#sun and moon solidarity

[umbraria]

Yep I said I was going to do it

[timberiswooding]

Nothing else. Just them.

[h-didanart]

Is it ok if you draw a holesome

Bloodmoon and jack-o-moon

I do hope thay become friends

Of course!

I too wished they could be friends, I mean, they kinda have the same vibes, and the same themes, they parallel one another so well! It could be a beautiful friendship, but I cannot see the shows rolling with it sadly

Anyways, drawings, yes, I tried to keep it wholesome but ‘wholesome’ and ‘Bloodmoon��� don’t really go well in the same sentence :P

[flowersandfashion]

Sun & Moon

requested by @oops-it-is-i

[the-faketiccit0by]

Solar: Don't take this the wrong way, but I didn't think you were all that into girls

Eclipse: Well, since we're on the subject, I didn't think you were all that into guys

[sardix]

noooooo i wanted eclipse to get redemend but eclipse is still dead and only his clone will get redemption which esencially would be just a new solar. (Difrent version of eclipse)

[moeruyami]

If Jimmy win a life series (probably wouldn't happen for a LONG while), can I suggest we give him the LIGHT imagery for the sun, moon and stars thing. I think there no rule stating it has to be a celestial body.

Here me out. Why would I give Jimmy the Light imagery if he wins? There are many things I want to point but can say because I have no coherent thoughts. Anyway, why?

Think a minute what enters your mind when Jimmy is in the life series with his choose team mates. Laughter, Joy, Warmth, GLOW, or Home. That is at least for me what I think. I can't think much of negative connotation of him when it comes to the series.

I just felt Light suits him. With his overall feel and connection with everybody and the way he interact with people and how he brings laughter to the life games despite being use by the watcher to gather despair. Maybe that's why they want Jimmy out first cause he didn't bring negative emotion but rather positive with the people around him.

(also Note: We should make Scar the Earth if he wins or Mercury since it is the closest to the Sun. Or BigB should be Earth or may be Ren. Who knows. XD)

(I just noticed my account just became Jimmy fan account. XD My hyper fixation with this man, I swear 🤣)

[glitzybunny]

Goober club magma with @jerrsterrr and @crystalmagpie447 art go brrrrrrrrrrrrr

HDJBFKJHDBGJBDJFBJHBFKDJHBF

[zorkaya-moved]

" i --- can not deal with his ramblings today," and while it wasn't in tighnari to flee the meetings with his former master, there were certain topics and days that sent the forest watcher on his heels back out the door he had planned to enter. " i can already hear his shuffling inside that office . it indicates a bad day or that he has managed to misplace one of his dear research projects, you should go instead."

as to why the two of them had been summoned by naphis was beyond tighnari, but surely it couldn't bode well that both him and zarina found themselves outside his office, tighnari visibly bothered by the invitation. he did have other duties than to play fetch with misplaced documents and the continuous, disgruntled frustration of a sage's dislike towards the others, the younger as well as older who had no understanding for the fine arts of --- well, whatever naphis had come to declare as his topic of wrath for the day.

" i could remain here and plot an escape," head nodded once, tighnari gazing in the direction that led to freedom. " his letter was typically loud, so i can only assume it will be a long hour of rambling. "

@avaere

Sokolova bites her tongue to not call Tighnari a swear word in Snezhnaya for the sole reason of pettiness. It seems that Amurta scholars share some traits: pettiness and snark, a sharpness of mind translates into sharpness of tongue. Lo and behold as Zarina thinks to herself how she did not expect to see a fellow scholar (now ranger) in front of the Sage's door. Naphis is known for his temper tantrums (as she calls them) and she comes over to either hear about some other Sages' behaviors, a misplaced plan, an educational rant, or something to do with either returning to Akademiya as something else, something more.

"What a shame, my fellow green mantled friend," Zarina pats Tighnari's shoulder, dramatic in her gestures as she wipes off a non-existent tear and stepping away to not invade his private space for longer than a second. "I, too, cannot handle the ranting of an old man who seems to have no friends aside from his best students."

Suddenly, she takes a deeper breath and...

