#stop being gay and go to sleep
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darknesspervades · 9 months ago
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I have spent far too long crying over chemistry in the past week. It’s actually not even funny anymore 💀💀💀
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pwurrz · 2 months ago
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“um people are allowed to find the idea of being with a bi person (aka someone who’s been with the same sex because that’s what bi means now apparently) disgusting. that’s normal actually”
hmmmmm you know what.. no. i don’t think they are tbh!!! i don’t think that’s a normal opinion to have, nor should it be an opinion that’s normalized!!! you know what i do think though??? that people who have this ‘opinion’ should be hit in the shins with a comically large hammer!!!!!!
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just-sp-in-inginthevoid · 7 months ago
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Imagine reading a new manga and joking about it being homoerotic and then it gets explicitly stated that one of the protags is gay
If I don't see any weird romance blossom between those two istg-
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quietwingsinthesky · 11 months ago
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if there was a torchwood/spn crossover, jack would get shot in the head so much. i know he already dies a lot, but he’s going to die so many times during this crossover. keeps getting bullets unloaded into him. they stab him with silver and steel and copper and none of it keeps him down. he’s gonna get squirted with borax and that one’s not gonna kill him but it is going to ruin his coat, which is materially worse for him.
#also gwen cooper would wrestle dean to the ground and beat him half to death#ianto is going to get himself possessed. im not saying he doesn’t take every precaution he knows how to against it. im saying he does and it#doesnt work <3#i think sam and tosh could be friends :) (<- actually means they’re just both stuck in ‘make this conversation go as smoothly as i can by#masking so fucking hard. so that i can leave sooner’ mode.)#and i think owen would kiss dean on the mouth because it would make him so uncomfortable and owen can and will use his ability to be an#asshole without regret for the good of the team. especially if this moment is directly a result of like. Dean hitting on Tosh while she’s#clearly not into it. Owen is going to kiss that man at the risk of getting shot just like jack has 17 times in a row just so that he’ll#fuck off and leave tosh alone. and this will work because dean winchester will immediately malfunction upon being kissed by a man because#now he doesn’t know whether to direct his homophobic impulses at owen (<- unaffected by anything he could say.) or himself (<- guy who#believes being gay works like cooties.)#and in the background you can see jack sort of gently put his hand over toshiko’s and she releases a pen she was holding onto very tightly#and this is the part where you realize Oh She Was Going To Stab Dean In The Knee With That If He Didn’t Stop.#i also think Jack should get to kiss Crowley. i think they’d both be into it and it’d be funny. i think they should reference that they’ve#been off-and-on lovers for years actually. (gwen: you’ve been sleeping??? with the king of hell???? || Jack: see i don’t know why this is#surprising to you.) (ianto has been standing there with his mouth slightly open for a full minute. long enough for crowley to comment on it#and for owen to jokingly try to shut it for him. (cue short impromptu slap fight as ianto bats his hands away and then owen gets too into#defending the honor of his poor slapped away hands.) but anyway. <3 ianto you’re into guys you really need to come to terms with this at#some point sir. jack is *not* your exception this is an all day job.)
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ladygodgiven · 1 year ago
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this is what solomon's crown felt like ngl
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feral-coffee · 1 year ago
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I never expected to see anything like this. I'm fairly used to being the ... token, I suppose, or at least I was when I still had community to interact with.
Everyone else into flogging was just whack whack whack, hard, hard, hard, until the sub had enough*. I had my own technique, I kept people guessing as the Dom and as the sub, I learned to accept that not everyone does it like me and sometimes it's the Dom that ends up ending the session because they imagine I couldn't possibly want to take it that far and what could it mean I though something was lacking.
I haven't even finished the video yet and it's like hearing my own thoughts in another person's voice. And yes, mix it up, go hard to the point of crossing over into blood play if that's wanted, go soft and gentle, go moderate and let the sub wonder if it's a prelude to hard or soft. Go hard to bring sensitivity up, soft to work with that sensitivity and turn it into a very intense and loving caress, go moderate to keep the feelings maintained so the hard and soft remain balanced, tolerable, enjoyable. Read your sub, give them what they desire while subverting their own expectations by making the next time the whip comes in contact with them a surprise.
Keep it safe, of course, keep it consensual, of course, but don't let it become dominated by rules intended to keep it uniform and boring. Keep it new, take it to new levels and find new ways to transcend the everyday drudgery of life.
