nothing I name my quilts just so I can refer to them easier#but I like sunny days! like the song lyrics! I think I’ll make a little plushie sun to go with it
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Headcanon that Leo really loved to give his family massages growing up. We know that he’s good at them from the episode “You Got Served” and we know he likes spas and relaxation and getting massages himself from when he tried to get these in “Bad Hair Day” and from when Donnie made a tennis ball massage machine in “Smart Lair.”
So I think it’d be cute to think that maybe one day Leo overheard Splinter complaining about a bad back and immediately Leo thinks back to a comic or movie or something he saw where a massage helped so he offers to give one and it actually ends up helping Splinter.
Then April swings by the Lair at a later time and mentions her back hurting because of her backpack from school and Leo’s all like “I gotcha!”
From there, he occasionally manages to convince Donnie to sit for one because Donnie’s shrimp posture does not help him any (Leo pokes fun at how sandpaper-y Donnie’s shell is despite knowing it’s always like that and Donnie smacks him for it.) Donnie usually prefers hand massages instead however as all his typing and inventing adds up over time, and shoulder massages too once he starts wearing his battle shells more. Leo also figures out how to give massages to Raph and Mikey’s shells as well, though it’s a struggle at first to not scratch his hands on Raph’s spikes.
I think since Leo has such bad luck with spas and the like, he tries giving himself massages (though it’s not as helpful.) Like, with how his abilities work his legs are probably always aching from his portal jumping and one foot landings, so maybe he branches past back massages out of a need to help his own aches too. (Though he really wants a shell massage himself, the same way he’d give them…the one time with Donnie’s tennis ball massage machine was but a short moment of what Leo’s been missing out on and what he’ll continue missing out on…)
I don’t know, I just think it’d be cute to think Leo could have honed his massaging skill this way in order to help out his family (and also partially because he wants a massage himself.)
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#rise leo#this unironically is a smidge pointing to the medic Leo headcanon too#because massages are really good at relieving pain you didn’t even know you had#not just for backs but for your hands your feet your neck#poor Leo just wants to be the one getting a massage for once in ‘Bad Hair Day’ but no#he’s really good at getting everyone else to chill and rest and relax in general it’s very interesting to see#unironically I wonder if Leo could be really good at meditation so long as you call it relaxation instead#also after the invasion I’d imagine everyone has some aches and pains#ironically enough Leo himself likely has the most from the sheer amount of blunt force trauma and potential broken bones#so it’s sad to think the one who massages best is the one who needs it most alas#imagine a time where Draxum finally manages to get on Leo’s good side and Leo hears him complaining that his cafeteria job gives back pains#and Leo’s like UGH FINE I GUESS I’LL HELP#I also like to think that for all they tease Raph for his ‘chasm’ Leo sometimes will massage Raph’s face#and when he does Raph finally relaxes enough to look his age#when Mikey starts growing hair he loves when Leo massages his scalp esp if he’s helping to wash it too#mayhem doesn’t like Leo much at first but QUICKLY warms up to him because of how good his pets are#smart lair shows they all canonically love massages actually I was reminded! so this makes even more sense with that too
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Thinking about them…
#Dungeon meshi#laios touden#touden family#Toudad and momden#The laifam. The touuu… tou… toudamily? Help idk#Laios holding onto his dad like that after a near death experience after he ran away from his warnings gets to me so bad.#Dad does care dad was so worried and he WOULD stick with u thick and thin he just thinks about ur sake#w momden i also almost put the exorcising Falin thing instead but that wasn’t Laios centric enough#I’ve been writing a laios pov family angst fic lately i’ll be posting it real soon#Gonna be called Push the deciduous out of my gums you’ll know it when u see it#Sigh. Isn’t it neat how the Toudens are scandinavians but Toudad has an interest in myths so he gave his dogs and Laios greek names#That “he never told me anything” panel is prob my fave touden family moment like god what good framing what good hollowness in the delivery#Momden having debilitating anxiety but caring so so much and being overprotective and overdoing it my beloved. Peeking in on them eating#Dad too busy and mom too bedridden to share meals :(#Is the mama reading book pic very tiny and blurry? Yes. Do I have a better resolution of it? No#Could that be a servant peeking in and not their mom? Yes. Do I believe so? No
