#tessa x billie

[agaypanic]

agaypanic's Malcolm Wilkerson Playlist

MITM Masterlist | Main Masterlist

if you want something to listen to while you read my malcolm wilkerson fics, here you go! if yall have any suggestions for what to add on this playlist, lmk in the comments!!

Spotify Link

Liability - Lorde

this is me trying - Taylor Swift

The Lucky One - Taylor Swift

Show & Tell - Melanie Martinez

What the Hell - Avril Lavigne

Nothing New - Taylor Swift (feat. Phoebe Bridgers)

jealousy, jealousy - Olivia Rodrigo

ocean eyes - Billie Eilish

Bad Ideas - Tessa Violet

Everybody Talks - Neon Trees

If I Killed Someone for You - Alec Benjamin

In My Blood - Shawn Mendes

People Watching - Conan Gray

Crush Culture - Conan Gray

idfc - blackbear

Recess - Melanie Martinez

feel something - Bea Miller

Animal - Neon Trees

8TEEN - Khalid

God Must Hate Me - Catie Turner

brutal - Olivia Rodrigo

decode - Sabrina Carpenter

making the bed - Olivia Rodrigo

[ashecampos]

BIRDS OF A FEATHER

Aj Campos X reader

Warnings : angst, hospitals, near death experience, motorcycle accident, alcohol consumption.

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Reader has had feelings for her friend Aj for years but hasn’t had the guts to tell her. After being hospitalised and a near death experience Aj ends up telling reader her feelings and it all comes together all the time they’ve spent together and the memories

An angsty fluffy little one shot because im obsessed with billies song ‘birds of a feather’ and thought this would be cute. This took me an hour to write so sorry if it’s bad.

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“I want you to stayyy” Aj says dramatically her arm rested over my shoulder as she pouts, standing at her door, keys in hand and helmet in the other I look back at her with a smile, she slaps the back of my head with a sad look. “Hey we are literally going to see each other tomorrow at school don’t be so dramatic” I say with a sigh. She rolls her eyes and takes her arm off my shoulder to let me leave but not before she gives me a tight hug, suffocating even. “Aj I need to breathe, ur gonna kill me here” I say as dramatically as she did seconds ago just as she lets me go. “Fine leave me…forever” she puts her hand over her heart and pulls a sad face, earning a laugh from me. “Shut up stupid, right I’ll see you tomorrow 7am be up or im leaving without you” I say while walking out of the garden and to my bike. She closes the door and I start the engine, pulling the helmet over my head and pulling out of her street. I ride for around ten minutes before I get to some traffic lights, stopping I wait for them to turn green, once they do I make quick work of pulling out in a hurry to get home to my bed, I hear the screech of tires then I feel pain in the right side of my body before my whole body is flung off of my bike and makes contact with a wall. Then darkness. A lot of screaming then beeping then people talking about head scans and X-rays.

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(AJS POV…THE NEXT DAY)

I wake up at 6:30 to my alarm blasting in my ear, I jump out of bed with a little struggle and grab the clothes I left out the night before, throwing them on, I check my phone for a text from y/n but nothing. Weird but it’s happened before, she probably forgot to charge her phone or slept in. Hypocrite much. I carry on getting ready then wait for the clock to strike seven before heading outside, looking out for her motorbike. I wait for ten minutes before calling her, nothing. I wait another ten minutes before Gabi comes out of the house giving me a confused look. “Why are you still here? Wheres y/n?” She says throwing her backpack over her shoulder. I shrug and check my phone again “no clue, give me a ride?” I plead and Gabi nods. Once in Gabi’s car I check my phone another three times while she drives. “Jesus who died here?” Gabi says as we stop at some lights. I look up and see debris and a tow truck on the road, police and traffic wardens stood directing the traffic around the mess. I catch a glimpse of a bike on the side of the road and my heart breaks for whoever’s bike it is, my mind wandering off to y/n “god I keep telling them to just get a car but they insist on having that damn bike, and look there another motorbike in an accident” I say to Gabi, she hums in agreement before turning into the schools parking lot. Once parked we say goodbye to each other, our homerooms being in different classrooms “tell y/n I said their a douche for the no heads up this morning” I say before we go out separate ways as Gabi and y/n are in the same homeroom class.

Walking into homeroom I spot Tessa, one of mine and y/n’s closest friends since well forever. Me and y/n would never have met if Tessa didn’t introduce us.

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Flashback :

Young Tessa runs over to young Aj paint smeared across her face “hide me” a young Tessa shouts toward Aj. In runs another girl. A young y/n, paintbrush in hand and an angry Gabi following her, a spot of red paint on her forehead. “Who’s that” a young Aj says, a blush spread across her face as the young girl and her sister run around trying to paint the others face. “That’s my best friend y/n, wanna meet them?” Tessa asks earning an eager nod from Aj.

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“Hey aj, nice hoodie, feeling nostalgic?” The girl pokes fun at me as we both take our seats, I look down at the hoodie and realise what she meant by nostalgic.

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Flashback :

The whole gang sit in mine and y/ns hotel room the day before a track meet, alcohol in all of our systems, we play a few games and dance a little before we all end up sitting or lying down somewhere intoxicated out of our minds, y/n had just been through a huge breakup and we are all trying to help her without bringing it up. “I love the outfit but you’re gonna freeze y/n” I say with a laugh as the girl comes out of the bathroom in just her sports bra and some shorts. A blush spreading across my face. “If I turn blue don’t save me” she said while sitting next to me on the floor, taking another sip of her drink, pulling a disgusted expression. “We should really quit drinking while we are ahead we have the meet at 11am” she says “don’t be stupid” I return her gaze, grabbing the drink, she shivers and I take off my hoodie, leaving me in a long sleeved shirt, she takes it and rests her head on my shoulder.

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“Funny, speaking of, heard anything from y/n this morning?” I ask while I grab my phone to check again, the girl just shakes her head “you know her she probably didn’t sleep and forgot to charge her phone again” I nod in agreement.

The day goes on and nothing from y/n she hadn’t shown up to school, everyone assumes she just ditched and fell asleep for the day. I try calling her a few times on break but no answer still. It isn’t until track practice that there is any news about her whereabouts.

We all stand on the field waiting on coach when he comes out with a saddened look. “Hey everyone practice is cancelled take the day to rest. Aj, Gabi and Tessa, stay here, we need to talk.” He says allowing everyone to walk back to the changing rooms cheering and smiling. My heart drops already overthinking. “So y/ns mother has just called and she was in an accident” he starts but doesn’t get the time to finish as all three of us are sprinting to the locker rooms to grab our stuff.

We all hop into Gabis car and use google maps to direct us to the nearest hospital. I check my phone and see a missed call from y/n’s brother. I don’t call back just expecting him to tell us the same news we just heard from coach.

