#sugar berzatto headcanon

[heavenbarnes]

Love your Natalie 'Sugar' posts! Please can you write more, maybe some SFW and NSFW dating headcanons?

Hope you've had a good day!

uh yeah i sure can! i hope your day is good 🫶🏼

sfw:

- natalie who all but promised herself that she’d keep business and personal life separate (which was already impossible considering her brother(s) created this restaurant) but when she said “personal” she really meant “romantic”

- all that went out the window the day she came to the restaurant with the intent to head straight to carmy’s office but ended up lingering by your station

- if you asked her these days, she’d say it was because you were cooking an interesting dish (you were chopping potatoes) but if you had your say, it was because your sleeves were rolled to your elbows and you’d just lugged a heavy stockpot

- you made the first move, natalie had been the first to start flirting but you were the one to actually do something about it and not just stare at her starry eyed any longer

- it’d happened when you found her in the office, flustered and pissed off about the finances and you’d been the first person to ask how you could help and actually want an answer (as it turned out you weren’t the best at balancing books but you did tuck natalie’s hair behind her ear and ask how she made it look so easy)

- everyone else noticed the change when you were the only person to call her natalie when everyone calls her sugar and when richie asked why you’d simply responded “natalie’s a nice name, why change it?”

- anyways! dating! that woman doesn’t lift a fkn finger long as you have breath in your lungs- you’d get up and cross the living room to pass her the remote.

- in return, she is the sweetest love you have ever known. doesn’t matter who you are, what you’ve done, what you haven’t done- natalie loves you more than life itself.

- if she comes to the restaurant during down time, she can usually be found sat in your lap with a plate of whatever you’ve whipped up for her (all she has to do is ask and you’d hand spin her gold)

- you call her “the wife” even if you’re not married, you just love reminding people you have someone at home

- her lockscreen is a sweet picture of the two of you on a walk, your lockscreen is her on the toilet flipping you off

- you, richie and carmy refer to yourself as natalie’s “loser-husband” (regardless of gender) and natalie always tells you off for it (you keep doing it cause you like it when she uses that tone with you)

- you do most of the cooking at home but sometimes she’ll surprise you with baking and it’s always fucking delicious

- whenever the two of you are out, you’re usually stood just behind her with a hand on her lower back- you really like to be touching any part of her at all times

- when you’re in bed together at the end of a long day, she rubs your hands and knuckles when they’re tired from all that cooking (you repay with foot rubs on the couch)

- natalie really likes trashy reality tv and you watch it without complaint because of the light in her eyes when she bitches to you about one of the couples or whatever

- you and natalie are really good communicators, believe in discussing any issues with each other rather than airing them out to others

- it wasn’t always that way, natalie had to overcome a lot of family background to do it, but the result was worth it

- because of that family background, you’re unbelievably patient with her because you think she’s worth it

- if any of your colleagues or friends try to get into the whole “god my wife is so annoying” type of thing you’re just not there because you can’t relate

nsfw:

- okay i know i said you don’t call her sugar but that was only a half truth, you call her sugar when you’re fucking her

- when she’s underneath you and she’s on her back and her hairs splayed out like a golden halo and she looks sweet as sugar

- that’s when you cannot stop your mouth from running and you’re telling her “you’re so fucking perfect, sugar”

- but nobody else will ever know that

- however, it does mean she knows when you’re in the mood because you’ll just call her sugar and then it’s all on

- ngl, i reckon you’d have to be top in this relationship because i honestly think nat borders on pillow princess (but in the right mood, she’ll switch for you)

- she loves sitting in your lap at the restaurant but she adores sitting on your lap at home, whether you’re on the couch or in bed she’s perched up with her tits in your mouth

- you regularly ask her to ride you so you can get her tits in your mouth

- she loves being woken up with head, weekends when you don’t have to be anywhere in a rush you’ll spend hours under the sheets with her thighs around your head

- even though i think she likes being pillow princess, she absolutely loves going to town on you- likes it when her “big strong chef” comes undone for her

- she’ll also get into a bit of mommy stuff if you’ve had a rough day and need to be taken care of

- one of your favourites is having her sit between your legs in front of the mirror, making her show you how she touches herself when you’re working long nights at the restaurant

- she often walks around the house naked and sometimes you can be serious about it and other times you’re bending her over the kitchen bench

- sydney walked in on the two of you in a heavy make out session in carmy’s office and you all agreed to never talk about it again but sydney thinks about it often

- natalie loves when you talk dirty, loves getting you to the point where you’re straight babbling about how good she feels

- she loves tiktok and frequently does those trends like flashing your partner when they pull up the driveway or sending a nude when they’re in a group setting (you never complain and always fall for it)

- in fact, you love when natalie flashes you because you just fucking love boobs so sometimes if you’re doing something around the house she’ll just say “hey babe” and next thing she’s lifting her shirt for you

- whatever you’re doing then gets forgotten cause you’re asking her to put them in your mouth

- honestly, you’ll give her a go wherever and whenever you can so it’s not uncommon for her to be brushing her teeth with you crouched behind her and a cheek in each hand

- about the reality tv, she’ll be sat back watching while you’re kneeling with your tongue buried in her (sometimes you have to pause cause you get too invested in the show)

- she loves buying lingerie for you to slip to the side when she’s face down ass up in your bed

- one last one, she has called you daddy in bed before and you came in record time (once again, regardless of gender)

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make my heart surrender | carmen 'carmy' berzatto x fem!chef reader | social media au - part three: living together

a/n: i know it's been a minute and i'm desperately willing myself to write the luca sequel... for now... enjoy another installation of make my heart surrender as a social media au.

you can see part one and part two here. or read the story here.