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they were so insane for this
#fe owain#fe olivia#fire emblem#dont think this game has a number assigned tf do we call it. few????#who rly gaf about this game honestly (i did. bought every single dlc.)#BUT UGH. CROSS GEN AWAKENING SUPPORTS. AND THEY WERE VOICED!!#this one was my fav. for obvious reasons. owain and olivia friendship… omg… like bro that is ur aunt 🥺🥺🥺#its so cute… owain’s probably like ‘wow olivia ur so kind and nice. now why is your son Like That’#i wish he couldve talked to cordelia too but whatever. we got her with luci instead i’ll take it#i wish more second gen awakening kids made it in tho… yall have no idea how heartbroken i was when inigo and sev didnt make it in#and i was like ‘the next warriors game for sure!’ :/
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lowkey glad i got my wisdom teeth out now because im getting used to barely eating and i know once school starts im gonna have to start getting back in the rhythm of one meal a day because i don’t do lunch (vent in the tags mb)
#tw eating issues#i look thinner i think and i like that#im trying to keep up this eating pattern to get used to it when school starts#i’m learning how to keep my stomach from making noise which is good#it’s fucked up when i think about it but whatever#anyway i’ve been meaning to vent for a while about this#only thing im nervous about is having physics my third and second to last periods but ill figure it out#im trying to lose more weight#i think im doing good on my soup diet tbh#i’ll keep it going as long as i can#i hate how i feel after eating though#im considering learning how to water fast#i think that’ll help#anyway this git dark sorry#i’m fine im just in a bad headspace#i’ll be fine#ill stop when im satisfied#vent#i wanna go from small to extra small tbh#i wanna be thinner#i hate this#ive been dealing with it since i was twelve#whatever#tw ed#idk can u even call it an ed?#sometimes the only motivation i have is knowing if i keep eating im gonna look gross when i go out#i’ll be fine i’ll stop when i want#no one will even know it’ll be so easy#it makes me feel in control#like i’m in control here instead of the thoughts
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If ya can’t project onto fictional people WHATS THE POINT 🗣️🗣️🗣️
#call me Michael Afton the way we both got parent issues#it’s mommy issues tho instead of daddy issues lol#manipulative bitch I mean whaaaat!!!#‘’you have sympathy for everybody but your mother’’ GIRL GET OUTTTTTAAA HERE#maybe it’s cuz you called me lazy and a coward at the height of me being a suicidal teenager <3#SORRY RANTING#personal#venting#I’ll delete this I’m just so mad bro#why do I come home for the summer from college. what was bro thinking!!#it’s cuz I love my brother and my dad and my doggies sm that’s why
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Op… you make a lot of interesting claims in this post. To get the facts straight before I go on a rant… 1) George claims that Rhaegar was a love struck prince 2) the books don’t mention anything about any marriages being annulled/anyone being set aside 3) seems like Dorne has no issue with Rhaegar and 4) Ned literally never thinks anything bad about Rhaegar… but thinks ill of Robert.
First off, a man trapped in a duty bound marriage and finding love outside that marriage is completely different from a whoremonger shouting about his love while visiting brothels whenever he could. And guess what… Ned straight up thinks that Rhaegar didn’t seem like someone who’d visit brothels. Robert and Rhaegar couldn’t be any more different.
And when did Lyanna want to be wild and free? When is it ever said that Rhaegar locked her in the tower of joy and that Lyanna was a prisoner?
Ned never even alludes to there being any truth in any of these claims. What we do know is that Lyanna greatly resembles Arya in looks and personality… and Arya wants to be a high septon and kings counselor, meaning Arya wants to have a position of power and not be reduced to a baby making machine. Going off of that… it seems like Lyanna didn’t want to be “wild and free,” she just wanted to be treated with respect. The only reason Arya is even treated like she’s wild is because she doesn’t conform to the Westerosi standards for highborn women.
And of course she’d feel miserable when she heard Aerys killed her brother and father. Aerys. Not Rhaegar. I wouldn’t even be surprised if she felt guilt about what happened, but in the end it was Aerys who brutally killed them. And then Rhaegar goes to protect his family and dies, and then Rhaegar’s family is brutally killed and then Lyanna dies. George did claim that the greatest love stories are the tragedies (i may be misremembering but i know he said something along the lines of that lmao).
