#take your meds if you have any

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

[tubelight-404]

FIRST TIME GIVES INEFFABLE HUSBANDS VIBES AND I DONT THINK I CAN HANDLE IT 😭😭😭

[prince-liest]

Night shift in the hospital on Christmas week is so delightfully boring, hahaha. It's my first time covering nights on inpatient and I was relatively nervous about it at first because it involves covering nearly 30 patients alone (well, normally alone; this is a "practice" nights week for me so I have a senior with me)... but unlike day shift, you're not generally managing actual patient care at night, you're just fielding calls from the night nurses in case they need something that an MD/DO has to order. It's also generally day team's job to be like, "Hey, we anticipate X might happen with this patient. If that happens, do Y or Z."

So far it's been a couple of shifts and they've been quite delightfully boring, which is how I like it. Come in at 6pm, take signout from the two teams we're covering, admit anywhere from 0 to 3 patients and staff them with the night attending (admissions done by 10pm, he leaves at midnight), scour the emergency department tracking shell a few times to see if we're going to have to do any admissions after that (we're required to do admissions for any residency clinic patients - so far we haven't needed to), waffle around and finish our notes until it seems like a reasonable time to get a move on, have midnight lunch, and then retire to the call rooms until our alarms ring at 5:45am and we do sign out at 6.

Throughout this, we also get calls for things like "Can this patient have a melatonin?" and follow up on anything that was pending overnight (day team usually tries to make sure we don't need to but sometimes it can't be avoided - usually it's been trending troponins or hemoglobin), and on one occasion yesterday we went to a mildly funny rapid response that occurred because someone freaked out about a patient's pre-existing neurological deficits (she was super stable; not sure what the rapid team was, like, meant to do in that situation, lol).

Anyway, I've been sleeping from somewhere between midnight and 1am until 5:45am so far which has been great. The mattress in my call room is absolutely horrific, though, lol. It's like 4 inches thick and somehow has springs in there. Better me than my senior, though - she's got the slightly nicer mattress but still gets less sleep than me because I'm pretty good at just knocking out.

Today will be my first day taking calls independently, so fingers crossed it goes as boring as yesterday! I brought a couple fancy mini-bundt cakes for me and my senior because we both deserve something for working night shift on fucking Christmas, haha.

[ganondoodle]

struggling again with extreme artblock and general demotivation (as in nothing seems fun or appealing and you sit around staring at nothing doing nothing bc apparently no matter what i do whether drawing or not drawing i end up like this now)

i started to watch skitties totk video (again) and wrote a big post about how much i hate how the gorons are treated there but saved it as a draft like i have been doing with several rants now in order to not spam people with it over and over

but it does end up feeling like talking to a wall and just kinda .. increasing this looming feeling of extreme loneliness i have been fighting with for .... since i left school really..

[quinloki]

You said:

So I thought I'd try my best to manifest it through your OC Quill and Marco:

Too Sweet by Hozier is such a vibe, though. First time trying to draw Marco, I hope you don't mind. I hope you have a wonderful day, Quin 🖤

OMG YOU DREW THAT SO FAST! T-T

It's so perfect!

T-T I'm gonna cry! I'm just straight up SOBBING. T-T Everything was just so much lately, and at first it was all these little things and it wasn't nothing to worry about, but it was just a LOT and then my -

T-T Fuck, my friend died in ICU and I found out last night and I wanted to be distracted

and everyone helped last night, and work was so busy today, and I didn't have to think and I just slogged through it and it wasn't great, but it wasn't awful and it was going to be okay.

and then you do this thing for me?

And it's so Perfect T-T and it's so SOFT and it's just got all the vibes and I'm just Shattered in the best possible way and I needed this and I didn't even know it and

Having friends HURTS, it hurts cause shit happens, and you can do Everything Right And Shit Still Happens and It Sucks - but then you have FRIENDS AND THEY COMFORT YOU - and it's the best and everything sucks less and it's so much better.

