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Can you do a mean sukuna that gets mad at y/n because she starts flirting with a random guy ??
it was all because of him, really.
had he actually been decent, gave you small amounts of attention, wasnt always eyeing other women when it came to doing small tasks for the house. it was finally his fault, him having to watch you jokingly flirt with another man— a random guy who just happened to be there.
yet, sukuna— a demon, throws his tantrum and plays the silent treatment. he fucking hated you right now, because how dare you flirt with a man who isnt him?
hes literally a demon, and that guy is a fucking mortal who couldnt possibly have you head over heels. he cant stand to look at you, because the fuck did you mean ‘his large ass print was showing?’
sukuna had a bigger dick, be so for real.
“so you finally understand what i have to deal with or are you still going to flirt with other women?” you scoff, arms folded and tapping your foot. “shit is ridiculous.”
“its different, you damned woman.” he growled, looking to you. “youre fucking going around to random men and then telling them that they have a big cock.” oh, that mustve struck a nerve since you hadnt seen how massive he was. hes got you cornered, hovering and glooming over you. it wasnt your fault, had the damn demon knew how to act and got some sense, he wouldnt have to reap what he sewed.
“and you dont find random women and say they have good hips for breeding? and multiple women? when i only spoke to one man?”
“it’s different, thats just a normal compliment.” he starts to snarl, fangs on display and his face scrunched up. hes got you by your collar, eyes bearing into yours.
“yeah, maybe back in the golden days, but we in the mustard yellow and that ‘compliment’ has expired.” you snarl back, spitting in his face.
he would put you in his place but… you spat in his face? it takes him a second to process that, has a woman ever spat in his face before? what exactly do you do? he blinks at you twice.. and he can tell you have half the mind but you stand firm..
not until he has your face and stomach planted into the mattress, body bouncing up when he fucks into you from behind and has his hands digging and holding him up by your back. he hated having to remind you he was a supernatural being, a creature from many centuries ago who still is from b.c.
“cant spit on me now, can you, brat?” he asks, his hand holding your head into the bed and he spit on you. “some shit when you got me pissed and … fuck.” he groans, feeling your walls clench down on him. “fuckin’ did this probably because you wanted attention, huh?” he asks, a harsh slap to your ass. “answer when im addressing you.”
you try to nod, eyes peaking from the bed to watch the both of you in the mirror.. but he makes eye contact when you see it. “oh, you wanna watch? thats fine.”
he scoops you up, pressing your back to his chest—and your knees to your chest. you can see it, how he splits you open on his cock and how deep it sinks in. “watch me as i claim you, shouldve been did this!” he growls guttural, your body moving up and down on his shaft.
he was using you, something you needed so bad from your supernatural demonic boyfriend.
#dvorahasks#true form sukuna#sukuna x black reader#sukuna ryomen smut#jjk sukuna#sukuna ryomen#ryomen sukuna#sukuna#sukuna x you#sukuna x reader#ryomen x you#jujutsu ryomen#jjk ryomen#ryomen x reader#jujutsu kaisen ryomen#ryomen x black! reader
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no its mainly arguing that nexus isnt actually innocent at all and everything he did was a conscious choice that he made of his own volition and that ppl saying "he isnt self aware/is too mentally ill to be aware" and use it as an excuse to justify his actions are very painfully wrong. nexus has shown self awareness and guilt (see the episode where dark sun picks him up and hes talking to himself and keeps telling himself to shut up bc he keeps thinking about wut he did to earth). and even when ur mentally ill and do something bad its still ur own choice
also how ppl seem to think its just. really fucking strange? that u WOULDNT like someone?? after they actively tried to kill u??? like bitch if my life long friend tried to kill me and called me just "collateral damage" theyd need to do some hard fucking work to gain my trust back bc u dont just do that to someone and expect them to not care
theres also a bunch of other things of everyone blaming the family AND NOT NEXUS HIMSELF for wut hes doing. they didnt even know wut he was feeling or doing for a while. they accidentally fueled him by asking how to bring solar back but they accepted he probably wouldnt come back. but ppl blame THEM for not even being aware of the situation. oh and also blaming the family for not helping him bc "moon had hallucinations!!" they didnt know about that either. all sun (not the others) heard was that he was talking to things that werent real. sun didnt know wut the extent of it actually was. he didnt know that it was that bad.