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[queer-whatchamacallit]

After several months of anticipation, I rewatched 1x05 “Sheridan”

Sydney tries to relive her mistakes over and over, so when she tries again, she feels like she won’t make any of them again. This is kinda similar to Carmy who relives his traumatic experiences, but tries to make the new situation healthier and one where he’s in control. They share this urge to surround themselves with what has hurt them

It’s pride month, so of course I have to mention Syd’s gay bedsheets and comforter <3

Syd did baseball! There’s a trophy on her desk.

The fact that Marcus watches shitty reality tv feels so right for him

Tina has been to a Berzatto family Christmas, and Carmy’s way of gaging whether she enjoyed it was whether his mom freaked out. Tina said “she wasn’t calm, but the food was great” and I don’t think I realized how much build up Donna got in s1

For just a couple scenes, Syd had a completely different scarf on? Not sure what’s up with that

Carm talking to Richie abt the coke is a good example of how he acts when he doesn’t have a task to do in addition to being stressed. He fidgets: grips the countertop, chews at the back of his lip, and paces, and he barely looks at Richie who’s sat right on front of him, mostly looking at the countertop or the ceiling. The only time he makes eye contact is when he wants to make sure he’s being heard

I think I’ve mentioned this in previous posts, but despite looking healthy and put together compared to the other Berzattos, Sugar still has her issues. She has the same temper they do, and considering Pete’s “you’re not pissed all the time” in 2x10, I think it definitely affects their marriage to some degree.

Nat’s complaints abt Carm are so true it’s funny like Yes! He really is a soft shitty bitch for being scared to talk to you because you try to make him face his problems! You’re so right, Nattie!!!

For as much as I talk about her flaws, I really do love her :]

It feels like there’s tomato cans everywhere this episode: on top of a shelf overlooking Marcus’ station, on the cinder blocks when they do the outdoor service, in the corner while Syd tells Carm about Sheridan. And funnily enough, I think they’re the big cans (blue top) instead of the small cans (green top)

I like to think Carmy picked up the words Rad and Gnarly from Michael because Mike would’ve grown up in the 80s and heard those terms a lot more, but you can’t tell me that Carmy wasn’t absolutely obsessed with tmnt as a kid

Also love Syd for absolutely rocking it when forced to think on her feet, she’s so smart and pretty wow <3

And the Carmy-Marcus mentorship strikes again! This time with Carmy’s deeply unhealthy outlook on his work!

I’m so obsessed with fire as symbolism for self-destruction in this show, never ever getting over his speech to Marcus. Also, he uses the pronoun “you” throughout it, implying that this is a completely normal healthy thought, and clearly when your restaurant’s on fire, of course, you’re going to want to let it burn to the ground, and that’s such a Carmy thing to think

When Carmy first comes in during that scene where he later helps Syd strain the stock, he’s holding onto the towels at his waist. He’s not moving them, he doesn’t take them off, he isn’t changing the position of his hands enough to actually be drying them, so there’s no other explanation! Bro is just stimming!!!

And I think that’s it! Waa I’ve missed doing these!

[savingcrxws]

eyes on fire | carmen berzatto headcanon

carmen berzatto x ex!reader (but not for long...)

warnings. language, mentions of suicide & death (mikey)

authors note. thinking of turning this into a fic but i just wanted to get these thoughts thrown onto a page for now | EDIT 7/7: ITS A FIC! HERES PART ONE

you hated carmen berzatto, to say the least

you had been each others first s/o and spent a lot of the end of your teenage years attached at the hip

every berzatto family function (no matter how messy they always ended), every school dance, every hell's kitchen rerun--you and carmy were together

mikey liked to call you guys soulmates, watching how you and carmy just seemed to click like that- a statement that never failed to make carmy go flush in the face (que richie faking barfing in the background)

you were one of the first people that carmen told about his wishes for the future-how he wanted to take up the restaurant with his brother and continue the berzatto tradition

you loved the way his eyes lit up when he talked about cooking with his family-the way he gave his all into his aspirations

"well you gotta make sure i'm the first one to eat those fancy sounding dishes when you start working at the beef, carm"

"absolutely, babe. i wouldn't have it any other way"

however, like everyone after high school, you and carmy hit a rough patch that sunk your relationship -- you were planning to go to college for business administration and carmy was leaving chicago to go to culinary school

you two definitely attempted everything in your power to stay together-late night skype calls, daily texts, hell you even offered to fly to new york to spend time together

but the more swamped you got with school and the more carmen got slammed with cooking (especially right before he went of to Noma), the more the truth begun to show itself

the breakup was messy, because it was less a breakup and more of ...