So thank you - thank you so much, because I really really needed this and I just appreciate it way more than I can express.

I love it, thank you. Thank you. ❤️🥰

[ghost-malone]

Death threats are so genuinely insane to me. Like what has to go through your mind to think that's a sensible response to something that has upset you online. I know it's mostly severely mentally ill people or children (because no one with a fairly developed brain would ever think that response even makes sense) but I can't wrap my head around it.

You see it on YouTube and tiktok and you sure as shit see it here too and it's so ridiculously baffling, and to those of us who aren't in a particularly fragile state, absolutely laughable.

What goes through your head? Do you think you're doing The Lord's Work or fighting what you perceive as unrighteous? Do you want to lash out to feel powerful or like your opinion matters? Or are you just angry and waiting for someone online to do something that others object to, thus giving you opportunity and reason to hide in an angry mob and validate your need to.... threaten death?

I dunno, genuinely don't get it. No one normal gets it babe, what are you doing?

[heartshattering]

Love hearing random ass ableists on the radio going on conspiracy theory rants about how medical professionals "just want to get everyone hooked on meds" and how "chemicals shouldn't be going in your body"... meanwhile, I have doctors and nurses flat-out refuse to prescribe me anything because they claim it "goes against their beliefs" and they think my chronic health issues can be "cured" with stuff like magically not stressing out anymore, or taking non-FDA-approved herbal supplements, or fasting... 🙃

[snarltoothed]

i genuinely hurt my mother’s feelings the other day by saying something i thought was just like a well-known fact about her personality and i feel a little bit guilty but she’s always been hyper-critical of the way i interact with other people and frequently tells me how i am bad and wrong and really difficult to enjoy talking to or being around so like… i’m not apologizing. if she feels guilty and bad about herself as a person because i casually mentioned how she’s not the most emotionally supportive person in the world… well so be it. i didn’t say anything untrue or even attach any moral value to being an emotionally supportive person or not. she attaches moral value to how appropriately i am able to engage in small talk… she’ll live

[ink-asunder]

Having demand avoidance in a medical setting is literally hell. Like, patient autonomy is already absolute ass. It's only made worse when doctors CONSISTENTLY tell you what to do and act like you HAVE to do it instead of consulting with you first like normal fucking people.

[llatimeria]

just doing some thinking about the adderall shortage

[minminambus]

The promotion of health should… go much further than ‘eat healthy and don’t be fat. And also get vaccines or whatever.’ Now this isn’t the only promotion for health and taking care of one’s self that the FDA and the media have put forth… but these are just the biggest messages. As opposed to emphasizing preventative healthcare or or safe sex practices or the widespread education of health as a whole— this current state of health education for the general public is just. So limited. That is my perception of it anyway— I am going into the healthcare field after all, so I don’t quite have the perspective of someone who isn’t in healthcare. But just judging from conversations and the general landscape of the country… yeah.

[timothyslucy]

1st day of december and i'm so depressed i can't get out of bed. 😔💔

[thefixer]

hey all i'll be doing a quick little unfollowing spree here ( mostly archives and inactives ) and i'm gonna try and make my way back here slowly . please bare with me <3

[vanweezer]

very very personal, just insight into where im at w my family and things that bother me/have encouraged me to move out

"i know youre moving out so im just gonna say no ones kicking you out and if you feel like this is something you have to do then ok"

thanks! i know im not being kicked out! but yknow i kinda yet a weird vibe when your out of touch husband takes me to a cemetery to yell at me, tell me im just like my father/dont give my father "the time of day", and that im "mean to people who care about me" in front of his dead mother's grave in a poor attempt at guilting me out of speaking my mind. but no yeah thanks for stating the fucking obvious that im leaving on my own terms

[front-facing-pokemon]

[natjennie]

i need to add to that "dont trust how you feel about yourself after 9pm" or w/e I need to add don't trust how you feel about yourself if you haven't taken your medicine