#my collecting is like. a symptom. LMAO

[10-59]

would it be lame/annoying/etc. to do like a figure friday every now and then just to talk about parts of my collection…

[notglue-9]

About My AU

This is about how 8 souls in Minecraft afterlife,try to live in peace and harmony.

Random facts about world/lore:

• You can’t stay at night for long as your own nightmares and fears will begin to haunt you.

• Catnap has had corruption three times. And each time it gets worse and more painful.

• on a full moon in Cartoon world, Catnap will turn into that same creepy version of himself from his past life.

• Bobby: mother/big sister figure

Bubba: Big bro/Father figure

Kickin: best Bro/best friend

Hoppy: best sister/best friend

Crafty: comfort shy bestie

Picky: the same kind aunt who will feed and take care of you/sibling figure

• Catnap lives with Bobby or Bubba.

The guys built houses for each other while they were in the afterlife. And they built a House for Dogday in advance.

• It hurts Catnap to show other emotions with his mouth, so he always smiles. But in the animation "Overnight" he was so upset that he didn't care about the pain and to show his sadness to Dogday he erased his smile

About Medallions

medallions are their souls.

Catnap collects the negative emotions of other critters. This makes his medallion increase. Although he helps others, it’s worse for him if he collects a lot of negativity within himself. He's in pain and reaaally Sick.💀

Each critter has their own cracks in their medallions. They show their emotional state.

Why is Catnap's medallion different?

it’s just that Catnap is punished for what he did in a past life. He pays back by helping and providing therapy to others there will be a rollback from negativity only if someone helps him. But no one will help him yet. The worse the Catnap medallion stage, the more his voice disappears, his beautiful lullaby voice becomes either mute or creepy.

The reason why Catnap is still cursed with this "therapy" ability. He feels guilty for all his mistakes. And it haunts him. His guilt hits harder than other negative emotions of smiling critters.

Sometimes a big red cloud hangs over him in the shape of his past life. And until he forgives himself and does not help others. He will be forever cursed and suffer

Cracked or Cursed Medallions symptoms

When Catnap is too overwhelmed with negativity. He coughs up Red Smoke.

But it doesn’t affect the others in any way. Although other critters are scared by this smoke. Especially Dogday.

Broken medallions.

These are souls that have not found peace, traumatized, broken. They feel bad mentally.

About ARCS.

Arc 0. - Catnap's Therapy. Pilot lmao

Arc 1. - Eclipse, nightmares and dreams,"I'm sorry"

Arc 2.- Corruption,Hey Dogday,,the groundhog Day,comics about other Critters

Arc 3- (Red crescent arc) - Your face,Camping, Theatre, others in future

Arc 4.- After prank, overnight,Moon's everyday Life.

Arc 1- Everyone hates Catnap. They shun him. Beat him,kick him. Bobby was the first to befriend him.

Arc. 2.Catnap helps them cope with their traumas that have begun to appear and interfere with their lives.

Arc 3.They are all more or less well. Some notice Catnap's strange behavior. Dogday has a hard time accepting Catnap. He already wanted to more or less make the relationship better. But the Red Moon appeared.

Their voices ,Their speaking style

Dogday: The deep voice of a veteran who went through a 100-year war. But sometimes it changes to squeaky if it experiences strong emotions. He remained expressive, but his face is always angry as if it would bite you.

Catnap: Actually he was mute. But he was given a voice in the afterlife. He still can't get used to it. His voice is very gentle, cold and pleasant to the ear, like the Cradle. His voice is also designed for singing.

Bobby: Calming tone, tactile when communicating. Sometimes she makes beautiful speeches. And very chatty. Loves to gossip.

Bubba: Monotonous and calculating Voice. He speaks briefly and clearly. And doesn't gesture at all and he is very passive.

Kickin: He deliberately makes his voice tone rougher to seem cool. He comes up with different slangs and often makes funny gestures. But when he's scared, his voice becomes very squeaky and he chirps like a Chicken.

Hoppy: She has a loud and confident voice, like a fitness club trainer. She will never tire of shouting motivational words at you. She often jumps and runs around you. She doesn't sit still while she chats with you.

Crafty: A gentle and sweet voice, like a princess. She is often distracted and has Daydreaming Syndrome.

Loves fairy tales and everything that is not from reality. She can debate her point of view about creativity

Picky: She has a very fun and playful voice. But sometimes you don’t understand whether she’s happy or ready to roast you in a fire.

A truly charming farmer and chef. Loves the Western theme.

About Chronology.

First arc - Catnap enters the afterlife. And everyone will begin to take revenge on him in their own way. Only Bobby will be there for him

Second arc - Catnap helps all of his friends to help recover from their traumas, and slowly wins their trust.

Third arc - Everything will more or less calm down. Only Dogday has the most difficult period of acceptance. There will be a lot of adventure beyond this. And only when Dogday wants to fix everything. The red moon appears on the horizon

(camping, theatre )

fourth arc - is Catnap's self-exile. everyone misses catnap

Arc five- blocked

Arc six- blocked

[blitz0hno]

No but like would I have made a chart of who does what if I didn't think this is how my brain works? Is not knowing "why" I made it now proof enough? 😭 I do a lot of things that I look back and just.... Don't identify with yeah I've been Over This but it's feeling unreal again. Ig not rlly knowing who I am or what I want rn, and having conflicting thoughts about it, says something at least. Idk I'm not sure if I'm freaking out bc I know what is happening but come onnnnnn if we really be "splitting" and stuff do I have to feel like this every time??

listen full disclosure I am NOT quite dx'd w DID so there is hope that I DON'T have it

However

Idk maybe I just understand systems cuz I'm really empathetic? No guarantees

We??stay silly

[psiioniichearts]

Red Death (Créme Brulee & Red Velvet Prince AU)

[ Part of a Cookie Run Kingdom Prince AU with Créme Brulee and Red Velvet by @cupcakestreets (part one & part two), go read those first to get an idea of the surrounding plot. Wanted to write a little thingy about the outside view in. Btw Cake if you see this not sorry I'm forcefully making your cast bigger by inserting these two LMAO ]

"Truly, your inability to read the room continues to astound me, Madeleine."

The knight in question gaped openly at the sardonic accusation, comically shaking his head like a hound before puffing his chest up indignantly, both of which Espresso found profoundly unimpressive and rolled his eyes at. He returned to his attention to much more deserving matters—namely, picking ingredients for his alchemic mixes from the Créme Kingdom's surprisingly sundry garden. While the selection was meager compared to other kingdom's gardens, he found the gardener Herb exceptional at maintaining the plants, yielding the best results in his concoctions.

A little fieldwork never halted his pursuits as a royal alchemist, though venturing out here did mean he ran the risk of being accosted by a particular nuisance with the name of Sir Madeleine, a devote paladin from another neighboring kingdom who nonetheless defied every expectation of knightly stoicism by being obnoxiously loud and optimistic...two traits he was showing off excessively at the moment.

Espresso reiterated wryly, seeing no way to escape this unfortunate interaction, "I suppose I should know better than to expect you to understand this, but it was an arranged marriage. They are not in love, and I believe it would be in your best interest to avoid saying that aloud. Others may not be as forgiving as I was to correct you."

"If that was your show of mercy, I fear the one deserving of your wrath," Madeleine said, face pulled into a pout. He was never one to remain dower, but he continued, "Well, I'll admit to my error in believing it was purely a romantic pursuit. Although, I did spy the foreign prince and His Highness in this very garden earlier, and they seemed to be getting along nicely! Indeed Espresso, is it so impossible to believe they might find content with each other?"

