#tagging so others can block as needed

[rikaisaprincess]

So I have the news read to me via Alexa as part of my morning alarm and uhm, recognizing the name in a death anouncement, but not being able to place it immediately at 5 am and slowly realizing that "Liam Payne, 31, singer, famous from casting show" meant One Directions Liam, is quite an eerie feeling? Have never shot up that straight in the morning before. I have never been a boy group girlie in my life, but have known 1D existed. They were on the opposite side of posters I hung on my wall as a teen...

Over the last years I have only heard about Liam on commentary videos I listen to while I clean and not heard anything favourably, but he was only 31. He had not even lived half of his lifespan yet. There was time for him to change and grow as a person, so much time and now that potential of a future is gone. I like to believe that people can, want to and will improve with time and will. Even for someone largely unfamiliar with 1D, this has left me feeling kind of uneasy (?) and eerily quiet (?) the entire day.

On another note: I have seen too many pictures related to death, dying and gore on twitter lately and am probably finally deleting my account there. I have just used it for game updates and viewing trending hashtags, but the new video preview thing on the trending tab has shown me porn and actual gore unprompted and I was not expecting that. And then seeing what I am going to call the TMZ picture today and maybe catching glimpses of actual video material of the incident, whether fake or not, is giving me the rest. It can't be good for anyones mental wellbeing to see that kind of stuff. And I think it is deplorable for any living, breathing, human being to post this kind of stuff easily accessible online. I would hope to have to search for that stuff explicitly before coming across it.