#take your meds if you have any
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bro go to bed, you've been awake for too long and are worrying about the ppl you love in your life leaving you again
Bro what if I start dating someone and they turn out to be a me anti like what do I even do then
#me me this is a me joke this is a joke about me specifically and my anxiety#if you relate to it i'm so sorry#but also slumber it's good for you#maybe drink some water#take your meds if you have any
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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)
#moe talks a lot#i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry#and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds#LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO#shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds#BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER#i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up#i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong#after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before#YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain#oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older#and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds#holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang#sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat#but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like#welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant#anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain#im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake#but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry#anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering
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FIRST TIME GIVES INEFFABLE HUSBANDS VIBES AND I DONT THINK I CAN HANDLE IT 😭😭😭
#hozier#the hoziest#good omens#ineffable husbands#unreal unearth#im cryinf#idk what to tag im just happy y'all#i was reading it whilst listening to it skshsjhsjshsksjs#MR GAIMAN IM GONNA NEED AN APOLOGY AND ALSO A SEASON 3 VERY SOON#SIRS I DONT THINK ANY OF YOU HAVE THE AUTHORITY TO BE MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY#PAIR THAT WITH DAVID TENNANT AND MICHAEL SHEENS INCREDIBLE PORTRAYAL OF THE EMOTIONS#I CANFT BREATHE#IDGAF IF NONE OF THIS IS REAL#MY AND EVERYONE ELSES FEELING MAKE IT REAL#DJSJSHSJHS LN SBSKSJJSHSJSKSBSKBSKSJZLSJSBBDJSHSJSJSSKSBKSJSKSIKSHS#I AM SCREAMING SCREECHING AND SQUEALING#one of the many reasons i wanna do more theatre and acting because who tf are these people to be making me feel such raw emotion#from a situation which im not even insinuated to be a part of sihsksjslsjsksn#ITS TOO INTIMATE I FEEL LIKE IM INTRUDING#BUT I FEEL LIKE THE ONE BEING EXPOSED SIMULTANEOUSLY WTF#david tennant#michael sheen#anyways sorry for the excessive tags#i need to calm the fuck down#i should take my meds#and then a nap#or read#or draw#oh and hydrate#fuck you and your tag limits ciao brothers and others
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Me, taking my medicine: I wonder if these actually do anything. Me, unable to take a medicine due to a supply issue: I have been a fool, an ungrateful vagabond.
#In this case it was a medicine against my migraines#and I haven't had any major migraine attacks fortunately#but boy howdy have I lived the five or so days right on the cusp of some narsty business#Also I do not recommend you stop taking your meds to see if they do anything#antidepressants in particular will not have a clear change in effect if you're anything like me#the “going cold turkey” symptoms will fuck with you day 1 though make no mistake#I know this for stupid reasons
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struggling again with extreme artblock and general demotivation (as in nothing seems fun or appealing and you sit around staring at nothing doing nothing bc apparently no matter what i do whether drawing or not drawing i end up like this now)
i started to watch skitties totk video (again) and wrote a big post about how much i hate how the gorons are treated there but saved it as a draft like i have been doing with several rants now in order to not spam people with it over and over
but it does end up feeling like talking to a wall and just kinda .. increasing this looming feeling of extreme loneliness i have been fighting with for .... since i left school really..
#ganondoodles talks#personal#i know i know this is my own doing#i never go out and have enormous trouble keeping in contact with people or answering messages#i never ever mean it mean#it feels like my battery is never above 10% charged no matter what i do#and answering messages often takes too much#which just makes this whole problem worse#its like a spiral making everything worse and idk how to fight it#maybe meds would help me#but if i have trouble even answering an ask i cant try to start the process of getting diagnosed with whatever hundreds of things-#-that are wrong with me#also being afraid of being put under surveillance or something for it doesnt help either#also fearing wrong meds doing wrong things bc i am weird#also afraid of not taking any meds bc that can reduce your lifespan if you are weird like me or something#which ........................... adds dread and guilt and doesnt help either#sometimes i wonder how i am evn still alive#the only reasons why are probably -luck- and being too much of a coward to end it all back when i was at the worst point of my life#bc i am not strong or resilient and getting through the worst .. so far .. hasnt made me stronger- just weaker and more pathetic#idk why im rambling all this in the tags- it must be exhausting to read .. i know it is#ill just go back to staring at a wall
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You said:
So I thought I'd try my best to manifest it through your OC Quill and Marco:
Too Sweet by Hozier is such a vibe, though. First time trying to draw Marco, I hope you don't mind. I hope you have a wonderful day, Quin 🖤
OMG YOU DREW THAT SO FAST! T-T
It's so perfect!
