#that he has been living rant free in my brain

[llepto]

may I offer you this creature ?

[paranoidomens]

stuck in my brain

trigger/content warning(s): mentions of depression, self-loathing, and hurt/comfort. i think that’s it but if there is more, please let me know

a/n: i am currently listening to stuckinmybrain by chase atlantic and had to put my thoughts into words. this is my first time writing since 2016 and i might be a little rusty. sorry in advance. please feel free to give your criticism in the comments. and lastly, i hope you enjoy :))

you were never good with expressing your emotions to people. it wasn’t something you were proud of either. trying to articulate how you particularly felt in your heart was hard, and quite a waste of time in your opinion. you trained yourself to isolate and keeps things to yourself. you were always dismissed or invalidated by people in your life when it came to your feelings: that is until noah showed up in your life.

noah has always been infatuated with you since the day he saw you. you attended a bad omens show and met him at an after party, and you both hit it off instantly. he has always been intrigued with how you look, the way you carry yourself, and how you speak. although he wonders about what your pretty little head thinks about and how you feel. he’s never the type to force anything out of you, but he does worry about you 24/7 since you guys became a couple. he feels like he’s known you for decades and also knows nothing about you at the same time. he doesn’t know how you feel or what you think about at certain times.

you’ve had a history of depression before you two met, and he knows that. he knows that you have your lower moments, but does he really know how you feel? what you think? why you feel that way? like i said, he never pushes you to talk when you don’t feel like it, however, he’s curious on how he can help you more. sometimes he doesn’t sleep much because he’s overthinking about it. he wants to help you, guide you through your highs and lows of your emotions. but you won’t let him. you can’t let him.

“love, i’m home!” noah shouted. he puts down his keys, looking for you. his eyes roam around the living room, wondering where you could be. walking to your room, he hears faint sniffles coming from your bedroom. oh no.

“love?” noah knocked on the door, opening it and seeing that you’re covered in blankets with the curtains closed. “go away.” you say. but your heart wants him to stay. you’ve always hated how you push people away when you hit a low, especially when it comes to the people you care about.

don’t go. please stay. i need help. you think to yourself.

“y/n, my love, what’s wrong?” noah softly speaks, joining you under the covers and his hands roam to your physique. “i don’t want to tell you. it’s stupid.” you whisper. “nothing is stupid when it comes to you. you know i would never push your boundaries when it comes to talking, but i want to help you. trust me when i say this.” you finally turn and face noah, and he sees your tear-stained cheeks. they’re a rosy pink, and he wonders how long you’ve been like this since he was gone from tour.

“i have been stuck in my brain recently. i don’t know how to get out of this funk. i hate this. i feel terrible for shutting you out when you want to talk to me. every since you’ve been touring, my mind keeps dragging me in a dark and lonely place. i don’t know how to stop thinking this way. i want help, but i don’t know how to ask you. ” you rant to noah, tears streaming from your eyes like an angry and rapid river. you feel vulnerable letting your lover hear about these dark thoughts that he’s never heard from you before.

“y/n… you know you can always talk to me. i want you to come to me whenever you feel too much, when you hurt too much. that’s the whole point of us being in a relationship. we help each other out when we need it.” noah strokes your face, pushing the stray hairs away. “i will never judge you. i hope you know that. especially when it comes down to how you feel. promise me you’ll start coming to me when you’re low.” noah adds.

“pinky promise?” you ask, holding out your pinky and earning a chuckle from your lover. “i pinky promise.” he says. you finish explaining and apologize for holding on to your emotions, which he tells you not to say sorry for that. you continue to work on opening up to noah more frequently. he’ll always be there for you, especially until the end of time.

sorry for the short blurb, but i hope you guys enjoyed! let me know what other types of content you guys would like for me to write! all criticism is greatly appreciated, and don’t forget to write your ideas for me to make so i can get the gist of writing again. thank you!

[eldritch-spouse]

HI AGAIN. Ever since I found your blog and also sent a totally normal ramble abt cannibalism I've been just. Gently tossing your guys back and forth in my head. You're a wonderful writer and I'm always excited to see you on my dash!!

Gonna throw my hat in as asking an actual question- How would your guys fare if their obsession had a particularly weird or morbid interest? I get the vibes that some of them would most certainly encourage it but I also feel like Vinnel would hit me with a hammer if I panic infodumped about ebola-

[Hellow, glad to see you again! Also, I know you probably just forgot, but "your guys" encompasses way too many characters to talk about at once, so I'll assume you were going for TCE staff.]

Morell especially likes hearing about your cannibalism infodumps. They're actually useful to him, since he's going to be living with you, and he needs to know what he can and can't feed you, as well as a possible child between you. It's actually interesting stuff, he'd like it if you talked about it to his family too, you're a smart piggy. Any other topics are usually met with less enthusiasm (unless kitchen/food related), and he'll ask you to quit it if you start talking too much about mushrooms. Overall, it's nice background noise to work to.

Patches is all about infodumping. In fact, you're subjected to it often too, even if he doesn't always stop to explain basic concepts you'd need to understand his rambling. He'll give you a recorder he has, so he can keep the sound of that boundless enthusiasm in your voice forever. He's much more participative than the others, asking various questions and tossing random scenarios at you that'll prompt you to learn even more. There's a potential he'll get distracted and stop working to just research this with you the whole day.

Gallon loves a weirdo -No offense- Feel free to dump all that morbidity on him, he soaks it up like a sponge (so does Martin, be careful). Although he prefers to let you speak unhindered, only egging you on when it seems you're getting passionately angry about things, there's a chance Gallon may begin his own little tidbit sharing regarding a variety of poisons and toxins. He's selective with what he lets slip, but figures it could interest you.

Santi likes listening to you. Doesn't matter what it's about. There's only one thing he doesn't want you to morbidly talk to him about, anything featuring kids. Other than that, you think a rant about the intricacies of cannibalism's effects will kill his mood? Hah, nice try. He usually doesn't have anything smart to say, but may actually pitch in with some first hand details if you mention something sexual and morbid.

Let's face it, this is going in one of Grimbly's eardrums and out the other. Unless, you can talk like you're in a true crime podcast, then he's all ears. Grimbly typically responds to these interests by bragging to others about how his Mommy's "so smart" and "cultured" and he learns so much with you! You should start a YouTube channel!

Nebul likes to hear what you think is morbid. He'll let you ramble when you've been good enough to earn his attention, or if it allows you to keep obeying him. He has his own morbidities to share with you, as a wraith who has seen the darkest parts of many a mind. Surely, you of all people would be fascinated to know how the brain reacts to very invasive types of trauma only some monsters can inflict...

Vinnel will use this to his advantage during shows. You're placed in dangerous games where the whole goal is for you to explain said morbid concepts to the audience while Vinnel or Jingles try to destabilize you so you'll fall into painful contraptions or get cut/bruised/undressed. Sometimes Vinnel pays attention to your infodumps, other times he openly doesn't, it's a coin toss.

Belo sincerely discourages you from seeking such dark information in your brain. A lesser's mind is like a canvas, and it shouldn't be furnished with such desolate knowledge... If your morbid interests somehow can shine a glimmer of positivity or utility, the angel will be a little more inclined to letting you keep pursuing these topics. Otherwise, Belo actively attempts to distract you.