you: what are we doing right now? like, as a couple?

carmen: i think that i need to focus more on my career right now

you: oh, so..are we breaking up right now? (read 9:57PM)

you: carmen? (read 10:15)

you: ok, asshole, be that way (delivered)

that's right, that motherfucker ghosted you

despite the tumultuous ending of you and carmen's relationship, you were still close to sugar and mikey (and, unfortunately for you, richie)

sugar was adamant on flying over to copenhagen and have a "conversation" with her brother herself + mikey and richie were not too far behind on the cause

"it's fine guys. let's just all agree that carmen is a soft little bitch" you said, trying to lighten the mood even though you knew that you were still racking thru the pain being broken up with so suddenly

you deal with the breakup harshly at first, but you put a lot of that emotion towards your own growth

fast forward a couple years, you graduated college and are on the up-and-up in chicago as a successful business marketing manager

you get closer to the berzattos, strangely, as carmy gets more distant

you don't think of carmy much anymore but it grows harder as he wins awards and recognitions in his field that honestly make you..proud, in strange way

then, mikey dies...and a lot of things change for you

you help sugar and richie plan the funeral, and something sour sinks into your stomach when you don't see that familiar head of dirty blonde hair during the service

some months pass and you try to gather yourself and get back to normal after mikey's passing

richie invites you down to the beef one day to "catch up" randomly

you go, if not to just see tina and the rest of the crew but are met with great surprise when you see him

carmen motherfucking berzatto, in the flesh, standing behind the bar yelling to richie about something nonsensical

he stops yelling when he hears the door open and literally freezes in place when he sees you

you stare at him for a second, taking in the man who once had your heart, noting the new tattoos and the new way he styled his hair and he seems to be doing the same

then, richie breaks the silence--"oh my goodness, what are you doing here, sweetheart?"

you and carmy speak at the same time

"richie, you motherfucker"

"richie, you dick"

[gingergofastboatsmojito]

The new beginning

First of all: I have all my hopes put on this baby. She's the new beginning, she's the reset.

My headcanon is that her name is Gean or Jean or Jane. Maybe Gina, which would be the Italian version. Will explain why later on, if I'm right.

Second of all: She's the living proof that with love, you can go from this:

to this:

I expect the same thing for Carmy. That he can mend every damaged or broken relationship he is into. That he's given all the chances he needs. That he can redeem himself in a heartbreakingly beautiful way, like his mother did.

And that the new Berzattos are a testament to that. That they don't repeat the family history. And that the "Wild Cherry" and Sugar, which in Italian tradition is called: "Dame di Visciola" (Lady of the sour cherry) are the new Matriarch and the firstborn of a whole new and healthy lineage. Nothing like the ones who came before them. That will be the best way to honor them.

To make Dame di Visciola, you have to take fresh wild cherries, put them in a large glass jar, add sugar, and wait for the magic to happen in the sun.

And this magic, I hope affects everyone around them, whoever comes close. Carmy, Sydney, Emmanuel, Richie, Eva, etc... I want a new beginning and that baby, IMO, is the sign that I'm getting it.

Whatever happened so far, is no more.

It's a brand new day now:

Third of all: The Groundhog day ended when she was born.

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[let-it-rip-bear]

It's not that he never learns. It's the opposite, actually. He knows the trap is there and he chooses to step in it.

This post will be exploring the possible relationship that Carmy has with self-harm/self-harming behaviors. If this is a difficult topic, please take care of yourself and skip this post.

Let’s begin with Carmy’s negative self-image. It’s confirmed and stated pretty clearly in “Braciole” during Carmy’s monologue at Al-Anon:

I'm not built like that, man. I, um… I didn't have a lot of friends growing up. I had a- a stutter when I was a kid. I was scared to speak half the time. And, uh, I got shitty grades 'cause I couldn't pay attention in school. I didn't get into college. I didn't have any girlfriends. I don't think I'm funny.

This is basically the opposite of how he describes Mikey:

He was loud. And he was hilarious. And he had this amazing ability. He could just, he could walk into a room, and he could take the temperature of it instantly. You know, he could just, he could dial it.

Where Mikey was loud, Carmy was quiet; Mikey was funny, Carmy thinks he isn’t. Clearly, Carmy doesn’t have a high opinion of himself. The only thing he feels is a redeeming quality is his skill as a chef. This can be seen in his monologue:

[…] for the first time in my life I-I started to find this, uh, this station for myself. And I was fast. I wasn't afraid. And it was clear, and I-I felt… I felt okay, you know. […] I felt like I could speak through the food, like I could communicate through creativity. And that kind of confidence, you know, like I was finally… I wa… I was good at something, that was so new, and that was so exciting.

The wording gives away a lot. Carmy specifically says that he's finally good at something and that it's so new to him. It shows that he felt like he wasn’t good at anything before he developed his skill as a chef. Being a world-class chef is perhaps the only solid part of his self-identity. It’s the one thing that allows him to feel validation. It's the only part of him that he feels is valuable.