T-T I'm gonna cry! I'm just straight up SOBBING. T-T Everything was just so much lately, and at first it was all these little things and it wasn't nothing to worry about, but it was just a LOT and then my -
T-T Fuck, my friend died in ICU and I found out last night and I wanted to be distracted
and everyone helped last night, and work was so busy today, and I didn't have to think and I just slogged through it and it wasn't great, but it wasn't awful and it was going to be okay.
and then you do this thing for me?
And it's so Perfect T-T and it's so SOFT and it's just got all the vibes and I'm just Shattered in the best possible way and I needed this and I didn't even know it and
Having friends HURTS, it hurts cause shit happens, and you can do Everything Right And Shit Still Happens and It Sucks - but then you have FRIENDS AND THEY COMFORT YOU - and it's the best and everything sucks less and it's so much better.
So thank you - thank you so much, because I really really needed this and I just appreciate it way more than I can express.
I love it, thank you. Thank you. ❤️🥰
#quin muses#fanaticsnail#I'm one blessed motherfucker let me tell you#I'm the luckiest godsdamned person in the whole world#I can't believe I can have such wonderful people in my life#take care of yourselves#drink your water#eat something#take your meds#love yourselves because I love you#because I need you all so much#I can't do any of this shit on my own
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Love hearing random ass ableists on the radio going on conspiracy theory rants about how medical professionals "just want to get everyone hooked on meds" and how "chemicals shouldn't be going in your body"... meanwhile, I have doctors and nurses flat-out refuse to prescribe me anything because they claim it "goes against their beliefs" and they think my chronic health issues can be "cured" with stuff like magically not stressing out anymore, or taking non-FDA-approved herbal supplements, or fasting... 🙃
#this person is literally talking about how you should take herbs and berries because you won't need meds anymore#I'm sorry but no#like it or not some people need medical treatment to function!#sometimes it is lifelong but other times it's not!#if I never found the medical treatment for my endometriosis and migraines I likely wouldn't have graduated!#if I didn't have asthma medication there are situations that could have blown up into big medical emergencies for me!#I complain about my IBS but it would be even worse if I DIDN'T have any medication for it!#saying people 'just shouldn't take any meds' just goes to show you don't care if they're suffering or not#also the 'don't put chemicals in your body' stuff is wild#like... do these people know H2O orrrrrrrr#idk I just get frustrated with shit like this lmao#ableists fuck off forever challenge#I'm just frustrated but whatever#I should almost be used to people being like this but it's still annoying#ugh
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i genuinely hurt my mother’s feelings the other day by saying something i thought was just like a well-known fact about her personality and i feel a little bit guilty but she’s always been hyper-critical of the way i interact with other people and frequently tells me how i am bad and wrong and really difficult to enjoy talking to or being around so like… i’m not apologizing. if she feels guilty and bad about herself as a person because i casually mentioned how she’s not the most emotionally supportive person in the world… well so be it. i didn’t say anything untrue or even attach any moral value to being an emotionally supportive person or not. she attaches moral value to how appropriately i am able to engage in small talk… she’ll live
#she was actually very upset and i do feel bad but idk thats them apples#life aint fair and we all have flaws#thank you for being so obsessive about my flaws that i’ve learned how to accept being a flawed person i guess#like she wouldn’t have been able to impart that sentiment in me any other way#since she clearly doesn’t understand that you can be self aware of personal flaws and still accept yourself#which is a large part of where we butt heads she thinks i should be constantly trying to find meds or therapy to cure me#because she doesn’t understand that ‘incurable but treatable’ doesnt mean ‘incurable but if you take meds youre basically cured!’#and regardless of how much energy and time i devote to therapies or how many medications i try i’ll still be disabled and neuroatypical#and frankly medication roulette can and has left me worse off than before#but because it DID actually happen that i was given a medication that harmed me permanently and i was basically undergoing medical torture#my concern about the risks of just trying out meds til something works literally CAN’T be based off of reason/research it’s just reactionary
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Having demand avoidance in a medical setting is literally hell. Like, patient autonomy is already absolute ass. It's only made worse when doctors CONSISTENTLY tell you what to do and act like you HAVE to do it instead of consulting with you first like normal fucking people.