Once we get to the hospital Tessa runs to the reception and asks for a room number or anything information on her best friend. Me and Gabi stand a few feet behind praying we are allowed to go in and see y/n. After a few minutes of back and forth Tessa comes over and says “room 344”

We all race up to the room with help from nurses pointing us in the right direction. We end up in the ICU ward and find her room, we walk in and see a doctor checking her vitals or whatever doctors do. He turns to see the three of us stood there looking back at him, my eyes looking solely at y/n. “Hey guys are you y/n’s family, if you’re not you can’t be in here, she’s just came out of surgery and we are only allowing family members in right now.” He stares us down and puts the clipboard down, in a state of panic I turn to him and say “im her fiancé” without thinking, I hold my hand up and show him the ring on my finger. The promise ring y/n gave me as a joke one Valentine’s Day after my first ever girlfriend broke my heart. Even if it was a joke, that ring has never left my hand ever since. Surprisingly the doctor nods and lets us in without another question. “What happened?” I say before Tessa or Gabi can. “Motorbike accident, she has a cracked skull, broken collarbone. We took her to surgery to fix some things but she coded multiple times, we managed to bring her back and we are just keeping her here until we are certain she’s safe to go home.” He says pointing at her while my eyes fill with tears “she’s in an induced coma right now to help with the pain but when she wakes up she’s gonna need you all here to help her through this” I walk over to her and see the damage, broken nose, bust lip and black eye. Bruises litter her skin, the white hospital gown contrasting the purple and blueness of the bruises. I pull a chair over and sit down, grabbing ahold of her hand as the doctor leaves the room, saying something to gabi and Tessa as he leaves earning a nod and thankyou from them both. They both end up sitting on chairs too, Tessa making multiple phone calls while Gabi keeps asking if im okay.

It’s been hours that we’ve been sat here. She’s still asleep I’ve never seen her so peaceful it hurts. I remember all the times we’ve shared. This could be our last. Last night could’ve been our last movie night. “Fine leave me forever” being the last thing I ever said to her. My eyes fill with tears once again and Gabi comes over, placing a hand on my shoulder “you okay?” She asks quietly “I think I love her” I say while shaking my head, tears falling from my eyes. Tessa’s laugh can be heard from the other side of the room as she comes back in. “We know you love her, also doc mchot said she should wake up any time now, so stop throwing a pity party” Tessa says throwing Gabi a cup of jello. “Where did you even get these?” Gabi laughs. “The hot doctor snuck me a few in exchange for my number” she smirks “he’s switching jobs to be a firefighter, next week he starts training” the blonde smirks again. “If y/n was awake right now they would throw this jello cup at your head so hard” I say with a small smile. I feel y/n start to stir in her bed, Gabi and Tessa take this as their sign to leave the room “we will give you two some space” Gabi says, grabbing Tessa’s arm and dragging her along asking about the hot doctor/firefighter.

A groan escapes her mouth as her eyes open slowly, a hand shooting up to rub her eyes. Followed by a hiss of pain. “What the fuck happened?” She says with a laugh “I love you” I blurt out.

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(Y/ns pov)

My eyes open and my whole body aches. I bring up a hand to rub my eyes but a shooting pain follows as I hit the bridge of my nose, I bite my lip in agony and bring my hand back down, seeing aj with puffy red eyes, and the fact we are sat in a hospital I look at her again “what the fuck happened?” I ask before laughing a little. She looks me in the eyes and blurts out “I love you” I blink a few times to make sure I am indeed awake and not dead. Once im positive im not in heaven I realise im crying and aj looks at me concerned “I love you too And I don't know what I'm cryin' for, I don't think I could love you more” I blurt out immediately regretting it as I see Tessa and Gabi at the door smirking, we are never going to live this down. So I do the only thing I can think of. Dig myself a deeper hole. “I’ll love you to the day that I die”

[olithewitch]

Here are some songs that I think represent Smallishbeans in different SMPs:

X-life: Comfort Eagle by CAKE

Empires S1: Take Me to War by The Crane Wives

3rd Life: The Wolf by The Crane Wives

Last Life: Curses by The Crane Wives

Double Life: Breakdown by Tessa Violet

Limited Life: Bad Guy by Billie Eilish

Kingdomcraft: DARKSIDE by Neoni

[hollyhomburg]

OFFICIAL BILY PLAYLIST

Notes: people have asked me for this a few times over the course of the series and i’ve finally put it together. i put a 🌟 next to the ones that i feel like are the most representative of each of the characters :) hobi of course has the most songs out of everyone because that’s sort of his thing! 

Series Masterlist

Tae

🌟 Chappell roan - pink pony club ( tae’s quintessential song)

🌟 Crawlers- Come over again (the m/c about the tae x jimin relationship)

Kali uchias- Telepatia (the first song that ever made me think of bily tae) 

Mitski - washing machine heart (tae x mc)

David Kushner- Daylight

Jk

🌟 CL - 5 stars (mc x jk, how she feels about him)

🌟 Lily is that you - FMRN

Peach Tree Rascals- Mariposa

Enhyphen- Fever

Jk - seven 

Jimin

🌟 Frank Ocean - Chanel 

Hozier - Take me to church (tae x jimin, jimin about tae)

Glass animals- The other side of paradise

Imagine dragons- Enemy (jimin x jin, once they find out about each others secrets)

Soyoon ft rm. Smoke sprite (this song captures the essence of jimin’s devotion really well) 

Yoongi 

amber run - i found  (mc x Yoongi at the beginning)

Fujii Kaze- Shinunoga e-wa

🌟 Orange juice - Noah Kahn (Yoongi x pack, when he comes home and is unsure if the pack will take him back)

Lela Ross- Like we’ll never have sex (mc x Yoongi)

🌟 Delaney Bailey- J’s lullaby

Tessa violet- kitchen song

the cinematic orchestra - to build a home 

Call your mom - noah kahan

Hobi

🌟 Willow smith- Meet me at our spot (m/c x hobi, a song that captures every single late night drive they take)

Cherub- Doses and mimosas

Golden vessel - Highway

Le seraphim - Sour grapes (hobi x m/c, how they feel about each other in the middle of the story) 

Halfalive- whats wrong (THE hobi song, i first heard this at the very begining of writing and it greatly captures his charecter) 

Mikky ecko- Pull me down

 Damien styles- American paranoid freak

Lorde – Ribs

Slenderbodies- Anemone

🌟 Sapient dream- Past lives 

Namjoon

Timber Timbre- like a mountain

Cults- Gilded lily

🌟 Hozier- Work song

Role Model -Notice me (m/c x namjoon) 

the neighborhood - Daddy issues 

Jin

🌟 Epic high- Rosario (THE quintessential bily song, the very first idea i had for bily came from this song) 

Hozier- Eat your young

Taylor swift- Sweet nothing

soap and skin - me and the devil (jimin x jin)

Sufjan stevens- Fourth of july (jk x jin, when jk goes into the hospital b/c of seizures) 

M/c

🌟 Kate Bush- running up the hill (m/c x hobi, the very end of the story)

Selena Gomez - Ring

🌟 Rae Ami- Meanie head (her x geumjae)

Mia- Bad girls

Melanie martinez- EVIL

Misamo- “do not touch”

Billie eilish- What was I made for

[hamartian-cathexis]

HI THIS IS CLOD

rules: pick a song for each letter of your url and tag that many people

Tagged by @derekhalesbian oh lordy here we go

H: hunger by florence and the machine

A: anna sun by walk the moon

M: my boy by billie eilish

A: all-american bitch by olivia rodrigo

R: reckless driving by lizzy mcalpine

T: thingamajig by miya folick

I: i eat boys by chloe moriondo

A: american teenager by ethel cain

N: no complaints by noah kahan

C: crush by tessa violet

A: after midnight by chappell roan

T: the louvre by lorde

H: happening again by katherine li

E: everybody does by julien baker

X: exile by taylor swift ft. bon iver(ik this is cheating but idk what else to put

I: it will come back by hozier

S: satanist by boygenius

No pressure tags!