ig a lot of it is just the blatant lack of sympathy or even just basic understanding that this situation sucks for EVERYONE and not just ur specific blorbo. this isnt a thing where the victims arent also perpetrators in some way. the VAs have said themselves that nobody is right nor wrong in this situation. but ppl r just kinda stuck in this black and white thinking of "nexus good family bad" when NEITHER of them r good nor bad. but im more focused on trying to defend the family bc apparently ppl just. think that theyre all in the wrong and should be punished for wut they did to nexus (which, again, they didnt know and it was still his choice to do EVERYTHING he did)
honestly i have a lot more and its just being angry about how the fandom has been treating nexus like the victim as if he didnt hurt and ATTEMPT TO KILL multiple ppl. idc if hes "mentally ill/unstable". its still his choice and he still has to own up to his actions. (and im saying this as a mentally ill person who has hurt ppl in the past. it was still my choice and i still had to make up for it.) he shouldnt be able to get out of this without trying to make things right and apologize
i have so many thoughts about this show but id probably be killed for going against wut ppl (aka hardcore moon/nexus fans) think
#birdcage rambles#pacing around my room angrily#and the thing is#im too fucking tired to be a hater#ive discovered the joy and whimsy of actually interacting with things i like#that i just dont wanna deal with this shit#no matter how angry it makes me#litreally wrote a giant thing in my notes app and after 30 minutes (and brief discussions withmy friends in between) i just sat there like#''yeah i aint doin all this shit''#might just send wut i wrote to one of my friends so at least SOMEBODY says something#also can this fandom PLEASE learn media comprehension and the ability to understand that characters dont know everything#while WE as fhe viewers do??#thats the whole point of suspense and part of wut makes things fun#its seeing characters fuck up bc they think one thing but the truth is another#and its then getting angry bc WHY CANT SOMEBODY JUST TELL THEM#but thats the whole fucking point#anyway#i only slept for like *checks watch* 4-5 hours#im tired#my limited time deal of being hater is over/silly
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at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!
#i have had this stupid fucking rule for myself for years since i was little#''dont speak unless you're spoken to or else something bad will happen. nobody wants to hear what you have to say unless they ask''#I TELL MYSELF THAT ALL THE TIME????#AND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WASNT NORMAL#thats not something that healthy people think to themselves whenever they want to talk to people. they just talk to them#they dont tell themselves not to speak to people for fear of what may happen to them jesus christ spacie#i get so scared when i message anybody ANYTHING#bc everything and anything i wanna talk about feels so stupid why would anyone give a shit#staring at a funny joke i want to send someone for 30 fucking minutes before deleting it b/c my brain is like ''errmm who cares?''#''also they're going to yell at you for wasting their time!!!''#i sent my friend a meme once and had a panic attack (or maybe a flashback?? im still trying to figure out what they are) immediately after#this shit sucks dude. it sucks#at least im processing what happened to me. thats why it hurts so bad rn its been stockpiled for like.#2 decades#im not looking for any sympathy here im just putting it out there#so that anybody who feels the same way i do know they're not alone#ive been struggling everyday for like 2 months now (actually DEFINITELY longer)#it will get better. things just need to be taken one step at a time#i have gotten thru my worst days i have a 100% success rate#how many days have i been alive#7930#lightwork#lets keep it goin#vent#trauma tw#trauma mention#wrote this post thru a flashback btw!! dealing with them is getting easier#before i would be unable to function for days at a time!!!#with one of the most recent ones i had i was so in the thick of it i avoided everyone i knew for a week cuz i was convinced#i was an evil unlovable freak that only wanted to hurt people