#also “”“”medical necessity“”“” is NOT an excuse here.#ive been to plenty of doctors that thoroughly discuss a range/timeline of treatment and explain it IN DETAIL before saying “thats what i-#-recommend“ instead of just going ”okay were gonna do this. im gonna explain the prep to you a mile a minute and if you have any follow up-#-questions im just gonna repeat part of my spiel with no clarification. and if i cant answer your questions too bad :)“#not to mention how many doctors just force you to do things that WILL NEVER WORK#like one therapist tried forcing me to do emdr when i was only IN HER TOWN for the summer and i had no internet access when i was at college#im pretty sure emdr takes several weeks to work and i did not have that kind of time available to me. i couldnt just drop out bc of ptsd.#also the number of times ive had to decline an ESI is stupid. I've already had 2! they didn't work! i had a bad reaction to the meds!#why am i being forced to do it again?#also back surgery. i cant do that because i am a white trash rural kid and our home (which we built ourselves) CANNOT be accessible enough#for spinal surgery recovery. but i went to the surgeon and he was like “thats valid! and also surgery literally wouldnt help you so idk why-#-they sent you here.“ : l It's cool to be right all the time lol#its like. no wonder i developed medical demand avoidance after so much traumatizing and malpracticy bullshit in my life#demand avoidance#medical demand avoidance#chronic illness burnout#chronic illness#chronic pain#medical tw#ptsd#disability#medical neglect#medical trauma#vent#this might be too personal. if i do delete it ill have it rb'd on my boar-deer-whitetrashbutterfly blog first#idk i just havent really been able to find anyone else talking about this specific effect of being chronically ill/disabled.
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like if therapy and meds help you that’s so cool but it drives me insane how people treat those as some magical cure all that EVERYONE needs to seek out even though the psych industry is fucked and biased and not affordable and if trying to find a good therapist or find the right meds is doing nothing but causing you even more stress and anxiety even after you’ve been trying to get help for years than maybe it’s not worth it at that point
#do people just like forget that every med has a shit load of potential side affects??#that can make your mental health and even physical health WORSE??#like no one in my family has actually had meds work for them#they just kind of. didn’t do anything for me and my#brother is cursed with getting the Bad side effects of any medication he takes#so like#and when you have mental health conditions that entail#having an incredibly difficult time opening up emotionally or even talking about vulnerable topics#what’s the fucking point#I’d go thousands of dollars into debt before a therapist would ever get me to open up#and that’s IF I was lucky enough to find one that worked for me#also no psych is gonna solve the housing and economy crisis lol#they can’t do anything for me being depressed cause I’m stuck living in a tiny apartment crammed with other people!#even therapists and psychs have straight up told me I don’t seem to benefit from their services#idk just like. if you see that a mentally ill person isn’t on therapy or on meds by choice#consider there’s a reason for that and mind your own fucking business lol
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just doing some thinking about the adderall shortage
#People are having their lives ruined LMAO!#It just feels completely unacceptable that this was allowed to happen#and I think the reason more people aren't up in arms about it is because it's /just adhd/#assflash newshole. Apparently adderall also treats narcolepsy which is a new thing I just learned#But that's beside the point because adhd is completely debilitating to many people LMAO#People are losing their jobs. Dropping out of schools. Destroying relationships...#It makes me so ANGRY#I don't think this is the kind of thing you can sue for but I wish it was#I wish people were getting any form of restitution for this. Just... Anything#Like. Imagine being on meds for years without an issue and then a shortage hits and you start getting symptoms again.#You miss a few too many deadlines. Don't complete a few too many assignments. Take a few too many mental health days#because it's exhausting to live like this#But somehow this is all a You Problem and it's Your Fault and you deserve to be PUNISHED???? for this???#if you failed a college class this year because you weren't able to access your lifesaving medication:#in a good world you'd get your tuition reimbursed#and people who lost their jobs should be paid unemployment directly from the bank accounts of adderal manufacturers