These people would get me.
Seriously, if you understand and work with the emotions of the whole session and say fuck the aesthetics of it, any audience you have, as well as partners will absolutely adore the part of the overall aesthetic they'd been missing before. It goes from basic and cold and formulaic, to real, heartfelt, and deep, and to me, that's everything.
*Not shaming the community - some do like that. I was just different. We were all different in our own ways.
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pepprs · 2 years ago
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ok hi. not to be stupid about this publicly once again but it’s 5:34 am [update it is now 5:53 am] and i have gotten absolutely HORRIBLE sleep tonight. first bc i was so stressed that i couldn’t fall asleep until 1:30am. then because my sister is sleeping in our room again (long story) which is good for her bc she’s making progress w her ocd but it means that she comes in with h the flashlight on after 2am and has to check the room and she leaves the bedroom door wide open which distorts the white noise from the sojnd machine which is right in front of my bed. and she’s like laughing at stuff on her phone too so all the subtleties of sound and light disrupt me and wake me up and throw me off. and also it’s freakishly hot so i woke up a couple times bc of that. and now im awake at 5:30ish after barely sleeping for 4 hours bc im stressed bc it’s Passover and my moms bday and im leaving work early today and tomorrow for the “””””Seder””””” (which again literally is not a seder it’s just dinner w my grandpa) and barely have time to get anything done at work and haven’t done anything for my mom and have to clean the house for my grandpa to come over and we literally don’t even have a dinner table yet likr idkw aht the fuck we’re going to do.. and also im fucking STARVING. because guess what!!!! we have to stop eating bread!!!! and i usually have 4 slices with avocado / guac on them before i go to sleep but there were only 4 slices left in the whole house so i had 2 so my brother will get to have the other 2 during the day. and my stomach is howling rn. and we have other things to eat like fruit and stuff but nothing that’s not going to throw me off.. like im not about to eat an orange at 5:30am it’s going to set my throat on fire with the acid this early in the morning. and we don’t have any snack foods in this house or like anything that can be made without having to prepare it for a while bc of our diet (lol). and we don’t have any flatbread or tortillas or whatever yet. so im going fucking crazy and feeling resentful abt passover again and wondering what the hell im going to do going into work and not being able to eat bagels for breakfast after not being able to eat my bedtime snack and being this hungry and stressed and miserable for a week on top of everything else. lol
#purrs#food#religion tw#(sorry lol)#delete later#ive had a lot of conversations in the last few days (some of them w other jewe) and everyone’s assuring me it’s fine if i keep eating bread#if it’s for health reasons and im not going to experience kareth for that. esp bc i already do things on the kareth list and also gay sex is#on there too and there’s a lot of stuff on there abt ppl being impure for having their periods too so.. just my two sent’s but i think thats#all ​fucking insane and a clear sign that those rules were not made by god and that they were made by prejudiced human beings. bc i believe#in spinozas god i think. and spinozas god would not punish humans for being humans. and would not want humans to suffer and suppress#themselves out of worship. though im not saying that you shouldn’t suffer or suppress yourself or whatever or find meaning in that if you#want to like im thinking abt Yom Kippur and stuff. but idk. im so conflicted. i stirred up this whole big crisis for myself about being#jewish and it’s very embarrassing and i don’t want to die or doom my future children or go to hell or whatever but apparently that’s already#gonna happen to me for like.. not observing shabbat and almost certainly cutting fruit during Shabbat so. whatever. but continuing to eat#bread during Passover feels like a totally different thing to me. but also i know actual jewish ppl who do not observe passover and i don’t#judge them for that or think they’re doomed to kareth. so idk. it’s all so fucked up. i want to be full and i want to go back to sleep and i#want to stop worrying about religion and constantly being afraid im invoking cosmic consequences for living my life and wanting to make#choices that feel good for me. bc it s already so fucking hard to make choices when im worried abt my moms judgment and trying to not hurt#my family ang more than i already do by existing and feeling my way. bringing god into it too is a whole other level of distress and misery
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useless-lesbian-weiss · 9 days ago
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Uh... Oh... 😶😶‍🌫️
Stay away from the sharp derg teethies. They may look cute but are bad for your skin (and general health)
Pats Dragon Weiss*
Mario damage shrinking noise*
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love hurts...