Sybastian doesn't understand about 80% of what you're about to tell him, but he has all the time in the world to sit and listen to his favorite person spit words. He's not verbally communicative during these episodes, but he may clap depending on how impressive the information is, and he remembers things you say enough to sometimes present you with paraphernalia vaguely related to the topics of your morbid interests.

Fank-e is a good bet because he can add onto your information in real time, or correct small detail you may get them wrong. He's generally happy to give you links to more information sources and try to match your level of knowledge, uncaring of how dark the subject theme may be.

If there's one thing you can infodump to Krulu about, it would be diseases. Plagues and ailments of several types are his specialty, the chances of him imparting bits of knowledge you absolutely should not possess on this matter are high. Another thing you may infodump to him about is corvids. It gets him in very favorable moods, surprisingly.

[amuseoffyre]

Thinking about the fact Izzy has been so convinced that "Bonnet did something to my boss's brain" because he didn't understand what was going on.

A big part of this is a frog-in-a-pot situation. He said himself that he's been cleaning up Ed's messes for most of his life.

He went into his role to work with the legendary Blackbeard. He met Ed waaaaaay after Ed has been through the worst and most traumatising stuff of his life. His father's death was so formative in his childhood and his self-loathing manifests itself in the shape of Hornigold, his (tor)mentor. He has hated himself a long, long, long time and Izzy doesn't know it. He may be free from Hornigold, but he's still living in that world, in a culture of abuse and violence, and his history casts a long, long shadow.

So Izzy goes into this situation with someone he idolises and works his way into the position of first mate and things are good at first, but when the bad comes, it comes on slowly, like the frog put in a pot of cold water and the heat is slowly turned up.

Even when Ed is saying things "haven't died yet, maybe I we should try that", Izzy thinks he's just being deliberately obtuse. Izzy's frustrated rant in episode 4 of S1, when he points out that he's the one holding the crew together for Edward says that this has been a long-time pattern of behaviour: increasingly erratic moods and impaired judgement.

But because it's happened so steadily, escalating over a period of time, Izzy hasn't realised that the water is heading towards boiling point. It has been for years. Ed has felt stuck in a rut, running in the same old patterns and sinking more and more into despair, treading water, waiting to drown.

Stede didn't do something to his boss's brain in the way Izzy thinks. Stede just showed Ed he could do something different. It let Ed be happy for the first time "in years, maybe ever".

Only because it jarred with so many many years of Izzy's experience of the way Ed has lived - or just existed - for the past decades, surely that meant something was wrong in his brain. Izzy can't understand it for what it is, because he is from the same messed up world as Ed. He has never seen Ed actually happy. He thinks he has, but Ed has never been happy, not until he had a space and place to explore who he really is.

Izzy finally breaking because the boiling pot is fully boiling is so important. He's finally forced to admit it's all gone far too far. And even then, he still doesn't realise what Ed is actually trying to get him - them - to do. It takes Ed pushing a gun into his hand, describing his death dream and then posing for Izzy to do it for him for Izzy to fully get it.

And then Bonnet - that vapid foppish imbecile - comes back. Not only does he come back, he takes one look at the state of the Revenge and the crew and somehow, he knows what Ed was doing. He understood what Ed was doing when Izzy had to be told directly. And not only that, Ed has trusted him with things that he may not have even told Izzy.

Izzy is forced to face the knowledge that maybe, maybe, this man actually knew Edward better than he ever did.

[t4t4tclethian]

The moment Joel realizes he has a crush on xB is, objectively, quite a funny one. He’d almost certainly be laughing about it if it had been anyone else. As it is, though, he’s hopping mad, extremely indignant, and deeply embarrassed about the whole thing. Who ever heard of a hitman falling for their mark? (Well, a lot of people have- it’s a whole romance cliche for a reason. But it wasn’t supposed to actually happen!)

(ao3 link)

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It had all started a few days earlier, when Joel had been hanging out with the other Magical Mountaineers in the breakroom. Gem and Impulse were poring over some papers together, Skizz was on a phone call in the corner, Mumbo was politely watching as Scar fumbled through some magic tricks, and Grian was sitting on the couch with Joel, listening to him rant about his failures at killing xB (he’d drawn the short straw). Everything was normal.

And then, when Joel paused his tirade to take a breath, Grian said those fatal words. “From the way you talk about this guy, Joel, it’s almost like you’ve got a crush on the mark!”

Which was ridiculous, of course! He does blummin’ not, thank you! His relationship with xB was a perfectly platonic contract killing, and Joel is a professional! He knows better than to fall for his target, and he indignantly tells Grian as much.

But, of course, Grian is Grian, and the second he senses he’s touched a nerve he doubles down. And so he did.

“Contract killing? Give me a break, Joel! Your contract on this guy expired ages ago, and you’re not the type to work for free.” Grian’s eyes twinkled with mischief as he continued to needle at Joel. “Admit it, there’s something else going on here, isn’t there?”

Joel spluttered, and took a deep breath as he glanced around the room. Fuck. Everyone had stopped what they were doing to listen in on him and Grian now. He had to say something to throw them off or he would never be able to live this conversation down.

“My contract might be done, but unlike some people I finish the things I start, thank you very much!”

Grian squawked in indignation, and as he did so the others chuckled and turned back to their own conversations, unfounded accusations of romance forgotten. Grian’s tendency to leave things unfinished was well-known, and something that every assassin at Magic Mountain had teased him over many times.

But that thought refused to leave his brain. It had wiggled its way in like a worm. Did he have a crush on xB? Is that why he kept coming back when any sane person would’ve just given it up already? And the answer, of course, is no. All of Joel’s actions here have perfectly reasonable and professional explanations.

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Joel waits patiently on the rooftop across from Horse Head Farmer’s Market (which, despite the name, is actually a grocery store/money laundering scheme, not a farmer’s market), rifle at the ready, just as he has been for the past three and a half hours. You can’t rush a good sniping, after all, and xB’s schedule varies enough that Joel’s never quite sure when he’ll head out for lunch. (He’s pretty sure xB has done this specifically to spite Joel- the guy’s obsessed with him.)

Yes! Finally! xB steps out of the store, starts walking down the street, and- turns to look at Joel’s rooftop, makes direct eye contact with him, and gives him a friendly little wave, the infuriatingly sincere kind that makes Joel want to kill him even more. Dammit. He’s been caught. Also, wow, even from here Joel is a little wowed by how blue xB’s eyes are. Or maybe he’s just remembering how they look, because there’s no way Joel can actually see his eyes from here. They are definitely a very nice blue, though, and oh, huh, Joel realizes that Lizzie has blue eyes, too. Maybe he’s got a thing for blue-eyed people, and- OH SHIT RIGHT HE’S KILLING THIS GUY.

Joel fires, because even if he’s been discovered a vantage point is still a vantage point. Of course, xB somehow manages to not be in the bullet’s path, just like he always does, and then he gives Joel a disapproving look, like he’s actually disappointed Joel didn’t do a better job at trying to kill him.