"Oh, Tighnari, whatever will we do?!"

The back of her hand is pressed against her forehead as another rests on her waist, her back bent backwards as she becomes the Fontainian opera songstress who is ready for another act of theater. Shocked, she brings her hands to her mouth as if she understood just what she's done and felt 'guilty' for it.

"Oh, sorry, was I too loud?" A smile is clearly hiding behind her hands as her eyes shimmer with mischief, her voice softer now only for Tighnari to hear. (What a fucking asshole.)

She sure was loud enough for the Sage probably hearing that they've arrived. Both of them. A specific louder note on saying the name of the fellow Amurta graduate, her eyes of ichor brimming with sly playfulness and smug showcase of not letting the ranger escape this torture alone. As if he will pay her back or as if he'll be able to get her out if she agrees to such a benefitless turn of events. If Tighnari suffers with her, at least, she can have a laugh after.

Cheekiness continues as she steps forward to the doors where their once-mentor resides, waiting for his best students to come in and listen to his woes. If they work together, they'll get out faster and Sokolova already has a plan in action working inside her mind. Naphis isn't hard to lead away with speeches, charisma will be her weapon and she hopes Tighnari will catch on what she means to do during their talk to make the Sage of Amurta let them go earlier. But, oh well, alone she won't be able to execute that plan.

"I also have business to attend to, Tighnari, let's make this quicker than your doomsday speech portrays it to be. Since it's both of us, just play along with me and we're gonna be outta here in 30 minutes," she winks before she pushes the doors open, cutting away the other's means of escape now that the voice of the Sage can be heard greeting them both and hurrying them up to walk in. As loud as always, huh? Naphis never changes. "Chop, chop, Tighnari, let's make sure our elder isn't lonely." Zarina can't help but giggle after those words, walking into the room with her head held high.

Time to play around and get out in thirty minutes at the latest. If Tighnari plays along. Oh, she wonders if he'll get his petty revenge on her later. She cannot wait to hear his words after this meeting is over. What a delight it'll be to listen to or witness.

[thecupidwitch]

Candle Color Meaning

🖤Black: protection, binding, banishing negativity, grief, secrets, endings, loss, cursing and hexing magick

🩶Grey: stability, concentration, neutrality, reserve, balance, adaptability, flexibility

🤍White: all propose color, cleansing and uncrossing, healing, purification, spirituality, higher-self, innocence, illumination, balancing, hope, protection, new beginning, peace, harmony

❤Red: love, seduction, passion, anger, strength, courage, charisma, survival, change, power, curse work, lust, sex magick

🩷Pink: self-love, companionship, affection, spiritual healing, kindness, beauty, femininity, marriage, sensuality, children, healing abuse

🧡Orange: business, creativity, justice, ambition, opportunity, attraction, abundance, confidence, energy, celebration, goals, success

💙Blue: peace, communication, expression, forgiveness, traveling, protection, truth, sleep, patience, trust, pregnancy

💛Yellow: joy, abundance, intelligence, reason, learning, memory, inspiration, imagination, friendships, sun magick

💚Green: growth, wealth, fertility, business, healing, nature, balance, luck, longevity

💜Purple: intuition, decadence, authority, wisdom, knowledge, influence, psychic abilities, devotion, enlightenment, overcoming fears, addiction, independence, spirituality

🤎Brown: earth magick, home, animal magick, family, stability, endurance, grounding, solidarity, strength, hard work

♡Gold: wealth, inner-strength, self-realization, sun, masculinity, abundance, happiness, overcoming addiction, luxury

♡Silver: intelligence, memory, moon magick, divination, money, femininity, fertility, hidden potential, success, awareness, wisdom, psychic powers

keep in mind that different cultures have different meanings for each colors. Use what correspondences fit you and your craft!

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[caturnmoon]

The sun 🌞 through the houses!