@sidekcks @newtedison @crestfallercanyon @pathsofoak @fogdog1738 @its-tea-time-darling @itsthemxze @butdaddyilovehimmm @halfthebrain @blackashbluephoenix @ravenwilds @godofstory @yukiranine @thaliaisalesbian @jdwicked no way I have enough ppl to tag lol so I'll stop there

[yazzydream]

JJK Playlists: Yuji | Geto | Toji | Gojo

Tired As Hell (Itadori Yuji Playlist)

Somehow Yuji's playlist ended up hurting my heart, but maybe that's just because I know the context. Manga SPOILERS ahead.

→ [Spotify Link]

1. Heart ni Hi wo Tsukete ("Light a Fire in Your Heart") - 9mm Parabellum Bullet

Chosen by Gege Akutami. Oof, sounds like being trapped with Sukuna.

So light it aflame, light my heart aflame, so this'll never disappear again. Burn the loneliness, burn the secrets, won't they turn to ash, won't they turn to ash, see? You and I are stuck to each other, bound tightly together, we just simply can't be alone. You and I are stuck to each other, lying to each other, two tongues tangling up, deeper into the night.

2. Remember the Name - Fort Minor

First and foremost, Yuji is a kickass shonen protag.

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill Fifteen percent concentrated power of will Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

3. Cursed - Codeko

Always feeling like I'm different Is there a cure for my condition, can't find one Cause I'm cursed Yeah I'm cursed [...]

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I've learned to laugh at myself, But I'm getting tired as hell, I'm bad at asking for help, even when I need it Every day, it goes the same, Feels like, I can't catch a break I'll try again tomorrow

4. lies - Sion

Getting a mix of Sukuna toying with Yuji even while Yuji is just. suffering.

Tell me a lie I can believe 'Cause everything you say right now seems like gibberish to me (la, la)

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Are you afraid that I would harm you if you tell me you would leave Na-na-na oh, leave, na-na-na Tell me a lie for my relief Could you stop being ruthless stepping right onto my deepest points?

5. Bring Me to Life x Just the Two of Us - The Gregory Brothers

A mashup that gives Evanescence a nice upbeat fluttery feeling. (Mashup is not available on Spotify so it's pure angst on the Spotify playlist.)

(Wake me up) wake me up inside (I can't wake up) wake me up inside (Save me) call my name and save me from the dark (Wake me up) bid my blood to run (I can't wake up) before I come undone (Save me) save me from the nothing I've become

6. Itadori - roseboi

7. New Invention (feat. Tessa Violet) - IDKHOW

Kenjaku made Yuji after all.

The girl is like an architect And I am just a new invention I am just a new invention I am just a new invention You've got to choose between your faces Feels like you're running out of holy places And now the room is getting quiet (shh) Oh, what a shame Nobody taught you how to read and riot Oh, bless my soul I'm losing control

8. bury a friend - Billie Eilish

Shibuya arc இ௰இ

Step on the glass, staple your tongue (Ahh) Bury a friend, try to wake up (Ahh-ha) Cannibal class, killin' the son (Ahh) Bury a friend, I wanna end me I wanna end me I wanna, I wanna, I wanna end me I wanna, I wanna, I wanna– What do you want from me? Why don't you run from me? What are you wondering? What do you know? Why aren't you scared of me? Why do you care for me? When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

9. Strawberry Fields Forever - Jim Sturgess

When Yuji regains consciousness after Sukuna wrecked Shibuya.

Let me take you down 'Cause I'm going to Strawberry Fields Nothing is real And nothing to get hung about Strawberry Fields forever

10. Happy Endings (feat. iann dior and UPSAHL) - Mike Shinoda

Did Yuji's grandpa put a curse on him? Why'd he get a hero complex? ┗( T﹏T )┛

Hey, at least in my mind I'm feelin' like I'm the hero that saves me There, I hold my head high Get everything right Delusional maybe If I'm pretending, why not write happy endings? Where I'm better than we both know I could be, oh Still, at least in my mind I'm feelin' like I'm the hero that saves me

11. overwhelmed - Royal & the Serpent

I say this playlist came out more angsty than I expected. It's all because of Yuji's subtle self-loathing post-Shibuya I've been picking at here.

I get overwhelmed so easily My anxiety creeps inside of me Makes it hard to breathe What's come over me? Feels like I'm somebody else

12. Would Look Perfect (feat. Rxseboy) - Powfu

Yuji, prone to loneliness. Despite Yuji being Yuji, a warm extrovert, ride or die friend, he doesn't appear to have really fit in back home?

See you with your friend group, lonely like I always am Gave a silent wave but, I don't think you noticed it Thinkin' of what happened as I continue my walk I grew up in this town, but somehow I'm feelin' lost Wishin' I was cool, why does everybody fit in?

13. XO Tour Lif3 - Lil Uzi Vert

All my friends are dead, push me to the edge All my friends are dead, yuh, push me to the edge All my friends are dead, yuh, all my friends are dead, yuh

14. Fight Again - Chica, Hiroaki Tsutsumi

JJK season 1 OST

15. Occult Phenomenon - Paranom, Aztech, Hiroaki Tsutsumi

JJK season 1 OST

16. Your Battle Is My Battle - Chica, Hiroaki Tsutsumi

JJK season 1 OST

17. Learn The Lesson - Kasper, Aztech, Hiroaki Tsutsumi

JJK season 1 OST

18. Kimi wa Dekinai Ko ("You're a Useless Child") - Kikuo

Yuji to himself.

You are a useless, useless useless child The most useless child in the whole world

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La la la Monster, ghost, invisible human A vase, an urinal, being truant With a dry mouth, under your breath You utter slander Let's listen to the monotone squeal Yet months and days pass and pass You're a child with not enough time nor brains Now it's too late, you're mentally retarded You cute child, good child, you belong to me

19. Boys Will Be Bugs - Cavetown

Back before he realized he was just a cog, Yuji was the typical teenage boy.

I'm a dumb teen boy I eat sticks and rocks and mud I don't care about the government And I really need a hug I feel stupid (stupid), ugly (ugly) Pretend it doesn't bother me I'm not very strong, but I'll fuck you up if you're mean to bugs

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Just turned 14 And I think this year I'm gonna be mean Just turned 14 And I think I know everything Just turned 14 And I think this year I'm gonna be mean Just turned 14 And I think the world revolves around me Don't mess with me, I'm a big boy now, and I'm very scary I punch my walls, stay out at night, and I do karate

20. Two Face - Jack Daniels

A little more literal with Sukuna.

Lately, I've been talking with a ghost He tells me all the places I should go He makes me paint my face so that I know That I'm not the only person in my soul He tells me that a monster lives inside And when it gets too angry I should hide 'Cause if I were to try to pick a fight I would barely stand a chance and I'd die

21. Nosedive - BoyWithUke

I was thinking of Nanami at first, but the vibe was more from a young adult. Well, Yuji's bound to have picked up some things from him.