"Yes, it is," retorted Espresso, peeling off a glove to massage between his brows before scowling up at the paladin from his crouched position, "You cannot possibly tell me you are unaware of the unsavory reputation Prince Red Velvet and his kingdom possess."

"No, I am aware," he replied, becoming uncharacteristically serious as his smiling face pulled into a slight frown. He glanced around, perhaps to check if they were truly alone, before looking back down at the alchemist to add, "It would be dishonorable of me to speak....poorly of His Highness Prince Créme Brulee's fiancé upon his land, however..."

"'However' nothing, Madeleine." Espresso stood, not quite satisfied with the amount of material he'd collected but unwilling to continue this conversation with the other; and too perhaps being a tad concerned there were unwanted eavesdroppers. He moved to stand at the knight's shoulder, and under the pretense of wrapping his ingredients in cloth, asked in a subdued tone, "What do you know about the prince?"

"Not as much as I would like considering he is betrothed to the heir of the Créme Kingdom," answered Madeleine, who thankfully picked up the tone of the conversation by now and had also quieted himself. "As you know, I travel far afield as a paladin, and everything I have heard about the kingdom he hails from is...not good, to say the least. I will not go as far as to say it shakes my faith in this kingdom, but to have His Highness marrying Prince Red Velvet-..."

"It does not seem like anything yet," Espresso indirectly corrected, "It's too early to see the signs, but I know this pattern. That kingdom, his kind...they are like a disease that spreads without symptoms. Hopping from place to place like an illness infiltrates a community, eventually, everything and everyone here will be ripped up by their roots, revealing their sinister nature and the infection within."

"By then, it'll be far too late for a cure, and it starts with this marriage to Prince Créme Brulee. I cannot imagine, even at the shallow attempts to make it seem they are 'getting along' as you say, that it is not reflective of the impending disaster."

"..." Madeleine's frown deepened, brow furrowing as he thought. Inwardly, Espresso wondered where this silent, pensive attitude was earlier when he was trying to harvest in peace.

Coming out of he reverie, he stated firmly, "You are welcome to criticize me for this, however I would believe his Highness can inspire a change in Prince Red Velvet. I have spoken with him on occasion, and I can say with confidence that he is not as passive and fragile as he seems. Rather, he has a remarkable ability to sway the souls of others, through his words and his music."

"In fact, I will criticize you for that one," grumbled Espresso, instantly growing exhausted with the other's persistent attempts of salvaging this dire situation, "Don't you understand? The Velvet Kingdom has proved time and time again they will never change. They only know violence, and they will wring out this kingdom just as they've done so many others."

"Ah, but I meant the prince," Madeleine countered, this time the one to indirectly correct what Espresso was implying. "Kingdoms and succession may be built upon smoke and mirrors, royal illusions of possessing virtues that fail to deliver when asked to make a show of it, but individuals are different. They are always capable of change, and can deem to surprise you in the most devastating ways."

"Hmph," was all the response he received. Madeleine laughed, shaking his head again, but unlike his usual booming laughter, it rang hollow and distorted like an altered church bell. It was enough to warrant Espresso's specific attention, and he faced the other fully to examine his expression.

He found a careful facsimile of confidence, a painted mural depicting the might of ancient dragons that could be washed away with mere rain. Madeleine, in all his pride, wore a lopsided smile strained at the edges, a tremulous bridge over an abyss of despair as he stared into the peaceful calm of the garden. His faith allowed him to believe in what was undefinable, and he extended it even now to the unprovable: that Red Velvet could change.

But the implication of failure, the weight of the future should he be proven wrong, settled heavily on his shoulders. Espresso felt it too, strangely resigned and sympathetic in that moment to know even the most well-believing man he could think would know to doubt.

"...Come, let me walk you to the gate," he stated unexpectedly, shaking Espresso a bit. He nodded wordlessly, still unmoored, feeling like he was bracing for an inevitable storm.

Just as they were to step out of the garden, Madeleine added, with a grim sense of finality: "You know, it was...fascinating that you described them as a disease. Of all the fearful titles given to their prince...I found the most appropriate one to be 'Red Death'."

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.

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Left alone behind a dividing wall of green, a sole witness as a silent songbird in a crystalline cage, the Prince Créme Brulee finally sings. And he weeps.

[mothmanssweetsucculentass]

Nina The Killer Headcanons

Psycho Barbie’s turn in the spotlight!!!!

I’ve always thought Nina in concept was so fucking cool, like, an obsessed fangirl becoming a copycat killer always scratched a good niche in my brain, so I never hated her like most of the fandom did when I was younger, I just never really interacted with anything about her cause. The fandom hated her, lmao.

Expect canon typical violence/topics beyond this point pookies <3

TGIRL SWAG!!!!!!!!! Nina is trans I’m making it canon right now and you can’t do shit about it

Roughly about 25, two years younger than Jeff

Ann ain’t the only zombie adjacent character in the mansion

Nina actually has zero fucking clue why she keeps coming back every time Jeff murders her, but she’s having fun with it so ig it’s fine right?

Some of the more supernaturally intelligent members of the mansion also have no fucking idea what her deal is. By all accounts she should be dead and rotting a thousand times over

Eyeless Jack has done four vivisections on her and all yielded the same result, human

Except humans don’t bounce back after having their heart cut out????

Seconds after losing organs they just???? Reappear??? Inside her body???? What the fuck????

Out of everyone she’s a massive enigma. No one can figure it out but everyone loves using her as a guinea pig for murder purposes

Ya girl is such a masochist she actually gets disappointed when people don’t like testing new stabbing methods on her

She’s so unapologetically a freak, she’s cringe, but she’s free

Out of everyone in the mansion she’s the easiest to get along with

Sometimes to her detriment, her hyper extroverted personality off puts some of the more quiet and reserved inhabitants

No one truly hates her, you can’t exactly hate someone who doesn’t have a combative bone against you in their body, but not everyone likes to stick around her

It bothers her only a little bit when she’s noticed she’s pushed people away with her intense personality (it bothers her A LOT-)

She loves collecting and gifting trinkets and jewelry to people. The amount of Kandi bracelets she’s made Jeff and Ben, good lord-

The most persistent determined bitch in the world. You would have to nuke her entire existence to get her to stop focusing/going after something

Of course it ends up making her stubborn

Buuuuuuut she’s also an honorary favorite dog of Slenderman

The household often has monthly contests to see who can have the highest body count. You’ll never guess who’s almost always in the top 3

So she’s out on missions a lot. She comes back and gossips talks about what’s happened when she comes back two days later

Surprisingly doesn’t have a sweet tooth? You’d think with how manic she acts she injects sugar and caffeine into her bloodstream, but nope, she doesn’t. She hates fruit candies and can only stomach dark chocolate

Always comes back from hits and supply runs with tons of candy anyways to share with everyone

Is a SLUT for spicy foods

Ann had to cut her tongue off one time because she fucked it up so bad eating stuff that was borderline radioactive with how spicy it was

Everyone is convinced she would eat actual nuclear waste if given the chance just to feel the burn

The biggest foodie in general too. She’s not the best at cooking but everyone loves her pancakes

Ben made a joke one time about her putting crack in the batter. Two weeks later she had to apologize to mansion parents Masky and Hoody about why half the house was suffering withdrawal symptoms. Someone has to monitor her while she cooks now. Bummer.

She’s a total junkie but she is responsible about it at least dammit!

Like yeah she gets stoned out of her goddamn mind with Ben every other weekend, but that shit doesn’t leave her or his room

She has to set a good example for Sally!!!!!