• Part 1 •

• Sun in the 1st house •

The sun naturally finds its joy here in the house of Aries! The first house rules individuality and how you personally come off to others in this world and self. So with the sun in the 1st house you are someone that naturally has this radiance about them and is not, and I repeat, is not afraid to take up space! It’s giving main character energy for sure. You could have been an only child where the world literally revolved around you (like the sun) or you’re the favorite. The sun in the 1st house creates a natural born leader and others are easily inspired by you and look up to you. For better or worse, you influence the climate of any room and relationship. If not kept in check, this placement can point to some narcissistic qualities. At its best this placement inspires others to embrace their own light and fearlessly takes action in whatever it is they aim to achieve in life. They are blessed with a strong inner compass and drive to set out to achieve whatever it is that they want to. This could also indicate a natural talent and or interest in self-help and awareness platforms; you know who you are inside and out and like to help others discover this for themselves. What you see is what you definitely get with this placement. Especially if placed in signs like Leo, Aries, and Sagittarius.

• Sun in the 2nd house •

With the sun in the house of values both material and personal, you are someone who can naturally exude the qualities of a Taurus. Strong, authoritative, and sensual. Physical security means the world to you in this lifetime, and you have all of the tools in your arsenal to achieve just that. You could have an uncanny knack for investments and finances in general. You are meant to step into this role of security both material and emotionally. This placement to me just gets better with time and ages like fine wine if positively aspected especially. You will most likely be someone who aims for financial solidarity and independence and could be the breadwinner of your family and you take great pride in this too. Those with this placement are most likely to be very generous with their resources as well, giving to others that need their resources and help especially if positively aspected by planets like Jupiter, the moon or Venus. You have an eye for beauty and beautiful things and like to invest in art and the best luxury this world has to offer you. Style comes naturally to you and you could also find yourself interested in interior design or fashion if placed in signs like Taurus, Libra or even Pisces. People look up to you and respect you quite easily with this placement and you’ll naturally navigate positions of authority with ease and steadfastness.

• Sun in the 3rd house •

Mentally active and always on the move. This definitely marks someone with the sun in the house of Gemini! You will most likely be known as a jack of all trades and someone who is difficult to pin point doing just one career during their lives. Highly intelligent and with the propensity to mental restlessness, you need constant mental stimulation for that big bright brain of yours! You also thrive in areas of communication as well, as Gemini rules this. Blogging, networking, and writing may be some natural callings for you. You could travel quite a bit in your professional career especially shorter distance trips, and you also could’ve had a very active childhood too. Perhaps your parents sent you on many different summer camps or boarding schools growing up. Unless negatively aspected, you could have a very close bond with your siblings as well. You could also be someone who naturally enjoys learning and school and are insatiably curious, soaking up information like a sponge. Unless placed in more introverted signs, this placement normally highlights a very social extroverted person. Look to your Mercury in your chart as well with this placement, because the themes of that planet could be a larger portion/theme of your identity!

• Sun in the 4th house •

With the sun being in the house of the opposite luminary the moon, this could indicate a night time birth! You are naturally someone who is in tune with their inner world and incredibly private one at that. Emotional security is everything to you, as well as a safe space you can call home. Your childhood home environment (unless negatively aspected) could have been one full of love and cozy vibes. A safe haven you treasured coming home to after a long day of school and your mom has a lovely dinner awaiting you. Both parents had a huge impact on you but especially your mother or maternal figure. Maybe you were raised by your mother and she was a single parent. Matters of family and the domestic environment will be a big focus for you in this lifetime. You are most likely a homebody who enjoys being at home as much as possible. Perhaps working from home is a huge goal for you! This is also a placement that can show an interest in social work careers as well especially having to do with the domestic sphere. This placement also could show major inheritance as well, it makes me think of it being a trust fund baby placement if the rest of the chart supports this as well. Overall, you are highly motivated by personal, domestic and familial concerns. Look to your moon sign and where it’s placed in your chart as well, as it can highlight more concerning its influence in these matters!

