#tell me you have mental illness without telling me

[crithaus]

big ups to @shorthaltsjester for making me think about my favorite mentally ill bisexual vex'ahlia de rolo but it really is something how she -even when she knows it's ridiculous - will outright REFUSE to engage with even the chance to have someone tell her their honest feelings about her or for her to do the same, of all people she'll even avoid VAX

Vax whom as we all know would love her til the end of time, Vax her identical twin, the person she knows best in the whole world who she is even most vulnerable with and she is still afraid in her heart of hearts that one day he'll turn around and pull a syldor on her, an "actually I hate you, have always, will always hate you," so she barters with his goddess for him back instead of her BROTHER, or Percy who again, she told his dead ass that she loved him and loved being a part of his world and not even Vax could convince her to tell him that to his face, imagine if Percy hadn't heard her say all of that cuz I don't think we'd have gotten the "and I kiss her," then if so like,

It drives me insane what Syngorn and Syldor managed to do to her in just, what, 5 years? 5 years and the thought of going back to that house is enough to drive her to tears and obsessively cleaning that armor, Vex was about to give up on Pelor's championship gauntlet without a fight or a word to defend herself because she didn't initially want to hear anyone say anything about the kind of person she is, she didn't even dare to HOPE...argh she's the character of all time, she's a cute throw-rug of flirty cool girl vibes over the marianas trench of insecurities

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[angelnumber27]

I dont think some people understand how truly awful and hellish withdrawals from some psych medications are.

[deoidesign]

HI I think I sent an ask a while back about having recently found TaTA and a) if it came off as trying to rush/guilt you. I am so sorry because that was NOT my intent, and b) I can hugely guarantee you have at least one person who will eat up any return, no matter when it happens, because I care about the guys so much 🥺 really looking forward to whatever comes next!!

Oh, I appreciate this a lot thank you!

Tbh it's a stress I would have regardless of anyone asking me about it, I'm probably the biggest one rushing and guilting myself on it. Which might contribute to some of the burnout I had...

My complaints are more about people who are demanding "more content daddy" or asking me if I'm dead or asking on every single post I make where it is... Wondering when it's coming back is completely reasonable, it's been a long time! but there's definitely a line haha

my editor also keeps randomly scheduling me and then saying "oh, btw you're scheduled to return in 3 weeks. Is that alright?" And I have to keep saying no, that's not alright??? And then dealing with that process...

I could write an essay about all the reasons it's not back yet, but that doesn't help me feel any less pressured, and it doesn't help you all get the rest of the comic any faster...

As of right now I'm scheduled to and trying to return october 21. No official announcement yet cause I have to do a lot of work in that time, but it's my official goal at least. When we get closer I'll be able to say for sure whether it's coming back on that date!

[icewindandboringhorror]

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

[curetapwater]

Hi. If you post or reblog th//in//spo or anything else encouraging disordered eating I am not comfortable with you following me.

[homosexualcitron]

LOVE YOU STORIES THAT USE MONSTER AS A QUEER METAPHOR LOVE YOU!!!!!

[ardentpoop]

they literally had no clue what a special and one-of-a-kind character they had on their hands

leagues above the rest of this show’s characters in terms of emotional depth

[seven-oomen]

Listen I get that you have BPD. I get that you have a mental illness. But that doesn't excuse rude or shitty behavior.

I kinda get why people are fed up with you.

[mars-ipan]

i do love my family very dearly but the internalized ableism the men in here struggle with is. so much

[pupkou]

i’m literally going to **** ******

[parsleymusic]

the urge to respond to critique about portrayal of unpolitically correct attitudes or phrases or actions or whatever in regards to mental illness with "what if I told you that it's not my job to tell my readers that when my character says stuff like 'my binge eating disorder is not as bad as my brother's bipolar + PTSD combination; he has to win at something' that it's Bad and the Wrong Attitude to have when it's largely a tongue in cheek joke about living with mental illness and watching the people you love experience a different flavor that is also worse

[local-limebug]

what the fuck is up with the rise in trans hate how are people this sensitive about what someone else wants to do with their own body

[marleneismydopamine]

depression is like when you get hungry and go to your fridge to see if there’s any food but it’s completely empty so you leave the kitchen but after a few minutes you remember how hungry you are so you go back to the fridge knowing there’s nothing there but you still go to see if food magically appeared but it didn’t and then you’re just in this endless cycle of checking the fridge instead of going out and finding food yourself because that sounds too hard and you’re getting hungrier and hungrier but nothing is getting better and eventually you’re not even really trying to relieve your hunger anymore, you keep checking only to say that you’re technically trying to not be hungry but you genuinely have no idea how to get food properly rn.

hunger is depression, the fridge is your mind, and food is the being happy

[m00ngbin]

Uh warning this whole thing is me complaining about my bones and pain and stuff so if you're sick of hearing about that you should probably ignore this

Whatever's wrong with my knee spread to my hip so I think that maybe I WILL be needing a cane or something soon and it's not just a joke I was making cause I had to keep sitting down in random places

Joke might be the wrong word because it wasn't really a joke and it wasn't funny, I was just trying to be lighthearted and it didn't seem like it was really happening or that it was probable