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week 7 of menstruating and I am so so tired
#im gonna give myself until next year for my uterus to get shit straight or im gonna get hysterectomy done#honestly this is so fucking shitty#tahbso is another option and then i can just start on hrt right away with estrogen patch#with absolutely no need of progestrone bc hey!!!! no uterus!!!!!!#another option is lng-ius coil specifically jaydess but it's progesterone based and I don't want to deal with the potential side effects :(#i know jaydess technically has the lowest amount of levonogestrel but i really dont wanna risk it#im already suicidal half the time im on the combined pills to treat this shit#sorry tmi but arghhh im frustrated#chrmz.txt
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If i start posting dc stuff on here, it means i lost the fight w myself. The demons won. Im sorry
#chattin#realistically i will be making a diff blog for it#bc its. its alot. and i dont want to engage w the fandom via posting#maybe.#but i def dont want to talk to anyone in there#there are so many white people from ohio in that fandom. ill die for real#ive ALWAYS liked bman and supes stuff. i just. well#theres too many comics. its too confusing. theres too many shows. too many contradictions#and really dogshit movies that are too grimdark for me to enjoy#prob the only fandom where i have to cherry pick the things i like out of the main series things#to make a story and set of characters i like wo making it feel overwhelmingly ooc#also. u cannot give me alien characters and NOT make me go insane#but no one is interested in it in the way i am. like w specbio stuff#this is what happenee w d/bz too. like where is the love of making goku a little monkey freak of nature and not Human w Superstrength#all the freaks are hiding from me. where are they…🥺#i dont care about canon lore for why clark is more human than youd think#thats BORING. more emphasis on the sun affecting him please.#i was about to write some incredibly suggestive specbio shit and realized thats not appropriate in these tags for This post#just know that i care. i care so much. all my alien ocs are weird. and i wanna do the same w supes#and i wanna do the sawe w the little mans#and i want to write humans dealing w the little things that remind them that hes an alien#the kitty eyes glint in the dark. the almost nonexistant heartbeat. standing motionless for hours at a time#weird vocalizations when hes ‘sleeping’. weird vocalizations that come out when hes happy or spooked#the way he flies. the way hes both indestructible but incredibly lightweight (or dense if u prefer)#ugh#ill make a blog for it. bc its gnawing at my brain now and it wont leave me alone
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the goddamn show came out
#no actual hate tbf i dont think its BAD but. very annoying on a personal level if youre greek sorry 💀#i think the past couple weeks have been horrible for a lot of reasons and i do not have the energy to like#be reminded of dull takes on our mythos every 3 seconds esp when they hardly even acknowledge greece exists its just fandom blorbo shit#its annoyingggg its annoying i dont wanna see it i want it Gone#i actually think pj itself is a pretty middling example of this though. again its not bad esp compared to like booktok shit#a lot of it is often the /fandom/ but even still i find it annoying#at the very least the show does have jason mantzoukas which is more than the books did w like. acknowledging greece lol#to be clear tho i dont think all the characters have to be greek or played by greek ppl i think its cool to have a diverse cast play gods#and their kids and whatnot. its mostly just abt like somekinda nod to where youre taking it from i guess? acknowledging the culture#that still exists! in the books they go to fucking italy ffs whats the deal#basically i have complaints and find it annoying bc it doesnt care about greece like most things about.... greek mythos#so im not excited to see it all over my dash i just think its very annoying personally sorry#ppl can still like it and have fun with it idc abt that but doesnt mean i have to like it either 🤷♂️#ergo. blacklist my best friend do your thing and get it away from me. and we will all be at peace again
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highkey thinking of moving main socmeds again....