People with a highly negative self-image are found to be willing or able to endure pain for longer amounts of time than people with a positive self-image. A study published in 2015 found that the participants that endured pain longer were also the ones who more often "spontaneously described themselves as being 'bad', 'defective' or 'deserving of punishment'". It seems pretty clear that Carmy would fall under that category as well.

I believe that Carmy stayed in the NYC job with the abusive chef because it felt so similar to when he lived at home and was around his mother. I think that Carmy purposefully puts himself in those situations as a form of self-injury, which is his subconscious coping mechanism.

Now, in my headcanon, Mrs. Berzatto is verbally abusive to Carmy. I don’t have a lot to go off of her being specifically abusive, but there are multiple times throughout the show that lead me to that end. The most obvious being in “Sheridan” when he’s talking to Tina and asks if his mother went “full psycho”, to which she responds “She wasn’t calm, but the food was great.” Throughout the show, Carmy also occasionally compares Sugar’s behavior to their mother in a negative context. It’s all pulled together by the moment in “System” when Sugar asks if Carmy has spoken to their mother and he says he hasn’t. It seems like he wants to say something else and that Sugar is waiting for his justification, but the topic drops off quickly. Altogether it gives me the impression that Mrs. Berzatto is a highly emotional person who might experience mood swings or otherwise very volatile states.

I see Carmy as someone with undiagnosed ADHD. The symptoms seen in the show include emotional dysregulation, attention deficit, and Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD). RSD causes people to be more sensitive to perceived rejection and criticism. Mrs. Berzatto likely criticized Carmy a lot when he was younger or at the very least compared him to Mikey and Sugar a lot, resulting in Carmy’s view of himself as inferior and opposite to Mikey. One factor that is theorized to worsen a child’s stutter, or verbal fluency disorder, is a parent’s negative reaction to the stutter. It’s not considered a cause or major factor, but is considered to have some effect on the child’s fluency. Carmy would then become afraid to speak because he was afraid of making his mother angry. There's also Mikey's decision to not let Carmy work or even enter the restaurant, which I believe affected Carmy far more than Mikey had intended due to RSD.

I believe that Mrs. Berzatto's negative influence on Carmy would contribute to him being “scared to speak half the time” and possibly kickstarted his negative self-image. I think that Carmy didn’t come home directly after Mikey’s death and hasn’t spoken to his mother because he’s afraid to face her.

So, why would he want to recreate that environment? Part of it is because he believes he deserves it. It’s a form of punishment or even discipline. Now, why would Carmy seek out punishment? I think Carmy has engaged in self-harm (known clinically as non-suicidal self-injury or NSSI) for most of his life, though most of it is indirect. Through conditioning, self-injury can become a form of pain relief for people with very low self-esteem. This is known as "pain offset relief conditioning". From the same study I cited before:

People who self-injure may unwittingly be tapping into this mechanism...The first time they hurt themselves, they experience unpleasant pain. But when they keep doing it and experience pain relief, they begin to associate...other forms of self-injury with relief, and they return for more. [...] 'The natural and adaptive response is to say, ‘I'm done with this.' But people who engage in self-injury don't necessarily see pain as something to escape from,' Hooley explains. Instead, experiencing pain validates their sense of being a bad or damaged person.

This, to me, explains why Carmy continuously puts himself in environments that actively harm his mental health. This includes NYC and The Beef. For both places, outside perspectives have described the conditions as something negative (Sugar in regards to NYC and Cicero in regards to The Beef) and both times, Carmy admits that he still "enjoyed" it, in a way. Vomiting from stress and anxiety every day before work was a form of self-injury to him, but Carmy felt that he deserved it, and whenever it happened he would get a rush of relief due to offset relief conditioning.

Another side to this coping mechanism is that Carmy subconsciously wants to put himself in that situation so that he can prove to (the proxy of) his mother that he isn’t worthless, that he can pay attention, that he’s capable of speaking clearly, and that he can and will be successful. At the same time, the dynamic is simply too familiar to him—Carmy learned how to avoid his mother’s wrath and fitting himself into a similar situation brings a form of comfort. He knows how to stay out of trouble, so to speak. To quote his monologue yet again, he "wasn't afraid...and it was clear". He knows how to handle people like NYChef (people like his mother) and it's comforting to have that knowledge instead of being uncertain. It's a form of safety for him.

That's also why Carmy is very good at taking a verbal lashing with little to no complaint. He learned that just letting it happen was the way to get through the bad stuff at home. In the opening scene of “Hands”, he’s being intensely berated by NYChef and takes it in stride. Even when the chef says “you should be dead”, his face doesn’t change and he continues working just as before. Similarly, in “Dogs” when Richie and Uncle Jimmy are screaming at each other, he’s completely zoned out. His eyes are distant and he’s seemingly removing himself from the situation. I think he learned that at home.

This is the headcanon that I'm working with to explain Carmy's awful self-worth issues, strained relationship with his mother, and paradoxical enjoyment of harmful environments such as NYC. It acknowledges Carmy's possible ADHD as well as his childhood stutter.

I hope this was coherent! It was somewhat difficult to untangle the connections that I didn't fully realize I had made and lay it all out in a way that isn't just word vomit. Please feel free to ask to tag relevant triggers.

