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GODDD the horrible stuff i’ve said in the past just to fit in is haunting me every night..
#i used to have like 0 friends and i’d say stuff that i’d never say at my home just so i’d be like other people. and MAN did that-#tear me up inside.#fellas if you have to do something you’d never ever say or agree with to get someone to like you they are not worth it.#you be you all the way.#only try be with the people that actually accept YOU and not a butchered version of yourself they think you are.#anyway stay safe yall love u#<3#☎️
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I just saw one of your fave games is What remains of Edith Finch and I’m so happy! I feel like its a lesser known game but i loved playing through it. I’m so happy to know more than just my small friend group know about this game!
Sorry this isn’t a question. Also want to say that you’re art is amazing and the development of the designs is so interesting to see. Also the way you draw intimate scenes have so much emotion to them. I love the Aj and rarity kissing comic so much, you can just feel their love for each other ;w;
Thank you so much!
I highly, highly, highly recommend What Remains of Edith Finch to anyone interested in narrative game experiences/"walking simulators." It's one of those games that was handcrafted with nothing but love. Every room you explore is just... real. The way the light flows in and makes the colors of the living room, the kitchen, the bedrooms glow. Playing the game is like walking through your childhood home as an adult and seeing how the dust clings to everything you once touched. Also genius-level gameplay mechanics, ones that can make you completely empathetic with the character you're embodying or feel completely complacent in their tragedy. It's really not fair to call it a walking simulator because it's so much more and so much smarter than that.Everyone talks about the fish one.
The theme of death and memory and storytelling and the burden of invisible trauma and self-fulfilling prophecies is so affecting too. The ending made me cry.
#detective-marshmallow#ask me#using this ask to seriously plug edith finch#and to talk about spoilers here#major major major spoilers#because i still think about walter. who saw something so awful and traumatic as a kid that he spend the next 40 years living right under hi#family. and everyone forgot about him#i think about the house. literally aching and creaking with the family's history of strange deaths#i think about sam. who had to grow up in an empty bedroom he once shared with his twin brother. and stare at the partitioned-off side#every single day#i think about edith. who knows she will have a child and knows she will die and continue the family curse but decides to live anyways#god edith didn't even make it to adulthood.#this game tears me up from the inside yet it's so full of love and fantasy and hope#it was honestly really helpful for my death anxiety.#don't fear death. one day you'll go. people will mourn. and then they'll tell stories about you.
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ive gotten so emotional searching for old Captain Underpants stuff here on tumblr that last night I doodled them
like what the hell, im smiling like aN IDIOT AGAIN
#i wonder if those CU fans of the past to know that I cherish their fan works so deeply#i hope they know#I want them to know how much their captain underpants content meant to me despite them being 6 years old#tearing up inside ACTUALLY#graynide's art#mr krupp#captain underpants#man in underpants posting
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i can’t get over the way miles said “stop calling me that” to peter and looked crushed on the train when he learned peter knew the whole time. even if it was unintentional, miles was betrayed by one of his best friends. like, that was his mentor. the person who said i love you, i’m so proud of you. the person who taught him to take a leap of faith. and miles lost him.
#it’s tearing me up inside can you tell 😭#spiderverse#across the spiderverse#spiderman across the spiderverse#atsv#spiderman atsv#miles morales#peter b parker#peter parker#mine
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Headcanon that Gruber became Herbert's adoptive father after the chemical fire killed his parents. HOWEVER, unable to swallow his pride, Herbert constantly referred to him by his full name or his title, never 'dad', until Gruber's untimely death.
That is until during a heated debate in front of the class about Hill’s plagiarism of Gruber's work, Herbert gets too emotional and, in a moment of vulnerability, slips up by referring to Gruber as "his father," for everyone to hear.
#ITS TEARING ME UP INSIDE#PLEASE ASK ME ABOUT HERBERT'S PAST IN DETAIL I'VE SPENT DAYS MAKING HEADCANONS#herbert west#reanimator#re animator#reanimator 1985#re-animator#headcanons#dan cain
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#John you’re tearing me up inside man#tmg#the mountain goats#all hail west texas#midland#jenny from thebes#john darnielle
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that part in the silt verses finale where carpenter is describing how she takes care of faulkner's body then releases him to the river and méabh de brún starts crying broke me.