#mine.txt#im very picky with what fandoms im in andhighkey the ls and uu fandoms are steadily approaching into dont wanna be here territory#this isnt due to any specific events lol ive felt this way since like two weeks or so after s6 started#i mean im sure its cause a lot of ppl from twitter joined considering the same thing happened with hc#and ive seen a lot of ppl whove outright said they came from twitter move here so....#my friends and some ppl i wanna keep tabs on are here so i probs wont but idk#couple it with the fact that there seems to be a lot of ppl who dont give the slightest shit that spokes still a minor#in addition to all the typical fandom sins or racism; misogyny; ableism; sanism; etc and its like...#man theres just a lot of shit i dont wanna deal with#i dont know what socmed id even want to move to considering theyre all either lacking or irritating#like i like pillowfort but you cant tag talk the way you can on tumblr#cara seems cool but its a lil too professional for what i want to do lol#and ive long given up on deviantart#hmmm idk ill try looking ig#once i find a socmed i like ill probs be deleting freakinator lol soz freakinator enjoyers#actually that seems too drastic; on second thought ill just password protect it cause i like leaving bridges unburnt lol#theoretically i can just talk in my friend discord#but unfortunately i like reading strangers thoughts too much its one of my biggest downfalls in life#hmm idk ill sit on it ig
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why do spiders exist and how can i get rid of them. permanently. with no damage to the ecosystem just cut and delete
#currently posting from the tenuous safety of my bathtub as it was by the door#and now its probably in my clean change of clothes#can i shower in peace??? hm??? can i? Can I?#big ass fucking harvestman. vanished in a blink#i turned away for One Second#fuck fuck fuck it was On the light switch#why is my life?#its always fuckin somethin smh....#if someone could just snipe me real quick thatd be great. dont wanna deal with this#i gotta start keeping my killing stick in the bathroom stg theres always a spider in here#absolutely unprompted#im gonna look down and its gonna by crawling up my towel#that is a valid fear its happened Before#and also yes i know harvestmen arent spiders. but they look like it so they count in my fear#NOW THERES A FUCKING SILVERFISH???? WHAT IS THIS? MINECRAFT?????#i am soooooo going to bed early tonight. hard reset. im done w today#gonna use my extra towel to whip the shit outta my surroundings#'take a shower' they said. 'youll feel better' they said#its always. fucking. Something.
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alright!!!! kitchen CLEANED ‼️ carry on PACKED ‼️ now i just need to do my homework and then maybe take a really really really quick (4 hour long) nap before dinner/online class. then i will grind on the silly silly why did i decide to do this animation meme/animatic until 3 am hits and i've gotta hit the port. the AIRport :3
in exchange for my incredible unprecedented productiveness i made this little doodle just now. i'm actually a liar i did this in school but still
#honestly killer could be doing fuck knows and i wouldn't even know. still love him though#at this point???? at this point i dont even keep up with his characterization i will not lie#horror and dust are my favorite children im sorry killer. you'll get your time to shine when the seasons change#which is probably soon idk man whatever i love them all ewually :333#anyways killer's just not sleeping in that one. bro's had the longest streak of no sleep he aint breaking it now#erm ACTUALLY he's looking at the viewer and therefore breaking the fourth wall and thats soooooo cool#triglycercule what are you on#why are they all sleeping in the same bed#well obviously because they didn't wanna deal with multiple#but also they cannot be bothered to cuddle close together#dust kicks too much. horror steals too much space. killer sometimes just sits up for several periods of time#worlds craziest sleep#killer actually could be sleeping in that one but i just dont know#but triglycercule didnt you draw this and therefore should know what he's doing?????#idk man killer's an enigma i cant control him 💀💀💀 he does his own shit whatever#i lov making killer so crazily abnormal its so silly#who cares about canon (i do) ok well still im having FUN doodling#shut up and get back to rereading askdusttale and horrortale and something new#alright........ (pitifully limps away)#i tag some things rants when its actually art but i just dont want my art tsg 2 be littered with doodles#maybe thats bad. maybe i should start tagging properly#ok rant tag removed........ iGUESS this is art#euaghhhhhh but its just a DOODLS!!!! IT DOESNT DESERVE TO BE CONSIDERED GOOD ART WORTHY OF THE TAG#but triglycercule art is art no matter if doodle or not. stop belittling yourself for naught!#i hate when i get inspirational and supportive on myself man can i just suffer without some knowitall up my ass#i sound insane rn what am i doing. the bit is not funny#and i changed my mind this is a rant again not art#tricule rant#see it WOULD be both if i wanted to do dual tags. but i dont