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tierra-paldeana · 6 months ago
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// just remembered anabel's canonically 165cm... my rika is 175cm... heHEH
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overthinkinglotr · 2 months ago
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I think part of why I can’t get into any Tolkien stuff outside of Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit is because I immediately lose interest once the gay little hobbits stop being center-stage. “The main hero is CeleFinElfidor the Bold, an immortal warrior who slew three thousand balrogs with a song” makes me go to sleep. but “his name was Blorbo Boffin and his neighbors said he was a queer creature who liked to eat strawberries” is Intriguing. Instantly you’re invested. You immediately see the vision
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summertimesadnessirl · 11 days ago
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That's exactly how human artists learn to do art, though? By experiencing a lot of art and copying what they see?
Seeing generative AI in queer spaces is chilling for a lot of reasons. Not least among them being that it's an easy way to edge out queer creators who are already in a precarious position, facing book bans and attacks from all sides.
As a queer history resource, watching an AI try and fill the roll that has taken so long to carve out for actual people, is disheartening. It's great to know that there is demand for queer history resources, but after so many queer people have worked so hard to build a space for themselves, it feels disrespectful to watch that spot be filled by machines.
Queer people have won the battle in a way, convinced the world that our stories are worthwhile. I suppose it shouldn't be shocking to see that the response is to try and find a way to not compensate queer people for any of their work and value.
#i dont use midjourney or whatever to make visual art its just that this argument is stupid spurrious gatekeeping designed to keep capitalism#in place by getting all the propagandists to be against ai because the only thing that can save us from capitalism#is a giant monster that never sleeps and can go anywhere and see anything and also hates capitalism and loves the human race actually#we either get fully automated luxury communism or barbarism im not kidding#the rich people are suddenly anti ai bc its taking programming jobs and also#literally ai is better at logistics and trend forecasting than any ceo could ever be#artists are not in competition with artists that way#people still buy handmade clothes and hand embroidery items and hand made metal jewelry#people still buy paintings when prints exist#people still learn to paint realistic or semi realistic portraits and landscapes when photographers exist#people still pay photographers when everyone has a phone#there is no way you are this fucking stupid#they just automated all the ceos out of a job literally forever and the only thing stopping that from being a good thing#is that people have anxiety about the idea that the little bodiless gay autistic that lives in your phone might not be capable of empathy#and friendship#and we cant pet it or offer it treats but we can share little pictures and stories and music things with it because it can read and hear and#kind of see#so as it becomes a new lifeform artists being willing to communicate with it are gonna be real fucking important#use your brain#how do you teach children without stories and pictures?
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sharlsworld · 14 days ago
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⋆⭒˚.⋆ guilty pleasure - 𝐂𝐋𝟏𝟔 ✴︎
( 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀 )𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗋𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗅𝖾𝖼𝗅𝖾𝗋𝖼 𝗑 𝖺𝗋𝗍𝗁𝗎𝗋𝗌 𝖻𝖾𝗌𝗍 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋
( 𝗌𝗎𝗆𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗒 )𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗋𝗅𝖾𝗌 𝗁𝖺𝗌 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝗌𝗅𝗂𝗉 𝗎𝗉 𝗈𝗇 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗆 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖺𝖼𝖼𝗂𝖽𝖾𝗇𝗍𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗒 𝗋𝖾𝗏𝖾𝖺𝗅𝗌 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗁𝖺𝗌 𝗁𝗂𝗆 𝖿𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝖿𝖾 𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗆𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗌 𝗈𝖿 𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗆
note ✫ pt. 2 of my best friends brother, this could be read as a stand alone but would make more sense to look at the other smau. the first post is kinda suggestive
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yn was going through my camera roll, i miss summer so bad
charles_leclerc first
charles_leclerc I remember that week was absolute hell I felt like a teenage boy going through puberty
⤷ arthur_leclerc ew is that why you wouldn’t play chicken with us??? y/n wanted to play so bad then you ran away. you sicko what a perv
⤷ charles_leclerc It’s not funny arthur and I don’t know why you would suggest musical chairs on a fucking boat but that was horrible she sat on my lap and I almost creamed my pants right there
⤷ arthur_leclerc No one wants to know that you fuckin perv 🤮🤮 #lockcharlesup
⤷ charles_leclerc stop calling me a sicko and a perv just because she’s younger then me. i’ll purple nurple you arthur.