The kid fucking adores Nina like a big sister

Nina is always bringing her goodies and toys

In return Sally does her makeup for the day

Does it look like a 5 year old scribbled all over her face? Yes and she doesn’t care!!!! She wears that shit with pride

Helen made fun of it once and he has since learned not to piss off the hyperactive pink glitter mayhem lady who knows how to wield a chainsaw

Oh yeah fuck knives. Nina got tired of knives pretty quick. Ya girl USES A CHAINSAW

It’s totally not the same kind of chainsaw Jeff used when he was a scare actor in college shut up no way

She’s really good with the thing too. It’s so heavy and she totes it around like it weighs nothing

She’s got such a sleeper build it’s insane. She’s 5”2 and 160 pounds of pure whoop ass

AND SHE DOES IT ALL IN PLATFORMS AND ACRYLIC NAILS??????

She’s just constantly full of energy and needs to be doing something at every second or she thinks she’ll explode

Besides her signature chainsaw covered in stickers and glitter, she’s also pretty handy with handguns, axes, and baseball bats

She’s got a small collection of weapons under her bed

Three guns (all customized with stickers and paint), a large axe (with a heart in the middle of the blade), and two baseball bats (one covered in nails)

Her room is a fucking mess but she knows where anything and everything is

Girl can’t even see her floor and she’s somehow able to find what she needs in there

Bead curtains, a disco ball, leopard print carpet on the ceiling, lava lamps, it looks like scene mixed with the 70’s threw up in there

Not exactly the most fashionable but has the biggest wardrobe and most flashy way of dressing

Like. I don’t even think she owns anything solid. Definitely not solid black

Has given herself many tattoos and piercings

To the point she’s so good at it that the others start coming to her asking for her to do the same to them

Her hair never stays one color for long, but often goes between red and purple

Is best friends/close with: Ben, Kagekao, Jason, LJ, Sally, the Puppeteer, Clockwork, and Jane

Has a tolerable relationship/is neutral about: Masky, Hoody, Liu, Eyeless Jack, Ann, Helen, and Slenderman

Hates no one

Has a… questionable relationship with Jeff

When first starting off he fucking hated her, but she was so goddamn persistent and just kept getting back up despite the multiple times he was certain he’d killed her, to the point she’s grown on him like a parasite

She sees him as her ultimate best friend, her ride or die, and he’s flattered…but he definitely doesn’t feel intensely as she does

Like he obviously doesn’t hate her anymore and actually quite enjoys her company. But she also annoys the shit out of him and he often finds himself needing a break from her constant state of “on”. Girl has no off switch

The two of them are often found lounging together and talking random shit, or sparring

She believes that somehow the first time he killed her, it gave her her weird zombie regeneration abilities

And of course she thinks that’s cool as fuck and nearly worshipped the ground he walks on because of it

The more time has passed the more she’s grown to stop feeling like she needs him to function

She went from making herself Jeff’s biggest fan her whole personality to becoming an actual decent person outside of her unhealthy obsession with him

Surprisingly never had any romantic feelings for the man

Like yeah she was obsessed but not like that

She just thinks he’s waaaaay cooler than other people see him as

Jane and Clockwork are her girl solidarity bffs

Jane was practically the girl’s mentor in how to be girl 101 when Nina was beginning to realize she was trans

Whereas Clockwork was her combat mentor who taught Nina everything she knows about kicking someone’s ass

They went from her cool lesbian moms to her cool lesbian besties

She’s one of the only few who can tolerate LJ’s nonsense

And by nonsense I mean his usual mad hatter ramblings and personality. Nina thinks it’s hilarious and loves that he’s just as down to clown (SORRY) as she is

Her, him, and Sally are the prank trio

The two would do anything to hear that little girl erupt into giggles

Her and Ben bond over scene fashion and old internet stuff

Ben is also her weed dealer. He’s everyone’s weed dealer but she gets special treatment and doesn’t have to pay him shit cause they’re besties

She’s a pretty positive person overall but cannot fucking stand/HATES anyone outside the mansion

She views everyone there like family

The outside world not so much. Bullying has really left her bitter

Hates blackmail but definitely holds grudges!!! It’s hard to get on her bad side though, so no one’s worried about it

Loves breakcore, kpop, jpop, any kind of hyper and electronic music, extra points if it’s pop

[crushedsweets]

Do you have any hcs for how Clockwork and Jeff would act around each other?

yes!! ok so i think i covered their relationship a good bit on my blog (should be in my masterlist on my pinned post), but i can try to scramble more concepts rn

ok for starters theyre really mean. like 'why are you happy you look fucking ugly smiling like that' completely unwarranted. but its very much like older sibling taunting, but theyre both fighting for role of the older sibling LMAO

i can imagine nights of them at the barn, one of them sick to their stomach from the operator(or the various other infections and illnesses theyd collect) and way too ill to do anything. jeff is partial to bringing clocky a joint to ease the pain, clocky is partial to bringing jeff actual food/water to ease his. theyre def not the type to be affectionate or whatever but jeff would scramble to grab clockys long long hair if he realizes shes abt to throw up. then he'd be like 'jesus christ thats nasty'

theyll sit with an ipod or smth and go through a lot of music together too . . . just a lot of "figured youd like this song" or bringing eachother a CD they found and showing it off.

i could see clocky incorrectly thinking toby and jeff would get along, cuz theyre honestly pretty similar. so she'd get them to connect, and then it would go poorly. i think jeff and toby would TRY to kinda hide their distaste for eachother... sorta

like, toby would just be like 'hes fuckin weird' and jeff would be like 'why do you hang around such a loser' but they wouldnt be like "clocky if you so much as mention his name around me im going to go kill him" . until the nina situation unravels, in which case clockys distancing from jeff anyway

i think jeff and clocky would have a lot of convos about like...

theyre really in similar boats. both got infected with O/S syndrome, both slaughtered so many people under the effect, both feel the symptoms/trauma to this day - but they went down different paths. upon recovering from it, clocky made a life for herself, got a job, hobbies, friends, an apartment. jeff just...kept up with the violence and power trips. lives in an abandoned barn, only friends with a freak ghost kid, etc.

clocky isnt the type to beg but when she sees him years down the line, withering away, becoming worse and worse when she tried so hard to get better and encourage HIM to get better too . i could imagine some tears and pleading there. i dunno . he's kind of a lost cause, though

[adambja]

You asked for my void success story? And my void journey? well I am sharing it bestie!!

But again I won't share any personal stuff some people here are obsessive pls lmao

I typed it when I was on the discord server because someone who is in my experiment asked me so I answered and I asked myself like why not sharing it here after all that time and all these things I am doing (coaching - the experiment - more....) and I am so excited to share the results of my experiment after exactly 6 days and actually 2 people joined the experiment but they were late!

So.....

• let's begin with my void journey!

Okay basically I am sure no one actually knows this except for like 3 people on Tumblr and like 20 people in my experiment (cuz they asked me) my life before entering was actually great I already had everything I wanted my mom and dad are literally my role models and my self-concept was perfect and I am not saying it as an affirmation it's just me and I was always finding something from time to time related to the void state and I worked more on my self-concept using my tape I made it in early - mid 2022 (actually the same tape I sell now) then I started collecting information about the void from literally everywhere back in late 2022 then I started applying in early 2023 I entered in January but didn't really plan to manifest anything because I had the same manifesting abilities in my daily life then I thought about it more than once so I made a list full of everything I can think of at that time and I entered in early 2023 again

• How I entered?