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i hate when people portray michael and/or patrick as some kind of master manipulator who was terrible to shaun and stormy. like, in the past, michael sometimes got portrayed with little autonomy, or as childish and overly innocent in a weird way. that in itself is an issue with the treatment of mentally ill characters (infantilization), but the solution isn't to argue that he's actually a monster who only wanted to hurt and mislead people. the same goes for patrick. i don't enjoy the "goofy flirty mass murderer" interpretation for very similar reasons, because in the canon patrick did indeed do some wild shit but i think it's a stretch to say it was out of malice, except maybe towards eric lol
obviously there will be different views of these characters and this isn't meant to be gatekeep-y or anything, i'm just concerned with how certain portrayals can quickly slide into negative biases towards mental illness. i think if you're going on this route you might want to ask yourself why, and consider how it could make the mentally ill people within the fandom feel when they see their own symptoms portrayed by their peers as synonymous with being dishonest or manipulative
#og#not putting this in the tags because i'm kinda just spilling my thoughts onto a post#i just saw something about michael on another site and it really rubbed me the wrong way#i know a lot of this came from habit saying all that shit in GOODBYE to shaun#i just dont understand why people think habit was telling the truth#he did explicitly say he wanted to break shaun after all. and we all know how Honest And Reliable he was with vinny#like. in the series nothing points to michael being the secret cause of everyone's woes. i would argue it was implying otherwise#and i feel... sad that i sometimes see him being blindly characterized as a complete asshole or as Super Manipulative#like... i had to deal with most people in the fandom hating shaun not that long ago until it started to change for some reason#and frankly? id really rather not watch that same bullshit happen to poor michael. the guy was just trying his best....#i sometimes see this sort of thing from people who really like shaun and i just wanna say#you don't have to twist everything michael did into some terrible action just because you feel bad for shaun#like for starters there's plenty of times where they're both wrong. or miscommunicate. or where ones right but says it in a terrible way#and it's also like. yeah michael fucked up sometimes but you'd have to be high to think the same isn't true of them all#idk. im rambling and idk how to end these tags. ummmm. yeag
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i think the most we will get is PC release (if that) this year but that means we gotta deal with those trolls bc changing angrb0da’s skin color is such a big deal to these mfs and i still dont understand that sweet baby inc shit bcuz all the information im seeing is just bundled bullshit LMFAOOO i feel like her actual character gets overshadowed by the made up problems and no one actually talks abt HER as a character or even analyses her fr (outside of here ofc) lol sms abt to make a banger with her and atreus istg
#Truth be told i dont even wanna talk abt this anymore but this topic gets brought up pretty much every week atp#How weird is it that u would only accept her if she were white#Thats literally you admitting you like her character but her being black is a deal breaker#I feel like no matter how much they want her to be a white girl changing her skin wouldnt change their opinion abt her#Theres this one (big) acct in particular thats constantly shitting on rag and its like bro u need to just leave if ur not happy#or take a long ass break and come back at times and then leave again cuz hes just miserable as fuck and yall know exactly who im talking ab#I do see more people getting annoyed with this topic and i dont blame them#its getting super out of hand and dragged out atp#Once again i do not want ppl to like her out of PITY. she deserves a very honest group of fans and if those fans are ppl#That disliked her at first but started to like her later on thats fine as long as its out of being genuine#I cannot wait for her to gain more fans fr but i have to be careful what i wish for bcuz i dont want ppl to become too crazy lol#I might just post smth on that god forsaken reddit as an appreciation post of her or smth idk yet LMFAOOO#I for sure will have to be more brave and visible with my love for her one of these days#also very grateful for that one ragnarok vp. he loves angie for sure#Anyways#Love angie for life#Gow#god of war ragnarok#rant
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Just out of curiousity why dont you like people tagging your sonic and shadow art as ship? Feel free not to answer if you dont want to but id like to know :} hope youre having a good weekend!