Here's the 2015 study on NSSI: "A New Look At Self-Injury"

[asexual-juliet]

2, 6(besides aroace of course), 12, 22, and 25 for Carmy

Feel free to pick and choose lol

2. Favorite canon thing about this character? I love how absolutely fucking pathetic he is lmfao... big fan of his virgin energy. it's great he’s pathetic he’s swagless he’s a cringefail loserboy he’s never more than five minutes away from having a panic attack and he gets NO BITCHES! he's also just like. such a funny little guy like I think about "surge rates, fucko!" every day of my life.

6. What's something you have in common with this character? this bitch fucking HATES talking about his feelings!!

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character? I mean. the fact that he is aroace. but ALSO I am very attached to the idea that especially when they're younger sugar is fully convinced he's gay and tries to be very subtly supportive but it's very very obvious what she's trying to do lmfao.

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don't like? obviously i LOVE platonic sydcarmy and don't super love reading romantic sydcarmy but other than that... I love fics about the Berzattos as kids, I love fics where Carmy's stutter comes back, I love when authors absolutely beat the shit out of him so people can can take care of him <3333. and also I hate the implication in any fic that this man has ever gotten any bitches or had any sex lmfao.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now? tbh I don't super remember but now I want to study him like a bug under a microscope!! he's sooooooooo <3 <3 <3

[heavenbarnes]

All of the below is 18+

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The "Lucky you!" series [COMING SOON]:

You should be so Lucky - Carmen "Carmy" Berzatto x reader

Just Lucky, I guess? - Sydney "Syd" Adamu x reader

Feeling Lucky? - Marcus Brooks x reader

Third time Lucky - Richie Jerimovich x reader

I'd rather be Lucky than good - Michael "Mikey" Berzatto x reader

Carmen “Carmy” Berzatto:

Jesus loves her, she wants more - Carmy Berzatto x reader

Run the pass - Carmy Berzatto x gn!reader x Sydney Adamu

Sydney Adamu:

I’m losing it lately - Sydney Adamu x reader

Run the pass - Carmy Berzatto x gn!reader x Sydney Adamu

Love is in the sharing of the meal - Sydney Adamu x reader

Already better for knowing you - Sydney Adamu x reader

To noise making (sing) - Sydney Adamu x reader

I’m no good on my own - Sydney Adamu x reader

St. Sydney of Chicagoland - Sydney Adamu x reader

Natalie “Sugar” Berzatto

Sugar headcanons - Sugar Berzatto x reader

More Sugar headcanons - Sugar Berzatto x reader

Dating Sugar headcanons - Sugar Berzatto x reader

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make my heart surrender | carmen 'carmy' berzatto x fem!chef reader | social media au - part one

inspired by @caramelberzatto i made a few social media posts for my make my heart surrender universe with carmy x fem!chef reader. my carmy as your baby daddy series was a headcanon/social media au and i just love these so i couldn't resist!! enjoy these fake social media posts depicting different parts of their story :)

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more posts to come. this last trip back home was life changing. ❤️

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marcusmakespastries: what an honor it was to have you BACK with us, chef.

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thesustainable.chef: uncle carmy, cacio e pepe ravioli we made, and very well deserved glass of wine for this milf of 2 🤣

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So I decided I was going to rewatch The Bear and take notes, partly bc autism and partly bc I want more interesting details for fics and just to get to know the characters even better

(Also, I’ve been curious about what makes Carmy blow up vs what makes him dissociate)

So here’s some things I noticed that you could also pick apart like I have here

Carmy has his apron on in the dream, maybe it’s just because that’s what he’s been wearing pretty much all the time for the past couple weeks or because his work is so tied with his family (w/ bears as symbolism for that) but idk

Him waking up on a random counter in The Beef confirms my headcanon that he falls asleep in weird places OR he fell asleep in the office and sleepwalked there

In this ep, any imagery or mention of Michael is pretty much always tied to religious imagery

Carmy calls her Sugar and him Mike, I’m always inclined to have him say Mikey instead but I don’t think he ever does. Also, Fak calls Carm Bear :]

“What’s UPS?” Is the first in a long string of times where someone tries to talk about something other than the kitchen, and it just doesn’t click with Carm

Syd’s “I know who you are” and Carmy’s “Yeah?” and he just listens to her completely riveted is so funny to me. Tell this man you know he was the CDC at one of the best restaurants in the United States of America and it’s like saying “walk” to a dog

Carm’s “I’m saying something >:[,” starts the classic Berzatto dilemma of no one listening to each other but wanting to be listened to

Reminder that Syd can speak Spanish :D

Richie talks about their “Italian heritage” and later says abt the labels “this is the most Polish shit ever,” which show how close he fits in with the Berzattos and his dislike of his bio family (Jerimovich is Polish right.?)