We're all grown up, we're all so lost Nothin' has prepped us for this life It's like we don't know why Nosediving from the high

22. idtwcbf (friends) - BoyWithUke

Regrets on Megumi, what happened, etc. There's also an asura/mythological vibe I'm digging.

I just wanna stop, had enough, out of love and out of luck I don't wanna give a fuck about my feels, dulls enough Emotionally uninvested, resting for the day to come Try my hardest not to run away from everything I've done But I'm looking back, ignoring facts I see two moon, but walk six paths Inside my head, I'm going mad for you (Oh, oh)

23. A Better Son/Daughter - Rilo Kiley

Yuji, his feelings, and his mom.

Sometimes in the morning, I am petrified and can't move Awake, but cannot open my eyes And the weight is crushing down on my lungs, I know I can't breathe And hope someone will save me this time And your mother's still calling you insane and high Swearing it's different this time And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her And that God never blessed her insides Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things Crawl back into bed to dream of a time When your heart was open wide, and you loved things just because Like the sick and the dying

24. Hope - XXXTENTACION

Tired but hopeful.

Said I wanna die, yuh No, I'm not alright, yuh I might start a riot I'm so fuckin' tired, yuh So what's up? What you say? Feelin' good, I'm feelin' great Tired of the fuckin' hate Stackin' cheese all on my plate So outside of my misery, I think I'll find A way of envisioning a better life For the rest of us, the rest of us There's hope for the rest of us, the rest of us

25. Shake It Off - Taylor Swift

Wasn't sure to include this. Honestly, you can't forget that even after all the misery Yuji goes through, in the end he pushes through with his unrelenting ability to shake it off.

But I keep cruisin' Can't stop, won't stop groovin' It's like I got this music in my mind Sayin' it's gonna be alright

26. Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots

Ugh, that scene where the first-year trio is just hanging out and Nobara spills coffee on Gojo's shirt-- then the hard cut to Nobara dead is devastating EVERY TIME.

Wish we could turn back time

To the good old days

When our mama sang us to sleep

But now we're stressed out (oh)

27. SAD (Clap Your Hands) - Young Rising Sons

Continuing on a more upbeat tune. Todo coming to Yuji's help in Shibuya.

If you're sad and you know it And you don't want to show it Clap your hands If you are sad, that's okay You can clap it all away Just clap your hands Come clap your hands We're all a little sad

28. mercy - KING MALA

Aaand back to the self-hatred. Because things just got worse post-Shibuya.

I've been getting so tired Starting so many fires I always find a way to burn Now I'm begging for mercy From everyone that I've wronged I've done more harm than I thought

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I'm begging mercy Is there any good inside of me?

29. Antarctica - $uicideboy$

With blood and whatever Drag you outside, let you rot in the weather I don't think I can explain any better I'm $carecrow the Terror I live for the lesser, my birth was an error I am the lord of loneliness I'll hold my breath, just spoke with death He said he hopes for the best Told him I'm roping my neck Then I woke up choking from the hole in my chest

30. It's Alright - Mother Mother

It's hard to pick out just a few sections of the song, so really the whole thing is just... perfect for Yuji. I can imagine the scene post Higuruma vs. Yuji trial.

It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay You're not a monster, just a human And you made a few mistakes It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay You're not gruesome, just human And you made a few mistakes It's alright Ooh, it's okay Ooh, it's alright, oh Goddamn I throw a brick right through the window My life ignored the signals I'm high and drunk on ego, can't see straight So I just feel my way around and I'm touching and I'm grabbing Everything I can't be havin' I am broken down in shame

31. Kaibutsu ("Monster") - YOASOBI

Wanting to be stronger and not succumbing to darker feelings.

Over and over again, I sink my teeth Into my weak self Because in this world riddled with mistakes I want to make sure you can smile I don't want to lose anyone anymore And that's why I want to get stronger, even stronger So that I can stay myself I just want to protect you - and that's why I'm running, running, running So that I can overcome the "me" inside myself

32. Kaikai Kitan - Eve

The very first JJK OP. Yuji-coded.

Can't you see I'm a mess? This is the current, pathetic me Just a dead corpse that achieved nothing, go on and ridicule me Yet I quit just running away from everything before my eyes Repeatedly depicting the fantasy in my mind Go to the far side of your imagination Exorcise the darkness, exorcise the darkness Once the veil of darkness descends, that's our cue After the tit-for-tat, leave all the circular battle front line And such nonsense away Don't stop yet, it hasn't ended yet To search more keenly than anyone else for the truth bred in the streets Now only imagine my future being cursed with a curse Running and falling I'll embrace this pain that won't disappear The world is quietly waiting For this moment

33. Itsuka Dokoka de (Someday, Somewhere) - KUCHIRORO

Second song chosen by Akutami. Long, winding, and whimsical. Not available on Spotify.

[maryannecrimsworth]

Against All

Pairing: Hailey Upton x Single Father! Former FBI profiler! OC! Kristoff "Kris" Aller

Summary:

Nine corpses, nine burnt buildings, nine victims --- no connections.

The Intelligence unit of District 21st had been unable to find anything. All the clues were dead ends, all the people murdered were different - there was no pattern, no connection.

The only thing in common in all the cases: the modus operandi.

More murders were happening as the unit remained stagnant -- the cases were increasing, and they weren't getting any closer to having even one suspect.

Voight had no choice: he called the most efficient criminal profiler that he knew - who had also left the Bureau after a terrible event.

Kris Aller didn't want to go back, he didn't want to look a monster in the eye ever again, not after what had happened to his daughters.

But the sergeant needed him. This case - all the murders - were linked to the tragedy of his life. A tragedy that Hank couldn't avoid.

A tragedy that only Hailey Upton would understand --- and uncover.

Chapter One: Benjamin Cooper

— God, I hate this song — the teenager complained in a grunt. Even though she was sitting in the passenger seat, she could hear the younger girl singing from the back. — Can you tell her to shut up?

— No way. — The man driving replied quickly. — Amber's expressing herself, I can't tell her off for that.

— So tell her to express herself with another song! I swear to God if I hear — the girl on the back sang loudly: I was good she was hot — Argh! — The teen grunted. — I gave up. My ears will bleed forever.

— Blackhawks won yesterday, let her cheer. — He looked at the girl by his side, worry present in his semblance. — Is there something—

— Billy's here! — Amber shouted, making both the man and the teenager flinch. He stopped the car.— Papa, can I go? Please, I need to talk to him—

— At least she stopped singing.

— I heard that, Tess! — He stared hardly at the older girl before turning to the other. — Yes, you can, Amber, but behave in class, ok?

— Thank you! — She freed herself from the belt, kissed and hugged her father, and held the door of the car. — Bye, papa. Bye, Tessa. See ya later! — she dropped off and ran into the school. Her shirt of the Chicago Blackhawks got the attention of some girls around but she didn't mind.

They watched the little girl go as they waited inside the car in complete silence.

— Oh, no. — Tess suddenly spoke. — Mother Alert, we gotta go.