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hey all i'll be doing a quick little unfollowing spree here ( mostly archives and inactives ) and i'm gonna try and make my way back here slowly . please bare with me <3
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very very personal, just insight into where im at w my family and things that bother me/have encouraged me to move out
"i know youre moving out so im just gonna say no ones kicking you out and if you feel like this is something you have to do then ok"
thanks! i know im not being kicked out! but yknow i kinda yet a weird vibe when your out of touch husband takes me to a cemetery to yell at me, tell me im just like my father/dont give my father "the time of day", and that im "mean to people who care about me" in front of his dead mother's grave in a poor attempt at guilting me out of speaking my mind. but no yeah thanks for stating the fucking obvious that im leaving on my own terms
#problems!#people seem to underestimate how quick i am to make moves#the job market is piss. cant believe yall two would blame me for being unemployed when all i do from rise to slumber is hound ppl for jobs#im not going to stay in a house where i will be 'scared straight'. that shit doesnt work on me. in fact it has the opposite effect#i respect yall even LESS now#and youre so so fucking lucky one of my goals for next year is to make things right with you it would be easy to cut you off forever#same way i did with my abusive transphobic dad.#my mom is someone i know can do better and can actually listen to reason instead of being stuck in her generation's mentality of#'x is easy if you just do y. you kids have it so easy the world is at your fingertips' blah blah fucking blah#i am autistic i do not keep jobs easily. i am trans jobs do not want me. i am black and perceived as a woman. every customer at all of my#past jobs thinks i am rude or mean or have an attitude when i do nothing but treat others the exact way i would want to be treated#customers dont like what i say? i stop talking. customers dont like when i dont talk? i talk to them. rinse repeat#like i know im the problem here but all of my problems circle back to my autism and the fact that because im not a supergenius or#someone whose special interest is capitalism i fail at every avenue i try to jam myself in.#but yeah no i need to work harder i need to be taken to a FUCKING CEMETERY and yelled at by YOUR HUSBAND for wanting to go to the bathroom#in front of his mothers grave. god rest her soul and yall know im no christian so i actually mean that shit#because in his mind all i want to do is smoke and party. when i smoke because i have fucking migraines and g to shows#(two out of three of them being free and for the purpose of their willingness to 'get me out of the house')#bc i like music and i like engaging w my scene. but no its all violent noise theres no actual purpose or activism behind moshing. nope#its just one big party right. im just wasting my time right. because i like sleepin on a couch every night with no doors to close. yep ok#anyway heres to me getting my meds getting the fuck out and being somewhat far from my scene now that im moving#hows that for smoking and partying all the time huh?#if any of yall read this i am so so sorry. bitching about my stepdad will become a thing i think#hes one of those bible thumpers that are totally boring and indifferent to differences around them and thinks my mom is just like him#in some ways? she is. but she is a people pleaser and will never take her wants or her feelings seriously#because she had the unfortunate upbringing in being brainwashed into thinking her feelings/wants are sinful#shoutout to my christian or catholic mutuals who are fucking normal and dont let some old fantasy novel control your life. peace#religion mention