God, he’s so cute, Joel’s brain has the audacity to think, like it’s trying to add insult to insult to injury. To Joel’s horror, he realizes in this moment that he’s had dozens, maybe even hundreds of thoughts like this, that just slipped through the cracks and went unnoticed.

Then, xB smiles at him again before heading on his way, and Joel falls off of the rooftop. He has time to think, Oh, I’m gonna kill Grian, as he plummets towards the ground. And then, everything goes dark, and he dies.

[bcowlick]

A Rant about My Metis

A song that i relate a lot to Metis es "Waiting on a Miracle" from Encanto, both on a character and meta level.

Firstly, as a character, my Metis is quite special. She's supposed to be the daughter of two Oceanic titans, she should be living in the Ocean inside a pretty castle under the sea! What the hell is she doing living in Crete?

Well, my Metis doesn't knows who are her actual folks! She was found by the forest nymphs of Crete island and raised by them as a baby. But she being an Oceanic nymph (plus the straight up daughter of not one but two Titans) and the rest of her family being Forest nymphs, she quickly noticed all the differences.

I draw her big and muscular for a reason (Because muscular women are beautiful sksksks) but is also because she doesn't fit in that "pretty, delicate, femenine and elegant" view of most nymphs.

And she shouldn't! Again, she's daughter of two titans, of course she's a big girl! (And all Oceanids are similar in that they are a bigger kind of nymph in my story, not just Metis) But she doesn't know that!

So it leaves her feeling a bit like an ugly duckling. Specially because most people are used to the image of a regular forest Nymph. She feel a bit like an outsider to her family, and sometimes an outsider to the rest of the Big 6, except Zeus.

Zeus is the only person who's not one member of her adopted family that ever compliments her and that's why she flusters so easily around him.

I go back to the song now, in "Waiting for a Miracle" the song is about Mirabel asking for someone to notice her, to think of her a special and all the things she would be willing to do just for someone to tell her that she DOES fit in.

And my Metis surely has done a LOT of batshit crazy things for the one boy that treats her as she was the most beautiful nymph that has ever touched the earth.

Crazy batshit stuff like, making fricking Cronus vomit, helping Zeus with a whole ass war, helping all of the other Big 6 in said war, and in general she loves to help Zeus' with all of his shenanigans.

She is head-over heels for that man. In her eyes, Zeus is that "Miracle". Her best friend, companion, and husband.

Now, on the more "Meta" level...

Metis is quite the character in mitology. Most people that do re-tellings don't bother to include her in any way.

Or if they do, they do so as like a quick mention of "Oh, this was Zeus' first wife i guess" and then don't mention more about it. As if being "Zeus #1 wife that he ate" was her whole personality

I understand, tho. Metis is a very obscure character. And has a very quick role in mithology.

Yet, that role is also, like. THE MUST FRIGGING IMPORTANT ROLE.

Like, dude, Zeus wouldn't had been able to start the whole ass war if Metis hadn't helped him free his siblings! Nothing would had happened!

And she's not even canonically dead, she literally lives inside Zeus' brain. She's literally the voice of reason inside his head telling him what to do, helping him decide what would be the best course of action in a situation.

Zeus is wise, because Metis lives rent-free in his head lol

A misconception is that Zeus ate Metis the same way Cronus did the Big 5, but he didn't. He rather "absorbed her". Where Cronus tried to destroy his sons, Zeus wanted to keep a piece of wife always within him. (It doesn't make it any-better, but the fact that he could just eat Metis and call it a day but he choose to specifically not do that and instead did something slightly more merciful talks a lot of how much he loved her, me thinks).

The man was worried about the prophecy, for sure! But you cannot tell me he didn't care!

Yet, Metis is always forgotten in must stories. Again, i get why

I just wish it wasn't like that lol. She is goddess of wisdom, the OG goddess of wisdom. She has potential for a character if we let her have one!

Another Metis enjoyer (@/firinnie) pointed out that Metis was the only wife Zeus' was FORCED to get rid off.

So to me, at the very least, shows me that Zeus really loved her, y'know?

And once again, in a Meta level, Metis is just waiting for someone to notice her overall.

That's all, thank you for coming to my rant xd

[idyllic-affections]

HIII so this might be an odd request,,, mayhaps i ask for kaveh with an older step sibling (since his mom remarried i think).,, i think kaveh would be a little awkward interacting with them at first but they got along in the long run!! esp when they update him about his mom and never really makes him uncomfortable, or always doesn't force a conversation!! he respects his ideals and supports his passion!!

but the main idea was they go to sumeru one day to visit kaveh (they've been informing him thru letters) and accidentally finds out that he's buried under crippling debt and flat out broke!! i think kaveh would feel so ahasmed of himself but!! his older sibling doesn't judge n is very understanding!! helps him with his burdens (if kaveh allows them), maybe recommend his architectural skills to their friends in fontaine!!

idk i just really like the idea of kaveh having an older family member that he could rely on because he really just deserves nice things yk 🥺🥺 even tho they're just step siblings, they feel like true family!!

anyways feel free to ignore this!! have a nice day/night and take ur time!! 💖���

the blending of two families.

summary. not all step-siblings are like the cruel ones in the fairytales.

trigger & content warnings. references to death and grief. spoilers for kaveh's backstory.

tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. fluff, comfort, slight angst. kaveh & older step-sibling!reader. 1k words. they/them pronouns for reader.

author's thoughts. THIS REQ IS LITERALLY SO CUTE WHATSJSGJF??????? i have Feelings about kaveh's mom and they are NOT good ones but i'll be nice to her for the sake of this piece........ /lh i did this in brainrot format because i wanted SOO badly to get this one done relatively quickly this req invaded my brain like a song that gets stuck in your head

kaveh first meets his older step-sibling at his mother's wedding.

he's... happy for her, he really is. or he's trying to be, at least. she deserves nothing but the best. what kind of son would he be if he wanted her to live her life wallowing in grief and sorrow? she's hardly ever done anything to hurt him, and if she ever did, it was unknowingly. he could neved wish anything bad upon her. she simply does not deserve those things. therefore, he's doing his best to be happy for her.

a part of him, however, still misses his father.

a part of him— well, who is he kidding? the entirety of his being still suffers under the weight of grief and guilt caused by the circumstances surrounding his father's death.

he doesn't even know the man his mother has chosen to marry, really. kaveh absolutely does not feel like she is betraying him or his father whatsoever, but... he does wish that he had gotten to know this man a little bit better before having to trust that he would not wound his mother's scarred heart.

the architect doesn't engage with the other guests much. it's unlike him, really, but he finds that he can't muster up the strength and charisma to talk with people beyond simple pleasantries. he keeps to himself for the most part.

still, he doesn't dare dampen the atmosphere with his woes, so when another person approaches him, he offers his warmest smile.

"sorry, i hope you don't mind me asking..." this stranger smiles politely at him. it puts his mind at ease a little. "is the bride your mother? you look an awful lot like her."

"oh, i—" he stammeers inelegantly, then clears his throat. "yes. i am her son, kaveh."

they smile again.

"hello kaveh. i'm [name], the groom's child."

"oh. oh! i am so sorry, i had no idea!"