A woman appeared on the horizon: it was too late, she had reached the car and was already asking for the teen to lower the window.

— you're a terrible getaway pilot. — she mouthed to the man before rolling down the glass and allowing the woman to come even closer.

— Kris! How good to see you! — the woman screamed.

— Hello, Margaret. — only Tess could tell his smile was fake. — How are you?

— Oh, dear, I'm suffering because of you! — Tess widened and moved away from the window. Being between the two now should be her punishment for complaining. — My boys won't stop asking for your pretzels! My house is a mess.

— I'm sorry to hear that. You haven't tried the recipe yet? — Kris kept his hand on the wheels. He wanted to leave as much as Tess did.

— I have, but I don't have the magic hands you do, dear! Would you like to stop by tomorrow and teach the boys how to make it? I think it's the only way to calm them down.

— Oh, no, I wouldn't like to bother you. — One of Kris' hands fell to the gearbox. — I'll bring some more to their training, don't worry. — the car started to move. — Sorry, I gotta go. See ya!

The woman was left behind in sidewalk as both Kris and Tess started to breathe easily again.

— Was she smelling? — Tess asked.

— Don't be mean. It was just some cologne...I guess.

— It's paradoxal, you know. The mothers love a single dad but are crazy to make you no longer single.

— This is the conversation you want to have right now?

Tess' smile faded away. Kris wouldn't miss a thing, would he?

— I don't want to talk about it.

— Okay.

— It's just silly stuff from school.

— If it's bothering you, then it's not silly — he started, and Tess finished the sentence with him, her voice was filled with impatience and discomfort.

— I know, I know. — she sighed. — Still, I don't feel like talking right now.

— Sure. — Kris kept driving. — Do you want to get some ice cream?

— I have class.

— It's okay, we have time. — He turned the wheel to the right and started to look for an ice cream parlor. They arrived at a commercial street very quickly. — Here it is.

— It can't be open.

— It is! — he parked without any problem. At this time in the morning, no one was driving or passing by a street like that, but, thankfully, the parlors and cafeterias were open — still empty, but open.

— So, — he turned off the car. — ice cream?

— I hate when you do this

Kris smiled.

— you hate many things but you love ice cream, don't you?

— yes.

— So let's go.

Kris made her smile — well, she was smirking but it counted —, and they approached the parlor with joy.

The man was about to crack a joke when a man showed up by the empty street corner.

Kris' steps slowed down, recognizing him immediately. He, however, didn't allow Tess to have the chance to look at the other man.

— Tessa. — He turned her over to him. — I'll be right after you, ok? Here, get the one you want. — Tessa noted something was wrong, but she obeyed and walked over to the parlor, keeping distance from the other man.

As she reached the shop, Kris waited for the man to come closer.

— Sergeant Voight. — Kris spoke with a tense voice. He already knew what this was all about. He knew what he was going to ask. That's why he didn't take any of Voight's calls. — How can I help you?

— You know how. — Voight was holding a file. — I need a profiling, off the books.

— The feds would be happy to help you with this.

— No. — Hank stepped closer, — they can't know. We still don't know the length of this and...

— Maybe one of them can be involved. — Kris grunted under his breath. He looked away and remained in silence for many minutes.

— We've got 9 victims so far. — Hank would say whatever he needed to convince the man. — It's a clear M.O but we cannot predict too much besides that. My team and I—

— Okay. — Kris spoke suddenly. This time, when he looked back at the Sargent, his eyes shone discreetly. — I'm in. — His look jumped to the girl in the parlor, now appreciating her ice cream. — With one condition. My daughters have to be safe , no matter what.

— Nothing will happen to them. — Voight handed him the file. — I already spoke with your boss, he said he'll take care of the center until you're done helping us.

Kris laughed.

— You're a step ahead, as always. — Kris walked away from the Sargent. — See you there.

Voight nodded and left.

And Tess was watching everything when Kris finally came to the parlor.

— You're getting back, aren't you? — Tess sounded suspicious. Her hands were squeezing the bowl of ice cream with strength.

— You don't have to worry about it. — Kris said, helding one of her hands in an attempt to calm her down. Her expression slowly softened. — I made sure you and Amber we'll be safe and... — He showed a mischievous smile. — you have your own high school drama to live now, forget about me.

Tess rolled her eyes at his words.

— I'm not telling you anything.

— Yeah? I doubt it. I think you will come up with five profiles by next week.

— God, you make me sound creepy.

Kris laughed proudly and loudly.

— What can I say? It's our family thing.

X

Arriving at the police station would never be discreet: as soon as Kris left his car, half a dozen officers turned to him. Some smiled, some widened their eyes, but the loudest of all was Ruzek, who cheered and shouted as he came closer.

— Can't believe you're here, man — Adam hugged Kris and tapped his back. — I always thought you'd come back

— Hold on, I'm not back — "yet", Adam whispered, interrupting Kris while they walked to the unit floor — Voight asked for help and that's it. Don't get too excited.

— I'm not, but Kim will be. She's been curious about you since Myk and Amber started playing together.

— But she already knows me… — Kris was confused, he couldn't understand the reason behind Adam's excitement in time

— But she doesn't know ‘Bishop’! — Kris grunted in distress — It's good to have you back, Bishop

Adam walked away laughing as they came upstairs and met with the rest of the unit. Voight, Upton, Torres, Burgess and Atwater stared at Kris immediately.

— Team, that's Aller, former FBI profiler. — Voight introduced him — He’s going to help us with this case, so bring him up to date.

The man nodded respectfully and came closer as Torres stepped in and showed him the board.

— We have 9 corpses, 9 places and 9 crime scenes. All of these men were killed between 9 p.m to 3 a.m, with chains and inner burns.

Inner? Kris frowned at the words and stared attentively at the photos.

— They were cooked. — Kim explained with a choked voice. — Tortured during the whole night. We can’t get why, we don’t have any suspects…We don’t even have images. Only the bodies.

— And we don’t have much more of them, either…They had to be identified by their dental arch.

— It’s cruel. — Kevin said.

— It’s personal. — Kris spoke. — The victims had any enemies in common?

— No one. Nothing, to be honest. — Adam approached the board with the photos of the victims. — Different jobs, different homes, different colors and ages…But the same way of death.

Silence took over the room. Again, confusion and tension paired in the air as the new member of the unit stared at all the data, and all the other members watched him. He was totally still, eyes frozen on one name on the board.

— Benjamin Cooper. — Adam broke the silence with anxiety, pointing at the name that Kris so determinedly looked at. — No criminal record, but he testify years ago in—

— I know him. — Kris cut him off, and his eyes finally moved: his gaze landed on Voight. His expression, even though still as before, focused on the sergeant for too long. — He’s the reason why I’m here.

Voight looked away: the discomfort made him move around the room as Hailey watched them both suspiciously.

— Why do you mean? — Kim inquired.

— I…I worked on the case he testified in. — Aller explained. — Thanks to him…it all went wrong.

— I want you to talk with his family. — Voight demanded. — They know something, but didn’t tell us anything. They’ll talk to you.

Kris crossed his arms over his chest. He didn’t take long to agree with the sergeant.