#don't get me wrong#i was sobbing way before that#the silt verses#tsv#tsv finale#méabh de brún#the silt verses chapter 45#you can hear her gasping at the end of her sentences when she starts describing his dead body and that just tears me up inside
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"hello!! 💜 i bought a cute new outfit, wanna see? 😊" i say innocently with the intention of getting you to fuck me uncontrollably in said outfit
#casey ★ mumbling#!! first post back <3 feels good to be needy again teehee#i would love to dress up for someone all cute and nice#and then they tear it off of me seconds later while they pound inside me 💜#me when sighhhhh#gay nsft#gay ns/fw#ftm nsft#ftm ns/fw#mlm nsft#mlm ns/fw#queer nsft#queer ns/fw#trans nsft#trans ns/fw#mlm ftm#ftm mlm#gay ftm
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Jump || 12/16/2024
#sometimes i see a super pretty sky that makes me genuinely and wholeheartedly start jumping up and down because of how happy it makes me#today was one of those days- this sunset was one that brought me so much joy i didn't care if anybody saw or judged me for acting the way#i did. the happiness that bubbled inside of me was overwhelming and overflowing that i just have to jump excitedly#unfortunately the night took a turn for the worst so sharing this sunset is helping me not burst into tears right now#this is me making a conscious effort to not shut the entire world away when things get really bad.#Sunset Hoe™#there's no sunset today#<- your bi weekly reminder to block that tag if you don't want to read me being depressed on your dashboard
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do u have any random thoughts about sirius/remus?? literally anything at all- any random blurb or thought just Anything. reading ur james thoughts and i wanted to ask because i feel like any ramblings/character specificities u have about them will scratch my brain rlly good
my thesis for them is that one quote about how soulmates will eventually find each other, because they have the same hiding place
like the longer i spend with them the more i realize that i see them as recluses. perhaps not literally speaking (r & s have their own ways of attracting friends) but they are the two most isolated characters in the story to me. they’re yoked with really specific (yet opposing) burdens that nobody else is ever going to understand. they want to permanently hide their faces from the world & they have both built that kind of barren refuge inside of themselves
many other characters have stories that are built around Love, and the presence (james, lily, andromeda) or absence (regulus, barty, tom) of it, but that isn’t r&s to me. they have the Least to do with love stories because their entire lives are already so wrapped up in resolving super individual questions of freedom & autonomy & the hurt they cause & the hurt they suffered… but that’s why their love story hits the hardest, for me? they’re the least suited for it and it happened anyway.
once again my remus is like…. a city unto himself, but all internal. polite & mild mannered but also impossible to sway. i think he has the biggest imagination of all of them and it’s what lets him remain so Untouched. he’s not a ~creative~ or anything (pretty uncreative, actually) but he’s a poor german werewolf who is living a Little inside his head specifically because his life sucks so bad. he’s a boy sleeping on a shitty mattress but stubbornly imaging himself sleeping on a better one, if that makes sense, and he’ll die before telling anyone that’s what he’s thinking about.
and then sirius is a prodigal girl-son who’s part dog and still operating somewhat like an ex-cult victim after leaving their family. but they’re so beautiful & terrible & spoiled & brave that nobody can See that. sirius doesn’t need a love story because they need their brother back. and remus has so much of his own baggage, and they are both such Monoliths of independence that it’s less like they’re committed to unraveling the threads of each other’s interiority and more like they’re two cars crashing into each other then scrambling to pick apart the wreckage, holding shattered parts up to the light to examine, one crash at a time. it’s crazy.
it’s like… they make the least sense for each other, but not JUST because they’re mismatched (which they are aesthetically, but not personality-wise). it’s because they’re the two people on earth who need romantic love the least and their lives would be MUCH less complicated without it, maybe even better. but they cannot escape each other. they will never escape each other!!! because!!! they have!! the same hiding places!!!!