It was just normal i was in the USA specifically NY at that time I was listening to my self-concept tape it was almost 10pm and I felt like I will actually enter today and manifest everything I wasn't even planning to do it but I knew I will experience it's just a feeling I felt at that time and I was feeling a lot of love at that time too so I meditated I didn't affirm I didn't do anything it was fully my subconscious mind but it wasn't that deep to me it was normal EVEN THO IT WAS NORMAL all these days when I entered affirmed the affirmation that's connected to my void list then got out and found everything that was on my void list in my apartment IT WAS SO SURPRISING TO ME but I didn't get overwhelmed nor confused! It was a great surprise!

Also the time it was like 2am when I got out of my void state as I remember and I was sitting at the same place for almost 15 mins just realizing what happened with me and why my head feels like this it was a weird feeling I still can't find a name to it or a word that explains it! i thought about the word "dizzy" BUT it's not just dizzy and it's not really dizzy - it's just a different feeling!

• What was my void state like?

I will say everything that's on my mind

The first time I entered it was pitch black

Then I typed on my void list that it's full of stars it's like outer space because I chose it to be like that (you can choose how your void state looks like too)

It looked exactly like this and everytime I wake up there since that day because I didn't change it! 🫶🏻

Entering was so intense not emotionally but physically even tho I didn't feel my body 😭 it was as if my soul is getting out of my body it was so unexplainable and special to me my body was tired after it and I was feeling too much in my head after getting out and back to my physical body I don't have words for what I experienced the first time and the second time 😭 but now I have no symptoms because it was so annoying so I manifested it away when I woke up in my void state the second day (this was on my void list tho like waking up in my void state everyday and being in my void state everytime I take a nap) - that feeling in my head was so bad like as if I was so high and can't even focus for 15 mins non-stop! That's why I manifested not experiencing any symptoms at all.

• What did you manifest?

I manifested a lot of things I wanted but tbh having these things wasn't that far from me like I already could do it without entering my void state at all and I won't be specific about what I manifested cause they are a bit personal but they were friendships/relationships + businesses + apartments/homes + money/more investments..... and way more

Also I already had many investments before I entered my void state hope this clears everything too

cause many people were asking me about how do I have tips for entering without sharing my story the tips are here tho they are very helpful - it was because I don't like these people who come to your DMs and ask you to help them once and twice and 3 times with their trauma dump message or ask pls like no it was just too much for me when I posted once that I entered then deleted it but here we are again if it happens just don't blame me I will just block people.....

• About the experiment's results

I am not sure if I should post it day by day?

So I am gonna make a poll and see what y'all think!

Also.....

• POWERFUL AFFIRMATION TAPES

(self-concept - void state - shifting - subconscious mind....more) (personalized and unpersonalized) • (discounts for students and specific clients depending on their problems and their situations i am dealing with) - message me

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And now that's it! 💋💋

Have a good day/night cuties🫶🏻!

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That's the post! 💋

You can send me a message too if you wanna suggest any idea for a post or something specific I will give you credits if you want credits + If you have any questions related to my void journey or self-concept even coaching you can ask me babes 💋🫶🏻

I would really be thankful because gurl I am so busy with (my life, coaching, the experiment and more...) rn I can't even keep up with posting here so I scheduled this post lmao thanks to Tumblr for adding this feature for real!

[simmingelitist]

for my own benefit rly im just gonna keep a list of things im finding out poking around tumblr/forums/blog posts/etc.

IKEA stuff & other missing content: "Please note that modern licensing restrictions have required the removal of 1 pack and some of the original songs, but we have included as many as possible." licensing issues for packs like this arent new (hi katy perry), interestingly theres no such notes for the sims 1 which includes irl celebrities, not just in superstar but also drew carey in house party since there is missing content, the file size may be smaller than UC

small improvements to the games graphics rules that u could DIY in basically any version of ts2

ts2 incorporates an old version of shadow fixes, without credit or nopke's permission (simnopke) (shadow fixes)

holiday stuff being hidden is an old bug thats present in UC, its still broken in legacy collection

it looks like bodyshop is gone?

ive seen several ppl saying that the denuvo tag was for the included sims 4 kits (why r those there lmao), that the old games dont actually have denuvo (sidenote it kinda bites that i alrdy have those kits lol)

some questions i have:

does the ui look better in ts2? cas notoriously looks bad on widescreen resolutions. chris hatch made a fix for this and if EA is making a habit of stealing modders fixes this is worth looking into

does the ui look better in ts1? theres various fan patches for that listed here, same questions as above

i dont think anyone can actually answer this but how tf were pink soup & texture memory corruption fixed? everyones guesses seem to be making it 64bit or large address aware which many of us know only work so well. i wanna know more than "someone got pink soup" bc i think players often falsely assume the pink flashing itself is the problem & not a symptom of another problem

is it available to mac users? i am not a mac user but this is the #1 thing that would make it worth re-releasing imo

which original songs were removed from ts2?

im ignoring anything abt whether it runs better/worse for now til i know exactly what changes were made, cos until that point its all anecdotal

[cheriekos]

Hiiiii, this is a snippet of a SuperBat Hanahaki AU I wrote up - it’s a bit weird and I don’t really know if I’ll go forward with this. It’s in Poison Ivy’s POV (lmao don’t ask me how I got here) and I LOVE this but I think I would have to go with a different version of the story I want to write if I keep this. So I’m posting this here for posterity and whatnot and I’ll probably re-write aspects of this into an existing project later. This has been lightly edited and is not beta’d. Enjoy!

Ivy doesn't get a lot of visitors. She gets plenty of wayward children and adrenaline-seeking teenagers that really liked to push the limits on her patience and graciousness. However, that plea deal she made with the city kept her a short, short fucking leash. And despite how easy it is to flick her wrist, send thorns and vines and venom towards intruders and disrespectful punks - she likes having the greenhouse. She likes keeping Robinson Park evergreen and yes, her sordid, traitorous heart was kept alight when she saw the young kids of Gotham gently step over tree roots and gaze in awe at her azaleas. That all being said - she's not quite a people person. And most people aren't approaching her unless they have a masochistic streak running through them. 

"Ivy," grunts out the too familiar voice.

Ivy has a running theory that the Batman was, indeed, one of those people with said masochistic streak.

"Whatever mystery you're solving, I have no part in it," Ivy drawls, gently misting a particularly sad looking plant. She frowns. "You can check with your little Oracle - I'm sure she can scrounge up the camera footage somewhere. I've only been in my greenhouse." 

"I'm here on business."

"And I just told you - I had no part of that business," Ivy says, sharper. The plant - the Passions Vine, maypop, Passiflora incarnata - begins to bloom anew beneath her fingertips. "You can't implicate me in anything."

"I wasn't planning on it," He says, with a strange lilt to his voice. Her ears twitch.

She turns, only slightly, in order to look at him. He's as imposing as ever, more of a shroud of inky darkness than a man. The white of his lenses and the faint curve of his pale jaw the only real visible parts of him in the dim greenhouse, especially in the shadows where he liked to linger. It's a familiar sight, which gives her a faint burst of nostalgia. How disgusting. 

"Here on business, but not here to drag me off to Arkham?" She hums. "Color me intrigued. Do make it quick, though, you're interrupting my bedtime routine."

He only grunts. Ivy rolls her eyes, wondering how earth she found herself at the beck and call of this wretched creature. He finally steps under the blinking overhead light, awash in an orange glow. Without a word, he raises an upturned fist. When she arches a brow, he slowly unfurls his palm. 

Three petals. Yellow, slim, long - flecked with blood. Helianthus annuus. 

"Sunflower petals," Ivy remarks. Her eyes dart up to him. "But you already knew that."

"Yes," He says simply.