I just don't like the ship, and none of my art shows them being romantic, so if people read that as ship it would be first of all really annoying, and second of all, imagining things that arent there and that I didn't mean to put in the artwork xd this isn't what my art of them is about is it. It's also a very popular ship so there's a higher possibility people aren't going to be normal about these two in together in the shot. I usually don't need to worry about people tagging other ships because barely anyone does that anyway xd
#and it can be so annoying and disheartening to see people look at my art and immediately decide it's about their ship#a ship I dont even like!#if people kept tagging it as ship anyway id probably just stop posting the two of them in the same pictures and posts lmao bc why bother#just for people to disregard your intentions like that#anyway whoever tags it as ship generally gets blocked -_- I don't wanna deal with that shit..
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left him feeling p good
#yes make me feel like you genuinely care and wanna talk to me and then stop when you meet someone online in a day#and get mad at me for getting attached#just what i need when im trying to recover good thing i dont have to deal with it now!#lettuces.txt#trying not to believe everyone gets bored of me and im replaceable only to be proved right real awesome#hope he gets karma and grows as a person#caring and loving so deeply for people who don't give a shit about me
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my team lead told me im one of the best employees on the team even tho im one of the newest to join lol so i told him straight up that im not happy being paid the least esp. when i have more RELEVANT experience than my classmate who joined the team 3 weeks after me 🥴
he agreed that it's scummy but he said he had no control over it and all he can do now is to try to vouch for me to get a better raise this year but he can't guarantee anything...
anyway i almost cried saying all tht too goddd why am i so timid it's genuinely so embarrassing and how indecisive i am too rip man 💀
#hes been nicer to me than usual#and hes been rly supportive these last couple of months idk#ive been complaining abt this shit for months to my friends lol it aint that big of a deal ig my ego is just hurt n i felt undervalued#i would change jobs but i just feel like this role suits me rn and i dont wanna move away#so other than the unequal pay and lack of training (which is now being fixed) like i dont hate the job#anyway#dl#nic.txt
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I've been an absolute emotional wreck since last night due to my narcissist father making me feel less than human so can i..........ask for some reassurance that i'm not an absolute failure of a human being
or pictures of your cats, that would help a lot too
#its been months of dealing with his abuse and last night it left me feeling worse than ever and i am just#really exhausted and mentally broken rn#and i hate asking for reassurance because I always feel like a bother and I should just deal with shit myself until it passes#but when i say last night was bad it was bad and i feel like i am not even meant to be alive that is how that man made me feel#so i just wanna be selfish this one time#and ask for spare kindness because i could really use it right now because my feelings arent going away#no matter how hard im trying to distract myself today and i dont have the strenght to stay like this for a week or more#so yeah#gomen for rambling in the tags im just really#idfk embarrassed and ashamed i dont like asking for help i feel dumb even tho i know its not dumb but yeah#txt
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it hurts so bad !!!! i dont know what to do i feel like im freaking out it's like i need to scratch my chest and just keep scratching and scratching until i can crack my ribcage open and rip my heart from my chest im !! i cant calm down i can barely even breathe T-T
#always aloneeeeeee#and idk idk it just gets harder and harder to deal with this on my own#i have been surviving this heavy intense feeling all on my own for 15yrs#but it only gets worse and worse and i just#it gets harder to deal with it i dont want to#i just want everything to be over T-T#i cant stop cryingggg#i wish i had someone to text and be like hi i wanna kill myself plz keep me company uwu#u know what would distract me? being someone's sex toy!!!!!! 😭💀🙏 plz uwu??? 🥲#whateverrr i dont care i'll beat the shit out of myself and cut a bit and hopefully calm down 😃#tho genuinely everything gets worse and worse and i freak out worse and worse im scared bc i cant hndle it#it's been 15yrs i cant deal w it anymore#bro just let me have a bf who beats me and makes this feeling go away and then holds me nd babies me while i cryyy 😞
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