Op, you claim that Rhaelyas love would’ve died after getting news of the Starks deaths, and then you try to suggest that Rhaegar may have been keeping Lyanna isolated from news in Dorne… like please pick a story to go with! And Rhaelyas love dying or Lyanna not being kept updated on what was going on outside of Dorne just doesn’t seem to be true. When reading Neds chapters, it seems like Lyanna was fully aware of what happened to Rhaegar’s children and Elia… as Lyanna pleaded with Ned like how Sansa pleaded with Ned to not kill Lady (hope i’m not misremembering here lol). And Rhaegar dying with a woman’s name on his lips (likely Lyanna’s name) and Lyanna clutching a winter rose (this may just be symbolism for baby Jon tbh) until she passed away seems to contradict your belief that their love died.
Also, where are you getting the “Rhaegar would suggest to set aside his kids and wife to marry Lyanna” from? The show? You mention how Lyanna would not be okay with this, and I agree that Lyanna would never be fine with setting Elia and Elia’s children aside. But even thinking that Rhaegar would ever even suggest setting aside Elia and his children is bonkers. Like seriously… there was so much tension between Aerys and Rhaegar that the Royal court was said to have begun looking like the situation before the Dance of the Dragons. And Dorne was Rhaegar’s greatest support! Why would it make any sense for him to annul his marriage with Elia? And please remember that during the sack Rhaenys hid under her fathers bed. The text supports him loving his kids/his child who wasn’t a baby seeking to be protected by him so why would he endanger them and their positions? (and no, disappearing with Lyanna for awhile isn’t him endangering his family. Aerys was the one who endangered his family (hot take brandon was the one who endangered the starks like wth was he thinking???). and tbh it seems like Aerys knew exactly where to find Rhaegar so did Rhaegar and Lyanna even disappear? or were they just keeping their location a secret from the rebels? the rebels who ended up killing Rhaegar’s family?)
I will say that how op first started to characterize Lyanna is something I agree with, her being principled, noble, honorable, and just with a sensitive side seems to be true, but then op goes on to continue to claim that Lyanna was wild and that she had little regard as to how other people perceived her. There’s no reason for us to believe that she didn’t care about what others thought of her or that she was wild and wanted freedom more than anything, it just seems like she dared to tread away from what was expected of Westerosi highborn women and that she didn’t want to be married to Robert. And guess what… Robert ended up being an abuser! *gasp* Lyanna dear… you clocked Robert right away.
And seriously… how does any of what op mentioned back up their claim that Lyanna would never resign herself to the position of a mistress? Is being a mistress/paramour really that bad? Does it truly seem like Lyanna would look down on those women? Her mini me Arya doesn’t look down on the courtesans of Braavos who occupy a similar position as mistresses in society. And it seems like plenty of noblewomen have been mistresses in the past and they are still as respected as a woman can be in Westerosi society. Missy Blackwood and Elaena Targaryen are right there. And Op, if Lyanna was Rhaegar’s mistress, why would you think that Lyanna couldn’t have been happy? Are we going to doubt Ellarias happiness and her love of Oberyn because they weren’t married? Should I doubt Rhaenyra and Harwins happiness because Rhaenyra was married to Laenor? Rhaegar and Elias marriage was not a love match. And if Rhaegar and Lyanna did marry… ever wonder if polygamy was introduced as a Valyrian practice by George to hint at Rhaegar taking a second wife? Should I now doubt Rhaenys and Aegons happiness and love because Rhaenys was Aegons second wife?
Now can we please stop acting like two people married due to duty have any reason to love each other? Nedcat seems to be an exception in Westeros. Lyanna and Rhaegar falling in love isn’t ruining Elia and Rhaegar’s marriage when love wasn’t there in the first place.