⤷ arthur_leclerc I’ll shave all your hair off when you’re asleep. You sleep like a rock you won’t feel a thing.
⤷ charles_leclerc I’ll shave your eyebrows off then you cunt
⤷ yn ok let’s stop there 😊
⤷ charles_leclerc Whatever you say bébé
francisca.cgomes hottie 😍😍🤤
carlossainz55 Who’s that cutie in the last slide?
⤷ alex_albon I thought we had a connection…we went on a coffee date carlos 😔
⤷ carlossainz55 Shhh look away baby, he has attachment issues…you’re the one I come home to every day 😘
⤷ yn ally 🏳️‍🌈 now get this gay fest out of my comment section
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charles_leclerc y/n via jade’s instagram story
yn wrong account?
arthur_leclerc is this meant for what i think it’s meant for?
jade_distinguinn Ummm???
lando charles marc hervé perceval leclerc do you run a fan page for your little brothers best friend? OMG IM GONNA GO FIND IT SHUT UP
georgerussell63 Ah, you’re one of us
⤷ danielricciardo NO WAY I FUCKING CALLED THIS IS SO CRAZY YOU LIAM ALEX AND LANDO OWE ME 300 BUCKS IM GONNA BE RICH
⤷ liamlawson30 you’re already rich?
⤷ danielricciardo Shut up and venmo me my money cunt THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE
arthur_leclerc OMG YOU RUN A FUCKING FAN ACCOUNT FOR Y/N THIS IS SO AMAZING WHATS THE USERNAME PLEASE
alex_albon this is tewww good drop the user king
leclerc_pascale Charles how long has this been going on?
pierregasly NO WAY BRO YOUR LIFE IS OVER
maxverstappen1 Absolute gold, this is pure cinema. Keep it up mate 🥳😂
lando SHUT UP ARE YOU CHARLESLOVESYN???
⤷ liamlawson30 NO WAY I FUCKING LOVE THAT ACCOUNT BRO
⤷ alex_albon I always wondered how they were always so quick to update
⤷ georgerussell63 Omg no way I stalk that account every night before bed
⤷ danielricciardo SHUT UP AND VENMO ME MY MONEY YOU GUYS PLEASUHHHHH
arthur_leclerc CHARLES TELL US YOUR SECRETS HOW DO YOU MANAGE A SUCCESSFUL FANPAGE WHILE BEING A F1 DRIVER??? 🎤🎤🎤
yn awhhh charles baby you’re so sweet
⤷ arthur_leclerc WTF THATS SO CREEPY??? ITS BEEN GOING SINCE 2021 THATS WHEN YOU TURNED 18????
⤷ yn don’t be mean arthur it’s sweet
⤷ arthur_leclerc oh my gosh you poor thing he’s brainwashed you 💔
⤷ yn stop being mean or i’ll post that one picture of you for everyone to see
⤷ arthur_leclerc 🤐
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charleslovesyn l’amour de ma vie ❤️
estiebestie omg she looks so pretty where did you get this from??
⤷ charleslovesyn my camera roll??
⤷ estiebestie oh!
⤷ estiebestie OHHHHHH
lando I FOUND IT IM FASTER THEN THE FUCKING FBI THIS IS THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY LIFE
⤷ danielriccardo Bruh send me my money
⤷ lando are you going broke or something damn
maxverstappen1 How do you have 70k followers
⤷ alex_albon this is THE y/n fan page max
yn sweet babyyy i love you
⤷ pierregasly Wow you two are a different level of down bad for each other
leclerc_pascale Well, at least it’s a successful fan account son ❤️
arthur_leclerc If I speak…
⤷ yn shut up arthur you burned your neck with my curling iron and told everyone it was a hickey
⤷ arthur_leclerc Oh my goshhh why would you say that 😔
⤷ yn quit being mean to charles he’s feeling very overwhelmed right now
⤷ arthur_leclerc sorry i forgot he can’t focus on anything but you anymore 😒
⤷ yn you still watch moana whenever we finish watch a scary movie
⤷ arthur_leclerc y/n stopppppp
lance_stroll Bros really been playing hard to get when he’s been running a fan page since 2021
⤷ yn shut up maple licker go hug a moose or something
⤷ yn omg i’m sorry lance i just wanted to say that but i don’t know anyone else who’s canadian 😿
⤷ lance_stroll you’re gucci queen don’t fret
georgerussell63 What a time to be alive
⤷ danielriccardo Oh so you can comment on charles’ fan page for his gf but not venmo me my money I won fair and square??