"Well, what do you need me for then?" Ivy asks, disdain coloring her tone. 

"These were collected from an individual who appeared to have an upper respiratory infection," He says. "All the symptoms of a standard viral infection were present - sneezing, coughing, congestion. After five days of a normal course of cold medicine, symptoms began to evolve that indicated a lower respiratory infection. After three days of worsening symptoms -"

"Get to the point." 

"The individual eventually coughed up these petals."

"...Excuse me?"

"The individual coughed up -"

"I heard you right the first time," Ivy puts her hand up.  "But what in the world could cause that to happen?" 

He curls his palm again, arm disappearing underneath his cape once more. "That is why I'm here."

Ivy blinks. "You thought I would know something about lower respiratory infections?"

"I assumed that, perhaps, in your tenure as an ecological terrorist, that this is a phenomenon you may have come across." He says, dryly. 

"I can't tell if you're trying to be funny or not."

He just hums. "Can you tell me anything about this?" 

Ivy stares, one part dumbfounded, and another part itching with the familiar sensation that comes with a near encyclopedic knowledge of plants and the urge to know and be right. How dreadful that the remnants of a competitive, perfectionist PhD student still lived within her bones somewhere. 

"One moment," She says, and turns on her heel.

He waits, patient, like one of the city's many faithful gargoyles. She sits on a sturdy leaf with a little thank you and calls other vines to bring her old books out to her workshop table. She flips through a folder with old articles on diseases and infections, but that path is not fruitful. She skims a textbook, a section on herbal medicine and quickly shoves it away with a dissatisfied as another set of vines brings out her laptop and lab instruments.

Her eyes shoot to him. "Come here." 

He moves, like shadow, like a piece of the night come alive. He hovers by the edge of the table, a curious tilt to his head. If she had any little bit of affection left, she would consider it adorable - he seemed like one of the many fruit bats that tried to nibble at her gardens. 

"The petals." She holds out a glass microscope dish. 

He shifts, then stops abruptly; there's an odd strain to his already grim face. If she hadn't known any better, she would've guessed he was hesitating. But the moment passes; he gently places the petals in her dish.

She adjusts the microscope, taking note of the regular aspects of the petals - protrusions she notes that are pollen tubes, the very odd cell structures - and briefly examines the blood specks. When she lingers too long on that aspect, her impromptu lab partner grunts disapprovingly.

"Do you have a problem?" Ivy asks, not taking her eyes off the microscope.

"Are they any irregularities with these petals?"

Ivy taps a green finger against the table. "Well, since you mentioned it - yes."

With a great of amount of self-convincing, she vacates her spot and gestures to the microscope. She can't tell what his eyes are doing under the mask but the air around him seems to fill with a general distrust. He looks into the microscope anyways; while he does, she motions for a come to pluck a petal off her own sunflower.

"Thank you for your service," She says to the little petal, and puts it into another dish. "The sunflower is a dicot, which means there are a number of expected cells within its makeup."

She switches the bloody petals for the standard one.

"Parenchyma cells, epidermal cells, xylem and phloem," Ivy waves her hand. "Things you would've learned in your elementary science class." 

"However?" He prompts. 

"However," She slides the bloody petals back in. "There is a mutation within these cell structures." 

"Elaborate."

"Don't make a fuss, I'm getting there," Ivy says, as if speaking to an impatient toddler. "Patience is a virtue, you know." 

Once more, he grunts. 

"Do you see the spiraling vessel next to the xylem? They look almost identical. The difference, however -"

"This one is filled with blood." 

"Not quite like a photosynthetic plant to absorb blood." 

"What does this indicate?"

"Right now? Nothing," Ivy turns to her laptops and begins a new file dedicated to this particular sunflower petal. "I don't have a definite answer for you on what this is or what it means - or why your little friend is coughing up petals."

He grunts - one of the ones that clearly signals his dissatisfaction. "How soon can we know what exactly this is?"

"You'll know when I know - which is whenever I feel like it."

"This could be life threatening, Ivy," He says, urgency in his tone. She could scoff; everything was so urgent with him. Now or never. Save the city, save the world and all that bullshit. "I'd advise you to not waste time."

"Yeah?" Ivy puts her chin in the palm of her hand. "I'd advise you to take that stick out your ass."

"Ivy -" He stops abruptly. He takes in a deep breath and lets it out in a world-weary kind of way that makes him seem less like a statuesque figure of nightmares - and something more like an old man. She blinks. 

"What would it take for you to...prioritize this?"

Let me out and let me raze the world in order to stare anew - and then that stupid, awful little voice that sounds suspiciously like Dr. Leland's comes in to grab her gently and say 'what can you change in front of you, right now?'

"Harley is out, but she's not allowed within Robinson Park," Ivy says. "Change the details of her pardon."

"You know I can't do that -"

"Bullshit," Ivy hisses, hands slamming against the table - and she feels it. The edges of her vision going green, how the smell of the poison in the very stems of the plants around her are present, how she could send the thorns of rose flying at his throat. How hungry her fly-eaters were for blood. It would be so easy. So easy. 

"Aw, sugarplum, just think of all the good things when the green gets too big! The smell of roses, lavender, or um...um - I dunno much about flowers. Or maybe me! I'm as comfortin' as a daisy, aren't I?" 

She breathes out. Slowly.

It would be easy. Getting freedom was not.

"That's all I ask," Ivy says, voice strained. "Just - let me see her. Somehow." 

He stands so still. It's irritating. She despises this - how desperate she feels, all the power he has, and the embarrassment of it all. There was a time when she would send him flying to the rafters, wrapped in her vines. The poisons, the toxins, the pollens - all of her knowledge and power dedicated to trying to knock down the immovable force that was the Batman. And now here she was. Bargaining with him in order to see the woman she loved. Pitiful. 

He shifts. His hand hovers in the air between them and she feels an edge of paranoia curl at the back of her mind. But then his hand settles, lightly, with his fingertips gently brushing her hand. It's...surprisingly gentle.

"I will see what I can do," He says. "

For a moment, Ivy thinks she can see his eyes. Behind the glare of those lenses, she thinks there's a human somewhere, underneath all of this. It makes something curl uncomfortably in her gut. But as soon as the moment has come, it is gone - and his hand is back beneath his cape. He's just a figure, a piece of the night, and the blight upon her existence. Familiar. 

She doesn't say thank you. She already doesn't like how much of her current existence is in due part to his relentless crusade against violence - and the repeating, endless cycle of it. She doesn't want to admit that within the many hands trying to pull her away from her endless spiral downwards, his was amongst them.

She just juts her chin out, vines curling around her shoulders. "Scram, Bats. I've got work to do."

For once, he decides to take the normal way out. She watches, intently, as he makes his way to the greenhouse door, and without so much as a look back her way, disappears into the night. When she finally turns away, back to her work bench, the blood specked petals are gone. 

[samsblades]

— WIPS FOLDER 📔

here's a sneak peak at the things i'm working on!! if you don't see your request here after a few days of sending it in, that likely means i never received it, so feel free to check with me or send it in again :) i'd love questions about my wips if there's any you're curious about!!

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GENERAL REQUESTS gen requests take priority and will likely be written before anything else (or at the same time as milestone requests) :) they are written in the order i receive them!

⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ slow, sloppy, intense post-hunt sex with transfem sam. she calls you mama <3 ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ overstimulating transfem sam while riding her thigh. ruined orgasm. ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ getting ready for a date with transfem sam during a break from hunting. ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ tmasc!reader. you're desperately horny and can't help but grind on his leg. he calls you his desperate little boy. ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ sam spoils you with a nice hotel room for a night or two. you have slow sex, and spend the next day reading books in bed. ⟢ rowena macleod ꒱꒱ tmasc!reader. she teases you for being horny and calls you her sweet little boy. ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ chronically ill!reader. sam takes care of you when you're struggling with your symptoms. ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ dad!sam. sam struggles to deal with you while you're going through a tough time.

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MILESTONE REQUESTS milestone reqs generally take less time than gen reqs, so sometimes they will be written/completed before a gen req that i got first. also written in the order i get them

⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ a kitchen that smells like roasted sweet potatoes + honey–” “why do you keep calling me that?” “i– do you want me to stop?” “…no.” ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ in the hallway between the front room and the kitchen + “well, i– i really… you know already, don’t you?”

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PERSONAL WIPS things i've already started writing that aren't requests :)

⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ literary parallels part two, you and sam feel closer than ever as you continue to work the case together. ⟢ sam winchester : in the woods somewhere ꒱꒱ you're half-broken from trauma, and sam can't bring himself to contradict the made-up truth you wholeheartedly believe to cope.

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PERSONAL IDEAS ideas i plan on writing that i haven't started yet. also not requests :)

⟢ sam & dean winchester ꒱꒱ younger-sibling!reader, sam and dean won't let you accompany them on their hunts, but you're getting lonely and restless spending all your time in the bunker. ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ a collection of soft, quiet, and love-filled moments with sam. ⟢ sam winchester ꒱꒱ reader with commitment issues lmao that's it, that's the plot. ⟢ sam winchester : you're gonna go far ꒱꒱ you're utterly supportive of young sam when he decides to leave the hunting life for college, maybe older-sibling!reader. ⟢ sam & dean winchester ꒱꒱ middle-sibling!reader, you snatch dean's leather jacket before heading out on a personal solo hunt. your brothers rush to find you when you don't answer their calls.

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[masterbuilderintern]

Would you be able to share your Axel headcanons? 👀👀👀👀 I am intrigued.

Congrats you just opened my insanity box.

-Axel shows a lot of symptoms of neglect through hating his own emotions or just a simple scene of him being afraid to outright ask for something from Jesse. Almost all of the scenes I'm thinking of are meant to be jokes but they aren't really funny to me. I take this game WAY too seriously, it's a little embarrassing LMAO.

He's also not nearly as aggressive as he initially seems? Like in his interactions with Lukas, he obviously hated that guy at first but he never physically hurt him. A lot of bark, but only bites if you make him.

A lot of talk just to say he totally had an okay parental figure in his life (personally think he was raised by a single mother) only to lose them very early on and absolutely nobody helped him after the fact. He idolized the griefer attitude, a life where you do whatever you want whenever, where you make your own rules. A very "hurt people hurt people" kind of life and he's not even realizing the issue.

For all members of the treehouse gang, I like to think they ended up together through their shared experience of being constantly let down by a world that should've been there for people like them. Whether it was a specific tragedy or just being a little "different" from other people, it caused them to isolate at some point in their lives.

MORE LIGHTHEARTED HEADCANONS:

-Axel has a quiet interest in brewing. Over time he became less embarrassed about it, especially with Ivor around to teach him better. In my perfect world where Axel and Olivia came along for the portal arc, Axel actually supplied the potions Lukas needed to recover from the Sky City incident.

Sure Ivor could've done it, but "It's good practice." Or that's the excuse Axel gave.

-He's also very good at sewing. Specifically, because he made that creeper mask and Enderdragon costume for Reuben. I just think it's cute. I need to do a sketch page of it but I like to think Axel has a mask collection he made himself.

Axel comes off as a tank main that subclasses as a healer to me.

-Petra is the coolest person ever to him. Even after he gets to know her. He had this unrealistic idea of her for a while but after getting to know her found out they share a lot in a much deeper way than just "the fighters." It changed how he saw her but for the better.

It's almost like when you have an older sister you idolize and when you grow up you still look up to her but you're also aware that she's just a person.

-He's always bickering with Olivia, like all the time. But if anything happened to her he'd become a serial killer real fast.

LESS FUNNY HEADCANONS:

-Axel took brewing more seriously after the F-Bomb incident. He never wants to be in a situation where he doesn't know what to do when someone is hurt ever again.

-Also, Axel has definitely been desensitized to death, he was way too normal about people killing themselves in Boom Town. My man has been THROUGH IT. Well, desensitized to STRANGERS dying, anyway.

-Jesse went with Olivia to Redstonia and Axel went to Boom Town alone. This symbolizes two things. One: It's a really big moment where he admits he's grown to trust Lukas a lot more to keep an eye out for survivors and fortify HQ by himself. Two: Boom Town made Axel realize how flippant he's been with his own safety, and how much he needs to start caring more because he has people in his life now that he doesn't want to lose.

[inkedbydave]

Man, being unemployed left an irreversible and pretty much negative impact on my day to day life. Cause I'm not even kidding right now, as soon as I had all the free time in the world I started spiraling. I'm working on like 20+ projects at the same time, and surprise surprise, I don't finish any of them. I barely sleep and everything revolves around Ty and other TDA characters.

So for the record, I'm a high functioning autistic individual, I got diagnosed early on, at age 11. But here's the tricky part, I'm also diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder but often experience mania due to stress or intense emotions as a crossover symptom with Bipolar.

And you know what happens when you're manic and experiencing hyperfixation? Can you imagine that? Symptoms of mania -or in my current case, hypomania- like feelings of restlesness, insomnia, impulsive thoughts and obsessive thinking with a delirious state of mind paired with the intensity of a hyperfixation? Yeah. Total chaos. I barely left my house since I got fired, which was btw, 3 weeks ago. I don't interact with anyone but my twin. And I've developed a serious parasocial relationship with these characters. I even compare my real life relationships to them. And I have detailed, like a super detailed pictures of all of them in my head compared with a voice, everything. Like they're my actual friends. And I can't focus on anything outside of them. I find myself rereading the books over and over again. I made a detailed character analysis on each of them. And as much as I try to focus on other books, or atleast books from the same universe, I just can't get myself to pay attention to anything else.

Like I tried playing with my comfort games for a change, and guess what? Now I have a detailed The Last of Us 2 AU with KitTy. Like I just can't escape it.

At this point I'm just waiting for a psychotic break where I actually get to talk to them lmao. (I was obviously joking but in case you were wondering, that is possible. Mania is often followed by psychosis and you'd be actually surprised how often totally normal people fall into fiction induced psychosis, and individuals with BPD are more likely to experience those symptoms)

Oh and I have meds prescribed, I just refuse to take them because I feel like they make me less creative, more withdrawn and even light-headed with additional brain fog when I'm on a higher dose. And I hate that state, I value collecting data and information and constantly expanding my world view with theories but medication makes me feel like a robot, like I'm just existing in an empty, emotionless state of mind, mindlessly completing tasks.

[nyxtickled]

I hope this isn’t too bad of a question in regards to the timing of everything but is there no way for your sweet pup to beat cancer and live a full life still? Especially with the updates on how well she is doing with her treatments?

hi, i appreciate the ask and i’m happy to give all the details. i added a cut because it ended up being WAY longer than i thought it would be, lmao. hopefully it’s not too much to read, but for anyone else who may be curious as well, here are allll the nitty gritty details:

unfortunately that’s the exact same question i had for the oncologist when she gave me the prognosis. it turns out there are quite a few different types of canine lymphoma, which i obviously knew, but since my baby girl is the Most Special Girl, she had to go and get the rare one lol. i’ll share some knowledge i’ve collected since finding out all of this.