haha my whole post is a bit messy i just wanted to get my thoughts out :)
fuckkkk i want to tag more (my tags are a mess lmao no i’ve not gone through them and no they will not make any sense)
#robert was a brute#when did lyanna seem disgusted by roberts bastards?#seems like she was just disgusted by roberts behavior of claiming to love her while visiting brothels#say it with me folks: there’s not a single mention of rhaegar loving elia their marriage was for duty#so no rhaegar is not like robert bc rhaegar found love outside of his marriage of duty#robert treated lyanna like an object and never even saw/loved the real her#lyanna clocked that and later fell in love with a man who loved the real her#aka the knight of the laughing tree#yeah the text hasn’t truly confirmed anything yet but at least my version of events isn’t contradicted by the books#omg ppl need to stop acting like being a mistress is some morally corrupt position god damn#nedcat you will always be famous#but jon snow will always be even more famous#bc he’s rhaelyas love child#rip rhaegar lyanna and elia i’ll save you guys from tumblr bad takes#i love that george makes it clear that marriages of duty can be nasty affairs#and tumblr desides to demonize characters who dared to find love instead of criticizing the system of selling daughters off like broodmares#like bruh i would be sooo happy to learn if elia had a paramour on the side#i’m looking at you elia x ashara shippers#tho i don’t think that they had a romantic relationship i do find it hilarious that ppl who claim rhaegar is horrible and endangered his#…family turn around and applaud elia for potentially doing the same…#couldn’t be me tho i pretend that rhaelya and their children are perfectly happy and that elia found love as well#as i think rhaelya were well in their rights to go against the system that tried making them miserable and i hope elia did the same#these tags are a mess and kinda don’t make sense lmao#rhaegar targaryen you will always be famous#asoiaf fandom critical#rip boar you will be missed#robert deserved worse#ppl need to stop acting like rhaelya is homewrecking when george himself calls elia and rhaegar’s marriage complex#jon will learn that his parents were in love and he’ll learn good shit about them and he’ll think good thoughts about them#and then this fandom will go insane and jon will start being hated like dany for daring to love his parents
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ughhh I need to stop having mental breakdowns over little things.
#vent in tags#chat sesh with iris#vent#tw vent#I feel like everyone hates me and even you all hope I die and nobody likes my ships bc everyone thinks I’m not good enough for my f/os#and the worst part is that none of it is unfounded!!!#none of my friends are talking to me AT ALL anymore even when I start conversations#(including in text)#while they actively talk to other people WHERE I CAN SEE IT!!!#only one of my friends is and all they do is send me anti bs and go ‘omggg these people are so weird!!!’ about like anyone who ships with-#certain characters (including ones that I SHIP WITH!!! which is why I don’t talk about it other than here)#people are like ‘omggg… I hate it when men like these characters. you don’t get them and they’d never love you.’ about my f/os#which triggers dysphoria and self loathing and fear about my ships#tw suicidal ideation#<- somewhat#I don’t like anything about myself and I don’t deserve anything that I have#man. I don’t even want to be here anymore#also I have severe mental illness that has caused a lack of possibility for happiness that lasts longer than fleeting moments#I have not spoken (like aloud) to anyone other than my parents since THE THIRD!!!#I’m going to ask my psychiatrist for testosterone on Wednesday but idek if I’m gonna make it until then#probably I will because I’m too depressed to gather the energy to do it#also she might even say no or not be able to prescribe it#and this isn’t even why I’m the most upset rn but I REALLY need a win#also my mom was like ‘you haven’t given me another name so I’ll just keep calling you the name I gave you 😊😊😊.’ instead of. idk. asking me?#tw suicide#okay yeah the tag is fully warranted now#I like know how I’d do it and everything#I also had a panic attack because I couldn’t find my quilt hashtag just autism things!!!#not takeover#obviously
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a raisy moment that i always think about is that one time that daisy called ryke babe. i’m 90% sure this is in long way down and 100% sure it only happens once but it was incredible give me 500 more
#yall know the tiktok sound? no? i’ll see myself out….#i hate the way connor calls rose hun at the beginning of their relationship and a few times later. it should’ve been babe#but i think he uses babe when he’s in Schmoozing mode as a signal to her instead 😒#but rose is suuuuuch a babe girl i would not be able to resist using that one on her#in the same way ryke is a babe guy#but lily and lo are neither babes nor babys sorry if you don’t understand but just trust me#mine#addicted series
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please for the love of god. if you’re critiquing a trans person’s view on gender (especially trans women) do not call them a fucking terf. you mean gender essentialist. yes‚ gender essentialism is like the main part of their ideology and it’s quite harmful to literally every trans person. but there’s a difference. like a huge one. terfs are also BIOessentialists (you are defined by your sex) and the kind of person some of yall are calling terfs are GENDER essentialists (you are defined by your gender). you see how a trans person is very unlikely to be the former? if you call a transgender gender essentialist a terf‚ they’re just gonna laugh it off‚ and you’ve accidentally undermined your entire point