Richie talks about putting his family back together and him not coming home, and Carmy instantly dissociates

Him asking “Why didn’t he leave it to you then?” Not like a comeback, but a genuine question gets me every time

Carmy’s not good with words, so while this is something that just makes fun dialogue, in universe, it’s interesting to see how often his responses are parroted (ex: Marcus’ “that shit was straight up fire” and Carm’s “Straight up done now Chef”)

When it’s work time, it’s work time. When Fak stops looking at Ballbreaker to mention that he wasn’t able to go to the funeral but he sent flowers, Carm just says he wasn’t there either and swiftly changes the subject back to work

The three siblings and Richie all have gold necklaces. When Sugar shows up, I don’t know if hers was one of the matching ones, and I couldn’t figure out what the charm was on it

Tina says “Why doesn’t your sister come around here anymore?” Implying that she used to. I also feel like T wouldn’t have asked if Sugar stopped coming when she moved out and didn’t have to do what her mom told her to. Maybe Mikey kicked Sugar out of the restaurant too, but she wasn’t too bothered by it

Unlike with Richie, when Nat calls him out on not saying hello, just trying to get work done, he listens, and he slows down. Richie feels like his space in the family is shaky, so he’ll take a lot more shit from them while Nat won’t. She inherited a temper, just like her brothers, I feel like she’s in therapy and likely tackled how to stand up for herself when her family was treating her like shit, and she’s the “normal” middle child between a loud older brother and a worrying little brother, so she probably had to fight for her family’s attention at every turn

Nat mentions their mom and Carm’s eye contact instantly breaks, and it seems like he has to remind himself to breathe

His stutter shows up when arguing that he doesn’t want Jimmy to buy it

Carm’s “I’m gonna fix this place” vs Sug’s “No one’s asking you to” just hits so hard for some reason

When Carm tries to flee back inside, she uses “I love you,” like it’s an argument to keep him from throwing himself back into the restaurant or as a reminder that there’s people out there who want him to be doing well when she thinks the restaurant is hurting him

Sweeps is more of a background character but omg he just quietly looks out for everyone :] (he made sure Syd got to try Carm’s beef recipe :]]]])

Fak was also close with Mikey. I don’t know why I imagine Fak as being not quite as close with everyone as Richie, but they came to Christmas too, edit: Fak’s “but it got fuckin dark at the end” showed that he too knew something was up when Carm didn’t

Carm very much gives off the vibe of being allergic to cats, but I’m going to ignore that and squeeze in my headcanon that he loves Fak’s cats, Ralph and they love him

Richie’s dialogue is such a fun juxtaposition of him trying to feel superior to whoever he’s arguing with with large vocabulary and overconfidence but often falling back into vulgar insults because that’s what he knows best. Also, later in the ep he talks about “up in Napa” with the foie gras and shit to mock Carmy, but Napa isn’t up from them, it’s in California

Richie says “You have no fuckin idea what you’re doing here” and it’s like a switch, Carmy’s comebacks and annoyance with Richie stop, and he’s completely dissociated again. Richie shoves cans of spaghetti sauce into his arms and slaps at his face to steady him because he can probably tell something’s not right with him, but he just ends up leaving him to it

One of the Berzattos main love languages is physical touch via back and shoulder pats

And finally, Carm tosses the can of spaghetti sauce which I’m saying is because he just needs them to fucking listen and trust him when he’s saying no more spaghetti but there’s probably also some kind of Michael significance there too

Edit: I think I just had the realization that family stuff is what makes him dissociate while work stuff tends to make him panic and snap at people. It makes sense, snapping at his family would only escalate things and dissociating separates him from something he’s expected to fix. And Claire is kinda off in her category but falls under the panic response

So yeah!!

That’s pretty much what I got from 1x01 - System

I don’t know when or if I’ll do more of these, but this was so much fun, literally love dissecting these sad little goobers

[glorifiiedgore]

Angelo lived in Chicago for almost 10 years in his 30s. During that time he helped staff and train 2 separate kitchens (Alla Vita & Ciccio Mio) Downtown, as well as being the Head Chef for Monteverde a few years after becoming sober. Prior to his sobriety, Angelo enjoyed working in ‘dives’ and helping out family owned establishments in the neighborhood (both in Brooklyn and then eventually Chicago). 

During his stay in the Windy City, Angelo befriended Michael Berzatto who eventually went on to inherit his family’s restaurant, ‘The Beef.’ Angelo and Michael cultivated a close friendship, spending many days together both in and out of the kitchen. Angelo found a sense of ‘home’ with the Berzatto family and felt comfortable for he first time in a long time. 

After Angelo moved back to Brooklyn, Michael’s brother Carmen had graduated culinary school and had been traveling all over honing his craft. The young man arrived in NY and after receiving a glowing recommendation from Chef Angelo Azzano, was granted the head chef position at one of the biggest and best restaurants in the city. Carmen made a name for himself and earned high praise from his fellow chefs, as well as from their long time family friend. Throughout the years the Berzattos fell out of touch with Angelo, due to busy schedules and the like -- no hard feelings, just a lot on their plates (no pun intended). 

One morning, Angelo received a phone call from Carmen upset but calm. He informed the older man that Michael had passed away after committing suicide, leaving him with ‘The Beef.’ After brief correspondence back and forth, Carmen asks Angelo for his help, prompting the chef to relocate for weeks back in Chicago in order to assist with the fall out. Weeks then turned into months, as Angelo found himself beginning to see the joys in his craft once again -- a feeling that had been lost while being back home for the last several years. 