"it's alright, really. you mind if i stick around for a while?"

and kaveh finds that he doesn't. he doesn't mind at all.

the architect has been known to be loose-lipped about his troubles; that in and of itself is part of the reason why he spent the night withdrawn from the celebration. he had no intention of being open about his troubles, and yet...

his step-sibling had the sort of face that made him want to rant, and rant he did.

"i can understand that," they mused thoughtfully, kind eyes observing his expression closely. "it's complicated. grief is never easy. i get it."

initially, they were the one lingering around kaveh, but by the end of the night, the tables have certainly turned. he is practically attached at their hip.

he finds that their understanding presence ended up raising his low spirits.

a few days later, kaveh has to return to sumeru—he does have responsibilities, after all—but he's a bit sad about it! they're, of course, there to reassure him that they plan on visiting someday soon. maybe he can show them around? the prospect alone is very thrilling to him, and what's better is that he'll get to show off his magnum opus like an excited toddler showing off a drawing they made! he does warn them that it is very humid and they need to be prepared, though.

until they can visit, kaveh regularly exchanges letters with them. he complains about his terribly annoying roommate and how awful his taste in interior design is. he tells them about random gossip he heard at the tavern. honestly, he just rambles. it's endearing, really, and in return, they tell him about fontaine and maybe sneak in just the smallest bit of gossip about a certain chief justice or even about the hydro archon herself.

(in the future, closer to when the traveler arrives in fontaine, they do not dare tell kaveh about the heightened fatui activity. goodness, the poor thing would worry to death for theirs and his mother's safety.)

when they do finally have the time to come visit...

they arrive by boat in port ormos, and kaveh is there to pick them up!

he's got a lot of things he intends to show them and a lot of people he intends on introducing them to. on the way back to sumeru city, he stops a few times, pointing out some particularly beautiful locations or animals, all of which would have his siblimg absolutely over the moon. sumeru in general would have them enamored.

the air in sumeru is so... clean compared to fontaine, and the fauna and flora—it's completely different than what they've seen.

now, as for [name] finding out about kaveh's crippling debt... i think they would suspect something was off financially for him, simply because of certain mannerisms of his. he's careful with what he spends his mora on. he tries to be, at the very least, and his caution is very evident. or maybe they're just observant? either way, they know something is a bit off.

kaveh leaves them at alhaitham's home for a while.

it's not that they're one to snoop—it's disrespectful and rude to do so, they are very much aware of this—but a letter would catch their eye.

a letter detailing what he still owes to dori.

suddenly, things make sense in their mind.

they don't try to ask his roommate about it. instead, they wait until he's home and alone with them.

"kaveh," they call. "are you in debt?"

his heart sinks a little. so much for hiding it...

"i..." he hesitates, obviously embarrassed, but he does come clean. in their eyes, he looks like a kicked, pouty puppy. "it's... complicated. i mean, you're not wrong..."

"aw, kaveh, don't look like that," they coo, reaching out to gingerly squeeze his shoulder in a gesture of gentle reassurance. "it's nothing to be ashamed about. things happen, kaveh. life happens. i understand if not, but... will you let me help you out? at least a little bit?"

regardless of what he says, whether he admits that he could use the help or insists that they shouldn't have to do that, they do still go around and tell people about their super awesome and talented step-brother! and when kaveh asks in a letter about the suspicious amount of commissions he's getting from fontaine...

nope! they have no idea how those people found out about him. <3

please consider reblogging, it helps me out quite a lot!

[can-of-w0rmz]

Volume III Chapter IV/V of the original 1818 text of Frankenstein lives in my brain rent free. I need to rant about Clerval’s death or I’ll loose it. (It’s late and I’m exhausted rn so my ass is NOT as coherent and structured as it could be but fuck it we ball)

“He appeared to be a handsome young man, about five and twenty years of age.” MY PRECIOUS BOY

“(…) having brought the body into her house; it was not cold. They put it into a bed, and rubbed it; and Daniel went to the town for an apothecary, but life was quite gone.” HE MIGHTN’T HAVE BEEN DEAD WHEN THEY FOUND HIM BUT IT WAS TOO LATE

“I saw the lifeless form of Henry Clerval stretched before me. I gasped for breath; and, throwing myself on the body, I exclaimed, “Have my murderous machinations deprived you also, my dearest Henry, of life? Two I have already destroyed; other victims await their destiny: but you, Clerval, my friend, my benefactor”——

The human frame could no longer support the agonizing suffering that I endured, and I was carried out of the room in strong convulsions.

A fever succeeded to this. I lay for two months on the point of death (…)” THE WAY VICTOR REACTS TO AND SPIRALS FROM CLERVAL’S DEATH IS SO MUCH MORE SEVERE THAN ANYTHING ELSE THAT HAPPENS TO HIM and it’s also an extremely interesting character study to see what happens when the only person he ever really seemed to have a mutual loving and healthy relationship with gets cut out of the picture – Victor’s had his fevers, he’s wallowed, but he always had Clerval to draw him from his wallowing and to nurse him back to health. So what happens when Clerval’s death is the cause of that anguish? THE DRAMA THE ANGST I love these silly little gothic losers to death but watching Frankenstein grieve over the passing of who was pretty much essentially his lover is fascinating to me and it SHOWS how much Frankenstein adores Clerval through the latter’s death. THE MAGNITUDE OF HIS GRIEF IS A TESTAMENT TO THEIR LOVE oml i can’t rn frfr THEYRE SO GAY AND SO GOTHIC I CAN NOT

“Why did I not die? More miserable than man ever was before, why did I not sink into forgetfulness and rest?” “I thank you; but all that you mention is nothing to me: on the whole earth there is no comfort which I am capable of receiving.” “(…)surely I should have died on the coffin of Henry.” AGAIN Victor’s absolute grief tearing himself up over it

“As my sickness quitted me, I was absorbed by a gloomy and black melancholy, that nothing could dissipate. The image of Clerval was for ever before me, ghastly and murdered.” “Sometimes they were the expressive eyes of Henry, languishing in death, the dark orbs nearly covered by the lids, and the long black lashes that fringed them.” Again what I said about his grief being a testament to their love bro, REMINISCING ABOUT HIS DEAD LOVER AND HIS BEAUTY EVEN IN DEATH WHILE GRIEVING HIM I CANT BRO

“Ah! my father, do not remain in this wretched country; take me where I may forget myself, my existence, and all the world.” HERE’S THE START OF HIM PUSHING AWAY THE MEMORY AND TRYING TO SUPPRESS IT BECAUSE THE GRIEF IS TOO SEVERE and that is SO interesting for how he shifts his tone with Elizabeth and puts up that fake demeanour of wanting to marry her because he thinks it’ll make HER happy even though both of them describe dreading the wedding, also possibly another argument for the legitimacy of reading Clerval and Frankenstein’s relationship as romantic – in order to forget him, he assigns himself to the role given to him as a child by marrying Elizabeth and gives up whatever he hope he had (possibly discouraged from Clerval being murdered as a response to Victor refusing to finish the Bride and subject her to the same fate as him and Elizabeth to the Creature, a pact made without her knowledge or consent, an arranged marriage. Where has spiting that tradition led him? Where has him standing up to the shroud of his mother’s dying wishes, hanging over him the entire novel thus far, led him, by refusing to force the Bride into an arranged marriage with the Creature, as he was with Elizabeth? To the death of the one man he truly loved. So fuck it, right? He can at least “make his dear cousin happy” and not die spiting the one thing he was meant to do – make his mother proud from beyond the grave by marrying Elizabeth.)