#head in my hands#so for any sane people without context#there’s a lot of blogs recently who have been pointed out to be gender essentialist in ideology#gender essentialism is just bioessentialism recycled into something more trans-friendly#and i get the line of thinking that leads to it! but when you’ve been hurt you really shouldn’t throw other people under the bus#it doesn’t fix you‚ in the long term‚ and it DOES hurt them#ok i’m off topic. where i was going is that people are calling these sorts of people out on their bullshit#except they are making the blunder of calling them radfems/terfs. which isn’t true.#and they ALWAYS reply with the “radfem??? you think i (a trans women) hate trans women??? lol lmao” gotcha.#i have seen like 7 of these posts alone on my dash today#back to how gender essentialism is bad: it harms like… so many people#from trans men who feel like their true selves are something horrible and disgusting#to young men who could have been allies to our community and instead got radicalized#and i’m pretty sure that most of it is perpetrated by cis radfems!!!#but SOME of it. is on my dash. on tumblr dot com.#siiiiiiiigh. i dunno if i should post this.#and if i’m wrong about any of this‚ it’s up for debate. i’ll try to listen as long as you read the post#i talk#discourse
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i cannot fucking believe that this thing that was supposed to get rid of my period has 1. not done that and 2. has in fact made it Worse and longer and more painful . hello
#hate it here!!! i was gonna wait for the dr to call me but i think i’ll call today instead. bc Ow my legs fucking Hurt#get this thing out of me pls!!!!
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january is finally over…
#im so tired… can the year just end already?#now that it’s feb… ig it’s time for my annual tradition of finding ways to skip cny gatherings a g a i n#‘it’s been a long time since we last saw [my name]’ my relatives say. y e a h that’s kind of the point </3#haven’t spoken to them since that time i cracked jokes at my grandma’s funeral a couple years back i think#maybe i’ll finally get back to idol sengen if i can skip this year’s cny gathering lmaoooo#but well. that depends on whether i decide to continue to read the 6.6k+ page long epub over the break instead lol#anyways yeah that very long epub is why i’ve been inactive. who has the time to pollute the interwebs when you can read instead—#some words do kinda stick out as possibly mtled but it’s still eons better than some of the official tls out there o o o p#like man. sometimes official tls are worse than the fan tls </3#especially for this certain series that frequently typoed the characters’ names. sometimes even multiple times through the same chapter#l i k e . lmao. who is ‘partytia’ supposed to be? her name is ‘bertia’—#anyways the epub is calling byebye
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cult leader geto is a loserboy btw 🙏🙏
#pls spread the word!!!!#no but i’ll forever die on this hill actually he is. the cutest guy in the world#he’s so FUN bc he can be so cold and ruthless and twisted but it depends entirely on who he’s interacting with#when it comes to someone he’s in love with i firmly believe that he’s a whipped soggy loser of a man#he’s the type to get irrationally upset after you off-handedly call him “buddy” instead of “baby”#even if it’s been 10 years since you last saw each other and you’re technically broken up#he’s also the type to give you the meanest most pathetic side eye when you don’t say ily back#he’s a POUTER and dare i say it’s canon even ……..#also begs you to sit on his lap while he’s working bc he “can’t focus otherwise :((((“ but he rlly just wants your attention#idk i just think the world needs to open its eyes to loverboy loserboy geto bc he’s real to me#hhhhHhh i wanna write my cult geto fluff fic NEOWWWW 😔😔#ari noises ✩
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blurry wife this. party wig that. but we dont talk enough about Dean Jr. no one wanted Dean Jr either, right????? because Dean had two(+) juniors and one of them (thee canonically biological one) was killed BY SAM. the irony.
i get it, sure, but i don’t like it
#i was debating queuing this for the 19th but i cant hold it in#i’ll self-rb it then instead#im just thinking of all the injustices#written a paragraph comparing it to hp like imagine hp couldn’t cope without dumbledore and just unalived himself#right in front on ron and hermoine but then youre forced to sit through a fifteen minute montage of ron and some blurry chick living happily#ever after like no one cares what just happend to hp this is good media right yeah right okay cool#LIKE WHAT#but i’ll save that for now#destiel#spn 15x20#give sam a kid since wanting to get out of the life for 30+ years sure fine its not even with eileen whatever but to CALL IT DEAN#when you didn’t save him. you REPLACED HIM. literally call the kid ANYTHING else#it makes me so unwell#(jk about the good media and not needing eileen. thats meant to be heavy sarcasm i hope you understand. im not okay about any fof this)
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I lowkey want to write a fanfic based off of my book. I can already imagine it it’s a slow burn coffee shop au 400k words enemies to lovers.
