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GODDD the horrible stuff i’ve said in the past just to fit in is haunting me every night..
#i used to have like 0 friends and i’d say stuff that i’d never say at my home just so i’d be like other people. and MAN did that-#tear me up inside.#fellas if you have to do something you’d never ever say or agree with to get someone to like you they are not worth it.#you be you all the way.#only try be with the people that actually accept YOU and not a butchered version of yourself they think you are.#anyway stay safe yall love u#<3#☎️
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ive gotten so emotional searching for old Captain Underpants stuff here on tumblr that last night I doodled them
like what the hell, im smiling like aN IDIOT AGAIN
#i wonder if those CU fans of the past to know that I cherish their fan works so deeply#i hope they know#I want them to know how much their captain underpants content meant to me despite them being 6 years old#tearing up inside ACTUALLY#graynide's art#mr krupp#captain underpants#man in underpants posting
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I just saw one of your fave games is What remains of Edith Finch and I’m so happy! I feel like its a lesser known game but i loved playing through it. I’m so happy to know more than just my small friend group know about this game!
Sorry this isn’t a question. Also want to say that you’re art is amazing and the development of the designs is so interesting to see. Also the way you draw intimate scenes have so much emotion to them. I love the Aj and rarity kissing comic so much, you can just feel their love for each other ;w;
Thank you so much!
I highly, highly, highly recommend What Remains of Edith Finch to anyone interested in narrative game experiences/"walking simulators." It's one of those games that was handcrafted with nothing but love. Every room you explore is just... real. The way the light flows in and makes the colors of the living room, the kitchen, the bedrooms glow. Playing the game is like walking through your childhood home as an adult and seeing how the dust clings to everything you once touched. Also genius-level gameplay mechanics, ones that can make you completely empathetic with the character you're embodying or feel completely complacent in their tragedy. It's really not fair to call it a walking simulator because it's so much more and so much smarter than that.Everyone talks about the fish one.
The theme of death and memory and storytelling and the burden of invisible trauma and self-fulfilling prophecies is so affecting too. The ending made me cry.
#detective-marshmallow#ask me#using this ask to seriously plug edith finch#and to talk about spoilers here#major major major spoilers#because i still think about walter. who saw something so awful and traumatic as a kid that he spend the next 40 years living right under hi#family. and everyone forgot about him#i think about the house. literally aching and creaking with the family's history of strange deaths#i think about sam. who had to grow up in an empty bedroom he once shared with his twin brother. and stare at the partitioned-off side#every single day#i think about edith. who knows she will have a child and knows she will die and continue the family curse but decides to live anyways#god edith didn't even make it to adulthood.#this game tears me up from the inside yet it's so full of love and fantasy and hope#it was honestly really helpful for my death anxiety.#don't fear death. one day you'll go. people will mourn. and then they'll tell stories about you.
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i can’t get over the way miles said “stop calling me that” to peter and looked crushed on the train when he learned peter knew the whole time. even if it was unintentional, miles was betrayed by one of his best friends. like, that was his mentor. the person who said i love you, i’m so proud of you. the person who taught him to take a leap of faith. and miles lost him.
#it’s tearing me up inside can you tell 😭#spiderverse#across the spiderverse#spiderman across the spiderverse#atsv#spiderman atsv#miles morales#peter b parker#peter parker#mine
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Headcanon that Gruber became Herbert's adoptive father after the chemical fire killed his parents. HOWEVER, unable to swallow his pride, Herbert constantly referred to him by his full name or his title, never 'dad', until Gruber's untimely death.
That is until during a heated debate in front of the class about Hill’s plagiarism of Gruber's work, Herbert gets too emotional and, in a moment of vulnerability, slips up by referring to Gruber as "his father," for everyone to hear.