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#nuzleaf#i didn't really like nuzleaf before psmd. and i still don't really care for it as a pokémon‚ but i liked psmd too much to not feel Something#y'know‚ just by virtue of this pokémon being a major-ish character in my favorite game of all time‚ i kinda like it a Bit more now#although i still don't like it conceptually that much. the design isn't my favorite and it didn't do grass/dark very well#meowscarada for sure did that typing better#i actually just realized i had a notification that you could see in the corner of this image and i just had to go edit that out#this is the first time i've ever had to edit one of the images of the pokémon for this blog‚ fun fact#in case you're wondering. the notification was the reminder that i have set to queue pokémon up for the blog#every morning at 8 AM it tells me Update ffp and i don't do it until i wake up so the notification just kinda sits there until i do it#but the same thing happens with the take your meds notification‚ too#so. i'm kind of a bit of a fail and i can't survive without reminders. if i need to do something i have to ask my phone to remind me#or else i will not fucking do it. idk if any of y'all relate but i think i'll have to edit the notification out of the next one#as well. so. see you in shiftry
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broke one of my filters last night due to Stupid, but i think i salvaged most of the media worth saving, got them all clean, the fish were Eating Actively last night, and i added meds
#toy txt post#90gal#one of my little ecco pros which seem to be? impossible to replace now for some reason? coild not find them for sale in usa. idk. its just#handle and canister part tho so maybe thatll be easier?#idk. dad said ti check at work (pet store) but they never have ANY eheim shit and while i agree with that in regards to. the Media. i#prefer their filters and i despise fluval. idk. maybe ill just get another Big Eheim and mourn the loss of my little one#and figure out how to attach a little bucket handle to the big eheim for carrying 😭 cos that part is soo nice#anyway. i have to add another dose of the meds on monday and then do a 25% change on Wednesday. i have Wednesday off at least#and then run a filter w carbon on Wednesday#(the meds i added were api general cure (metronidazole and praziquantel(sp?)) bc my current Wild Guess about the white cories is maybe they#have fucking?? gill flukes??? if not then i have no idea. imagine if fish vets were like. a normal and accessible thing. even just to be#able to contact. wouldnt that be neat. i saw an article say 'talk to your fish vet about this' bitch WHERE. you want me to drive to neaq#and ask them to take a look at my fucking cory cats???????????? wild#anyway. i need to. Get Ready For Work and Leave now
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once again in a murderous mood due to the menstrual agonies
#it doesnt happen often but SOMETIMES i will get cramps on-and-off BEFORE i actually get my period#and this time the actual period is A WEEK LATE (no im not pregnant) but i STILL get the cramps#and tmi but i was changing my cup last night and saw a teeenie-tiny bit if blood and was like ughh FINALLY#and i even woke up in the middle of the night due to cramps (FOR THE SECOND NIGHT IN A ROW)#BUT THEN! THIS MORNING! NO BLOOD IN THE CUP#AND EVERY TIME I GET THE BEGINNINGS OF A CRAMP ITS LIKE#'if i dont take pain meds IMMEDIATELY i will be bed-ridden with the pain fpr 6hrs' cause missing that window means meds have no effect#so the FAKE cramps#they START in the same way the real ones do but dont develop into that intolerable all-encompassing lvl 8-10 pain#but i can never KNOW for certain which ones i got until i see that theres actual blood#so ive been taking HIGH doses of pain meds for the past 4 days now 🤪🤪🤪#anyway#i wish they did hysterectomies when patients just like. asked them to.#but also i wish i didnt have only bad experiences with obgyns because every time ive gone i havent received help#but i HAVE been told 'oh the pain is just normal but it CAN be lessened SOMEWHAT after giving birth! :~) '#ok let me just get preggers real quick and then give birth and then dump the baby in a dumpster somewhere i guess#cause i sure as shit dont want one#i feel like perhaps having a growing organism grow inside and draw nutrients/resources from your own organism#and then ripping you open as it exits#is more difficult for a body to handle than the surgical removal of an organ#also the former takes 9months and is followed by a lifetime of commitment or any and all distress coming from putting it up for adoption#and the latter is over within a matter of hours and you never have to worry about periods pregnancies or parenthood ever again#anyway vol 2#im at my limit etc etc etc#berry talk
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