Headcanon includes:  - Crossover relationships from FX’s The Bear. These relationships include friendship between Michael Berzatto and Angelo, as well as a developed strong bond between Carmen Berzatto and Angelo. Another relationship within this headcanon is that of Sugar Berzatto and Angelo ft. a flirtation that proceeds with sexual chemistry and infidelity (on Angelo’s part -- he is still married to Una during the time he spent in Chicago the 1st time). When Angelo returns to Chicago he is married to current wife Piper and has since changed his behaviors.  - This headcanon is part of my character’s canon and will remain permanent. 

[gingergofastboatsmojito]

Pete & Nat, the role models

I've been wanting to meta a lil bit about Pete for sooooo long, I have soooo many good things to say about this guy.

And soooo many complaints for Storer, as well, because instead of introducing new and annoying characters like Computer and giving more airtime to Fak's brother, I don't even remember his name... Pete's character should have been better exploited last season. Especially considering that he became a new dad of THE NEW BEGINNING.

That baby reset the timer of the whole story, which we saw on screen a couple of eps later.

This is how Pete was introduced to us:

That magazine was right next to Pete's computer the first time we saw him in S1's Hands (01x02) when Carmy apologized over the phone, for having sent him to UC.

Pete is enough. No low self-esteem issues, no drama, no trauma. He's centered, stable, and most importantly: He's Nat's rock.

He's a casual guy (tennis shoes on the cover symbology), a "report maker" (name of the magazine) even though he's a lawyer. "Report makers" are reliable and organized, even borderline boring sometimes, they are certainly not daredevils, they are anal and collected. That's their profile, Pete's fits it perfectly.

Not all lawyers are "reliable". He is, because he's the report-maker type. IMO Symbolically speaking that magazine stealing the focal point of the frame for a second is probably telling us that about the character.

So, he is "enough." Yet Sugar married him and started a family with him with this flawed mindset that is nothing but her trauma response:

More about her here:

So, my point is that you don't have to be squeaky clean and your mental health does not have to be pristine for a loving relationship you enter into to work out, not necessarily. This does not mean that Carmy doesn't have to do his part of the work to get better for Syd, which he does and is doing:

OR that Syd doesn't have to clean her side of the street too, which she does:

It means that no, you don't necessarily have to be A-OK to allow yourself to love someone and be loved by that person as long as you choose each other and help each other to do the work, that work will be individual and it will be joint and you will always need help and there is no "right time" to start but ironically enough there is such a thing as too late.

Pete & Nat prove that they are doing it together, it's certainly not easy for them, especially for Natalie, but they are succeeding at it.

IT CAN BE DONE. it's not a utopia or even a bad idea. It can work out, sometimes it doesn't sure, but it can.

Bonus track: Pete may play cupid for Sydcarmy, I am positive Sugar will so it's not crazy he will too by proxy and here's why I have this hunch ↓

THE BEEF STEW

Fingers crossed like pretzels rn.🤞

Remember to follow my tag #Gingerpovs 💋

[bartonbones]

headcanons and musing on ms mama bear herself and carmy's various traumas below the cut. trying not to make my blog look as unwell as it has the past few weeks, however, very much still ill in the head over the shrimp man

me every time carmy mentions his mommy issues:

let me in!!! let me in u son of a bitch!! tell me about ur mom!!!

anyway. i digress. so the main clues we have in canon about the berzatto's siblings mom are, in vague order of appearance (aka my memory):

sugar telling carm in ep 1 that mom would love to see him after he mentions that no, he hasn't talked to her. it feels like sugar is on good enough terms with their mom while carmy is def not.

richie mentioning that he took care of their mom for months before carmy came after mikey died--carmy's mom is unstable for (gestures vaguely) any number of reasons

"she full psycho?" "she wasn't calm, but the food was great" --their mom had always been some level of unstable, but there's clearly a point at which she becomes unstable to the point that carmy considers it a distinct difference

"i mean, you blame the restaurant. you don't blame mom. you don't blame mikey." why is their mom before mikey?? carmy has such strong negative feelings about her that he puts her before mikey--someone whose fucking pills he just found in a drawer!

"it's bullshit" "sounds like mom" "i'm serious" "i'm serious" ?????? !!!!!! ???????? if nothing else "sounding like mom" is an insult but also ?????