#ITS TEARING ME UP INSIDE#PLEASE ASK ME ABOUT HERBERT'S PAST IN DETAIL I'VE SPENT DAYS MAKING HEADCANONS#herbert west#reanimator#re animator#reanimator 1985#re-animator#headcanons#dan cain
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#John you’re tearing me up inside man#tmg#the mountain goats#all hail west texas#midland#jenny from thebes#john darnielle
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Y'ALL NEED TO SEE THIS PANEL
#Mobius will be the one to save him!#because he ended up very sad#But from what we saw on the series Mobius can push his feelings inside#maybe Deadpool can make him admit how much he misses loki??#LET ME DREAM#I still can't bear the hopelessness Tom Hiddleston left me with when he said that his journey as Loki had ended#YOU CAN'T JUST SAY THAT#ofc u can I'm just rambling I'm heartbroken and sad#btw someone on Quora answering a question about whether or not Asgard was linked to time or not used that panel#so I don't have the source of the specific comic I just know it's Thor I'm sorry#loki#lokius#loki x mobius#mobius m mobius#agent mobius#thor#thor comics#marvel cinematic universe#marvel loki#we all not it won't be Sylvie shedding that tear#loki season two#loki series#loki season 2
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Once I was scrolling thru naruto fics and saw the tag "buisnessman!Kakashi" and all I could think about was Kakashi being a child businessman, owning all the konoha adults at doing business while wearing an oversized suit and tie. That idea is so fucking funny to me.
#obito: that kakashi! hes always showing me up by getting better deals than me >:-(#also just the idea of lil child Kakashi showing up at a business meeting and sealing the deal with an outline written in adorablly childish#handwriting. written in crayon lol#call this the naruto businessman au#every ninja is a business person and it exactly parallels canon. that is my dream#sealed inside naruto is the partial spirit of the ultimate buisnessman but its too powerful and everyones afraid#fucking hashirama's face on the wall as the company founder lmao rip madara: fuck this company ur brother embarrassed my brother so bad#at deal making that he died. im gonna tear it all down. face me hashirama! deal for deal. ill become the ultimate businessman ill control#the world and put an end to all this business!#oh got its so weird like the founders waterpark au that i also keep deep in my heart#anyway this is weird wtf am i doing. procrastinating and its like almost 11 i should keep writing or go to sleep lol#but wait: 10 years ago the spirit of a ferral businessman was unleashed upon this building. there was no stopping him. his charisma was#unmatched. his expense reports! his terrible otherworldly expense reports! he was too efficient! he fired half the staff! the spirit of#that buisnessman is sealed inside of u naruto. thats why theyre so afraid of u. and then cut to naruto in an oversized buisness suit#looking shocked. aw iruka as a daycare working. cute#anyway this is fucking dystopian lol#unrelated#naruto ramblings
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"hello!! 💜 i bought a cute new outfit, wanna see? 😊" i say innocently with the intention of getting you to fuck me uncontrollably in said outfit
#casey ★ mumbling#!! first post back <3 feels good to be needy again teehee#i would love to dress up for someone all cute and nice#and then they tear it off of me seconds later while they pound inside me 💜#me when sighhhhh#gay nsft#gay ns/fw#ftm nsft#ftm ns/fw#mlm nsft#mlm ns/fw#queer nsft#queer ns/fw#trans nsft#trans ns/fw#mlm ftm#ftm mlm#gay ftm
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that part in the silt verses finale where carpenter is describing how she takes care of faulkner's body then releases him to the river and méabh de brún starts crying broke me.
#don't get me wrong#i was sobbing way before that#the silt verses#tsv#tsv finale#méabh de brún#the silt verses chapter 45#you can hear her gasping at the end of her sentences when she starts describing his dead body and that just tears me up inside
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do u have any random thoughts about sirius/remus?? literally anything at all- any random blurb or thought just Anything. reading ur james thoughts and i wanted to ask because i feel like any ramblings/character specificities u have about them will scratch my brain rlly good
my thesis for them is that one quote about how soulmates will eventually find each other, because they have the same hiding place
like the longer i spend with them the more i realize that i see them as recluses. perhaps not literally speaking (r & s have their own ways of attracting friends) but they are the two most isolated characters in the story to me. they’re yoked with really specific (yet opposing) burdens that nobody else is ever going to understand. they want to permanently hide their faces from the world & they have both built that kind of barren refuge inside of themselves
many other characters have stories that are built around Love, and the presence (james, lily, andromeda) or absence (regulus, barty, tom) of it, but that isn’t r&s to me. they have the Least to do with love stories because their entire lives are already so wrapped up in resolving super individual questions of freedom & autonomy & the hurt they cause & the hurt they suffered… but that’s why their love story hits the hardest, for me? they’re the least suited for it and it happened anyway.