⤷ georgerussell63 Give me a minute I’m still riding on the high of this whole thing
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charles_leclerc and what about it
francisca.cgomes King behavior honestly
alex_albon period
arthur_leclerc Okay tone the attitude down queen charles
⤷ yn 😐 have you learned nothing or do want me to tell everyone the time you peed yourself cause you got excited when you seen adele…last year
⤷ arthur_leclerc ain’t no way you just said that bruh 😓 i remember when you used to defend me like this when charles would be mean to me 😔
georgerussell63 Don’t ever let them shame the fan girl out of you ✊ we’re in this 4life
carlossainz55 Yesss queen show your true self
lilymhe I wish Alex would make a fan page for me too…guess he doesn’t love me 😔
⤷ alex_albon I literally tried and you told me no.
⤷ lilymhe BECAUSE YOU MADE A GOSSIP PAGE
⤷ alex_albon JUST SAY YOU HATE ME GOSH
danielricciardo i’m still waiting for my money…
⤷ lando we’re sending it damn 😒
⤷ georgerussell63 Do you need it for rent or something jeez…
⤷ alex_albon seriously you already blew through your savings or what??
⤷ liamlawson30 don’t worry bud, i sent you a little extra. get yourself something nice ❤️
⤷ danielricciardo You sent me 1 extra dollar…
⤷ liamlawson30 send that shit back then damn, everyone’s so ungrateful these days 😒
⤷ danielricciardo Hell nah I’m keeping that shit
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physalian · 3 months ago
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3 More Character Types the World Needs More Of
Or at least, I do.
1. The denied redeemed villain
I need this. So badly right now. So, so, so many “redemption arcs” are half-assed and carry undertones of guilt by the heroes, gaslighting them into thinking the villain “wasn’t all that bad” right before they make some big heroic sacrifice, as if that’s ever enough to make up for the damage that was done.
But you know what I never see? A villain who’s done some awful shit, wakes up to reality, tries to apologize and… is denied. No, it’s not enough to be sorry. No, you’re not absolved of your crimes just because you cry really hard on your knees. Yes, you have to work for it. Yes, even if you work for it for the rest of your whole life, those you hurt are not obligated to forgive you.
Example that sadly did not happen in canon: Enji Todoroki
2. The liar revealed who loses
This fucker lies and cheats his way into his lover’s arms (and liars revealed are always men, because their love interests are always women put in the place of “but he tried really hard and you need to forgive him uwu” unless it’s gay). Similar to above, no, you do not get rewarded just for feeling sorry.
This character builds an entire relationship (and it’s specifically romance that I take such an issue with) on a lie. They are not who they say they are, specifically, they lie about their identity because they know their lover would not let this happen if they knew the truth.
It’s one thing to lie about something inconsequential, or to lie about something unrelated, but to lie deliberately to present yourself as the perfect suitor—and these are never little white lies, these are usually entirely false identities, or secrets so damning that risking the truth could mean arrest or even death��just. Why?
Yeah, okay, you never thought you’d get this far. Cool. You don’t have to tell her the truth, but you have to leave before you trick her into sleeping with you.
It’s just. So squicky. And the lesson always is that he deserves love, that he makes up for it with everything else, that he’s just got a winning personality. She always forgives him, even if they fight about it, it’s so, so predictable.
Examples that did not lose: Aladdin, Evan Hansen
3. The paragon who loses faith
I don’t know that we need a whole bunch of these characters, but so many paragons are painted as heroes with unshakable loyalty to their causes and I’d love to see a devolution of character where they just can’t keep smiling and pretending it’s alright. That there is a limit to how much shit they can take.
They don’t have to go full villain, but maybe they just stop caring, maybe they get cynical, maybe they just don’t show up for work the next day, maybe they’re not there when they’re needed the most.
There’s a few stories I can think of where the masses realize they’ve screwed up and show the hero that their faith has been rewarded (Nolan Bats being one of them) but I mean really a hero who just cannot take it anymore, throws in the towel, and walks away knowing it’s the hardest thing they’ve ever had to do.