• Sun in the 5th house •

All the world’s a stage!!! With the sun in the house of pleasure, hobbies, drama, children, and affairs this very much rings true for you. The 5th is a Leo house, and invoking your inner child is of the biggest importance for you and your outward expression in this lifetime! You could be known for how you shine in creative endeavors and bringing joy to literally any atmosphere. You feel the most fulfilled when authentically creating and expressing yourself; whether that be through painting, songwriting, acting, sports, or even raising children. You have a healthy sense of self and your ego is strong in its expression. The 5th house literally speaks to me as the house of joy and pleasure and so you find yourself always looking to experience these things in life. Just be careful to keep this in healthy balance with discipline as well, for it could indicate some hedonistic qualities too. A healthy aspect with Saturn could be a great balance with this placement to buffer this. This could also indicate a love for love and affairs could be a potential struggle here as well. Regardless of this, those with their sun in the 5th house have a huge heart and are in tune with their heart chakra naturally. You could also be known for your many talents as you’re someone who is blessed by the solar luminary and puts the spotlight on these qualities for you with ease. The sun is at home in this house of the lion. You’re the supreme ruler of your identity.

• Sun in the 6th house •

The sun in the house of Virgo is such a gentle and diligent placement. The sun infuses its warmth and energy into the house of service, health and routines and as such, you could be a natural healer! The sun here shines the spotlight on your daily routines, matters physical well-being, and services. Virgo is the natural healer of the zodiac and this could be an area of focus for you in this lifetime and what you’ll naturally evolve into being in one of these areas. Perhaps medicine is an area of interest or physical therapy and you love working with wellness routines. This placement also indicates someone who has a green thumb and has a natural knack for gardening! Small animals could bring you so much joy and healing as well, and you could love working with them as well. Such as a veterinarian, or volunteer in a shelter. Animals could love you and are naturally drawn to you. The sun highlights the best qualities (and lighter ones) of the 6th house. Like the 3rd house, this house is also ruled by Mercury. Mercury tends to fare really well in the solar luminary. You have a natural knack for details and are wonderful with matters that require meticulous study. The tiny details that others overlook you naturally comprehend with ease. You are also someone of a resilient nature as you have the ability to work through the petty issues and obstacles life may throw at you. Viewing them as another problem to be solved, you’re able to view things through a logical rational lens.

•Houses 7-12 coming soon•

Until next time! 👽🖖🏼

[astrocafecoffee]

Marriage/ long term commitment indicator in synastry and composite chart

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⚡ For entertainment purposes only, enjoy ⚡

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✨ Synastry:

Hera (103) conjunct North node.

Venus in 7th house

Saturn in 7th house

Moon in 7th house.

Moira(638) in 7th house

Destinn (6583) in 7th house.

Devine (3561) in 7th house.

Briede ( 19029) in 4th /10th house.

Groom ( 5129) in 4th / 10th house.

5th house conjunct 7th house.

Northnode conjunct descendant.

Vertex conjunct Venus.

Vertex conjunct northnode.

Union(1585) conjunct union.

Union conjunct Boda(1487).

Union conjunct Groom / Briede.

Your vertex conjunct their Groom / Briede and vice versa.

Juno conjunct/ trine/ sextile juno.

Juno conjunct northnode.

Juno in 7th house

Juno in 1st house.

Juno conjunct descendent.

Hera conjunct vertex.

Juno in 12th house

Solidarity in 7th house

Sun conjunct boda

Sun conjunct moon

Venus conjunct juno

✨ Composite:

Vertex in 7th house

Karma (3811) in 7th house

Karma conjunct Vertex

1st house stellium

7th house stellium

4th house stellium

10th house stellium

Sun conjunct boda

Sun conjunct juno

Sun in Libra

Libra stellium

Juno in libra

Devine ( 3561) in 7th house

Destinn(6583) in 7th house

Hera conjunct northnode

Moon conjunct descendent

Moira in 7th house

Loving / lova asteroid in 7th house.

Jupiter in 7th house

Juno in 7th house

Juno in 1st house

Boda in 1st house

Boda conjunct ascendent.

Boda in 7th house.

Sposetti (22354) in 7th house

Sposetti conjunct northnode.

See you next time

-piko ✨.