— Is this a pattern? — He asked before walking away from the board. — The other victims were involved in the case too?

— No. None of them had ever testified. — Torres replied.

— Cooper was a dead loss, the testimony was the only thing that could get him killed. — Kris went on. — He might be our connection.

— You heard him. Investigate the man, make a timeline of the night he was murdered, discover every single contact of his and find a connection. Every little detail can be important. — Voight gave the orders as he followed Kris.

They were about to walk downstairs when a strong voice stopped them.

— If Benjamin was a ‘dead loss’ as you said — Upton spoke up — why waste our time on him? The killer might act again tonight and we have to—

— Do we have any better leads? — Voight’s voice was sharp, his reaction was abrupt and harsh. His voice would grow louder if Kris hadn’t held him. — What? — He screamed at Aller.

— Calm down.

— I am perfectly calm for this case, Kristoff, but I cannot bear to see another dead body because of him .

Kris’ expression went dark. He bended over Voight.

— You’re not thinking straight….— Kris whispered. — Stay here. Remember what we talked about. I’m going to talk with the Coopers.

Voight walked back to the unit floor, and, before going into his office, he ordered again:

— Upton, you go with him.

She opened her mouth to protest, but Hank had already shut the door close.

Hailey picked up her coat and walked away with Kris, in complete silence.

They went downstairs and passed by Platt's balcony with a quiet goodbye. Even though the Sergeant clearly tried to talk with Kris, the man walked across the entrance and ignored all her glances.

Again, Hailey watched his behavior in silence and kept her way to the car.

— I'm sorry about Voight. — Kris said before getting closer to the passenger side. — This case is…. complicated to him.

They got into the car and Hailey asked:

— Yet, he won't tell us anything about it.

— It's a confidential case. — He argued.

— So confidential that you think everyone involved in it's a target. — She started the car.

— You need a connection. That might be it.

— Is this your profile? Or just a guess?

Kris responded with a snort.

— You're better off without knowing much about this case, believe me. — He shrugged in his seat. — Are we going to the Coopers or not?

Hailey grunted and drove away from the police station.

X

The house of the last members of the Cooper family was simple and humble. The garden looked abandoned, the grass was tall and the fence was almost completely broken. The car parked in the open garage was lowered, with empty tires and cracked windows.

They did not look simply poor — they looked like they had given up on life itself.

— I think it’s better if you stay here. — Kris spoke before Hailey could exit the car. Luckily or not, she froze for a second, giving him time to leave and walk over to the house.

After collecting herself, Upton got out of the car and ran after him.

— Excuse me? — She grabbed his arm and made him turn to her. — Who do you think you are?

— Look, don’t make this personal. Just — He cut her off before she could argue back — Just look around. They won’t talk to you.

— But to you they will? You're as arrogant as any shrink who's never been in the streets.

Kris watched her speak in silence: with his hands in his hips, he only waited for the woman to be done.

She stopped talking very quickly — after all, it was useless to say anything to his blank, strained expression — and the man enjoyed the silence of the street before finally replying:

— They will talk to me because they know me. — He stepped back. — Now, if you excuse me…

Ignoring his arguments, Hailey followed Aller close behind. He didn’t utter another word to her, and finally knocked on the house’s door.

— Anna? — Kris called. — It’s Kristoff. Can we talk?

Unlike the reception Upton and Voight received a few days ago, the woman answered him quickly and promptly. Her eyes were widened when she opened the door, but she frowned at Hailey. Anna’s face dropped, and she muttered to Kris a few words.

Kris signed to Hailey and they both followed the woman into the house.

— Can I see Benjamin's room?

— She already did — Anna replied before Upton could — They took all his gadgets and notebooks.

— I know. — Kris smiled gently. — I just want to check one thing up

Anna stared at him for too long — her gaze was heavy, not suspicious, but, somehow, sad. It carried so much guilt that she eventually showed him the room.

— I'm waiting in the kitchen. — she told them before opening the door of Benjamin's bedroom.

Kris stepped in as Anna walked away.

— As she told you, we already searched in here. You won't find anything useful.

— Maybe not. — Kris replied with a whisper, his whole being focused on analyzing the room. The walls were empty, and so was the bed and the dressers. — Looks like a prison cell.

— Or he was just minimalist. — Hailey argued. — Cooper's never been in jail.

— Yes. — Aller came closer to a drawer. — But he also had three records for criminal harassment. He was a stalker. — Kris wandered through the drawer and collected a few flyers. — Here it is.

— What?

— Our connection.

He didn't give Hailey time to question — Aller stormed out the room and came to Anna.

— Thank you for your help, Anna — He held out his hand to her. — We're already leaving.

The woman shook his hand and blinked slowly, as if gathering courage to say something.

— I have to tell you something. — Anna admitted.

Hailey saw Kris' expression drop — he stepped back and prepared to leave right away.

— You'd already told everything you needed. — He tried to be polite, but Hailey purposely stood in his way. He stomped on the detective and was obligated to stop.

— I did thank you. — Anna came closer, but Aller didn't look her in the eye. — But I never apologized for leaving you there. I shouldn't—

— It's okay. — He cut her off. — You don't have to. It's already gone. I don't resent you.

He smiled at her for a brief moment — only enough time to make her feel forgiven and understood.

Then he shook his head and left the house after saying a quiet goodbye.

Hailey stood there without understanding much — where was 'there'? What was Anna talking about? why would she thank him?

Upton followed him keenly — she wasn't going to stay in the dark again.

The way to the police station was silent: the tension stretched the air, making the atmosphere too heavy to even breathe. Kris shifted in his seat, his eyes were either moving to the window or to the driver's side. Hailey, on the other hand, kept her gaze on the streets.

When they parked and got out of the car, Platt was already waiting for them — for him.

The look that the Sargent gave Hailey showed her why the garage was completely empty. Trudy was furious.

— Have you gone mad? — She stomped over to Aller, and the man stepped back immediately. — What are you even—

— I guess your best ability is pissing the sargents off. — Hailey’s smile dropped as soon as Platt's gaze landed on her.

Kris spoke before Trudy could shout.

— This isn't the best place to talk about this. — He made Platt look at him again. — And you don't have to worry about it. — He held the sergeant's shoulders. — No one does. No one knows.

— Voight shouldn't have called you. You shouldn't be involved in any of this—

— Trudy, please— His eyes, shining with exasperation, turned to Upton for a brief second. — Don't—

— You can't help him! — She screamed.

And Hailey was watching and listening to everything. Maybe the whole station was.

— I can. — Kris' voice was still low, stable. Serene, the complete opposite of his face. — I will. Please, you—

— Aren't you thinking about your girls? How can you? He did—what he did was monstrous! — Platt would not stop. She could not stop. — He spanked you.

— I know. — Kris whispered as his arms involved the older woman. She was trembling under his hands.

— He raped you. — Platt sobbed, her tears were falling nonstop. — And you're being used again, you're ruining your life again for what? For him?

— I'm going to be fine, Trudy. I can do it.

— Voight's using you. — She pleaded again: — You can't—

— It's okay. — He hugged her tighter. — It's okay.

They stayed in the garage until the Sargent was able to stop crying. Until she was able to stop trembling.

And Hailey stayed there too.