#a#ITS NEVER OVERRRR A KINGDOM FOR A KISS UPON HER SHOULDERRRRRRR#ITS NEVER OVEEEEEEEERRRRRRE SHES THE TEAR THAT HANGS INSIDE MY SOUL FOREEEEVEEEERRRR#sorry for the mucho texto goddamn. i had so many more opinions than i thought#i think about sirius visiting the shabby apartment that remus PAINSTAKINGLY pulled together in berlin and i need to throw up#i guess my vision for them is like. they’re two stick figures experiencing The Horrors#except remus’s has a thought bubble saying ‘none of this shit means Anything to me’#and sirius’s has a thought bubble saying ‘ALL OF THIS SHIT MEANS EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEE’#but they’re like reacting to the horrors in the same way despite
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Drifter: "You won't forget me, will you?"
Bobby: "Me? Forget? Never."
The words echo in a head made of alchemical flames, as The Beheaded tends a small garden of Forget-Me-Nots, that surround a makeshift grave.
The memory is painful, yet warm with love. For as long as time goes on, he will never forget.
Never again...
#late night thoughts#random thoughts#dead cells#hyper light drifter#driftcells#headcanons#been thinking about the ending to HLD lately#it still tears me up inside...
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Look, I'm all for Buck’s journey into bisexuality and having Tommy being a part of it as the first healthy relationship he's ever had.
But are we just gonna ignore that in the aftermath of
a) Buck stammering his way through small talk,
b) Eddie running into them, and
c) Tommy ducking out early, saying Buck's "not ready for this".
The first thing Buck brings up with Maddie is about how he lied to Eddie?
Sure, Buck hadn't told her about his new feelings yet, but still.
First thing he says isn't, "I had a first date and i messed it up, possibly for good."
It's, "I lied to Eddie and I want to throw myself off a cliff."
#911abc#911 fandom#911 spoilers#you don't know me#buck and tommy#bucktommy#evan buck buckely#evan buckley#buck buckley#911 buck#911 buck eddie#eddie diaz#eddie#911 eddie#911 abc#911#fine he didn't say he wanted to throw himself off a cliff#he said it was tearing him up inside#like that's any better
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thoughts on helen wick and her backstory pre-marriage? 👀 (i have no clue how to interact to other people in english shshsbhdsj)
Evvvren!! I love this question. I'm sorry it's taken me a while to answer, I've been thinking about it.
I guess we know from the Wiki that she was a photographer? And I recall from the letter scene that there were artsy coffee table books stacked up, I think there was one on Alvaro Siza, he does very modern, boxy buildings (kind of like John Wick's house) -- I have come to headcanon now that it was Helen who was into that modern aesthetic. (I can't shake the feeling that it doesn't really suit John Wick. He likes classic muscle cars and Victorian children's books. Left to his own devices, I think he probably likes a bit more ornamentation, but it's easy to imagine him going along with anything Helen wanted when they were starting their married life together. 😭)
Something that slays me about Helen is that she seems kind of basic? And I don't mean that in a bad way! It's a adorable. The whole daisy fixation is just ridiculously cute, it's such a happy hippy flower child choice. And like, she's obviously SMOKING hot, yet in that dinner scene with John she's wearing that almost dowdy soft pink shirt with the long-short sleeves.
Look at these idiots in love...
It makes me think that she was so cool and comfortable with herself she didn't care. Zero fucks given. Like that woman must have had Personality. I think she was just a really bright light. Full of love. Strong. And she TEASED John Wick like no one else ever had. You can totally see it in the car scene at the beach, when they're holding hands over the roof of the car. And she's all "What are you doing, John?" in That Tone, LOL, I think she was good at getting John out of his shell and not taking things so seriously. I'm sure she knew he'd Seen Some Shit™ and made it her mission to help him let it go and live a happy life in his retirement.