once again my remus is like…. a city unto himself, but all internal. polite & mild mannered but also impossible to sway. i think he has the biggest imagination of all of them and it’s what lets him remain so Untouched. he’s not a ~creative~ or anything (pretty uncreative, actually) but he’s a poor german werewolf who is living a Little inside his head specifically because his life sucks so bad. he’s a boy sleeping on a shitty mattress but stubbornly imaging himself sleeping on a better one, if that makes sense, and he’ll die before telling anyone that’s what he’s thinking about.
and then sirius is a prodigal girl-son who’s part dog and still operating somewhat like an ex-cult victim after leaving their family. but they’re so beautiful & terrible & spoiled & brave that nobody can See that. sirius doesn’t need a love story because they need their brother back. and remus has so much of his own baggage, and they are both such Monoliths of independence that it’s less like they’re committed to unraveling the threads of each other’s interiority and more like they’re two cars crashing into each other then scrambling to pick apart the wreckage, holding shattered parts up to the light to examine, one crash at a time. it’s crazy.
it’s like… they make the least sense for each other, but not JUST because they’re mismatched (which they are aesthetically, but not personality-wise). it’s because they’re the two people on earth who need romantic love the least and their lives would be MUCH less complicated without it, maybe even better. but they cannot escape each other. they will never escape each other!!! because!!! they have!! the same hiding places!!!!
#a#ITS NEVER OVERRRR A KINGDOM FOR A KISS UPON HER SHOULDERRRRRRR#ITS NEVER OVEEEEEEEERRRRRRE SHES THE TEAR THAT HANGS INSIDE MY SOUL FOREEEEVEEEERRRR#sorry for the mucho texto goddamn. i had so many more opinions than i thought#i think about sirius visiting the shabby apartment that remus PAINSTAKINGLY pulled together in berlin and i need to throw up#i guess my vision for them is like. they’re two stick figures experiencing The Horrors#except remus’s has a thought bubble saying ‘none of this shit means Anything to me’#and sirius’s has a thought bubble saying ‘ALL OF THIS SHIT MEANS EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEE’#but they’re like reacting to the horrors in the same way despite
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Drifter: "You won't forget me, will you?"
Bobby: "Me? Forget? Never."
The words echo in a head made of alchemical flames, as The Beheaded tends a small garden of Forget-Me-Nots, that surround a makeshift grave.
The memory is painful, yet warm with love. For as long as time goes on, he will never forget.
Never again...
#late night thoughts#random thoughts#dead cells#hyper light drifter#driftcells#headcanons#been thinking about the ending to HLD lately#it still tears me up inside...
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Look, I'm all for Buck’s journey into bisexuality and having Tommy being a part of it as the first healthy relationship he's ever had.
But are we just gonna ignore that in the aftermath of
a) Buck stammering his way through small talk,
b) Eddie running into them, and
c) Tommy ducking out early, saying Buck's "not ready for this".
The first thing Buck brings up with Maddie is about how he lied to Eddie?
Sure, Buck hadn't told her about his new feelings yet, but still.
First thing he says isn't, "I had a first date and i messed it up, possibly for good."
It's, "I lied to Eddie and I want to throw myself off a cliff."
#911abc#911 fandom#911 spoilers#you don't know me#buck and tommy#bucktommy#evan buck buckely#evan buckley#buck buckley#911 buck#911 buck eddie#eddie diaz#eddie#911 eddie#911 abc#911#fine he didn't say he wanted to throw himself off a cliff#he said it was tearing him up inside#like that's any better
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thoughts on helen wick and her backstory pre-marriage? 👀 (i have no clue how to interact to other people in english shshsbhdsj)
Evvvren!! I love this question. I'm sorry it's taken me a while to answer, I've been thinking about it.