1. the biggest separator in terms of lymphoma is whether it’s B-cell or T-cell. B types generally have a longer median survival time, and that’s partially attributed to the fact that B types also have more treatment options (like full body radiation and bone marrow transplants, something that won’t work for T-cell). B types account for i think 75% of cases and T types are the other 25%. we haven’t run the test yet for our girl, but, because of the location and the symptoms (mediastinal, lymph nodes, hypercalcemia), there’s almost zero chance that it’s B type because those symptoms are all pretty much exclusively associated with T-cell lymphomas. we may still run the test in the future but we opted to save the $720 for now since treatment is still the same initially.

2. the next factor is the location of the lymphoma itself or the affected organs. for this, i will just directly quote a veterinary article that you can view here:

“The most common clinical forms of canine lymphoma are high-grade T-cell or B-cell variants, which manifest as generalized, nonpainful, peripheral lymphadenopathy in 80%–85% of cases. Less commonly, lymphoma primarily affects other organ systems, including the alimentary tract, skin, mediastinum, and other extranodal sites.

Exclusive involvement of the cranial mediastinum characterizes only a small fraction of lymphoma cases. Typically, canine lymphoma is characterized by enlargement of the cranial mediastinal lymph nodes, thymus, or both. Mediastinal lymphoma arising from the thymus is predominantly high-grade malignant T-cell lymphoma. With advanced disease, clinical signs may include respiratory distress associated with pleural fluid accumulation, direct compression of adjacent lung lobes, or cranial vena cava syndrome.

In addition to respiratory signs, some dogs with mediastinal lymphoma may have primary polyuria with secondary polydipsia resulting from humoral hypercalcemia of malignancy, a paraneoplastic syndrome that occurs in 10%–40% of dogs with lymphoma. Humoral hypercalcemia of malignancy can be confirmed by measurement of the concentrations of ionized calcium, parathyroid hormone, and parathyroid hormone–related peptide (PTHrP) in circulating blood.”

i went through and highlighted the relevant information to her case. polyuria/polydipsia = excessive urination/excessive thirst, were the first two symptoms we noticed before i took her in to the vet; we thought it was a UTI. that’s when they tested her ionized calcium and found that she was experiencing borderline severe hypercalcemia, and the hospitalizations & x-rays began. thus, they found the mediastinal mass around her thymus gland, which as highlighted above, is a very aggressive high-grade T-cell lymphoma.

so, onto your very real question—she’s getting treatment, so is there no hope for a positive outcome? and for that, i’ll share a paraphrase of what was explained to me as well, from the same source:

“Canine lymphoma is generally responsive to conventional systemic chemotherapy (initial response rate ≥ 90%); most dogs achieve improved quality of life and greater overall survival time. However (except in some forms of indolent lymphoma), eventual disease relapse is expected in most dogs, with disease that progressively becomes refractory to continued treatment.

In the treatment of high-grade lymphoma in dogs, the most common chemotherapeutic agents administered in combination protocols are cyclophosphamide, hydroxydaunorubicin (doxorubicin), vincristine, and prednisone (ie, CHOP-based protocols; the "O" in "CHOP" comes from one trade name for vincristine). The addition of l-asparaginase is optional; often, this drug is reserved for clinically ill dogs or cases of relapse.

With systemic multidrug chemotherapy protocols, median survival times in dogs are ~12 months for B-cell lymphoma and ~6–8 months for T-cell lymphoma.”

so, thankfully, she has started the CHOP protocol and she’s going to get the most effective treatment possible. when she was in the hospital overnight, they gave her l-asparaginase, so she was definitely really, really sick. her lymphoma is technically stage IV.

the caveat is that extravasation of doxorubicin, one of the CHOP drugs, can be fatal with the risk of cumulative cardiotoxicity in dogs. this means there’s a lifetime dose limit and she can’t be on chemo forever, even if it helped her feel so much better for a while. and even with the best possible treatment, results, and initial remission, the malignancy of her particular lymphoma is just so aggressive that there’s no real way to eliminate it.

of course, the average of 6-8 months is a median value, which means 50% of dogs die sooner and 50% of dogs die later. so she could shock us all and get a few extra months, maybe even a year in. but it’s all 50/50 from here on out. i mean, given how sick she got and how quickly she declined, even 6-8 months is a gift; without chemo she would have had 3-4 weeks left.

thanks for caring about my lil babe, and i am so sorry that i went on such a ramble! i hope it answers your questions at least <3

[fauxpontchartrain]

Instead of asking for your answers for your psychology homework, you should tell us some interesting things about criminal justice since you’re studying it again. I don��t really know what to ask you about it though, but I would love to hear you talk about anything related to it! I love learning from you because you’re extremely intelligent and pretty much right about everything, but you know how to make the knowledge you give us funny. You would make a great professor tbh.

This is literally the third time today i’ve been told exactly this but worded slightly differently by someone. Thanks lmao. Well now that I’m finally getting Windows installed on my fuckass MacBook, I’ll humor you while it finishes up (and my computer needs to charge after overwhelming it for the sake of my nerd ass boyfriend…).

Today, I’m gonna educate you on not only the criminology theories that will help explain the existence and nature of people like me (an antisocial person who would frequently commit crimes and lash out against others) — and why our country and society is collectively falling apart and becoming just as antisocial as I am in front of our very eyes — but also these theories are closely tied to psychology and sociology anyway, as they’re all intertwined and related in many ways. These are a set of theories referred to as “Anomie Theories”, and these theories perfectly explain not only what my deal is, but the rest of the American society as we rapidly have our quality of life and ability to simply live in peace ripped from us. So buckle tf up, cause this’ll be a long one too, but hopefully worth the read…

Emilé Durkheim and the Birth of the Anomie Theory.

To begin, in the writings of Emilé Durkheim, especially “The Division of Labor in Society” and “Suicide”, Durkheim insisted on the primacy of groups and social organizations as explanatory factors of human misconduct. He basically viewed crime as a normal phenomenon in society, because group reactions to deviant actions assist human groups in defining their moral boundaries. Durkheim’s analysis of suicide in his research also clearly demonstrated his hypothesis of group influences on individual propensity to suicide.

In Suicide, he identified multiple different types of this phenomenon, which included altruistic (“selfless” suicide), egoistical (“self-centered” suicide), and anomic (suicide due to “anomie” — or a state of societal breakdown). The latter concept is Durkheim’s principal contribution to the field of criminology, and will be discussed a lot in my discussion here. And before we continue, you should also take a moment here to note that I recently responded to another ask that was similar to this one, in which I was asked to explain the four different terminologies used in the field of psychology to explain the various ways that suicidal ideations and behaviors can present themselves, but those were in relation to the field of psychology. The terminology that I will be using to discuss suicide and criminality in this answer was formed by Durkheim, and is specifically used by sociologists in regards to categorizing and understanding suicide in their field of work.

Now, the word “anomie” is generally used to refer to the overall disregard for the law and the rules of society. Basically, it’s another word to describe my ASPD and the symptoms of it, but imagine if all of society suddenly developed ASPD at once due to something that triggered it. A prime example would be the case of Luigi Mangione and the collective support he received from the entire world, and the shared anger and grief that all of America felt towards our healthcare system that led to the mass-justification that mocking Brian Thompson’s death was appropriate (it was lmao). Or the George Floyd and Trayvon Martin and other police brutality incidents that led to subsequent protests and societal unrest, etc.