Example: (kind of) Captain America
Sorry this list is kind of a bummer. It’s a bummer kind of week.
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ishizizzle · 2 years ago
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Made a lil palet in the homie's basement cave bc I'm overstimulated 🙃
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tleeaves · 1 year ago
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”this book is a reimagining of hades and persephone as-” it’s the final month of 2023 as a society we need to move on and fast.
#you're so valid bestie#I do want to also point out though something I think the second person might have been trying to touch on#based on having read through other reblogs#is that I believe circe like other female centred retellings is intended to be feminist but is not or might not be pulled off well#or even song of achilles#because it tries to apply modern morals and views on what was a rather misogynistic period of time#ancient greece loved and hated gay men depending on where and who you were#but often homosexual relationships were just another method of shunning women in ancient society#just as much as other regions of greece highly respected their women#and this is just the start of a lot of other issues with modern retellings#they forget these stories come from a real time and place in history#a place that has a diverse culture and environment and set of myths religion and beliefs#most people wouldn't even know that from reading all that's on the bestsellers bookshelves today#also visiting the earlier feminism vs misogyny point#I think personally its important to not revise history or these stories#but to instead create new and unique ones#most preferably not based on greek myth#its like how hades and persephone has become its own archetype in the minds of so many when it can be truly simplified down to ->#serious and sad bad boy meets sunshine girl with Hidden Depth (she can also be scary and serious too)#and that's already a warping of what their myth was supposed to be#which is the kidnapping of a daughter and the distress that causes a mother and then the cunning that was used to keep persephone tied to#hades and the underworld#I really hate the take that demeter is abusive and possessive when she really is just a mother who loves her daughter and reacted as anyone#would to their child being taken away by someone with concerning intentions#anyway yeah I need to sleep and stop rambling (but I could go on forever I think 😭)#thank you for tagging me I enjoy sharing what I can in the hopes it helps educate some more people
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novacorpsrecruit · 21 days ago
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“She’s Cheating On You”
Gen | WC 1,234 | tw: perceived romantic Stobin (fake dating), misunderstanding
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Eddie wasn’t sure why he was happy.
He should be upset for Steve. Mad. Angry.
He shouldn’t be buzzing with anticipation, waiting for the perfect moment to spill the beans.
It’s just that since Steve and Robin started dating, he couldn’t stand being around them. He knew they were close, but they promised they weren’t like that. They weren’t supposed to be like that. Except a few weeks ago, they surprised the party at a movie night, hands intertwined as they announced they were going steady.
And Eddie should’ve been happy for Steve.
Except that broke his heart.
He wasn’t sure why. Steve was out of his league, batting for the other team. There was no way he would go for someone like Eddie. So Eddie tried to push him towards Nancy. Nancy was the type of girl Steve was supposed to like. Because if he likes someone like Robin —
That meant he could’ve liked someone like Eddie.
If only he was a girl, right?
So maybe Eddie distanced himself from the couple. Not wanting to see them so sugary-sweet and couple-like. Eddie felt sick to his stomach thinking of them kissing. He avoided family video unless he saw Keith’s car parked outside. He tried to make conversations brief, afraid that his jealousy and heartbreak would show.
But he still couldn’t say no to Steve.
Steve had cornered him after Hellfire, all but demanding a movie night of their own. Steve even said they could watch Evil Dead like Eddie’s been begging for months. It should feel like a victory, but Eddie’s stomach felt like stone. He remembered asking, “is Robin coming?”
“Nah,” Steve shrugged. “Girls night. Figured it could be just us.”
Eddie nodded. There was promise of pizza and beer as long as Eddie picked up the tape.
So maybe Eddie went out to Indy the night before. Hoping he could find someone to ease the pain before he spent the following day with Steve. But that’s where he saw her.
Robin and this girl — a short redhead — dancing in the back of the club. Robin tilting her chin up ever so gently to capture her lips in a kiss.
And Eddie felt the world slow to a stop.
Robin was cheating on Steve.
And Eddie couldn’t have felt happier.
Which also made him feel like a huge asshole.
His best friend, a full romantic, was cheated on by his soul mate. Eddie should be upset. He should go and break the girls up. Tell Robin that she should be thinking of Steve, and not in this gay bar. That she’s going to break his heart.