#tumblr fyp#books and reading#books#writing#author#fanfic#lol#I’m posting this instead of writing 😭#it would be like everyday Juliet gets coffee at a small shop called coffee break#and she orders something super long and pyra thinks it’s really annoying#and one day Juliet orders a regular black coffee and pyras like what no long order today princess#and she’s like making fun of Juliet for being rich and Juliet’s pissed bc all the long coffee orders were for her friend Ruban#and shes like is she calling me spoiled and she’s rich but it’s bc her dad made profit off of her older sisters death by making a podcast#about it and selling merch#Juliet doesn’t even know she’s a regular here so now she’s mad at pyra and starts ordering long and complicated orders for herself#and pyras now hates her bc she has to make the drinks#and so they do it like everyday until something happens to Juliet like her sister comes back to town and she misses a week of getting coffee#and Ruban comes in and orders his insanely long coffee order and pyra recognizes it and is like oh are you getting this for Juliet#like do you know her and rubans like no she’s my friend she always gets my coffee for me when we have early meeting or wtv#so pyra realizes and is like I’ve been hating on this random chick forever and I have no idea how she’s doing I can’t ask ruban or I’ll#sound insane#next time Juliet comes into the shop they’re doing their normal think yk but pyras not that invested anymore bc she knows about Juliet now#ummmm some other stuff happens but like that’s it#yap fest
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#vent#vent post#cw negative#Seven’s Public Diary#wish i wasn’t so fucking worthless and useless and stupid and selfish and mean#i am just so goddamn sick of my own bullshit. but i never change#i’m so tired of being weighed down by my 56492 mental illnesses. i don’t like being like this#my sleep schedule is so fucked up again and im tired of this constant cycle#this constant fight and endless effort to stay on a goddamn routine#all i want for christmas is a goddamn consistent sleep schedule#i hate sleeping through the day and being up all night but it’s like my body was fucking built for that or something#i don’t like it!! i want to be an early bird who goes to bed at 8pm and wakes up before the sun rises!!! but im the exact opposite!!!!!!!#i wish i just didn’t need to sleep at all. that would be the ideal. so many problems would be solved.#no i Really wish i just had the ability to fall asleep and wake up whenever i actually Want To instead of my body calling the shots#fell asleep at 9 this morning and im so mad that i didn’t get up when i was woken up at 11#a 2hr nap would’ve been fine and i would’ve made it through the rest of the day and been able to fucking sleep again tonight#but noOOooOoOo i had to give in to the allure of my warm cozy bed and fall back asleep for 9 more goddamn hours#now once again im too awake and rested to be able to go back to sleep. but once morning rolls around im gonna be exhausted again#and i’ll either give in and attempt to take a ‘nap’ and it’ll turn into a 12hr sleep again#or i’ll have to like. walk laps around the fucking house just to keep myself awake through the day#and i’ll be super irritable as a result and make everyone around me miserable too#but everyone is already beyond fed up with my issues and behavior. rightly so i guess. so i lose either way#god there was so much stuff i was gonna/supposed to do today#i don’t know how much longer they’re gonna put up with me being such a deadbeat#you think that’d like. motivate me to get my shit together or something but no. i’m addicted to being unconscious i guess#sleep feels so fucking good. until i wake up. which is funny bc it’s all nightmares and stress dreams anyway. why do i even enjoy sleeping#i guess bc for the first few hours after waking up i experience some modicum of relief from my other mental illnesses’ symptoms#like a soft reset.#and it’s the Only thing that gets rid of my migraines so god forbid i get one of those bc then i Have to sleep regardless of the time of day#anyways! :) that’s enough whining for one vent post. time to go do something productive
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