[h-didanart]

I don’t even know

I just needed to draw it

[hearthandheathenry]

Color Associations In Magick

Red - love, seduction, passion, strength, courage, charisma, assertiveness, survival, change, power

Blue - peace, communication, expression, forgiveness, traveling, protection, truth, sleep, patience, trust, pregnancy

Yellow - joy, abundance, intelligence, reason, learning, memory, inspiration, imagination, friendships

Green - growth, wealth, fertility, business, healing, nature, balance, luck, longevity

Orange - creativity, justice, ambition, opportunity, attraction, abundance, confidence, energy, celebration, goals, success

Purple - intuition, decadence, authority, wisdom, knowledge, influence, psychic abilities, devotion, enlightenment, overcoming fears, addiction, independence, spirituality

Pink - self-love, companionship, affection, spiritual healing, kindness, beauty, femininity, marriage, sensuality, children, healing abuse

Brown - home, animals, family, stability, endurance, grounding, solidarity, strength, hard work, earth

White - cleansing, purification, spirituality, higher-self, innocence, illumination, balancing, hope

Black - protection, binding, transmutation, banishing negativity, dignity, force, grief, secrets, endings, loss, security

Gray - stability, concentration, neutrality, reserve, balance, adaptability, flexibility

Gold - wealth, inner-strength, understanding, self-realization, sun, masculinity, abundance, happiness, overcoming addiction, luxury

Silver - wisdom, psychic powers, intelligence, memory, moon, healing, divination, money, femininity, fertility, hidden potential, success, awareness

[bornagainmurdock]

to savior // matt murdock

Matt was asleep within seconds on the other side of the bed when you both went to bed last night. He hadn't stirred or moved the whole night, sleeping well perhaps for the first time in his life. You hadn't gotten much sleep though. Eyes still watching the ceiling above you shimmer in the subsiding moon. His snores filled in the silence of early morning. The sun had not yet begun to rise, but soon enough that and you alarm would find you already awake.

He was too far off in dreamland to realize that you were anxiously shifting every few minutes, trying desparately not to wake him up accidentally. Matt wasn't a deep sleeper, but when he was as exhausted as he was right now, it was almost impossible to disturb him.

That was until you turned to face him and found yourself staring him right in the eyes, opened and relatively alert. Matt shuffled under the covers raising a hand to your face, brushing your cheek softly.

He yawned and without a word, placed a kiss on your forehead as a gesture of solidarity for your lack of sleep. He had spent many nights like this watching you sleep soundly next to him wanting an escape from the conciousness that tormented him.

"Go back to sleep Matt."

"No, lemme take care of you."

"Matt."

He wouldn't budge, already moving your bodies together for you head to rest on his shoulder, arm around you and legs twisting together.

It was rare for you to both be awake at this time of day, sun rolling over the horizon making its way into view. Matt couldn't see it, but he could feel its warmth glaze his skin.

As the sun rose Matt kept you company, kissing your forehead every now and then, listening to your heart fluttered each time.

"You know you didn't have to stay up with me."

"I know, but I wanted to savior the morning with you. Not often we have time to just be here together."

[un-lawliet]

“Present.”

— in which Dazai wants to kiss you

part two here <3

“Osamu…”

Dazai lifted his gaze, his eyes narrowing at your figure.

It was cold.

The Summer, having prolonged its stay, pliantly welcomed the first cool breeze of Autumn, inviting the ember shafts of the moon a little earlier, cutting the day shorter and introducing the night before the clock struck nine.

And Yokohama appeared to come alive at night.

The streets bustled with crowds, lively and impeached with an alacrity one would expect to see when the sun was much, much higher in the sky.

Dazai found himself outside the Lupin Bar, leaving a half empty glass of sake idle on the cracked confines of the bar top, the crisp air steadying his somewhat dizzy state, un-fogging his senses and clearing his head.

Leaning against the bar wall, his hands in his pockets, an indiscernible look in his eyes as he watched the ever moving city around him.

It was moments like this when you knew his mind was elsewhere, reminiscing over memories in which you did not know, memories that left you except and puzzling over the glimmer of recognition in the depths of his eye.

Breaking his trance he regarded you with quiet solidarity, as if debating weither or not he should throw up his defences or continue to stare, an eyebrow raised in subdued acknowledgment of your appearance.