Anomie, in these circumstances, involves a sort of “moral disruption”, or a lack of clearly defined norms that is used to guide and facilitate human conduct (deviancy). Another fun fact: ASPD is actually called “Conduct Disorder” for people who show signs of antisocial behavior, but are too young to be officially diagnosed with Antisocial Personality Disorder. And people very often view this as a more frequent condition because of a failure of some individuals to blindly understand, accept, and obey the norms of society; an inability to adjust to changing norms; or even conflict within the norms themselves. In simpler terms, Anomie can be defined as a moral and collective confusion or breakdown in morals, or a gap between individual goals and our means in society. 

However, social trends in modern urban-industrial societies result in changing norms, which led to confusion, and lessened social control over an antisocial individual. As a result, individualism increases, and new lifestyles emerge — perhaps yielding even greater freedom for the collective masses, but also increasing the possibility for deviant and criminal behavior. Durkheim believed that it was the close ties of the individual to our families, communities, cultures, and traditions (or what he called “mechanical solidarity��) — albeit confining to the individual — maintained social control. In modern societies (characterized by organic solidarity), however, these restraints on the individual continues to weaken as we collectively lose our connection to our own humanity and no longer have these ties and meaningful lifestyles. In an even more interesting hypothesis — that would greatly influence criminological, psychological, and sociological theories for eons to come — Durkheim viewed anomie in modern societies as being derived by individual aspirations and ambitions, and the search for new pleasures and sensations that are beyond achievement, even in times of prosperity. 

Durkheim’s theories were less concerned with the origin of crime in society, but rather focused on the social process (learning, socialization, subcultural transmission) in which criminal values were passed around to individuals by the very groups with which they were affiliated. 

Robert Merton’s Further Expansion of Durkheim’s Theory of Anomie 

Robert Merton also contributed to our understanding of anomie by explaining how he developed some of his own theories of what causes this phenomenon, which is pretty much what I’ve been talking about and saying forever. He was more interested in asking the question, “what is it about our society and cultural institutions, not just individual characteristics such as feeblemindedness, that causes deviance?”. He noticed that there is a huge dysfunction between the “American Dream” of success (a cultural value), and “social structure” (the means of achieving that success). Different class and ethnic backgrounds and structures provided very distinctive access to this false narrative of the American dream that the entire world was sold. Thus, Merton wanted to look at deviance in addition to conformity in society and explain these differential rates.

Merton viewed anomie as a condition that occurs when discrepancies exist between societal goals and the means available for their achievement. This discrepancy, or “strain”, between our aspirations and achievements in life has resulted in Merton’s concept being referred to as the “Strain Theory”. According to this theory, our American society is so adamant in judging people’s social worth on the basis of their apparent material success, and in preaching that success is available to all who work hard and take advantage of available opportunities. In reality, though, the opportunities or means of achieving this so-called success (the American dream) are not available to all. It’s only achievable for the 1% who never had to actually know what hard work meant in order to get what they have and be successful.

It is also worth noting that only when a system of cultural values is praised and encouraged, practically above everything else in life, that certain commonly depicted characteristics and portrayal of success to our population — no less while our people and nation as a whole is having our social structure and access to the “acceptable” methods of achieving success and living a fulfilling life are being rapidly restricted and/or eliminated entirely to keep us hopeless and obedient — that antisocial behavior and personality traits like mine are bound to become a lot more common. In fact, it already has. This is why we have seen such a sharp increase in mass shootings and other forms of mass and self-inflicted violence since Columbine and other major incidents that rocked our nation like 9/11, etc.

Thus, according to Merton’s theory of anomie, antisocial behavior is produced by the very values of the society itself, rather than the individuals who turn to antisocial behaviors, in encouraging high material aspirations as a sign of individual success without actually and adequately providing the people with the “approved” means for all to reach these simple (but now practically unattainable) life goals, such as being able to sustain yourself, working towards a career you actually love and look forward to doing every day, or settling down and starting a family — or whatever the hell the average normal person typically desires deep down. This discrepancy between goals and means therefore produces various modes of personality adaptation, or different combinations of behavior in accepting or rejecting the means and goals.

Given the impossibly high standards placed on individual success without the adequate means for its achievement, individuals may seek alternate — or “non-acceptable” — means of accomplishing their goals.

Robert Agnew’s General Strain Theory

Another strong researcher in the Strain Theories and traditions was Robert Agnew. He viewed strain as being due to negative relationships, as well as the emotions that arise from repeated instances of mistreatment by others, in which individuals feel that they are being intentionally harmed in some way or another. This branch of the Strain Theory also best applies to myself and what nearly happened to me. These negative experiences may take a variety of forms, such as:

Others interfering with, or preventing the achievement of, major life goals and milestones such as monetary success or career advancements;

Situations that threaten to destroy valued relationships, such as the loss or death of a loved one or a breakup with someone that meant a lot to the one who was broken up with, and/or; 

Any perceived or actual threat of being negatively viewed or targeted by others, such as insults, bullying/harassment/stalking, or physical assault. 

For some, such instances increase the chances for anger and frustration, as well as the likelihood that crime becomes a means of resolving these emotions or as a means to cope. Agnew claimed that delinquency was higher among those experiencing these types of negative life events, such as parental divorce or financial problems. It was also higher for those with interactional and bullying problems with teachers, parents, and others. Just look at the personal backgrounds and circumstances of every school or workplace shooter, and what transpired prior to them snapping.

The General Strain Theory views societal strain as a more of a general phenomenon rather than the discrepancy between aspirations and expectations. Strain can also occur when others take something of value from another, or when one is confronted with any kind of negative circumstances. Therefore, it is theorized that delinquency becomes a means to regain what one has lost or been prevented from obtaining (instrumental), or retaliatory (a means of striking back), or escapist (a means of getting away from anger and strain).

TL;DR, stressful life events, or “strain”, can be linked to higher anxiety, depression, and anger, which for some may spill over into the act of committing crimes, such as assault or damage to the property of others. 

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You mentioned in one of ur posts abt dunking on agents of shield and im so curious what writing you were talking abt (genuine question i love AOS but i’m bad at recognising bad writing lmao and i’m nosy)

under a readmore because AoS is one of the few bad shows i've ever given enough fucks about to outright fucking loathe

i made it through all of, like, two seasons before i ragequit, so i can't speak to anything it did afterwards, but i am always down to clown on those two seasons for being creepy culty police-state apologia, having one of the most egregious cases i've ever seen of "entire fictional universe contorted into a rube goldberg machine whose sole job is to frantically prop up a shambling putrid mess of protagonist-centric morality," spending its CA:TWS tie-in throwing spite tantrums at the whole movie for having the gall to suggest that Maybe The Real Tyranny Was The Post-9/11 Security State We Built Along The Way, devolving from mediocre but serviceable case-of-the-week in s1 to undifferentiated arc-plot mush in s2...

like i know the fandom likes to wank eternally about Ward, but he was at most a moderately entertaining symptom of a show that never met a jackboot it didn't want to fellate sloppy style, yet lacked the skill to even make a point except by flinging ever-more-ludicrous strawmen at the screen. its tragedy was always that the characters were just likeable enough to make you wanna scoop them up and find them a forever home on a show that was slightly less dogshit.

obviously different people watch shows for different reasons and get completely different things out of them; i assume AoS fans have their own aspects they're invested in, likely involving the characters and having very little to do with the show's politics. i'm not accusing them of anything except, like, dubious collective taste in character-centric flamewars. but i cannot watch it without going into a white-hot rage and wasting more words on it than it deserves, and my mid-2010s back catalog of stupid fucking hills to die on includes "my reasons for finding this show rancid may not be relevant to your viewing priorities, but they are an unassailably fucking valid reading of those first couple of seasons."