“the wind that blew me from the detested shore of Ireland(…)” sorry my country traumatised you bro (I mentioned to one of my teachers while explaining the plot of Frankenstein to them, as you do, that this chapter takes place in Ireland and the “god damn ok” face was priceless)

“I was deceived by no vision, and that Clerval, my friend and dearest companion, had fallen a victim to me and the monster of my creation. I repassed, in my memory, my whole life; my quiet happiness while residing with my family in Geneva, the death of my mother, and my departure for Ingolstadt. I remembered shuddering at the mad enthusiasm that hurried me on to the creation of my hideous enemy, and I called to mind the night during which he first lived. I was unable to pursue the train of thought; a thousand feelings pressed upon me, and I wept bitterly.” HE’S TRYING SO DESPERATELY TO LEAVE IT BEHIND AND TO REPRESS IT but now he’s left Ireland and he’s no longer feverish, the clarity washes over him and he can’t do anything except just lie there and cry over everything that’s happened AND MY POOR LAD HE CANT EVEN CONTINUE BEYOND THE POINT OF THE CREATURES REANIMATION BECAUSE THOSE FEELINGS PRESS DOWN ON HIM AND CROWD HIM AND OVERWHELM HIM AND HE JUST BREAKS INTO SOBS

And what happens after “the night during which he first lived”?

He’s saved from his own downward spiral by Clerval.

What’s he doing now?

Going on a downward spiral.

Where’s Clerval?

Dead.

“Ever since my recovery from the fever I had been in the custom of taking every night a small quantity of laudanum; for it was by means of this drug only that I was enabled to gain the rest necessary for the preservation of life. Oppressed by the recollection of my various misfortunes, I now took a double dose, and soon slept profoundly. But sleep did not afford me respite from thought and misery; my dreams presented a thousand objects that scared me.” And Christ above THIS LINE, not only can he now physically not sleep at night after what happened, but he’s gotten into the habit of drug use over it – which wouldn’t have been too bizarre by Victorian standards, but in the 18th century, laudanum wasn’t administered nearly as liberally and was mostly used for surgery, from what I can find, anyway. Not to mention that fact that he starts double dosing on it as the memories come back to him – his grief starts getting to the point where he’s using drug use in order to cope, but it hardly matters as his torment follows him to sleep.

“We had resolved not to go to London, but to cross the country to Portsmouth, and thence to embark for Havre. I preferred this plan principally because I dreaded to see again those places in which I had enjoyed a few moments of tranquillity with my beloved Clerval. I thought with horror of seeing again those persons whom we had been accustomed to visit together, and who might make inquiries concerning an event, the very remembrance of which made me again feel the pang I endured when I gazed on his lifeless form in the inn at ——.” THIS LINE LIVES IN MY BRAIN. RENT FREE. HOW COULD SHELLEY HAVE CUT THIS OUT OF THE 1831 PUBLICATION THIS IS SO GOLDEN DEAR LORD I ADORE THEM.

“MY BELOVED CLERVAL”

BUT ALSO AGAIN we’ve got Frankenstein trying SO desperately to forget everything, and he knows that he can’t face the people who knew Clerval or he’d break down. And I love the way this version continues on his grief to the next chapter – it’s not done and dropped, its ongoing and it plagues him, and it will plague him as long as he lives. I wonder what would happen if he did go through London, if he did meet those people again. Would things have turned out differently? Would he finally have been given a sense of comfort and clarity through mutual grief, as nobody so far since Henry’s death and for the rest of the book, except the creature, ironically, has grieved for Clerval except for Frankenstein. If he met people who took as fondly to Clerval as he did, at least on meeting him briefly, who would have sympathy towards Victor – would he finally have that space to grieve for him in a healthy way, to be comforted by people who at least vaguely understand a fraction of his anguish?

The way Victor Frankenstein BREAKS after the death of Henry Clerval is one of the most fascinating and endearing parts of the novel that completely lives in my head rent free. He spirals, he becomes ill, he becomes deeply suicidal and depressed, he begins drug misuse – and adaptations have the sheer balls to cut Clerval out of the story altogether.

…..”My beloved Clerval” HELP ME HE ACTUALLY SAID IT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

[imagionationstation]

Hey please feel free to ignore this but your rant was honestly SO valid and cathartic for me to read. The amount of hate that 2012 gets is frankly insane to me, and what's more insane is how normal and accepted it is in the broader fandom? Like with the flaws of every other series the attitude tends to be very 'live and let live,' but haters just can't shut up about 2012 all these years later and it drives me nuts. It was honestly starting to think I was remembering like, every tmnt series WRONG, so I recently re-watched 2003 AND Rise expecting to see these like, *perfect* brother relationships and *flawless* Splinter character development and its just NOT that at all?! Lmao. In literally every version the turtles have flaws and conflicts (ya know - like CHARACTERS IN A TV SHOW). And literally every version of Splinter has flaws (again...like a character). (Also I genuinely love Rise but christ the fandom is so **unintelligible curse words**) Gah sorry for turning this into a mini rant but this has been on my mind too and it just gets to me. Right there with you! <3

Thank you!!

Was lowkey staying away from notifs and Asks because I was ready for someone to wish death upon me and didn't know if I was ready to stomach it. With the release of tottmnt and all the nonsense now getting formulated and pieced together in my brain, the dopamine is at an all-time high! And then with everyone chiming in their support-

It was a good time to risk it all. And I was pleasantly surprised!

I sometimes forget how many people seriously love this series and that's so dumb because there is an unreasonable amount of people following me right now. And considering how firm I aim with certain beliefs, at least half of you have to share the opinion that 2012 is brilliant despite it's flaws and concerning moments.

I'm silly, but you guys are amazing.

The amount of hate that 2012 gets is frankly insane to me, and what's more insane is how normal and accepted it is in the broader fandom? Like with the flaws of every other series the attitude tends to be very 'live and let live,' but haters just can't shut up about 2012 all these years later and it drives me nuts.

Seriously, I don't know why people harp so hard on 2012 like it's the only show (tmnt or otherwise) that has made funky character moments or odd choices. Everyone has different tastes and interests. That's why the wide diversity of fandoms is so important.

No one has to love every single fandom, but that doesn't give them the right to openly hate either.

I recently re-watched 2003 AND Rise expecting to see these like, *perfect* brother relationships and *flawless* Splinter character development and its just NOT that at all?

I've done that too! Sometimes, it's like, what am I missing????

And literally every version of Splinter has flaws (again...like a character)

Literally my favorite part about Splinter is the fact that- even when he's portrayed as a wise master Sensei- he's just as capable of making mistakes or having bad judgement as anyone else!

He's only mutant, after all.