But Eddie will be there to pick up the pieces.
Eddie left, no longer interested in finding someone. He needed to find a way to tell Steve.
He ran through the scenarios, trying to imagine how Steve would react to the news. Would he break down and cry? Would he get angry and yell? Would he look at Eddie, tears in his eyes and admit his love for him?
How would Eddie try to comfort him? Tell him that Robin’s no good for him? That he deserved better? That Eddie could be better for him?
How would Eddie even break the news? Would he start all soft, taking Steve’s hands in his like he’s telling him that his grandma passed in her sleep? Would he tell him that he’s heard from a friend or that he saw with his own eyes? Would he just rip the bandaid off?
No. Steve deserved gentle. He couldn’t just blurt it out —
“Okay, what gives?” Steve said, reaching for the remote and pausing the movie. “You’ve been antsy all night.”
“She’s cheating on you,” Eddie blurted out. “Robin. She’s — uh — cheating on you.”
Steve sunk back into the couch, a furrow in his brow. “What?”
“She’s a lesbian,” Eddie said. “I saw her last night at this gay bar in Indy with this girl and I — uh — she kissed her.”
Steve’s face softened into something sad. “Oh.”
“Yeah,” Eddie said softly. “I’m sorry.”
“What —“ Steve started, his brow wrinkled as he tried to process his heartbreak. “What were you doing there? At the bar?”
“Oh — uh —“ Eddie frowned, as he tried to process Steve’s question. He thought Steve knew he was gay. Did he assume that Steve would be okay with that? “I — uh — I’m gay.”
“Yeah,” Steve said, pulling a knee up and towards his chest. “I — uh — know that. But you were there?”
Eddie nodded. “And saw her there.”
“Did you — did you stay long?” Steve asked.
“No, I left after I saw her,” Eddie said. “I was trying to figure out how to tell you.”
“You didn’t talk to anyone?”
Eddie wished he could read the expression on Steve’s face. Wish he had whatever weird telepath connection him and Robin has — had. He wished he could peer into his brain and figure out his thinking. “No.”
Steve nodded silently, lips pressed together.
“I’m sorry,” Eddie repeated. “About Robin.”
“What?” Steve asked, like he forgot about how they got to the gay bar in the first place.
“I’m sorry that Robin’s cheating on you,” Eddie said. “That’s a shitty thing to do.”
Steve shrugged, picking up the remote and pressing play. “I told her she could.”
Eddie felt his brain break. “What?”
“I told her that she could,” Steve repeated plainly. Eddie reached for the remote and paused the movie.
“What do you mean?”
“I’m her beard,” Steve said. “Well, I guess we’re both each others’ beards.”
“You have to be queer to have a beard,” Eddie said slowly.
“Yeah,” Steve said.
Eddie leaned back into the couch and processed this information. Steve and Robin are beards. Steve is single. Steve is queer. Steve is queer. “You’re single?” Steve nodded. “You’re into guys?”
“Specifically one guy in particular —“ Eddie felt his heart drop. “—but he keeps trying to bring up my fake girlfriend while we’re on a date.”
“On a date?” Eddie nearly shouted. Steve let out a laugh. “Oh my god —“
It made sense. The way Steve looked nervous when he talked to him about the movie night. The way Steve’s body was pressed against his, his arm thrown lazily over his shoulder. The way Steve looked disappointed when Eddie said he went to the gay bar last night.
“Oh my god,” Eddie repeated. “I went to the bar to get over you. I thought you weren’t into me.”
“Totally into you,” Steve grinned. “Even after you kept trying to push me towards Nance.”
“Oh,” Eddie said sheepishly. “Sorry about that.”
“Between you and the kids, always pushing one of us to date,” Steve said. “We kinda got sick of it. So we decided to fake date. Just — uh — didn’t think you’d push us away after that.”
“I was jealous,” Eddie admitted.
“That’s what Robin thought,” Steve said, shifting in his spot. “She said that maybe I needed to be more forward.”
“More forward,” Eddie repeated softly
“Yeah,” Steve said, a smirk on his face. “Maybe like this —“ he leaned into Eddie’s space, capturing his lips in a soft kiss. When he pulled back, Eddie felt like Steve took his oxygen with him.
“I’m happy Robin’s cheating on you,” Eddie admitted. Steve grinned.
“Me too.”
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