He didn’t seem shocked at your return, having been on a mission at the other side of Yokohama for a few days, you feel a sickly indulgence of disappointment in his lack of reaction, your shoulders dropping as you approach him slowly.

He probably knew of your return, he has a habit of knowing seemingly every action and it’s equal reaction before they are even taken, it’s a habit that leaves you uneasy at best, and terrified at worst.

Sighing, you join him against the Bar, leaning your head back against the bumpy surface of the wall.

He looks at you for a moment longer, and it’s as if you can feel him back away, creating an insurmountable distance between the pair of you.

In reality, you know he does not move, but at the sight of an ill placed smile stretching his face, you have never felt so immeasurably far from him.

“To what do I owe the pleasure?” He grins, and it’s ugly for a man so devastatingly beautiful in your eyes, you hold back a grimace.

“I’m back.” You say simply, unable to look at him anymore, the footpath suddenly becoming the most interesting thing you’d ever seen before.

A street lamp flickers, the light momentarily dies leaving the pair of you in the dark for a split second before the light returns, Dazai glances upwards to look at it, you don’t even notice.

You don’t know why you even sought him out, your feet seeming to move on their own after Kunikida grumbled that Dazai had headed to Lupin’s Bar just after his shift at the agency.

You have a gift for him from your mission, you tell yourself, attempting to justify your foolish actions, ignoring the voice in your head that reminds you that you would have seen Dazai at the agency at some point the following day.

“You’re back.” He mimics, and he’s back to looking at you again, trying to understand your actions, trying to comprehend why you were currently standing outside in the cold, cold night with him.

“The mission was successful then I suppose?” His smile seemed less indulgent now, and if you were to look up you would surely notice how his body swayed slightly, a testimony to the tipsy feeling resonating in his chest.

You don’t however, your eyes staying downcast as you nod; mumbling about how it was more boring that anything, you hear him laugh at your admission, you hate how empty it sounded.

“Is everyone at the agency ok?” You ponder, clinging to the tail ends of a conversation you were slowly losing.

“You didn’t visit them before you came to see me?” Dazai questions an undeniable tease in his voice, you feel yourself flush.

“I did, it’s how I-” Found out you were here.

The words die on your tongue, refusing to go into detail of how you actively asked for his whereabouts about five minutes into your return.

“Hm?” Dazai coaxes you, although you’re certain he knew what you were about to confess.

“Nothing.” You mumble, your hands clammy, “I uh did, but I only saw Kunikida and Yosano so..” You trail off.

“Ah” He muses.

And in the back of his mind, he wonders if you were simply here because you felt like it, that you had no alterier motives, internally frowning at himself for his suspicions despite knowing you were part of the ADA, critiquing himself silently for falling into old habits that should have died when he left the mafia.

He supposes that maybe you just wanted to see him.

The breeze falls over you both and he’s moving to leave, you look at him again, your head cocked, holding yourself back from questioning, restraining yourself from clinging onto his hand and begging to follow him, indulging yourself in the warmth of other human.

The bar door opens, and for a brief moment you hear the drunken giggles and exclamations of careless patrons, before the door swings shut again, muffling the voices. It grounds you.

Dazai takes a few steps and then turns to face you, his face unreadable, before he tilts his head gesturing for you to follow him, you think your heart soars.

“You coming?”

And you’re pushing yourself away from the wall, nodding.

He doesn’t wait for you to catch up, and you find yourself walking at a pace slightly behind him, your hand subconsciously tracing the box in your pocket.

You wonder if you should give him his gift now, or if you should wait.

When you can’t decided you stay silent, choosing to speed up to level the distance between you both.

You have no idea where you’re going, simply following a man who’s actions you couldn’t begin to understand. He makes no effort to inform you of the destination and so you make no effort to ask.

Dazai likes to think when he walks, constantly scheming, devising ways in which he could encourage Atshushi to grow, or better yet, another way to end his life, and fail, over and over again.

A bitter cycle that infringes upon his thoughts like a bullet.