Gah sorry for turning this into a mini rant but this has been on my mind too and it just gets to me. Right there with you! <3

Thank you for your mini rant! This ask is SO appreciated! <3<3

[differenteagletragedy]

hi! just wanna tell you i literally read all of your fics and omg i usually avoid angsty fics because i know it will rip me apart but i read all of yours and i somehow crave more 🥺 but perhaps if your requests are still open, i wanna request something sweet or fluff (rather self indulgent) how about the olba boys' reactions when they realised mc has been really focused for days about something to find out that mc was creating the sims version of them and the boys while making a good hoyse for their sims selves to live in (you can do individual or poly!) I've been playing sims 4 lately and made step 1 cove and mc with their families fjfjfh totally brain still rotting over olba even though its officially over 🥹

-- Let's do poly so everyone can be together for this experience :)

-- You're on your computer for a while, which was fine, but you got zoned out enough that the boys decided to check in.

-- You'd been making your dream house for you and your boys' sim selves!

-- Cove is moved. He doesn't know a lot about the game, but the gist is pretty easy to grasp and he thinks this is so so sweet that you would use your free time and your game to do something like this.

-- Derek knows about The Sims and thinks it's cool you want to play like this. He wants to watch!

-- Baxter wants to see you make his sim now please.

-- Lol if you don't have all the expansions/packs, Baxter needs you to get some because the base game fashion options are atrocious.

-- Derek gets the Big Happy Family aspiration, hooray! Baxter gets the Soulmate aspiration, so sweet! Cove gets something random, whatever you click.

Cove: *pouting* Why didn't I get something special?

You: Hold on just a minute ...

*ten minutes into gameplay*

Cove: My aspiration in life is about grilled cheese?!??!!?!?!

-- Derek takes note of how you've built the house. Maybe if you really like something he can incorporate it into your own house -- like if you build a sunroom and talk about how you like it, a big porch, something like that. He'll remember!

-- Cove wants to see the interactions between the sims. If you make your sim declare your undying love for his then he will die.

-- Baxter, well, is still Baxter.

Cove: Put me in the swimming pool!

Baxter: Try removing the ladder after he climbs in.

Cove: But then I wouldn't be able to get out ...

Baxter: *smirk*

-- Derek is going to want to get this game to play for himself.

-- If you try to plan a wedding for your sims, Baxter is going to trash talk it to death. Just an endless rant of how dumb it is and how everyone is being so rude and nothing is working right.

Baxter: Why is the best man inside the home playing video games during the ceremony? Did the mother of the bride just set fire to the kitchen? The caterer just didn't show up at all?!

-- If you make it to the elderly life stage then Cove is going to be emotional just seeing little sim versions of his family being all old and cute.

Also Cove: Oh look, a vending machine! Let me get some candy!

You: It's stuck, what do you want to do?

Cove: Get it out!

*one minute later*

Cove: THAT'S HOW I DIE?!

[ohanny]

so @cryingatships posted about pit babe cam boy au ideas (the north and sonic one will flourish in my brain rent free for the next forever) which reminded me i also wrote one for kenta and kim way back when and i just want to add to their genius because we need more spicy pit babe ideas

again, gets nsfw below the cut:

where introvert kenta finally moves out of his dad’s house and finds a room to rent for suspiciously cheap in a suspiciously nice apartment. he asks some questions because he's not stupid but kim’s all "don't worry, i can afford it and to be honest, i kinda get lonely” and well, it is a really good deal. how likely is it that kenta would end up living with a human trafficking evil overlord twice, anyway? like kim literally could not be worse than his father.

their cohabitation works brilliantly but after two months of living together, kenta comes home from work early to discover the reason why kim can afford their rental agreement and seems to have all the time in the world for his hobbies is not because he's some nepo baby but because he has an insanely lucrative career as a cam boy and an only fans star. because there kim is, dressed in a sheer robe and stockings, washing a sparkly pink dildo in the middle of their open kitchen.

kim, defiant: i am not ashamed of what i do and if it bothers you, you can move out.

kenta whose brain has blue screened and is currently making beep boop noises: gah 

but once kenta manages to stammer out he is fine with kim’s chosen career, kim stops hiding. partly because he's a petty bitch and wants to see if kenta is actually fine with it or if he's a closeted homophobe who really likes cheap rent and partly because sneaking around his own home is super annoying and he would much rather do his make up in the living room because the big windows provide the best light. also, it would be super helpful if kenta could lend him a hand with his lighting system because it takes ages to figure out all the angles alone.

kenta is totally having a crisis because kim is just so confident and self-assured and after he finishes filming, he will sit in the living room eating pizza in old sweats, regaling kenta with tales of cringy comments from old men and other streaming misfortunes from buying the most disgustingly tasting flavored lube to getting a cramp in the middle of riding his toys.

but then one evening kenta comes home to kim stabbing a salad, looking sulky, and he’s like “what, no pizza tonight?” and kim rolls his eyes and explains one of his top donors made a comment about how he's been gaining weight lately with a self-deprecating “i guess i got a bit too carried away with the take out and beer with you.”

kenta is offended. he might go on a little rant about how that man must be blind on top of an absolute imbecile and should go fuck himself for a change and kim is beautiful no matter what he eats and in kenta’s personal opinion actually looks much better now compared to the rail thin twink thing he had going on when kenta first moved in. kim stares up at him, wide eyed and in awe.

kenta, blushing and starting to stutter again: anyway… no one should be allowed to tell anyone what to do with their bodies and you should just block them because you don't need someone like that in your space and i will just go to my room now bye

kim, jumping to his feet to grab kenta: the fuck you are, come here -

and yes, they kiss and it's amazing but kim is still hesitant because “you're really okay with all this? because i don't plan on stopping anytime soon, i like what i do” and kenta sheepishly admits that he sometimes watches kim’s streams on a burner account.

kim: you know you'd get a much better view on the other side of the wall?

kenta: oh.

kim: that was an invitation, dummy.

kenta: OH

kim is right. the view is so much better on the other side of the wall. kim is stunning and looks and sounds so fucking good and having kenta there is totally helping him get in the mood and put on an even better show. if the live chat gets a rising frequency of comments along the lines of “is it just me or is kim looking at someone behind the camera?” well, it adds to the mystique?

and really, it's inevitable that - once he gets comfortable - kenta snaps in a moment of horny insanity and ends up revealing himself. it's friday and kim is on all fours, fucking himself with the infamous pink, sparkly dildo but he’s not able to reach quite right and he keeps begging and cursing at the camera and kenta’s brain just goes “well, i could help.” he doesn't think. he just gets out of his chair, ducks past the camera and swats kim’s hand away to grab the base of the dildo and then smoothly slides it all the way in.

it’s only when kim’s arms give out and he slumps down with a guttural moan that kenta realizes they’re still very much live. he snatches his hand back but before he can stumble completely out of the frame, kim whines “fuck, come back, sorry guys but i don't give a shit” into the pillow and the chat goes WILD when kenta is helpless to do anything other what he's told. he uses the dildo to fuck kim into, through and past a devastating prostate orgasm and once he has regained his senses, kim ends the stream with a breathless giggle and a “sorry to cut the outro tonight but clearly me and my roommate need to have a talk.”

kenta: roommate?

kim: i mean, i'd prefer boyfriend because i'm pretty sure i'm in love with you but -

kenta: boyfriend sounds good.

and they live happily ever after. kenta helps kim with his accounts, clothes and photoshoots and on special occasions, joins his streams and videos. kim charges double for everything they do as a couple and all that extra money is certainly helping him in convincing kenta to quit the office job he's way too qualified for and find what he really wants to do in life. they adopt three cats and kenta moves all his things into kim’s room and everything is beautiful and nothing hurts.