She now had — at least a few — answers for all her questions about him.

[stardustizuku]

The Bookworm and The Jock

"Lestilaut had been too awestruck to manage even a quiet gasp - he could only stare at the sight before him. At that moment, but one name could adequately describe the woman dancing before them: the saint of Ehrenfest"

~ Lestilaut x Rozemyne Playlist

Goma De Mascar - Paty Cantu // What Is This Feeling? - Wicked Cast // Anything You Can Do - Bernadette Peters & Tom Wopat // Mary On A Cross - Ghost // The Other Side - Hugh Jackman & Zac Efron // Crush - Tessa Violet // Disgusting - Miranda Cosgrove // Jessie’s Girl - Rick Springfield // You Belong With Me - Billy Cobb // Boyfriend - Dove Cameron // Jolene but it’s gay - Reinairy // Galway Girl - Ed Sheeran // I Knew You Were Trouble - Boyce Avenue // Your Stupid Face - Kaden MacKay // Little Red Corvette - Prince // If I Could Tell Her - Ben Platt & Laura Dreyfuss // Something There - Beauty & The Beast // A Guy That I’d Kinda Be Into - Stephanie Hsu // Lemon Boy - Cavetown // Hellfire - Caleb Hyles

[greatearthquakestudent]

The Boys Alternative Universe: Solider Man

Solider Man:

Full Names: Jonathan Benjamin Gillman 

Aliases:

John

Perfect Boy

Soldier Man

Birthdate: May 2, 1981

Family:

Benjamin Gillman (Father, Deceased)

Martha Gillman (Stepmother, Deceased)

Henry Gilman (Younger Half-Brother, Deceased)

Ray Gilman (Younger Half-Sister)

Madison Maxwell-Gillman (Wife)

Ryan Gillman (Son)

Daisy Gilman (Daughter)

Ingrid Risinger/Sky Flyer (Half-Sister, Deceased)

Earving Johnson/Black Noir (Surrogate Uncle, Deceased)

Eve Fields/Crimson Countess (Surrogate Aunt, Deceased)

Robert Hawkins/Gunpowder (Surrogate Uncle, Deceased)

Daniel Wilson/Mindstorm (Surrogate Uncle, Deceased)

Skylar Tate/Swatto (Surrogate Uncle, Deceased)

Tommy Turner/TNT Twin Brother (Surrogate Uncle, Deceased)

Tessa Turner/TNT Twin Sister (Surrogate Aunt, Deceased)

Friends:

Maggie Shaw/Queen Maeve (Best Friend/Ex-Crush/Teammate)

Reggie Franklin/Blitz  (Best Friend/Teammate)

Kevin Moskowitz/Aquaboy  (Best Friend/Teammate)

Kimiko Miyashiro/Black Noir II (Close Friend/Teammate/Little Sister-Figure)

Kenji Miyashiro/Mindstorm II (Close Friend/Teammate/Little Brother-Figure)

Billy Butcher (Frenemies/teammate)

Annie January (Occasional teammate)

Mother's Milk (Frenemies)

Elena Sanchez-Shaw (Friend)

Enemies:

Klara Risinger/Stormfront (Direct Father’s murder)

Vought  International (Indirect Father’s murder)

Ingrid Risinger/Sky Flyer (Formerly, Deceased) 

Affiliation: Payback 2.0 (Occasionally)

Occupation:

Lawyer  Member of Payback (Occasionally)

Leader of Payback (Formerly)

Powers:

Superhuman Strength 

Superhuman Durability

Vacuum Adaptation

Superhuman Speed

Superhuman Reflexes

Superhuman Agility 

Superhuman Sight

Superhuman Hearing

Superhuman Smell

Ice Breath

Heat Vision

X-Ray Vision

Flight

Superhuman Resilience

Regenerative Healing Factor

Abilities:

Gifted Intellect

Expert Technician

Expert Lawyer

Expert Taction

Multilingual: English, Spanish, German, Russian, Japanese, Italian, Arabic, Sign Language

Psychologist (Advanced)

Charisma 

Athleticism

Weapon Proficiency 

Hand-to-Hand Combatant (Master Level)

Deception

Weakness:

Psychological:

Grief

Anger

Love ones

Lack of Self-Control

Failure

Biological:

Zinc

High Frequency

Blunt Force

Equipment:

Soldeir Boy Suit (modified)

Soldier Boy’s Shield

Black Noir’s knives

TNT spheres

Personality: John is  a sane, calm , caring, and generous man. A brilliant mind, who strive to make the world a better place just like his father tried, especially against Vought. With many lives loss, this could make John either depress or insane. But eventually he learns how to overcome these struggles and become a stronger person. He’s also pretty loving to his family and friends. He even offered his protection to Kimiko (a stranger) and her brother Kenji.

[thoughtslikeaminefield]

Just got to read Chpt 2 of 28 days and it’s Beautiful. You’ve made every one of these characters I know and love fit seamlessly into their new rolls and I couldn’t be more excited to read on. Thank you for sharing!

Thank you so much for taking the time to message me! I'm so glad you're enjoying it, and I hope you continue to do so!

If you're reading this and you haven't read 28 Days, take a peek and lmk what you think!

28 Days - AU Dean Winchester x several AU SPN characters

Summary: Dean Winchester is an addict and an alcoholic, a USMC veteran, a father, and an older brother. As Battalion Chief with Lawrence Fire & Medical, Dean comes under investigation when he makes a dangerous and impulsive decision, defying his superiors and abandoning the team he is supposed to lead. He is given the choice to go to rehab for 28 days or jail. His lawyer insists on rehab, and Dean begrudgingly abides.

Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Emma Winchester, Jack Kline, Meg Masters, Billie, Pamela Barnes, Missouri Moseley, Gabriel, Lydia, Casey, Bobby Singer, Castiel, Jo Harvelle, Ellen Harvelle, Crowley, Rowena, Tessa, Victor Henriksen, Nick Iblis (Lucifer), Zeke Gadreel, Constance Welsh

Warnings/tags: 18+ ONLY, sexually explicit, dubious consent, emergency action, fire, drug use, angst, thoughts of death and dying, flashbacks, teen endangerment, references to underage drug addiction and prostitution, drug and alcohol withdrawal, Dean Winchester goes to therapy

Words: 33K (epilogue to come)

Author’s notes: Inspired by the film 28 Days and following canon themes from SPN, this is a fic about Dean, a firefighter who goes to rehab, not about Dean as a firefighter.

[littlemcrmaid]

🍻 + “ is there someone you have a crush on ?” (arthur+alison)

DRUNKEN CONFESSION: accepting!

A afterparty do Grammy, sediada por Beyoncé em uma ilha privada, estava superando as expectativas de Alison. Todos aqueles anos trabalhando com Arthur e para Arthur e ela ainda não tinha se acostumado à vida de popstar do amigo.

Mais cedo, tinham pegado o jatinho junto à Adele, que perdera na categoria de álbum do ano para "Timeless", e ainda assim, não parecera ofendida com o fato de Arthur ter escolhido dividir o seu Grammy com Beyoncé e não com ela. Todos na indústria musical sabiam da relação do Moon com a cantora veterana; ela era como uma segunda mãe. E, agora, Alison assistia enquanto Dean conversava animadamente com um produtor musical que ela não conseguia lembrar o nome e Tessa tentava impedir que um dos rapazes da sua boyband mundialmente famosa bebesse demais, ao mesmo tempo que apresentava um powerpoint para um dos rapazes do BTS sobre as vantagens de assinar com ela.