Tonight however, his thoughts circle back to you, and your silence, and how your face seems to glow in the dim light of the night. And he blames the alcohol that’s coursing through his blood, the last of his drink finally hitting him as he walks, dizzying him and rendering him in a state of concealed vulnerability.

“So.” His voice comes out steady, despite his tendency to slur his sentences when under the influence.

You look at him, gently urging him to continue.

“You’re hiding something.” He states, and you curse him for his intellect and damn observation.

You grip your coat tighter, eyeing the bulge in your pocket, defeat already coaxing you to reveal your intentions.

“I suppose.” You whisper, concluding to yourself that there was really no reason to hide the present from him, after all it was just a gift shared between two work colleagues, there was no need to plaster it with a hidden agenda.

Reaching into your pocket you timidly lift it out, his gift was wrapped, just like everyone’s gift from the agency, a pretty ribbon tying it all together in a clumsy bow. You feel foolish.

“I brought you something from my mission.” You explain, your eyes trained on his face.

And Dazai pauses, his steps slowing to a stop as he stares at the box in your hand, and you scramble to explain yourself, eyes wide.

“I-I got everyone from the agency something!” You stammered, “I just…wanted to give it to you.”

He doesn’t move for a second, his eyes moving between your flustered face and the present.

A car drives past, it’s headlights cause you to blink.

“Do you plan on giving them their presents in such an intimate manner as well?” His voice was softer, as if he himself is unsure of your answer.

His question makes you freeze, feeling as if you were caught in your own actions.

You whisper a tiny “No” and Dazai just nods.

And you hate how you don’t understand.

His hand brushes yours as he picks up the box, his hands are cold, you try not to shiver under his calculating gaze.

“You don’t have to open it now.” You mumble, willing yourself to look him in his eye.

Truthfully you hope he doesn’t open it in front of you, unable to cope with the silent weight of the consequences to your actions.

Dazai finally breaks eye contact to look at the bow, his finger going up to play with the flimsy material.

You brought him something, you had thought of him. Dazai, was unable to fathom how you could be so pure and act so well intentioned to someone with his past.

Did you not believe him to cruel? A man desperately trying to patch over his history with the excuse that he had changed. Changed from the eighteen year old who’s presence struck fear in those unfortunate enough to know his name. Who’s presence alone caused the death of the only person who-

Bitterly, he reminds himself that you had thought of everyone at the ADA.

Without a word he pockets the gift, that same ugly smile rippling his features yet again.

“How kind of you to think of me!” He exclaims, his voice far too loud for the quietness of the gesture, clapping his hands together in an enthusiastic display of himself.

The distance between the pair of you stretched for miles and you shake your head.

“I think about you plenty.” Your voice is hushed, edging on exasperated, because (although you would rather die than describe your complicated feelings for Osamu Dazai out-loud) you don’t appreciate being pushed away.

The moon appears to hide behind the clouds, leaving the street lights to fend for themselves. Their glow emphasising your features as he looks at you.

And Dazai wants to kiss you.

It’s a desire that materialises amidst the acutely awkward silence that follows your admission, it breathes down his neck and forces him to lose any and all words that might escape his lips.

He smiles, a bandaged hand reaching up to cup your cheek, your eyes squint; confusion, admiration and need seeping out from their sockets and onto your face, and Dazai, for once, is grateful for his ability to read people, to read you.

He wants to kiss you, but he doesn’t.

You lean into his hand as his thumb gently draws circles across the area just below your eye, your lips part, a question you will never ask bubbling in your throat.

The pair of you look at each-other for another brief moment before Dazai removes his hand from you and turns, hiding his expression.

“You’re cold.” He states, starting to walk, “You should go home.”

And you watch him go, your feet refusing to move, body overcome with a melancholy you only ever seem to experience around Dazai.

The moon peaks out from behind the clouds again, as if to ask if you’re ok. Illuminating both you and your surroundings like a blanket.

And you feel exhausted.

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A/N: this was supposed to be fluff idk what happened- i think i started thinking of chapter in 109 half way through, i’m sorry ANYWAY hi bsd fandom ily ily ily and thank you for reading !!!