[aachria]

right so, firstly, sssbmty is absolutely amazing and I binged the whole of it in around five days. I love Ed and their character development as well as the relationships they have with the crew it’s all ugh, so masterful.

secondly, while the entire thing is giving me immense brain rot and i’m foaming at the mouth about the tarot card foreshadowing, I just cannot stop thinking about that mysterious father/weird uncle figure that was apparently on Gol D. Roger’s crew who hasn’t been mentioned since the wedding (sorta).

i’m minorly obsessed with this random, unnamed person who looked at a tiny cabin boy Shanks and went, “this dude needs to know the Macarena yesterday.” and probably also taught Shanks (and i’m guessing most, if not all of Roger’s crew) “Piano Man” and more than likely introduced a slew of other Earth pop culture things that almost certainly have no business being in the One Piece Universe.

also, the fact this guy knew that Ed was also going to be there??? the implications of that is crazy alone. how do you know these things sir? is this guy tied in with the voices Ed hears and dreams Ed experiences whenever they’re incapacitated? did weird unknown uncle have strange dreams as well?

but i also can’t help but wonder, was this guy also isakai’ed with the same suddenness that Ed was? just randomly dying one tuesday morning and waking up in a strange place with zero explanation? Did he get swept up by Roger one day like Luffy swept up Ed, and this mystery guy decided “fuck it, we ball” and went along wholeheartedly with Rayleigh and Roger and never looked back? was he spending the whole time quietly mourning roger cause he knew just how this story would end? did he not change anything because he knew Ed was coming and left everything up to them?

this shit is bouncing around my head like a million pinballs set loose, it’s chaos in here. also, these questions are 80% rhetorical and i just need to inform you that is nameless character of yours has moved into my head and refuses to leave.

and with that little rant out of the way, i wish you good day, good luck, and i can’t wait to devour the next chapter. toodles.

First; oh em gee thank you sm… you got me gigglin n twirlin my hair n shit…

Second; me and you, we’re living on the same wavelength. Pseudo dad/uncle lives in my head rent free and the way I would absolutely LOVE to answer all of these questions—

But I must hold my tongue. Here’s a special little something to tide you over though; I’m writing the last chapter of Sabaody rn and bro this arc… I lied about it being shorter than the party good Jesus it’s like 8ish chapters and the man the myth the legend is at the very least mentioned in like FOUR OF THEM. HAAAAAALF OF THEM. So like. Yaknow. GET FUCKING EXCITED.

[cringefailvox]

I am kind of obssesed with the dynamics that are among Alastor, Vox, Valentino, Angel Dust and Husk tbh. It's like an messy, convoluted pentagonal disaster and I want to put them under an microscope and study them becaythere is so so so much animosity to be found here but also a surprisingly amount of common ground? Like we have:

The lovers? Partners? Friends with Benefits(? Of Voxval that are like- together the worst people ever to everyone around them but a surprisingly good match on itself. The bigger problem they seem to run into is the fact that..., well, they are obssesed with two other men, much to the other's chagrin. The funny thing is that they seem to be the most.... let's say priviliged of this whole bunch? Sure Alastor seems as, if not more powerful that these two but....he has strings attached, so does Husk who seems to keep some resemblance of his Overlord power despite having being stripped of all his influence and Angel...well, he has a lot of guns and a dream. VoxVal seems to be the more free, the more on top- they have the power, the influence, the money....and yet they can't stop thinking of one person- Hell, Val literally OWNS Angel- but that is not enough. It never is.

-And that leads to the messy RadioStatic and- well, downright awful and arguably the worst relationship in these whole mess to the parties involved- Valangel. Alastor pretending he doesn't care about Vox's existence, that he is SO over him- while Angel trying to get over whatever the fuck he ever felt for Val, who simply refuses to (both literally and figuratively because....soul Contract) let him go. In a way, it follows a similar path of obsession with the other and the recement born from it- just that, while there seemed to be an time where RadioStatic were considered partners, aka equals, Angel never stood an chance on his own relationship. Speaking of...

-RadioHusk and Huskerdust. Ironically enough, both of these are relationships among the bottom of the barrel (people that sold their souls) and I'm both, Husk is more than happy to remind the other party that just like him, they screw themselves up. But while with Angel it was to cheer him up and the start of their friendship, with Alastor it was an cold reality check that...well, he didn't took well. I like to think that a part of Alastor resents Husk because in a way- he is just like him: an former Overlord that ended on someone else's leash. So seeing him reminds Al that he too, could end really, really badly. While Husk sees Angel like some kind of an more energetic, younger him that COULD actually get himself out of their dumpster. Al sees on his servant what he fears for himself, Husk sees on Angel something to hate himself a bit less without having to actually work on his own biases. Angel sees in Husk someone that can give him the validation (not even love at this point) that he hadn't felt on a long, long time.

.....I don't even know where I was going with this, I just think it's funny that if you make the pentagon touch it's other end you have Vox and Husk ranting about Vox's weird jealously(?) of Angel with Val comes up and Husk is high-key weirded out.

anon i just want you to know that this ask has been living in my brain rent free for a week and you're a genius. the reason this pentagon works so well is because every single pairing within it has SOMETHING fucked up and/or weirdly compatible going on, in addition to the fact that all of their timelines & relationships overlap really closely even though they don't realize it at the time. world's messiest polycule but like guys we could make it work. no listen i didn't say it'd be healthy i said it could work

[fellow-anime-weeb927]

This is a rant about an idea for mashle lol (I'm sorry it's so long and I'm sorry if something's wrong, English is not my first language)

What do you think about the idea of reader (female or afab) having to escape her home country (at the age of 9 ,for example) for being mistreated by the government just because of her nationality (living the life as if a Ukrainian in Russian empire) and not having any magic of her own. But everyone in her family have these four necklaces, each with different pattern (depending on the person's personality, etc) that can consume magic of others and cease any magic in a certain area (which they can change). Also, every necklace has one special ability that other necklaces of the person don't have (for example, one of them could collection any kind of object or being, and the other could cease all magic from any object or person for a certain amount of time, etc). And so she tries to survive somehow in the country where Innocent Zero lived (same age as the reader) and they somehow meet and Innocent zero proposes to have a deal - he will help her in every way possible, but she in return will have to marry him, give him 6 children (in this case the sons: Doom, Famin, Epidem, Delisaster, Domina and Mash) and help raise them. She accepts, because it's the best course of events for her (if it's not this, she'll be killed by the Bureau of Magic for being a lackmagic, or if not that she'll be sent back to her home country). She gives birth to the 6 of them, and treats them well (you could call it a mother's love, I guess?). After she gives birth to Mash, she's wore out (obviously, she first had to push out Domina who had insane magic since birth and then Mash) and kinda just falls into a coma. Since she kept her word and gave 6 sons to Innocent zero, he kept his part of the promise and took care of her (better say, he ordered for the servants to take care of her). Also, imagine she wakes up to the current events, where Innocent Zero is hunting Mash for sport (I'm sorry), but since she's still kinda disoriented because of the amount of years she spent in the coma she can't grasp reality that well. And the sons just care for her (even Domina, lol, tho he haven't seen her awake that much after birth. I guess he also would have admiration for her (just how he has for Innocent zero? But at least his mother cares about him))