I guess we know from the Wiki that she was a photographer? And I recall from the letter scene that there were artsy coffee table books stacked up, I think there was one on Alvaro Siza, he does very modern, boxy buildings (kind of like John Wick's house) -- I have come to headcanon now that it was Helen who was into that modern aesthetic. (I can't shake the feeling that it doesn't really suit John Wick. He likes classic muscle cars and Victorian children's books. Left to his own devices, I think he probably likes a bit more ornamentation, but it's easy to imagine him going along with anything Helen wanted when they were starting their married life together. 😭)
Something that slays me about Helen is that she seems kind of basic? And I don't mean that in a bad way! It's a adorable. The whole daisy fixation is just ridiculously cute, it's such a happy hippy flower child choice. And like, she's obviously SMOKING hot, yet in that dinner scene with John she's wearing that almost dowdy soft pink shirt with the long-short sleeves.
Look at these idiots in love...
It makes me think that she was so cool and comfortable with herself she didn't care. Zero fucks given. Like that woman must have had Personality. I think she was just a really bright light. Full of love. Strong. And she TEASED John Wick like no one else ever had. You can totally see it in the car scene at the beach, when they're holding hands over the roof of the car. And she's all "What are you doing, John?" in That Tone, LOL, I think she was good at getting John out of his shell and not taking things so seriously. I'm sure she knew he'd Seen Some Shit™ and made it her mission to help him let it go and live a happy life in his retirement.
I realize you asked about pre-marriage Helen. I'm guessing she was in the art scene in some capacity. I think she was cool, and not overly pretentious like so many artists are (can you tell I went to art school? LOL I can't staaaand that shit). I think she liked what she liked and didn't apologize for it, whether it was hippy dippy daisies, or an ex-mafia hitman named John Wick. 🌼����🌼
#thaaank you Evren!#this was fun!#helen wick#john wick#john wick x helen#😭😭😭#stg imma finish my john/helen fic someday#it just tears me up inside to think about
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panel that hurt me so much I redrew it ✨
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#6#Some things look meh but I just had to get this out of my system#It was so sad!!!!!!#like the way I recorded it just makes me die inside#Anyway#the tears were actually kinda hard for some reason#I wish I could’ve done the one down her check but it just like didn’t work#Upping the saturation was so good I love the colors#And the eyes I’m always a sucker for the eyes and this time they look so good#Lenore honey it’s gonna be okayyyyyy
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I am filled with HATE and SORROW y'all know how like Nurm is my favourite character my number 1 guy out of any piexe of media ever I love him dearly which sucks cause he's pretty unpopular but whatever whatever. N I'm like "man I really want to see some new Nurm content but everything I find I've either seen before or I created ☹️" and then I. I go on tiktok and I KEEP seeing edits that start with a clip with Nurm in them and then haha surprise it's actually a Petra edit!! Cause it's ALWAYS PETRA GOD DAMN IT and I love her. I love Petra so much. She is a fabulous character but ohm y god I am tweaking. I genuinely started crying y'all I am not sane nor normal. I'm so normal about him. Oh my good god I am going insane I am 💥💥💥💥
#I envy people who's favourite characters are like. Lukas or Petra or Jesse. Y'all don't know how good you have it#At least I can confidently say I'm one of Nurm's biggest fans. You guys can't say that without a fight breaking out aha ha#HRGAHSBSJSJSNNSN#Actually losing it#Scampering about#Ignore this I'm just#ARG 💥💥💥💥#No cause I saw a post that was super funny but the screenshot used had like. Nurm's left leg in the foregriund and I started tearing up#My period is coming I can sense it there's no other explanation for this madness#Is somebody gonna match my freak? (Going genuinely feral for a guy with like 2 fans)#I don't know the term for this attachment. Cause it's not a normal person thing I'm 90% sure it's the autism#But I don't know enough about villagers to consider this a special interest and it's too long to be a hyper fixation#(even though I am very fixated and it is tearing me up inside)#This is why I tweak so bad in the tags of Nurm art sometimes I genuinely start crying g and scratching my phone like a rabbit animal#Rabid not rabbit.#minecraft story mode#mcsm#mcsm nurm#nurm mcsm#There are no emojis nor words that accurately depict my current state#I'm normal I'm normal I swear please I'm normal
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