Um riso sem som lhe escapou os lábios — ela tinha bebido demais na escala Alison de comportamento. Para alguém que não estava acostumada a sair da linha nunca, dois shots do que quer que fosse aquilo que o Lil Nas X lhe oferecera foram mais que o suficiente para deixá-la mais leve. Menos paranóica com certas coisas.

Ah, é claro. Alison não teria bebido se não tivesse um motivo para agir tão irresponsavelmente. Ela nunca bebia! Assim como nunca dormia depois das nove e meia em um dia de semana. Mas bastou a hashtag #ArthurAndBillieAreDating ir aos trend topics mundiais, com várias fotos e vídeos de Arthur e Billie Eilish chegando aos Grammy's junto e milhares de comentários sobre a química deles, que Alison precisou descontar todos os anos de bom comportamento naqueles dois copos amargos. Just like that, a icônica frase de Olivia Rodrigo, com quem trabalhara em algumas composições no ano passado, fizera sentido para Alison. "And you're probably with that blonde girl".

Não que ela se importasse, de qualquer forma. Por que deveria? Arthur era o seu amigo. O seu melhor amigo. E ele definitivamente não estava super-hiper-mega fofo no casaco que o seu estilista escolhera para aquela noite. Definitivamente não fez o coração de Alison dilatar dentro do peito quando agradeceu à ela no discurso do Grammy mais cedo.

E Alison nem desejava ser a Billie Eilish naquelas fotos. Era besteira. Arthur saía com várias garotas famosas e ela... ela era a sua melhor amiga.

(...)

Não percebeu que estivera encarando fixamente para um canto da praia onde Arthur conversava com alguns dos rapazes da boyband de Tessa até que o Moon pedisse licença para se afastar deles e ir até ela. O sorrisinho charmoso e irritante denotava a provocação que viria em seguida.

Sóbria, Alison teria revirado os olhos para a pergunta. Até parece, teria dito; e ele teria acreditado, porque o conceito de Alison Wu com um crush parecia de outro mundo.

Exceto para Tessa. Tessa sempre sabia.

"Por que?" Retribuiu, erguendo as sobrancelhas em um quê desafiador. "Você quer marcar um encontro duplo com a sua namorada Billie Eilish?" Deu um passo para frente, meio cambaleante, e afundou o indicador no peito dele, uma vez para cada palavra que proferiu: "Porque eu não quero sair com vocês!" Concluiu, orgulhosa de si, levantando o queixo como se acabasse de proferir um discurso de independência ou algo do tipo.

Ela desviou o olhar, não querendo ver nenhum tipo de emoção nos olhos do Moon, e se afastou, parecendo quase triste. O silêncio a incomodou por alguns segundos, até que levantasse o rosto e o fitasse outra vez. Era provável que Arthur não estivesse esperando a confissão que veio a seguir.

"Eu tenho um crush. Mas ele não gosta de mim." Sorriu sem vontade, ainda o encarando. "Feliz em saber?"

[hope-and-roll]

Meryl Wellington

"There seemed to be three choices: to give up trying to love anyone, to stop being selfish, or to learn to love a person while continuing to be selfish." _ Lydia Davis 

- Meryl Fanny Lena Wellington, née Gardner - Née le 20 janvier 2032 - Next-Gen - Sang-Pur - Lesbienne - Poudlard, Serpentard - Responsable marketing dans l'entreprise de vêtements Witchic, en deviendra la chef à l'âge de 30 ans  - Michelle Tachtenberg.

~ Fille biologique d'Elijah Esor et Grace Gardner ~ Nièce d'Eve Gardner  ~ Fille adoptive de Fanny et Lena Wellington, née Clark ~ Filleule de Dan Dawn 

* A été la meilleure amie de Harleen Rosier pendant leur enfance et à Poudlard, ont été colocataires ensuite. Meryl avait des sentiments pour elle (et réciproquement), mais a ruiné leur relation en refusant de lui être fidèle.  * Petite-amie d'Hitomi Yamanoue entre leurs 21 et 23 ans, relation abusive (envers Hitomi) * Amie de Raine Esor depuis qu'ils sont enfants, ignorera toujours qu'il est son demi-frère  * Amie de Keith Hearthlake à l'université, jusqu'à ce qu'il se rende compte qu'elle était toxique envers Hitomi  * Sexfriend d'Alwena Parker depuis Poudlard, est tombée amoureuse d'elle sans réciproque vers leurs 25 ans, pendant deux ans, Alwena ne l'a jamais su  * Collègue de Phoebe Lockster à Witchic, la détestera, puis aura une relation compliquée avec elle  Playlist :  Meryl :  Smells like teen spirit - Nirvana  Night crawling - Miley Cyrus 

Sinners - Barns Courtney 

Pain - King Princess There's a Honey - Pale Waves 

Meryl à Harleen :  When the party's over - Billie Eilish Sad dream - Sky Ferreira  Good for you - Olivia Rodrigo  Without me - Halsey I'm a ruin - Marina  Can you afford to lose me ? - Holly Humberstone Harleen à Meryl :  Why do you only call me when you're high - Arctic Monkeys  Everything is embarrassing - Sky Ferreira  You're not the one - Sky Ferreira  Cross you out - Charli XCX & Sky Ferreira  Merleen (Meryl x Harleen) :  Cut that always bleeds - Conan Gray Bad idea - Girl in red Angels like you - Miley Cyrus Nerves - DPR IAN Words ain't enough - Tessa Violet How many things - Sabrina Carpenter I wanna be yours - Arctic Monkeys  No shows - Gerard Way Television romance - Pale Waves

Meryl à Alwena :

Do I wanna know - Arctic Monkeys 

[billiewena]

okay, but billiewena fic where billie has always been rowena’s reaper and they met many times during her many near-deaths but rowena didn’t remember them (like how dean doesn’t remember meeting tessa in s2.) but when she is about to die for the last time, billie kisses her like tessa kisses dean to transfer the memory of them meeting. except for them it’s multiple memories of all the times they’ve met, comforting rowena in her final moments that she’s not weak and that fought for centuries to have this long and beautiful life.

[keysvibrant]

HAPPY PRIDE BEAUTIFUL BOLD BABES!

[jellycolors]

𝘮𝘦𝘵 𝘨𝘢𝘭𝘢 21 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘱𝘴𝘥

𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐮𝐬𝐞 / 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐞

𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐥

𝘺𝘢𝘳𝘢 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘪 - 𝘬𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘵𝘩 - 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘵 - 𝘣𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘦 𝘦𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘩 - 𝘻𝘰𝘦 𝘬𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘵𝘻 - 𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘢 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘴𝘰𝘯 - 𝘰𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘢 𝘳𝘰𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘰 - 𝘬𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘵 - 𝘣𝘢𝘳𝘣𝘪𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘪𝘳𝘢 - 𝘳𝘪𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢

[beecampbell]

My favorite Met Gala 2021 looks

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