I loved your writing for Innocent zero x Wife!reader where the brothers react to how the reader died after giving birth to Mash, so I decided to send you this idea that has been rotting in my brain for a couple of days. I would talk more about it, but I don't know if your have read the manga so I'll it at that lol (again, I'm sorry for this long ass rant)

Oh don’t be sorry dear anon! This seems very intriguing indeed~ I admire your creativity! Love the detail of the reader’s backstory and special powers! I do rant and make up scenarios in asks for other writers quite often too! So it’s totally normal and it’s basically a part of you! Feel free to rant again anon! Stay creative~✨

[dragonfreckles]

Finally... it's time to reveal... THE SLEEP DEPRIVED GENSHIN IMPACT AU THAT HAS BEEN EATING AWAY AT MY BRAINCELLS FOR THE ENTIRE YEAR

technically, i've expanded this out from just sdp to a whole bunch of other youtubers as well, but if i took the time to create designs for each and every one of them, i'd go insane.

Anyways enough yapping here are the designs:

Also!! Close-ups 'n lore:

yes i have started a fic for this as well. Will i ever finish it probably not. Basic plot is Schlatt has to take a hit out on somebody, Astrid's studying the miasma in Liyue, Mika got hired to carry her supplies, and Pandah just kinda shows up at some point cause he lives there

Please please PLEASEEEE feel free to ask questions..... i have so many thoughts rattling around in my brain for this one. Single. Freaking. AU. I need to rant about it with SOMEONE or i'm gonna explode

[slyvester101]

Percy Jackson au since I was listening to the soundtrack and rvb has made a permanent spot in my brain. This ended up much longer than I thought it was and it's really just the sparknotes. So uh, enjoy my rantings.

Carolina is the daughter of Athena. Her dad did not know her mom was a god and when she inevitably left, he thought that making his daughter the best of the best at everything would bring her back. It did not. Now Carolina has issues. Church is Carolina's younger brother but is fully human. He does, however, have the ability to see all the mythological creatures that come around chasing after Carolina and gets dragged with her to Camp Half-Blood since he's also being abused by their dad.

Connie is a daughter of Athena, but she became a hunter of Artemis and basically got disowned for it (which wasn't all that different from how she was being treated by her mom before). She's on good terms with most of the freelancers, but her and Carolina have a lot of drama since Carolina hates the fact that Connie left to be a hunter instead of staying to make their mother proud.

South and North are the children of Ares. South is a very stereotypical Ares kid who is all competitive and aggressive and ready to throw down for any reason. North is much calmer than his sister and his other Ares siblings and prefers to talk things out before beating the shit out of someone. He almost single handedly got himself and his sister to Camp Half-blood, so you know he's not to be underestimated. Maine is also an Ares kid but more of the silent and deadly type. Even before injuring his throat on a quest, he was very intimidating to most of the campers even though he's generally pretty chill.

York is the son of Hermes and has been at Camp since he was very little. He's definitely a trickster and likes to pull harmless little pranks around camp to get the other campers feeling more like kids instead of soldiers. He's the councilor of his cabin and is usually the one to give orientation to the new campers. Wash is also a Hermes kid but with more of the cunning and thievery part of his godly parent. He's a sneaky little shit with the wits of an Athena kid. Definitely traumatized, but underneath all his teenage angst is a good hearted kid who wants to protect his friends.

Tex is the daughter of Zeus and is the powerhouse of camp. She's been at camp almost as long as York has but been on twice the amount of quests as everyone in camp combined. She despises the fact that Church is at camp, but he's also the only kids brave enough to call her out on her bullshit so bluntly so he gets to stick around... for now.

Wyoming is the son of Apollo because look at this man. You cannot tell me he wasn't a theater kid in high school. Specifically the very annoying ones that ruin the production for everyone else because they have to be in the spotlight. He's got an annoyingly good voice and his jokes are subpar but everyone wants to knock this guy down a peg so bad.

Florida is the son of Dionysus and lives for the madness and chaos of half-blood life. He's got a bloodthirst that makes the Ares kids look tame and is infamous for that one game of capture the flag where he dislocated his shoulders to get out of a trap and then continued to play the game like nothing happened. He is scary and campers fear him (expect for Wyoming because they match each other's crazy).

Now the reds and blues!

Tucker is the son of Aphrodite and has the worst charm voice ever, cannot get anyone to fall for it ever. The only person he's semi-gotten was Wash and that's because that man is a simp and already acts stupid when he's around Tucker. That being said, Tucker hates using his charm voice anyways because, as an Aphrodite kid, everyone always assumes that they have free range to touch or drag him around like he doesn't have standards for the people he wants to kiss/date and he doesn't want to force others into that same situation. Luckily, his siblings are awesome and they all have each other's backs for shit like this and that especially goes for baby Junior that every child in Aphrodite Cabin would die for.

Caboose and Sarge are Satyrs, Sarge being a veteran in bringing kids to camp while Caboose's first trek with half-bloods was when he brought Carolina, Church, and Tucker to camp. Sarge was the one to bring Simmons, Grif, and Donut btw and I like to think that campers are all attached to the satyrs that brought them to camp so the whole Reds vs Blues rivalry is basically just them fighting over who has the better Satyr.

Freckles is a hell hound, nuff said.

Simmons is the son of Hephaestus and spends hours hunkered down making little inventions that often time explode, not always on accident. Sarge can often be found with him since Simmons helped make his assistant bot Lopez who is always malfunctioning since, y'know, it's a summer camp with limited supplies. Grif can also be found with Simmons but is much less helpful and is always getting food all over Simmons work desk! It's incredibly inconsiderate.

Grif is the son of Dionysus who is way too similar to his dad. He's grumpy, he's snarky, he has a tendency to mispronounce or straight up make up names for people when he doesn't like or want to talk to them, and he's secretly very fond of the people who annoy him the most (Simmons). He has also gotten in trouble because he refuses to offer up his food to the gods so instead he started making booze at camp and pours one out for them instead. Grif has burns on his hands from the first time he did that because he forgot that alcohol was flammable.

Donut is our third Hermes kid but with a knack for communication and language. He's all about getting to see the world and meet new people but is content to settle for getting to know the various people who come to camp. He knows everything there is to know about mythology and monsters and the like. He also likes helping out in the infirmary (mostly so he can hang out with Apollo kid Doc, but that's neither here nor there) and gets campers to relax before procedures by getting them to chat about their lives and likes and interests.

THERE THAT'S EVERYONE YOU'RE DONE YOU'RE WELCOME