"mom always added raisins!" interesting to me--mikey is the one who is presented as always cooking for the family, even when carm's talking about tina spending christmas at his mom's, it's mikey who was making the food. but sugar has clear and nostalgic memories that involve their mom's cooking--although, notably, it's decidedly in the past tense, even though their mom is still very much alive and present to sugar in canon, and this takes place years before canon

"this is a very special dish in my dysfunctional, nightmare of a household" --carmy doesn't seem to have any bad feelings or memories of mikey until after he starts freezing him out, and considering their dad was out of the picture around the time carmy was born/was very young, one presumes this nightmare and dysfunction has to be related to their mother

the other points that i think are interesting that just sort of relate to carmy's Issues (tm) are

a) the parentification of mikey and sugar berzatto--carmy so clearly leans on them and like went to them for support and guidance, and as always, TheAngelTattoosAreForMikeyAndSugarBreakdown.exe

b) carmy's disassociation when people are fighting/yelling at him if he's not feeling defensive or particularly fighty enough to yell back. the way Chef says such cutting and horrible things to carmy--you're not tough, it's all a show, you're a fraud, you should be dead--and carmy just has to blink and continue working. the way he stares in to the middle distance for like two entire fucking minutes while richie and cicero scream at each other. i mean, if there's one thing this boy can do it's disassociate. the kid can leave the country. he sends himself to the cornfield. goodbye carmen berzatto hello shoving trauma down into ur shoes and hoping there's No Future Consequences for This Action

anyway i've been thinking for weeks about what i think the deal could be between carmy and his mom and while this is truly just a headcanon i'm forming and i also have a habit of never being a correct when i make headcanons, but the idea i'm sort of rolling around with is like clearly their mom was unstable for enough of their childhood for their house to be a "dysfunctional nightmare" but is stable enough now for sugar to have a relationship with her and want carmy to have a relationship with her, too, so my thinking is maybe there is some severe mental illness that wasn't getting treated or cared for while they were kids, but maybe is now that they're adults, chiefly, while carmy isn't there to see it.

i think some kind of variation of bipolar works well here, maybe? it would help explain some of carmy's disassociation skills, if their mom could be verbally abusive when she was manic, and the parentification of sugar and mikey if during depressive episodes there was little functioning. if that's carmy's childhood and that's his impression of his mom, then of course he's not going to want to go home to see her. but if she gets treatment/medication/guidance later in their adulthood while carmy is globetrotting and getting verbally abused by other significant figures in his life, then sugar might have a relationship with her at that point and want carmy to "talk" to her and maybe reach some closure too, if that's what she was able to do. and carmy obviously doesn't believe in that becuase he's carmy in s1 of the bear and his relationship with his mom is probably approx #87 or #89 on Pressing Mental Health Issues to Address.

anyway this is very long and if any one reads it and has thoughts let me know. i just want to get into the head of this shrimp man and excavate his trauma for shrimp dumplings. i want to KNOW. let me IN. CARMEN!!!! let me IN!!!!

[saintnoname2]

Carmen Berzatto strikes me as the kind of bi who's never really let himself be bi. Like, he's attracted to women, too, so he's always just acted on that attraction and pushed down his attraction toward men. He's never acted on it or even really acknowledged it (I could see him maybe telling Sugar and/or Mikey, but no one else).

And every time he hears someone use a slur or say something homophobic, he deflates a little. He withers inside. Because it's a reminder of why he keeps that part of him secret, what they'd think of him if they knew. That they wouldn't be in his corner. And even though it bothers the hell out of him to hear people talk like that, he doesn't feel like he can tell them not to talk like that, because if he did, they might figure out he's one of the people they're talking about.

Of course, my other, happier headcanon is that as he continues to go to Al-Anon and open up to Sugar and maybe even go to some therapy, he eventually decides to come out. Everyone at the restaurant is supportive. Tina plays matchmaker and tries to get him a boyfriend. Ebraheim talks about how homosexuality is illegal in Somalia, so he admires the courage it took Carmy to open up like that.

Then there's Richie, who becomes a well-meaning but uninformed ally. Who starts catching himself when he uses homophobic language and follows it up with a, "Sorry, cuz." Who eventually stops altogether and becomes fiercely protective whenever someone else talks like that ("Hey! Carmy over here is bi! We don't say things like that around here!" all while Carmy is just covering his face with his hand). Maybe even eventually coming to the realization that shit, maybe he's a little bi, too.

But the point being that they all get along and Carmy's fears that he'll be expulsed from his found family are unfounded.

[nolita-fairytale]

make my heart surrender | carmen 'carmy' berzatto x fem!chef reader | social media au - part two: the first year of dating era

@notsochillnerd said i should keep going so i'm gonna keep going. scenes from the make my heart surrender universe, from their first year of dating. i didn't say anything but yesterday was my birthday and this social media au is a bday sweet treat to yall but also for me. it feels good to feel inspired. i realize that i didn't write much about this phase of their lives so it was fun dreaming up what that time of their relationship could look like. did it accidentally become a love letter to her and syd's friendship? sure did.

i think i need to do this for burn your life down too ah!!!!

you can see part one here. or read the story here.

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marcusmakespastries: welcome, chef! 🙏🏾 ➡ chefsyd: ditto ^^

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thesustainable.chef: i have the cutest coworkers (peep the guy on slide 2 👀)

philipKrich: will you send this photo to me?

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marcusmakespastries: @/thesustainable.chef is the GOAT fr.

maya.kaz: currently peeping the cutie on slide 2 #teamcarmy4ever

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thesustainable.chef: new bestie just dropped. a few pics of @/chefsyd over the last year. ilysm

chefsyd: ily2 ➡ thesustainable.chef: 🥹😭

maya.kaz: take care of our girl @/chefsyd!!

poursomesugarnatalie: you guys look great!! ❤️

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