I realize you asked about pre-marriage Helen. I'm guessing she was in the art scene in some capacity. I think she was cool, and not overly pretentious like so many artists are (can you tell I went to art school? LOL I can't staaaand that shit). I think she liked what she liked and didn't apologize for it, whether it was hippy dippy daisies, or an ex-mafia hitman named John Wick. 🌼🌼🌼
#thaaank you Evren!#this was fun!#helen wick#john wick#john wick x helen#😭😭😭#stg imma finish my john/helen fic someday#it just tears me up inside to think about
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everything abt the httyd remake feels like such a deep insult to the first film. Insulting animation as an artform, insulting the texture and lighting work that still holds up so so well. Insulting everything they put in to make it such a tightly written and skillful film. Like what could you improve with this scene, the amount of character you get from toothless here and seeing his thought process, fhe mix of accepting his fate, weariness and curiosity, you're just sucking the life and intention out of it for what. To see the dirt in between toothless's scales? Guess what you can already see that in the first movie. To flatten the lighting, remove all mood so you can see how good they modeled his new scales? Show you how real the mulch looks. Whatever. They do this all the time but this is personal (autism) you're being shown up by a film from 2010. She is eating you ALIVE. Even the other httyd films couldn't quite re-capture what they did with toothless in this first one, they remodeled him ever so slightly and he lost that edge of intelligent Animal, and became a Slightly more condensed version of himself now that his personality was established.
#i can see his tear duct i can see inside his nose i can see the where his#bigger scales thin out into softer ones#even the choice to make his eye colour such a loud green instead of the paler one#it's like yes that's an eye that's a HD eye texture i know i get it#it looks realer in the first shot. like everything else#like i was a dragon obsessed kid when this came out i was eating up every detail#you can see those subtle mottled patterns across toothless in certain light#when he's abt to attack stoic you can see the methane gas building in his throat first#for the sake of grounding these designs they incorporated Every detail you could ask for#literally the only thing that wasn't realistic is when toothless is stuck in the gorge and needs to rescue hiccup#and he clings to the edge of the caldera and his Claw the nail of his claw changes shape to be more hooked to get a better grip#that's it and we get why that happens for the scene it's good#DISCRETION. you need doscretion every shot can't be a vfx showcase#environmental lighting is always going to obscure some detail it's going to react differently it looks so fake because nothing is being#obscured or effected by their environment#the way the shadows react to toothles in the first shot gives such a good sense of his form. it makes it moody#it makes it feel colder and the shadows on his face help obscure his mouth making him harder to read. okay#can anypony hear me#what's wrong with you
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panel that hurt me so much I redrew it ✨
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#6#Some things look meh but I just had to get this out of my system#It was so sad!!!!!!#like the way I recorded it just makes me die inside#Anyway#the tears were actually kinda hard for some reason#I wish I could’ve done the one down her check but it just like didn’t work#Upping the saturation was so good I love the colors#And the eyes I’m always a sucker for the eyes and this time they look so good#Lenore honey it’s gonna be okayyyyyy
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we dont have enough fanart and fanfics about sauron in numenor. im begging for scraps im manifesting im sending signals to the universe
#angbang#mairon at the edge of his grief. going insane the whole religion temple human sacrificies prophet thing for his dead master#i need him on his knees in front of a huge melkor sculpture DESPERATE like a dog searching for his owner after they are gone#like normally in first age its different but when melkor isgone and after everything that happens#i need him at his most pathetic.like hes doing all that and hes cunning hes powerful his mind is still sharp but sharpness goes into insani#and inside he is absolutely torn and in pieces and everything he was suppressing and running away from catches up with him#and then cue fall of numenor#but like. i need a really good psychosexual fic with grief. i really am manifesting. my prayers will go to the universe#and one day a writer on ao3 will go into some kind of trance to create exactly that and better i believe it#and on fanart wise. 1. mairon kissing melkor sculpture with tears. 2. mairon on his knees in front of the sculpture#perhaps forehead to the floor too full on worship style#for extra i would not say no to a h*rny psychosexual grieving fic where mairon does some stuff with the sculpture#you know the kind of fic that makes you miserable and turned on at the same time#anyway. another post to delete later#&#no one will read this but im open to any recs too like send me links fanart fanfic it doesnt have to be like what i said#i just need sauron in numenor i am starving
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